The further I delve into the Coils the more I realise that my relationship with the Dracul must,

at some point, come to an end. The Order itself proposes to search for something greater than the vampyric state, yet it bears fruit that appears to be a shallow attempt to be mortal once more. Perhaps it is the restlessness ferocity of my Gangrel nature but surely if I had wanted to be human I wouldve refused the Embrace. I will admit that my time with the Order has lead me to certain insights and mechanisms of control, but as a whole I find the Dracul ethos to mistake the means with the end. Dawn approaches, I must rest for the evenings experiment. Success! I have achieved an entirely new state of being and thus stepped into an undiscovered country. Much has been said and written about the Beast, but thus far has anyone really attempted to fully conceive yet alone dissect this vague entity? Over the past few moons I have proposed, researched and endeavoured to experiment with a hypothesis based upon the evolutionary history and physiological structure of the human, and thus vampyric, mind. This proposal standing so starkly in contrast to accepted truth, that until recently I have had no choice other than to become both experimenter and experiment. However I am getting somewhat ahead of myself. My hypothesis is this: That the Beast and its seizure affect mainly the middle brain, the parietal and occipital lobes. The frontal lobes being almost entirely negated through a process similar to epilepsy, psychosis or the bastard child of both. Control of the Beast, if it is achieved at all seems to arise from the lower brain stem, the so called reptilian mind. Over time the Coils of the Beast appear to increase this specific aspects ability to regain control or at least hold the Beast in its sway. This process in itself being a modification of the fight or flight mechanism, and something plausibly dealt with in may writings regarding kundalini. Some might say I have simply looked into the mirror and seen the Gangrels latent ability to control the beast. Fully aware of this I began a control study of a group of fellow, and willing, Kindred. Some of the group showing varying degrees of proficiency in Beast control and others showing little or none. The study was simple, the attachment of instrumentation to the head and the measuring of brainwaves.

Others might argue, based on kine study, that we Kindred appear dead in both body and mind. Firstly this is true when applied to instrumentation set to perceive human levels of life function. Secondly, there are many tales of Kindred who are able to mimic mortal life function. All that is required is the scientific insight and technical acumen to recalibrate mortal equipment.

However I digress. My findings seemed to suggest thus: That some degree of greater power and potency lies within the tiny and oft neglected cerebellum. This being the ability to, at the very least stretch forth and regain composure over the Beast.

Also, that despite the presumption that our minds are dead jelly, with the correct instrumentation set to the precise levels, one can measure and study activity in the vampyric mind, and thus demonstrate this phenomena in varying degrees, across a significant number of bloodlines.

Disaster. The Lancea Sanctum have gotten wind of my work. The ghouls I have running the front of this facility thought it simply a somewhat over zealous evangelist with empty threats against the ungodliness of science. I knew better. It was that guilt ridden Dain. Certainly. The subsequent destruction of at least the upper levels of this facility proving the sincerity of her fire and brimstone fervour. Her keenness to participate in the experiment shouldve been my first clue. However as a fellow Gangrel I felt somewhat sympathetic to her, particularly when she confided in me her affliction with Malkavia. My compassion and scientific curiosity getting the better of me. As time progressed though it appears that Dains masochism knew no bounds. For, when offered the key to absolve herself of her own self loathing and the control to lift herself from utter abasement she returns to the childish arguments of heavenly mandate and Original Sin put forth by that dusty collective of monotheists. I cannot begin to ascertain when Dain was embraced or when. All I can conclude is that it, and her times since have not been pleasant. She may very well have had Malkavia from the start considering the depth and breadth of her mental states. All of this somewhat of an uncomfortable coincidence considering recent occurrences in in my phases of Potence of late. The change when it occurs has come under such precise control invoking such extreme levels of will power as to literally stretch my body into a new form. I knew I had been taking on somewhat of a more reptilian form, however the full horror or majesty of this being only revealed to me after I had commissioned a ghoul to paint a portrait in the name of posterity before we utterly abandon this place.