Swimming With Crocodiles: Lamenting Man’s Voluntary Insanity At The Precipice Of Eternity

SWIMMING WITH CROCODILES

Lamenting Man’s Voluntary Insanity At The Precipice

Of Eternity

Daniel O. Ogweno

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Swimming With Crocodiles

By Daniel Owino Ogweno

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Dedication

This book is dedicated to Abayo wuon Osumba who used to cane us to restrain us from swimming with crocodiles. Without his restraints, who knows, we possibly could have been feasted upon by the crocodiles.

Finally, this book is also dedicated to those who will take advantage of the second chance to run for their life. Don’t go back swimming in the dangerous waters because the crocodiles of sin can have you for a meal.

Acknowledgement

I thank the Lord Jesus who made me live to tell this story.

To my wife, Laura Ogweno and my children, Victor Ogweno and Baraka Norine Awuor, I know how challenging it has been for you when you needed my attention but I was ‘not available’. Thank you for the patience.

I am grateful for the fellowship and help I have always received from Kristent Fellesskap, Skien. I want to specifically thank Tom Islann and Åge Petersen, my prayer partners. Those Church prayer meetings on Mondays are sources of inspiration and hope. Thank you for standing with me in difficult times.

Jens Petter Gustasfsen, you are a blessed young man. Your commitment to serve the Lord and your generosity are two aspects of your life that have benefitted me directly. May God bless you richly.

Lizz Opudo, I lack words with which to express my gratitude. Thanks for sacrificing your time out of your tight daily programs to edit and proof-read the manuscript. If there be any quality in this book, I share it with you.

Peter Mutabaruka, thanks my brother for standing with me in this venture. Fellowshipping with you always inspires me. Your commitment to serve the Lord explains why the burden to help me serve the Lord Jesus has never been unbearable for you.

Håkon Landsverk, thank you for being a practical friend. I have no words to express how God has used you to make life livable. My family owes you a debt of love. Thank you.

Dr. Julius Jwan, A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother (Proverbs 18:24). One of the expensive prices to pay for friendship is to stick around a friend who has lost the momentum and is struggling, being left behind by everyone. Thank you for being a true friend.

Blessmore Gombedza, thank you my brother for the ministry and commitment to ensure that you are always there to pick me from the airport whenever I’m in town. It means so much to me.

James Wachira Nderitu, meeting you in the bus one July morning of 2014 in Nairobi ignited in me the nostalgic feelings about Moi University. One of the precious things I remember was those afternoons when you used to come and help me take my first steps in the walk of faith. May I put it in record that I appreciate those follow-ups—they were never in vain, I testify.

Dr. Catherine Simiyu, and remembering Moi University, how can I not mention your friendship that God used as one of the strategies to rope me into His Kingdom. When I gatecrashed into a Bible study in your room, little did I know that God would use it to challenge me to consider living for Him. Your integrity and commitment is something I admired and respected.

Table Of Contents

Acknowledgement

Foreword

Preface

Chapter 1: CROCODILES ARE NOT ALL OVER THE PLACE IN THE WATER

Gambling With Life

The Unseen Danger

Abayo: A Man We Hated to Love and Loved to Hate

Hear Our Distress Call, O Lord!

Getting Used to Getting Away With It?

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 2: FALSE SECURITY IN NUMBERS

Who is it Going to Be?

You Are On Your Own!

Crowd Mentality vs. Organized Assemblage

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 3: MOCKERY OF GOOD SENSE

The Dangerous Insanities

What Did Pharaoh Want to Do With Frogs?

Release Barabbas; Crucify Jesus!

Hate Makes Men Play in the League of the Devil

Greed Deprives Men of Common Sense

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 4: THE SAD STORY OF JOASH KING OF JUDAH

Lessons Are Learnt From Both Good And Bad Examples

A Manifest Divine Intervention

Consequences of a Dead Conscience

Keeping Conscience Healthy and Alive

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 5: THE BURDEN OF CHOICE

Destined to Choose by ‘Factory Setting’

Could it be Better Without Freewill?

Why Must We Choose?

Choosing Between Life and Death

We Have to Make the Initial Choice

I am Stuck With Christ

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 6: CURSED, BEWITCHED OR HYPNOTISED?

Cain and Judas Iscariot: Two Sad Stories

Cain killed Abel:

Judas Iscariot Betrayed Jesus:

Still Working After Dismissal?

How On Earth!

A Callous Heart, the Bane of Malicious Sceptics

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 7: RELIGION OR REBELLION?

The Fake and the Gullible

Refuge in Abrahamic Ancestry? Fine, But…

A Good Idea; A Bad Practice

Religion Kills, Jesus Saves

If You Don’t Let Jesus Teach You, Satan Will Cheat You

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 8: BUILDING ALTARS FOR IDOLS

The Folly and Confusion of Idol Worship

The Modern Day Idols

The Big Five

The Lingering Traditions of Idolatry

The Occult and the Emerging Forms of Idolatry

Building An Altar Unto God Using the Devil’s Help?

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 9: VOLUNTARY GULLIBILITY

The Talking Serpent

Guarding the Heart

Self-Deception Leading to Mistaken Freedom

You Have Your Second Chance Now

When Common Sense Takes Leave

Common Sense May Lack, But What About Instinct?

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 10: ESCAPING FROM GOD?

No Comfort for Sin in God’s Presence

Physical Escape

Mental Escape

Happiness Outside, Turmoil Inside

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 11: IGNORE JEREMIAH AT YOUR OWN PERIL

A Prophet of Doom?

Born a Prophet

What Must it Take?

Prophet Jeremiah Had the Credentials

Did You Listen Properly?

It is Human to Make a Mistake!

The Book Prophet Jeremiah Was Writing

Defiant Ahab Gambled His Last Chance

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 12: PLEASURE, PRIDE AND BOASTING:

The Laxity of Pleasure vs. the Vigilance of Devotion

The Beginning of the Fall and the End of Favour

The Fall of Lucifer

Boasting About Our Strength?

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 13: GOD’S FEAR KEEPS US FROM FLIRTING WITH SIN

Shrinking Personal Privacy

Walk Before Me!

Seek Me and Live!

The Tower of Romance

The Judge is the Witness

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 14: THE KINGDOM OF GOD IS FOR ‘CHILDREN’

God’s Children

Little Children are Receptive

Little Children Follow Their Parents

Never Outgrow Being a Child of God

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 15: YOU CANNOT HAVE IT BOTH WAYS

The Way of Mutual Exclusives

The Way of Holiness

The Way of Faith

If You Want to Live, Stay in Jerusalem

Did You Pay Attention?

Casual Faith vs. Radical Pursuit of Things of the World

It Is Easier to Die for Christ Than to Live for Him

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

Chapter 16: AT THE PRECIPICE OF ETERNITY

The Kingdom of God is at Hand

An Infinite Gesture of Love

When the Last Chance Was the Easiest

When the Last Chance Was the Most Difficult

They Wouldn’t Let Me!

Reflections, applications and questions to ponder

NOTES

EPILOGUE

Give Light a Chance

Where Do You Stand? And Where Are You Headed To

About The Author

Other Books By the Same Author

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Foreword

I have read many books, Christian and secular, and from each book I am bound to carry with me something that will last me a lifetime. In my many readings, I have kept some books close to my chest, getting to read them again and again because of what they contain.

SWIMMING WITH CROCODILES is my latest read, joining my collection of ‘the must read—re-read’—category. The question that first comes to mind when you see this book is, "Swimming with Crocodiles, how now?"

It is interesting how God uses very simple ways and means to convey a message to His people. But the question is, can we allow God’s Spirit to minister to us in any context He chooses?

Swimming with Crocodiles is the 12th book written by this author, a book that he says took the longest time to write. I can say for a fact that it was worth the effort and the time.

As Christians we take so many things for granted. Sometimes subconsciously and many times with a very clear mind despite the Spirit of God directing us otherwise. This book addresses such instances using biblical connotations that make you wonder how and why you had never realized some things all the while.

I will pick out Chapter 8 of this book that brings a unique perspective of what I thought I knew very well, Idol worship and Altars. I cannot stop wondering whether it is ignorance or could it be that we have just decided to follow the world without any clear conscience?

In this book, I also got a deep revelation of how to relate with God as His child. We have children and quite often we do not learn so much from them. Children are very innocent, they can ask you anything and everything expecting you to have all the answers under one roof. Despite their faith in the adults, there are instances that they may ask questions that you literally battle from within how to answer and still give an answer anyway—often than not, they believe whatever answer you give. Have you ever realized that God has all the answers to life’s questions? Do you ever trust and believe in Him fully even if circumstances literally dictate otherwise?

As I present this book to you, the reader, there is a unique aspect that I cannot miss to point out: Reflections and questions to ponder. At the end of each chapter, the author gives you a chance to reflect on what you have read and relate it to your own life. Well, if you take your time to reflect and ask yourself some questions raised in these sections, the Spirit of God will help you get a clear revelation of what God wants out of you without much struggle. If I was to pick on every detail in here, this will be another chapter at its best.

It is my pleasure to present this book to you dear friend. Whether born again or not, the kind of knowledge you will draw from this book will take you a long way in the management of your everyday life and help you put eternal matters into an informed perspective.

Remember: …it is not of him that willeth, nor of him that runneth, but of God that sheweth mercy (Rom. 9:16).

As you read, I pray that our God of mercy will help you to not only read but also heed to His call, and when all is said and done, when the trumpet finally sounds, may you never be found wanting in Jesus’ Name!

Shalom!

Lizz Opudo

Journalist, Nairobi Kenya,

July, 2016.

Preface

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This is the book that has waited on my desk the longest. It is the second title I was given after the Fundamentals of Balanced Christianity way back in late 90s. I have since written eleven books. At one time, I purposed to have this book written by end of 2006, but I didn’t get it done. When I finally picked it up in 2015 and determined to get it done, I must say that it is a book I have battled serious distractions in the process of writing. Why did that happen? Your guess may as well be as good as mine. It therefore gives me a sense of fulfilment to have it finally written. Praise God!

The writing of this book was inspired by reflections of my youth life. First, I was perplexed by how naïve we were when we were growing up, especially when we routinely defied advice as we put our lives in extreme danger. Then I realized that our naivety was not unique after all. I would have blamed our naivety on our being young but when I got saved my eyes were opened to see that adults also behave in some strange ways. I wonder why rational beings that humans are can behave so irrationally and irresponsibly even where life is at stake.

If you asked me what differentiate human beings from other creatures, I would list the following as fundamental:

i) Intelligence:

Humans are rational. Ideally, they can reason out facts and draw conclusions compatible with reality. Therefore, when they allow subjectivity and selective perception to mar their honesty and loyalty to civility, they downgrade themselves into degenerates.

ii) Conscience:

Humans are moral beings by intuition. They therefore have an obligation to select right and reject wrong. When they allow their moral responsibilities to be overtaken by the cravings of the flesh and the dictates of the instincts, they stand depraved and reprobates, subject to rebuke and judgement.

iii) Consciousness:

Humans are aware of their identity; their environment; their limitation and their time. The latter is broken down into tripartite perspectives—past, present and future. Therefore, man is always burdened by the explanation of the past (origins), the exploration and exploitation of the present and the expectation of the future.

iv) Language (The Word):

Other animals have sounds but not an organized language. Man has the language which makes it possible to give and receive instructions. This is the basis and justification for rules and organization. The word is inspired. God Himself created through The Word.

Why Lamenting Man’s Voluntary Insanity?

I want you to imagine being a coast guard. You have technological devices that you use to scan the waters. You spot the sharks in the water a result of which you warn the swimmers and surfers to come out of the water immediately. But instead of heeding your call, your voice is to the swimmers and surfers an unwelcome cacophony of the kind of a party-spoiler. They wouldn’t allow you to interrupt the fun-filled swimming and the glee-arousing surfing. Because they can’t see the sharks for themselves, they don’t believe you. That would be an insanity on their part, isn’t it? You know that soon the sharks will be upon them. Their amusement will soon be replaced by distress. It is lamentable to know that people will soon be in a deep problem after ignoring a warning. It is voluntary because the people chose to ignore a warning, and it is insanity because it is not worth losing one’s life for the sake of momentary pleasure.

Why at the Precipice of Eternity?

With a full force attack by the wild, it doesn’t take long before the attacked person dies. Death is a gateway to eternity—either in heaven or hell. Imagine somebody drunkenly staggering his way to the edge of a steep cliff. It is not just an edge, it is equally slippery—what chance does he have? Dancing or drunkenly staggering at the edge of a physical cliff is nothing compared to crossing over into eternity without making peace with God through Christ. It is worse than swimming with ferocious hungry crocodiles.

When it concerns intelligence, free will and rationality, no other creature competes man. It is only man that has the inalienable mutual social responsibility and conscience. When we meet people that don’t seem to have any conscience left, there would be no doubt that something is wrong. Nevertheless, sometimes we seem to get used to the ‘abnormal’ to the point of glorifying it as we ridicule the normal. How can this be? Isn’t it lamentable? (See Isaiah 5:20-23).

When that which is abnormal is executed by the abnormal, it is ‘normal.’ For example, if somebody with mental problems hurt another person, we understand that he did it because he was sick. To the contrary, when the abnormal is routinely executed by the normal and they get away with it, then something is terribly wrong. Can the reader reconcile the fact that it is common to find supposedly right-thinking-people doing wrong-thought-things?

This book exposes some of the things we (humans) do that are so bereft of reason; bankrupt of intelligence; wanton in conscience; oblivious of the obvious punitive consequences, and snubbing the rules. We keep on repeating the depraved things because we usually get away with them, forgetting that our temporary impunity is a trap for eternal agony.

The book questions, for example, why one would knowingly swim in a lake infested with crocodiles and yet maintains that crocodiles wouldn’t have him for lunch or dinner. The book cautions against gambling with what we cannot afford to lose. It exposes how lessons-filled experiences are left to pass without taking notes, and by extension, extracting lessons and learning from them.

Cases are explored both from everyday life and those in the Bible where people behaved in ways that implied they sent their conscience and their intellect to bed as they continue going about their business. The reader will be surprised what people do without thinking about the implications, leave alone the repercussions. Could the reader be one of them? This book will challenge you to self-examine your ways.

The book makes a call for people to learn from others’ mistakes. It warns against taking things for granted, especially when they are things that would influence our destiny. It uses stories that are meant to awaken the ‘basic’ intellect so as to acquire the level of rationality that is available for mankind. It maintains that the person who stands the best opportunity to operate on the platform of wisdom is not the one who reads through one book after the other, it is, however, the one who determines to learn from his and others’ mistakes. He then resolves not to make the mistakes that have already been made.

Now all these things happened unto them for examples: and they are written for our admonition, upon whom the ends of the world are come.

—1 Corinthians 10:11.

Yes, the ends of the world are come to our generation—do you see it? May the reader get to interact with his/her God-given capacities to choose right. This is Swimming With Crocodiles for you. May God bless you as you read.

Daniel O. Ogweno

Skien, July, 2016

Back to Toc

—Chapter 1—

CROCODILES ARE NOT ALL OVER THE PLACE IN THE WATER

"To whom shall I speak, and give warning, that they may hear? Behold, their ear is uncircumcised, and they cannot hearken: behold, the word of the Lord is unto them a reproach; they have no delight in it."

—Jeremiah 6:10.

Life is more than fun and the pursuit of fun is not the reason for our existence. Self-discipline is wont to give fulfilment—something that indulgences in the pleasures of this world doesn’t give.

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Gambling With Life

Don’t gamble with what you cannot afford to lose, goes an adage whose counsel should be common sense. It is human to take chances but that must be guided by what is at stake. Our intuition dictates that we must engage some kind of Risk Analysis: What will we gain if things go well? What will we lose if things go wrong? What are the possibilities that things can go wrong? Can we live with the losses?

It is understandable that some people can despair enough to put their life in extreme danger as they try to get away from dungeons of hopelessness. The recent example is that of migrants trying to cross the Mediterranean Sea into Europe in overloaded boats. There would however be something wrong if such people would put their life in danger because of the pursuit of pleasure. The only things worth living for are the ones worth dying for.

It is advisable to be optimistic in life. However, it is no pessimism to maintain that anything terrible can happen to anybody anytime anywhere. Regardless of how optimistic we are, reality will always make a visit and shake our optimism. The only thing we can be unwaveringly optimistic about is the hope of glory; the hope that doesn’t disappoint (Rom. 5:5).

Theoretically, disasters only happen to other people; practically, unwelcome things do happen to all. Because we don’t always expect terrible things to happen to us anytime, anywhere, they don’t happen to us until they indeed happen. Denying unpleasant reality is no strategy to prevent it from facing us one day. It is better to brave, brace and face reality in time than wait for reality to face us in eternity. If we face reality, we stand a chance of managing it. On the other hand, if the reality faces us, we will be at its whims.

Is fun something to die for? Were we meant to entertain ourselves unto death? For youngsters swimming in a lake where there were possibilities of crossing paths with a crocodile, it could be ‘understandable’ but when a king chooses to share a bed with frogs for another night, or a prophet running away from God, there is a cause to be perplexed.

We gambled with life, something we couldn’t afford to lose, when we defied warnings and punishments that were meant to restrain us from swimming in a lake that had crocodiles. Anybody who defies God, in whatever way, is doing something more dangerous than swimming with crocodiles.

The Unseen Danger

There are two categories of unseen dangers. The first category is represented by those places and things behind which we are always aware danger lurks. The second category includes those unseen dangers we are not even aware of. It is true that we cannot live our life under fear all the time because of the unseen dangers around. But suffice it to say, there are places that regardless of how courageous we are, there is no point risking our life visiting them. For example, swimming is fun but there is nothing fun enough to risk life for—it is foolishness to swim in a water where there are crocodiles. If we put our life in danger in the pursuit of fun, then it is a sign that we don’t understand the value of life.

In what he entitled The Unseen Danger, Bill Crowder tells how their family escaped near tragedy when he was a young child. Most of the main appliances in their house, including the furnace, were fuelled by natural gas. There occurred a small leakage in one of the gas lines that put their lives in danger. As the gas leaked into their little house, their family was overcome by the lethal fumes causing them to become unconscious. Had it not been for a neighbour who happened to stop by for a visit, they all could have been killed by the dangerous, unseen enemy (1).

The most dangerous enemy is that which we cannot see and yet we share the neighbourhood. When I was growing up, I was never afraid of snakes except when I could smell it or be told that there was one in the area and yet I couldn’t see it. In the countryside where the bushes were not very far from the houses, once in a while, a snake would stray into the house. Sometimes a snake would hide in the grass-thatched roof. It was extremely rare to find somebody knowingly sleeping in a house where a snake was spotted but was not killed or removed.

If we failed to spot a snake we believed was in the house, we would burn some rubber in the house in order to smoke it out. The smell of the burning rubber was offensive to snakes.

It is better to brave, brace and face reality in time than wait for reality to face us in eternity.

We equally needed to have been afraid of playing in the ‘home’ of another reptile, namely, crocodile. It is not an act of cowardice to avoid a perceivable danger, especially if we don’t have to take the risks. The story told by Crowder above was an accident. None of them could perceive that there was a gas leakage. Imagine if someone knew that there was a gas leakage and yet didn’t care but just got into the house without a mask or any protective gear! Wouldn’t it be ridiculous if someone claimed that he cannot ‘see’ the gas and therefore he wouldn’t let himself be cowed?

What is usually our response when someone tells us of a danger we cannot see? Normally, when we are warned about a danger which is a question of life and death, we are wont to take precautions even if the person warning us was just pulling a prank on us.

Abayo: A Man We Hated to Love and Loved to Hate

We knew that there were crocodiles in the water. We also knew that crocodiles eat people. We were aware of some isolated cases of people who had been mauled by crocodiles. But swimming in the sand beach of Kisui (Lake Victoria, Kenya) was so much fun that the fear of the possibility of becoming a crocodile’s lunch couldn’t stop us. That is where Abayo Wuon Osumba came in. He determined to force us to respect that there were crocodiles in the water and that one day, we might cross paths with them.

Abayo was one old man we loved to hate and hated to love. Reason? He used to punish us for swimming in the lake. He used to sneak behind the reeds and bushes near the beach to reach our clothes. He would then collect them in a heap and sit next to them, waiting. He would wait for us either to notice him or finish swimming.

In the rural countryside where I grew up, we knew nothing about swimming costumes. If it was swimming, it was a case of removing all the clothes and swimming—stark naked.

Being so absorbed in swimming and shouting at the top of our voices as we swam, Abayo would always catch us unawares. Whenever we saw him, we would know that we were in for some good lashings. As we came out of the water, each of us would get three or four lashes on the wet naked buttocks before he could release one’s clothes.

Who was Abayo and how could he cane children who were not his? He was a self-styled custodian of children’s safety. In the countryside, it was a known culture that any adult could punish any child if the latter was mischievous in any way. There was a collective responsibility over upbringing of children. If, for example, one was looking after the cattle but got engrossed in swimming or playing football resulting into the cattle straying into somebody’s farm, the culprit was sure to get lashes from the owner of the farm. Even after getting corporally punished in this manner, one wouldn’t go home and report that he was caned. If one did, he risked being lashed at home as well.

Abayo used to cane us because it was dangerous swimming in the water. Chances of a crocodile pouncing on us was as open as the lake we were swimming in. Since he never came to the beach every day, we took chances, hoping that he wouldn’t come. We knew, and rightly so, that just as crocodiles were not ubiquitous in the water, so was Jaduon’g Abayo not around the beach all the time. What we didn’t think about was the fact that unlike Abayo who would catch us, administer punishment and let us go, the crocodile would catch somebody for a meal. Another thing that we didn’t think about was that just as Abayo would turn up once in a while and catch us unawares, so was the possibility that a crocodile or two could turn up once in a while and surprise us. And a crocodile only needed to turn up once.

That day came. Yes, the day when a crocodile turned up. We were well into the deep part of the water we could ever manage to reach when we saw a crocodile approaching us from the shore. There was only one direction to go and it was the same direction the crocodile was approaching from. There were no exit possibilities at the other parts of the shore because of the thick, thorny aquatic plant we locally called orindi.

The crocodile had been basking in the sun just near where we had left our clothes. It was likely that all this time we were swimming, the reptile was basking and sleeping in the sun. Crocodiles hardly have enough to make them forgo a meal that avails itself in its territory. We were about eight teenagers. We knew that at least one was going to be eaten alive that afternoon—there was no question about that. The only question was: Who is it going to be? With powerful jaws that would bring down a full grown bull, a teenager would be an easy catch—almost a free meal. Will it take one or two or even three of us?

Even if one was going to survive, the thought of the possibility of being eaten was traumatising. I can’t bring you to feel what it felt to face a crocodile that was obviously going to tear someone’s flesh apart and break his bones into pieces. I can’t bring you to feel what it felt to