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    Stephanie's Diary
    Stephanie's Diary
    Stephanie's Diary
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    Stephanie's Diary

    By Lloyd Williams

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    Stephanie grew up in a dysfunctional household. Her mother, a former model, became a slave to drugs and prostitution when Stephanie was only ten years old. She didn’t think twice about putting her children in harm’s way, especially her daughter. She even loaned her daughter to "clients " in exchange for drugs.
    Attempting to turn her life around, Stephanie moved out, ready for a new beginning, full of promise. But the demons from her past would not allow her to live peacefully. Starting over was a concept that Stephanie came to know all too well as she struggled to survive her senior year while floundering in a world of cruelty and violence. She yearned to turn over a new leaf, but wondered if she could ever escape the past and leave her childhood horror behind her.
    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherLulu Publishing Services
    Release dateMar 26, 2015
    ISBN9781483426662
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      Stephanie's Diary - Lloyd Williams

      Stephanie’s

      Diary

      Lloyd Williams

      Copyright © 2015 Lloyd Williams.

      All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced, stored, or transmitted by any means—whether auditory, graphic, mechanical, or electronic—without written permission of both publisher and author, except in the case of brief excerpts used in critical articles and reviews. Unauthorized reproduction of any part of this work is illegal and is punishable by law.

      ISBN: 978-1-4834-2667-9 (sc)

      ISBN: 978-1-4834-2666-2 (e)

      Because of the dynamic nature of the Internet, any web addresses or links contained in this book may have changed since publication and may no longer be valid. The views expressed in this work are solely those of the author and do not necessarily reflect the views of the publisher, and the publisher hereby disclaims any responsibility for them.

      Any people depicted in stock imagery provided by Thinkstock are models, and such images are being used for illustrative purposes only.

      Certain stock imagery © Thinkstock.

      Lulu Publishing Services rev. date: 03/10/2015

      Contents

      Chapter 1

      Chapter 2

      Chapter 3

      Chapter 4

      Chapter 5

      Chapter 6

      Chapter 7

      Chapter 8

      Chapter 9

      Chapter 10

      Chapter 11

      Chapter 12

      Chapter 13

      Chapter 14

      Chapter 15

      Chapter 16

      Chapter 17

      Chapter 18

      Chapter 19

      Chapter 20

      Chapter 21

      Chapter 22

      Chapter 23

      Chapter 24

      Chapter 25

      Chapter 26

      Chapter 27

      Chapter 28

      Chapter 29

      Chapter 30

      Chapter 31

      Chapter 32

      Chapter 1

      February 16, 2002

      On a cold Saturday night in Long Island, NY, my mother came home from the bar with a man I had never met. This was no surprise, though. From experience, I knew that he was her drug supplier for the evening—she was about to get high.

      Stephanie, this is my new friend. We met tonight at the bar up the street, my mother said, her eyes darting from me to him.

      I glanced out the window and saw the busybodies, Mrs. Scott and Mrs. Andrews. In two strides, I was at the windows, whipping the curtains closed. My mother’s drug problem was out of control.

      She used to be such a responsible mother, and so attractive. She had been an up-and-coming model, with an endorsement deal for Victoria’s Secret on the table. When I was younger, people used to give her compliments all the time. Intimidated by her beauty, men would resort to sneering and catcalling, just to get her attention. Long ago, those modeling agencies had considered her the embodiment of glamour. But after a while, drug abuse took over and she neglected her health. Agencies and investors started to label her a liability.

      That was years ago. Her addiction had only worsened over time. Now, as I turned from the window, I realized that she hardly looked the same as she had a month ago. Her dependency on drugs was so bad that even her physical features were deteriorating. Mark, our neighbor of seven years, had called the police a couple of weeks ago, assuming that she was a potential burglar lingering in our backyard.

      Watching your mother become a drug addict right before your eyes was devastating, but my mother was also promiscuous. It became a way of life for her: go out, meet a guy, then bring him home. Sex, in exchange for dope. And more dope. And more.

      One evening, my mother had a bad reaction to dope, and I had to call the ambulance. I thought she was going to die. She was in a coma for two days. Her heart stopped twice while she was hooked up to the respirator, but miraculously, she survived.

      It could have been a wake-up call for her, a chance to start fresh. But we weren’t so lucky. In fact, her addiction only got worse after that. I began to notice a pattern in her behavior, and I was afraid that, one day, she would overdose, and my brothers and I would lose her for good.

      Stephanie, did you hear what I just said? My mom snapped her fingers in front of my face, interrupting my thoughts.

      I heard you, Mother. I rolled my eyes. What was I, a fucking dog?

      In the last three days, this was the third man she had brought home.

      Home. I had once been happy to call this place home, but now it seemed more like a halfway house. My mother was completely unreliable and erratic. The majority of the time, food was scarce because she used the welfare money to support her habit, which kept her from suffering from withdrawal symptoms. Heroin had stolen the mother I’d once known.

      And these creeps were coming over so often that I feared not only for my safety, but also for the safety of my brothers. I was sixteen, the middle child. My seventeen-year-old brother, Tony, had dropped out of school at fifteen. He did whatever he had to in order to keep us afloat. He was probably out holding up a gas station with some local gang members at that very moment. Thank goodness, Stanley was sleeping over his friend Jeremy’s house.

      Clean up this mess, Stephanie. She gestured toward the pile of dirty clothes in the corner. And don’t wander off.

      After she took the man into her bedroom, I counted to ten. By the time I reached eight, I heard banging and moaning emanating from her bedroom.

      This was so disgusting!

      Was I the only one who had to deal with this sort of thing? I wondered if any of my friends were going through similar situations. Maybe they kept it to themselves, as I did. Maybe we all had secrets. I laughed at myself as I plopped onto the couch and turned on the TV. I couldn’t really ask my friends, now could I? Secrets weren’t based on trust; they were based on shame.

      Chapter 2

      The noise from my mother’s bedroom had finally ceased. I assumed the man had gotten his thrill and was about to leave. After a few minutes, the door slowly opened, and he appeared in

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