Name: Johar Menezes Roll No: 519 (XIMR MMS-I)

Date: 17-Apr-12

As per the Rotter's I-E Scale Test my score is 4 which indicates that I have a very strong internal locus of control. This means I am more likely to hold myself responsible for the happenings that take place around me. I believe the score does reflect my personality as I have always had a belief that every human being is solely responsible for his/ her actions and that external forces do not have much significance in shaping an individuals fate or destiny. I am not a very superstitious person and do not believe in things like astrology or miracles. I strongly believe a person can achieve his goals by his own hard work, perseverance, humility and awareness. I think the reason for my tendency to demonstrate a strong internal locus of control is because of my upbringing and the influence of my father and cousins over me. My father is also not a very superstitious person and believes that peoples misfortunes are a result of their own ineptitude. Also I have spent a large part of my childhood with my cousins who have had a very derisive view of people with strong religious beliefs and of those who are susceptible to superstition and rely on divine intervention as a succour to overcome difficulties in life. I feel that to have a strong internal locus of control is an advantage as it helps me keep better focused on my person and makes me neglect irrelevant external factors. I also have a very aggressive attitude towards achieving things that I want and can go to great lengths and spend enormous amounts of time in learning and understanding different ways to get them. But there are many disadvantages of having a strong internal locus of control. I tend to be too self centred at times and fail to pay attention to other peoples viewpoints. I sometimes feel very stressed and anxious in achieving my targets and blame myself for all my failures. I find it amazing in the way most of my peers deal with their own failures and find it really unbelievable on their ability to maintain a cool head even in dire times. My inability to maintain my composure in times of stress leads to my losing my temper easily and find it difficult to control my emotions. At times I find life very frustrating and feel that in order to do better I should have been born a different person with better talent and abilities. I think as a management student I should learn to maintain a good balance between the internal and external loci of controls, which would really help me as I move along my career path. I feel I should change my behaviour and attitude and pay more attention to the environment and the people around me. I feel I need to relax and take life easy and not have a fixation with any particular thing in life. I think this would really help me dealing with stress and anxiety and have a better control of my emotions and temper. I also need to be content with the way I am and learn to accept myself with all my strengths and shortcomings.