Driving Me Wilde Chapter One Angelica You are going to be working in room onefifteen, my boss hurriedly rushed me forward.

They want this tray of coffee and

muffins, but out breast up, she pushed me through the double doors. I got on the elevator with the tray and when upstairs. This was my second week and I had never meet anyone famous before. I knocked on the door and a guy answered. I

walked in. Who are you, a girl asked. She seemed stuck-up as hell. Im like an assistant the management company sent me, I stuttered. My heart was pounding in my chest and I was scared. Dont ask me why I had no idea.

Hey, Chris Brown walked into the room. Everyone get out, except for you , he looked me in my eyes. OMG! His freckles were so sexy. They slowly walked out and a few video vixens rolled their eyes. So you are like my new assistant, he

said. Temporarily, I responded. Can you cook, he asked. I felt like I was doing the interview process all over again. I nodded. The room was clean, so i assumed he had just started staying there.

He kept staring at me. I couldnt tell if he was actually looking at me or my ass. I mean where Im from (Atlanta) all guys saw when they looked at me was a big ass and nice tits. I never realized how sweet a man could be until I

meet my curtain boyfriend, Stevie. Stevie was super sweet and I had never been treated like a queen before, so I wasnt going to mess it up. Even with Chris Brown eye fucking me. I mean it was almost like I could feel his dick

inside of me. i looked down to make sure I was just imaging it. Thank Goodness! I had never cheated before and i wasnt about to start now. Chris Brown This girl looked too good and I dont think

she knew it. She was wearing jeans so tight that I could tell she hadnt put on any underwear or she was wearing a thong. Either way I wanted to fuck her. I was hard as fuck so I asked her to cook something while I took a cold shower. When I

got out the phone rang it was my jump-off, Seiko. Chris: Hello Seiko: Hey Baby Chris: Whats up Seik? Seiko: You wanna fuck later?

Chris:I just got a new assistant, I wanna show her the ropes. Sieko: You gon fuck her? Chris: Do it mater, you not no main bitch Seik, get that shit through her head.

Seiko:You know you only want me and it makes me sick to see you with her? if you dont tell her I will. Chris: Fuck outta hea with that shit! *hangs up* I did want to break up with my girl, but not to

be with Seiko, I was just tired of the shit. She was always talking to Mediatakeout.com bout shit and that shit wasnt cool.I finished my shower and got dressed. The food was done. I told her to eat with me and she agreed. She was really

pretty. Blonde auburn hair and a great body. You know this isnt a date right, she said to me, serious as fuck. It could be, I smied. Usually girls melted at my smile, but she looked at me like I was crazy. I got a good

man and you are my boss but Im not fucking shit up for what could be, she stood up. Ill clean the dishes after my shower, she went into the guest room. No girl had ever done me like that before. Her body said she wanted

to fuck me, but everything else said she didnt even want to be near me. I was going to get this girl. Whats your name, I asked. She finally smiled, Angelica Wilde. Chapter Two

Seiko He did not just really turn me the fuck down, I slammed my phone down. It is kind of messed up that youre fucking him,Aysa said. A bitch gots to get paid and once this nigga trust

me enough to do a no condom fuck, we getting that paper, I laughed. She laughed right along with me. I really didnt want to lose Kay as a friend, but if her man was gone to help me make it big, then fuck friendship.

Angelica Eight Months Later Chris, I ran in screaming. I was his full time assistant now. What babe, he hugged me. Stevie asked me to marry him, I hugged Chris. He stumbled back with

a what-the-fuck look on his face. I thought you would be happy for me, I held his hands. I am, he was lying. Why cant you be happy for me, you know how I feel about him, I was mad as fuck now. No! I know that you THINK you love

him, but he really just makes you feel secure, because of your insecurities, he yelled. Nigga fuck you, I pushed him back. He grabbed me and pushed me against the wall, kissing my neck. No, I moaned. He puled off my shirt and

kissed me down to were my jeans were, then pulled them off. Before I knew it we were both ass naked up against that wall. He sat me on his shoulders while he was on my knees eating me out. I rubbed the back

of his head;moaning. His tongue was so deep and it felt so good. I had never been eaten out before. Chris brought me over to me couch and slipped his big dick inside of me. I moaned in pleasure. He started slow going in and out ad then sped

up, fucking me so hard I counted help but scream. he slowed down a bit to suck my nipples. He flipped me over and hit it doggiestyle. Damn! I woke up in bed with Chris. I went to the bathroom and looked

in the mirror. What the fuck had I done? Stevie asks me to marry him and I go and fuck Chris. Ughh! The worst part is that I enjoyed it. I came three times and enjoyed every second, but I wasnt a cheater. Fuck am I talking about? Not only was I a

cheater but a hoe. Who does shit like this? Chris I woke up and reached over to Angelica, but she wasnt in bed. I got up and walked into the bathroom. She was naked sitting on the

seat. Hey, I tried to kiss her. She pushed me away with a disgusted look on her face. What, I ask. Ive known you for eight months and now when Im fucking engaged you want to make a move, she punches me. I was waiting for

the right moment, but when you said that you were engaged I knew I would lose you if I didnt make a move, I said. She didnt know how good she looked. Im done, I quit stay away form me, she yelled, pushing past me

and grabbing her clothes. Angelica 6 weeks later I hadnt slept with Stevie since the Chris thing. I felt terrible and their was no way I was going to return Chris calls. I threw up again

for the fourth time in three hours. The buffet last night was the wrong choice. Take a pregnancy test, with all the sex you and Stevie have, my bestfriend, Joie said. I did it for her amusement. As if things couldnt get

worse, I was pregnant and I knew damn well it was Chris baby. What the fuck had I gotten myself into? Why hadnt I yelled out the word condom somewhere between him eating me out and him fucking me on the couch?

Of course I wanted my baby, but I wanted to be married t o Stevie too. This shit was just not working out. Chapter Three Chris I tried calling Angelica again. I had been trying

to get in touch with her for six weeks with no response. I missed her. Yeah I was wrong for just pushing up on her like that, knowing how she felt, but it wasnt like she was an unwilling participant. I grabbed my bag and skateboard to go meet

some friends. When I opened the door Angelica was standing there. She pushed past me and went to sit on the couch. Mr.Brown, she addressed me like she didnt know me. I dropped my bag and

closed the door then went to sit on the couch with her. Ms.Wilde, I smiled. She looked mad, but I was happy to see her. Its going to be Mrs.Johnson soon, she rolled her eyes. What do I owe this visit, I ignored the

Mrs.Johnson comment. She took a deep breath and sat her bag on the floor. Chris Im-, she began. Angelica How the hell was I supposed to tell him this? Oh, Chris I know I was a bitch but Im

pregnant. Fuck outta here. I wasnt about to do that. For a second I wished that I was one of those shisty bitches that lied about who the daddy was, but that just wasnt me. I couldnt do it, I couldnt tell him. Not yet. I had to prepare. I had to lay

the mattress on the ground before I pushed him out the window. Brace him for the fall, ya know. Chris Im sorry about everything, can I have my job back, this is not at all what I wanted to do, but this is what I HAD to do. He grinned with

a got-you-now look on his face. So you came crawling back, Stevie not providing right, he leaned back. First off my nigga Im not crawling Im walking upright strong as hell, not stumbling over like ya gorilla ass and second Stevie is a great

provider, but I want something to do while hes working, get your shit straight, I hit his feet off the table. He stood up. Yo man work a nine to five dont he, Chris shook his head. I wanted to laugh cus I knew he was joking, but getting

pregnant by him was the last mistake I would make in my relationship. My phone rang and I went to answer it. Malaysia: Did you tell him?

Angelica: I couldnt! I just got my job back instead. Malaysia: Im yo best friend and I can do that tough love shit. A dose of tough love, tell him. When yo ass shows up for work with a baby bump and both they

hearts hurting. What you gone do? Steveo gone know yall werent fuck ing during the time you got pregnant and Chris gone assume its Stevies so when he finds out its not he gone be done with yo ass too.

Angelica: Thats enough tough love for my ass, Ill stop by yo house later. Love Ya. Malaysia: Yea, love ya hoe ass too. I got off the phone and went back into the room. Chris was watching tv. Everything

was back to normal, except for my pregnancy. Chapter 4 Malaysia Ill be damned if she gone hold off on some shit like this. I loved my bestie, but she believed in doing some STUPID

SHIT! This bitch was pregnant not missing an exam. Her life was about to change and I knew it. I used to be one fast ass hoe. I met Angelica who was quiet and seemed kinda mean, but cool. We started kicking it when we were

15, sophomore year of high school. I got pregnant one year later. When every other bitch bailed Angelica was right there helping raise my little boy. She still helps me out. Not only with my five year old bundle of joy, but

when I get sucked into my exes web of lies. Dont be like this dumb bitch right here any slightly insecure girl is going to let a dude fuck her if he says those three magic words. I hate those words. They make my stomach

churn. Those three words took my virginity and got my knocked up and kicked out at sixteen. Those three words got me to sleep with dudes that didnt even know my name. Those three words. ILove-You. When I hear those words now I

think nigga please, but my ex. Ya know what i mean, its something about him. Im not in love with my baby daddy, but I got love for him. I cleaned up my house and called Mrs.Rivers to make sure my son,

LaShawn wasnt giving her any problems. I was only having a few people over, but I wanted to make sure my house was neat as possible. I was doing pretty good for a twenty-one year old mother of a five year old. Angelica had

convinced me to move up to Cali with her and we started with promo jobs and stuff like that and now I own a club and she works for Chris Brown. My baby daddy, Shawn, was also in for the week. Angelica got

their an hour after things started getting good. How was work, I rolled my eyes at her. Fine, she smirked. Just like Chris, I said, under my breath. She laughed. A girl with long red weave walked up to

me. I had no idea how she was there, cus I didnt know her. Youre Malaysia right, she asked. And you are, I responded. Kassidy, Shawns main bitch, she flipped her weave in my face. I got up close and personal on her ass. Look Hoe, I

dont know who the hell you think you are but imma about to woop yo ass, walkin up into my house talkin bout you Shawns main bitch, bitch I will fuck you up. Imma be drawin blood like Im red cross, I said the last words slow so she

could hear them. She backed up looking scared. I was heated as fuck and this bitch was about to go down! Angelica I heard a noise in the living room, but I didnt know what was going on. I turned the shower

water on and took my clothes off. I turned to the side and rubbed my stomach, there was a baby inside of me. My little boy or girl. A little life. The door opened and I grabbed a towel. Hey Angie, Shawn came in. Im about to

take a shower, I stepped back. Alone, he bit his lip. I nodded. He grabbed me and threw me into the sink. My head started bleeding. He leaned me over the sink and started to rape me. I cried. There was no point in screaming, the

walls were sound proof. I scratched the wall and counter, sobbing heavily. He picked me up and fucked me in the shower. It hurt so bad. Not only emotionally, but physically. He finished and put me in the shower. Tell

anyone and I will fucking kill you and your unborn child, he slapped me, before walking out. I sat there for what felt like whatever. I closed the shower curtain and just sat there, bleeding. The bathroom door

opened, and I flinched but stayed quiet as hell. Continue your shower, I just need some eyeshadow, I ran out of this color and I just had to fuck this bitch up in the hallway,she started going through my makeup. I didnt say

a word, I just stood up and started taking my shower. I tried to wash all his filth off of me, but I was sick. I looked down and realized the blood wasnt only coming from my head. Malaysia, I screamed. She opened the shower curtain and saw the

blood. Im calling 911, she said. She dialed the number and told the operator what was happening then ran back in and turned off the shower water. She held me, then I passed out. Chapter Five

Angelica I woke up in a hospital bed with Malaysia squeezing the life out of my hand. What happened, I breathe. She looked at my eyes and started crying. Baby girl, you lost the baby, she said.

All of the air was sucked out off me. The machine started beeping faster. Nurses rushed in and Malaysia was asked to leave. Calm down, one said, rubbing my hair. Stevie was in Tokyo so I knew he wouldnt be there. Chris rushed in

and the nurses left. You ok, he asked. Yea, I replied. He kissed me. When your lips touch mine its the kiss of life, I know, I know that its a little bit frightening we might as well be playing with lightning, but I

love you and I want us to be together, maybe I am being selfish but you mean the world to me and I would give up the fame, money and everything else just to be with you. I love you., he held me in his arms. Suddenly everything wa

s clear. I really did love him. He was the one I wanted to spend my life with and even though I hadnt even known him for a year, I didnt need a year. My heart knew I loved him the day we met.

Malaysia walked in. Chris right, she held her hand out. He shook it and nodded his head. You must be Malaysia, pretty name, he said, still focused on me, they both sat by my bed. One Year Later

Me and Chris were in a happy relationship, but I still hadnt told him about the pregnancy and miscarriage. He thought the hospital was just because I hit my head when I slipped in the shower. He sat on the balcony looking at the sun go down.

The cars that passed below looked like beautiful lasers shooting across the streets. I loved him so much more now. We spent every night talking until we fell asleep. Chris

She smiled at me and wrapped her arms around my stomach leaning into my back. She would never know just how much I loved her. She took big risk to be with me and she was not going to regret it. There was stuff that had

come up in the past year that I had to deal with though before I could be in total bliss with her. 1. Seiko and Kay had decided that their life goal was to bring me down and get famous doing it. (Talk about

fucking the wrong bitches) 2. I knew their was something Angelica wasnt telling me about that night a year ago. I knocked the hospital papers on the floor and saw something about

slight internal bleeding. 3. Two real good songs had leaked. I needed to find out who was doing it before my whole album crashed. I didnt want to tell her anything though. Like I

said before she was in total bliss and I wanted her to enjoy that for as long as possible. But just with problem number one I knew shit was about to hit the fan Chapter Six Malaysia

Talk about being heated everything was pissing me off right now. Ever since the night after Angelica was released form the hospital everything had changed. Reminiscing About That Day

What happened to make you bleed like that, I mean a miscarriage doesnt just come from you hitting your head, I had to sped up because Angelica was walking so fast. She ignored my question. We arrived in front of her door and

she braced herself. I knew what was about to happen. According to the itinerary Stevies flight had landed two hours ago and she was about to end it. I wasnt sure I agreed with her. I mean why the hell would she break up with the guy she has

been drunk-in-love with for four years, just to kick it with Chris. I rolled my eyes. She noticed. Shit isnt perfect, she said, putting the key into the lock. I snatched her hand,I like Chris shawtiee I really do, but dont you

think youre making a mistake baby girl. She snatched her arm away from me. I dont judge you when you fuck random guys and I sure as hell dont judge you when you leave your kid with me for days to party dont

dare judge me, she yelled. Bitch please, I would never leave my child, you know damn well my boyfriend was beating me and I had to get LaShawn out of that situation, I make mistakes and its ok for you to judge me on my shit, but if you every

call me a bad mother again I WILL kill you, I yelled. The vain in my neck was throbbing and I was two seconds from beating the shit out of her. Her face was turning red and we were both breathing heavily. We were both holding in tears.

She unlocked the door and I followed her into the bedroom to get her stuff. What the hell, she screamed. The tears finally released. That chick Seiko that had been trying to ruin her life for 6 months was riding Stevie. He pushed her off and

jumped up. Look baby, she told me that you were into Chris, he tried to make what he had done seem reasonable. I cant believe I fell for this, look at what youve done, your losing me is what youve won, got

me planning to go solo now we are DONE, she rolled her eyes and started packing up her stuff with me. I was proud of her little did I know this would be the beginning of a cracked and bumpy road.

After that I called her and tried to reach her however I could, but nothing happened. I had talked to Chris and he said she was happy, but the few times I had run into her she seemed angry at me. Now, Im one hood chick so I dont take

shit from no bitch but I could also tell the real from the fake and there was something horribly real behind the way she was acting. I just wanted to know what it was. Angelica

I loved Malaysia. She was like a sister to me, but I couldnt bare to look at her face. The fact that she was sleeping with the guy who raped me disgusted me. I knew what I had to do. I sat down on the couch and turned the t.v. off. We

need to talk about what really lead me to the hospital, I held his hands. The look on his face showed that he was expecting this conversation. The first time we had sex I got pregnant and I was trying to find a way to tell you, but I couldnt

so I went back to Malaysias to take a shower, because I was staying with her while Stevie was gone, I started crying. Her boyfriend raped me and I misscarried,tears were poring out of my eyes like a river.

He held me tight. I could feel the anger in his voice as he began to speak,Rest, im going to go out quick and I wont do anything stupid, but you need to talk to Malaysia shes worried about you, he said before leaving out. I relaxed because it felt

good to tell someone, but Malaysia had to hear the truth soon or she would never forgive me for letting a rapist around her son. I turned on MTV and the news wasnt positive. A skimpy blonde reporter in a dress that looked like it

was suffocating her spoke, A third song was leaked from singer/rapper Chris Browns latest album, if this continues there may be no more of the widely talented aritst. I turned the tv off. When the hell would

shit just start working out in our favor. Chapter Seven Chris I knew who had done it. There was only one possible person. The only reason Angelica would avoid Malaysia.

Shawn had raped her and killed my kid. My Kid? It felt weird to say that. I knew he hung out at the bar across from the porn store. I drove as fast as I could and I was shocked that I didnt get pulled over. I didnt know exactly what I was going to do,

but I did know that their was no way that this nigga was leaving out of this shit in good condition. I got out the car and walked into the bar. I knew what he looked like from a picture Angelica used to keep up of her, him, and Malaysia. He was

sitting at the bar and I sat next to him. Yo, Chris Breezy, he laughed, drunk as hell. III know your girl Angie, he patted my shoulder.I pushed him off. I know, she told me and I also know that

you raped her, just thinking about it was making me heated and I was ready to explode. My fist tightened and he laughed again. I punched him in his face. Before I knew it I was throwing blow after blow. Blood was covering his face and

only a little bit of it was mine. He was laying on the ground, to weak to fight back, but I just kept throwing hit after hit. Every time Angelicas face came into my mind the punches got harder. How could anyone hurt her like that? Police

came in and pulled me off of him. He wasnt moving. he wasnt even breathing. Angelica I took a deep breath as I stood in front of Malaysias door. I was so nervous I wanted to puke up

everything I had eaten that day. I went over the scenarios of how she might react in my head. I couldnt breathe. I wanted to cry. I always wanted to cry. Thats why me and Malaysia always fit together. She was brave and tough. Even

when she got kicked out her house for being pregnant she didnt shed not one damn tear. Me, all I did was cry, whenever I wasnt laughing. Now there was nothing to laugh about though, so I found my eyes becoming wet with

tears, but trying to not let one hit the ground. I knocked on the door a couple times and she finally answered. She smiled, pulling me into her embrace. I really did miss her. She was smiling mad hard, but I had to stop her before

she got carried away with joy. I brought her over to the couch and we sat down to talk. You were right a year ago, hitting your head doesnt cause a miscarriage, but someone raping you can, I hung my head. I

was ashamed. I had been raped and not strong enough to fight it off. I was weak and pathetic, but now wasnt the time for self pity. Her eyes were steady,Someone from my party? Shawn, I said. She looked at me, confused and then

stood up. Fuck you, you lying bitch Shawn would never ever hurt anyone, she yelled before falling to the ground. Never, she whispered to herself, shutting her eyes and trying to drown the world out.

I was hurt but I couldnt blame her, because if she came to me saying this about Chris I would consider that fighting words, but Chris wasnt Shawn. She sat Indian style and looked into my eyes. Sorry baby girl, she said. Cant blame you, I breathe.

Are you ok, she took long breathes in between each word. I didnt answer. Of course I wasnt OK. Her baby daddy raped me and caused me to miscarriage and then threatened my life. I was angry all the time

now, even when I smiled. How was I supposed to move past that. It hurt my soul just looking at old pictures. At the slightest frustration I just wanted to rip everything apart and kill everyone. I was hurting.

Did you tell anyone else, she spoke softly. Just Chris, I said. Is he ok,she held my hands. I-I began, but my phone rang. Angelica: Hello Tyga: Its Tyga, where are you?

Angelica: At Malaysias house, were are you? Tyga: Yo, we need to talk. Angelica: Why, whats going on? Tyga: Ang, Chris beat up some guy. They think the dude is going

to die. There going to charge him for murder. Angelica: What? This is all my fault, what was the guys name? Tyga: Hold on, umm, Shawn Mathersons Angelica: Shit! Alright, Ill meet you

at the Skate Shop in about thirty minutes. Malaysia, we need to talk, I braced myself. She would never forgive me. Chapter 8 Chris I wasnt going to get out of here. I knew they

would bring up my past to get me sent to jail. I dont know what came over me. I hadnt expected to kill him. I was trying to protect Angelica. How the hell was I supposed to protect her from behind steel bars. My bail hearing was in an

hour. I told Tyga to tell Angelica. I prayed she would be ok. I loved her so much and I didnt want to leave her alone. If I went to jail it would kill her. I told her I wouldnt do anything stupid but here I was in jail.

The bail hearing was quick. Ten grand. I was bailed out within the hour. Angelica held my face in her hands. She wasnt mad at me but she was was upset. Other than the obvious whats wrong, I kissed her, walking outside. We got in the

car and she looked out the window. I told Malaysia about the rape and she was mad, but then she calmed down, but then I told her about what happened to Shawn and she went off. So I left things werent suppose to be like this

Chris, its hard,she leaned into my chest. I felt bad because this was all my fault. Her eyes swole with tears. I rubbed her back and whispered in her ear. I loved her and wasnt really showing it, but somehow I would.

Malaysia I had no idea how to tell my son that he no longer had a father. The hospital had called and told me he died.LaShawn, I called my son into the bedroom. He ran in smiling, holding an

action figure.He was the most precious thing in the world and I had to break his heart. You know your daddy is an amazing superhero right, I rubbed his curly hair. He nodded. And every superheros story comes to an end, I

kissed his head. Daddys going to live in a kingdom, he looked at me. Yea, but baby, daddys going to live in Gods kingdom in Heaven and he cant come back, I kissed him again.He looked confused and then upset. He wrapped his

arms around me and began to cry. I held him as tight as I could. It pained me to see him cry. I hugged him tight. Seiko I went to MTO.com and saw the words in black letters Chris Brown arrested for

murder. This was the break me and Kay were waiting for. Chris Brown was about to fall and I would be invloved. I told Kay about what happened and we started thinking of a plan. Murder was a big blow and I

knew that Chris and his relationship couldnt handle another one. I not only wanted to ruin him, but break his girl at the same time. Just her being around, before they were even together made him tell me to lose his number.

I mean, Im beautiful and that bitch is only pretty.Why would he chose her over me?Bullshit. I know what Im worth and its alot more than that raggedy bitch. Stevie would be great help. The fact that she

left him for a Chris really pissed him of and I know he wanted his revenge. He would get his revenge and so would I. Trust and believe-revenge is oh so sweet. Chapter Nine Angelica

Too much was going on. I felt like all I had left was Chris and he might not be around for long. I felt pieces of me were being ripped away. I still hadnt talked to Chris about what exactly had happened to lead to Shawns death. He

usually just sat in the kitchen with a sad hopeless look on his face. I wanted to console him. In a way it was all my fault. I had caused this drama and I hated it so much. I sat at the doctors office. I had made sure

to have regular appointments since the miscarriage. Ms.Wilde, the nurse called. I followed her into an examination room. Change into these, she handed me a papery garment. I did as she told. Someone

knocked on the door and then walked in. The face staring at me bothered me. It was Stevie. What are you doing here,I asked. I heard about Chris and I wanted to see if you were ok, his green eyes examined my body. I sat down bare

back against the wall. Im fine, now leave, I said. Look I dont understand why you act like Im the only one that did something bad in the relationship , I know you cheated on me with Chris and got knocked up by him, he looked upset. Those

words were like a punch in the gut. Stevie was right, but I couldnt have a conversation with him while I was basically naked. Ill talk to you later, I looked away. Things are bigger than you think Angelica and shit is bout to blow up, he

kissed my cheek. A part of me still wanted him around, not relationship wise, but as a friend. Thats why our relationship had worked so well. We were comfortable with each other. He used to be my best friend.

Guess relationships really do fuck shit up. When I got home Chris was assuming his position in the kitchen, staring at the wall. Hey sculpture want to tell me what is going on?, I joked. He looked at me and smiled. I

took it too far and I feel terrible, who am I to take a life, he said. 2 Weeks Later I sat on the witness stand. Prosecutor: What was your realtionship with the deceased?

Me: He was the father of my friends kid. Prosecutor: And your rapist? Me: Yes Prosecutor: How did you know the defendent? Me: Hes my boyfriend.

Prosecutor: So he would kill someone to protect you? Me: No, what happened was an accident. Two Hours Later Prosecutor: Malaysia, how would you describe the victim?

She looked at me and I looked down. Malaysia: Not a victim. I looked up, confused but shocked at the same time. Malaysia: Do you know how I lost my virginity? Neither do i. I went into the bedroom

because he told me he loved me. Last thing I remembered I was pinned down naked on the bed. I woke up with tears on my face, but he said those words again and I fell right into it all over again and it hurt like hell. I told myself for

years that he didnt do it, but I know for a fact that he did. She stayed straight faced. I had never known. Why hadnt she told me? Guilt and sympathy flooded my body. Chapter Ten

Angelica I sat in the car waiting for Chris. He was found not guilty. The graphic details of my rape along with what Malaysia had said really swayed the jury. Malaysia walked up to the window and I

rolled it down. LaShawn can never know about that and you also need to know that the night LaShawn was conceived was consensual sex, but the way I lost my virginity was exactly the way I told them,

she pointed to the courthouse. I love you baby girl, I was just upset that LaShawn wasnt going to have a father anymore, but he is better now, she smiled. I missed you having my back, I got out the car and hugged her. By the

way K.C. is coming into town and she expects us to party it up with her on the L.A. scene. She said Atlanta has all the gay chicks but the sexiest ones live in L.A., Malaysia laughed. Malaysia That Night

K.C. was our lesbian best friend. She dressed and acted like a dude, but she was super pretty, skinny as fuck and wouldnt be caught dead in baggy clothes. We walked into the party. Me and Angelica were wearing sexy tight

dresses and K.C. was wearing jeans and a Polo. Angelica wouldnt be staying the whole night, because she wanted to celebrate with Chris over him not getting locked up. We partied for hours until we were so drunk we could barely stand and

then caught a taxi home. K.C. was staying at my place. I payed the babysitter and she left. My son was asleep. Where am I sleeping, K.C. asked. The back has a guest bedroom, I stumbled to the room. I

almost fell on the bed, but she helped me up. We looked at one another. She laid me on the bed and took off my dress and began to eat me out. Im not gay, but that shit felt real good. She then sucked on my chest. She went

into one of the bags and pulled out a dildo, and fucked me. Not even a nigga with a real dick that was big felt that good. I returned the favor and ate her out. She pressed my head down and my tongue was deep inside her.

The Next Morning I woke up in bed naked next to K.C. What the hell had happened? Did I fuck her? I got up and left the room. I took a shower and got dressed before going to wake LaShawn up. When I walked out my

bedroom I heard a noise in the kitchen. I went out to see K.C. and LaShawn eating breakfast together. He was laughing. He hadnt laughed since Shawn died and I was glad he was happy. It was awkward as fuck to go into that kitchen

though. I needed to clear the muthafuckin air, before I sat in a room with K.C. Go get ready for school, I kissed LaShawns head. He ran to the bedrooom. I could tell you liked last night, she moved close to me. SHIT, that meant we

fucked. Look shawtiee, I aint gay, I said. You say we can fuck, but you aint gay well ok what you call that, Chapter Eleven Seiko Today we set our plan into motion. Stevie was going to have lunch

with Angelica so now was our time to make a move. Kay changed into her sexiest outfit and I changed into the hotels customary front desk outfit. We slipped in with ease. I walked straight behind the desk. Are you new, a girl asked, that was

working behind the desk. I smiled and nodded. Kay sat in one of the lobby chairs while I searched thorough the data base. I found it under his managers hotel alias: Colorado Jones. Reading that always made me laugh.

I wrote down the name and room number and slipped it to Kay. I watched as she picked up her bag and started towards the elevator. I grabbed my bag and went into the restroom to change back to my normal

clothes. I put on my make-up and left out. Kae I got on the elevator and went to the twenty-fifth floor. I walked down the hall looking for room 2052. I found it. I waited outside for Seiko. She

had snuck and got the room key. I pretended to knock as a couple walked by. I smiled as I saw her getting off the elevator and I waved to her. She sped up and came to the room, slipping in the key card. We walked in and started getting

everything ready. Seiko turned on the shower water and dropped a few towels on the ground to make it look like they had been used. I opened two bottles of champagne and poured one down the drain and sipped a little of the other. I

turned on some Marvin Gaye. I got out of my clothes. I was only wearing a bra and panties. Seiko did the same. This was going to end them. Stevie Me and Angelica sat at the restaurant eating

and talking. I knew that I would have her back the next day. I didnt know what exactly Seiko and Kay were doing, but I knew that it would get me my girl back and thats all that mattered. More vodka, I asked. That was the only alcohol

that she drank. She shook her head no. How have you been, I asked. She put down her fork and looked at me,Lets get to the point, I just want to clear the air so that me and Chris can move on with our relationship and me and you can be

friends again. I didnt like what she was saying. We need to get back together, I said. No Im done with that and I thought you wanted to come here so we could be civil, but you just tryna hit again, hell no, she stormed

out. I didnt chase after her. It didnt feel right. Chris I walked into the room to here Marvin Gaye playing and a champagne bottle sitting on the table. Angelica was probably planning something

sexy. I walked to bedroom and saw Kay and Seiko on the bed. Hell no, get out, I yelled. Seiko got up and followed me out the room. I was headed to the door when she grabbed me and started rubbing my dick. Move, I

squirmed away from her. She kissed me and I was caught off guard so I kissed her back, but then snapped back into reality. I moved and yelled for her to get out, but she just kept trying to feel on me. The door opened and Angelica

walked in. Seiko started sucking my neck. I moved away from her again. Angelica looked hurt. Baby its not what it looks like, I said as she walked over to me. She hit the shit out of Seiko and then slammed her head through the glass table.

Angelica, I tried to pull her away. She held a firm grasp on Seikos hair, so wherever I pulled Angelica Seikos head was yanked. Kay ran out the bedroom and screamed, she started running towards us. Angelica let go of Seikos hair and

somehow slipped out of my grasp. She hit Kay as she was running and Kay fell backwards hitting the ground. Angelica got on the ground and locked her legs into Kays and started punching her face. Seiko was still on the ground holding her

face which had pieces of glass in it. I tried pulling her up again. Angelica I felt Chris trying to pull me up from behind. My adrenaline was rushing. Kay had my hair tight in her hand, but her hand let more hair go with

every blow that hit her face. I was so angry. I thought about what Chris had said in court about how he couldnt control his anger and I stopped hitting her. I got off of her and moved back against the wall. Both of you get your shit and get out, I

breathe. Angie, Chris reached out to me. I slapped his hand away. Those bitches left real quick. My chest was hurting real bad. He reached out to me and I slapped his hand again. This time I looked down. A shard of glass was in my chest

and I couldnt breath. I passed out. K.C. Me and Malaysia were having a stare-off. We had come to the conclusion that she wasnt gay and that the sex was just for fun. We were doing the stare-

off to entertain LaShawn. He was sitting there grinning just as big. Something was diff erent about the look in Malaysiaa eyes. It was softer. She looked like she was in love, but we had cleared up the whole gay thing so I

knew that wasnt it. She smiled. Auntie K.C. you lose, he said. I laughed, Cheating for your mommy huh, I picked him up and swung him in the air like a airplane. He giggled and moved around. I held him close to me and kissed his

soft, curly hair. Malaysia smiled. Malaysia They looked cute as fuck together. If I was gay I would marry this bitch. My phone rang and I went to answer it. I hung up the phone and looked at K.C. Get

LaShawn ready to go, Angelicas in the hospital, I said. She put on his hoodie and shoes and we left. When I got to the hospital I saw Chris and went up to him. What happened, I asked, pressing LaShawns head down

so he couldnt hear. She was in a fight and a shard of glass ended up in her chest, he said. I kept wondering what kind of altercation would lead to her getting glass in her. I was so worried. He said she was in surgery. A nurse came over to us.

There was a complication during surgery and she lost a lot of blood, we need you all to get blood test to see if you are a match, because we need the blood now and we dont have any of that type in the hospital, she said. As if

I wasnt nervous enough. We all got the blood test and waited for the nurse. When she came out she walked to us quickly,None of you are a match to her blood type.

Chapter Twelve 5 weeks later Chris I woke up and rubbed my eyes. I was exhausted. I stretched and went to the kitchen to make myself breakfast, I was starving. Tour practice

was grueling and it was doing a number on my body. I stretched before taking a hot shower and then changed into my practice clothes. I grabbed my keys and left. Usually I had someone else drive me around, but not for the

past few weeks.I drove to Beautiful Meadows cemetery and got flowers out the back of the car. I walked to the grave and sat the flowers down. I felt tears roll down my face. I wish I would have more time to know you, no one

deserves to die that young, you made mistakes but you did them for what you loved, I whispered, sitting the flowers down on the grave. I turned and started walking to the car. I looked back once.

Malaysia I saw Chris leaving the grave, but I didnt want to talk about it so I waited behind a tree until his car pulled away. I saw he left flowers on the grave. I started crying. Nothing made me cry, but

something about death just broke me down. Losing two lives I was close to around the same time was hard. Your safe now and the decisions you made were powerful and great, I laid the flowers down and left.I thought about

everything that had lead to this. 5 weeks before(Hospital) I heard what happened, Stevie rushed in. Lemme guess thing one and thing two told you, I smirked, he looked

upset. A nurse walk up, I have good and bad news, Steven Johnson your blood type was a match, but her heart is failing and if we dont get a transplant soon, shell die. The room suddenly got cold. We all stropped breathing. If they

couldnt get blood there quickly how the hell would they get a heart. I knew she was going to die. I started crying. Give her mine, Stevie said. We cant just take your heart, The nurse said. Stevie grabbed a gun from a cop. Everyone in the

waiting area panicked. He shot himself in the head. LaShawn woke up and K.C. grabbed him and held him tight, taking him out the room so he couldnt see. Come on, we need to do this quick, the nurse yelled. Chris looked in shock. The

Ultimate Sacrifice, he whispered. Angelica Chris was coming to visit me after rehearsals. I really needed this time to myself. I listened to my heart beat or Stevies heartbeat. I loved him

for this. I wish we could have talked first, but I knew now that no matter what he was always with me. He was my heart, literally. I looked at the ocean blue hospital walls. I was still recovering, because my body was adjusting to this

heart, especially since it was a mans. Actually I feel stronger and my sex drive is cray. Stevie would have laughed at that. I kept thinking about him and how his eyes always made me feel at peace with the world. The were sparkling green, but

lighter then emeralds. I prayed every day that God would take care of him in heaven. I hoped he had lots of flowers on his grave. Malaysia said she leaves flowers and every time she goes, there are a bouquet of

daisies there. I tried to talk to Chris about it, but he just says he never really knew him other than back when Stevie used to pick me up from work. I know he leaves those flowers though, because everyday he leaves a bouquet of roses with a

dozen daisies in the center. Daisies meant forgiveness or that the person was very sorry and wanted you to feel better. I knew Chris would be there soon, but I laid down to get some sleep anyways. I had worn Stevies heart down when we were

dating, so I was going to treat it right, now! As I closed my eyes I said my parting words to Stevie, the ones I hadnt been able to speak. You are so important to me and always have been. I love you more than words could say and if I

could hold you in my arms right now and feel your warmth I would. Baby get some rest in heaven and then have a great time. You have given me the greatest gift, life. I swore that as I blinked in and out of sleep I

saw him standing there, smiling. Chapter Thirteen Chris I pushed her through the door in her wheelchair. She could walk perfectly fine, but she was determined not to.

I had made a real good meal. I slaved over the stove for hours. She stood up and walked around the room letting her fingers linger against the wall, then she came over to me and kissed me, wrapping her arms around my neck.She

kissed me passionately. We hadnt kissed like this in three weeks and I could tell then that she was thinking about Stevie. I mean why wouldnt she? He had given her life, but I was her man. She looked so good, I slipped out of her arms and pulled out

her chair from the table, she sat down and we began to eat. I could tell she was glad to be back home. Angelica I couldnt wait to get back out of this house. Just thinking about everything that

had happened made me sick to my stomach. Normally Chris cooking is delicious to me, but I just wanted to puke it all up. I looked at the couch and got a flashback of Seiko sucking on Chris neck and I couldnt bare to go to the bedroom

that Kay had come running out of. Had she laid in my bed, naked? Yukk! Emotions flooded through me, but I couldnt show it. Chris knew that I was still in love with Stevie. How could I not be? If I left now he would think I didnt want us to be

together. He would probably want to have sex after dinner and at any other occasion so would I, but I knew what I was going to do. I was going to tell him I was going to visit Malaysia, but I was going to the grave.

Seiko I looked in the mirror. The scratches had healed, but I had a scar on the side of my face. I felt bad about everything that had happened. I mean if it wasnt for me Stevie would be alive. I

guess it takes a good ass-whopping and a death to make me fall head first into reality. I was going to change and I wanted them to forgive me, but how. Her fighting me led to everything that had happened. I have to admit it though,

Angelicas a bad bitch. *laughs* If I could turn back time I would be kind to her. Too late now and maybe a lot of people will still hate me, but if Angelica forgives me, maybe I have a chance.

I decided to go to Stevies grave and guess what. Angelica was there. I walked over to her and she stood up real quick. Anger and pain filled her eyes. Look, I just want to talk to you for a second, I said. She nodded her head, Five

minutes then I whoop ya ass again. I never truly meant for anyone to get hurt. I was stupid and blinded by fame. Im not about to stand here and say I found God, because its more than that a lot more. I found a meaning. When I

stopped by the hospital to drop off flowers and threaten you, I saw you laying there, crying. I would never want to go through what I put you through and Im so sorry. If you could forgive me I would be so grateful, but if you wont I understand., I

said, crying. She reached her hand out to my face and I knew she was going to hit me, but I stood there. She rubbed my scar . I forgive you, she said. I broke down in tears and she held me in her arms. She really was a better person then me.

I had a new friend and I would do whatever it took to make it up to her. I was starting fresh and drama free. Chapter Fourteen 2 years later Angelica Everything was perfect in my life. Me and Chris

had gotten past the Stevie situation. It was like I was having an affair with a dead guy. We are better now. In fact, we got engaged two months ago. I keep hearing the word Bridezilla under peoples breaths, but I know thats not true.

Im the perfect brideto-be. Sweet and kind with everyone. Hold on, is that bitch showing me an off-white dress? OH HELL NO! Malaysia If Angie wasnt engaged I would have whopped her ass a long

time ago. She made me sick with all the Bridezilla shit she was doing. If Angelica didnt get her act together soon, she would be short of a maid of honor. The bachelorette party was in a week and I think after this wild night she

was really going to enjoy it. It was originally all girls, but I invited two dudes from back in the day, just to spice things up a little. Reggie and Tev used be our home boys and I swear they was so fucking fine a girl could cum just from looking

at them. Talk about a wild night. On another note my son was so precious. He was seven now and acting grown as I dont know what. He said that he had a girlfriend in his second grade class. I couldnt handle how grown he was getting. I

needed to find a man to be in his life or I would lose it. Tyga My nigga Chris bachelor party was going to be off the fuckin chain, yo. I had the baddest bitches and video vixens coming and it

was gone be live as fuck. That shit was gone pop off in two weeks and I had my assistant planning it big. My assistant, Madi walked in. She was fine as fuck with hazel eyes, a big ass, big tits, long hair down her back, stopping just above her

butt and a smile that could kill a nigga. I brought the guest list for you to look over, she handed it to me, standing up straight with her clipboard. I ignored the list. You look good today, I said. She took a cloth off her clipboard

and stuck it in my mouth. I pulled it out and looked at it. It was her thong. She pulled my jeans down and started sucking my dick. She polished it til it was shiny and hard. That shit felt too good. Stop, stop, I dont wanna cum yet, I said.

She moved off and smiled. Madi assumed the ass up face down position and I put a leg up and the couch and started fucking her. The first time I put it in all the way in and she screamed. I kept going until we were both about to cum, then I

took it out and came on her back. She laid on the couch for a second, but I made her go to the bathroom to shower and I went with her. You could never trust these hoes they stayed trapping niggas. Chris

I was supposed to be writing lyrics, but I kept thinking about Angelica. She had fucked and sucked me everyday since I asked her to marry me. Damn, who knew marriage could be this good for a nigga. I couldnt wait to get

home and see her round ass bouncing on my dick, but the label was tripping so I couldnt go anywhere until I wrote at least two songs. I thought about what I could write about, if the only thing I could think about was Angie. Thats

it, just right two songs about her. Seiko I sat with Angelica at the dress shop. Me, her, and Malaysia were like Charlies Angels now, we were so close. Where was Malaysia anyway? She was

supposed to be here an hour ago and still hadnt shown. I had been here with Angelica for two hours. If I keep seeing these off-white dresses someone is getting their ass kicked, she yelled. The only upside of her ridiculous yelling

was that if she kept it up she would lose her voice. Chris must be getting fucked real good if she tries to get rid of all this anger everyday. Bridezilla, I coughed. She glared at me. Chapter Fifteen

Malaysia The bachelorette party was crazy as fuck. Angelica had been talking to Tev the whole damn night, but I didnt see her or him now. They were probably catching up on old times. I

saw Reggie and went over to him. Hey Sexy, he kissed my cheek. I smiled. Whats your job now, I asked. Truth be told I work as a bodyguard for call girls in New York, he said. She couldnt believe her ears. The guy who stayed on the

straight and narrow all through high school was a bodyguard for prostitutes. He had played football all four years and never missed church. He only slept with one girl in high school even though he could have had them all.Reggie was a girls

dream guy. He was probably fucking mad bad bitches now. Running through the hoes like a fucking train. Whats your relationship status, I asked. Im married, he said. I was shocked and a little pissed. I had hoped to get a piece of

his big dick in high school. I had heard from the girl he slept with that he had a dinosaur dick. Howd you meet, I asked him. She was one of the call girls, she called me when she got beat really bad by a guy that she was giving her

services to and I saw her laying on the floor helpless and I felt something new. I felt something that was real and we eloped that night, a year ago, what about you and Shawn,he asked. At first I thought he was talking about my son,

but then I realized he was talking about my ex. We broke up when I got knocked up junior year,but stayed real close, you didnt know that, I asked. He nodded no,Shawn was still claiming you as his main bitch when we were having our senior

year of high school, he said. I rolled my eyes. Leave it to Shawn to stop me from getting laid and having to miss prom, while he fucked mad bitches. So all these years I could be married to you, he said. He kissed me.

Angelica Tev kneeled before me, and took off my dress. Lowering my thong to my thighs he teased my pussy with his tongue. He laid me on the bed. He took off his clothes and teased my clit with the tip of

his dick. I bit my lip begging him for more. He suddenly slammed the whole thing in, pushing deep until I screamed. I covered my mouth so none of my girls would hear. He held his dick in position and then started banging me so hard,

the sheets were wet with my juice. I moved my hand and screamed his name, Tev, Tev, Tev, I was cumming so hard that I couldnt take it. He held his body close to mine and came with me.

I woke up exhausted with a headache. I looked over and Tev laid naked in the bed with me. I couldnt believe that I had cheated on Chris and enjoyed every second of it. Tev made me orgasm unlike any other man ever had. If

me and him hadnt broken up senior year he would be the one I was marrying. Chris wa s the one I cheated with not the one I cheated on. I started to get out of bed when Tev woke up.

Where you going baby, he asked, standing up out of bed. His dick was standing at attention. I wanted to suck it so bad, but I only did that for Chris. In case you forgot, Im getting married, I said. Im back baby and I know

joining the army isnt the choice I should have made for our marriage, but Im a better person now, he said. He walked over to me and hugged me. His dick was on my stomach. I moved away from him, I couldnt cheat on Chris again.

Not after everything we had been through together. Do you even have a stable income, I asked him. I own a couple of hotels, he said. Is that a yes, I asked. He nodded. What he did next tore me apart. He ran his dick down my body

until he was on one knee. Will you marry me, he asked, pulling a ring out of the pants he had sitting on the floor. Chapter Sixteen Malyasia Me and Reggie hadnt had sex, the kiss stopped at that. We

were texting back and forth though. I wanted to see him in person before he left town, but my work schedule is cray right now. Reggie: After Angie and Tev went into that room I didnt see them come out.

Malaysia: They were probably, just talking. Reggie: I walked past the bedroom and unless they were arguing idk what type of conversation they were having. Malaysia: Maybe they were arguing, he did

dump my homegirl to join the army. Reggie: And now he wants to make up for that shit. Malaysia: He wants to make up for it when she is engaged to marry Chris Brown.

Reggie: He only got out the army a couple months ago and somehow managed to start three succesful up-scale hotels at that time. The girls that work at the brothel use his hotels.

Malaysia: Still shes happy, she wouldnt fuck him. Reggie: Im sorry, but am I the only one that remembers they used to fuck twenty-four seven in high school. Malaysia: Oh I remember that time,

that was after B5 became Audio and before he DUMPED HER FOR THE ARMY!!!!! Reggie: that was over six years ago, let it go. Malaysia: Do you remember what she was like after that?

Watching Dirty Dancing over and over again. Eating ice cream until she gained twenty pounds. Singing songs of heartbreak and we know she cant sing.

Reggie:Then she went on that excersie crave and lost eighty pounds. Malaysia: Well finish the conversation later, I have work, but Im right and you know it. ;) Chapter Seventeen Angelica

I was meeting up with Malaysia and Seiko. I waited for them at the small restaurant. I was so happy when they showed up. Whats up girl, Malaysia said, sitting down. Seiko hugged me. Tevasked-me-to-marryhim, I said it like it was

one big word. They both sat there in shock for a moment. You told him no right, Seiko said, as if there was no choice. There is no way you are leaving Chris who is so good for you for someone that left you to fight for a country

that didnt and still doesnt give a damn about him, she yelled. People started to stare and she rolled her eyes. They didnt understand. They didnt know what it was like to love someone so much it killed you inside. Even after I started dating

Stevie, Tevs leaving killed me inside. I used to think I smelt his scent all the time. I used to wear his old sweater to bed praying and crying that he would come back safe. He was my first true love. I thought I had loved guys before him,

but Tev brought a new meaning to the word and when he made me have my first orgasm my feelings were confirmed. How the hell could I tell them that though? How could I tell them that even with Chris, when Chris was on tour I

would cry herself to sleep worrying that Tev could be blown to pieces somewhere. In high school I had never felt like much until Tev confessed his attraction. How could I tell them that I loved Tev more than the man that had died for me

and the one I was marrying? How could I tell them that I was only not marrying Tev because I was scared he would leave again? Malaysia You can not be fucking serious. After he broke your heart I had to

spend months taking care of you. I love you baby girl, but him leaving made me have to take care of two babies, at least you could wipe your ass. I am not going through the shit that he puts you threw, not again and if you want to sit

here and discuss this like its really a question its not and please, please do not tell me you fucked him, I finished ranting and she looked down. I couldnt believe that she had fucked him. Tev knew good and well she fell for him all

over again every time he stuck his dick in her. I knew he still loved her, but I know Chris loves her more. I can see it in his eyes. What the hell was she thinking? Seiko

I didnt know Tev, but I did know Chris and he was a good guy. After everything I put him through he forgave me, but I also knew how he felt about cheating and that was a dealbreaker. Chris felt as though you could only cheat with someone if

you loved them more than the person you were with and if he found out she was actually considering the proposal he would end it. I loved both of them too much to see them go down in flames. Me and Malaysia had to

put a stop to this somehow. 2 days later Chris Angelica had been acting weird the past few days. I held her in my arms and kissed her as we ate strawberries. She awkwardly laughed

and looked away from me. We had promised to have no secrets, so what could be so bad that she felt as though she had to hide it from me. Whats wrong, why are you acting like this, I asked. Nothing, she said. Angie, what the

hell happened, I asked, kissing her cheek. She pushed away from my embrace and started crying. I reached out to her again, but she just moved back from me. It was hurting me that she was in so much pain, but what was so

bad she had to act like this. What if it was something that would ruin our impending nuptials? Chapter Eighteen Chris I looked into her eyes waiting for an answer. Im just really nervous

about the wedding and your bachelor party, she said. I hugged her and kissed her forehead. I love you more than sweet apple pie, I laughed. She laughed too, this time it was genuine. I was still focused on my bachelor

party that was in two weeks and three days. Angelica I love you Chris and I know that if I ever made any mistakes you would always be there for me and with me, there may be bumps in our relationship, but

we can smooth them right out, I kissed him. When we kissed the world was a new place. Somewhere safe and drama free. A place where there were no ex-boyfriends with engagement rings around the corner. Our kisses were passionate

yet sweet. He loved me for me and there was nothing better than that in the world. That was my answer! There was nothing and no one better than Chris and he was the one I was going to marry. 2 weeks later

Tev I cant marry you, she said. Those words stung. I felt like she reached in and ripped out my heart. Well, maybe this is how she felt when I left her to join the army. I shouldnt have ended

the relationship back then. I only did that because I didnt want someone showing up on her doorstep with a flag saying that I didnt have a body to be brought home. I didnt want her to stay up at night

worrying about me. I didnt want to come home from leave and then go back to war and she would be pregnant with my kid to take care of on her own. That wasnt the life I wanted for her. I didnt want to give her a life of worry and pain,

but right now I could see in her eyes that I had. We sat in the living room of Malaysiaa apartment. Malaysia, Reggie, Angie, Chris and me were going out for dinner. She whispered the words, so that Chris

couldnt hear her say that. I respected her decision even though I didnt like it. I had never meet Chris before, but I had heard his music. hey, he came out of the bathroom. I stood up and shook his hand.

Im Angies, I began, but she cut me off. He used to be my cousins boyfriend, tight family friend, she lied. As if I wasnt hurting enough she ripped more of me away. Apart of me felt like I was nothing but a bad

memory to her, while she was my only memory. As bullets shot across the battle field, and bombs exploded like fireworks all I could hear was her voice telling me to stay strong and keep moving. As body parts

rained from the sky I saw her standing there saying,Fight for me. Fight for our country so that I can remain safe. I knew those were only my imagination, but they were so real. While other guys had nightmares about the war, I had nightmares

about something happening t o her because I wasnt there. I was foolish enough to think she would wait for me even though I broke her heart, but she had been in two serious relationships since and

how could I compete with them. The first one Stevie killed himself so that she could have his heart and continue to live, while Chris had killed her rapist. When I found out about Shawn raping Angelica I

wanted to kill him myself, but I couldnt do that, for obvious reasons. When I found out he was dead thought that shit still hurt. I mean he was my homeboy and Reggies cousin. Well, shit happens and you have to move on.

Him and Reggie hadnt been tight anyways since he stole Malaysia the day Reggie was gone ask her out and took her virginity away a week later. The past was the past though. Why couldnt I take my own advice?

KC I hadnt stopped thinking about Malaysia since I left a little over a year ago. I told her how I felt and I knew she felt the same, but all she had to say was that she wasnt gay. I blew that shit off and packed my

bags the same day. Id be back there for Angelicas wedding in about a month though. I still wasnt ready to face her. I had fucked mad bad bitches since i left and went I got to L.A. nothing would change.

Chapter Nineteen Tyga Ass so fat I need a lap dance, ass so fat ah need a lap dance. The lyrics of my song Lap Dance wafted through the speakers. A girl with a great ass and big tits

bounced up and down on me. Everyone was smiling and laughing. Everyone was drunk as fuck. Chris was downing Ace of Spades champagne mixed with Patron. This nigga couldnt stop laughing and slapping the strippers ass. I stood up

and grabbed a mic. Yo, yo, yo these girls not only strippers, but call girls, I laughed into the mic. The girls were only getting paid for sex if they had sex and the rest were out of luck. I stumbled over to Chris. Yo, last night you can have sex with

another woman before you get married in about a week, I smiled, leaving. I looked back once. For some reason the girl that was dancing on Chris was really familiar. Kaliya

Chris brought me back to the bedroom. I had worked hard pushing my hips from side to side hard trying to make him horny enough to bring me to the backroom. I dont think he remembered me. I had been at every concert since he had his

first one. Tonight was the night we were going to make our baby and then he would marry me. I knew that if we didnt make this baby now we never would since he was marrying that whore. I was so excited. I still couldnt believe he

didnt know who I was. I opened my legs wide as I sat on the bed. YES! He was too drunk to remember a condom. Angelica I couldnt sleep. I had a feeling in the pit of my stomach that something was wrong. I

turned over and hugged my pillow tight to my chest. It smelt like Chris. A tear fell from my eye. I was so happy to be with him. In one week he would be my husband and we would be on a yacht enjoying our honey moon. I wished he was

with me. I loved the sweet kisses he planted on my body. I had told him about Tev. I told him who he really was and everything. He said it was OK and that since we were at the end of our engagement we could sleep with one last person. I got up

and ran to the bathroom hurling up everything I had eaten that day. I felt so sick. This had been going on for three days. I was so happy I had a doctors appointment tomorrow . I felt so sick I couldnt get up off the

bathroom floor. I fell asleep there. The Next Day I held Chris hand as the doctor walked back into the room. He held a thick envelope in his hand. He sat down and I felt like I was going to throw up again. Well,

Mrs.Brown,he said. No one had every addressed me as that yet. You have severe food poisoning and the chemicals from the bad food you ate are eating away at your stomach and intestants, we need you to go in to surgery now , he

flipped through the pages. How long is the surgery, Chris asked. For this it is about three hours long, the doctor looked at both of us. I gagged at the fact that someone was going to be digging inside my body for three hours. Then I

thought about the wedding that was in six days. How long is recovery, I asked. Two weeks, the doctor answered. No, the surgery can wait, Im getting married in a week, I wanted to cry. Chris took my face in his hands,Your life is

alot more important, the wedding can wait. He kissed me. Chapter Twenty Malaysia Im supposed to be getting married right now, Angelica cried. She pressed her hands to her face. She was

probably more upset than neccesary, because of the recovery pain and being hungry. She had lost alot of weight because they had to take a piece of her stomach. Her face was pale.

Babygirl calm down, as soon as you get out of here and get some food in your stomach, youll walk down that aisle, I pryed her hands from her face. She looked so sickly. I wanted to hug her and warm her body in my arms. Ok, so that sounded kinda gay, but

so what. I had hugged her as soon as she was allowed visitors and it looked like she was in so much pain she could slap the shit outta me. Chris walked in with food. Him and Reggie sat down and started eating. Are you

serious, she moaned. A mans gotta eat, he chewed on the burger. It looked like they were about to argue. I walked outside with Reggie. We went outside of the hospital and sat on a bench. In that short amount of

time he had finished his burger. So, hows your marriage, I asked. I suddenly realized how stupid that question was. To tell you the truth its been really rocky lately, thats why I decided to stay out

here past the party and then Im still here even though the wedding is cancelled. I mean, I thought being married to a prostitute would be easy, but I realized I want to be with a girl that only gives it to me, he tried to smile.

Look, forget the hotel you can kick it at my place until you figure things out with your New York wifey. You fam and we been kickin it since M.L. King High School out in Georgia. I gots you. bruh, I smiled at him.

You know you a real ride or die, Aysia, I fucks wich ya, he said. Seiko ran out, Yo, we need to get in this room now, I was so confused. Was Angelica ok? Angelica

Yo ass see me laying in this bed, dying just to be able to eat a slice of bread but you decide its best to come in this muthafucka with a burger, fries and a fucking shake, I yelled. A part of me knew I was trippin, but hell, a bitch was hungry.

You want some of the shake, he joked. He stood up and kissed my forehead. Dont worry as soon as you get out of here imma turn the kitchen into a full fledged buffet, he hugged me softly.

 After we get married, I smiled. Actually, he snapped his fingers and the door opened. A preist and Seiko walked in. I smiled. Malaysia, Reggie, and KC came in also.

No one knew I was going to do this but Seiko and the preist. He kissed my lips. The priest began,Dearly beloved, we are gathered together here in the sight of God, and in the face of this company,

to join together this Man and this Woman in holy Matrimony; which is an honourable estate, instituted of God, signifying unto us the mystical union that is betwixt Christ and his Church: which holy estate Christ adorned

and beautified with his presence . The preist continued as I stared into Chris eyes. Christopher Maurice Brown, do you take this woman to be your lawfully wed wife, to have and to hold, through sickness and in

health, for rich or for poor, the priest asked. I do, Chris said. Those words warmed my soul. Malaysia and Seiko started crying. Angelica Abrielle Wilde, do you take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband, to

have and to hold, through sickness and in health, for rich or for poor, the priest asked. I do, I said. Now I was crying. I had never been so happy in my life. Christopher Maurice Brown and Angelica

Abrielle Wilde, I now prononce you husband and wife, you may kiss the bride. We kissed. It was warm and passionate. Everyone clapped and smiled . My life was finally perfect. Chapter Twenty One

Two Weeks Later Chris I looked over Angelicas body as she laid in the sand. Her hands were raised above her head and her eyes were closed. It was night time and the only light out was the one from

our house on the beach and the moonlight. I got in between her legs and started sucking on her neck. She moaned with her eyes still closed. I took her bikini off and sucked on her nipples. Then I raised back up and put it in. She screamed at the

first thrust and pulled herself closer to me. We made love on the beach for hours. I awoke to the sun warming my skin. We were both naked, covered in sand. I picked her up and brought her inside. I

laid her down on the bed and went to take a shower. Even though we had only been married for two weeks I knew that nothing could be better. We were both in complete bliss and nothing could mess this up.

My phone rang and I picked it up. It was a message from Tyga. Tyga: Yo, I went over to check yall place out and the shit was ransacked. I mean the whole place was torn to shreds, what do you want me to do?

Chris: Does it looked like we were robbed? Tyga: Naww, yo awards and shit still here. Chris: Alright, dont call the cops. Get someone to change the locks and get the security system beefed up. The

money to do all of that should be in an envelope in a secret panel inside the bottom drawer of my nightstand. Ask Seiko if she can stay over there twenty four seven til we get back.

I waited for his response. What the hell was going on? Whatever it was I was not going to let it ruin our honeymoon. Tyga: Found it. Seiko said she can stay, but only if she can keep a male friend over, some

dude she know named Tev. Chris: Tell her, its fine. I put my phone down and shut it off. I didnt want my phone ringing and Angelica picking it up and worrying about some bullshit. Her phone was still in L.A. I

heard the bathroom door open and she walked in. She stepped into the shower and smiled at me. She kissed my lips and started washing herself off. I leaned back as I watched her. She looked so sexy. I got hard quick. She got on

her knees and started sucking my dick. Man, she knew how to put it down on a nigga. She got up and assumed the ass up face down positioned. I fucked her even as her knees buckled and when I came we both

fell to the shower floor. I reached over and turned off the water. I have something really nice planned for us tonight, I kissed her ear. She smiled. I love you so much, she looked deep into my eyes. I felt like

our souls were touching. Angelica I woke up in bed and Chris was gone. I loved the shower sex we had earlier. We had spent the whole day naked. Three boxes laid by my feet. I sat up and

opened the smallest one. Two diamond earrings and a beautiful diamond necklace was in it. I smiled. I opened the next one. I pair of gorgeous heels that I had seen and adored on Beyonce were in the box. I squealed in excitement.

I opened the next one to see a beautiful silver dress. I was speechless. A card was at the bottom of this box. Dear Angie, At nine p.m. I will have you picked up and brought to the first place on our first

romantic experience as a couple. I love you so much. I have seen the sunlight in your hair and the water rush along your skin. Ive seen you strong through every experience and I am so happy to have you as my wife. Tonight forget

all the past worries and join me as we began the most amazing journey we ever have. Love, Chris I looked at the clock. It was eight thirty. I changed into the

clothes and did my make-up. I didnt have much time to flat iron my hair so I threw it into a bun. It was ninefifteen as I rushed out the house. A beautiful black limo was outside. I got in. I opened a bottle of champagne and begin to drink. I

didnt drink the whole thing, because I didnt want to be drunk, but I wanted to at least have an excuse for if I fell in these heels. The limousine stopped and the door opened. I stepped out. I walked into

a beautiful restaurant that was empty. I flinched as a blindfold covered my eyes. Hello, Chris whispered in my ear. I smiled. We walked and then he sat me down in a chair. He took the blindfold off. I had

never seen anything so beautiful. Chapter Twenty Two Angelica After we finished eating we left out and got into the limo. We kissed the whole way to our next destination. Where are we going,

I asked in between kisses. Cant divulge that information, he breathe. It was amazing. You know when a guy kisses you and you can tell hes smiling. It was just like that. The limo stopped and the door opened. I let go of him and

turned around to get out. Hold on, Chris said. At that moment I was pulled out of the car by two guys. I screamed. I was being dragged away. Why wasnt Chris helping me? I looked over to see him laying on the ground covered in

blood, four guys beating him to death. I was thrown into the back of a car between two guys. I couldnt stop crying. What the hell was happening? Chris

I couldnt move where the hell had these guys come from? I tried to reach Angie, but my body wouldnt let me. God, please let my wife be ok. The car with Angelica inside drove off as one of the guys pulled out a .99 aiming it for my head when

two girls started screaming. Go, go, the guy put his gun away and they took of in the limo. The girls ran over. Call the cops, one of them said, checking for a pulse. I passed out. Tyga

I was exhausted. I had to deal with all the stuff at Chris house and then I had tour practice. A nigga was ready to catch some sleep. Silence is golden. I laid down still in my clothes. Just my luck, the phone was ringing. What the fuck you

want at one in the fucking morning, I yelled. Ty, I think they killed Chris, I dont know where I am, Angie cried through the phone. Fuck you think you doing, someone yelled in the background. She screamed. SHIT, I

had to find Angie and Chris soon. Shit was not looking good. Tev I snatched the phone out of her hand. Why would you go and do some dumb shit like that, I yelled. What the fuck is wrong with

you, she yelled. Look you known I been on this gangsta tip since we meet and I went to the army hoping I could come back and do shit right by you, but then yo stupid ass go and get married, bitch you dumb as fuck thinking Ima let that nigga live,

I pulled her up from the floor and sat her on the bed. Nobody gone find you, I realized that Chris had some crazy ass stalker bitch, they working on connecting that shit to her right now, we already got a body thats gone be so fucked up they not

gone be able to know its not yours, I smiled, kissing her forehead. Killin a bitch with acid took a while, but it worked, I smiled. Go clean ya self up, I left out. Angelica

He disgusted me. I had never been involved in none of his gang shit. I assumed he was on his wannabe type shit, but it looked like this nigga really ran things. I prayed that Tyga would tell Malaysia. I had called her first, but she hadnt picked up. Shit, I

hope shes ok. Malaysia was probably the only person that would be able to save me from this shit and save Chris too. If they killed him I dont know what I was going to do. I needed help and quick. Malaysia

My phone was ringing as I walked in. I was dumb enough to think I left it outside. I laughed to myself. I walked over and picked it up. Hello, I sang into the phone. Yo, this Tyga Angelica just called talking about she think Chris dead

and she need help, I paused, taking the information in. Ill handle it, I hung up. I went through the contacts until I found the right one. The phone rang a few times and then a honey sweet voice answered, Hello. Diamond, you

need to get out to L.A. and fast, some shit going down and things dont look right, I said. You really expect me to hop out of my mans bed at one-thirty in the morning for-, I cut her off. Angelicas missing, I said, I was starting to cry. Please

dont let this have to do with some shit from back in the day. Im catching the jet, she hung up. Chapter Twenty Three

Diamond

Did some nigga really have the balls to touch my fucking sister? Dont these niggas nation fucking wide

know I run shit. No bitch could really be stupid enough to touch my fam. I had niggas all over the place. I would find them and they bets believe imma kill those bitches. Sheitt, fucking with my baby sis is a capitol offense. This

nigga was gone regret that shit big time. Dont they remember that im the baddest bitch. Im the one that is the right hand, ride-or-die chick of the leader of the , Disciple Soldiers. Fuck these bitch ass pussies think they doing. I jump up and

get dressed. I pack my shit and a few guns with it. Where you going, Stacks sits up. I got some out of town shit poppin off, Imma update you as soon as possible, I open the bedroom door. Yo, ma I run the DS so if you got into any shit that

shit better run through me first, he says placing his hand on the small of my back. Im really not in the mood for this shit. This is familia, personal and I got this shit, I leave out so fast that he cant start an argument. Being half black, half

hispanic has its advantages. So I have all the connections in all the right places. I arrived at the jet and told the pilot where I was going. This shit was not about to be pretty. I rolled a blunt and lit it up. I needed my head

clear. Somebody was about to regret that they momma hadnt hit that abortion clinic. Chris

I woke up in the hospital with an I.V. and blood drip attached to my arm. My face hurt real bad, it was probably swole. I could see that my leg and arm were broke. A nurse walked in. Your awake, she smiled. Where am I, I asked.

Maui Pedestrain Hospital, she said. Why was I here? What had happened? At that moment everything flashed back. The door opening. That gut feeling that something wasnt right. Telling Angie to hold on. Her

being dragged away. Four guys jumping and stomping me. The girls running over. Damn! Was she ok? I needed to use the phone. I needed to call someone.

Malaysia

I sat in my ride waiting for Diamond. Time ticked away and every second I wondered if Angie was ok. The door opened and Diamond got in, throwing her bags in the back. You got fatter, she said as I started to drive. I rolled my eyes,You got

sluttier. Watch ya mouth you talkin bout a little girls , mother, she smirked. You talking bout a little boys mommy, I said. Silence. We both started laughing. How you been, she asked. Good after Shawn died I had to re-

evaluate things, so Im better now, I said. Yo Shawns dead, just say the words ma and Ill dead the mutherfucker that did that to him, she clenched her hand like she was holding a gat. I braced myself for what I was about to tell her,Chris killed him

after Shawn raped Angie, he aint kill him on purpose though he let his anger get the best of him, I felt tears burning at the backs of my eyes. Why Angie aint say shit to me, ion understand, that bum

ass dude had the nerve to put his dick in my sister. I know thats ya baby daddy and all but he had no right none at all, she was heated, her face was turning red. I was definatly not about to tell her about the misscarriage. Where are we about

to start dealing with this?, I asked her. Everyone with a head on they shoulders that was from the hood knew not to fuck with this bitch. I got a dude that live in downtown L.A., he got real good connections, she gave me the address. Her

phone rang. Uh huh, yeah, look well talk about this later, this fam its personal fuck the bullshit and go fuck one of ya other bitches, she threw the phone down. If I wasnt pumped about finding my sister

before, I am now, her jaw was clenched. Chapter Twenty Four Diamond

I placed my hand firmly on my .99 making sure he could see it. Imma ask you one more time before you wont ever be able to fuck again, where is my sister and who has her? He looked at my gun and then up at me. I could tell he was weighing

the options in his head. Whoever has my sister must be real powerful to instill fear like this. I waited one minute before shooting . He screamed and cried in pain. See is that pain really worth yo loyalty to the nigga that has my sister, I

yelled, pressing my heel down on his dick or what was left of it. Youdontunderstan d, he bit his lip. Explain that shit to me then, I stayed cool as fuck. He wouldnt talk. I was forced to cap his ass. Clean this nigga up, I yelled to a dude

we called, The Cleaner. I left out and hopped back into Malaysias car. We had been at this shit for three days and gotten no where, in my opinon. It was dead end after dead end. Everybody we had

spoken to knew a little bit of something, but where more scared of this niggas wrath than mine. Shit even though me and my man had been arguing it looked like I was gone have to call his ass in for this shit.I dialed the number

and waited. He picked up on the first ring. Stacks: Now ya ass wanna call me, huh? Diamond: Stop with the bullshit, I need ya help. Stacks: You lucky you my wifey and main baby moms or I

woulda kicked ya ass to the curb. Diamond: Please, you know how I hate to resort to begging you for favors. Stacks: Whats up? Diamond: People know who took my sister, but they more scared

of the nigga that took her than me. I dont know what the fuck is going on in these streets, Bitches got this shit twisted like licorice. Stacks: Imma head out to L.A. soon as possible. You right

something aint right, but all niggas need is a reminder of who you is and who you connected to. Imma bring our daughter out there. She can stay at Malaysia place while me and you work this shit out.

Diamond: Thanks and tell Rosalina that mommy loves her. Stacks: ighht, see you soon.

Kaliya

I paced back and forth waiting for the doctor to call me back. The pregnancy test had come back positive, but

I needed the doctor to confirm what I already knew. My phone finally buzzed. Hello, I smiled. Yes, Ms.Jameson I just wanted to let you know that you are indeed pregnant, he said. I screamed and started dancing around like I

was praising the lord on a bright Sunday morning. Chris was mine and that bitch would offically be out of the picture. I just needed to go over to his place and tell him. When I arrived at his place it was quiet. No

one was in the front rooms so I went to the bedroom and it was empty. Someone had cleaned up nicely after I had torn this place to shreds a few days ago. I had been trying to send that bitch a message. I laid down in the bed to relax. Just as I got nice

and comfy the door bust open. What the hell? I jumped up. Cops rushed into the room. I was pushed on the bed, flipped over and hand cuffed. Kaliya Jameson you are here by under arrest for the kidnapping of Christopher Brown and

the murder of Angelica Brown, the cop said, yanking me up. Something about these cops gave me a feeling that they were dirty. Completely on the wrong side of the law. As I was brought out of the bedroom I was proven right. Im sick

of these psycho bitches, one cop snapped. Another one slapped me on my ass. No stop, Im pregnant Chris is my babys father, I yelled, kicking as I was lifted into the air. The laughed.

Chapter Twenty Five Angelica

I was so sick I couldnt stand it.I laid in bed

curled into the fetal position. For the past four days Tev kept trying to get me to warm up to him, but how could I? Just when I thought I was in complete bliss this stuff goes down. I jump up to throw up again. Please dont let this

have something to do with my surgery. I start crying. I want to go home. I want to know if Chris is ok. I need to chuck up the bullshit and get out. I brush my teeth and change clothes. I pat the tears away from my eyes.

Tev, he walks in as soon as I call him. Whats up, he looks over my body. As he gets closer I pull him in with my legs. The bulge of his dick through his pants make me dry. I wanna go out, I rub my hand along his chest. I

dont know about that, people think you are dead and Chris really is dead, but people wouldnt believe that silly bitch killed him so I had to make it look like she drugged and kidnapped him.

Tears burned at the back of my eyes. Chris was dead? Maybe he was lying. Of course he was lying. That shred of hope was all I had.

Malaysia

I wrapped my arms around her as soon as she ran in. She was so big now. Rosalina, I squezzed her. She wrapped her arms around my neck. Her name is Rosa-lina, roll your rs, Diamond smirked. Mommy, Rosalina yelled, running

into Diamonds arms. Stacks walked in carrying their stuff and dropped it down. She really need to hop her little ass into bed, she been wearing me down like a motherfucker, Stacks closes the door. Diamond picks up Rosalinas bag and

brings her to the back bedroom. At that moment Stacks pushes me up against the wall and kisses me. I start kissing him back, but then push him off.We stopped this already, I push him off me.

That break was temporary to throw Diamond off your trail, he said, pulling my arm, so that I couldnt get away. Its wrong, I said, my jaw tightening. You aint have a problem giving me

head when you first needed to provide or your son, he said. I remember how easy it was for you to go and go run your mouth about that to Shawn also, I smirked. Dont get me wrong. Im one tough bitch,

but there is something about Stacks that just breaks me down. Hes about 63 with hazel eyes and lots of muscle. His arms, chest, and neck are covered in gang tats. His booming voice was the icing on the cake. Fucking with him was my way to

getting to where I was trying to be. Shawn was just a corner boy so he couldnt get me the cash I needed to raise a child at sixteen. I worked hard to replace Diamond, but it never worked out, even before I got knocked up. The way Angie was

there for me though, but when I moved to L.A. and he kept calling me we both fuckedup. Im sorry, he said, as Diamond, walked in the room. He left me alone and grabbed her by her ass.

Stacks

She was a white girl freak with a black girl ass. How could this bitch not be my main. I wouldve stopped fucking with Malaysia a long time ago, but she knew how to give good head. Diamond pulled me into the guest bedroom. Shouldnt

we be working on trying to find your sister, I kissed her neck. Would you really rather do that than bust a nut, she kisses me. The Next Day

We roll up into the driveway of a worn down house. Me and Diamond get out and go up to the door. She bust it open. There is a scream and then a sigh of relief. A small woman stands up. Her name is Candy. Oh, Diamond when yall gets

to the city of Angels, she asks, heroine addicts are a damn shame. We lookin for Angie, I get straight to the point. She sits down and takes a long drag from a blunt and then lets it out. This bitch is twenty-six and looks like she is thirty-

five. Well word on the street is that Tev had some guys hit Maui, they killed Chris Brown and took Angelica, he said he wants to keep his claim on whats his, she stares at the needle next to her. Is that bitch still in Maui, Diamond ask, referring

to tev. She nods her head yes. Imma shoot that nigga dick off, she says as we leave out. Damn you obsessed with shooting dudes dicks, Di, I get into the passenger seat. And you better remember

it, she says, keeping her eyes straight forward. Chris

Hey man, I dap him up with the arm that works. Whats going

on with Angelica, do you know if shes alright, I ask him. Tyga sits down. Apparently Angelicas sister is some well known gang chick who holds alot of power and shes dealing with it, but Malaysia thinks it has something to do with

Angies past. I dont care about all that shit I just want Angie to be OK, I slam my fist down. The machine starts beeping faster. All I can think about is Angelica and if shes ok. What happened? What went down?

Chapter Twenty Six 2 Weeks Later Angelica We sat on the boardwalk eating burgers. Every time Tev touched me my muscles tightened. I bit into the burger and leaned back as I

chewed. I knew Chris was alive. I had proof. We were in Hawaii now. A news reporter had come onto a screen in Maui. A short stubby man with thick glasses spoke,Chris Brown

was found in a Maui hospital. Those were the only words I needed to hear before tuning it out. Tev made me leave Maui immediatly. The only reason he hadnt sent more people after Chris was because he

thought I was completely devoted to him. He was wrong. I mapped out my way home and slowly collected money from Tev. I went to a payphone not too far from where we were sitting and called the person I needed most.

The phone was picked up on the first ring. Yo, whoever this is im kinda busy so you gone have to call back, she was out of breathe. Its Angelica, I smiled. Baby sis where are you my ass was worried like

a bum bitch, Diamond practically screamed. I told her everything from the day I got kidnapped. She told me to sit tight and she would be on her way. 6 hours later Tev

I dont understand why she was acting like this. She would be completely fine one second and then crying like she was five the next. For over two weeks I had been putting up with this shit. Years in the army so that her selfish ass

could marry someone else. I walked in and sat on the bed. Your acting like a fucking child, just saying that out loud made me pissed. She started laughing. What the fuck was so funny to her?

You lose to Chris againIm pregnant, she stopped laughing and smirked at me. What the hell? Me and her hadnt had sex so I knew it wasnt mine. Anger flew out in rapid waves. I started hitting her. She managed to block every blow to

her stomach. I raised my fist again. BANG! BANG! BANG! The pain slowly registered as two bullets pierced my abdomen. I fell forward. Someone rolled me over on the bed. Chris, Diamond,

I heard her yell. I looked up to see Diamond pointing the gun right below my waist. She slowly moved it up until it was pointed at my head. BANG! Angelica

Tevs dead body slumped to the floor. I cried as Diamond held me in her arms rocking me like a child. I wasnt crying because of Tev, I was crying because I was so happy to see my sister and husband. I slipped out of Diamonds embrace

and went over to Chris, kissing him. Five Months Later I am officially seven months pregnant, I laughed with my girls. Seiko reached over and rubbed my belly. Baby girls about to have her own baby, Malaysia

flashed a big ass KoolAid smile. Your one to talk, I smiled, looking at her bump. She was five months pregnant and still hadnt told me who the father was. Things had been great. My phone rang and I walked out to answer it.

Angelica: Hello, Christopher. Chris: Hey, hows my baby? Angelica: The one Im carrying is leaning on my bladder, but im fine. How is Tygas tour?

Chris: Haha, Im glad and its cool there was a random rap battle between Honey Cocaine and this chick it was too fucking funny. Angelica: Hahaha, hold up. Who the hell is Honey Cocaine?

Chris: You mad? *sarcasm* Angelica: Sorry, pregnancy hormones? Chris: Honey Cocaine is Tygas new artist. Angelica: ighht I love you Chris: I love you too, Angie

I walked back to the table happy as a dummy. I cant wait for Chris to get back in a month. I sit down and bite into my blueberry muffin. Ive been craving these like a motherfucker. Kaliya

I have no idea where I am. I think its a jail, but my cell is like Im always in solitary. I rub my baby bump. Im eight months pregnant. Chris is probably looking for me right now. He is probably so happy that psycho bitch Angelica is dead. A gut

wrenching pain shot through my side. I looked down to see blood on the floor. Help, my baby, I screamed, banging on the metal door. Chris My phone rang and I jumped to answer it.

Chris: Hello Lady: Hello, may I speak to Christopher Brown? Chris: Yes. Who is this? Lady: Im calling from the Enlightenment Psychiat ric Penitentiary.

Chris: What are you calling for? Lady: A patient here named Kaliya Jameson died giving birth to a child we believe to be yours. We were just wondering if you could come down for some blood test?

Chris: Umm, sure. I hung up. There was no way this child was mine. I didnt know anyone named Kaliya and I hadnt cheated. Well, maybe at my bachelor party, but I couldnt really remember that

Chapter Twenty Seven Chris I ripped open the results to the paternity test. I looked over the paper. This was impossible? How had this happenned? Angelica walked in and I put the papers down.

Something fell to the ground. I picked it up and looked at it. It was a picture. Hold up, this was the girl from the Halloween party. SHIT! After the call I had come home right away since we had been in NYC and the place that called me

was in L.A. Angelica looked at me and screamed,Your home! I hugged her and smiled. Damn I missed her. I missed how she made my insides feel warm and made me feel like everything was OK.

Baby, can we talk, I sat her down. Whats going on, she rubbed my face. I made a mistake at my bachelor party, just like you did at yours, I said, her smile faded. Angelica

He had to bring up me fucking Tev. Im pregnant, its time to move on. Plus, I had expected him to mess with another chick even though it did sting. Alright, lets move on the past is the past, I

said. He reached over and handed me a packet. A picture was on top. What is this, I asked, looking at the picture. It was the bitch that attacked me on Halloween. I looked through the rest of the

papers: death record, police report, paternity testwait, what? I looked at it again, it stated that Chris was the father of her two day old baby. My heart hopped to my throat. I couldnt breath. I started crying. Pain filled my insides.

Baby, Im so sorry, Chris started crying and reached out to me. I jumped up, grabbing my belly as I tried to regain balance. How could you do this, Chris, Im pregnant and we are married. I hate

you and Im done, I cried heavy. I grabbed my keys and started leaving. Stop baby please, Chris grabbed my stomach. I knocked him off. Dont touch me, you make me sick, go take

care of that child you created with that fucking bitch, I walked out. I got into my car and took off. Where was I going to go? I wanted so bad to go to Malaysias , but that would be the first place he would check and Diamond lived in the

ATL. He would probably check Seikos too. Fuck it, Seikos place was the best place to be at. Olivias song December started playing on the radio and I started crying. It helped me get out the pain and tears. This was my favorite song, but I never knew

it would in someways feel like it related to my life. I pressed one hand to my belly. At least I would have my baby. Shit, he would have his. You said you loved me in December. It aint what I heard. You said you loved me in December. I

remember. I listened to the lyrics. I had never been in so much pain. Seeing him or hearing his voice would make it worse. What was I thinking. I couldnt go to Seikos place. I knew one person that I was close

to in L.A. that had never met or really been into Chris or known Malaysia and they were my last hope of finding a place to stay until I figured this out. I felt like my heart was being tossed about

like dominoes. I pulled up to the hotel. The person I needed most stayed there, because it was easier than actually owning a house and they thought apartments were too small.

I got out the elevator and pulled out the key in my pocket. I turned it for the floor. It brought me to the Penthouse level. I got out and walked over to the door. I knocked twice and the door opened. I looked over their frame. The same as all

those years ago. Just as stunning as ever. The person I needed the most was right infront of me and tears started pouring. Some of joy others from missing my love.

Hey, dont worry baby, its gone be ok, the voice coaxed. Chapter Twenty Eight Angelica Are you hungry, she asked, guiding me to the table. I know you not a pancake girl, so how

about some pumpkin pie, she asked. I nodded my head and smiled. It had been so long since I had seen her, somehow at 55 years old she still managed to look like she was twenty.

How is my grandbaby, she rubbed my stomach, while placing the plate down. You know we arent actually related, right Momma Lynn, I commented.

We related, not by blood or law, but by the code of these streets, she smiled. Trae and Reggie still visiting you, I asked her. Yea, when they can. Im glad that girl aint showed up, she

probably the reason my baby Shawn dead. Least that hoe can do is drop my grandbaby off and that one is my blood, she wiggled her finger in the air and then smiled to ease the tension that was starting to grow.

Malaysia is an amazing person, I smiled. Who the fuck is Malaysia, she sounded disgusted. Shawns baby moms and LaShawns momma and my best freind, I laughed.

She shook her head,What vitamins you on, they got you speakin crazy and what happened to finally drive you back here after all these years, even though we live so close to each other. You call but you never show up so it

must be bad, she held my hands in hers. I held back tears as I told her,So you know I married Chris Brown right. Yeah, that fine motherfucker and the man who has blessed you with this baby

growing inside of you, she laughed. I messed up and cheated on him with Tev at my bachelorette party so he slept with some girl at his bachelor party that turned out to be a crazy bitch that broke into

the hotel we lived in last year and she got pregnant at the party and she died giving birth to his kid two days ago so I left him today, I let the tears fall rapidly and steady. Her mouth hung open,Well damn, shit,

I love you but you being a hypocrite, she spoke. What, I was confused. How was I being a hypocrite? You did the same thing he did around the same time, only difference is he

accidently got the girl pregant and its not like you bout to have to deal with any baby mama drama. There is a child out there that needs a mother and you have decided that you cant raise that child because your being selfish. A couple

months after I gave birth to LaShawn my man came home saying my SISTER had just given birth to his baby. You know my ass tore him and that house up. I was furious. Plus my sister was on drugs and couldnt take care of no damn baby. I cried for

days and I really thought I was gone blow my top when he brought that baby to live with us. The moment I looked into that babies eyes I knew I was supposed to take care of him. He was as precious as my own and look at Reggie now.

Grown and married. I know he always had yo back in high school. I know I made the right decision and Im proud every time I see Reggie and think I raised him all on my own after his daddy went to jail when he was two and look at

him now, she kept her eyes steady on me. She was right. I knew it, but I was to damn stubborn to tell Chris everything was ok right now. Can I stay here for a few days Momma Lynn, I asked her,until I figure out

how to repair the damage Ive just done. As long as you want pumpkin, she hugged me. Chris I had been inside Malaysia and Seikos houses and she wasnt at either one. Why had

I fucked up so bad? I was about to lose the woman I loved and my baby over some petty shit. I should have reacted differently to what she told me. I should have cleared the air at that moment and not gone off and fucked some other bitch.

Everything was falling apart piece by piece. The biggest piece was already gone. I called Angies cell phone and it went straight to voice mail. I went to the bedroom and picked up a picture of a her and looked at it. This shit wasnt gone

fix itself so I had to figure it out and quick. Chapter Twenty Nine Malaysia I was worried about Angelica. I called her cell for the tenth time in an hour. Still no answer. I looked at my stomach in the mirror.

My second accidental preg nancy and again Im not in a relationship with the dad. How am I supposed to stay on top of my shit when I cant find a good nigga. The doorbell rang. Who the fuck was trying to talk right now?

Probably Seiko. I opened the door and saw his large frame. Large as in muscles not fat though. He stared at my stomach. Its true, Reggie spoke.

I nodded. Yeah, I messed up real bad, I said. He walked inside and closed the door, taking my hand and guiding me to the couch. I keep making these stupid mistakes. I barely made it last time

on my own. Now two kids with no man, I complained. Dont ever call yo kids mistakes and you not that same girl. You a lot more business oriented . You know right from wrong and as for that thing about not

having a man, he leaned in and kissed me. Wait, I pulled back. Arent you married, I asked. Divorced as of last month, he smiled. Look since Shawns gone and you about to have two kids to deal

with and I love you and LaShawn with all my heart. I promise imma be here for you. Plus, my Momma Lynn live in L.A. so, yeah, he hugged me. Hold up, Momma Lynn live where, I asked.

You know she never really liked you so you probably shouldnt go running over there, he smirked. Angelica and Chris got into an argument so she might have gone over there. I just want

to make sure shes ok, I said, standing up. Ill bring you, he said. By the way I love you too Reggie and I think you would make a great father, I kissed him. He smiled. Get LaSahwn ready. Having

him with you is probably the only way Momma Lynn is gone let you in. Angelica Drink this its good for the baby, she pushed a cup towards me. You used to drink this when you were

pregnant with Shawn, I asked, cringing at the smell. No, but I drank it every day from six months pregnant to the day I gave birth to Trae, she said. I love Trae like a brother, but Im not

drinking this, I nervously laughed. Someone knocked and she went to answer it. Oh hell no, bringing this bitchhold upis that my grandson, I heard her say. I heard the door close and she walked back

over. Angelica look, she held LaShawns hand. I looked up to see Reggie and Malaysia. I love my lil grandbaby so much, but gone and wait in your daddys old room so I can talk to

your mommy, she smiled. As soon as LaShawn left the room her smile faded. She shook her head at Malaysia,Lemme guess, you dont know who the daddy is, lil hoe, she smirked.

Look I didnt come here for you. I came to see if my best friend was ok. I know exactly who the father of my child is, Malaysia held Reggies hand tight. Look bitch. Im grown and I dont got time fo yo little fast ass and yo

petty bullshit. Its about fucking time you let me see my grandson. Shit, since Shawn died yo ass aint been dropped my grandbaby off once. And that baby better not be Reggies. Shit, you tryna have babies with the whole fucking family. We got a family

reunion coming up. You wanna stop by after you pop this one out. As for Angelica I really dont think you need to be around her especially since you spent all those years fucking her sisters man. Shit, probably

tryna one up her too, Momma Lynn yelled. I stopped. That couldnt be true. Malaysia knew that if she ever messed with Stacks and got caught that would be a reason for Diamond to cut all ties with me for bringing her around.

Momma Lynn wasnt one to lie though. Hold up, when Chris and Diamond were saving my life Malaysia was here with Stacks five months ago. Is that Stacks baby, I asked.

Malaysia started crying. Angie Im sorry, dont tell Diamond. Stacks already said that he doesnt want anything to do with the baby, she sobbed. Angelica you dont need this stress, Momma said.

I dont want to be anything like you,Malaysia, I need to fix this with Chris, I walked out. Chris I had a bunch of flower arrangements in the house. I was going to send them to Angelica

as soon as I found out where she was. This wasnt going to fix things, but it was a start. I called her phone again and heard it ringing by the front door. I ran to the front of the house. Angelica stood there smiling and crying at the same

time. I ran over and hugged her. I miss you baby and Im so sorry, I said. Damn Chris Ive only been gone for a few hours, she smiled. I realized I was being a bitch and its going to be a chore, but if your

up for it we can raise both of these babies, plus that girl had a little boy and im having a little girl. We can just tell them and the public that theyre twins, she had it all figured out. Her soft lips pressed against mine.

The Next Day The social worker had dropped him off. He was real cute. We had named him Cornelius Brown. Angelica sat on the couch rocking him in her arms. His crib wouldnt arrive for a few days and we were

going to have to rearrange the nursery. Look at me Chris, she said. I sat down next to her and smiled at our son. No matter what this is OUR son. As far as anyone is concerned that girl never existed, she said, sternly. Alright, I kissed her,

Cornelius, and then her belly. I love you, we said to each other at the same time Chapter Thirty Malaysia I laid in my bed crying. Reggie brought me a cup of hot cocoa.

Are you alright, he laid behind me in the bed. I rolled over and buried my face in his chest. Look, Momma was just being protective of me and Angelica was just a little heated , he breathe. Plus, Stacks is

a dumb motherfucka for not claiming you and his child. One mans trash is another mans treasure, Reggie kissed my neck. What was Angelica upset about anyway, he asked.

I dont know, I should have been there for her, though, I cried. Especially when all that stuff was going down with Tev. I shouldnt have been laid up in bed with Diamonds man, I looked up at him. A

confused look shadowed his face. What do you mean, what happened with Tev, Reggie asked. Diamond killing him after he kidnapped Angelica and tried to kill Chris, I said.

Aysia, Tevs not dead he was in the hospital for a while. He told me some random thugs shot him. Hes fine now, Reggie said. Oh my gosh, Angelica and Chris, I sat up. Angelica Two Months Later

Fuck this, fuck this Christopher Maurice Brown you are NEVER getting another child, I yelled. It felt like someone was ripping my insides apart. One more big push, the doctor said. I could hear the smile in his voice. You fucking

push, bitch, I yelled. Yeah, I was being an asshole, but try bringing a baby into this world. That shit is not milk and cookies. I had never respected my mother so much in my life. This was killing me. I pushed once and blacked out

as soon as I heard a baby crying. Twelve Hours Later Hey baby, Chris kissed my forehead. ughh, I moaned. He laughed, So what are we going to name her, he held our baby out to me as I sat up. I looked

at her. She was beautiful and already had a full head of hair. Chanel Diamond Brown, I smiled, kissing my little girl. She moved around in my arms. Wow, she was precious. When can we take her home, I asked. Soon, he picked

up Cornelius out his stroller. Meet your baby sister, he put Cornelius near Chanel. Their tiny hands locked. Oh my gosh, I smiled. Tev Trae, my brother from another mother, I dapped him up. I

moved my hood back and saw him look at the scar in the middle of my forehead. Fuck happen to you, he asked, sitting down at the table as his wife walked out. Remember that bitch that think she got a dick

Diamond, I asked, leaning back. He nodded, Yo, if you came looking for revenge my momma taught me to never put my hands on no girl. I wasnt asking for you to do it. I was hoping your wife would

be OK with getting her hands dirty. I know she thick in the game, I said. If you want her help, you gotta ask her, just make sure Angie dont get hurt in none of this. She like family to me, he said, walking out.

Mere seconds later his wife walked in. Damn, looking good Kreay Ana, I praised her on her body. You better remember, so whats this I hear about tryna put that dirty bitch Diamond in her place, she asked.

I knew Kreay Ana was the go to for this job. She had always hated Diamond. There rivalry led to them joining rival gangs and becoming the main bitches of niggas that were on top of the game. Kreay Ana had gotten the offical title of wife, but

Diamond had a child, so she still felt a need to knock Diamond into her place. Some bitches just got to be dealt with in the worst of ways, I said, leaning back. She did that to your face, Kreay asked,

pulling a pistol out of the strap on her leg. I nodded. Time bitch get her own little hole, but she wont be walking away from this one, Kreay Ana laughed, kissing her gun. So, you all in, I asked.

Damn, hell yea. If you wouldnt have been caught on Angelica and her bullshit we would be married right now. If we leave and tell Trae its for business you could get some good pussy tonight, she whispered in my ear.

Lets go, I said. Chris Hey Momma J, Angelica said as we brought the babies in. I hoped we could actually pull this off. Twins, my momma yelled as her and the few other family

members and close friends we had invited over started running over. What are their names, Angelicas mom, Maya, asked. Cornelius and Chanel, she said, nervously.

The boy is so big, it must have been hell pushing him out, my mom said. Momma, I sighed. Sorry, she laughed, grabbing Cornelius out the stroller. There gorgeous, Maya picked up Chanel.

Whose ready to eat and celebrate these wonderful babies, momma walked over to the table. We all sat down. Chapter Thirty One Angelica Just when I was about to lay down and relax

Chanel started crying again. Oh my gosh, I threw my pillow at Chris head. He woke up,I got it. It had been a week and I still wasnt used to the constant crying. When Chris walked out my phone rang. It is two

in the morning Diamond, what the fuck do you want,I complained. Its Stacks, his voice boomed. Fuck you want, you broke down cheater I yelled.

Diamonds dead, he said. My heart dropped. I bit my lips as tears started to pour. Fuck, fuck, fuck. What happenned, I asked, sobbing. I got people working on it right now, can you

watch Rosalina while I try to figure this out, I could tell he was crying. Alright, I hung up. My phone rang again. It was Malaysia. I had done good avoiding her calls, but if she had something to do with this I swear.

Did you have something to do with Diamonds death, I yelled. No I wanted to tell you that I found out Tev never died. Ive been trying to get in touch with you for a week. Shit. I didnt think Tev

would move this soon, she screamed. What? Me and Chris had moved since then, but I still think we should leave town for a while. Second, Im in labor and this shit is threatening to end me,

I never seen so much blood in my life. Angie please, please come by the hospital,she said. Alright, I promise. I love you Mali, I hung up still in tears. Chris, get the babies ready, we need to go

and pack some stuff for about a week, I yelled. Silence. Chris, Chris, I yelled. Silence. I slowly walked toward the bedroom door. A figure stood infront of the door.

Ahh, I fell backwards. What are you doing, Chris laughed,helping me up. I thought you were dead, I cried. He got on the floor and held me in his arms. What happenned, why do you want me to get

the babies ready and pack stuff for a week, he asked. Ill tell you on the way to the hospital, I said. He just looked more confused as I crawled out of his arms and stood up. Malaysia

I was going in and out of sleep as Reggie drove me to the hospital. My head was pounding and I was bleeding everywhere. Shit, this looked bad. Giving birth to LaShawn was nothing like this. We arrived at the hospital and we went

into the room right away. How far along is she in her pregnancy, I heard someone ask. Seven months, Reggie clenched my hand. I try to look up at him, but I couldnt. I didnt

have the energy. I was tired and ready to just relax. Hold on, baby, its going to be fine, he said, before I backed out. Angelica You want to tell me now, he said.

I looked out the window biting my lips. I was holding in tears and my eyes became blurry. I wiped my hand across my face. Tev had been out of the picture. I was sure. I had watched his body slump to the floor. I wanted to wait longer

to tell Chris. He wanted an answer though and I had to give it to him. Stacks called me when you were checking on Chanel, I said, pulling my hoodie tighter around me. Who is Stacks, he asked, thinking.

My sister, Diamonds man, I said. I started to make my ugly ass crying face so I turned towards the window again. Oh, yeah, how she been, he ask, oblivious to how bad things are.

Shes dead, Malaysia thinks Tev killed her, because she found out Tev didnt die in Hawaii, I said. What the hell, he yelled, pulling onto the side of the road.Are you ok, he pulled me

to him and I cried on his shoulder. I jumped when someone knocked at the car window. Chris rolled it down. Are you ok, the womens voice asked. Yea were fine, Chris said. As he was rolling

up the window the woman pulled her hood off. Chris, roll the window down, Kreay Ana is that you, I yelled. Chris rolled the window down. Oh my gosh, Angie, girl I aint seen you in

forever. How are you doing? Hold up, is this Chris Brown. Damn girl you sure know how to pull em., she smiles. So do you. You married Trae. My brother basically. He know how to treat them right. When you

get out here, I smiled. Chris sqeezed my leg telling me we needed to go. Well Ill see you later Kreay Ana, Trae got my number, I said, as Chris started driving again.

You sure did get happy quick, Chris smirked. Her and Diamond were friends back in high school. They were always competing against each other. She reminds me of her, I said.

That dont sound like friends. Me and Tyga both in the music industry and we work together not against each other, he said, looking back at the babies. He was right, but even with the drama

Diamond and Kreay Ana were friends. As far as I knew. Shit, in my heart I trust Kreay Ana about as far as I can throw her and she alot thicker then me. Chapter Thirty Two Angelica

Whats going on, Malaysia asked as she opened her eyes. I smiled at her, Everything worked out. You baby is fine. Reggie signed the birth certificate and named the baby Nico. I spoke quickly.

Wow, another boy. I was expecting a girl. What about your babies? What are their names, she asked. Cornelius and Chanel, I said, she smiled. I could tell she was exhausted. The past few hours had been

hell. Doctors and nurses refused to answer simple questions. Worry consumed us, but at the end I realized just how important Malaysia was, even with the mistake she had made. We had gotten something good

out of what she had done. We now had another member to our extensive and not completely blood related family. What did you and Chris fight about that day, she asked a valid question.

I didnt want to lie to her, but I had no choice. Hormones, marriage it was nothing, I lied straight to her face. Tev I saw little miss perfect today, Kreay Ana hissed, sitting

across from me at the table. She has two little babies, she said. It wasnt right that the bitch got to live happily ever after, while I was left with this scar in the middle of my head to forever remind me of what happenned.

If you want me to off her without Trae knowing it was us-, she began, but I cut her off. We got to go at this hard. Angelica and Chris have so many people around them its hard to breathe the

same air as them. Last time when I went at them with a few of my goons too many people knew what was happenning. That was a fuck-up. Angelica had her chance to make it right. We are going to do this exactly like weve been planning.

We are going to make them come to us. Snatch the kids. This is going to be the final showdown, I took a long swig of beer. She smiled. By the way thanks for getting rid of

Diamond, I said, walking over to her. I pulled out my dick and she stuffed it in her mouth. I grabbed her hair as she went back and forth sucking as hard as she could. I bit my lip, trying not to fall in love with this bitch

head game. Kreay wasnt as smart as I expected. She was slowly falling in love with me and in my mind she wasnt much but help for what I needed to accomplish. Chris

I put the kids in the car, waiting for Angelica. I didnt know where she wanted us to go, but if it meant my family would be safe I was all for it. I stepped back to close the door when something slammed into my head. The pain was undescribable. I

heard our kids start crying. My vision was off. I lunged towards the person. I felt my fist slam into their skull. Whatever had hit my head hit my side. Then it slammed into my throat and leg. I fell to the ground. I tried to get up, but I couldnt.

Angelica I walked to the car. Something didnt look right. As I got closer I saw Chris laying on the ground. A black Caddillac pulled off. Chris, Chris, somebody help, I screamed. I looked in the car and

Chanel and Cornelius were gone. A white sliver of paper lay there. Lifes a bitch huh. Meet me at the old mill warehouse near the lake. Then maybe Ill consider letting your babies live bitch. You

fucked up big time. This could have all been over if you would have gotten pregnant by me. Stupid hoe. Sincerly, Tev

Chapter Thirty Two Angelica

I cocked my gun. I hated this warehouse. It was like the sounds of the wind echoed and amplified a million times. I heard the babies crying and then a girl stood infront of me.

Kreay Ana, I spoke, confused. Yeah bitch. First your sister and now you. I dont even have a problem with you, but Tev wants you dead and I want what Tev want, she spoke softly.

I aimed my gun for her head and shot. Bitch. she screamed ducking. I walked towards were she had been standing and looked both ways. I didnt see her. I turned right because that was the direction that she

had walked. I was as quiet as possible. This bitch was so going to be dead tonight. She lunged toward me and my head hit a pipe. I kicked her and she fell, but managed to knock my gun out of my hand. I got ontop of

her and started punching her. She flipped me on my back and threw hit after hit. I kneed her in her stomach and she fell. I ripped out one of her tracks as i got ontop of her. I reached for my gun and she reached for my hair. Kreay Ana

swung me to the ground, but I managed to get up. She did the same. I pushed her head into a pipe and the pipe exploded sending hot gas all over her. I ran away from the gas. I could hear her screams. I reached down and picked up my

gun. She crawled from the thick fog of the steam towards me. POW! Her lifeless body lay on the ground. How about that for revenge bitch, I spat on her.

I took out my phone and called the guy Diamond used to use for clean-ups. I needed to find Chris I hoped he had beat Tev. Chris I wasnt one for guns. I laid another punch into Tevs gut. He threw a

punch and I dodged it, slamming him back. I looked up to see blood pouring out of his mouth as he choked. I stepped back to see the pointed metal bar sticking through his chest.The kids echoing cries were loud now. They were close. I

looked at a small metal compartment in the wall. I kneeled down and opened it., pulling out a basket. The two babies laid safely inside. Chris, Angelica ran to me. Two Months Later

I was tired. Me and Angelicas relationship had taken a turn for the worst. She blamed me for everything. She wouldnt even pick up Cornelius anymore. She wouldnt even look at me and when she did we were arguing. I got

my bag and walked out the studio. Chris, I heard my name called. I turned around to see Kae, my ex, standing there. Kae, whats up, I hugged her.

Heard about you being married with kids. Congrats and Im sorry about that day with the lingerie and glass and Seiko, she said. Its fine, do you need a ride, I asked her. She nodded. She looked so good. I drove

her to the Marriott and walked her in to be polite. Grey Goose, she asked, holding up the bottle. I nodded. I was in no rush to get home. Before I knew it my lips were pressed to hers. I

worked off her clothes and worked myself inside her. All the memories of crazy amazing sex we had flooded back. Angelica My daughter and Cornelius were gone. I had candles lit around

the house and a bottle of Absolut in hand. I was wearing black lingerie and long heels with red bottoms. This wasnt for Chris, but for me. I needed peace away from my life. I was so sick of Chris. Since we got Chanel back the

cheating rumors have amplified and so has the drama. Can we talk, Chris walked in. I hadnt expected him home until tommorow. What, I rolled my eyes.

I slept with Kae tonight, he said. Im trying so hard but I cant. I just dont care. We dont love each other. You fell out of love with me a long time ago and I just now realized it. That is why Ive been resenting

you. I can feel that shit and it burned at first butmaybe we moved to fast. Maybe we should break up, I looked down.

Chapter Thirty-Three Angelica

We cant just breakup. You cant let us go that easy. I love you, he yelled, grabbing me by my arms. I cant do this anymore Chris. Im tired and I need more. I deserve more. Im not in this to say Im married to

Chris-fucking-Brown, Im in this for love and you dont want to give it anymore. A part of me believes, but the other half wants to leave. Im done Chris and Im sick of this, I walked into the bedroom.

I put on my favorite pair of Jordans and a hoodie then I started packing. I packed as much of me and Chanels stuff into the one suitcase, two duffel bags, and backpack as I could. Once I walked out I planned to never walk back in. I could

hear Chris yelling in my ear as I moved around, but I blocked him out. I was seconds from having tears cascade down my face. I walked out the door and started towards my car.

You cant do this. I love you and you mean everything to me. Yeah ok, I confess I cheated with a few groupies also and I realize that I messed up, but I want to be with you and I love you more than anything. I swear I will change, he said as I

packed my bags into the car and got in. I will do anything, Chris cried as I drove away. Malaysia We were babysitting Angelica and Chris kids when someone started

banging loudly on the door. Its the po-po better go go, LaShawn said to the babies. My jaw dropped, he was spending too much time around the wrong family. I opened the door and Angelica

nearly knocked me down to get in. She picked up Chanel and started leaving. Whats wrong and arent you forgetting one, I smiled. Fuck you Malaysia. Your Chris fucking manager now. You had

to know he was fucking other people and you didnt tell me. So fuck you and that isnt even my child, she screamed. It wasnt my place to, I began, but she cut me off.

It wasnt your fucking place, it wasnt your fucking place bitch, she yelled, shaking her head and doing her Impissed-off laugh. She turned around and headed out the door. Chris

I took a long swig of the dark liquid behind the glass. I dropped the bottle on the floor next to me and slapped my head into my hands. How had I fucked up like this? Maybe I should have kept lying. Maybe I shouldnt have started lying. My phone

rang and I hurried to pick it up hoping that it was Angelica, but when I answered it was Malaysia. I considered hanging up until she told me Angelica had picked up Chanel, but left Cornelius. I jumped into my car as fast as I

could and took off, still drinking. I dont know what happened, but the next moment my car was flipping over the railing on the highway and started doing somersaults down the hill. I tasted

blood in my mouth as I blacked out. Chapter Thirty Four Chris I woke up in the hospital, I was tired of this fucking place. Seiko sat by the bed holding Cornelius.

Wheres Angelica, I asked. She didnt want to come by, she said what happens happens, Seiko looked down. Not even to make sure Cornelius was safe, I asked, confused. Seiko nodded her head.

She says she doesnt want to be apart of his or your life, Chris, Seiko spoke lightly. The fuck? She was the one that decided to raise him and she does this shit. Takes my daughter and fucking

leaves. What the fuck is she thinking, I yell. Seiko gets scared and stands up. My machine starts beeping faster. Mr.Brown you need to calm down, a nurse tries to push me down.

I want to speak to my fucking wife, I yelled. Chris, Malaysia spoke, walking in. I calmed down. How did you let this happen?, I screamed, laying back. You fucked up your marriage and put me in

the middle of it, not the other way around. Im sorry Chris, but her lawyer dropped this off, she handed me an envelope. I ripped it open and pulled out the papers inside. Divorce Papers.

How long have I been out? Shes already got papers written up and what the fuck is this?, I looked over the rest of the papers. Its been one night, how the hell did she manage to get full custody of my fucking

daughter. I want a fucking lawyer. I want to talk to her, I yelled. Its been a week and shes gone Chris. She left the country with Chanel three days ago. She took all of her shit

and leaped into the night, Malaysia spoke. I couldnt believe what I was hearing. Angelica She really likes the sand, I spoke to Trae as he smiled at Chanel. Yep, so hows your marriage working out,

he asked, the question I didnt want to hear. Im just going to chill here on this beach and in your nice humongous yacht until all documents are signed, sealed, and delivered, I spoke.

You cant just pretend whats going on isnt. Whats happennin g is going to affect Chanel alot. I understand because if you wouldnt have killed my wife once I found out she was fucking and offing people for the low-life I

would have killed her myself, but I still had to explain the shit to my son. I had to explain why his step mom was dead and he was going to lose another mom, I knew were he was headed.

Yeah, alright Im fucked up. We shouldnt have slept together though. I was fifteen and you were seventeen. You could have gotten arrested for getting me pregnant or even just seeing me naked. Yes, I should have stuck around but I

didnt. I cant walk back into Dantes life now. Im starting over with Chanel, I looked at Dante who was running around in the sand. He was the cutest, smartest, and toughest kid I had met. Here I am thinking about him like

hes not even mine. It was a miracle that me and Trae snuck the pregnancy under the radar. It probably helped that I went into labor at seven months pregnant. *Flashback*

Trae, I dont want to keep it. We can just leave it at the hospital. I should have gotten that abortion, I cried. Shut up. Im sick of hearing you say that shit. Im sick of you, he yelled.

I started crying and looked down. Thats when I realized all of the blood pouring from in between my legs. I didnt say anything hoping I would lose it. Praying that I would lose it.

Angie, oh shit, Trae picked me up. He placed me in the back of his car and drove as fast as he could. *End Flashback* I hate the me that existed back then, but I still couldnt have

anything to do with Chris kid, look how crazy Kreay Ana went raising someone elses kid and Diamond took care off-and-on of about five kids Stacks had with other bitches. I looked at Trae who was playing with

Chanel and then at Dante who was throwing the ball in the air and then catching it. Maybe it was time for me to make amends. Chapter Thirty Five Angelica

Im not the one Chris, Im not the one, I yelled at him. Malaysia, Seiko, Trae, KC, and Tyga sat awkwardly in the room, watching us make a fool out of ourselves. Man, fuck you, Im so sick of this shit. Walkin

around this earth like you own a nigga, Chris yelled. Pickupthecheck, I spoke. My first payment of over five-thousand dollars was beautiful and he was supposed to give it to me

today. Unfortunately, he thought it would be cute to have me pick it up after he dropped it on the ground. My marriage was over, my mom was trippin, Chris had the house, and these checks were my only source of income right now. One of the

few things I had left was my pride and he was trying to take that. FUCK YOU, he yelled. Naww, fuck this, KC laughed, picking up and the check and putting it nicely in my purse. Now, you two have those two babies crying

over here, but yall wanna act like some stupid motherfuckers. Get yall priorties straight and Ill come back and visit then, KC grabbed her bag and left. Angie lets just go, Trae kissed my

forehead and hled Chanel tight to him. Ayye, Dante get yo stuff, he spoke. Then you got this nigga with my child, Chris fist tightened. Maybe if you knew how to treat a woman you wouldnt be losing

whats important to you, Trae stared at Chris. Chris inched closer. Wow, this nigga is about to try and hit the MAN holding his child, just sad, Trae smirked.

Trae turned me around and we headed out the house. Chris Nigga she asked you for five-thousand dollars, Bows baby moms asked for fifty thou. Calm the fuck down, Tyga spoke.

He dont care about the money he wants her back, Malaysia stood up. She wants you too, she smiled. Then why she fucking that nigga, I walked to the kitchen. Shes not fucking him. Trae dont give a damn

about respecting no nigga. If they were fucking just to be rude to you he would have kissed her on her lips, but he didnt. She wants you and you have to go after her, but her egos big so give her some time. I

promise it will be worth it, she smiled. Well, I gotta go Reggie has a surprise for me, Malaysia sauntered out. Its kinda gay as a mothafucka to be here with you talking about emotions so imma go

hit up this bitch I got Chyna, Tyga left. I got something to drink and sat on the couch. I missed her so much. Why couldnt she just come back to me? Why was loving me so hard for her? I picked

Cornelius up and turned on cartoons.

Chapter Thirty Six Angelica I watched Chris play with Chanel and Cornelius. I had to

admit I missed him. I looked at my watch again. Fifteen more minutes until this little play-date was over. I was tired. I had been working hard trying to find a job. I needed to do me and see if not only Chris would change, but if I

could live without him. Im not talking about money either. Im talking about how my heart breaks everynight as I lie in bed. A part of me wants to try things out with Trae, but every time I start considering startin g a relationship with

him I feel like Im betraying Chris. A part of me also wonders why it was so easy for him to sign those papers. I had sent this as a wake-up call and he gets them back to me in no time. He was being really sweet though.

Hey, Chris sat next to me. Hey, I responded. Can I ask you a question, he sighed. You just did, I smirked. You love me, he asked.

You love me, I responded with the same question. You know I do, he held my hands. Then why would you cheat, I asked. Why would you, he smirked.

Look I love you, but honest as fuck right now you not the girl I married. I married a woman who wasnt afraid of anything. I married a woman who wasnt afraid to love me. I married a woman who saw her flaws not just everyone else and I

married a woman that loved me, he spoke. I wanted to fall into his arms as the words registered in my head. I wanted to tell him that I loved him and everything about him. The wrong thing came out.

Im the same bitch you married. Its just that back then I wouldnt have dealt with your shit, I stood up. I looked at my watch. Fifteen minutes were up. I wanted to take back what I said, but I

couldnt and I hated that fact. Come on Chanel, I picked her up. Bye, Chris stopped me and kissed me. I love you and Im sorry, I was finally able to get out the words

that had been eating at my soul. Theres something else I need to tell you, he spoke. As soon as I was about to ask him what it was someone knocked at the door, he went to answer it and walked

back in with Kae. The hell? I told you it was over, he said. What was over, I asked. Dont worry hun, I just came back to drop off the stuff he left at my

house, kae smirked, walking past me. Look, you left me and I woke up in the hospital with divorce papers and a custody notice. I turned to her and we dated for a while, but then I realized I was

making a mistake and, I cut him off. Fuck you, I stormed out. As soon as Chanel was safely in her seat and I was in the car I broke down. Thick tears cascaded down my face as I punched the

steering wheel. Chanel started crying and I started up the car. Dont worry. Itll be fine, i spoke, still crying.

Chapter Thirty Seven

Chris Hey baby, my mom hugged me as I walked into her house. Hey momma, I handed Cornelius to her. She put him in his crib and sat me down.

Talk to Angelica lately, she asked, sitting down. I nodded my head no. Why Chris? This should be handled by now. That girl loves you more then she loves herself, my mom complained.

its not that simple. I never deal with anyones bull, but I have to deal with hers. She messed up and so did I. I dont even know if Chanel is mine, I said, pressing my palms to my face.

Christopher Maurice Brown I will slap the hell out of you if you EVER, EVER again doubt your child. Chanel looks like you andI cant right now. I just cant. You trust Cornelius mother over your wife, my mom yelled.

Look ma-, I began. Look ma nothing. You need to fix this tonight or trust me you will regret it. I know for a fact that Maya has Chanel, so your wife is probably at home, she spoke.

Ex-wife, I corrected her. I-dont-want-to-hearyour-mouth until she is your wife again, my mom stood up and walked over to the door. Bye Bye, she spoke, holding it ajar.

Angelica Hello, I rushed to pick up my phone. Angie, its Momma J. Now, my son will be over there soon and you will both sit down and talk like adults or I promise me and Maya

will hold your baby hostage, she spoke. I started laughing.My moms not there, I laughed. Wrong hija. Solve this or I will whoop your culo, my mama spoke.

Sorry dont understand Spanish, I lied. You about to understand Amber Alert, my mother yelled before hanging up. I really had somewhere to be. I had finally

agreed to a date with Trae and I was not going to let Chris or our psycho parents mess this up. My doorbell rang and I went to answer. To no ones surprise it was Chris. I let him in and continued getting ready.

Where are you going, he asked. A date, I smirked. Are you joking, he started to get pissed. Where you joking when you fucked and dated Kae, I replied.

The first time maybe. The second time yeah, he spoke. I swung around, what do you mean? I did sleep with her a few times, but we never dated the second time. Im sorry, he walked close to me.

His hand smoved down my body as he looked me over. He bit his lip. I really miss you, he breather in my neck, before pulling my thong off. I also really hope you wasnt planning on giving that nigga none,

he bent me over the sink.

Chapter Thirty Eight Chris I slipped my dick in and started pounding away. Her walls hugged my

dick. I loved how tight she was even after giving me a kid. I pulled her hair and rubbed her breast with my other hand. I pulled out and picked her up, carrying her to the bed. She took of her dress and bra and I removed my clothes. I licked my lips

at how good she looked. I started to get on top of her, but she pushed me on the bed and got on top of me. Angie road my dick as she leaned back in ecstasy.

Yeah baby, you got that, I put my hands on her waist. The way she was moving her body was amazing, before I knew it I was coming inside her. She got off my dick and went down to lick the creamy cum from

my dick. She sucked back and forth giving her head game at its best. I loved that shit. Baby stop. I wanna hit it soooooo bad, I moaned. She smiled and removed her lips. I started hitting it from

the back as she moaned. When she came she collapsed on the bed and I collapsed on top of her. I moved her hair behind her neck and planted soft kisses along her neck and down her breast bone.

Angelica I woke up naked in Chris arms. I had missed that so much. I had missed him so much. I reached over to see my phone had ten missed calls from Trae. Shit, I spoke out loud.

Whats wrong, Chris woke up and outstretched his arms. I missed my date, I spoke. He sat up. You cant be serious right now, he raised one eyebrow.

No. I dont want to be with him. I just mean its rude, I crawled over to Chris and kissed him. I do feel for that nigga. He wont have this beautiful woman to wake up to every morning, Chris smiled.

I fucking love you, I hugged him, smiling like an idiot. I love you too, he kissed me. Chris After we got dressed we spent the whole day together. We went to the movies, dinner, and

the best shopping. She didnt even buy much though. We went back home around four and fell back into sex. As far as I knew she hadnt called that nigga Trae back and that made me happy.

We need to get the babies, she said, leaning back into my arms as we watched tv. Theyll be fine, I kissed her. I cant watch this show naked, she stood up.

If I stared straight ahead I had a clear view of her pussy. I have friends that are on that show, she spoke. Who you know on Hip Hip Wifeys, I pulled her pussy towards me.

I started to flick my tongue along her clit as she named four of the girls while moaning. MerMercedes,Chardonae, Remy, and Jayla, she moaned. I stuck my tongue in as I began to eat her out.

Shit, baby i cant handle this standing up, she cried. I kept going at it. Occasionally taking my tongue out to run it across her clit like a drum. I kissed her pussy as she came. Slurping up the warm

juices. She fell to her knees. Damn Chris, she moaned, crawling into my arms. We fell asleep there.

Chapter 39

Angelica My phone ringing woke me up out of my sleep. Hey, whats up Jasmine, I answered, putting my robe on. Guess what, she says, sounding overly excited at 2 am.

Im coming to visit, she screamed. Whatwhen, I yelled. Umm, I know its unexpected but I got your address from Malaysia and Ill be there in thirty minutes, she squealed.

Oh my gosh, ok, bye, I hung up. Jasmine used to be my best friend. She was my cousin on my mom side and she had gone into the military straight out of high school. i hadnt even spoken to her. I pulled on a white

hoodie with the word PINK written in pink and some gray jeans with my gray and pink Jordans. I was so excited. I rushed around the house making sure everything was neat. Me and Chris had gotten married again on paper, but we

were still planning a huge ceremony, since we never had one. I was making sure the windows were clean when I felt Chris wrap his arms around me. What are you doing cleaning at 2 in the

morning, he spoke into my neck. My cousins coming over, I smiled. he spun me around to face him. At two in the morning. A nigga tryna sleep with his wife and shit, Chris raise his eyebrows like

he always did when he didnt understand something. Chris shes the most important person in my life, I said. Realizing how I had just fucked up I back tracked.

I mean after you and Chanel and Cornelius, I spoke, planting a kiss on his soft pink lips. His facial expression returned to normal. The doorbell rang and I rushed past him to open it. I could already

see her through our glass door. Hey, I screamed, hugging her as she walked in. We have so much to catch up on, but we both probably need to get to sleep, she hugged me back,

struggling to hold the bags she had. Jasmine this is Chris and Chris this is Jasmine. Can you get her bag babe, I smiled. Chris Now, Ive turned over a new leaf. I dont cheat, lie, or anything like

that, but this girl is beautiful. I took the bags out of her hands. I followed Angelica and Jasmine as they walked to the guest room. I put her stuff down, but I couldnt stop looking at her. I have no intent on cheating on my wife,

but still. I can look. Aneglica ran out the room when she heard the babies crying. So, my big cousin married the famous Chris Brown, she smiled. Even her smile was perfect.

I only wife the best and Angelicas perfect, I smiled. You obviously believe in only doing the best. This house is amazing, its like something out of a fairy tale, she looked around at the bedroom.

Cant take credit for that, Angie picked it out, i said as she stood up and walked over to pick up a bag. She lost her footing and slipped, but I caught her in time.

Thanks, she looked straight at me, then stepped forward. She started moving in for a kiss. So, how do you like it, Angie walked in. Oh, its amazing, Jasmine said, stepping back from me.

Chapter 40 Angelica Where is she. I want to meet your cousin, Kamaya rushed past me.

Kamaya Carter is Chris step-sister and as of the past few months since she moved to L.A. and Malaysia moved back to Atlanta shes been one of my closest friends. Shes only nineteen so I kinda watch after her and make sure she doesnt

get into any shit. Kamayas a pretty girl in a fucked up world and shes been through about as much shit in her past as Chris. Shes got a big, bright personality, but doesnt take shit from anyone. I kinda hope me and

Chris raise Chanel to be like her. You gon knock me down and why are you so excited, I laughed while closing the door. Excitedno, I want to feel her out. Ya know, make sure she not some

crazy Obsessed bitch. You told me shes blonde with light eyes like the movie, Kamaya rested her hand on her hip. Shes my cousin. I know her. She would never try to hook up with Chris, I said.

We gon make sure. Ive called in the cavalry, she smiled, proud of whatever she had done. And who makes up this cavalry, I smirked. As soon as she parted her lips to speak the doorbell ring.

You didnt, I mouth to her, looking through the glass door. As soon as I opened the door they rushed in. Kelly clutched her basketball playing husband, Georges hand and Jordan walked behind them

seeming completely uninterested. If shes bad news, we gone get this bitch, Kelly laughed, hugging me and then Kamaya. Shes my cousin, I rolled my eyes. Who you havent seen in years. She could have

PTSD, Kelly smirked, sitting down and crossing her legs. Whats PTSD, Kamaya asked. Post traumatic stress disorder, Kelly spoke. She was a therapist and model, but had taken a break from the

modeling thing so that she could be a good wife and start a family. The latter wasnt working out. Im going to sit my pretty ass down and pretend I understand, Kamaya sat next to Jordan as he was

steady sending message after message on the phone. A surprised look covered Chris perfect face as he walked in. His brows furrowed again. I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his

stomach, leaning into him. Kamaya and Kelly were steady talking about Jasmine when they hadnt even met her. Hey crazy, he spoke to Kamaya, wrapping his arms around me. She rolled her eyes.

Call me that again stupid and Im going to kick your ass, she smirked. Oh yeah, Im scared of someone thats only five foot three, he laughed. Kamaya ignored him.

Hi, Jasmine walked in, stretching. It was only nine in the morning. Yo, Jordan, George lets go kick it in the kitchen. Its too early in the morning for this, Chris said.

The two jumped up and followed him out, obviously glad for a solution to avoid our conversation. Jasmine this is Kamaya, Chris sister, and Kelly, we met when she was modeling for the magazine I started

a few months back, I introduced them. I had only known Kelly for about six months and we were already super close. Jasmine reached out her hand to shake theirs. Why cant you stay at a hotel, Kamaya asked,

ignoring Jasmines hand. Once my check comes through I will, Jasmine sat down. I did the same. Oh, so its all about the money, Kamaya smirked.

No, but my money from working in the military is going to be transferred to my bank account this week and then Im going to start getting back on my feet, she answered. Are you looking for a job? What if the money

doesnt come through? What if you get pregnant, Kelly bumrushed her with questions. Look, I dont know why you guys feel like interviewing me, but you guys dont need to know anything. You

two are not my parents, your not signing my checks, and your not fucking me so stay in your place, Jasmine spoke calmly, getting up. Who this bitch think she is, Kamaya jumped up, dropping her purse.

Are you really about to try and throw blows? Are you that weakminded, Jasmine laughed. Before Kelly could stand up to get between them Kamaya was at Jasmines throat,

choking her. Jasmine kneed her in her stomach and threw hit after hit at her face, but Kamayas grip was too tight. Chris, I yelled. He rushed in with the boys. Chris tried to unlock Kamayas hands

while George tried to pull her off.

Chapter 41 Jordan Why was that neccesary, I asked Kamaya, kissing down

her body as we lay in the bed completely naked. She came at me wrong, she smirked. You gotta control that temper baby, I went down, separating her legs.

I started sucking on her clit and I knew she was in lust when she started moaning. I started eating her out like this was the last pussy I would ever see. Baby, dont stop, she cried, pushing my head down.

I kept going until she lifter her hips of the bed and had her third orgasm of the day. I moved up and rubbed my tip near her opening. She breath in. I could tell it always hurt her when i first stuck my dick in.

That shit boosted a nigga ego high as fuck. We been fucking for a month and you still aint used to this dick, I kissed her. Stop saying that. We arent just fucking were dating, she said.

Yeah baby sorry, I kissed her neck. Plus you know I have to give my heart to a nigga before I can open my legs to him, she pulled my face up to hers. I love you, she said.

I was caught. I didnt know what to say. I didnt love Kamaya. I didnt love anyone. Why was she so gullible? That shit made my dick go semi-soft, but she had something that not alot of L.A. girls had. A tight pussy.

I love you too, I lied, slamming inside of her. Kamaya Those words hooked onto my heart. I had finally found an amazing, loving, faithful guy that loved me. Who knew all I had to do was leave Virginia? I

was truly in love and so was he. All the bad things of my past and earlier in the day floated from my mind as I made love to him. Jordan was my dream come true. When we finished I took a shower and

freshened up. I planned on hitting the night scene with Angelica, Kelly, and Indi (my fake I.D.). I checked my outfit and didnt really have anything to do to my hair, since I had cut most of it off. I licked my lips and looked at myself. Damn, I looked

good. I walked out the bedroom and Jordan was still naked almost about to fall asleep. Its a few hours til the club. Do you want to go get something to eat, I asked him. I would love to baby, but you know some of

the clubs I own are hosting major events tonight so I have to go check em out, he said. Kelly My husband was gone and I was bored. I wish I could just go to the club already, but it was too early. My mind

thought about all I had been through with my marriage. It was actually perfect, except for the fact that we found out my husband couldnt give me any kids. He was shooting blanks. That crushed both of us. We really wanted to

make a family, without having to resort to adoption. We wanted a child that would have his smile and my eyes. I got sad just thinking about it. Happiness flooded through my body as I heard my doorbell ring. I walked over and answered it.

Jordan, I told you to call first, I said, letting him in. Yeah, yeah, yeah, he said before pushing me down on the stairs and ripping off my blouse and pulling off my pants.

You miss me, he spoke. Yeah, I moaned.

Chapter 42 George I felt like I was losing my wife, but I didnt

understand that. Now, my egos not big but I know a truth and truth is; im a rarity. Im one of the few dudes in the NBA who doesnt cheat on their wives. I could easily though. Im shooting blanks, sadly. On the positive side I can have

sex with these girls and not make any kids. I opened the door to my house. It was 8 a.m. in the morning. I had ended up practicing all night long. It took my mind off the sad realities of my life.

Hey baby, Kelly kissed me, while making breakfast. Why wasnt she going off on me about not being home like usual? Hey, I took my jacket off.

I have great news, she wrapped her arms around me. Its a miracle. The doctor called me back. Im pregnant, she jumped up on me. I was in shock. It was a miracle. Here I was thinking our marriage

was falling apart and it was just getting better. Kelly The guilt was making knots in my stomach. He was shooting blanks. I know this baby isnt his. Its Jordans baby, but no one needs to know that but me.

Plus, I know Jordan. All he sees me as is a booty call. I wanted my husband. I needed my husband and the cheating was in the past. I would never hurt him again. The secrets would stay buried. I jumped back down and started putting the

food on two plates. The whole time he kept his arms wrapped around my waist. The past was the past. Even if he did find out he couldnt be mad. He could just think of Jordan as a sperm donor. Fuck am I thinking? Jordan and Chris are his closest

friends. He would be pissed. Jordan When Kelly told me she was pregnant I was happy she didnt want to tell anyone it was my seed. I have no plans on raising a child. Ever. Only problem was now

I needed a new girl to add to my roster. I was fucking Kamaya along with a Japanese girl, a White girl, a Filipino girl, a Canadian girl, a Latina girl, and the list goes on. Plus I owned three of the hottest clubs in L.A. and Im in the process of opening

up a strip club. No babies were going to be getting in my way. I looked over myself in the mirror, making sure I looked nice for tonights events. It was a Charity Ball. I was bringing Kamaya, Chris was bringing Angelica, George was bringing

Kelly. I heard that Jasmine girl was going with some army buddy. I sprayed some cologne on myself. I was about to head out the door to pick up Kamaya when my phone rang. Hello, I answered, walking down the stairs

of my two level penthouse. Hey, I was just making sure that you were cool with everything, Kelly spoke. What do you mean, I asked. Chris

Me and George walked in the room at the same time. I shook my head after we heard what she said. I just mean. Are you cool with keeping it a secret that the baby is yours and not Georges, she asked.

I felt bad for my nigga. He had been talking all day about how excited he was for his kid. I looked over and the niggas face dropped. What the fuck did you just say, Jordan snatched her up by her arm.

Oh my gosh George, baby its not what it looks like, she cried. Whose fucking baby is that, he shook her. Ayy nigga calm the fuck down, bro, I tried pulling him away from her.

He let go of her and she fell. Im done. This bitch need to get her shit the fuck out my house, he screamed. I had never seen him like that. George was usually cool as fuck about everything.

Angelica and Jasmine ran in. Whats going on, Angelica yelled, running over to Kelly. I-I-Im sorry, she sobbed. He looked back at her once and walked out, slamming the door.

Chapter Fourty Three Angelica Ive changed. I used to be like a god damn energizer bunny, but now my only focus is my kids. I mean I havent had sex with

Chris in a while and Ive been so focused with everyone else that I havent focused on my family. Its been a few days since Kelly and George broke up so now I have two girls staying at my house. Ive been taking care of my other kid with Trae

too and Chris doesnt even know I have another one. In order to make our relationship better I have to tell him though. What so important you needed to wake me out of my sleep, he

pulled me into him, kissing my hair. When-I-was-fifteen-Igot-pregnant-and-Ihave-a-son-with-Traethe-dude-I-was-withwhen-we-weredivorced, I ripped the band-aid off.

The fuck, he jumped up, anger evident in his face. Baby, Im so sorry, I went closer to him. He pushed me back. Chris shook his head and walked out. I followed him out of the

bedroom and down the hall. You just keep secret after secret Angelica. Its not hard to tell the truth. Why do you keep lying? You know what fuck thisIm done, Chris yelled going down the stairs.

I start crying at the thought of actually losing him. Baby no, Im sorry, but I was so stupid when I was fourteen and when I met you everything about me changed. I became a better person. Chris, baby,

please dont give up on us, I stare down the stairs at him. He stops and turns around. Its just that I married this good girl who was kind of shy, but no bullshit and now you are telling me that

good girl never existed, Chris stood firm. That girl is still me. I never lied to you, I just didnt tell you, I walked down the stairs, thick tears streaming my face.

Yeah, your only keeping secrets, he went tense when I touched him. I was trying to clear the secrets so that we could be on a clear path, I rubbed his chest.

Well, since were telling secrets, I fucked Jasmine, he said venomously. I paused. Was he serious? What I did was in the past and had nothing to do with him. Him fucking my COUSIN was

something I could not handle. Im done, I said, turning around. How are you going to leave me? Im your bank, your lover, your husband, and the father of your kids. If you leave youre going

to be on the streets with Jasmine and Kelly. If you leave me Im taking Chanel and Cornelius., he hissed. Since a little after the Tev situation during our honeymoon I had known a side to Chris that the public who

loved the celebrity Chris Brown didnt. He dealt drugs, ran underground fight clubs, and so on. He never didnt get what he wanted. He could be dangerous, but he never threatened me: his wife.

Whats going on, Jasmine walked into the foyer. Thats a good question. Why did you think you could fuck my husband while Ive been letting you stay in my house, bitch, I walked up to her.

Chapter 44 Chris Fuck this bitch Jasmine keep looking at me for? She not my fucking wife. I aint trying to help her.

Well, you gone answer, Angelica placed her hand on her hip. I-I, she studdered. I,I, what bitch, Angelica went down a stair. She couldnt go all the way down, because

Jasmine was like three inches taller then her and looking up at her would ruin the whole authoritative point she had going. Yo, Im giving you thirty seconds to talk or Imma straight whoop

yo ass Jas, Angelica spat. How are you going to choose him over me? Me and you are family, Weve known each other forever. Its not my fault he wanted to fuck me. How could i deny hi-

POW The sound of Jasmines jaw cracking replayed all through the house. Jasmine fell to the floor and tried to get up, but she was obviously in too much pain. Damn, my babys

a badder bitch than I thought. Whats going on, Kelly ran in. Her hands quickly covered her mouth when she saw Jasmine. What the hell, she laughed. Im sorry to

laugh, but I had ill feelings since day one. The doorbell rang and Kelly went to answer it. Sorry to be here at this time, but I have got to tell you what that nigga Jor-, Kamaya stopped

herself looking at the scene. Im confused. I dont know whether to hit Kelly or Jasmine, she placed her hand on her hip and weighed her options.

Her foot flew into Jasmines stomach and she coughed up blood. Now look. Jordan told me about everything, Kamayas crazy ass continued. I hope you rot in a shallow grave you worthless piece of shit,

fake-ass, bum-ass bitch, Kamaya walked up to Kelly. Theres an angel on my shoulder saying dont go all fight club on this bitch and then there is the devil on my shoulder saying mayne, fuck this raggedy ex-model wannabe up. I dont

who to agree with. Then there is the question of if I should fuck your husband or beat your ass or both, kamya kept going. She looked at Jasmine. Then I remember your hoe ass is pregnant, she laughed. So Im

not gone cut you like a slice of pie, she rolled her eyes. I assume she was done with that rant because she turned to me and Angelica. What went on with this hoe, she giggled.

Ask your brother, Angelica rolle d her eyes before walking upstairs.

Chapter 45 George Seven Months Later

Flashback I was at the club with my boys, but I couldnt get all into the scene. Im a realistic person and every time I get swept up into all the bad bitches here reality slaps the shit out of me.

Hi, a fine girl walks over to me. Whats up, I lick my lips, damn shes fine. Im Tae, wanna dance, she ask, Yeah, I yell over the music. When she turns around I grab her around her

waist and we walk out of the V.I.P. It feels good to let loose for once without any boundaries or restri ctions. Flashback End Baby, wake up, my fiancee, Tae pushes me off the bed.

I know me and Kelly have only been over for seven months, but Im a one woman man. You gone learn to stop doing that, I get up, and back into my bed. Oh yeah, she laughs.

Yea, I push her flat on the bed, parting her legs. Im about to learn right now, she smiles. Right now, I pull my boxers off her and push my dick inside.

She moans wiht each press and I go slow but hard. I love you Georgey, she moans. Tears slowly streak down her face as I go faster. Fuck slow down, i cant take it, she cries.

Whats my fucking name, I yell, going faster. Fuck daddy, she yells. Whose pussy is this, I pound. Yours oh my gosh, yours, she cries.

I suck on her neck and bite then I lick her nipples still thrusting. I cant fucking take it, she yells. I pull her hair back, making her look at the ceiling. Shes so tight and wet. I swear

this is the best pussy ever. Im cuming, she screams, her legs tightening before she falls completely weak. I pump twice before cuming inside her. I love you baby, she hugs me, her arms

wrapping around my neck. I love you too, I turn on my back, so that shes laying on top of my with my dick still inside her. Jordan Kamaya lives with me now. As soon as we

walk into the kitchen she plays the messages. Damn Jordan. I need your fucking help. You cant just fucking pretend I dont exist this is your baby too. Im due in a month and by the way Im having

youSON, kelly screams in the message. One month. One month and I can kill this bitch, she pounds her fist together. Calm down baby, I kiss her cheek. Oh no, this shit will never be over. NEVER! I

cant fucking stand you. Everyday I have to be reminded that you used to think I meant nothing, she got back into one of her moods. Sorry, I said. She rolled her eyes and walked out. Kamaya

I swear this bitch is so close to me whooping her ass. I should have pushed the hoe down the stairs. One thing shes going to learn is to NOT mess with Kamaya! Im rip that bitch a new asshole if she keep fucking with me.

Leaving messages and waiting for my man at his clubs. Wobblin ass bitch. Just thinking about the shit gets me heated. One month. Just one month until I can kick this bitch ass her. Angelica

Sit down Chanel, I scold. Walk, walk, she looks at me with those big pretty eyes. Fine, I breathe. My baby girl starts walking around the room and it is just something I will never

get used to. Shes so precious. Guess whose back from tour, I hear. Daddy, Daddy, she walks over to Chris. He picks her up and hugs her tight. Cornelius is at Momma Js house.

You miss me, Chris tries to kiss me. I walk away. Even after all this time I still cant get over the fact that he would stoop so low as to fuck Jasmine. Family cookout at my moms tomorrow, I

sigh, leaning on the kitchen counter. He tells Chanel to go into the other room. Whats wrong with you, he smirks. Stop playing stupid. Were stuck in a loveless marriage, I sigh.

We make love every night Im here, he laughs. Its not a joke Chris. Your here like 65 days out of the year. Sometimes even though he was fucked up I wish Chanel was Tevs.

An angry look covers his face. He looks like he doesnt know what to say and then I see a look in his face that I havent seen in a long time. HEARTBREAK.

Chapter 46 (The End) Chris I couldnt believe what she said. I fucked up, but not that bad. I looked at her and not one ounce of regret showed in her face.

You wanna leave me, I asked. Honestly, I cant wait for you to be gone. You said you would be here for me but that was a lie. I gave up everything for something that wouldnt last. Get Out, she stood strong.

Are you serious, I stepped closer. Bye Chris, she crossed her arms. I was defeated. Kamaya I woke up in an unfamiliar hotel room. The last thing I remember is getting in

an argument with Jordan. I wipe my face and realize I have a wedding ring on. Oh my gosh! Did me and Jordan get married? Im upset but happy. My emotions are conflicting. Fuck it. Ive wanted the upgrade from wifey for a long

time even if it is during a period of being drunk as fuck. I stand up and realize I have on a gorgeous wedding dress. I hear a door open and walk to the front of the suite.

Who the hell are you, I look at the guy standing by the door. He was fine. He stood tall possibly 68 with dark chocolate skin and pearly white teeth. His shirt was open and I could see his chiseled eight pack. He was

wearing shorts and it seemed like every inch of this man was chiseled like a sculpture. Thats funny. We met at Georges engagement dinner and we were talking about getting back at the

people we are in relationship with. I think we went a bit over board though, he held up his hand to show me a wedding band. Your fucking with me. George put you up to

this, didnt he, I rolled my eyes. No. I just told you what happened, he became frustrated. Lets start over, my name is Damien. I play on the Lakers. I know you seen me on t.v. you

said it last night, he smiled. I passed out. Jordan Jor-Jordan, Kamaya cried through the phone. Baby where are you. Kelly went into labor early. I want you to see

my son. Im so sorry. I want it to work, I held the phone to my ear with my shoulder while holding my son. Im married. It was an accident and-, I hung up on her.

And people wonder why I dont fucking do love. Kelly You need a place to stay, Jordan asked me as I laid in the hospital bed. Are you serious, I smiled.

Yeah. Lets be a family. We wont be in a relationship, but we can at least provide a good home for the baby. For our baby, he sat on the bed. Yes, I sat up and hugged him. George

Thank you, my fiancee kissed me. For what, I pulled her close. Loving me, a single tear rolled down her cheek. Angelica

Its messed up this time, but I just dont miss Chris anymore. Im tired of trying to repair this relationship. Its like a broken mirror. After it breaks you can put it back together but you still see the damage. Sometimes just knowing the

damage ever happenned is to much. Its time for me to move on. I cant do this anymore. I love Chris and our family, but Im Done. The End.

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