Imaginary My|grations Dallas Museum of Art, April 2020
Though I can’t hold or comfort the hands
that once held these urns with their sons or mothers as ashes. Nor behold the love in the eyes of the eyes that once beheld these vases abloom with roses. Though I can’t drink the cascade of water or wine, never poured for me from the mouths of these pitchers. Nor kiss the lips that kissed these teacups, only savor the emptiness of these empty plates and hollow bowls with swirls of glazed flowers gazing back at me now. Though I can’t chart the dreams once dreamed underneath the geometry of these blankets. Nor caress the shoulders that donned these silk robes like butterflies’ wings fleeting into the sun. Though I can’t alight myself to some other time. Nor trace the footprints of lives erased from these rugs. Though I can’t wear these tattered sandals, or see the souls who wore down these soles on their journeys, I can still imagine them as I imagine myself like them someday having to cross continents to dodge dying in the crossfire of revolution, board a ship to save my genes from genocide, or thrash through raging whitewater to calm my ache of famine in a land of plenty and promise. Imagine what I’d take, not just to keep me alive but to keep my life, a life. My salt, my spices to taste who it was I am, a handful of seeds to plant my favorite fruit, take root, claim some new earth. My dead father’s watch still ticking with his life. My favorite coffee mug to watch my ghost rise in its steam. Imagine what I don’t know I’ll need as much as I will. My journal bookmarked by a petal between the last scribble of who I was and blank pages of who I’ll be. The front doorknob I’ll never turn again, a photo album my eyes will turn to greet lost faces. Imagine what only my mind could pack. My windchimes’ giggles, train whistles, a neighborhood dog’s yowls, Richard Blanco
the purr of nightwinds through my garden.
A breath of the winds I breathed, the dust of my footsteps that might’ve blanketed my bones’ sleep. The altar of mountains my eyes will never praise again, memories of clouds I told my secrets to. Imagine how I’d scatter them into a new sky, transform the beauty of loss and loss of beauty into the art of a new life. The sweet arias of rain recomposed over a new rooftop, the stars I’d redraw into the constellation that guided me to my new elsewhere. Imagine the moon in the ear of some new window whispering the poems I’d write to render myself at home again, in a new house of words that someday, someone might read and imagine the story of their migration, in my own my|gration.