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Doctor Casebeer
27 October 2019
Reflection Journal 9
Challenging but not impossible. These have been the words that I have repeatedly told
myself this week. My past two weeks in this classroom, have been a time for growth as an
educator and it has been a difficult time of growth. This week was one of the most mentally
exhausting weeks that I have had in a long time. On Monday night, I cried for my students
because I could not fathom the behaviors that I was witnessing. I was unable to comprehend
how students could go from working well to shutting down and not being able to function in the
classroom. Another thing that I was struggling with was determining an appropriate way to react
to these behaviors. Am I able to take away privileges that are given to them? If I can, which
privileges do I take away first and which privileges do I allow them to earn back? The most
difficult part is that I am watching how smoothly my cooperating teacher handles the behaviors
but then I take a step back and realize she has been doing this for much longer with years of
experience. My cooperating teacher also knows the triggers of her students and she knows the
most effective techniques for each child. While this is only my second week, I have to
constantly remind myself that I am still learning and I am not expected to have the knowledge
that my cooperating teacher has because that will come with time and experience in the
classroom.
One day from this past week that sticks out to me the most is Wednesday. On Wednesday, we
had a student come down to our room with anger in his eyes. When he came into the room, he
immediately began to freak out. He was screaming about how stupid he thought the math
intervention was that he had to attend. Then he began to throw his headphones around the room.
Mrs. Harvey asked the student to stop because she told him that he was going to break the
headphones. The student told Mrs. Harvey that she could not tell him what to do with his
headphones since they were his. As the student was saying this to Mrs. Harvey, she walked up
to the student and asked the student to give her his headphones. He yelled in her face, so she
began to apply force to his hands to remove the headphones before another student got hurt.
When Mrs. Harvey had finally gained control of the headphones, she set them in her back room
and the student began to walk laps around her classroom as he progressively grew angrier. The
student then took off his sweatshirt and began to hit the hanging decorations in the classroom and
when Mrs. Harvey asked him to stop he told her that she could not control what he did. She
went over to take the jacket from him and he resisted; after several warnings and privileges being
threatened to be lost the student gave up control of the jacket. When he released his jacket he
proceeded to try and flip one of the tables in our room. Mrs. Harvey began to question if the
child had taken his medication that morning and he proceeded to say that he dumped all of his
medicine down the drain. After the child told us this, Mrs. Harvey called his mom and she said
that he was lying. When Mrs. Harvey hung up the phone, the child immediately began to cry.
He walked over to her and apologized for what he had done; at this moment my eyes filled with
tears. All the rage that was built up in this child had left his body and he knew what he had done
was wrong. This made my heart drop because when he came into the classroom, he could not
handle what he was doing but after his anger had left he knew he was wrong.
This piece has been the hardest part of emotional support because usually after the students are
finished being upset they know what they did was unacceptable. However, it is helping the child
get to the point where they can realize that the anger they are about to have is not worth letting
out because the problem can be easily solved. While I have been observing all the techniques
that my cooperating teacher has been using, my heart aches for each of these students because I
know that they are unable to control their emotions at that moment. Mrs. Harvey has done an
excellent job of helping the students use coping strategies for their emotions after something has
happened but she is still working towards helping them recognize that what they are frustrated
with can be handled after they take a deep breath. Her students are trying but when their anger