NELIA

AND I
DRAFT AUTHOR: MUSOKE MUBARAK a.k.a Ssug

CHAPTER ONE It was clear bright afternoon in late summer, 22nd May that a struggle to protect my potential affair with my friend Nelia began. I and Nelia were close friends since in junior school, Nelia a seventeen year old blessed cuty down to earth girl who was feared by any devil for seduction. I had to stay honest with her, share with her hopes, triumphs and failures as well as her attraction and temptations which had to keep us more trust worthy and close to each other. The son to a poor modern African slave had love for a royal girl; I had to always make time for just the two on regular basis. I had to always accelerate the level of intimacy through sensual or suggestive talks, over SMS, e-mails and phone calls. My hope was to surround our selves as happy friends who never believed in fooling around, we were all to have positive emotional connected feelings as role models to each other which had to keep us against our enemies and stay on truck as one for ever. We never had any obvious signs of cheating on each other as we were one. We were to stick in the driving seek through laughters, tears, failures and triumph as part of our life as teenagers. These experience were to develop in us as part of us and part of every grown elder, an experience thats like traveling on the road of life finding adventure, love, trust, family and friendship and gaining life along the way as we were one. On the hand, I would never give up the freedom to really know what was like to really be in love with her, to have her as someone I trust and could see my self spending the rest of my life with her as I looked for true love but not a friend, true lover who would see me for who really I am, some body with love who would be there when I need some one to talk too, who wont be afraid to say what she feels about me. Some one honest and trustworthy who will never cause heartbreak to me. In turn no one I would give a vote in this contemporary word of evil, liars, pick and plays unless Nelia. I badly wanted a relationship, I just had to put my self on her, take a chance but afraid that I will get hurt. But I believed eighty two percent of affairs happen with some one who was just at first Just a friend, moreover innocent friendship inst so innocent after all. I am happier than I have ever been in along time I have been single, my heart deserted I have found true love in Nelia, but the rational side of me argued against this as still I had little trust in her to be my girl friend, the only one I had was for friendship. I trailed off again wondering if she was miss right, but the Romantic in me, knew that she was right for me. But what were odds of it working out or her feeling the same way as I felt? On the other hand, may be I should stop thinking about odds and just let what to happen happen. I knew you dont have to know someone very long to fall in love with, but still irrational in thinking, some times if you are lucky you just know the moment you meet them. Different people approached Nelia for relationships but had negative feelings about their manifestos no matter how they arranged it to have her attention. To her destination which was not open, she drove them around the corners. She never liked being open to them with a strong No. to those who approached her for reply, she kept on confusing them, the wise ones would understand what she ment with all she would do before them.

As her best friend, I knew her secrets, no matter what it would be it was known to me and always tried to advise where necessary and appreciated me as a wonderful friend. I appreciated her too as a girl who never wished to fall in such relationships of pick and play, what ever one was regardless of his rank she never adhere to them. She feared pregnancy of which were as a result of such relationships, coward of Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome that had no cure and heart breaks which was my greatest fear. She had a problem of heart attach any time she could think at anything annoying, it would mark the beginning of a new horror to her life and I there maintained to keep her happy with a pleasant smile. She never wanted to hate or being hated by any body, nor so selfish but used to different minds. She never believed to be loved by someone anymore as to her all men were the same, on addition, it wasnt fair for her to hurt a heart that loved her in other words it isnt possible for someone to hope a hope for some one yet he or she you hope in is hopeless. In summer when the day lights gone, the fields covered with blossoms scent the air for miles around, I slept but a half sleep of transparent dreams about Nelia, eyes shut, ears open, minds fully up thinking about Nelia. How happy will I be? Like a stone that rumble in the road alone? Doesnt care about careers and exigencies, so will I not fear man with Nelia by my side fulfilling absolute in a casual simplicity of me. I have always been insecure when it comes to girls mostly having relationships with them. I am always worried that they wouldnt accept me for who really I was. If they did, then at first of trouble, they would never understand though I explain for a decade and I would be left along again, I cant handle being alone, I know whats like to be with some one who I care about and loose her, I fear break ups. The same was to Nelia; she was scared of loosing her best friend in the world incase of a strong breakup, some thing that couldnt be replaced, a treasure of friendship. I could go visit her in each day of the week after work or while going for lunch. I thought it out as a great deal thinking of it to ask her out or tell her about true feeling for her. As I figure it out, my heart has only one wary for Nelia to fire me off with a heartly No. I cannot explain the sadness that may fall on my heart when she will have to say No, I will have an emotional corruption for ever and always, I will not seize to forget that in my entire life. I will not rest on earth until her rescue by love. She has a bosom interest that I like most, she tells me about guys falling one her, I feel it in there to trust her too the more and never wish to break her heart. If she understands my feeling for her, wonderfully happy we will be in our own world of two its light, its joy, its happiness and its bread to be together Nelia and I in our world which we will know its dimension from pole to pole to centimeter. My strength will be that am not alone in the big world. On my work leave for lunch, I had to by pass their home as she had promised me to test on her own prepared cakes. Before entering the gate, I felt shy, the problem is, there was no way I could act like mad, persistently I had to go on. It was in that day on which the sun in awe of his creator

dimmed the ray that my feelings were captured the more, with my heart guard a stray, for her face not very tall but she feet the dark and cute just fine girl, her chocolate black eyes deep and indigenous, her dark brown hair messy yet styled in a black veil, dressed in a black jinn skirt with a white top out of brown pedal, hardly seemed time for me to plan defence against love strokes from her as my feelings ready captured, to my eyes an open highway to her heart wishing me to one more rich in hopes for a true love from her. She welcomed me following her in, opened was the door letting us to the living room. By the sound of her voice you are welcome Loic haunt my heart, I felt to fall in love with her for ever, staring down at her structure, wow, I felt an inclination to love her as she will never fall in love with another boy again. I rubbed my arms while shocking off my shyness. As I rested in the living room, seated in the luxury seats, an order for a glace of juice was aired out, I guess she sensed I deserved a drink, on receiving a glass of juice from her, hurriedly my heart skipped a beat, poured juice on my trouser, Oh gees, I am so sorry, I was out of my mind, that was completely my fault she knelt down, handed me her Napkin that she had with her, I took it and dabbed my trouser, No its fine I smiled at her she shook her head, No its not, I feel terrible. I have probably ruined your trouser, and let me guess, you had some where to go? I know you deed. I thought she knew what I was about. Well yeah but lucky for me, no where to go I said, she seemed skeptical and it was easy to see how bad or good she felt. Seriously dont wary about it, accidents happen its just a little spill I handed her back the Napkin; she wiped the stain that was across the seat. She smiled, I felt my heart skipping a beat, feeling an instant attraction with her smile, my breath caught in throat, and took a deep breath, as I smiled too. As I was seated, my phone rung, Oh Im late! I laughed softly and so she did, but she never wanted me to leave. I have got to run, I will see you tomorrow, Nelia her hand brushed across mine and she smiled again, flashing her white teeth, Wonderful smile. see you tomorrow loic she said I returned the smile she stoop up, tossed the Napkin in a trash beside as I walked out. I left her with a smile still on my face Tomorrow cant get there son enough, I exclaimed. My love and feeling for Nelia were un preventable as the cry of an electric guitar, no need to stop it once it starts, as its impossible to stop it, my love for Nelia will never stop, once I have her by my side, my worries are all gone, I will never allow a broad river to pass between us once I have her, all the companionship I have for her never let love disappear with friendship break up and fell to pieces before the autumn wind. At night, I had to exchange text messages with Nelia but all in vein I had limited words to text in spite of some being talked during the day, it wasnt enough to make my minds settle and do other things. I had to spend my night but minds drifting back to Nelia and all the experience we had during the day. Another beautiful day, still I felt some thing is missing, sensing out. I had to go to see Nelia as we had all promised to meet tomorrow which was today. On recalling the earlier rapture, the memory of two violent eyes that held the promise of happiness, joy and tranquility. With that I believed in promising her the same but I never thought she will

believe when I told her about my feelings for her. I thought about it as I was approaching their home gate. At any first glance to her on a new day, I let out a gasp of admiration; the dominant color at each time in my eyes is green when ever her face sets. You are highly welcome she said to me as I entered. Thank you, I replied with a smile on my face, as a routine we had to move on up to the living room so as I can have my borns rest. As I was always the one to make a start of every thing whenever we met, neither was it a story or SMS nor what, it was me, there for I had to do my role as I used to do. Whats up, Nelia I began, Nothing much with a single lady she replied. She liked calling her self a single or lonely lady which would annoy me, some times to me it portrayed a different image out side, but that wasnt my concern on the day, I had to leave pie as pie. With out beating around the bush, I had to express my feelings to her not minding of what would happen with my glass of juice at hand. Nelia thought it out as a jock or a story, she knew I was just kidding as she was used to my jocks as I said to her, I love you, I had never talked that to her. I felt it as a story, I never wanted any thing to change between us, but it was high time I went on. I wanted her by my side for my happiness, I never knew that all had to change, but I had promised her never to change any thing between us. Give it a chance, okey? One of us is bound to find the right person sooner or later but not now she said to me. She was right, I just have to take a chance, I laughed softly Okey, here am hopping its sooner than later I said as I rolled my eyes on her. I will look into it but not until I will have gotten you to know that I love you. I said. As we talked, Nelia seemed to suffer emotionally where she had to loose appetite for food, what she hated is what came surrounding her terribly, she couldnt do anything to develop her self without thinking about it, totally she was out of her skin. She had regret the first day she meant me, as mostly those who approached her were her friends this time it was me. I forced my self to do it simply because I wanted it as part of life, part of my happiness as I was driven crazy by my feelings for Nelia, I wasnt after sex with her as she thought of some guys that approached her, never was I after breaking her heart as other have done nor driving her off of what she wanted in life after her high school. Truly she was the girl of my choice, her characters matched with the kind of girl I need in spite of her being my close friend. I continued to tell her what I felt for her, telling her how nice and trust full she was which mostly I died for in her, without the aim for blackmailing her or flirting her off. The more I assured her the more she felt like a chicken in an egg, she was not happy about it but had no decision at a time; she had to listen for each and every word I told her, but still much confused about it. She had no one to ask for advice or what to do except telling me who was telling her the same story. I know guys of now days, to use you and dump you, leave you in ever lasting pain said to me. But still insisted on assuring her that I was right not after what she said. No wonder she was right to think it out live that. To her she believed she had no true love and never trusted any body for love. But for I was deeply in need for her love and never thought to mess out with her love once I have her.

Its funny to think about some one who does not think about you, I thought the worst of all, she wanted to be loved by some one who truly loved her. She expected a proof from me if really I loved her, but she had no idea on what I can prove with love to her. However what remained was for Nelia to understand and believe what I was meaning, to what would act as a proof to her, I never expect mercy from her, nor her giving me a chance as others have done ending up breaking her heart, all I wonted from Nelia was understanding my true feelings for her. True lovers dont show up in a minimum period of time but in a maximum period of time, of which I had proved to her because its what she believed in from true lovers. She thought of many things to believe in me, asked her self many questions which were left un turned, still her heart could not change to what her fresh was after, she always believed in what her heart told her, not what her fresh could say. In her life, no time seemed to be rich and blessed than being in love joyfully of which too I wanted, but I never had means to prove to her unless by her understanding me what she ment to me of which I had no control of except her the master of every thing on her body. The more she thought of it, the more she cried, she was in an emotional dilemma at a time, why every thing was going wrong like that, she felt she had wings but couldnt stretch them for help. Nelia thought of denouncing me from her friends, but she never had a green light, she never wanted me away from her since I was the Best friend ever she had she thought how can she make her best friends shade after all my happiness was her joy, she never wished to see me so lonely and disserted we had promised each other to always be there for one another in happiness, sorrows, joy and in poverty forever as friends. To my surprise was why couldnt she understand then what I told her if truelly she loved me and never wanted me to shade, there fore seemed to be a problem to me why she never wanted to tell me the truth of what she felt about me, I thought. As if that wasnt enough, suddenly what I expected from her was difficult to achieve with all experience she had about boys, but I had to keep on convincing her in maximum for her to understand me. To certain people, mostly girls there comes a day for them to say a heartily year or a heartily No. she who has the yeas ready with her by her tongue reveals her self at once, on saying it, she crosses over for a short period you break up. She who refuses has a path of honour for her own conviction and she should be asked again for the final decision once she crosses over she is then bound to be yours for ever and ever and never expect a break up and I never expect to mess up with suck kind of a girl since she is mine to my wonder goes Nelia, to which category is she, the odd in me she is of a No girls, please what can she be to you. Laiter that day at home every thing around my stylish apartment was bright and cheerful while reading a few chapters about Oliver twist laying down on my queen sized bed, I found it hard to concentrate on the book since my thoughts kept on drifting back of Nelia. There is some thing different with her she seems to close the doors to my world the world that I wanted to enter all at once and for all. Her world gives me that great shout of no help, hoarse I cry but seems never wont to hear me for help, asking for her understanding.

She is of my choice I fell ill, I cant ignore that for a single moment in my life, I shouldnt. my whole life characterized with chrysene sorrow, the winds for her help on reachable in the skies above, parched are my lips stuck together logging for her understanding to my feelings, all suffering for love Nelia why ignore you. I will have to meet nor next time because I will regret it I dont, I dont always want to think of what may happen if only I had to meet nor for just the two of us for a discussion about the two generally. But all she is a triad of is modern life full of break ups, early pregnancies and Acquired Immune deficiency syndrome (ADIS) hence decide to remain behind closed doors but never understood that finely came to her ells of true love from loci. But surely I never knew whether she felt the attraction between us last time.

CHAPTER TWO After brushing my teeth, and washing my face having took a not cup of coffee, It was a first day marking the beginning of second term of school. I had to text their maid informing her to telling to wait me as I will pick her for school. Thirty minutes past on reaching nor home, to my surprise, the whole family was still asleep, lucky she had just looked up as I saw her coming from the bed room. Good morning beautiful, how was the night I said her. My night was nice with no night mares I added. Thanks for your hart felling. My heart was good she replied. I therefore had to wait as she entered the shower room to take her morning shower to pass time, I had to play a few games on my cell phone, was a wake as she walked out too of the room, she was beautiful but not as Nelia. Finally Nelia was ready dressed up for school, amusingly never had any exercise book with her except a physics text book reason being it was the first day there for she was not ready to take any notes that day. Immediately we had to find our way out of the gate to school. While in the way to school, I thought of what to say, school I disclose once more my feelings to her? But she may not be in moods of listening to me on such issues that morning I wondered; the only option was I just had to ignore it. Were you informed of my message I only had to opt to that. What message? replied with a smile I sent you a message via maries phone she never told you I answered on knowing that merry was still asleep by the time text her, she replied me that came to an end, I thought of which to say again. Dont be surprised when we appear the first at school I said Never mind she replied with a happy face. She seemed happy for the first day at school we are the pioneers of the school, no problem by that she added. Finally we arrived to school, I was wrong instead she was right, to my surprise, I saw a crowd of students in school. It never seemed as the first days in prior had always been we were late instead. Isnt that Lynne, I asked Nelia, she resembles her she replied. Lynne coos our close friend in school, she was nice to us among all students, she was a grade two student, she was liked in school because the coos a Jumpy girl non of the students never knew Lynne, as she was social to every one regardless being a suffer more in school. That made her popular and I liked nor of that, she was to open minded and never wonted to I have me bored, the tried hard to make me feat in school but not as much as Nelia. On getting near indeed it was Lynne, we hugged as it was long since break of term no eying on each other. In school premises we had to separate as each one began to great his or her class mates plus friends. I felt tired of greeting these so called friends I sat on the door way of

grade ten class as I sat, this girl known as Emily came. She was the girl I played on love games. Once I test her understanding capacity since she was a suffer more telling I love you, and she bared it in mind that I loved her. I felt out of my skin and disgusted, I fell like being swallowed by the door but not means for that; smilingly came to greet me, Hi Loic, how has life been to you, her voice was sucking all she said to me was degusting. Am not good just out of my mind just need a little break excuse me I recalled her she felt it to that I never wanted any soul of story from her, she had disappeared from my face. I had to stand up too and leave for a plastic chair to rest in a tree shadow to have some new chapters written for my book. A long came Nelia from her friends, I felt complete and happy again as I glanced at her love makes me blissful and miserable, it makes me frightened and healing when I glance at someone I love, physically, I felt incredibly fragile and yet so strong and deathless. The sound of her accent drifted from where we were seated up on the class windows where Emily had seated with her friends, no Bime past as her face had already changed from the normal look, I thought if she fell embarrassed and humiliated by .. words altered by Nicy. But why should you have to alter all those words I said to Nicy. She argued didnt you tell her you loved her why then feel shy with us she continued. You are just nothing but a hypocrisy Nicy I said as Nelia was just enjoying the quarries discreetly for minutes, wondered what Nicy was about. I imagined that was she just billeting me or tronishing my reputation to my side I felt embarrassed in presence of Nelia as she continued talking her both and any was those .. the kind of words you have to talk said Nelia my breath arrived home, my heart to the normal bech this manipulated that Nelia was discreet on all that we exchanged. Every new day has an end, neither nice nor worst in this case my day was worst my first day in school was worst as one all came from town therefore we had to talk the same way back home with our mouth shut no exchange of any word, just quite and silence. We separated an reaching their home gate, I not to go on to my grand mums work place. On reaching her, her face was fraud not as usual, she all looked strange immediately, smell a rat and therefore had to may gaze before her. Oh poor dear said to me old ground mum I where you pass, where you play and those you play with never impregnate some daughters my grand son she continued, I felt astonished to had words No grand mum and I pray to never happen firmly I replied to me I was guilty and this situation I was in, I was in love, I thought of my friend. Holly, Nicy all nothing big was happening between us, except Nelia whom I was in love with and never thought of that. I just have to take care, ground mum I pronounced am grown up, I can discriminate between bad and good, I continued. I had just by passed her work place and I had to leave while home, and what happened on the cell phone I fob added still dressed in

school uniform I never felt contactable therefore I had to leave for home to change to casual wear and go to an internet cafe to check on my mails until 7:45p.m. I had to leave from this internet caf back home too rest and organise my self for school the next day. I found my family having dinner and there for had to join them on dining, but still my heart felt something missing. I wanted to hear Nelias voice whispering in my ear, therefore had to make her a call as I had cost appointed for food despite it being my mind, the Affliction for her love, I could imagine spending a night without her whisper that was palpable. Before phone calling, I stood in study, what was I going to tell her woner she be Lavish I was lost in minion my heart behest me and made a dial: terr , hullo, I said after being received. High Loic, whats up her voice whispered in my ears, Hi Nelia whats up, I said, nothing up with me, just lost in minion, continued as I felt doughty. I thought of what to add, nothing with my mind, lastly, I have your feelings Nelia, I love you I said though she hated the word I love you you dont trust me, Nelia why? continued. I havent said that I dont trust you, she said you have just said that your self she continued. Why then dont want to understand me, have bosom interest Nelia. I whispered it will be one day I will have to understand you Loic she whispered, When, Nelia I replied, I ask her to chose day as am a man and have to decide for my self. Ok tomorrow I said Ok tomorrow, say Nelia. Your account balance is getting low, you cont be able to make this call. Though my heart was not contented, I had to spend a name with that little I hard from her. Sitting down for my lesson the next day in school, I was careful to keep my heart at rest and be straight in all that I will have to do in school. When finally came to the end of the day, all had gone well on my side, we took lunch together with Nelia, Holly and Emily the hypocrite to me her life style was hypocritic and opportunist, Emily could go where there is opportunity hence being an hypocrite to those she would life for other. The school was deserted, the road way crowded with student and pedestrians leaving for their homes and it was late in the evening. According to the school clock a side on the wall, we were fifty minutes late for home therefore we started walking home. Shall you give me a call at night? I said continually at lest for one minute I work be safe No, she said my maternal aunt is sick and I have to massage her at night to inquire on her healthy sorry she continued. She had already told me about her maternal aunts sickness therefore directly I knew what she was up to what ever your reason may be you are perfectly correct I said to her. There is no mystery my dear Loic, said she as we went on. Her aunt was a middle aged simple hearted woman who liked in the middle of this city of Kasese a good many years whom I respected and feared her much. Her face all drown and gray, with rest less frightened eyes, like those of some excused criminal she turned to be like a women of fourty

The day Mr. Benard started talking about politics in relation to human rights and justice, to each member of our call, I was more exited than I have ever been in his political class. I wanted to build my own political ambitions more unusual than those of my class mates and have some thing to make them respect more as a future politician and human right fighter. I made the best grade in my class in politics I made more yardage, more tackles and carried the political football across the goal line than any player on my team. Every day I thought about my political ambitions as I had to struggle for the bi grade than ever by the end of school year and it was now October. I thought about politics but in turn I had my prior ambitions of doing music BOC it wouldnt come to me like memorizing a poem. I thought of something more vital that would help my grand mum and sister to support us one that would be good and useful, in turn two would link my notion. if you see your mind on something and keep on thinking about it, the idea will eventually come teacher Benard told us, and in prior Nelia had talked to me about that. But I had two ambitions music and politics, would both come to me? One morning in May, I left home in a white cloudy that had settled over big mountains of my city, I could not see an object twenty feet in front of me in the mish. I looked over the sea of tolling white clouds on the tops of the dark winter hiss tufted up like little islands, across I saw Nelia, this was like a miracle to me, an thin early time what are doing in this road I asked, am just leading to school she replied, wow it was Monday therefore we were all leading to school. They like a f, the idea of my ambitions came to me, and what on idea it was! I could not tell her about it! But I knew she would be for it. Little while calls of mist had given me the idea for it.

CHAPTER TWO THE FLOOD OF TEAARS I case understood when the school notice board was entered, suddenly what happened next was out of my knowledge? back to my since I was help by Ozo. K or a flood of tears come out as my eyes, was astonished of the horrible expeneria that happened to me, it was strange in my life as those near, some become surprised, others was their soy, occurs had got news about the greatest boy faiving, others who had little love for me created a cry face, but all were nothing tome, shamelessly I was rushed home with the right side of me wet, never knew what made me men, that too caused wonder tome. As I reached home, straightly I closed my self in the room, crying wondering cannot had happened to me that evening, whats wrong brother my sister had to knock on my door while asking which had happened to me Nothing, sister, just fine. Replied her nothing to all was a solution to my fears except having Nesia in my sister. All I knew that I died was love, it seemed I had interiors, as they say its the sickness to those in love mostly when one ignores, the other. 40 minutes past the room seemed dock, stases shinnying in my eyes through the doveness my eyes were short sided, from a distant, I had some one knocking the gate, familiar choices asking weather loice was home, they have to find their way is the time coas cut of minded, a shame was I to what had happened to me that evening. I prayed to be wallowed by the bed, but that was not time for miracles. On realizing well, was Nelia with a friend, she had brought my all phone, I had left in at school, did she look kind to me than the tears flew from my eyes. I love her but never did she cove me not have a maro feeling for me. Having received my phone thon she left. Loic sorry, I got to go she said to me. have a good right womens I replied feeling out of my skin. Every one at home, felt sorry for me, but hon of them new what had happened to me except the tears they saw fowling from my eyes. Stranded out side the corridors was I in dilemma no rescval from Nelia, yowning for her touch on me was I but all in rain knocking wonted out for me. I had get in and rest my minds with my face wrinkled than an old African grand mum. Handily, had entered the living room when my grand mum or rived, I never conted her indulges in cannot was bothering me hurriedly I had to enter the living room and forge a sleep for her not to notice what had happened home, but all had knocking to help. I am supposed to be at school, coas a bounding student, therefore I had to stomach all the questions that I was to be asked, sinia I was home instead of school. I had nothing to my rescve except talking the truelti that night. To my surprise was that what I never wanted my grand mom to know was a bout my bloody tears, the family grand daughters had already told my grand mum. Whats wrong my boy, what has happened asked my grand mum with much interest to know her gaze to me.

I thought better not to lie nor about anything she will have to ask, but intum it coosric healthy for her. I just had on obropt neart she will have to ask, but intum it coosric healthy for her. I just had on obropt neart attack I repied her. heart attack? Oh my God, she exclaimed with fear. Nothing she had to add at the momene but to keep quate. As my grand mum coos puzzled, and green in mind, I had the get hardly opened, it seems force was applied to it. On realizing the sound, it coos the school principle, who had come to know what had happened to me. Welcome, have a such said to nor my grand mum, eehh, what has happened loic immediately before I answering, grand mum had answered for me. heart attack, exclaimed the principle, but to my notice she seemed not convinced, and as he coos monitoring me for last past two weeks, it never seemed heart attack to him, it was something else he sensed but not heat attack, I respected him and I knew if not careful he may it the cut of the bog, but too still wasnt in position to telling him the true Hi why so early for that, he asked me with on eager face as wanting to know really why so early. It was then to my task to know he met by that and look for on immediate answer for him, I smelt a rat, I had to tell her just heart attack No. No. No, it cant be heart attack young boy tell me the truth.