The Despondent
By Aaron Stone
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If you are struggling with depression, anxiety, or any other mental illness, or know someone who is, you are not alone. There is a way out. There is hope. There is life.This book is raw, unedited emotion written by Aaron when he was going through some of the hardest parts of his life. He has now released it to show those who are fighting the internal war personally that someone out there does understand exactly how confusing, disturbing, disruptive, messy the brutality of anxiety and depression are. How hopeless, and often hate-filled and lonely it all seems. If you struggle with depression, or know someone who does, you are encouraged to read this book to maybe, hopefully, get some better understanding and insight as Aaron shares his life through poetry, short stories, and auto-biography, so that you may better understand the underlying message: YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
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The Despondent - Aaron Stone
The Finish Line:
Generally, when someone has depression or anxiety, we will self-isolate. We will withdraw. We won’t seek help. Why should we? No one cares about us anyway, right? And the more we start to think like this, the more we believe it, and further into the darkness we are drawn.
This darkness can eventually become our safe-haven. A place where no one can reach us, touch us, hurt us. It is nothing but ourselves here. As cold, isolated and lonely this place is, we are warm. We are welcome. We are familiar. We are safe.
And on this path of self-destruction we continue.
Quite often (And I’d wager more often than not), we don’t see this as self-destruction. We are still alive and breathing, right? We survived our last attempt, and besides, we are only in this place because someone else did something to trigger us and put us in this dark hole to begin with.
As Bob Ezrin and Roger Waters of Pink Floyd write in their song ‘The Trial’, There must have been a door there in the wall when I came in.
There wasn’t ever a door, because we build the walls up ourselves around us, one dirty brick at a time of self-loathing, fear, anxiety, depression, regret…
And what does trigger the anxiety or depression within us? For some, it’s a scent. Others, a song or sound. Someone yelling at their disruptive child in the shopping centre. A conversation we’re currently having, which started off with us happy, only to suddenly be reminded of ONE thing, completely unintended by anyone participating in the conversation (or even unrelated), and BAM! it’s all downhill for an hour or five…
Why don’t we reach out? Well, sometimes we do. However, quite often it is said we are looking for attention
(and this may be true, though perhaps not how it is meant by the person stating it), or it’s done in the most subtlest of ways for fear of further rejection.
I remember Mum recognised my depression when I was 18. She, our neighbour, and my step-dad, sat me down to talk to me and I threw it in their face. I don’t think I said anything, so when I did eventually open my mouth, I would have only yelled and swore at them, stormed off to my room. (This, among other things, eventually lead to my mother kicking me from the house, rendering me homeless for the first time). All I could do was to drown out all the thoughts and pain their prodding arose with the loudest, angriest music I could find. That, for me, was a healthy escape. Others might think that listening to songs like Pantera’s Fucking Hostile
, Marilyn Manson’s The Fight Song
, and Slipknot’s Everything Ends
might not be a good idea because of my current headspace, but for me, these musicians knew how I was feeling, so I could relate to them and connect and vent and get it all out. It was the therapy I needed at the