I am emotionall y very disturbed

My confidenc e is at its lowest

I feel I am not in charge anymore

I feel I am floating around

I do not think & act proactively

I am kept out of major decision s

I am not involved in the senior meeting s

I am not marked on importan t emails

Ops not interactin g with me much

My role on the project has reduce d

My role is not properl y defined

People who are importan t feel, I screwed up

I am emotionall y very disturbed

My confidenc e is at its lowest

Break this loop

I feel I am not in charge anymore I feel I am floating around I do not think & act proactively

I am kept out of major decision s

I am not involved in the senior meeting s

I am not marked on importan t emails

Ops not interactin g with me much

My role on the project has reduce d

Action & behavior to eliminate this

My role is not properl y defined People who are importan t feel, I screwed up

More issues crop up frequently because things are bad I need to be seen as a leader (even when things are bad and my role is clearly not defined and have a new boss)

Should be seen as proactive in action and behavior even when I am emotionally upset

conflict

Emotionally disturbed

Cannot be Proactive because I am emotionally disturbed

What things are still positive?

1. My boss is respectful of me. 2. My boss Keeps me informed on most things except few 3. My boss Does not have anybody else to depend on 4. My boss Gives me time 5. Is very competent and can learn many things from her 6. I was called to attend the Governance call with the client 7. I had answers to most of the questions raised 8. I felt more positive today after i spoke my mind out 9. 10. 11. 12. 13. 14. 15. 16. 17. 18. 19. 20. 21. 22. 23. 24. 25.

What are those things which I could have done better? My learning's
1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11. 12. 13. 14. 15. 16. 17. 18. 19. 20. 21. 22. 23. 24. 25. 26. 27. 28. 29. 30. I could have understood the process better? Managing the client expectations and perceptions Managing the self marketing aspect Know "what i want Have a clear understanding of the "Exit strategy" Managing the Operations team expectations Pushing back the client/ onshore team Pushing back the Ops team Knowing where to apply the CYA strategy Following alternative routes to closure on various items

Next steps

Every day before you close the day write the following: 1.Positive things that I did today & positive things that I experienced today 2.What could I have done better? You cannot sleep till you have done this. If you want to you can send me an email and I can help you maintain the document. But this must be done EVERYDAY!

Will power to annihilate the negative energy

Pray to your god everyday in the morning after you take shower. Ask for strength to deal with all the challenges of the 2 day. Do this silent meditation (even standing) for atleast 3-4 minutes Read one page or module of the book Good to Great. Do this when you go for the potty & when you are getting ready to 3 sleep. Must do atleast 1 page. If you do not get hooked I will replace it with another one. Let me know. 4 Daily 15 mins of some physical exercise whatever walking, jog, push ups whatever works for you.

Crucial conversation with Neeta before the end of the next week. Decide what you want to talk and how you want to 1 present it. We can practice it a few times. I have attached a book notes pdf on crucial conversations. Check out if it is of any help.

To be seen as a capable leader (to important people)

2 (you make this item for yourself)

3 (you make this item for yourself)

Go through it

Watch the attachment in a slide show.

My role on the project has reduced

I think people who are important feel I screwed up

I am kept out of major decisions

I am not involved in the senior meetings

I am not marked on important emails Direct conversation between

My confidence is at its lowest

I am emotionally disturbed

Operations not interacting much with me My role is not defined properly

Feel like I am floating around I am not in charge anymore 8