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Choosing the project was easy , an aspiration , a call , and
a response.
A Revelation .
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In the sparkled atmosphere of Pondicherry ,where nothing
remains hidden , I decided to uncover the truth of my
being .
I made !
On one hand the Shiny Marbled floor and the lure of the
disco lights of ambition , greed , manipulation , falsehood ,
attachments , desires -
Exotic but Slippery !
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I chose the Desert Land !
Funny isn’t it , that you could be living your entire life the
way you would want others to see you , the Projection of
your self through the eyes of others .
But the odds where heavy .... The truth could be revealed -
I was suffocated , I was not happy , I was not myself .
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I want to find out who I really am ? what makes me laugh ?
what makes me cry ? what makes me happy ? where is my
path ? the purpose of my life ? the joy of living ? freedom ?
truth ?
It was OK to cast off the mask and let the fresh air
penetrate my soul .
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See God everywhere and be not frightened by masks.
Believe that all falsehood is truth in the making or truth in
the breaking, all failure , an effectuality concealed, all
weakness strength hiding itself from its own vision, all pain
a secret & violent ecstasy. If thou believest firmly &
unweariedly, in the end thou wilt see & experience the All-
true, Almighty &All-blissful.
And in the silence of the truth the long dead noises could
be heard :
It was killing !
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I held my hands on my head and fell on my knees , soon
my head was buried in the sand ,
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The black heavy Octopus moving its deadly 'hands of
thoughts’ in the most confusing and knotty manner , just
swinging here and there , basking in the glory of its power
to cause total chaos in the
surrounding !
I was suffocated !!
Soon the submarine was floating and it was under the open
vicinity of the Golden Blue Sky .
The peace penetrated more and more into the mind and the
nerves flowered like sun flower - every day little by little .
And as the inner layers of the mind started to fall silent one
by one .
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It was writhing , almost like it had a natural tremble .
Snake - “YOU !”
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Me- "And why did you say that I invited you inside ."
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existence and Is indulging in nagging conversation . Better
you carry on .”
Me- “Sir Jee ! First of all , can you tell me - what exactly is
fear ; Who better than you can tell me this ?”
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My brother feeds on negative thoughts , creates
Imaginary terrors in your mind and clouds your
intelligence and gives you anxiety .
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Snake – “ Well , You See - you always had these inherent
seeds of Negative thoughts and emotions deeply
embedded in your mind and vital.
These negative thoughts and emotions act like Dish
Antenna and Since we are constantly hovering for
Invasion ground ,we caught the vibrations coming from
you , and we kept a ‘CID' watch on you constantly , waiting
for a small opening .
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jealousy , hatred , negative thoughts , And you always had
plentiful.
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However I will not disappoint you , because you have been
a very good host to me throughout .
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Me- “VVVVVIBRATIONS OF ILLNESS !!!”
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It was a Python curled around my neck ;
And it had rested all its weight on me : for timeless hours .
I looked at it in the eye ; It was sleepy and it was tired .
It seemed like the python had finished its faithful tenure ...
Karma !!!
Sanskara !!!
It was this SEED which was the dish antenna for the
adverse forces .
I had always possessed it .
I inherited it -
I had to free myself from the adverse forces and the meaty
mass of karma .
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My head was shaking with fear , it was wheeling round and
round like a Mad Gorilla .... Stamping its foot and
Thumping its chest for salvation from its own madness !!!
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I start talking to the Reasoning Mind like a child , tell it that
it is stupid to face fear with fear , one must face fear with
courage and trust in the divine , telling it gently to stop
being afraid .
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I held her hand , and in her Presence ,I read it aloud - with
my Soul :
Lord Indra woke up from his desire full sleep , climbed his
White Elephant Iravat and with his Thunder Shaft , came to
Honor the Words of The Divine Mother !
And one by one all the adverse forces started to flee , they
were hidden in all nooks and comers of my mind and vital .
some fled . some dissolved in Her Golden Light .......
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There was Resistance , there was a Fight , the Karma
wanted to live its Full Tenure .
It was bound by the Cosmic Laws .
Like a Faithful Servant - it had to serve the Law of Cause
and Effect !
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OM ! TAT! SAT!
Or as the light of the sun shines filling the solar world with
its force as if running, real is that light , the real luster of
the real sun , that is not false shining , but a real luster of a
reality .
Or as the flaming disc of the sun is not the sun itself, but
this Material form only manifests the sun-ness of the sun
to our knowledge which is dependent on the material
being , the sun is beyond that form ; real is the sun , real
the form in the shape of the disc , it is the real light of the
real sun , not illusory , but the real light of a reality .
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Truth Revealed :
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All Deserts into Beaches
All Rocks into Jewels
All weakness into Strength
All Perversion into Perfection
All Despair into Hope
All Karma into Free Will
All Darkness into Light
All Desert Land into Sunlit Path
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stand on and a greasy iron rod to grip my hands .
And if nature's fury caused a heavy wind , the blades
would do a Swirling Salsa and the Sun would Set ...on
me...
I stood on the plank and looked down ; It was too high for
my imagination .
And that is when for 45 whole minutes I became acutely
aware of the Diverse Beings which resided in my 5 foot 7”
body .
My Mind and vital experienced the least fear , much to my
surprise .
In this entire journey of discovery of fear . so far , It seems
they had been good learners of the lessons in the
discovery of the truth of life .
You will fall !! you will fall !! you will fall !! you will die !! you
will die !!
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There was no way I could stop these bombarding
thoughts !!
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I had to Integrate . I had to hold all the Strings of my
Consciousness !
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I determine to overcome my current state of sever
paralyses of my body.
And though I am sweating with fear , in utter discomfort,
unable to breathe , helpless , unable to move , or think or
do anything , I decide to SUBSTITUTE this vibration of fear
in the cells of my body , with the vibration of Joy that was
bursting in my heart :
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The Secret Knowledge had been revealed to me 23 meters
above the earth on a 12” wooden plank , hanging between
life and death !
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But these are on the surface , they are " hidden,
subliminal , mystical”
And the only means to have true knowledge of them is :
“An Inward turn”
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Unfortunately , so closed are we in our shells , that the
Divine has to press down upon us , his pressure , to
awaken us from our slumber .
There are Two who are One and play in many worlds .
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Adventure of plunging himself into the Unfathomable
Depths of the Inconscient - because :
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I have lived , literally soaked in this pain .
MY VITAL EGO !
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With my trembling hands- I held the ego in my hands -
The naked , smashed , black entity ... with a huge head and
a tiny body .
It looked at me , a tear dropped from its left eye - on my
hands
And I knew why it had suffered all these years -maybe
lifetimes :
All grief was born out of this ego from the contacts of
existence .
Its sense of fear was born from the sense of being exposed
to all these contacts which are not itself .
Because of this feeling of separation , I was unable to enter
into harmony and oneness with the environment and so
the inability of enjoying life in the true sense .
And because of this inability of knowing or becoming
aware of my true self , there was always this discord and
disharmony within my own being and with other beings ,
as well .
It was the vital ego who desired , it was the ego who was
ambitious , it was the vital ego who wanted to posses , it
was the vital ego who was Afraid !
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Afraid for its Self Existence , Self Assertion , Self
Affirmation !
It knew only ONE standard -
Its own Satisfaction , Its own Growth , Its own Strength , Its
own Greatness
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For I was trapped in my ego .
That was my identity ; I thought .
I associated the “I" with this vital ego .
I felt its pain , its anguish , its wailing .
Everything changed :
The veil removed and the virgin truth revealed itself with a
naughty smile adorning a peacock feather .
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"In moments of Despair , when you thought there was no
hope
In moments of Sadness , when you yearned for that one
spark of joy
In moments of Loneliness , when you yearned for comfort
In moments of Failure , when you Cursed me if things
didn't move as per your dreams and desires It was in
those moments that I was Hugging you ; My Love .
For it was not you who was getting blown to shreds It was
your vital ego which was coming between Me and you
And it was this Intense Love for you that I was breaking the
barrier
So we could Unite
So My Love could flow into your being without Hindrance
Let the ego cry ! let it hurt ! For - ITS HOUR HAS GONE !
It is now - THE HOUR OF GOD !
And this hour too was decided by ME !"
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Till the time I will feel the shocks ,till the time I will react ,till
the time the outer knocks will cause pain , physical ,
emotional , mental - I will know the ego exists , the ego
principle is active - The idea of separation exists , for only
opposite and separate forces .
UNITY of CONSCIOUSNESS .
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But nobody offers stale , rotten Flowers to the Divine ;
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Now it was only me and Her .
Only the divine love can throw a bridge over the wounds
that were dug when in this being the consciousness
separated from its divine origin and became inconscience .
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My gaping wounds are a thousand and one
And the Titan kings assail ,
But I cannot rest till my task is done
And wrought the eternal will .
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On a desperate stair my feet have trot
Armoured with boundless peace,
Bringing the fires of the splendour of God
Into the human abyss ,
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Invoking Her Divine Grace !
The wounds are not mine only - They are the wounds of the
Inconscient .
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Every battle Won within - Is a battle won against the evil for
the sake of the Divine .
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The perception of unaccomplished ambition changed
for it prevented me from becoming the Devils Advocate .
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There is rather a kind of accumulation of power inside , an
intensification of the need , and an endurance in the effort
which becomes free from all fear , all anxiety , all
calculation ;
a need so imperative that one no longer cares for the
consequences.
One feels like an explosive that wants to burst out from
one's prison in a bIaze of light ,
And that moment ; when it comes would be truly a new
birth .
I look inside .
A Golden Tunnel
A Pink Flame
The Melody of Krishna's Flute
And Her Direct Command :
Sincerely yours,
Creative writing by ,
Shibani Dara
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