Me, Myself and I Who am I?

How about we start the introduction beginning with what's my name-I am Kristenn Dominique Cruz Malig. I'm 17 years of age, presently living at #75-14th St. Corner Jones New Kalalake, Olongapo City. I've grown up in a broken family, living in my grandmother (to my father's side) since I was infant. At first, I was just like the other normal kids who innocently play around. But as I grow up, from time-to-time... I started seeking my parents' presence, knowing that their both settled apart with other mates. I've felt very empty inside even I have received so much love from my granny, aunts, and uncles. Still, I was longing from my real parents' existence. Then as I grow up, started attending high school, I was given a chance to get along with my step-dad because he was a teacher with the same curriculum that I was attending. He was kind to me. Yes, hat's great. But isn't it hard that almost everyday people are questioning you, Step-father mo si Sir?, Kasama mo ba siya sa bahay?, Nasaan mommy mo?, Nasaan daddy mo? and so on... I get annoyed sometimes, telling the same old story, answering the same questions. I even got suspended of 3 days absent for committing suicide they said. I tend to cut/slits my arms, day and night, while I cried and hide in any dark corner of our house..slitting my arms until I get satisfied. It was such a long story to tell each and every details of my growing up life. I was like no ordinary girl before which seems to look good, easy-to-go, and confident from the outside. But not them knowing that on the inside, I was deeply tearing apart and full of consciousness and insecurities. This was just a funny thing to tell-- I usually end up with an emotional-breakdown. I couldn't stop it. Maybe it was just my nature being like that... too emotional. I even got carried out even with the non-sense thing. Like, when my friends/crush get mad at me.. I will barely end up crying. That's me anyway! But even my life looks like terrible, God was always in the midst of me. I was a Christian since I was a kid, yet I consider myself being fully Born-again, way back May 21, 2011. During our Encounter God Retreat, up there in Peniel, Tarlac. Thank God that I was renewed that time! I have released all my hatreds, and I was freed from my burdens. I have repented towards God, I've asked Him to heal me and use me in His works. Beginning from then, I started being active at our ministry. Actually, God is rally using me. I'll gonna be a Youth Leader soon. I'm currently in the process. I have here a Bible verse which I meditate and apply unto my daily life. Proverbs 3:5-6 says, Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths. That's how I handle things now, with all faith and trust. I prayed and pray, that's how I have made assurance of my eternal life. :))