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I Found Myself in <em>The Matrix </em>

It took me 20 years to figure out what kept drawing me back to the film.
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How many times is too many times to see a movie in movie theaters? This question has trailed me through adulthood. When I was a teenager, I paid $7.50 or so for the privilege of watching The Matrix not just three or four times, but 11. My colleagues have written about the reasons we see movies—even, in some cases, to the . Still, $7.50 was a lot of money—more than I earned bagging groceries for an hour—and 11 was a lot of times to drive to and from the movie theater. No one else saw it that much. But I kept going.

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