Worlds Within

Meditation

By Allen Graih

To meditate is liken to a seed, taken from the hand of a gardener and

planted to become a beautiful flower. The mind grows through
meditation in this way.

Nekisshi Nish Kawa – Spiritualist

Vancouver 1979

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Introduction

I began to practice meditation in 1976, when in

high school I became involved with a group of students
that were into New Age spiritualism. My continued
studies in Vancouver brought me to a greater
understanding of this practice, and I have followed
these methods successfully for over 25 years, although
have continued searching for methods that would lead
me to a deeper understanding of my own mind. In
2005 I took the Sheri Wade online meditation course
which greatly added to the aspects of deepening my
meditative practice. I remain one of her teachers.
The techniques and teachings presented to you in
this book will not only give a deeper insight into the
practical aspects of meditation, but also show you
methods that will allow you go deeper your own mind.
It is an honour to begin a legacy of teacher to student,
and to teach to you the methods benefits, and attitudes
of meditation that have in so many ways deepened my
spiritual existence, and improved my worldly life.
--Allen Graih
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Table of Contents
Introduction - 2
PART 1 - Introducing Meditation
A Brief History - 9
Meditation Practice in the Western World - 10
The Reason we Meditate - 13
Two Popular Methods of Meditation - 15
The Point to Meditation - 18
Disregarding Ridicule - 20
Keeping to it - 22
Setting your Personal Goals - 23
Meditation as a Lifestyle - 26
Walking Meditation - 28
Grounding(Earth energy alignment) - 29
Cosmic Entities an Astral parasites - 30
Your Inner Voice - 33
Sleep Meditation - 34
World Access Meditation - 36
Energy Circulation(Chakras) - 37
Mind, Mouth, Throat, Heart, Solar Plexus,
Sexual response nodes, Hands, Feet, Rooted
energy center.

PART 2 - Practice and session Work

Setting up your Space - 49
Equipment you will need - 50
Setting up a Schedule - 51
Actual Practice - 54
(image pages)
Meditation Positions -
- Sukasana - 54
- Cross Legged - 54
- Laying down - 55
- Bear Grip - 56
- Venus Lock - 57
- Prayer Position - 57
- Kneeling - 58
- Respectful - 58
- Seated Comfortably - 59
- Hands(Mudras) - 60
- Complete Relaxation - 61
Relaxation Exercises for Daily Life - 62
- Count to ten - 62
- Clench your fists - 62
- Practice Calm - 62
- Stretching - 63
- Keeping Busy - 63
- Breathe to relax - 63
- Importance of Proper Breathing - 64
Grounding Meditation Practice - 66
Mantra - 67
Getting Rid of Mental Clutter - 68
Positions to Avoid - 71
Nine Levels of the psyche - 72
Suffering from within to attain outward Peace - 78
Eight Limbs of Yoga (Ashtang Yog) - 78
Ashtang Yog(image) - 82
Continued practice - 83
Problems that may arise - 84
- Doubt - 84
- Attitude - 85
- Procrastination - 85
- Health and Well Being - 86
- Worldly Experiences - 86
- Discouragement - 87
- Excessive Negativity - 88
- Inner turmoil - 88
- Stress - 89
- Sickness - 89
Ambient Awareness - 90
A Place of Peace within(sacred cell) - 94
Attaining Oneness(Spiritual Awareness) - 95
Attacking your Goals - 97
Spiritual Awakening - 98
Inner perfection - 100
The True Self - 102
Out of the Darkness into the Light(dealing with fear) - 104
Aspects of Surrender - 106
Intuitive nature - 108
Part 3 - Practical Applications

Mental Awareness - 112

Happier and less Discontent - 114
Everything is Where it should be
(But nothing is in it’s Place) - 114

Feeling Worthy of yourself - 116

Self Forgiveness - 117
Pride and Arrogance - 121
Patience and Discernment - 123
Allowing yourself to Daydream - 125
Physical Awareness - 126
- Sleeping better Eating better - 126
- Yoga Exercise - 127
- Stress relief through relaxation - 128
- Benefits of Walking - 129
- Perception - 130
Spiritual Awareness - 132
- Duality - 132
- Universal connectivity - 132
- Awakening of the Spirit - 136
- Dark night of the soul - 137
- Karma and Past Life regression - 139
Dreams, Karma, and the Subconscious Mind - 142
Conclusion
Invite a Friend
- One to One - 147
- As a Group - 147
- Online Meditation - 148
- Friends and family - 149
Team Leadership - 150
- Patience and Calm are key - 150
- Be more teacher than trainer - 151
- Group concerns - 152
- Don’t be overbearing - 152
- Class levels - 153
The Journey begins - 153
- The single step153
- A continued Journey - 155
- Awareness of your purpose - 156
- Ways and Means - 157

APPENDIX

Nekisshi Nish Kawa - Short Biography - 159

Exercises - 161
Personal Sessions - 183
Tantric Dreaming - 198
Glossary of Terms - 205
Part 1 – Introducing Meditation
A Brief History
Meditation is a technique of finding peace within
ones self through relaxation exercises designed to calm
the mind. It has been practiced for thousands of years.
The ancient teachers of meditation used to keep their
methods a secret, only their students would learn the
aspects of Self Realization, a method by which a person
could find the truth about their inner being.
Although it has been related as a spiritual practice
by many religious orders throughout the centuries,
meditation began become more popular in western
countries in the 1950’s. Methods. Such as
Transcendental meditation were brought over to The
Western countries from East Asia and India, and have
become one of the major activities used to calm the
mind and body since 1970. Today, even the medical
communities of our Western nations have begun to
embrace Meditation as a form of positive psychological
exercise, as well as for physical health and well being.
Yoga, a form of bodily movement that has also been
around for several thousand years is a physical

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formatting of body to mind, in which the movements
are designed to bring about a spiritual awakening. In
essence, this brings a person to the realization of their
true self. The true self is the spirit that exists within
exactly as is, unaffected by the influences of the outside
world. Yoga has been connected to meditation since the
beginning of its conception, as it is a form of physically
motivated meditative practice.

Meditation Practice in the Western world

With the large number spiritual practices that exist
in Western cultures it would fair to say that meditation
is not only a religious activity in the west. The fact that
there are several traditional religions that practice
meditation as a spiritual activity; these include
Buddhism and Hinduism, both were brought over from
Eastern countries in Asia. We define Western cultures
as Europe, North, and South America.
Although there are many spiritual aspects to
meditation there is a growing movement towards
staying outside of mainstream religious circles, often

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just to find a spiritual identity within for personal
reasons. This has created two major categories of
spiritual practice particular in Western culture. These
are the Spiritualist religion, a set practice of common
beliefs and the New Age movement, which allows for
complete individuality within a spiritual belief
structure.
The spiritualist religion teaches us that the Earth
plane, the place on which the world exists includes all
of our common earthly possessions, all of nature, the
sky, sun moon, and stars. It also talks about the Spirit
World, which exists within the same space as the world
all around, but is visually invisible.
Spiritualism teaches an invisible realm sometimes will
become visible to people, these are vespers of energy
culminated through the death of a person, or thought
energy trapped within the ambient space around
us(such as in a church or a graveyard). These
occurrences are also known as visions. Harmonic laws
of cause and effect also drive the belief structure of
many spiritualist practices.

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Within the aspects of the new age movement come a
myriad of ideas and beliefs, most of them based upon
the religions of the Far East, or Hinduism from India.
The teachings are based upon anything that can be
imagined or believed, but generally omit the ideals of
Christianity. Man is central, and viewed as divine.
The North American Feminist movement has also
placed itself as divine within human nature, basing
their beliefs on either aspects of Wicca or the less
popular Kundalini based occultism. Spiritual feminism
tends towards the aspects of intuitive thought regarded
as the Goddess within.
Most new age practices are designed to push ones
thinking towards the idea of humankind in an
evolutionary process, believing in our own divinity, and
that harmony and peace will become a unifying force
that will bring humankind together through a mutual
acceptance of our own divine nature.
Western culture has taken meditation to new levels
by delving deeper into the mind, and by creating the
ability for people to meditate by their own personal
standards.
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Western based practices do not generally conform to
the rigid religious disciplines of eastern cultures, and
meditation has become a means by which people can
simply enjoy a search for inner peace, or go towards a
spiritual awakening if they wish, all done by personal
rather than religious standards.

The Reason we Meditate

There are many reasons for a person to begin the
practice of meditation. These include a need to find
inner peace, for medical purposes, or to procure a
spiritual awakening or realization of ones true self.
Bringing mind body and spirit together allows for a
more self directed being, connecting to each other
through a universality sometimes referred to as the
cosmic consciousness. By this the infinite quality of the
universe is better understood, while at the same time
the connection to the world around us is seen as illusive
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disassociation from the influences of the world
becomes a priority, understanding that living within it
does not have to effect our connection to it.
If we regard meditation largely as a spiritual practice,
the goal is to bring the aspects of our minds and body
together as one. This oneness of self is the goal of every
spiritual practitioner. It is achieved through believing in
ourselves, trusting intuition, and doing these things so
intensely that life becomes a flow that resembles a form
of precognition.
Practiced as a form of mental relaxation without the
spiritual aspects, meditation will improve health and
well being, relaxation of the mind and body can stem
off conditions such as heart disease and high blood
pressure. It has also been said that meditation can help
alleviate certain stomach disorders.
Although the medical benefits of meditation have
not been fully proven, the practice of it has been
accepted by many Medical Clinics and taught to their
students.

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Two Popular Methods of Meditation
Yet the most important reason to meditate is to find
a place within of peace and tranquility. This may be
achieved by many more than one method.
Chanting is a popular method to achieve a
meditative state, the name of each chant is known as a
Mantra.
With Transcendental Meditation a Mantra is
repeated, targeting a particular verbal goal, and often it
is just a sound that inspires relaxation and peace
within. The most popular of these is a chosen Mantra
followed by the sound UMMM. When spoken aloud
this supplement to the mantra will allow a space
between chants that in essence becomes a verbal
declaration of inner tranquility. The sound of the word
UMMM when spoken slowly and softly gives the
speaker a sense of calm while at the same time breaks
up the mantra, which may otherwise not achieve this
sense of calm within.
Another popular method of meditation relates us to
a visual aide, such as a symbol or article of personal

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significance with some intrinsic sentimental value. This
practice focuses our attention on the visual aide; we
close our eyes and continue to visualize it within our
minds. Concentration on this mental image is intended
to bring us to a realization of some truth about
ourselves, to put aside our pride to accept what we have
learned.
The practice of Transformational meditation is one that
allows thoughts to flow while we search for a place
within from which to see these thoughts as they flow,
from an outside or detached position. Visualize being
detached from the thought processes, separated from it
in such a way as to be able to visualize these thoughts as
they move towards you.
Let the thoughts flow naturally, and concentrate on the
space that exists between each thought. From your
place within become the seer of these thoughts.
Consider that when walking; as feet make contact with
the ground, a space exists between each step. Feel the
thoughts in this way, as each step represents a thought;
focus on the space between the thoughts, just as a space
exists between each step.
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 Allow the body to become completely relaxed, let go
of the stress of the day concentrating only on the space
in which the mind presently exists.
Become a separate entity; mind separates from the
body, thoughts flowing freely as if floating, and
unconnected.
Become the knower of these thoughts allows
identifying with selected ideas, connecting to only
certain thoughts that you wish to be associated with.
Negative thought is perceived as harmful and
unproductive; do not identify with these thoughts.
Allow Negative thoughts to pass by, such that these will
return to the space from which they came. Identifying
with negative thoughts will not only disrupt your
practice, but disallow that feeling of peaceful tranquility
that you are seeking to achieve. Only identify with those
thoughts that are positive and productive. As you view
these thoughts recognize those that may be identified,
becoming the knower of only your positively motivated
thoughts. Awaken from a meditation session after a
time, feeling calm and at peace, the body and mind

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settled and the spirit (as knower of your thoughts) is
becoming aware of its being.
Begin with one half hour sessions and increase the
time by 15 minute intervals as you feel comfortable.
Sessions should not last more than 1 per sitting.

The Point to Meditation

Everyday practice - When sitting down to meditate
for the first time it may feel as if nothing happened.
Following the technique properly can be assured
something did happen. There may have been no
physical reaction, but mentally a journey begins in
finding out more about who you really are, and
ultimately will become.
Meditation takes practice that is regular and specific.
Setting aside a time to meditate may not always be the
best way to go. Sometimes when the need arises very
strongly, politely excuse yourself for a quick 5 minute
session to take the edge off of this need. Often times
after a busy day there will not have been time to sit and
meditate in the traditional way, so when its time for

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bed, allow yourself to fall into a relaxed meditative
sleep, following the techniques outlined later in this
book.
Your mind will continue to do what you train it to do.
If you train it to be relaxed it will consistently work
towards that goal, even though it is the nature of the
mind to process thought.
It is often difficult to find a quiet place to meditate.
When this happens learn to be patient with the people
all around, simply continue to work on relaxing the
mind and a partial meditative state can still be achieved
even amongst distraction. It is however by far better to
have a quiet place of solitude in which to practice.
The important thing is to keep up to finding some way
to meditate every day.

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Disregarding Ridicule
People that are not involved with spirituality or
search for well being will often refuse to understand the
need to meditate, if it is found out, expect to be
ridiculed or made fun of. Remember this one simple
rule. Meditate for yourself, not for anyone else.
Meditation improves mental fitness, physical well
being and attitude towards that which is all around.
Meditation allows a perception of the world from the
inside (from within yourself) to the outside (where the
world exists). You will not stick to it if you allow in a
worldly point of view as an influence.
My early meditation instructors taught me two
simple rules. The first involved an attitude of non-
worldliness, understanding that the outside world will
consistently seek to reject any type of personal inner
peace. So - Keep it to yourself. Those seeking inner
peace will find it. It is not part of meditation practice to
create inner peace for anyone else. This is known as
humility. Second, should it be found out don’t defend
yourself. Let other people voice and state their opinion

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in any form they wish, even if they poke fun. Most of
the time they are trying to get a rise. Don’t allow it to
happen. Simply ignore, they soon will leave you alone.
Besides this, listening to someone else say that its
craziness to meditate will only place negative influences
within. They may choose not to meditate. Never live
life by the choices of others, but by your own choices.
Most people don’t want to hear about meditation, so
don’t tell them.
The decision to begin a meditative practice is one
that is made and kept for life. Once the mind begins to
clear and find a consistent peaceful state, there will
longer be any concern about what others think.
Meditation brings within what is put into practice.
Bringing the negativity of others to sessions will leave a
feeling of angered doubt . Let the negativity go, pushing
it away. When Concentrating on the practice there is a
far better chance of wanting to continue. The practice
of meditation is designed to bring peace and harmony
to one’s self; this is hindered greatly by allowing outside
negative influences to interfere with well being.

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Keeping to it
There are many ways to become distracted during the
course of a day that can detract from the need for
practice sessions. Discipline will be required to keep to
things going in the right direction so that a way will be
found to practice on a daily basis.
That being said there is also the need for to continue
week to week, month to month, year to year (etc). To
do this takes more than just scheduling. Wanting to
meditate is not enough. Learn to need it, and it
becomes your lifestyle. Just as eating and sleeping are
needed by the body and mind, meditation should
become a part of everyday needs.
Sometimes when we overdo things and a build up of
negative emotion results, a good meditation session
helps to create peace and in harmony within and all
around . This should not be the only reason that we
meditate, in order to feel good. To meditate just to feel
good runs the risk of becoming an addiction to that
feeling, and then meditate more and more just to attain
it.

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 The problem is that when the feeling begins to
subside you no longer get what is needed from you
sessions. This is known as a mind to body burnout. The
mind is telling your body to stop because it has become
bored by the redundancy of elation in the session. Not
all session have to lead to elation. Some sessions will
lead to elation, but this is not the end goal to
meditation. Find connections between mind body and
spirit that will leave you with a lasting inner peace.
Elation is just a quick fix.
So keep it up, following intuition as you meditate,
and never fearing the mind. It is fear of what the mind
holds within it that keeps most people away from
regular meditative practice, and to face that fear and
deal with it will keep you meditating for years to come.

Setting your Personal Goals

Setting goals is an important part of any practice,
but meditation is a bit different than most. This is
because the mind can only go so far as it is able, and it
is continued regular practice that gets results and not

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the amount of time spent at it each session. It is better
to meditate for 20 minutes every day, than for two
hours and 20 minutes once per week.
The kinds of goals to set when should be oriented
more towards practice in lifestyle than practice in
sessions. For example, you may no longer wish to be
proud and arrogant. Meditating on this can help you to
understand that this goal needs to be achieved, but in
practical terms will have to be worked out at in worldly
life.
Once goals have been set begin to attack them one
at a time, until you have achieved them all. Goals
should be set consistently higher until perfection is
achieved.

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Below is a suggested goal setting formula you may wish
to try.

Watching what you say

- No more rudeness
- A lot more politeness
- No more profanity
- Gibe credit instead of taking credit
Dropping the Pride and arrogance
- listen more than you speak
- allow others to have their way sometimes
- speak and do things in a respectful manner
- don’t just hear or see, understand the other persons
point of view, putting your opinion as secondary.
- Realize you do not always have to be right
Bettering yourself for the sake of others
- Dress acceptably, but nicely
- Practice Proper personal hygiene
- Speak when spoken to, and don’t talk over others in
conversation

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- Create a positive atmosphere wherever you go, stay
bright and positive, or if need be stay quiet and to
yourself.
Once you have decided upon the goals to set, begin to
put them to practice. It is not uncommon to roll over
scenarios within your mind, but just remember that
imagination and reality are two different things, and
the new you will likely not be accepted or respected at
first. Give it time, people will get tired of bothering
about your need to change after a while and simply
accept that change is occurring. Just keep up a positive
attitude. A big part of finding peace within yourself is
accepting the world as it is.

Meditation as a Lifestyle
Consistently at ease - When you find a place within
that is comfortable and settled it is best to keep that
place alive within the imagination, and to revisit this
place often. Buddhists call it the sacred cell. We will
further discuss this in Part two - “A place of peace
within.(sacred cell)”

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One of the most significant characteristics of
meditation is its ability to put both mind and body at
ease. As you continue to practice meditation, the mind
continues to be at ease. In order to bring this about
during a stressful moment of a time when you’re about
ready to explode emotionally, simply think back to your
last session and revisit how the mind felt afterwards.
This allows the peace and relaxation from the previous
session to come to the forefront of the mind and can
create a calm equal to or sometimes even greater than
the one felt the session before, greater in terms of
comparing the difference in emotional values from
normal to relaxed during the controlled session, as
compared to being in a hyper active state and dropping
down to relaxed and at ease at a moments notice.
Although it is the minds purpose to constantly
think, it is also true that the mind does not like to do
too much work. It would much rather be relaxed and at
ease than hyper active and distraught. Continued
practice of meditation trains your mind to accept more
of what is all around, and become relaxed about things

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that at one time would been upsetting. As a result, your
practice does not end with the session, but becomes a
part of you all day, every day; carry this with you in the
way of a refined healthy attitude to share with others.

Walking meditation
In becoming aware of the world all around, you first
must become aware of your own presence in it. A
walking meditation will help to do this. The goal is to
focus the mind upon the steps you are taking as you
walk, becoming aware if the aspects of each step as you
go. Listen to the sound of your walking, feel the
vibration of the ground beneath your feet.
Notice how things move as you go, realize that it is
you that are moving and only a perception that makes it
seem as if everything else is moving. Understanding the
self centeredness of this perception becomes the key to
your mental state, self realization and peace of mind.

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Grounding (Earth energy alignment)
Grounding is a simple technique that is used by
both teachers and students of meditation alike to calm
and align the body’s energy centers (called Chakras). It
is always a good idea to be “grounded” Gurus will,
before subjecting students to a particularly gruelling
course in spiritualist practice, ask their students to
perform the grounding ritual up to 8 times per day for
as long as two weeks before the practice begins.
The point to staying grounded is to keep yourself in
sync with the force of energy around you, and may also
include celestial energy (from the sky) as well. This
alignment is needed to keep mind and body together,
and it clears away all other energy influences leaving a
person feeling contented and at peace within.
(See meditation exercises at the back of this book –
“visualization and grounding”)

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Cosmic entities and Astral parasites
A cosmic entity is a somewhat intrusive personality
trait that tends to affect how we live or conduct
ourselves in our daily lives. Whether we enjoy and
nurture, or seek to remove cosmic entities we must
discipline ourselves to put them into their proper
perspective when we meditate. For the most part
benevolent cosmic entities will allow for us to be in the
correct frame of mind for a meditation session, as it is
in their best interest to do so. Consider too that God is
a cosmic entity.
There are many cosmic entities that, unlike God,
Goddess, or benevolent ambient life forms (AKA from
well behaved multiple personalities) that will
continuously work towards spoiling your session. These
are trying to upset inner balance so that they can feed
off the energy that this imbalance creates. Generally
they hide in dark corners of the mind and steal what
they can get, when you find emotions being tipped away
from a point of balance during a meditation session you
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These little critters are just that, little, and usually
insignificant in their ability to really create anything
more than you allow. The best thing to do is identify
that you know they are there and send them out of your
mind and body, simply making them feel unwelcome by
disallowing them any more energy from you.
If they refuse to leave ignore their presence and get
on with your meditation session, begin to move the
energy towards your inner self and away from them so
they will either have to leave or starve. These parasites
are usually not sentient yet and therefore will detach
themselves to look for someone more willing to let them
feed.

CLARIFICATION - Spirit helpers such as angels,

daemons and envisioned multiple personalities are not
parasites. They only feed upon the energy within you
that is destructive to your spiritual journey, and in
essence neutralize such negative energy. These ambient
life forms are also protectors of the true self from
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disallow them access to energy that is not theirs to feed
on. Excess or negative energy is not needed by anyone.
Spirit helpers seek to devour it, and neutralize it before
allowing it back into a persons psyche. The process is
one of some discomfort, but every awakened person
knows that however they perceive these helpers that it is
necessary to allow them to work within us. That’s what
they are there for. To help.

Your Inner voice

People have called it their conscience. It has also
been described as the heart voice (listen to your heart);
the small voice; and psychologist refer to it as superego.
For our purposes we will refer to this voice as the inner
voice, because this best describes the function of what it
does for us.
It is quite safe to say that you don’t really hear a
voice talking telling things in words; the inner voice
comes to you as a feeling or what can be referred to as a
hunch, often guiding you to make a correct choice. This
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feeling is the beginnings of undeveloped intuition, that
meditation will assist in developing and hone into a
higher conscious state. This is known by perception as
duality.
During meditation the inner voice may lead into a
meditative trance in which a dream like state often
occurs. The voice (regarded as intuitive mind) takes on
a form that is common or familiar. It is not uncommon
for people to report having been taken into a building or
structure of some kind, often a cave, to be shown some
event that will ultimately reveal some inner truth.
Any good spiritual teacher will say to always listen to
your inner voice. Drop the pride and admit that you are
as your inner voice says and most likely need to commit
to a change. Intuition is one of the keys to spiritual
growth, and the inner voice commits intuition to a
setting intended towards better understanding of ones
true inner nature.

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Sleep Meditation
Meditation is most effective when a trance state
occurs. This trance is often restful and relaxing, such
that change for the better can occur.
A trance like state is difficult to achieve when your
body is well rested and can be easily broken by noise or
distraction. Yet it resembles sleep in more than a few
ways.
In a trance state you become mentally unconscious
aware only of what the subconscious mind is thinking.
Also images relating to fears and desires occur driven by
the intuitive process of the mind at whatever stage of
development your intuition is at. Bedding down for a
good sleep is a great time to allow this meditative trance
to occur - for the most part your sleep time is respected
by family members so you won’t be disturbed.
In order to get the most out of your sleep begin to
relax the mind as in a normal meditation session.
Continue to relax as sleep begins to occur. Allow all the
negativity of the world to slip away, focus on the
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sleep state. It is not a good idea to do this every time
you go to sleep. Once per week should be sufficient.
Keeping a dream journal to write down dreams during
these sleep meditation sessions is the best way to keep
track of your dreams, make sure you log a sleep
meditation session as a trance state dream.
These dreams may at times be disturbing and often
seem as real as when awake, so when you awaken make
sure to look around and reorient yourself with
surroundings, and remind yourself it was a dream.
Meditating yourself to sleep is often the most
productive way to speak to and hear from the inner
voice, because once consciousness has been transcended
into subconscious mind, the intuitive mind can
manifest itself as something to communicate
with directly. This is known by eastern religions as
“crossing the river” or “cave meditation.”

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World access Meditation
Also known as “wigging out” or “taking a mental
vacation“, people often do this spontaneously. Instead,
do it purposefully, whenever there is a need to relax the
mind, and a moment to create this relaxation.
Method - Concentrate on any object, focus on it and
note any changes that happen. Look at the object as if
to stare, and don’t move focus away from it. As the
object seems to change notice and remember the
changes.
Note color changes; solidity often becomes fluid,
sometimes the object changes shape altogether.
Welcome to world access, a technique of meditation
as old as human kind, back when we would stare into
the flames of a burning fire, or just up at the night sky.
Although there is some ambiguity amongst teachers
whether or not this is a bonafide meditative practice, it
still follows that you can learn about yourself simply by
how the imagination perceives the changes it makes in
focusing upon an inanimate object. This relaxes the
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what everyone else sees, becoming an exercise in inner
perception. The mind wants to be active, and when it is
purposefully slowed and does not have enough to do,
the imagination takes over and recreates it’s own
perception of the image in front of you.
This technique helps to show how perception is
controlled by what you think is there, yet what really is
there is seen as something entirely different.

Energy Circulation (Chakras)

Throughout this course terms are used that deal
with the energy circulation. The human body has nine
energy points - the mind, mouth, throat, heart, solar
plexus, Sexual response nodes, hands, feet and a rooted
energy center.
1) Mind - This is the area in which thought takes place,
and area that culminates all Karma (past spiritual
experiences) and present life experiences. It is located at
the top of the head. The mind is a storage area for all of
your knowledge, and also is the place in which existence
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The mind is also an energy processing station. All of the
body’s energy flows and controlled by the brain. The
brain, being the main contributor to the minds
existence, is much like a battery casing in which your
mind’s energy is being held. The nervous system is
designed to bring this energy to the body committing to
involuntary responses, such as digestion and blood flow,
as well as voluntary responses, such as walking, or
talking.
Thoughts, imagination, dreams and desires also exist
here, brought together by the human capacity to
recognize them as either real or imagined. In this way
existence is sentient - the understanding that we exist.
2)Mouth - This is the center of communication. It
accesses the minds ability to share what it is thinking,
and then relegates thoughts by use of utterances. For
example, yelling when angry, or laughing when happy.
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 Speech is a form of communication that can be
processed from our thoughts, and the energy that is
created by what is said will be a testament to this energy
center. Communication of emotions, to others and
from others is usually done through speech, although it
is not the only way, it is the most efficient.
The food we eat is a direct result of the minds desire
to have, the body’s desire to survive and your (AKA -
your spirit’s) desire to enjoy a good meal. In this way it
brings mind body and spirit together most effectively,
which is why eating is proceeded by, or even has
become a form ritual in many religious practices.
3) Throat – In Yogic practice breathing is a form of
energy referral to the body called pranayama. Breathing
in brings life, peace and positive energy, life force
energy (called prana) into the body. Breathing out
expels death, and negativity from the body. The throat
is also an area where blood flow is prevalent, we need
this flow of blood and air in order to live. but this area
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 Vulnerability is an important part of who we are in
that our worldly lives are not permanent. The neck and
throat are the most venerable area to our bodies, yet the
most important to life as well. Your speech center is also
located in the throat area. This shows us how life,
death, and vulnerability are connected within our
being.
4) Heart –The center of love, hate, happiness and
sadness, when emotions are compromised the heart area
is almost immediately effected. The physical effects of
heart energy being out of balance whether positive or
negative will affect other energy centers fairly quickly
because the heart is the centre of emotions. This can
cause a blissful feeling as if you’re walking on air, or a
heavy moody feeling, even physical pain or discomfort.
Blood is an important part of our life-force, in that
without it we simply could not live. It circulates the air
and nutrients throughout our bodies. It is the heart
that pumps the blood, and as such it is the heart that
maintains and cleanses our bodies so we stay healthy.
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 Both positive and negative energy run through the
heart first, and then are filtered to the other energy
centers. This energy center cleanses unwanted
negativity and allows only that which can be utilized to
flow through to the rest of the body. Without this we
would be crushed under the intensity of our own
emotions. The heart teaches us that all emotion is
energy, and that in controlling the flow of this energy,
we can control the intensity of its output.
5) Solar Plexus – The center for Stamina, inner
strength and willpower. Ever have a Gut feeling? This
is what happens when the energy center in the solar
plexus begins to fall out of sync with the other energy
centers. You feel something is wrong, something is
amiss. Actually everything seems fine yet you can’t
shake the feeling. Usually this feeling is set off by
intuitive thinking affecting inner strength. Perhaps a
situation has arisen that could be avoided, a temptation
should have been resisted, but realize it is too late. A
mistake has been made and there are unavoidable
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 Listen to the inner voice (intuition), becoming
diligent in personally motivated activities, especially on
someone else’s time.
Attaining inner strength comes from watchfulness
and awareness of what is happening . Willpower to
abstain from temptations comes from inner strength,
and ability to succeed in overcoming temptations leads
to increased stamina in all that you do. Intuitive
thinking strengthens willpower and inner strength. The
Solar plexus teach us to know mistakes when we see
them and then learn from our experiences. Thus, we
avoid making future errors as a result of temptation.
6) Sexual Response nodes – The location of these differ
between men and women, and man’s sexual response
nodes are located in the anal area and all throughout
his penis, whereby a woman’s, also located in the anal
area are mostly prevalent in the vagina and surrounding
area.
The purpose of the energy center is the same.
Procreation is one of the strongest emotional desires,
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forefront. We can however decide to allow this energy
center to be checked in by our hearts, but using our
minds to think things through is also beneficial to
satisfying our basic sexual needs. This energy center
teaches us that even extreme emotional need can be
tempered by a bit of love (heart) and a lot of common
sense (Mind). In our meditation we do not use sexual
desire as a means to its own end. It is a part of our
physical and mental makeup, and we accept it for what
it is, nothing more.
7) Hands – The center for healing (energy out) and
reception (energy in) of divine energy. Religious
Leaders throughout history exonerate the use of the
hands as a means of taking in as well as distributing
divine energy. We define divine energy as energy
existing within the earth or celestial stratus, and leave
up to the individual the origin of this energy. There are
several different “grips” to use for meditation; these are
designed to refer energy to different aspects of the
psyche, the specific grips will be discussed under the
heading “Meditation Techniques” in section Two of
this book.
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 The use of the hands is simply to place them in a
position in which you can “catch” or “expel” energy
more readily, and absorb it into your body. During
mediation there may be a flow of energy moving
through you as it tries to leave the body. Let it go.
Energy that tries to enter can be allowed in through
your hands. The healing energy released will find
someone that is need and will work to help them heal;
just as the energy drawn within you will help your own
healing process. Meditation causes negative energy to
leave and positive energy to be drawn in. From the
hands we learn that we are all connected. As positive
and negative, or as fortune and misfortune, we learn a
maintained balance.
8) Feet – The energy center in the feet, in located
within the heals and ankles. Much of what we do to get
from one place to the next consists of using our feet.
They represent the world, humankind in motion,
whether forward or backwards and cannot walk without
them. As the saying goes, “never run when you can
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ourselves down when rather than to run at the world’s
pace. Meditation does just that for you. It slows you
down in an easy and relaxed personal space on the
outside, and a happy and contented place within. From
the feet we learn that we control the pace in which we
walk, and in this way we control the pace at which we
live our lives.
9) Rooted energy center – Located at the base of our
spine it is the reason for all of the other energy centers
to exist. Literally, it is the root of all energy within the
body, both physically and spiritually. Physically it is the
base of our spinal column, through which every nerve
in our body is connected. Spiritually it is the place in
which our energy begins to flow for the first time, once
we activate the energy centers it flows forth from this
area, and continues to be a processing point or which
any energy taken in flows through first. This is why
sitting in an upright position is best to meditate; it
allows the flow to move freely and consistently from the
root throughout the body. The first occurrence of an
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awakening. This will be discussed in more detail in
Section Two of this book under the heading “Spiritual
Awakening”.
Breathing - There are three techniques of yogic
breathing that we will apply to meditation. The first is a
simple breathing technique known as the complete
breath. In this, breathe in filling the lungs and
diaphragm until they are completely filled, the
SLOWLY let the air out, controlling its exhalation such
that it is even and complete, actually allowing all of the
air to leave the body until you feel your diaphragm
relax. Repeat this technique as you fall into your
meditative state. This will keep your mind clear and
open. The second is to breath normally, making sure
that you are completely relaxed and feel comfortable
that you are getting enough air while you meditate. The
third is a Kundalini yoga method called fire breath for
advanced mediators. Tighten the muscles in your solar
plexus while at the same time relaxing your chest. Push
the air out from the stomach in short quick bursts of
breath, inhaling in the same way after each exhale. This
from of breathing is done very quickly.
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allows us to feel better connected with what is around
us. Breathe in-Life, Breathe out-Death. Life within
death, and suffering within bliss are both important
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Part 2 – Practice and Session work
Setting up your Space
Finding a quiet and private place - In order to have
an effective meditation session it is necessary to find a
sustained quiet within your space. Your space is the
physical area in which the meditation environment is
created. This can be anywhere, but to practice on a
regular basis find a place that is out of the way of family
traffic, and then expect of family members to respect
that space. If they do not respect it leave the house
every time there is a need for a quiet place for a session.
For the most part family members tend to be
respectful of each other’s privacy, so you may wish to
make this into a privacy issue, maintaining that privacy
is needed to have an effective meditation session.
The space should not be too enclosed, try to find a
room that can serve as a fairly open area, perhaps a
bedroom or area of the recreation room in which there
can be some quiet time for yourself. Once an acceptable
space is found, make it a regular space to do your
sessions at home. Continue to insist upon this time to
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if they poke fun. Once again - meditation is for your
own personal benefit.

Equipment you will need

A soft cushion on which to sit will be needed. Most
professional teachers would suggest a special meditation
pillow. These are a bit pricey when it comes to
purchasing them, and the right one can be difficult to
find. We suggest a simpler solution.
An existing exercise mat can serve as a place to sit,
an above ground setting would be the best place to
practice. When this is not possible, a spot in your
basement can be chosen. Make sure you keep it away
from the cold floor. You may choose to sit cross legged
on a chair or couch, or any other elevated area away
from the floor. Also it may be useful to have a blanket
to cover you if your basement already has a tendency to
be cold.
Once you begin to meditate more deeply you may
fall into what is known as a trance. This means that
your mind has become so relaxed that without falling
asleep it has slipped into an unconscious state. This can
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yield some very rewarding lessons about who you really
are if you pay attention to the voices and images while
in a trance state. A timer with an alarm to awaken you
from a trance like state should keep the session within
the pre-chosen timeframe.
To sum up – A quiet place, respectful surrounding, a
cushion or elevated place to sit, a blanket and a timer to
set a limit to your session. This is not a lot of tools, but
they are all necessary for the meditative practice to be
successful.

Setting up a Schedule
The best time to do a meditation is any time there is
peace and quiet in your home. Generally this is later in
the evening, particularly after children go to sleep for
the night. If you are lucky enough to have the house to
yourself on a daily basis you can meditate during times
when you are alone and the house is silent. We have
found the worst time is in the morning, there is too
much going on around you, and even if your house is
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nearby, and don’t get the relaxation you are looking for
in your session.
Consider carefully the amount of time to take for a
meditation session. At the beginning, not more than 15
minutes to half of an hour per day. As you become more
apt, and more comfortable increase the time limit to up
to an hour. Meditation for one hour per day is ample
time to find peace within.
One of the things that must be done is to create a
sacred and personal space within that you can go to
whenever afraid or threatened. This place is a personal
sacred area divine and only accessible by you. Set it
aside from all areas of your mind but keep it
permanently envisioned within your subconscious.
When the hustle and bustle of everyday life becomes
too much escape to this place of divine peace and
solace. To get there just imagine that you are there.
Customize this area to personal adjustments, but we
recommend to keep it simple. You may wish to meditate
from this place so having self created mental clutter will
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 Your practice as stated before is for your own
benefit. Not only is it rude, but severely annoying for a
person to have to listen to someone else go on about
how great meditation is. Remember that the practice of
meditation is a spiritual pursuit, and to discus it with
family and friends is the same as touting a religion that
everyone should become involved in. So keep the
aspects, dreams, and inner voice’s lessons to yourself.
When you talk about personal spiritual experiences
it dilutes their effectiveness each time they are repeated.
Protect this aspect of spirituality by keeping spiritual
experiences to yourself. No one else needs to know, nor
does anyone else likely want to. It won’t help someone
else to know what you have learned as a result of your
spiritual practice, and it will take it’s toll upon your
positive mental energy in the long run.

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Meditation Positions
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confined than any upstairs area of my house.
- Hands - Mudras
Mudras are performed during meditation exercises, and both hands
are used. They are designed to give the practitioner a path of action
the meditation session will follow. Turned upwards the release mental
energy to align with cosmic forces, and turned downwards draw
energy from the earth.

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Complete relaxation - Although relaxation is not finally
the point to meditation it is what allows the acuity of
thought to occur.
Relaxation Exercises for Daily Life
One of the most important aspects of meditation is
that it crates an environment in which you need to
relax. Relaxation exercises can be important if there is a
problem with just relaxing or sleeping, and can be
performed anytime during the day or night. There are
five main exercises to assist with daily stress, or problem
sleep.
1) Count to ten - Take a deep breath and close your
eyes. Without exhaling count slowly one to five, then
exhale and as you begin to breathe normally count from
six to ten.
Another option is take ten deep breaths inhaling
through your nose then exhaling through your mouth.
2) Clench you fists – Clenching your fist will help to
alleviate the fight response created by a stressful
situation, provided you don’t become outwardly angry
when you do this. Clench them both tightly for as long
as it takes to settle down.
3) Practice being calm- Acting calm in a stressful
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efforts will help relax not only you but others as well.
Remember – Cooler heads prevail.
4) Stretching exercises – It is a medical fact that
stretching helps to increase blood flow and relieve
tension. Find a place to stretch regularly. Most work
places have a stretch as you go policy, and even
stretching in public should not get much attention
provided it is not to obvious.
5) Keeping Busy – Understandably when your at work
this may not always be an option, but at home, if the
stress of the day has you hopping mad, get hopping by
keeping busy doing hobbies or chores around the house.
The point is to get on with something else to do. A
change is as good as a rest.
Breathe to Relax - You must maintain a relaxed posture
in order to effectively meditate. We all go through times
when it is difficult to relax. Meditation helps to find a
peaceful and relaxed place within, with continued
practice. A peaceful feeling will begin to surface when it
is least expected to be calm. People and things that use
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The fear factor goes down a lot when you no longer feel
angry or intimidated by life.
Importance of Proper Breathing – In the previous
section you were shown three breathing techniques that
are used in yoga. Yoga is a form of physically oriented
meditative practice. In the section we will discuss the
importance of breathing.
Meditation is most effective when the head is clear
and the mind is quiet. Rhythmic breathing helps put
oxygen into the body, and brain, giving a clear cool
feeling of peace and tranquility in mind and in body.
This in turn feels good, so you are able to relax more
readily from the session. When breathing in a rhythmic
fashion you begin to fall into a meditative state more
easily, the rhythm of your own breath is reminiscent of
sleep. Once relaxed, slip into a waking trance, in which
it feels like sleep, yet aware of all that is around you.
This waking trance state is the first step towards a
deeper meditative state; proper breathing technique will
get you there. Proper breathing gives the ability to see
what is going on within your mind, allowing
identification only with those thoughts that are
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beneficial, and letting go of negative destructive
thoughts. Breathing commits the mind and body to
relaxation; this creates not only a more relaxed body,
but a more emotionally stable mindset.
Breathing is a natural process we do all the time,
whether we think about it or not. We need to breathe
in order to live. It connects us to our circulated energy
flow, to become one with all of the other energy centers.
The mind is used as a control center for breathing, the
heart decreases blood flow through the neck and throat
area to the brain, the solar plexus relaxes, hands and
feet remain at rest. Sexual energy is given a boost, and
as the mouth begins to chant madras, energy flows from
the root or the base energy center through the rest of
the body.
It is proper rhythmic breathing that begins all of this
to happen. When you control your breathing by proper
technique you are in a meditative state – working
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Grounding Meditation Practice
Grounding is a practice used by the Wicca to send
out loving healing energy. Meditation can be more than
just finding peace within, it can bring a state of higher
thought, an intuitive perceptivity.
The Wicca practice of grounding is a way to release
healing energy while sharing your spiritual practice with
others, usually as a technique to cleanse the body mind
and spirit before a spiritual guidance ritual or lesson.
To create this energy as a self healing method,
understand first that although grounding was designed
to be used as a method of pre-ritualized practice it is
also beneficial to spiritually cleanse ones self at anytime.
Begin by imagining a ball of light above you. The
light flows down towards your head expanding from its
place of origin. Once it reaches you it permeates you
body from the head down and is absorbed as such. As it
continues to expand the light becomes a larger sphere as
the shape of an egg, encompassing and at the same time
permeating every molecule of your body and every
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 The light continues to expand downwards until it
reaches the ground beneath you. A rush of energy from
the earth flows down through the body from head to
feet, taking any excess stress, energy, and negativity
down into the earth with it. Continue to be within the
light, and remain there for a while allowing the earth
energy to rush back up , filling your mind and body
with love, life and the confidence to face whatever life
gives you. This sphere will begin to fade after this,
imagine that is goes back into the earth, leaving your
spirit mind and body centered and relaxed.

Mantra
Once a quiet meditation mode has been achieved
you may feel ready to add a Mantra. A mantra is an
utterance of a sacred nature. Choose a statement that
holds deep personal significance or perhaps a prayer
that will help focus upon a certain aspect within your
mental energy. State the mantra and repeat it as a
chant, continuing to repeat it, allowing an intensity
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The session ends when a desired effect from the chant
has been achieved or when a timer stops the session. An
example of a mantra would be, “I understand that
within every misfortune some fortune exists.”

Getting rid of mental clutter

One of the biggest obstacle to overcome when
beginning to meditate is the distractive thoughts that
are not your own. These can range from things learned
as a child to that to newspaper articles that were
interesting to read at the time but really don’t hold any
relevance. These are what we refer to as mental clutter.
This rather distracting self serving thought process can
be a huge obstacle in creating a proper meditative
mindset. There are two methods to get rid of mental
clutter, both are imagination techniques.
1) Garbage shoot – Simply imagine that there is a large
garbage shoot in the back of your head in which all of
the mental clutter is placed, open the shoot and let it all
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2) Divine intervention – Close your eyes and imagine a
comfortable place, somewhere that you would like to be
more than anywhere else (perhaps a beach, or cabin in
the forest). Then imagine that a divine helper is there
with you. It may be a God or Goddess, perhaps an
angel, or some other sort of spiritual guardian.
The divine helper becomes as the wind, swirling
around closer and closer until it becomes one with you.
You feel the positive and negative energy beginning to
separate within, and as the spiritual helper continues to
swirl, this energy within spirals outwards until you are
cleansed of all unneeded energy. Whether it was
positive or negative in it’s nature does not matter since
there is no use for this energy. Simply let them go. After
all of those irrelevant thoughts have been removed your
divine helper will take you out of your imagined place
and returns you to your real world mindset. You awaken
from the exercise feeling better for having less mental
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WARNING - Don’t try this alone - find someone
practiced in the art of meditation to help you out
with it. This meditation will remove emotions that
were long a latent, sometimes the effect of being
without these emotions can be quite a harrowing
experience. Make sure that you are ready to let go of
your mental baggage before you begin the process of
removing it in this way. Once it is gone there will be
no retrieving it. You must be willing to perform this
ritual and accept that whatever is gone is gone, never
looking back. Looking back into emotional stresses
that have been removed to make room for a peaceful
mindset can create a confusion within that may cause
physical stresses akin to anxiety attacks. Be careful
with this one - Check with a meditation professional
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Positions to avoid
Meditation is a practice of method thousands of
years old. The positions that are generally used are
sitting, lying down, or standing (walking as in the
walking meditation).
For basic stationary mediation it is not necessary to do
much more than this. Unless you are actively practicing
yoga, meditation positions such as turning yourself
upside down, or curling up into a ball are not necessary
and should be avoided. We suggest you stick to the
basic positions taught in this book.
Using positions that you are not sure about can
cause mental effects that you may not be aware of.
Kundalini Yoga uses positions that relate to surrender
and death, and unless you have been spiritually
awakened by the power of the Kundalini and trained in
these methods you should avoid meditation in any
positions that evoke any kind of specific emotional
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Nine levels of the psyche

Base (survival)
- The survival instinct is the strongest in minds. It
continues to be there within us all of the time.
Meditation can bring us to that place within where
instinct to survive is laid bare and open, and our reason
to exist begins to become clear.
Carnal (Procreation-Sexual-Childlike)
- At some point in adult life we all act like children. We
want and want, without any regard to why or who it
will hurt. This is often the case with sexual desire as
well, as it often follows this child like instinct.
Meditation teaches us self control in these areas of our
thinking, that none of us are ever far from loosing that
control. We are all venerable to forces within us, but
can learn to better understand ourselves by objectively
looking at the thoughts these forces generate. This can
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Fight or Flight (bravery or fear)
- When an uncomfortable situation exists it can be
difficult to relax. Sometimes our minds bring out fight
or flight aspects, even if the threat is not great enough
to warrant this response. Meditation allows us to keep a
calm interior and a controlled exterior in mind and
body. When we ourselves (our spiritual true self) is at
one with mind and body it reminds us that nothing is
so serious that we need to become self preservationist
about it. When a real threat arises the fight or flight
response will be welcome, but when pride hinders
judgment reactions can become distorted and out of
proportion. Grounding on a daily bases will help to
alleviate extra energy and fill you with healing energy,
peace with yourself and confidence in the world around
you. Remember always that pride is an offshoot of the
fight response, and will almost always create more
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Self Preservation (Paranoia, acting out and talking
back)
- This is a level of the psyche that is often triggered by
the level below it (Fight or flight - the need to stand up
to or run from an intolerable situation). These two
levels are there to protect , not to cause problems
(although they often do). Meditation shows that
although you need to protect yourself from being taken
advantage of, getting into someone’s face or becoming
obnoxious is never a proper way to go about things.
Keep calm and cool, and mind about yourself.
Playfulness (Free and easy, no need for fear,
contentment)
- As we enter the higher minded emotions the need for
fear begins to fade. Playfulness comes in many forms; a
hobby or book, perhaps a sporting event. However you
choose to play, it will always be good to do so.
Meditation allows freedom from tension and an
understanding that while work is a way to get things
done play is a way to let loose and be free from the
rigors of work for a while. Find some time to play every
day. Learn to laugh a little too.
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Secondary Intellect (Ordered and controlled)
- We all need to be organized. Those that are not
naturally inclined to this will need to work a little
harder at it. Organization takes discipline and requires
a person to simplify personal space, the places where
they keep their things. This can often be an emotionally
painful process. Meditation helps to surrender these
items as unneeded, and provides an understanding that
the past is gone and it is time to let them go. Letting go
of items that are a reminder of the past is the best way
to simplify not only your space, but also your life. Let it
go. As the physical clutter is removed, the emotional
and mental clutter will go as well as well.
Spiritual (Understand there is more to existence than
we understand with our five physical senses)
For that believe in a higher power, or at least in some
sort of spiritual activity on this earth there is often little
understanding of the spiritualism that goes on within
us. The person that you think that you are is not true
self, but a culmination of what has been taught or
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touch with the true self, so that you do not need to be
what other people want you to be. Continue on with
the same life, but personally live it on your own terms.
Logical (Data collection and pursuits of an intellectual
nature) - We are reaching into a part of the mind now
that does not change much as a result of meditation. It
just gets more use. Meditation begins to free up space
within the mind, and as the clutter begins to clear new
ideas begin to replace them. Logical systems of
methodical thought begin to form as an analysis of what
is happening to you begins. Intuitive nature become a
part of this method, working within it to create a
harmony between the worldly and inner self, utilizing
logic and common sense to actively experience it.
Experience becomes its own teacher, Logic dictates your
experiences by priority, but intuition shows how to
experience what to avoid.
Intuitive Mind (almost precognitive in its nature)
Once Logic begins to work out the truth within your
mindset it is logic that works with the intuitive higher
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instinctive nature, accessing information from intuitive
mind that has been passed down from generation to
generation. The human animal has become complacent
in it’s ability to live by these intuitive instincts. As a
result the mind needs to become focused and quieted
by our own need to survive, running through the
emotional spectrum. Eventually it becomes the
beginning of our journey to inner awareness, followed
by a spiritual awakening.
This knowledge will come to you through a continued
practice of meditation.
Meditation brings the mind to its highest level if you
continue to practice it. Intuitive thinking is the highest
form of thought. Prayer comes from this area of the
mind, yet is restricted by it’s own structure, accessing
higher mind only while a person is praying. Meditation
can access this part of the mind all of the time, opening
recognition of a universal connection, that as you live
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Suffering from within to attain outward Peace.
This really is not as ominous as it sounds.
Meditation often brings out negative aspects of daily
life. As these pass through the mind as thoughts,
intuitive mind may enact a sort of dreamlike state
replaying these trying ordeals for a while before they are
allowed to move away from you. The mind is trying to
understand this ordeals, and will continue to replay
them until it figures them out.
Like all negative energy, this is destructive. Intuition
has become locked into displaying these events, yet you
may choose how to relate to them. Refusal to associate
with this energy will eventually allow it to burn itself
out. As the negativity passes from you simply let it go,
and continue to refuse any association with it. There is
no justification for any of these thoughts. Allow them to
pass through your mind and be absorbed by the empty
space that within you.
Some people like to create a place in which they
actually suffer within, a place to relive misfortunes that
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places to dissolve peace flows within, there will no
longer be a need suffering as a part of thinking.
Letting go of past misfortunes is often difficult, but
these experiences do not help us understand who we are
any more than they define who we think we are. They
are worldly memories of intense negativity, most of the
time they have been intensified and are no longer even
what really happened - the result of delusion. This sort
of mental clutter and should be allowed to pass away
from our minds. Negativity must always be allowed to
pass, and be replaced by a positive mindset.

Eight Limbs of Yoga (Ashtang Yog)

The first limb (yam) deals with non-issues within us.
This limb is to improve upon the mind. We must
endeavour to be non violent, and not be deceptive – to
ourselves or others. Don’t cheat or steal from anyone.
Keep your focus upon the higher mind, less towards
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The second limb (niyam) for purification of body and
mind, and to accept whatever comes your way. Be
happy with what you have, work hard to learn to
become free from ignorance. Surrender your will to a
higher power than yourself, keeping away from worldly
indulgences.
The third limb (aasan) called the Seat, attain a sitting
position in which you are comfortable and content.
This is known as the perfect posture.
The forth limb (praanaayaam) is to master breathing
control techniques, so as to balance you energy.
The fifth limb (pratyahaar) Focus your attention on the
source and master the senses
The sixth limb (dhaarna) Keeping the mind
unchanging, in a stable position within or without the
body.
The seventh limb (dyyaan) Not breaking your focus
upon a thing or person, perceiving only the object
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The eighth limb (Samaadhi) Merging mind with its
own space. Once a person meditates such that mind
and mind-space merge as one, they have reached a state
of Samaadhi).

It is important to note that the Ashtang Yog( 8 limbs)

are not levels of the psyche, but more of a guidepost to
follow as a greater awareness of self in attained. Each
limb is designed to attain a certain level of awareness
and thus “climbing” to the next limb becomes a new
priority in practice. These guidepost exist in meditation
as well as in yoga practice. Yoga and meditation are
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Ashtang Yog - or eight limbs of yoga are represented ate the bottom of the
diagram - Samadhi - Levels towards attaining oneness at the top.
Physical Yoga practice has levels of achievement as well.
Make sure that these levels are mastered before moving
to more difficult yoga positions.

Continued practice
A continued practice of meditation is necessary for
oneness of spirit to be attained. Yet sometimes zeal can
outweigh common sense. Attaining your goals through
meditation takes consistent practice, you want this to be
a gradual process. This requires perseverance and
patience. The mind will only learn what it is able to
process at one time. The point is to relax the mind, not
contradict its ability to think.
Some of the symptoms of too much meditation
include forgetting things, or a mixing up of numbers
(You may think 2 4 6, but write down 2 6 4). Short
term memory becomes compromised as well, as in a
daze, as if halfway into a meditative state all of the
time.
Inversely, there are problems associated with
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energy regulated during meditation. Once you slow
down your practice, you begin to revert back to your old
habits. Anxiety may begin to occur within because your
need to change is being compromised by your lack of
will to do something about it.
Meditation is about finding that place of balance
within, not to much, but enough to feel content with
who you are, and where the meditative practice is taking
you.

Problems that may arise

There are certainly other issues and obstacles to
overcome as the mind continues to change as a result of
your practice.
Doubt - One of the most common issues is doubt.
Meditation is designed to find inner peace. Doubting
this outcome will greatly hinder the ability to attain any
spiritual goals through meditation.
Alleviate this condition by recognizing what
meditation does do for you. Find some alone time just
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stresses within that are creating your doubt. Just
relaxing and allowing the stress to slip away from your
mind will energize and refresh you, meditation will be
easier now, for you have cleared your mind for it and
can continue your search for inner peace.
Attitude - During the course of your day, search for the
benefits and positive influences within everything that
you do, realizing it is the practice of meditation that
keeps you on the path towards this goal.
Meditation in itself does not give you inner peace.
What it does is help you to rest your mind and body, so
as to perceive things from a different point of view –
one that is content and relaxed, not stressed out and
angry. It’s not about ritual, its about attitude
Procrastination - Don’t procrastinate. We have already
covered the extreme importance of not skipping
sessions. The benefits of meditation won’t happen
without practice, such as not being able to play a
musical instrument unless you practice with it
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 Find it within to become interested in doing your
meditation session. This does not require a great effort
if you just do it.
Health and Well Being - Eating properly and keeping
the junk food to a minimum will help with the attitude.
What your mother said about eating your vegetables
was completely true. Replace junk food with healthy
food. It makes all the difference in how you feel. Try to
stay with people that are good to be around. Don’t hang
around with people that are generally nasty, or that
encourage meanness towards others. Negative energy
must be purged in order for a proper meditation session
to occur, and this happens less frequently when working
against positive change. To find the true self within
you, means not to copy someone else, especially if their
behaviour is less than acceptable.
Worldly experiences - Keep life in the proper
prospective. Remember that going after sensational
experiences, or items that make you feel good about
yourself is an illusive activity that is based in your
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happy. Recognize that the reality of your contentment
lies within you and not in some object. Your happiness
cannot be found in something that will not
permanently hold your contentment.
Discouragement - At the beginning of this book we
covered a short massage on beginning your practice. Do
not become discouraged if sessions seem to be going
nowhere. Although there may be something missing in
your technique, it is likely that impatience for a result
has become a priority in your session. Patience is a
virtue, impatience relates towards doubting the
prospect of a meditative mindset. This is a lifelong
endeavour. Surrender to the idea of working towards a
goal of attaining oneness, peace and self reliance within
(That is the bringing of mind, body and spirit
together). Stop resisting this idea, and accept that this
is something for your whole life. Your perceptions may
have already begun to change despite your self imposed
ignorance. Impatience looks beyond what you have
achieved, and not at what has already be accomplished.
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recognizing what has already been accomplished. Take a
step back, and realize that progression will happen at its
own pace, not at a pace that anyone sets.
Excessive negativity - Negative feelings towards your
practice will create a attitude of quitting. Begin a
regiment of grounding exercises, grounding up to 8
times per day to alleviate this excess energy. Find the
source of this attitude and keep it away. If keeping it
away proves difficult or impossible, find the inner
strength to resist, and realize how often the road to
inner peace is paved with turmoil.
Inner turmoil - Meditation will never in itself be a
detriment or cause any kind of inner turmoil. Inner
turmoil is just fears within coming to light. Fear is not
an enemy, but not a friend either. Learn to face and
accept fear for what it is, that being an illusion of
misfortune that has not and probably will never occur.
It is not as if your practice is creating your fears, just
bringing them to light. Facing these inner fears is part
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Stress - Sometimes, especially when tired from a
stressful day, keeping your focus as you meditate will
become a problem. There seems to be no way to get a
handle on the moment, just slipping in and out of
mental spaces unable to focus. Stop trying so hard to
make the session work. Let it all go; just be there, just
be. Allow your mind to flow free. Meditation should
free the mind, not exercise it.
Sickness - This last one is a hard one to do, to find the
strength within to meditate when your not feeling well.
A cold or flu it can make it difficult to maintain any
sort of long term session, so until it passes keep to
shorter sessions. Groundings are easily done from bed
rest, understandably walking meditations would be out
of the question. We suggest that grounding is the best
way to bridge the gap between illness and a time when
you are healthy again.
It will take discipline and perseverance to keep
going, and at times a simple bull headed stubbornness
may be required. Grounding while you are ill will keep
up a positive attitude, and may even help with the
recovery process.
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 Continued practice is the key to overcoming any
difficulties pertaining to mental issues for as long as you
maintain your ability to practice.

Ambient Awareness
Once a point has been reached in which quieting the
mind becomes a part of meditative practice, it is
important to note that you are not the only sentient
being that notices the change in energy. A quiet mind
puts out a particularly strong energy signature; these are
like a beacon to any ambient life forms looking for a
quick energy snack. An ambient life form, or astral
parasite as they are sometimes called, are intelligent
energy beings that feed on the energy from peoples
minds. They will often enter into the body through
energy circulatory systems, and when they reach the
brain they will hide within the mind to feed off of the
mental energy. You do not want this to happen.
The best way to avoid these creatures is to ground
yourself regularly, filling yourself with earth energy.
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the mind, and easy to absorb. Doing grounding
exercises only before a session may not be enough. A
disciplined regiment of grounding at least 5 times per
day will keep them away from you, and it is most
important that you do.
Ambient life forms can become a real problem when
they become strong enough to communicate, and will
often be difficult to get rid of once they have attached
themselves to your psychological makeup, developing
mental disorders related to DID (disassociated Identity
Disorder). These disorders occur because the energy
that keeps the mind stable is being taken to feed
another area of the mind, causing mental imbalances in
the natural ability to process thought.
It also helps to be aware of an astral parasitical
presence as you fall into your alpha state of mind. They
operate by stealth, and it is less likely that they will be
interested if it is clear their presence has been detected .
Be mentally watchful. Imagine the room as if there is a
danger within it that you are searching to find. Rest
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something, even if you haven’t. It will make these
ambient parasites nervous that your even looking for
them, and help to keep them away.
Once you have protected yourself you can begin to
meditate. As you become aware of the space within your
mind recognize this as ambient space. Ambience is the
atmosphere surrounding an area that makes it feel a
certain way to be there. You have this type of space
within your mind. This is your space. Being aware of
this is important because it points the direction to who
you really are. This space is where you’re true self exists,
it is the essence, or atmosphere surrounding your mind,
and this essence is the cornerstone of your true self.
(See section 3 - “the true self – who you really are”).
The energy within the mind and the energy around
the body are actually the same energy. The world
around you that is visible is no different from the world
around you that you cannot see. The only difference is
your perception of it. Remember always, just because it
cannot be seen, does not mean it is not there. For
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are invisible to the eye. As such, the mental energy left
behind by people or animals that lingers until it is
absorbed by someone or something.
Mental energy is akin to our life force, it is the kind
of energy that can never be destroyed. This energy exists
within the mind, and yet we become acutely aware of a
connection to an outer consciousness, an ambient space
that is not necessarily within us that we are connected
to through our intuitive imagination.
A seminar speaker put this into prospective best in
the following way. “Imagine an ocean, water and waves
as far as the eye can see. Where are you right now, here
at the seminar or out over the ocean. Your mind went
out to the ocean; it connected to that ambient space
that allowed you to see a vast body of water. Yet you
stayed here in body. Good thing too – what would we
have done with all of that water!!”
As you achieve the state of a quieted mind
(Samaadhi), allowing this energy to be absorbed and
processed within your own space will occur naturally,
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absorb this energy and feel better as well, at peace and
relaxed. You will feel vibrant and alive, mentally and
physically, bringing closer a place in which the spirit
will want to be a part of who you are becoming as a
result of your practice. You are becoming one. Mind,
body, and spirit are coming closer together all the time.

A Place of Peace within (sacred cell)

One of the requirements of all practitioners of
meditation is to have a place within of rest and refuge.
This place is somewhere to go within the mind that is
safe from the influences of the outside world. This is
also the place to find the true self.
The most important part of meditative practice is
that goals and priorities all lead towards your
acceptance of what will actually be achieved. To just
have some quiet time, for stress relief or to find inner
peace, are all meet able goals. Meditation is designed as
a form of mental conditioning, a spiritual practice first
and foremost, a practice of the mind second, and a
practice of the body third. The spirit is there to find, if
there is someone there to look for it.
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 The Sacred cell represents the place that you most
want to be. It should be exclusive, and personal. It is
recommended that there be some sort of structure or
building in which to keep this very personal portion of
space within. Windows are also recommended, but at
least make sure there is a door to enter in. There should
be a table, some chairs, and even a shelf to put things
on, but no electronic devices. Keep it simple, lighting it
with an oil lantern of set of candles should be
sufficient. The type of structure and size is up to
discretion, but it is recommended that it be fairly small,
no bigger than an average cabin or hotel room.
As you frequent this place, the intuitive mind will
send a representative, usually in a trusted form. A
journey now beckons, and there is almost always a
lesson within such a journey. There are many lessons to
learn as you grow from within, and although some of
the images may be disturbing, will undoubtedly teach
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Attaining Oneness
Spiritual Awareness - One of the goals of meditation
practice is the bringing together of mind body and
spirit. What this means is that there is a now a
perception of the world from only three points of view.
For example, there is a tree, perceived as real, you touch
it and feel it. Now, mind and body has experienced the
tree. Realizing that it is alive as well, that it gives the air
you breathe, and possibly some fruit to eat within its
branches allows a living connection between yourself
and the tree. Your perception of life came from within,
although you did not need to be told it was alive, your
experience had taught you this. The connection comes
from the realization that you are both alive, and that
you are connected by life. It is this attitude, seeing all
things as connected by life that begins an awakening,
more of an awareness at this point .
Attaining this state is often referred to as “just
being” and in this state everything becomes as a movie,
watching life go on all around, connected to the worldly
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of life in general. It is a place of perfect peace and
serenity, very close to finding the true self.
Mind body and spirit are really never separated
within. The difference that meditation makes is that it
allows the foundation of peace within, and thus to
discover this.
The journey is not over. It is just beginning. You are
spiritually aware, although not yet awakened. Attaining
oneness is possible within your lifetime. What you must
do to maintain oneness even after awakening may take
many lifetimes to learn.

Attacking your goals

Having the courage to change is the most important
aspect in achieving spiritual goals set by this need to
change. There is a simple method that is used to help
this process. While you meditate upon your goal, think
about how you should be acting after the goal has been
tended, as a trance state is being achieved surrender
your will to this aspect of change. Once awakened from
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emotional, often tears of joy begin to flow as a result of
knowing that you can be better, and reach a new level
of consciousness. Reach always and only for your
highest potential.

Spiritual Awakening
This is an event of extraordinary power and
influence upon the will. It usually occurs shortly after
becoming spiritually aware. An energy build-up begins
in the feet and lower legs as the drawing of earth energy
begins to work its way up to the rooted energy center.
Surrendering your will completely to this experience will
be a wonderful feeling, like a rush of clear warm water
tingling through your body from feet to head, and then
back again. The flow of energy will continue to circulate
through the energy centers, turning them on so to
speak. This path of action is what we call opening the
energy centers. This continues until it has completely
permeated your body, mind and spirit. The energy
circulation centers remain open at this point so that life
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 Problems can begin to manifest themselves
whenever there is a refusal to surrender to the will of
this energy flow. A spiritual awakening aligns all of your
energy with a universal energy flow. To go against this
flow during an awakening experience can make the
experience become violently rough, arching your back
and lifting your body into the air. When the initial
experience is over the emotional strain is a painful
reminder that although Awakening has been achieved,
oneness comes only to those that are willing to change.
Keeping to the flow is difficult at first for this is no
easy task. It takes time, and practice. Follow the feeling
within that tell what to do to, this is intuitive guidance.
An awakening occurs when mind, body, and spirit
become one, awareness of your universal connection
becomes a priority, and a realization that the world does
not have control anymore, you make your own rules.
The awakening process wastes no time deprogramming
worldly teachings, and quickly begins simplifying how
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 To surrender to this place within will reveal the true
self, mind becomes one with who you really are, body a
sacred vessel carrying that oneness for the remainder of
this lifetime.
The next step is a recognition of the need to dump
everything you have been taught up to this point. This
becomes a must, to relearn how it is you want to live,
relearning your entire mindset. the process of achieving
inner perfection has begun. But this does not mean that
you are perfect just yet.

Inner perfection
There is a saying amongst spiritualist that only God
is perfect. If we take this analogy and apply it to
ourselves we can better understand the meaning of
perfection from a spiritual point of view.
Perfection is a goal. It is not something that can ever
be completely attained, yet it becomes a goal for a
continued attitude of self improvement.
The first step is the hardest. Accept that you have
issues with all of the things about yourself that are
unacceptable. Most of your problems in this area can be
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solved be letting go of two main issues that are taught
by the world as being “ a good way to behave in tense
situations”. The first is pride.
Pride can cause a myriad of inner turmoil,
everything from sore stomachs to headaches, backaches,
and even hypertension can be related to a prideful
attitude. The “I’m always right and even when I’m
wrong I will still argue my case” attitude has absolutely
got to go. So much can be accomplished by dropping
the pride and never picking it back up again. Allow
others to have their way, for as long as it makes no
difference to the outcome, and does not hurt anyone
you will feel better to opt out of a fight that can be
avoided. Remember that it is our goal now to maintain
inner peace now that we have found it, and this means
no fighting for no reason at all.
The second is arrogance. That means that you do
not always have to be the one that gets the credit
because you insist upon doing everything yourself. Or at
least you feel as if you are simply better than everyone
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in all things are equal. Believing you are better creates
an imbalance in whatever the situation is, as well as an
imbalance within. Generally this deluding of self is
what amounts to a self inflated lie.
Drop the arrogance and the pride, and a lot of
better qualities will begin to surface. That puts you two
steps closer to perfection.
Bare in mind as well that the road to perfection is
paved with lies, deceit, arrogance and pride. There is
great importance in understanding that all of this
negativity is for the most part self induced. In realizing
your own self deceptions the ability to find lies and
deception within that are not self induced but rather
learned can be developed.

The True Self

This is a topic of some discomfort for most people.
Most people are expecting to be awakened as perfect
spirits of light and love, ready to go to the great
universal plane in some ambient dimension where
peace and serenity exist for all eternity. There is a big
downfall in momentum when a person is awakened
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only to find that they are in darkness, they feel cold
abandoned and spiritually alone.
Welcome to the real advent of the true self. You are
still under the impression your Karma left over from
previous lifetimes. The feeling of dark despair is a part
of the true self experience that cannot be avoided. It is
called the dark night of the soul. This is not a real
event, but abjective Karmic memory, do not treat it as
real, even though it feels real. In the case of the dark
night of the soul, fear becomes a most real enemy. Do
not succumb to fear at this time or ambient parasites
will attach themselves and feed off the energy your fear
is generating causing emotional stresses leading to more
fear.
Your true self is alive, and well. It exists here and
now and is aware. Embrace life with renewed vigour,
loving that you are alive, and expressing this new found
gift with creativity. Be creative, and revel in all of
creation freeing your mind of fear, for all of creation is
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 When you go for walks or rides take in all of the
creation that is all around. The miracle of the universe
is that you are connected and nothing can ever take this
away if you won’t let it. You are truly within yourself,
and all that is within you is real. Allow the universe and
all of its wonders to be a part of who you are. This is
your space. It is your rite.

Out of the Darkness into the lLght

(dealing with fear)
Now is the time to get into some real and
intensified meditative practice. Existence is still a
darkened area within, and in order to enlighten this
existence start to meditate with attitude. Use madras
that state that the darkness is nothing to be afraid of,
that enlightening your mind has become a priority.
Continue to mediate like this regularly; you can now
not afford to allow your practice to fall into disarray. An
awakened being puts out an energy signature like a
lighthouse beacon on a darkened night; ambient life
forms have a clear and easy path to get into your mind
for as long as your energy centers are open.
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 Ambient astral parasites in particular do not like an
enlightened mind; it is energy they cannot steal because
it is to pure and processed. If the dark corners of your
mind are allowed to persist these little critters will find
a way to keep you in darkness so that they can continue
to feed unfettered by the enlightened energy you now
control and possess.
Continued practice will bring you consistently out of
this inner darkness, follow intuition in your meditation,
as in daily life, continuing to be enlightened as you go.
Always remember that there are dangers within the dark
areas of the mind. If you feel in any way intimidated by
something dark and sinister within this darkness, seek
out an expert in the field of spiritual engagement before
continuing. Sometimes it is best to leave these areas be
until you are ready to face the fear they generate.
There will never be a time when all of your fears and
inner demons have been defeated. New fears come to
light within the practicing mind every day. Part of being
awakened is to be a self motivated warrior, fighting and
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Accept that there will always be fear within, yet by
facing fear you take away its control over your mind.
Fear is just negative energy that is generated from
within keeping you from doing something that may be
dangerous. Accepting that this is really an illusion in
itself will keep fear from controlling you. Beat fear at
it’s own game. Always take the middle road in life. This
is the road on which there may be some risk, but on
which there is no amount of danger that you can not
handle. It really is that simple.

Aspects of Surrender
Meditation practice is the best place in the universe
in which you can surrender your will to becoming a
better person. As your practice continues, and you face
your fears, you have to realize that sometimes fighting
to overcome them is not the way to go. You may have to
“lay down your sword” so to speak and surrender to
your fear. This will have a freeing affect upon you
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 Once you do this you accept that you are afraid of
something and that you cannot be anything but afraid.
What you must do in this case is take clear-cut obvious
steps to avoid what is making you afraid. Your fear of
something you need to avoid will actually help you keep
from being tempted to do things that would create
misfortune in your life.
The other aspect of surrender comes from deeper
within, from within true self. The imperfection
inherited in your previous lifetime is still there, and
must be surrendered to proceed towards perfecting this
life. Surrender all of the issues and problems, the pain
and the suffering, the good and bad, any ideas of being
more that what you are. The simple fact of the matter is
no one can change the essence of true self. It is what
ultimately defines oneness within existence. Realization
of self means there is no longer a need to copy anyone’s
behavior to be happy. You are what you are - nothing
more nothing less. Accept it. Surrendering to this
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each and every moment as they happen, for every
moment is precious.

lan for the future, and learn from the past, but live within each
moment that is given to you, for each moment of life is precious
and should be savoured.

Nekisshi Nish Kawa – Spiritualist

Vancouver 1980

Intuitive nature
The intuitive mind is a bit like a beacon, a light
within the darkness. Think of the world around you as a
dark place filled with pitfalls. By trusting the light of
intuitive nature, and following without doubt, it will
guide in areas of life in where there is misfortune, and
also to where fortune is there waiting.
Understanding that misfortune does and still will
occur in life is paramount to trusting intuition. Once a
realization occurs that fortune and misfortune occur in
balance to one another there will be a complete change
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A man lost his son in a war. Yet he
did not grieve for his lost child. When
his neighbours asked him why he is
not saddened by his son’s death he
answered, “Of course I am saddened
by the death of my son, but I will not
grieve the loss. He died fighting for
my freedom. My son is dead. That is
my misfortune. But we are still free.
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This story underscores how the intuitive mind works.
By understanding that every misfortune creates fortune
we learn that from every darkness there is a light
burning within it. Intuition is the light that comes from
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Part 3 - Practical Applications
Mental awareness
Improved mental state (less aggressive more receptive) -
Receptivity in all that you do is one of the basic assets
of meditative practice. Meditation over an extended
period of time has proven time and time again to relieve
not only stress as it happens, but the aggressive after
affect created by stress. As the ability to concentration
gets better, a clearer more receptive mind does not
wonder as frequently as one that is filled with
aggression.
The aggressive mind continues to search for conflict,
and in order to feed this conflict usually finds it
everywhere it seeks. However, the practicing mind does
not search for anything in particular; it comes to rest
upon a state nothingness, finding contentment in being
rather than obstructing.
Earlier we discussed how the mind searches for
elation to “quick Fix” its way to inner peace. Train the
mind to find more permanent paths by relaxing the
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that the spirit can take the time calm itself.
Improving mental state also means improving the
physical body. Eating well empowers Mind body and
spirit by creating a healthy vessel, free of aches and
pains so distracting to meditative practice. When the
mind and body to continue to function at peak capacity
at all times, the spirit is more content. Meditation also
gives that feeling of peace and tranquility within to set
goals for change. With this will come the awareness
that there is never anything so important happening in
life that there is a need to get upset over it.
Without aggression building up will be less conflict
with others, and an open minded attitude receptive to
listening to the other person’s point of view. A change
in perception takes place allowing someone else’s
opinion to be equal to or greater, but not less.
Receptivity is part of meditation practice. Be being
receptive and open to your own mind, and accepting
what it has to teach makes it easier to be receptive to
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situations it is better when cooler heads prevail.

Happier and less Discontent

Discontentment is a most unpleasant state of mind.
By accepting this as a state of being it becomes
impossible to find inner peace. Everyone needs to feel
content within their place in life. Finding and
understanding our place, and accepting it for better or
worse is paramount to finding inner peace. In any given
moment be exactly where you should, because this is
exactly where you are.

Everything is Where it should be (But nothing is in

it’s Place)
Searching for true happiness will only happen when
a decision is made to be happy. Life is about choices.
Choosing to meditate was a choice. Make up a list of
new choices. Toss out that list of other peoples goals
and start living by a personally motivated set of
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 Ask yourself - why meditation. Also, ask yourself
how life would be without meditation. Make a list of
goals based upon the answers. Include ideas like
learning to be more diligent at the workplace, and
sticking to rules you still must follow. It is important to
remember that rule of law and safety regulations are for
everyone’s best interest.
The goals and ideologies set for personal existence
have nothing to do with what the world has set down as
rules and regulations. Become a positive thinker, acting
in a way that consistently forwards ideals that creates
happiness, make positive personal choices, follow your
own heart and most of all, follow intuitive nature when
it comes to everyday thinking.
Meditation creates a state of peace and serenity, and
continued practice keeps this serenity happening even
when meditation is not. Happiness occurs when the
mind is filled with serenity. Discontentment occurs
when the mind is filled with doubt. Put the mental
house in order by recreating the way thoughts flow.
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Focus on these positive aspects of your thinking, and let
go of the doubt and fear, and discontentment will go
with it. Now things are where they should be, and in
place.

Feeling worthy of yourself

When awakening to a new day, ask this question.
Who am I, and what am I here for? Answer it in the
following way.

- I am a terrific person and am here to share the love

and joy I feel with everyone around me.

The discomfort felt by this statement is created by a

trap in which you no longer believe in yourself. Self
esteem has taken a fast vacation, and there is no longer
a sense of self worth . In order to feel worthy of ones
self there must first be a belief that there is something
worth believing in, that you are a worthwhile person.
Reaffirming this when awakening to each new day
disallows the stresses of life to knock down that self
esteem, and it will return.
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 Believing in your “self” means exactly that. Believe
the true self is there within and that no matter what
others say that it is there, you exist. The next step is to
believe that no obstacle is too large that it cannot be
overcome. This is the beginning of facing inner fears
that erode the spirit, negative Karma often imprinted
upon the spirit by past lives. These fears are unfounded
because their based upon memories within the true self
that are no longer relevant to continued existence. The
name for this sort of fear is doubt.
So go forward with confidence without doubting
every move. Making mistakes is human, own up to
them and take responsibility of those mistakes. Begin to
act upon the moment, and stop planning for every
contingency. Once again, it is better to live for the
moment and make a mistake than it is to plan every
move and loose out on an opportunity because you
were so busy planning for every contingency that the
time for opportunity passed you by.
Once a decision is made to stop doubting, begin to
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responsibility for the outcome. More times then not
acting upon an informed decision(without thinking
about it to much)will create positive results. Make sure
to responsibility is taken for the things that go right,
and self esteem will follow.

Self Forgiveness
There is an area of life and existence that can only
be answered to by one person, and that’s you. Not the
person that was taught to be a certain way, be who you
are, the true self. Karma can become a hindrance and
therefore must be relieved of it’s influence over personal
mind and desire in this lifetime. Simply allow it to be as
it is, memory of past traumas, imprinted upon the
spirit. Accept it is there, and isn’t going to go anywhere,
and move on. Karma exists to remind the you are not
perfect and never were, accept it’s lesson and move on.
Past lives are over, they have absolutely no bearing upon
present existence. Karma allows that the flow of this life
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remember the imperfections of the past, yet strive for
maintaining a better future. As for this present life,
there is some work here yet to do.
Many mistakes are made in life, many people have
transgressed against you. The easy part is forgiving
them for these transgressions. The hard part is forgiving
yourself for allowing them to happen. When someone is
forgiven there are no personal hassles to live with, but
forgiving one’s self means to live with our mistakes,
stupidities, and self determined transgressions.
Forgiving one’s self means to accept and cast off our
personally determined transgressions, and put them
behind us. Once again a dark night of the soul can hold
us back, because we have learned to revel within our
own iniquity, and casting it of leave a void of
unfamiliarity, an emptiness. This emptiness is the point
of meditative practice, to strive to achieve simply being,
without positive or negative, balance perfectly between
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This short exercise that will help with self forgiveness.
- Close your eyes and begin to clear your mind, only
focusing on the issue that is poisoning your spirit with
it’s hate of who you really are.
- Say to yourself that everything is fine now, look into
the space before you and say to it’ “I forgive you.”
- Keep doing this until you feel the warmth and love of
acceptance of this forgiveness flow through you.
- Never bring the issue up again in meditative practice
and continue to work towards letting go of negative
influences when not meditating.

This means to no longer give it credence when it comes

to your mind, push it out knowing it has been dealt
with it, let go of its influence over you. Continue to
repeat this exercise as a part of daily practice until issues
of this sort stay away by proximity to the true self. Fear
is an enemy within the mind, keep it away by refusing
to associate with it.
Self forgiveness creates a higher self image, loving
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Pride and Arrogance
These are the two aspects of the psyche that are
never really gone. A prideful nature is one that can be
most self-destructive if it is allowed to get out of
control.
Once pride sets in it constantly goes after everyone and
anyone that contests personal “authority” over just
about everything. Not that this authority ever existed,
yet a personal perception of it continues to believe
everyone should listen because you are always right.
This will eventually lead to disastrous results, because
no one will want to put up with it anymore, and after a
point will even defy this so called authority in an
attempt to make themselves look good at your expense.
Now perception changes as a realization of what you
look like to others occurs..
Pride breeds fear, this being because of a belief that
personal weakness can be covered by arrogant behavior
to some degree. It is this perception that creates fear
within the prideful person. Everyone else around you
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 A meditative mindset will never allow this to go so
far.
Meditation allows a person to see themselves as they
truly are. Once the mind begins to act upon the nature
of the true self the old and prideful self begins to fall
away. The choices made regarding personal change will
cause the arrogance to fade into the back of the
thinking process. Continuing to meditate allows
acceptance of things about yourself that which you
know to be true.
Once realized that there is more strength in spreading
love than there is in always being right people will be
more receptive to your ideas. The original goal was to
get people to listen. This goal is far more likely to be
achieved if a decision is made to drop the pride and
listen to what they have to say, and then add to it. If a
choice to listen to others is made in this way, a
discovery that they know thing too will also be made.
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Patience and Discernment
Discovering the inner workings of the mind can be
an exciting and rewarding experience. There is however
something to continuously bear in mind as you
continue to practice meditation. Everyone’s meditation
experiences are different.
Expect the unexpected as intuition comes to bare in
different forms. It may transform itself as a guide, a
person or animal, it may talk, or simply lead. Follow
and ask questions, and accept answers as truth. Often
while sleeping, a dream occurs that gives insight as to
personal growth as of your person. Understand that this
dream was not just a random occurrence, but a lesson
designed to lead you to a personal truth.
An example of a standard truth is “Everyone is an
individual” . This truth has been lost within the minds
of many people. The practitioner of meditation will
become aware of their individuality, when this happens
a connection to this truth is made. By understanding
our personalized individuality we can become knower’s
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positive influences, and allowing negativity to pass us
by. As we train our minds in this way we begin to
discern what is positive(working for us) and what is
negative(working against us) both within our physical
and spiritual lives. This takes patience.
When patience and discernment are practiced
within yourself as within daily life an amazing thing
happens. Patience becomes a part of lifestyle. Partly this
is because the ability to discern positive from negative
and only identify with positive aspects as an application
of meditative practice overflows into worldly life.
This will happen naturally. As your mind begins to
relax, it is no longer restricted by outside distractions.
Patience is defined as a willingness to put up with
annoyances without complaint or acting out in anger.
Notice the word willingness. Patience is an act of the
will. It is a choice. Discernment is so much more an act
of the mind. It means there is an understanding of
personal thoughts as they are processed by the mind.
This thought process still needs a personal
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understanding occurs when this process has reached a
successful conclusion. So in order to reach a point of
discernment you must be patient and think things
through.

Allowing yourself to Daydream

Daydreaming has always been looked down upon by
our Western society. This actually is a form of mental
relaxation – a form of meditation. Daydreaming can be
a beneficial aspect of the mind’s need to wonder, but
make sure that the time and place are appropriate.
A wondering mind will find what it is looking for
eventually, what is important is to understand how it
reached its destination, and why it took the long way
around to get there.
Daydreaming, according to psychologists is imagined
memory, in which a smell or sound triggers that
memory, and the mind takes over from there, creating a
story around it. Some meditation techniques require
you to stare at an object, or burn an incense stick. The
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Daydreaming is considered to be helpful in that it clears
the mind of abjective memory, and also because it
constitutes a natural and healthy way of thinking.
In extreme cases you can begin to confuse imaging
in daydreams with reality. Delusion or hallucinations of
this type are known as psychosis. Some common
psychoses are schizophrenia, or acute paranoia.

Physical Awareness
Sleeping better Eating better - It is a medical fact
that unhealthy food make you feel unhealthy. Proper
eating can be done in many ways, so it is important that
culinary choices fit lifestyle and diet plan. A properly
fed body feels better, the blood flow is better, and thus
energy levels are more consistent. Anxiety is not
something one should deal with because of a poor diet.
Cut out the junk food, replacing fattening foods
with healthy alternatives. An example of this would be
to replace beef and pork with Chicken and fish in least
three meals during the week. One must maintain
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300ml glasses of water each day. These can be taken at
mealtimes. One glass of water before sleep and one after
you get is also recommended.
Yet the most important part of a clear and contented
mind is a well rested body. Always make sure to get
enough sleep, generally this means a minimum of
seven, but preferably eight hours in one sleep cycle.
Also, make sure your sleeping area is quiet and
comfortable. Sleep is a big part of meditation practice,
this being because dreams occur while sleeping, and
often reflect upon in a meditative session.
Yoga Exercise - Yoga is a form of meditation practice
involving the use of certain bodily motions and
positions designed to create positive mental and
spiritual flow throughout the physical body. The eastern
practice of yoga has grown into many different facets,
each displaying a different formula for oneness of mind
body and spirit. If a form of yoga is chosen which brings
the practitioner to awakening, this form should be
adhered to throughout a persons lifetime, for this is the
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thrives on familiarity, and so long as familiarity has
gotten positive spiritual results there is no reason make
a change.
Stress relief through relaxation - Stress occurs as a
result of information and emotional overload created by
worldly situations in which we have no control.
Although stress has been a mainstay of the human
psyche since the beginnings of human sentience,
medical studies have only recently brought to light the
dangers of stress upon our physical, mental, and
spiritual well being.
Stress is one of those mental issues that is ever
present in the human mind, and escapes no one. Even
the most practiced spiritual individual can’t escape the
basic rule of the human psyche. When we are charged
with a difficult situation our system is designed to
either deal with it through confrontation, or back off
and allow some sort of surrendered compromise, even
to be oppressed by it. The human mind has no other
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 What meditation does is allow for us to lessen the
degree by which stress effects our psyche. Learning to
relax in a tense situation allows for a person to take a
step back and see it from an objective point of view, and
much like becoming the knower of the thoughts within
the mind, may choose which aspects or emotions will be
activated to best deal with a stressful situation.
Meditation does not help to control stress, only our
personal reaction to it.
Walk if you can (the benefits of walking)
Walking provides us with a means of transportation
over short distances. During a walk to the corner
store(for example) one may wish to figure out next
months family budget. The more things that can be
decided in life by taking a relaxing walk, the less there
will be on “life’s plate” to digest when it comes time to
have to do something.
Walking is also a metabolism booster, and good exercise
for the body. It allows the mind to take mini vacations,
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life. Going for a walk provides a “break in the action” of
life, allowing your body, mind, and spirit to slow down
and select a pace that is personally appropriate.
Perception - How is it that attitudes are discerned?
Why do we act a certain way in a given situation? What
is it that causes us to see everything differently from
everyone else? The answer is perception.
It is most important that we base how we Perceive -
see, analyze and understand a situation based upon
what it is we know to be truth. Once again truth is a
concept of the individual, that which exist with a state
of awakened being. Once we are awakened our
perceptions change.
Meditation allows for those who are awakened to
continue to perceive what happens in the world as
illusion, and although much of what takes place in the
world is immediately important, our spiritual future
does not depend upon it. Reality is defined as anything
that exists independently from the ideas that concern it.
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 Reality by definition can only exist within the mind,
because it is in the mind that things can exist
independently from our ideas about them. Meditation
creates this ability, we exist outside of our thoughts,
existing independently from the ideas that are of
concern to us.
On the world there is only illusion. Ideologies and
distractions designed to turn our minds away from the
truth within, to herd us all into a single mentality of
worldliness. These things are not real. They are self
serving, existing to serve the concerns of their own self
motivated ideologies.
We must turn away from the illusion of the world and
find the truth within. It is the first step towards
universal oneness, a step to which our eternal existence
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Spiritual Awareness
Duality - The understanding of spiritual matters by the
worldly mind, and visa versa creates within a person a
kind of confusion. This confusion is often referred by
the mind as a person or image, the mind does this in
order to better understand its own intuitive nature.
Intuitive nature is often undeveloped within the mind
because it is connected to the thinking process of the
true self within. Once a feeling of intuition, a gut
feeling that something is not as it seems begins to
surface a duality of mind has occurred. Everything that
you believe to be true seems right, yet intuitively there
is something nagging away that says it is not.
Spiritual awareness has begun, and when this inner
voice has begun to turn itself upon personal conduct, a
spiritual awakening may be in the works, but until it
happens, a dual personality is created.
Universal connectivity - The fact of the matter is that
we already are connected to this universal oneness. Yet
we need to be so much more than just aware of it. Yet if
we desire it we will not be accepted. To let go of all
desires is the only way to find peace within the light of
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universal oneness. The practice of meditation begins by
clearing away all thought and staring into the darkness
of the ambient space within a mind that is before you,
and asking forgiveness of your iniquities. The universal
oneness is in that space, created for us, it is the place in
which we connect to it. Every time meditation is
practiced we come closer to maintaining this
connection and as we allow the illusions of the world to
fall away the only desire our spirits face is to connect to
this place of peace, and harmonious unconditional love
once again. We must not live within this desire, yet let
go of worldly attitudes, continuing to live within our
spiritual and worldly associations.
In this lies a danger for all practitioners of
meditation. The point to meditation is to come closer to
universal oneness through a connective association
within the universal. Many people fall into the trap of
disassociating from the world at large, and miss the
whole point of the world’s existence. We need to live
upon the world, work, eat, sleep, make love, and enjoy
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This does not mean that we need to indulge our bodies
and minds with frivolous worldly practices and
ideologies.
Think about the world as a proving ground, a place
where all indulgences can be realized, and yet
personally abstained from. The truth is not found by
indulgence of any kind, so indulging oneself in the
practice of meditation can be just as dangerous as
indulging in the ways of the world.
We should strive to live on the world in such a way
as to find contentment, realizing contentment can exist
within illusion. We must also realize the seriousness of
personal spiritual condition, and that keeping an open
connection to universal oneness is a priority. But only a
priority, not an addiction.
Being one within ones self does not take material
wealth or a "filling" of the spirit into accounting. Most
Religions utilizes a deity or some type of spiritual
structuring to fulfil, or fully fill the spirit.
The problem is that we aren’t sure what is filling us,
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Fulfilment of the spirit becomes like a drug to the true
self, disallowing any reality from being created from
within, much like a drug in the physical body disallows
the essence of the real world around it.
Let go of these ideas until the physical,
metaphysical, and consciousness of the mind no longer
really matter, and only the truth and the secrets within
that truth remain. What follows is an enlightening
process that does not fulfil the true self, yet exposes the
secrets within it to be revealed and in essence empties it
of unnecessary Karmic influences.
We were put here to enjoy life to the fullest, so that
we could create a spiritual existence void of fulfilment.
Our true selves need not be fulfilled, truth is it’s own
fulfilment, and leaves the spirit quite contented. Any
more would be imperfect, and an affront to God. When
he does come, that would not be a smart way to present
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Awakening of the Spirit - There comes a time within
each lifetime that the true self may be awakened. This
awakening should not be tendered by anyone but the
individual, yet far to often is tended to by Religious
orders and spiritual practitioners that have no idea
about truth, except that which has been taught to them
by others. Once again, no one can find the truth within
themselves by following the ideologies of someone else.
Once the true self awakens it is like an empty vessel
waiting to be filled with information that will help it to
seek out and reveal those secret places within that
hamper it’s moving forward into the universal oneness.
When it is opposed by religion the usual response is to
shut out all that is being reigned down upon it
effectively creating a series of multiplicities with the
psyche known as psychic influences. These come into
the person’s mind working towards reinstating it’s trust
in the personal aspects of the psyche. They are a
common factor within an awakening experience, and
will take on whatever form needed to get the awakened
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common forms of communication, usually because they
are respected by the practitioners of the religions, and
allowed to speak to their new found member.
When a person is awakened without such influence,
these helpers tale on a form pleasing to the newly
awakened being and begin a process of teaching them
the way to find the universal oneness that brought
them into being for your sake. Spiritual guides are
inevitable, there would be no way to access the
universal oneness without them.
Dark night of the Soul - There is some disparity
between what we teach in this book about the dark
night of the soul and what is commonly taught. It is
commonly referred to as a period of desolation based
within the transition from worldly to spiritual life. Our
teaching transgresses this ideology a bit.
The dark night of the soul is a self actuated mental
process, based upon the need to feel some kind of
familiarity within the mental process. As awareness
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ideas, and activities that will begin to lose their
meaning, as your need for distractions begin to fade the
familiarity of memory kicks in. This is a continuous
process and must be continually checked against
throughout persons lifetime. (It is too easy to fall back
into familiarity, and this will only leave one feeling
stranded and miserable. Like everything else within a
spiritual existence the Dark night of the soul is a choice.
A person can choose to cast of those things that were
negative influences and move towards a positive
spiritual being, thus connecting to the universal
oneness, or continue to find connections within their
negative worldly existence. Meditations creates a void
within the mind allowing that negativity to pass into it,
and remain there. When a person choose to retain those
old ideas we call it jumping into the void. Another
expression is “To get caught between a rock and a hard
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I walked the path of righteousness tuning my face
towards the east looking towards the sunrise. Yet
would I have known the closeness of the darkness
behind me would have hastened my pace. The
sunrise seemed to be escaping my sight, yet for as
long as I could see it I felt safe. I set upon a log and
rested for a moment and the darkness was upon me. I
became lost an knew not the east, panicking as I ran
haphazard through the forests.
In this desolation I threw down to the ground in
despair weeping - for I was truly lost. A long while
past and I looked up. The darkness had faded and the
light returned. But in my panic I had lost the path of
righteousness. All I had to do was patiently wait it
out. All darkness is followed by light. Now I could
revel in neither.
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Karma and Past Life regression (correlating the two) -
Karma is an imprinting upon the spirit that defines the
future of ones life to some degree. For example, if our
parents are financially well off, yet never make a
successful financial future for themselves, we are at that
point predetermined to do the same. The layman’s term
is their bad attitudes towards money “rubbed off” onto
you.
This predetermination is often difficult to shake but
not impossible. If negative karma is imprinted onto a
person they can help to alleviate it’s affect upon their
lives through meditative practice. Although a negative
attribute that has been imprinted upon a person will
always be there, it does not have to control conduct in
life and subsequent generations do not have to suffer
the same fate if the karma is kept within, rather than
displayed for all to see.
Past life regressions, usually come to people in
dreams during sleep cycles, and are spontaneously
motivated by Karmic influences that have stayed with a
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minds try to make sense of the few imprints they have.
Often the impression is more of an emotional response,
sometimes an image or short memory.
The human mind is a working computer. It
crunches images and ideas through our sentient human
natures, yet is seldom accurate when creating a story
that came from Karmic impressions. This is because all
it has to work with as far as accuracy is concerned is the
impressions, and will take information from this
lifetime to fill in the gaps and create a story around
those impressions.

I have the benefit of working with spiritual forces

that tend to imply their influence upon me from time
to time through the use of dreams and memories that
had nothing to do with my Karma, but rather much
to do with their own. In 1975 at age 14 I was
bothered by a bully and called upon a dark helper. In
old Irish tradition a banshee helper can be brought to
bear upon one in trouble, known as the “Kiara”
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shares consciousness and Karma. In a past life of hers
she was a 15 year old girl in a Celtic settlement in
southern Spain that was attacked and pillaged. She
was then imprisoned, raped and murdered by the
Romans. According to Kiara that was true. The story
my mind created around this impression was huge
and epic having her move from a fugitive on the run
to a hero of the Roman empire. That was the story
my mind created. I was into epic movies and novels
at the time.
AKA - personal note Allen Graih

Dreams, Karma and the Subconscious Mind

I am a subscriber to the theory that dreams are most
times created by people in other dimensions living their
lives out while our minds connect to them through a
desire or fear utilizing a conduit system known as
ambient space. The theory goes that when they dream,
and a certain desire or fear comes into play they connect
with our lives, and for a short period of time share our
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point in space, or actually being within our minds, and
seeing what we see, hear, and feel. Conversely, our
dreams can connect to persons from other dimensions
through our fears and desires. It is the vibration of
frequency of the dreamer that attracts them to a person
with an identical mental vibration of frequency of desire
or fear. We are dreaming someone else’s life, and other
people are dreaming ours. Meditation can allow us into
greater control of this process by disciplining the mind
to pick and choose our desires and fears. Once we
empower ourselves to control this process then are able
to dream our own path, not the path of another.
Cosmic Consciousness - It is believed by some that
there are many universes with different outcomes all
taking up the same place in space and time, yet
operation on separate
frequencies, or cosmic vibrations. Within these
universes is a vast area of ambient space that holds all
of the thoughts and dreams, desires and energies of
everyone that has ever lived.
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accessible to anyone that cares to search for it, by
utilizing meditative practice, and blocking out all other
influences our minds drift into this space, allowing us
to be in contact with universal oneness for a short
period of time. It is not as if we have become a part of
this consciousness, since our true selves our still
grounded to a mind and body, but it gives a person
reason to believe that such a consciousness does exist.
Drugs are often used to attain this contact, but are
absolutely frowned upon in meditative practice.
Persistent practice and an attitude of change will bring
one there for a time. In spiritual practice one may never
obtain anything by desiring it, and must allow all desire
and fear to pass by them, if they are to attain even a
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Warnings - Unless you are a guru or meditation
specialist, never meditate for more than an hour at a
time. The human brain is designed to think
aggressively, and longer sessions of meditation
regularly practiced can actually be dangerous to our
psychological states of mind because meditation
relaxes our thinking processes. It is best better that
sessions are kept to no more than one hour at a time
because our busy lives do not allow for the mind to be
in a trancelike state much longer than this.
Meditation of this sort has been know to effect work
related performance and memory, and would not be
psychologically healthy for anyone that is not
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Conclusion
Invite a Friend (Meditate with a friend or a group)
One to One - Teaching someone to meditate is a
wonderful experience. It allows you to help another
person grow and change for the better. Meditation is a
private and intimate thing and should only be done
between two people that are in the very least close
friends. Karma is a tricky thing and at times can create
some pretty disturbing images. These must be shared,
but only from student to teacher, and visa versa, and
only to help each other understand the value of lessons
learned through meditative practice.
As a Group - There are two was to meditate as a group.
The first is when everyone sits in a circle and joins
hands. This facilitates a sharing of energy between
practitioners and will result in a closeness created
within the group, allowing the entire group to
experience the value of group sessions. There is a
danger of a group such as this isolating itself from the
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belief structure based upon the experiences of the
meditative practice within the group. We call them
cults, the word coming from occult. Cults are often
mislead by people seeking oneness without proper
direction, so this sort of group meditation is not
recommended.
The other is to utilize a teacher trainer that is
experienced practitioner of meditation to help guide the
group into self imposed expressions of meditative
practice. Meditation is personal and intimate, and when
it is passed on from one person to another the person
passing down the knowledge should be well versed in
the theory, practice, and potential dangers within that
practice.
Online meditation (in real time) - Be careful with this.
Unless an online instructor can show some credentials
as to their teaching ability,( a course certificate, or
personal reference) it is better that meditation is
learned through books, or better yet from a practiced
meditation instructor.

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Friends and family members (You may know a friend or
family member that wants to join in) -
Family members of teachers will often wish to join in a
meditation lesson. Unfortunately their efforts are often
to scuttle the lesson and spoil it for the rest of a group,
in order to discourage the teacher from continuing. It is
not recommended that friends of meditation instructors
become students. Friends are on an even keel with one
another, and a friendship can be scuttled when one
friend has to become subordinate to another.
Also, friends and family members of students may
wish to join in. Although their intentions are mostly
honourable, there will be a few that may detract from
the lesson. Each student must before bring a friend or
family member into the lesson become a teacher, and
show them what they need to know in order to be an
obedient student. Sometimes a lack of knowledge and
avid excitement gets the better of new students. This is
a good thing, but new students must learn to control
their enthusiasm. Meditation is about becoming
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Team Leadership
Don’t be bossy - As a human being living a life on this
earth it is always a good idea to keep bossiness to a
minimum. As a practitioner of meditation it becomes a
must to eliminate it altogether. People learn best about
how changes occur within someone by experiencing
those changes first hand. If someone that is practicing
meditation becomes bossy and obnoxious it throws a
negative mood over the whole idea of meditating for
everyone around them. Become a teacher and instructor
around other people, not a boss. People respond better
when they ask for assistance because of a persons
knowledge, rather than to have that knowledge imposed
rudely upon them.
Patience and calm are key (walk the walk and talk the
talk) - Meditation is about becoming calm, relaxed and
at peace with ones self. Once a person begins to purvey
this attitudes others around begin to take notice.
Question like how does he/she stay so calm in a tense
situation, or comments like I couldn’t have kept my
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is best to keep modesty at the forefront and wait
patiently for someone to ask directly what it is that
relieves the stress in your life before mentioning
meditation to them. This way they have already decided
that you have a superior method of keeping your cool,
and allows for them to become curious about it.
Be more teacher than trainer - The greatest saying
about being a teacher is that a good teacher shows their
students what to do with accuracy and efficiency, but a
great teacher does this without imposing upon students
their own influence. Showing a person how to meditate
is more than technique, procedure, and achieving
results.
Each person learns at a different rate, depending
upon their personal abilities. It is recommended to
teachers of novice students that before attempting
actual meditation that concentration and memory
exercises be created, for example, asking students to
keep a dream journal. Understanding that each person
in your group has come to learn with a different level of
knowledge from each other is paramount to dealing
with individual concerns.
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There is no one blanket able answer to meditation
concerns. It is generally accepted by teachers of
meditation that every individual has a separate
experience, and those that are having trouble with
getting deep into themselves may need to be in a novice
class, should they have taken the wrong class level.
Understanding group concerns - Sometimes there is a
group problem, in which something the teacher is
doing(or not doing) has been noticed by students in the
group. Once this concern is brought to the attention of
the teacher it becomes the teachers decision what
should be done to settle the issue. Remember that
student generally pay for their lessons, so an issue must
be settled and quickly, or one may find themselves as
quickly without students.
Don’t be overbearing - a teacher should never act as if
someone that does not understand is ignorant. Patiently
explain until they do understand. This is fairly self
explanatory. You can’t teach a person to change into a
calm and peaceful person if you as a teacher are not one
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Class levels. My course has 4 class levels.
Beginner(novice), intermediate, middle, advanced.
Students should be interviewed before they are placed
into a class.

The Journey Begins

A Single Step (Even the longest of journey begins with
a single step) Take that step -
The first step to realization comes when a person makes
an assessment of their life a finds they are no longer
happy with the direction it is taking. This can’t happen
until the step is taken.
Make a list of pros and cons for lifestyle, and a separate
section on the list for ideas how to change those cons
onto pros. Once this is done be brutally honest with
yourself. Blaming your job, kids, friends, and
neighbours for your lot in life will not improve it.
Perhaps it’s all the governments fault. And perhaps
these problems are created by associations with people
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 Unless you plan to move to a cave and become a
hermit these issues are not going to go away. These are
things beyond anyone’s ability to control. What is
controllable is your attitude towards these things.
Negativity is a huge issue in western society, stress
levels are giving people health problems, causing
marriages to break up and children to disrespect their
parents. Much of the stress that causes the ills in our
society could be avoided if we could see a situation from
a separated point of view.
Once again make a list of issues and how you continue
to respond. In a separate column, and one again
attaining that brutal honesty, decide how many of these
can be let go of, because they really don’t matter or even
affect you directly.
One of the largest causes of stress is allowing other
peoples issues to bother us. An example of this is news
media. When the news media reports a story it is
negative 99 percent of the time. When a person listens
to all of this negativity for too long they become
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control sets in. The fact of the matter is that there is no
need for this frustration because most of the news
media is about negative things, you know this, so stop
watching. An imperative to know what is going on can
become like an addiction. I’ll restate that a different
way. We can become addicted to negativity because it is
our only source of information connecting us with the
outside world. So why is it that we need the outside
world. Simply put we don’t. Allow for all of that mental
gunk to be scraped away by becoming aware of how it is
damaging your mind and body, not to mention your
eternal spirit(true self). Karma is created by mental
impression imprinted upon one’s true self within each
lifetime. Don’t create more impressions than need be,
especially if they are negative impressions, and not even
personally motivated. Meditation is the way out of the
world. Learning to change is the way into the true self.
A continued journey - Life is a gift that should not be
wasted by frivolous worldliness. God will come to this
world one day. Those who meditate and come into
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better chance at being spared his wrath than those who
waste their lives with unpretentious, and useless
endeavours designed only to forward their own personal
agendas.
Every time we are placed into a living body our
ability to become sentient is exemplified. The true self,
short of a living body simply exists, does not grow or
shrink, and cannot know of it’s own existence. This is
the point to our lives. To remove the layers of outside
influences until our true selves are revealed and become
sentient within our minds, awakening to all we were,
and becoming more than ever thought possible.
Whether based in darkness or light the true self,
once awakened seeks to be at peace and in balance with
the universal oneness.
Awareness of your purpose - Here is an area of existence
that for most people is hard to pin down. Because of
religion people’s purpose for their existence is given to
them, rather than allowed to be discovered. This is a
exercise in defeating the purpose. We do not subscribe
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to help everyone else find that purpose. Religions
continue to seek a purpose for others which defeats the
original idea of searching for the individual purpose of
existence. So what is the purpose of existence.
Achieving oneness with the almighty universal oneness
we call God is not a purpose. It is a goal. Individual
purpose for existence depends upon the ways and
means of achieving this goal, what is known as a
spiritual journey, and differs from each individual
insomuch as no one can impose purpose upon another.
Ways and means - Spiritual journeys come to us within
our lifetimes, and as stated the true self requires a living
body and sentient mind to become awakened. How we
go about this journey is largely up to choice, meditation
clears away the choices others have made for us,
allowing our own choices to become choices for our
continued existence.

---End of Book---

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If you really love people don’t pay attention to their
teasing. If they tease you it is because they like you.

---This pearl of Wisdom comes from my mother.---

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Adjective to Nekisshi Nish Kawa
Nekisshi was my personal spiritual trainer in
Vancouver from 1979 to 1981, and in Winnipeg from
1981 - my marriage in 1983. Her words, thoughtful
council and empowering teachings have stayed with
me over the years, and although I admittedly have at
times trouble staying upon the path towards oneness,
it is those teachings that continue to help me find my
way back, and continue this journey.

She was born in Hawaii in 1927, and moved to

Victoria city in Canada as a result of World War 2 in
1944. Once there she met Janine Macalister, a
mentor and teacher of the gypsy Irish way. From
there she moved to Vancouver looking for work, and
finding none became heavily involved in Spiritualism
through BDSM, meditative practice, and the Chinese
Martial art Gung Fu.
By 1977 she had become a respected underground
Mistress of the Dragonfire way, her intention to bring
the ways of the geisha to Canada, with her own
experiential twist. I was indoctrinated into her
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personal care in 1979 in order to learn the ways of
Dragonfire, but she died in 1984 before my training
could be completed.
Left alone and without a mentor I continued to
follow the ways and philosophies that had become
such a part of my life. Then about 10 years ago a
vision of her sitting in the old Vancouver basement
apartment I had become so accustomed to in North
Chinatown reminded me that once a mentor dies
their student becomes the teacher.
“Take what you have learned to the world. They need
to know”… . Was all she said.

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Exercises

Visualization and Grounding

Meditation - is mind relaxation technique, and can take
the form of sitting and concentrating, painting or
crafts, or even playing a musical instrument.
Meditation accesses your sub-conscious higher mind,
allowing your conscious lower mind to relax.

Visualization - is imagining a particular item or event,

and then concentrating on that item or event in a
meditative state.

Breathing - In order to get yourself into a meditative

state it is important to breathe correctly. Sit or lie down
(sitting in preferred) In a comfortable position so that
your abdomen and chest are straight. Lie on your back
if you must lie down, hands above your head, crossed.
Sitting in a crossed legged position, or with the bottoms
of your feet together works good, if you can’t mange this
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of a bed, or a chair)comfortably with your feet on the
floor and your hands on your lap clasped together in
front of you.
1) Begin breathing in through the nose, out through
the mouth, taking slow deep breaths. 2) Fill your lungs,
chest and abdomen, taking as much air into you whole
upper body as you can and then slowly exhale through
your mouth. You will feel your head clearing and your
body become relaxed. When this happens make an
effort to concentrate an the exercise you have chosen to
perform. Continue to breathe in this way throughout
the exercise. It keeps the mind and body clear so that
the spirit of true self can be accessed more easily

Grounding and Purifying - Here is a Grounding

method for the novice. It works great. I use it all the
time and it can be done as often as you like.

1) Begin by being for yourself in a meditative state It is

best to keep your feet on the floor or ground, at any rate
pointed towards the earth.

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2) Begin Breathing slowly and rhythmically in through
the nose and out through the mouth. Continue to
breathe in this way throughout the exercise.
3) Envision a bright pure light above your head
suspended there. The distance is not as important as
that the light is there. Allow yourself to feel its presence
as if its warmth is upon you
4) Envision the light expanding throughout your body
now, beginning with the head as it moves through and
purifies you and your chakras one by one.
5) Beginning with the head chakra you become intently
aware of the light’s presence as it purifies your mind,
slowly expanding downwards into the third eye,
purifying as it goes.
6) As it reaches your throat chakra you become
consciously aware of your breathing, as it purifies this
chakra you will feel the air within your body cool and
clean, the light continues to move through the next
chakra, one of the toughest ones to see into, tour heart
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7) As the light moves into this area of your body it is
not uncommon to feel ashamed or uneasy, purifying the
heart always leaves an impression of unworthiness, but
after it is done it is the experience that it is always good
to be healed by the purity of the light.
8) The light continues to move through your abdominal
area and the purity and healing at this point fills the
entire body right down to your toes. Feeling a bit of
tingling now? Depending upon the amount of healing
your spirit need your tingling sensation will range from
fingers and toes to the vibration and resonation of your
entire body.
9) The light continues to expand and fills the chakras
in your hands encompassing them then moves though
your pelvic area to purify the two chakras there. Now
you will feel a rush of internal energy as all of the
chakras in your body align. The light stops expanding
for a few moments while this is happening.
10) As it continues to expand it moves down through
your legs and into your feet you feel the light as it has
now encompassed your entire body but you still sense it
moving below you.
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11) You will know when it reaches the earth energy.
You get a jolt of energy from the Earth a bit akin to an
electric shock, but it feels so good. The mind and body
are now purified and the spirit is at peace. Congrats!!
You’re grounded!!
12) Continue your breathing and allow the light to
remain around you encircling you like a cocoon for a
few minutes. You are now encircled in a cocoon of pure
light. Allow it at this time to be absorbed by your body,
your body becoming like a sponge absorbing the purity,
so that the purity will remain within you.

Grounding to remove unneeded emotion -

Ground yourself before going into an event in which
you know stress will occur, or before you go to sleep on
a Friday night, that is the end of the week and the
proper way to enter the new week with a fresh and new
perspective. Do this particular exercise at least once a
week and twice if time allows. Do the grounding (2)
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1) Lie or sit down in a comfortable position
2) Close your eyes. Relax body and mind completely
3) Imagine yourself in a happy place with a higher being
that has your best interest at heart You will leave your
consciousness and “float” downwards to this place You
are floating through the Cosmic consciousness to your
place of serenity. It can be a beach, or some enclose or
enclave that makes you feel safe. Try to make this place
out of doors, walls restrict the experience.
4) Imagine this is where your Devine presence waits for
you. Feel the love from this higher being as it permeates
throughout your body
5) The warmth and love flows in through your body
beginning at the back of the neck and through your
head, then down throughout your entire body right
down to the toes. Notice the isolation of Negative
energy in your stomach area. It feels like a hot knot in
your stomach.
6) Release the bad energy to your divine being and as
you do the positive forces begin to rush throughout your
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divine being will take it from you, leaving only that
which is to you, that which is yours. Contrasts – You’re
grounded
7) Now it is time to wake yourself from your trancelike
state. Settling down You will be a bit emotional, relax,
and when you are completely calm and relaxed, as when
you began you must leave your comfortable place and
return to the place you were before you began, floating
upwards through the cosmic consciousness back to your
own body.
8) You will be aware of your body and spirit at the same
time but don’t open your eyes until you feel your spirit
settle into place within you. It kind of feels like it’s
floating just above you until it goes right through you.
You feel a kind of a “click or jolt when it’s all back in
place.
9) Open your eyes and understand what just happened
you may feel a bit disoriented from the experience, so
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Cave Meditation
This is a meditation that you will really be able to get
into. Literally. Generally you enter into a cave or cavern
where some truth is shown to you. I do not recommend
it too often because it can bring back some pretty
disturbing and often quite distressing images of your
past in this life. What it does is allow you to see yourself
in situations allowing a new perspective. The images are
often years ago and are generated because of some
problem that existed at the time that remained
unresolved, and your mind shows you what the real
story is and gives you clue of how better you could have
handled the situation. Find a quiet spot for this one you
do not want to be disturbed in the middle of an image.
The images and “Movies” come at random so you may
not get to see the one your viewing again for a while if
you’re disturbed.

1) Begin your breathing into a deep meditation

2) Imagine yourself in a cave; make the cave deep and
dark. You are alone there except for what we’ll call your
intuition.
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3) Before venturing into the cave you must allow your
intuition to take a form. Accept any from that it takes,
and intuition will guide you. You may ask questions of
your guide if you wish, answers are often vague, but
they will be tendered.
4) Venture into the cave until you are fairly far in and it
has become dark all around you. The darkness reveals
secrets that will not be exposed in the light.
5) Begin to reflect upon your life as you have lived it
and accept whichever image or “movie comes before
you. You will be seeing it as if you are an impartial
observer watching it happen. A lesson will be learned
from watching yourself make a mistake you did not
realize(until now) you’ve made, or something will be
revealed to you that will lessen or eliminate a problem
created by something you did or did not do(but should
have done).
6) Look at the images set before you and accept them
for what they have shown you. Rekindle your goals and
aspirations regarding this experience, and if you need
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supposed to learn, ask your guiding intuition for it. This
self discovery brings back memories of things you have
consciously forgotten, but may have been bothering you
subconsciously for years.
7) Do not allow fantasy to alter these images, accept
them for what they are.
8) If they have disturbed you in some way begin to
focus on the darkness in the surrounding cave and calm
yourself, allowing your intuition to guide you from the
place you were in. Open your eyes only when you feel
you have been brought back to the place in your mind
where you began.
9) Reflect on what you have learned and seen and
document the experience.

Another aspect of this meditation is one in which you

remotely view an experience in your past that allows you
to see more than when you were actually there. Your
mind senses so much more than you actually see, so you
can look around rooms and areas not available to you at
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find, much can be learned about the situation. This is a
called remote viewing

Building your Special Place (Also called the Sacred Cell)

1) Close your eyes and Visualize the room around you
melting away into waves, dissolving as if consumed by a
spiritual ocean. Allow the waves of this ocean to carry
you to a shoreline somewhere within the cosmic
consciousness we all share. Your intuition will come
along for the ride and guide you to that perfect place in
which to build you “Place” I use the word place in
meaning that this is where you belong your Place in the
realm of consciousness. I have heard it also referred to
as the Sacred Cell.
2) Understand your intuition as a being of person that
can guide you. Accept whatever form it takes and
remember that it is your guide to your sacred cell
always. Your intuition may not take the same form each
time, but again do not allow fantasy to interfere with
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3) Visualize a ball of light energy approaching you.
From wherever you are concentrate upon it. It will
create for you your own perfect personalized space. I
Advise you to keep this space simple, a shelf for books, a
Table some candles and maybe even a fireplace. (I am
really sorry for those of you who wish to have
technology, I don’t know of any running water or
electricity in the cosmic consciousness, so you’ll just
have to do without!!)At any rate you can personalize it
how you like but keeping it simple leaves less
distractions around you.
4) Once you have constructed this place you will use
it for basic meditation, reflections that need no
explanations, or just plain kicking back in the recesses
of your mind. It is your place you can go whenever you
like.
5) But be aware that the more time spent here the more
you will be at peace with yourself. You are in a place
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6) With enough attention given upon being here you
will at some point begging to feel the presence of an
invisible companion. Actually this is you being
manifested into a higher state by your presence here.
When you can see this presence step into it, it will
appear as a bright light white and pure silhouette, you
will be transformed into a being of spiritually pure
white light. This visualization allows you to become one
with intuition in a realized manner

The goal is to learn to trust your intuition so much that

you are “transformed onto a being of pure light”. This
is after all only a visualization designed to help you
realize intuitive empowerment is absolute an purely
perfect in it‘s essence.
Chanting
Chants when spoken in their original language (once
you understand them) are powerful and amazing to
behold. Also take it upon yourself to ground regularly
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This is definitely an exercise in which you must learn to
trust your intuition.
Here are a few of the “proper intentions” you will need
when you go to your special place.
-Reflect on the day, week, month(etc) -Reassert your
goals and decide what you will do next in the face of
challenge
-Work out the logistics of your life, or at least try to
understand why things happen the way they do
-Come here to create for yourself a positive attitude that
you can take back to the world you live in
-Never bring negativity into your special place. Ask your
intuition to leave it at your starting point. Don’t even
bring negativity along for the ride.

Emotional Clearing
1) Lying down on your back, Close your eyes, relax and
take a few deep breathes.
2) Go to your perfect place within yourself, and stand in
a clear area in the middle of the room. Imagine that you
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more deep breathes (Take these deep breathes in the
real world as well).

3) Imagine that you feel a force of light penetrating

your body from the back of your neck and filling your
head.
4) Allow this energy to flow and transmutate into a
liquid form, this liquid represents all of the positive
emotions within you that you have, but no longer use,
emotions that are just there taking up space.
5) Open up imaginary “valves” at the tips of your
fingers and toes and allow the “emotion liquid” to flow
out from you until you have emptied yourself of it.
6) Notice a hard ball in the pit of your stomach is
beginning to form like a knot. The ball becomes
uncomfortably warm, although it is not really hot.
These are negative emotions, useless or otherwise, you
want these to be cleared as well.
7) Imagine that you can reach into your body and take
the negativity out; it will resist, so pull it out fairly
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8) Once you remove it cast it into the air above you and
watch it dissipate into ambient space, neutralized by
the perfection of the place you are in.
9)Once you have removed all of the unneeded emotion
only neutrality, and necessary positive energy remains
within you.
10) Begin the process of returning to the real world,
when you feel yourself settle into this body(like a click
into place) open your eyes, reorient yourself with what
is around you
11)Take Several more deep breathes until you feel calm
and relaxed

Basic Meditation exercise

1) Begin by sitting in a cross legged position; close your
eyes and take several slow deep breathes.
2) Place your hands upon your knees. Place your palms
in an upward position to draw celestial(from the sky)
energy, or downward position to draw earth(from the
ground) energy. Touch your middle finger to your
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3) Choose a mantra(chant) in which you wish to focus
the energy on, repeating it over again, each time the
chant has been completed recite the word UMM. This
word is a particular sound that helps to relax the body
and mind, allowing you to go more deeply into your
meditation.
4) You begin to feel as if your mind is becoming
cleared, at this point you may continue chanting out
loud, or simply think the chant to yourself.
5) You feel as if there is a tingling in your hands, and a
rush of energy courses through your body. It may not be
very pronounced, maybe just a light shiver.
6) Keeping your eyes closed look deeply into what may
at first appear to be darkness. You will notice bits of
lightning and images, maybe even hear a voice within
your mind recalling a past event. These are your
thoughts. Notice these things and accept them as being
there.
7) Begin to look past the images and voices, concentrate
only on the space between the thoughts, and begin to
identify with this empty space, allowing your mind to
clear and become relaxed accordingly.
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8) It is not uncommon at this point to “trance out,”
something like falling asleep, except you remain in your
upright sitting position. When this occurs you loose
personal control of your session, don’t be afraid,
surrender to it.
9) Once you come out of the trance you will feel relaxed
and euphoric, should time be a constraint, set an alarm
to wake you from your session, although it is best that
you wake on your own.
10) Once you awaken begin the process of “turning
your brain back on”, purposefully thinking about stuff
that you have to do or will do into the near future.
11) Once you feel fully cognizant open your eyes and
stretch your back and arms from your sitting position.
Make sure you rise to your feet slowly, a bit of dizziness
may occur if you’ve been sitting for a long time.
12) You now feel aware and awakened. Things will
seem brighter and more colourful, you’ll hear more
clearly, and your concentration will begin to improve
over repeated Meditation sessions.

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Lots of Inner Love and positive energy can be crated for
you here. Let go of the fear and doubt, and embrace the
love within your positive being.

Quick Meditation Exercise(neutralizing energy flows)

Ambient energy is neither positive nor negative; it is
just neutral and floating.
(do this wherever you are, sitting, standing, waiting for
a bus etc.)
1) Close your eyes and relax
2) Try to remember everything that happened to you,
everyone you saw or met in the last 2 days
3) Surrender you need to fight how you feel about these
people or events and simply accept them for what and
who they are
4) Once you feel comfortable and secure in this, open
your eyes and don’t give it any more thought, you don’t
want to reverse the ambient energy you’ve just created
by thinking about it too much.

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***For those that have trouble with meditation try this ***
It allows the mind to get started, or rather un-started!!
Everywhere you go, and everything and everyone you
see, look at them without judgment or cause, only
accepting that which is in front of you. Discipline
yourself to have no afterthoughts, remembering only
the acceptance of what is there, and not having thought
about it.

Controlling your anger – Breaking glass visualization

Warning - Do not enact this as an experience - When

I acted out the below visualization I needed
immediate medical attention. I still have the scars
from the 143 stitches to remind myself of that
stupidity.

When I was 19 years to I went to Vancouver for spiritual

training, and thus became involved with a group of dominant/
submissive minded people that took me in. One of the first
things they realized was that I was a violently angry young
person, so, one evening, they set up 9 large glass windows in an

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old concrete underground garage, gave me a baseball bat and
told me to take my anger out on the glass. I protested that I
would become wounded by flying shards of glass. They suited me
up in gloves and a heavy shirt and facemask so I went to it,
smashing all of the glass, then spending most of the night
cleaning up after the mess I had made.
My Domina came to me the next morning and told me these
words which I have never forgotten. “Do you see those shards
and pieces of broken glass? That’s what you do to people that
love you and that you love when you lash out at them in anger.
Look at your hands – cut through the gloves from cleaning up
after your mess. This is how you feel after you become angry –
tired, in pain, depressed and guilty. Your hands will take a long
time to heal but you will heal, but what of those that you have
destroyed with your rage. They are destroyed inside, just like
those windows, you have broken them, and they can never be
put back together again.”
I was given some time to reflect upon this and then taken to a
private infirmary for medical attention. The following day my
task master put me to work as if nothing had happened.

Lesson - The world will make you do many things you do not
want to do, task you just as above, and coldly and callously does

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not take pity on you or your emotional problems. The world just
wants to enslave you. If you in your frustration towards this lash
out in anger all that it serves to do is to destroy what little
fortune that you have, so hold tightly to that which is real.

Love, Honour, Respect, Patience, and Understanding –

are all reality

Family, Friends and work relationships are important,

but are mostly role-play. Remember always that it is our
grasp of what is real that makes playing these roles
worthwhile, and keeping to what is important,
accepting it all for what it is will make all of the
difference in your life.

Still angry? Visualize the above, and realize what your

anger does to those you love.
You won’t want to stay angry for very long after that.

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Personal Meditative Practice

Some of my personal meditations and dream scenarios

that I am able to share.

Cave Meditations, Dreams, and Visions

A cave meditation is one in which the practitioner

imagines themselves in a beautiful place, usually one in
which nature abounds, a forest, or glade, even a field of
open meadows and flowers. Within the scenario there is
a cave or opening within the ground, or perhaps on the
side of a hillside. For more intense experiences imaging
the cave to be in the side of a mountain.

Once the cave is entered the practitioner has in essence

entered a hidden area of the mind, in which fears and
desires lay waiting to be uncovered, discovered, and
dealt with. Usually there will be a guide waiting within
the cave, an intuitive personality, intuition taking on a
form that can be reckoned with, so that discussion of

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the experience can take place.
Sometimes, when fear is a part of the meditation
intuition will take on the form of an aggressor or
adversary. In any case the session is designed for a
lesson to be learned, mostly about ones self, but also
lessons dealing with attitudes towards the outside world
can occur. Keep these in a dream journal as controlled
practice, separate from dreams that occur
spontaneously.

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1 - Fire path dream - Age 16

I walked along a very beautiful garden path until I cam

to a rock covered well. I looked into the well and could
see an orange light flickering within it. As nI remover
the stones O found myself slipping, falling towards the
light. The ground was hard beneath me and as I hit
there was some time on unconsciousness. I awoke to
find fire and blazing heat all around me. As I walked
through the burning walls, ceiling and floor beneath my
feet did not allow for me to burn. As I recalled my fire
walk 20 years before an old familiar face appeared to
me, the old crone I had seen during my real fire walk
appeared to me in my vision. Once again she accosted
me grabbing my clothing and shaking me, looking
earnestly into my eyes. “The abyss is cold and dark,
emptiness is there, you will not find what you are
searching for. If you are to be free you must walk the
fire-path. Goddess awaits you. Take the path to least
resistance. Leave fear and loathing behind, allowing
them to burn away beneath your feet. It is faith that

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keeps you from harm. Walk the fire path. Then and
only then shall you be free

Lesson - The fire path is a place within one’s life

whereby being tested becomes the rule rather than the
exception. The dream was telling me that in order to
be free I had to put myself into a situation in which I
would be tested. I had become to complacent with the
familiarity within my life, and needed to find some way
to create personal growth.

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2 - Keeper of the Keys - age 24.

My first meditative cave session came as quickly as it

passed. I fell into a trance and found myself awakening
in front of a large cavern, rather than a cave. I quietly
said, What’s this”
A soft echoing female voice came forth from the cavern
- That’s one question, the answer is you are here to ask
questions, I am the cavern of truth. Ask two more, and
I will answer them with complete honesty.

Question 2 - Why have you brought me here

Answer - I have brought you nowhere, you have come to
this place upon your own accord, you are here because
you require answers. One more question.

Last question - What is it that I can do that will make

me free.
Answer - Freedom is an illusion. Those things that we
hold to that we cannot have enslave us, becoming our
only vices.

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An echoing thunder from above my head boomed
loudly, and it began to rain.

Continued answer - One more thing(voice from the

cavern) do not be saddened by illusion, it will pass as
the rain. Know what is real, there will never be a time
in which the world is real. All that is real exists from
within. It is where love begins, and oppression is
uncreated.

With that a loud low male voice from above

commanded - NOW AWAKEN!!
I did - with violent results writhing upon the floor,
unable to breath. I felt a softness come over me as a
familiar voice spoke softly to me. It was the voice from
the cavern in my session. But I was fully and
consciously awake. “Be settled, there is no profit in
suffering. The world cannot be real no matter how
much you wish it. Let it go, I will love and protect you.
I am for you Allen Graih”.

Her name is Kaili, it means “Keeper of the Keys”.

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3- Family is the Enemy - Age 26

Although I began this session as a cave meditation a

dream began the session, an introduction to the cave
scenario. I was a young girl perhaps 9 years old, living
with just my mother on Vancouver Island in a suburb
of the city of Victoria. It was horse and buggy days,
perhaps late 1800’s. We had recently immigrated from
Ireland and with just me and mom I was happy and
carefree, making circles with my arms in the air until I
became dizzy and fell down.
Then my 3 sisters came over with my father. Mother
was ecstatic because we were a family again. I was not,
because I now had to fend for my own time, and
mother’s time was taken up by family matters. I began
to hate them, acting bratty and angry. Family was the
enemy.
With the dream ending my crying on my bed feeling
sorry for myself things fades into a darkness in which I
would just Be, until my mind was cleared of the last
image. Cut away 25 years, and I had grown up to age 34

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years of age, becoming a spiritualist and psychic healer.
I was heavily into Wicca and was beginning to juggle
the ideal of starting my own coven. My sisters were
always supportive of my efforts to move my beliefs
forward, and set up a ceremony place, bringing me
there to be inducted as head priestess. Most of the
towns Wicca came, many to join and be a part of what I
was doing, and where my path had taken me.
I was led to the area on the premise there was going to
be a picnic, and when I saw all of the towns respected
Wicca, witches, and some of the churches spiritual
detractors show up I asked what was this all about. The
picnic area was in an opening, or enclave, surrounded
by high rocky hills on all sides but the entranceway. My
oldest sister looked at me and said. “These are your
people to lead, my sister. And we believe in you”. Tears
flowing I awoke, still crying. As I awoke I understood
the message of the session. Believe in yourself, and
others will follow your lead believing in you as well. The
“others” were reference to my multiple personalities, the
meditation session once again reinforcing the reality of
inner self.
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Reference to a past life - Age 27 - I was a young girl,
about 15 years once again living in Victoria not the
same girl as in previous session. In this Cave meditation
I had discovered a cave at the foot of a hillside, and
upon entering fell within it’s depth. I remember feeling
sleepy a few times while trapped in the cave and feeling
pains in my stomach area, as well as yelling for help. I
was trapped in an underground cavern, and had broken
my hip. As time passed I felt that death would soon
come for me, but then I felt a rope hit my face and dirt
come down. A man had gotten to where I was and saw
me near death. He whispered to me that if we could
have sex with me he would get help. I nodded, and he
did. I passed out from the pain of my broken hip.
I awoke within a well lit room and a strong looking
young man approached me, smiling. The dream cut
away to other vague references, and I believe we
married and had children.

The point to the memory - The lesson was - that it is

sometimes better to return to the light by giving up
what is most precious, than to die in the darkness and
hold to that which while there has no value.
Pro - Domination - Age 30 - The dream begins in an
area outside of the city. I am myself(Male age 30, Allen)
and have gone to this place to meet up with a
dominatrix that would give me a one hour, pre-paid, pre
designated session. I looked around this area, and
realized that she was in an underground tunnel, and
old parkade no longer used by the public. Stripped
naked, my arms bound above me, my legs apart, tied to
links in the floor, she began to torture me, but not how
we had agreed, rougher and more vicious. I protested
and gave the safe word to end the session, she laughed
at me, and said, “you paid for an hour, that’s what you
will get, just you and me boy!!” I begged her to stop and
for three hours she did not, relentlessly torturing and
beating me for her own pleasure, assuring me I would
not be charged for the extra time. The session ended
with her becoming tired of this game, eventually I was
released. We left the garage together, and I gave her a
ride home, having become her friend during this
debacle.

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The lesson - If you voluntarily give up your will and
submit your vulnerability to the likes of those that
blatantly wish to hurt you, they will control what you do
for them, even your need to have them as friends. This
is not the mark of someone that is trying to be your
friend, Its is the mark of a user and bully.

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Dream Meditation - Age 34
The Dream begins in the first person, as I am seeing
what is happening to me as if I am existing within that
space. It is winter at Fraser’s Grove park in Winnipeg,
and the whole area is frozen over as if the river has
flooded into the park. It appears to be late in the fall,
perhaps late November. I comer up to an inlet and
decide to cross the ice, even though I know it is only
frozen on the surface. All of my friends and relatives are
gathered around and advise me not to cross. Yet I
decide to try anyways, because silliness seems to be in
my mind today. They are having a huge party,
Barbequing fish and burgers, and looking across the ice
feel apprehensive, yet I begin to venture out anyways.
At the shoreline the ice is quite solid, so I continue
to cross and even though there is some cracking
beneath my feet I continue to reach the center. As I go
forward the ice stops cracking, and continuing to the
other side make it about 4 feet from the opposite
shoreline before falling through and getting thoroughly
wet from the knees down.

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Several of my friends help me out and laugh at my
foolishness. I shake my head and exclaimed “Come on -
It’s not that funny!!”

Everyone soon forgets the incident, I change into dry

clothing, and we all eat, enjoying our time together for
as long as we have it.

Lesson - Walking out onto thin ice will always cause a

situation to become tense, but family and friends will
always be there for you when you really need them.

AKA - One day my decided to help me out as my washing

machine broke down. Accepting help is often as difficult as
sacrificing to give it, but it is important to remember that those
who love you give it freely. Become one that gives freely, not one
that takes without return.

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Priest wear black for a reason - Age 38 - In this
session the entrance to the cave was actually a church,
hewed into the rock face of a hillside. I was once again a
woman within this dreamtime, entering the church to
pay homage to a friend that had recently died. It was a
catholic church. The entrance was huge and ominous,
like the entrance to a cathedral, the actual church was
within the confines of the cave, all of the walls within
made of the rock faces upon which the cave originated.
I was a Wicca, and considered myself a purveyor of
light within the world. The priest saw me and
immediately asked me to leave, which I did not
understand, since the plaque outside of the doorway
clearly stated “all may enter in”. Yet he insisted I leave.
Lifting a metal cross above his head and professing the
name of Jesus Christ from within his darkened lair, he
commanded me to go. I took his free hand to explain
why I had come and he drove the metal cross through
my chest. I felt a lurch and then blood gushing from
the wound, and as I died within this place’s dark walls
he looked down upon me smiling, and said, May God
have mercy on your soul. itself
Lesson - Just because you are invited, does not mean
that you are welcome.

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Tantric Dreaming

Dreams that feel and seem so real you can’t tell the
difference from a real world experience.
In everyone’s existence there is a fine line between what
we experience and what is real. When I was 28 years
old I was given a set of dreams by Goddess Kali to teach
me about Domination and Submission. Every night I
would dream one week in the life of another person in a
Dom-world reality, where domination and submission
was not a game, but rule of law. Being a dominatrix was
revered and respected in this place, and my Kali saw fit
to make me into a girl, to grow up in a nightmarish
system of Dom sub ruling my life, and become a tough
minded Dominating Woman, so that I would know the
life of a Dominant personality and live it through her
experiences. Everything that happened was as real to
me as my experiences in this life. It gave me some
uncertainty weather or not this life was a dream from
another Trans dimension.

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 However real these Tantric dreams are, the facts still
exists that dreams are generally a culmination of fear
and desires. I have learned through experience that
Trans dimensional travel is possible. Unfortunately it is
not too easy for us mortals to control, so I leave it up to
my Goddess to decide where and when these should
take place (she still loves to surprise me!!).
A spiritual awakening can cause Tantric responses in
the brain that make normal dreaming much more
intense. This can often cause sensations that aren’t’t
immediately felt in a physical way while conscious, and
sleeping often intensifies symptoms related to a
spiritual awakening. There will be a continued energy
flowing up their spine causing light-headedness, and at
times a bit of nausea. While sleeping the dreams will
often become vicious nightmares, as if something is
trying to suck out the life-force. Calm down, and stop
fighting spiritual transformation, Spiritual energies will
move anyhow, and fighting this feels like a cold knife
running slowly up the back.

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I tracked down this phenomenon and here’s what I
discovered. The shaking and vibrating is normal, but
resisting the ebb and flow of the Spiritual energy within
and neglecting meditation can cause symptoms to
become worse. Stay grounded and awakened, deal with
it before fear consumes the mind. So don’t resist,
meditate often, and keep as calm as possible. Emotional
clearing works well too but this may require someone
that is knowledgeable in these matters. Novices in
spiritual matters should look to a guru they trust to help
with emotional clearing.
It’s all about the energy flow. It’s going to flow
weather you like it or not! Resisting it can cause undue
stress and emotional imbalance. Awakenings of any
kind creates a certain amount of imbalance even when
it flows, so don’t exasperate the problem by fighting it.
The most concise and easiest source of info still a book,
get lots of them. Check local bookstores for Buddhist
meditation practices; they are most effective.
So from now on think happy thoughts, do positive
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negativity start to built up smile and laugh and be
happy. When the Spiritual awakening experience starts
to become intense, start laughing, it makes it easier for
the positive energy to flow. Also stop, close your eyes
and do meditative breathing, be mindful of what’s
happening regarding the energy flow. The intensity of
the flow drop off dramatically, just keep a positive
energy flow happening.
So now – have happy dreams - go to sleep happy. Read
a joke book before bed or the comics. Do something
Positive!!
And have better sleeps to come.

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Family Gathering on the Day of Kali
Tantric Dream - Age 41

As the Dream begins, my family and friends were in

a small rectangular house, possibly a mobile home. It
was a time for celebration of some event. I perceive that
it like Christmas or Easter, but I was the Representative
of the Goddess Kali, and therefore was completely
naked throughout the time of family gathering. My
guess would be that we were celebrating a day dedicated
to the Kali ma, although the logistics behind such a day
escape me. I went into the Kitchen/food storage area,
and did manage to get a glance outside. It was grey and
rainy, but the snow was still on the ground, I suspect
that it was early spring, but it could possibly have been
fall. The reason I suspect that it was spring is because
fall time there are most vegetable goods packed up full
from the summer, and the shelves in the storage area
were half depleted. I saw this and became concerned, so
I perceive that the mobile home belonged to my wife
and me.

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 My wife was also naked, and was playing around
with the guests, who did not seem to be bothered by the
fact that their hosts had no clothes on. She was much
older, maybe 55 or 60, leading me to believe that it was
more of a premonition than a dream. (Although I kind
of hope not!!). Anyways, she was continuously trying to
put some toy handcuffs on my old Mom’s wrist and
lock her up to herself, I’m not sure what this was all
about but when my Mom protested she tried to lock
herself up to old Dad, but could not get the toy cuffs
around his wrist. I had been talking to the guests,
asking what they wanted and serving like a good host,
whilst my wife continued to entertain them, I looked as
my wife failed to get the toy cuffs onto my old Dad’s
wrists the dream ended. I think I noticed a tattoo on
the back of my Wife’s shoulders. It was a black dragon
painted on to look as if it was lying across her shoulders
and looking out at the person behind her. I had a
similar dragon tattoo across my chest. I’m not sure
about the tattoos - they may be an after image within
the dream. I paid them no attention.
Lesson - No matter what the situation there will always
be a time for family.
Vision of nuclear holocaust - July 2009 -
The vision began with my waking up from a night’s
sleep and looking about my house. A curious smell
wisped around me as I headed upstairs from the
basement. Everything outside was laid waste, a nuclear
holocaust had taken place. My wife’s charred body was
slumped over a final message she had written
containing these words.

“In order to create peace we must render the world

neutral through an abjective oppression that is
supposed but not actual. This can only be done from
within all humankind and will take a higher power to
create it - A higher power than any religion or God
that has ever been. That power is love.”

I awoke in tears realizing that there is no empowerment

except that which already exists and will always.

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Glossary of terms

Acceptance of what is - This is the highest calling of

an awakened person. Letting go of any fears or
animosities perceived or learned behavior, and just
seeing what is in front of you without judgement or
cause, without tolerance nor intolerance, just let it
exist. Let it be.
Action - The controlling of an event or occurrence by a
physical act of will.
Ambience - A mood or essence that can be felt within a
given physical space.
Ambient Space - The physical area around a place in
which a mood or essence can be felt. The area within
the mind that is processed thought from which
emotions are created.
Astral Projection - An ability for the mind to leave the
body temporarily in order that it may be in one place
while the body is in another. In some cases this
projection is perceived by others as the person sending
the image.

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Being - When everything that exists around in the
world, and everything that is realized by the mind
ceases to exist, it is called a state of “just being”. An
entity or life-force that exerts it’s influence over a
person without their knowledge or control.
Body - the physical vessel in which life occurs. In
Humans there are several metaphysical states. Or
bodies existing within the same space as the physical
body. Spiritual beliefs differ upon how this is set up.
Chakra - Energy centers within the body that connect
mental spiritual and physical energies together at
specific points.
Cosmic Consciousness - An area of ambient space in
which all thought past and present of everyone that has
ever been continues to exist. This connection exists
within everyone. We call it ambient space within. We
all are provided with a portion of this space. It is where
our imagination takes place, and our spirituality begins.
It is the center to everything we think and know, for it
is where our true self can be found.

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Cult - a group of religious people that practice only a
certain aspect of a larger religion believing it to be the
only way.
Dark Night of the Soul - A time in a person's life when
the light of your awakening is shrouded or delayed by
the darkness of the way you lived your life before, not
realizing that these old ways no longer are acceptable.
Darkness - A term used to describe a mental condition
of ignorance and pain, usually associated with the
ideologies of evil.
Discipline - The conduct, control and training of
another person through the use of restraining freedom.
Often associated with physical punishment for mistakes
made.
God - for the purposes of this book God is defined as a
universal oneness that draws all of creation back to
itself. We can access this oneness through connecting
to it via the cosmic consciousness.
Grounding - A meditative ritual in which you
purposefully draw energy from the earth in order to feel
more in touch with who you are and who you are trying
to become.
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Group - People that get together on a regular basis to
forward similar agendas.
Ideology - The point and procedures of a belief
structure.
Illusion - Anything that seems to be something that it
is not.
Intuition - The area of the psyche that knows better
and entices a person to do better. A well developed
intuition can effectually create within you an almost
precognitive ability.
Journey - a term used to describe the way your spirit
perceives it's existence.
Karma Clearing - The act of accepting and forgiving all
that you have done in this or in past lives that was
unacceptable, and understanding the need to create an
acceptable lifestyle in this lifetime.
Letting go - releasing from the mind any connection to
something within their life that a person feels they no
longer have a use for.
Lifestyle - The standards and attitudes that come
together to form a model for conducting life.

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Light - A term used to describe illuminated thought,
associated with moving towards perfection.
Mantra - A Chant or sound used to focus the mind
during meditation.
Mind - The center of the brains thinking and memory
storage.
Mind, Body, Spirit - A term used to describe an all
encompassing being of earthly existence. This has
become an ideology within itself in that most religious
and spiritual practices seek to join the three, the result
being a perfection and purification of spirit, as mind
and body pass away.
Mind to body burnout – When one’s mind has become
so bored with something it coerces the body to find
something else to do instead.
Past Life regression - A regressing of your mind in this
life to that of a past life, in which memories dictated by
Karmic impressions feel as powerful and as new as the
day they occurred.
Path of action - The vibration within the body that is
create when an act of the will is inconsistent with a

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persons willingness to change according to the values of
their spiritual awakening experience.
Perception - the act of mental awareness, in that an
opinion of what is being made aware of is formed
Perfection of (Perfect)Light - The place within your
spiritual being when all your Karma has been cleared. It
wears like a cloak of purity around you and replaces the
true self with the perfect self.
Process - a systematic series of actions designed to lead
to specific finalization.
Relationship - an emotionally motivated connection
between two people or within a group of people.
Remote Viewing - The act of being able to see by
remote astral projection a past or present area of time
and space with no one else aware of your presence.
Spirit - The mental energy within a human being that
associates itself to conscious life. Ambience acting a
sentient incorporeal being.
Spiritual Awakening - a realization that you have been
living a life by other peoples standards, and a need to
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A need to go beyond this, to not only rebuild your
standards, but to also rebuild your attitudes, based
upon the knowledge that you are and individual, and
that you live your life with the goal of finding true
happiness, light and love.
Spiritual teaching - The act of passing one’s spiritual
knowledge to another. An ideology or practice that has
been formulated to help a person better understand the
nature of their own true selves.
Transformational Meditation - A practice in which the
practitioner separates themselves from their thought
process in order to visualize thoughts as they flow, and
become the knower of these thoughts.
Transcendental Meditation - Meditation based in the
Hindu tradition in which a Mantra is repeated.
True happiness - What occurs when all negative energy
has been cleared from the triad of mind body and spirit.
Generally fleeting, and mostly an illusive feeling of
floating.
This can be created through an event in your life that
really sets your positive emotions in motion, also
through continued meditative practice.
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True self - The person that you are without the
hindrance of what the world has taught you to be. The
person you were at birth, before you learned how to
behave in a way that was standardized by someone else.
This personality never leaves you, It is who we strive to
become, who we are. The person that you really are,
without all that which life has taught you, and without
the Karma that you drag with you from lifetime to
lifetime.

Understanding - The mental process of

comprehending. Empowering oneself with the logic of
an idea.
Universal Connection - The connection made through
meditative practice whereby the practitioner has allowed
everything previously known to pass away, and has
connected the true self to the universal oneness that is
accepted as God.
Worldly Indulgence - Going past what is safe and
logical when it comes to allowing your adherence to
worldly influences.

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