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The Aldous Huxley Collection
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Aldous Huxley was an English writer and philosopher. He authored nearly fifty books—both novels and non-fiction works—as well as wide-ranging essays, narratives, and poems. Born into the prominent Huxley family, he graduated from Balliol College, Oxford with an undergraduate degree in English literature.

The Aldous Huxley Collection features:

The Burning Wheel
Limbo
Leda
Crome Yellow
The Portrait
Mortal Coils
Antic Hay
On The Margin
and
The Defeat Of Youth And Other Poems
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Release dateApr 29, 2019
ISBN9788832593440
The Aldous Huxley Collection
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Aldous Huxley

Aldous Huxley (1894–1963) is the author of the classic novels Brave New World, Island, Eyeless in Gaza, and The Genius and the Goddess, as well as such critically acclaimed nonfiction works as The Perennial Philosophy and The Doors of Perception. Born in Surrey, England, and educated at Oxford, he died in Los Angeles, California.

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    LOUSE-HUNTERS

    THE BURNING WHEEL

    THE BURNING WHEEL.

    Wearied of its own turning,

    Distressed with its own busy restlessness,

    Yearning to draw the circumferent pain—

    The rim that is dizzy with speed—

    To the motionless centre, there to rest,

    The wheel must strain through agony

    On agony contracting, returning

    Into the core of steel.

    And at last the wheel has rest, is still,

    Shrunk to an adamant core:

    Fulfilling its will in fixity.

    But the yearning atoms, as they grind

    Closer and closer, more and more

    Fiercely together, beget

    A flaming fire upward leaping,

    Billowing out in a burning,

    Passionate, fierce desire to find

    The infinite calm of the mother’s breast.

    And there the flame is a Christ-child sleeping,

    Bright, tenderly radiant;

    All bitterness lost in the infinite

    Peace of the mother’s bosom.

    But death comes creeping in a tide

    Of slow oblivion, till the flame in fear

    Wakes from the sleep of its quiet brightness

    And burns with a darkening passion and pain,

    Lest, all forgetting in quiet, it perish.

    And as it burns and anguishes it quickens,

    Begetting once again the wheel that yearns—

    Sick with its speed—for the terrible stillness

    Of the adamant core and the steel-hard chain.

    And so once more

    Shall the wheel revolve till its anguish cease

    In the iron anguish of fixity;

    Till once again

    Flame billows out to infinity,

    Sinking to a sleep of brightness

    In that vast oblivious peace.

    DOORS OF THE TEMPLE.

    Many are the doors of the spirit that lead

    Into the inmost shrine:

    And I count the gates of the temple divine,

    Since the god of the place is God indeed.

    And these are the gates that God decreed

    Should lead to his house:—kisses and wine,

    Cool depths of thought, youth without rest,

    And calm old age, prayer and desire,

    The lover’s and mother’s breast,

    The fire of sense and the poet’s fire.

    But he that worships the gates alone,

    Forgetting the shrine beyond, shall see

    The great valves open suddenly,

    Revealing, not God’s radiant throne,

    But the fires of wrath and agony.

    VILLIERS DE L’ISLE-ADAM.

    Up from the darkness on the laughing stage

    A sudden trap-door shot you unawares,

    Incarnate Tragedy, with your strange airs

    Of courteous sadness. Nothing could assuage

    The secular grief that was your heritage,

    Passed down the long line to the last that bears

    The name, a gift of yearnings and despairs

    Too greatly noble for this iron age.

    Time moved for you not in quotidian beats,

    But in the long slow rhythm the ages keep

    In their immortal symphony. You taught

    That not in the harsh turmoil of the streets

    Does life consist; you bade the soul drink deep

    Of infinite things, saying: The rest is naught.

    DARKNESS.

    My close-walled soul has never known

    That innermost darkness, dazzling sight,

    Like the blind point, whence the visions spring

    In the core of the gazer’s chrysolite ...

    The mystic darkness that laps God’s throne

    In a splendour beyond imagining,

    So passing bright.

    But the many twisted darknesses

    That range the city to and fro,

    In aimless subtlety pass and part

    And ebb and glutinously flow;

    Darkness of lust and avarice,

    Of the crippled body and the crooked heart ...

    These darknesses I know.

    MOLE.

    Tunnelled in solid blackness creeps

    The old mole-soul, and wakes or sleeps,

    He knows not which, but tunnels on

    Through ages of oblivion;

    Until at last the long constraint

    Of each-hand wall is lost, and faint

    Comes daylight creeping from afar,

    And mole-work grows crepuscular.

    Tunnel meets air and bursts; mole sees

    Men hugely walking ... or are they trees?

    And far horizons smoking blue,

    And chasing clouds for ever new?

    Green hills, like lighted lamps aglow

    Or quenching ‘neath the cloud-shadow;

    Quenching and blazing turn by turn,

    Spring’s great green signals fitfully burn.

    Mole travels on, but finds the steering

    A harder task of pioneering

    Than when he thridded through the strait

    Blind catacombs that ancient fate

    Had carved for him. Stupid and dumb

    And blind and touchless he had come

    A way without a turn; but here,

    Under the sky, the passenger

    Chooses his own best way; and mole

    Distracted wanders, yet his hole

    Regrets not much wherein he crept,

    But runs, a joyous nympholept,

    This way and that, by all made mad—

    River nymph and oread,

    Ocean’s daughters and Lorelei,

    Combing the silken mystery,

    The glaucous gold of her rivery tresses—

    Each haunts the traveller, each possesses

    The drunken wavering soul awhile;

    Then with a phantom’s cock-crow smile

    Mocks craving with sheer vanishment.

    Mole-eyes grow hawk’s: knowledge is lent

    In grudging driblets that pay high

    Unconscionable usury

    To unrelenting life. Mole learns

    To travel more secure; the turns

    Of his long way less puzzling seem,

    And all those magic forms that gleam

    In airy invitation cheat

    Less often than they did of old.

    The earth slopes upward, fold by fold

    Of quiet hills that meet the gold

    Serenity of western skies.

    Over the world’s edge with clear eyes

    Our mole transcendent sees his way

    Tunnelled in light: he must obey

    Necessity again and thrid

    Close catacombs as erst he did,

    Fate’s tunnellings, himself must bore

    Through the sunset’s inmost core.

    The guiding walls to each-hand shine

    Luminous and crystalline;

    And mole shall tunnel on and on,

    Till night let fall oblivion.

    THE TWO SEASONS.

    Summer, on himself intent,

    Passed without, for nothing caring

    Save his own high festival.

    My windows, blind and winkless staring,

    Wondered what the pageant meant,

    Nor ever understood at all.

    And oh, the pains of sentiment!

    The loneliness beyond all bearing ...

    Mucus and spleen and gall!

    But now that grey November peers

    In at my fire-bright window pane?

    And all its misty spires and trees

    Loom in upon me through the rain

    And question of the light that cheers

    The room within—now my soul sees

    Life, where of old were sepulchres;

    And in these new-found sympathies

    Sinks petty hopes and loves and fears,

    And knows that life is not in vain.

    TWO REALITIES.

    A waggon passed with scarlet wheels

    And a yellow body, shining new.

    Splendid! said I. "How fine it feels

    To be alive, when beauty peels

    The grimy husk from life." And you

    Said, Splendid! and I thought you’d seen

    That waggon blazing down the street;

    But I looked and saw that your gaze had been

    On a child that was kicking an obscene

    Brown ordure with his feet.

    Our souls are elephants, thought I,

    Remote behind a prisoning grill,

    With trunks thrust out to peer and pry

    And pounce upon reality;

    And each at his own sweet will

    Seizes the bun that he likes best

    And passes over all the rest.

    QUOTIDIAN VISION.

    There is a sadness in the street,

    And sullenly the folk I meet

    Droop their heads as they walk along,

    Without a smile, without a song.

    A mist of cold and muffling grey

    Falls, fold by fold, on another day

    That dies unwept. But suddenly,

    Under a tunnelled arch I see

    On flank and haunch the chestnut gleam

    Of horses in a lamplit steam;

    And the dead world moves for me once more

    With beauty for its living core.

    VISION.

    I had been sitting alone with books,

    Till doubt was a black disease,

    When I heard the cheerful shout of rooks

    In the bare, prophetic trees.

    Bare trees, prophetic of new birth,

    You lift your branches clean and free

    To be a beacon to the earth,

    A flame of wrath for all to see.

    And the rooks in the branches laugh and shout

    To those that can hear and understand;

    "Walk through the gloomy ways of doubt

    With the torch of vision in your hand."

    THE MIRROR.

    Slow-moving moonlight once did pass

    Across the dreaming looking-glass,

    Where, sunk inviolably deep,

    Old secrets unforgotten sleep

    Of beauties unforgettable.

    But dusty cobwebs are woven now

    Across that mirror, which of old

    Saw fingers drawing back the gold

    From an untroubled brow;

    And the depths are blinded to the moon,

    And their secrets forgotten, for ever untold.

    VARIATIONS ON A THEME OF LAFORGUE.

    Youth as it opens out discloses

    The sinister metempsychosis

    Of lilies dead and turned to roses

    Red as an angry dawn.

    But lilies, remember, are grave-side flowers,

    While slow bright rose-leaves sail

    Adrift on the music of happiest hours;

    And those lilies, cold and pale,

    Hide fiery roses beneath the lawn

    Of the young bride’s parting veil.

    PHILOSOPHY.

    God needs no christening,

    Pantheist mutters,

    "Love opens shutters

    On heaven’s glistening.

    Flesh, key-hole listening,

    Hears what God utters" ...

    Yes, but God stutters.

    PHILOCLEA IN THE FOREST.

    I.

    ‘TWas I that leaned to Amoret

    With: "What if the briars have tangled Time,

    Till, lost in the wood-ways, he quite forget

    How plaintive in cities at midnight sounds the chime

    Of bells slow-dying from discord to the hush whence

    they rose and met.

    "And in the forest we shall live free,

    Free from the bondage that Time has made

    To hedge our soul from its liberty?

    We shall not fear what is mighty, and unafraid

    Shall look wide-eyed at beauty, nor shrink from its majesty."

    But Amoret answered me again:

    "We are lost in the forest, you and I;

    Lost, lost, not free, though no bonds restrain;

    For no spire rises for comfort, no landmark in the sky,

    And the long glades as they curve from sight are dark

    with a nameless pain.

    And Time creates what he devours,—

    Music that sweetly dreams itself away,

    Frail-swung leaves of autumn and the scent of flowers,

    And the beauty of that poised moment, when the day

    Hangs ‘twixt the quiet of darkness and the mirth of the

    sunlit hours."

    II.

    Mottled and grey and brown they pass,

    The wood-moths, wheeling, fluttering;

    And we chase and they vanish; and in the grass

    Are starry flowers, and the birds sing

    Faint broken songs of the dying spring.

    And on the beech-bole, smooth and grey,

    Some lover of an older day

    Has carved in time-blurred lettering

    One word only—Alas.

    III.

    Lutes, I forbid you! You must never play,

    When shimmeringly, glimpse by glimpse

    Seen through the leaves, the silken figures sway

    In measured dance. Never at shut of day,

    When Time perversely loitering limps

    Through endless twilights, should your strings

    Whisper of light remembered things

    That happened long ago and far away:

    Lutes, I forbid you! You must never play...

    And you, pale marble statues, far descried

    Where vistas open suddenly,

    I bid you shew yourselves no more, but hide

    Your loveliness, lest too much glorified

    By western radiance slantingly

    Shot down the glade, you turn from stone

    To living gods, immortal grown,

    And, ageless, mock my beauty’s fleeting pride,

    You pale, relentless statues, far descried...

    BOOKS AND THOUGHTS.

    Old ghosts that death forgot to ferry

    Across the Lethe of the years-

    These are my friends, and at their tears

    I weep and with their mirth am merry.

    On a high tower, whose battlements

    Give me all heaven at a glance,

    I lie long summer nights in trance,

    Drowsed by the murmurs and the scents

    That rise from earth, while the sky above me

    Merges its peace with my soul’s peace,

    Deep meeting deep. No stir can move me,

    Nought break the quiet of my release:

    In vain the windy sunlight raves

    At the hush and gloom of polar caves.

    CONTRARY TO NATURE AND ARISTOTLE.

    One head of my soul’s amphisbaena

    Turns to the daytime’s dust and sweat;

    But evenings come, when I would forget

    The sordid strife of the arena.

    And then my other self will creep

    Along the scented twilight lanes

    To where a little house contains

    A hoard of books, a gift of sleep.

    Its windows throw a friendly light

    Between the narrowing shutter slats,

    And, golden as the eyes of cats,

    Shine me a welcome through the night.

    ESCAPE.

    I seek the quietude of stones

    Or of great oxen, dewlap-deep

    In meadows of lush grass, where sleep

    Drifts, tufted, on the air or drones

    On flowery traffic. Sleep atones

    For sin, comforting eyes that weep.

    O’er me, Lethean darkness, creep

    Unfelt as tides through dead men’s bones!

    In that metallic sea of hair,

    Fragrance! I come to drown despair

    Of wings in dark forgetfulness.

    No love ... Love is self-known, aspires

    To heights unearthly. I ask less,—

    Sleep born of satisfied desires.

    THE GARDEN.

    There shall be dark trees round me:—I insist

    On cypresses: I’m terribly romantic—

    And glimpsed between shall move the whole Atlantic,

    Now leaden dull, now subtle with grey mist,

    Now many jewelled, when the waves are kissed

    By revelling sunlight and the corybantic

    South-Western wind: so, troubled, passion-frantic,

    The poet’s mind boils gold and amethyst.

    There shall be seen the infinite endeavour

    Of a sad fountain, white against the sky

    And poised as it strains up, but doomed to break

    In weeping music; ever fair and ever

    Young ... and the bright-eyed wood-gods as they slake

    Their thirst in it, are silent, reverently ...

    THE CANAL.

    No dip and dart of swallows wakes the black

    Slumber of the canal:—a mirror dead

    For lack of loveliness remembered

    From ancient azures and green trees, for lack

    Of some white beauty given and flung back,

    Secret, to her that gave: no sun has bled

    To wake an echo here of answering red;

    The surface stirs to no leaf’s wind-blown track.

    Between unseeing walls the waters rest,

    Lifeless and hushed, till suddenly a swan

    Glides from some broader river blue as day,

    And with the mirrored magic of his breast

    Creates within that barren water-way

    New life, new loveliness, and passes on.

    THE IDEAL FOUND WANTING.

    I’m sick of clownery and Owlglass tricks;

    Damn the whole crowd of you I I hate you all.

    The same, night after night, from powdered stall

    To sweating gallery, your faces fix

    In flux an idiot mean. The Apteryx

    You worship is no victory; you call

    On old stupidity, God made to crawl

    For tempting with world-wisdom’s narcotics.

    I’ll break a window through my prison! See,

    The sunset bleeds among the roofs; comes night,

    Dark blue and calm as music dying out.

    Is it escape? No, the laugh’s turned on me!

    I kicked at cardboard, gaped at red limelight;

    You laughed and cheered my latest knockabout.

    MISPLACED LOVE.

    Red wine that slowly leaned and brimmed the shell

    Of pearl, where lips had touched, as light and swift

    As naked petals of the rose adrift

    Upon the lazy-luted ritournelle

    Of summer bee-song: laughing as they fell,

    Gold memories: dream incense, childhood’s gift,

    Blue as the smoke that far horizons lift,

    Tenuous as the wings of Ariel:—

    These treasured things I laid upon the pyre;

    And the flame kindled, and I fanned it high,

    And, strong in hope, could watch the crumbling past.

    Eager I knelt before the waning fire,

    Phoenix, to greet thine immortality ...

    But there was naught but ashes at the last.

    SONNET.

    Were I to die, you’d break your heart, you say.

    Well, if it do but bend, I’m satisfied—

    Bend and rebound—for hearts are temper-tried,

    Mild steel, not hardened, with the spring and play

    Of excellent tough swords. It’s not that way

    That you’ll be perishing. But when I’ve died,

    When snap! my light goes out, what will betide

    You, if the heart-breaks give you leave to stay?

    What will be left, I wonder, if you lose

    All that you gave me? "All? A year or so

    Out of a life," you say. But worlds, say I,

    Of kisses timeless given in ecstasy

    That gave me Real You. I die: you go

    With me. What’s left? Limbs, clothes, a pair of shoes?...

    SENTIMENTAL SUMMER.

    The West has plucked its flowers and has thrown

    Them fading on the night. Out of the sky’s

    Black depths there smiles a greeting from those eyes,

    Where all the Real, all I have ever known

    Of the divine is held. And not alone

    Do I stand here now ... a presence seems to rise:

    Your voice sounds near across my memories,

    And answering fingers brush against my own.

    Yes, it is you: for evening holds those strands

    Of fire and darkness twined in one to make

    Your loveliness a web of magic mesh,

    Whose cross-weft harmony of soul and flesh

    Shadows a thought or glows, when smiles awake,

    Like sunlight passionate on southern lands.

    THE CHOICE.

    Comrade, now that you’re merry

    And therefore true,

    Say—where would you like to die

    And have your friend to bury

    What once was you?

    "On the top of a hill

    With a peaceful view

    Of country where all is still?"...

    Great God, not I!

    I’d lie in the street

    Where two streams meet

    And there’s noise enough to fill

    The outer ear,

    While within the brain can beat

    Marches of death and life,

    Glory and joy and fear,

    Peace of the sort that moves

    And clash of strife

    And routs of armies fleeing.

    There would I shake myself clear

    Out of the deep-set grooves

    Of my sluggish being.

    THE HIGHER SENSUALISM.

    There’s a church by a lake in Italy

    Stands white on a hill against the sky?

    And a path of immemorial cobbles

    Leads up and up, where the pilgrim hobbles

    Past a score or so of neat reposories,

    Where you stop and breathe and tell your rosaries

    To the shrined terra-cotta mannikins,

    That expound with the liveliest quirks and grins

    Known texts of Scripture. But no long stay

    Should the pilgrim make upon his way;

    But as means to the end these shrines stand here

    To guide to something holier,

    The church on the hilltop.

    Your heaven’s so,

    With a path leading up to it past a row

    Of votary Priapulids;

    At each you pause and tell your beads

    Along the quintuple strings of sense:

    Then on, to face Heaven’s eminence,

    New stimulated, new inspired.

    SONNET.

    If that a sparkle of true starshine be

    That led my way; if some diviner thing

    Than common thought urged me to fashioning

    Close-woven links of burnished poetry;

    Then all the heaven that one time dwelt in me

    Has fled, leaving the body triumphing.

    Dead flesh it seems, with not a dream to bring

    Visions that better warm immediacy.

    Why have my visions left me, what could kill

    That feeble spark, which yet had life and heat?

    Fulfilment shewed a present rich and fair:

    I strive to mount, but catch the nearest still:

    Souls have been drowned between heart’s beat and beat,

    And trapped and tangled in a woman’s hair.

    FORMAL VERSES.

    I.

    Mother of all my future memories,

    Mistress of my new life, which but to-day

    Began, when I beheld, deep in your eyes,

    My own love mirrored and the warm surprise

    Of the first kiss swept both our souls away,

    Your love has freed me; for I was oppressed

    By my own devil, whose unwholesome breath

    Tarnished my youth, leaving to me at best

    Age lacking comfort of a soul at rest

    And weariness beyond the hope of death.

    II.

    Ah, those were days of silent happiness!

    I never spoke, and had no need to speak,

    While on the windy down-land, cheek by cheek,

    The slow-driven sun beheld us. Each caress

    Had oratory for its own defence;

    And when I kissed or felt her fingers press,

    I envied not Demosthenes his Greek,

    Nor Tully for his Latin eloquence.

    PERILS OF THE SMALL HOURS.

    When life burns low as the fire in the grate

    And all the evening’s books are read,

    I sit alone, save for the dead

    And the lovers I have grown to hate.

    But all at once the narrow gloom

    Of hatred and despair expands

    In tenderness: thought stretches hands

    To welcome to the midnight room

    Another presence:—a memory

    Of how last year in the sunlit field,

    Laughing, you suddenly revealed

    Beauty in immortality.

    For so it is; a gesture strips

    Life bare of all its make-believe.

    All unprepared we may receive

    Our casual apocalypse.

    Sheer beauty, then you seemed to stir

    Unbodied soul; soul sleeps to-night,

    And love comes, dimming spirit’s sight,

    When body plays interpreter.

    COMPLAINT.

    I have tried to remember the familiar places,—

    The pillared gloom of the beechwoods, the towns

    by the sea,—

    I have tried to people the past with dear known faces,

    But you were haunting me.

    Like a remorse, insistent, pitiless,

    You have filled my spirit, you were ever at hand;

    You have mocked my gods with your new loveliness:

    Broken the old shrines stand.

    RETURN TO AN OLD HOME.

    In this wood—how the hazels have grown!—

    I left a treasure all my own

    Of childish kisses and laughter and pain;

    Left, till I might come back again

    To take from the familiar earth

    My hoarded secret and count its worth.

    And all the spider-work of the years,

    All the time-spun gossamers,

    Dewed with each succeeding spring;

    And the piled up leaves the Autumns fling

    To the sweet corruption of death on death....

    At the sudden stir of my spirit’s breath

    All scattered. New and fair and bright

    As ever it was, before my sight

    The treasure lay, and nothing missed.

    So having handled all and kissed,

    I put them back, adding one new

    And precious memory of you.

    FRAGMENT.

    We’re German scholars poring over life,

    As over a Greek manuscript that’s torn

    And stained beyond repair. Our eyes of horn

    Read one or two poor letters; and what strife,

    What books on books begotten for their sake!

    But we enjoy it; and meanwhile neglect

    The line that’s left us perfect from the wrecked

    Rich argosy, clear beyond doubts to make

    Conjectures of. So in my universe

    Of scribbled half-hid meanings you appear,

    Sole perfect symbol of the highest sphere;

    And life’s great matrix crystal, whose depths nurse

    Soul’s infinite reflections, glows in you

    With now uncertain radiance...

    THE WALK.

    I. THROUGH THE SUBURBS.

    Provincial Sunday broods above the town:

    The street’s asleep; through a dim window drifts

    A small romance that hiccoughs up and down

    An air all trills and runs and sudden lifts

    To yearning sevenths poised ... not Chopin quite,

    But, oh, romantic; a tinsel world made bright

    With rose and honeysuckle’s paper blooms,

    And where the moon’s blue limelight and the glooms

    Of last-act scenes of passion are discreet.

    And when the tinkling stops and leaves the street

    Blank in the sunlight of the afternoon

    You feel a curtain dropped. Poor little tune!

    Perhaps our grandmother’s dull girlhood days

    Were fired by you with radiances of pink,

    Heavenly, brighter far than she could think

    Anything might be ... till a greater blaze

    Tinged life’s horizon, when he kissed her first,

    Our grandpapa. But a thin ghost still plays

    In music down the street, echoing the plaint

    Of far romance with its own sadder song

    Of Everyday; and as they walk along,...

    The young man and the woman, deep immersed

    In all the suburb-comedy around ...

    They seem to catch coherence in the sound

    Of that ghost-music, and the words come faint:—

    Oh the months and the days,

    Oh sleeps and dinners,

    Oh the planning of ways

    And quotidian means!

    Oh endless vistas of mutton and greens,

    Oh weekly mimblings of prayer and praise,

    Oh Evenings with All the Winners!

    Monday sends the clothes to the wash

    And Saturday brings them home again:

    Mon Dieu, la vie est par trop moche

    And Destiny is a sale caboche;

    But I’ll give you heaven

    In a dominant seven,

    And you shall not have lived in vain.

    In vain, the girl repeats, in vain, in vain ...

    Your suburb’s whole philosophy leads there.

    The ox-stall for our happiness, for pain,

    Poignant and sweet, the dull narcotic ache

    Of wretchedness, and in resigned despair

    A grim contentment ... ashen fruits to slake

    A nameless, quenchless thirst. The tinkling rain

    Of that small sentimental music wets

    Your parching suburb: it may sprout ... who knows?...

    In something red and silken like a rose,

    In sheaves of almost genuine violets.

    Faint chords, your sadness, secular, immense,

    Brims to the bursting this poor Actual heart.

    For surging through the floodgates that the sense

    On sudden lightly opens sweeps the Whole

    Into the narrow compass of its part.

    He.

    Inedited sensation of the soul!

    You’d have us bless the Hire-Purchase System,

    Which now allows the poorest vampers

    To feel, as they abuse their piano’s dampers,

    That angels have stooped down and kissed ‘em

    With Ave-Maries from the infinite.

    But poor old Infinite’s dead. Long live his heir,

    Lord Here-and-Now ... for all the rest

    Is windy nothingness, or at the best

    Home-made Chimera, bodied with despair,

    Headed with formless, foolish hope.

    She.

    No, no!

    We live in verse, for all things rhyme

    With something out of space and time.

    He.

    But in the suburb here life needs must flow

    In journalistic prose ...

    She.

    But we have set

    Our faces towards the further hills, where yet

    The wind untainted and unbound may blow.

    II. FROM THE CREST.

    So through the squalor, till the sky unfolds

    To right and left its fringes, penned no more,

    A thin canal, ‘twixt shore and ugly shore

    Of hovels, poured contiguous from the moulds

    Of Gothic horror. Town is left at last,

    Save for the tentacles that probe,... a squat

    Dun house or two, allotments, plot on plot

    Of cabbage, jejune, ripe or passed,

    Chequering with sick yellow or verdigris

    The necropolitan ground; and neat paved ways

    That edge the road ... the town’s last nerves ... and cease,

    As if in sudden shame, where hedges raise

    Their dusty greenery on either hand.

    Their path mounts slowly up the hill;

    And, as they walk, to right and left expand

    The plain and the golden uplands and the blue

    Faint smoke of distances that fade from view;

    And at their feet, remote and still?

    The city spreads itself.

    He.

    That glabrous dome that lifts itself so grand,

    There in the marish, is the omphalos,

    The navel, umbo, middle, central boss

    Of the unique, sole, true Cloud-Cuckoo Land.

    Drowsy with Sunday bells and Sunday beer

    Afoam in silver rumkins, there it basks,

    Thinking of labours past and future tasks

    And pondering on the end, forever near,

    Yet ever distant as the rainbow’s spring.

    For still in Cuckoo-Land they’re labouring,

    With hopes undamped and undiscouraged hearts:

    A little musty, but superb, they sit,

    Piecing a god together bit by bit

    Out of the chaos of his sundered parts.

    Unmoved, nay pitying, they view the grins

    And lewd grimaces of the folk that jeer ...

    The vulgar herd, gross monster at the best,

    Obscenum Mobile, the uttermost sphere,

    Alas, too much the mover of the rest,

    Though they turn sungates to its widdershins ...

    And in some half a million years perhaps

    God may at last be made ... a new, true Pan,

    An Isis templed in the soul of man,

    An Aphrodite with her thousand paps

    Streaming eternal wisdom.

    Yes, and man’s vessel, all pavilioned out

    With silk and flags in the fair wind astream,

    Shall make the port at last, with a great shout

    Ringing from all her decks, and rocking there shall dream

    For ever, and dream true ... calm in those roads

    As lovers’ souls at evening, when they swim

    Between the despairing sunset and the dim

    Blue memories of mountains lost to sight

    But, like half fancied, half remembered episodes

    Of childhood, guessed at through the veils of night.

    And the worn sailors at the mast who heard

    The first far bells and knew the sound for home,

    Who marked the land-weeds and the sand-stained foam

    And through the storm-blast saw a wildered bird

    Seek refuge at the mast-head ... these at last

    Shall earn due praise when all the hubbub’s past;

    And Cuckoo-Landers not a few shall prove.

    She.

    You have fast closed the temple gates;

    You stand without in the noon-tides glow,

    But the innermost darkness, where God waits,

    You do not know, you cannot know.

    LIMBO

    FARCICAL HISTORY OF RICHARD GREENOW

    I

    THE most sumptuous present that Millicent received on her seventh birthday was a doll’s house. With love to darling little Mill from Aunty Loo. Aunt Loo was immensely rich, and the doll’s house was almost as grandiose and massive as herself.

    It was divided into four rooms, each papered in a different colour and each furnished as was fitting: beds and washstands and wardrobes in the upstair rooms, arm-chairs and artificial plants below. Replete with every modern convenience; sumptuous appointments. There was even a cold collation ready spread on the dining-room table—two scarlet lobsters on a dish, and a ham that had been sliced into just enough to reveal an internal complexion of the loveliest pink and white. One might go on talking about the doll’s house for ever, it was so beautiful. Such, at any rate, was the opinion of Millicent’s brother Dick. He would spend hours opening and shutting the front door, peeping through the windows, arranging and rearranging the furniture. As for Millicent, the gorgeous present left her cold. She had been hoping—and, what is more, praying, fervently, every night for a month—that Aunty Loo would give her a toy sewing-machine (one of the kind that works, though) for her birthday.

    She was bitterly disappointed when the doll’s house came instead. But she bore it all stoically and managed to be wonderfully polite to Aunty Loo about the whole affair. She never looked at the doll’s house: it simply didn’t interest her.

    Dick had already been at a preparatory school for a couple of terms. Mr. Killigrew, the headmaster, thought him a promising boy. Has quite a remarkable aptitude for mathematics, he wrote in his report. He has started Algebra this term and shows aquite remarkable scratched out (the language of reports is apt to be somewhat limited)—a very unusual grasp of the subject. Mr. Killigrew didn’t know that his pupil also took an interest in dolls: if he had, he would have gibed at Dick as unmercifully and in nearly the same terms as Dick’s fellow-schoolboys—for shepherds grow to resemble their sheep and pedagogues their childish charges. But of course Dick would never have dreamt of telling anyone at school about it. He was chary of letting even the people at home divine his weakness, and when anyone came into the room where the doll’s house was, he would put his hands in his pockets and stroll out, whistling the tune of, There is a Happy Land far, far away, where they have Ham and Eggs seven times a day, as though he had merely stepped in to have a look at the beastly thing—just to give it a kick.

    When he wasn’t playing with the doll’s house, Dick spent his holiday time in reading, largely, devouringly. No length or incomprehensibility could put him off; he had swallowed down Robert Elsmere in the three-volume edition at the age of eight. When he wasn’t reading he used to sit and think about Things in General and Nothing in Particular; in fact, as Millicent reproachfully put it, he just mooned about. Millicent, on the other hand, was always busily doing something: weeding in the garden, or hoeing, or fruit-picking (she could be trusted not to eat more than the recognized tariff—one in twenty raspberries or one in forty plums); helping Kate in the kitchen; knitting mufflers for those beings known vaguely as The Cripples, while her mother read aloud in the evenings before bedtime. She disapproved of Dick’s mooning, but Dick mooned all the same.

    When Dick was twelve and a half he knew enough about mathematics and history and the dead languages to realize that his dear parents were profoundly ignorant and uncultured. But, what was more pleasing to the dear parents, he knew enough to win a scholarship at Æsop College, which is one of our Greatest Public Schools.

    If this were a Public School story, I should record the fact that, while at Æsop, Dick swore, lied, blasphemed, repeated dirty stories, read the articles in John Bull about brothels disguised as nursing-homes and satyrs disguised as curates; that he regarded his masters, with very few exceptions, as fools, not even always well-meaning. And so on. All which would be quite true, but beside the point. For this is not one of the conventional studies of those clever young men who discover Atheism and Art at School, Socialism at the University, and, passing through the inevitable stage of Sex and Syphilis after taking their B.A., turn into maturely brilliant novelists at the age of twenty-five. I prefer, therefore, to pass over the minor incidents of a difficult pubescence, touching only on those points which seem to throw a light on the future career of our hero.

    It is possible for those who desire it—incredible as the thing may appear—to learn something at Æsop College. Dick even learnt a great deal. From the beginning he was the young Benjamin of his mathematical tutor, Mr. Skewbauld, a man of great abilities in his own art, and who, though wholly incapable of keeping a form in order, could make his private tuition a source of much profit to a mathematically minded boy. Mr. Skewbauld’s house was the worst in Æsop: Dick described it as a mixture between a ghetto and a home for the mentally deficient, and when he read in Sir Thomas Browne that it was a Vulgar Error to suppose that Jews stink, he wrote a letter to the School Magazine exploding that famous doctor as a quack and a charlatan, whose statements ran counter to the manifest facts of everyday life in Mr. Skewbauld’s house. It may seem surprising that Dick should have read Sir Thomas Browne at all. But he was more than a mere mathematician. He filled the ample leisure, which is Æsop’s most precious gift to those of its Alumni who know how to use it, with much and varied reading in history, in literature, in physical science, and in more than one foreign language. Dick was something of a prodigy.

    Greenow’s an intellectual, was Mr. Copthorne-Slazenger’s contemptuous verdict. I have the misfortune to have two or three intellectuals in my house. They’re all of them friends of his. I think he’s a Bad Influence in the School. Copthorne-Slazenger regarded himself as the perfect example of mens sana in corpore sano, the soul of an English gentleman in the body of a Greek god. Unfortunately his legs were rather too short and his lower lip was underhung like a salmon’s.

    Dick had, indeed, collected about him a band of kindred spirits. There was Partington, who specialized in history; Gay, who had read all the classical writings of the golden age and was engaged in the study of mediæval Latin; Fletton, who was fantastically clever and had brought the art of being idle to a pitch never previously reached in the annals of Æsop. These were his chief friends, and a queer-looking group they made—Dick, small and dark and nervous; Partington, all roundness, and whose spectacles were two moons in a moonface; Gay, with the stiff walk of a little old man; and Fletton, who looked like nobody so much as Mr. Jingle, tall and thin with a twisted, comical face.

    An ugly skulking crew, Copthorne-Slazenger, conscious of his own Olympian splendour, would say as he saw them pass.

    With these faithful friends Dick should have been—and indeed for the most part was—very happy. Between them they mustered up a great stock of knowledge; they could discuss every subject under the sun. They were a liberal education and an amusement to one another. There were times, however, when Dick was filled with a vague, but acute, discontent. He wanted something which his friends could not give him; but what, but what? The discontent rankled under the surface, like a suppressed measles. It was Lord Francis Quarles who brought it out and made the symptoms manifest.

    Francis Quarles was a superb creature, with the curly forehead of a bull and the face and limbs of a Græco-Roman statue. It was a sight worth seeing when he looked down through half-shut eyelids, in his usual attitude of sleepy arrogance, on the world about him. He was in effect what Mr. Copthorne-Slazenger imagined himself to be, and he shared that gentleman’s dislike for Dick and his friends. Yellow little atheists, he called them. He always stood up for God and the Church of England; they were essential adjuncts to the aristocracy. God, indeed, was almost a member of the Family; lack of belief in Him amounted to a personal insult to the name of Quarles.

    It was half-way through the summer term, when Dick was sixteen, on one of those days of brilliant sunshine and cloudless blue, when the sight of beautiful and ancient buildings is peculiarly poignant. Their age and quiet stand out in melancholy contrast against the radiant life of the summer; and at Æsop the boys go laughing under their antique shadow; Little victims—you feel how right Gray was. Dick was idly strolling across the quadrangle, engaged in merely observing the beauty about him—the golden-grey chapel, with its deep geometrical shadows between the buttresses, the comely rose-coloured shapes of the brick-built Tudor buildings, the weathercocks glittering in the sun, the wheeling flurries of pigeons. His old discontent had seized on him again, and to-day in the presence of all this beauty it had become almost unbearable. All at once, out of the mouth of one of the dark little tunnelled doors pierced in the flanks of the sleeping building, a figure emerged into the light. It was Francis Quarles, clad in white flannels and the radiance of the sunshine. He appeared like a revelation, bright, beautiful, and sudden, before Dick’s eyes. A violent emotion seized him; his heart leapt, his bowels were moved within him; he felt a little sick and faint—he had fallen in love.

    Francis passed by without deigning to notice him. His head was high, his eyes drowsy under their drooping lids. He was gone, and for Dick all the light was out, the beloved quadrangle was a prison-yard, the pigeons a loathsome flock of carrion eaters. Gay and Partington came up behind him with shouts of invitation. Dick walked rudely away. God! how he hated them and their wretched, silly talk and their yellow, ugly faces.

    The weeks that followed were full of strangeness. For the first time in his life Dick took to writing poetry. There was one sonnet which began:

    Is it a vision or a waking dream?

    Or is it truly Apollo that I see,

    Come from his sylvan haunts in Arcady

    To

    {

    laugh and loiter

    sing and saunter by an English stream. . . .

    He kept on repeating the words to himself, Sylvan haunts in Arcady, laugh and loiter (after much thought he had adopted that as more liquidly melodious than sing and saunter). How beautiful they sounded!—as beautiful as Keats—more beautiful, for they were his own.

    He avoided the company of Gay and Fletton and Partington; they had become odious to him, and their conversation, when he could bring himself to listen to it, was, somehow, almost incomprehensible. He would sit for hours alone in his study; not working—for he could not understand the mathematical problems on which he had been engaged before the fateful day in the quadrangle—but reading novels and the poetry of Mrs. Browning, and at intervals writing something rather ecstatic of his own. After a long preparatory screwing up of his courage, he dared at last to send a fag with a note to Francis, asking him to tea; and when Francis rather frigidly refused, he actually burst into tears. He had not cried like that since he was a child.

    He became suddenly very religious. He would spend an hour on his knees every night, praying, praying with frenzy. He mortified the flesh with fasting and watching. He even went so far as to flagellate himself—or at least tried to; for it is very difficult to flagellate yourself adequately with a cane in a room so small that any violent gesture imperils the bric-à-brac. He would pass half the night stark naked, in absurd postures, trying to hurt himself. And then, after the dolorously pleasant process of self-maceration was over, he used to lean out of the window and listen to the murmurs of the night and fill his spirit with the warm velvet darkness of midsummer. Copthorne-Slazenger, coming back by the late train from town one night, happened to see his moon-pale face hanging out of window and was delighted to be able to give him two hundred Greek lines to remind him that even a member of the Sixth Form requires sleep sometimes.

    The fit lasted three weeks. I can’t think what’s the matter with you, Greenow, complained Mr. Skewbauld snufflingly. You seem incapable or unwilling to do anything at all. I suspect the cause is constipation. If only everyone would take a little paraffin every night before going to bed! . . . Mr. Skewbauld’s self-imposed mission in life was the propagation of the paraffin habit. It was the universal panacea—the cure for every ill.

    His friends of before the crisis shook their heads and could only suppose him mad. And then the fit ended as suddenly as it had begun.

    It happened at a dinner-party given by the Cravisters. Dr. Cravister was the Headmaster of Æsop—a good, gentle, learned old man, with snow-white hair and a saintly face which the spirit of comic irony had embellished with a nose that might, so red and bulbous it was, have been borrowed from the properties of a music-hall funny man. And then there was Mrs. Cravister, large and stately as a galleon with all sails set. Those who met her for the first time might be awed by the dignity of what an Elizabethan would have called her swelling port. But those who knew her well went in terror of the fantastic spirit which lurked behind the outward majesty. They were afraid of what that richly modulated voice of hers might utter. It was not merely that she was malicious—and she had a gift of ever-ready irony; no, what was alarming in all her conversation was the element of the unexpected. With most people one feels comfortably secure that they will always say the obvious and ordinary things; with Mrs. Cravister, never. The best one could do was to be on guard and to try and look, when she made a more than usually characteristic remark, less of a bewildered fool than one felt.

    Mrs. Cravister received her guests—they were all of them boys—with stately courtesy. They found it pleasant to be taken so seriously, to be treated as perfectly grown men; but at the same time, they always had with Mrs. Cravister a faint uncomfortable suspicion that all her politeness was an irony so exquisite as to be practically undistinguishable from ingenuousness.

    Good evening, Mr. Gay, she said, holding out her hand and shutting her eyes; it was one of her disconcerting habits, this shutting of the eyes. What a pleasure it will be to hear you talking to us again about eschatology.

    Gay, who had never talked about eschatology and did not know the meaning of the word, smiled a little dimly and made a protesting noise.

    Eschatology? What a charming subject! The fluty voice belonged to Henry Cravister, the Headmaster’s son, a man of about forty who worked in the British Museum. He was almost too cultured, too erudite.

    But I don’t know anything about it, said Gay desperately.

    Spare us your modesty, Henry Cravister protested.

    His mother shook hands with the other guests, putting some at their ease with a charming phrase and embarrassing others by saying something baffling and unexpected that would have dismayed even the hardiest diner-out, much more a schoolboy tremblingly on his good behaviour. At the tail end of the group of boys stood Dick and Francis Quarles. Mrs. Cravister slowly raised her heavy waxen eyelids and regarded them a moment in silence.

    The Græco-Roman and the Gothic side by side! she exclaimed. Lord Francis is something in the Vatican, a rather late piece of work; and Mr. Greenow is a little gargoyle from the roof of Notre Dame de Paris. Two epochs of art—how clearly one sees the difference. And my husband, I always think, is purely Malayan in design—purely Malayan, she repeated as she shook hands with the two boys.

    Dick blushed to the roots of his hair, but Francis’ impassive arrogance remained unmoved. Dick stole a glance in his direction, and at the sight of his calm face he felt a new wave of adoring admiration sweeping through him.

    The company was assembled and complete, Mrs. Cravister looked round the room and remarking, We won’t wait for Mr. Copthorne-Slazenger, sailed majestically in the direction of the door. She particularly disliked this member of her husband’s staff, and lost no opportunity of being rude to him. Thus, where an ordinary hostess might have said, Shall we come in to dinner? Mrs. Cravister employed the formula, We won’t wait for Mr. Copthorne-Slazenger; and a guest unacquainted with Mrs. Cravister’s habits would be surprised on entering the dining-room to find that all the seats at the table were filled, and that the meal proceeded smoothly without a single further reference to the missing Copthorne, who never turned up at all, for the good reason that he had never been invited.

    Dinner began a little nervously and uncomfortably. At one end of the table the Headmaster was telling anecdotes of Æsop in the sixties, at which the boys in his neighbourhood laughed with a violent nervous insincerity. Henry Cravister, still talking about eschatology, was quoting from Sidonius Apollinarius and Commodianus of Gaza. Mrs. Cravister, who had been engaged in a long colloquy with the butler, suddenly turned on Dick with the remark, And so you have a deep, passionate fondness for cats, as though they had been intimately discussing the subject for the last hour. Dick had enough presence of mind to say that, yes, he did like cats—all except those Manx ones that had no tails.

    No tails, Mrs. Cravister repeated—no tails. Like men. How symbolical everything is!

    Francis Quarles was sitting opposite him, so that Dick had ample opportunity to look at his idol. How perfectly he did everything, down to eating his soup! The first lines of a new poem began to buzz in Dick’s head:

    "All, all I lay at thy proud marble feet—

    My heart, my love and all my future days.

    Upon thy brow for ever let me gaze,

    For ever touch thy hair: oh (something) sweet . . ."

    Would he be able to find enough rhymes to make it into a sonnet? Mrs. Cravister, who had been leaning back in her chair for the last few minutes in a state of exhausted abstraction, opened her eyes and said to nobody in particular:

    Ah, how I envy the calm of those Chinese dynasties!

    Which Chinese dynasties? a well-meaning youth inquired.

    Any Chinese dynasty, the more remote the better. Henry, tell us the names of some Chinese dynasties.

    In obedience to his mother, Henry delivered a brief disquisition on the history of politics, art, and letters in the Far East.

    The Headmaster continued his reminiscences.

    An angel of silence passed. The boys, whose shyness had begun to wear off, became suddenly and painfully conscious of hearing themselves eating. Mrs. Cravister saved the situation.

    Lord Francis knows all about birds, she said in her most thrilling voice. Perhaps he can tell us why it is the unhappy fate of the carrion crow to mate for life.

    Conversation again became general. Dick was still thinking about his sonnet. Oh, these rhymes!—praise, bays, roundelays, amaze: greet, bleat, defeat, beat, paraclete. . . .

    ". . . to sing the praise

    In anthems high and solemn roundelays

    Of Holy Father, Son and Paraclete."

    That was good—damned good; but it hardly seemed to fit in with the first quatrain. It would do for one of his religious poems, though. He had written a lot of sacred verse lately.

    Then suddenly, cutting across his ecstatic thoughts, came the sound of Henry Cravister’s reedy voice.

    "But I always find Pater’s style so coarse," it said.

    Something explosive took place in Dick’s head. It often happens when one blows one’s nose that some passage in the labyrinth connecting ears and nose and throat is momentarily blocked, and one becomes deaf and strangely dizzy. Then, suddenly, the mucous bubble bursts, sound rushes back to the brain, the head feels clear and stable once more. It was something like this, but transposed into terms of the spirit, that seemed now to have happened to Dick.

    It was as though some mysterious obstruction in his brain, which had dammed up and diverted his faculties from their normal course during the past three weeks, had been on a sudden overthrown. His life seemed to be flowing once more along familiar channels.

    He was himself again.

    "But I always find Pater’s style so coarse."

    These few words of solemn foolery were the spell which had somehow performed the miracle. It was just the sort of remark he might have made three weeks ago, before the crisis. For a moment, indeed, he almost thought it was he himself who had spoken; his own authentic voice, carried across the separating gulf of days, had woken him again to life!

    He looked at Francis Quarles. Why, the fellow was nothing but a great prize ox, a monstrous animal. There was a Lady loved a Swine. Honey, said she . . . It was ignoble, it was ridiculous. He could have hidden his face in his hands for pure shame; shame tingled through his body. Goodness, how grotesquely he had behaved!

    He leaned across and began talking to Henry Cravister about Pater and style and books in general. Cravister was amazed at the maturity of the boy’s mind; for he possessed to a remarkable degree that critical faculty which in the vast majority of boys is—and from their lack of experience must be—wholly lacking.

    You must come and see me some time when you’re in London, Henry Cravister said to him when the time came for the boys to get back to their houses. Dick was flattered; he had not said that to any of the others. He walked home with Gay, laughing and talking quite in his old fashion. Gay marvelled at the change in his companion; strange, inexplicable fellow! but it was pleasant to have him back again, to repossess the lost friend. Arrived in his room, Dick sat down to attack the last set of mathematical problems that had been set him. Three hours ago they had appeared utterly incomprehensible; now he understood them perfectly. His mind was like a giant refreshed, delighting in its strength.

    Next day Mr. Skewbauld congratulated him on his answers.

    You seem quite to have recovered your old form, Greenow, he said. Did you take my advice? Paraffin regularly . . .

    Looking back on the events of the last weeks, Dick was disquieted. Mr. Skewbauld might be wrong in recommending paraffin, but he was surely right in supposing that something was the matter and required a remedy. What could it be? He felt so well; but that, of course, proved nothing. He began doing Müller’s exercises, and he bought a jar of malt extract and a bottle of hypophosphites. After much consultation of medical handbooks and the encyclopædia, he came to the conclusion that he was suffering from anæmia of the brain; and for some time one fixed idea haunted him: Suppose the blood completely ceased to flow to his brain, suppose he were to fall down suddenly dead or, worse, become utterly and hopelessly paralysed. . . . Happily the distractions of Æsop in the summer term were sufficiently numerous and delightful to divert his mind from this gloomy brooding, and he felt so well and in such high spirits that it was impossible to go on seriously believing that he was at death’s door. Still, whenever he thought of the events of those strange weeks he was troubled. He did not like being confronted by problems which he could not solve. During the rest of his stay at school he was troubled by no more than the merest velleities of a relapse. A fit of moon-gazing and incapacity to understand the higher mathematics had threatened him one time when he was working rather too strenuously for a scholarship. But a couple of days’ complete rest had staved off the peril. There had been rather a painful scene, too, at Dick’s last School Concert. Oh, those Æsop concerts! Musically speaking, of course, they are deplorable; but how rich from all other points of view than the merely æsthetic! The supreme moment arrives at the very end when three of the most eminent and popular of those about to leave mount the platform together and sing the famous Æsop, Farewell. Greatest of school songs! The words are not much, but the tune, which goes swooning along in three-four time, is perhaps the masterpiece of the late organist, Dr. Pilch.

    Dick was leaving, but he was not a sufficiently heroic figure to have been asked to sing, Æsop, Farewell. He was simply a member of the audience, and one, moreover, who had come to the concert in a critical and mocking spirit. For, as he had an ear for music, it was impossible for him to take the concert very seriously. The choir had clamorously re-crucified the Messiah; the soloists had all done their worst; and now it was time for Æsop, Farewell. The heroes climbed on to the stage. They were three demi-gods, but Francis Quarles was the most splendid of the group as he stood there with head thrown back, eyes almost closed, calm and apparently unconscious of the crowd that seethed, actually and metaphorically, beneath him. He was wearing an enormous pink orchid in the buttonhole of his evening coat; his shirt-front twinkled with diamond studs; the buttons of his waistcoat were of fine gold. At the sight of him, Dick felt his heart beating violently; he was not, he painfully realized, master of himself.

    The music struck up—Dum, dum, dumdidi, dumdidi; dum, dum, dum, and so on. So like the Merry Widow. In two days’ time he would have left Æsop for ever. The prospect had never affected him very intensely. He had enjoyed himself at school, but he had never, like so many Æsopians, fallen in love with the place. It remained for him an institution; for others it was almost an adored person. But to-night his spirit, rocked on a treacly ocean of dominant sevenths, succumbed utterly to the sweet sorrow of parting. And there on the platform stood Francis. Oh, how radiantly beautiful! And when he began, in his rich tenor, the first verse of the Valedictory:

    "Farewell, Mother Æsop,

    Our childhood’s home!

    Our spirit is with thee,

    Though far we roam . . ."

    he found himself hysterically sobbing.

    II

    CANTELOUP COLLEGE is perhaps the most frightful building in Oxford—and to those who know their Oxford well this will mean not a little. Up till the middle of last century Canteloup possessed two quadrangles of fifteenth-century buildings, unimpressive and petty, like so much of College architecture, but at least quiet, unassuming, decent. After the accession of Victoria the College began to grow in numbers, wealth, and pride. The old buildings were too small and unpretentious for what had now become a Great College. In the summer of 1867 a great madness fell upon the Master and Fellows. They hired a most distinguished architect, bred up in the school of Ruskin, who incontinently razed all the existing buildings to the ground and erected in their stead a vast pile in the approved Mauro-Venetian Gothic of the period. The New Buildings contained a great number of rooms, each served by a separate and almost perpendicular staircase; and if nearlyhalf of them were so dark as to make it necessary to light them artificially for all but three hours out of the twenty-four, this slight defect was wholly outweighed by the striking beauty, from outside, of the Neo-Byzantine loopholes by which they were, euphemistically, lighted.

    Prospects in Canteloup may not please; but man, on the other hand, tends to be less vile there than in many other places. There is an equal profusion at Canteloup of Firsts and Blues; there are Union orators of every shade of opinion and young men so languidly well bred as to take no interest in politics of any kind; there are drinkers of cocoa and drinkers of champagne. Canteloup is a microcosm, a whole world in miniature; and whatever your temperament and habits may be, whether you wish to drink, or row, or work, or hunt, Canteloup will provide you with congenial companions and a spiritual home.

    Lack of athletic distinction had prevented Dick from being, at Æsop, a hero or anything like one. At Canteloup, in a less barbarically ordered state of society, things were different. His rooms in the Venetian gazebo over the North Gate became the meeting-place of all that was most intellectually distinguished in Canteloup and the University at large. He had had his sitting-room austerely upholstered and papered in grey. A large white Chinese figure of the best period stood pedestalled in one corner, and on the walls there hung a few uncompromisingly good drawings and lithographs by modern artists. Fletton, who had accompanied Dick from Æsop to Canteloup, called it the cerebral chamber; and with its prevailing tone of brain-coloured grey and the rather dry intellectual taste of its decorations it deserved the name.

    To-night the cerebral chamber had been crammed. The Canteloup branch of the Fabian Society, under Dick’s presidency, had been holding a meeting. Art in the Socialist State was what they had been discussing. And now the meeting had broken up, leaving nothing but three empty jugs that had once contained mulled claret and a general air of untidiness to testify to its having taken place at all. Dick stood leaning an elbow on the mantelpiece and absent-mindedly kicking, to the great detriment of his pumps, at the expiring red embers in the grate. From the depths of a huge and cavernous arm-chair, Fletton, pipe in mouth, fumed like a sleepy volcano.

    I liked the way, Dick, he said, with a laugh—the way you went for the Arty-Crafties. You utterly destroyed them.

    I merely pointed out, what is sufficiently obvious, that crafts are not art, nor anything like it, that’s all. Dick snapped out the words. He was nervous and excited, and his body felt as though it were full of compressed springs ready to jump at the most imponderable touch. He was always like that after making a speech.

    You did it very effectively, said Fletton. There was a silence between the two young men.

    A noise like the throaty yelling of savages in rut came wafting up from the quadrangle on which the windows of the cerebral chamber opened. Dick started; all the springs within him had gone off at once—a thousand simultaneous Jack-in-the-boxes.

    It’s only Francis Quarles’ dinner-party becoming vocal, Fletton explained. Blind mouths, as Milton would call them.

    Dick began restlessly pacing up and down the room. When Fletton spoke to him, he did not reply or, at best, gave utterance to a monosyllable or a grunt.

    My dear Dick, said the other at last, you’re not very good company to-night, and heaving himself up from the arm-chair, Fletton went shuffling in his loose, heelless slippers towards the door. I’m going to bed.

    Dick paused in his lion-like prowling to listen to the receding sound of feet on the stairs. All was silent now: Gott sei dank. He went into his bedroom. It was there that he kept his piano, for it was a piece of furniture too smugly black and polished to have a place in the cerebral chamber. He had been thirsting after his piano all the time Fletton was sitting there, damn him! He drew up a chair and began to play over and over a certain series of chords. With his left hand he struck an octave G

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