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t h a n k y o u t o o u r pat r o n s
B e f o r e ti m e s
1
friday. a golden idol hangs serene behind a neglected
harpsichord. on the floor, four radiant girls shake their
tresses in wild dance. this is sex.
2 R on n y K e rr
Donohoe
Joe
U r ba n A n g st
3
Big guys without troubles
And women who smile
Like telecasters
Waiting for a vice
To take them
And if they survive
The plunge into the dark
Maybe a memoir
And maybe a film
Or maybe some people
Are just better actors
Maybe the vapidly happy
Are screaming inside
And the morose and morbid
The brooding and somber
Are laughing off their ass inwardly
And maybe the serious are shallow
Urban angst
Used to have a soundtrack
Now it’s all quiet
Except for the conversations
That don’t matter
A coyote sits like a dog
At night in the avenues
Loping over the bridge
From the headlands
In the middle of the night
Untamed noses
Following the scent of Szechuan oils
Coating roasting meat
And dumpsters full of delight
And domestic animals
That are always fun for them
I’ve seen coyotes up close
4 J o e Do n oh o e
Wild ones and brazen
Ears flicking like antenna
I’m hoping the coyotes win
But they probably won’t
I’m hoping the ocean will last
And it may.
Joe Donoh oe 5
h Mark Gabo
ur
K eit y
Skull Walk
7
are you?” “A policeman with a gun. Are you carrying a
gun?” “No. Hey Oakland, do you have a gun? Will you
defend me?” “I don’t defend the powerless.”
8 K e i t h Ma rk G ab ou ry
Bennett
Jon
C oy ote
9
a Darli
nthi ng
Cy
New Elvis
11
Jeanine wasted no time admiring herself in the mirror.
She stretched her long arms above her head and cocked
her head to the side, smiling seductively into the mirror.
Jason stood back to the side and admired her too, until
he couldn’t help himself and grabbed her around the
waist to give her a long kiss, telling her, upon breaking
their romantic lip lock, that this would be their last
kiss as single people. Jeanine felt a lightening of the
tension in her neck as he said this. Newly divorced,
she’d feared, even as recently as five months ago, that
she would be an unwed mother of three for the rest of
her life. But then Jason had appeared, seemingly out of
nowhere. And, soon enough, she’d concocted the idea
to give her ex-husband full custody of her children and
get married to Jason. Her new life was about to start.
Jason had picked this Little Blue Suede Shoes Chapel
as a launching point for their new fun and young
coupledom. Kids aside. Ex-husbands and ex-wives
aside. Only fun. Fun fun fun. As long as nothing got in
the way of it. Sometimes it was true that Jeanine felt
herself trying a bit too hard, as if she were clenching
her fists in her attempts to have fun. But then she’d
look at what her life could have been: alone, with her
three boys and their mounting piles of laundry and her
bills and her lonely nights without anyone. And she
knew that if she were to start again, she would have to
clench her fists, a bit.
12 C yn t h i a Da r l i n g
go-down-because-this-was-the-way-her-future-was-
supposed-to-start would be shattered. Bart stood
idly. He ran a hand through his wave of gelled Elvis
hair. He was hung over and the pleather body suit he
was wearing didn’t let his body breathe, so sweat was
pouring down his back. He’d responded to Susie’s call
only because he could use an extra few hours. And she
had a full roster of couples scheduled for the day. Only
Bart knew that Gary was not showing up to work that
day or any other day. For Bart had heard that Gary
had run off to LA with a stripper he’d taken home last
night. And, if Bart knew Gary, the relationship with
the stripper might not last, but Gary’s resolve to make
it to LA might. So, Gary wasn’t coming back. And Bart
was here to fill in. And in the mean-time, Bart just
wanted to get the day started and over with.
Cynt h i a Da rli ng 13
list of weddings for the day. This one was a wash. She
drew a line through the couple’s name. She hoped Bart
would return after he wed the couple for free out in
the parking lot. She had nine more ceremonies to go.
But, as she approached the door of the chapel to look
outside, she put a hand to her mouth as she saw the
bride and groom shove Bart into their silver Subaru
and then speed off down the road.
Susie turned back to the chore boy. He was all she had
now. He might look good in an Elvis suit. She could
pay him Bart’s wages. Or, part of them, at least. These
weddings wouldn’t be legal without a real officiant.
For that, she’d have to do the honors. The new chore
boy Elvis could stand beside her while she married the
rest of her nine couples that day.
14 C yn t h i a Da r l i n g
h Lucas
Leig
Wedding Poem
15
See the thing is,
If you watch the spaces in between,
There life goes—see it?—rhinestoning around
In a blue crushed velvet suit
All big bottomed and amazing.
In these moments the angels take a break
From washing dishes and croquet
To look down and watch it parade.
Oh glory they say.
16 L e i g h L uc as
Two who choose faith over doubt,
Or rather, realize the pillar of faith is doubt,
Or rather, who know that life will be hard and fast
and filled
Sometimes with pain
But there is nothing they won’t want to face down
together
As a team of two
Plus an army of hundreds of angels.
Le i gh Lu cas 17
k Martino
Nic
M a r r y in g
19
Curtis
Sage
M a n if e
stin g A M a n si o n
21
na Donovan
Dia
A n o ther C o un tr y
23
she couldn’t marry the guitar teacher just because he
was the father
he was a musician, too young, and moody
she’d mistaken his unhappiness for artistic genius
24 Di an a Do n ovan
GOLDFINCH
One morning, I heard an unmistakable crack on the
sliding glass door
looked over to a flurry of feathers falling in the
sunlight
and lying still on the ground—a tiny bird, a goldfinch.
26 Di an a Do n ovan
iel Lucas
Dan
L o w Land Burials
27
When you aren’t even sure if you ever did wake up
next to them. Did you ever kiss? Did you love them?
Do you now? From the other side of the river styx?
Deep in the belly of the beast? Are you still covered
in their loose hairs? Their sweat and saliva?
Am I missing,
Or am I waiting?
28 Dan i e l L uc as
I’m still hung up on your birthday.
How I can’t call. Say hello.
The words exist, but not the space.
Who would bear witness? Or the burden?
Dani e l Lu cas 29
I liked it when you pressed up against me.
Let me hold you, after a long day.
Full, and leaking.
You’d found me, in hopes of something,
something we should probably talk about.
But later.
Always later.
30 Dan i e l L uc as
Like my bad poetry,
Spoiling as it hits the page.
Rotted to the core by the time I get back from this
fantasy.
Dead by the time I leave this cafe, inside the museum.
These pages drunk on condensed water, and chilly
winds rolling across my back as feet shuffle in and
out.
Dani e l Lu cas 31
The last way to connect
through the lost and the loss.
Where I still find you
shaping the caverns,
the mine shafts and deep passages
networks of connection created through negative space.
Lost space.
32 Dan i e l L uc as
Still find a place for you.
Rearrange the furniture like my grand-aunt did.
But with considerably less smoke.
No choking this time.
Dani e l Lu cas 33
You can keep my words.
Even hidden in a drawer.
They are yours.
As above, so below.
But that’s rarely the case.
34 Dan i e l L uc as
When you said you loved me
completely and could we please just
Fuck?
Thirty-four A.
Same seat there and back,
somehow. I’m sure I planned it.
I just don’t remember.
Dani e l Lu cas 35
I hope there is happiness at your door,
And a baby for you soon, out of the dark;
And a soft release, like that crushed velvet and your
pup;
And a body to take you to Mars;
And empathy as you grieve;
And the empty man who loves games, and has the
same schedule;
And security with the boy you soothe;
And a home for your babies not built on sand in the
flat lands;
And clarity for you who still lurks in the gloomy trees;
And ease in your bones high in the clouds;
And a hand on the small of your back as we wait in
line;
And a deep breath.
36 Dan i e l L uc as
It is far too smooth,
like wet, too silky and porous.
Yet you will try -
because it feels so good.
Dani e l Lu cas 37
ielle Bero
Dan
withCorona, Queenstion
a l i m e a n d is o l a
39
ison Landa
All
O n Lockdow n
41
walk out with milk, rice cakes, peanut butter, and
some Joe’s O’s to keep me company on the ride home.
42 A l l i s on L an d a
vegan place on University. I’m not looking at the back
of the door; I am the back of the door.
44 A l l i s on L an d a
na Dubin
Min
Il o veyo ud o nt die
45
why argue about poop? Maybe
she was having a nightmare?
Maybe I am?
46 Mi n n a Dub i n
on the trail
and I screamed,
DON’T TOUCH THE BENCH!!!!!
hand outstretched as I ran
toward you in slo-mo, then
doused your hand with the
last drops of hand sanitizer
in the world,
and said in a panicked voice, RUB THEM ’TIL
THEY’RE DRY!
what I meant to say is,
Iloveyoudontdie.”
Mi nna Du bi n 47
Bennett
Jon
Big Wheel
49
just a few years before
me and Dave took our Big Wheels
very seriously
but now it was, like,
ironic
Then the police came
“What!?” said Dave
“Don’t run,” said one cop
“It’s reported stolen,” said the other
They put it in their trunk
and brought us back to the house
The Big Wheel was covered in mud
and me and Dave
had to hose it down
in the people’s front yard,
their little boy
watching us
eyes wide
like it was the most
amazing thing
he’d ever seen.
50 Jon Bennett
h Lucas
Leig
A r t M o n st e r
I picked up flowers from the Bi-Rite, gaudy
orange foxgloves in plain brown paper.
Light off the sidewalk, aroma of human piss,
then beside me a middle-schooler
in his green polo and hand-me-down
khakis. His hiss and prowl and hey girl
what I wouldn’t do—I dropped
an ear bud, hey fuck off I didn’t mean to say it
like that but once done—the look on his face,
the look
was just a child’s. We were both undone.
51
We have to believe in something holy—only
differently than what we thought, what we
were taught.
I limped back home. When school got out
I couldn’t help but look for him
from my high window, but each child
was the same. The foxgloves though,
each bloom so different, in shape and shade, girth
and length.
I opened my notebook, named the flowers Jonas,
Teddy, Kate.
52 L e i g h L uc as
yn Carter
Rob
E x c e l si o r
When the woman lowers her tiny frame onto a seat, you
picture frozen twigs snapping, but when she positions
her tongs so they make a less-than symbol on her lap,
you do that thing where you repeat a word over and
over until it’s no longer language or even sound. Only
motion, in this case, the tip of your tongue tapping
the spot where your front teeth anchor themselves to
the roof of your mouth—tongs, tongs, tongs, tongs—and
you don’t picture anything but the equation in front of
you: the tool’s open handles reaching for the crumpled
empties, its point aimed at the wailing toddler who
stands on the next seat. He yanks the cord you pull
when you want to get off and pounds a fist into a
kiss of Royal Crown a long-departed passenger left
on the window, wrinkling the world outside so that
other lives look like weather.
53
The crying makes your nipples buzz and your breasts
turn to rocks. There is a primordial rhythm to the
child’s sobs, so thick and gristly you could pluck them
from the air and keep them in the same box as the
keen and caw of the creatures that blackened the sky
here before their sacrifice in rituals that painted the
horizon the color of flat, watery Coke, a summons for
conjuring plastic-skinned miracles that talk and move
but don’t listen or feel. Toys, explosives, spacecraft
interiors. The headphones that cushion the boy’s
mother’s ears. The synthy beat leaking into this capsule
of noise and fluorescent stillness hurtling you into the
gullet of night. When the girl hums her eyes closed
and strokes her boy’s curls—his mouth still a loud,
quivering ring—the beat and the hum and the child’s
crystalline wail melt into one bald sound that drains
into the throb of your tits, a wonderous pulsating
you clock at the molecular level: a network of ducts
pumping sustenance meant for human infants into
the spent elastic weave of your bra, clotting in the
metal hooks and eyes of its front clasp. Sometimes the
mechanics of a thing are all you can bear, other times,
they’re more heartbreaking than the thing itself. This
time they’re both.
54 R ob yn C a r t e r
stops crying to seize the late-night tucked between his
mother’s fingers. As he licks away its last hour, the old
woman with the tongs takes her place at the end of the
redemption line and you feel your way through a new
day’s fog. Your outstretched hands fin through the air
in front of you until the sticky pull at your rib cage
draws them to your heart. The milky membrane there
has dried into a crinkle of floury scabs that glue your
shirt to your skin. The next step is to brush them into
the gossamer dawn and fold yourself into the socket of
time when the street beneath your emptied body is a
raised palm and the shrouded moon is an albuminous
eye.
Robyn Ca rt e r 55
and yellow containers of scissors for small, naughty
hands, clustered around a mechanical ballerina who
performed beneath a dome of glass. Think about the
future the only way you know how, with the lurching
grace of that nylon-haired automaton. In the swell of
panic that comes when you sense each near-crash of
her plastic toe into the transparent wall of her prison,
you are soothed by the glitch in her spin and the
uncracked sky of her world and now know it’s time to
learn the trembling secret of her dance.
56 R ob yn C a r t e r
ielle Bero
Dan
W ord
I still love poetry. Some of it. The kind I like.
When we fuck at night.
The second wind before actually sleeping, the dusk
vibrates. You respond
to my hugs with squirms and sick days. I draw to your
morning
dressings of face paint and smell goods. I know what
pretty means.
It doesn’t last. The words aren’t remembered but the
scent is
often reminded in passing. Fraud is the best way to
describe aging. Crayon under fingernails. Old
food stains on gray shirts. I am alone for once, in
my room
hearing echoes from past house parties. The perfor-
mance- self ready with
a crisp black shirt on. The black ants marching across
the screen. The world
before civilization, and country lines and immigra-
tion. Just the dream.
I am tired
of catching patches of sky
57
I think about the boy
on the bus
and where he will be
buried
and if anyone will place
flowers
on the carved stone in the names of clouds
58 Dan i e l l e B e r o
ja min Guccia
en rd
B i
T h e I n v i si b l e H a n d
K n o cks Twice