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Note: I have edited the first 18 chapters a bit, so that they're more
polished than their original versions. However, you probably won't
notice any of the changes I made, since they were all small things
like word choice and phrasing.
A voice coming from the other end of the corridor made him pause
and draw back further into the shadows behind the suit of armor. He
would recognize that annoying voice anywhere. Weasley. No doubt
Potter had sent his freckly little side-kick to spy on him.
Draco reached into his pocket and pulled out his wand, grasping it
in his hand so that he would be ready to throw a hex in Weasley’s
direction. Just as he was about to burst out from his hiding place,
he heard another voice – a female voice that was vaguely familiar
to him, but that he couldn’t quite place. He remained very still,
listening closely as the pair came around the corner and into the
corridor that he was hiding in.
It was Lavender Brown. She had even fewer brain cells than the
average Gryffindor – though she was well endowed in the chest
area, Draco had to admit. Perhaps Weasel King wasn’t such a
complete moron after all. He tried to remember if she was otherwise
decent-looking, but couldn’t get a good look at her face from this
angle. Regardless, it didn’t appear as if there would be much left of
it once Weasley was finished with her, since he seemed to be in the
process of sucking it off. It was enough to make Draco’s stomach
turn, though he was not the least bit surprised at the redhead’s lack
of kissing skills.
Before Draco could decide how best to use this latest discovery to
his advantage, his thoughts were interrupted by the sound of a door
opening. Peeking around the suit of armor once more, he saw that
Weasley and Lavender were about to disappear into one of the
empty classrooms. He watched as with an uttered, “Oops!”,
Lavender backed out again, giggling. The classroom door shut with
Weasley still inside, and Draco thought he could hear at least two
voices conversing in the room.
Draco thought this was just too bloody fantastic, as all of his
previous worries about Voldemort and Vanishing Cabinets
disappeared in the face of the delightful drama playing out before
him. He could barely contain his glee. He had always thought those
Gryffindors were good for nothing but target practice for hexes, but
he had to admit, they put on a pretty good show. His attention
returned to the scene in front of him as Weasley, and now Potter
emerged from the classroom that Hermione had just left in high
dungeon.
“She’s lost her bloody mind, I tell you!” Weasley was huffing, waving
his arms wildly in the air. “Sicking a bunch of her stupid birds on me
like that!”
Potter said nothing, but gave him a look that seemed to imply ‘Well,
what did you expect?’. Lavender stepped forward to wrap her arms
soothingly around Weasley, as if he had just survived a harrowing
encounter with ten Death Eaters, rather than one scorned
Mudblood.
Draco decided that maybe the girl was not as stupid as she looked
– even she realized that for her to go after Hermione right now was
about as smart as trying to tango with a venomous tentacula.
Weasley just threw his hands up in front of him in a ‘No way!’
gesture. Potter, the only one of the three who could probably still
speak to Hermione and survive the encounter, hesitated and gazed
at the door that his friend had just disappeared behind. Then he
shook his head.
“No, I think we should just give her some time by herself to cool
down,” he said. “Let’s go back to the common room.”
Draco rolled his eyes. And they say Gryffindors are supposed to be
brave.
He didn’t feel like returning to his dormitory just yet, and he knew
that Granger was still holed up in that empty classroom, sobbing
her eyes out over Weasley. Could he resist the chance to torment
her when it was being dangled in front of him like that? How could
he call himself a Slytherin if he did not take advantage of a golden
opportunity like this?
Having made his decision, Draco emerged from his hiding place
and strode down the hall to the classroom he had seen Granger
disappear into. Wand in hand, he flung open the door and stepped
inside.
She was sitting on top of a desk not far from the classroom door,
and he could see that she had conjured more of those stupid yellow
birds. Draco really had to wonder about the purpose of teaching
that spell in Transfiguration. Did McGonagall think that she was
preparing her students to succeed on the Wizarding world because
they could conjure a small flock of canaries? His gaze fell from the
circling birds overhead to take in the sight of Granger, sitting with
her head bowed, and fat tears dripping down into her lap.
Merlin, she’s a mess, Draco thought to himself, rolling his eyes and
letting the classroom door slam shut behind him.
“Nice to see you too, Granger,” Draco drawled. “Were you hoping I
was someone else? Weasley, perhaps?”
“Oh, news travels fast around Hogwarts. I don’t need to read the
Daily Prophet to know about your little Gryffindor dramas. Though I
really have to wonder about your taste in men, Granger. The
Weasel King? Come on, even for a Mudblood like you…”
“Oppugno!” she shouted the moment he uttered the offensive word,
turning her flock of canaries on Draco in the exact same way she
had attacked Ron. But Draco was ready for her. With a casual flick
of his wand, he conjured a counter spell that made the birds
disappear with a small poof. All that remained were a few yellow
feathers floating lazily to the floor.
She just sat there staring at him, her jaw quivering with rage. Draco
had to admit that it was a much better look on her than the look of
tearful dejection her face had carried a few moments before. She
still looked terrible, of course, her nose red and her eyes puffed up
and watery. But now, with her temper riled, her brown eyes seemed
to snap with a hot, internal glow of anger. He found his eyes drifting
slightly south of her face to where her ample chest was rising and
falling with rage. It had been some time since Draco had really
gotten a close look at her, and he had to admit, the bushy-haired
little Gryffindor had matured into a reasonably attractive young
woman.
“Well, Malfoy, are you going to torment me like you clearly came in
here to do, or are you just going to keep staring at me like I have
miniature hippogriffs sprouting out of my ears?”
Her voice snapped Draco out of his reverie, and he shook his head
once to clear it.
“Of course not. It’s just that…I was just wondering what’s happened
to you, that’s all. Why the change?”
“Did Potter put you up to this?” he asked. “Is he trying to use you as
a spy to find out what I’ve been doing?”
Shit.
“Look, Granger, I’m sure you find this hard to believe, but there are
other guys out there who are just as good as Weasley. I could hook
you up with the Bloody Baron. His temperament is similar to Weasel
King’s. I hear Filch is single, and he has roughly the same amount
of sex appeal as Weasley does…”
“Shut up, Malfoy!” she snapped. “Ron may be a prat sometimes but
he is nowhere near as awful as Filch! He’s – he’s – “
“No!” she said, her voice rising a few decibels as she leapt to her
feet. “Ron is – is kind and brave and – and he’s a....he’s a
good….boy.”
She uttered the last word so softly that Draco had to strain to hear
it. Then she stood there stupidly, cheeks flushed at the realization
of what she had just proclaimed.
“He’s a ‘good boy’? Is that actually what you just said? A ‘good
boy’? What are you – his friend or his mother?”
Draco let out a cruel laugh, enjoying the fact that Hermione’s
cheeks were now flaming so brightly, that she appeared almost as
red as Weasley himself did when he got into a tizzy.
“Well there’s your first mistake, Granger, going after a little boy like
Weasley. No wonder you’re so disappointed with him. Grow up and
find yourself a man instead of a stupid little twat like him.”
She trailed off as Draco’s laughter instantly died on his lips. He had
flinched involuntarily when she spoke his master’s name, but only
for a second, and then his he hid his expression behind a mask of
indifference. But Hermione did not miss his reaction, though she
mistook its significance.
“It’s true then, isn’t it?” she whispered. “You’re one of them, now.”
“You don’t know what you’re talking about, Granger,” said Draco,
his voice low and menacing. She did not seem intimidated,
however.
“I know you’re not exactly the nicest person in the world, Malfoy, but
I can’t believe that you would actually take the Dark Mark – “
“Yes. Thank you for reminding me that there are bigger prats in the
world than Ron Weasley. He may be childish at times, but I’d rather
have a ‘good boy’ like him than a nasty little Death Eater like you
any day.”
As she spoke, she moved slowly around him, walking towards the
door. Draco pivoted in order to keep his wand trained on her with
every step she took, and she never once removed her eyes from
him. He could not explain the emotions that roiled inside his chest
at her words, at the reasons why she would prefer Weasley to him.
Why should her opinion mean anything to him? It was ridiculous.
“He’ll be over her within a week, you know,” Draco said, the words
slipping from his mouth before he could stop them.
“What?” she asked, turning to face him once more. Draco rolled his
eyes.
“Anyway,” he continued, “I’m sure that after a few weeks he’ll get
sick of her. Girls like Lavender Brown are only good for one thing.”
Draco figured that probably was the worst that could happen
between the couple. After all, Lavender may be stupid enough to
snog the Weasel King, but in order for her to actually get under the
bed sheets with him, she would have to be stupider than he
imagined possible.
“Right. Like I said, I give it a few weeks and then he’ll ditch her. So
you two will still have your happily ever after and start popping out
more baby Weasels than you can possibly afford.”
“Look, Malfoy,” she said. “How about I promise not to tell a single
soul that you were nice to me if you promise not to go off and tell
your Slytherin friends about what you saw happening between me
and Ron?”
“Deal,” she said, holding out her right hand to seal the pact. Draco
stepped back, eyeing her hand as if it was a flobberworm.
“Put that away, Granger. I don’t want any of your Mudblood germs.”
Her color rose again, and she withdrew her hand as if she had been
slapped.
“Fine!” she snapped. “Just make sure you hold up your end of the
deal, Malfoy. I may not use Unforgiveables, but I know a few hexes
that you could call ‘Unforgettables’ - one or two of which would
leave you begging to be turned into a ferret again instead.”
She stomped back towards the door and swung it open. But before
she could leave, Draco found himself once more speaking before
thinking.
He didn’t know why it mattered to him that she knew this. He only
knew that it did. She paused for a second, as if absorbing what he
had just said, and then she left, letting the door slam shut behind
her, so that Draco was left all alone in the classroom.
He stood there for a few moments, processing the bizarre turn the
night had taken. He had been having something remotely
resembling a conversation with Hermione Granger – about her love
life, no less – and his attempts to torment her about Weasley
hadinstead evolved into something akin to comforting her about the
whole situation. Wow, he really was losing his touch. That or all the
stress from Voldemort’s assignment had finally gotten him mentally
unglued.
With a sigh, he lifted his hawthorn wand and pressed the tip of it
against his temple. But he hesitated to cast the spell. He had very
little experience with memory charms, and had never cast one on
himself before. He didn’t want to muck it up, erase all his memories,
and end up in a padded cell at St. Mungo’s like that buffoon,
Gilderoy Lockhart. Plus, some small part of him, probably the part
of him that should be put in a padded cell at St. Mungo’s, actually
didn’t want to forget what had just occurred between him and
Hermione.
Draco decided that he was going to have to live with the fact that for
one night, for just a few crazy minutes, he had actually been nice to
Hermione Granger.
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Chapter 2: All Alone by atalanta84
I thought, beloved, to have brought to you
A gift of quietness and ease and peace,
Cooling your brow as with the mystic dew
Dropping from twilight trees.
Homeward I go not yet; the darkness grows;
Not mine the voice to still with peace divine:
From the first fount the stream of quiet flows
Through other hearts than mine.
Yet of my night I give to you the stars,
And of my sorrow here the sweetest gains,
And out of hell, beyond its iron bars,
My scorn of all its pains.
“Well, really!” huffed the Fat Lady as her portrait slammed shut, but
Hermione was already halfway down the corridor and did not hear
her.
She wandered aimlessly down the halls, trying to calm herself after
the intense argument that had just occurred between her and her
friends. She couldn’t believe Ron and Ginny had both taken Harry’s
side! But what she really couldn’t believe was that Harry felt justified
in doing what he had done earlier that day.
She had been warning him all school year that there was something
fishy about that Half Blood Prince. She knew it was a bad idea for
Harry to keep trying out the non-Ministry approved spells that he
found scrawled along the margins of that Potions book. But did he
ever listen? No, of course not! It was always, ‘You assume the
worse, Hermione’, ‘You’re just jealous of the Half Blood Prince,
Hermione.’ And now he had used one of the spells and almost killed
Draco Malfoy.
Perhaps what bothered her most about this whole situation was
how bothered she was by it to begin with. Why should she care if
Malfoy had almost been ripped in two with
that Sectumsempra spell? Wasn’t it really the least he deserved
after nearly six years of tormenting Harry and his friends? Wasn’t it
Harry’s right to defend himself?
Yet, she couldn’t help feeling bad for Draco. Earlier that year, she
thought she had seen the tiniest smidgeon of humanity in the boy
when he cornered her in that classroom after the whole episode
with Ron. For the briefest moment, he had actually consoled her
about it and given her advice. Ironically, his words had been more
comforting to her than anything Harry had ever said about it. And
Draco had actually been right, in the end. Ron had broken up with
Lavender….
Hermione still could not forget how Malfoy had stared at her in fear
when she mentioned Voldemort’s name. Of course, everyone
flinched when the name was spoken out loud, but his reaction was
different – his fear was intense and real, as if at this point in time,
Voldemort was even more of a clear and present danger to Malfoy
than he was to Harry. Of course, she had discussed none of this
with Harry, not only because it would violate the deal she made with
Malfoy, but also because it would only serve to fuel Harry’s rampant
obsession with what Malfoy was up to these days.
When she first entered the quiet infirmary and saw Malfoy lying on
the bed closest to the window, she thought he was asleep. He was
laying completely still, his face turned towards the window, where
the daylight was quickly fading. As Hermione stepped closer, she
almost gasped when she saw how pale he was. It was as if any
small amount of color he possessed had bled right out of him with
the Sectumsempra spell. His skin was so white, he looked as if he
would melt away into the bed sheets and disappear altogether. The
only color on him was the tiniest trace of pink across his face,
where his wounds were still healing.
“No.”
“Yeah right. I’m sure you’re just so proud of him, of what he did. He
must be the hero of Gryffindor Tower tonight – or at least, even
more the hero than he usually is.”
“I’m not proud of what Harry did,” Hermione said quietly, avoiding
his gaze. “I think it was stupid of him to use that spell on you when
he didn’t even know what its effects were.”
Draco stared at her mutely, his eyes wide with disbelief. Then the
smallest trace of his usual sneer sprang to his face.
“I don’t believe it. Never thought I’d see the day that Hermione
Granger would actually sell out on the Boy Wonder.”
“I’m not ‘selling out’ on Harry. He’s my friend. I just realize that he
can be a bit… overenthusiastic at times.”
“So, if you didn’t come here to gloat, then why are you here,
Granger?”
“Yes.”
“That’s the craziest thing I’ve ever heard. Why the hell would you
care? Shouldn’t you be wishing that Potter killed me or something?”
“I would never wish anyone dead. Well maybe Vol-,” she paused,
recalling his severe discomfort the last time she had spoken the
name aloud, “I mean maybe He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named. But
other than him, I would never wish anyone dead. Not even you,
Malfoy.”
There was another long pause as he seemed to process this.
“And you, Malfoy?” Hermione asked tentatively, not really sure she
wanted to know the answer. “Would you be that happy if I died?”
“You said you were here to see if I was okay. And I asked you why
the hell you would care.”
“Oh. I-I don’t know exactly. Maybe it’s a sense of… responsibility.”
“Responsibility?”
“Yes, well, to take responsibility for Harry’s actions. Obviously he
isn’t going to come down here and apologize himself, so…”
“What?”
And they took her for granted. Wasn’t this Sectumsempra incident a
prime example of that fact? She had been warning Harry about the
Half Blood Prince since the school year started, and even though
she had now been proven right, he was still arguing against her.
And Ron had taken his side!
“Just get out of here, Granger,” Malfoy said coldly. “You know that
Potty and Weasel would be livid if they knew you were in here
checking up on me. Your boy heroes would be out of their minds if
they knew that you were standing here talking to the evil Draco
Malfoy and – what the hell are you doing?”
“Well that’s the rub, isn’t it? They’d be so livid if they knew I was
here, and right now I could care less. I actually kind of like the idea
of doing something they disapprove of, since they obviously enjoy
doing all the things I disapprove of. And let’s face it, you like nothing
better than to torment Ron and Harry, and itwould torment them to
know that I was here talking to you. So I think I’m going to stay here
for a bit, thanks. After all, it serves both of our interests at the
moment.”
“Well, well, well. Not the pure and innocent Gryffindor after all, are
you? Another deal with the devil, is it?” he said. Hermione shook
her head.
“Yes,” Draco replied, rolling his eyes. “She was fawning over me all
afternoon. I finally had to fake a seizure to get Madam Pomfrey to
drive her out of here.”
Hermione couldn’t help giggling at this, and she could have sworn
that the corners of Draco’s lips twitched as well. He looked slightly
less pale than he had when she had first entered the room, and
there was a hint of pink in his cheeks again. They sat in silence for
a few minutes. Hermione certainly wouldn’t call it companionable
silence, but it also was not as awkward as she expected it to be -
which was strange considering that she was sitting at the bedside of
Draco Malfoy, her long time nemesis, after he had nearly been
killed by her best friend earlier that afternoon. It should have been
the very definition of awkward. But it wasn’t.
“So Granger,” said Draco, finally breaking the silence. “Since you’ve
so kindly volunteered to keep me company this evening, maybe you
can entertain me with a few naughty school girl stories.”
“You disgust me, Malfoy. Besides, I don’t have any ‘naughty school
girl’ stories.”
“Oh please, you can’t be that pure and innocent. Haven’t you
shagged Weasley yet?”
“How – how dare you!” Hermione spluttered, feeling the heat rise in
her face. “It is absolutely none of your business what Ron and I –”
“Yes, Ron isn’t dating Lavender anymore. Not that it matters to you
–”
“Ok, so you haven’t shagged him. Has there been any groping?”
“Snogging? Surely after pining for him all this time you’ve at
least snogged the git?”
Hermione was on the edge of her seat, her fists clenched in self-
righteous fury. Draco’s cheeks had definitely regained their color
now, and one of his usual smirks graced his lips. Hermione’s hand
was positively twitching with the urge to smack it right off of his
pointy little face.
“Bad idea. As much as I’d love to give you all the dirty details of my
sex life, I don’t think Little Miss Perfect Hermione Granger wants to
get in trouble for staying out past curfew.”
“Ugh!”
Hermione crossed her arms over her chest in disdain, but she knew
that her cheeks were reddening with the implications of his
statement. Obviously, he had more than a little experience… unless
he was lying, of course. That was very probable.
“You think so, Granger? Alright then, you asked for it. Let’s see, if
you want to know about my entire sex life, I think it’s actually easier
for me to start with the most recent events and work my way back,
so… last weekend, I cornered Pansy in the third floor broom closet,
pushed her up against the wall, hiked up her skirt and –”
“Aggghh! Stop!”
The disturbing truth was that his story actually was a bit too hot for
Hermione to handle. Because the moment he had started
describing exactly what he had done to Pansy Parkinson, Hermione
had gripped the seat of her chair, picturing herself in Pansy’s place.
With a morbid sense of curiosity, she wondered what it would feel
like to be kissed by him, to run her fingers through those platinum
locks, to – Oh God! What was she even thinking? This was Draco
Malfoy, the world’s biggest git, and she was imagining what it would
be like to share a cozy moment in a broom closet with him!
She had heard of girls being drawn to the ‘bad boy’ types, but she
had always thought herself immune to that sort of fancy. Apparently
she wasn’t. She needed to change the direction of this
conversation, and quickly. So she worked on transforming her
discomfort into disgust.
“Yes, but that’s beside the point. The fact that you would kiss and
tell is an affront to all women. It’s disgusting. Don’t you have any
respect for her at all?”
“No, I don’t,” Draco said shamelessly. “And I don’t see why I should.
She’s not exactly the kind of person that inspires respect.” He
winced at his own words, probably realizing that he had violated
some sort of taboo by speaking badly of a fellow Slytherin in front of
a Gryffindor.
Hermione thought that there really weren’t many people in Draco’s
acquaintance that inspired respect. Crabbe and Goyle certainly
didn’t – they were the two stupidest people in their year, if not the
entire school. Zabini seemed reasonably intelligent, but Hermione
never had the impression that he and Draco were particularly close.
She realized that Draco didn’t really have any friends that he really
cared about, or who seemed to genuinely care about him.
As soon as she said it, she wished she could retract her words.
Draco’s smirk faded, only to be replaced by a tight-lipped grimace,
and he was suddenly that pale, ghost-like boy she had seen upon
first entering the room.
“Malfoy I –”
“Just leave it, Granger. You are probably the last person on the
planet who could possibly understand… Just forget it. Besides, at
least I still have my parents, unlike your precious Potter. My father
may be in Azkaban, but he’ll be out soon, you wait and see. And my
mother….”
Draco trailed off into silence, and Hermione saw the same flicker of
fear cross his face she had seen several months ago in that
abandoned classroom, the last - and first - time they had spoken to
each other alone. Without thinking, she reached out one hand to
cover his. Then she froze, waiting for the fallout. She remembered
how he had last reacted to the prospect of touching her. He had
said he didn’t want to get any of her “Mudblood germs”. What would
he do now?
“Malfoy, what is it you’re afraid of? Just tell me what’s going on.”
But Draco just snorted.
“Going to try and save me, Granger? Isn’t that what you little
Gryffindors are always trying to do – save people? Well maybe I
don’t need saving.”
“Well then maybe I don’t want it!” he said, his voice rising.
Hermione noticed that in spite of his growing anger, he still did not
pull his hand from her grasp. She fumbled mentally, trying to figure
out what to say next. Over the years, she had learned how to
navigate the ever-changing waters of Ron’s temper - with mixed
success - but Draco’s was entirely new to her. Certainly she, Harry,
and Ron had learned several ways to push his buttons through the
years, but she had never needed - or wanted - to learn how to
assuage him.
Luckily, she was spared the task of calming him down because his
anger seemed to melt away of its own accord. All the fight seeped
out of him, and he let out a tired sigh.
The faintest ghost of a smile played across his lips, and for a
moment, grey eyes met brown without a trace of malice, suspicion,
or anger. Hermione felt her pulse speeding up slightly in her veins,
and she hoped Draco didn’t notice that the palm of her hand had
become sweaty as it continued to rest against his own. She decided
that she was definitely not immune to the whole ‘bad boy’ allure. But
surely she could find someone somewhere in the Wizarding world
who had invented a vaccine for it….
His eyes were so full of pain and fear that it pierced Hermione’s
heart. He looked so lost, and it was a look that seemed entirely out
of place on the face of Draco Malfoy, making her frightened about
what could possibly cause it. At the same time, she felt a surge of
pity for him. That was a mistake.
The moment Draco recognized the pity in her eyes, he yanked his
hand out of her grasp as if she had stung him, and his grey eyes
took on the appearance of roiling storm clouds.
He turned his head away from her so that he was staring out the
window once more, even though Hermione knew that it was now
dark outside and there was nothing for him to see there. It was a
silent dismissal, and she stood up from her seat, preparing to leave.
But despite her anger at him for using that hateful word, she found
herself lingering at his bedside, reluctant to leave him alone once
more.
What had she been thinking, going to visit Draco Malfoy in the
hospital wing? Had she suddenly become as reckless and stupid as
she so often accused Harry and Ron of being? For a moment, she
had thought that there was more to Malfoy, but then he had
reverted back to his usual evil self. Well, she really shouldn’t have
been surprised.
Over the sound of her pounding heart, she heard her stomach
growl, and realized that it was time for dinner. Slowing her frantic
pace to something more normal, she made her way towards the
Great Hall. She knew that Harry and Ron may still be a bit miffed at
her because of their argument earlier, but at least she knew what to
expect from them. Draco Malfoy was like a Blast-Ended Skrewt –
you just never knew what was going to set him off. At least with
Harry and Ron, things were safe and familiar.
Before she knew it, she was pushing open the doors of the Great
Hall and walking towards the Gryffindor table. Her mood brightened
somewhat when Ron noticed her coming and gave her a cheerful
little wave. As she headed towards the empty seat next to him, she
recalled that unlike the last time she and Malfoy spoke, this time
they had not made a pact to keep their meeting a secret from their
friends. But Hermione realized that they needn’t have bothered.
She had a feeling neither of them was ever going to tell anyone
about what had happened between the two of them in the hospital
wing that day.
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Chapter 3: Trapped by atalanta84
Author's Notes:
The first half of this chapter takes place during the Malfoy Manor
scene from Deathly Hallows. Therefore, a few lines of dialogue are
borrowed driectly from J.K. Rowling, and as such, do not belong to
me. Also, this is where the one scene of torture in the story occurs.
What would I give for a heart of flesh to warm me through,
Instead of this heart of stone ice-cold whatever I do!
Hard and cold and small, of all hearts the worst of all.
What would I give for words, if only words would come!
But now in its misery my spirit has fallen dumb.
O merry friends, go your own way, I have never a word to say.
What would I give for tears! Not smiles but scalding tears,
To wash the black mark clean, and to thaw the frost of years,
To wash the stain ingrain, and to make me clean again.
He couldn't explain why, but whenever his mind was given the
chance to wander, it always came wandering back to Hermione
Granger. He had not seen her in almost a year, and yet her face
was emblazoned in his memory. It had been so long since that night
in the hospital wing, and yet for some unfathomable reason, he
could still remember the soft heat of her hand wrapped around his.
The last time he had seen her had been the night of that fateful
encounter on the Astronomy Tower - the night that Draco had failed
in his mission to kill Professor Dumbledore. He shuddered slightly
at the memory. What had Potter told her, he wondered? He had
found out later that Potter had witnessed the entire scene leading
up to Dumbledore's death. That thought made him scowl. Of
course, Potter had probably spun the story to make Draco sound
like either a murderer or a coward. Draco wasn't sure which title
was worse. Realizing he actually cared what Hermione thought of
him, only served to deepen his scowl.
But the truth was, ever since that night on the Astronomy Tower,
Draco had felt empty inside. It was like some part of his ego had
been carved out of him and cast aside - leaving him just a hollow
shadow of the boy he had been before. Since then he had gone on
with his life as if in a daze, moving from one stage to the next,
taking his classes at Hogwarts, maintaining acquaintance with his
fellow Slytherins, trying to please his parents.
There was little to find comfort in these days. His parents were so
distracted by the task of getting themselves back in the Dark Lord's
good graces, they hardly seemed to pay any attention to Draco
anymore. And Malfoy Manor certainly was not as cozy as it used to
be now that Death Eaters were traipsing in and out of it at all hours,
and Voldemort himself considered it home.
No, the last person to extend any sort of comfort to Draco had been
Hermione Granger...
‘Going to try and save me, Granger? Well, maybe I don't need
saving.'
Draco shuddered, covering his eyes with his hands. His mother
finally seemed to notice him sitting there and approached him with
concern.
It was a group of Snatchers, and they had that nasty Greyback with
them.
It wasn't the first time since he had returned to the Manor for Easter
Break that some of the more high-profile prisoners had been
dragged here by the Snatchers. Draco usually tried to be out of the
room when these incidences occurred. For some reason, he didn't
think he could stomach seeing the familiar face of an old classmate
among the prisoners. As his mother drifted over and began
conversing with the Snatchers, Draco debated trying to sneak out of
the room before anyone noticed. Before he could escape, however,
his mother was calling out to him.
Draco's insides froze. Reluctantly, he rose from his chair and turned
to face the group of prisoners. There, showered by the light of the
chandelier, was his longtime enemy. His face was distorted and
puffy, but Draco could not mistake him for being anyone but Harry
Potter.
"Well, Draco?" his father pressed him. "Is it? Is it Harry Potter?"
"I can't - I can't be sure," Draco lied. For some reason he couldn't
bring himself to identify the boy. He couldn't even bring himself to
look in his direction.
"I don't know," he said finally, and then he hurried away to stand
next to his mother by the fireplace, wanting to distance himself from
the proceedings. His mother was speaking again, but her words
were nothing but a buzz in the background as Draco stared down
into the flames of the fireplace, his heart racing.
Ever since his first year at Hogwarts he had wanted nothing more
than to see his rival get what was coming him - to finally see him
defeated. Now it had happened. Why couldn't Draco bring himself
to be elated? His thoughts were interrupted by the growling voice of
Fenrir Greyback.
Draco realized that the situation had suddenly gone from bad to
worse.
"Look, Draco," his mother was asking him. "Isn't it the Granger girl?"
Draco forced himself to tear his eyes away from Hermione, turning
his back on her so that he was staring into the flames once more.
"I...maybe...yeah."
His father was jubilant now, having recognized another face in the
small cluster of prisoners.
"Draco, look at him, isn't it Arthur Weasley's son, what's his name -
?"
Draco kept his back to the prisoners, knowing that Lucius was now
talking about Ron Weasley.
His heart was beating so fast that he thought it would soon explode
out of his chest. They had managed to get caught - all three of
them. For years nothing would have pleased Draco more than to
have the Golden Trio at his mercy, and now that it had occurred, he
found his emotions in turmoil. The idea of something happening to
Potter or Weasley was mildly troublesome, but the idea of Granger
being hurt - or worse - made him sick to his stomach.
As if things couldn't get any worse, his Aunt Bellatrix entered the
room, and soon she, his parents, and Greyback were arguing about
what to do with the prisoners, and about who should have the
privilege of summoning the Dark Lord.
Then suddenly, his aunt was going berserk and fighting with
Greyback over a sword. He watched as she stunned four of the
Snatchers and their bodies fell with muted thumps to the floor. She
was asking Draco to drag them to the courtyard outside, but he
barely heard her. He was frozen in place, watching the scene play
out in front of him as if he was at one of those stupid Muggle
cinemas.
Then his mother was saying, "Take these prisoners down to the
cellar, Greyback." The werewolf made to do so, until suddenly
Bellatrix stopped him.
But despite his protests, Hermione was cut free from the rest of the
group and released into Bellatrix's clutches. Weasley and the other
prisoners disappeared into the cellar, and before Draco had time to
think, before he could prepare himself, his aunt was pointing her
wand at Hermione and bellowing, "Crucio!"
"But we can find out easily!" said Lucius. "Draco, fetch the goblin,
he can tell us whether the sword is real or not!"
What else could he do? How could he help Hermione and her
friends? Did he even want to help them? Even if he did, there was
no possible way of doing it. If he stormed Bellatrix and tried to
rescue Hermione, she would have no qualms against killing him,
even if he was her nephew. His father was wand-less, but his
mother may try to defend him. And what then? His family was
already in enough trouble with the Dark Lord, and such base
treachery would surely mean death for all of them. They were lucky
to still be alive as it was.
Before he knew it, he was at the door of the drawing room and had
run out of time to think of a plan. With a deep breath, he pushed
open the door and brought the goblin over to his aunt. This action
brought him mere paces away from Hermione, who was now
sprawled out on the floor at Bellatrix's feet, every muscle twitching
from the repeated assault of the Cruciatus curse on her body.
Hearing his foot steps, she slowly raised her head to gaze up at
him.
The look of pain and pleading in her brown eyes cut Draco deeper
than any Sectumsempra spell ever could have. He wanted to look
away, but her eyes had caught him in a new trap of their own. He
swayed backwards a few steps, feeling as if the ground were
rocking beneath his feet. It was as if, with that one look, his entire
world was crashing down around his head.
And suddenly he knew that she was going to die tonight, here in
this room, and he would be forced to stand by and watch...
Draco cringed, wanting to run away from the room, run away from
the house, run away from everything. But then Bellatrix screeched,
"Crucio!" one last time, and with a long, drawn out scream,
Hermione fell flat against the floor, unconscious. Draco found
himself unable to take his eyes off of her still, lifeless form as
Bellatrix turned her attentions to the goblin instead.
In the split second that it took Draco to process his aunt's words, he
decided that he could stand by no longer. Even though he knew it
would mean death for him, it seemed as if nothing else mattered but
to keep Greyback from sinking his teeth into Hermione's flesh.
Draco reached down to his pocket and wrapped his fingers around
his wand, preparing to draw it in attack...
"NOOOOOOOOOOOO!"
With a blur of red hair, Ron Weasley came flying into the drawing
room with Potter at his heels. The pair of them managed to disarm
Draco's aunt and stun his father, and Draco found himself tossing a
few half-hearted hexes in the boys' direction, just for show. And
then, suddenly, Hermione's unconscious form was in Bellatrix's
arms with a knife at her throat.
"I think we ought to tie these little heroes up again, while Greyback
takes care of Miss Mudblood. I am sure the Dark Lord will not
begrudge you the girl, Greyback, after what you have done tonight."
And then, with a series of twin cracks Hermione, Ron, Harry, and
Dobby all vanished from the room.
"Well," she said. "I suppose we could have handled that a bit
better."
Draco could not believe the sudden turn things had taken last night.
It had seemed as if Voldemort's grip on the Wizarding world had
been final and complete, but in a mere matter of hours, it had all
fallen apart. Draco had been caught up in the battle, not really
belonging to either side in the end. He had taken Crabbe and Goyle
to the Room of Requirement to wait for Potter, to attack him and
hand him over to the Dark Lord. With the school crumbling down
around them, it had seemed obvious to him that the teachers and
remaining students were on the losing side, and that Voldemort and
his Death Eaters would emerge victorious. Draco decided that
Potter was his family's only ticket to redemption when it was all
over.
But like everything else Draco had tried to do lately, the attempt to
capture Potter had ended in catastrophe. Potter had gotten away -
he had actually ended up saving Draco's life in the end, a fact that
Draco knew would haunt him until his dying day. And Crabbe had
been killed by his own curse of Fiendfyre. While Draco mourned the
death of his friend, he had been so angry at Crabbe when, in the
Room of Requirement, he had tried to Avada Kedavra Granger.
Of course, Granger always complicated things. Draco had hoped to
come upon Potter alone, but he should have known that he would
have his two Gryffindor sidekicks with him. Why did Granger always
feel the need to risk her life tailing after that suicidal maniac
anyway? It had never done anything but get her in trouble. Because
of hanging out with Potter, she had almost been killed in the Room
of Requirement, just as she had almost been killed a few weeks
before at Malfoy Manor.
"Let him go, Narcissa," Lucius said in a tired voice. His grey eyes
seemed to have a dead look in them, even worse than when he had
been fresh out of Azkaban. "Right now the idiots are too busy
celebrating to pay any mind to Draco."
"I'll be right back, Mother. I promise," Draco said, and she finally
relinquished her grip. He walked quickly out of the Great Hall,
turning left and right to see which direction Potter and his two
friends had gone. He could just see them disappearing around a
corner, and without hesitation, he followed.
Draco kept his distance from the trio, ducking behind wreckage and
stepping carefully around the bits of rubble that lay strewn across
the corridors. But they were too deep in conversation to notice him,
anyway. After several minutes, they arrived at the entrance to the
headmaster's study and disappeared inside. Draco waited outside,
not even sure why he had followed the three friends in the first
place.
Of course, he knew that he was not really following all three of them
- only one. Granger. He felt a strong, inexplicable urge to speak
with her once more. And so he waited, leaning against the wall
outside the headmaster's office for what felt like hours, but was
really only a matter of minutes.
For several moments the Golden Trio faced their long time nemesis
as he stood there alone and wand-less, staring defiantly back at
them. Potter was looking at him with a glint of anger in his eyes.
Weasley, who had turned a violent shade of puce, was trying to
speak, but in his rage he was unable to articulate more than a
series of odd, angry little grunts. Looking at him, Draco began to
think that maybe he had found Lovegood's Blibbering Humdinger
after all. But it was Granger's face he most sought, and when his
eyes finally met hers, she was gazing back at him with an
unreadable expression on her face.
Draco suddenly felt stupid standing there. He shoved his hands into
his pants pockets and stared down at the ground, scuffing the toe of
his shoe in an idle pattern on the floor. He felt as if someone really
ought to say something, but he could think of no words for this
moment. If he were a good person, he would probably take this time
to thank them for what they had done to rescue him and Goyle
earlier that day, but Draco was not a good person. He was not sure
about much these days, but that was one thing he was sure of. And
if Potter thought that that Draco was going to kiss his feet and call
him his knight in shining armor for saving his life - well, he had
another thing coming.
"Come on, Ron!" Hermione hissed to him, grabbing his large hand
in her smaller one and dragging him away from Draco. Weasley
reluctantly allowed her to pull him along, and as they made their
way down the hallway, Draco noticed that their hands remained
intertwined at their sides. For some reason, this irked him slightly.
He watched as the trio made their way along the corridor, but just
as they were about to round the corner, Hermione slowed her
steps. Ron turned to look at her in confusion, tugging at her hand,
but she pulled it out of his grasp. She said something to both boys,
and they clearly did not like what she had to say, because they
raised their voices to argue with her, though they were too far away
for Draco to hear what they said. Hermione crossed her arms over
her chest and gave an insistent little stamp of her foot that made the
corners of Draco's lips twitch with amusement. Finally, Potter gave
a frustrated wave of his hand and departed, practically shoving
Weasley to get him to come along with him.
She made her way back to him, her pace measured but
determined. Draco waited for her, hands still thrust in his pockets,
his chin raised unflinchingly at her approach. Her face still revealed
no indication of her emotions, and that made him a little nervous.
She could, in all possibility, be returning to deliver one of those
‘Unforgettable' hexes she had threatened him with last school year.
Well, Draco would stand there and accept it, whatever it was she
was planning to deal out to him. For the very first time in his life, he
thought that a hex from Hermione Granger was more than he
deserved. For all he knew, he was about to embark on a one-way
trip to Azkaban anyway. She may very well be one of the last things
he would see before the inside of a jail cell.
Before he was quite ready for it, she stood facing him, only a few
paces away. Her hand reached down into her pocket, pulled out a
wand and pointed it at him. Draco tensed, waiting for her to unleash
a hex, but nothing came. He lowered his eyes to look at the wand
and was startled to see that it was his own.
"I thought you might want this back," Granger said quietly. "Harry's
old wand is fixed now, so he doesn’t need yours anymore."
"Thanks," he muttered.
Draco stared back at her, stunned. He hadn't really thought about it,
but it was true. Harry had used his wand to cast
the Expelliarmus spell that had forced Voldemort's own wand to
turn against him.
Draco suddenly grabbed a wad of his shirt and used it to scrub his
wand, the motion causing a tiny shower of sparks to emit from the
tip.
"Potter's had his grubby hands all over my wand and I don't want
his germs getting on me. Might make me catch something - like a
nasty case of senseless heroics."
"It really kills you, doesn't it? Knowing you owe Harry your life?"
Draco ceased his actions, raising his head to pierce her with a
glare.
"I don't owe Potter anything!" he snarled, even though he knew that
wasn't true. Potter had saved his life, and that was a wizard's debt.
With a small shake of her head, she wheeled around and began
walking away from him, heading in the direction that Ron and Harry
had taken.
She paused, and then turned around to face him again. Draco
shoved his wand in his pocket, and walked over until they were a
few steps away from each other once more. She stared back at
him, her expression unfathomable.
At his words, she flinched and looked away, no doubt pained by the
memory of her capture and torture. Draco ran one hand through his
white-blond hair, wondering if he could find the strength to voice the
things he wanted to say.
He wanted to tell her that before Weasley had come storming into
the room, he had been about to save her himself. He wanted to say
that watching her be tortured was the worst experience of his life.
He wanted to let her know that every night since then, he had been
plagued by nightmares of her being Crucioed by Bellatrix or
devoured by Greyback while he stood helplessly looking on.
But somehow, he could not bring himself to say any of these things,
and so, without meeting her eyes, he instead uttered the only words
he could force out of his mouth:
Whatever she had been expecting Draco to say, it hadn't been this.
She blinked several times in surprise, but quickly managed to
regain her composure.
"You're sorry."
"Yes."
"What are you sorry for, Malfoy? For seven years of tormenting me
and my friends? For being the first person to ever call me a
Mudblood? For trying to hex me that night in the hospital wing when
I offered you my help? For standing there and doing nothing while
your aunt tortured me on your drawing room floor?"
"For all of it," he whispered, hanging his head so that her face was
obscured by a curtain of his hair. "Couldn't we - I mean can't you
just try to forgive and forget?"
"I forgive you, Malfoy," she said softly. Then she pulled her hand
away, leaving him feeling bereft. "But I don't know if I'll ever be able
to forget."
And with that, she turned around and left him standing there - alone
once more.
End Notes:
This is the last of the "missing scenes" chapters we'll have for a
while. Next, we move into my interpretation of what happened
between the last battle and that infamous "nineteen years later"...
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Chapter 4: The Seventh Year That Should Have Been by
atalanta84
The anguish of the earth absolves our eyes
Till beauty shines in all that we can see.
War is our scourge; yet war has made us wise,
And, fighting for our freedom, we are free.
Horror of wounds and anger at the foe,
And loss of things desired; all these must pass.
We are the happy legion, for we know
Time's but a golden wind that shakes the grass.
"I still don't get it, Hermione. I just don't understand why you feel like
you have to go back."
"We've been over this time and time again, Ron. I just hate not
finishing what I started. Not doing my seventh year at Hogwarts
makes me feel...incomplete, somehow. That's the only way I can
explain it."
He shook his head, giving her that look he had so often given her
throughout the years - that ‘you're crazy but I love you anyway' look.
Then he turned back to the shelves and adjusted the boxes in an
attempt to make them more aesthetically pleasing, though how one
made U-No-Poo look aesthetically pleasing was beyond Hermione.
It had been four months since his death in the Battle of Hogwarts,
and his absence was a deep void in the lives of the Weasleys and
their friends. And Hermione knew that if she still felt his absence so
strongly, Ron, being his brother, was feeling it ten times stronger.
The main reason, of course, was the fact that Mrs. Weasley and
Ron both felt George needed the extra company. Fred had quite
literally been George's other half, and the loss of his twin had
affected him more deeply than anyone else in the family. Hermione
had a feeling George would never be the same person again - not
quite the same jaunty, joking wizard she had known for so many
years. Then again, she knew none of them would ever really be the
same again.
The war had changed many things, some for the better and some
for the worse. Hermione liked to focus on the good changes - like
the fact that Kingsley Shacklebolt had been made Minister of Magic,
and was now making strides to take down the layers of close-
minded, old-fashioned bureaucracy that had plagued the Ministry
for so many years. Or how, after the burden of defeating Voldemort
was lifted from his shoulders, Harry was at last free to be with
Ginny. And of course, Hermione and Ron had also managed to find
their way to one another.
She and Ron had finally become an official couple over the
summer. It had been a strange way to begin a new relationship,
after the war was over. At first they had barely had any time alone,
being caught up in the terrible tidal wave of grief that hit everyone
once the shock and elation of Voldemort's defeat had worn off.
They had had little time to do anything more than hold hands and
cry on each other's shoulders as they attended one funeral after
another.
She knew a large part of why Ron didn't want her to go back to
Hogwarts was because of the year-long separation it would create
between them, a separation that would be hard to endure after they
had managed to come together at last.
"Hermione, you're a war hero now," Ron said, arguing once more.
"Kingsley let Harry begin Auror training even though he isn't going
back to get his NEWTs. I'm sure he would do the same for you. He
could probably get you any Ministry job you want."
"You don't think hunting down Horcruxes and helping to bring down
Voldemort was enough to earn it?" Ron asked incredulously.
"I don't mean it that way," Hermione persisted. "I'm sure you're
right, that the Ministry probably would offer me a job if I asked for it,
but I want that certificate that says I've completed my NEWTs. I
want to do things the proper way, the way we all should have done,
if the war hadn't happened."
Ron sighed, stepping down from the ladder so that he was standing
in front of her. He reached up with one of his large hands to tuck a
stray curl behind her ear.
"You can't pretend the war never took place, Hermione. You can't
go back in time - none of us can. You can't undo everything that's
happened."
"I'm not trying to undo anything, I just - ," she paused, trying to find
the words to make him understand. "I need to go back and finish
things at Hogwarts, so I can put it behind me and start a new phase
of my life. Please understand, Ron. I - I need this."
His blue eyes gazed back into hers with a mixture of affection and
concern. Hermione could tell he was trying very hard to understand
her, and his efforts warmed her heart. Finally, he gave her a
tentative smile.
"Alright, if you say you need this, then I won't bother you about it
anymore. Just as long as I don't have to go too long without seeing
you."
Hermione grinned, wrapped her hands around his neck, and rose
up on her toes to give him a peck on the lips.
"Not me! I'm done with that place for good, thanks. Besides," he
added, lowering his voice and jerking his chin in the direction of the
storefront, "You know I can't leave him."
"I know," she said, giving him a small squeeze. "And don't worry
about being able to see me while I'm at school. Professor
McGonagall already said that those of us who are returning for our
seventh year are allowed to come and go as we please - no curfew,
and we don't have to wait until sanctioned Hogsmeade weekends to
leave the school."
"Brilliant!" Ron said, giving her a genuine smile for the first time
since she had brought up the topic several minutes ago.
"Don't get too excited, though," said Hermione, her brown eyes
sparkling. "It's not as if I'll get to see you every weekend - only the
weekends that I don't have that much studying to do."
And yet, she could never look at it the same way again.
Seven years ago, she had gazed in awe at the massive edifice
through the eyes of an eleven-year-old child, anxious and excited
as she prepared to enter a new world. Now, looking through older
and wiser eyes, she saw only a battlefield, where much was gained,
yet so much more lost. And thus, it was with no small amount of
trepidation that she now gripped the cool iron gates in her hands
and prepared to enter Hogwarts once more.
The gates were unlocked, lying open in preparation for the students'
arrival, but Hermione, being of age, had been able to Apparate
there ahead of the group. She had toyed with the idea of riding the
Hogwarts Express up to school in order to spend more time with her
old classmates, but had finally decided against it. Partly, she hadn't
wanted to waste her time doing any unnecessary traveling;
however, the biggest reason was because she knew it would be
strange riding the train without Harry and Ron beside her.
Everything was going to seem strange without Harry and Ron here.
They were like a part of the school to her, as much as the stone
towers of the castle itself. For six years they had made up a sort of
trinity in her mind - Harry, Ron, and Hogwarts. And now, for the first
time, she would begin a school year with two pieces of that trinity
missing...
"Hi Dean! I'm glad to see you - now I know I won't be the only older
student."
The tall, dark-skinned boy smiled, greeting her with a quick hug. He
had spent most of last year on the run just like she, Harry, and Ron,
and thus had also missed his seventh year at Hogwarts. Hermione
thought it would be nice to have another familiar face remaining in
Gryffindor Tower.
"Good to see you, too," said Dean. "Hogwarts just wouldn't be the
same without you showing everyone up in class. Let me just stake
my claim right now for being your study partner, now that Harry and
Ron aren't here to keep you all for themselves."
"Ms. Granger, Mr. Thomas, I'm so glad to see both of you back at
Hogwarts again," came a familiar voice as they stepped into the
entrance hall.
"Now then," she said, quickly reverting back to her usual, business-
like manner. "Why don't you go put your things away in your
dormitories before the rest of the students arrive? Once you've
done so, please return to the Great Hall. There are several other
students who have arrived early - more boys and girls, like you, who
have returned because they were unable to take their NEWTs last
year."
Pushing open the heavy wooden doors to the Hall, Hermione saw a
cluster of students standing off to the side, talking. There were
perhaps a dozen of them, and she saw Justin Finch-Fletchley and
several other Muggle-borns among the group. To no surprise, all of
them were Gryffindors, Hufflepuffs, and Ravenclaws...with one
exception.
She saw the lone Slytherin, standing apart from the main group and
leaning against the wall with his hands shoved in his pockets.
Draco's eyes met hers, and he blinked in surprise before
acknowledging her with a tiny nod.
"The other students have just arrived," she announced. "You may
all take your seats and wait for them to join you."
"Luna!" she called out, recognizing a head of blond curls among the
crowd. Her friend skipped over, gracing Hermione with one of her
airy smiles.
"So you'll still be able to start your seventh year, even though you
missed half of it?"
"Oh yes," Luna replied. "I spent the summer studying very hard and
Professor McGonagall decided I was ready."
Then she looked up as, with a flurry of bright red hair and freckles,
the last Weasley at Hogwarts came to sit next to her. Hermione
smiled at Ginny, but before they could talk, their attention was
drawn to the line of little First Years being led into the Hall.
After the Sorting, food appeared on their plates and they tucked in
to their dinner, finally able to converse.
"It'll be so strange being in the same year as you now," Ginny was
saying to her as she ladled some gravy over her potatoes. "But I
have to say I'm glad. Now we can be study partners."
"Honestly, you two. I can study with both of you, you know. Of
course this doesn't mean that I'll be letting either of you copy my
homework."
"Boys and girls, now that we've all had a chance to eat, if I could
please have your attention for a few announcements," Professor
McGonagall began.
"First of all, I would like to welcome all of you back to a new year at
Hogwarts. You may recognize amongst you the faces of several
students who were not able to attend last year, and have thus
returned to complete their NEWTs. The fact that these young ladies
and gentlemen are all of age and would already have been living
independent lives in the Wizarding World - had circumstances been
different - means that we have made some adjustments to the
rules. These students - and only these students - do not have a
curfew and are allowed to leave the school grounds in the evenings
and on weekends - as long as they notify their head of house so
that we are aware of their comings and goings.
"I expect these students to behave like the mature young adults
they are and not take advantage of this special situation to get into
any shenanigans," Professor McGonagall added, sweeping the
room with her stern, beady-eyed gaze.
The applause for Fleur was louder and more enthusiastic than it
had been for Professor Hong, especially since it included several
catcalls and whistles from the male students. Hermione rolled her
eyes, but clapped along with everyone else. She leaned over to
whisper in Ginny's ear.
"Did you know?"
Ginny's face fell in despair at the prospect, and at that moment, she
looked so much like Ron that Hermione almost laughed out loud.
Her attention was drawn back to Professor McGonagall as the
applause died down and the headmistress began to speak once
more.
"As you may know, there have been several sizable donations
made to the school following the end of the war - many of which
were willing donations and others which were, ah...less than
willing."
"Much of these funds have gone towards the repair of the school,"
McGonagall continued. "However, we find that we have a significant
amount of money remaining. Therefore, we have created a
scholarship which will be awarded to two students - one male and
one female - at the end of this school year. The winning students
will each be given five thousand galleons."
"Now, for the rules," she stated. "First of all, this scholarship will
only be available to our seventh year students, including those who
have returned to complete the seventh year they missed."
"It would be a lie to say that this school year will be like any other
year at Hogwarts. We have all been changed by what occurred
here, on these very grounds, only four months ago. Many of us
have lost someone we loved in the war - a parent, a sibling, a
friend."
The room became somber and silent. Out of the corner of her eye,
Hermione saw a single tear slide down Ginny's cheek, no doubt in
memory of Fred. It had been here in this room that they had laid out
his body - as well as the bodies of Tonks, Lupin, and so many
others who had died in the battle. Hermione took a deep breath to
hold her own tears at bay.
"But it is now time to leave the past behind us and move beyond
our grief," Professor McGonagall continued. "We must start over
again, but this time with a new wisdom we did not possess before.
Although we will continue to compete on the Quidditch pitch, we
must leave our prejudices and pointless rivalries behind us.
Although we will continue to be separated into four houses, we
must always remember that we are one group of individuals who
are united by the same goal - to learn and grow to become better
witches and wizards than we were before. So, although we leave
the past behind us, we must never forget that this unity is what our
loved ones fought for, and died to protect."
She paused to let her words sink in. The Great Hall was now so
quiet that Hermione could have heard a pin drop. Finally, Professor
McGonagall took a deep breath and smiled at the multitude of
students before her.
"That concludes the announcements for this evening," she said, her
voice brighter than it had been a few moments before. "Everyone
be sure to get a good night's sleep for our first day of classes
tomorrow."
Except she should have been experiencing it with Harry and Ron,
not by herself.
Hermione knew Ron and Harry each had their own reasons for not
returning. Ron, of course, had his responsibilities at the store, but
he would soon join Harry in Auror training. Harry had wanted to put
the past behind him, to close the door on that chapter of his life and
move on. Did Harry have the right idea after all? Would it have been
better if Hermione had just moved on?
"I was just asking if you were going to enter the competition," said
Ginny.
"You guess?"
"Dean, it's not as if you could just take the money and use it for a
pleasure cruise around the world," said Ginny, rolling her eyes. "It
has to be used for research, remember?"
"That's not true!" Hermione cut in, but Ginny just waved her off.
"It's okay, Hermione. I think you deserve it more than anyone else.
No doubt you'll put the money to great use and make some
amazing discovery that will change the Wizarding World forever."
"I don't know which boy will win, but I think you have a good shot,
Dean. Your grades are usually better than Justin Finch-Fletchley's,
and we all know Malfoy sure as hell isn't going to win. Somehow I
don't think being the son of a Death Eater will give him bonus points
on his application."
"Dunno," said Ginny with a shrug. "But I know this year would have
been better without him here. It's a shame he had to come back,
isn't it?"
It was getting late, and the library was slowly becoming quieter as
students left to return to their dormitories. Thankfully, Hermione no
longer had to worry about getting detention for staying out past
curfew; which was a good thing considering that lately, she was
spending more late nights at the library.
She tried to drag her bleary eyes back to the Arithmancy problem in
front of her, but the numbers seemed to blur into nonsense the
longer she stared at it. These first two weeks of school, she had
found herself more frustrated by her studies than she could ever
remember being. It had been more difficult than she expected to
readjust to life at Hogwarts.
It didn't help that Ron and Harry weren't there. At first, she had
thought that she would get more studying done without them
around to distract her, but it ended up being just the opposite. Their
presence - whinging and wheedling included - had set the rhythm
for her life here at Hogwarts, much like a metronome did for a
pianist. Without them, she found herself scattered and unfocused.
At least in all of her other classes, she had Ginny and Dean to study
with, but neither of them was taking NEWT-level Arithmancy. So
she was left alone to try and puzzle out this latest homework
assignment. She glared down at the page of numbers, reading the
problem through once more. She felt as if she was so close to
having the right answer....but no, she had done it all wrong, and
would have to start over again. With another groan, she crumpled
the piece of parchment into a ball and flung it over her shoulder.
He unrolled the paper and tilted it towards the candlelight to read it.
His smirk faded into a frown as he scanned the page.
"Um, yes, I'm having trouble with it, too," she said, once she
regained the ability to speak. "I think we're supposed to apply the
Muggle Pythagorean theorem somehow, but I'm having a hard time
incorporating it with Hippleding's Law."
Draco nodded.
"That's what I was thinking too, but I encountered the same issues
you have."
Hermione chewed at her lower lip for a few seconds. She had
almost forgotten Malfoy was in Arithmancy; they usually sat on
opposite sides of the room and avoided looking in each other's
direction during class. Arithmancy was a complex subject, and
homework problems were easier to solve in groups than on one's
own. She hesitated, debating whether or not she had the nerve to
ask him...
"Do you want to work on it together with me?" she asked, spitting
the question out so quickly, she was afraid he might not have
understood it. When he cocked his head to one side and looked at
her through narrowed eyes, she was certain she had garbled the
words into something unintelligible. But just as she was opening her
mouth to repeat the question, Draco shrugged and plopped down in
the seat across from her.
"Ok," he said.
"Ok?"
"Ok."
He reached down into his bag and pulled out his own Arithmancy
book, parchment, and quill, arranging them on the table in front of
him. Hermione watched his actions with wide-eyed wonder, hardly
daring to believe Draco Malfoy had just agreed to work alongside
Hermione Granger, Mudblood and friend of his number-one
enemy.
"Why did you come back to Hogwarts?" she asked him, never one
for beating around the bush.
Malfoy scowled at her, making Hermione think that he wasn't going
to answer her question. To her surprise, he did.
"I missed my NEWTs last year. As you may recall, I had other
business to attend to at the time."
"But why did you have to come back for a whole year?" she asked.
"Couldn't you have just taken the make-up exam they offered during
the summer?"
"Why?"
Draco's jaw clenched. Hermione knew she was pressing her luck
asking him so many personal questions, but her curiosity was
getting the better of her.
"Well, I fell behind during my sixth year, what with plotting to kill the
Headmaster and all," he answered testily. Hermione nodded,
recalling that Professor McGonagall had given him at least one
detention that year for not turning in his Transfiguration homework.
"And last year, I was a bit too distracted by matters at home to pay
much attention at school," he finished.
"No."
"Good."
They set to work then, with Hermione agreeing to work the problem
from one angle, and Malfoy from another, in the hopes that by
meeting halfway, they could solve it. Hermione worked diligently for
several minutes, and then glanced up to watch Malfoy work.
It was her first opportunity to study him up close since returning to
Hogwarts. He had definitely regained the weight he lost during the
war, and probably put on even more in the way of muscle. Even
with his body hidden beneath his school robes, Hermione could tell
that his shoulders were broader than she remembered. His face no
longer had the pointy, ferrety appearance it once had; it was still
somewhat angular, but had filled in considerably, making it look as
if were carved from smooth porcelain. His platinum hair was longer,
so that the tips of it just grazed his shoulders, and the look suited
him well. The skin around his jaw and mouth was firmer than
before, and it matured his appearance so that he looked less like
the boy she once knew, and more like the mystifying young man he
had become.
"I'd hex you for staring so intently at me," said Malfoy, his lips
curling into a smirk. "But I'm sure you rarely get the opportunity to
gaze upon such a handsome face, so I'll let you get away with it this
time. Lord knows it has to be more satisfying to stare at me than at
the Weasel King."
"Stop calling him that!" she snapped. "Honestly, Malfoy, when are
you going to grow up? Oh, and I hate to break this to you, but I think
Ron is ten times better looking than you are!"
Even as she said it, she realized she was lying. She imagined if she
stood the two side by side, she would probably find them about
equally handsome. Ron had that wholesome, boy-next-door appeal,
while Malfoy's allure was the exact opposite: suave, mysterious,
and potentially dangerous…And by dangerous, Hermione meant it
in the best sense of the word. She seriously needed to find a way to
inoculate herself against his bad boy charm.
"So, I gather that you and Weasley are finally an item?" Malfoy
asked, his silver gaze piercing her once more.
"Yes," Hermione said somewhat haughtily, and she noticed that his
smirk faded a little.
"Not that you care to know, but Harry, Ron, and I have never liked
being in the public eye, and we certainly don't like our ‘juicy tidbits'
being published for the whole world to see."
Malfoy leaned back in his chair, folding his arms across his chest.
Hermione engrossed herself in her Arithmancy text in an attempt to
avoid noticing how much more attractive he looked when he struck
that pose.
"Whatever you say, Granger. But look, if we're going to work on this
assignment together, there's one thing we need to set straight, and
that is that there will be no further discussion of Potter or Weasley."
"Fine!" Hermione said with a huff. "I agree not to talk about Ron or
Harry."
She was about to reach out her hand to seal their agreement, but
she hesitated, remembering that the last time they had made a deal
with each other, he had refused to accept her handshake.
Suddenly, and to her immense surprise, Malfoy extended his hand
across the table to her. And with eyes full of wonder, Hermione
accepted it.
For the next few weeks, Hermione and Draco continued to ‘run into
each other' in the library. At first they pretended these meetings
were just a coincidence, but over time, they finally dropped the act
and began setting up times to meet and study.
"Is this seat taken?" she asked, indicating the chair next to him. As
usual, it was occupied by his school bag.
A minute later, Professor Vector strode into the room. When she
saw Hermione and Draco sitting next to each other she froze,
staring at them as if they had suddenly taken on the appearance of
two Cornish pixies sporting tutus and tiaras. She blinked several
times in rapid succession, shook her head, and looked at them
again. Finally, accepting the fact that she had not imagined what
she saw, she shrugged and went to the head of the classroom to
begin lecturing.
The next time Hermione had Arithmancy, she noticed that the seat
next to Draco no longer contained his school bag. So that day, and
on every day thereafter, she went to sit beside him.
Hermione, Ginny, Dean, and Luna were all sitting around a table in
the library, practicing the glamour spells that Fleur had taught them
in Transfiguration. Fleur made a surprisingly good teacher, and had
instructed them in various practical and complex enchantments. But
Ginny, Dean and Luna were struggling with the new spells, and
Fleur had hinted that in tomorrow's class, she would be testing their
ability to use them.
"I still can't get the hang of it!" said Ginny, her cheeks pink with
frustration. "Maybe Fleur will give us another day to learn the
spells?"
"I doubt it," grumbled Dean. His nose was a bit crooked and his lips
mildly distorted from having been practiced on. "Haven't you noticed
how cranky she's been lately?"
"Look you three, if I tell you something, will you promise to keep it a
secret?" she asked.
When they all nodded, she said, "Fleur's pregnant. That's why she
was late to the Welcome Ceremony last month. She was at the
Healer's. She's due at the beginning of May, but she wanted to wait
a little longer before announcing it to her students."
"What?"
"Oh wow!"
This last statement came from Luna, and the other three turned to
stare at her for a moment before Hermione spoke up once more.
"Ginny, that's great! You're going to be an aunt!" she exclaimed.
"Well that explains how irritable she's been," said Luna. "Didn't you
say that she's part Veela?"
"'Poor Bill?'" Dean yelped. "Poor us, you mean. We're the ones who
have to live with having her as our teacher for the next six months.
If you think she's grumpy now, just wait till her ankles are the size of
Bludgers! She'll still be pregnant at the time of our mid-term exams
in December, you know."
"Would you like to join us?" asked Luna, to the surprise of everyone
present.
"Oh, right, that was me," said Hermione. "I was using her to
demonstrate."
"I don't think we've ever been properly introduced," said Luna,
extending her right hand to him. "I'm Luna Lovegood."
"What? Oh, yeah," he said. "I have a hard time paying attention in
that class. It's hard to focus on Professor Weasley's lectures when
I'm so distracted by the size of her cauldrons. I swear they're getting
bigger every day...."
"Malfoy, that's my sister-in-law you're talking about!" Ginny shouted,
her voice a mixture of anger and disgust. Her brown eyes flashed
dangerously, reminding Hermione of how Molly Weasley's had
looked the moment before she killed Bellatrix Lestrange.
"Malfoy, if you can't think of anything nice to say, then talk about the
weather, or Quidditch or something."
"So, who practiced on you, Thomas? You look like you were hit in
the face with a Bludg..." He paused when Hermione threatened to
elbow him again. "I mean, you look, uh...different."
"I did it," Ginny admitted sheepishly. "I'm sorry, Dean, I told you I
couldn't get the hang of it."
"I said I was sorry!" Ginny groaned, waving her wand in front of
Dean's face. "Finite Incantatem!"
Dean ran his fingers over his face and sighed with relief when he
saw that it had resumed its normal appearance. He shot Ginny a
glare.
"Let you alter this beautiful face?" Draco sneered. "No way,
Weaselette. I don't want you turning me into a troll the way you did
Thomas."
Over the next couple weeks, Draco joined Hermione and her friends
whenever they studied, and over time, the others reluctantly
accepted him as a part of their group. By the end of October, they
were able to go through an entire study session without either
Draco or Ginny threatening to hex the other into oblivion. Hermione
considered that a sign of progress.
The days grew colder and shorter, and the Forbidden Forest
became a patchwork quilt of red, orange and gold leaves. Quidditch
season was in full swing, and on the last weekend of October, Harry
and Ron returned to help Hermione cheer on the Gryffindors as
they faced off against Ravenclaw. Hermione sat in the stands, the
boys on either side of her, as they waited for Ginny and the rest of
the team to walk out onto the pitch.
"Yes, but Gryffindor is favored to win today," said Harry. "I'm eager
to see how the new Seeker plays. What's his name again?"
"She is," Harry said, an affectionate smile gracing his lips. "She's
thinking about trying to go professional, did you know?"
"Yeah," Ron said, nodding. "But it's bloody hard to get onto a team.
You have to have the right connections just to get a tryout."
Ron scowled, and Hermione felt his arm tighten around her
shoulder, pulling her closer to his side. She didn't know whether the
gesture was meant to be protective, possessive, or a little of both.
Draco simply sneered in their direction and turned away, sitting
down next to a couple of his Slytherin teammates. Ron slumped
back in his seat, clearly vexed.
Harry looked less agitated than his friend, but he too, seemed to
have noticed the silent exchange that occurred between Hermione
and Draco. He turned to her with an inquisitorial look in his eyes.
"And if I have?"
"I told you, mate; she's gone off her bloody rocker," the redhead
said.
"I don't need you two to dictate who I am and am not allowed to
associate with. Ron, you and I have had this conversation already.
I'm not going to have it again."
Hermione had told Ron several weeks before about her study dates
with Malfoy. She had always felt that a relationship should be built
on trust and respect, and so she had not felt comfortable with the
idea of keeping her new acquaintance with Malfoy a secret from
him. Needless to say, he had not taken it well, and took every
opportunity to point out the many reasons why her interactions with
Draco were a bad idea.
"I don't trust him," Ron persisted. "Hermione, we're talking about
Draco Malfoy, the boy who stood by and watched his aunt torture
you in his drawing room."
"He apologized for that," she said quietly. "I already told you both -
he apologized that morning after the battle."
"Well he may have apologized, but he's still the same nasty git he
always was," Ron argued.
"Maybe," Harry cut in. "But maybe not. He was lucky the
Wizengamot gave him such a light sentence. He's not going to push
his luck walking around scorning Muggle-borns like he used to. He
might act different, but he’s still the same old Malfoy on the inside.
It's one thing for someone to transform their outward appearance,
Hermione, but it's a lot harder to change what's underneath."
"I know," she said, "but can't you two just trust my judgment on
this?"
Ron merely crossed his arms over his chest, saying nothing in
response. He stared out at the Quidditch pitch, where Ginny was
now walking over to shake hands with the Ravenclaw captain. The
game was about to begin.
Harry gave Hermione a small smile, but his green eyes remained
full of concern.
"Of course I trust you. I just hope you know what you're doing."
Hermione glanced over at the blond-haired Slytherin and sighed.
Draco slammed his Arithmancy textbook shut and ran his fingers
through his hair so that the blond strands stood on end. Hermione
thought that for a moment, it made his hair look like a lighter version
of Harry's tousled locks. She was glad Draco wasn't a skilled
Legilimens, because if he realized she was mentally comparing him
to his arch nemesis, she didn't think she could get to her wand fast
enough to defend herself.
It was the day following the Gryffindor vs. Ravenclaw match (which
Gryffindor had won easily), and Hermione and Malfoy were in the
library, trying to complete a particularly difficult Arithmancy
assignment that was due later in the week. Now, she watched as
Malfoy began putting his things back into his school bag.
With that he rose to his feet, slammed her Arithmancy text book
shut, and shoved it into her bag.
"Ah, Mr. Malfoy, Miss Granger. How lovely to see you both! Not
studying too hard, I hope?" asked Professor Slughorn, as he eyed
their heavy school bags.
"Yes, we were," Draco replied. "Actually, I'm glad we ran into you,
Professor.”
"We were just going to head over to The Three Broomsticks, and I
know Professor McGonagall likes for us to check in with someone
before we leave the school...."
"Ah, yes. Not a problem, Mr. Malfoy," Slughorn said. "You two run
along and enjoy yourselves. Got to make sure you're well-rested
this week, Malfoy, with the big match coming up this weekend. I
dare say the Gryffindors will have their work cut out for them trying
to beat Slytherin this year, Miss Granger."
"Yes, yes," Slughorn said, waving them off. "Say hello to Madam
Rosmerta for me."
"Go drop off your things and meet me in the Entrance Hall in ten
minutes," he said, and before Hermione could say anything, he had
turned around and disappeared in the direction of the dungeons.
"With who?"
"With Malfoy."
"Why are you going to The Three Broomsticks with Malfoy? Are you
sure that's a good idea?"
"It's okay, Ginny. I'll be fine. I'm a war hero, remember? I think I can
handle a little twit like Malfoy."
"I'm sure," Hermione said firmly, heading for the door. "I'll see you
later."
And with that, she fled the dormitory before Ginny could issue any
more protests. She hurried downstairs to the Entrance Hall and
found Draco there waiting for her. He was leaning against the wall,
arms folded across his chest, his light blond hair spilling over into
his eyes. Hermione experienced an involuntary shiver at the sight of
him. If he only knew how irresistible he looked when he stood there
like that... Then she realized that he probably did know, and had
struck that pose intentionally, realizing the effect it would have on
any girls passing by. He was a Slytherin, after all.
"Nice to see you, too, Malfoy. And if you must know, I was held up
by Ginny."
"Ah," he said, and his lips curled into a sneer. "Is she going to send
the hounds out after us?"
Hermione shook her head. "No, I think Ron and Harry have other
plans this afternoon."
Malfoy chuckled at this, and the two headed outside. They walked
in awkward silence for a few minutes as they made their way to
Hogsmeade. Hermione couldn't think of anything to say. She had
never had to worry about conversing with Malfoy; during all of their
interactions during the school year, they had always avoided
discussing anything beyond their homework, and occasionally the
weather. She wracked her brain for any topic that would be safe to
discuss with him, and finally settled on Quidditch.
"So, you must be getting excited for the match this weekend," she
said. She seemed to have interrupted his thoughts, because he
shook his head to clear it before turning to look at her.
"Yes," he said confidently. "That little Harrison bloke is good, but I'm
a far better Seeker than he is."
"Not very modest, are you?"
"Hey, I just call them as I see them, Granger," Draco said with a
shrug. "Actually my biggest concern is going to be Weasley. She's a
good Chaser, and she might rack up the points faster than I can get
to the Snitch, if how she played yesterday is any indication."
"She has gotten quite good. She says she'd like to play
professionally if she can find a team that would take her."
"Well, she'd love to go out for the Holyhead Harpies. They're her
favorite. She's having a hard time getting in for a tryout though."
"They better not do anything to hurt her," Draco muttered. "That is,
not if they want to play this weekend. At the beginning of the
season, I told my team that if anyone was caught physically
threatening an opposing player, they'd be suspended from the next
match."
Hermione glanced at him in surprise. Now that she thought of it, the
Slytherin Quidditch team had been rather subdued this year. They
still taunted their opposition, of course, but they no longer resorted
to violence.
"That was awfully big of you," she admitted.
"It's been known to happen," said Malfoy, his lips twitching at her
backhanded compliment. "I just decided that if we're going to beat
Gryffindor this year, we're going to do it the right way."
"Why don't you find us a seat?" he said. "I'll go get the Butterbeers."
She nodded and made her way over to an empty table, while he
went over to the bar for their drinks. In a few minutes, he returned
with two Butterbeers in hand, one of which he placed in front of her.
She thanked him and he nodded, sliding into the seat across from
her. Awkwardness seemed to settle over them once more, and they
sat quietly sipping their drinks for a few moments. This time, it was
Draco who broke the silence.
"Try me."
"Okay," said Malfoy, “so what does this ‘DNA' have to do with your
project?"
"And if you find the gene that makes us different from Muggles, how
would this benefit the Wizarding world?" Malfoy asked, with genuine
curiosity.
"For one thing, it would prove that we're not that different from
Muggles after all - that it's just one teeny tiny gene that separates
us from them. Secondly, I think it will prove we're actually
descended from them, and that wizards evolved from Muggles."
"I'm afraid it's not only possible, but probable, considering that they
outnumber us by at least fifty to one. I know the idea must disgust
you, just the way some people are still disgusted by the fact that
we're all closely related to apes."
Hermione shook her head, his horrified expression making her grin
from ear to ear.
"Nope," she said, “no joke. Muggles came up with the theory
decades ago."
"Well, then Muggles are even crazier than I thought," he said sourly.
"I can trace my family tree back for at least ten generations, and I
can guarantee they're all wizards - a few crazy ones, perhaps, but
not a single ape among them. So I most certainly am not related to
apes... though of course, you might be."
"Would you be that upset, finding out we aren't that different from
Muggles after all?" she asked.
He frowned, and she was afraid her question had made him angry,
but when he spoke, his voice was merely thoughtful.
"I don't think it would upset me as much as it would've before," he
said.
"'Before'?"
Hermione forced herself not to push him to say more, realizing that
he was more likely to open up about his experiences if she just let
him do so at his own pace. She was right, because slowly,
hesitantly, he began to tell her more.
Draco paused, giving his Butterbeer a little swirl. His eyes seemed
distant, lost in memory.
"One day, Jonas told me that he was healed and they were going to
be sending him home the following day. I - I asked him if I might see
him again sometime, after he was released from the hospital. He
just stared at me in shock, and said, ‘Of course I can't, boy.
Tomorrow I won't remember anything about you!' Wellthat really
threw me for a loop and I asked him why not. He told me, ‘Don't you
realize? They're going to Obliviate my memory tomorrow, so I won't
remember anything about my stay here at St. Mungo's.'"
"So that whole time, you were enjoying talking to a Muggle, and you
didn't even realize it." Hermione summarized.
"So then you don't mind Muggles that much anymore?" she asked.
"No, although I'm not proclaiming myself in love with them, like that
mad hatter, Arthur Weasley. But I guess I don't despise them as
much as I used to. Working at St. Mungo's changed my perspective
in a lot of ways. I spent most of my time in the Spell Damage Ward,
and I got to see the nasty things that wizards could do to each other
- the dark side of what our magic is capable of. It's actually what
inspired my research proposal."
"No, it's not that. It's just... why do you have to enter a scholarship
competition to get five thousand galleons? Couldn't you just ask
your father for the money?"
"So what would your research project be?" Hermione asked him.
"I would go around the world and study other Wizarding hospitals,
and maybe even a few Muggle ones, looking for new techniques on
how to cure the side-effects of various curses."
"I don't know," she said. "I guess we'll have to wait and see." He
lifted his head, giving her a questioning look.
"Yes... It's just, I'm not sure about the whole traveling abroad thing.
I... I don't think Ron would be very happy about us being separated
for a whole year."
"Getting a bit serious between you two, isn't it?" he asked in a low
voice.
"Malfoy!" She squeaked in protest, but she knew that her flaming
cheeks gave away the truth. She and Ron had indeed
consummated their feelings for each other a few weeks before.
Hermione had been uncertain at first, but Ron had been such a
sweet and tender lover that in the end, she had no regrets.
"I see," Malfoy said, tearing his eyes away from her. "Well good for
you."
She sat watching him for several long seconds as he took a swig of
his butter beer.
"Polyjuice Potion?"
"Yes, that’s right," she said. "There's no way you're the real Draco
Malfoy. Here you invite me out for a drink, tell me you don't hate
Muggles anymore, and now that I've practically gift wrapped you an
opportunity to taunt me about Ron, you don't take it. So you are
obviously not the real Draco Malfoy, but someone pretending to be
him.”
"Is that one of your secret fantasies, Granger?" Malfoy asked with a
trace of his familiar smirk. "Do you wish you could get Weasley to
Polyjuice himself into looking like me the next time you two hit the
sheets? Well, for the right price, I might let you borrow a few
strands of my hair for the potion. I'm sure it'll get you off faster than
doing the deed with Weasel King in his natural state."
"Never mind," Hermione mumbled, “you are the real Draco Malfoy."
"Of course not," he said. "No matter what happens, Granger, I'm
always going to be a Slytherin."
Draco lowered his head so that his fringe hid his face from view.
"Do you mean to say we're…Malfoy, are you saying you want to be
friends? With me?"
Hermione couldn't help but admire the way Draco flew. He wasn't
as good of a Seeker as Harry had been, of course, but his flying
was so smooth and precise. It reminded her of the elegant scrawl of
his handwriting, which she had become so familiar with during their
homework sessions. She watched with bated breath as he
effortlessly spiraled out of the way of an oncoming Bludger.
Malfoy had just finished taking a victory lap around the pitch, and
now he was swooping over to land on the ground a few paces from
where the three Gryffindors stood. He strode purposefully over
while Ginny set her chin, staring him down with her fiercest glare.
Her glare morphed into shock when Malfoy extended his right hand
and said, "Good game, Weasley."
"Oh, um... you too, Malfoy," Ginny replied, taking his hand.
Malfoy glanced at Hermione out of the corner of his eye, and then
shifted his gaze back to the petite redhead.
"Yes, I'm interested in playing for them," Ginny said, turning back to
give Malfoy a challenging look. "What of it?"
"Alright then," she said, turning to head back to the school. She
paused and looked back at Draco, giving him a small smile. "Oh
and Malfoy? Thanks."
"What way?"
"Oh, thanks."
"You don't sound that excited about it.” She glanced up at him.
"Why not?"
"Well, I guess... I guess it just wasn't the same, not playing against
Potter. Much as I hate the kid, he challenged me as a Seeker. I
think in some sick, twisted way I actually missed having him here
today." When he saw the little smirk on Hermione's face, he shot
her a threatening glare. "And so help me, Granger, if you tell him I
said that, I'll hex you into next Tuesday."
"Not a word," she promised, and they walked in silence for a few
moments.
"It's kind of sad, isn't it?" Draco said, after awhile. "Me missing
Potter?"
"No, it isn't. It's the worst idea you've ever had, and that's saying
something."
"You wish!" he said, shoving past her and into the lobby of the
Muggle cinema.
He followed her like a lost little puppy dog as she purchased the
tickets, bought a bucket of popcorn, and led the way into the
theater. She found two good seats and they sat down, Malfoy
eyeing the blank movie screen with trepidation.
"Here, try some popcorn," Hermione said, holding the tub out to
him. He picked up a few pieces of the snack and placed them
delicately in his mouth.
Suddenly, the lights dimmed, the audience fell silent, and the movie
began. Watching him out of the corner of her eye, Hermione saw
Malfoy's eyes widen as the screen came to life. His face was full of
childlike wonder, and for some reason, it tugged at her heart. As the
movie went on, he chuckled at some of the funny parts, and
smirked at the romantic parts, but he remained entranced, never
once tearing his eyes away.
"That was a stupid film," Malfoy said as they walked out of the
theater.
"I love that movie!" Hermione argued. "'Pride and Prejudice' is one
of my favorites."
"I didn't like it. It was too sappy. I don't even get what it was
supposed to be about."
"Like I said - sappy. Look, the next time you want to go see this
‘Proudly Prejudiced', or whatever it's called, take someone else," he
muttered.
Hermione groaned.
"Yeah right!" Malfoy said with a snort. "You'd sooner see me kissing
the giant squid. Come on, let's head back to Hogwarts."
"Oh yes."
"Look, I know I said I didn't mind Muggles that much anymore, but
that doesn't mean I want to go wading knee-deep in them."
Yet, despite his protests, Malfoy followed Hermione into the little
pub, and when she sat down at a booth, he slid into the seat across
from her, glowering. After a few moments, a middle-aged waitress
with bright pink lipstick and heavy eye make-up approached their
table. Draco gazed up at her as if he'd never seen anything quite
like her before.
"So what'll it be, dears?" the Muggle waitress asked, pulling a pencil
out from behind her ear and propping a small notepad in her hand.
"I'll just have a pumpkin juice," Malfoy said. The waitress stared at
him as if he was crazy, and Hermione had to put her hand over her
mouth to suppress a snicker.
Finally, she got a hold of herself and said, "We'll just have two
Cokes, thanks."
"Sure thing, love," the waitress said, jotting the order down on her
pad. She jerked her head in Malfoy's direction, saying, "Strange
taste your boyfriend has."
He gave her the tiniest of grins, and Hermione couldn't help but
smile back at him.
One night, Hermione sat in the library, surveying the scene before
her with no small amount of amazement: Ginny was huddled over
her Transfiguration text book with a Slytherin girl she had
befriended over the past few weeks; Dean and Justin Finch-
Fletchley were practicing spells from Charms class; and wonder of
wonders, Malfoy and Luna were sitting across the table from one
another, working together on their latest Potions assignment.
She sat tiredly at breakfast, pouring some eggs and kippers onto
her plate, when suddenly she noticed Malfoy entering the Great
Hall. The moment he noticed her, he strode purposefully in her
direction. This was no surprise, as he would often drop by and say
hello to her, Dean, and Ginny on his way to the Slytherin table.
What shocked the hell out of Hermione, however, was what he said
this morning when he reached her side.
In unison, every student in the Great Hall fell silent and turned to
stare at him - even the teachers. Dean sat there stupidly with a
piece of toast hanging out of his mouth, and Ginny managed to spill
half her orange juice in her lap. Hermione mutely shook her head,
and Malfoy slid into the empty seat beside her.
Malfoy was the one who finally broke the heavy silence, saying,
"Granger, could you please pass the orange juice?"
Yes, hell had indeed frozen over at Hogwarts, and the devil was
giving out free sleigh rides.
End Notes:
I actually work in genetics, so I couldn't resist putting a smidgen of it
in my story. I hope you all can forgive the momentary nerdiness. :D
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Chapter 7: Roses and Patronuses by atalanta84
And now we stumble in the dark and walk
a sorely riven path that's strewn with rubble
of our tumbled past, strive to find our perfect light,
aghast the gloom compounds our plight and treats
us to affray; could we ever find our flawless day
within this darkened room, or ever find the kindly light
we seek whilst stepping in each other's way?...
Draco leaned back in the green velvet chair, his feet propped up on
a table and the tip of his quill between his teeth. The parchment lay
in front of him, blank except for one line of words across the top:
If someone would have told him that he would be friends with the
Muggle-born, Hermione Granger (he couldn't bring himself to think
of her as a Mudblood anymore), he would have laughed in their
face and said, "When hell freezes over." As it were, he was a
poorer judge of the climate in hell than he had first thought...
because Hermione Granger was his friend - and a good friend, at
that.
For him, it had started out as a mere curiosity about the girl - a sort
of fascination. In retrospect, he realized that she had fascinated him
almost as long as he had known her, even during the years when
they were sworn enemies. But ever since that morning of the battle,
after she forgave him for the incident at Malfoy Manor, he found his
thoughts lingering on her more often than they should have.
At night, however, his thoughts of her had become more than just
friendly. He still had the old nightmares of her being tortured and
him standing helplessly by, watching. But these nightmares had
recently occurred in conjunction with dreams of an entirely different
variety. Although the events leading up to it differed each night,
most of these dreams concluded with him and Hermione naked in a
broom closet, going at it like a pair of wild Nifflers.
At first these dreams had not disturbed him. After all, he was a
healthy eighteen-year-old male, and had, at one time or another,
fantasized about every girl in his acquaintance (except for that
Millicent Bulstrode cow, he acknowledged with a shudder). But
slowly, inexplicably, the fantasies about Hermione had carried over
into his waking moments, as well. When he was studying with her,
and that crazy hair of hers would come undone around her
shoulders, like a halo of chestnut curls, part of him longed for
nothing more than to bury his hands in them, to find out if they felt
as soft and silky as they looked. Other times, when she lost her
temper with him and started calling him a slew of names (‘arrogant
git' and ‘nasty little Slytherin' being her favorites), he found himself
focusing on the movement of her lips, wondering what it would feel
like to kiss them, wondering what other names he could get her to
cry out in ecstasy....
Draco shook his head and buried his face in his hands. Why did he
torture himself with these thoughts? It was one thing to have
Hermione haunting his dreams, which he had no control over, but
he should at least be able to control his mind's wanderings when he
was awake...shouldn't he?
It was only lust that made him feel this way, he knew. But even that
realization disturbed him. In the past, whenever he had acted on
feelings of lust, it had been casual and fleeting - like the little flings
he’d had with Pansy during their last few years at school. Draco
had, in short, used those girls to gain his own pleasure, and then
dropped them once he was finished with them. He liked to think that
his friendship with Hermione was something more...pure than those
so-called relationships had been. He wanted to elevate any
thoughts of her above that level of base, carnal desire. She
deserved more than that...deserved more than him.
For Draco, who had always thought himself entitled to the best of
everything, feeling that he did not deserve something was a
completely new experience for him. Not that it mattered, anyway.
Nothing but friendship could ever develop between the two of them.
First of all, although in his mind it didn't carry the same negative
connotation it once had, Hermione was still a Muggle-born witch. If
he were ever to be more than friends with a Muggle-born, his
mother would have a heart attack, and his father...well he preferred
not to think about what his father would do if he found out about it.
He had a feeling that even telling his parents about their friendship
would be an unpleasant experience - and one he would like to
avoid, if at all possible.
He shook his head once more, and picked his quill back up, twirling
it between his pale fingertips. Then he stared down at the
parchment in front of him.
How has the war changed my life and my perspective of our world?
Let's see, he thought sarcastically. My life is changed because my
family is one million galleons poorer, and my father has a charmed
ankle bracelet that won't let him out of our house for the next six
months. Oh - and my perspective of our world? Well, I find it a much
better sight than the inside of a jail cell, which is where I should be
right now, if it weren't for that bloody Potter coming to my rescue
(again)...
The fact was that he didn't know how to respond to the essay
question because he was still trying to figure out the answer to that
all-important question: how had he changed? Or more
importantly, had he changed? As he watched the ball of parchment
blacken and burn, he asked himself: Was he the same Draco
Malfoy he had always been? He knew most people probably
thought so - but it was only one person's opinion that truly mattered
to him now. Did she think he had changed? He liked to think she
did. After all, she probably wouldn't be friends with him otherwise.
"When faced with the Dark Arts, our greatest ally is the positive
energy that we all carry within us," Professor Hong intoned, pacing
back and forth in front of his class. His black silk robes fluttered
around him, looking more like a kimono than the traditional wizard
robes Draco was accustomed to.
"As wizards, we can channel this positive energy into a spell, called
the Patronus Charm," the Chinese wizard continued. "To cast the
spell, a wizard or witch much reach deep within themselves to
capture this energy. It can be a treasured memory, a favorite
dream, or - most powerfully - a feeling of love. For love is, after all,
the most powerful force on this earth, and our strongest weapon
against evil."
Draco's heart sank when he heard the Defense Against The Dark
Arts professor mention the Patronus Charm, and what it entailed.
Draco had been doing very well in DADA class this year. Professor
Hong was an impressive wizard who approached teaching from a
different angle than any of their previous professors had. Draco
found himself enjoying the philosophical lectures he often included
in his classes. They had spent most of the semester fine-tuning
nonverbal spells, and he had excelled at these, surpassing all of his
classmates - even Granger. But Draco had a bad feeling about this
Patronus spell.
"Now that you know the incantation," Professor Hong said, "please
pair up and practice casting the spell. Understand that this is very
complex, high-level magic, and you may not get it on the first day. I
do expect everyone to be capable of producing a full-bodied
Patronus by the end of the month, however. Professor McGonagall
has informed me that a few of you have already mastered the
Patronus spell. I expect you to pair up with a fellow classmate who
has not yet mastered the spell and assist them in learning it. You
may begin."
Ginny, Dean, and Luna, who had already learned how to cast the
Patronus during the days of Dumbledore's Army, both paired up
with other students, and Draco set to work with Hermione. He stood
beside her, his wand in hand, looking extremely uncertain.
"Alright," Hermione said, pulling out her own wand, “the trick is to
think happy thoughts."
"Not good enough," Hermione said, shaking her head. "You have to
think about something that makes you really happy - something that
makes you glow from the inside out."
"You know what I mean! Ugh, you're being so difficult! Here, watch
me. Expecto patronum!"
She held her wand out in front of her and suddenly, a large bluish-
white otter sprang from the tip and began swimming through the
classroom. Draco watched it, mesmerized, until it finally faded away
into nothingness once more. He glanced at Hermione.
"What memory did you use for that one?"
Draco was glad she had her eyes closed. He had a feeling she
wouldn't appreciate the fact that he was mimicking vomiting. Finally,
she opened her eyes and had him try the Patronus spell again.
"So, Granger, I have two tickets to the Weird Sisters concert this
Friday. Do you want to go with me?"
"Besides, are you sure you even have time to be going to a concert
this weekend?" she asked. "Shouldn't you be working on your
essay for the scholarship instead?"
"I'm almost finished with it," Draco lied. In truth, he still hadn't
written one word. Then he turned the tables on her, saying in an
accusatory tone, "And what about you, Granger? Shouldn't you be
working on your essay instead of having a night on the town with
Weasley?"
"For your information, I'm already done with my essay," Hermione
said haughtily. "Handed it in to Professor McGonagall yesterday."
"No, I haven't told him yet," she admitted. "I was planning to do it at
dinner this Friday. But I have a feeling that he isn't going to be very
pleased..."
Draco closed his eyes and pictured Weasley getting his knickers in
a twist over Hermione's announcement, causing her to be so angry
with him that she dumped him on the spot, stormed back to
Hogwarts, and wantonly cornered Draco in a broom closet to wipe
all memory of Weasley from her mind...
"Wow, Malfoy, I think that was your best try yet!" Hermione
exclaimed, watching the blast of power that surged from his wand.
"What were you thinking about with that one?"
It had been very distracting for Draco, trying to avoid that damn
mistletoe. He was starting to think the plant had it in for him, the
way it seemed to appear everywhere he went in the school. And to
his dismay, it never appeared when he was standing next to
Hermione. It only appeared whenever he was with every female
occupant of Hogwarts who he was not interested in snogging.
A few days earlier, the mistletoe had sprouted out of the ceiling
while he was chatting with Luna Lovegood. That hadn't been too
bad. She had laughed, kissed him on the cheek, and then started
going on about how the mistletoe was probably infested with
Nargles. It had appeared again while he was studying with Ginny
Weasley in the library earlier that afternoon. She had turned bright
red while he simply ran away as fast as possible, not wanting to
receive another one of her infamous Bat-Bogey Hexes. And
Professor Sprout had taken to lingering by his side, staring
hopefully at the ceiling, to the point where he was really starting to
think he should get her written up for harassment.
Oddly, her absence today had worried him. He knew that she had
had a date with Weasley the night before, and that she was
planning to tell him about the scholarship competition over dinner.
She had predicted that he would not react well. Maybe they had
fought? Suddenly, he had a flashback to their sixth year: she had
been upset about Weasley getting together with Lavender Brown
and had taken refuge in a classroom...
"R-Rosacaeus!" she said, but only a few red rose petals floated out
of her wand, falling to the floor like confetti. She looked up to see
Draco standing in the doorway.
She said nothing in response to his comment. Instead, she lifted her
wand once more and cried, "Rosacaeus!"
This time, she managed to conjure a single red rose. She sat there,
staring down at it as she twirled the stem between her fingertips.
Draco was silent, watching her, waiting for her to speak. He had a
feeling that if he didn't press the issue, she would open up on her
own. Finally, she answered his unspoken question.
"I told Ron about the scholarship, and the fact that I entered it," she
said softly, her eyes still focused on the red blossom in her hand.
"We had a fight."
Draco wanted to leap to his feet and do the Happy Dance right
there on the spot, before reminding himself that Malfoys absolutely
do not do the Happy Dance. Besides, the forlorn look on
Hermione's face rapidly quelled his urge to do so.
"No, you're not," she said sharply, still avoiding his gaze.
"Well then explain it to me. Because this is the second time I've
come across you in this classroom getting all weepy over
something Weasley did - ."
"Every couple has their little spats," Hermione argued, her cheeks
flushing somewhat. "It's completely normal!"
"That may be so, but you two were always arguing, even when we
were kids. I may not have been friends with you at the time, but
even I knew that there was a period of weeks back in our third year
when the two of you weren't speaking to each other. And I already
mentioned the time in sixth year, when he took up with that
Lavender bint..."
Hermione folded her arms across her chest, her brown eyes
flashing at him.
"I just don't think you and Weasley are that compatible," he said.
"I mean, you should be with someone who's more mature - ."
Like me.
Like me.
Say ‘me'.
"Someone like...."
You IDIOT!
Well, now that he'd tied the noose around his neck, he might as well
hang....
"Well, thanks for the suggestion, but I've only ever thought of Dean
as a friend, nothing more," she said.
"Besides," Hermione continued. "I'm sure things with Ron will clear
up soon. They always do."
Draco watched as she lifted her conjured rose to her face and
inhaled its scent deeply, her eyes falling closed. Every muscle in
her body seemed to relax.
"Comforting?"
"Yes," she said. "They're just... I don't know how to explain it. Their
scent is comforting and familiar to me. My parents always had them
growing outside our house when I was younger, and on summer
nights, I could smell them on the breeze blowing in my bedroom
window. So now, whenever I smell a rose, it reminds me of simpler
times."
"Yeah, well, McGonagall taught us that spell last year while you
were gone, so I already had the hang of it before Professor
Weasley taught us this week. It's better than that stupid bird spell
we learned in sixth year, anyway. At least with this one, I can score
a few points with the ladies."
She rolled her eyes at that. Draco hesitated, and then thrust the
bouquet of roses out to her.
She laughed and accepted the bouquet from him, burying her face
in the silky petals. A sudden movement over their heads distracted
her, however. Both of them looked up in time to see a small sprout
of mistletoe emerging from the ceiling, tumbling down to dangle
over their heads. For a moment, the pair froze and simply sat there,
staring up at the magical plant. Finally, Draco looked down at
Hermione, trying to read her facial expression.
For some reason, Draco was irked by her casual reaction to kissing
him. It was as if she were kissing her grandfather or something. At
that moment, he wanted nothing more than to demonstrate the
many ways in which kissing him would be absolutely nothing like
kissing her grandfather. Before he could do anything of the sort, she
was suddenly leaning over, bringing her face closer to his, and any
and all thoughts flew from his mind entirely.
He tightly gripped the edge of the desk he was sitting on, restraining
his hands from snaking around Hermione, as she slowly, hesitantly
brought her lips to rest against his. Her kiss was soft and light as a
feather, but Draco imagined that she lingered infinitesimally longer
than was necessary to consider the touch a mere ‘peck'. And even
for the briefest moment that their lips touched, the contact made
every inch of his body tingle. That sensation, combined with the
heady scent of the roses in her hands, made him feel slightly dizzy.
Then, too soon, she was pulling away, and her brown eyes gazed
up at him, wide and full of confusion. Draco considered himself
adept at guarding his emotions; but he had a feeling that in that
moment, his eyes betrayed him in some way, because she gasped
and withdrew further from him. Her face became uncertain and
almost fearful. Before he could say anything, she sprang to her feet
and backed away towards the door.
"I - I have to... I have to go," she stammered, nearly bumping into
the door frame in her haste to exit the room. Then she turned on
her heel and disappeared into the corridor, leaving Draco alone and
frozen in the exact same position he had been in when she kissed
him.
He had been in the library practicing the Patronus Charm for hours
now. The DADA midterm exam was tomorrow, and if Draco could
not produce a full-bodied Patronus by then, his grade would be
adversely affected. On top of things, he still hadn't finished his
scholarship essay. It was supposed to be turned it to Professor
McGonagall at the end of the week, before the start of Christmas
Break, and he had yet to write a single word of it. That thought
made him kick the table once more.
"Don't get all touchy with me, Malfoy. It's not my fault you haven't
got it yet. And that nasty attitude certainly isn't going to help you
conjure a Patronus any faster."
"Sorry," he muttered, all of the fight rushing out of him. He was tired
and grumpy, and wanted nothing more than to go back to the
Slytherin dormitory and sleep through to the end of the week,
missing all of his exams in the process. He sighed and pulled
himself up onto the table to sit beside Hermione.
"What are your plans for Christmas break?" she asked him.
"Oh, I'll be staying with the Weasleys," she said lightly, suddenly
becoming preoccupied with her fingernails.
"Well, I'm looking forward to it, anyway," Hermione said tightly. She
had given up throwing fits whenever he spoke harshly about
Weasley, usually opting to brush it aside or ignore it instead. Draco
was grateful that she seemed to think his spite for the redhead was
still nothing but a schoolboy rivalry, and not something deeper, like
jealousy.
"You won't fail. Half of the exam will be on nonverbal spells, which
you're very good at. Even if you don't have a full-bodied Patronus,
you'll at least receive a passing grade overall."
"Just ‘passing' isn't good enough," Draco argued. "Not good enough
to win the scholarship."
"Of course I do. I want to travel around the world and learn about all
the international Wizarding hospitals - maybe even learn a few
techniques that I can bring back here and teach the Healers at St.
Mungo's, so they can improve the way they treat their patients."
"Do what?"
Draco didn't know how to react to this. A year ago he could have
thought of some very nice hexes to use in response to being called
‘noble'. He would have been insulted. ‘Noble' was a word used to
describe Harry Potter, not Draco Malfoy. ‘Noble' meant being stupid
and reckless, like crawling down a dark hole to chase down a
Basilisk, like handing your life over to the enemy out of love for your
friends, like going back into a burning room to save someone who
was never anything more to you than an enemy...
"You just can't see yourself as being anything but that mean, selfish
little boy, can you Malfoy?" she said finally.
"And you?" he asked hesitantly. "What do you see when you look at
me?"
He felt his heart stop for several moments as he waited for her
answer, not sure if he was really ready to hear it. She gave him a
smirk that would not have been out of place on his own face.
"Well, most of the time I see a complete pain in the arse," she
began.
"Will you shut up and let me finish?" she huffed, and he fell silent.
"What I was trying to say was that while you can still be a real prat
sometimes, you're not the old Malfoy I knew before. You've...
changed. Now, you're a good friend, and occasionally, yes, a bit
noble. Much as you might hate to hear it."
Her lips quirked into a small grin, which Draco couldn't help
mirroring. Then, her voice became more serious, and her gaze
locked with his.
"But most importantly," she said, "I see someone who is trying to
become a better person. And so far, you've succeeded in becoming
a better person than I ever thought you could be."
Her brown eyes carried something that Draco had never seen in
them before. He had always had the feeling, despite their growing
friendship, that she was somewhat guarded around him. For the
past several months, it had acted as an invisible barrier between
them. Now, for the first time, her eyes were open, unguarded, and
full of genuine affection. It elicited an unfamiliar response in Draco,
a feeling that was indescribable yet pleasant, and seemed to swell
up from deep within him.
Instantly, a large, sinuous form emerged from the tip of his wand
and unfurled its wings. It was a dragon - fierce and at the same time
elegant in appearance - blowing puffs of white flame as it flew
around the room. Awestruck, he watched it circle the library, and
then turned to see Hermione's reaction to his success.
"Oh Draco, it's beautiful," she breathed, eyes wide with wonder as
she watched his Patronus soar past them.
Draco was startled to hear her use his first name, startled at how
perfect it sounded on her lips, and startled at how ethereal her eyes
looked with the white glow of his Patronus reflected in their depths.
Later that evening, Draco sat in the green velvet chair, the last
person awake in the Slytherin common room. He stared down at
the parchment in front of him, twirling his quill between his fingers
once more. He smiled and glanced up as his dragon Patronus
glided around the otherwise empty room, its jaws opening to emit a
silent roar.
A month ago, he had sat here, wondering if he was still the same
Draco Malfoy he had always been. He had been so sure he was
incapable of change, but now he knew that he had been wrong.
He had changed. Hermione had seen the changes in him, and
tonight, she had made him see those changes, too.
He closed his eyes, and the moment he did so, a familiar pair of
brown eyes immediately sprang into view. He saw them in many
different ways, flashing through his mind in an endless montage: He
saw her eyes glaring up at him during their childhood, after he had
made a scathing remark about her or her friends; looking down at
him in pity as he lay alone and friendless in a hospital bed; full of
pain and pleading as she lay at the feet of Bellatrix Lestrange, being
tortured. That last vision made him wince and shudder.
He took a deep breath, lowered his quill to the page, and began to
write.
End Notes:
The incantation for the spell, Rosacaeus, is essentially just the
scientific name for the rose family. :)
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Chapter 8: Secrets and Surprises by atalanta84
Forbidden Fruit a flavor has
That lawful Orchards mocks --
How luscious lies within the Pod
The Pea that Duty locks --
~ Emily Dickinson
"It'll be strange, not seeing you for two weeks," Hermione said to
Draco as the two walked together through the gates of Hogwarts.
They were just exiting the school grounds in order to Apparate
home for Christmas Break.
"Maybe... maybe I'm just afraid that after spending two weeks back
at home with your parents, that you'll decide you don't want to be
friends with a Muggle-born anymore."
She stopped, staring at him incredulously. It was the first time she
had ever heard Draco call her by her given name. It was strange
hearing it come from his lips, but it sounded so right at the same
time. She smiled at him, and he shifted awkwardly from one foot to
another.
"Well, I'll see you in two weeks," he said, pulling his wand out from
beneath the folds of his heavy winter cloak.
"Yes, see you then." Hermione grabbed her own wand, but then
paused, saying, "Draco?"
"Yeah?"
"I know how much of a risk it is for you to be my friend, and... well, I
just wanted to… to thank you for taking that risk."
Then he gave her a devious grin that made her heart do a funny
little flip-flop in her chest.
And with a wave of his wand and a small crack! he was gone,
leaving a decidedly flustered Hermione behind him.
Draco climbed out of bed, pulled on his robe, and looked out his
bedroom window. The grounds of Malfoy Manor were covered with
a layer of pristine white snow, which twinkled in the morning light.
He grinned and then padded out of his room to make his way
downstairs.
She gestured towards the massive Christmas tree and the gigantic
pile of presents beneath it, and Draco happily sat down to open his
gifts. His parents had been as generous as any other year - they
had given him designer dress robes and a new wizard's chess set
with pieces made of heavy pewter and encrusted with emeralds.
Most years, Draco only received gifts from his parents (though there
had been a year or two when he had been dating Pansy and she
had sent him a few silly trifles). This year, however, there was a
small pile of gifts that he was not expecting. Curious, he opened
one and was surprised to find a nice broom servicing kit from Ginny
Weasley. Another package revealed an assortment of candies and
Weasley Wizard Wheezes products from Dean Thomas, and a third
package revealed a new edition of the book Fantastic Beasts and
Where to Find Them, given by Luna Lovegood. He chuckled to
himself when he read the inscription Luna had written inside the
front cover:
I hope you enjoy the book, even if does seem to leave out the
existence of several important creatures – including Nargles,
Wrackspurts, and the Crumple-Horned Snorkack. At least the
illustrations are quite lovely.
Happy Christmas,
Luna
Draco withdrew his last present from beneath the tree. It was
wrapped in simple brown paper, and felt squishy when he squeezed
it. He ripped open the paper and out spilled a beautiful knit scarf. It
was warm and soft, yet had a masculine appearance to it, being
dark green with a few stripes of silver. As he pulled it out of the
wrapping, a small piece of parchment drifted to the floor. He picked
it up and read:
Draco,
I hope you like the scarf I made you - I know you'll approve of the
colors, anyway. And if you don't like it, I can always send you one of
those cute little hats I knit for the House-elves instead, since you're
always making fun of them. Ha! Have a Happy Christmas and I
can't wait to see you again after break!
HG
Draco smiled and wrapped the scarf around his neck. As he did so,
he thought he could detect Hermione's familiar scent - a delicate
mixture of rose and sandalwood - wafting out of the knit fabric. He
gazed back at the parchment in his hand, his eyes lingering on one
phrase in particular: ‘I can't wait to see you again....'
"Why Draco, what a lovely scarf," his mother said, making him
aware that his parents were still there in the room, watching him
open his gifts. "Did some lovely girl from school make it for you?"
Hastily, Draco shoved Hermione's note into the pocket of his robe.
Draco sat there sputtering for a moment, trying to think of the best
way to answer her question. To his surprise and relief, his father
came to his rescue.
"Very well, Draco. I'll let you have your little secrets for now. But I'm
sure I'll find out who the girl is eventually."
"I thought you said that we had to act differently now, Father. Didn't
you say that we had to put those old notions of blood purity behind
us?"
"Yes Father," Draco said quietly, running his fingers over the soft
fabric of his scarf.
"That's alright, Mother," he said. "I don't want to put them to all that
trouble."
Then he left the room, leaving his parents sitting there staring after
him with perplexed expressions on their faces. Narcissa turned to
her husband, one golden eyebrow arched in confusion.
"Don't think you'll want to steal all of my presents, Ron," Ginny said
cheerfully, perching on the couch beside Harry. "I think Mum and
Dad bought me those pretty pink ballet shoes I've been eyeing for
awhile. ‘Course if you really want, you're welcome to borrow them
from time to time..."
Hermione,
I saw this when I was out shopping for my mother's Christmas gift
and it made me think of you. And before you get your knickers in a
twist, don't worry, it wasn't very expensive. Hope you're enjoying
your holiday, even if it's inundated with Weasleys.
Happy Christmas,
Draco
‘Hermione'.
He had addressed her by her first name, just as he had when they
had parted before Christmas break. She stared at the parchment,
liking the way her name looked when written in his precise, elegant
script. Then suddenly she thrust the note back into her pocket and
turned to look in the mirror once more, frowning at her reflection.
How was he able to affect her emotions this easily?
She had gushed over Ron's present - had promised him that she
would put on the new jumper first thing after breakfast. And yet...
and yet she had not had nearly the same rush of happiness at
receiving Ron's gift as she had just now, opening Draco's.
Hermione was no relationships expert, but she had a feeling it was
wrong to be more excited about a male friend's gifts than your own
boyfriend's.
Instantly, Hermione's eyes snapped open, and she was faced with
her own reflection once more. She should have realized that kissing
Draco Malfoy - even a small peck on the lips - would be neither
simple nor meaningless. After all, everything that occurred between
them was emotionally charged in some way or another. She
thought that even their heated interactions as children were proof of
that, recalling the time in their third year when he had angered her
so much that she slapped him across the cheek.
"Hermione?" Ginny's voice called out from the other side of the
door. "Everything all right?"
Hermione washed her hands in the sink and dried them on the little
towel hanging from the rack. Before exiting the bathroom, she
paused to glare sternly at her reflection in the mirror. She would
have to be more careful at guarding her actions around Draco in the
future. Adding physical attraction to an already intense relationship
such as theirs was like one of those concoctions they were always
being warned about in Potions class - volatile and potentially
dangerous.
It greatly disturbed her that she found this danger more appealing
than frightening.
Thankfully, she did not receive many questions about the necklace
Draco had given her. Mrs. Weasley had admired it while she and
Ginny were helping her clean up after dinner, and Hermione had
merely told her that it was from a friend at school. Ginny had given
Hermione an oddly knowing look, but refrained from saying
anything. To Hermione's relief, Ron didn't even seem to notice the
necklace at all. For the first time, Hermione found herself feeling
grateful that boys were usually oblivious to such things. She rather
believed that if she started wearing a pink pygmy puff around her
neck, Ron would ask her if she'd done something different with her
hair.
That night though, as she and Ginny lay in bed, the secret was
finally revealed.
"Yes, he did."
"Is there?" Ginny asked softly. "Is there something else going on?"
"Ouch!"
"Gin, can you help me find my wand, love? We need some light."
"Just a second, Harry. I felt it around here somewhere..."
Instantly, a bright blue glow filled the bedroom, bathing the four
friends with its light. Ginny handed the lit wand back to Harry, who
was looking slightly embarrassed. Ron looked equally sheepish as
he extracted himself from beneath Hermione.
"What's going on?" Hermione asked, rubbing her elbow, which had
been bruised in the tussle.
"Yeah, well, you weren't exactly arguing with me, were you, mate?"
When he received two impatient glares from his sister and his
girlfriend, Ron finally explained.
"Harry and I were just thinking that maybe... that maybe we could
have some time alone with our girlfriends this evening. You know,
as in Hermione could come up to my room for a bit, and Harry could
come in here with Ginny - just to talk of course."
Hermione's lips twitched at that. She knew how protective Ron was
of his younger sister, even if she was dating someone he trusted,
like his best friend. But as Ginny's closest confidante, Hermione
happened to know that the littlest Weasley was doing much more
than ‘just talking' with Harry these days.
"Ron, if Mum knew about this she'd wring our necks like wet dish
towels," Ginny said.
"Yeah, well, it's pretty late so she and Dad are probably fast asleep
by now. Besides, we'll switch back in a bit and she'll be none the
wiser in the morning."
"All right then," said Ginny, grinning and going to stand beside
Harry, “me too."
"Ok," Ron said, tugging Hermione's hand and leading her to the
door. "So Harry, you hang out in here and I'm going to force myself
to believe that you are discussing politics with my sister."
"All right," Ginny said. "So when Harry and I are done -”
"Right, when Harry and I are done ‘discussing politics', do you want
him to just come back up to your room and knock?"
"Well wait," Harry spoke up. "What if Ron and Hermione are done
‘discussing politics' sooner than we are?"
Ron drew himself up to his full height and crossed his arms over his
chest, glaring menacingly at his best friend.
"What exactly are you implying with that statement, Harry Potter?"
Hermione finally rolled her eyes and held out her hands to either
boy to stop them from breaking out into a heated, and potentially
awkward, argument about which of the two had the better libido.
"Look, we'll just switch back in exactly one hour, okay?" she said.
Ron led her into his bedroom, and the instant he shut the door
behind them, Hermione threw herself into his arms, burying her
hands into his red hair as she planted her lips on his. Ron
enthusiastically returned her kiss for a few moments, and then he
pulled her away, looking pleased, but slightly dazed.
"Why are you stopping?" she asked him disappointedly. "Don't tell
me you actually brought me up here to discuss politics?"
"No," he said, shaking his head, “of course not. I'm just surprised, is
all. I didn't think you'd be this keen on shagging in my old bedroom,
in a house full of people. Aren't you afraid of getting caught?"
With that, she surprised him by pushing him onto his bed so that he
was sprawled on top of his bright orange Chudley Cannons
bedspread, staring up at her in complete shock. Except for their
first, fevered kiss on the eve of battle, it was rare for her to be the
initiator in their physical relationship. Grinning slyly, Hermione bent
over and crawled up the length of his body, like a panther stalking
its prey. She watched with satisfaction as the look in his blue eyes
quickly shifted from bewilderment to desire.
"Do you really think I'm that much of a prude?" she asked, now
wantonly straddling Ron's midsection.
Ron shook his head, momentarily too tongue-tied for words. Finally,
he managed to speak, but when he did, his voice was strained
because of the movements Hermione was making with her hips on
top of his.
She smiled wickedly, bent over so that her lips were right next to his
ear, and whispered, "What's life without a little risk?"
Hermione nudged Ginny, who was sitting next to her at the table.
"What's wrong with Bill this morning?" she whispered. "He looks like
he's going to be sick."
"Oh, well you know how lately Fleur has been having those late-
night food cravings?" Ginny whispered back. "Well, apparently Bill
got up last night to get her a snack, but he accidentally came across
Mum and Dad ‘discussing politics' in the pantry."
"Ew!" Hermione gasped, covering her mouth with her hand. "That's
disgusting, Ginny! Poor Bill!"
"No kidding. Just glad it was him and not me. There are some
things even a brandy and a Memory Charm can't cure."
Well, Hermione could say one thing about Christmas with the
Weasleys: it was never boring.
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Chapter 9: Elemental Magic by atalanta84
Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favour fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
The moment she walked into the Great Hall, Draco looked up and
waved at her from the Slytherin table. She went over to sit in the
empty seat next to him. He grinned when he noticed that she was
wearing the rose necklace he had given her for Christmas.
She smiled, reaching down to grasp the rose charm in her hand.
"Oh, hello Astoria!" Ginny said, noticing her Sixth Year Slytherin
friend, Astoria Greengrass, was sitting beside her.
"Hi Ginny!" the blonde replied cheerfully, smiling at her. "Why don't
you tell us your good news?"
Ginny grinned from ear to ear, her cheeks pink with excitement, and
held out the letter for everyone to see.
"I suppose I have you to thank for this, Malfoy," she said. "You must
have spoken to him like you said you would."
"I'm going to tell Dean and Luna the news," she said, before
hurrying over to the other side of the Great Hall.
"Don't you two have to get to Defense Against the Dark Arts?"
"Oh, Professor Hong is actually holding class here in the Great Hall
today," Hermione replied, digging back into her breakfast. "Said he
needed the extra space for today's lesson."
"That sounds interesting," Astoria said sweetly. "Well, I'll see you
both later, then."
"What's wrong with you?" Draco asked, raising one eyebrow at her.
"Well, maybe if you stopped stuffing your face full of kipper, you
wouldn't make your stomach hurt so much," he said mercilessly.
"Yeah, but you know you like me that way," he said, giving her a
mischievous wink.
Oh, but she did. She certainly did. The damn prat - why did he have
to make snarkiness seem so charming?
Draco's tone was teasing, but Hermione noticed that his grey eyes
were focused intently upon her face.
"Don't be ridiculous!" she said lightly, though she avoided his gaze.
"She's a sweet girl, Draco. You should go after her - work those
irresistible Malfoy charms you're always bragging about."
The instructor gave a wave of his wand, and the four dining tables
fled to the outer walls of the Great Hall, leaving a large open area in
the center of the room. With another flourish, Professor Hong
arranged buckets of water and pots of soil into a row on the floor,
leaving ample space in between them. Two smaller buckets, one
containing candles and the other feathers, were sent sailing over to
rest on top of the Head Table.
Hermione breathed a sigh of relief. The last thing she wanted was
to hear more of the codswallup Professor Trelawney used to talk
about in Divination, her least favorite subject.
Professor Hong extended his right hand and instantly, a ball of fire
appeared and danced over his palm. Everyone gasped and
applauded appreciatively. The Chinese wizard allowed his stern
face to crease into a brief smile, before he closed his hand and
snuffed out the flame.
Hermione pulled out her text book and opened it to the page with a
chart listing the ranges of birthdays and their corresponding
elements. She had always known that her zodiac sign was Virgo
(not that she ever cared much for what that meant), but she had
never known what element it corresponded to. Discovering that she
was born under the element of earth, she went to sit in front of one
of the pots of soil that Professor Hong had brought into the Great
Hall with him. Draco's element was wind, so he grabbed a white
feather from one of the small buckets sitting on top of the head
table. He sat next to Hermione with the feather resting in his palm,
trying to conjure a wind to make it blow away. Each sat quietly for
several minutes - she staring at her pot of dirt, and he staring at the
feather.
"That's what you always say when you can't figure something out
on the first try," Hermione admonished, not tearing her gaze away
from the soil she was supposed to be manipulating.
Draco grumbled under his breath, but couldn't argue with her. He
watched her for a few moments, and then started to chuckle.
"Well at least I look good doing it," he said, lounging back so that he
was propping himself up with one hand, his long legs stretched out
in front of him.
Hermione snuck a glance at him and realized that he did look good,
sprawled out on the floor like a tantalizing Adonis. Damn him.
"Look! Look! I made the water move!" Dean cried out, delightedly
pointing to the bucket of water he had been concentrating on.
"That's because you just kicked the bucket with your foot when you
shifted positions," Ginny said tiredly as she stared at a lit candle,
trying to manipulate the flame.
"Oh."
"Who cares about the book?" he said, rolling his eyes. "Professor
Hong said it doesn't always work that way, remember? Just try
something else. Try fire."
"Just a hunch."
"Darling, that cocky look doesn't suit your face one bit," he said,
"Especially with your eyebrows singed off."
The day of the Gryffindor versus Hufflepuff match dawned cold and
clear two weeks later, and everyone was in an exuberant mood -
everyone except for Ginny, that is. She hardly ate anything for
breakfast, and as she and her friends walked out to the Quidditch
pitch, her face was so pale that Hermione could count every freckle
on her pasty white skin. When Ginny and Dean parted ways with
their friends outside the Gryffindor changing rooms, Hermione
thought the redhead looked as if she might actually vomit.
Nervous for her friend, Hermione made her way up into the stands
with Luna and Draco. She glanced over and saw that Draco was
wearing the green and silver scarf she had knitted him for
Christmas. With a mischievous grin, she tapped his scarf with her
wand and changed the colors to red and gold.
"Nonsense, it's a good color on you," Hermione said, giving him her
most winsome smile.
Shortly after they took their seats in the stands, they were joined by
Harry and Ron, who had just come from wishing Ginny good luck.
The moment they noticed Draco sitting amongst their group of
friends, they both stiffened. Harry's expression was uncertain, but
Ron looked peeved. Draco, who was sitting to the left of Hermione,
surveyed both boys with dislike, but did not appear overly distraught
by their presence. Only a dangerous little flash in his eyes betrayed
that some deeper emotion lingered beneath the surface.
Harry was the first to break the tense silence, stepping forward to
extend his right hand to Draco.
"Look Malfoy," he said. "I know there's been bad blood between us,
but I just wanted to thank you for what you did for Ginny - for getting
the Harpies' team manager to come watch her play today."
Hermione gave Draco a subtle nudge with her elbow, and he glared
at her, letting out a pained sigh.
Harry raised his eyebrows, nodded, and then took a seat next to
Luna. Ron simply gave Draco a curt nod before sitting on
Hermione's right side. He leaned over to greet her with a kiss, and
Hermione saw Draco's eyes narrow to silver slits before he turned
away. If she was to rank the awkwardness on a scale of one to ten,
sitting between Draco and Ron ranked at eleven. Perhaps twelve,
after Ron muttered, "Nice scarf, Malfoy."
Thankfully, they were soon distracted by the start of the match, and
they were all too busy cheering for Ginny to pay attention to
anything else. It was a tense game, and to the dismay of Hermione
and her friends, the Hufflepuff Keeper was extremely talented,
forming a bright yellow blur as she zipped back and forth in front of
the goal posts. But Ginny's performance was nothing short of
phenomenal. She led her fellow Chasers in one charge after
another across the pitch, flying faster than Hermione had ever seen
her fly, and throwing the Quaffle with pinpoint accuracy. After an
hour of play, Harrison caught the Snitch, sealing the Gryffindor
victory.
Hermione and her friends were all on their feet, cheering and
screaming. Even Draco was clapping and shouting "Yeah Ginny!"
with his red and gold scarf flapping in the wind. Hermione caught
Harry staring at him with an expression of utter bemusement.
Then they were all rushing down to the pitch to find Ginny and
congratulate her. As they approached, a stocky but kind-faced
wizard had just left her side.
"That was Marcus Figwig, the team manager for the Harpies,"
Draco said to Ginny as they all approached her. "What did he have
to say?"
Everyone waited with bated breath, but Hermione could tell from the
light dancing in Ginny's brown eyes what the answer would be.
"He said that he was very impressed with my flying and he wants
me to come to their tryouts in May!" she squealed.
Her gaze scanned through the small cluster of friends until she
spotted Hermione and Draco, and her lips twitched somewhat when
she noticed Draco's red and gold scarf.
"We'll wait for you to get done with the meeting before going to
Hogsmeade," Ginny whispered to Hermione, giving her a
reassuring squeeze.
"And in all of my years at this school, I have never been more proud
of my students than I am of you two," she continued, pulling two
manila envelopes from a drawer of her desk, "which is why it is with
great pleasure that I inform both of you that you are this year's
winners for the scholarship competition."
"You're welcome, you're welcome," she said. "But you have both
truly earned this award. No one in this school has done more to
improve inter-house relations than the two of you have this year,
and both of you are at the top of your class in grades. Not to
mention the wonderful essays you submitted with your
applications."
She rested her hands on the two manila envelopes lying on her
desk.
"Well, I suppose the latest you could tell me would be one month
before the Parting Ceremony - so by the second week of May. We
would need ample time to inform the runner-up...."
"If you don't mind my asking, who is the runner-up for the girl's
spot?" Hermione asked.
"I understand, Professor," Hermione said with a nod. "I will keep
that in mind. Thanks again."
"We won, we won!" he said. "Can you believe it, Hermione? I mean,
I knew you would win, but me? I can't believe I got it!"
Hermione could not help but smile at the undisguised elation that
danced in his eyes. She had never seen Draco this genuinely
happy before. It was quite adorable, actually. She gasped as
suddenly he wrapped his arms around her and lifted her a few
centimeters off the ground, spinning her around in a circle. Finally,
he set her back down on her feet, but continued to grip her
shoulders with his hands, smiling down at her.
"Just think about it," he continued. "You and I could even plan
things so that we conduct our research in the same locations. Can
you imagine how fun it would be? All the places we could see, and
all the things we could do in a year of traveling around the world?"
Hermione's smile faltered at his words, and she hung her head so
that she was staring down at her feet. Instantly, Draco's hands
dropped from her shoulders. He stood silently in front of her for a
few moments before speaking once more. When he did, his voice
was no longer joyful, but disappointed.
"I-I don't know yet," she said quietly, her head still bent so that he
could not meet her eyes.
"Hermione, you have to accept this award, you just have to. You
heard McGonagall - your research is too important to give up.
Besides, you deserve this."
"Luna deserves it just as much, if not more so, than I," she argued.
"Besides, I think Ron would want me to decline it. I can't be away
from him for a whole year like that...."
Suddenly, Draco slipped one large hand beneath her chin and tilted
it up so that he could see her face. Still, she kept her eyes lowered
beneath her lashes, not wanting to meet his gaze.
Her eyes flicked up at his words, searching his face as she realized
the double meaning behind his question. Draco was not just talking
about the scholarship competition. His hand was still cupping her
face, and she was surprised at how warm and soft his fingers felt
against her skin. Their faces were mere centimeters away from
each other, and Hermione's heart began to thud wildly as she
realized that she could feel the warmth of his breath mingling with
hers, and smell the faint minty scent of his aftershave. She saw his
eyes darken once more with an emotion that thrilled and terrified
her, because she now recognized what it was, and knew that it
mirrored the emotion that was fighting so desperately to emerge
from her own soul....
But before she could speak another word, the sound of someone
clearing their throat made them both realize that they were no
longer alone in the corridor. Hermione sprang away from Draco,
and her stomach sank with dread as she turned to face the three
individuals who stood several paces away, staring at them.
"I still can't believe this!" Ron shouted, as he paced back and forth
in the empty classroom Hermione had dragged him into. "I tried to
be understanding, really I did. You said you wanted to study with
Malfoy. I thought it was a bad idea, but I went along with it anyway."
"Ron...." Hermione tried to speak from where she sat on top of one
of the desks, watching him pace in front of her. But Ron just ignored
her and continued ranting.
"Ron, please."
"But now?" Ron continued, talking over her attempts to cut in. "Now
I find you standing in a corridor, snogging him! Him! Draco Malfoy,
my worst enemy. I can't believe it! How could you -”
"RONALD WEASLEY, SHUT UP AND LET ME SPEAK!" Hermione
bellowed, and Ron finally fell silent, stunned by her sudden
outburst. She took a deep breath, trying to gather her thoughts. She
knew Ron was angry - worse than angry, he was completely
outraged. She was glad she had managed to drag him away from
Draco before wands were drawn. Powerful wizard though Draco
was, she wasn't sure if he would have survived one of the infamous
Weasley outbursts. When she spoke again, her voice resembled
something like calmness.
"Ron, I know you're upset, but I can assure you that we absolutely
were not snogging," Hermione said. It was true, after all, even if she
wasn't sure it would have remained true if Ron, Harry, and Ginny
had arrived a few moments later...
"It's true!" she argued, her voice rising somewhat. "We were just
congratulating each other."
"Oh, is that what they call it now?" Ron said scathingly. "Instead of
‘discussing politics', the new code phrase is ‘congratulating each
other'?"
Hermione's heart sank, and she wished that she could rewind time,
undoing what she had just said. This was the worst possible
moment to have to tell Ron that she had won the scholarship
competition, and was strongly considering accepting it. But now,
there was no use delaying the inevitable.
"Yes, well, that is his name, isn't it?" Hermione said testily.
Suddenly all of the fight seemed to rush out of Ron, and he
slumped down on top of a desk across from hers, appearing utterly
deflated.
"I - I really want to accept the award, yes. But as for traveling with
Draco...I don't know about that yet."
"So you're considering it then?" Ron asked sharply, his blue eyes
flashing.
"Ron...."
"It's bad enough that I've hardly been able to see you since
September, you've been so busy with school. But I understood why
you wanted to come back to Hogwarts, or at least I tried to. Now
you're saying you want to leave me behind for another year while
you go traipsing around the planet with that little ferret?"
"That's different and you know it!" Hermione argued. "You're still
going to be an Auror; you're just delaying it for a while. What you're
asking me to do is give something up entirely."
She paused, recalling what Draco had said to her that one night
before Christmas, when he had told her that he thought she and
Ron weren't compatible. What had he said again? ‘You should be
with someone who actually understands you, and wouldn't make
you choose between being with him and doing the things you want
to do in life....'
At this, Ron leapt back to his feet, his fists balled in rage, and his
face redder than Hermione had ever seen it before.
"Malfoy doesn't know shit!" he yelled. "I don't care what you say, all
this claptrap about how he's ‘changed'. Well, you're wrong,
Hermione. Once a Malfoy, always a Malfoy."
"Well that's rich coming from you, Ron!" Hermione shouted back at
him, rising to her feet so that they were closer to eye-level, even
though he still towered over her. "How many times have you told
me how sick you are of always being taunted for being a Weasley?
Now you're doing the same thing to Draco."
Hermione froze, her tears finally spilling out of her eyes and onto
her cheeks.
"Maybe I do," Ron continued. His voice was calmer, but less
certain. "Hermione, maybe we rushed into things too quickly after
the war. Maybe we weren't ready for a serious relationship. We-
we're only eighteen years old, and a lot has happened in the last
year....Maybe we need to take a break, see other people, grow up a
bit."
"Ron, there is nothing going on between Draco and me! You're the
one who's making us out to be something we're not...."
Ron's voice broke, and he turned away from her once more,
hanging his head. For the first time, Hermione could find no words
to argue with him. As much as she had tried for the past month to
deny that something was developing between her and Draco -
something that was more than just friendship - she knew that Ron
was right. There was something else there, and she could deny it
no longer.
Ron strode over to the door and opened it, preparing to leave. Then
he paused on the threshold, turning to look at her with eyes full of
pity and sadness.
With that, he left the room, letting the door fall shut behind him.
Hermione collapsed into one of the classroom chairs, her mind
reeling at what had just happened. After all these years, after how
long it had taken her and Ron to finally be together, he was
throwing it all away and walking out the door. Yet, as mad as she
was with him, she was even more furious with herself, knowing that
she was largely to blame for what had just occurred.
Draco sat glumly at the Slytherin table later that afternoon, picking
at his lunch. To no surprise, he found that he had very little in the
way of an appetite at the moment. The events of the morning were
still weighing heavily on his mind.
When Weasley and his friends had caught him with Hermione in the
hallway outside the Headmistress's office, he had longed for the
chance to face off with the redhead once and for all; but before
either boy had been able to draw their wands, Hermione had
dragged Weasley out of Draco's firing range. It still irked him that he
had lost the opportunity to bring the freckly git down a few notches.
Ah, well, there was always tomorrow. Draco had a feeling Hermione
was going to have a difficult time curbing her boyfriend's temper, so
he might get a second go at him after all. He would just have to wait
for Weasley to track him down and challenge him to a wizard's duel.
It was only a matter of time.
With a loud clank, Draco dropped his fork on his lunch plate and let
out a groan of frustration. It hadn't been the first time that he had
been a hair's breadth away from expressing his feelings for
Hermione and was interrupted from doing so. What would have
happened if he had been allowed to finish what he started with her
in that corridor? He would have kissed Hermione... and then what?
She might have decided that in order to preserve her relationship
with Ron, she could no longer be friends with Draco.
A flash of bright red hair sweeping into the Great Hall attracted his
attention, and he quickly rose to his feet when he recognized Ginny
Weasley heading towards the Gryffindor table. He intercepted her
before she could reach it.
"Didn't she and your brother join you at the Three Broomsticks like
they said they were going to?"
"No, neither of them ever came," the petite redhead replied, her
face creasing into a frown. "We just figured that they were still
talking and sorting things out."
"I believe you, Malfoy, I do. But I also believe that there's more
going on between you and Hermione than either of you is willing to
admit right now."
"You must hate me," Draco said dully, glaring at nothing and no one
in particular. "Well, see if I care."
"Malfoy, you understand Hermione," said Ginny. "I don't really know
how, but you seem to understand her more than any of us does. I
think you should go talk to her."
"Wait," Ginny said, touching his elbow so that he stopped and faced
her once more. "I might not think you're the evil git you used to be,
but if you do anything to hurt Hermione, I'll do things to you that'll
make my Bat-Bogey Hex seem like a pleasurable experience in
comparison."
Draco took in the hard set of her jaw and her blazing brown eyes
and thought, not for the first time, that Ginny Weasley was a force
to be reckoned with. He smirked back at her, but his eyes carried a
measure of respect.
"Fair enough," he told her, and then spun on his heel to exit the
Great Hall and look for Hermione.
It was no surprise to Draco that she was in the usual place - that
same abandoned seventh floor classroom. She was sitting on a
desk by the window, the winter sunlight streaming in over her
bowed head. She didn't look up when Draco entered the room and
took a seat beside her, squinting in the bright light. They sat in
silence for several minutes, Hermione sniffing occasionally. From
her puffy eyes and red nose, Draco deduced that she had been
crying for some time, though her tears seemed momentarily spent.
He had a feeling he knew what had happened between her and
Weasley, but he waited for her to tell him herself.
"Ron and I broke up," Hermione said finally, wiping at her moist
eyes. Then she suddenly flashed Draco a warning look. "And Draco
Malfoy, if you so much as tell me ‘I told you so', or give me one of
your damn, knowing smirks...."
"Nothing," she sobbed, shaking her head. "I don't want you to say
anything at all."
"All right then," he said, and in one swift movement, he reached out
and pulled her gently into his arms.
They sat there for some time, with Hermione crying into his chest
and Draco resting his chin on the top of her head, her curls tickling
his jaw and neck. Draco was surprised at how patient he could be
when he was with Hermione. Certainly, he had never been an
impulsive person, having learned long ago that sometimes when
there was something you wanted to gain, patience could indeed be
a virtue. That was just part of being a cunning Slytherin. However,
being patient when it was of no benefit to him, but to someone else,
was something he had never mastered until more recently. He had
never comforted anyone in this way before. He wondered how he
even knew how to do it, and figured that maybe comforting
someone you genuinely cared about was a thing that came
naturally over time - like learning to walk.
"Sorry about crying all over your shirt," she mumbled, blowing her
nose into the handkerchief he had given her.
"That's alright. The Malfoy house elves are good at what they do.
I'm sure they'll manage to clean your snot off of it... but if not, I'll be
sending you a bill for the twenty galleons it'll cost to replace it."
He had meant to lighten the mood with his usual sarcasm, and he
succeeded, because Hermione chuckled and rolled her eyes.
"I think you can replace your own damn shirt, Malfoy," she said. "As
I hear it, you're not exactly strapped for cash."
Their lips moved slowly against each others at first, exploring and
adjusting to the new sensations, but their movements quickly
escalated into something more intense. Still, it wasn't enough for
Draco. He nipped gently at Hermione's lips and she parted them
somewhat, granting him further access. He took the opportunity to
flick his tongue into her mouth, tasting the saltiness of her dried
tears. She gasped at the invasion, drawing in his exhaled breath as
she did so.
Hermione suddenly laced her own slender fingers into Draco's hair,
and his body practically purred at the sensation of her fingernails
dragging lightly against the sensitive skin of his scalp. It was almost
too much - in combination with the warm light, the scent, and the
taste of her - and he was unable to suppress a low moan of
pleasure and longing.
The sound horrified him - not only because Draco Malfoy never
allowed any girl to make him moan, but also because it seemed to
jolt Hermione out of whatever spell she had been under. She came
crashing back to reality, tearing herself away from him and leaving
him feeling utterly bereft of her touch.
What the hell was her problem, anyway? If she thought it was such
a mistake to kiss him, then why did she insist on doing it, and then
running away from him as if the whole scenario was somehow his
fault?
Frustrated, Draco stormed out of the classroom and out into the
corridor. He could see no trace of Hermione anywhere. She had
probably escaped to the Gryffindor dormitories, where she knew he
couldn't follow her.
Draco consoled himself with the fact that she couldn't hide from him
forever.
Much as she had done after the mistletoe incident a few months
before, she acted as if nothing at all had occurred between her and
Draco. The previous time, he had been happy to feign ignorance as
well, but this time he found himself discontent with the idea of
pretending that nothing had happened. Hermione was as friendly as
usual towards him, although he sensed that she had once more
erected an invisible barrier between them. She never allowed
herself to be left alone with him for any period of time; she would
only study with him in groups, and would only walk the halls with
him if someone else was present. Draco had a feeling Hermione
was purposely trying to avoid any situation where he would have
the opportunity to discuss their forbidden kiss.
Two weeks after that stolen kiss, Draco finally reached his breaking
point.
It was late February, and the Seventh Year Defense Against the
Dark Arts class was still practicing elemental magic. Hermione had
now progressed to a stage where she could conjure fire out of thin
air without the use of a wand, and Professor Hong had proclaimed
her a true Pyromancer. She was not alone in her success, however.
Not long after she had discovered her talents with fire, Draco's skills
of manipulating air and wind had also surfaced. Now, after several
weeks of practice, he had emerged as a true Aeromancer.
Hermione and Draco's fellow classmates had had varying degrees
of success with manipulating their own elements, but the only
person who was even close to approaching their skill level was
Luna Lovegood, who was showing real potential with her
manipulation of water.
As Draco and Hermione's abilities had increased, Professor Hong
had requested that they no longer sit near each other while they
were practicing, out of concern that their elements would collide in a
dangerous way. The irony of this situation was not lost on Draco.
Apparently, even his and Hermione's powers couldn't get too close
to each other without things getting out of hand.
It was near the end of class one Monday morning when the incident
occurred. Draco was practicing his Aeromancy, lazily causing a
dozen white feathers to float in the air in front of him. One of the
Hufflepuff students had accidentally burned himself while
attempting to manipulate fire and Professor Hong had escorted the
boy to the hospital wing, leaving the class momentarily
unsupervised.
"Don't worry, Granger," Draco said, leering at her, “I'm sure that if
you just ignore me long enough, I'll go away. That's how you like to
deal with all of your problems, isn't it? Just ignore them and pretend
they're not there."
Immediately, she stalked over to Draco, her chest heaving and her
brown eyes flashing with gold sparks of rage. She looked
uncharacteristically livid.
Draco also noted that Hermione looked very sexy when she was
angry. He couldn't decide whether he wanted to throttle her or snog
her senseless, and even in his distracted state of mind, he found it
rather odd that she could simultaneously ignite both of those
desires in him.
"You first, Granger," Draco said in a cool voice, surveying her with
feigned indifference. "After all, running away from a situation is what
you do best these days."
"You don't know what you're talking about," she hissed. "I've faced
bigger and more powerful opponents than you, Draco Malfoy. If you
insist on acting like a complete arse, you may get more than you
bargained for."
Draco merely folded his arms across her chest and gave her his
best Malfoy sneer.
Draco noticed that most of the class had evacuated the vicinity,
although Ginny, Dean, and Luna remained nearby, pleading with
them to stop, their words lost in the roar of the firestorm. But
suddenly, a deep, powerful voice managed to cut through the din.
"ENOUGH!"
Hermione was still standing roughly where she had been before,
looking just as stunned and soaked as he was, with her curls
dripping around her face in a bedraggled manner. The blaze he and
Hermione had created was gone, presumably smothered by the
sudden gush of water that had struck them both. Nothing but
blackened tiles and a cloud of smoke remained where the fiery
maelstrom had once been.
Draco finally noticed Luna Lovegood standing not far away, her
eyes wide, and the irises slightly bluer than usual - a vivid shade of
cerulean - before fading back to their usual cornflower color. As
Draco glanced around him, he saw that several of the buckets of
water the students had been practicing with were lying upturned
and empty on the floor. That was when he realized that Luna had
used her own skills to withdraw all the water from the buckets and
direct it towards dousing the out-of-control flames before they struck
Draco and Hermione.
The next thing Draco noticed was Professor Hong, coming to stand
imperiously before them. Although the instructor's face remained as
unyielding as usual, his eyes were flashing with fury. He was calm
and contained, yet intimidating in a way that reminded Draco of the
late Professor Dumbledore. His voice, when he spoke, was
surprisingly soft.
"What the two of you just did could have resulted in you or your
classmates being severely injured - or worse," he said. "I would
have expected more common sense and self-control for students of
your age and experience. I confess myself deeply disappointed in
your thoughtless, childish display here today."
"Twenty points shall be taken from each of your houses for your
reckless behavior," Professor Hong continued. "And you will each
write an essay - no less than three feet of parchment - on how to
safely and intelligently use elemental magic, to be handed in to me
by the end of the week. If you ever conduct yourselves in this
manner in my classroom again, you will be asked to leave and not
return. Do I make myself quite clear?"
Luna nodded, but did not smile in response to the awarded house
points. Her facial expression was much less distant and dreamy
than usual, and her gaze was shifting rapidly back and forth
between Draco and Hermione.
"Just stay away from me, Malfoy," she said in a surprisingly level
voice.
"Let her go, Draco," she gently implored. "I think she's too upset to
talk to you right now."
"Why did you do that to Hermione?" she asked him. As her voice
was void of any accusation, it appeared that her question was
motivated purely by curiosity.
"I... she... well, she was ignoring me," Draco said sullenly. Then he
scuffed his toe along the stone floor in discomfort, suddenly feeling
like a petulant child.
"I think Hermione cares about you very much, Draco, but I also
think that her feelings for you are confusing and a bit scary for her,
especially since she only broke up with Ron a few weeks ago. I
think you need to give her a little more time."
"Uh... riiiight," Draco drawled, thinking that there were a few other
words for what Luna had just told him - odd, disturbing, and likely to
be a complete figment of her father's dangerously overactive
imagination. "Look, Lovegood, I've got to go change out of these
wet clothes before my next class. I'll see you later, okay?"
With that he left the Great Hall and whisked through the corridors
on his way down to the dungeons, still feeling cantankerous. He
barked at any students who had the misfortune of straying into his
path, and those who opened their mouths to question him on the
state of his clothing were quickly silenced by his steely-eyed glare.
When he arrived in his dormitory and saw his scorched and sopping
wet reflection in the full length mirror hanging on the wall, it did
nothing to improve his mood. Glowering at the sight, he began
stripping off all of his damp clothes, and as he did so, his thoughts
returned to his altercation with Hermione. He was fuming with anger
- but this time he was just as angry with himself as he was with her.
As Draco ripped off his wet tie and ruined school robes, he thought
about Luna Lovegood's observations. Draco grudgingly understood
the Ravenclaw's point; Hermione had only been dumped by
Weasley a few weeks before, and he knew that there was
supposed to be some sort of "mourning period" after a relationship
ended before getting involved with someone else. He supposed that
snogging a new guy on the same day you broke up with your
boyfriend was generally frowned upon, at least by people with any
sense of decency (Draco wouldn't really know, having rarely been
afflicted with that particular malady in his lifetime). He also realized
that he should follow Luna's advice and be patient with Hermione,
but he was finding it impossible to do so, and that concerned him.
Draco sighed, tugging off his trousers and then removing his damp,
white shirt. For all his faults, he could be incredibly patient when he
needed to be. If he were acting rationally, he would simply lie in wait
until the right circumstances came along before trying to claim
Hermione's affections. Or he would orchestrate a subtle and
intricate plan to lure her into his arms. This is how he had won
many girls in the past.
The problem, he knew, was that it had been far too long since he
had been properly shagged. That would explain his apparent
inability to control himself around Hermione Granger. It had been
difficult, after his trial by the Wizengamot last spring, to find a girl
who was willing to shag a former Death Eater like him. Well, he had
never really been a full-fledged Death Eater, but he was so
ostracized by the Wizarding community that he might as well have
been.
Draco threw open the lid of his trunk and pulled out a fresh, dry
uniform and set of school robes. He pulled on his pants, but had not
yet begun to button up his shirt when he heard a soft knock on the
dorm room door.
Draco stomped over to the door and flung it open just wide enough
to stick out his head and glare at the diminutive blonde standing
outside.
With a resigned sigh, Draco held the door open for her and allowed
her inside, before letting it slam shut behind her. She jumped at the
loud sound, whipping around to face him. Her eyes widened when
she saw the expanse of bare chest peeking out between the folds
of his unbuttoned shirt, his skin scarcely darker than the white
material.
"A ‘little disagreement'? Draco, they said you both nearly blew up
the Great Hall."
"I care, Draco," she whispered. "I... I care because I care about
you."
Astoria tentatively reached out with her small hand to touch the
bare skin of his chest, running her fingers lightly across his
pectorals. Draco could not help himself from sucking in his breath at
the gentle contact. His eyes flashed up at the girl, looking at her as
if he were seeing her for the first time.
"It's a mistake to care about me, Astoria," he said, his voice dark
with warning. "I'm not exactly a nice person."
"I'm a Slytherin like you, Draco. ‘Nice' boys aren't exactly my cup of
tea."
She smiled up at him, her dark brown eyes brimming with desire.
Her intensity surprised Draco, considering that she was only sixteen
years old. Then again, when he was sixteen, he hadn't exactly been
a little cherub himself.
Looking angry and hurt, Astoria turned and stormed out of the
room, slamming the door shut behind her. Once she was gone,
Draco gave the door a frustrated kick.
At this rate, Draco was never going to be able to have sex again.
He thought it was really a crime against humanity - or the female
portion of it at least.
Since he had neglected to bring any gloves with him before leaving
the castle, his hands were freezing as they gripped his
Nimbus2001. Nevertheless, he briefly closed his eyes and enjoyed
the sensation of the cold air blowing against his face, ruffling his
hair. He realized now why his element was Wind. Somehow, his
mind was always so much clearer when he was fifty meters off of
the ground, leaving all of his concerns far below him. Yet, he had a
feeling that even if he flew high into the stratosphere, he wouldn't
be able to leave behind the predicament that was Hermione
Granger.
Draco shook his head. He knew that he had to find a way to tell
Hermione how he felt about her. But then again, what exactly did he
feel for her? Friendship? Certainly. Lust? He smirked to himself.
Well, obviously he felt that as well. But he had a feeling that lust
and friendship would not be enough for a girl like Hermione.
Eventually she would want something more, and Draco wasn't sure
if he could give it to her. He wasn't even sure he knew how. Luna
had said that she thought Hermione cared about him very much -
how much, exactly? And in what way?
Hermione had often heard the saying "absence makes the heart
grow fonder", but she had never really believed it until now. The
more she tried to avoid Draco, the more he seemed to plague her
thoughts. She found herself sneaking furtive glances at him during
mealtimes, in class, and when they passed in the halls. Whenever
she saw his platinum blond hair falling into his eyes, she had an
irrepressible urge to brush it off his face herself, remembering how
silky soft the locks had felt as they slipped between her fingers. And
that annoying habit he had of nibbling on his quill during classes
made her remember how it had felt to have him nibbling on her lips
instead.
Draco made a few more attempts to speak with Hermione, his tone
slightly apologetic, but she always denied him the opportunity to
complete a sentence. She wasn't exactly afraid of him doing
anything else out of line. She was more afraid of what she would do
- like drag him into a broom closet and snog him senseless.
Why was Astoria angry with Draco? She looked on as Draco sat
down to his breakfast. If he had noticed Astoria's miffed reaction to
his presence, then he made no sign of it. He did, however, give a
charming smile to the female occupants of his table, who were now
flashing him shy grins and batting their eyelashes in his direction. It
was nearly enough to make Hermione gag on the scrambled egg
she was trying to swallow. She knew it was that aura of danger he
possessed, which drew women to him like moths to a flame, and to
her dismay, she realized she was no better at resisting it than any
of those other girls were.
"I am a sad, stupid little moth," she muttered to herself, stabbing her
hotcakes with her fork as if she had to make sure they were dead
before eating them.
"What did you call yourself?" Ginny asked. Hermione realized she
had spoken her thoughts aloud, and her friend, who was sitting
across from her, was now looking at her as if she was crazy.
"You're right, Ginny," she said with a chuckle. "It has to be Malfoy's
owl."
"Shoo!" Hermione said to the owl, flapping her hand at him, though
keeping her fingers safely out of biting range. "I don't need you to
send a response. I'm done with you!"
With a disdainful hoot, the enormous bird took flight, making Ginny
yelp and duck as its claws nearly nailed her in the head during its
ascent.
"Well, you know Malfoy. He has to have the biggest and best of
everything," Hermione said, watching as the blond-haired boy gave
the owl a piece of his bacon, the bird swallowing it in one gulp.
She glanced over at the Slytherin table and was irritated to find
Draco calmly eating his supper as if he hadn't a care in the world. It
annoyed her that nothing ever seemed to bother him. Suddenly, he
finished eating and glanced up at her, giving her a significant look
before he stood and exited the Great Hall.
Hermione frowned. Clearly, Draco meant for her to follow him. Well,
she would just let him stew for a little while. She knew where to find
him, and the last thing she wanted to do was start things off with her
coming to him like an obedient lap dog. Pleased with her own
tenacity, she spent a few minutes leisurely cleaning off her dinner
plate before she headed outside to meet Draco.
As she left the Great Hall, she tugged her cloak over her shoulders.
She had changed into a comfortable pair of jeans and a pink jumper
after classes ended earlier that day, and when she opened the front
doors, she was glad she had chosen to dress warmly. The mid-
March air was damp and cool as she stepped outside, looking
around for Draco.
He was at the bottom of the steps, pacing back and forth. Hermione
allowed herself a small, pleased smile at his rare display of anxiety.
When he saw her, he paused and greeted her with a scowl.
"I hate to disappoint you, Malfoy, but I'll never be at your beck and
call like your little Slytherin girls," she said coolly, folding her arms
across her chest.
"No, of course you wouldn't be," he said. To her surprise, his scowl
faded, and his lips twitched as if he were resisting the urge to smile.
Then, suddenly, he grabbed her wrist and started tugging her along
behind him.
"Not to the Forbidden Forest!" she protested, hoping that was not
his intended destination. That certainly wouldn't be the place for a
private conversation - not when you could easily be overheard - and
killed - by werewolves, giant spiders, and tetchy centaurs.
Hermione had had too many personal experiences with that forest
to think entering it alone with Draco was a good idea.
"No, we're not going into the Forbidden Forest," Draco muttered.
"I'm not a complete idiot, you know."
He let go of her waist, but seized her wrist once more, pulling her
up the stone walkway towards a beautiful white cottage. On second
glance, Hermione thought that perhaps it was too big to be
considered a mere cottage. The building was well-kept, yet
weather-worn, with a slate roof and several flower beds that
Hermione assumed would be in full bloom within a few weeks' time.
It was somewhat warmer here, and she thought she could smell a
hint of salt in the air and hear waves crashing in the distance. She
knew they were likely still in Britain - recalling the limitations on
Apparition, Hermione did not think Draco could have Apparated out
of the country. The sky above was dark, however, and covered with
thick black clouds. Wherever they were, a storm was fast
approaching.
Draco rolled his eyes, calmly continuing towards the front door of
the house.
"My father is still under house arrest, and my mother never comes
here alone. The House-Elves only come every other weekend to
clean and they're not scheduled to come for this one, so we won't
be interrupted."
She turned and saw Draco standing several paces off to her side,
watching her reaction to what she saw. Immediately she closed her
mouth, which had been hanging open in wonder and delight.
"It's nice," she said simply, giving a nonchalant shrug.
"We used to come here every summer when I was growing up," he
said, leading her further into the house. "I've always liked it here. In
some ways it feels more like home to me than the Manor does.
Sometimes I still come here if I want to be alone for a bit, to clear
my thoughts."
"No, I didn't," he said, shaking his head. "I also brought you here to
talk about us."
"Us?" Hermione said nervously. "I don't know what you're talking
about - "
"Stop it!" he hissed. "Damn it, Granger, will you stop pretending that
kiss didn't happen?"
Draco was suddenly angry - even angrier than he had been during
their disastrous face-off in the Great Hall several weeks before. His
eyes were dark, mirror images of the roiling storm clouds above.
And then, almost as if his temper had willed it so, the heavens
opened up and a heavy rain pounded down onto them both,
soaking them within seconds.
"Lovely alliteration," Draco said with a sneer. "But now we're going
to talk about the topic that you've been trying to avoid for the past
month..."
"Forget it!" she shouted. "I'm going back to Hogwarts and I'm not
letting you stand in my way! Stupif - "
Before Hermione could finish issuing the curse, however, her wand
went sailing out of her hand and into Draco's waiting grasp.
"I was always a bit better at nonverbal spells than you were," he
murmured triumphantly, twirling her stolen wand between his
fingers.
"Just say what you have to say to me, Malfoy, so I can get out of
here and go home."
Apparently she had said the wrong thing, because Draco's anger
immediately flared up again. It seemed as if the calmer she was,
and the more she tried to distance herself from the situation at
hand, the more enraged he became. Hermione swallowed hard,
watching him as he slowly advanced on her. For the first time, she
found herself frightened of Draco, and she reflexively backed away
from him.
While she was familiar with Ron's temper, Draco's was a completely
different beast. Ron's outbursts generally ran a similar course each
time they were unleashed: he would turn red in the face and flail his
arms around, yelling until he was hoarse, but it was usually over
quickly. Draco, however, was cold, collected and completely
unpredictable - and in Hermione's opinion, that made him much
more dangerous.
"Look, you may be content to keep ignoring the giant pink hippogriff
in the room, but I'm sick of it," he spat, pacing back and forth like a
caged lion. "If you want to call that kiss a mistake then fine, go
ahead and call it that. Just quit denying that it ever happened."
"Okay then," Hermione said, willing her voice to be steady. "It was a
mistake."
"You're lying."
"No I'm not," she argued, but Draco shook his head.
Damn him for being right. He was able to read her like an open
book, but she still couldn't read him. Yes, she knew he was angry,
but she couldn't understand why...
"Are - are you saying you want me?" she guessed, her voice
squeaking in surprise as she realized the answer to her own
question. Draco rolled his eyes, and the familiar gesture eased
away some of her unease.
"You know, Granger, for someone who's supposed to be the
smartest witch of our age, you can be incredibly daft sometimes.
Yes - I want you, you silly, stubborn, impossible woman."
To her surprise, Draco stopped and let out a laugh that instantly
had her raising her hackles.
"At you, telling me to stay away while you have that ‘come hither'
look in your eyes," he said teasingly, before he lowered his voice
into a silkier tone. "You know what, Granger? I think you want me
just as much as I want you, and you're too scared to admit it."
Draco shook his head, coming to stand directly in front of her. If she
wanted to - and a part of her did - Hermione could have reached out
and touched him.
Suddenly, Draco tore his eyes away from hers and the spell
between them was broken.
Slowly, to show her that he did not intend to attack, Draco held out
her wand for her to take back. Hermione did so, relieved to have the
familiar stick of wood in her grasp once more. Then, she watched
as Draco took a few steps aside, leaving the way clear for her to
escape him at last.
Hermione stared at him. What did she want? Her gaze raked over
the measuring look in his steel grey eyes, the blond hair plastered
against his forehead, dripping down into his face. She took in the
black turtleneck and tailored black pants he wore beneath his cloak,
all the material now slicked against his body from the rain, hinting at
the subtle musculature beneath. She felt it was unfair that he was
doing this, giving her just one moment in time to make a decision
that could have long-lasting emotional consequences - at least for
her. She knew how easy it was for him to move from one girl to the
next, tossing the last one away like a pair of old shoes. But is that
how it would be with her? Did she have any reason to believe that
Draco would act differently if she was the one sharing his bed?
And with all the recklessness of a diver leaping off of a cliff into the
sea, Hermione stepped forward, grabbed Draco roughly by the front
of his shirt, and pulled his face down so that her lips were crushed
against his. She kissed him fiercely for a few moments, hardly
giving him a chance to react. Finally, his arms uncoiled and
wrapped around her, pulling her closer so that her body aligned
perfectly with his, like two pieces of a puzzle locking into place.
Heat radiated outwards from his body and seeped into her skin,
despite all the layers of wet clothing between them. Soon, he was
kissing her back with an intensity that matched her own.
"Do you remember that day in Defense Against the Dark Arts when
we first learned about elemental magic?" he whispered, trailing his
index finger along her rain-slicked cheek. "I guessed that you would
be a Pyromancer, and you wondered how I knew."
"Even if you're a war hero and a good little Gryffindor, I've always
had a feeling that there was more to you than that. Somehow I
knew that if given half a chance, you wouldn't mind playing with
fire."
Draco gave her a sly grin, and Hermione thought she might achieve
spontaneous combustion right then and there.
"Well," she murmured, “you know what happens when you play with
fire, right?"
And then Draco's mouth was crashing down once more, capturing
hers in a devouring kiss that shot through her body like fire itself.
The storm continued to rage all around them, a blur of rain and
wind, thunder and lightning, clouds and crashing waves – none of
which could touch them, protected as they were inside the invisible
globe of Draco's powers. It was like being in the eye of a hurricane;
Hermione felt temporarily safe, but uncertain of what lay ahead. At
that moment she realized that what happened between them was,
in a way, impossible to control. And so, for the first time in her life,
she finally let go, content just to exist.
Dimly, she noticed that the rain and the wind were fading away, and
that he had carried her back inside the house. Draco pressed her
up against a wall for a moment, pulling his lips away to catch his
breath. Hermione still clung to him, frantically working at the clasp
on his travel cloak until she had released it and thrown the dripping
black garment to the floor. Then she did the same with her own
cloak. She made to pull up Draco's jumper next, but before she
could lift the material, he was kissing her again. His lips trailed to
her neck, running all the way down to the base of her throat, and
then back up again to suckle the sensitive skin beneath her ear.
Hermione's eyes fell closed and she let out a low moan, her hips
jerking involuntarily against Draco's. He cursed under his breath,
and suddenly they were moving again, and he was carrying her
down a corridor and up a staircase. During their ascent, Hermione
pulled away from him just enough to tug her pink jumper off over
her head, letting it drop to the ground in some random second-story
hallway.
Finally, Draco kicked open a door to enter a dark chamber, and with
a wave of his wand, several candles came to life, filling the room
with their faint, flickering glow. Hermione had a quick glimpse of
cream and gold wallpaper, gauzy curtains, and a large, wrought-
iron bed before she was plopped down into the center of it. Falling
onto the fluffy white duvet was like sinking into a cloud.
Draco was leaner than Ron was, and she could see the faint outline
of his ribs, but his chest and shoulders still rippled with lanky
muscle as he moved. His rain-drenched flesh shimmered in the
candlelight, and his skin was pale and flawless, making him look as
if he were chiseled from white marble - a living, breathing version of
one of Michelangelo's statues.
Draco bent down to remove her trainers and soggy socks, plopping
them down on the floor. Then he unzipped her blue jeans and
attempted to peel them off of her legs, but the damp material clung
to her limbs like glue, and despite his impatient tugs, he was unable
to remove them.
"Damn you, Draco Malfoy," Hermione groaned. "If you keep teasing
me like this, I swear I'll use Avada Kedavra on you. Take your pants
off. Now."
But when Draco tossed his wand on the nightstand and crawled
back onto the bed to straddle her hips, she forced herself to push
the thought out of her mind. It was amazing really, how Draco could
anchor her to the present, prevent her thoughts from drifting to the
past or the future, and keep her focused on living in the moment.
Ron had left her - that was his choice. And as much as it still broke
her heart, she felt helpless to control the new emotions that Draco
was unleashing in her. Afraid of being torn apart by her conflicting
thoughts, she shut down thought all together and focused on
simply feeling.
Hermione arched her hips, which were still encased in her blue
cotton panties, and dragged her heat along Draco's length,
concealed behind his silk boxers. She smirked triumphantly as his
whole body responded with a spasm of pleasure.
"It's okay," she whispered, her words heavy and slurred with desire.
"For tonight, this is enough for me."
"Thanks for the new nickname, but I think that's blasphemy," she
teased, gasping as he turned his head to trace the shell of her ear
with his tongue, his breath hot and moist against the side of her
face.
"Cocky little wench," Draco murmured, capturing her earlobe
between his teeth, giving it a gentle tug that was echoed in her
nether regions. Hermione dug her fingers into his shoulders,
clinging to him as if she was adrift in a turbulent sea and he was her
life raft. She felt like they were still in the center of a raging storm,
and she and Draco were the only solid things in the world,
everything else having melted away into a swirling abyss of wind,
water, and darkness.
Draco opened his eyes, only to find his vision obscured by several
locks of curly brown hair. With his free arm, he reached up to brush
the hair away and saw the naked, sleeping form of Hermione
Granger lying on her side with her body pressed against his, one of
her legs flung over his hips. As Draco stared at her, all of the events
of the night before came crashing down on him. The memories of
what he and Hermione had done caused other parts of his body to
awaken as well, and he took a deep breath and forced his body to
remain still so as not to awaken her.
Hermione was in a deep sleep, her cheek nestled on his chest and
her lips slightly parted. She was breathing softly, and Draco took
this opportunity to study her more closely. She looked almost
angelic in her sleep. Her curls had started to frizz from the humidity,
and they formed a soft halo around her head, catching the morning
light that was now streaming through the window.
His gaze wandered appreciatively down to her slender, yet curvy
body. If he had thought her beautiful while clothed, then she was
positively glorious when she was unclothed. He lightly traced the
dip of her waist and the soft skin of her flank, noting the light olive
tone of her skin, in contrast with his pale hand. Beneath his gentle
touch, he could feel her begin to stir, and that was when he started
to panic.
How would Hermione react when she woke up and found herself
lying naked in a bed with Draco Malfoy? He recalled the previous
two times when she had kissed him in that abandoned classroom
back at Hogwarts and remembered that both occasions had
concluded with her running away from him as fast as her legs could
carry her. Would she act the same way when she awoke this
morning? Would she immediately regret their passionate tryst, flee
from his arms, and never speak to him again?
"Are you always this grumpy in the morning?" she asked archly. "Or
am I just getting special treatment?"
"Yes, you?"
"Yes."
"Hmm?"
"I don't know your middle name."
"Well..." Hermione paused, shyly avoiding his gaze, "I don't know if
this is just a Muggle thing or not, but I've always heard that you
shouldn't sleep with someone unless you know their middle name
first. It's a sign that you know them well enough to be intimate."
"That's one of the most ridiculous things I've ever heard. Besides, I
think it's a bit too late for that, isn't it?"
"Quit dodging the question," she said, poking him in the ribs. "Look,
I'll even tell you mine first. It's Jean. Now what's your middle
name?"
"Draco Orion Malfoy," Hermione said, testing out the name with a
thoughtful expression on her face. "It's interesting how your family
likes to use the names of stars and constellations: Sirius, Regulus,
Bellatrix....Do you think when you have kids someday, you'll
continue the tradition?"
"But there are other perks to make up for it," he murmured, bending
down to trace the line of her jaw with his lips.
Draco groaned into the crook of Hermione's neck. The ache in his
groin was begging to be sated, and he was having an extremely
hard time picturing pink hippogriffs with Hermione's naked body
lying beneath his.
"It’s grey.” He raised his head so that he could grace her with one of
his trademark sneers. "And I suppose your favorite color is
Gryffindor red, right?'
"That's right. You wore blue dress robes at the Yule Ball in fourth
year."
"You actually remember what I wore to the Yule Ball four years
ago?" she asked.
Draco ducked his head back down so that she wouldn't see the
slight flush spreading over his cheeks. Why was it that Hermione
seemed to be the only person on the planet who was capable of
turning him into a bumbling idiot? Of course he had noticed what
she'd worn to the Yule Ball...nearly every boy in Hogwarts had
noticed her that night. Even though he supposed to have hated her
back then, he was still a hot-blooded male, and he had thought she
looked beautiful. It was the first time he had thought of her as more
than just one of Harry Potter's lackeys.
"I - what?"
"It's just the way Professor McGonagall looked at me when she said
you should share it with others...I thought that maybe - "
Draco tried to hide his triumphant smirk when his tongue finally
found the ultra-sensitive place he was seeking, and Hermione
nearly lurched off the bed at his touch. Anything she had to say
after that point was basically non-coherent and punctuated by little
gasps and moans as Draco added his fingers to the artful motions
of his mouth. He watched her grasp the wrought-iron headboard in
a white-knuckled grip, as if trying to anchor herself as she writhed
beneath his ministrations.
The night before, Draco had been so distracted by his own pleasure
that he had been unable to fully appreciate the flicker of emotions
that played across Hermione's face as she climaxed. However, now
he was able to drink in the sight of her flushed cheeks and slightly
parted lips as she reached her peak and came crashing over the
other side of it with a low, keening cry....And pink hippogriffs be
damned, he did not think a cold shower was going to be enough to
dispel the surge of heat that he experienced upon seeing the way
she looked at him at that moment. Her eyes were dark with desire,
deepening to a warm umber color. They also glowed in a way that
was reminiscent of how they looked when she was conjuring fire,
though he knew she was not about to do that now - or at least he
hoped not. He had a feeling that those feather-down pillows were
highly flammable.
"Was that one of those ‘perks' you were talking about?" Hermione
asked when her breathing had stilled enough to enable her to
speak.
Hermione's scowl faded into a slightly smug smile as she eyed the
very obvious source of his discomfort. Then to his dismay, she sat
up and hopped out of the bed.
"I think I'm going to take a shower," she said airily, torturing Draco
with a slight sway of her hips as she walked across the room and
disappeared into the adjacent bath suite.
After they were dressed, Hermione used one of the reserve owls
that Draco's family kept on the property, and sent a letter to Ginny
explaining that she had gone to visit her parents, knowing that her
friend was probably worried sick about her sudden disappearance
the night before. Draco doubted that any of his Slytherin friends
would be overly concerned about his absence, as he had a habit of
coming and going unannounced on the weekends, so he did not
bother with sending any missives to Hogwarts.
After they were finished eating, Draco helped Hermione carry the
dirty plates and mugs over to the sink where she enchanted a scrub
brush to clean them. Then she leaned against the counter, gazing
out the window at the beautiful white chalk cliffs that were now
gleaming in the morning sun. The storm from the night before had
blown over, and the sky was clear and blue, but Hermione's facial
expression seemed troubled as she stared unseeingly at the scene,
lost in her thoughts.
Afterward, Draco could not say what compelled him to do it, but he
found himself standing behind Hermione and looping his arms
around her waist, bending down to plant a kiss on the top of her
head. There was nothing sensual about his actions, and indeed, he
had no plans for them to escalate any further. He simply wanted to
hold her, and be close to her, and it puzzled him because he had
never had that particular desire with any other girl in the past.
"Perhaps I could give you a tour of the rest of the house?" Draco
asked casually, cutting her off. He was eager to distract them both
from the awkward moment that had just occurred.
"Sure," she said, following his lead and adopting a light tone.
They spent the next half hour with Draco showing Hermione the
numerous delights of the Malfoy summer home, and he was
pleased with her reaction to each room that he showed her. She
loved the brightness of the parlor, painted in a light yellow hue, and
she admired the rich mahogany furniture in the formal dining room.
He saved the library for last, knowing that she would be more
enthralled with that room than with any other. Her reaction did not
disappoint.
"If I show you one more thing, do you promise you won't tell anyone
about it?" Draco asked in a serious tone. "Do you promise you won't
tell your Auror-in-training Potter or any of your other friends at the
Ministry?"
"Alright, I promise."
Draco scanned her face for a few seconds, just to make sure she
was speaking the truth, and then he turned to one of the
bookshelves lining the walls of the library. He tapped a particular
book three times with his wand, muttering the proper incantation
under his breath. As he finished the incantation, the bookshelf
suddenly swung open, revealing a large stone archway in the wall
behind it.
Hermione gasped.
"A secret tunnel?" she whispered, as she gazed into the darkness
beyond.
"Ah, so that's where we are! Yes I've heard of them. They were dug
out beneath the cliffs during the Middle Ages, right? As a place to
hide troops and supplies for the armies that guarded the coast from
invasion?"
Draco nodded, stepping into the tunnel and gesturing for her to
follow. She did so with only the slightest hint of reluctance, lighting
her own wand as they began to descend a narrow, circular stone
staircase into the blackness below.
"You don't like it down here in the dark, do you?" she asked.
"You're claustrophobic?"
"Well, if your fear of small spaces isn't your greatest fear, then what
is?" she asked.
Draco rolled his eyes when he realized she had decided to resume
her earlier game of "twenty questions".
Draco spent the next hour giving Hermione a tour of the labyrinth,
showing her the other, less savory books that were secreted there,
which yielded an amusing reaction from Hermione, causing her lip
to curl with disgust while her eyes flashed with begrudged interest.
He also showed her the stone chamber in which Lucius Malfoy had
hidden the remains of his Dark Arts collection. Although he greatly
respected his father, the rebellious streak in Draco found it
entertaining to imagine what Lucius would think of his own son
leading a Muggle-born witch through these tunnels, showing her his
secret stash of magical contraband items. Hermione shook her
head and clucked her tongue at the impressive display of
dangerous and potentially lethal artifacts.
"Yes, but these things are still dangerous and he should really turn
them over to the Ministry...What's this?" she asked suddenly,
reaching out to touch a solid glass box containing a tiny vial of
glowing green liquid. Draco instantly seized her hand and dragged it
away from the object.
"Yes, ancient Chinese wizards invented it ages ago, but the recipe
has been lost over time, and no one knows how to make it
anymore," Draco said. "So that's a very old sample. My mother's
father, Cygnus Black, managed to procure this vial from one of his
shady connections in Shanghai, and he gave it to my parents as
part of their wedding present. There's a protective charm placed
over the glass box, so only a special password can remove it. You
could drop an anvil on that box and it wouldn't shatter - that's what
keeps it safe."
"I don't know," Draco said with a shrug. "My Grandfather had the
protective box made for it, and I assume he told my parents the
password. For some reason, they never trusted me enough to
share it with me."
"I wonder why?" Hermione said with a sarcastic snort, and Draco
couldn't help but grin in response.
"Come on, there's one last thing I want to show you," he said,
leading her back out into the dark, winding tunnels. "I think you'll
like this."
The way became narrower and darker as they walked into the
oldest and deepest portion of the tunnels, which had been carved
out in ancient times. The ceiling was so low here, that Draco had to
duck his head at times to keep from hitting it on the stone surface,
and he found his breath quicken as the walls closed in on either
side of him.
Suddenly, the tunnel reached a dead end, and the two of them
stepped into a pitch-black cave that was too massive for their
meager wand-light to fully illuminate. Draco waved his wand over a
cistern to the right of the cave entrance and with a muttered
"Incendio," a dozen cisterns throughout the chamber were suddenly
alight with flames. Hermione gasped and stared in awe at what the
firelight revealed.
The cave walls were smooth and black, covered with hundreds of
ancient drawings that seemed to sparkle as if they were painted on
with a paste made of crushed diamonds. More interesting than that,
the images actually moved, much like the paintings at Hogwarts did.
As it always happened when he entered this space, Draco felt a
shiver run down his spine, letting him know that he was in the
presence of powerful magic.
She walked around the cave, and then paused beside a large stone
altar that was placed in the center of the cave.
"Ah, so there is an altar in the Malfoy summer home," she said, her
mouth quirking into an odd little smirk. "Although there are no
bloodstains on it, I see."
"Ah." Well that explained why Draco didn't know about handfasting.
Despite his relatively in-depth knowledge of wizard history, he had
never taken interest in any topics related to love and marriage.
"Then the couple would have their hands tied to each other's with a
piece of cloth or a cord to demonstrate the bond they were creating
between them," she continued, pausing before one picture that
showed a man and a woman standing with their wrists bound
together. "Sometimes the bonds were removed at the end of the
ceremony, and other times not until after the marriage was...erm,
consummated. It's my guess that the couple was left alone in this
cave after the ceremony was over, in order to seal the new bond
between them."
"When the married couple's hands were bound together during the
handfasting, they formed two interlocking circles, like this,"
Hermione said. "It's the mathematical symbol for infinity, and also
symbolizes the sun and the moon, and male and female."
"My Latin is terrible," she said, "but I think this says - "
"Well, it's a common line used to close a pagan ceremony. The bit
about the circle being open generally means that the magic that we
draw upon is available wherever we go, and the part about the
circle being unbroken means that the power is always carried within
us. However, I think that in this case, the ancient wizards were also
referring to love - it is open because it is always available to us, if
we're willing to let it in, and it is unbroken because of its infinite
power."
"You sound like Professor Hong, going on and on about how ‘love
is the most powerful force in the world", Draco said, rolling his eyes
to make sure Hermione understood how ridiculous he thought this
theory was.
"I think it's true," Hermione said slowly, her brow lowering into a
frown. "Love is the most powerful force in the world. Love is what
saved Harry from Voldemort's attack all those years ago, when his
mother died to save him. Love is what allowed Harry to walk into
the Forbidden Forest and hand his life over to Voldemort seventeen
years after that. And love for Harry's mother is what enabled
Severus Snape to turn to the light and help Dumbledore protect
Harry..."
"Even if that were true, Lily Potter didn't love Snape in return. She
chose another man - married that other man and had a child with
him. Then she died, and Snape still went on carrying a torch for her,
and sacrificed his life, but for what? A ghost? The memory of a
woman who never wanted him? That doesn't sound like love to me.
Sounds more like lunacy."
"What, you mean cupids and valentines and all that tripe?" he
asked in a disgusted tone.
"What do you mean by that?" Draco said testily, grabbing her by the
arm and forcing her to face him again. She squirmed out of his grip,
scowling up at him.
"I mean that if you had ever really been in love you'd realize it was
more than ‘cupids and valentines and all that tripe'", she said
fiercely, and Draco was surprised to see tears springing to her
eyes. "You would know...you would know what it really is."
"Please, don't," she wrenched out. "I'm so sorry. I'm so very sorry."
"You still love him, don't you?" he murmured. He did not need to
specify which "him" he was referring to. Hermione's sobs grew in
intensity.
"I'm so sorry," she repeated. "It's just that Ron didn't want
me...but you did."
Draco froze, feeling a fresh wave of anger wash over him at these
words.
"So you just used me, is that it?" he spat out. It was a cruel sort of
irony, he thought, considering all of those women he had used
throughout the years. Hermione shook her head vehemently in
response to his question.
Now Draco had no idea what to feel. Part of him still felt angry
about how Hermione had slept with him, even though she still had
feelings for Weasley. Then part of him felt guilty, because after all,
hadn't he forced her to make a decision, even though it was only
one month since she had broken up with someone she had clearly
loved for a long time? He also felt confused because he couldn't
understand why her persistent love for Weasley bothered him so
much. Did this mean that he wanted her to love him instead? He
shook his head, deciding that that line of thought was one he should
not pursue at the present moment.
The final emotion Draco experienced was, for him, the strangest
one of all: compassion. His whole life he had been trained to shut
down compassion. His father had always told him that compassion,
like fear, was a weakness that could be exploited by an enemy, and
so Draco had learned to lock that emotion away behind some
hidden door in his heart. He thought he had thrown away the key to
that door many years ago, but somehow, this curly-haired witch had
found a way to unlock it and open it just enough for some
compassion to slip through the cracks at last.
Hermione nodded and they turned to exit the cave. At the stone
archway leading out into the tunnels, Draco raised his wand,
preparing to snuff out the flames in the cisterns lining the
handfasting temple. He paused, taking in the sight of all the
conjoined couples drawn on the walls, the overlapping hands, the
figure-eight symbols that represented infinite love. A small, slowly-
awakening part of him wondered if he could ever experience that
sort of love.
As for the handfasting rituals and symbols, all of those are also real.
I researched handfasting and related pagan rituals at this site
here: Handfasting info. Interesting stuff, that. The ancient rituals
usually took place outdoors, but I've modified it to allow for indoor
ceremonies that used to occur in the cave beneath the Malfoy
summer home. Besides, who's to say that ancient wizards didn't do
things a little differently? ;)
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Chapter 13: Fear of Heights by atalanta84
Darest thou now, O Soul,
Walk out with me toward the Unknown Region,
Where neither ground is for the feet, nor any path to follow?
For just one night, Hermione had accomplished something that she
had never been able to do before - she had shut off all of her
thoughts and acted purely on instinct. In doing so, she had spent an
amazing night with Draco - even now, the memory of it made her
blood run faster and hotter through her veins. The following
morning, however, she had been plagued with doubts. A part of her
hoped that maybe she and Draco could put that night behind them,
writing it off as a momentary lapse of sanity; but then he had come
up to her after breakfast and wrapped his arms around her in an
affectionate, completely non-sexual way....It was strikingly similar to
how Ron used to hold her, and by accepting that embrace from
Draco, Hermione had felt like she was committing some sort of
betrayal....
"Hermione, are you all right?" Ginny asked her the moment she
entered their dorm room. Hermione was glad that none of the other
Seventh Year girls were present at the moment.
"Yes, just tired," she mumbled, collapsing face down on her bed
with a sigh.
"What, do you think I was born yesterday?" Ginny said, crossing her
arms over her chest and giving Hermione one of her hard looks.
"You and Malfoy both disappeared after dinner last night, and I very
much doubt that you invited him to your parents' for tea. So where
were you really?"
"WHAT!?"
"Yeah."
Hermione groaned and buried her face in her hands, knowing her
reaction would answer the question for her. She couldn't believe
she was sharing this with Ginny, the sister of her ex-boyfriend, but
she really had no one else to confide in. If she kept her feelings for
Draco a secret much longer, she thought they would eat her alive
from the inside out.
Hermione shook her head, her face still hidden behind her hands.
"No, he was a gentleman...well, at least as much of a gentleman as
Draco can be. He was actually...sweet."
"I just don't know what to say, other than ‘what were you thinking?'"
"I don't know!" Hermione moaned. "I don't know what's gotten into
me lately! I've just been feeling so lonely and confused since Ron
and I broke up, and when I'm with Draco ...It's like I'm a different
person. I behave irrationally, and I don't stop to think about the
consequences."
"No, I'm not completely over Ron. I don't know if I'll ever really stop
loving him."
"Then, what do you feel for Malfoy? Do you love him, too?"
"I just don't know how I feel about anything anymore! With Ron, I
knew how I felt, and I knew that I loved him, but things are so much
more complicated with Draco! I don't think I love him.... It would be
crazy to love him because he could never love me, seeing that I'm a
Muggleborn and he's absolutely forbidden to love me."
Hermione fell back on her bed and covered her face with her hands,
wishing she could close the curtains on her four-poster, shut out the
world, and hibernate for a few months until everything had blown
over. Of course, reality would not permit such an easy solution to
her problem. She would have to face Draco again, and live with the
consequences of her rash decision to sleep with him the night
before.
"You're right, Ginny," Hermione said at last. "I really need to have a
talk with Draco. In the meantime, you cannot breathe a word of this
to Ron or Harry. This is already too much for me to handle, and the
last thing I need is to have to explain myself to those two as well."
Ginny frowned and said, "I don't like keeping secrets from my
boyfriend, Hermione...or my brother, for that matter."
"Hey, I think it's only fair that I ask you to keep my sex life a private
matter. Besides, I never discuss that sort of thing with Harry, and
Ron lost the right to be involved when he broke up with me."
"Well, then I'll just have to swear her to secrecy when she does,"
Hermione said resolutely. "Somehow I don't think the world is ready
to accept the idea that Hermione Granger and Draco Malfoy
shagged last night. To be honest, I don't know if I'm ready to accept
the idea myself."
"We are. I just thought maybe, when we're done talking, we could
do something else."
"Such as?"
His grin widening, Draco pulled his hands out from behind his back
to reveal his Nimbus2001. As soon as Hermione saw the broom
and realized his intentions, she took several steps backward,
shaking her head so hard she thought she might get whip-lash.
"Oh yes."
"I don't think so, Malfoy. There is absolutely no way I'm getting on a
broomstick with you!"
Hermione shook her head in disbelief, recalling how Ron had tested
out that theory with her once before. After weeks of pleading, he
had finally coaxed Hermione into flying with him, and the
experiment had not ended well. She and Ron had ended up back
on the ground in the midst of a blazing row, and her last words on
the subject had included her telling him exactly where he could put
that broomstick of his.
"Somehow I don't think flying with you is the best way for me to get
over my fear," Hermione said.
"Nonsense, the best way to conquer your fear is to face it head
on..." Draco hesitated for a moment, and his next words were
spoken in a more serious tone. "...And that brings us to another
important topic."
"No, Hermione, I'm the one who should apologize," Draco said,
waving his hand to silence her speech. "I don't think I was fair to
you last night. I shouldn't have forced you to make such an
important decision on the spot like that. I...I understand that you still
lo- that you still have feelings for Weasley."
Draco stumbled over these last words, a brief frown crinkling his
brow before he continued.
"I can't say exactly what I feel for you, but I know that it's more than
lust, or even just friendship. Yes, I want you physically..." he
smirked somewhat, and Hermione felt her cheeks flush, "...but I
also know that I like being around you, spending time with you -
even when we're both fully clothed. And I can't say that about most
other women, believe me."
Hermione couldn't help but give him a small smile as he said this,
and he smiled briefly in return. Then, the smile disappeared from
his face, and he became more reticent.
"I don't know if I can ever love you - and it's not because you're a
Muggleborn," he added quickly, seeing the flash in her eyes. "It's
because of who I am. I don't really know if I'm capable of
loving any woman in that way. However, I also know that I could
never marry you, and that is because you're a Muggleborn."
"Draco Malfoy, since when did you start being such an honest
man?" she asked.
"I suppose I've been spending too much time with you damn
Gryffindors," he said. "Apparently honesty is highly contagious."
"Look," she said, "I'm not really sure what I feel for you, either, but I
also know that it's more than just lust. I'd like to see what could
develop between us, but I don't know if that's possible, considering
that we both know it would have to end eventually. You may find it
easy to live in the moment, but that's something I'm still struggling
to learn."
"Maybe you just need a few more lessons," Draco said, stepping
tentatively closer to her. "This may surprise you, but I can be a
pretty good teacher when I want to be."
"I'm willing to give this a try, but there is one thing we need to set
straight first. And that is that I don't want to go rushing the physical
aspect of our...lessons. From now on, I need for us to move more
slowly before we, erm...."
"All right, all right, I'm sorry!" Draco said. "I don't understand why all
of a sudden, you're so squeamish talking about sex. You didn't
seem like such a prude last night."
"Okay, calm down. I promise we'll take things slow, all right? Don't
get your knickers in a twist...or I may just have to remove them.
Okay, I'm done! I swear!"
"Now, for the next order of business," Draco said, raising his
eyebrows at her.
"I told you, I don't think flying with you is a good idea. Can't we find
some other way to conquer my fear of heights? Like going on a
Ferris wheel?"
"A what?"
"A Ferris wheel - it's a Muggle thing where you sit in this little box
and it makes you ride around on a big metal circle that's suspended
off of the ground."
Draco let his broom hover in the air in front of him as he swung one
leg over it and straddled the handle. He turned to Hermione
expectantly, holding out his hand to her. With a resigned sigh, she
accepted his hand, allowing him to help her onto the broom so that
she was sitting in front of him. His feet were still on the ground, but
since she was so much shorter than him, hers were dangling above
it. Draco wrapped his left arm around her waist, bracing his right
hand on the broomstick in front of her.
"Alright, I'm going to keep one arm around you at all times, and
we're going to go very slowly, okay?"
"Not really," she muttered, "but as much as I'll ever be. Let's do
this."
This isn't so bad, she thought to herself, starting to relax. I've gone
higher than this when I played two-a-side Quidditch at the Burrow
with Ron, Harry, and Ginny.
"How are you doing?" Draco asked her after awhile. "Ready to go a
little higher?"
Encouraged by her action, Draco bent down to nuzzle her ear with
his lips. He began stroking her hip with his left hand, and when he
started to suck on her earlobe, Hermione closed her eyes and
gasped with pleasure. She gripped the broom handle to steady
herself, and with her eyes closed, she did not realize that she had
accidentally assumed control of the broom's direction.
Hermione opened her eyes and screamed when she saw that they
were currently plunging towards the earth with jaw-dropping speed.
Thankfully, Draco managed to wrench her hands off of the broom
handle and resume control of their flight, straightening them out
mere meters before they crashed. With impressive finesse, he
brought them down to a gentle landing on the school grounds, but
Hermione was near the point of hysteria.
"I told you this was a terrible idea!" she shrieked, leaping off of the
broom and jabbing one finger in his chest. "I told you, but you
wouldn't listen to me! We could have been killed! We were mere
seconds from crashing - and Draco Malfoy, wipe that stupid smirk
off your face this instant or I swear you'll regret it....We are never
doing that again! Never, EVER again!"
"Okay," Draco said calmly. "So same time, same place, tomorrow
night?"
For some reason, and she thought it was most likely due to the fact
that her near-death experience had dislodged a crucial portion of
her brain, Hermione did agree to go flying with Draco the following
evening. However, she strictly forbade him to try touching her in any
way that was not completely necessary to keep her on the broom -
in other words, no kissing, groping, stroking, or nibbling. To her
relief, Draco obeyed her rules to the letter, and there were no more
mishaps during their flight.
Once Draco had landed them back down on top of the Astronomy
Tower, he gave her a brief, feather-light kiss before saying
goodnight and disappearing down the stairwell. Hermione knew she
had been the one to establish the "let's take things slow" clause, but
his kiss definitely left her wanting more. Of course, she knew that
was probably the whole point. While she was an intelligent and
strategic planner, she understood that if she was playing this sort of
game with a Slytherin, especially a Slytherin as cunning as Draco
Malfoy, she was bound to be out of her league.
For the rest of the week, they continued to fly together every
evening. Sometimes they would fly in companionable silence, and
on other occasions they would have stimulating debates about
everything from Arithmantic Theories to the Ministry's latest laws for
improving the social integration of Muggleborns.
Once Draco's lips brushed against hers, Hermione laced her fingers
through his blonde locks and pulled his face closer to hers,
deepening the kiss. Draco made a small sound of surprise in the
back of his throat, but wasn't caught off guard for long. He
immediately slid his hands down her back, pulling her body more
tightly against his, while he swept his tongue into her mouth.
Hermione groaned at his touch, noticing that Draco's hands were
slowly starting to wander underneath her jumper. Her mind was
flooded with memories of how good it had felt that one night when
there were no clothes between them, when she had felt the heat of
his skin against hers...
"Sorry, that was too fast, I know," Draco said. He didn't seem overly
surprised with Hermione's withdrawal from their kiss, and she
supposed he had been expecting it.
"It's all right," Hermione murmured, a bit woozily. "It takes two to
tango."
"I know that," Draco said, frowning as if she had somehow insulted
his intelligence. "But what the hell does the tango have to do with
this?"
"I knew that, too," he said, before sauntering back into the castle.
Hermione thought that whatever game she and Draco were playing,
he was definitely winning.
"Remember to focus all of your powers on the object that you are
trying to levitate. Instead of using your wand to concentrate the
force of your magic, you must create a mental pathway between
yourself and the object. See how Miss Granger and Mr. Malfoy are
doing it? Excellent attempt, Miss Weasley! I think your feather lifted
a good two centimeters just then."
Before Draco could issue one of his usual sarcastic retorts, he was
interrupted by Ginny.
"Hey, Malfoy, there's something I've been meaning to ask you," the
redhead announced.
"You know that upside-down barrel roll you used in the Quidditch
match against us in November? Do you think you could show me
how to do it? I thought it might be a useful skill for a Chaser as well,
and since the Holyhead Harpies tryout is only a few months
away..."
"All right," Ginny agreed, going back to her attempts to levitate her
feather.
"Don't worry," he said with a wink, "I won't conclude my lessons with
Little Weasley in quite the same way that I conclude yours."
"You'd better not," Hermione said, only half joking, "because if you
do, Harry and I would make you regret it. You may have held me off
once or twice in the past, but I don't think you could handle both
me and an Auror."
"Hey!" Draco yelped, and soon the whole class was laughing at
Hermione's successful attempt at wand-less levitation.
"Show off," Draco grumbled, scowling and folding his arms across
his chest.
She was distracted from her thoughts when an owl swooped down
to deliver the early edition of the Daily Prophet. Hermione unrolled
her newspaper and skimmed through the pages to see if there was
anything of interest. Thankfully, with the war over, the news had
become much less depressing, but it had also become a bit boring.
Nowadays, the pages of the Daily Prophet were full of nothing more
than idle gossip and the latest scandals, and this edition was no
different. Hermione sipped her morning coffee as she flipped
through the pages, rolling her eyes at some of the articles, and only
pausing to read a few.
She turned to page six, and nearly spit out her coffee when she saw
the black-and-white photograph that took up half of the page.
The picture was obviously taken from the street outside of a fancy
restaurant, and through the window of the restaurant, there was a
young couple sitting across the dinner table from each other. As
Hermione watched, the man in the photo leaned over to tuck a lock
of hair behind the woman's ear, and plant a lingering kiss on her
lips. The associated article, written by none other than Rita Skeeter,
carried the following title: "Corianna Warbeck, Daughter of Famed
Crooner Celestina Warbeck, Finds New Boy-Toy."
Hermione studied the picture once more, her heart pounding in her
chest. She had never seen Corianna Warbeck before, though she
supposed she was a rather pretty girl, with long, wavy hair and big
doe eyes. However, the man in the photo, whom Rita Skeeter had
referred to as Corianna's new "boy-toy", was someone Hermione
would have recognized anywhere.
It was Ron.
End Notes:
Of course, the "Pride and Prejudice" quote belongs to the
unsurpassable Jane Austen, not me.
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Chapter 14: Defying Gravity by atalanta84
And indeed there will be time
To wonder, "Do I dare?" and, "Do I dare?"
Time to turn back and descend the stair…
Do I dare
Disturb the universe?
In a minute there is time
For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse.
"You knew?" she asked sharply, her voice tinged with accusation.
"You knew about this two weeks ago, and you never told me about
it!?"
"I understand, Ginny. I'm sorry for getting angry. I'm just so stunned
by all of this."
Ginny nodded and sat down on the edge of Hermione's bed, putting
a reassuring hand on her shoulder.
"I'm sorry I had to keep it a secret from you. If it's any consolation,
Corianna is a complete airhead. She's so stupid that she makes
Lavender Brown seem borderline genius. Ron's really lowered his
standards if he can date an idiot like her after he dated someone as
brilliant as you."
"Thanks, Ginny," Hermione said, giving her friend a weak smile. "I
just don't think I was prepared to see Ron kissing someone else
again. I guess I shouldn't have been so surprised that he's moved
on."
Hermione went through the rest of the day with steely resolve,
determined not to care what she had read in the Daily Prophet. She
was happy for Ron, she really was. He had said that they should
both date other people, and that's what was happening. Well, at
least Ron was dating someone else. She figured that whatever she
and Draco were doing, she couldn't exactly call it dating. After all,
Ron was taking Corianna Warbeck out to romantic dinners and
kissing her in public - all things that Hermione and Draco could
never do.
All day, Hermione could feel Draco's eyes upon her, but he never
broached the subject and neither did she. She thought maybe he
hadn't read the article, or maybe he sensed she didn't want to talk
about it. It was more likely that he didn't want to talk about it until
they were alone that evening. It turned out her last guess was the
correct one.
"Nothing," she said, forcing her tone to be brighter than she felt.
"Nothing at all."
She walked over to greet him with a kiss, and with some hesitation
he complied, gently caressing her lips with his. Suddenly, Hermione
threw her arms around Draco's neck and deepened the kiss,
desperate to taste more of his mouth, to feel more of his skin. She
wanted to drive thoughts of Ron out of her head for good, and she
was so determined to do so that she didn't even notice the tears
streaking down her cheeks.
"Yes, but not like this. You're not the only one who reads the Daily
Prophet, Hermione. I'm not going to let you use me to get some sort
of sick, twisted revenge on Weasley."
"Give me a break," she said bitingly. "We both know you don't
care why I'm doing this, just as long as you have the opportunity to
get in my pants again. It's not like you're afraid of getting your heart
broken or anything."
"Of course," he said, his voice laced with venom, “because I'm
Draco Malfoy and therefore I don't have a heart to get broken,
right?"
Despite his obvious anger, Hermione could sense that Draco was
also hurt by what she had said. She swallowed hard, instantly
wishing she could take it back.
"Just forget it," he snapped. "Flying lessons are cancelled for the
evening."
With that, Draco mounted his broom and flew away so quickly that
his hair became a whitish blur in the night. Hermione waited for
several minutes in the Astronomy Tower, hoping he would return,
but he did not. Finally, she went back down into the castle, feeling
even more miserable than when she had seen Ron snogging
Corianna Warbeck again and again across half of page six.
Hermione did not see Draco all day the next day, but she knew that
he had Quidditch practice on Saturdays, so this wasn't out of the
ordinary. They usually met in the Astronomy Tower every night at
eleven o'clock, unless one of them specified otherwise, and when
she did not receive any notice from Draco, she made her way up to
their meeting place at the usual time. She desperately hoped he
would be there.
When Hermione saw Draco waiting for her with his Nimbus2001 in
hand, she felt an irrational surge of joy. Wordlessly, he mounted his
broom and held out his hand so that he could help her climb up in
front of him. Once she was seated, he flew them out over the
school grounds, but to her surprise, he brought them down just shy
of the front gates. He opened the gates and gestured for her to
follow him outside.
"What's going on?" she asked, finally breaking the silence between
them.
"I thought you might like some new scenery for our flying lesson
tonight," Draco said, clasping her hand once they were outside of
the school grounds. "Don't worry, we won't be gone long, and I let
McGonagall know we were leaving."
"I think it's time to progress a little further with your lessons," Draco
said. "It's time for you to take control of the broom."
"I-I don't think that's a good idea," Hermione protested. "I've never
been a very good flier."
"You're good at almost everything else because you take the time
to figure out how things work. Maybe you'll feel better if we talk
about how a broom works."
"I know how a broom works, but I also know how gravity works. I
know that what goes up must come down, and when it comes down
it falls towards the earth at an acceleration of 9.8 meters per second
squared, to be precise. In other words, if we fall, we're dead."
Though she couldn't see him where he sat behind her on the
broom, Hermione could sense Draco shaking his head.
"You're thinking about this all wrong," he said. "First of all, we're
over the water, so the worst thing that can happen is that we'll get
very wet if we crash. Also, what you've just described is how things
work in the Muggle world. In the Wizarding world, we have ways to
defy gravity, like Wingardium Leviosa and magic brooms."
"I already told you, I know how a broom works. It has a modified
Levitation Charm combined with a complex sensory enchantment
that enables the rider to -”
"No, don't think about how a broom works," Draco said, cutting her
off. "Feel how it works."
Hermione did so, and once again, the broom obeyed her command.
"Good," Draco said again softly, his lips close to Hermione's ear.
"See, even though we're high in the air, what happens up here is all
up to you. You are the one in control - not me, not the broom, not
even gravity. Now which direction do you want to go next?"
"Up," Hermione whispered, and the moment she wished it, they
were rising higher and higher until they were hovering several
kilometers above the earth. They were up so high that Hermione
could see the coast of France on the southern horizon, and all of
the car lights and streetlights were tiny twinkling dots far below. At
this height, the noise of the crashing waves had disappeared,
leaving the world around her silent, other than the sound of her and
Draco's breathing. It was the highest Hermione had ever willingly
gone before, and despite her fear, she was awestruck by the view.
"Draco, just because I'm afraid, doesn't mean I want to turn back".
"Okay," Draco said, resting his chin on the top of her head.
They hovered up there for several minutes more, until the cold air
finally forced them to return to earth. Still a little uneasy about her
lack of flying experience, Hermione had Draco control the broom as
they came in for a landing on the veranda behind his summer
home.
Once their feet were on solid ground once more, the two of them
stood in silence for a few minutes, watching the moonlit sea. Finally,
Draco spoke.
"I know that you're hurt by what Weasley did, Hermione. I also know
that our situation isn't exactly ideal. I just want you to know that
whatever is going on between us, it's not a game to me."
Draco shook his head, lightly running the back of his hand along her
cheek.
"Well, it's not a game to me, either," Hermione said softly, stepping
closer and resting her hands on his shoulders. She gazed up at him
with a ponderous expression on her face. "You are such a puzzle,
Draco Malfoy. As hard as I try, I don't think I'll ever figure you out."
"You still have a thing for lost causes, don't you?" he teased, and
then bent down to press his lips against hers. His kiss possessed all
of its usual heat, yet it was uncharacteristically tender, and
therefore left Hermione feeling more breathless than usual.
"Good!" Draco called out. "Now try again, but this time, keep your
head up so you can keep an eye on where you're going."
He leaned back and watched Ginny attempt the upside-down barrel
roll for the tenth time in a row. They were out at the Quidditch pitch,
Draco sitting with his Nimbus2001 propped up against the bench on
his left side, and Hermione sitting to his right. He had been up in the
air with Ginny for awhile, but had returned to the stands in order to
get a better view as his pupil put his lessons into action.
"I just can't get it!" Ginny huffed. "I can't aim so well when I'm
upside down!"
"Yes, and I'll say it for the next hour if I have to - but you will get it
eventually. It'll be a good skill for you to have as a Chaser.
Throwing the Quaffle from that position will catch a Keeper off-
guard, not to mention it's a good way to dodge Bludgers or
opposing players as you enter the goal area."
"And you think I'm a slave driver when we study," Hermione said
with a laugh. "You're ten times worse when it comes to Quidditch."
"Harry!" Ginny called out, and Hermione instantly removed her hand
from Draco's hair.
"Hi Gin," Harry said, once they had parted lips. "I came to give you
some help with your Quidditch training, but I see you already have a
teacher."
"I was just showing her a few maneuvers," he said, rising to his feet.
"Now that you're here, you can take over."
"Wait, Malfoy, let me try the barrel roll one more time before you
go," Ginny said, grabbing her broom and Quaffle and flying back
out over the pitch. Zooming in towards the goal posts, she suddenly
flipped upside down and hefted the Quaffle into a throwing position.
"Keep your head up!" Draco and Harry called out to Ginny in
unison. They both turned to look at each other in surprise, then
directed their attention back out to the pitch, where Ginny
successfully launched the Quaffle through one of the hoops.
"All right I'm off," Draco said, turning towards Hermione. "Do you
want to go study?"
Draco swiveled to face his arch rival, his grey eyes narrowed in
challenge.
"I was just thinking...why don't you stay for a bit longer? If you go
and play Keeper, it will help Ginny learn the maneuver more
effectively. She won't have unguarded goal posts at the tryouts, you
know. I'll come up and show her a few more tricks that she can test
out on you."
"So what's going on with you and Malfoy?" Harry asked quietly, the
moment Draco was out of earshot.
"I see the way you look at each other. How ‘good' of friends are
you, exactly?"
"Harry..."
Hermione immediately felt a rush of anger. How dare Harry try and
make her feel guilty when it had been Ron's decision for them to
break up in the first place?
"Yes, I'm sure anyone who reads the Daily Prophet can see just
how much Ron misses me these days," she said scathingly. To her
satisfaction, Harry flinched at her words.
"Harry, please," Hermione cut in. "Ron's a big boy, and he doesn't
need for you to defend his actions. We're all adults now, and since
he and I are no longer a couple, he's free to date whomever he
chooses."
"Will you just listen to me for a minute?" Harry said, his green eyes
flashing with impatience. "Ron does not love Corianna Warbeck. He
loves you. I'm his best mate. I know these things."
"Of course you are, Hermione. That's why I want you to be happy,
and I just know that you'll be happy with Ron once he...grows up a
bit. He was a complete arse to break up with you the way he did,
and I think he realizes it - no, I know he realizes it. I think if you just
spoke with him -”
"No, Harry," Hermione cut in, shaking her head. "Ron broke up
with me, remember? I've been waiting almost eight years for him to
‘grow up'. If he wants to talk to me, then he needs to be the one to
swallow his pride and apologize. Not me."
"As I was saying, I know Malfoy's changed, but there are some
things that will never change," Harry continued, his face sobering
once more. "His family, for example. Lucius and Narcissa Malfoy
may be walking around saying that blood purity no longer matters to
them, but you can bet behind closed doors, they're singing a
different tune."
"They would never accept you, Hermione. Even if Malfoy could get
over his prejudices to the point where the two of you decided to get
married someday, his parents would probably disown him for
marrying a Muggle-born, and you would have to live with the guilt of
being the cause of it. Is that what you really want?"
"You weren't there, in the cellar, the night we were captured and
brought to Malfoy Manor. You didn't hear him, Hermione. You didn't
see how Ron acted when he heard you being tortured. He was
sobbing and screaming your name..."
"That night, Malfoy chose his family over you, Hermione. If he had
to make the same choice today, do you really think he would
choose any differently?"
"Oi, Potter!" Draco called out suddenly, and Hermione opened her
eyes to see him hovering in front of the goal posts, waving his hand
to get their attention. "Get your scrawny, bespectacled arse up
here! I haven't got all day you know!"
Harry rolled his eyes and shook his head while he mounted his
broom.
Hermione nodded, and Harry took off to join Draco and Ginny. She
lingered there in the stands, prepared to act as a referee in case
things got out of hand between the two boys, but to her surprise
they were remarkably civil towards each other, united by the
common purpose of helping Ginny prepare for her tryout. Hermione
suddenly noticed how uncannily similar their teaching styles were -
both were direct, yet patient, and usually taught via demonstration.
Harry was right. Draco had chosen his family over her once before,
and she had no doubt that he would make the same choice again in
the future, if it ever came down to it. He had said as much himself
when he insisted that he would only marry a Pureblood. Why then,
was she wasting her time (and his) pursuing something that they
both knew could never be?
"So what were you and Potter talking about so intently this
afternoon?" Draco asked as he and Hermione sat on the floor of the
Astronomy Tower later that evening, Draco sitting with his back
pressed up against the balcony rail, and Hermione leaning against
his chest. They had just finished one of their flying lessons, and one
of the serious snogging sessions that usually accompanied it.
"Oh, we were just talking about our plans for Easter Break,"
Hermione lied smoothly.
"I see," Draco said, gently sucking at the sensitive spot beneath her
ear that he knew drove her wild. "You are such a talented witch,
Hermione…except when it comes to lying. In that department, I'm
afraid you still have a lot to learn."
"As someone who prefers honesty, I'd rather not learn to be a better
liar, thanks."
Draco pulled away from her neck, a triumphant smirk on his face.
"Ah yes, and I'm sure Potter had a nice long list of all the reasons
why you shouldn't be involved with a cad like me."
"Something like that."
"Well, I wish we could spend more time together in the open without
worrying about being caught. I wish I could be with you in broad
daylight, instead of having to wait until we have our secret meetings
at night."
"Well, have you actually made any plans for Easter Break next
week?"
"Then, since neither of us has any plans, why don't we spend the
week at my summer home?" Draco asked, breaking into her
thoughts.
"You would really do that? Spend the whole week with me? Are you
sure it's safe?"
"Don't worry," Draco said, rolling his eyes, "I promise there'll be no
funny business - unless you want there to be, of course."
"Hermione, are you sure you're not going to regret this?" Ginny said
for the millionth time the following Friday.
"Do we really have to keep talking about it?" Hermione said with a
sigh. "I'm starting to get a headache."
"Ginny, I already told you. Draco and I have been taking things slow
and we'll continue to take things slow this week. I just need to figure
out some things about us, and I think I'll have a better opportunity to
do that when we can spend some time alone together."
"You know, Mum would really love it if you came to stay at the
Burrow with us..." Ginny began in a plaintive tone.
"No, Ginny."
Ginny's face fell, and Hermione could picture all the "let's-get-Ron-
and-Hermione-back-together" plots that Ginny and Harry must have
concocted, and how her refusal to come to the Burrow for Easter
Break was foiling those plots.
"All right, Hermione," Ginny said with a resigned sigh. "I can see
there's no convincing you to change your mind. Just promise me
you'll be careful. You know where to find me if you need anything."
Hermione smiled and gave the redhead a grateful hug. She felt
lucky to have a friend as thoughtful and understanding as Ginny.
Without her, the past several months would have been more trying
than they already were.
"Nope," Luna said, falling into step with Hermione as they walked
outside. "Daddy's heard rumors of a new creature: a Mexican goat-
sucker called El Chupacabra. We're going to go see if we can find
one. What about you?"
"I see," Luna said brightly, giving no indication that she found this
response suspicious.
The realization that she was falling in love with Draco had been
startling, and more than a little frightening. It was also confusing,
because in spite of evidence that Ron had already moved on from
their relationship, she still had lingering feelings for him. Was it
possible to be in love with two people at the same time?
Hermione wanted to put the brakes on her feelings for Draco, and
stop herself from falling any further in love with him. But she knew
she couldn't stop falling for him, even if she tried. After all, there
were many things in the world that defied the laws of gravity, but
she had a feeling that love wasn't one of them.
End Notes:
Believe it or not, there really is a mythological, "goat sucking"
creature called El Chupacabra which is rumored to exist in Central
America. Here's what Wikipedia has to say about
it: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/El_Chupacabra
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Chapter 15: A Bittersweet Escape by atalanta84
Let us put tears and memories away,
While the fates sleep time stops for revelry;
Let us look, speak, and kiss as if no day
Has been or yet will be.
Friday
"I didn't think you'd get this worked up over it!" Draco argued back.
"How the hell did you expect us to survive for a whole week without
someone to cook for us?"
Hermione and Draco had just arrived at the Malfoy summer home
that evening and, so far, their holiday was not off to a very relaxing
start. The moment the two had entered the house, Hermione had
nearly jumped out of her skin when a House-Elf had appeared with
a poof and offered to relieve her of her luggage. The House-Elf in
question, bearing the name of Dinky and wearing a little pink tea
towel, was currently watching with wide eyes while Draco and
Hermione argued with each other.
Saturday
Hermione awoke bright and early the following morning, and for a
moment, she blinked at her unfamiliar surroundings. Then she
smiled when she recognized the beautiful guest room Draco had
selected for her to sleep in. She had been surprised, and a bit
disappointed, when Draco had not suggested that they share his
room - the bedroom where they had spent the night together a few
weeks before. However, she felt the sleeping arrangement was
probably for the best. Draco was a difficult temptation to resist as it
was, and it would be even worse if she had to share a bed with him.
When Hermione strolled into the kitchen, Draco gaped at her, his
jaw hanging open at the sight of her bare legs. Dinky came bustling
by and placed a piece of toast in Draco's open mouth, pushing his
chin up to close it.
Draco rolled his eyes and swallowed his mouthful of toast before
speaking.
"She really knows how to put you in your place, doesn't she?"
Hermione said, spreading some butter onto a slice of toast. She
was pleased to note a slight flush of embarrassment on Draco's
cheeks again. She liked it when he blushed - it made him appear so
much more human.
"I see," Hermione said. She leaned back and propped her legs up
on an adjacent chair, causing her oversized tee-shirt to ride further
up her thighs. Draco groaned and buried himself in his newspaper
to shield himself from the tantalizing glimpse of knickers that
Hermione's new position provided.
"I was thinking of going sailing," Draco said from behind his paper.
"You know that labyrinth I showed you the last time we were here?
Well, there's a grotto at one end of it, where my family keeps a few
sailboats."
Draco ran his eyes up and down her legs and made an odd little
choking sound before disappearing behind his Daily Prophet once
more.
Monday
"No kidding? Is that what it means when the sky gets all dark and it
starts to thunder? I'm so glad you're here to explain these things to
me."
"Shut up," Hermione said, "or I'll get Dinky to wash your mouth out
again."
"I'm terrible at wizard's chess," she said ruefully as Draco set up the
pieces, which were white and emerald green. She recognized it as
the set his parents had given him for Christmas, having seen him
and Dean playing with it on more than one occasion.
"That's all right, I can teach you," Draco said, sitting in the chair
across from hers. "But I have to warn you, I'm a ruthless chess
player."
For the next couple of hours, Draco tutored Hermione on the subtle
strategies of wizard's chess; however, the chess pieces seemed to
sense her inexperience and were reluctant to obey her orders. More
than once, she had to coax them to move where she wanted them
to go on the chessboard, as Harry often had to do when he played
against Ron.
"Any day now," Draco muttered at one point, when Hermione was
taking even longer than usual to decide her next move.
Forcing herself to tear her gaze away from Draco, Hermione tried to
focus on the chessboard in between them, but with the hot lust that
was now pulsing through her veins, it had become nothing but a
green and white blur to her. A tense silence hung between them,
causing every tick of the clock on the mantelpiece to sound like the
crash of a gong. The room suddenly felt stiflingly warm, causing a
bead of sweat to trickle down Hermione's spine. She shivered and
clutched her arms around her chest, noticing too late that this
elevated her breasts so that the lacy top of her bra peeked out of
the open collar of her blouse.
"That's it!" he hissed, rising to his feet and lunging around the table.
"Sorry," she said, "It's just, I'm not quite ready to...you know."
"Oh please," Draco said, rolling his eyes. "We both know you like it
when I indulge my inner caveman. You were practically begging for
me to club you over the head and drag you up to bed by your hair."
"As romantic as all of that sounds, I think I'll pass," Hermione said,
trying to maintain a sense of decorum in spite of the shameless and
flagrantly sensual scenario she had just participated in. She left the
room under the pretense of procuring a book from the library, not
willing to give Draco the satisfaction of knowing he was right - she
definitely had no qualms with him "indulging his inner caveman".
Draco was fast asleep, his platinum hair mussed up around his
head, and his mouth slightly open as he breathed deeply. Hermione
grinned as she recalled that he found thunderstorms soothing. She
thought only someone like Draco could find comfort in such a
violent, unpredictable force of nature. Treading softly, she
approached the side of his bed, gazing down at him while he
continued to slumber peacefully. While conscious, he was one of
the most frustrating men Hermione had ever met, but unconscious,
he looked innocent - angelic, even. She couldn't resist the urge to
reach out and smooth his hair.
"I was just, um, wondering if you would let me join you. I'm having a
hard time falling asleep in the storm."
"I know - that's the problem. Why don't you get to it already?"
"Hmm?"
"I'm sorry I made you stop, um, doing what you were doing with me
earlier today. I think I still need a bit more time to adjust to the idea
of sleeping with you again."
Draco was silent for a few minutes, and Hermione thought that
maybe he had fallen asleep. Then he startled her by speaking once
more.
"Hermione, what bothers you so much about being with me? Does
it feel...wrong?"
Hermione rolled over so that she could face him, trying to make out
his expression in the dark. His brow was furrowed, but his eyes
were unreadable.
"No, that's not what bothers me," she whispered. "What bothers me
is that it's supposed to feel wrong to be with you, but...but instead it
feels so right."
Tuesday
As she and Draco sailed around the coast of his summer home,
Hermione was impressed at how adeptly he handled the water
craft. She glanced up and watched as he adjusted the rigging of the
sleek white boat, his cheeks pink from the cool wind, and his blond
hair glowing in the sun. In his trim khaki slacks and black wool pea
coat, Hermione thought he looked like a model from a Ralph Lauren
ad. Of course she didn't voice her assessment out loud, knowing
that the last thing Draco needed was another boost to his already-
oversized ego.
"I like this," Hermione said with a peaceful sigh, once their lips
parted.
"Both. Well, just spending time with you I guess. I don't want it to
end."
"You know, we could have more time like this," he said finally, "if we
traveled around the world together for our scholarship projects. Just
imagine all the things we could do as we visited Europe, Asia, and
America....One whole year of being together without having to worry
about what other people think of us."
Wednesday
The wind was fierce and the waves turbulent that afternoon, as
Draco and Hermione walked along the beach, hand in hand. Grey
clouds scudded across the horizon, and the spring sun was hidden
behind them, turning the sky to pewter, and the water to a deep
shale color.
Since Hermione was holding Draco's left hand, she took the
opportunity to glance down at his forearm, where he had rolled up
the sleeve of his polo shirt after becoming overheated from their
walk. The skin of his arm was white and unmarred, just as he had
said it would be. The last time she had seen his bare arm, several
weeks before, she had been too absorbed in the sexual urgency of
the moment to bother looking for what she was afraid she might find
there.
"Did you think I lied to you, back in Sixth Year?" Draco asked
suddenly, noticing the direction of her gaze. "I told you I hadn't
taken the Dark Mark."
"I think a small part of me thought you were lying, back then,"
Hermione said, running her fingers up his arm. "But I guess seeing
is believing. Why don't you have the Mark?"
Draco froze, and he stood silent for so long that Hermione was
convinced that as usual, he was not going to respond. Then, to her
surprise, he did.
"It was like...being in a nightmare that I couldn't wake up from.
When Voldemort was at the Manor, he would make me do things.
He would make me torture people, use the Cruciatus on them. I felt
trapped. He told me that if I didn't do what I was told, he would kill
my parents. I wanted to run away but I - I couldn't."
"I still don't understand," Hermione said. "Why didn't you run
away?"
"My parents threw in their lot with Voldemort a long time ago,"
Draco said, "and when Malfoys make a decision, they stick to it until
the bitter end. Well, almost until the bitter end."
Hermione knew that when he added that last line, he was thinking
of how his parents had defected during the last battle, in order to be
reunited with their son.
"Yes."
"Hermione, over the years, when you were running around doing
crazy things to try and save the world, wasn't there ever a time
when you thought about turning back? When you thought about
saying, ‘To hell with all this, I don't want to do it anymore,' and just
walk away?"
"There was one time that I seriously considered turning back," she
said slowly. "It was when we were searching for Horcruxes. Ron left
us - it just got to be too much for him, and he left me and Harry on
our own for awhile. Harry was acting so distant, and part of
me...part of me blamed him for causing Ron to leave. I felt so alone.
I don't remember ever feeling so alone. And there were days when I
thought that we'd never find the Horcruxes, or that in the end, we
wouldn't even survive. And on those days, yes, I did think about
giving up and walking away from it all, like Ron did."
"Then why didn't you?" Draco asked. "Why didn't you give up?"
"I...I couldn't abandon Harry like that, and leave him to do it all
alone. He had already been through enough with Ron leaving....I
didn't think he could handle it if I left him, too. I made a promise to
help Harry find the Horcruxes, and I intended to keep that promise."
Draco let out a sigh, and seeing the weariness and sadness in his
face, Hermione suddenly noticed how much he had matured in the
past couple years - just as Harry had; just as they all had.
"Hermione," he said, "what makes you think that the path I chose
was easy?"
And just like that, another piece of the puzzle clicked into place.
Thursday
Hermione rolled her eyes in frustration and shifted over to the edge
of her side of Draco's bed. Her solitude didn't last long, however,
because Draco slid over and wrapped his body around hers,
running his hand up one of her bare legs. She shivered as his touch
raised goose bumps on her skin.
"I don't suppose that's your wand I feel poking me in the back?" she
teased.
"Damn it, Hermione, don't you see what you do to me?" Draco
groaned, grinding his hips into her backside. "You're driving me
insane. What do I have to do? I'll do anything you ask - within
reason. Do you want flowers or chocolates? Do you want me to
recite poetry? Do you want me to stand on my head and sing ‘I'm a
Little Teapot'? For Merlin's sake, just tell me what to do and I'll do
it!"
"Do you even know how to stand on your head? And I thought ‘I'm a
Little Teapot' was a song only Muggle children knew."
"Hermione, please," Draco moaned, "this really isn't the right time to
discuss the difference between Muggle nursery rhymes and wizard
ones. Do you see what you've reduced me to? You actually
have me, Draco Malfoy, pleading for sex. You've completely ruined
me, Granger."
Hermione shook her head and gave him another soft kiss, before
coming to a decision. Suddenly she bent down to suckle Draco's
neck, feeling pleased when this action drew a startled gasp from
him. Then she moved lower, trailing wet kisses down his muscled
chest and stomach, finally reaching the narrow trail of golden hairs
that disappeared beneath his knickers.
"Well," she said, looping her thumbs under the waistband of his
boxers. "Just because I'm not ready to sleep with you again, doesn't
mean we can't do other things."
Hermione pulled his knickers down and slid them all the way off of
his legs.
Draco groaned and buried his fingers into Hermione's hair as she
took his length into her mouth. She pulled away for a moment to
smirk up at him, and say in a chiding voice, "Such language! You
don't want to have Dinky overhear you and wash your mouth out
with soap again, do you?"
"I think you're the one who’s going to need her mouth washed
out...ah! Bloody hell, Hermione!"
For the next several minutes, Draco lost the ability to speak
coherently, his eyes squeezing shut and his hands balling into fists
in Hermione's hair as she teased him with her tongue and lips.
Glancing up, she thought that the pleasure dancing across his pale
face was one of the most erotic things she had ever seen, and
when he reached his peak while calling out her name, she thought
that the sound might send her tumbling over the edge after him.
"So that's all it takes for you, huh?" Draco said finally, once he
regained the ability to talk. "I don't even have to do anything -
just promise to do anything? Well, I suppose every woman has her
weakness."
"Humph, well every man has his weakness, too," Hermione said
primly. "However, unlike women, men all have the same one."
Considering that Draco then proceeded to flip her onto her back, rip
off her knickers, and return the favor that she had just bestowed
upon him, Hermione decided that he must have settled on the latter.
Friday
Hermione and Draco burst into the back door of the summer home,
both flushed from their broom ride. Despite the amount of physical
contact Hermione enjoyed while sharing a broom with Draco, he
had insisted that she improve her skills by riding solo. She
discovered that she was getting much better at handling a broom,
and though she doubted she would ever value flying as much as
Ron and Harry, she liked, at the very least, to be adequate at
everything she did.
"That won't be necessary, Dinky," he said. "Why don't you take the
night off?"
Dinky's eyes widened to the point that Hermione was afraid they
would pop out of the poor creature's tiny head.
"Uh, Draco, did you accidentally hit your head on a tree branch
while we were flying?" Hermione asked, utterly gobsmacked.
"Because I think I just heard you say you were planning to cook
dinner. If you've got a concussion, we should take you to St.
Mungo's..."
All during lunch, and for the rest of the afternoon after that, Dinky
pleaded desperately with Draco to change his mind about trying to
cook dinner. However, in the end, Draco won out, and Dinky
disappeared to Malfoy Manor for the rest of the evening, looking as
if she thought it was the last time she would see Draco and
Hermione alive and in one piece. Once the House-Elf was gone,
Draco stalked into the kitchen with an air of determination, as if he
was marching into battle.
Draco disappeared into the kitchen again for another half hour, and
just when Hermione was beginning to worry, he emerged to pour
her a second glass of wine. He poured one for himself as well, and
swallowed it in just a few gulps, instead of sipping it politely as he
usually did.
"Um, Draco, do you need any help with the rest of the dinner?"
Hermione asked tentatively.
Hermione dutifully picked up her knife and fork, and after several
minutes of sawing at the charred lump of meat, managed to cut off
a bite-sized piece and place it into her mouth. Her eyes watered as
she forced herself to chew the steak, which tasted something like
burnt shoe leather. She swallowed the morsel as quickly as
possible, and then washed it down with several gulps of her wine.
She glanced up and saw Draco staring at her expectantly.
Hermione thanked him and took the sandwich he offered, biting into
it and causing some mayonnaise to dribble down her chin. She
looked around for a napkin, but Draco found one first and surprised
her by leaning over to dab the sauce off of her face. He looked at
her for a second, and then shook his head, his lips twitching with
amusement once more.
"I still can't believe you lied to me and said that the steak tasted
good," he said.
They both laughed again, and Hermione realized that she had
never seen Draco this way before - so light-hearted and full of
genuine happiness. It was at that moment, sitting there on the
kitchen floor, that Hermione knew she had stopped falling in love
with Draco, and started being in love with him. She couldn't exactly
say how it happened; with Ron, her love had developed gradually
over time, but it came about more suddenly with Draco. She
acknowledged that falling in love over burnt steak and ham
sandwiches was unorthodox and more than a bit strange, but there
it was.
After all, what could be more bizarre than Hermione Granger being
in love with Draco Malfoy?
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Chapter 16: Give and Take by atalanta84
so I can tell you how
much I adore you
sweat kisses of caring
my heart pounding
your womanly scent
my mind searching for yours
lie here with me, let me
hold you in my arms
until morning comes
before we have to go
our different ways
"Yes, I know."
"It feels like this week just flew by, doesn't it?" Hermione asked,
rolling onto her side and propping her head up with her elbow.
"So, what do you feel like doing on our last night in paradise?" he
asked, eyeing her suggestively.
"Paradise?" Hermione repeated skeptically. "Is that what you call it?
Do they serve overcooked steak in paradise?"
"I mean, why are we torturing ourselves like this? Why are we
spending all of this time together - doing all of these things together
- when we know it can't last?"
"It bothers you, then?" she asked. "As much as it bothers me?"
"I thought I was the only one who felt that way," she said. It was
Draco's turn to raise his eyebrows at her.
"I mean...I just thought I was the only one who had a problem with
the idea that this has to end someday. I thought it would be easy for
you, just to pick up and move on to the next girl once you were
finished with me...that it would be easy for you to forget about me
and all the things we've done together."
Draco shook his head and stroked his fingers down the side of her
cheek, an uncharacteristically tender gesture he had only
performed on a few occasions in his life — all of them with her.
"Do you really think I could forget you that easily?" he murmured.
"Merlin, Hermione, I can't even get you out of my head half the time.
Not to mention the fact that other parts of my body are usually
preoccupied with you as well. You get under my skin—and not just
because you annoy the hell out of me sometimes, which I'll admit,
you still do. But you get under my skin in nice ways, too. I've never
wanted—never needed—someone as badly as I need you."
"Why?" she breathed, her eyes scanning Draco's face as if she was
assessing a particularly challenging Arithmancy problem. "Why do
you need me?"
"I need you because...because ever since that night, one month
ago, I keep remembering the way it felt to be with you, inside you.
And sometimes I feel like I'm going to go crazy if I can't feel that
way again."
"No. It's more than that. It's...gods, how do I say this? I - I don't
really have any experience talking about this stuff."
"Hermione, you challenge me, more than anyone else ever has," he
said. "You...balance me out, somehow. I don't know how to
describe it. And you accept me, in spite of things I've done in the
past. When I'm with you, I know I can be myself and you won't
judge me...well, any more than I deserve to be judged, at least."
"I don't know if anything I just said makes any sense to you.
Frankly, it doesn't make much sense to me. All I know is that I like
my life better with you in it."
Draco stared at her. Her smile reassured him that her tears had
been happy ones, but he was no less baffled by her sudden
willingness to be physical with him again.
Before his brain could become any more clouded with desire, Draco
withdrew from their kiss, his grey eyes boring intently into
Hermione's brown ones.
"Are you sure you're ready for this?" he asked. "Are you sure this is
what you want?"
"Yes," she said, still a bit breathless from their kiss. "This is what I
want, Draco."
"Why?" Draco pressed, echoing the question she had asked him
just minutes before.
"Draco, will you take me down into the labyrinth?" Hermione asked.
"To the handfasting temple?"
"I...don't know," she said. "I just want you to take me there.
Please?"
She gazed up at Draco, her eyes dark with longing, as she dragged
her hips along his hardened length. That settled the question for
him. Quickly, Draco sat up, leapt out of the bed, and strode across
the room, pulling Hermione along behind him.
Draco lit his wand and grasped Hermione's hand in his, leading the
way down the narrow winding staircase. He moved as fast as he
could in the dark, without causing them to stumble and fall on the
crumbling stone steps. When they reached the bottom, he
navigated the tunnels, still holding Hermione's hand as they walked
together in silence. When they finally emerged in the handfasting
cave, Draco raised his wand to light the room, but Hermione got to
it first, using her elemental magic to ignite the cisterns lining the
chamber. The walls of the cave sprang into light, revealing the
diagrams, symbols, and overlapping handprints in bold, sparkling
colors against the black stone.
As with every time Draco entered this space, he felt the tingle of
magic in the air surrounding him, but this time, it felt different than
before. This time, the magic felt like thousands of tiny, invisible
threads tugging him in one direction - towards Hermione. He found
the sensation both frightening and exhilarating, but gave into it
immediately, swinging her around and shoving her gently against
the wall of the cave. He stepped forward so that his body was
pressed against hers, and took her mouth possessively with his
own.
Recalling that the purpose of the cave was for the conduction of
marriage rituals, Draco had a sudden, terrifying thought.
"We aren't married now, are we?" he asked, unable to disguise the
note of panic in his voice.
Draco frowned, not finding this thought any more reassuring than
an unintentional marriage. He did not like the idea of being
magically bound to anyone, not even to Hermione. However,
Hermione was clearly beginning to relax about the whole situation.
"I don't feel any different," she said. "Whatever the spell was, it
obviously hasn't caused us any harm. I think I'll do some research
when we return to Hogwarts, and try to find out more about the
cave's magic, and what it does."
"Of course," Draco muttered, still feeling a bit edgy, “the answer to
every problem in the universe can be found in the Hogwarts library."
She nuzzled his neck with her lips, and in spite of his concern over
what had just occurred, Draco found himself recalling the reason
that they had come down to the cave in the first place. Sensing his
renewed desire, Hermione smiled up at him, and then stepped
back, untying her robe and letting it slide off her shoulders to pool at
her feet. Then she gracefully slid her knickers down over hips,
discarding them as well.
Draco drew in a sharp breath as he took in the sight of Hermione's
naked form, the firelight flickering over her skin and in her hair,
which hung loose around her shoulders. He shivered, despite the
fact that the air in the cave was surprisingly ambient. Hermione
motioned for Draco to come closer, and standing in the center of
the ancient cave, with the shadows dancing mysteriously across her
face, Draco thought she looked like a pagan goddess trying to lure
a hapless mortal into her arms. He felt himself being drawn
inexplicably towards her, like a magnet to metal.
"Yes," Hermione breathed, untying and removing his own robe and
adding it to the pile of clothes on the floor, “I think this is
a very good idea. Don't worry, I don't think we'll unlock anymore of
the cave's spells. Although, I think we'll need to make a few
adjustments to this place, in order to accommodate what I have in
mind."
Before Draco could ask her what exactly she had in mind, she
removed her wand from the pocket of her discarded robe and
waved it in the air over the stone altar that stood in the center of the
room. It instantly transformed into a large, luxurious bed with white
sheets and fluffy pillows. Draco raised his eyebrows at her,
impressed by the magic she had just accomplished.
"One of the more useful transfiguration spells I've learned over the
years - more useful than turning a mouse into a tea kettle anyway,"
Hermione said with a shrug.
"You really know how to make a bloke feel like a piece of meat,"
Draco teased, even as he felt himself hardening beneath the
intensity of her gaze.
For some reason he could not explain, Draco was suddenly afraid
to sleep with Hermione again. It was extremely strange and
uncharacteristic of him to be reluctant about sex, but somehow he
knew that this time would be different than the last - that this time,
he would be giving her a part of himself that he could never get
back. Hermione gave him a reassuring smile before pressing her
lips against his in a gentle kiss.
"Make love to me," she whispered, cupping his face in her hands.
When Hermione began to kiss him once again, Draco had a difficult
time thinking clearly. It was unlike any kiss he had ever given or
received. Their lips moved together in a slow and sensual dance,
their hands gliding over each other's bodies with aching tenderness,
until Hermione finally pulled away. She replaced her roving hands
with her mouth, showering every inch of him with kisses that
seemed to burn his flesh from the top of his head to the tips of his
toes, before she returned to his lips once more.
"You still don't get it, do you?" she said. "You still think that the only
way to find happiness or pleasure is to take it from someone else.
Making love isn't a game, Draco. There isn't a winner or a loser,
and it's not only about receiving pleasure. You don't realize what a
beautiful thing it is, to be the one creating it, to be the
one giving happiness to someone else."
With these words, Hermione slowly lowered her hips down onto
Draco's, sheathing him inside of her warm body and causing both of
them to let out a soft groan. When she moved, raising and lowering
herself against him, her motions were torturously slow - almost
languid. Draco bucked his hips impatiently, wanting to go faster, but
Hermione held him back.
"It's not a race, Draco. Stop worrying about getting to the finish line.
Just for tonight, pretend that we have all the time in the world."
Hermione picked up one of Draco's hands and drew his index finger
into her mouth, sucking it gently before repeating the same act with
each of his other fingers. Draco felt his body turning into mush as
she wrapped her silky tongue around his pinkie finger, gently
nipping the tip of it between her teeth. Hermione arched one
eyebrow at him, and the next time she lowered herself onto him,
she added a little swirl of her hips that made Draco momentarily
forgot how to breathe.
She raised her hips and then lowered them once again, squeezing
her thighs together to take him in deeper, and Draco practically
sobbed with pleasure, thinking that at that moment, he would
happily compose his own epitaph and accept a sweet death at
Hermione's hands.
Draco couldn't say how long he and Hermione laid there, making
love to each other. It could have been hours; it could have been
several years. He couldn't keep track of time, lost as he was in a
cloud of sensations. Time and space ceased to exist, until he felt
his whole life had always consisted of nothing but this: the scent of
roses and feminine musk, the flicker of firelight on chestnut curls,
the sound of rasping breaths echoing in a cave, and eyes that
shimmered like liquid brown pools.
Yet most of all, Draco would never forget the feel of Hermione, as
she moved rhythmically on top of him, as if to the beat of an ancient
drum, bringing both of them closer to an earth-shattering
crescendo. They moved together in an age-old dance, giving and
taking from each other as generations of lovers had done in this
cave and in the world outside of it.
And Draco did, thrusting up into her with all of his remaining
strength, holding her tightly to him as if by doing so, he could
somehow stop time, and keep them in this moment forever. He
didn't know if it was the cave's ancient powers, or some other force
at work, but for a brief moment, he thought he could sense the
magic coursing through his veins and Hermione's, running back and
forth between them like a subtler version of the jolt they had
experienced earlier. Then he was swallowed up by the most intense
orgasm of his life, falling into the abyss and dragging Hermione with
him, so that both of their cries echoed in unison off the walls of the
stone chamber.
Hermione collapsed on top of Draco and lay there, shaky and limp
from the exertion of their love-making. Draco, despite feeling a bit
boneless himself, managed to pull the bed sheets over both of
them, shifting Hermione so that she was nestled comfortably
against his chest. He brushed the sweat-dampened curls off of her
face and kissed her forehead, and after a few minutes, her eyes
drifted closed. Draco had nearly succumbed to sleep himself, when
Hermione suddenly mumbled something, bringing him back to
wakeful awareness. Her voice was slurred with fatigue, but the
words were still discernable.
It was Tuesday evening, the week after the Easter holiday, and they
had decided to take a break from studying to play a game of
wizard's chess. Hermione still had little fondness for the game, and
Draco only convinced her to play by adding the proviso that
whenever one of them captured an opponent's piece, they were
allowed to ask any question they wanted, and their opponent had to
answer truthfully.
"Did you ever have any sexual fantasies about me before this
school year?"
"We agreed that all questions were fair game, Hermione," Draco
said firmly. "You can't change the rules as you go along, as much
as I admire your Slytherin-like attempt to do so. Just answer the
question...and remember you have to answer truthfully."
"Fine!" Hermione huffed. "I had a few fantasies about you towards
the end of sixth year - but just a few! And the thought of it disgusted
me at the time. Happy?"
"Uh-uh, not telling. You only get one question per piece captured,
remember? Since you're being such a stickler for the rules."
She looked at him smugly before returning her attention to the
game. Draco rolled his eyes and watched as she studied the
chessboard, contemplating her next move. Soon, she was doing
that annoying habit again - nibbling on her lower lip in a way that
always managed to drive him crazy with desire. He sighed and
looked away, distracting himself by taking in his unfamiliar
surroundings.
The OWLs and NEWTs were less than two months away, and the
library was overrun with students who were rabidly studying for the
upcoming exams. Therefore, Hermione had suggested they take
their chess game to the Gryffindor common room. At first, Draco
had adamantly protested, but finally gave in, deciding it would be a
more comfortable setting than the Great Hall. Very few Gryffindors
had paid attention to him when he entered the room. It had become
quite commonplace for students from different houses to be invited
into each other's common rooms these days, and everyone in the
school had been made aware of Draco and Hermione's friendship
months ago. Therefore, contrary to the reaction he had been
expecting, no one threw hexes at him or threatened his life for
gracing the Gryffindor common room with his Slytherin presence.
When Hermione had told him she loved him, Draco had thought
that perhaps he had imagined it. Part of him hoped he had; but
another traitorous part of him rejoiced when she said it. However,
the joy and warmth that had spread through his entire being at that
moment had quickly been replaced with dread. What if Hermione
expected him to say it back? To his relief, she had fallen asleep
almost immediately afterward, and Draco had been spared the
necessity of issuing a reply.
He had lain awake for a long time afterward, thinking about what
Hermione had said, and how he should respond to it the following
morning, if she brought up the topic again. For hours he stared at
the artwork on the walls of the cave, and all of the symbols of love
and devotion those images carried. He had stared for so long at the
Latin words etched on the back wall of the cave he thought they
would be forever emblazoned in his memory: "the circle is open but
ever unbroken". Hermione had said the ancient wizards that wrote
those words were referring to love, and the fact that you could find it
anywhere, if you were willing to let it into your life.
And that was when reality - harsh, painful, and inescapable reality -
had come crashing down on him once more.
The truth was that Draco could never betray his family. For most of
his life, they had been the only people who truly loved and cared for
him. They would never understand the affection he felt for the
Muggleborn witch sleeping in his arms (yes, Draco could at least
admit that he felt a deep affection for Hermione). He didn't know if
he was in love with Hermione, but he knew he loved his parents. He
knew that after all of the things that they had done for him, after all
that they had lost, he could never abandon them - and from their
point of view, falling in love with a Muggleborn would be akin to
abandonment. He had not abandoned them when he was faced
with the terrors of Lord Voldemort, and he would not abandon them
now. With this logical but discomforting thought in his head, Draco
had finally fallen asleep.
When Hermione had awoken the next morning in the cave, she had
been her usual cheerful self, acting as if nothing out of the ordinary
had occurred the evening before, other than having the most
amazing sex that either one of them had experienced in their entire
lives. Draco thought that maybe she had forgotten about admitting
her love for him. However, in the days that followed, he would
sometimes catch her glancing at him with a pensive look on her
face, as if she was waiting for him to do something, or to give her
some sort of sign.
This thought made Draco frown. He felt guilty about being unable to
reciprocate Hermione's declaration of love (Merlin, the death-grip
that woman had on his conscience could rival a Devil's Snare), but
he tried to assuage his own guilt by telling himself that
he had warned her in advance, telling her that he didn't think he
could ever love her - or any other woman for that matter. Was it his
fault that she hadn't taken his words seriously? Was it his fault that
she had chosen to ignore the harsh yet obvious truth that Draco
Malfoy was not the sort of man who gave his heart away?
"Draco? DRACO!"
"It's not my fault you decided to send your brain out for a holiday,"
Hermione said with a scowl. "My queen just captured your castle,
so it's my turn to ask a question.'
"That was just rhetorical! You can't count that, it's not fair!"
Hermione cocked her head to one side and studied him for a few
moments.
"And what about us?" she said softly. "Have you figured that out
three moves ahead of time?"
"You know I haven't," Draco said in a low voice. "I told you what I
have with you isn't a game to me. I know all the legal moves in
chess, but there's no rulebook for what happens between you and
me. Besides, even if there was, I'm sure we've broken every rule in
it by now."
"True," Hermione said, her lips curving into a small smile. "Anyway,
I believe you get to ask me another question now."
"No kidding?" Draco mused, making sure to file that away for future
reference. "You know, I fantasized about the same thing myself
sometimes."
"No, I didn't think of you that way back then," Draco said with a
shake of his head.
Hermione gave an annoyed huff and leaned back in her chair. She
didn't have many moves left. Her king was under check, and he
was the only remaining piece she had on the board. In a few
moves, Draco would have her under checkmate. Hermione did what
she could to move her king out of check, but it was useless.
Hermione sighed as her white king dropped his sword at his feet,
admitting defeat. Draco stared at her intently instead of giving her
the usual triumphant smirk he would flash her upon winning a
game.
"My last question," he said. "What do you want to do with your life?
After graduation, I mean?"
"I...well, I don't know for sure. I know that I really want to make a
difference in the wizarding world. What I want more than anything is
to do more to help the house-elves, and perhaps introduce
S.P.E.W. to a wider audience."
Draco mentally gave himself a pat on the back for managing not to
roll his eyes at this.
Draco didn't want to tell her the truth, which was he didn't really
have one. Malfoy men were expected manage the family fortune,
marry a pureblood witch, and make pureblood babies to start the
whole cycle over again. His "life's ambition" was already chosen for
him, whether he wanted it or not. So instead he smirked at her,
putting his hands behind his head and leaning back in his squishy
red velvet chair.
Hermione shook her head and groaned, but he noticed the little
flicker of lust in her eyes as she took in the sight of his lean,
lounging form. He felt his own desire reawaken, and the gears in his
cunning, Slytherin mind started to turn, thinking three moves ahead
as he had during the chess game.
"I think it's time that we headed down to the Great Hall for dinner,
wouldn't you agree?" he asked casually.
She helped Draco put his chess set away, which he promptly
shrunk with his wand and stowed away in his pocket. Then he led
the way out of the Gryffindor common room and out into the
corridors, heading in the direction of the Great Hall. Hermione was
at his side, hurrying to keep up with his long-legged stride. At one
point, he snuck a furtive glance in both directions, noting that the
hallway was empty since most of the students were already eating
in the Great Hall.
Perfect.
Before the words had even left her lips, Draco managed to fling
open the door to a broom closet, shove Hermione inside, and shut
the door behind them. They were plunged into complete darkness,
standing toe to toe in the cramped space. The closet smelled of
dust and various cleaning products, but when he stepped closer to
Hermione, her delicious floral scent took its place. He reached out
in the darkness, wrapping his hands around her hips and tugging
her closer to him, diminishing what little space had been between
them.
She gasped as his lips found the crook of her neck, and then drifted
up to her favorite spot below her right ear, navigating by touch since
it was too dark to see. In the darkness, all of Draco's other senses
were heightened, so that the taste and scent of her skin were even
more alluring than usual. The sound of her breathing was magnified
as his hands explored her body, skimming every curve of her figure
as if he was reading Braille. Thank Merlin she was wearing a skirt
today, he thought to himself, as he began to lift it.
"The risk is half the fun. Besides, I do recall you saying this was a
particular fantasy of yours?"
"Granger, you've been playing the role of good little Gryffindor for
far too long," he said, lowering his voice into that silky, dangerous
tone that Hermione never failed to respond to. He grinned when, as
expected, she gave a little shiver of anticipation. "When was the last
time you actually did break the rules?"
"I broke rules all the time with Harry and Ron - "
Hermione stiffened slightly at his last words, but he ignored this and
continued speaking, slowly sliding one hand up her thigh and
raising her plaid skirt centimeter by centimeter in the process.
"You've never broken the rules because you wanted to, just for the
fun of it. When was the last time you did something you felt like
doing and didn't give a damn about the consequences?"
"Draco, I've been doing that every day for the past month just by
being with you."
With these words, Draco artfully slid her knickers down her legs and
hoisted her up against the wall, using his Quidditch-earned muscles
to balance her in one of his arms. He used his free hand to shove
the clothes off of the lower half of his own body. He pushed
Hermione's skirt up to her waist and stepped forward into the space
between her thighs, reveling in the moan of longing this action
withdrew from her.
"Brace your feet on the wall behind me," he ordered, his voice
husky with desire. "You'll be more comfortable that way, and this
closet is just the right width for it."
"How do you know that?" she asked, and he could practically hear
the frown in her voice.
Without further ado, she stretched her legs out to rest her feet on
the opposite wall, thereby opening herself up to him further. Draco
took the opportunity to reach in between them and stroke her,
causing her to let out a loud groan.
Draco cast the charm, and was surprised to hear Hermione start
laughing. He scowled, failing not to feel somewhat insulted. As a
man with a fair amount of experience in all things carnal, he knew it
was generally not a good sign when the woman you were trying to
seduce suddenly burst into giggles.
"I'm sorry," she said, her voice shaking with mirth. "I was just
thinking about Professor McGonagall."
"I was just thinking, when Professor McGonagall said that you and I
had done so much to ‘improve inter-house relations' at Hogwarts,
somehow I don't think this is exactly what she had in mind."
Hermione continued to laugh, and Draco couldn't help but join in,
picturing the shock and horror on the headmistress's face if she
found out what they were doing in the school at that very moment.
Suddenly Hermione, in her breathlessness, leaned forward to brace
her hands on Draco's shoulders, accidentally bringing her naked
flesh in contact with his. They immediately fell silent, and with a low
growl of need, Draco thrust his hips forward to join his body with
Hermione's. What happened next was, indeed, no laughing matter.
The rest of April flew by, and the days grew warmer and longer as
spring finally arrived at Hogwarts. Draco and Hermione continued
their secret "relationship", finding stolen moments alone in broom
closets and quiet corners of the library after all the other students
had gone to bed. Sometimes they would steal away to Draco's
summer home, where Hermione continued to give Draco lessons in
making love. For once, he more than appreciated her "practice
makes perfect" mentality. However, they never returned to the
handfasting cave, since he was still nervous about what had
happened the last time they entered it.
Despite the joy that came with spending so much time with
Hermione, other emotions simmered beneath the surface -
uncertainty, anxiety, and guilt being the most prominent. Draco
could sense that Hermione felt them, too, and that they grew day by
day, threatening to eventually boil over. While the secrecy of their
trysts had at first been fun and exciting, it was now eating away at
them from the inside. Like the proverbial straw that broke the
camel's back, he knew that soon, something would have to give.
How could he possibly tell his father about Hermione? "Yes, Father,
I've been shagging Hermione Granger. You remember her? She's
that Muggleborn Gryffindor girl you've wanted to kill on one or two
occasions. But don't worry, she's taking a very reliable
Contraceptive Potion, so I won't, as you put it, ‘sully the Malfoy
bloodline.'"
One Sunday in late April, Draco found himself once more plagued
with thoughts about how to resolve the issue of his and Hermione's
forbidden relationship. The two of them had spent most of their
afternoon digging through the library at the Malfoy summer home in
Dover, trying to find a book that would describe the nature of the
magical jolt they had encountered in the cave a few weekends
before. They had spent much of their free time in the previous
weeks performing the same search in the Hogwarts library, but with
no success. So far, their search at the summer home had been
equally fruitless.
At one point, Hermione sighed and closed the massive book she
was holding, lugging it over to the nearby row of shelves. She
glanced up at Draco and noticed the pensive expression on his
face.
"Are you nervous about the match this weekend?" she asked.
Draco shrugged, idly pulling another book off the shelf. He flipped
through the table of contents, but found nothing that aided them in
their search.
"Not really," he said, replacing the book. "I don't get that nervous
about Quidditch to be honest. Especially now that- "
"I see."
"It's not what you think," he said. "It's not as if my father gets angry
at me if I lose a match. He just gets...disappointed, that's all."
"Yes."
"Yes, but don't you sometimes wish he would tell you he loved you,
just so you would know for certain?"
"No," she said, wearily brushing back a few curls that had fallen out
of her ponytail. "I think handfasting temples are extremely rare.
Only very wealthy wizard families had them, while most families
conducted their marriage rituals outdoors. It's also possible that the
magic in your family's temple is unique to that cave alone, and,
therefore, not described in the literature."
"So we may never find out what that spell was," Draco mused,
feeling uneasy about not knowing the answer.
"Maybe not," Hermione said, slamming her book shut. She climbed
to her feet, starting to search some of the higher rows for books that
she hadn't looked through yet. Draco's mouth went dry as this
position caused her jumper to rise upwards, flashing a glimpse of
her creamy skin and slender stomach. In a heartbeat, he was at her
side, pinning her against the bookshelves. Hermione gasped in
surprise.
"Just what do you think you're doing, Draco?" she asked, smiling as
he ran his fingers along the smooth expanse of her midriff.
"We're taking a little break," he said, pulling her closer. "We've been
sifting through these dusty old books all afternoon."
Draco bent to kiss her, but then hesitated, his lips hovering a few
centimeters above hers.
"Stop," Hermione said, pressing her hand over his mouth. "Draco,
there is no spell in existence that can make someone fall in love, so
whatever happened in that cave did not make me fall in love with
you. I already loved you before that night...I think I may have loved
you for some time before then."
"Do you honestly think the only way I could fall in love with you is
because some spell forced me to?" she whispered, shifting her
hand away from his mouth and using it to brush his hair out of his
eyes. "Do you think it's impossible for me to love you of my own
free will?"
Draco said nothing, but of course he knew the answer was yes, he
wouldn't have thought it possible for Hermione to love him without
some form of magical coercion. How could she love him after all of
the things he had done in the past? How could she love a former
Death Eater whose family had, on numerous occasions, threatened
the lives of both her and her friends? Part of him was relieved to
learn that she loved him of her own free will, but another part of him
was terrified by this fact. If she loved him because of a spell the
handfasting temple had inflicted upon her, then they could find a
way to reverse the magic, and release its hold on her; but if the love
she felt for him was real....
You need to stop this, he told himself. She's already fallen in love
with you, and you're starting to get too attached to her. You're going
to end up hurting her if you continue down this path. You might
even end up hurting yourself. You need to stop and walk away
before it's too late....
"Draco Malfoy has caught the snitch! Slytherin wins the Quidditch
championship!"
Once Draco's feet hit the ground, he was swarmed by his fellow
Slytherins, all eager to offer their congratulations, but his eyes
sought the only Gryffindor in the crowd.
Hermione was beaming at him, her eyes full of love and pride.
Draco didn't know if it was the determined look on his face that
parted the crowd, or whether he had accomplished it by wand-less
magic, but a path was cleared between him and Hermione, and
suddenly he was standing before her. She opened her mouth,
preparing to say something, but whether it was, her congratulations
or some witty remark about the Slytherin win, Draco never knew.
Because the moment he reached her, he dropped snitch and
broomstick to the ground, caught her up in his arms, and kissed her
passionately.
The crowd immediately fell silent. Draco was pretty sure he could
hear the faint twitter of birds in the distance, that's how quiet the
Quidditch pitch became at that moment, despite the hundreds of
students clustered around them. Somewhere in a part of his brain
that was still functioning properly, he thought he had officially lost
his mind, snogging Hermione Granger in front of the entire school,
but for the moment, he didn't really give a damn. He was so high on
his victory, and the taste and feel of Hermione's lips, that he didn't
think anything could ruin this perfect moment.
"My, my, my, I don't think I've ever witnessed a more stirring
conclusion to a Quidditch match."
Draco froze, his heart dropping into the region of his toes at the
sound of that familiar voice. He pulled away from Hermione,
whirling around to face the elegantly dressed woman standing
behind him, her blue eyes flashing in a way that made him feel like
he was six years old again, caught with his hand stuck in a cookie
jar. Only this was much, much worse. He swallowed hard, forcing
himself to speak.
"Hello, Mother."
End Notes:
Yes, I am evil. ;) Don't worry, though. Chapter 18 should be up
within the next couple days! Thanks again to Amethyst18 for the
lovely beta job on this chapter!
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Chapter 18: Checkmate by atalanta84
Sweet, there is nothing left to say
But this, that love is never lost,
Keen winter stabs the breasts of May
Whose crimson roses burst his frost,
Ships tempest-tossed
Will find a harbour in some bay,
And so we may.
Draco cleared his throat, an action that drew his mother's attention
away from Hermione and fixed it back upon him.
"Draco dear," Narcissa said in a sweet, yet deadly tone, "would you
allow me to take you out for a lunch to celebrate your victory?
Unless you are too...preoccupied."
"Draco..."
He was lying and they both knew it, but she merely nodded and
watched him take off in the direction of the Slytherin changing
rooms. Once inside, he quickly stripped off his Quidditch gear,
changed into fresh robes, and splashed water on his face. Then,
unable to delay the inevitable any longer, he went to meet his
mother outside the front gates.
While the two Malfoys strode down the road to Hogsmeade, a tense
silence permeated the air between them. Narcissa held her head
high, her elegant black robes fluttering around her in the spring
breeze. Her face was as cold and expressionless as stone, but
Draco knew that internally she was seething.
"Where would you like to eat?" she asked once they had reached
Hogsmeade.
It didn't take long for the silence to start eating away at Draco. At
that moment, he realized he had definitely been spending too much
time with Hermione and her ceaseless chatter, because the need to
say something - anything - was overwhelming him.
"Draco, I know that your father and I have made your life difficult at
times, especially in the past couple of years. But the reason we
turned against the Dark Lord was because we wanted you to have
a better life, an easier life."
"Life isn't easy," Draco muttered, "and nothing you and Father do
can change that for me."
Draco fell silent, processing her words. It was true that there had
been many choices for him to make in the past few years. In that
respect, perhaps he and Harry Potter were not that different after
all. The difference was that Draco had made all
the wrong choices...to accept the assignment to kill Dumbledore, to
attempt capturing Potter in the Room of Requirement, to allow his
aunt to torture Hermione near the point of death....This last choice
in particular still weighed upon his conscience, and he had a feeling
that it would be a long time before the memory of it ceased to haunt
his dreams.
He glanced up and saw his mother piercing him with her steady
blue gaze.
"I don't know what you're trying to imply, Mother. Hermione and I
are just friends."
"Do not toy with me, Draco. I was a witness to your vulgar display in
front of the entire school a few minutes ago." She paused for a
moment. "Are you...intimate with her?"
"I really don't think that's any of your business," he said finally. In
spite of his respectful tone, Narcissa reacted indignantly to his
statement.
"Draco, you are my son. No matter how old you are, you
will always be ‘my business'. Now, if you are sleeping around with
that insolent little Mudblood...."
He flinched upon hearing that slur - a reaction that his mother did
not fail to notice. The corners of her mouth turned downward in
despair.
"It is worse than I thought," she murmured. "You actually care for
the girl. Oh Draco, how could you be so foolish? Surely you haven't
been laboring under the illusion that you and Hermione Granger
could have a future together?"
"I'm not so sure about that. You are an intelligent young man, but
you are not as knowledgeable in the ways of the world as you think
you are. If you were, you would immediately realize that the two of
you could never be. Think about it, my dear; think about the world
you come from. Where would that Mud- Muggleborn fit in?"
"Ah yes, I see," she said, her tone becoming sarcastic. "So Harry
Potter is singing your praises and the Weasley family is holding tea
parties in your honor?"
"With time...."
"With time nothing. People like Hermione Granger and Harry Potter
see the world in black and white. A part of them will always see you
as a Death Eater, and they will never forget that you and your family
once supported the Dark Lord. Granger's friends may humor her by
acting civil towards you and inviting you to their little social
gatherings, but you would never truly belong to their world. You
would always be considered an outsider to them. And with time, you
would learn to resent her for that, too."
"My dear, I don't mean to upset you with all of this," she said gently.
"I love you, and I only want what is best for you. I don't want to see
you get hurt."
"I have to go," he said, tossing a few sickles on the table and
standing to leave.
"Very well," she said, rising to her feet. "Then I suppose it would be
pointless for me to stay."
Narcissa followed her son out of the Three Broomsticks and onto
the sunny main street of Hogsmeade.
"I will see you at the ceremony tomorrow," she said as she
prepared to depart.
"Of course. As the only members of the Malfoy family who are free
to do so, we will be expected to make an appearance."
"What a pretty little lie," Draco said with a scoff, causing his mother
to give him a sharp look.
"Draco, I can see your view of the world is changing, and I don't
think that's necessarily a bad thing. However...some aspects of the
world do not change as quickly as we would like."
"I can't help but feel that things would end badly if you decided to
pursue a serious relationship with Hermione Granger. If you truly
care for the girl, you will let her go...if not for your own happiness,
then for hers."
Draco merely gazed back at her, trying to keep his expression blank
in order to hide the inner turmoil he was experiencing. As his
mother withdrew her wand and prepared to Disapparate, Draco
steeled himself to ask her the one question that had been weighing
on his mind ever since she had first appeared on the Quidditch
pitch that morning.
Draco couldn't help letting out a sigh of relief, but a frown furrowed
his mother's aristocratic brow.
"Draco, I should tell you that your father is not well. His confinement
has started to have an effect on his health. It would not be good for
him to suffer any further...disappointment."
"Your father is so proud of you, Draco. I know he never says so, but
you must realize that he is. And he loves you more than you can
possibly know. We both do."
Then she Disapparated, leaving Draco alone with his very troubled
thoughts.
When Hermione entered the Great Hall for dinner that evening, a
buzz of whispering voices rippled through the room like wildfire. She
just ignored it. Being the best friend of Harry Potter meant t she was
used to occasionally getting caught in the spotlight (such as the
time during her Fourth Year when Rita Skeeter had written that
scathing article about her). What she could not avoid, however,
were the questioning looks and sideways glances of her friends as
she sat down with Ginny, Dean, and Luna at the Gryffindor table.
"So you and Malfoy, huh?" Dean asked after a few moments of
awkward silence.
"Since when?"
"You women and your secrets," he said, rolling his eyes. "Well, I
probably wouldn't have wanted to know half the things that went on
between you and Malfoy anyway."
"I think it's lovely," said Luna, helping herself to a large quantity of
pudding. "And the way he kissed you after the match this morning
was so romantic."
"I have to admit, that kiss was pretty amazing," Ginny added. Then
her pretty face creased into a frown. "But I wonder what his mother
will have to say about it."
"I don't know. I just hope she wasn't too hard on Draco."
The Slytherins in the room broke out into riotous cheers while the
other three houses added some polite applause of their own. Gone
were the days when the inter-house rivalries were so fierce that
everyone booed the Slytherins' successes. Professor McGonagall
waited until the students settled down before speaking once more.
"As some of you may already know, Hogwarts will play host to a
memorial service for those who were lost in the final battle with
Voldemort one year ago. During the service, the Ministry will be
erecting a monument on the school grounds to commemorate the
battle, and I expect all of you to be in attendance and on your best
behavior for the ceremony."
"I can't believe it's already been one year since the battle,"
Hermione mused. She turned to Ginny. "Your family will be coming
to Hogwarts for the ceremony, right?"
Fleur had begun her maternity leave two weeks before, and in the
meantime, Professor McGonagall had resumed the post of
Transfiguration professor. The difficult lesson plans and massive
quantities of homework she assigned made everyone wish that they
could have Professor Weasley back instead, with or without her
raging pregnant-Veela hormones.
"Does that mean Ron will be there, too?" Luna asked suddenly.
"Oh...um, yeah."
"No, he won't be," said Ginny. "Ron isn't dating Corianna anymore.
They broke up."
"I see. I suppose she got sick of him and moved on to another ‘boy-
toy'? I can't say I didn't see that one coming."
Hermione had a feeling Ginny wasn't telling the whole story, but at
the moment, she didn't feel like pressing the issue. She was too
busy thinking about how much had changed since the final battle.
At the same time last year, defeating Voldemort had been nearly
the entire focus of her existence, she and Ron had been reaching
the tentative beginning of their relationship, and she had still
considered Draco Malfoy an enemy. Now Voldemort was nothing
but a bad memory, she and Ron had parted ways, and she and
Draco were....Were what, exactly?
They were obviously more than just "good friends" now. Yet while
they sometimes behaved like a couple, she couldn't technically call
Draco her boyfriend. They had never even agreed to remain
exclusive, though she currently had no desire to be with anyone
else, and she had a feeling that Draco felt the same way.
Hermione shook her head to clear it. She had known what she was
getting into with Draco; they had both known that anything that
happened between them could only be temporary. He had warned
her that he could never love her, could never have a future with her,
and foolish as it was to do so, she had accepted him anyway....
She needed to talk to him. But Draco was still missing and instead
of worrying her, his absence was beginning to irk her instead.
"Of course!" she said, clapping her hand to her forehead. "Why
didn't I think of it sooner?"
"I'll see all of you later," she called over her shoulder as she made
her way out of the Great Hall.
Draco was sitting at a table on the terrace, staring out over the
water. The sun was just sinking below the horizon, tingeing the sky
with pink and gold hues. The rose bushes that adorned the Malfoy
gardens had begun to bloom, and the air was laced with their
delicate musk. With the gentle breeze and the rhythmic sound of
waves crashing on the shore, it made for a deceptively peaceful
setting. If Hermione didn't know any better, she would have thought
Draco was simply enjoying the sunset.
Draco remained motionless as she approached, and if it weren't for
his white-blond hair stirring in the breeze, she would have thought
he was a statue. She sat across from him, noticing for the first time
that his expensive white and green chess set was sprawled out on
the table. He had obviously been playing against the game itself,
much like a Muggle would play against his computer. His green king
piece stood alone on the board with his sword lying at his feet.
He picked his king piece up off the board and twirled it idly between
his fingers. Hermione watched him, uncertain of how to proceed.
Draco seemed so distant, so closed off, that it was hard to reconcile
him with the man that she had come to know over the past six
months. The coldness in his eyes was reminiscent of the old Draco,
and that disconcerted her.
"Draco, what happened with your mother this morning? How did
she react?"
"Why are you acting this way? What's wrong with you?"
"I don't need your help, Granger," he spat, tossing his king piece
back down on the table.
With that he walked back into the house, effectively dismissing her.
Hermione's emotions rapidly shifted from hurt to anger as she
shoved her chair back from the table and stood to follow him.
"Yes, that's it," he said, making his way through the house and
towards the stairs leading to the second floor.
"Draco, I'm not going to let you walk away from me without
discussing this first..."
He froze with one foot on the bottom stair and his hand on the
banister, turning to glare at her.
"Last time I checked, I don't take orders from you," he said coldly.
"I'm not a mindless buffoon like Potter or Weasley. Just do me a
favor and leave me alone."
"Why are you still here? Didn't I tell you to leave me alone?"
"Stop acting like this!" she hissed. "It's not like you."
"Not like me? Clearly, you haven't known me for the past eight
years," he said sarcastically, whipping his silk robe out of the
wardrobe and shoving his arms through the sleeves.
"That's not the type of person you are anymore. I thought we'd been
through this already..."
"You don't get it. I'll never be able to live up to your high
expectations. You call me a puzzle as if there's some sort of
solution for what I am, but there's not. There's no way to undo all
the stupid things I've done, all the bad choices I've made. Dragons
can't change their scales, Hermione."
Draco paused, his breath coming out in hot, ragged puffs against
Hermione's face.
She felt a few tears trail down her cheeks, and at the sight of them,
Draco's anger seemed to waver slightly, his voice losing the hard
edge it had contained before.
"I told you that I don't know how to love - at least, not in the way that
you're looking for." His eyes fell closed. "Why couldn't you just go
on hating me like you did before?"
"I couldn't hate the person you've become, Draco. I already told
you...I love you."
"Because it's true," she said, sobbing miserably. "Believe me, it's
the last thing I wanted, and I know it's the last thing you wanted, but
it's true."
For a few seconds Draco just stared at her, his face contorted in a
mixture of anger and some other emotion that Hermione could not
discern...pain, perhaps? Then, all of the tension seemed to drain
out of him, and he bent to rest his forehead against hers.
She shook her head, her face buried in the crook of his neck.
"No," she said, "I shouldn't have let things go this far."
She wanted so badly to hate him as she once had, but she couldn't.
Although it was only going to make her life - and his - more
complicated, she loved Draco, and the only person she could think
to hate for that fact was herself. After awhile her tears slowed, and
she regained the ability to speak.
"I know."
"Maybe it would be better for both of us if we just...."
"Do you regret it?" she asked, her voice muffled against the warm
skin of his neck. "Do you regret ever having been with me?"
Draco stiffened and pulled away so that he could study her face.
"Do you?"
"The only people who say that are the people who haven't done
anything really worth regretting," Draco said with a touch of envy in
his voice.
Hermione repeated the one question that she wasn't sure she
wanted to hear the answer to.
Draco held her gaze for a moment and then shook his head.
Hermione could find no words to express the emotions that she felt
when he said this, but she was spared the need to speak when
Draco bent to brush his lips against hers. His kiss was as light as a
whisper, and if it was true that every kiss had a meaning behind it,
she thought that this one felt like a fond farewell.
A soft moan escaped her lips as she felt his hands leave her hair,
her robes being tugged away and dropped on the floor, her blouse
being frantically unbuttoned. In Draco's haste to remove the
garment, a few of the buttons popped off and fell to the floor, but
she couldn't bring herself to care. She was so consumed with
desire that she almost forgot the need to breathe.
Draco finally pulled his lips away from hers long enough to murmur,
"Just for tonight, pretend that we have all the time in the world."
Hermione recognised her own words from the night they had spent
in the handfasting cave. Yet, before she could fully process this
fact, he ripped her blouse off her shoulders and bent down to fasten
his mouth on her collarbone, sucking hard enough to leave a red
mark. He moved further south to the tops of her breasts, covering
them with fierce, open-mouthed kisses that made her wonder if he
was trying to memorise the taste of her skin or brand her with the
memory of his touch. Perhaps it was a combination of both.
There was a chaotic blur of pants, socks, and knickers being thrown
to the floor as they were both divested of their clothing so fast that
Hermione thought it might have been Vanished off of their bodies.
Then she gasped when Draco suddenly scooped her into his arms
and carried her across the room with a strength that belied his lean
frame. As he lowered her onto the bed, she wrapped her arms
around his neck, pulling his body down to cover hers. The need to
feel every inch of his skin pressed against hers was almost
overwhelming.
Quickly, but somehow not quickly enough for either of them, he was
inside of her. Neither of them said anything, but it seemed that for
the moment, no words needed to be spoken. They spoke another
language entirely - one that consisted of gasps and moans, of lips
and fingers burning trails over each other's skin - as they rocked
together with a single-minded urgency that bordered on
desperation.
She closed her eyes, feeling as if her heart was going to burst.
She opened her eyes to meet his, and the moment she did so, she
felt a tingle spread throughout her body, making her feel as every
nerve was a live wire. And she wondered if Draco was right. Maybe
something had happened that night in the handfasting cave. Maybe
there had been a magical bond forged between them, and they
would spend the rest of their lives trying to understand what it
meant....
Again Draco gasped her name, this time in a voice that was both
possessive and pleading, and at the sound of it, she shattered,
curling her hips into his as she came with a keening cry. Draco
followed soon after, gathering her body closer to his as together,
they rode out the intense wave of physical pleasure and emotional
pain.
When Draco awoke, the sun was just cresting the horizon, filling the
bedroom with pale morning light. The window had been left open
the entire night, making the room uncomfortably cool, and he
shifted instinctively closer to Hermione to draw from her body heat.
He could still smell the rosebuds outside on the terrace, and he
closed his eyes to breathe in their scent, which mingled with
Hermione’s fragrant hair.
His sudden movement caused Hermione to roll over and stretch out
her arms to where he had been lying before, and her face crinkled
into a frown. It was as if she could sense his abandonment, even in
her sleep.
But of course, his efforts had been in vain. No matter how many
walls he tried to erect between them, Hermione would always find a
way through. For the first time in his life, all of his barriers were
down, and he had her to thank – or blame – for that.
With another sigh, Draco retrieved his clothes from the floor and
dressed himself. Then he closed the window to shut out the crisp
morning air before he turned to exit the room. He hesitated on his
way out the door, looking back at Hermione’s slumbering form. He
didn’t want to wake her – didn’t want her to see him leave. But he
couldn’t resist returning to her side one last time to tuck the
blankets more tightly around her and press a feather-light kiss to
her forehead. She stirred again, her eyelids fluttering as she
mumbled something incoherent under her breath, but she did not
awaken.
No, this was the best way. He couldn’t give Hermione anything else,
but he could give her this: a clean break, a fresh start, and a chance
to be with any man she wanted – any man but him.
With great effort, Draco turned to leave the room once more. This
time, he forced himself not to look back.
The day was sunny and clear, even though a bit of chill still lingered
in the spring air. A large crowd of wizards and witches was
streaming through the front gate and onto the school grounds, filing
into the rows of seats that surrounded the podium where Minister of
Magic Kingsley Shacklebolt would soon give his speech. Not far
behind the podium stood a tall, lumpy object covered with black
cloth, which Hermione knew was the new monument the Ministry
had erected in honor of the fallen.
The ceremony was about to begin, and she scanned the crowd of
attendees, looking for any sign of her friends. Soon, she caught
sight of Ginny, Dean, and Luna sitting in a row of chairs near the
front, waving to get her attention, and she made her way briskly
over to them.
She would tell Ginny the whole story another time. For now, she
needed time to think and come to grips with what had occurred the
night before.
Now, she sat silently beside her friends, watching, but not seeing,
as more witches and wizards arrived to swell their numbers. It
wasn’t until she felt someone’s hand on her shoulder that she finally
shook herself free of her reverie.
“Oh, um, I’m sorry I wasn’t able to come. You see, I…”
Hermione gave the woman a shaky smile - and then noticed the
gathering troop of redheads behind her.
“Um, no…Mum and Dad would’ve come if I asked them to, but I
thought they might feel a bit out of place. You know, being Muggles
and all.”
“Oh, I see.”
Angelina grinned.
“It’s okay, they haven’t started yet,” Ginny reassured him, giving him
a quick kiss and pulling him down into the empty seat next to her.
Ron paused at the end of the aisle near Hermione, awkwardly
shifting from one foot to the other. Hermione swallowed nervously
and tried to avoid his eyes, but it was no use. She supposed this
moment had to come eventually, and there was no use delaying it
any longer.
There, making their way to two seats at the back of the assembly,
were Draco and his mother. Narcissa held her head high, feigning
ignorance at the crowd’s reaction to her entrance. Draco looked
slightly less at ease than his mother, but Hermione thought this may
have been because she could read his emotions better than others
would be able to do.
For just a moment, their eyes met, and Hermione felt as if her heart
were lodged in her throat. His face was an unreadable mask, a
calm façade, but she could have sworn she saw it waver for just a
second, hinting at emotions that roiled just beneath the surface.
Then Professor McGonagall stepped up to the podium to address
the crowd, and Hermione forced herself to tear her gaze away from
Draco and focus on the ceremony.
After all of the names had been read off, Kingsley took Professor
McGonagall’s place at the podium, and after one stern glance at the
witches and wizards gathered before him, the crowd fell silent once
more, waiting for him to speak.
There was a slight ripple in the crowd, from those who still cringed
at hearing the name spoken out loud.
“At this place, one year ago, fifty souls were lost. That does not
include the hundreds of others, both wizard and Muggle, who were
killed in the Death Eater attacks, raids, and interrogations that
preceded that battle. And you may ask yourselves, what is the best
way for us to honor them?”
“Or,” said Kingsley, “we can create a new world for our children
where they will not be defined by their blood status, and where the
word ‘Mudblood’ will not exist except for on the pages of their
History of Magic textbooks. That is not to say we should forget what
our society used to be, because if we do, how can we measure how
far we have come? We must never forget the sacrifices that were
made on this day, one year ago. We must never forget where we’ve
been. But, like the artist who shaped the stone of this sculpture, we
must allow our experiences to shape us into better people, and a
better society. Like a phoenix, we can rise from the ashes and
begin anew.”
Draco shrugged. He was still rather angry with her after the
conversation they’d had at the Three Broomsticks the day before,
and he didn’t feel like giving her the enthusiastic support she was
looking for.
“So you keep saying,” she replied, darting a glance in her son’s
direction. “I notice something else has changed as well. Is it true –
or perhaps I have simply imagined - that you and Hermione
Granger don’t seem to be on such friendly terms this morning?”
Draco gritted his teeth, but before he could issue a retort, his
mother’s attention suddenly strayed elsewhere. Her eyes widened
as she stared at someone standing on the other side of the room.
Draco turned to follow her gaze, and his eyes came to rest on a tall,
dark-haired woman who was talking to Luna Lovegood while
jiggling a toddler on her hip. At first, his attention was captured by
the baby’s vivid, turquoise hair, but then he looked more closely at
the woman who was holding him.
For the briefest moment, he thought his Aunt Bellatrix had returned
from the grave, and his heart nearly leapt out of his chest at the
thought. Upon further inspection, however, he realized that the
woman was not Bellatrix at all, though she did bear a striking
resemblance to her. Her curly hair was a shade lighter, and pulled
up in an elegant chignon. She possessed the same austere beauty,
but where Bellatrix’s face was emaciated and sallow from years
spent in Azkaban, this woman’s face was soft, kind, and rosy-
cheeked. Her resemblance to Bellatrix, in combination with his
mother’s startled response to seeing her, all but confirmed her
identity for Draco: She could be none other than his mother’s sister,
Andromeda Tonks.
The relief on his mother’s face was evident as the two of them
exited the Great Hall and made their way to the front doors.
However, when they were mere steps away from exiting the school,
Draco heard a familiar voice calling his name.
Draco turned, and to his surprise, found Harry Potter chasing after
him. Immediately, he stiffened, and he felt his mother do the same
at his side. Hadn’t they had enough awkward encounters for one
afternoon? Draco worried about Potter’s motivation for seeking him
out. Had he heard about what had occurred between him and
Hermione the night before? Was he there to exact revenge for what
he considered mistreatment of his best friend? However, the
expression on the other boy’s face was not anger.
"Mrs. Malfoy."
Draco glanced from one to the other, sensing enough tension in the
air to cut with a knife.
"Er...Potter, why exactly are you looking for me?" he asked finally.
Draco looked over at his mother, who gave him a tight smile in
return.
"I can see myself to the gate, Draco," she said. "I will see you at the
Parting Ceremony in a few weeks. Until then, good luck on your
studies."
She dropped a quick kiss on Draco's cheek that nearly made him
die of mortification (In front of Potter? Has she gone mad?!). Then,
with one last regal swirl of her robes, she strolled out the heavy
front doors of Hogwarts and left him alone with his old adversary.
The two boys stood awkwardly for a few moments, and Draco gave
Potter a glare that clearly bespoke dire consequences if he made
any remark about the kiss he had just received from his mother.
Luckily for Potter, he made none.
The last time Harry Potter and Narcissa Malfoy had come face-to-
face had been at his parents' trial. To the surprise of the entire
Malfoy family, Potter had given testimony about how Draco's
mother had saved his life during the final battle with Voldemort by
pretending that he was dead in the Forbidden Forest. This
testimony had likely spared all of them from serving time in
Azkaban prison. Draco knew his mother felt a sense of gratitude
towards the boy; she was reluctantly, grudgingly grateful -- but
grateful, nonetheless. It was the same feeling Draco felt towards
him, after he had saved his life in the Room of Requirement.
That was a wizard's debt.
"Tartan knickers," said Potter, and having said the password, the
statue sprang aside to grant them entrance. When Draco glanced at
Potter with raised eyebrows, the boy shrugged, a smirk worthy of a
Slytherin lighting up his face. "What? You don't think Professor
McGonagall has a sense of humor?"
Draco merely rolled his eyes and followed him up the spiral stone
staircase to the Headmistress's suite. When he entered the room
on Potter's heels, he was surprised to find that Professor
McGonagall was the only person there. If she wanted to speak to
him so badly, why hadn't she done so at the brunch downstairs?
And what did she want to talk to him about? Had she heard about
what had happened between him and Hermione?
"Ah, Mr. Malfoy, we've been looking everywhere for you," she said
in greeting.
"Please, Minerva."
"We'll just leave you two alone, then," McGonagall said, sweeping
past him and out of the room with Potter close behind her. "Come
back downstairs whenever you're ready," she added, and then
closed the door behind her with a soft click.
Draco was left alone to face the curious stares of a room full of
portraits of former Headmasters and Headmistresses, but there was
only one that captivated his attention. Severus Snape stared down
his long nose at Draco, his hair just as greasy, and his dark eyes
just as unreadable, as they had been in life. Yet, in spite of the fact
that he had once been one of his favorite teachers, and a longtime
friend of his family's, Draco felt as if he hardly knew the man. All
along he had been a spy for the Order. All along he had been doing
Dumbledore's bidding, not Voldemort's. He had been fighting for the
other side, and even though Draco was glad Voldemort had fallen,
he couldn't help feeling a bit betrayed by his old professor, for
having kept him in the dark for so long.
"Well, boy, I didn't summon you here just to have you stand across
the room and gawk at me," Snape snapped, and Draco almost
grinned in spite of himself. That was definitely the Professor Snape
he remembered from his childhood. He finally crossed the room to
stand before the portrait, gazing up at his former Head of House.
The man's dark eyes narrowed as he studied Draco, and Draco
wondered if it was possible for a painting to perform Legilimency on
a live person. He reasoned it probably wasn't, but it still made him
nervous.
"Yes, Draco. There was much I was not able to tell you
before...before everything that occurred last year. There were many
things that went unsaid between us. No doubt you have been
informed about my true allegiance during the war against
Voldemort. You must understand that it was necessary for me to
keep many things secret from you, not only for your own safety, but
mine as well. At the time, I wasn't entirely sure where your own
loyalties lied."
"At the time, I'm not sure I knew where my loyalties lied," Draco
mumbled. Severus’s eyebrows rose at these words.
"I...I know now that it was a good thing that the Dark Lord fell. It
would have been bad for my family - for everyone - if he won.”
Draco paused, uncomfortable about the turn the conversation had
taken. “Professor, not that I’m not happy to see you again,
but…what exactly did you bring me here to talk about?”
“I assume your parents did not approve of your friendship with the
girl,” Snape continued. It was clear he was just as uncomfortable
with the topic, but felt inclined to pursue it anyway.
“Indeed.”
"I see Potter still hasn’t learned when to keep his mouth shut," he
said grimly. "Exactly how many people know about my history with
Lily Evans?"
"Who cares what you wish for me?" Draco snapped, finally losing
patience. "You didn't care to protect me when you were alive, so
why bother now? My parents...my parents tried to protect me. My
mother especially. And you expect me to repay her by chasing after
a Muggle-born, and having a relationship with someone she'll never
approve of? It would tear my family apart. We've already lost almost
everything. We're outcasts, pariahs..."
"Draco," Snape interrupted, frowing, "is that all that matters to you
now, keeping your mother happy? Whose life are you living?"
"Enough. You think you understand what I'm going through, but you
don't. It's different. I'll be fine, and Hermione will be better off
without me. We'll move on and put this whole bloody mess behind
us, and my father will be none the wiser. That's the way it should
be, don't you see? That's the way it has to be." He stalked across
the room, pausing with one handle on the doorknob as he shot a
final glance over his shoulder. "It was good to see you again,
Professor." Then he left, letting the door swing shut behind him with
a resounding thump that stirred the dust off of the bookshelves.
"Yes, and my words fell on deaf ears, as I told you they would. I
don't know why I let you talk me into having that conversation with
the boy to begin with. It was about as pleasant as chopping up an
entire barrel of Flobberworms bare-handed."
"The love I felt for Lily was deeper than anything Draco could have
possibly experienced -"
I can try, though, she thought grimly. Her thoughts were too
preoccupied with Draco to even contemplate how she felt about
Ron at the moment. Just a few minutes earlier, she had seen Draco
leave the room abruptly with his mother, and she couldn't stop
herself from wondering what was going through his mind. Did he
miss her as much as she missed him? Or had he already moved
on, eager to put their brief little fling behind him forever?
Her thoughts were interrupted when a portly, yet well-dressed,
middle-aged wizard approached her at the beverage table.
"Hello, Miss Granger?" the man asked politely. "You are Miss
Hermione Granger, I presume?"
"Er, yes," she answered. "I'm sorry, I don't believe we've met
before, Mr...?"
"Hudgkins. Mervin Hudgkins. I'm the new Head of the Magical Law
Enforcement Department at the Ministry."
Hermione's first feeling was surprise at the fact that this cheerful,
balding man was the new Head of the MLE Department. Somehow,
she had always imagined members of that department to be grim,
imposing individuals. Her secondary reaction was one of unease.
With a few exceptions, her past interactions with Ministry officials
had been anything but pleasant. Seeing her discomfort, Hudgkins
let out a laugh that made his ample belly wobble.
"I see your opinion of the Ministry is not a high one, Miss Granger,"
he said jovially, as if he had read her mind. "And I can't blame you,
to be honest. The Ministry has done a piss-poor job of things over
the past several years - for many years, in fact. That's something
the Minister of Magic is working to change, however. In fact, it was
the Minister himself who asked me to speak to you today."
"A job opportunity at the Ministry. Now, now, hear me out, Miss
Granger! I think this is an offer you'll find quite impossible to resist."
I doubt it, Hermione thought to herself. But aloud she said, "Really?
Please, tell me more, Mr. Hudgkins."
"Ah, yes. I've been told you have a particular soft spot for those
creatures."
"I have to admit, this new Magical League for Social Justice sounds
like a wonderful idea, Mr. - um, Mervin."
"I'm glad to hear you say that, Miss Granger, because it was our
hope that you would lead it."
Hermione flushed.
"I don't...I mean, I don't think it's fair to put me in such a high-
ranking position just because..."
"Miss Granger."
"Think about it. For this League of Social Justice to succeed, we will
need members of the community to be accepting of the new
measures we propose. It will not be easy to make the types of
changes we're hoping to make...and no one will want to hear these
ideas coming from a fat old buffoon like myself, believe me," he
added, patting his belly in cheerful self-deprecation. "But if you were
the one proposing these changes...well now, that would be a
different story. An intelligent, young, Muggle-born lady like yourself,
one of the most gifted witches of her age, and a war hero besides?
What else could make the Wizarding world sit up and listen? My
dear, you have the opportunity to make a real difference; to make
changes that will improve the lives of witches and wizards for
generations to come. How can you possibly refuse?"
Hermione pursed her lips as she mulled over the idea. Hudgkins
was right - his offer was practically impossible to resist. She
remembered her frustrations, especially in fourth year, when she
had tried to start up S.P.E.W. and struggled to find people to
support her cause. If she were head of the League for Social
Justice, she could actually make a difference, just as Hudgkins
said. She would finally have the resources to make all the changes
she thought the Wizarding world required. The more she thought
about it, the more she realized that she would be a fool to pass up
this sort of opportunity.
Resigned, she asked, "When would you want me to start this new
position? I don't know if Professor McGonagall told you, but I've
won a scholarship to travel around the world conducting research,
so I'll be away from Britain for the next year..."
"I'm sorry, but I'm afraid we wouldn't be able to wait that long. We've
just recently secured the funding for this endeavor, and with the war
still fresh in people's minds, now is the best time to get the League
up and running. If you don't accept the position soon, I'm afraid we'll
have to give it to someone else. But Hermione, please understand
that you are our first choice - our only choice at this point. We would
be ever so disappointed if you refused our offer."
"Of course," Hudgkins agreed. "I'm sure the Minister would be more
than happy to delay our final decision until that time, especially if it
increases our odds of bringing you on board."
"Thank you," Hermione said with a smile, holding out her hand for
him to shake. She decided she liked Hudgkins after all. She
appreciated his warmth and his honesty - two traits that in the past,
she had often found lacking in members of the Ministry. He would
be a pleasant employer, if she ever had the opportunity to work with
him.
Ginny appeared at her side the moment Hudgkins departed from it.
"What were you and the new Head of the MLE talking about it?" she
asked.
"I've never met him, no. But Dad speaks highly of him. He says it's
about time that they started putting men and women of sense in
charge of the Ministry. So tell me, what did he have to say?"
"No, not yet. I have the scholarship to think about, remember? And
Hudgkins said they can't delay filling the position while I'm traveling
for my research...Oh Ginny!" she cried despairingly. "What am I
going to do? How can I possibly decide between the two?"
"You'll make the best choice for you, I know you will," Ginny
responded, patting her shoulder in reassurance.
"What's going on?" She and Ginny spun around to find Ron
standing there, awkwardly shuffling his feet. "Is everything okay,
Hermione?"
"Everything's fine, Ronald," she said coolly. "Not that it's any of your
business."
The icy reception made him wince, but somehow, he found the
courage to stand his ground in spite of it. He sent a beseeching look
in his sister's direction.
Hermione clutched Ginny's arm tightly, not wanting her to leave her
alone with Ron. Between the break-up with Draco and her
indecision about the job offer she had just been given, talking to her
ex-boyfriend was the last thing she needed.
Please, she pleaded to whatever gods would hear her. I can't have
this conversation with him right now. Not today. Please, not today.
Somehow, the gods must have heard, because the answer to her
prayers came in the form of a jaguar Patronus, which soared into
the Great Hall, landed in the center of the room, and began to
speak in Bill Weasley's voice.
"I'm here, Mrs. Weasley," Harry replied, striding forward out of the
crowd.
"Ah, there you are. Everyone, out to the front gates to Apparate.
Quickly now!"
"Okay," Ginny said reluctantly, "if you're sure." She trailed after the
rest of her family, but Ron stayed, seizing the opportunity - however
brief - to speak to Hermione alone.
"Please, Hermione," Ron said softly. "For old time's sake." The look
in his eyes was so humble and pleading that Hermione could no
longer harden her heart to his request. Besides, they had to have it
out eventually. They had too many mutual friends to avoid each
other forever.
"Life moves on," she whispered. If only she could make herself
believe it.
End Notes:
Thanks to you readers who have been patiently waiting for this
chapter. I cannot apologize enough for the length of time it took to
get this story updated. I suffered a huge case of writer’s block for
this story, but thankfully that seems to have lifted, and I’m actively
writing again. The next chapter is a continuation of this one, which
will finally complete the first half of this story, occurring during
Hermione and Draco’s “eighth year” at Hogwarts. I’m hard at work
on it now, and plan to have it finished and posted within the next
couple weeks. I’m hoping to get back to updating this story on a
more regular basis from now on. No, that does not mean I will have
an update every single week, but I’ll try to get them out as soon as
real life - and my muse - will allow.
One thing you will notice is that I’m bringing back the poems. Some
of you who’ve read this story from back when it was posted on
Fanfiction.net may recall that there used to be poems posted at the
intro of each chapter. I since took them out when I reposted the
story here. I’m putting them back in because…well, because I like
them there, I guess! LOL.
"Hey," he said, sinking into the seat across from her. "How are
you?"
"Busy studying night and day for the N.E.W.T.s, no doubt," Ron
said with a tentative grin. But something in his off-handed tone only
made Hermione freeze up more.
Ron's smile faded and an awkward silence settled over their table.
They were temporarily rescued by a server coming over to take
their drink order. After they ordered a round of butterbeers, Ron
tried to steer the conversation into less hostile territory by digging in
his coat pocket for pictures of his newborn niece.
"Here she is," he said proudly, handing them over to her. "Her name
is Victoire. It means 'victory' in French."
Hermione already knew that, of course, but she bit back a retort as
she studied the photos. Various members of the Weasley family
smiled back at her as they held the tiny bundle squirming in their
arms, a trace of strawberry-blond hair peeping out of the pink
blanket she was wrapped in.
"She's beautiful."
"She's already the most spoiled baby in Britain," Ron declared with
a grin. "Ginny can't get enough of her; even George dotes on her.
And of course, Mum's pleased as punch to have a granddaughter.
She knit the blanket for her, of course. Poor Victoire has so many
pink baby blankets, you could stitch them together and make a
circus tent."
"Celestina and I are over. I'm sure Ginny told you that by now."
"Oh, so you did tell Ginny to pass that bit of news along to me. I
suspected as much."
"Yeah," he replied, plopping his mug down on the table and wiping
the foam from his upper lip. "That whole business with Malfoy, to
start off with. It wasn't fair, the way I acted about your friendship
with him. I...overreacted, to say the least. If anything, when I
suggested we take a break from each other, I probably just drove
you into his arms. Bloody stupid idea, that one."
"I guess not." Ron hesitated for a moment, using the tip of his finger
to trace a scuff mark on the table. "I know you probably dated him
to get revenge on me..."
Hermione frowned.
"No, that's not why. I mean, it might have been, at first, but later..."
"Hermione, are you saying what I think you're saying? Did you...did
you fall in love with him?"
"I see," Ron said quietly. "He broke your heart, didn't he? Like I
thought he would?"
"Either way, you can't lose, Hermione," Ron said, after she had
described her discussion with Hudgkins, and the fact that she had
only a few weeks to decide between accepting the position. "You'll
get to make an impact on the Wizarding world, and you know we'll
all be proud of you, regardless of what you choose."
"Ginny doesn't repeat everything you tell her, you know. She values
your trust, and your friendship."
Those last words wounded him deeply, she knew, but there was a
flicker of hope in his eyes as well.
"Yes," she whispered. "I forgive you, Ron. We've through so much
together, how can I not? I want to be your friend again...but that's all
I have to offer."
"For now, at least," he added, and she didn't have the heart to
squash that tiny ray of hope he still carried.
They didn't linger at their table for much longer. Hermione had to
return to the library to study, and Ron was due back at the Ministry.
He was still in the midst of Auror training, and he would be spending
the rest of the day mastering disguise spells. While Ron paid for
their drinks, Hermione stepped out of the Three Broomsticks and
into the fresh spring air. Hogsmeade was bustling, as was usual for
a Saturday afternoon, and she noticed quite a few students milling
around the various shops and eateries. When she caught a glimpse
of platinum blond hair down the street, she froze in place.
"You okay?" Ron asked her, his brow lowered in concern when he
saw how pale her face had become. Draco had slipped into
Honeydukes before Ron could catch sight of him, and for that, at
least, Hermione was grateful.
After Ron had Disapparated to the Ministry, she walked slowly back
to Hogwarts by herself, her mind churning with thoughts about what
had occurred in the last week. Ron was back in her life, just as
Draco had walked out of it, apparently forever. She had been
offered the job of her dreams, but her scholarship, along with her
research proposal, still hung in the balance. She could not recall the
last time she had so many difficult choices to make.
"Growing up is all about making choices," her father had once told
her, and now she could see what he meant. Her parents had also
taught her not to lose sight of her goals in life, and that was advice
she had certainly not been following these days.
She was Hermione Jean Granger, most talented witch of her age,
head of her class, and she had let herself become distracted by not
just one, but two, messy little romances. Somewhere deep in her
heart, she knew that what she had had with Draco was more than
that, but she couldn't let herself dwell on such thoughts now.
Draco had obviously moved on, and it was now time that she
started doing the same. The N.E.W.T.s were only weeks away, and
after that, the beginning of her adult life. She needed to regroup and
work on the parts of her life she had control over - namely, her
career. There would be time enough in the future for love, but for
now, she need to focus on herself and her own dreams.
But what were her dreams? Certainly she had never dreamed of
working at the Ministry before now. And then there was the
research scholarship. That dream wasn't as alluring as before, now
that she wouldn't have Draco to share it with. She had imagined
that she would be traveling around the world with him at her side,
and the prospect of doing it alone seemed much less exciting.
Besides, it was unlikely that she would actually be able to discover
the gene that made wizards different from Muggles. She knew
genetic research could take many years to reap a discovery, and
most of the time it was a shot in the dark. However, perhaps if her
research showed signs of promise, it would lead to further funding
in the future.
They had interacted very little since they had spent that last night
together in his family's summer home in Dover. They still studied
with the same group of people, but no longer sat side-by-side, and
when they spoke to each other, it was generally out of necessity
while discussing a N.E.W.T.s question with their classmates. They
were never alone together, nor had either of them expressed any
desire to be.
"I see." Professor Hong stared down at the pillows that lay scattered
on the floor, just outside of Draco's reach. "It is not like you to
struggle with the mastery of a spell. Perhaps the issue lies with your
concentration? For the Summoning spell to work properly, you must
be focused. You must desire nothing more than to bring that object
within your grasp."
"Sir, earlier this year you mentioned something about love. You said
it was the most powerful force in the world."
"Yes, I did. And you do not believe this statement." It was not a
question.
"It's just...well, there seem to be other forces out there that are more
powerful than love. Like time, for instance. People can fall out of
love over time. It happens every day. Even in the Wizarding world,
the divorce rate is high. And death. Love can't stop people from
being separated by death. Lies, adultery...so many things can tear
love apart. So how can you say it's the most powerful force in the
world? It seems pretty fragile to me."
"You are right; love is indeed a fragile thing. And yet, so much of
human history is driven by love. Men will do anything for it -- fight
for it, kill for it...yes, even die for it. For better or worse, love
changes people. Even when it fades, it leaves a trace of itself
behind, and anyone who is touched by it is never the same
again. That is what makes it is the most powerful force in the
world."
"I have some essays to grade, and would be grateful for the
company," he said, "Since yours was the last class of the day, why
don't you go ahead and practice the Summoning spell a little
longer?"
At Draco's nod of acquiescence, Professor Hong settled down
behind his desk and pulled out a quill and ink-pot. For half an hour,
there was no sound but the soft scratch of quill against parchment,
and the thump of pillows falling futilely to the floor. Finally, after
numerous attempts, Draco regained his focus, and managed to
send one of the pillows launching into his outstretched hands.
Professor Hong glanced up, and while no smile graced his stern
face, his brown eyes were warm with kindness and reassurance.
"You see, Mr. Malfoy, the things we desire will often find their way
back to us, in time."
The weeks flew by, and after hours of studying, and more than a
few nervous breakdowns on the part of the Seventh Years, the time
came to take the N.E.W.T.s exams. Despite all that had occurred in
the preceding weeks, Hermione somehow managed to push all of it
aside and return to the bookish, studious ways she had mastered
during her earlier years at Hogwarts. When she walked out of the
Great Hall after the exams were completed, she felt reasonably
confident that she had passed. Or, at least, as confident as she was
capable of being when it came to exam results.
By the time the N.E.W.T.s were over, the school year was almost
over as well, and Hermione found herself spending her last days at
Hogwarts. It was a bittersweet feeling, knowing that she would
never again dash through the halls on her way to class, study in the
library, eat dinner in the Great Hall, or wear a school uniform
trimmed in Gryffindor colors.
Hermione left her parents to admire the magical décor while she
went to sit with her fellow Seventh Years on the stage. In the
preceding weeks, Draco had been keeping more to his Slytherin
classmates, and she saw that she was doing so again this
afternoon, as he was sitting with several silver-and-green clad
Seventh Years in the back row. Hermione chose a seat closer to
the front, with Luna and Ginny.
“Yes,” Hermione admitted. “That’s why I’m glad the school year’s
ending, to be honest. I just need distance from the whole situation.
Having to see him every day in class is…”
“You will,” Hermione reassured her. “I’m certain of it.” What she
was less certain of was the choice she had made just a few days
prior. The discussion she had had with Professor McGonagall had
not been an easy one, and she was still plagued with doubts, but it
was too late to go back on her decision now.
“Hermione! Ginny!” two male voices called out, and she looked up
to see that Harry and Ron had joined her parents and the rest of the
Weasley family in the crowd. She waved back, and even managed
a tremulous smile for her two best friends.
Even now, she still wondered how different things would have been,
if the war had not touched all three of their lives; hers, Ron’s, and
Harry’s. They would all have been sitting up on the platform
together, leaving Hogwarts just as they had entered it – together.
And I never would have had the chance to fall in love with Draco
Malfoy, she added. As she glanced back at the blond-haired
Slytherin once more, she wondered if that might have been a
blessing, never having shared those few, blissful months with him.
“It brings me great pleasure to award two of our Seventh Years with
an additional honor,” Professor McGonagall announced, once the
last student had received his N.E.W.T. certificate and returned to
his seat. “As many of our guests already know, we are starting a
new tradition this school year by awarding two Seventh Years – one
male, and one female – with a scholarship to conduct research. Not
only did these students have to write an essay outlining their
research plans, but they also had to be exemplary students and
show great promise as citizens of the Wizarding World.”
Hermione’s stomach twisted into knots as she waited for the next
name to be announced.
“But Hermione, you won the scholarship. Why are they giving it to
me?”
Hermione gave the girl a nudge, and she reluctantly got to her feet
and stepped up to the podium to accept her award. A grin spread
across Luna’s face, and Hermione spied Xenophilus Lovegood on
his feet in the first row of the audience, clapping and telling
everyone around him, “That’s my daughter! That’s my Luna!” And
Hermione knew she had made the right choice.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” Ginny asked her, once the ceremony had
concluded and they were all milling about the tables, piling their
plates high with the Hogwarts House-elves’ finest fare.
“Talk you out of it? Are you kidding me? I’m so glad you’re not
going away for that year abroad, Hermione. You’ll be here for my
tryouts, and the hols, and we can visit little Victoire, and…oh, won’t
the boys be happy you’re staying!”
Ginny wasn’t wrong. The minute Harry and Ron found them, Ron
swooped Hermione up in his arms and thrust a fistful of roses in her
hand, flushing almost as red as the petals in the bouquet.
“Yes. But don’t think it was for you,” Hermione added pointedly.
“The position at the Ministry was too good to resist.”
“You’re taking the job at the Magical League for Social Justice,
then?”
“Just like old times,” she repeated, with a wan smile. Except it won’t
be. Because I’m not the same person and neither are you and
Harry. Nothing can make it the same as it used to be. So how long
are we going to go on with this farce, pretending that nothing’s
changed?
“Then leave,” Ron replied, just as coolly. Draco, surprisingly, did not
rise to the bait. Instead, he ignored the red-head completely and
turned to Hermione.
But instead of the declarations of love she was hoping for, he only
said, “You declined the scholarship.”
“I see. Father did tell me that you have a cushy new seat at the
Ministry.”
“Is that so? And what else did your doting father tell you, Draco?”
Any hopes that Hermione may have entertained were snuffed out
like a flickering candle flame in a strong wind.
“Well, you always were the dutiful son,” she snapped. She glanced
over his shoulder to see Narcissa standing in throng of celebrants,
glaring at them over the rim of her glass of pumpkin juice.
“Speaking of which, your dear mother doesn’t seem to approve of
you speaking with me. Perhaps it would be best if you went back to
clinging to her apron strings.”
It was uncouth of her, she knew, but she couldn’t resist the little
stab at the man who had broken her heart. And from the hard,
careless expression on his face, he didn’t seem to be suffering any
guilt over it, either. He was as stony and unrelenting as he had
been when she first encountered him at the beginning of the school
year.
Could this really be the man she had fallen in love with, shared so
many laughs with, and shared a bed with more nights than she
could count? Could this be the man who had taught her to fly, had
made love to her in a handfasting cave, and turned her whole world
upside down, for the better? Or had she only imagined it, in some
warped, lust-filled, adolescent dream?
“I know,” he said. “I’m sorry, too. Sorry for the whole mess I put you
in. I…I know you don’t believe it, Hermione, but I want nothing but
the best for you, now and always.”
“I believe you.”
He paused, raised his hand to rub at the back of his neck and
discomfort.
“I see,” Hermione said softly. And she did see. She saw that she
would not be receiving a single postcard from him on his journey. It
was for the best, she knew. It was better for them to cut ties
completely, to move on with their separate lives. But that couldn’t
keep her heart from breaking a little more. She wanted to kiss him,
slap him, throw her arms around him and beg him not to go.
Instead, she held her hand out to him, as she had done a lifetime
ago in the Hogwarts library, when he had agreed to be her study
partner. Little had she known, then, what would come from a simple
handshake. But this one would be different. This one would be
good-bye.
If the use of his last name hurt him, Draco did not let it show. His
face had returned to the stony mask, and any weakness that his
eyes had betrayed a moment ago, was hidden from sight now,
probably forever.
Draco dropped her hand quickly, and Hermione knew he felt the
same thing. But by the time she shook herself from her stupor, he
was gone, and she was staring at his back as he melted into the
crowd.
That was it. The greatest love of her young life, and it had ended
quite anticlimactically, with a handshake and a curt farewell. She
didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. In the end, she found she could
do neither. She had spent all of her tears, and all that remained was
emptiness.
Draco flew, faster and faster and faster around the Quidditch pitch,
but he couldn’t fly fast enough to leave Hermione Jean Granger
behind him. Even his father’s stern words echoing in his ears could
not deter his thoughts.
Draco scowled and flew even faster, until tears ran down his
cheeks. It was from the wind blowing in his eyes, nothing more.
‘We are the outsiders, now, Draco. It falls on you to restore our
family’s standing in society.’
Draco gritted his teeth and brought his broom to a halt in midair,
turning it back towards the school. At a slower pace, the breeze
seemed gentler, like fingers ruffling his hair. Like Hermione ruffling
his hair after a long night of lovemaking... No. He would not think
about that tonight.
Tonight was his last night at Hogwarts. His trunk was packed with
all his old school books, his uniform, and even the green and silver
scarf Hermione had knitted for him at Christmas, shoved at the
bottom and buried under a pile of socks. If only he could bury his
feelings for her as deeply.
With a sullen sigh, he brought his broom down in front of the new
war monument that had been erected a few weeks before. Strewn
around the base of the statue were the many offerings to the dead.
There had been no rain or storms since the dedication ceremony,
so the gifts had been spared from the ravages of nature. Draco
slung his broom over his shoulder and wandered around the statue,
gazing down at what the loved ones of the dead had left behind.
He saw love letters and cards, sweets and trinkets, joke shop tricks,
and even more unusual, a few pairs of garishly-colored,
mismatched socks.
They are not for the dead, but for the living, Draco realized. They
were ways to remember a life lived; ways to remember better
times…happier times.
Wind and fire, he thought to himself. But his father’s words echoed
just as clear.
And then there were other voices, one overlapping the other, until
he thought they would drive him mad:
’I forgive you, Malfoy. But I don't know if I'll ever be able to forget…’
‘Draco, is that all that matters to you now, keeping your mother
happy? Whose life are you living?’
But Draco had already passed that fork in the road. He had made
his choice, and now he had to live with it.
He stared at all the little gifts and offerings strewn all around him
and thought that, in a way, the dead had it easier than the living. At
least they didn’t have to live with regrets.
Just as he turned to go back to the school for his last night in the
Slytherin dungeons, a strong gust of summer wind stirred the letters
and notes at the base of the monument, sending one piece of
parchment fluttering across the ground to get caught against his
ankles. Curious, Draco reached down to pick it up. The words of a
poem were scrawled across the page in a steady hand, addressed
to no one, and with no signature at the bottom.
I am I,
and you are you;
whatever we were to each other,
that, we still are.
This chapter basically concludes the first of two parts of this story.
Obviously, this first part was focusing on Draco and Hermione's
school years, and the second part will take place years in the future.
I intend for the second part of this story to be a fair amount shorter
than the first, and yes, I have a plan for how most of it will go, and
YES, Draco and Hermione's reunion will be a part of that. :)
Thanks to Dina and Amethyst18 for your beta help, as always. And
thanks to you readers, especially those of you who have continued
reading this story, despite your doubts. All I ask is that you please
hang in there just a little longer, as we start moving towards that
seemingly-elusive happy ending...
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