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    Mean: A Psychological Thriller Novelette
    Mean: A Psychological Thriller Novelette
    Mean: A Psychological Thriller Novelette
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    Mean: A Psychological Thriller Novelette

    By Renata F. Barcelos

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    Cassandra Connelly looks like a normal twenty-four-year-old girl. She seems sweet and shy. She works hard in two jobs and still finds time to do volunteer work. Nonetheless, there's something wrong within her. She has a lot of anger boiling inside, and a very problematic past, making her a dark, twisted woman.

    She hides her true self from the world, but there's someone Cassandra hates so much, she has been thinking of doing something unspeakable: killing this person.

    To her, killing this person is absolutely necessary, for he or she should not be alive. However, since she is still not sure about doing it or not, she seeks help. She goes to a psychiatrist in order to make a decision: should she continue hiding her meanness and being a normal girl, or should she let the meanness win and kill this person she believes deserves to die?

    In this contemporary piece of fiction, we'll find out how badly child abuse and a dysfunctional family can transform a life for worse, much worse.

    Mean is a novelette (longer than a short-story but shorter than a novella).

    ADVICE: CONTAINS VIOLENT SCENES AND HARSH LANGUAGE

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherRenata F. Barcelos
    Release dateSep 19, 2012
    ISBN9781301981991
    Mean: A Psychological Thriller Novelette
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    Renata F. Barcelos

    Renata F. Barcelos lives in Brazil with her beautiful and creative daughter and teaches English and Spanish as Second Languages. She watches way too much TV and reads perhaps too many (almost exclusively) mystery novels. Nonetheless, she has somehow convinced herself it's all work - research for her own stories. She writes for as long as she can remember, and has two published works: 'Mean: a Psychological Thriller Novelette' and 'My Sore Hush-a-Bye'. She's now working on a novel called 'Myself in Blue'. http://renatafbarcelos.wordpress.com @RenataFBarcelos https://www.facebook.com/RenatalFlBarcelos

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      Mean - Renata F. Barcelos

      Mean

      A psychological thriller novelette

      Renata F. Barcelos

      Smashwords Edition

      Copyright © 2012 Renata F. Barcelos

      http://renatafbarcelos.wordpress.com

      Smashwords Edition, License Notes

      This ebook is licensed for your personal enjoyment only. This ebook may not be re-sold or given away to other people. If you would like to share this book with another person, please purchase an additional copy for each recipient. If you’re reading this book and did not purchase it, or it was not purchased for your use only, then please return to Smashwords.com and purchase your own copy. Thank you for respecting the hard work of this author.

      Mean is a novelette (longer than a short-story but shorter than a novella).

      Mean is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and events are all products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, incidents or locales, is purely coincidental and not intended by the author.

      ADVICE: CONTAINS VIOLENT SCENES AND HARSH LANGUAGE

      Cover art and design: Ágata Maria C. Barcelos

      Also by Renata F. Barcelos:

      My Sore Hush-a-Bye

      For my daughter, Maria.

      TABLE OF CONTENTS

      THERAPY SESSION ONE

      A WEEK LATER- THERAPY SESSION TWO

      THERAPY SESSION THREE

      THERAPY SESSION FOUR

      THERAPY SESSION FIVE

      THERAPY SESSION SIX

      THERAPY SESSION SEVEN

      THERAPY SESSION EIGHT

      THERAPY SESSION NINE – THE LAST DAY

      ABOUT THE AUTHOR

      THERAPY SESSION ONE

      I don't mean to be mean, you know?

      It's just within me. Like a tiny voice inside my core, inspiring me sometimes to do stupid, unthinkably mean things, or to have horrible, mean thoughts.

      Don't get me wrong—I’m not trying to excuse or justify myself and my actions with some schizophrenic bullshit. Nothing like that. I'm pretty sure there's nothing really wrong with me, with my brain at least… and I don’t believe in any paranormal crap like ancient demons possessing me.

      No, it is just a part of me. You know, like some people can’t help but talking incessantly, even though they know they’re annoying the crowd? Or like a person who wishes to be elegant and graceful, but can’t stop dropping everything and stumbling on their own feet?

      It’s kind of like that. Except in my case it’s anger; it's an evil feeling that boils inside of me.

      But who of us is normal? I mean, everybody has something not quite regular, right? I've never met anyone as standardized as one might be, according to science, religion, whatever... Every single person I've met during my years is screwed-up in some way, even if their flaws are well-hidden.

      I used to think I was pretty good at reading people. At finding what was wrong with them, you know? I'm not so sure anymore... Maybe all I was trying to do was reassure myself that I'm normal, that the feelings consuming my soul were absolutely common, because any other being was the same—all of us struggling with the parts of ourselves no one else can see.

      Whatever the case, I have meanness inside of me, deep in my heart, in my soul.

      I know, I know, it sounds lame, clichéd. But it's just the way it is. And since I'm paying you as a desperate last resource, you'll just have to cope with me here, okay?

      Because, I gotta tell you, doc, it's damn hard.

      What? No, I don't mean living with this feeling. That’s almost unbearable, but I’m used to it. This has been eating me alive from the inside out my entire life, ever since I can remember. I’m what I am, isn’t that the saying?

      So no, doctor, my meanness is not what is damn hard—if only it were that simple... What is damn hard is to be here. Talking to a stranger I'm paying to listen to my weeping. Not only because it sounds a little pathetic, but also because I'm not rich, you know that? I live more in a hand-to-mouth situation, so it’s a bit of a sacrifice paying for your services. A worthwhile one, I hope, but still...not easy.

      Why am I here then? Gee...right to the point, huh? Okay, if you must know—and yes, you must—I decided to come because I've got to make a very important decision; a life-changing one, doc.

      Should I continue trying so hard to be good or should I let the meanness

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