Clairvoyant

Psychotherapy
Susan Feinbloom
 Twilight Publications
Copyright © 2014 Susan Feinbloom
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ISBN: 1492963046
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This book is dedicated to those who wish to explore
The depths of their own souls
And thereby know the universe
 Acknowledgements

Much gratitude and love to my husband George for your patience, impatience,
love and support. Thank you Cyndi Lehmann for all of your transcribing, typing
and many suggestions. Much gratitude to Shara Gardner for working so closely
with me on graphic design.
Thanks to Brian Erwin for your incredible support and enthusiasm for this
major project. Gratitude to my editors Jane Mackay, Abagail and Karen. Thanks
to Jenny Chandler at CreateSpace for guiding me through this process.
Appreciation and love to John Fulton for your storytelling, teachings and
gentle stretching over the years.
I am so grateful for my children. Twyla who has taught me about love and
creativity. Chris who has taught me about integrity and perseverance.
Clairvoyant Psychotherapy is that rare new work that succeeds in being
groundbreaking and both a professional and a consumer book.

Susan Feinbloom’s approach uses traditional psychotherapy techniques to

aid her clients in probing the roots of their emotional difficulties. This is her
foundation. It’s what happens next that I define as “groundbreaking.” In addition
to being trained as a psychotherapist, Susan has also spent the past thirty years
honing her skills as a clairvoyant. Thus, when she is with a client she is reading
them energetically, which probes a more truthful realm than what we the client
wish or don’t wish to remember through traditional psychotherapy.

When psychotherapy and clairvoyance are combined, the rate at which the
client is able to accelerate straight through to their truth is increased. The healing
is not only quicker, it is deeper.

Clairvoyant Psychotherapy has the potential to rattle the cages of

traditional psychotherapy. If we accept that the goal of therapy is to be effective,
Susan’s approach could help redefine the profession. At the very least it will
generate conversation.
 As a consumer, I found the book fascinating for I am always seeking new
ways to understand who I am as a spiritual being. I found it fascinating to see
how our spirit bodies can be read energetically for clues to where our physical
bodies are being blocked, and how our past lives inform our present-life
behavior. By using clairvoyance as a therapy tool, Susan is able to probe more
deeply, more quickly than traditional psychotherapy.

Her writing is kind and approachable. Her explanation of the role of the
chakras in therapy is one I’ve never read before. And the transcripts of actual
client sessions make concrete this form of therapy. It was fascinating
experiencing what must have been moments of immense clarity for her clients. I,
the reader, could actually see each client’s moment of pure insight, their
breakthrough.

Brian Erwin
Publishing Executive
 Table of Contents

Introduction

Section I Meditation
Introduction to Meditation
Chapter 1: Grounding
Chapter 2: Earth Energy
Chapter 3: Cosmic Energy

Section II The Chakras

Introduction to Chakras
Chapter 1: First Chakra
First Chakra Meditation
Chapter 2: Second Chakra
Second Chakra Meditation
Chapter 3: Third Chakra
Third Chakra Meditation
Chapter 4: Fourth Chakra
Fourth Chakra Meditation
Chapter 5: Fifth Chakra
Fifth Chakra Meditation
Chapter 6: Sixth Chakra
Sixth Chakra Meditation
Chapter 7: Seventh Chakra
Seventh Chakra Meditation

Section III Annotated Transcripts

 Introduction to Annotated Transcripts
Chapter 1: Mary: Forty-Year-Old Woman
Chapter 2: Geoff: Seventy-Year-Old Man
Chapter 3: Angelica: Thirty-Five-Year-Old Woman
Chapter 4: Laurie: Forty-Two-Year-Old Woman
Chapter 5: Jack: Forty-Five-Year-Old Man
Chapter 6: Carolyn: Sixty-Year-Old Woman

Glossary

Relevant Reading

About the Author

About the Author: Background

Trainings with the Author

Other Books and Media by Susan Feinbloom

 Be yourself
Everyone else is taken

Oscar Wilde
 Introduction

“No problem can be solved from the same level

of consciousness that created it.”
– Albert Einstein

I have developed a new approach to psychotherapy based on age-old spiritual

paradigms.
Traditional psychotherapy runs into limitations when it relies on material
or literal levels of engaging the client. The process can get stuck by using the
same level of engaging the issues that was used to create the problem. The key is
to change presenting content to an energetic level by employing clairvoyance in
exploring the issues, thereby gaining a new perspective.
Each chakra in the body holds particular pictures and beliefs. When a
client can move to a higher vantage point—a higher chakra—the beliefs,
thinking, and behavior patterns begin to disentangle.
In clairvoyant psychotherapy I look for the energetic patterns, old imprints,
programming, and wounds that block the healing process. I locate the true or
essential energy of the person in front of me, rather than their “persona.”
The method I have developed helps you get a rapid change in perspective.
It allows deeper access to a person’s psyche. It is also a systematic way of
looking at the human psyche, taking into account many aspects that are not
normally considered in psychotherapy. The spiritual anatomy and the energetic
level of exploring a problem reveal a full spectrum of beliefs, imprints, and
patterns that surround and contain the problem.
Clairvoyant psychotherapy draws on and employs abilities that are not
normally used in typical contemporary settings. It both focuses the abilities of
the psychotherapist and helps stimulate the awakening of these abilities in the
client.
My passion is bringing our spiritual nature into conscious awareness, so we
can experience our wholeness, perfection, and source in our lives here on earth.
In this regard, over the years I have developed a format for therapy called
Psychic Psychotherapy. This process entails guiding my clients into light
meditation and a trance to look at emotional challenges from a larger spiritual
perspective. It involves exercising abilities a person may not even know he or
she possesses, including clairvoyance, telepathy, and clairsentience. Together, we
discover the tangles, cords, holes, and connections to past events that have
imprisoned the primary creative expressions of the client. As a person releases
an emotional charge on a past event or trauma, the effect in his life changes him
through all time, including changing the past. It sheds light on a string of
challenges, leading to new awareness, freedoms, and creative possibilities.

Clairvoyantly Scanning the Client

As a clairvoyant psychotherapist, I immediately scan the energy of my client.

How much of this person is “in her body”? This reveals how much this client
functions on her own information or truth and how much she functions on
foreign imprints. These imprints are other people’s information, beliefs, and
programming.
Grounding is an energetic connection to the planet. It is an experiential
awareness of your consciousness of the earth. Grounding is foundational to the
choice we make between horizontal alignment—taking our truth from other
people (usually parents)—and vertical alignment—awareness of being pure you,
connected to Heaven and earth. This alignment is neglected in traditional
psychotherapy. It is core to unwinding and releasing wounding in Psychic
Psychotherapy.
 In the Meditation section of this book, I discuss energetic exercises to
practice this alignment.
As a clairvoyant, I immediately scan this energetic alignment. I look to see
where someone sources their energy from—the horizontal or vertical alignment.
As I listen to the reason the client has sought out this therapy, the connection
between how energy moves in his body, where he or she “sources” from, the
problems that are challenging my client become visible.
I then guide my clients on an inward journey to look at and experience the
chakras. The chakras are landmarks where imprints, agreements, memories, and
outside or foreign overlays are stored. As I look clairvoyantly, “pictures” reveal
themselves as they are ready to come to the surface. The pictures are of
memories, events that have been charged and frozen in time, along with a
portion of the client’s energy. All of this energy becomes visible and available to
work.
It is the deep Spirit-to-Spirit “hello” that frees the static energy to return to
movement. My “hello” to the client helps them recognize their own spiritual
space. It is as if life becomes viewed in color for the first time. By looking
inward the client is able to live more abundantly outwardly. This is core to the
transformations that occur—two points of consciousness meeting. This is the
essence of healing.

Clairvoyance and Psychotherapy

The foundation of Psychic Psychotherapy is the reference to one’s spiritual

anatomy. To access this, I employ the techniques of grounding, connecting to
Heaven and earth, and awakening the chakras as energetic anatomy landmarks.
The grounding enables us to release, let go, and move on, while the vertical
alignment of Heaven and earth allows us to align to our Spiritual Nature and
venture inward and onward. The chakras store the information of our abilities,
talents, purpose, and wounding. The client and I explore these foundations
together, which opens the pathway for movement, evolving and developing the
spiritual abilities that are our birthright.
In Clairvoyant Psychotherapy, I begin all sessions by introducing a basic
meditation pattern of grounding and connecting to Heaven and earth. This
process enables someone to begin to release the old pain, patterns, and blocks
even as he relates his story. The uncovering and recounting of the story then
becomes an automatic healing. When my client is not grounding, the story being
related has no healing value. It remains as static energy within the person’s aura.
When an experience is relived while grounding, without defensiveness, in
neutrality, it loses its charge and its hold on us. Energy is released and
transformed, and new life force has room to come in.
The chakras are a map of energy, beliefs, programming, native abilities,
and talents. Within them are contained both our potentials and those things that
keep us from actualizing our brilliance. The first three chakras relate more to the
physical—material—world. The first chakra is about survival energy, or pictures
that translate in someone’s belief system, as if survival itself is being threatened.
The second chakra is the emotional energy, and the third chakra is the ability
someone has to exert his personal power and will to align his life with his inner
truth. The fourth chakra on up to the crown chakra are about our spiritual life
and abilities.
The third section of this book contains transcribed and annotated Psychic
Psychotherapy sessions. Here you see the integration of the meditation and the
chakras as they unfold in the Clairvoyant Psychotherapy session.
As I talk with my clients to find out why they have come, clairvoyantly I
watch what happens in their energy field. Where are the dense pockets of
energy? What are they defending? Where is energy flowing? I then begin with a
guided meditation. This meditation will be an “in-body” meditation. People are
so excited about the spiritual ability of being “out of body.” Most people walk
around partially or mostly out of their bodies much of the time. The clairvoyant
work is about teaching the client how to access spiritual abilities while
remaining in their body because that’s where we are—who we are—a Spirit in a
body.
There is a reason for this particular incarnation and the particular
challenges that we face. We have free will in how we handle them. There are a
lot of lessons in both physical challenges and emotional challenges—all kinds of
challenges are there to stretch us.
Our purpose in incarnating is not simply to create a life of total ease where
everything we wish for comes easily. That happens once all the pain is cleared.
Synchronicity is a law of the Universe; it is always active. But we may not have
the “having-ness,” that is, the belief that we are worthy of having something.
When the belief is aligned to the goal, the answer will appear.
In our sessions, we explore the energy in each chakra—the talents and
blocks, the natural and foreign energy. We look at things from a spiritual
perspective. In other words, someone can be telling me, “I have this pain or this
illness, or I have this pattern in relationships that always backfires on me.” We
start talking about content and how it manifests. The client’s words “light up” in
the subtle bodies, a level of engagement that reveals where a picture, or prior
belief, got stuck, imprinted and created static in the chakra. The prior belief, or
picture, is the foundation of our present-time pain and dysfunctional patterns in
relationships. Life experience has become limited by our beliefs. They have
formed a boundary beyond which we simply do not see. Images begin to light up
—a picture could be of something that happened when you were two years old.
It may even be an image of something that was imprinted before you had
language. It may be in a particular chakra. The chakra may have a distorted spin
or be spinning backward.
The most important piece of spiritual information missing from our culture
is the concept of release. We are never taught how to release. In our society we
really do not have a clue. What does that word “release” mean? We really don’t
understand the concept. Our culture is more validating to ambition, hoarding,
and accumulating. When we energetically hold on, something in the cells
becomes charged. This charge acts like an attraction for that same kind of event
or energy. For example, a man we know has a car accident and then he has
another accident and another. We say, “Oh my God! Why him? Hasn’t he had his
fair share? Hasn’t he already paid his dues?” That man has left the attractor, the
traces of the trauma filled with the negative charge, intact in his body. This
charge acts like a magnet for something that is just like the charge itself to come
to it. That is why the same kind of charged event happens to someone again and
again. Wounds in our energetic bodies are like static holes or tangled threads.
They attract negativity and foreign energy as if they were nourishment. Unless
the person discharges the “emotional charge” in the cells from the prior accident,
the negative charge will continue to act as an attractor for similar events.
The most basic reason people seek therapy is because they feel alienated,
out of sorts, or they are trying to get in touch with something deeper. Our
deepest isolation isn’t from being apart from other people. It is from not being
awake to who we are as spiritual beings.
We are Spirit. We are Spirit inhabiting a body—Spirit with certain abilities
that are rarely discussed and acknowledged in our society. We are designed to be
clairvoyant. This is our makeup and this ability is native to us. We see energy.
We are telepathic. We have a built-in ability to hear thoughts. We are
clairsentient. We know in our gut what someone else is feeling. In our society
the expression of these feelings is invalidated with responses like, “You’re
crazy.” We are not taught about our spiritual anatomy, how to work with it, or
who we are as spiritual beings. Alienation, isolation, and depression are a result
of not having a point of reference for one’s spiritual nature and energetic
anatomy. Without accessing our deeper nature, we will not solve or change any
of these conditions. This change cannot be accomplished simply by talking about
it.
Because of this conditioning, we grow up with a very deep well of doubt—
doubt as a vibratory level with which we fuel the body and mind, through which
we perceive and create. Our thoughts are embodiments of energy. For instance,
doubt. “I don’t think I can do this” shrinks the energy field—it is interpreted by
the Spirit as pain and kicks us out of the body. The energy cells get darker, and
the connection between body and being weakens. Thoughts have substance. The
substance of doubt weighs us down and limits us.
In Clairvoyant Psychotherapy, I look for the foundational charged events
that are at the source of my client’s doubt, illness or a particularly charged
emotional challenge. Things are not only physical. Physical events don’t happen
in a vacuum. Even our physical ailments and challenges are related to things that
we are working, but we don’t always bridge that gap to see what the relationship
is. We are very creative spirits, and often we create difficult challenges for
growing and evolving ourselves. Sometimes we’re defensive. Someone with
New Age language will say, “Oh, you create your own reality,” and we have a
knee-jerk, defensive reaction.
On a deep level, there is a truth to that. It’s not flippant and light and
arrogant. We do create our own reality. This is the level where you want to learn
from the things that attract pain, things you haven’t yet learned. Where is the
pain? How do I release the pain? What are the lessons of this pain? The answers
will be revealed as the pain is explored and released. The future and our
becoming call to us, just as our history informs us. Our greatest challenges sit on
top of our greatest talents. It is our path to uncover our uniqueness, our
brilliance. Until we meet this challenge, we will continue to attract this pain.
And it will become deeper and bigger as we continue to attract it. The law is that
if we don’t get something when it is a subtle hint, like a whisper—if we get
annoyed and push the whisper aside—it will come back louder and bigger and
keep amplifying until we get it. In its largest form, it may be a sprained ankle or
some other physical manifestation.
Movement vs Static Sequence

Static energy creates sickness in our energy field. Movement creates health.
Unwinding a wound refers to how a wound, whether a physical trauma or
an emotional trauma, winds itself tightly into a dense, static energy—sometimes
called an “energy cyst.” In kinesiology, Touch for Health, cranial/sacral work,
the body literally is taken through subtle or gross movements in the opposite
direction to the wound, to unwind the wound. This unlocks the wound and
releases it from the cells.
All wounding creates static, a dead space through which energy cannot
move. On a psychic or clairvoyant level, static looks like tangles, darkness—a
space that sucks and absorbs energy (an energy thief or black hole). This space
attracts similar energy, so someone who experiences a particular type of situation
or “bad luck” may find themselves experiencing that repeatedly. Each new
incident becomes another layer on the original static, which ultimately comes to
look like a golf ball or a layered onion. The new layer may be more intense than
the former layer, trying to awaken the person to heal—energetically crying, “Pay
attention to me; pay attention to me!” louder and louder.
When the call is ignored, the growing feeling is of being a victim: “It
always happens to me.” The problem with victimhood is that there is no power
to heal. There is no recognition of the energetic process that saps both energy
and will—no tracking back to the original tangles of energy, the original static
that is now actively creating/attracting similar situations, to call attention to
itself.
Victim energy may show itself psychically in different ways. It may
manifest as a blocked or darkened first chakra unable to release energy into the
ground. There will be emotion embedded in the block. The person may seem
fine psychically, but when you look at the area of wound, it says telepathically,
“Don’t you dare look here.” The voice may sound threatening or helpless.
Energy stops. Time stops and becomes static energy at the age of the original
wounding. So the person may be fifty years old, but that area may only be three
years old. As this wound attracts similar painful energy, it becomes surrounded
with layers of unconscious energy. It may cause the person looking at it to feel
sleepy or lose focus. When this person becomes triggered, he may react from the
emotional age he was when the wound first originated.
In couples counseling, you see this frequently, where one partner says
something to the other, and this person hears it defensively through old
wounding and becomes three years old. The first person continues talking as if
she were talking to an adult, but the three-year-old no longer has the ability to
hear her. The first partner gets angrier because she feels unheard and begins to
push harder, to no avail. The communication lines are cut.
To break through the victim energy, we need to access our own energetic
participation in the wounded pattern. There is no blame. This is a very powerful
statement: there is no blame. Both victimhood and blame stop the healing
process. This destroys the possibility of insight, new self-awareness. Activating
the will means reconnecting with the movement of the third chakra—the area of
will. A blocked third chakra will look dark and static or may even have pressure
on it to spin backward. (This can feel like nausea or the flu.)
This recognition of our own pattern opens the possibility of change. If we
can see what we do that creates pain, we can change it. We can engage our will
and insight, release any defensiveness that blocks new information, growth, and
learning. Unwinding implies sequence. We go through the layers, from most
recent back to the original, core wounding. In any healing process, we have both
sequence and a personal pace. We each have our own level of tolerance for
releasing pain since we will re-experience some of the pain as it releases.
Healing begins when we are willing to look at ourselves without defensive
eyes. Instead, we stay open: “I really want to know. I really want to heal. I don’t
care if the road is bumpy. I want to go through this to the other side. I have to go
at my pace, and I have to accept what is because that is all that is here.” The
moment we embark on that kind of journey, the moment we become completely
open and accept what is—in that moment we experience instantaneous
transformation. A process begins, and we are no longer obstructing or fighting
this process.
It is interesting to me how our modern language is all about fighting this or
that disease. This is the cultural language and concept that underlies autoimmune
disease: fighting ourselves inside our own bodies. It’s when we are defensive
and resistant and fighting what is that we lock it in place. We are in a head-on
battle, using force rather than gathering information with a “hello”—letting us
hear even more deeply inside ourselves what is going on.
In clairvoyant psychotherapy, I look for all of these patterns: the core
beliefs, the fear, the original pain pictures, defensiveness, and the holding on to
old energy of past imprints.
Many times you have energies that have already been worked. You’ve been
looking at yourself deeply in mediation or any way—the wound has already
been looked at and insight has already been gleaned. The work is mostly
complete; it just hasn’t been released. There has been no grounding, no letting
go. So this energy is still an attractor. It continues to attract similar energies and
pain. All you need to release it is the willingness and the pathway.
We are here to evolve—to stretch ourselves and explore the edge of who
we think we are. That means to work through things, to dig deeper into who we
are and what is this thing called a path. What is our path, purpose, talents? Why
are we here?
These are very real questions, and we all have a passion, conscious or
buried, to uncover our answers. It is innate in our design, our very life force, to
want to know, to want to grow.
Our family and our cultural upbringing are not only what we are taught and
where we are validated. They are also what is left out, never addressed.
Although we have religion, we are not addressed as a Spirit in a body—a Spirit
who has a path, a purpose, and is desirous of knowing itself as such. A Spirit
who has a one-to-one communication with other Spirits, with God. A Spirit who
has both a physical and a spiritual anatomy.
Physical Anatomy—two arms, two legs, a torso and a head, organs, cells,
and more.
Spiritual Anatomy—energy pathways, chakras, clairvoyant abilities (clear
seeing of energy), clairaudience or telepathy (Spirit-to-Spirit nonverbal
communication), clairsentience (knowing what someone else is feeling), and
more.
Have you ever heard the phone ring and known who it was? The person on
the other end has already thought of you, already has a reason for wanting to
communicate, and has already dialed your number. Telepathically, you are tuning
in to something already happening.
We are deeply programmed to be alienated from our deepest purpose; we
are programmed to not raise questions that address this. This is a deep and
foundational source of pain—alienation from ourselves.
In our culture, we are not taught—it is not talked about—what we do with
our energy. Yes, we talk (in many circles) about actions and emotions, but not
what is happening energetically. We are quick to adopt beliefs about the world
that are handed down to us, yet early on, these beliefs color or create a veil
between us and our own sense perceptions. Literally, we see, hear, touch, feel,
think, and interpret the world through these beliefs, these thoughts. In an
important sense, we are hypnotized early on.

“Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by age eighteen.”

— Albert Einstein
 Our deeper thoughts and judgments about the world, people, and even the
person in front of us—these carry force. They carry an energy that is palpable.
These energies are projected; they carry weight. When we are talking with
someone and judging them, no matter how polite we are, they will feel the
judgment. If this person doubts themselves, mistrusts his intuitive sense or the
body’s deeper communication, he will notice but be unable to identify his
response. This will serve to amplify unconscious doubt.
This doubt amplifies our confusion about being in the world. We then cling
even tighter to beliefs. We further separate from our intuition in order to make
sense of our lives. How many times have parents responded to a sad child with
the phrase, “Honey, you’re not sad” or “You didn’t really see that,” thus
invalidating the child’s perception. Some things can be invalidated often enough
that the magical world, intuition—even imagination—are lost.
In Psychic Psychotherapy, I look for the clues, the openness, the cracks in
the armor to begin to approach the Spirit in a body in front of me.
 CRACKS

I am history
Writing myself anew each day
Sometimes so absorbed in my past
All I can do is spin on my heels
Whirling backward
In an old jalopy
Until fully hypnotized
I am lost
Cracked apart
Disconnected from Mother Earth, the Heavens
Even my chosen body
Fractured open
Nowhere to hide
With no struggle left in me
At last…
In stillness…
I notice something born of the chaos
The madness
A brilliance that whispers
Cracks are where the light comes in.

— from Unwinding The Soul,

by Susan Feinbloom
 When we get a direction, a union of Spirit and body, it is joyful, like a
homecoming, an alignment with who we are. It is a fantastic feeling deep in our
bones.
The small part of our brain, the thinking mind, has dominated our whole
experience. The critic, the editor, is the part of us that has claimed total seniority.
There is a saying, “Don’t always believe what you think.” Now, we can reclaim
our birthright as a Spirit. We have many ways of knowing, experiencing the
world, aligning with who we are, and coming out of isolation, into our purpose!
Now, we become part of something bigger—part of nature, part of the Universe
—we belong.
This book is designed to describe a new form of psychotherapy to help you
go beyond habitual thinking, beyond old belief systems. It is designed to help
you go deeper into yourself. Who are you under all the layers of absorbed
energy, programs, and beliefs? Who are you, even beneath your thinking mind?
To deeply release and release some more and then again release…until the
brilliance that is you shines through.
All of the meditations in this book are intended to be lighthearted.
Come as a child, leaving judgment behind, opening your imagination up
wide, and remembering when the world was a magical place where information
was accessible just because you were curious.
Please join me in the Spirit of play!

In this book the names of clients have been changed to protect their
privacy.
 Section I

Meditation
 Introduction to Meditation

Sweet Waters

Come sit in circle with me

let us create a sacred space
where we can let our souls come out
and swim in sweet waters
nourishing the seeds we have planted
in darkness
in dreamtime
when we ourselves were emerging
undifferentiated from source
pure protons
Spirit seeds
discovering sacred geometry
patterns of pleasure and pain
spirals
yearning for sweet waters
— from Unwinding the Soul,
by Susan Feinbloom
Meditation is the foundation of Psychic Psychotherapy. The mental quietness
and clarity of meditation allows us to align the internal pathways of energy to the
cosmos and the earth while opening a pathway to release past-time static energy.
Watching and tracking the internal movement of energy, where it is flowing and
where it is blocked, is key to uncovering the levels of present-time challenges
and their roots. Each block in the energy pathway reveals a prior wound and
places a boundary on the freedom of the clients to be themselves. This “energy
tracking” is a core departure from traditional psychotherapy. All of
psychotherapy tries to look inward. Psychic Psychotherapy differs in that it has a
very specific intention: to read the energy system. Meditation enables the client
to tune in to his or her own energetics.
The importance of meditation is that it is a time we go inward to find
ourselves. To find out who we truly are separate from all the illusions, separate
from everyone else’s point of view. Here we begin to see a big picture. We locate
ourselves within infinity and cosmic consciousness. In meditation we can
experience stillness and begin to listen to our higher Self. Here we align
vertically to Heaven and earth and release past-time pain and lies. Until we align
vertically, we exist on a horizontal axis whereby our sense of survival, our
emotions, and our access to our own will are operating on commands from other
people, cultural and familial expectations and agendas. At some point the
questions arise: Who am I? What do I want?
The process of meditation is where we go inside on a regular basis. We
cannot release external programs if we seek all of our information and answers
from outside sources.
Connecting to Heaven and earth, the vertical axis, gives us entry to our
own higher Self, our own information, our own truth, and our own one-to-one
communication with Spirit and our upper chakras. In Clairvoyant Psychotherapy
I help my clients find and clear the blocks to these pathways.
Meditation is the pathway home, our deepest instincts, our soul—our
higher wisdom.
In Psychic Psychotherapy we engage in the fierce work of uncovering
ourselves, and we are deeply rewarded. It is a homecoming. We become aligned
to the Universe, in harmony. Something fits. The struggle begins to ease. The
vision clears.
Both the task and the goal are to re-enliven ourselves, to return the static to
movement, to release old static pain, holdings, blocks, programming, and to
become awake to ourselves.
The Process

As my client is describing his current challenges—why he came to therapy—I

am clairvoyantly scanning the energy pathways. What is fluid? What is blocked?
I make a correlation between the pain or fear he is experiencing and the static in
the energy field.
In all of my Psychic Psychotherapy sessions, I teach a three-part
meditation pattern:
Grounding
Connecting to earth energy
Connecting to the cosmos
The process of grounding, as well as the process of pulling in the earth and
cosmic energy, is about the movement, the fluidity of energy. Grounding is a
release, a surrender, death, recycling, and composting—a letting go. It creates
the space for new energy, inspiration, the seeds of growth, and guidance. Earth is
the manifestation, fruition, flower, and blossom. Cosmic energy is the source of
our information, guidance, and creativity.
Imagine your personal identity unhooked from your history, unhooked
from reactivity to that history. Imagine yourself brand new.
This meditation places us in vertical alignment to the Universe. Here we
are informed by guidance, inner knowing, and higher intelligence, which are all
connected to nature.
Our lives are full of programmed beliefs about who we are, what we
should do, and what preset standards we need to operate upon. When our reality
is solely connected to other people, we lose our uniqueness. We evaluate our day
with the question, “Who did I disappoint today?”
We are not privy to why someone needs to be a “D” student or has a
disability. Perhaps the restriction opens doors he had been yearning for lifetimes
to open but never focused on. We are not privy to this information.
Spiritual health is dynamic. It is a continuous movement of energy. Pain is
static. To begin a session, I always have my clients “run their energy”—that is,
to create a release of energy, a grounding cord, and energetically connect to the
earth and the Heavens. This axial flow of energy is dynamic. It connects us to
our source, to the Universe, and enables us to release pain. It helps us disengage
from cultural and familial controls and imprints to uncover our deeper truth, our
unique path. The concept of working with energetic movement within the
Spiritual Anatomy is not a focus in traditional psychotherapy. It is core to
psychic psychotherapy.
All of the considerations in this book—grounding, connecting to the earth
and to the Heavens—are intended to answer one large question: “Who are you?”
Which parts are not you? What parts are overlays that have been programmed
into you with dictated family roles, family expectations and wounds, concepts
and beliefs?

Introduction

She sat there, energy frozen—looking through my clairvoyant eyes like stuck,
gray static. I had her ground and release energy into the earth; begin to connect
to Mother Earth, the cosmos, and allow the energy to move gently within. As she
began to do this, the room filled with telepathic screams. Her mother’s hate
started releasing from her brain. The screams weren’t even so much directed at
her as absorbed by her. They were the expression of her mother’s torment, a
continuous psychic wail. And she said, “I always heard screaming as a child. No
one else heard it.” At last she was able to experience silence, peace.
Our body is an emotional body. It is through these emotions that we
communicate body to being, body to Spirit. It is through grounding that we
release.

Discussion of Meditation

Spiritual awakening in meditation begins when you start to listen to your higher
Self, when the upper chakras are no longer controlled by the wounding of the
lower chakras. This begins when you engage the fourth chakra—the heart center,
the bridge to the higher spiritual centers. When you start to align with the
vertical axis, you become able to access guidance based on love and inspiration
rather than being dumbed down by cultural containers, out-of-control survival,
and lust for power.
Once you begin to use the vertical axis, you become involved in your own
higher levels of information and get deeper into truth—truth in big ways. You
begin engaging with your essential nature. I don’t mean truth in the usual way
we talk about truth. I’m not telling you a lie, but many times what I am telling
you is my truth. My truth is not necessarily the same as your truth. You know
that because you are in touch with your own truth. As you get deeper into
yourself, your truth deepens and changes. So what you thought about your life
two weeks ago may not be what you think now. Decisions may be different. Life
is a process; meditation is a process.
If I’m trying to program you in some way, and you’re meditating, I’m not
going to be able to make you arrange your life around something that suits me
rather than you.
When this happens some people will try to get you back—get you back
into their truth. They may use moral and ethical words: “You’re not as nice as
you used to be.” “You are not loyal.” People around you may be threatened by
your newfound independence.
You will create new relationships with people who honor you—they honor
your path; they can validate things about you that have nothing to do with them;
and they have no need to program you. They simply see you.
Our meditation practice is where we tune into our uniqueness. We gain
certainty and become able to validate ourselves. It is where we spend time going
inward to cosmic consciousness and infinity. This is freedom.
This practice is core to Psychic Psychotherapy.
The following chapters describe the three-part process and its application
to clairvoyance in psychotherapy.
 CHAPTER 1

Grounding

Grounding is the most fundamental and transformative tool in psychic

psychotherapy.
Grounding is about freedom; it’s about growth and dynamic movement,
cycles and life. Being grounded is the ability to release, to let something go, to
be done with it and move on. Although it is a simple connection to the planet, it
is also complex. Grounding can restimulate everything in us that is contrary to
release, every tenacious wound and every programmed belief. It rubs against any
control energy in our space.
Grounding is an energy connection, a release from the first chakra (the
spiritual center at the base of the spine) to the center of the planet. This release
can be visualized in many ways. Examples are a waterfall, a tall tree trunk with
deep roots, or a tube of light. Different images work for different people or
situations. Old pains, past-time obsessions can be released. Anger, jealousy,
shame, and competition can all be released through grounding. It is core to
psychic psychotherapy because new growth cannot happen without the old
energy being released.
The first chakra is a place we hold survival energy, our belief that
something threatens our survival. If someone says that we are useless, we do not
know how to live with that. We feel threatened and don’t know if we can go out
in public or go to work or show our face anywhere. All of this thinking is an
example of getting hooked or stuck on a picture, creating static. Instead of
having three hundred sixty degrees of possibilities, all we see is one degree. This
kind of reaction doesn’t happen unless there is already a belief somewhere inside
that says, “You are useless.” This belief gets restimulated along with the
circumstances that originally created and surrounded it.
Perhaps early on it was your mother’s disapproval or even her first glance
when she discovered you were a girl rather than a boy. Your first birthright,
unconditional love, was denied at a glance. Now a person currently in your life
who is calling you useless restimulates all of this. In this circumstance, the
original wound may be unconscious, although the energy and the force it holds
are entirely palpable. When you look clairvoyantly, you can get past present-time
content to reveal these original wounds. The original wounds light up as
pictures, scenes, or dense areas in the energy field. They are directly connected
to the current content.
In our lives, we are living fields of energy that are dotted with many,
perhaps millions, of highlights of old wounds, like a Christmas tree. Although
we don’t think of ourselves and everyone else as psychic, indeed, we are. Just as
we are designed to have two arms, two legs, a torso, and a head, we also have a
spiritual anatomy, chakras, and a luminous field. This field holds tangles, holes,
and rips as well as brilliant shining light. We read this field in one another all the
time, even though this may not be done consciously.
Every one of our wounds is an attraction center, reproducing and absorbing
energy that is similar to the wound itself. In other words, it reproduces pain. It is
a static place in the aura; the energy field. Opposing growth is in static form. The
potential of the wound in its very dynamic nature will attract similar energy.
When enough pain gets attracted to this tangle or wound in our field, we start
taking notice. Perhaps we finally get tired of it and want to commit to healing.
Our memory helps us out. Memory is stored with feeling and sensation. Now,
with all of the old wounds restimulated, we finally get angry about carrying
around such a burden, and we get ready to release the old insult that says we are
useless. In addition, we begin to release all of those prior, similar wounds as well
as the current insult. These insults become clear to us as false. As we grow in
emotional strength, personal insults will resurface that are proportionate to our
ability to handle them. This presents a grand opportunity to begin releasing a
train of insults, false beliefs, and pain.
This is where grounding comes in. The ability to release past time energy.
It is a spiritual tool that enables us to go from this static wound into a dynamic
life. It helps us come back to life, to reawaken. Grounding is complex. All of the
forces that like us to be the way we are now, or feel threatened by our release
and continuous transformation, have an effect on our ability to ground. Although
we may feel threatened, this release is really only threatening to those people
who wish to exert some control over us.
The quote, “Life begins at the end of our comfort zone,” is very
appropriate to the function of the grounding cord. Our freedom is related to and
dependent upon our ability to let go of the past and step into the unknown. To
stretch, to grow, to evolve our talents, our uniqueness, our expressiveness, to
surprise ourselves, to come out of comparison, to come out of consensual reality
—the commonly agreed upon version of what is real and true—and step into all
possibilities. Fear and resistance to the new create a holding, a static, or a freeze
on a cellular and creative level. Static leads to boredom, apathy, and ill health.
Curiosity, exploration, and enthusiasm comprise our natural state. But we
receive and internalize beliefs and teachings that we can’t do something or that
we are not smart enough, talented enough, rich enough. Or perhaps we believe it
is unsafe, dangerous to explore.
It is fierce work to uncover and release all the layers we operate upon by
rote—the programming of who we are or should be, what is allowed or not, what
we think, obsessive thoughts and feelings. So much of our behavior, choices, and
thoughts have nothing to do with our deepest essence. They have been forced
into us by family, religion, and culture. Our beliefs that grow from this
programming become the boundaries of our choices. We do not look outside of
them. When someone talks to us outside this range, we simply do not hear them.
In psychic psychotherapy I look deeply to discern the difference between
my client’s energy and foreign imprints. Clairvoyantly, the imprints differ in
color and in affinity with the person’s own energy in the aura.
The grounding cord is connected to the first chakra at the base of the spine.
Functionally, the first chakra’s sphere is survival. Thus, our ability to release is
proportionate to the survival energy in our space. This becomes complicated
when we believe our survival is tied in with our weight, complexion, or ability to
get straight A’s as opposed to basic survival needs of food and shelter. When we
experience ourselves to be in survival mode, our awareness and attention stay
fixed at that level. Where our attention is fixed, our energy follows, and we
amplify and grow this same level of energy.
The effect is that we don’t grow the upper chakras: creativity, love, clear
seeing, clear thinking, inner knowing, certainty, and relationship to spiritual
guidance. To grow these levels of consciousness is the goal of psychic
psychotherapy.
 A belief, for example, that you are too overweight to have friends or an
intimate partner will dictate your behavior, limit your access to people, and
become a self-fulfilling prophesy. Particular choices will follow from this belief.
Energetically, you will become isolated and invisible to others. The outermost
layers of the aura will become denser, unattractive in the pure sense of the word
—unable to attract attention. People will not see you. How you run energy in
your body will organize itself around your awareness and beliefs. “I cannot meet
people or have friends,” will become true for you. We amplify and grow our
beliefs. Even if the belief is predicated on a lie, it becomes our life.
Our grounding cord puts us in touch with the actuality of now, present
time. It is a deep self-healing technique.

Here is a synopsis of a session that exemplifies the power of grounding.

A sixty-one-year-old old man

In attempting to do a session on grounding, we found that the energy of this

person was unavailable, scattered from pain. Switching gears, I had him call to
himself as spirit, collect himself, and locate himself. Immediately, he felt himself
taken on a tangent: a battle between his mother and grandmother competing for
him. He was three years old. Every time you set the intention to release,
whatever comes to consciousness is related to this intention. I had him go to this
age and re-experience the battle. He claimed to feel like an object, a piece of
jewelry. Psychically, his energy took on a gray hue of hypnotic energy. He
became lost in dense unconsciousness, concepts that registered as pain. The
unspoken message was, “You do not exist in your own right but as an object for
me to adorn myself with.”
He said he felt like a bunch of snakes were wrapped around him and that
he had to hide or be swallowed. His survival was threatened.
As he went back through the memory and the experience of being
swallowed by his mother and grandmother and the hypnotic control they exerted,
some kind of life force started to reemerge. He began to ground and release. His
energy appeared to collect, become dense, and turn bright blue. When energy is
released, it is important to consciously replace it with a blessing—for example,
“I have a right to exist,” “I have a right to a beautiful and creative life.” Vacant
or unblessed spaces may call back the same quality of energy that was released.
I had him bring in a golden sun to replenish his energy field. In addition, I
suggested that he might need to practice grounding. I noticed him using his
habitual thinking to call forth answers, rather than using “direct experience.”
Thinking doesn’t reveal new information; it just repeats history—what it already
knows as false beliefs, static illusions.
Unconsciousness, which is stored pain, always surrounds the light of
consciousness. Allowing this energy to surface and come into a place of dynamic
movement begins to release old fears, threats to survival. Any time our energy is
flowing, whatever we pay attention to will immediately come out of static and
transform. This allows conscious awareness, the place where we have freedom
of choice, to replace the unconsciousness or hypnotism. Every time we
experience pain or insult, it kicks us as spirit out of the body. Whatever happens
when we are out is like hypnotism. It comes in as a command directly to the
subconscious, bypassing our conscious discernment. This gets stored and affects
us until we release it, which may be years later. A simple example of this is a
person under anesthesia who unconsciously hears the doctor say, “I don’t think
she’ll live” or “She’ll never be whole again.” This is stored in the person as a
hypnotic command. When she awakens, she feels a threat of death or a feeling of
not being whole.
The nature of grounding is that we come out of a static existence into a
dynamic present. Just this one tool—grounding—takes us everywhere. It is a
journey that covers the territory from personal, charged past-time wounds to
freedom and creativity. This tool is vital in psychic psychotherapy.
Grounding Technique

Sit in a comfortable chair with your feet on the floor. Take a few deep breaths
and begin to imagine a grounding cord. This is an energy connection from the
base of the spine, your first chakra, to the center of the planet. It can be
visualized as a waterfall, a tube of light, a tree trunk with deep roots—choose
any image. See the image. Then imagine you, the spirit, doing the work. Don’t
try hard or use body effort; just allow a release. Your energy will automatically
flow to match the visualization. You may experience a sensation of a wave or
flood; this is old energy pouring out. Notice the sense of freedom you reclaim
when the emotional charge in a past-time wound or stored anger is released.
Immediately, there is room for creativity to surface.
Try spending ten minutes a day in silence, sitting and grounding and
releasing unwanted energy. Relax and enjoy the new, emerging you!
 CHAPTER 2

Earth Energy

By attuning ourselves with earth energy, we connect and begin to harmonize

with nature. It is with this energy connection that we bring spiritual inspiration
into material form.
Each wound that is active and charged on a cellular level pulls our energy
into past-time. Even our sense organs of perception have a past-time filter. In
order to achieve our goals, we need to bring them into present-time and into the
body. Goals held in past-time remain unattainable; goals held in future-time
remain fantasies. Earth energy is the tool we use to align our lives, goals, and
health with nature and the planet.
The earth channels start in the earth itself. Our design is to receive this
energy through our feet. From the feet, it travels up the legs and through the
lower-body chakras, the first and second chakras, and then into the third chakra,
or solar plexus. These pathways relate to the denser or more material aspect of
the luminous body. They form the intersection of spirit and matter.
Once the energy reaches the third chakra, the earth energy is distributed
through the body into the organs—the spleen, pancreas, liver—and once again it
releases and grounds with the grounding cord. Nothing is static—energy is
continuously in motion.
 The earth energy flows up into the feet chakras like light. When the feet
chakras are closed down, we tend to disconnect our energy from the earth,
nature, and the body. When we have been disconnected for some time and begin
to access these chakras and open them, they will hungrily suck up the earth
energy, like a suckling babe.
We have the ability to adjust the feet chakras so that they can admit earth
energy like the iris admits and regulates the entry of light into the eye. When we
need a stronger connection to nature, we can open the feet chakras wider. When
we want to meditate or be in a spiritually conscious space we can close them
down a little and focus on the cosmic energy and the upper chakras rather than
the earth energy. We can strengthen our connection to the earth by imagining the
feet have eyes and opening these eyes to receive the nourishment of the earth.
This planet is alive, and as we bring up the earth energy, we tune into her
pulse, her vibration. We too are alive and have a corresponding pulse, a
corresponding vibration. When the earth energy comes up through our feet and
legs and reaches the first chakra at the base of the spine, we harmonize with this
vibration. The cells and organs in our body recognize this vibration and
harmonize with it as well. Our bodies move toward optimal functioning. The
earth energy then follows the pathway down the grounding cord. This is an open
loop: continuous nourishment, continuous release.
This pathway of earth energy will feed, nourish, and awaken you as it
continues to release old, static energy down the grounding cord. Your own
higher self, your higher consciousness, is in charge of regulating the flow, the
movement, and the release. No thinking is necessary; simply let the earth energy
be one of the fuels with which you nourish the body. Your intention is very
powerful; just allow your intention to call up the energy, circulate it, and release
it.
Allow the first chakra to spin as the earth energy passes through—trusting
that you can release everything you no longer need. This process begins to clear
false survival needs. As the earth energy connects to the grounding, you can
begin to just let everything go. Let go. Release. Breathe.
As you do this, you are allowing a space to be created for something new.
The earth energy naturally continues on up to the second chakra, just below
the navel. This awakens the chakra, allowing it to spin. This in turn stimulates
the emotions to express, to be felt, to release. The internal organs are then
stimulated to return to movement, to optimal functioning. The peristalsis of the
intestines is awakened. The life force is enlivened. The sexual organs all move
toward healing.
Everything begins to come into present-time with the movement of the
earth energy.
This energy continues as high as the third chakra, at the solar plexus. Here,
as the energy spins the chakra, our personal power, our ability to source from the
universe, to bring in prana, or chi, is enlivened. Also in this chakra, you can see
if you are expending energy on trying to control someone else. Manipulations of
this kind entangle us in the lives and karma of others.
This is the misuse of the third chakra.
We are not privy to the big picture of why someone else needs to be just
who they are or to act the way they do. Their behavior or state of being is their
own personal challenge. We do not know this person’s history as a being or the
course of life that he has chosen or what he has set in motion to learn as a spirit
in this incarnation. While running the earth energy, we can gently begin to pull
back any control energy we have in someone else’s space.
From the third chakra, the energy returns to the earth, joins the grounding
cord, grounds, and releases, creating an open loop.
Earth energy fuels our ability to manifest our creativity in the world. It also
enables us to release that which is old and outdated and make room for new life,
creativity, and new information.
Now the luminous body connects with earth energy, nature, and its
nurturance. Nature is a great healer of the body. We have a natural body, made of
nature, elements, and minerals. We also have a spiritual body. Together they are
the foundation of our health and balance. Nature grounds us here on the planet. It
creates movement where there has been static. Movement is health. In
movement we will move through anything. In static we create disease.
Aligning the spiritual and physical bodies will help with manifesting what
you want and feeling solid on the ground. Having your own two feet solidly
planted, speaking up for yourself. All of this is connected to the earth—taking a
stand.
Earth energy is our balance with spirit. It is our understanding that we are
natural and part of nature. Our bodies are made of nature; we are not separate.
When we align to the universe, earth energy lends us power—the power to
manifest.
As a spiritual midwife, I have watched women become the earth itself to
give birth. They draw on the power of the earth to call their baby forth.

As the birthing mom harmonizes

With the Earth
She bulging
 The Earth bulging
Intimate partners
Pulsing together
Dancing together
Howling to the Great Mother
In progressively faster
Progressively fiercer rhythms
In one great burst
the divine contraction and
New Life Emerges
Baby is born

Earth energy is about having our feet on the ground. It validates and
informs our physical body. All of nature is animate, is alive, and we are part of
it. It is our grounding here on the planet. It is our healing; it is beauty and our
connection to the body, to this incarnation. Earth is a pathway out of isolation
and out of arrogance.
In practicing meditation and psychic abilities, it is important to connect our
insights, new experiences, and awareness with our day-to-day lives. Bring it all
down to earth. This is the work of psychic psychotherapy.
Connection, integration, and wholeness reside here in the body. This is the
gift of earth energy.

A fifty-year-old man with blocked earth energy

SUSAN: So, why don’t you talk a little bit about what you’d like to work today?
CARL: My legs, they’re very stiff. They never really get supple. I’m very
limited in how far I can bend forward because the hamstrings, and the muscles in
the back get very tight. It’s just painful, not loose. It inhibits my movement.
S: Say a little more about how you feel limited. What do you feel limited in
doing?
C: Bending over, stretching, stooping—all of those things other than just
sitting upright in certain positions or just standing upright. You know, just very
limiting.
 S: And could you say more about not just the position that limits you, but
the activities? How in your life do you experience the limitations?
I am aiming to get deeper than literally engaging his physical
challenge.
C: Just moving around the house. If things are not in certain positions,
waist level or above, it becomes difficult to access them in parts of the house. If I
were suppler, I could reach things lower down. I could bend down with more
ease. I’m very rigid in the use of my body; I would like to be suppler.
S: The first thing I notice, just as you talk, is that there is a real delineation
from about the bottom of your belly and waist up. Above has your vibrancy,
sense of movement, energetic movement. Below is more like cement, down
below your waist. There’s a thick wall of cement. It’s hard to find your earth
energy in your lower body. I can see energy in your upper body, but it’s not
completely aligned with your physical body. In the lower body, your energy
appears to dangle without use.
So, we’re going to look together. We’re going to look at your earth energy.
Your grounding goes down almost to the floor, where it hits a glitch and
disappears. It goes sideways and disappears, and then it continues. I can’t really
see where it goes off to; mostly there’s a space of disconnection.
A lot of women appear in your grounding cord, exes in your life. And
where they appear it looks like a space where these intentions of your exes come
to you as your own thoughts. In other words, they have the effect of
programming you to believe that their truth is really your own truth.
C: In other words, intercept? My exes intentions come in as if they were
mine, channeling their energy into me as if they were mine?
S: Yes. I don’t see that this break in the grounding is because of these
intentions, so much as filled by them. It looks as if you disappear, a time warp, a
dimension warp—maybe a place where you go in between the moments. Do you
find yourself adrift without an awareness of where you’ve been?
C: Yeah, I can relate to that.
S: There is no blame that someone kicked you out there. In fact, when I
find other people in your space—I look for the vacant space in your aura, or your
conscious or unconscious invitation or agreement to allow this energy to be
there.
C: It’s just a place where others are trying to come in?
S: Usually it’s by some invitation or unconscious vacancy of your own.
So, I’m looking for the earth energy. There are little chakras, little energy
centers in the bottom of the feet that draw up the earth energy to allow its
presence; I almost don’t see them. On your right foot, I see the foot chakra filled
in with gray—the chakra is closed. And your left foot has a really different feel.
The first image is that the leg has been wounded. Obviously, your leg is not
wounded, so it’s as if I’m looking at a very past-time picture, a past-life picture,
or a foreign energy in your leg. It looks as if that leg is unstable on an energetic
level. On the physical level, you have stability.
C: As you’re talking, I get a picture of my grandfather, who used a cane
and a crutch to get about. He had an arrowhead in his knee. He got the
arrowhead in there when he was probably about fifteen. He was mobile until he
got older.
S: How did he get an arrowhead stuck in his knee?
C: He was coming across the country from St. Louis, Missouri, to
California. He was in a wagon train.
S: As you talk about that, I watch a damaged image of a leg. It’s not a clear
outline like the other leg is clear. This one is like a haze of gray. And as you talk
about your grandfather, it starts to spin just a little bit. It recognizes what you’ve
said. The body holds memory, even ancestral memory. It’s interesting to watch,
knowing that you are a farmer. It’s interesting to watch how when the earth
energy comes; it’s as if you shut down the feet chakras. The left has a haze of
amnesia; reactive to itself, as opposed to an external stimulus. Whereas, the right
one, I can see it almost get angry, like, “I’m not going to let you in,” as if the
foot chakra says that to the earth.
However, this active rebellion has cut you off from the earth. Sometimes a
rebellion has its own momentum that turns on itself.
As we talk I’m watching the right leg—your leg wants to bring up the earth
energy. The leg has come into agreement, but the chakra has not. As you sit with
this communication, there is a lot of energy coming in toward your foot—
symbols of nature, trees, land—lush images. Your foot is being surrounded by
lush images of nature—very green.
As he hears and recognized this psychic communication, his physical
energy begins to flow.
You just opened the shield around the first chakra—almost as if there were
several membranes. As you open the shield around the chakra, there’s energy
releasing, and there’s energy trapped. And there’s images of female people—
relatives—as if they’re in conference about you, about what you should be
allowed to do. Give me an example of what you would be allowed to do and
what would be overpowering to them.
C: Maybe the threat is more powerful than the actual event—the idea of
being overpowered by a man. I grew up around women who felt that men should
be contained or kept within certain limits.
 S: You’re starting to shift. First it was a thin black line of energy—your
etheric leg is hopping around. Sometimes your right leg looks very little, like it
comes to the first inches of your thigh. Sometimes it looks a little larger than that
—deep blue, midnight blue, hues of brighter blue come in and return to a deeper
blue. [As energy transforms some vibrations in the form of colors release, and
some come in].
Now, I’m actually watching you release your grandfather. Do you feel
something changing right now, coming out of your left leg?
C: Yeah, I feel some movement.
This is the client beginning to discern the difference between his own
energy and foreign energy. He is beginning to experience his energy moving
in his body.
S: There’s some green color in your left leg—it is now empowered to
consciously release. It has enough consciousness to know “I want release.” It’s
talking.
The energy of your leg stands up and looks very large. As it takes a stand,
literally standing up for itself, it looks angry. The image I have is of you in a
cabin in the woods with a wife, like the Old West. It is not a present-time image.
[Far memories can release without the need to examine them if they are no
longer charged. They can just be grounded out.] What happens when it’s time
for you to take a stand, when you need to take a stand; how is that?
C: I shy away from it quite a bit. I find it very difficult, or I stand off to the
side.
S: You just stimulated that little bridge to the grounding. Say “hello” to the
gray in the right leg and begin to talk to it. Ask it what it’s doing there. Can you
do this from within your body? As you have this conversation, I see the energy
diffusing.
C: I was getting a lot of sensation in my body as you were talking and got
distracted.
S: Can you come back to it?
C: All I see is a field of blue in the center of it.
S: There’s a pool, a black liquid pool, that is the energy of the waist that is
the cutoff between the upper and the lower chakras—go to that first.
C: Okay, I see a belt, tightening. I’m looking at it from the inside. It just
seems to come in. I saw a dagger, then something that resembles flames. When I
spoke, I got a flavor of irony and despair—very Irish, very black—feeling
despair and cynicism.
S: What I’m noticing is that any time you pose a question, it is a piece of
the puzzle. I’m noticing that your upper and lower body got into communication
—at least the right leg side got into communication with your body.
C: My left leg feels a little more powerful, but still separated.
S: You’re releasing some more of your mother from the lower body, all the
energy she has grappled with in her life and hasn’t known what to do with. She
has a level of awareness on a lot of planes—and she has put this forth for you to
heal it. As I say that, you show an immediate resistance. And as you resist her,
you resist the earth energy. Having said that, see if you can open the feet chakras
in your right leg or both—the connection to the earth.
Who will be hurt when you open them? You backed down as if in apology
—a heartfelt grief, an apology.
C: It’s a locked-in situation. I was intending to lock her out, but I’m
locking myself out.
S: And locking her in. That image of nature around your right foot began
laughing, a cosmic joke. There’s blue coming into your right foot, like a midday
sky. I see an energy—I don’t exactly see the chakra open, but I do see it
connecting to your hip. As I look at your body, your left foot disappears.
So, let me ask you—what would you say if you were standing on your own
two legs? What do you have to say? What do you want to stand for?
C: My self, for the ownership of my own body. I think this is what this is
all about.
S: Here comes your grandmother out of your lower pelvic area, as if your
pelvis was female. Did they want a girl?
C: The wanted to make me into a girl.
S: So, the question is “Do you have the balls to stand up?” What else
would you stand up for in this lifetime?
C: My children, my family, my country.
S: What would you like to stand for that you haven’t stood up for?
C: I’ve done all those things, but I haven’t done them with the full force of
my strength. I’ve done it from the side or leverage position, but not out of my
own strength.
S: So, now you’re getting the energy that you asked for initially—you’re
showing me strength is a supple thing; the ability to be flexible and to bend
down or stand up is strength. You’re starting to show me suppleness in your
concept. Where in your life would you like to access that suppleness and
strength?
C: All sorts of interactions. In phone conversations and business dealings
and political interactions. I just shut myself down, or I take a deal so far and then
stand aside.
S: Look at what would be the way you would follow through if you had the
suppleness and strength of your legs. Just the very next step—what can you
actually envision yourself doing?
What I’m watching as you’re calculating—your foot chakra still isn’t open
on your right foot. Energy is moving, but I’m watching you diverting where
you’re getting it from—from above down to your foot and coming up into your
body. It’s blue, but it’s not coming from the earth. What does that mean to you?
C: It means I don’t know how to access the earth.
S: I’d like to give you a homework assignment. I’d like you to sit in nature
somewhere, and I’d like you to pay attention to nature—not to your mind, but to
nature, allowing your body to harmonize with nature.
Would you pay attention with your whole luminous field as opposed to
your mind? Let your consciousness be in your belly, so to speak. Would you do
that for a moment right now? [pause].
As you’re doing it right now, your legs look more flesh-like. I see them
communicating with nature.
When I asked your foot why it keeps the chakra closed, you showed me the
energy being blown up. What does that mean to you?
C: My father was burned; he was blown up on a ship in WWII. I felt like a
bubble under my foot expanded like an explosion.
As he releases the wounds and deaths of his ancestors, which he has
been storing in his body, he starts to access the earth in present-time.
S: There is starting to be a wave of vibration in your space. Do you feel
that? As that is happening, you’re starting to get your life force back—a power
that is yours. Your earth energy is running.
C: Yes, I feel that!
In practicing meditation and psychic abilities, it is important to
connect our insights and the new energies we experience with our lives.
Bring it down to earth. This enables us to make real changes in our lives.
Connection, integration, wholeness here in the body. This is the gift of earth
energy.
Earth Energy Technique

Imagine yourself sitting comfortably in a beautiful, serene place in nature. Allow

both feet to be planted on the ground. Begin to feel the pulse of the earth.
Imagine the bottom of your feet have eyes that are open wide to receive earth
energy. From your feet the earth energy will flow up your legs to the base of
your spine. It will continue flowing up to the third chakra—your diaphragm area.
Then release this energy back down the spine and down the grounding cord.
Breathe. Relax. Feel the sensations in your body as you are nurtured and
rejuvenated by the earth. No effort is needed. You, the spirit, do the work simply
by your intention.
Try spending ten minutes a day in silence, sitting, grounding, and
“running” earth energy—releasing and connecting to nature. Enjoy!
 CHAPTER 3

Cosmic Energy

In psychic psychotherapy, the cosmic energy channels are a core pathway

through which we access our own essence. Our spiritual nature is what we are
aiming to reveal, evolve, and manifest through the body.
The cosmic energy channels bring us in contact with our higher spiritual
nature. They are about our inner knowing, our spiritual wisdom. These channels
connect us with the spiritual forces of the stars, moon, sun, and planets and with
the vast cosmos, expansive and pure. They also bring to us guidance from angels
and guides. This energy awakens and supports the spin of our chakras, helping to
clear wounding, outdated beliefs, and imprints that are stored within. As we
clear these energies, we become open to the source of our own information.
When we open these energy channels, energy comes into the crown chakra
from the cosmos. It runs down the sides of the spine, and some of it releases with
the grounding cord. The rest comes back up through the chakras—awakening
them and helping them spin. It leaves through the crown and then clears the aura.
When a chakra is not fully spinning, it will block the flow of this energy and
limit access to our guidance and our higher self.
The cosmic energy is the energy of the universe, the heavens, all creativity,
abundance, and intelligence. It is the pathway of inspiration, the seed for growth,
guidance, stepping into new territory, and illuminated childhood curiosity.
It comes into the crown chakra, which harmonizes this energy with you,
the spirit in a body. This harmonic is with your unique talents, skills,
intelligence, and path. It aligns you with your purpose for this incarnation, your
original blueprint.
The pathway the cosmic energy follows is down the sides of the spine, and
then it joins the grounding cord. It then continues up through the first, second,
and third chakras—mixing with the earth energy. At this point the cosmic energy
departs from the earth energy, which travels only to the third chakra, and it
continues up to the fourth chakra—the heart center. This is the center of self-
love, unconditional love, compassion, and forgiveness. Here the cosmic energy
begins to travel a unique path. We come out of sourcing from the external world
into a more transcendent space, the internal world. Here we take our guidance
from within, from our guides, from spirit.
We are now open to the source of our very own information. We grant
ourselves permission to tune inward. We begin releasing old teachings that no
longer fit and replacing them with newfound truths and newfound awareness.
Cosmic energy begins our vertical alignment in the world. We become
connected to and informed by a higher level of knowing. Here we access our
guidance, inner knowing, a more direct and immediate intelligence. We begin
our journey of disconnecting from programmed beliefs about ourselves and the
universe that no longer fit.
The cosmic energy then continues to the fifth chakra, our inner voice and
our spoken word. Here we find truth as a foundation of our lives, spirit-to-spirit
communication, the knowledge that spirit is real and we can access direct
communication from spirit. As we release old, limiting beliefs, this chakra
begins to spin, and the abilities of the fifth chakra become activated.
The cosmic energy then flows upward to the sixth chakra, the third eye.
This opens our clear seeing, higher intelligence, neutrality, and clairvoyance.
Here we reclaim our ability to create mental images, to imagine something, and
to begin the process of manifestation. First the image, then the thought, then the
word, and then the deed made manifest. All the steps are part of the creative
process. We reclaim our imagination.
This energy then continues to the crown chakra, at the top of the head. This
chakra brings the cosmic energy into a harmonic with the energy field. Here we
know who we truly are as a spirit inhabiting a body, always guided. We begin to
know ourselves, separate from all the illusions we have lived by.
The crown chakra contains the information we have as a being; it informs
the body. It is where we access our inner wisdom, our inner knowing. The
cosmic energy then leaves the body through the crown. It enters through the
crown and leaves through the crown.
As a spirit you have a history of both your discarnate space as well as
memory of all the lives you have lived. The body also holds the recorded
memory of its genetic lines. The crown is where you integrate these two levels
of information. The cosmic channel is where you “run” the spiritual memories
through the body. We bring into material form the spiritual intention for
inhabiting a body. In the cosmic channels, you experience all of the chakras in
communication with one another. All are part of a whole.
This is the process of vertical alignment. Connecting heaven and earth
within.
Here you can begin to feel the light that is your very own. You can say
hello to yourself and learn to have internal awareness even when in the company
of others. There is no commandment that says you have to give away your
attention. You are allowed to have your attention with you even as you interact.
This is your birthright.
When the crown chakra is blocked, it reduces the flow of cosmic energy.
This happens when there is control energy in someone’s space, which can
happen for many reasons. A parent’s interpretation of what it means to run an
orderly household—“children should be seen and not heard,” “conformity not
curiosity”—religious codes of behavior, ethics, and morals are some of the
examples. In looking clairvoyantly at my clients, I find that most have not fully
accessed the crown chakra. The wounding of the lower chakras speaks louder, it
needs to be cleared first.
Control cords and energy in the crown chakra make it difficult for someone
to access both guidance and their own spiritual information. Perhaps this person
has been taught not to believe in spirit. In a sense he doesn’t believe in his own
existence or the existence of the spiritual abilities of clairvoyance, telepathy, or
clairsentience [the ability to feel the feelings of another]. This person may run
earth energy and confine his belief and focus to the physical, material world that
is known through ordinary eyes and senses. This is core to feelings of isolation
and alienation. This cannot be solved without addressing our spiritual nature.
When the cosmic energy is fully flowing from the heavens, all the
guidance from angels, guides, God—all come through. Here you get to align
your life to your life’s purpose. You the being are in communication with the
physical body. You are now grounding, moving energy through the physical
body. Keeping the physical body alive, vital, in present-time.
These are spiritual tools you can use on the run or in deep meditation. This
is what I track clairvoyantly in psychic psychotherapy.
Cosmic Energy Technique

Sit down comfortably and relax with both feet on the floor. You now have all the
parts of the meditation. Place your attention on the cosmos, the energy of the
universe—the sun, moon, and stars. Allow this energy to flood into the top of
your head—your crown chakra. Your crown will harmonize this vibration with
you. This energy will flow down the sides of your spine. Some of it will release
down the grounding cord, and the rest will come back up through the spine and
release out of your crown. It flows continuously. Now combine this with the
earth energy and grounding cord. This is the vertical alignment of heaven and
earth.
Practice this ten minutes a day. Enjoy getting to know the new emerging
you!

You don’t even need to leave your room

Just sit at your table and wait
Don’t even wait
Just listen

Be still be silent and be solitary

The world will fully offer itself to you to be unmasked
It has no choice
It will roll in ecstasy
At your feet

— Franz Kafka
 Section II

The Chakras
 Introduction to Chakras

Together with meditation, the chakras are the map of my client’s psyche.
The chakras are the “organs” of the energetic anatomy. Their job is to pull
in the abundant energy from the cosmos. In health the chakras are in motion,
receiving energy from the universe, fueling the body and the aura. They vitalize
and feed the cells of the body. The cells fill up with this life-force energy. The
part that is beyond what fits in the body comes out of the cells, out of the
physical body and radiates a field of energy around you. This is the luminous
field: the aura.
The chakras spin. In health they are in motion, receiving energy from the
infinite, the cosmos, the field that connects us all, and bringing it into the body.
Our consciousness affects substance and physical matter and will play a
mediating role in this process. Consciousness will help determine the quality and
quantity of energy we bring in and how it gets applied to the cells and to our
health and vitality.
Each chakra has a particular focus, and the state of health of the chakra
reveals layers of information about that focus. It reveals health, ease,
programming, breaks, fears, and the general state of wounding. When a client
talks about a problem or challenge, the chakra most affected will highlight itself
and call for attention and exploration.
In clairvoyant psychotherapy we explore the energy field in the seven main
chakras along the vertical axis:
 The first chakra—our basic survival needs
The second chakra—our emotions and sexuality
The third chakra—our will and personal power, fears, criticisms stored in
our self-image, control patterns.
The fourth chakra—self-love, affinity, love of others, forgiveness,
compassion, and empathy
The fifth chakra—communication, vocalizing, telepathy, creativity, and
inner voice
The sixth chakra—ability to vision, imagination, clairvoyance; the ability
to be neutral enough to see what is actually there.
The crown chakra—opening yourself to the heavens and knowing who you
truly are—your spiritual nature, knowing angels and God.
Our thought forms have a profound effect on our overall psychic makeup
—our total beingness. If we focus on stress, anger, fear, the energy will be low.
Our consciousness will only access the lower three chakras. Everything will feel
like an effort, a struggle. If, however, we choose to raise our energy—to feed
ourselves well, to rest, to let go of things that are not necessary, to ground and
meditate, to get a bigger perspective—we begin to access the upper chakras.
When we begin changing old patterns, the body may still hold on to old
ways. As we embrace this time of transition, we enter into a profound
realignment. The body, emotions, and personality begin to accept and become
part of the new alignment.
A growth period is the time between the insight and wisdom gleaned and
the time when the body catches up, accepts, assimilates, and adopts the new
understandings.
In psychic psychotherapy we work with this process of realignment.
Raising the energy, allowing more light and insight to come into the chakras,
accessing the full range of abilities in these chakras, and moving through growth
periods. Here we begin to bring the chakras into a vibratory resonance with the
whole.
Looking at the chakras, I have found that the energetic anatomy reveals a
deeper level of information about the current challenges one faces. Healing,
changing is movement. If the chakras are vibrating at low energy—static, no
movement—then the person is not releasing or changing. As the story that is
being revealed finds the core energy of the underlying wound, if the person has
been grounding, releasing, the chakra will return from a state of stasis to its
intended movement. The foundation of this therapy is the release through the
grounding and the connection of the vertical channels, heaven and earth, clearing
blocks to let energy freely flow. This creates a resonance, a harmonic of purpose
and place in the universe.
The chakras are the wheels of light within your spiritual anatomy. They
hold specific levels of information, each designed with its own internal focus.
They contain your talents, unique fingerprints, connection to the universe, as
well as energy that has been absorbed from others, from life itself.
Exploring these chakras deeply opens us and unfolds the world of who we
are—our inner light—our vibratory resonance with the whole universe.
This is the process of individuation, you as a unique fingerprint in the
universe.
Let your light shine.
 CHAPTER 1

First Chakra

The first chakra is called “Muladhara” in Sanskrit. The word means root.
The first chakra is literally our root, our ground, the earth beneath our feet,
our very foundation. It gives us the ability to feel safe and allows us the space to
be here—the right to occupy space. It is located at the base of the spine—the
coccygeal complex. Here, we have two legs to stand on and the ability to release.
The first chakra holds all the imprints of our past survival experiences.
This includes energy from the time in the womb and throughout our lives,
ancestral energy as well as survival on the physical level—food, shelter, and
love. It also contains survival on an emotional level. An insult stored in the cells
becomes crystallized as a belief, creating doubt as a pervasive theme. This
becomes a fuel with which the body functions. Family violence or an alcoholic
family member’s behavior may be stored in the first chakra as an emotionally
charged memory. This chakra, which connects us to the earth, whose function is
to give us a secure footing, is weakened by all the wounding imprinted here.
The first chakra can become activated because somewhere inside,
consciously or unconsciously, we have tapped into a belief that our survival is
threatened. Our attention will become focused on survival. When this happens,
the higher levels of our thinking and knowing become unavailable. If we are
unable to release into the earth, we start to feel abandoned, orphaned. People in
this space can become more materialistic, hoarding because they don’t feel
supported. The blocks in this chakra can set a ceiling on this person’s vibrational
capability. They will be stuck. When we are in survival it is difficult to meditate
or access guidance.
Clairvoyantly, I often see the energy held in people’s auras as a level of
apology for being, an apology for taking up space and existing. There was no
original welcome for them when they were born. This feeling of abandonment
has been imprinted so deeply in their aura that it carries weight throughout their
lives. Their body language speaks of hiding, trying to be invisible—a level of
pain so deep.
Each chakra has a strong affinity to an element. The first chakra’s affinity
is to the earth. So we release energy into the earth. In so doing, we are able to let
go and move on.
The first chakra is the space from which we ground, so our release, our
grounding, becomes weakened or nonexistent if energy is stuck in this chakra.
When the grounding is cut off, the stored pictures or wounds within the first
chakra become an attraction point within the person’s energetic anatomy. These
wounds attract similar life experiences which form layers of similar energy over
the initial core wounds, so the person begins to have the same “bad luck.” An
example is a woman from a violent family who marries a really nice man. After
being married for some time, this man also turns out to be violent. There is no
safe container for this woman’s life. Her physical availability is weakened, and
she can appear spacey and unfocused.
In clairvoyant psychotherapy, the unbinding process of working with both
content and energetic anatomy begins to loosen the layer holding on to the old
energy until the core wounds are uncovered. In therapy we work with the
grounding pathway to release old energy, old stored and static pictures, and
charged memories. The deepest level of work encountered in this chakra can be
the release of all the energy that has been absorbed and stuck in the chakra that
does not even belong to this person—foreign imprints. She has simply
assimilated someone else’s problems and pain.
Many times what we call genetic diseases or conditions are really family
health expectations in the first chakra. For example, “In our family, people are
sick and don’t live that long” or “All the women in our family have a difficult
time with menopause.”
In first chakra work, we can explore what agenda, expectations, and
programming have been imprinted on the level of family health issues. We can
release this programming from a command into a free choice.
Once we have cleared the first chakra, we have a strong foundation. We
know we are wanted, loved, cared for, and we can safely ground to the planet. If
our family was unsafe, we can become our own parents, sending love to our
inner child. We can have childlike curiosity and explore new and unknown
territory with joy and delight. We can stay connected to the planet and to our
body and keep ourselves filled with energy and nurturance from the earth.
With a weakened first chakra, we lose energy, feel tired, easily manifest
family health issues, and often feel abandoned. Often, people with a weakened
first chakra feel apologetic for taking up space on the planet. Their energy is
almost invisible. They need to hold on to material objects, hoard things, and
become more rigid with beliefs in order to feel that they will not disappear.
There is a break in their connection to the earth, which leaves one fearful, feeling
there is no safe container—no mother.
As we go up the body, each chakra vibrates at a more refined level. An
inadequate first chakra leaves a person at a coarser vibration, a materialistic view
of the world.
A balanced, healthy first chakra enables a person to feel enthusiastic about
life, safe and cared for. This person’s energy does not need to focus on this
chakra; there is trust that it will work. So the energy is able to rise up to the other
chakras. This person is able to exist at a more refined level. Trust in life is the
foundation, so creativity can freely flow.
The first chakra begins to develop during the fetal stages. As the spirit
connects to its forming body, it becomes aware of two levels. First is the basic fit
of this body for the spirit’s goals in this incarnation. Are the emotional, health,
and intelligence levels for this body in harmony with this spirit’s intentions for
the lifetime? The other level is the state of being of the mother and the internal
environment she is creating for this fetus. Is she fearful of the pregnancy, of
motherhood? Is she in survival mode? Does she have the financial means or the
practical maturity to care for a child? These all affect the spiritual health of the
yet-to-be-born child.
As a psychic psychotherapist, I have seen people over the years who feel
lost in their body. They feel they do not belong on this planet. I have also seen
others who join the body and lifetime with enthusiasm.
Below are some examples of energies people have uncovered in deep
meditation. These are formative energies that have been stored in the first chakra
and shrouded in unconsciousness for years.

Client: “When I made the first contact with my physical body in

utero, it was so unconscious. It was a devastating awareness to me as
 a spirit—just to make contact with this unconsciousness. I fought it. I
fought it for months, and finally I succumbed. I felt retarded. This
feeling of dullness has been with me my whole life. I always felt
invisible. At the dinner table, people would talk for me if I started a
sentence. I thought no one could hear me. When I learned to drive, I
wondered if other cars could see me.”

Some of the wounding she stored in the first chakra is a direct reflection of
the mental, emotional, and physical space of the mother. This client’s mother had
just lost a brother in WWII. She was in grief and shock throughout the
pregnancy.
As a being, when we connect to our mother, we form a cord to her first
chakra in order to get the nourishment and information we need to grow a body
and stay alive. This concerns our very survival. The emotional, physical, and
psychic space of the mother is foundational to our feelings of safety and trust in
the world.
Jean’s story was of her mother, returning home after learning she was
pregnant, and her husband, the father of the unborn child, saying he wanted a
divorce. The trauma of this was so intense, her mother wandered the streets,
completely dissociated from her body. She was picked up and placed in a mental
institution where “Jean” was born.
Whatever love Jeans’ mother had for her was not in her mother’s body.
Jean, in turn, grew her first chakra on a foundation of feelings of abandonment,
lack of love, and no communication. The nine-month gestational period is
foundational to the integrity of a fetus’s first chakra. Consequently, Jean has
repeated similar situations throughout her life, continuing to create situations
where she feels abandoned.
Another client, a woman in her early thirties, came for sessions in a first
chakra “growth period.” That means that the first chakra was full of fear, and it
was hard for her to see anything outside of this fear. She was having panic
attacks interspersed with depression. On top of this was her fear that these
feelings would last indefinitely, and she would not be able to function. She had
experienced prolonged depressions in the past. When she had panic attacks, her
first chakra would open wide. Early, and unconscious experiences of
abandonment, loss, and neglect would flood in. There would be no grounding
and therefore no release. The wisdom of the upper chakras would become
inaccessible. Her fear would then take over and becomes her whole universe.
Where our attention goes, our energy follows. Her focus became locked on one
degree of possibility. The other three hundred and fifty-nine degrees were
blocked.
We worked on closing down the first chakra and saying hello to grounding,
earth energy, and nature. Nature is a supreme healer. We began looking at prior
abandonment pictures from a vantage point of the sixth chakra. As she accessed
the center of her head, her sixth chakra, a place of clear seeing and supreme
neutrality—she began to pull her attention off the single point of focus on fear.
Her world began to broaden, and her inner wisdom began to return. I had her say
“hello” to herself as spirit. A healing journey began. She was then able to ground
from the first chakra.
This wounded foundational energy, when left in the chakra as a strong
emotional charge, will recreate itself until the insights have been gleaned, the
wisdom extracted, the sense of victimhood released, and the emotional charge
cleared. When this happens, we get to save our own lives—no longer repeating
past patterns. We can come into present-time.
It is informative to note in present-time how much of your space and
patterns of behavior are the direct effect of the energy from in utero and early
childhood. Have you been able to manifest the brilliance that was you before the
negotiations with the body began? What beliefs and energy need to be cleared
for you to align with your own beliefs, your own path? These are the clairvoyant
issues we explore in the space of a light meditation/trance in psychic
psychotherapy.
First Chakra Meditation

This is a meditation to take inventory of your first chakra:

Take a few moments to sit quietly. Begin to ground—opening the release
channel. Open to heaven and earth, nature and your spiritual source. In this
alignment, just breathe. Let the energy flow in a gentle, continuous movement.
Once the energy is running, place your attention on the first chakra. Allow
it to speak; listen. Just listen and receive any considerations relating to feelings
of survival. All unresolved issues; let them speak. Just listen.
Everything will be revealed. Just move your thinking mind aside and allow
all the information you need to appear. Stay grounded. Everything will begin to
release.
Stay open.
Breathe.
 CHAPTER 2

Second Chakra

In psychic psychotherapy the second chakra becomes a primary focus for

exploration. The second chakra, like the first and third, is concerned with our
relationship to the physical world, our earthly connection. If energy gets stuck in
these chakras, we will repeat emotional and physical patterns. The second chakra
is called “Svadhisthana” in Sanskrit. It is the home of the self. Svadhisthana is
located just below the navel, in proximity to the kidneys, bladder, sacrum, legs—
our foundation.
It is the home of our emotions. Emotions flow through it like water. When
fluid, they continuously transform, build, peak, and release. When blocked, they
dam up and begin to accumulate layers of density, energy covering pain. Patterns
of wounding will amplify until we understand that we need to address them.
Emotions are the body’s language. Their expression is how the body
communicates with us—the spirit. If this communication is cut off, we become
alienated from ourselves. The world becomes a smaller container; we become
more literal, more materialistic.
Emotions are neither good nor bad; they just are what they are. In
indigenous cultures, the emotions can be seen as either dense or light, depending
on their content and nature. Heavy emotions can obscure the light within. In
theosophical tradition, blocked expression of emotion is seen as the core of
disease. Emotions are consciousness meeting the body; we feel them as
sensation.
In shamanic or indigenous cultures, the second chakra can be seen as
having the ability to munch energy, as in munching static emotions. It breaks
down the emotions that are difficult to manage—fear, rage. This energy then
begins to release through the grounding cord, which yields to the earth. The
earth then composts this energy and creates the seeds for new life.
Clairsentience is a psychic ability of the second chakra. It is the ability to
feel the emotions of others. You may walk into a room and know “people are
angry here” or “I am not safe here.” The ability itself is neutral; it is just
information. There is no command about what you do with the information.
As children, no matter how young we are, we can recognize unsafe energy
in our immediate surroundings, most likely in our family. If mommy is
depressed or angry, if daddy is violent, we may open the second chakra wide to
absorb this energy into ourselves. The dynamic belief is “If I can make them
happier, then I will be safe.” As an early pattern, this may have a survival benefit
for the child. If we continue absorbing pain as a habit into our adulthood, we
become holders of foreign pain and end up with a blocked second chakra. Under
these circumstances this chakra cannot process, metabolize, and release pain.
When we are older and realize we are no longer in an unsafe family, it is time to
change and update this dynamic. If this pattern is not brought into present-time,
updated, we will continue to create and attract unsafe energy. We have the ability
to stop holding on to this foreign pain by using the grounding cord. Then we can
arrange our life so we are safe. The second chakra is designed to give us the
information we need. After we process this information, we need to release it
and let go of it. If we are unable to do this, we may feel blocked. Since absorbed
pain and emotions are not our own feelings, there is really nothing we can do
with them but release them. If we hold on, these emotions get stuck in us, and
we start to feel things that seem “foreign” to us. We may feel “out of control.”
When we absorb the emotions of others, we can become dissociated and lose
touch with our ability to discern what we feel.
The words “out of control” are a clue that we are running someone else’s
energy in our body. We may be trying to fix or solve something that we are not
in charge of solving. We are not privy to the big picture of why someone is
unable or unwilling to face the particular challenges they face. We can help
them, but we cannot solve their problems in our own energy system.
We are sensual and sexual beings. These energies are deeply judged in our
culture. Morals and ethical systems become attached to these feelings. We learn
early on not to allow these energies to flow. Guilt and shame get generated here.
The second chakra is the beginning of duality—you and me, pleasure and pain.
We are sensual beings naturally moving toward pleasure and away from pain.

Ritual

Ritual involves the second chakra in creating shared, sacred space and rites of
passage. Ritual is the sacred ability to invoke spirit toward the end of making a
change. This is usually a collective rite. Ritual focus creates a clear intention.
Guides or angels are called to be present, and a process is set in motion. This
may involve leaving something behind—perhaps a relationship that has long
been over. It also may initiate a new creative expression that we wish to bring
into manifestation.
Ritual has focus. There is intention about what we want to accomplish. In
one gathering a woman brought cassette tapes for her ritual. She was tired of all
the old tapes running her. The rest of us were instructed to pull the ribbons out of
the tapes that were stuffed in all of her pockets until no tapes were left. Symbolic
and ritual actions hold great power in a sacred space.
In our class, we shared a circle to allow any emotion that had not been
expressed to be spoken. Once something is spoken or written, it is taken out of
the body. It no longer needs to be held as a tension. This is the power of
journaling. The power of expression to release impressions.
A creative impulse that is not followed through is simply a creative project
that is aborted. The second chakra is the place where things get cut. Where a
great idea strikes, an inspiration from the heavens comes in; God talks to you
directly: “Hey, when are you going to do that special project you contracted with
before you took the body?” And you get close and look at it, and it’s gorgeous
and just what you want to do in your heart. And then you get confused. Your
heart says, “Yes, yes, yes,” and your will says, “Yes.” It comes to the second
chakra, and it just somehow dies. “I don’t want to do all that work.” The part that
you would have to put out energetically comes to the second chakra, and this
creative project gets aborted.
In addition to aborted ideas, there are also abortions. I have worked with
women who have aborted their baby many years previously. They still hold the
energy of the abortion, the emotions, and the loss in the second chakra.
 One woman talked of lower back pain and heaviness in her abdominal
area. As we looked clairvoyantly into this energy, she reconnected with the
memory of an abortion she had in her teens, forty years ago. She felt as if the
energy of the being who would have had the body was still present. She was
fueling her body with past-time pain and guilt and holding the second chakra
hostage. This woman had lost the fluidity and movement of the chakra. We
worked to release the spirit of the baby being, freed it from being stuck, and sent
it on its way with love and blessings.

Addictions

The second chakra is also the home of addictive energies, programming, and
pain that run counter to one’s growth and life purpose. There are addictions that
we know of, such as drugs, alcohol, and coffee, and there are emotional and
energetic addictions as well. Addictions are attachments to anything that is
senior to our reasoning, wisdom, and growth. Anything to which you give up
your seniority. I work with a male client who is addicted to keeping his energy in
the second chakra. His pattern from when he was a boy was to absorb his
mother’s pain to try to create a safe environment for himself. This pattern has
lasted throughout his life. Now this unreleased pain becomes a filter for
perception. Every woman is seen through the lens of his mother. There is
absorption and no release—a pattern of addiction to absorbing pain. On this
pattern sits an addiction to alcohol and coffee, layers upon layers—truth
surrounded by absorbed pain surrounded by unconsciousness, surrounded and
held in place by alcohol and energized by coffee.
His task is to learn to release these second chakra pains and allow himself
to come up to and energize the upper chakras. This will give him access to the
abilities of clear seeing, speaking truth, and inner knowing. In the past when he
tried to release this energy, it threatened and enraged his mother. In his family
dynamic, he was not allowed to control his own energy. Now he is a grown man
and has the choice to be in present-time and to stop holding on to the pain of his
mother.
Responsibility

Responsibility is another energy that can clog the second chakra. There are many
levels of responsibility. Some are those that we are in agreement with and carry
out in our daily lives. Others are past-time agreements that persist but are no
longer relevant to our lives. They leave a lingering feeling of something you are
not doing—something you are supposed to be doing. They grow doubt and guilt.
The last category is something that is simply not yours to do; for example,
make mommy happy. The category covers both vague and spoken expectations.
Early imprints are very powerful and long lasting. A client whose father died
when he was three years old was then expected to be the “man of the house.”
This entailed taking care of the emotional well-being of the family, a
responsibility far beyond his young capabilities. That feeling of responsibility,
real or imagined, still rules his second chakra generations later.

A woman in her sixties

Julia was raised in a very abusive family. Guilt, shame, and punishment were the
primary parenting tools. Her self-image was of someone unworthy.
SUSAN: You are a teacher to many through your web classes. How many
people do you teach?
JULIA: Thousands and thousands.
S: How do you keep them coming back?
I am trying to see if there is any way she can validate her incredible
abilities as both a teacher and an organizer.
J: I use guilt. I expect people to be loyal.
S: So you use loyalty to enforce the guilt.
J: I feel guilty about living here when I have left all of my friends in my
hometown. How dare I leave my friends? How dare I be so disloyal?

Every decision Julia has made is laced with guilt. Guilt and shame are a
couple of difficult energies to deal with. There is no way for her to fix them
when they rest upon a deep-seated belief in her own unworthiness. There is
nothing to do about them but let them go. Females in particular are quite prone
to guilt. The second chakra vibrates very easily at the level of that emotion. Guilt
and shame are highly charged.
How many times have we heard the phrase “You should be ashamed of
yourself!” from our parents and teachers?
I worked with Julia to ground and begin to discern the difference between a
truth and a lie: the difference between someone else’s truth or manipulation and
the light of her very own energy, her own truth.
As she begins the process of exercising her own clairvoyance, this clarity
will grow.
The second chakra is easily adjustable. It can be opened wider like the lens
of a camera to feel more of our own or others’ emotions. If an environment is not
safe, it can be closed down to take in less information, to absorb less energy.
Simply by using the power of intention, we can adjust the chakra and be in
charge of the energy running in our bodies. When we close it partially, it is easier
to access some of the higher vibrations of the upper chakras.
Emotions are the link between body and being. They are the expression of
consciousness meeting the body. They are the language the body uses to
communicate with us—the spirit. In themselves, they are neutral. We experience
them as sensations. This is the expression of the second chakra.
Second Chakra Meditation

This meditation is to take inventory of your second chakra.

Begin to slow down and watch your breathing. Just pull your attention
inward. Say hello to your grounding, your ability to release any energy that has
been stimulated and is ready to clear. Begin connecting to heaven and earth, to
nature and the source of your information as spirit. Just breathe and allow energy
to flow continuously through your body.
Allow your attention to rest on your second chakra, just below your navel.
What do you notice? Are there suppressed emotions that are trying to speak?
What are the considerations you use to avoid or shut down this expression?
Are you ready to let go? What is the emotional tone that is trying to shine
through? When we allow an emotion to be experienced, it will peak in intensity
and then dissipate.
There is no command for action, just let the energy flow.
Allow information to be revealed. Can you see yourself without judging
what wants to speak? Just move your thinking mind aside.
Stay open and Blessed.
 CHAPTER 3

Third Chakra

In psychic psychotherapy I look clairvoyantly at the third chakra to see if my

client is at the helm of his or her own life force or if foreign control cords are
running this chakra. “Manipura” is the Sanskrit name for the third chakra; this
translates as lustrous gem. It is located at the solar plexus, the diaphragm area.
The second chakra may have the long-term, ingrained habit of matching
the energy of whatever is going on in the room and becoming this energy. On a
second chakra level, it is easy to take things personally. However, it is the third
chakra where we reclaim our will. When out of balance quite often the third
chakra is affected with symptom such as frequent stomach aches and nausea.
The essence of the third chakra is to provide the fire that burns through the
programming that blocks the expression of your will. It clears the energy and
allows you to assert your will, your energy, and your vitality. The age of the
development of the third chakra is about eighteen months to three years. This
encompasses the “terrible twos.” It is the time when we start to realize that when
we did something, there was a consequence. We knocked the glass off the table,
and mommy got mad—we did it. We start to make the connection that our
actions have some consequence in the world, and this can be fun to play with.
“Oh, look, I can knock the glass down and make mommy pick it up.” This is the
beginning of the ability to track our actions in the world—our will. “I want to do
that. I want to spill water. I want to walk across the room or run or scream. I
have a will. I want to set a chain of events in motion.”
The third chakra is about our energy, vitality, and will. It is the beginning
of self-awareness, autonomy, ego, and the beginning of “I”—”I did something
and it had this effect. How exciting this is! How incredible!” It is the beginning
of creativity. “I know I can do something. I can create an event. I can make
something happen.”
The ability of will is a mixed bag. On the one hand, it’s really great. On the
other hand, it’s what gets you in trouble and gets you whacked: “You willful
child.” In this sense “willful” becomes a negative word. Really, willful is a great
word. As we become aware of our will, we begin to activate our personal power.
We can become cause. “I can cause something to happen. I have choice, and I
have power.”
This is where parenting becomes challenging. How can a parent manage
the delicate balance of running a safe and functional household and at the same
time help a child develop his own will? How to validate a child for being the
cause of events, an intentional creator?
This is where control issues get activated. The child takes great delight in
spilling something and making mom pick it up. The mother has the choice to
control the child—to punish or invalidate him every time the child expresses his
will—or she can find a creative way to encourage the child to express himself.
On an energetic level, we use cords of energy to control someone else.
Parents may use energetic cords to invade the child’s third chakra. Cords can
simply be a communication, or they can be highly charged with love, emotion,
agenda, or punishment. These cords can become highly invasive. They can begin
the process of blocking the child from access to his own third chakra.
In clairvoyant psychotherapy, I look at third chakra cords to find their
origin and the beliefs that are holding them in place. Many times, these third
chakra cords manifest as digestive disturbances—stomach aches.
The third chakra is a major fuel center for the body. The energy of the
universe flows into the chakra, which is the organ of the spiritual body. As the
chakra spins and is free to metabolize this energy, it sends energy into the cells
and the organs; energy then flows into the aura. When this flow of energy is
blocked, a person may experience fatigue, an inability to digest food and to
mobilize, energy. This will also impair their ability to mobilize a sense of
purpose and will, a place of cause in the universe, expression, creativity, and
personal power. Controlling another is the misuse of the third chakra power. Our
personal power is designed to align us to our path and life purpose. Each of us is
designed to have a will, a source of energy, and personal power and to be cause
in our universe, our own life.
One client talked about her mother:

“My family was very restrictive. I wasn’t allowed to play like other
kids. When my mother caught me interested in something, she would
take it away and tell me I was a great disappointment to her. She
wished she’d never had me. The effect on me was that I have great
social anxiety—fear of expressing myself.”
 One Big No

You tell me you have always awakened

with a terrible sense of dread
as if a huge big bad God would punish you
or a heavy malaise would descend
making your body too heavy to move
this daily dampening energy
filled with childhood dire warnings

Trying to breathe with NO air,

the air blocked
by a big NO
Mother always said “NO.”
She was one big NO!

From these dark beginnings

you step into the world
armed with a newfound courage, the courage
to be a truth speaker,
to say,
“I AM AFRAID.
I AM NAUSEATED WITH FEAR.
I AM AFRAID OF YOU
AND YOU
AND YOU!”
— from Unwinding the Soul,
by Susan Feinbloom
 Our third chakra is also one of the centers through which we leave the
body—go out and dream. Here we connect to greater abilities than we access in
the physical body. In dreams thoughts are instantaneously manifest. We travel
instantly, even through time. We connect with greater abilities that are attributes
of our spiritual nature. We expand our consciousness, access levels of our
creativity, and, to the extent that we develop communication between the astral
and physical reality, we bring new awareness into the body.
The third chakra is also one of the places we store “core criticisms.” We
enter the time in our lives when we begin to act on our will, and when someone
blasts it, this imprint becomes a core self-image belief. This is a delicate age, a
time when we are finding out about both ourselves and the world. We begin to
store the original pictures that are fed to us and become the basis for our
emotional responses. These criticisms get lodged here, become the foundation of
an impaired self-image, and form the groundwork of our emotional reactivity in
the world. These pictures may be a match to the self-image of a parent—a belief
that only so much expression is allowed. Frequently, the “cap,” or limit on a
parent’s freedom of creative expression, is matched by the child.
One client talked about her relationship of some years. Her partner had
very specific ideas about the world. His was a unique, privileged, and structured
life and existed in a framework with many detailed rules. She had been
accommodating these rules and progressively giving up seniority to him, to the
point where it was difficult for her to make any decisions on her own. Doubt, as
an energy, a fuel, had spread to every area of her life: what to eat, where to eat,
where to live, where to work. This had reached the point where she had
disconnected from her inner knowing to such an extent that she couldn’t lead her
own life. Her life had become crippling.
As I looked at her through a clairvoyant lens, I saw that her third chakra,
her power center, was gray, and her energy field was collapsed. Our work was
set out for us—the reclaiming of her third chakra—following the timeline back
to the origins of her programmed imprints to give up her power. These had a
strong relationship to the same energy in her mother. To clear this gray, we
needed to go to the roots that preceded her current relationship.
The third chakra is our will—our personal bill of rights in the world. This
involves the internal permission, conscious or unconscious, to express who we
are.
Third Chakra Session Excerpts

Here are excerpts from a session with Lisa, a woman in her forties.
She is working on reclaiming her third chakra personal power. Her
third chakra is static and gray. Her question and focus for this session
is:

LISA: Trying to see if I can get some understanding of things that were
mostly traumatic between the months of August and September. Major upsets
have happened through the years at that time.
SUSAN: Each emotion that we hold back and suppress becomes static in
our energy field. It holds a certain amount of our energy captive. The repressed
emotions and energy tend to attract similar experiences in our lives until they are
released. As that energy is releasing, we may experience memories and emotions
that were stored in the static. This may be energizing, exhausting, and
transformative all at once.
Sometimes we vacate; that is, we pull energy out of an area because
there is pain. When we begin to reoccupy the area energetically, we may feel
the pain as it returns to movement. Life force will return, and the energy
held captive will begin to release.
S: Would you imagine a time line that starts at the beginning of August and
goes through August and through September? Just an imaginary line beginning
August first and ending September thirtieth. Tell me when you have an image of
that line. Would you take a rose and put it at August first? And would you slowly
walk the rose through those dates? I want you to stop the first time you see the
rose change, and tell me where you are—the date. What just happened there?
L: It immediately just went to August tenth.
S: That’s great. You are getting the information energetically rather than
thinking about it. Your whole energy field just changed as you got that
information. So walk there and watch the rose and see what happens.
[L walks along the time line to August tenth.]
S: As you walk to August tenth your aura looks darker. There was a force
that came over you; a gray, translucent energy started to enshroud you. Let’s
look at this.
L: It’s almost like a joke. That’s the part I was trying to pay attention to.
There was a pun on the rose that I was deflowered, but it was sarcastic. I wasn’t
sure.
 It is not my place to jump to conclusions here.
S: Ask the rose, “What does it mean that you were deflowered?” Would
you send this timeline back through the years and see what year you are looking
at? Send it all the way back to birth and see how old you are. What is
happening?
The rose in this example is a mental image that is our very own
creation. Since it is our own creation, it will manifest the intention we
establish for it. If we ask the rose to shed light on a particular level of
information or an event at a different time, it will. It is only our non-belief,
which is a more deeply imprinted pattern, or our fear of the information,
that will block the rose.
L: Two years old.
S: Okay, stay with two. Take a look at two. You can look from here, or you
can walk on the timeline back to two. If you choose to go there, take your
present-time wisdom and information with you.
L: I have a sense of being physically restrained—a level of being
physically restrained but shifting around. My hands were getting tight, a lot of
tightness.
S: Would you tune into that tightness? Would you be it, perhaps exaggerate
it a little bit?
L: I can’t quite get what my position is or where I am. Just like somebody
is really angry. Just anger.
S: What is the effect on you of the anger?
L: Growing up…emotions…overwhelming anger…hard to express…years
of processing…I don’t know. Someone’s palms on me, like this, on my hips.
S: Breathe into your hips for a moment. Is there anything in your adult
voice that you want to say to these palms on your hips at age two?
L: Get off me; I don’t deserve this.
S: Go ahead and tell those palms to get off you.
L: I’m getting angry; can you tell?
S: Can you let it out?
She is exercising her third chakra right to have a will and express it.
Now that she has gone to age two with all of her present-time wisdom, she is
retroactively expressing what never got expressed in the past—what she
couldn’t express in the past. L is changing the past and walking back to
present-time as a changed person. This is the transformation from
victimhood into power. Now she can begin to discover her true emotional
responses in the world and release reactivity as the primary emotional
pattrn.
 L: He was just angry with me. I don’t know if I was a kid in diapers. It
seems that he was either pissed at me for going or not going—for having a
bowel movement or trying to make me have one. Pushing on my hips and almost
shaking me, just being angry. It’s just so weird; the anger is directed here
[pointing to her hips]. It’s confusing.
S: What’s the confusion?
L: Why? Why be angry with me?
S: Look at him and ask him that question.
L: He responds, “Because you don’t do what I want you to do.”
It is not uncommon for parenting to be interpreted as running the
parent’s will through the child—controlling and overpowering.
S: What I see as you tune into his anger is a high level of frustration in
him, most of which has nothing to do with you. It is probably expressed on you
simply because you are there, and he is bigger than you. He looks like he is
channeling some of the anger from his family of origin.
When we look at charged emotions, abuse events, and patterns that
have happened to us that we did not have the information, the wisdom, life
experience, and knowledge to handle at the time, it is important to be
grounded. This enables us to release the charge on the memory and allow
the pain to come out of our cells, out of our body. When the memory is
disentangled from the body, it becomes a neutral memory. Once this
happens, the event loses its ability to damage our health and form the basis
of our emotional reactivity.
S: What are you aware of now?
L: Take those hands off!
S: Go ahead and take them off.
L: Feels like they want to glob back on.
S: Use your imagination to create a safe space. If they grab back on, you
can use slippery soap or anything that will not allow them to take hold. You can
give yourself four hundred arms to push them away. Use any picture you like.
[Pause.]
S: Well your aura has a big sign on it: “Don’t mess with me!” And I
believe it. I for one will not mess with you.
L: Laughs
S: Power is a very great thing. We have the power over our own universe.
Power is a very misused word. We think it means something over someone else,
power to make others do our bidding. Power is really to know ourselves, to
know our own energy, to know our source, and to create intentionally. That is the
power of the third chakra.
 L is using her personal power—the ability of the third chakra at the
solar plexus—to rid herself of energy that has controlled her and blocked
her knowing of herself.
S: Let that power run in the cosmic and earth energy channels. [Pause.]
Say “hello” to yourself, and take a look at a rose representing you now. See how
it looks.
L: My energy is flowing.
Many times when we have been abused by someone controlling us,
using his power over us, we take it to mean that power is dangerous and we
shy away from using our own power. Controlling or abusing another is the
misuse of power, the pathology of the third chakra. Our own personal
power is a glorious thing. It aligns us to our own path, to our uniqueness. It
is the ownership of our lives.
Third Chakra Meditation

We will begin to take inventory of the third chakra.

Just relax into your chair. Breathe. Pay attention to your breath. Allow
yourself to slow down and come into present-time. Relax. Quiet your thinking
mind.
Begin to ground; release all that you are ready to shed. Let it go. Allow the
earth energy to come up into your feet and run through the body, nourishing you,
connecting you to nature. Let the cosmic energy begin to flow into your crown,
connecting you to the source of your information as spirit—connecting you to
heaven and earth.
Now begin to place your awareness on the third chakra at the solar plexus.
Allow it to speak. Listen.
Do you run enough energy in your body? Are you actively expressing your
will in this lifetime? What are the beliefs that stop you from full expression of
your life’s purpose, your heart’s desire?
Just be still and listen.
Breathe.
 CHAPTER 4

Fourth Chakra

“Anahata” is the Sanskrit name for the fourth chakra. Anahata means
“unbound.” Emerald green is the color associated with it. In this chakra we
reconcile the apparent contradictions between the lower and the upper chakras,
between body and spirit. We are automatically gifted access to the lower chakras
—to survival, emotions, and will. In the lower three chakras, the world is still a
self-centered place, a material place, a place of literal reality.
The fourth chakra is the bridge to a more transcendent reality. To a higher,
more compassionate love. Here in the fourth chakra, we begin to transcend our
sole focus on survival as a physical being and enter into a larger reality. We
begin to see ourselves as a spirit among others and existing as part of the
universe. We validate our own existence and enter the field of the love that is the
universe, ever-present, unconditional love. When we tune into this vibration we
release our feelings of isolation. Here we transcend drawing our life information
from what other people tell us to do, think, or believe. We separate from other
people’s opinions, ethics, and concept of reality and begin to validate our own
existence and perceptions. We realize the lie in believing that someone else’s
expectations are a command for us. Now we begin to connect to the Divine.
The fourth chakra, or heart chakra, is the axis of the chakra system. It is not
the same as the physical heart. Rather, it is centered along our spine at the level
of the heart. The fourth chakra is where the deeper work begins. It is the bridge
to knowing who you truly are. The first three chakras are easily accessible. They
are our gifts for incarnating in a body. Inhabiting the abilities of the fourth
chakra requires developing oneself, practicing meditation, going inward, and
making a commitment to truth.
In our culture we are taught more about loyalty than love. “If you love me,
I will love you back. If you solve my loneliness, I will love you back.” We are
taught about conditional love. In the fourth chakra, we enter the realm of the
transpersonal and unconditional love. We relate to a vibration of love in the
universe—love that is ever present.
This chakra is the home of self-love; our ability to love ourselves. It forms
a basis for our self-image. With that as a foundation, we develop our ability to
love someone else. We tap into a higher vibration of love, a vibration of
unconditional love—not dependent on another person’s giving to you or loving
you back. Not dependent upon any agenda at all. Here we release expectations
and agendas, and we vibrate at a pure vibration of unconditional love. This is the
stuff that feeds our cells, feeds our energy fields. It is a fuel for the physical
body. It is also fuel for the spiritual body, for the etheric, astral, emotional, and
mental bodies. By tuning into this vibration, we are resonating at unconditional
love. As we do this, we begin to release isolation, alienation—all the places
where there is energy that has kept us from loving, from forming and sustaining
relationships, and from knowing the support that is available in the universe.
Second chakra love is dependent upon a response from someone else. “I
love you. I need your presence. I need your feedback. I need you in my bed.”
Fourth chakra love is a vibration of love in the universe. It is
unconditional. It is not dependent upon someone else loving us back. If
somebody else is in a bad mood, we don’t stop loving that person because of
their bad mood. We don’t turn off. Instead, we open to compassion. As we get
into the higher chakras, we don’t take what someone else is going through
personally. Your bad day is not a command for me to go into a panic or wonder,
“What did I do wrong?”
The second chakra also has love as an ability, but this is a different kind of
love. The second chakra’s love is more of a vibration of sympathy. If you are
hurting, I interpret that as a command: “I have to match your pain or absorb your
pain or heal your pain.” The fourth chakra is compassion. “I can see your pain,
and I don’t have to match it or fix it. I can simply hold space for you, hold a
vibration of love. Your mood is not personal to me or a command for me.”
Here, in the fourth chakra, we experience empathy rather than sympathy.
Sympathy is where we commiserate with other people’s problems, where we
match the pain energetically. This usually happens when we love primarily from
the second chakra. Empathy is where we begin to find a new vibration, a new
perception, a new insight, a new relationship, and a new way of relating to the
issues and challenges of others.
Coming out of “it’s personal” into pure vibration, the vibration of
compassion, is really a matter of seeing someone in their own context without
judgment—simply witnessing someone and holding the vibration of love.
Compassion is an essential quality of the fourth chakra. In this we can see
one another as children of God. In this context no one is more special than
anyone else. There is no making of comparisons; instead there is an inner
knowing that our paths are unique.
The first three chakras vibrate on a horizontal axis. They can be pulled by
circumstances in daily life, relationships, stresses, demands of others,
expectations.
The fourth chakra begins a deeper knowing of who you are and how you
are connected to the universe, to guidance, to God. This is a transpersonal space
—a higher vibration. It is the beginning of looking for answers within, becoming
less programmable by others, opening to an expansive cosmic consciousness, to
infinity, deeper levels of truth and universal levels of truth.
Now we begin to access the vertical flow of heaven to earth, information
coming in through the crown, connecting us to heaven and earth and releasing
what is past-time. The horizontal axis of the first three chakras is now informed
by a higher level of guidance and information.
The fourth chakra is the bridge between the body-oriented chakras and the
upper chakras. Answers come from guidance; we no longer need someone else’s
approval to be true to ourselves. Our validation comes from within, from
guidance and a newfound level of certainty. This opens the space for self-love.
We begin to love and trust ourselves and the universe. We begin to know we are
part of something; we are no longer isolated. We begin to know our spiritual
nature and to explore the world from a place inside that takes us to the cosmos
and to infinity. Here we love without needing anyone’s approval, or even another
person as the specific object of our love.
Our self-image is no longer dependent upon comparison to anyone else. “I
can love me even if I am a ‘C’ student or clumsy at dance. My path is my own.
How I choose to focus my life and talents is my very own choice. Other people’s
judgments begin to have no credence for me. I am not belittled by them. I no
longer need to organize my life according to what anyone else thinks of me or
wants from me.”
Self-love lends the permission for us to grow, evolve, heal, and face
challenges. When we cannot access the deeper abilities of the fourth chakra, we
lose our boundaries. We become focused on others rather than our own path; we
begin living through others. There may be depression, loneliness, resentments, or
isolation—a hollow feeling.
True love of another rests on the foundation of self-love. If that foundation
is absent, then love rings hollow. Love is a pure vibration. It is a force in the
universe. It is peace and compassion—a connection to all that is. This level of
love is not dependent on anything or anyone.
Often our self-love is viewed as dependent upon achievement. “If I lose ten
pounds, I can love myself; otherwise, I have to feed myself a hearty dose of self-
loathing. If I get an ‘A’ in this class or that, I can love myself.” Our culture is
very doing oriented, achievement oriented, lacking in a “being” orientation.

Forgiveness

Another important function of the fourth chakra is forgiveness. As we tune into

the fourth chakra, we become aware of all the cords [lines of energy connection]
we have going out to people we have not forgiven for little things, for big things,
for things we’ve taken personally that weren’t even meant personally, and for
what we experience as major betrayals. As we tune in deeply to this chakra, we
can become aware of the price we have been paying for holding these grudges,
for holding anger. Our energy leaks continuously from us into the recipient of
this anger in direct proportion to how charged the source of the anger is. We lose
energy and feed toxic anger into someone and through this cord of energy—in
turn, we receive toxic energy. The energy price is high.
Once while teaching a class, I had the participants look at a symbol to
represent their fourth chakra. The following is the experience of a woman who
was raised with an abusive mother:

C: This is a very interesting process. It took me back—I saw a

therapist once in my thirties who said to me, “You are very good at
intellectualizing your issues and describing what the problems are.
But it’s like your heart is a concrete vault.” She said I couldn’t seem
to access it. The symbol I saw was a dandelion. It had a green, thick
 stem, and then it had little, tiny, yellow petals and a really big, black
middle. The overall feeling I was getting was numbness, like I was
this intellectual being with a very deep well of pain.

The dandelion was like a weed. It had no smell or roots, and it was dried
up. The strong stem was to ensure that it could support the strength of the flower,
and the wide blackness was because nothing could grow—no self-love could
grow.
I found the symbol of the dandelion very interesting. Dandelion is a weed,
an herb that is used to strengthen the liver. The liver is the organ in our body that
is most closely related to anger when it is out of balance. The black center is
where we hide inaccessible energies—like a black hole that has absorbed a lot of
energy, a lot of invasive negativity and punishment.
The other thing about dandelions that all children know is that once the
yellow petals dry up, you get fluffy gray seeds. You can blow these to the winds
and make wishes. All the seeds go out to the universe with our breath to make
these wishes come true.
In clearing and opening this chakra, we come in touch with a profound
ability to forgive.
We have the choice to begin to forgive people whom we feel have betrayed
us. We can begin to release blame, anger, and self-righteousness and forgive
people their trespasses. As we open this blessed energy of forgiveness, we can
begin to forgive even ourselves. We may have been making ourselves toxic and
unhappy just to make sure someone else felt bad. We can begin to release the
anger and forgive ourselves for fueling our own life with anger. We can begin to
forgive ourselves for those ways in which we have trespassed, for the judgments,
the comparisons and criticisms we have sent energetically.
Here we can recognize the pain within ourselves that we have accumulated
from other people’s judgments. Knowing how this hurts, we can make a decision
to discontinue sending this pain into the world—to stop judging and putting
others down, to learn compassion—seeing someone in their own context, letting
go of self-righteousness and comparison and even the need to be right.
When the fourth chakra connects with the sixth chakra, we hold
compassion in a space of neutrality. We can disentangle from events, judgments,
and cords, opening ourselves to a flow in the universe—a vibration called Love.
The universal truth is that what we put forth is exactly the same as what we
receive. The world is a mirror in that way. The energy we use to create
something is energetically the same as the creation we get—it is not different.
This is a very powerful truth. It validates us as the creators of our universe rather
than the victims.
It is in our energetic interest to find the bigger picture of compassion. To
see the context in which this person did this or that; whatever they did. To shine
the golden light, the light of forgiveness, the pure vibration of forgiveness to
clear the cords of negativity that we have been sending: to stop feeding ourselves
this toxicity and stop feeding it into the world.
We can come completely out of a match with someone who intended to
hurt us or someone who we assumed was intending to hurt us. Now we step into
this vertical axis—heaven and earth. We become continuously informed by a
higher truth. This is the essence of the fourth chakra: compassion, unconditional
love, self-love, coming out of comparison and forgiveness. This vibration is a
fuel for your body, for all your cells and your health. We can experience this
vibration as we tune in more deeply to the fourth chakra.
Anger, non-forgiveness held in the body, is a toxic fuel that you feed to
yourself as well as the person who is the object of that anger. We always have a
choice as to what fuel we use to run our body. The energy we feed ourselves is
as potent as the food we eat. A seaweed salad with organic brown rice and
organic parsley served on a bed of impatience and anger will not nourish the
body.
In clairvoyant psychotherapy we acknowledge the energetic choices we
make. We take a look at how we expend our energy and bring that energy into
alignment with our present-time wisdom. We ask, “What are we feeding
ourselves? Are restrictions being put on whom we are allowed to love? Who is
making those decisions?”

Clairvoyant Psychotherapy with Couples

One of the things I clairvoyantly track with couples is how generous they are
with their love. Is the energy more focused on withholding from one another or
on giving, sharing?
Once I worked with a couple where there had been violence in the past.
There remained a serious breach of trust. In the deeper space of meditation, I
could see that within the male partner there was a vacancy of information about
emotions. The second and fourth chakras vibrated as a diffused gray color. The
third chakra was not occupied by him, it left a vacancy for energy to channel
through him. The most familiar energy from this person’s past was military—
strict and rigid energy—only one way to be. This was the energy that came
through.
The woman felt that she had to tolerate this and was afraid that any
confrontation would be dangerous. She was working on finding her own
permission to love herself and recognize her own truth.
I worked with this couple to begin to ground and release: to begin to say
hello to themselves and each other as spirit, to begin to share what was most
important about their wishes and their boundaries, and to recognize their own
unique paths. We worked with meditation to gain deeper access into the chakras.
We looked clairvoyantly at how much energy they used to withhold love from
each other, and the internal effect this had upon each of them. They each have a
choice: Is there enough safety to live with generosity of heart, or do they choose
to withhold love? There is no judgment here, just a conscious choice.
It is a commitment for anyone to reclaim their energetic anatomy and
access their spiritual abilities, to fill themselves with their own light and become
the driving force of their own lives. The task is to learn to balance this spiritual
autonomy with heartfelt generosity. This is an example of the kind of issues that
arise in awakening the fourth chakra, in opening the ability to freely love.
This is the work of the fourth chakra—where we come out of loneliness
and isolation and step into our interconnectedness with the universe, Divine
union, and love. The fourth chakra is the bridge—body and being, body and
spirit—in harmony and love.
Fourth Chakra Meditation

This is a meditation to take inventory of the fourth chakra:

For a moment, close your eyes and breathe. Begin to release into the
grounding cord. Release; just let go. Now align your energy along the vertical
axis—heaven and earth—just be here in present-time. Breathe and breathe.
Allow yourself to just be.
Place your attention on the fourth chakra, the heart center. What’s here?
Tension, constriction, expansiveness? Just take inventory. Notice the judgments
that pop into your mind and let them go. Is there anyone you have not forgiven?
Notice the internal effect of this non-forgiveness. Become aware of the pure
vibration of unconditional love. A pure vibration not connected to anyone in
particular.
Notice the physical sensations, emotions, and awareness. Just listen and let
this chakra speak. Just listen and be still. All thinking aside, listen and be still.
Breathe.
 CHAPTER 5

Fifth Chakra

Dress Rehearsal

I remember the years of silence

terrified to speak
What do people say?
I listened
She speaks
I listen with anticipation
wondering how much rehearsal
forethought preceded these ready words?
She said
“I always lose the container tops,
the ones that fit the bottoms”
The words rolled off her tongue
hiding any trace of dress rehearsal
 as if bypassing her mind
never having taken refuge there
I could have thought of that
that is an ordinary thought
I didn’t know you could say things like that
Maybe I’ll muster some courage to say that
on another occasion to someone else
I thought all words had to be PROFOUND
And then you had to answer questions about them
and confess to ignorance beyond human acceptability
exposing shame so deep the angels would weep
and God would recall you from this incarnation,
pitying the angst of this defective one
But she said about the lids to the Tupperware
“I always lose the lids, the container tops
the ones that fit the bottoms.”
I didn’t know you could do that
She has thoughts that can roll
effortlessly, flawlessly
from her mouth
I have none of these
Mine come from watching
repeating at an opportune moment
something I have heard
mimicking
I am studying how people do this
And soon
I will begin
Dress
rehearsals

— from Unwinding the Soul,

by Susan Feinbloom
The foundation of the fifth chakra and all the upper chakras is Truth. In the fifth
chakra, truth finds its expression. Looking clairvoyantly, this chakra reveals
layers of hiding, secrets, lies, as well as vibrant truth. We can discover if this
person is the author of his own life, revealing truth on the deepest and most
personal level, or if what he speaks is programmed by beliefs from other
sources. Does creativity flow from truth as an expression of his will into the
world? Does this person hear his own inner voice and hear guidance? Is this
individual’s communication aimed at himself and others as spirit or just the
material form? Our thoughts, words, and actions create a vibration in the world.
Is the vibration we are putting out in harmony with who we are? These are the
core explorations of the fifth chakra.
Before you embark on reading about the fifth chakra, begin by closing
your eyes. Allow your grounding to work, your pathway to release energy.
Whatever insights you glean or wounding you encounter, if your energy is in
motion—releasing and connecting to heaven and earth—it will be a healing for
you.
The fifth chakra is “Vishudda,” throat/soul. Vishudda means purity, light,
and the color is a pale blue. Here we tune into self-expression—expression in the
world, our inner voice, our outer voice. Our ongoing challenge: Do we have the
courage to speak our truth?
The foundation of this chakra and all of the upper chakras is truth. As we
align our life to truth, we begin to let go of other people’s commands, agendas,
expectations, and comparisons. Many of these vibrate as a lie in our space in that
they divert us from our own path. As we let go of these, we begin to tune in
more deeply to ourselves.
Here we experience a newfound discernment most easily accessed by
going inward—meditating. We tune deeply to an internal reference point,
connected to our inner wisdom and guidance.
In the fifth chakra, we are the authors of our lives. Each of us writes the
script for our life. We speak it, announce who we are. We represent ourselves,
our uniqueness.
In the lower chakras, because of their affinity with the body and its
processes, we tend to absorb energy. It becomes difficult to know if we are
becoming and growing ourselves or if we are becoming and growing what
someone else wants us to be. As we gain access to the upper chakras, we find
ourselves more in harmony with who we truly are as an individual and as spirit.
Truth and Lies

Truth is a foundation of the fifth chakra and all the upper chakras. Our first three
chakras open and close automatically. The upper chakras take some work, some
practice. The more attention we put there, the more acknowledgment and
validation, the greater access we have to the abilities of the fifth chakra. Where
our attention goes, our energy flows. Truth is the doorway. Our truth heals old
lies and returns our energy to present-time. Being able to communicate through
the upper chakras is a prerequisite for our spirit-to-spirit communication.
In the course of our lives, we may have done something hurtful to
someone, whether intentionally or not. If so, we may be able to recognize the
result, the invalidation or insult we have caused. With this knowledge we will
have the opportunity to change the harmful effect we have had and make it right.
By acknowledging to that person what we have done, and the intentionality
behind it, we can clear the lie that has happened between us. Perhaps we felt that
acknowledging someone’s talent made them bigger or more worthy while
making us smaller or less worthy by comparison. Beliefs of this sort stem from a
poor and painful self-image. When we act this way we reinforce our
unworthiness. We always have the opportunity to become generous by
transforming a lie or an insult and replacing it with the truth.
Lies do not make sense in the energy field. The body reacts to a lie by
plugging up the energy system. Perhaps the third chakra stops spinning. We have
a “gut” reaction to the lie; something in us tightens. It’s like seeing a picture that
doesn’t make sense—a crazy image of a dog with a horse on its back. It is hard
to let go of a lie because it binds up so much energy. The lie doesn’t make sense,
so it persists because something in us is trying to make it right. If the picture is
of the dog with the horse on its back, to make it right, I have to take the horse
and put it on the ground and hold it there with my energy. If I let go, it will
return to the lie—to the back of the dog. I must invest a certain amount of my
energy to fool myself into making the lie right. That investment in maintaining
the lie will cost me.
In order to clear a lie, I have to stop trying to fix it. I need to identify the
lie, destroy the image, and replace it with the truth. After I destroy the lie, I can
reclaim any energy I used to maintain it or fix it. Now that energy will become
available for creativity. Creativity is a dynamic process; it becomes most
accessible when we develop the ability to destroy lies or out-of-date energies.
Truth heals lies. With truth we become a clear sending and receiving
vehicle. We retrieve old, stuck energy and bring it into present-time, making it
available for new creations.

Creativity

When the upper chakras are open and accessible, we bring the cosmic energy
down the back channels and then up the front channels through the chakras. In
this way we are able to fully manifest our creativity. In the throat area, the fifth
chakra, we spread the energy to go down our arms and out our hands. This is the
pathway of the fifth chakra for manifesting creativity and spreading our healing
light into the world—shining our light.
Our creativity is the expression of our will into the world. We have the will
of the third chakra and the expression of will of the fifth chakra. This is a more
transpersonal expression of our will. Here we connect to guidance, to the Divine
will.
One time I was working with a professional woman who owned and
managed two businesses. Her energy field was tense, and she held her energy in
front of her body, pushing ahead to get things done. All of her creativity was
fighting the universe, pushing ahead of her body in order to achieve her goals. In
so doing she separated her energy from her body. She looked so isolated. In our
session I had her ground and connect to heaven and earth. She started
recollecting her energy, which began to vibrate around her physical body. Her
body began to relax and come out of the fight. She began to be able to draw on
the creativity of the universe, the energy that is available to all of us if we are
able to access it. The difference was remarkable. She went from isolation and
fighting to effortless alignment with the universe. Without any exertion, her
spiritual creativity came into harmony with Divine will. Using the body to create
takes effort. Spiritual creativity is effortless.

Sounds and the Fifth Chakra

The fifth chakra relates to sounds and expressions. Every emotion has a sound, a
tone. Suppressed emotions have an effect upon our health. Every cell has a
sound and a frequency. It sets a harmony and a resonance with every other cell
and every organ group. Each organ has its own sound. When we suppress
emotions, we dampen the sound and frequency that wants to be expressed. In
time, we cause damage to the cells, tissues, and organs through the disharmony.
We disrupt their internal communication.
Everything we say, even everything we think, sends a vibration into the
universe. All of these vibrations, our personal ones, our collective ones, create a
resonance in the universe. Collective hate and anger set a certain tone and love
sets a much different one. All creatures in the universe respond to sound. Plants
and animals respond differently to Bach and Beethoven than they do to heavy
metal music. Much research has been done linking certain tones to the healing of
specific organs in the body.
Many of the words used to describe our relationship to ourselves and
others are musical words—sound words. Are we in harmony with the universe?
“I resonate with that person. I am on the same wavelength. Their relationship
was full of discord. I tuned into her. I could feel us tuning into one another.” So
many words derived from music illustrate the fifth chakra.
Sound, frequency, vibration, rhythm, harmony, resonance—entrainment—
where we align ourselves to a harmonic with the planet, a harmonic with the
universe, and a harmonic with the cosmos.
Toning sounds and mantras have been used throughout time as profound
aids in healing. Appropriate sounds bring the chakras, the organs, and the cells
into a harmonic with each other so they function more optimally.
Sounds are used as mantras to contact the Gods and access higher states of
consciousness.
Om—the Mantra of Ganesh
Om Mani Padme Om
On a clairvoyant level, when these sounds are made, the Gods appear.
They come right through the dimensions when we beckon them with their sound
—their fingerprint in the universe. They respond.

Telepathy
Telepathy is the ability to have a spirit-to-spirit communication. We can begin to
say “hello” to one another, spirit to spirit. We can aim our communication to the
spirit inhabiting the body. Here we access a deeper level of communication.
Many people have experienced telepathy when they know who the caller is when
the telephone rings. A telepathic communication has already been initiated as the
caller thought of you and dialed your number. These are spiritual abilities of the
fifth chakra, spirit-to-spirit communication. No intermediary is needed—a clear
pathway has been established; we are hearing spirit. In taking a spiritual
inventory, we can look at the frequency of our words and communication in the
universe.
Do you tune into telepathic guidance from guides and angels, even those
spirits who have a body?
Sometimes we hear guidance and don’t even know it because it sounds so
close to our own thoughts. As we grow in our self-knowledge by vibrating in
truth in the world, our discernment increases. We become clear receivers of
guidance.
In the book Mutant Message Down Under, by Marlo Morgan, an
acupuncturist from the United States goes to Australia. She finds herself on an
unexpected walkabout with a group of Australian Aborigines. At one point in
their journey, everyone is silent, and then she says something. The others
respond, “Shhh, don’t interrupt us.” She is boggled by that response. “What do
you mean?” she asks. She learns that they were all in telepathic communication.
Clear telepathy hinges on truth. Her companions tell her, “In essence, your
culture is clouded by so many lies—little lies, big lies, all kinds of lies. People
become blinded by self-interest and greed. In that circumstance it is hard for
your people to have telepathic communication. Receiving and sending channels
must be cleared of lies and confusion in order to function well.”
Our thoughts, words, and deeds have a resonant frequency in the universe.
This is an emanation of our fifth chakra. Honesty unhooks prior lies. It is a deep
healing. It has the power to transform a lie that became a static, even years after
the original lie was created. This brings the lie into present-time, returning it to
movement.
The negative expressions or energies that block the fifth chakra are fear
and lies: the fear of speaking out and representing who we are in the world. The
lies we use to betray ourselves and others. The secrets and emotions we
suppress. All of these energies tend to grow themselves and become entangled,
forming a web that is progressively more difficult to penetrate. They take us
further and further from knowing who we are. It takes great courage and faith to
break through this web of entanglement.
Woman in her thirties

Memories Writing Themselves

She has memories you know

Just because she was young
Don’t think she didn’t notice
Your sweetness turned to violence
Her bloody body emerging from the outhouse
So her memories are in compartments
With a separate part of her soul in charge of each
A piece of her frozen in its tracks
The journey stopped right there in time
But only a dimension away
Now lost soul parts seeping through her reality
Taking her by the hand
Are writing themselves back into existence

— from Unwinding the Soul,

by Susan Feinbloom
Evelyn, a woman in her thirties, came to therapy to work on disturbing
memories that were emerging. She became aware of these memories through
automatic writing of words and drawing pictures. Her telepathy, that is, her
ability to hear guidance, is a highly developed and accessible fifth chakra ability.
It was the vehicle that carried her from fear back to life.
Each of us tends to focus on and develop a couple of chakras and feel at
home there, barely using the others. In psychic psychotherapy I work to help
people navigate the whole scale of chakras and broaden the range of
possibilities.
As Evelyn strengthened her ability to handle the memories she was
retrieving, they wrote themselves down. In this process she uncovered her past.
As she incorporated the spiritual tools of grounding, running earth and cosmic
energy, protecting her space, and recognizing the difference between her energy
and energy that had invaded her space, she made room for herself in her own
life.

Woman in her fifties

Terry has highly developed expressions of her creativity and female energy. Her
purpose in this session is to address any concerns about moving in with her
partner of one year. As we look at her fifth chakra, it is clearly spinning in
vibrant colors. Images of her creative expressions in dance, choreography, and
music are abundant. The third chakra fears of intimacy of years past have
blossomed into her fifth chakra expressiveness.
The affinity between Terry and her partner is flowing. Her focus within her
own chakra system is the fifth chakra, abundant creativity. On a fifth chakra
level her partner is attentive and admiring toward her.
His primary focus within his chakra system is his sixth chakra— very
focused and sharp intelligence.
Neither one has the need to be the same as the other, only to love well.
Their move to live together looks vibrant and blessed.
The strength and vibration of the fifth chakra is pure truth, expression of
uniqueness, and creativity. When it is connected to the heart chakra and clear
vision, the sixth chakra energy flows in harmony and all the spiritual abilities are
actualized. These chakras all work together for you to speak your truth, to be
who you are in the universe. The creator of your own life.

Whatever you have to say

Leave the roots on
Let them dangle
And the dirt
Just to make clear
Where they came from

— Charles Olson
Fifth Chakra Meditation

Breathe. Pay attention to your breath. Allow yourself to ground and release.
Say “hello” to yourself as a spirit.
Begin to connect to the earth energy through your feet and the cosmic
energy through your crown.
Breathe into the fifth chakra and tune into the resonant frequency you send
into the universe. Do you speak your truth? Do you listen to your own truth? Are
you the author writing the script for your own life?
Take inventory—place your awareness on the fifth chakra and just tune in.
Notice what is here. Allow it to speak. Be still and listen.
Breathe.
 CHAPTER 6

Sixth Chakra

The sixth chakra is the home of our true vision, clairvoyance—literally, “clear
seeing.” This is our spiritual sight. It is where we develop the certainty of seeing
for ourselves, no matter how the world and its laws have been preached to us.
We access this chakra and its abilities through meditation. Clairvoyantly I watch
to see if my clients have spent time going inward to find their own sight or if this
space has been programmed out of their awareness.
This is our third eye, our visionary center, our image maker, our
imagination, our intelligence. Here we can simply see something through neutral
eyes, without filtering it through our belief system or layers of prior wounding.
Our intelligence, our thoughts and beliefs form the basis of our life experience.
In psychic psychotherapy I help my clients access this center of truth and clarity
so they can begin to create a life in harmony and affinity with who they truly are.
The sixth chakra in Sanskrit is called “Ajna,” unlimited power. This is the
home of true vision, clear vision, clairvoyance—the certainty of seeing for
yourself. Energy and talents, as well as former imprints, are stored here. Take a
deep breath and open to the space of inner exploration, release, and healing.
Grounding allows you to come all the way into present-time. Using mental
images to create a spiritual tool is part of the magic, the ability of the sixth
chakra.
 When the fourth chakra connects to the sixth chakra, we connect
compassion to neutrality, clear vision, heart and intelligence.
In the sixth chakra we fill the center of our head with light. This chakra
relates to our pineal and pituitary glands. It relates to vision, the eyes, optic
nerve, visual cortex, and our clairvoyant vision—our ability to see energy, to see
spirit. If we can imagine it, we can think it, speak it, and make it happen. This is
the first step in creating.
Your image maker, or clairvoyance, is your ability to see energy. Here you
learn to see for yourself. You no longer have to take anyone else’s belief system
as true. You can look and see for yourself. You begin to tune into a much deeper
level of truth—your very own truth. Someone else’s truth may not be relevant or
true for you. Sitting in the sixth chakra is where you see for yourself. Accessing
the upper chakras is about being in truth. Your life begins to align to a deeper
and deeper and deeper level of truth. Truth in affinity with you.
The sixth chakra is your clear seeing, clairvoyance, third eye, intelligence,
insights, visions. It is your visionary space, your ability to see and know spirit.

Imagination

Imagine a deep indigo hue. Imagine sitting right in the center of your head as
you read about the sixth chakra. This is the space of your intelligence, intuition,
and imagination. Exercising this chakra develops your ability to keep alive and
grow your imagination.
In indigenous cultures, it is said that imagination is the same as perception.
If we can imagine it, we can create it. Our culture says, “Oh, that’s just your
imagination,” as if that is an insult. It is invalidated beyond a certain age, before
that age it is “cute,” Beyond that age we are expected to be reasonable at the
expense of our imagination. Reason and imagination are really intended to be
brilliant partners.

Neutrality
Neutrality is the ability to see something without needing to change it or fix it or
get entangled with it or engage it in any way. Neutrality is a powerful stance.
Simply seeing. Our beliefs a and points of view obscure our ability to see and
hear. When something is out of the range of our belief system, it is out of our
range of perception. Literally, we will not see it.
I have often taught a class where someone in the class has no recollection
of an entire section of what we have been exploring. Past wounding stays lodged
in the cells, chakras, organs, and senses. This affects our ability to see and hear.
When a topic is explored that re-stimulates a trauma or fear, the person virtually
becomes the age he was at the time of the trauma or fearful event. He becomes
completely unavailable to present-time. Reactivity supersedes neutrality. He may
become defensive. Defensiveness is an energy that blocks the sixth chakra. It
occurs when new information is trying to come in that conflicts with a more
deeply ingrained belief.
A person may be reactive or simply seem to drift at those moments. On the
healing side, sometimes the drifting takes one back to visit an earlier charged
event. Revisiting this event in neutrality opens the doorway to begin to unbind
the emotional charge. He may return with an increased ability to be neutral—an
increased ability to see and hear. When old wounding is unbound—no longer
stuck—it becomes a neutral memory, no longer lodged in the cells. No longer
causing a knee-jerk reaction. A portion of our energy that was bound up in the
memory returns, and we become more available to present-time—being here,
now.

Higher Intelligence

In the sixth chakra, we can use our intelligence to gain wisdom from life
experience. We can reexamine our perceptions and clear illusions. Our vision
gets clearer and clearer; we come closer to seeing what is in front of us.
The third chakra is part of our literal, concrete intelligence; whereas our
sixth chakra is a more abstract, transcendent intelligence. We access concepts
beyond those that are visible with the physical perceptual apparatus, concepts
that are founded on seeing beyond ordinary reality, transcendent concepts, and
wisdom.
 To live in this reality, we need to develop a level of certainty within
ourselves. If we lean on external validation, it will not be forthcoming at this
level of perception. The self-certainty is a one-to-one relationship with spirit. It
takes courage to step into this reality. We begin to link what we believe with our
inner wisdom and higher intelligence in a fluid and open way.
Our intelligence and thoughts form the basis of all of our creations. We can
grow the ability to watch our thoughts and not grab them, not become them. To
choose what we want to think and imagine and grow. Deepak Chopra talks about
the “Watcher”—the ability to sit back and watch the habitual thoughts that go
through our mind. This is what others call the “monkey mind” or “mental
chatter.” We can watch it without becoming it. This is a level of detachment—
not becoming the fears and lies that have previously run our lives. We can learn
to recognize the extent of different fears that have controlled us. With the
neutrality and certainty of the sixth chakra, we can begin to release old patterns.
There is a saying: “Do not believe everything you think!”
Prior wounding is a filter covering our clear sight. As we release this pain
from the lower chakras and clear past-time wounds, the energy and frequency of
our vibration rises. We gain greater access to the sixth chakra and all the upper,
transcendent chakras.

Truth

The task of the sixth chakra is to see and recognize truth separate from illusions.
As we access this chakra, we need to track our ability to be in truth; to align our
lives to our path, to our own truth; to speak truth; and to represent who we are in
the world.
We get to track our defensiveness, the places in us that resist
communication and new insights. Defensiveness blocks new information. When
we are protecting a fixed belief, we become defensive when someone has a
different point of view. It is always insight producing to look underneath a
defensive reaction and see what belief was being threatened.
Here in the sixth chakra, we experience the Divine within us. We release
illusions about who we are and come deeper and deeper into what is real. We
begin to shed exclusive identification with our thoughts and physical body. We
shed even our own pictures—our false and imprinted mental images of the way
things should be and the way they are. We simply come into truth, into a deeper
reality.
As we use our imagination and begin to visualize, we become creators.
First is the image, the thought, the word put out into the world, and then follows
the creation.
Imagine using your clairvoyant ability. You are set up by a good friend to
go on a blind date. You sit in silence and imagine yourself as a symbol of a rose.
Perhaps the rose looks perky or radiant or tired or droopy. What happens when
you allow a rose to appear for this person you have not yet met, this blind date?
What does that rose look like? Generous, communicative, or standoffish? What
happens to your rose as you put the two together? Does your rose grow in
enthusiasm, or does it fall over? This is a simple, everyday use of clairvoyance: a
preview of the evening to come.
Perhaps things have been going well for you, and suddenly Murphy’s Law
hits—everything that can go wrong, does go wrong. You can look clairvoyantly
to discover the energy that is affecting you.
The sixth chakra is midway back in the center of the head. It is a vast space
with no agenda. When we access this chakra, we begin to feel certainty about the
spiritual world and our own nature, spirit inhabiting a body. Here we see past our
beliefs and begin to recognize these beliefs as containers and limitations. We see
that the way we see the world is a reflection of our own beliefs. When our
beliefs are fear based, we can experience hallucinations and even disconnect
from the reality before us. As these beliefs change, the world also changes for
us.
When we fully access this luminous space, we grow past defensiveness,
open our perceptions, and release arrogance. We develop discernment about
intellectual teachings that do not jibe with our direct experience of the universe.
As we access our inner eye, we begin to see the world for ourselves. It is
the pathway to seeing what is true, discerning all the misconceptions, teachings,
and imprinted beliefs of family, teachers, friends, religion, books. We begin to
find a vibration of certainty, and we play with making our own mistakes on the
pathway to truth. What an incredible and joyous journey it is to see for
ourselves! It is the beginning of trusting in our own uniqueness and coming out
of consensual reality.
Trusting your own perceptions, tuning into the vibration of certainty—this
is not arrogance. It is a deep freedom, an awakening of who you are!
Clairvoyance, the essential ability of the sixth chakra, seems to be a
mystery for most people, something unattainable. It evokes fears and taboos.
What transpires in psychic psychotherapy sessions is that it becomes seen as an
integral ability of our “spiritual anatomy.” We are designed for it. It is a natural
part of everyday perception.
You are entitled to open your eyes.
Sixth Chakra Meditation

This is a meditation to take inventory of the sixth chakra:

Take a few moments to sit quietly. Begin to ground; open the release
channels. Open to earth and heaven—nature and your spiritual source.
In this alignment imagine your breath flowing upward into the air sinuses
in your head. Just bathe your sixth chakra with oxygen and light, just breathe.
Let the energy flow in a gentle continuous movement.
Once the energy is running, place your attention on the sixth chakra.
Where your attention goes, your energy follows. Just sit in this space and
experience it. How clear are your perceptions? Are you open to seeing spiritual
energy? Is spirit real for you? Is your imagination still alive?
Allow your vibration to tune into this space. Sit in silence. Just be.
Breathe.
 CHAPTER 7

Seventh Chakra

Which Me Am I

I thought that
was me
But now I don’t
know
Which me
am I
The job of the crown chakra is to bring the energy of the cosmos into a harmonic
with our energy field. It is both the entry point and the exit point for the cosmic
energy. This is the chakra from which we know we are spirit, we are more than a
material existence. In this chakra we experience selflessness, wisdom, and
expanded awareness. As a psychic psychotherapist, I track a client’s ability to be
conscious on this crown chakra level. I look for cords in the crown that dull the
brilliance of this chakra.
The seventh chakra, “Sahasrara,” is the crown soul. Just breathe and allow
your energy to flow from heaven and earth. Allow some of your attention to be
directed inward to access this chakra, even as you read about it. Where your
attention goes, your energy will follow.
Crown chakra, crown soul, thousand-petaled lotus, emptiness—the color is
violet, sometimes seen as the colors of the rainbow.
Sahasrara, the crown chakra, is oriented like a plate on top of the head, or a
halo. Many times as we access this chakra, we will hear music that sounds
angelic. The crown chakra’s job is to harmonize the energy of the cosmos with
your field.
As we progressively clear the wounding and thoughts that say we are just a
body, we access more of our spiritual nature. This chakra is our entryway to our
Divine nature, where we know we are bigger than everyday concerns. It is
through this chakra that we are inspired and that we receive guidance. Carolyn
Myss calls it our “grace bank account.”
We access this energy by going inward, meditating, praying. As we “run”
our energy [grounding, cosmic and earth], we bring in the forces of the universe
through the crown. It is the entry point for infinite life force, creativity, guidance,
and abundance. Here we have a reference point to discern any beliefs we have
held that keep us smaller than who we truly are.
This energy feeds the entire luminous field, the spiritual bodies, as well as
the core nervous system. It is our mystical energy, our deepest nature,
abundance, creativity, and intelligence. It is where we know with certainty who
we are. Here we move into eternity, infinity, no time, or space. We become
inseparable from our own Divinity, one with guidance from spirit, one with God.
We release the false belief that we are alone in the world and tune into the
oneness of all things, all creatures, all beings. We can hear the communication of
nature, birds, animals, and spirit guides, in whatever form they show themselves
to us. We can begin to recognize ourselves as spiritual beings, pure
consciousness inhabiting a physical body.
The crown creates a harmonic with the cosmos. The crown chakra is pure
transcendence beyond the limitations of the physical body. We have an expanded
consciousness connected to the heavens, to our own spiritual nature, to our
guidance, to our becoming.
Gaining access to the upper chakras—fourth, fifth, sixth, and seventh—
requires our participation. The practice of meditation is the key. If we don’t
bother to go inward to know our truth, then we remain subject to the control of
others. We then live our lives according to social norms and family expectations,
without ever knowing who we really are. This is what I call the horizontal
alignment—we get our truth from everyone else. We become devastated when
someone disapproves of us and we are validated when they approve. There is a
feeling of never being really satisfied, always some level of alienation and
isolation.
No time, no space means we “cast no shadows.” If I clear my wounding,
then I am not walking the world in reactivity. I am not blinded by the veils
covering my present-time perception. Thought forms, beliefs that are fed over
and over, literally form a film over our senses—what we see, hear, smell, touch,
and taste. When we “cast no shadows,” we are no longer controlled by the past.
We are free of karma. Edgar Cayce talks of karma as where we meet ourselves—
unfinished deeds and misdeeds, unfinished communications.
We meet ourselves not as a punishment, but as an opportunity to gain
insight, to release old pain and move onward. In meeting ourselves we discover
what it is like to experience the effect of what we put forth into the world, the
effect of our actions and interactions. We can use this information to heal the
past and to become more compassionate. Our future becomes unhooked from
our past—everything is now possible.
As we open our perception to a higher perspective, we get a reference that
reveals and sheds the light of truth on narrow beliefs. We become available to
insights, an inner knowing that we are bigger than our present-time form. We can
access consciousness beyond the personal. We can access collective
consciousness.
In this chakra, we can experience selflessness, wisdom, expanded
awareness. This is the vertical alignment—information is accessed from heaven
and earth. We are part of a larger whole. When this chakra is out of balance, we
may experience depression, boredom, alienation.
Our thoughts create images. They are the first step to manifestation in the
world. Pure thought, the kind that comes “through” the crown, appears from the
emptiness, from the void. It is the kind of thought that requires no logical
thinking. It just comes. There is a knowing, a selflessness, a wisdom.
This knowing is frequently invalidated when we are young. “Prove it” is
the invalidation. “I just know” seems to be an unbelievable answer to teachers,
family, and friends. When something is discouraged again and again, over time
we give it up, and this amazing ability of pure knowing is gone. Our trust in
ourselves is gone, obliterated by repeated invalidation, cynicism, and later by
neglect.
In psychic psychotherapy, I look for energies that have control cords in the
crown. Someone may place a cord in your crown chakra because he is not able
to handle your brilliance. I look to see what aspects of a client’s brilliance or
light is being controlled, limited, contained. I look for the beliefs that hold
control energy in the chakra. Religious energy, morals, and ethics are frequently
found here.

Ethics

In our crown, we tune into a higher level of ethics—spiritual, universal ethics.

We have been taught literal ethics: “Say please,” “Thank you,” or opening doors
for people. However, with that, we may be throwing a hearty dose of insulting
and judgmental thoughts.
Crown chakra ethics are founded on collective cooperation, non-judgment,
compassion, and unconditional love. They are founded on knowing that we are
not really separate.

Transmediumship

Another ability of the crown chakra is transmediumship. This is where other

people plug into the crown with energy cords and affect one’s thinking and
behavior. Have you ever heard someone say, “That didn’t sound like me” or “I
don’t feel like myself”? Have you ever gotten irritated or yelled at someone and
felt that it wasn’t even you doing the yelling? These are literal statements.
Our language is literally describing what is actually happening. If it didn’t
feel like you or sound like you, it wasn’t you. Certain people are likely to be
plugged in all the time because of their formative connection to you—your
immediate family—mother, father, siblings.

A communication from a female client:

I recognized my mother plugged in. She came in through the crown

on the left side, and I experienced the anxiety and uncertainty that I
live with everyday. And when she left, it was just like so clear that
that’s not mine, and wow, what a gift! When I recognized my dad’s
energy, I immediately felt a concave, dark gap, and I just felt like I
was sitting there frozen the whole time. I fought to get out of that.

It is a very clear, powerful insight to recognize who we already “channel”

[whose energy we allow to come through us]. We can just release this energy. We
can search for the original belief or picture that allowed this energy to attach
itself to the crown chakra. When we uncover this information, we can see if the
belief was founded on a lie and begin the healing process of releasing the belief.
Many of our beliefs and thoughts are imprinted and programmed into us at an
early age.

Another client [looking at the foreign cords in the crown]:

I recognized how much pain and low-grade panic I hold in my body.

Now I can begin to release. When I notice what it feels like to have
someone else in my crown and the behavior I am manifesting
because of this, then I sit and say, “Do I really want to act this way?”
I align my behavior to a newfound set of energetic manners,
universal truths.

In other words, she aligns her crown to her own vibration.

Negative Expressions
Notice if this begins to generate any fears. What happens when I engage truth?
What happens when I look at the decisions I have made in my life and are
currently making? Have I made decisions out of a need to be validated, liked?
Has this been satisfying? Have my decisions been based on fears, foreign energy
in my crown?
When the crown chakra is not accessed, we may experience boredom. We
may feel alienated or depressed, cut off from ourselves. Our life doesn’t “make
sense” to us.

Thoughts

The pathway to access the crown chakra is through mediation. Begin a

meditation practice. Spend time looking inward. Tune into your own authorship
of your life, tune into what is deeply true. Recognize the difference between a
truth and a lie for you. Here you have perspective; you can break through
illusions and evaluate life choices from a newfound awakening. Here you align
to your path.

Pray

This is the space we pray from, where we sit with higher levels of energy, with
God. We engage wisdom and loving perspectives on all the choices we have
made and on the thoughts and deeds that challenge us and get us stuck. The
crown chakra is the place where we can just be. As we release judgments and
defensiveness, there is a peace so deep—so deep and amazing, a oneness with no
duality. The energy of the cosmos, of the universe, pours in continuously, and
then distributes itself to the other chakras, the organs, and the body.
In her lecture in Sebastopol, California, in 1999, Caroline Casey, Visionary
Activist Astrologer, talked about being “safe to be wild.” When we know who
we are, when we arrive at love, forgiveness, truth, and guidance; we are indeed
safe to be our most unique self—safe to be wild.

A forty-two-year-old woman

Karyn came in complaining about headaches and having trouble being in her
body. As I looked at her energy field, the area that lit up was the crown chakra.
[Clairvoyantly, when an area is ready to be looked at, it highlights itself
and draws attention to itself, it “lights up”].
When you ask a question, the answer will reveal itself. It is my job to help
my client receive the answer. Clairvoyantly, as Karyn speaks, this chakra steps
forward.
Karyn has been opening up her psychic abilities for some time, and in her
process of evolving, she has encountered some blocks. Her family is religious
and has very strong judgments about her using “psychic abilities.”
[It is always interesting to me that religion would feel threatened by
psychic abilities. After all, these abilities are our spiritual nature, who we deeply
are. They require no intermediary. Spirit to spirit, a direct communication.]
In Karyn’s energy field, these blocks appear as flapping doorways in her
crown. Different family members’ faces appear behind the doors, shouting
judgments and throwing threats and punishment energy. When this energy is
intense, Karyn gets kicked out of her body and becomes almost hypnotized. In
this state, the judgments and punishment act more as a command to Karyn than
an insult. In a hypnotic state, we relinquish our discernment.
I had Karyn ground and sit in her sixth chakra—that is, focus her attention
in the center of her head, her clairvoyant center. I instructed her to look directly
at these doorways. This takes the fear and mystery out. “Oh my God, it’s just my
family—sisters, brothers, all of them.” As she removed the mystery, she was
able to find some amusement. Amusement is a higher vibration than fear and
threat. The lower and higher vibrations will not occupy the same space at the
same time.
As Karyn looked at this energy and grounded, she began releasing the
intense charge. Whenever we are thinking about or looking at something and our
energy is in motion, connected to heaven and earth and grounded, we will begin
a release, a healing process. I had her close the flapping doorways around her
crown chakra and seal them with her own energy. Now she is able to see her
crown chakra clearly as its own brilliant rainbow light.
Religious judgments masquerading as spiritual truths run very deep in our
cells and through our ancestry. It is a formidable task to disentangle these
judgments and uncover our own spiritual path. Religious judgments and controls
will frequently be found in the crown chakra.
It takes practice and meditation, time spent inward, to access this chakra.
As we learn who we truly are, we begin to integrate our spiritual truths
with our daily lives. We can do this with compassion, love, and perspective—
respectful of everyone’s unique path. We are one in the universe.
One foot in the spirit world.
One foot in the physical world.
Both are blessed.
Seventh Chakra Meditation

Just sit in silence for a few minutes, allow the grounding to release, allow the
earth energy and cosmic energy to flow.
Once you sense the internal movement of these energies, put your attention
on the crown chakra. Do you meditate? Can you sit in silence, be still, and listen
for guidance?
Step right up to the crown and sit there in silence—just noticing what is
here. Allow anything that is there to just be. Be the “watcher”. No judgments.
Be still.
Be awake.
Breathe.
 Section III

Annotated Transcripts
 Introduction to Annotated Transcripts

Hello

Having looked inside my pain

my old stories
skeletons buried
my ancestral blood
having acknowledged myself deeply
with eyes wide-open old skins shed

I can now see you

Hello

— from Unwinding the Soul,

by Susan Feinbloom
Sometimes events happen that are hurtful or traumatic. When these get
suppressed inside us, a gap in the memory is created. An unexpressed and
unassimilated pain becomes stored in a place that gets blanketed with a kind of
amnesia. These unconscious pains lodge in the psyche and tend to create a nexus
from which this pain becomes replicated. That is, we then tend to reproduce
similar experiences, similar pain in our lives. In addition to recreating
themselves, these gaps tend to attract negative energy. Even if we do not
remember something, every cell within us stores this memory. The hurt is kept
alive within us until we heal it.
When we distance ourselves from these memories, from the source of our
suffering, we lose or postpone the opportunity to heal that pain. We lose the
opportunity to “change our past.” The traumas then remain as unintegrated
representations in our unconscious. In some indigenous cultures it is believed
that even the unresolved hurts of our ancestors are carried forward in us until
they are healed.
In deep and permanent healing we retrace these memories, starting with the
present and going progressively back into the past. As we understand and accept
our role and participation in these traumas we can begin to allow the insight and
emotional charge to be expressed and to be released. This begins a healing
process.
In these sessions you will see a chosen starting point, a stated cause for
someone seeking therapy. As the session progresses, we deepen our focus layer
by layer as we move toward the original traumas. This is done at a pace that is
manageable and dictated by the client.
In private sessions, there are a few tools and symbols that I frequently
work with. First is the symbol of a rose—a timeless mystical symbol. When
someone allows a rose to appear to represent a particular issue or intention, the
rose reveals a great store of information. The petals may be open or closed, lush
or dry, full or singed, or perhaps they have fallen off. The stem is strong or weak,
upright or bent, with thorns or not, leaves or not. The stem may have roots or be
cut. The rose may be in light or darkness. It may have multiple colors or a single
color.
Every part of the rose represents a portion of the information we are
seeking. All together, the rose is a full picture of the answers.
We say “hello” to each part, turn off the thinking mind, and allow the rose
to speak. We listen. This is a psychic skill to be developed. The real skill is to
pull out of the thinking mind, which often dominates our consciousness. We
begin to access information that comes in other ways—in direct transmissions.
Remember, the rose is a creation of ours, of our imagination [our ability to
create an image], so it will fulfill the intention we set for it.
Another tool I work with is a timeline. When someone talks about a
present-time issue, it frequently rests upon an older wound. When this happens,
my client begins to “vibrate” at that prior age and present-time wisdom is no
longer available. He then becomes unavailable in present-time and is in a totally
reactive space. His reality at the moment is that of a three-year-old, or however
old he was when the original wounding happened. I ask, “How old are you?”
And with that question, he knows the answer. I have him walk to that age on the
timeline—bringing present-time information and wisdom with him—and look
around. He may then handle the situation differently and create different
outcomes. Then my client walks forward on the timeline to present-time, having
changed the past and reset his energy.
The other tool I employ is a gauge, a line from zero to one hundred
percent. There are times when someone is talking and the energy, the voice is not
theirs. I ask questions like, “How much of you is here?” She may say thirty
percent. I then ask, “What is in the remainder of the space?” Perhaps it is a
particular person whose energy has been invasive and to whom she has been
receptive; that is, she has been absorbing this energy out of old patterning.
When the session is complete, I have my client bring in golden suns or
golden light to fill in the spaces from which energy has been released. Holes and
vacancies in the aura will tend to re-attract the kind of past-time energy the
person has habitually held in that space. The golden suns fill their aura with an
energy that has affinity for this person’s present-time growth.
As you read these sessions, you will come across my use of these tools as a
way of accessing information that bypasses the thinking mind.
 Precious One

Every time
you belittle yourself
the sky weeps

When you compare yourself

to another
whether favorably
or not
the moon hides

Your very own path

slithers further
from your reach

And God sighs

knowing your spirit pain.

— from Unwinding the Soul,

by Susan Feinbloom
 CHAPTER 1

Mary: Forty-Year-Old Woman

This is a session with a woman experiencing anxiety, fear, and

depression triggered by a conflict with her demanding, critical boss.
She has experienced severe depression in the past and is afraid it will
return. She is particularly frozen in the first and sixth chakras. The
first chakra relates to our feelings of survival. When these feelings are
triggered it feels as though our very survival is threatened which
activates our fight-or-flight response. Anxiety is easily triggered as
well. The first chakra also relates to our ability to release energy and
to keep it moving so it doesn’t get stuck or frozen. The sixth chakra
relates to our ability to see clearly—beyond our fear and anxiety. As
these energies are addressed in our sessions, a deeper focus on her
third chakra and her sense of powerlessness emerges, and prior trauma
is revealed.

SUSAN: The first chakra and sixth chakra are very static as you talk of
your traumatic work situation. There is no release happening, just an amplifying
of the energy. Just say “hello” to your grounding. Sometimes we get stuck on a
picture—just one point as opposed to three hundred and sixty degrees of
possibilities. As you ground, you open up the possibilities; you begin to look
calmer immediately.
When energy is static, it tends to attract energy, events, and life
experiences that are similar to itself. Because of this, the static gets
amplified. In Mary’s case she is triggered by her current critical boss, but
her responses are geared to her unhealed wounds from early childhood.
When this occurs, her response is not in keeping with her present-time
reality and is an overreaction to what is going on between her and her boss.
MARY: When my sleep crashed, I couldn’t face my own anxiety. I’m
concerned about not being able to deal with this anxiety. I was doing really well.
When I see myself do emotional dips, I feel needy and frightened.
Mary is frightened that she will fall into a deep depression, which has
happened in the past. Here I am reading the energy of the continuous
attention her boss is projecting into her space.
S: Your boss is placing a lot of energy and attention in your back. Her
energy is invasive and mean spirited. You are sensitive and feel the deeper
energetic communication. People can be seemingly polite and energetically nasty
at the same time.
M: I feel that.
The place energy lands in anyone’s space is where there is already a
pain picture, a memory that is charged, that has gone static. This attracts
more pain to itself. For Mary, as her feelings of being inadequate to handle
the situation arise, her first chakra becomes charged. The wisdom of her
sixth chakra becomes unavailable and her feelings of powerlessness are
amplified.
S: Your boss sends energy which comes in through the back—it hits the
third and second chakra. Your cells go into confusion.
M: Yes, I do go into confusion; I get chaotic and ungrounded.
S: Amusement is a powerful psychic tool. It raises the vibratory field. Two
levels of energy will not occupy the same space at the same time. The lower
vibration will release, and the energy field will be returned to movement when
you vibrate at amusement. We get our seniority back from someone in power
who is needing to harass us when we find some amusement. See her as a female
teenager in competition—she needs to win.
M: I feel that I didn’t win because I let this bother me to this degree.
Next Mary alludes to forgiving herself. This is a most powerful
concept. It relates to the fourth chakra—the ability to love unconditionally,
and to love oneself and others. This also allows for the fact that we grow and
evolve. In our growing and learning, we make mistakes and sometimes do
things we regret. Later, we may create a similar situation where we have the
opportunity to hold a bigger picture, to release old grudges, forgive
ourselves, and learn compassion.
M: The part I really struggle with is forgiving myself for allowing this to
have this effect on me. It scares me when this anxiety and powerlessness comes
over me. I feel like a black hole.
The image of the black hole here refers to the absence of her own
energy. The source of this will and power comes from the third chakra.
S: You are talking about your third chakra powerlessness. I see a lot of
images of your mom as you talk of powerlessness. The good news is you’ve
gone deep enough in your space to hit charged core wounding, so you are strong
enough to have this “lit up”, even though it doesn’t feel good. Let’s go in and
look.
The third chakra, at the solar plexus, is where we have our personal
power. This is the power to align our lives to our path, our truth, our
purpose for the present incarnation. It is a chakra frequently corded by
those who wish to control us. Controlling others is a misuse of this power.
Here I am clairvoyantly reading the images she is showing of old
wounding—old control—lodged in her third chakra. This old wounding
may not be triggered all the time. It gets triggered when something in our
memory or limbic system feels the same as what is happening in the
moment. Our limbic system stores and groups energies together that feel the
same to us. This is not in chronological order, it is in “emotional time”.
M: I do remember feeling this as a child—not being safe, uncertainty, and
fear. Why I would feel that way now is beyond me. I’ve taken care of myself for
a long time, but it’s these periods that come in that scare me.
S: We can tap into our original wounding. As we get stronger and stronger,
many things don’t touch it because it’s not everywhere anymore. It’s narrowed
down to the core, to a few select situations. So much of it is healed—you are so
much stronger than when I met you. This anxiety was very strong way back
when you first came for sessions. It’s nothing like that now. It is so important to
acknowledge and validate all of the amazing growing and healing you have
done.
M: I’m so disappointed that this is happening. I felt like my life crashed
when it happened before. I was hoping it wouldn’t happen again. Maybe it will
be happening again, and it scares me that this can happen. I wonder when I am
going to let this go so I can move forward. How much further do I have to take
it?
Here is an example of how judgment and fear create for us exactly
what we wish to never experience again. In these situations we may attempt
to hold on so much that we forget to breathe and release. Our breathing (or
lack of it) becomes a barometer for how much pain we are holding.
S: Breathe, just breathe. Create a very specific image of a grounding cord
so you can perceive, feel, and know you are releasing.
M: I feel like I’m falling backward.
S: You are not physically falling, but your energy body is stepping out of
alignment. It is leaning back at a diagonal. Breathing through your whole body
—remember, the belly breathing is the parasympathetic nervous system
breathing, which relaxes us, helps to clear stress, relaxes the fight-or-flight
impulse. Sympathetic chest breathing is a reaction to danger; the
parasympathetic is to soothe that.
Pain pictures—emotionally charged pictures—can pull the chakras
out of vertical alignment and can pull the luminous body out of alignment
with the physical body.
S: Now I’m starting to watch your breath move from your crown down to
your first chakra, I’m starting to see a connection. Some of the chakras have
gone lateral and some posterior. So the alignment is jagged rather than vertical.
I’m watching you soothe and smooth that as you breathe. Create a very strong
image of a grounding cord: a waterfall, a tree trunk, or an anchor. Now you just
started grounding—it’s working. Can you tell?
M: It’s hard for me tell the difference yet. I feel like it’s coming and
disappearing and not going all the way down.
Where we put our attention, our energy follows. Our attention is
powerful. When it is positively engaged, it enables us to transform, heal and
grow. Conversely, negativity grows static wounds. The quality of the
attention we give is the foundation that grows our perceptions and our
reality. It is hard for Mary to validate all of the growth she has had in the
midst of the anxiety she is experiencing.
S: Just validate whatever you do perceive of the grounding. When it’s
there, validate it and how far it goes—validate that. When we put our attention
on something, it grows, it amplifies, and it gives it more substance. Have you
ever been hit physically?
As Mary grounded, an image of her being hit as a child appeared. As
someone begins to “run energy”, or get her energy moving and out of static,
different images may appear. These images may be literal or metaphorical
images of events in the person’s life. They may show up as brief flashes.
 M: It’s hard for me to remember, but I’m sure the answer is yes.
S: The image appearing in your energy field is of you being hit, falling
backward, and going unconscious for a while. It is a very strong image.
M: My dad was definitely very strong. My sister feels we were physically
abused. I’m remembering him being very forceful in tone and tapping us on the
chest. It was definitely scary.
S: Maybe you were hit on an energetic level.
M: Definitely.
S: That’s the dizziness, whatever is getting stimulated makes your energy
field fall back while your physical body is still upright.
Sometimes our energy field—our astral body—gets out of alignment
with the physical body. This usually feels like confusion or some degree of
disorientation. It can also make us feel as if we are in a fog or not fully
awake.
M: For a while, I didn’t know how much the dizziness was anxiety related.
I felt like I was out of my body.
S: Just let the grounding cord work. Feel your connection to the earth.
Imagine your feet standing on or resting on some beautiful place on the earth,
the dirt, the grass, sand. Did you feel that?
M: Yes.
Grounding is a major spiritual tool that helps release, reorient, and
realign the luminous field, the spiritual body with the physical body. They
become synchronized.
S: Your energy is now flowing in your legs. Your first chakra and second
chakra—legs and pelvis—are a strong foundation. While you are feeling dizzy,
energetically or physically, you want to strengthen your foundation. Your
foundation makes you feel safer and it gives you a little room to operate. When
anxiety gets high, nothing feels safe, so we are aware of fewer options. The
world gets smaller, smaller, smaller. Breathing…
I’m clairvoyantly watching her first chakra.
S: Let the earth energy come up through your feet to the first chakra. Let’s
take a look. There’s a lot going on in this chakra.
This is our survival center at the base of the spine located between the
sacrum and coccyx.
M: It’s like a windstorm or some other natural disaster.
S: I’m assuming that your basic income is meeting your survival needs for
food, shelter.
M: Yes.
When basic physical survival needs are not being met, our first chakra
opens wide to provide the information needed to survive. When survival
mode is triggered by an emotionally charged pain picture, the first chakra
will also open wide even though actual physical survival is not in question.
When this happens the first chakra takes precedence, demanding our
energy and attention, and we lose access to the higher chakras. We need to
explore and clear the emotionally charged pain pictures of the first chakra if
we are to access the upper chakras. It is in the upper chakras that we will
find the tools needed to uncover the roots of the pain and begin the healing
process.
S: Let’s say “hello” to this storm. See a symbol. Say “hello” to the image
of the storm to get some information.
M: I literally see something like a windstorm, trees blowing, maybe a
tsunami—a lot of wind, water, a commotion of energy. It looks pretty
destructive. It looks powerful.
The image that is coming up for her is wind. Each element has a
different focus, so we explore what the wind signifies for her. Nothing is
irrelevant.
S: Say “hello” to the wind—the air element—and let it speak.
M: I just feel anger in it.
S: Take a look. Open the anger and see whose anger it is.
Many times when an emotion is very strong or makes us feel “out of
control” it is not our own emotion. It originates from someone else who
wants us to feel the way he feels. The person may do this by projecting his
emotions into our energy field.
M: It’s not mine. It’s my ex-boss’s.
Emotional layers will be stored with the most current visible first, the
outermost layer. The core layers are deeper. They are the original layers
that continue to attract life experiences similar to themselves to create yet
more layers until they are addressed.
S: She has projected a lot of her energy there. It’s more than her; your
dad’s in there, too. But your boss’s energy is in the forefront. She is angry and
she doesn’t let go.
M: No, she doesn’t do that.
S: Say “hello” to that in you, that anger in the wind, the first chakra anger
that isn’t you. It isn’t your anger.
M: Part of this anxiety is about returning to work, getting through it and
letting it go myself and knowing that she’s still really angry and will be for a
while.
Here she addresses a profound concept: freedom. The freedom for her
to let go of her own anger and allow the other person – her boss - to
continue to be angry. In reality, we have no control over how someone else
feels. However, when we release our anger, the other person loses their
reason to throw anger at us. Their anger no longer has a place to attach
itself within us.
S: So the challenge here—as you recognize the anger coming in, this wind
that is not you—the challenge is how to be neutral enough to it. What she’s
experiencing is not something you have the power to change, but you have the
power, the ability to be neutral to it, which means that it doesn’t crash into your
space. Neutrality is a function of sitting in a higher vibration. When we sit in the
middle of something, then that one point of attention that we’re stuck on is just
all there is. So we have to find a different place to sit, a different place to focus
our awareness.
Once we get to know our spiritual anatomy from the inside, we begin
to realize how the same event is perceived radically differently when seen
from the perspective of each chakra. The upper chakras house the abilities
of insight, neutrality, clear seeing, and wisdom. The first chakra will tend to
make us feel that our ability to survive is threatened; whereas, sitting in the
sixth chakra allows us to be neutral to what someone else is feeling or doing.
M: When she sees me and I appear totally neutral, she gets angrier.
S: Take a deep breath and begin to give her permission to feel anything she
feels. She’s allowed her feelings. She’s allowed to be angry or proud of herself
that she won or whatever.
M: Something just changed. I can see it now. I just feel calmer.
S: I notice you just got into your sixth chakra. As I asked you to come up
before, you got as high as your fifth, and now you’re up there in your sixth. That
is an important tool you can use. If you are in the middle of your own wounding,
you will be stuck in every ounce of the “out of control” feeling. If you come
above it, you will be at a higher frequency, and the lower frequencies of the first
chakra will start to release. And I’m watching that you started releasing from the
front of your first chakra. There’s an orange and a cream or off-white, color
coming out of your first chakra. Some of that is what you held on to. Now it’s
starting to pour out of your first chakra. You’re in a beautiful release right now.
When we come to a higher vibration of light, energy, and information,
the lower vibrations that are no longer taking precedence will dissipate. The
two types of vibrations will not occupy the same space at the same time.
M: I can totally tell I’m not sitting here in anger right now.
S: As you are releasing this energy, I’m starting to see the spin of the first
chakra. First the top part and now more and more of it is returning to its natural
movement. I’m seeing blue-greens. I’m seeing that it is not your natural bent to
be angry. It’s not where you vibrate or want to vibrate. It’s not your home.
M: Sometimes I wonder if I need to make that more my home. There’s a
part of me that says you need to own your place in the universe more. Why do
you just back up and try to be neutral and let it go? Maybe I need to be angry
and in there—like fighting for my place in the universe - but it doesn’t seem like
my path.
S: Being able to get there is one thing, having it as your home is another.
Being able to be firm, to be fierce is one thing. When we sit in anger, we stay
completely connected to the person we are angry at, as if we have a hollow tube
with liquid anger flowing back and forth. So we devote a portion of our energy
just to make someone feel bad, and we in turn feel toxic. We pay dearly with our
energy field when we feed our anger just to make sure someone else feels bad.
Having said that, anger also has a healing value. It is used to clear someone who
has been invasive out of your space. Your own anger will feel creative,
energizing, while someone else’s anger in you will feel out of control,
destructive.
M: I think that’s where the shift is. At a certain point, I was angry, and now
I’m letting go of a little of that.
S: You are letting go of a lot of her anger in the first chakra. She only has
the power over you that you give her.
This is a deep and profound realization. The only people or situations
with authority over us are those to whom we relinquish our power. Whether
we acknowledge this or not, this is a choice.
M: Theoretically, I know that.
S: It’s really true. Our thoughts are very powerful. They’re substantial.
When we get stuck on one, it becomes our life focus for the time being. I’m
watching you bring in so much peace. Now I’m seeing a loop of energy from
your crown chakra to your first chakra and back up—a full engagement of
chakras. I’m watching you sit in a rainbow space.
The second chakra is our emotional center.
S: Come up to the second chakra—breathe in there. I’m seeing more spin;
a lot has cleared as you focused on the first chakra. Let’s go right to the third
chakra. Your growth period is a first and third chakra growth period—anxiety
and powerlessness.
The third chakra is how we move and run energy in the body, our
personal power, how we direct our focus. Competition and criticisms
throughout our life can lodge here.
S: Look at the third chakra and see whatever you see.
 M: There’s some anxiety in there and discomfort in there. It feels unstable
and I’m having a difficult time grounding.
S: Take a look at the word “instability” and open that up and see what it’s
made of in your third chakra.
Always go deeper to find an opening into the prior wounding.
M: I just saw a teeter-totter going back and forth.
S: When did you play on the teeter-totter?
M: When I was a kid.
S: Go into the teeter-totter image.
M: When I was a kid, I went to Sunday school with my mother. It felt safe.
We sang songs and went on the teeter-totter.
S: Safe.
M: Yeah.
S: Tune into that safety. Our whole energy field vibrates to the thoughts we
are having—the thoughts, the mental image pictures, the words. Looks like it
was fun for you. Really be aware how quickly you can change your space by
changing your focus. I’m starting to watch some spin in the third chakra. It’s still
got a bit of a vortex—it still has a pull on it.
My work is always to go deeper and deeper into the energy until the
wound or core energy begins to unwind.
S: So keep saying “hello.”
M: Like a cone shape going backward. It looks like that’s where I’m
holding my anxiety. It’s where my whole body just drains out of energy. I feel
despair. I don’t know what to do when that happens.
These anxieties are restimulated images from early humiliations. They
yield feelings of anxiety and powerlessness.
S: Take a look at where that comes from.
M: The despair?
S: Yes. You said your whole energy drains out of your body. Take a look at
the origin of that. Sometimes as a trick, a shortcut, I use the image of a tape
recorder and press the rewind button to find the origin, no matter how far or
near.
The third chakra is our energy/power center. It’s where we bring in
chi/prana/life force to fuel the body.
M: The origin of despair…
S: And as if everything is being drained right out of you.
When you go deep enough, the core pictures reveal themselves.
M: When I was six, my mom was in an accident that she wasn’t supposed
to survive. She was in the hospital for several months. I remember I would get so
excited to go see her. Then I would see her, and I couldn’t even speak. Nobody
told me that they didn’t think she would live. I do remember, especially in later
years, contemplating, “Wow, I could have been without a mom,” feeling sad…
S: Yeah—breathing—would you talk to that six-year-old? Tell her first of
all that her mom survived; she lived.
In trauma, parts of us get stopped, frozen in time, paralyzed, unable to
move forward.
M: I remember my dad didn’t even know how to feed my sister—she was a
baby. He asked me what she ate. [Laughs] She was eleven months old—she was
in the car with my mom.
We have the ability to change the past. Here Mary talks to her younger
self. She brings nurturance, love, and her present-time perspective, wisdom,
and spiritual knowledge to this interaction.
S: Tell the six-year-old how many months it will be before your mom
comes home. Tell her so she has a glimpse into the future. Most of us can bear
anything if we know it has an end, and we have the date for the end. So give her
the date.
M: That’s a lot better.
Emotional time is not linear: we have the ability to travel backward or
forward. It is a fierce cultural belief that one moment follows the next and
that each moment is of equal duration to the former moment.

S: Yes. I watched your six-year-old third chakra. It was as if it was

completely blown out. It came back to her. She looked more collected—still
some shock, but not blown out. Tell her this is going to be tough, but there is
going to be an end to it. It is scary to see your mom that way. Did anyone nurture
you through that?
M: A little bit. Two family friends…one not so safe, the other a good
family friend.
S: Show her the resources she will have during this time when she will be
without a mom. Would you see if there is any guidance around her?
M: There is. I see one family friend—my dad was too distraught. I didn’t
know how to ask for help.
S: So tell this six-year-old that she is allowed to ask for help, totally
allowed to. In fact, it’s a great thing to do. It sounds like she’ll get it if she asks
for it because it sounds like her dad is too distracted to see what she needs. So
tell her, “You ask for it and that will help him to help you, and it’s part of your
power.” Even as a six-year-old, you have the ability to know your needs and ask
for them.
M: I was never taught that.
S: That’s why you are telling your six-year-old that now. Breathing…
Bring this strength all the way forward in time to present time, so that in your
present-time adult body, your third chakra reclaims that power.
In our memory, one event that feels similar to another gets linked
together with it. Even though one event is in the distant past, when
restimulated, it feels as if it is happening now.
S: Your mom is not blown apart, and your ex-boss is not your mom. She
does not have power over you. She’s not your mother, and in present time, she’s
no longer your boss.
M: I know I can handle it.
S: Show yourself the color of resource you use to handle it. This will
validate the vibrational level you are using. What’s the color you use?
M: Blue.
Every color is a frequency, a vibration. Focusing on a healing color
raises the vibratory level and helps the lower frequencies to dissipate and
release. Mary has chosen a color that holds a healing space for her.
S: In addition to grounding, connecting to heaven and earth, you may want
to have some of this color around. Have this color somewhere where your eyes
are always passing over it. Keep saying “hello” to this blue color.
M: I see it as a picture in blue - little green and white stars in it.
S: Draw that picture. It contains a lot of peace and certainty and
amusement. When you brought in that color, I saw your higher creative
imagination become accessible. Your thinking ventured into new and interesting
places.
Our third chakra relates to our thinking, but when we are confined to that
chakra, the thinking is literal. When we access the sixth chakra, our thinking gets
more abstract—a higher vibrational level. Your thoughts then vibrate in affinity
and in harmony with you. Breathing…a light grounding cord … the earth energy
is running very light. Say “hello” to the cosmic energy. Continue looking at the
third chakra; see if there is anything else that needs to be spoken. For one, you
told yourself this accident your mom had is not happening now—it’s done.
Shock becomes lodged in our energy field until we are able to release
it. This shock can be emotional or physical shock, and it can last years or
however long it takes us to release it. Our culture teaches holding on more
than it teaches release. As we step further into our uniqueness, we come out
of needing to follow all of the dictates of our culture. We are allowed to be
completely finished with different eras and events, actions and concerns. We
are allowed to move on, transcend, and evolve. In fact, we are designed to
do this.
S: Sometimes when we go into shock, we don’t know that something is
complete. Shock kicks us out of the body, so we just carry the event for thirty or
forty years— or even our whole lives. Unless we let something go, there it is.
M: There is something else in there. It looks like a little box shape—a
white box.
S: Ask the box what it is.
M: It’s spinning. It feels almost like a spaceship or something.
S: Ask, “What is this?” It came in at the time you were reclaiming
seniority from this work difficulty.
M: It looks like some foreign energy. It doesn’t look like anything from my
past.
S: Does it have a positive or negative vibration in relation to you?
M: It’s not a helping thing. It’s sitting in there for its own interest.
It is important to address energy by going deeper rather than yanking
it out or resisting it.
S: Take your attention off it. Put a rose [a symbol for separation, as used
here] between you and it. Put it out of your third chakra—put it on the outside of
your aura. Ask it what it wants in your third chakra.
This is an example of how when we ask the right questions, the
information will appear.
M: Energy.
S: Not OK. Hook it up to Supreme Being. This thing where you are
monitored at work—see if this white box has any connection to where you are
monitored.
M: Yes.
S: Yes. That is a level of surveillance where you are monitored, a control
level. Take it entirely out of your third chakra. It’s not allowed to be there; it’s
not allowed to be in your aura. That is a function of the big institution, the
corporation you are a part of.
Institutions and corporations frequently have control energy. Usually,
it is hard to access the crown chakra, the chakra of pure knowing and
certainty, inside the corporate atmosphere.
S: It’s bigger than a particular person: it’s about the institution. Take this
energy all the way out of your third chakra and aura. Just imagine taking it out of
your space and destroying the control energy that came into your third chakra.
I’m watching you find your amusement again… and now say “hello” to your
very own third chakra. That’s great and clear.
 M: It’s quiet.
S: Also say “hello” to owning your crown chakra, especially when you are
at work. Just let your grounding work; let the cosmic energy run, allowing you to
have your crown chakra and the clarity and neutrality of your sixth chakra. Send
some validation to you about how you stepped up to handle a difficult situation.
You really were an advocate for yourself. You mobilized everything you needed
to.
M: It’s good to hear. I didn’t know if I did enough.
When we have done so much work and released so much energy, it is
important to validate and celebrate a job well done. It is also important to
fill in the energy field with light.
S: You did! did! did! enough. Bring in some beautiful golden suns and
gently come out of trance. Just say “hello” to your full aura, your space—define
it and say “hello” to the protection and safety you have when you own your
space. Use protection roses in front of your aura and be aware of getting your
cosmic energy from where you want it; otherwise, the institution where you
work, which is set at a static white, will control the crown. Get your cosmic
energy, not from work but from your own source in the cosmos.
M: I feel like I know I can do it. This is just a great reminder.
When so much energy has been released, it is great to stand up and
shake for a few moments to completely clear the physical body of all that
has been released and to reset the energy field and the physical body in
present time.
S: Let’s get up and shake. Beautiful work!
 CHAPTER 2

Geoff: Seventy-Year-Old Man

This is a session with a very capable man of great intelligence, talent, and heart.
His primary energetic pattern is to be stuck in the past, in old, outdated, and
once-upon-a-time useful patterns. The most difficult energetic pattern for Geoff
to understand and actualize is grounding – releasing old energy and beliefs that
clearly no longer serve him – in fact, they are now obstacles to his growth. He is
working on the ability to own his body and his present-time choices. He has a
core wound of believing that he cannot own or control where he places his
attention. His belief is that this is controlled externally with threats, rather than
being a free choice. He works most effectively when guided and given feedback
on his energetic process throughout the session.
The lack of movement in the energy channels, chakras and breathing is a
primary focus of mine. This reveals the wounding and is key to it.
Geoff has had a very long-term goal of wanting to build a boat. We begin
with his perceptions of the external obstacles to and realities of accomplishing
this project. Then we move deeper into the internal underlying obstacles.

SUSAN: How are you today?

GEOFF: I’m a little sleepy today; it’s kind of a relaxed day.
 S: That sounds good. Let’s see what you’d like to work on today. What are
your concerns? It’s fine for you to state them all because frequently they all fit
together in some way. So just start talking about what you’d like to look at, and
we’ll go from there.
I have worked with Geoff previously, so we can dive right into the
session.
G: OK. Well, I’ve got this long-range project that I’ve been planning for
years, and it’s not happening. I’ve got all the ducks lined up, supposedly. Then I
get really close to starting it, and something pops up and gets in the way. I have
to go through a bunch of steps. The steps seem endless, so the pathway is not
clear.
The weight of all the unreleased energy makes it seem as if moving
forward is wading through a thick soup of molasses.
S: So tell me first about the ducks being lined up because that sounds like
you’re in the process already. What do you mean by the ducks are already lined
up?
G: Well, I mean I’ve gotten materials on hand to start the project. I’ve got
the equipment. I’ve got the place to do it. Um…everything seems ready.
S: That’s great! Can you validate that—the equipment, the tools, the place?
It sounds like that in itself was a lot of work, getting all of that in place.
He is talking as if nothing had yet happened on this project, so
invalidation is the only lens through which the project is viewed. When we
place our attention on validation and acknowledgment, we grow more to
validate. Conversely, when we only see what we have not accomplished, we
grow the lack of accomplishment. Where our attention goes, our energy
follows.
G: It was a lot more than I had counted on. But it’s there, and it’s just been
standing by waiting for me to get to it.
S: Right…go on.
G: And it’s just not started.
S: So what happens that gets in the way? What gets in the way?
G: Well, it’s just like other activities that are essential - family things or
things connected with my business, political activities, the e-mails, life goes on.
Everything that just…my time gets eaten up.
S: Have you prioritized your time so that you know where in the priority
the boat stands and you allow it its due for wherever it stands?
G: How do you mean?
S: In other words, you brought up family stuff, business stuff, political
stuff. You mention those three categories that get in the way, that want
something from you on some regular basis. Where does your boat stand in your
universe in relation to the things that get in your way - in other words, if you had
to make a graph of priorities with percentages what would that graph look like?
G: What’s the most important?
S: What’s the most important? What’s next? What’s next? Can you
prioritize time? Where does the boat stand in all of that?
G: It stands up number one.
S: OK. Then what happens that blocks you from being able to give it time
if it’s number one?
G: Well, right now, in order to start on the project, I’ve got to complete a
couple of other projects to get them out of the way.
S: And they relate to the boat?
G: They relate to my time and my ability to do it. It’s like, right now, I
have a sailboat in the water that has a blown engine. I’ve got to decide whether
I’m going to sell it, but I can’t sell it as it is. I’ve got to fix it and do some work
with it, which means I have to get it up here to do that. In order to get it up here,
I’ve got to have the space to put it. There is a tractor blade in the space where I
would put it. I have to fix the tractor in order to move the blade in order to have
the space to bring the boat up and fix the motor.
So many prerequisites. The energy gets heavier and heavier as he
talks.
G: There always seem to be more things that poke their heads up, taking
more time than I want to give them just because of stuff happening.
S: I don’t yet get the sense of where you’re owning your time. I do get the
sense that there are important things that come up.
G: Um hmm.
S: But I don’t get the sense of where you’re owning your time. I hear you
having your time own you.
G: Yeah.
S: Having things own you…As I just watch you, energetically, while you
talk about it, you’re under all these projects rather than in charge.
His energy looks smaller and smaller, younger and younger, as he talks
of everything that is in the way of doing what he wants to do. He appears
young and helpless, unable to wade through the muck.
G: Um hmm.
S: So, this has come up before. Those are external things that fit into the
category called “endless”.
G: Yeah.
S: They just come up—the farm, things just come up that require your
attention, your business—but I didn’t hear you put your business as number one.
I heard you put the boat as number one. Your availability seems to be to all these
things that aren’t number one. What you describe about the tractor blade, your
other boat, are all the tasks that you’ve given priority to. Does the list you cited
all have to happen before you can start building a new boat?
G: If I don’t take care of it, there will be consequences. It has to be taken
care of.
S: So the answer is “yes.” Then how long would it take to take care of all
that?
G: I was hoping to be done with it this week and then moving on to the
next thing, but it’s not happening. I’ll be lucky if I can clear that up before I
leave.
There is a heaviness that is amplifying as we talk. The energy is set at
“you can’t get there from here.” This is a function of a blocked grounding
and release so energy accumulates and gets denser and heavier, obstacles get
amplified and become overwhelming.
S: So what do you mean by “lucky”? Can you own the time to make that
happen?
G: Well…[hesitating] I have to have some machine work done for this
tractor.
S: How does that happen?
G: I have to take it to the machinist and see what his schedule is.
S: Have you called him?
G: No, because I just figured out yesterday that I needed to have the
machine work done—this extra part—and he was closed yesterday. It’s a three-
day weekend, so I’ll do that on Tuesday.
He is getting more agitated as his process is getting highlighted: his
sequence is “this, then that, and I can’t do this.” He is shrinking beneath the
weight of it all.
Here I change the direction of the session to begin the internal work.
After we explore the heaviness of his process for the beginning of the session
and his total focus on external obstacles, I now guide him to begin the work.
I switch the focus to a category he has not yet considered: the internal
blocks and obstacles.
S: Let’s talk about internally, what happens with you. Those are the
external demands. As I watch you, energetically, I notice you are plowed under
by these external demands. What are some of the internal demands, resistances,
commands, obstacles—anything in that category in relation to your moving
forward with the boat?
 You’ve had the desire to build the boat for more than ten years. So what
goes on internally? What are the resistances, blocks—anything that stands in the
way from the inside?
G: [Sigh] Hesitation possibly—just the feeling of being discouraged
because it has gone on so long.
This is a new area for him to look at. Looking inward is a new
direction for him. Blaming externals has habitually been his comfort zone.
S: What does the discouragement say? Would you let it talk?
G: The discouragement says that so many things are happening that get in
the way that you can’t do it.
S: How old are you right now as you talk? You shrink in front of me
visibly.
He is a seventy-year-old man who begins to look like a helpless child
without control of his life. Energy gets stopped in time at different
traumatic events and continues to pull on the life force until the emotional
charge is cleared.
G: Um hmm.
S: As if you went back the way a vantage point might look in a painting
and you started to go way back and get smaller, smaller, smaller, until I was just
losing you.
G: Little kid.
S: Yes, really little. Say “hello” to that; just say “hello” to discouragement
and see where that takes you. You were going on about the external obstacles,
and when I mentioned looking at internal blocks, you went way under, almost
disappeared.
Even as he sits in front of me in his physical body, his spirit body flies
backward, as if catapulted out of the physical. To me, this means we are
tapping into a charged pain picture. The body will register this with
emotion or sweat or some immediate recognition. For Geoff this evokes
grief.
S: You went away. You just about disappeared as we talked about that, so
that sounds very charged to me.
G: Yeah, I can just feel like crying.
S: Yes, there is a lot of grief—a lot of grief in there—and it has to do with
this thing we’re talking about. It is you grabbing hold of your life and being at
the helm of it, instead of reacting to everything that comes your way.
G: Yeah.
S: It’s a big deal. That is the core of the energy we’re talking about: under
versus over, under things versus on top.
 G: Yeah.
S: Take a breath for a minute … breathe… ground.
His energetic pattern is one of holding on. As he approaches looking
deeper, his breathing stops; everything starts to look static. There is no
grounding, no release.
S: Would you begin to use a grounding cord—base of your spine to the
center of the planet—and release. I’m still watching you in that dissolved space.
Clairvoyantly he looks like a fine mist, rather than the dense form of
matter, the material form. The fears and commands he has carried forward
from childhood practically make him disappear.
S: In front of me, rather than a dense adult body, I see something almost
like mist, like a large space of just mist in the midst of that grief.
Just breathing.
It seems to me that this is the most important space to clear. The demands
of life will continue, and when you feel more in charge of them, you’ll get to
decide what you are prioritizing, how you are prioritizing, and how you want to
handle that. The demands will continue, but the internal space is yours to make
choices.
G: Yeah.
S: Let’s see your grounding cord. I don’t see a release. I do see the grief; I
do see the mist.
Grounding is the ability to release, let go, and move on. His energy
field is deeply programmed and conditioned to hold on—to get heavy—and
to be more focused on external vigilance and reacting rather than internal
release and owning his space and choices in the world.
S: I do see you as getting a little older now. Where I saw you disappear and
become mist, now I see you as a boy, a young boy. What happens when you go
to release some pain?
G: Something just comes up at me.
His voice here is almost swallowed internally. It is hard to hear him.
S: Say more—stay with that.
G: I just can’t do it. It’s like something pokes me.
S: Stay with that—say “hello” to what pokes you.
[Long silence]
G: [big sighs] My mother—she just doesn’t want me to have my power.
[Long silence]
S: Stay with that and two perspectives on that: one is her and her universe,
which in a sense is not personal - although, of course, you were very involved
with it. The other is you in your response to that. What do you see of her in her
universe? What makes a mother not want her son to have his power, to flourish?
G: Because she feels threatened.
S: Would you say more about that?
G: She feels like I am in competition with her.
I am encouraging Geoff to see his mother’s pain and distortions as her
own and begin to disconnect them from his self-image. In truth her
competition with and control over her son had little to do with him. Her
relationship with him was a projection of her pain. Her pain was too great
to see outside of her own needs.
S: Would you take a look at that and just see the level of pain she must be
in to have that experience and go against nature? Nature says the mother loves
her children and wants them to flourish, grow, and be everything they can be. It’s
the natural order of things, so something has perverted that order of things in her
universe, and that something rests on some pain.
G: Yeah, she can’t give anybody else any priority.
S: As much as you can, use a grounding cord—go ahead and release. Of
course, as a child with somebody doing that with you, anyone would take it
personally. We’re affected by it, and we’re reactive to it. We succumb to it.
Now as an adult, years later, years after she’s deceased, as you look at that
and just see where she was stuck, see if you can begin to release some of where
you held this pain through your entire life.
G: Yeah, instead of just reacting, I can have a little compassion for her.
S: And you can know that what’s coming from her isn’t personal. It’s not
about you.
G: No, it’s about everybody.
S: It’s about her own inner tantrum. She’s fighting the world. It isn’t giving
her what she wants. It may not even be clear what she wants the world to give
her.
G: The only thing she can accept is absolute undivided attention—anything
less than that is a threat.
This has become internalized as a core issue for Geoff. He has to give
away his attention, he was not allowed to pay attention to his own needs,
this evoked competition and anger in his mother. In present-time this
translates as not owning his time, attention and priorities. It is a deep lesson
- that we choose where we place our attention.
S: So say “hello” to that. You are somebody who has raised children. When
children are two or three or four, they say, “Mommy, look at this. I’m jumping”,
“I’m sitting, Daddy. Look at this. I’m smiling.” There is a time when a child
needs to be the center of the universe. There are ages where that is completely
appropriate.
G: Yeah.
S: And then it isn’t appropriate beyond a certain point. We can’t give an
adult that moment-to-moment-to-moment attention.
G: So something must have happened to her.
S: Something got stuck in that need for validation.
G: Very early on.
S: Yes. And you don’t even have to know what that is, but it can help you
to not take her stuff personally—that she needed something from you that you
couldn’t give or that she needed you not to be fully you is not your problem.
G: Right.
S: It’s her problem, and you can’t solve that one. It would take you a
lifetime, and that wouldn’t do it.
G: Certainly not at that age when I was so strongly affected by her need for
that.
S: I’m actually watching almost a grounding cord. I can see something
start to release. I’m starting to observe some energy that’s been static coming
into movement from the first chakra, the base of the spine. Can you feel that?
As he starts to understand that his mother’s wounding and resulting
needs for attention and control were about her, he begins to relax, to release.
G: Yeah, I can actually. The key has been to have a little compassion for
her situation, so I could disentangle myself from the reactivity I have with her.
S: Yeah, and compassion really is seeing her.
G: Oh, that’s why she’s that way.
S: She’s holding pain that she’s not released - and she isn’t going to. And
of course, it’s not up to us to make others heal themselves. That is a personal
choice.
G: It’s sad.
S: So, notice that this is what we have been looking at in relation to the
intention of the session—what about this boat? What stops this boat from
happening? I want to keep making the energetic connections. When you set an
intention, everything that happens, no matter how far-reaching it seems, is
related to the intention. Everything is part of the answer to the question: “What
blocks this project from progressing?”
G: Um hmm…It seems like for me, everybody else’s need has had priority.
The only time I was really able to set my own priorities is when I was living
alone and just had nobody else’s needs in front of me. I get distracted by other
people’s needs.
S: Yes.
 G: And unable to keep my focus.
S: Close your eyes and breathe. Begin to let the earth energy run… When
you talked about that—it’s hard for you to have a focus when you’re distractible
and other people’s focuses seem to pull you- what I watched is almost as if your
energy dropped down to the floor. As if it slid out of your body and just got
down to the floor. I’d like you to use a clairvoyant tool now.
Imagine a rose in front of you. Don’t think it up; just let it appear. A rose
that represents this thing of giving priority to everyone else and losing focus.
Just let the rose represent that and tell me if you get an image. What does it look
like?
Using a clairvoyant image of a rose helps us to get the thinking mind
out of the way in order to have a direct experience of the energetic dynamic.
It does not matter in what form the image appears – as an unusual rose or
even another image or perhaps just a color.
G: I see a dark, purplish red.
S: Just a color, or does it have form?
G: It’s just a color, like a blob on my left and above it, there’s a little
corona of reddish violet, not dark like the main area.
S: Let’s start with asking the main area to speak. What does it represent in
this regard of you giving up your focus for everyone else’s focus?
G: I don’t see it saying much of anything.
S: Right. Go underneath that.
I always go deeper than “I don’t know” or “I don’t see anything”.
Beneath that response will be important information.
G: Why, why? I’m just hearing that word “why.”
S: Why what?
G: Why what? [Pause] Why should I be the one that holds up the
universe?
S: Yes. And who is that “Why should I be the one who holds up the
universe?” addressed to? Who are you asking?
G: I think I’m asking myself.
S: OK. Would you then ask yourself to answer?
G: “Because you’re the only one that has the ability.” I don’t see that as
true. But in the universe when I was a child, it might have been.
S: OK. Would you feel your back? Anything going on in your back?
This is a clairvoyant reading. I see his energy darkened around his
back so I am drawing his attention to it.
G: I felt like I wasn’t aware of my back until you mentioned it. It’s like I
was leaning forward away from it.
 S: As you tune into it, just notice whatever you do.
[Long silence—he’s shifting around in his seat.]
G: A heaviness, the weight of my family.
S: What do you physically notice as you align yourself more comfortably
front to back? More balanced front to back.
G: Well, I just don’t have that tension in my back. I’m a lot more here.
Generally our back represents the past and our front represents the
future. He was holding on to old energy that simply released with a simple
“hello”. The insight from the pattern had been gleaned and the weight was
no longer needed.
S: What does it feel like to be more here?
G: I can feel more of my body, physically.
S: And what’s that like for you?
G: It’s good.
S: I notice that you keep wanting to just dissolve into this almost hypnotic
space. I look at you, and sometimes you look dense in the sense of clear and
present. And then all of a sudden, you’re dissolved. Then sometimes, you’re
back a little, and then you dissolve. How much of you is in what I’m calling
hypnotic energy? Just use a gauge from zero to one hundred.
Here I am referring to hypnotic energy as programming or commands
that are stored in our unconscious. They have a controlling effect upon our
beliefs and behavior until they are brought forth to conscious awareness and
discerned as truth or a lie.
G: Thirty-five percent.
S: Say “hello” to that hypnotic energy and just ask it to speak. What
happens?
G: [He becomes very quiet, sighing.] It’s just easier.
S: Say what you mean by “easier.”
G: Easier than the pain of the moment, feeling the distress of my mother,
feeling overwhelmed.
S: The only thing about it is it doesn’t get you to build a boat.
G: No, it doesn’t.
S: So if that wasn’t an issue and it was just easier and didn’t conflict with
your goal that you say is number one priority, then no problem. But I’m hearing
that there is a conflict here that is not working for you. You have a project
you’ve wanted to do for so long—number one priority above your business,
family, politics—all these things that are so important to you.
G: Yeah.
S: It’s even more important, and it’s not happening.
 G: Um hmm…yeah.
S: Put up a rose for this hypnotic energy. The thing about what I’m calling
hypnotic energy, which makes your energy field look sort of gray and fuzzy,
rather than clear, is that in hypnotic energy you are very programmable. People
get hypnotized to be programmed for all kinds of things, like, “You will stop
smoking, or you will lose weight.”
So, hypnotic energy—as you sit in that partially hypnotic unconscious
energy—makes you programmable. There is no filter there or consciousness
with which to discern your truth, so words come into your field like commands
rather than communication.
This is the essence of what I refer to as hypnotic energy. When he sits
in the gray – semiconscious state – communication comes right into his
space as someone else’s command. In the consciously aware state, someone
else’s thoughts and perceptions can be filtered through our own
discernment.
G: Yeah.
S: It’s like anesthesia.
G: Right.
S: And when you’re programmable, it’s going to be hard for you to access
your will above your mother’s will—your mother who is in competition with
you.
G: Um hmm…Right!
S: And in present time, what that means is that all kinds of people become
your mother.
G: Um hmm…yeah…um.
S: And in the present time, when all these people become your mother, you
don’t actually see them. You project her; you see her in them.
G: Yeah, right.
S: It makes you less available; you have pain filters. Take a look at a rose
that represents this hypnotic energy in you, this thirty five percent. As you look
at the rose, would you feel the effect inside your body? Where do you feel it?
What do you feel?
G: Different levels, but there’s one that goes to the heart protector, the
pericardium.
S: What do you feel there in the pericardium?
G: An electric pain, a seizure kind of thing, a quickening, a grabbing.
S: Say “hello” to that and ask, “What is this? Who is this?”
G: I feel it; I recognized it in her [his mother] right off. She would jump
when you look at her sometimes.
 S: Yes. So you’re holding that pain that is hers.
G: Her. anxiety
When we have been programmed and invaded by someone so deeply,
we can experience their physical symptoms in our own body as if they were
our own.
S: Put an image of a rose out in front of you. Allow the rose to come into
you and absorb any of this electric energy that belongs to her, so that it can be
returned. When the rose is full take it out of your space and destroy it. And at the
same time, notice if you have any resistance to doing this. Is there anything you
choose to hold on to?
G: Well, underneath this, there’s kind of a sickening feeling.
S: Say more about that.
G: In the stomach, in the abdomen
This is where Geoff holds all his weight. He typically refers to his body
in the third person, which reveals his lack of ownership.
S: Would you repeat that? It’s hard to hear your words.
G has a way of swallowing his words so his voice goes inward rather
than projecting out.
G: Toward the abdomen.
S: Ask the sickening feeling to speak—what is it? We’re talking about your
third chakra right now. We’re talking about energy coming in that’s very dark,
that’s whirling around that chakra.
G: Um hmm…yeah.
S: This is your personal power center and that’s what we’ve really been
talking about this whole time.
The third chakra is the source of personal power—the ability to align
your life to your own path and purpose as opposed to allowing someone
else’s control energy to direct your life. The result of having someone else
control your energy is often the accumulation of unconscious energy in your
space.
S: Your personal power and where you give it up to your mother, even
though she’s been dead for some time.
G: Yeah.
S: The early infant needs of hers and the energy and attention she
demanded from you as a child has followed you through your life. See if you can
stay conscious, even through that hypnotic energy, and see if you can ground
with it and feel your feet on the earth.
[Silence]
S: Then, as you look at your third chakra, tell me any images, awareness,
or thoughts that come up.
G: I just feel blown apart, that’s all.
S: Would it be all right with you if I communicate what I’m seeing now?
G: Absolutely!
There are moments where Geoff’s energy goes into a deep, swirling
unconsciousness, as if he’d been knocked out. I get images of him as far
back as the womb. His father was in World War II. He had sent his mother
away from where they had lived for safety as the war progressed. She left
the area during her pregnancy with Geoff. All of the emotions, turmoil, and
rage that she went through during the rest of the pregnancy are deeply
imprinted in Geoff’s unconscious. He goes into swirling, hypnotized states
through the session, as he “lights up”- that is, he touches some of this
unconsciousness. A few years into the war his father was “blown up” at sea.
S: I’m seeing black, swirling energy, and I’m seeing you as a boy almost
drowning—going down, down, down. Only your arms are up, and you’re trying
to stay up. It’s a very forceful yell, trying to stay up, but the energy is pulling
you down. Although there is a lot of energy, I see that there is in you a place
that’s screaming and very actively wants to survive. Say “hello” to that, the place
in you wanting to survive, in the third chakra.
[Pause]
S: As I sit here looking at you, your face and body come more into focus
again; that fuzzy quality disappears. Can you feel that?
G: I can feel something going on. Yeah
S: That’s you and the focus of your life force. It’s in past time because it’s
screaming to stay alive—but it’s vital.
Geoff has a very strong life force even with all of the energetic
challenges.
[Long silence]
S: And what are you noticing now?
G: Just a kind of spaciness.
S: Yes. Say “hello” to the grounding. I’m watching that you are running the
earth energy more in your right leg than your left.
G: Um hmm.
S: Something else is going on in your left leg.
G: Yeah.
S: Say “hello” to your left leg. What’s going on there? What’s blocking it?
I don’t see any earth energy running through there, and it seems to be running
effortlessly in your right leg.
G: I feel that difference.
 S: What do you notice in your left leg?
G: Kind of a pain.
S: Let the pain speak.
G: Like arthritis or something.
[Long silence]
S: Arthritis is a stiffness. It’s where things get rigid, get held. So ask the
arthritis to speak. What is here?
G: I first saw it as my leg tucked under me, like almost cut off from the
side, like I didn’t inhabit it—the left side.
S: Say more.
Always go deeper.
G: It’s as if I’ve been struck in the face, the shoulder.
S: And were you? Have you been struck?
G: I’m sure I was, slapped, yes.
S: How much of your energy is tied up in those early slaps or that
particular slap?
G: Good amount—hmm…thirty-eight percent.
S: Ask that thirty-eight percent what it’s holding on to those slaps for? That
must have been a much younger time.
G: Hmm…that’s what I get.
S: What do you mean?
G: That’s the attention I get.
S: I see.
G: That’s my love substitute.
S: So you value it—crumbs, whatever you can get.
G: Yup.
S: Take a look with your present-time eyes, wisdom, intelligence and
perspectives. We’ve been talking about the third chakra: dark energy and your
screams to stay afloat there. Many of our early criticisms and self-image beliefs
formed around these criticisms are stored in this chakra, the third chakra.
G: Yeah
S: So, using the grounding is very, very powerful, because the old stuff that
no longer serves us in our life doesn’t get you the boat. The grounding is the tool
where we start to release. We disengage the charge on a memory from the cells,
the organs, and the body. That memory then releases from our physical body and
just goes into our memory banks. Of course, we can remember everything, but it
doesn’t have to be charged, causing a knee-jerk reaction in the body. It doesn’t
have to cause us to stop moving toward our goals. Does that make sense?
Grounding has been the most difficult tool for Geoff. It has been
controlled by all the hypnotic energy we have been uncovering.
G: Yeah, yeah.
S: Grounding is the tool that takes the charge out of the cells. It transmutes
it from cellular memory into just pure memory—we no longer need to be
reactive to that memory. Now I’m seeing some grounding; it’s a vague tool for
you.
G: Yeah. [Sigh]
S: What happens to your mother if you ground?
Of course she is no longer alive, but clairvoyantly I can watch the
effect upon her through time.
G: Well, she would get very angry in those days.
She would react as if he weren’t allowed to feel anything different
from what she was feeling. This is the energy he would experience as a
command.
S: And then what happens to you if she’s very angry?
G: She whacks me.
S: OK. Take a breath.
G: She’s very sensitive. She knows what is going on with me; she’s very
psychically perceptive.
S: Yes. And what keeps you still engaged in that delicate survival balance
with her?
G: It’s what I know.
S: It’s not the only thing you know.
G: That’s true. [Big sigh!]
S: What keeps you choosing that as priority number one, coming before
the building of the boat?
G: Hmm, good question.
S: You’re fading into that unconscious or hypnotic space again. Can you
feel when you drift there?
It is important for him to recognize when he changes his energy. If he
can begin to become conscious of this change and feel this internally, he can
begin to have a choice regarding where his energy is focused.
G: I was feeling something. I was just standing back and looking at what
was going on here.
S: Yes. Go ahead and do that. [Pause] You’re getting a little energy in your
left leg.
G: Yeah, I can feel that.
S: A little bit of energy is starting to run. Acknowledge your leg and give it
permission to join the group—the body.
 G: The group. [Laughs]
S: [Laughing] The other leg, the arms, the torso, the head…
G: [Laughing] Yeah, the family of my body.
S: Say “hello” for a moment to cosmic energy. [Pause] Your whole
alignment changed when I said that.
G: Yeah.
S: You got into vertical alignment – heaven and earth; you got centered.
The vertical alignment is when we get informed by heaven and earth—
our path. We begin to move out of being controlled by horizontal everyday
programming. In horizontal alignment we are very programmable. We are
connected to what everyone else thinks and wants for us. In vertical
alignment we are guided by our truth and connected to nature.
G: Well, just with the previous remark—the family of my body—I started
collecting myself, unifying and aligning into that cosmic energy.
S: Yes, you looked completely different when I said cosmic energy. You
suddenly looked like someone who is at the helm.
G: Yeah. Um hmm…that’s true, yeah.
S: It’s important to know, when you look at a tool that you don’t use, and
recognize that you feel a certain way because you’re not engaging that, you can
go, “Oh, I can just run cosmic energy.”
G: I can do that again. Yeah, when I go under I can use that.
[Both of us laughing]
S: Yes. You can use cosmic energy.
Cosmic energy—the energy of the cosmos, of guidance, and of spiritual
information coming in through the crown chakra and fueling the body.
S: Better now than never.
Breathing, breathing
Just sit in that space. It activates your energy in present time, and suddenly,
instead of seeing these holes and screams and all that, I see you in your life. I see
you in your very capable intelligence and in the connection to your work in the
world. Your political work, your agricultural work, your heart and mind and
manifestation…all connected.
G: Um hmm (Very energized, available) … Yeah
S: For a moment, just feel the discrepancy between the feeling of being
connected to yourself, aligned to your purpose, and the victim space. Victim is
also a big part of the third chakra, so in many ways, you’re working third chakra
energy—your ability to have your will, your ability to own your priorities.
G: Yes.
S: When you have this cosmic energy running, you engage your upper
chakras—your clarity of thought, your guidance, inner knowing and your path: a
bigger picture. When you don’t engage the cosmic energy, you tend to stay in the
lower chakras, and then the wounding that’s in there gets validated and
amplified. The energy field collapses, and the victim energy, the reactive energy
takes over. The past-time energy and what I’ve been calling the hypnotic energy
become amplified.
G: Yeah, I can see that.
S: So just let this cosmic energy run. As you run it old imprints and energy
are just releasing and flying out of your aura. You are collecting yourself.
[Silence]
S: Say “hello” to yourself as a spirit—just say “hello, hello, hello.” As a
spirit, what was the first glimpse you had—and don’t be logical about this—
what was the first glimpse you had that this was going to be your mother? This
person with all her stuff?
I am switching gears here to help Geoff see that he chose his mother
prior to conception for the particular challenges he would face. The
challenges reflect the kind of growth he wants to experience in this
incarnation. This information is not obtained by thinking. It comes
immediately. Before we have a chance to think.
G: You mean when I was coming into the incarnation?
S: Yes. Was it before you were conceived? Was it somewhere down the
line after conception?
G: Yes, it was before conception. I looked at her when she was in a very
happy space and she looked great, and I thought, “Wow! This would be a great
mother.”
S: Yes.
Even here he believes he was betrayed, fooled—a victim even before
conception.
G: And I felt fooled because the mother that I got didn’t look like that
mother I saw in the beginning.
S: Go on…so you were betrayed from step one?
G: I guess so, yes.
S: I’d like you to take a look deeper. In our incarnations, we have things
we want to learn; we have things we want to grow with. They may be emotional
things, intellectual things, interactive things. They may be whatever they are—
talents we want to grow. I’d like you to look once again. Prior to conception
when you were a spirit preparing to choose a body, you saw her in a great space.
G: Yeah.
S: And her talents and extraordinary beauty—she was known for her
beauty.
G: She also had a nurturing quality there—that was absent later on.
S: She was getting fed, acknowledged for her beauty at the time—validated
extremely.
G: That’s true; she had my father in her life.
S: Right. Would you look deeper and see if you saw anything more than
just her beauty? I want you to find the place where you weren’t fooled.
As beings, our perceptions and consciousness are not confined to linear
time. Even before conception, we can see ahead to events in our lives. We
know what sort of situations we might face, and we have a choice in how we
view these, how we handle them.
G: Umm.
S: You’ve been attached to this victim space where you believe you were
betrayed. It all happened to you. You were shown this gorgeous, nurturing lady
who turned out to be a witch.
G: [Laughs]
S: Look a little deeper from that preconception space. There you go… I see
you seeing more of her.
G: Yeah, it’s like a dog bit me.
S: From the place where the dog bit you—prior to conception—you’re not
her son yet, would you see your choice to take her as your mother? It would look
like certain kinds of growth you’d get or opportunities for growth you’d get
because she’s your mother—the kind of life experiences that await you, given
that she is who she is.
G: Yep.
S: What kinds of opportunities? What’s the general sense you get, looking
from there?
G: My heart getting eaten up and spit out and being able to roll with that
one.
S: Yes. Have you rolled with that one?
G: Not real well.
S: So you haven’t found a space where your heart feels full?
G: In some ways no. In some ways yes; in some ways no.
S: What are the other growth opportunities in having her as your mother—
just keep talking—whatever you see.
G: Well, it’s kind of the nature of human life.
S: What’s the nature of human life?
G: It’s not complete. There’s always missing pieces. Everything is—all of
the imperfections help us move on. If we were all perfect, it wouldn’t be life.
 S: So what are the other opportunities you’re seeing from this perspective
—this preconception perspective, the opportunities for growth?
G: Just the opportunity to let go of an attachment.
This has been the most difficult thing for Geoff—letting go of
anything.
S: I’m going to paraphrase this and underline it three times: the opportunity
to learn about this concept of letting go.
G: Yeah.
S: Very big! It’s a core picture, core energy in you, and it has everything to
do with a grounding cord—why that’s difficult—the holding on, holding on, and
all the early events that are sixty-five years old, sixty years old, seventy years
old.
Holding on.
Tune in as we talk about the holding in you. What is the commitment you
have to hold all of this? The commitment or belief. It’s about static versus
movement.
G: Um hmm.
S: That has everything to do with grounding, which is about release and
letting earth energy nourish you, allowing nourishment in.
G: Yeah.
S: For the heart, you talk about it being partly healed—it is your choice to
allow nourishment in.
G: Yeah. [sigh]
S: Just tune into the balance of static versus movement in you. Just kind of
go back and forth. Feel where there’s static for a moment—energy not moving,
energy sitting in old life experiences—and then tune into the movement of
energy.
The flow of release—that was then, this is now; here is present-time; it is
the availability to life. Allow that hypnotic energy to come up and release,
reminding you that the cosmic energy is very helpful for you in that regard. It is
easier for you to tune into that than to your grounding.
Tune back into this static energy that’s old, the filters through which you
engage life—past-time filters. Then tune back into the movement, the flow of
life—release of energy—the nurturance of the earth, the healing of the earth.
Feel the guidance of the cosmos—you on your path, at the helm making
decisions that align you to your priorities. Letting this energy run. Begin to bring
in some beautiful golden suns. Golden suns, one after the other after the other,
filling in with your essence, your energy until you feel full with your present-
time light—all the light that you can bring in.
 I am trying to imprint the difference between static and movement. To
bring this to conscious awareness so he experiences this as a choice. There is
no victim, there is only choice.
Let your light shine.
Beautiful golden suns.
Grounding, earth, cosmos.
Let these energies be real, palpable.
These are the tools of internal movement, light, energy, and you.
When you’re all full up, take a few deep breaths and just stand up and
stretch.
G: [Big sigh] Oh.
Geoff will have ongoing work. His work is to begin to track himself in
daily life, his priorities, his holding on to past-time patterns. It will be his
ongoing work to notice where he is projecting his mother on to present-time
relationships, situations, and choices. He can begin to track who controls
where he places his attention and to whom he is giving up his seniority,
especially in his third chakra – his will. This is the fierce work of healing.
 CHAPTER 3

Angelica: Thirty-Five-Year-Old Woman

Finding Spiritual Space

Gazing

What if a thought
from a think in my soul
traveled me away?

Gazing you glory

God in your eyes
gifted me today

Spirals and stairways

ancestors too
singing in your cells
 Past and future
time on a curve
ringing sweet like bells

Miracle marvelous
mystic and full
life inside a gaze

Blessings from Heaven

cobalt and blue
fly me through the haze

— from Unwinding the Soul,

by Susan Feinbloom
Angelica is a woman who is evolved in her spiritual abilities. Clairvoyantly, I see
that her brilliance is apparent in her aura; however, interspersed in her aura are
darker energies of control. Her challenge is in bringing her self-image into
alignment with her competence and beauty. In this session she is at the threshold
of reclaiming her own voice. Angelica has been trying to work her own healing
and growth in an invalidating context, which she is addressing as we begin.
SUSAN: Why don’t you start with telling me what’s going on? What’s the
big picture of what you want? We will follow the train of what’s currently
happening, and let’s just put it into context. Let’s place our attention on the big
picture to give us some direction.
The big picture for Angelica is that she is a highly developed spirit and
knows her truth, even in the context of challenging circumstances and even
when she is not acting on it.
ANGELICA: I just felt that…well, I brought this up with my husband: “Do
you want to be married?” And he said, “No, but I don’t have enough money to
move out.” He also told me he never felt that I supported him in his music and
that he gave me my goal—marriage. He gave me what I wanted, and now he
should have what he wants.
S: Which is?
A: Music and support in that area. But I just couldn’t resolve it.
S: Question on that: when you asked him if he wanted to be married, in
your heart of hearts, what did you think would be the answer—the true answer?
A: I knew he didn’t want to be married. Something had changed. It was
just like being punished—you know, stressed and unhealthy.
S: So it’s always looked that way to you, and you’re plummeting because
of it. You’ve been trying to do things, solve things within that context [the
marriage], but the context is not lending itself to healing. There’s blame and
anger—many emotional cross currents, and in that context, you are trying to heal
your self-image.
Marriage is a profound commitment. In the context of marriage we
are witness to one another’s lives and a mirror constantly reflecting back to
us who we are. It is very difficult to heal a diminished self-image in a
marriage with someone who doesn’t want to be married.
A: I’ve gotten to the point where I feel more certain about it than ever. I
can’t fathom or believe it’s got any positive function beyond this point. I have a
hard time believing that it’s all my fault.
S: That is never the case.
A: And where I find it very strong in terms of not being my fault is when
he’s saying, “Well, I don’t have enough money, and I like this place. So let’s just
work it, deal with it.” I just find that’s not my problem, that’s not my reality. You
know, there must be something he wants from me, something he gets from being
married to me, it’s not all this bad stuff. There’s something he wants from me.
So, I feel very certain about that situation. I was certain about the decision a
couple of weeks ago.
S: What’s the decision?
A: I just think I need to move out. I do. Two things I want are to be happy
in my self-image and be happy in my creative workspace. I try and distract and
go into the creative work space when this other kettle is boiling. So, it’s two big
things, and I try to separate them out.
S: It would be a good thing to separate it one step at a time. If you think
about separation and try to work on your self-image at the same time, it’s
difficult. This is the time to figure out material things, finances, material things.
If that’s the decision and it’s about to happen, then you might need to focus on
reality issues. And then in the new space that you create, where there isn’t all the
blame, that is the time to work on your self-image. It’s been tough to work that
in the context of the two of you. It’s difficult to see how one could flourish in
your present context.
A: Yeah, I always feel a little intimidated when I get freelance jobs. I have
to hide it from him. It puts him in pain [to see her have financial and creative
abundance]. I think, “OK, that’s just my imagining.” It’s real strong. Even the
herbal school, the first day I went to school, he was so in my space.
Angelica is a creative woman. She has been studying plants and herbs
to grow her base of knowledge. Here she is referring to her husband’s
competition and jealousy when she follows her path of abundance in
learning and finances. It stimulates pain pictures, old wounding in him
about his inability to get his goals.
S: So what do you think that’s about?
A: Well, I’m getting a goal and he’s not. This is his “that’s no fair” or
whatever. I just feel stopped when I’m getting a goal I want. I should be waiting
to give him something or give him support. It’s like he needs me to get his next
goal or to give him the “oomph” he needs to create. I’m getting sick; my body’s
sick.
S: How do you feel about the marriage? Is it a marriage that you want?
A: No.
S: That’s the most important question to ask yourself. Is that just a question
that you verbalized today? “Do you want the marriage?” Did you have this
conversation today?
Her focus has been on what he has said and wants and her reactions to
it. Here we are switching focus to what she deeply wants—coming out of
reaction, out of reactivity, out of victimhood into the “creator” space.
A: Yes, yeah [crying]. I think I was the calmest I’ve been. You know, I said
to him “Well, we can work it out, as comfortable a transition as possible. I can’t
be here anymore, watching you be unhappy, watching you stare at the TV every
night and ignore this situation. Something has to change, and I can’t do it.”
S: Don’t undermine that; it’s important. Who wants to live with someone
you thought was your husband who does not want the marriage, isn’t feeling
good about the marriage, yet doesn’t want to move because of finances?
A: I just got used to being stuck because I couldn’t give a clear spirit
“hello.” Instead I’m superficial and play it safe, and I’m not as free a spirit.
[Crying]
Here are all the negative self-images that have kept her from “standing
on her own two feet” and moving forward on her own behalf. Self-blame
and low self-esteem have been obscuring the issues. These negative self-
images and doubts block clarity. Spiritual comparisons, assumptions,
projections, and judgments have left her stuck. Judging herself as
superficial and not a free spirit or not an evolved enough psychic have put a
freeze on her ability to move forward and make decisions on her own
behalf.
S: Just take a breath.
[Lots of crying]
S: I think it’s great that everything has been verbalized. It looks as if that
has always been there, but nobody has verbalized it. You’ve totally been the
effect of the energy that he does not want the marriage. Nobody’s daring to
verbalize it because you both realize these words will mean the end of this
arrangement.
It is not an easy or light task to end a marriage. She is coming into her
power and her voice.
A: We couldn’t verbalize it because then we thought, “Oh, we’re not good
enough psychics.” Oh, God, I don’t care anymore what people think. I use to
think I failed, but I don’t care. [Crying]
It is an assumption that a “good psychic” can make any arrangement
work out. This is just another judgment she has used to keep herself stuck.
S: It’s a big success to complete something that’s done. It’s a courageous
space.
A: I know I felt so strong two weeks ago, and I felt so right. I loved myself,
and I was so clear. And then he has a way of twisting things.
S: You made the decision.
 A: I said, “I can’t. This is not right.”
S: The challenge at this point is to come from the place of looking inside
for your truth and then verbalizing it, as opposed to asking for his truth and
allowing that to have priority without honoring and checking inward. Big
challenge for you. Then you get to know where you stand in the world, as
opposed to taking reactive stands.
This is the heart of psychic psychotherapy: to come out of arranging
one’s life according to what others want and expect of you, and to step into
your own truth, guidance and connection to heaven and earth.
A: Yes, maybe that’s where I hold back. [Sighs]
S: Is there some part of you that’s relieved?
A: Yes, very much so.
S: Is your place big enough for one of you to stay and get a roommate?
A: Yes, it’s that we both love the place so much. I don’t know how we
would give it up. He wants to stay, but he couldn’t afford it.
I did the timeline you suggested from our previous session, looking for
where there were the bursts of creative energy, and I got to several ages. And the
one thing I noticed about all of those bursts was that I was making the right
choice. I was really surprised at that; those were intentional choices.
You had me look at a timeline when there were these windows of
opportunity, so when I first looked at those, I thought, “Oh, failures. Oh, I didn’t
act on something.” And actually I acted very much on something. It just scared
other people or disappointed them.
This is a big realization for Angelica.
A: So I didn’t get all the way to this age on the timeline, and now here I
am. I think I’m doing it, so that was a good exercise.
This was an exercise to show Angelica that she has indeed made
choices in her life. These choices validated her and were avenues for her
creative expression. It is important for her to have this feedback and
acknowledge it, validate it, and grow it.
S: Just ground. Big changes in store. The hardest time is when things are
up in front of you, but nothing’s figured out. What a blessing for you to realize
that when you make choices that are true for you, your creativity “turns on.”
A: I need to sit more upright. I feel like I’m slouching. [Long silence]
S: Just let your grounding cord work. From the base of your spine to the
center of the planet.
It is very important to keep our energy channels in motion when we
are challenged or in pain. There is a tendency at this time to freeze up.
When energy is in motion or grounding, we will move through the situation
and find our way. When energy turns static, we will just hold on, get stuck,
and stay in the same place. I am clairvoyantly watching her get her energy
moving. As energy moves we become less susceptible to hearing other
people’s point of view as a command for us.
S: Your grounding extends down a few feet, and there’s a lot of
interruption in it. Sometimes other people put energy and attention, conscious or
not, in our grounding to prevent or control our ability to release energy. This has
the effect of controlling our ability to grow, to move on, to make new choices.
We can’t create the new without releasing the old. Grounding is a simple but
profound tool.
I am looking clairvoyantly at the flow of energy in Angelica’s space.
S: Some people, family, it looks like have energy in your ownership of the
spiritual tool of grounding.
[Silence. She is going deeper into meditation. About five minutes.]
A: [Sighs!]
Through her meditation practice, she has developed the ability to go
deeply inward.
S: Bring up the earth energy into your feet, through your legs. Now you’re
starting to get that sense of movement inside. Do you notice that difference?
A: Yeah.
S: What does it feel like in you when that starts going?
This gives her a place of reference to track internally when energy is
running. If she creates an internal reference she can reproduce this
transition from static to running energy, that is, she can return energy to
movement.
A: Warm.
S: Does it feel emotionally comforting? It looks like a translucent space
where energy can go through and not get stuck. It’s a movement. You can handle
the pain because it’s moving.
Let the cosmic energy come in. I’m looking at the first layer of your aura—
the energy body as it looks closest in to the skin—and there’s a layer against
your skin that wants to push in, push in tighter than your skin. It’s dark, and it
has a force to it.
I am reading Angelica’s aura. She is a woman who uses her psychic
abilities, meditates, and can move and transform energy. So it is safe to
communicate exactly what I am seeing.
S: Does that mean anything to you—that first layer?
A: There’s like a pain sheath. I see it; it’s very diminishing.
S: Look at a rose that represents your first chakra. We’ll work on this—it’s
really “lit up” from the changes you are looking at.
The first chakra has a relationship to the first layer of the aura, the
layer closest to the body.
“Lit up” means that pain—a painful memory or new pain—has been
stimulated and is very raw and visible at the moment. When a painful
memory becomes “lit up” or visible, it is because it is ready to release. At
this time we have a choice to release this energy or suppress it.
S: Big changes. How much friendship do you have in your marriage? I
know you live together in the same house. How much fun do you have? How
much of your time is fun time?
A: About twenty percent seems like the average.
S: How much of you believes he’s right—whatever that means, don’t even
analyze it?
A: Ten percent.
S: How much seniority do you give up to him? How much do you take his
word for what’s true, what’s real—above your own truth?
A: Ninety percent.
S: Yes, that’s what I was looking at. How come you believe he’s right ten
percent, but you give up ninety percent seniority? What’s wrong with this
picture? What is in that eighty percent discrepancy?
A: It’s like a polite picture. Umm…It’s about female certainty. I have a
doubt or a fear of infringing my point of view on somebody.
Here we are getting deeper. Angelica has a beautiful, flowing, female
energy and an imprint—a program within her psyche not to let that shine.
The belief is that it would be an “infringement” to shine her light. This is
very connected to early imprints and beliefs about being female.
S: You’re infringing upon what?
A: My life, my decision, my perception—I do it all the time—so. [Laughs]
S: That’s an interesting statement—imposing my perceptions, infringing
my perceptions on someone.
Note how this reflects her low self-esteem and her need to be invisible,
not to make waves. Also how this reveals her conscious and unconscious
beliefs about the feminine.
A: It’s like I’m trying to accommodate the male or accommodate the male
perception over mine.
S: Tell me about your dad.
A: I don’t think he had enough space. Maybe that’s why I do this. He
always kind of hid away. He was a teacher. Umm…I don’t think he was ever
happy, and he hid from the family. His limits affected the whole family, whatever
he perceived. I think he was working a lot of fears and tried to hide them. So I
think I was always trying to give him enough space. He was out of his body a lot
and volatile. He never hit or anything; it’s more like he was trapped.
She has been talking about how in her family of origin she gave up
seniority to the male – her father. Here again in her marriage she is doing
the same thing – giving ninety percent seniority to her husband even when
she perceives him ‘right’ only ten percent of the time. I now switch the focus
back to her, looking at female strength, energy and brilliance.
S: Would you put up a rose for you? Take a look at it. Tell me what you
see.
A: I see a lot of warm colors: pinks, purples, fuchsias, and a real strong
white, like tendons in the rose.
S: What are they—the white tendons?
In working psychically, I aim to get past the thinking mind. The
thinking mind knows what it already knows. It goes in circles. In order to
get past thinking, we have to bypass it by going deeper. So we ask the rose to
talk, and we listen, rather than think. This is a skill that can be developed.
A: It’s about structure, like the ligaments are the structure to give
movement to the body. It’s an energy he, my dad, gave to me. The male gives
structure to a woman so that she has movement, but it’s contained.
Here is the belief revealed. The male gives structure, but in return the
female contains her creativity, her brilliance and her light.
S: Put up a rose for your husband.
A: I just see how similar his energy is, his dynamics are. It’s a blue rose. I
see the same kind of tendon attached to a very dark energy—possibly a being.
Angelica is seeing that there may be a being, an entity attached to him.
Sometimes this is family energy.
S: Anything happening to your rose when you put up your husband’s rose?
Put the roses face to face?
A: Yeah, mine becomes whiter.
S: What does that mean?
A: I’m trying to give him structure, so he can release. And I’m trying to
give him… structure is the best word.
S: Anything happening to his rose as it faces yours?
A: It’s not going to change. [Laughs, then sighs]
S: What happens if your rose says to him, “I don’t want to be married
anymore?”
A: That cloud comes right into his space—that being.
S: The one that was behind his rose?
 A: It completely comes in.
S: Into his rose?
A: Yes.
S: And what happens to your rose?
A: I become more female. I see all the pinks again—just softer female
energy.
S: What happens to his rose and your rose if he says, “I don’t want to be
married anymore?”
A: His rose gets lighter, and the being backs up again. But it doesn’t ever
disconnect.
S: So when each of you says, “I don’t want to be married,” there’s a
healing?
A: Yeah.
S: Does that surprise you?
A: No.
S: What happens to his rose when it says, “I don’t want to be married, but I
can’t afford a place alone so let’s just keep the arrangement as it is?”
A: That being comes right in again.
S: What happens to your rose?
A: The pink kind of gets shocked, or it’s thrown off.
S: I don’t know if ambivalence is the right word, but I see a willingness to
give up seniority and say, “Oh, OK.”
Using the symbol of the rose, Angelica gets a direct and energetic
feedback about the dynamics of her marriage. A feedback about the choices
both she and her husband have been making. She witnesses in front of her
spiritual eyes what is healing and what is destructive for both of them.
A: Right.
S: And I see that it makes a kind of static, a rocking back and forth that
doesn’t go anywhere. And its voice is founded on fear.
A: Yeah, um hmm.
S: In that context of him saying, “I don’t want to be married, but I want to
stay living together,” would you watch your rose? And would you find the pink,
even with what’s going on, with some fear, with some static, with some giving
up of seniority? Would you find where your truth is in that context? Go look for
it.
A: It’s in my inner voice. My voice. It’s hearing myself when something
contradicts me like that, when he says he wants to stay living together but
doesn’t want to be married.
The fifth chakra, at the throat, is the home of the inner voice. Her
challenge has been speaking up for herself. Now she is growing into her
truth on the fifth chakra level. Many times we form the habit of accessing
one or two chakras and confine ourselves to functioning on a limited
percentage of our innate talents and abilities. Life will then offer us the
challenges we need to expand our perameters.
A: My truth is I just find nurturing words. It doesn’t come back with a
proclamation of “I don’t either” or “I do”—just nurturing truth.
S: Look at a rose now for your fifth chakra. Just see whatever you see and
tell me what you see.
A: I’m bringing truth into my fifth chakra. I use to think my fifth chakra
was my weakest. (Laughing) I had somebody laugh at me and say, “Your
weakest? You can’t have one chakra weaker than the others.”
S: I think there are chakras that we are more at home in and less at home
in. Chakras whose abilities we regularly use and others we shy away from.
A: This is one I never felt at home in.
S: Now you are accessing more of your abilities in the fifth chakra.
A: Yeah.
In life we encounter the challenges we need in order to grow ourselves
into the chakras less used, most especially those that house our greatest
talents. Our greatest challenges are in the areas of our greatest talents and
abilities. The fifth chakra is our inner voice, the telepathic guidance we
receive, our expressions of creativity into the world.
S: There are chakras where we have not yet accessed our abilities. We tend
not to seek refuge in them. I usually look to see where a person’s internal home
is. You have a refuge in your fifth chakra. You have guidance, accessibility and
availability.
A: (sighs) Oh, I like this place, the fifth chakra.
S: Are there any words that want to come forth from your fifth chakra?
Any words you’ve wanted to speak but had fear of consequences or had
unwillingness to speak for any reason?
A: (Sighs, deep breath, crying) There are some things I know. (Crying)
There are some things I know that are truths to be told, but I can’t say all of
them. It’s about wisdom on the planet. (Crying)
S: Are there some words you would like to speak?
Here Angelica begins to reveal some of her higher wisdoms and inner
knowing. Her brilliance and spiritual space have never before been spoken
and acknowledged in this way. This is a big growth step for her.
 When someone is being challenged in a growth direction—if he or she
chooses to grow, the consciousness, the psyche understands and takes leaps
before the habits of the body are changed. We call this lag time, while the
body is catching up—a growth period. The person may experience feeling
“spaced out” or even experience symptoms of a cold as the body releases old
patterns.
A: I see clear blue. Umm. I see an eclipse like the moon is in front of the
sun—lights, white lights spurting out behind the moon and lots of stars.
S: What does this mean about your fifth chakra—your inner voice, your
voice, your telepathy, your ability to communicate, to hear?
A: I’ve been learning through this relationship awareness that I’ve not used
before. That’s a new compass to give me direction. I’ve not ever used or allowed
myself to use my body, this body.
S: Bring that in, that new compass. I don’t think it’s coincidental that you
describe it as an eclipse—the moon in front of the sun with stars around. That’s a
whole lot of guidance you’re talking about. Big guidance, spacious guidance.
A: [Crying] Whew!
The moon represents the divine feminine, and the sun represents the
masculine. This is the feminine reclaiming its position in her life, front and
center.
A: There are all these wise women coming from the stars. There’s a circle
around me. [Lots of tears] They’re saying to me, “Listen,” and helping me with
the map for the next steps—like mapping things out. There’s all these secrets
like, oh, mystery, secret wisdom, being opened up.
What beautiful and extraordinary guidance she is receiving! Her
whole being is receptive.
S: Are there any words you would like to speak?
A: Hierarchy—hierarchy of beings…It seems so abstract what I’m saying.
And how much I love this being. I think there’s a hierarchy of beings. Not that
one is better than the other, but they are in different places, and I have forgotten
where I sit. I had forgotten where I sit in this hierarchy. I forgot to honor my
place. [Crying] With me honoring where my place is—I can let people be more
where they need to be.
Angelica is learning to own her brilliance and her spiritual place in the
universe.
S: As a spirit, would you step into your place in the hierarchy?
A: Yes.
S: Go ahead and sit there.
There is a long silence as she goes deeply inward and engages her
upper chakras. The upper chakras are where we go beyond the illusion that
the body is all we are. She now engages her deeper spiritual nature and
place in the universe.
A: I’m reminded of the “horn of plenty.” [Laughs] I keep seeing all these
things of comfort—food and textiles—just comfort, just bringing comfort
through these things.
S: Would you step from this hierarchy into your physical body and your
role in this world, bringing forth all the information that’s appropriate for you to
have in the body—whatever that alignment is, consciously allowing it in? Would
you look around at your present life circumstances, your relationship, that new
space it’s going into, any decisions you make, and your job? How would these
things look to you from the perspective of being in contact with, or embodying,
your spiritual awareness, spiritual truths, spiritual space, your spiritual work, and
your spirit position in the hierarchy?
It is important to connect our highest spiritual knowledge and insights
with our lives here on earth in our present-time material body.
A: Well, it’s just they helped me find this part.
She is referring to her spirit guides.
S: What energy would it take to begin to align your life with this vibration?
What would it take?
A: Water. Water to cleanse, to wash it away—this neutral, very neutral way
to do it. There’s no judgment. There’s a blessing.
S: Have you ever been to the Temple of the Souls? The Temple of the
Souls is an astral healing temple that uses the energy of water for blessings and
healings. It exists in another dimensional plane.
I mention this healing option to Angelica because she has cleared
enough levels of her own to access this place.
A: Yes, I’m just recognizing that I’ve been there, but it’s the first time I
have memory here.
S: My experience of the Temple of the Souls is that they do many water
healings. Perhaps people experience the healings in different ways. I experience
the healings as water healings—vibrational water blessings and clearings.
A: Yes.
S: I go there, and I get water clearings, water healings, fountain water
healings—just all kinds of water healings. Would you like to take a trip there?
A: I would, yes.
S: I will go into a deeper trance to guide you there for the first time, and
then you can go whenever you want. So, I’m going to be silent.
I’ll go up to my eighth chakra, and I want you to do the same. (This chakra
is above the physical body but still inside the luminous or spiritual body) I’ll just
take you there by the hand [the spiritual hand], and we’ll go up there. We’ll
spend some moments there and then come back down. We will travel above the
eighth chakra and go out of the body together.
The Temple of Souls is a healing temple in a parallel dimension. The
spirits there give healings and renewals to the spiritual or astral body. The
astral body is the template for the physical body. When a healing takes
place on the astral level there is a need for it to be integrated on the physical
level. It is important to take the time to complete the process of integration,
bringing the healing all the way into the body.
A: [Sighing. Long silence during the healing. About ten minutes.]
S: Come back to the eighth chakra. How are you doing?
A: Good. There’s still light coming in; I feel so clean on the inside.
S: The Temple of Souls is a retreat, a healing and renewal space.
A: Yeah.
S: Now look to see what it would take to manifest this place you have in
the hierarchy—this information, these truths that should be spoken—that you
want to speak.
A: [Sighing] You said what would it take?
S: Yes. What does your rose look like now in relation to bringing this forth,
bringing this through, and allowing yourself to be who you are?
A: I see a red rose. It’s new to me. It’s a very solo journey but solo with the
Supreme Being—very inward, being introspective. I’m actually being more
forthright than ever, and I have more certainty—very much, very certain, certain
as a female. And it’s very simple.
Certainty allows a person to act and manifest their truth. Life becomes
effortless in the energy of certainty, even if you later discover you made a
mistake, you can be certain of that and make appropriate changes.
S: Would you look at your immediate path in this life, immediate decisions
that are up for you that you’ve been working, and look to see if there is
information or directions available to you from this space—the high vibration
and big picture space we have been sitting in?
A: I’m not sure—not sure about this. I’m clear that I need to stay at work
for a few months until my car payments are almost done. So I have this timeline
laid out that finances are in order. And change my living space within a month,
which is also a timeline. I need to just be really clear about who I am in the next
month—that my life is about me. That’s what I see as answers and information.
It is important to bring all the psychic and high, vibrational, spiritual
work into this present-time material reality—to allow it to guide our choices
and keep our feet on the earth.
S: Can you feel, sense, and see that clarity you are vibrating at? There’s no
giving up of seniority, even if you don’t have all of the answers. No shaking in
your boots right now.
A: [Laughs] Yeah, I feel like I’m—I’m sensing going forward more than I
ever have.
S: Your answers and considerations are coming from you. You are not
shutting down and waiting to see what might arise from external opinions, from
the outside. The energy configuration you are in is very different, very different.
It is so important to validate and acknowledge our growth.
A: I used to be like this. I mean, I didn’t do it to the full range, but I acted.
I could act. I could make decisions more and act. And it’s good to get that back.
I’m getting a lot more back, a more feminine sense of it than kind of a warrior
sense of it.
S: Indeed.
A: I also notice that with this I can relax more and let more answers come,
let things come to me. That’s where I had been feeling a little deprived. I really
matched right into my mom, like the feeling, “I can never get what I want.” And
I’m going to be an old lady. I can sense a flow of give and take more easily in
the universe and with anything else I approach.
Angelica has patterns of handling her life the way her mom did, rather
than from a certainty of her own truth. It is fierce work to track and
separate out our mother’s patterns, beliefs, and imprints from our own. Her
patterns inside us can obscure ours and function as a foundation of our
existence, our thinking and unquestioned assumptions. When this is the
case, our reality and even our perceptions grow on a bed of lies, that is, on
someone else’s truth or wounding passed along through the generations.
S: Let’s look at one more thing here since you just brought up your mom.
Would you look at her? Just take a look at her and take a look at where she
vibrates at “I can never get anything I want.” Just take a look at that aspect of
her. What does it look like to you?
A: Death.
S: Can you also see in the big picture where she has choice and actually
goes toward “I can’t get what I want?” A bigger picture than where she sees
herself.
A: I can see her other energies that are moving. Maybe this is her way of
leaving the planet, how she wants to exit, because there’s a whole big, clear,
blue-green energy. [Pause] I think I’m avoiding something. [Pause] It looks like
the same pattern of “I must be wrong.” She doubts herself.
 Doubt is the opposite of certainty. In doubt, it is hard to function; it
can be crippling.
S: See the manifestation of that doubt, what it looks like in her aura, her
energy field.
A: It’s in her uterus, heart, second and fourth chakras and her pituitary
gland [emotional center, “ability to love self and others” center, female
hormonal centers]—the whole female hookup, hormonal space.
Here we see the foundation of the collapsed female self-image that
Angelica has been experiencing, where she matches her mother.
S: Would you be aware, just as you look at her and see there could be
choice here, that if she had a different vision, she could choose to be in the
vibration of doubt or not? Now apply that to yourself, where you’ve matched her
in doubt, and where you actually have choice to do that or not. Is that clear?
It is common for us to observe and match the vibrational energy and
beliefs of our mothers. Our challenge is to realize that we are doing this at
some point in our lives and to begin to discern our own truth.
A: It’s a little hazy. I’m getting there, finding the place where I vibrate at
wellness. [Laughs] It’s like it’s comfortable for her to vibrate at doubt. It’s more
comfortable for her than it is for me right now. I keep thinking that if I match her
I can enlighten her or touch her somehow—through that door, through my
female hookup to her female energy. It has to do with the belief that the energetic
line that goes through all the women’s lineages and the ovaries and female
anatomy in my family—is the only place [by matching] to speak to and help all
the women in my lineage to open up. Now [laughing], I see that doesn’t work
effectively.
The female hookups are the energetic connection in women between
the ovaries, the uterus, and the pituitary and pineal glands. It is a creative
channel for females.
S: So coming back to you, can you just experience the choice you have to
go into doubt or to sit in your certainty, your truth, your guidance, your space in
the hierarchy? Notice the little switch that brings you to one place or the other. In
other words, notice how you do that.
A: Oh, OK.
S: So when you find yourself stuck, you can transform that if you choose
to. Now fill in with your own truth, your own brilliance. Let your light shine;
that is the most powerful way to guide anyone—the females in your lineage or
anyone else. Just let your radiant light shine and blessings will flow from you.
 CHAPTER 4

Laurie: Forty-Two-Year-Old Woman Reclaiming

Female Energy

Laurie is a woman in her forties who is working the reclamation of her female
energy after being raised in a very male-dominated culture. Her basic rights and
intelligence as a female have been insulted, ignored and undermined. She has
lived with these insults throughout her own childhood as well as her marriage
and motherhood to her children. With all of the female invalidation she suffered
it was difficult for her to become pregnant. This session focuses on this difficulty
and the resulting “survival” energy it “lit up” in Laurie.
She has been disturbed by her now grown children’s anger toward her.
Laurie is gaining a deeper understanding of the roots of their anger through the
exploration of the manifestation of her own energy and actions.

SUSAN: I am watching the earth energy channels. The earth energy right
now is not connected to your first chakra. Allow it to come up and let it spin that
chakra. What I’m watching is that your first chakra is getting forced backward.
It’s compressed, tiny. There’s energy in front of it, but it’s not your chakra’s
energy, it’s just foreign energy. So, the first chakra is just back there—
compressed, looking tiny—and there’s a lot of family energy in there. It’s as if
you’ve absorbed everybody’s stuff, even the stuff that isn’t about you.
As this session progresses we learn that all of Laurie’s family’s
expectations, judgments and scorn were focused on her. The fear of the
consequences of banishment if her female body didn’t produce children was
ever present.
LAURIE: Even the stuff that is not about me makes so much sense. Like
when you said that, all I could see was that I’m holding other people’s stuff with
my whole body.
Laurie’s focus is on why her son and all of her children are angry with
her. This is a continuing theme from a prior session, so we are jumping right
in.
S: Your son is letting go of you. He is cleaning out his energy field to make
more space for himself. Your son’s wife has a certain amount of influence over
him. It’s going to be a great thing for him because when something gets too tight
and doesn’t feel right, he’ll move on. And that’s a good thing—I mean it is
moving away from things that aren’t his so he can move on to what he does want
to wrap his life around.
So, as you see that, just begin to let him go, bit by bit. Just send a
grounding cord to release your control and holding on of his energy. Some of the
traveling that he’s done has given him a great reference. “Oh, these people do
things this way, these people do things that way”—it doesn’t mean there is one
way in the world.
Let your breath go deeper into your pelvis. Let it reach the whole perineal
floor. As it reaches there, let it reach right down into the hip sockets and start to
penetrate your legs.
Now would you give your first chakra permission to just deal with your
own survival? This is your own direct, one-to-one relationship with the earth—
the earth chakra. When you start to deal with your own survival, let it
communicate to you, and listen. Then your space will begin to deal with what
you can handle, as opposed to a challenge beyond what you can handle. We can’t
solve our children. They need to find their own way, and when they can hear and
accept our guidance, love, and help, we can generously offer it. Does that make
sense?
L: Yeah.
S: Grounding. Do you notice something shifting in your space?
L: Yeah.
S: What I’m watching, energetically, on the first chakra level, is you are in
midshift because your first chakra is expanding a little. The contraction is
releasing, and it’s coming more into its own energy. It’s as if it got pressed back
and up. It’s dropping more into its own space, and your whole energy field looks
different because of that.
The survival issues that existed during her attempts to get pregnant
were frozen in time. This had the effect of contracting her first chakra as
well as her female energy and anatomy.
I’m watching energy move in your legs. [She shifts her position to put both
feet on the floor.] This is a better position for you to get the energy moving -
with your legs on the floor. It gives you some ground. Earth energy is beginning
to come up into your feet, up through your legs. Now, begin to let the first
chakra spin.
Breathe into your femininity. Imagine breathing into your uterus, hips—
breathe into your femininity. You’ve allowed your chakras to vibrate at male. Do
you know what I’m talking about? It’s the absorbed energy. When I look at your
first chakra, I see father; I see ex-husband. I don’t mean your own male energy.
We all have male and female energy. I’m just talking about absorbed energy that
vibrates at male control, male overlay, so it’s hard to see the feminine. There you
go. Feel that difference. Notice the change even as you put some intention there
to let your feminine energy shine? There you go. You’re bringing some green
color into the first chakra.
Green is sometimes a color of new growth, new awakenings.
When aligned, our own male energy will be in harmony with our
female energy. The male energy in her space (her ovaries, uterus, and
general energy field) was not in affinity. It vibrated as a whack or rip and
tension in these areas.
Intention is very powerful. Wherever we put our attention and
intention, our energy goes, and the space is transformed. As Laurie places
her attention on her female anatomy and energy she begins to relax and
bathe in light.
S: What I’m watching as you breathe in is almost a divine motherhood
space, before it got so caught up in everybody else’s definition of what your
responsibilities should be. And it got full of anxiety and frozen that way, all full
of responsibility and frozen. It had a shadow on it that was out of affinity with
you.
L: A shadow. I couldn’t get pregnant for what seemed to be way too long a
time. Ex-mother-in-law came to my ex-husband and said, “Look, if she doesn’t
get pregnant in a year, we’re getting rid of her.”
S: That’s a pretty strong statement.
This is the threat of banishment that has contracted and frozen her
first chakra.
 L: Yeah, my mother-in-law said to her son, “Either she gets pregnant or get
rid of her. You’re young enough, and there are no kids. What’s the big deal?” So
their way of dealing with it—I was like twenty-one, maybe twenty-two, at the
time—was to take me to her gynecologist. Trouble with that was her
gynecologist said, “Get rid of her; she’s not going to get pregnant.”
In this culture everyone was in agreement and all seemed to conspire
against Laurie.
S: What did they see about you being physically unable to get pregnant?
L: Something was…I don’t know what it was. I wasn’t menstruating
regularly; something was off. She did the examination. I still don’t know even
today what it was. She was like, “Just get rid of her.”
Although there was no diagnosis given to Laurie, it is not surprising
that the amount of invalidation hurled at her female energy and female
body would cause problems.
L: The strange thing was that somewhere I found the power to go to
another gynecologist. The price I needed to pay to get pregnant with this
doctor’s help was that I needed to succumb to his sexual misconduct. If I had to
sit in front of a court and say that he raped me, he didn’t rape me, but there was
major sexual misconduct taking place. I’m talking about once every two weeks.
That’s when I had to go see him in order to get pregnant.
S: What do you mean had to go see him?
L: I had to see him once every two weeks—the gynecologist—in order to
get pregnant. And then once I was pregnant, I had to come in according to what
he recommended, once every two weeks, and every time there was sexual
misconduct. He was very well-known. He was highly recommended. No one
ever, ever, ever knew about this until this inappropriate behavior of his came up.
I totally blanked it out until our breath work a couple of years ago.
S: So this is the gynecologist you chose, not the one they took you to?
L: Yes, this is the gynecologist I chose. I went to school with his kid, which
means he had a son my age. He was very well-known, very well-respected.
She felt her choices were confined to this well-known gynecologist. In
this context Laurie had a very limited view of her options and her rights.
Her victim consciousness was encouraged, supported and demanded. Her
powerlessness was evident.
S: Use the grounding as you are reliving any of that energy so it starts to
move out of your body. And I’d like you to feel this release energetically in your
musculature, and deeply in your body. As you talk, your hips and your pelvis get
very contracted. What that means is that there’s something in your hips that
thinks that whatever happened back then is still happening.
 When our energy is in motion and we are grounded, the story we are
relating becomes a healing. We are actively releasing the charge on past-
time events. When we are not in movement and grounding, the story is just
a story with no healing value.
L: With him?
S: Yes. They don’t know; your hips—your astral and physical hips—don’t
know that time has passed and that it’s done, completely done. Would you
telepathically tell your astral body that it is completely done, that it is not
happening anymore, that it is not going to happen again? Would you tell your
body that until it hears you?
When the body gets frozen in fear and remains that way long after the
fearful events are over we need to talk with our body and update it. Early
imprints, no matter how long ago, stay with us until we release them. I
believe her pelvic tension predates the gynecologist and is part of the reason
it was hard for her to get pregnant. Psychotherapy is layer by layer, always
working with what is available now.
S: As you do that, the feminine energy is deepening into your pelvis. Your
womb is reconnecting to what I’ll just call the archetype of womb, the bigger
picture that informs it.
Breathe…ground.
Already as we begin to look at the chakras and the energy running, you are
getting information about the question we’re looking at, which is what is it about
you and your creative process that creates so much pain with children? The pain
of hate and anger and resistance to you?
Now we turn our attention to Laurie’s process. We uncover the fear,
anger and distortions in her field as she raised her children.
S: Already, as we’ve looked at the first chakra, not even specifically in
relation to that question, you see where you’ve abandoned the feminine and
where you’re bringing it back. Does that make sense? Do you know what I’m
talking about? The energy we use to create something will determine the
creation we get. Creating in fear will create something fearful. You moved from
your own nature, and in moving from your own nature, you didn’t get your
natural creations. You got the creations that have to do with anxiety, doing other
people’s bidding, and being totally responsible in foreign ways—I’ll call those
male ways rather than finding the feminine information. As soon as you started
to tune into the feminine, your abdomen began vibrating at that, and your pelvis
—your body—began relaxing. It’s a whole different alignment. What comes out
of our natural alignment is very different from what comes out of us when we
lose it. All the rules, all these male control rules are just pouring out of your
grounding cord, you are releasing the rules set by a very male-dominated culture.
Feeling compelled to match the male-dominated culture left her body
rigid, unable to connect to the natural and innate nurturance of the
feminine. The higher frequency vibration of female creativity has been
subjugated by male control.
S: Let this earth energy come up to the second chakra, and let it spin
gently. Create movement in the second chakra. The second chakra is a little
compressed and nailed back. It’s as if it was threatened and then frozen in that
threatened moment. So, just breathe into that second chakra. These are emotions
—deep primal stuff.
This is the chakra that actually has the ability to recognize pain in others
and to absorb other people’s pain. This is the chakra that knows a lot about
absorbing. When the sixth chakra is engaged as well we recognize the pain but
do not absorb and hold this pain as our own. The second chakra knows about
sympathy and how to match energy. “If you feel bad, then I have to feel bad,
too.”
Matching at the lowest common denominator, the second chakra, can
cause the pain of what someone else is feeling to be absorbed. If the
absorbed pain doesn’t move through and release, it becomes more
imprinted in the person’s second chakra. To know what someone else is
feeling is a neutral ability of this chakra. To store and hold the pain is the
negative aspect of this chakra. When one is then holding an absorbed pain,
it does not “make sense” to the person holding the foreign pain; it vibrates
as a lie in her space. It cannot be solved, merely released.
S: Allow the second chakra to be connected to the first, and then connected
to the grounding, just by intention, allow yourself to begin to unhinge the belief,
“If you feel bad, I have to feel bad, too.” What you can replace that with, just as
a concept, is “If you feel bad, I can allow you to feel bad. I can hold you. I can
love you. I can make you dinner. But I can also allow you to feel whatever you
need to feel. I do not have to match that feeling. I can be me being with you, and
you can be you.”
This is the experience of freedom. It allows us to be independent. I can
be me and you can be you.
S: Energetically, what we learn is that “fixing” someone else’s emotions
doesn’t work. Letting someone be and allowing their emotional process to
transform on its own, so the person goes through something and comes out the
other side, hopefully wiser, is the true healing. There are a lot of parental
commands that come from culture as opposed to nature. As a parent, it is in our
hearts to make sure our children feel great at all times. And yet our children need
to go through their own growth periods.
A growth period is the discomfort a person feels when he or she has a
new spiritual understanding or insight, but the body has not caught up with
releasing the pain it has been holding from the former belief. Growth
periods are not always comfortable for the physical body. They may express
themselves as a cold or some kind of release requiring rest.
S: Feel that wave of mellow that’s just passing through you right now. It’s
the mellow of non-responsibility, for a moment, just letting something be as it is.
Isn’t that an amazing feeling? There is no fight in it. We have to understand the
opposite of fight is sweet mellow. A surrendering to what “is.” And would you
also know that in the real world out there, nothing has changed and you can feel
mellow? Isn’t that amazing? We hinge our emotions on, “Well, all this has to be
different before I’m allowed to feel good,” but here you are in the midst of all
this stuff. It’s a moment of feeling good. The external world is the same; the
internal world is completely different.
This exemplifies how our emotions are a reflection of our internal
processes. They do not necessarily correlate with an external event.
S: And with the twinkle of amusement that’s in you right now, would you
just imagine inviting your second chakra to release the threat and allow it to own
its intended space? Allow it to return to movement.
There you go.
It’s very interesting, as I watch your second chakra release the fear and
hiding and release the threats, what I see is a flow between the second chakra,
the fallopian tubes, and the uterus. I watch that if there ever was a problem with
pregnancy, as this chakra comes down and expands into its own space, the
problem is gone. There’s full flow of movement. Can you feel what I’m talking
about?
L: Yes.
S: Does it feel in affinity? Does it feel that you are reclaiming control of
your second chakra?
L: Yes. I can feel it move.
S: Let’s talk about cords. Cords are simply communication lines. When a
cord is something shared, frequently it is luminous—it has a light quality of
energy, and it flows both ways. When a cord is seeking control or manipulation
in someone’s space it may appear sticky, dark, or simply hiding in the back.
L: Yeah.
S: Very good. I want to explore cords between you and your son. Keep
breathing. Keep breathing and keep this concept of the feminine, because when
you have that concept you return to a place that’s so essentially you. You have a
more truthful perspective, a light and a permission simply to be permeate you.
This is just the concept of permission to be, just permission to be you. So, I’d
like to look at cords that go from you to your son. We’re not looking at any of
his cords coming to you, just cords that go from you to your son.
Let me light one up and see if you see it. [I do this by simply focusing my
attention there.] I see one coming from your first chakra into his first chakra, and
then going up through his spine to his fourth chakra.
Cords are lines of communication. In and of themselves, they can be
neutral. When cords persist past the point where there is communication
happening, they exert a controlling influence. Her cord into her son plugs
into his survival information. It serves the purpose of connecting his feelings
of survival to her and her feelings of survival to him. Her cord then comes
up through his emotional center, his will, and into his self-affinity center.
This entanglement makes it more challenging for him to access his own
information, his own point of view about life and safety and abundance. His
direct internal feedback loop becomes full of confusion. Many times, when
you leave this control in someone, even someone you love, they will begin to
resist you.
L: Yeah.
S: So look at the cord that stands out the most to you.
L: The one you just said, I feel it.
S: Yeah, that’s the one that lit up very strongly to me. Would you take a
look at it? The first chakra generally is about survival, connection to the earth.
It’s formed in utero through the first year. Would you see what are you wanting
from him in connecting your survival to his? This is a cord coming from you to
him. That’s all we’re looking at right now.
Generally speaking, when we have children, we are connected to the first
chakra because as a parent, especially the mother person, we’re teaching our
children how to survive. Literally, we’re nursing and feeding them. Everything
in them is dependent upon us for their survival. And then there’s a certain time
when we let go of that. There is an age where a child’s survival cord attaches to
his tribe, his friends: “Everybody smokes a cigarette; now I’ll smoke a
cigarette.” You know, “Whatever everybody does, I’ll do this.” And then
ultimately, usually in their twenties, the child begins to connect directly to the
earth, begins to find his own ground.
L: I felt, probably up until this whole thing with her [a fight with her son’s
wife], that I couldn’t just withdraw my energy from him; he wouldn’t survive. I
felt anger.
S: Would you see on a gauge of zero to one hundred, how much of your
picture that he wouldn’t survive affected his ability to survive?
L: He’s even said it has about eighty percent.
The picture, the beliefs we hold of someone, gets continuously reflected
back to them. In a family, it is hard for children to separate their own inner
knowing of who they are from the mirror held by a parent. Laurie’s belief
that her son wouldn’t survive was continually fed back to him. Her son’s
wife fought back. She fought for her husband’s right to own his own life.
The son fought his mother (Laurie) saying the same thing. In so many
words he was saying “Get out of my space, you are invading me.”
S: So, right now, would you give some acknowledgment to him for saying
that? Now, I’m seeing what you’re saying on an energetic level: “In the form of
my cord to your first chakra, (because I couldn’t survive in the family without
giving birth to you), how much my survival was hooked into you, and I called it
your survival?” That’s a powerful realization. Take a breath. And would you tell
him, even if he doesn’t know all of what that means or does know all of what
that means, that you acknowledge the validity of his anger?
Remember that Laurie would have been banished from the family had
she not gotten pregnant and given birth to her son.
S: None of this is said with blame. We’re just looking at the energetics of
what causes what. And if you’re willing, would you tell him “This cord of
energy in your first chakra is mine, and really it was my survival. I will take this
energy back.” Disengage this cord completely. Go ahead and do that. Use a
healing guide to help you. You can call in the Supreme Being, and you can call
in your Record Keeper.
We are in charge of what we do with our energy. We can take back
and destroy a control cord we have placed in someone just by our intention
to do so. Our energy flows from our intentions.
Our actions, thoughts, and deeds are recorded in the Akashic Records,
so that we may be continuously guided along our path. Our Record Keeper
works with us to keep our energy field uncluttered by placing that which is
complete in us in our Akashic Records. This removes the energy from our
cells, where it has pulled our energy into past-time.
S: This is one of the places that because of the threat, you created a lie in
yourself. The lie being “I need to help him survive.” When the truth was “I
needed him to help me survive here.”
L: Without him, I would have been thrown away.
S: So you managed to survive. Your survival isn’t connected to him. It’s
connected to you and your will, and you seeing truth and the blueprint for your
incarnation. Breathe.
 L: When you said that, it just caused this flash. My daughter came into my
thoughts. I got this flash of sitting with the kids. They were saying to me, “Oh,
so now you’re going to try and survive on your own? No, no, you can’t take care
of yourself”.
This is the turnaround of the same energy Laurie has been running
through her children - her belief that they can’t survive without her energy.
Now they are saying to her, “You can’t survive - you can’t take care of
yourself”. Life is indeed a mirror. Sometimes it is a “smoky mirror,” one
that reflects our wounding back to us.
S: The kids flashed you that?
L: Yeah, all three of them.
S: Yes, just as you had flashed that to them. Life comes around as a mirror,
a reflections of our actions and interactions.
L: Right.
S: They flashed it right back at you, Mom. So, there’s an agreement in your
family; everybody thinks everybody else can’t make it.
L: Yeah.
S: So, would you imagine putting the picture in front of you in a rose that
says, “Nobody can make it. My sons can’t make it; my daughter can’t make it,”
and just blow it up? Put a huge stick of dynamite under that picture and blow it
to smithereens. Everybody can make it. Then do it again and again a few times
—just blow that picture to smithereens. Some of that picture is coming out of
your second chakra as you blow it up. It’s releasing a lot of energy from all the
members of your family, and it’s releasing a lot of energy out of your second
chakra. And your second chakra is just showing an image as if you gained
enough strength to be almost boxing people out of it. Your second chakra is
getting its will back; remembering its ability to vibrate at your emotional health.
You are doing such a beautiful job. This is not easy work.
Creating and destroying are two aspects of the same process. One
needs to destroy the past-time energy that has now proven to be a lie in our
present-time space. This opens the space for new present-time energy to fill
in the empty space, allowing the creative process to continue.
L: Great, it’s long overdue—for me to claim my life and release my grown
children.
S: Yes, the time is right and it’s because of that picture (the belief that you
can’t survive) that you allowed so much threat to come in. If you thought, “I can
make it, I can do it,” the threat wouldn’t hold, so the two go deeply together. You
can’t survive, and we can threaten you with, you know, “You have to do
everything the way we want it, so that you will survive.” Now continue
destroying this lie, this old belief about not being able to survive. As you’re
doing that, would you say “hello” to the Supreme Being—whatever that means
to you, that divine energy? Would you imagine all this stuff about survival is
between you and the higher levels of guides that know why you’re here: why
you incarnated, the timing of your incarnation, all that good stuff. Give it back to
spirit; give it up to God. Take it completely out of the hands of those who want
to control you.
It takes us in a deeper direction to look at the energetic dynamics of
something as opposed to just the content. Breathing.
Now, I want to go just one more level. I want you to say “hello” to your
present-time partner. You’ve made an enormous change, looking at your family,
not from the point of view of blame and how they’re doing it to you, but looking
at the family from the orientation of “What were the original agreements? What
was I doing? What were the challenges I had about threat and survival?” I just
want you to show your partner, ask her to recognize that you’ve looked in a
really different direction. She might be in past-time. You know, she might be
very angry and insulted by all that transpired, but that’s not where you are right
now. You’re in a really different place. So ask her, as a spirit, not to bring that up
in that way—to give you a little space to digest this way of looking at it. Does
that make sense to you?
Laurie and her partner have had a lot of arguments that relate to the
interactions with the children.
L: Yeah, I need to sit with this new insight.
When we live with a partner or family, it is important to update them
spiritually (telepathically) and verbally about our changes. That way they
can hold a clear image of us in present-time.
S: Yeah, this is really a different space from where you came in today. This
sense of being the victim and “Why is this happening to me?” All this anger and
“Why is the family treating me so badly?” You have a lot of reasons why these
keep coming up. Now you have the space to assimilate this and to start making
deep internal changes. You are changing core beliefs about being a threatened
victim and not believing in your own ability to survive. And that’s the deeper
lesson underneath all this stuff that’s called someone throwing lies at you.
You’ve been vulnerable to threat because of those beliefs, and so you got
threatened—big time. Is that still making sense to you?
L: Yeah, now that I’ve let go of that picture.
S: It’s a deep picture. Allow yourself to know that you may be letting go of
that in stages—you may be working that one for a bit.
L: I’ve been trying to believe that I can survive. I’m still working the belief
that I can survive.
S: Yeah. Your survival has nothing to do with your ex-husband or with
your dad. Your survival is between you and God and the reason for your
incarnation. These are people that have been mirrors, and they have challenged
you deeply along the areas that you want to work and grow. So, your survival is
not hinged on them. The threats dissolve in the mist. They have no power over
you the moment you see your survival is not hinged on them. When you see that,
you see that the reasons for the threats were to keep the challenge going until
you could realize this is not even real. It is just a belief you have held, just an
illusion. This awareness takes the charge off why your son is so angry. It
becomes “Oh, I see why he’s angry,” and now he faces his own challenges to
figure that out. And right now, he’s not wanting to be in communication with
you for you to tell him all this good stuff. You can give him the space to work it.
At some point, you will have this conversation where you can acknowledge
some things. It will happen in his own time—probably won’t be until he’s in his
thirties because the twenties are times our children have bandwagons and
banners.
On a spiritual level some people agree to incarnate with you to help
you get strong. This may entail challenging you deeply so you have the
opportunity to find your way back to your light through the challenge.
Now find the space of your own female energy, your own divine feminine,
your own space of love and self-love.
L: Yeah.
S: You are now going to go into your home. Bring this new certainty, truth
and self-love with you. Regardless of what energy is in your home, you have
shifted. And the shift looks very beautiful on you—it has fluidity to it. It has
femininity. It has a centering in who you are. It probably takes you back to some
of your earlier childhood memories when you had full access to this energy.
Then somewhere in all the rules, it got overpowered. Now you become
reconnected to your essence. It’s very powerful, and you look gorgeous.
Bring in beautiful golden suns and blessings.
Beautiful golden suns—just be here in the room.
Open your eyes.
I would love to see if your body remembers how to walk.
L: I don’t think so.
[Both of us laugh.]
 CHAPTER 5

Jack: Forty-Five-Year-Old Man

This is a session with an intelligent man in his forties, accomplished

in his profession. This session is in the middle of a series of therapy
sessions. Jack has been releasing the absorbed pain of the traumatic
war experiences of his father. In this session Jack is focused on the
justified anger toward his narcissistic and abusive mother. Both the
absorbed pain and the deserved anger have made it difficult for Jack
to be fully embodied. He is highly motivated and willing to do
whatever it takes to reclaim his body and his life. This is a
breakthrough session, where for the first time, Jack is able to ground.
This is the key to releasing his pain. The transcription begins with him
already talking.

JACK: I’ve suppressed my rage, you know, and my aggression, even as

I’ve looked at and worked with them. It feels like I kind of withdrew up over
here and held myself in so I could address the circumstances of my childhood.
There was something I was going to share about that. I worked with a
bodyworker, and I even saw an osteopath, and he couldn’t get the pain in my
shoulder to unlock. I’m going to see him again in a couple of days. He put me on
some anti-inflammatories to see if we can calm the tissue down. The
bodyworker got in there with her elbows. It was funny. It hurt so much that at
some point I finally had to start laughing about it. It’s the first time I have
crossed that threshold, in which I was tolerating the pain and trying to surrender
to it, to where it actually hurt so much it was funny. It was humorous. I just had
to be laughing, and it brought me kind of out of it into the present.
Surrendering into the pain is powerful. Resistance makes energy stick
to us and aggression amplifies the energy. Surrender begins the process of
transformation and release.
SUSAN: Well, the other thing is, a lot of times some of the deeper layers,
as we go through pain, we find the pain is sometimes covering joy or truth that
has been buried.
J: This actually felt like, “Thank God, someone is finally in here getting at
this. This is the real stuff, and I am present to it. And this person is present to it.
It’s almost like, “Yeah, it hurts and OK, so what! At least it’s going away.”
There is a deep level of self-knowledge in getting down to a core pain.
To be seen and understood by someone is deeply healing. To go deep enough
to see ourselves and know what is underneath all the pain we have been
carrying is meeting ourselves perhaps for the first time.
S: Moving.
J: Yeah, I got more mobility from this. It’s still in there. No one has gotten
the adjustment out of the thoracic vertebrae yet. Oh, I know what it was. There
was a reason I was stuck on that, and I really think that this was maybe the first
time that I actually heard and felt it and really owned it in a different way. I
really just experienced my mother’s cruelty. It’s like in my head, I knew. I knew
it was cruel, but it was like at another level. I was able to just admit to myself
and own that I was a victim really, as a child of extreme cruelty on her part. And
something about admitting that, owning it, allowed me—I don’t know the words,
but it allowed me to just kind of accept it and be more present to myself and to
have more compassion. If I couldn’t admit that, then I couldn’t get past it in
some way. I don’t know if that makes sense.
Owning our deepest unconscious pain and the gaps in our memory
that have kept that pain in place enables us to return to consciousness. This
is a powerful way to reclaim our energy, our life force. The energy that has
been unavailable to us is now returned.
S: It makes a lot of sense. I think what it says is that we stay in our history,
and at some point, we realize we are in our history. We can come into the present
time. We are everything that ever was that has happened to us. We have these
memories, and yet we do not need to be controlled by them. We can start to let
go of actively being victimized by the past. It’s a first chakra growth period
where we are connected at birth through the first chakra to our mothers, and
there is a natural time evolution where we let go of that, connect to our friends,
let go of that, and connect to the earth. A lot of times that doesn’t happen; it’s
stuck. At some point, we start to let go with awareness and some work. We let go
of our history and start to become ourselves. We no longer “cast a shadow.”
Some of our greatest challenges cover up our talents.
J: Well, it really felt like I could start to discharge in some way. It’s like,
somehow by admitting that, I could also start to let go versus still fighting or
protecting it or resisting it in some way.
S: Resistance is a natural response to pain. However, if we hold on with
resistance, we lock the energy of the pain inside us. Here it stays as a foundation
for our growth, an unconscious gap that controls how much we can grow,
allowing us only so much growth as matches the pain, so we stay limited.
From what you are talking about, see if this resonates. I’m inclined to
actually have you go in and clean the layers of muscle, to actually go in and
become the areas that are held and see what they say.
J: Sure, that seems right where I’m at or going or all of that.
S: We will just start superficially and work our way deeper. So, just
breathe. As you experience some emotions, connect them to the grounding cord
to release.
[Big cough, crying—goes on for a while]
S: Grounding, release, discharge into the earth.
When someone connects to their grounding, it calls in their energy and
emotions. Because the body speaks the language of emotions, the emotions
may immediately be felt. Emotions are the language of the body, they are
the medium by which the body communicates to you, the spirit. Body to
being.
J: [Sighs and noises]
S: Tune into the muscle that you are touching now. What do you physically
feel in the area?
J: [Coughing and gagging] I feel this resistance, like the shoulder itself is
saying the word, “No.”
S: Would you be the shoulder itself, and would you say that word?
J: [Crying, coughing, gagging, crying—for a while] It feels so “not yet.”
S: Meaning your shoulder?
J: It or I myself, if I say “no,” that’s going to bring about the cruelty.
 S: Would you say “no” and watch this cruelty come about and find a
different way to respond to it?
J: [Crying, coughing, gagging] Saying, “no, no, no, no, no crying, damn
you. No, you are fucking shit.” [Coughing, gagging] “You have no right to treat
me like this. I’ve never done anything to deserve this kind of treatment from
anybody, especially you.” [Crying] “You are so fucking mean.”
This is Jack courageously stepping out of fear and victimhood into the
expression of anger. As a child the punishments his mother would have
inflicted upon him for this kind of response would have made it
unthinkable. In present time this response is his passport out of victimhood
back into life.
S: Bring on that power; you are in a very powerful place.
J: “I’m a fucking child, and I depend on you. You have no fucking right, no
right to abuse your power and my dependency in this way.”
S: What happens to her as you say that?
J: I need to say more. I need to say, “This is much more about fucking you
than it is about me. This is whatever this shit is that you are taking out on me,
whatever it is that would cause you to punish me like this or to torture me like
this and to corrupt my own needs to serve your ends. It’s about your sickness.
You need to back off and just get the fuck away from me and stay away from
me.”
S: How old are you as you say these words?
Jack has traveled back in time to an event when he was much younger
and didn’t have the power to stand up to the situation. At that time,
standing up would have been dangerous. Now, almost forty years later, the
situation is no longer happening in present time. On an energetic level, we
carry the imprint of the events in a charged way inside our very cells, so the
events continue to affect us as if they are still happening. The world
continues to feel dangerous. When we go back in time to an event, we go
with all of our present-time wisdom, personal power, truth, and insights. We
redo the situation in a new way—change the past and walk forward to
present-time. We break the hold of the past, release the energy from the
cells, and the event transforms into a neutral memory. As the past-time
events transform and we find our way back to present-time, things look
different. We have shifted our perspective.
J: My head says somewhere between three and five. I suspect that I am
even younger. There is some infancy stuff in here, too.
S: I’m going to take you on a little journey to look from another angle at
this same energy. Are you OK with that?
 J: Yeah.
S: I’d like you to focus your attention and your energy in your crown
chakra at the top of your head.
The crown chakra at the top of the head holds a higher vibration of
neutrality and a bigger picture of our spiritual space and intention for this
incarnation. I watch with my clairvoyant eyes as he travels back in time.
S: Keep your attention on that spot. I want you to go back in time,
somewhere between two and five. Now move to a time just after birth, travel
along a timeline and just nod when you get there.
J: [Crying] She doesn’t have anything to give me, anything! She’s
absolutely empty of any kind of nurturance.
S: Take a look around at this brand-new body and just notice that. Nothing
can come from her; it isn’t there to give. You already know that. Now, would
you go back even further, to conception? Travel from your crown, and let me
know when you have arrived. [Pause] Take a look from this very early space at
who this mother is.
J: Well, the image that comes to me is that she is almost like a black hole, I
just feel like the life force just started draining out of me toward her, like she has
tapped into me. She needs outside life to feed her own life.
S: In shamanic terms, this dynamic is called “soul theft”—one person of a
lower vibration taking energy from someone with a higher vibration. You have
been feeling that space of energy being siphoned off by her.
J: Yeah, and this is her mother. Yeah, it’s her, and then it’s Grandma, who
could never admit her own neediness. Grandma was orphaned by the time she
was seven. Her mother died in childbirth when she was around four or five, and
then she lost her father. He was a caretaker in an orphanage, so she lived in the
orphanage. And it was just her and her brother, and she witnessed him being
dragged to death by a horse. So, she lost all the members of her family, and then
she was raised in orphanages and foster homes. And she just learned never to be
a burden. I know Grandma was unmothered, so my mother was an unmothered
mother. She tried to attach to Grandma. Grandma didn’t have anything to give
her, and then I got sucked into that.
Family dynamics, dramas and patterns continue through the lineage
until one person stands up and says, “No. No more.”
S: Raise the energy now from your crown, just about six inches above your
crown chakra. I am going to take you one more step. I’d like you to travel to a
place before conception. It’s like an arena. Stay in this vibration. You will be met
by one who is your guide, who will take you to this arena for you to watch
yourself making the choice for this next body.
 J: [Crying]
S: Go with this guide into this arena. In this arena, there is a screen like a
holographic movie screen. And you’ve discussed with your guide those
particular lessons you want for your next incarnation. And at this point, you get a
choice of several ways to go about learning the particular things you have set out
to learn. Look with this guide at this particular choice, look at the previews that
you have had of this lifetime. From this space prior to conception, tell me what
you notice.
This is a very powerful vantage point from which to get a much higher
perspective on your spiritual creations—what you want to learn in the body,
what situations might provide the best teaching.
J: I’m just going to go with the stream of consciousness on this. The first
impression is that this life is the best possible life to learn about emptiness and
cruelty and compassion. [Crying] It’s about learning everything that is not love,
that is unloving [crying], and everything that is not God. [Crying, coughing,
gagging] All the addiction, the deprivation, the self-centeredness, the fear, and
the rage. Everything that separates me from spirit. I couldn’t ask for a better life
to learn that in.
In owning this, he comes out of victimhood into his power. Not all of
what we come here to learn is pretty and sweet. We also come here to get
lost, torn apart, and find our way back home.
S: Would you feel again the presence of this guide who is helping you with
these choices? Though the choice is yours, would you feel the blessing and the
comfort with this guide as you choose a tough one, a tough life?
J: [Crying, coughing] I’ve gone back to the image of that dream I told you
about where I went to the city and met this master—this man who handed me
these “disks” [crying, coughing] filled with information.
He is referring to disks full of spiritual and incarnational information.
S: What a blessing that dream is! [Pause]
Let’s go out of this arena to conception. As we go from conception to birth,
we have an amnesia—no memory—of this choice. Now you are reclaiming this
memory. Carry it with you and come up to just after birth. Carrying this tough
choice that you made. Now come back to that two to five-year-old space where
you were holding your shoulder. Would you see what is in your shoulder from
this age that’s different, or see if there is something else that needs to be said,
felt, or noticed? There is a very interesting image that I see. I’ll share that. It’s an
image of your mother as a girl, lost and actually reaching out to you, though you
had no body then. It looks as though she already visualized you from her
childhood—the connection goes back.
 J: I don’t think my mom wanted to be a girl. Her brother got more goodies
than she did. That may explain her tapping into my energy for fuel.
S: Be back in present-time. Don’t come out yet. We are going to go another
layer here. Are you OK with that?
J: Yeah.
S: Let’s go back to where we started. I’d like you to go into the next level
of discomfort that is in your shoulder. I’d like you to go deeper into the muscle,
the physical tissue.
J: OK.
S: And actually be it, be that muscle and talk from inside it; whatever you
have to say.
J: The picture that is coming up—I feel as though I am dangling from a
hook, not a meat hook, but a large hook that goes underneath these muscles, the
traps or whatever, and then lifted up, kind of suspended. I can’t get my feet to
the ground because I am held up here.
S: Notice what you do—what it’s like not being able to get to the ground.
J: The picture that comes in is I am afraid to be grounded. I don’t know
how to take that cruelty and still be grounding—to let it kind of move through
me without demolishing me.
S: What happens to that cruelty when you are up in the air on the hook?
J: It’s suspended up there with me. It just goes in and stays there. The
belief is if I don’t touch the ground with it, it can’t hurt me; it can’t kill me. It’s
not true though.
S: Would you adjust your alignment to match your present-time
perceptions? Bringing your present-time wisdom, see what you would like to do.
J: Well, it’s real simple at this point. I just want to pull the plug. I want to
open the drain and let it go.
S: Notice how your grounding starts to work immediately, as soon as you
said you want to pull the plug.
J: It’s the first time I can actually see a grounding cord now. First time,
ever.
S: Yes, this is a grounding cord.
The grounding cord is a powerful connection from the sacral/ coccyx
area of the body. The connection is from the first chakra to the center of the
planet. It enables him to be in his body, maybe for the first time ever. When
there is a lot of “control” energy or pain in someone’s space, it is difficult for
them to ground. Finding the original picture unbinds the control that the
belief and fear exerted. The accompanying formerly suppressed emotions
begin to release.
 J: [Crying]
S: Imprint this grounding cord—what it feels like, what it looks like. It’s
been a process for you to be able to ground. You just found the key and unlocked
the door.
J: This is tied up with all the enemas and everything else that I got; all the
intrusions, the anal intrusions. I put a plug in to just kind of block out, to prevent
her from coming into me in this way, but she’d come in at me anyway. The plug
is a very workable image because I could see it—almost looking like in a sink
and pulling the plug out of the drain and just seeing stuff begin to drain out. I
could feel it. I have a visual image of it that is very clear right now in terms of
moving through.
S: When you talk about that time, what I notice is the little muscles right
against the spine are beginning to release on the right-hand side. Something is
changing in your musculature.
J: The rhomboids are piano wires right now.
S: You are getting to the energy that’s been the pain in the shoulder.
Getting deep enough to unwind and release. When you look back at the creation
of this lifetime and the choice of this body, there were two sides to it. One was
all of the pain, learning about separation from God; the other was through that
you are learning compassion in a very deep sense. Would you just bring that in,
hold forth the lessons of compassion; pull it in as a color. See it. Imprinting the
present-time lessons, understanding there was choice, a wisdom to be gained, is
the stepping stone out of victimhood into power. This allows the third chakra,
the center of personal power, to actualize and align to its purpose.
You have the grounding cord fully working. You also have inspiration
coming in from the heavens. Your cosmic energy is really flowing. Can you feel
that?
J: Yeah, I can feel both. I can really feel both at this moment.
S: It’s called “running energy.” It’s what we have been talking about from
the beginning. Really experience what that is. We are fed; we are continuously
fed from the earth and from the heavens. You have been on the end of
experiencing somebody feeding off of you for so long that it is a miracle to see
you opening up to your own source. Your own fuel. Your own information.
J: Even my stomach feels very different. It doesn’t feel like I have that sort
of band of tension ballooning it out. It feels full in a different way.
S: Bring in a beautiful golden sun. Bring in a blessing for the incredible
work you do.
J: [Crying]
S: I can see that guide just smiling at you just off to your right side. When
you are all ready, allow this energy running to flow in you, grounding, flowing
inspiration, cosmic bliss. You can gently come out of trance.
What a journey! It’s really interesting because we have been working with
these flows of energy, and it’s been hard for you to really have the energy move
for you. So, this is a really important reference.
J: I understand.
S: It’s a powerful reference. This is what we have been talking to. And
what happens when it is really flowing is that it’s euphoric. We can step out of
reactivity to a situation and step into cause, creative cause—a powerful
difference. No matter what is going on around us. That’s what is meant when
people flippantly say, “Oh, I believe you create your own reality.” It’s really this
very deep space of stepping into cause. Very powerful, very powerful. Right
now, you are cause; you are creator. It’s really gorgeous. You look very
energized. I don’t know what it feels like on the inside.
J: I normally have words for things, but I don’t have a word for this.
S: Don’t go for words; don’t narrow the feeling.
J: Some of the words of David White’s poem on faith. The lines go—“and
I am speaking of faith now and what we think we are worthy of in this world.”
This is more like the other poem of true love. “We will cross any medium, any
water, and we could drown if we wanted to, but we are tired of drowning, so we
don’t want to.” It is like feeling my own true self. A reason for being in this
world and this experience, not from the viewpoint of all the pain and the wound,
but from the greater awareness.
S: That’s what it means to genuinely step out of victimhood.
J: My whole body feels more balanced, left to right.
S: You look gorgeous. This is the energy of you, the spirit. You are running
on spiritual energy. Your own essence is shining. You made room for yourself.
You have created room for yourself in your life. This is the time for the
blessings, the goodies to be reaped.
J: Pluto is an ally in this. Pluto is bringing what is most buried to the light.
Pluto is not my enemy. It’s helping me to get to stuff that is so deeply buried that
I could never know it or see it. I have Pluto on my natal chart for two years. Of
course, that is a rare thing that only happens every two hundred eighty-six years.
Not everybody gets it, so I’ve had some time with Pluto.
Thank you, God bless you, Susan, for all your own growth and skills and
talent. Thank you.
S: Beautiful to see you. Welcome to your shoulder and your body and your
life.
This is a most essential journey, from victimhood to creator. Now he
comes out from under all the pain to create the rest of his life.
 CHAPTER 6

Carolyn: Sixty-Year-Old Woman

Carolyn is a woman who has been on a spiritual path for a long time. She
radiates love, generosity, and service in the world. Carolyn comes to this session
with concerns about her grown daughters.
In this session, as in many sessions, the starting point is only the beginning
of the pathway leading to the deeper issues to be explored. We are systematically
uncovering the layers until the underlying challenge is revealed. As we engage
in this process we can identify the relationship between the starting place or
presenting story and the core issues.
Carolyn recently had a cranial/sacral bodywork session with me where
energy cords and tangles were visible in her first and second chakras. We start
with reference to this session.

SUSAN: Hello. We’ll just look at what is up for you. As we did the
cranial/sacral bodywork session, I was watching some congested energy and
cords in your first and second chakras.
The cords I am referring to are cords of communication connections
left in her chakras after the physical communications were completed.
CAROLYN: Yes, my daughter had some growths where you are looking at.
We went through all these tests and they couldn’t really identify what it was.
They removed it and biopsied it. Even then, they were unsure. They came up
with cells that looked suspicious, some toughening of the tissues, but her blood
work came back fine. This is great because she has latent hepatitis C and has
used needles. With each test they couldn’t rule out anything, so we kept going
through all these tests. Actually, she was going through all these tests, but I was
energetically going through it with her.
The second chakra is where we can easily absorb someone else’s pain
and match their energy. This is where Carolyn was congested. It is not easy
for a mother to come out of an energetic match with her daughter at any
time, especially when the daughter has potentially serious health issues.
C: That’s what came to mind when you said there were energy cords
plugged in.
S: I was watching some additional energy as well. [Pause] Close your eyes
and just breathe. Grounding from the base of your spine to the center of the
planet.
C: [Pause] My grounding didn’t go down that far when you said, “Center
of the planet.” Now I can release farther into the planet.
It is important that a grounding cord actually connects in one’s
imagination to the center of the planet. This is the most effective way to
release energy and move on.
S: When I learned a lot of these spiritual/psychic tools, I had very young
children. Sesame Street was on the television a lot, so I learned some things from
Oscar the Grouch. In particular, when somebody wasn’t fully present, or in my
terms, coming up to a chakra, I’d hear him say, “Your elevator doesn’t go all the
way to the top floor” or “Your elevator needs to descend as well to the center of
the planet.” [Laughing]
Amusement is a very high vibration. When someone is vibrating at
amusement all of the energy that is denser, that is, at a lower vibration,
tends to dissipate. The two levels of energy will not occupy the same space at
the same time.
S: Some of these amusing images are powerful. Let the earth energy come
up through your feet. Interestingly, in your right leg I watched you connect the
cosmic energy into your foot, and your left leg was connecting to the earth
energy.
Carolyn tends to be very connected to the heavens. In health we need
to balance this with a connection to nature, to the earth.
C: My right leg definitely feels different from my left.
S: Yes. What do you notice? What’s the difference?
 C: It’s like—tingly or something, more tingles on the right.
S: Tingles as in life force energy?
C: Something vibrating.
S: Your left leg reaches further down, deeper into the planet and looks like
it lands on the floor. Your right leg looks as if it is energetically above the floor;
even though your physical foot is actually on the floor. Say “hello” to your right
leg and see what that is about.
“Hello” is a way of saying place your attention on your right leg. No
judgment or expectation, just the intention to receive information and
communication.
C: [After a pause] The phrase “not wanting to get stuck in the mud” came
to me.
S: That’s interesting, because what I saw had more to do with the stars: “I
want to go up in the heavens.” There was a joy that isn’t particularly about a
physical body, but it’s very joyful, very blissful.
C: Um hmm.
Carolyn is a woman who is very connected to the angelic realm—very
generous and lives her life involved in service.
S: Ask your right foot what kind of mud it thinks it might get stuck in.
I always follow up on my client’s image even if it differs from my
clairvoyant image.
C: Mucky mud.
S: Yes. Let your right leg talk a little bit more about mucky mud. What is
that?
C: It’s like people’s waste or something. Yucky! [Laughs]
S: Who dumps their waste in your direction?
Every image has information and takes us deeper into the person’s
psyche.
C: My son-in-law came to mind.
S: OK, see what he’s dumping and see where you might take it on; that is,
where you absorb it.
C: He’s dumping a lot of guilt.
S: Right.
C: And I definitely don’t want to take that on.
S: Is he faulting you with guilt or is he just feeling guilt?
C: He feels guilty for all the stuff that’s happened. [There is prior
information about his unavailability to his family and his drug addictions.]
S: Yeah, so give him lots of permission to feel guilty. He certainly has
acted in ways that have made life difficult for other people—his family.
 C: Yeah.
S: Guilt is a choice. Another possible choice is to glean wisdom from your
behavior—eyes open, see the consequences, and don’t repeat the same behavior,
or “don’t do that no more.”
C: [Laughs]
S: Is he in a drug-free place, right now?
C: Yes, he has been ever since I did a special forgiveness rite—
Ho’oponopono.
Ho’oponopono is a Hawaiian ritual to release blame and find
forgiveness. Blame consumes our own energy as well as that of the person
we are blaming. It keeps us continuously connected energetically to the
person we are blaming.
S: Is he on methadone?
C: Yes, probably for the rest of his life.
S: Is it similar to heroin? Do you feel high on it?
C: No, you don’t feel high on it. You don’t feel high at all. I think it does
something to the receptors that heroin would normally attach to, I think. So if
you took heroin, you wouldn’t feel high. [Pause] So what is it about me that is
allowing the muck to be there?
S: See where in your space the muck is located, because your whole right
leg lights up with that question, especially your foot chakra and a pathway in
your right leg, then into your right hip socket and a line over to your first chakra.
It’s all on one side. I don’t see it on the other side at all.
When we address a wound clairvoyantly it will highlight areas in our
body, our cells, and our overall health. These are the places we are storing
this wound, holding on to energy and creating static in our aura. Hidden in
these areas and pathways are outdated core beliefs that have been
inaccessible to our consciousness.
C: My right side, the male side.
S: Is there a difference in your right hip, knee, foot, as opposed to your
left?
C: Yeah, although it’s the left heel that hurts. It’s a little swollen. Both
knees, no difference in that. And my right hip, although it doesn’t hurt any more
—it had been hurting. [Pause] I need to just see what comes up, because my
mind is playing all of these scenarios.
S: Use the grounding cord and just see what comes up. Take your time.
[pause]
C: I’m starting to feel so sad for my daughter.
S: Does she love him?
 C: She does love him, and she is a little disgusted by everything. She’s not
thinking of leaving him or anything like that.
S: Is he working?
C: Yes, he’s working hard now and bringing in money. He takes the kids on
Saturdays when she works, but he’s such a baby, so self-absorbed.
S: When did he start with drugs? At what age?
C: Young, probably at fourteen, I don’t really know.
S: That’s what happens. We don’t have emotional growth from the time we
are on drugs or alcohol. Our emotional growth is arrested, and when we stop
using, we continue our emotional growth from the age we were when we began
using drugs.
C: She knew that about him when she married him, and she’s putting up
with it. It’s just, I feel sad for her sometimes. Her life is hard for her. I also know
she chose this. There’s many lessons and she’s doing great. She’s doing great.
She’s in her last year of nursing school.
S: Grounding. [I’m ready to change the subject back to Carolyn, but she
goes on.]
C: I just really support her and admire her in many ways for the life she has
chosen. And it’s not easy, and she’s doing it.
S: Say “hello” to your first chakra and look at a gauge from zero to one
hundred. See if you’re holding any amount of her survival?
C: About thirty percent.
This is another example of Carolyn absorbing pain. It does not lessen
her daughter’s pain, it only serves to weigh Carolyn down.
S: Yeah, and you help out with watching her children one day a week?
C: Not with money, because I don’t really have money, but with getting the
kids. I’m her person. I’m happy to do that.
S: Breathing.
C: I feel movement in the first chakra.
S: Yes, as soon as you started saying “hello” to any of her survival that you
are holding in your first chakra, energy started to move. It’s as if you are
carrying a little first chakra on top of your chakra. It isn’t yours, and it’s starting
to spin off. So it’s getting out of the way and I’m seeing your first chakra. And
what’s happening is your grounding is flowing more freely.
Say “hello” to your grounding. Your legs, although there is still a little bit
of a difference they have moved closer to a balance. And your fifth chakra is
starting to vibrate stronger.
All of this talk about her daughter was necessary to acknowledge and
release in order to return the static to movement. Her energetic space is
changing from this release and from letting go of holding her daughter’s
survival within her own spiritual space. It’s as if her energy field did not
differentiate between herself and her daughter. And now as it clears, the
difference is energetically known and she begins to release. Static energy
returns to movement.
S: It’s as if your voice opened up. It’s interesting to see how one
acknowledgment changes all the areas that were connected in your energy field.
C: That was the word that came to mind, acknowledgment, just by
acknowledging. It’s amazing how it frees up energy.
S: Your acknowledgment sits on a deeply held spiritual value system. A
value system that says it’s not really helpful for her or for you to hold her first
chakra in your chakra. There’s nothing in you that really needs to do that. You
are available to be there for the help that you can give. Also, as she finishes
nursing school, she is getting herself in a position to be financially independent
—a long-term plan if the marriage doesn’t work.
C: I feel so much energy in my legs. And yes, she is positioning herself if
need be.
Letting go of holding her daughter’s pain really changes Carolyn’s
physiology. Life force energy returns.
S: We get informed, not just from our past but from our future as well. We
don’t only project the future from past possibilities, we also get informed and
gently propelled by the future. Our possibilities beckon and speak to us. We get
pulled by the directions that are ours.
C: Yeah.
S: Let the earth energy come up from the first chakra to the second chakra.
C: From my waist down, my whole body feels so alive, energy moving. I
didn’t realize how much I was holding.
S: What percentage of your second chakra, right now, is your own energy?
C: My own energy—fifty percent.
S: And what percentage is not? It doesn’t need to add up mathematically.
C: My daughter “L” comes to mind. What percent is not? Umm, thirty
percent.
S: Say “hello” to your daughter “L,” and let that talk. What comes to
mind? What are each of you wanting in holding her energy in your second
chakra?
Each chakra may contain a very different story, all connected by the
core beliefs that have been imprinted from childhood and beyond.
C: She’s a sad case [tears, voice cracking]. When I notice how distant she
keeps herself, I want her closer. It’s her protection to be that far removed from
emotion, from connection.
S: What happens? What is that about for her?
C: She’s holding it all together, and if she gets closer, she’ll lose it.
S: What is she holding all together?
C: Her emotional life, herself—she works two jobs. She’s a workaholic;
she self-medicates. Alcohol is her choice, but she also takes whatever.
C: My ex-husband is an alcoholic. I’m not going to blame myself.
S: Blame is never useful; wisdom and understanding are useful.
C: I wasn’t around during some of those formative years. I really get that
we choose our own paths; I really get that.
She is addressing a spiritual concept. As spirits we choose the
challenges we need to face in order to grow our talents. Sometimes we
choose a path that overwhelms us and we get stuck in the challenge.
S: When you talk about her work and holding two jobs and you use the
word “aholic”—It all sounds like an addiction.
C: It is an addiction, so she doesn’t have time to think and be with herself.
S: So where are you holding that?
I am bringing all of the talk about daughters back to Carolyn—how
does this affect her health? How does she hold space for them in a way that
is blocking the flow of her own energy?
S: One of the things that happen in an interaction is that if somebody is
really sad and crying, it is easier to be neutral, since they are taking care of their
emotions, they are expressing themselves. If someone holds them back, we feel
the emotions of that person even more. It’s almost as if our body wants to absorb
the pain of the unexpressed emotions in order to express them. Emotions are the
language of the body. It’s how the body talks to you, the spirit. We may feel a
need to express these emotions for them.
The confusion begins when we have absorbed someone’s emotions and we
feel these emotions, but they have no foundation or relevance in our lives. We
can begin to get confused and even disassociate. Our emotions no longer make
“sense” to us.
So just say “hello” to anywhere you are holding what she can’t express or
feel.
C: Part of me does honor that this is the way she is living her life. And this
is the way she wants to live her life. I remember one time she came to a
breathing group without really knowing what it was, and she almost freaked out
after taking a few deep breaths and feeling all this stuff she didn’t want to feel.
[Pause] So, what am I holding on to?
S: See if you have any agenda for her. For example, she should experience
her emotions. She should be this or that.
C: I don’t think I do. It’s like she’s so tightly wound. I wouldn’t want to be
responsible for getting her started unwinding because she may end up in a loony
bin or something. So maybe that’s my agenda—to keep her the way she is.
S: Take a look at a gauge. To what extent do you have that agenda? Is that
a real agenda of yours?
C: I think I want her to stay the way she is because I think the alternative is
going to be worse at this point in her life.
S: So say “hello” to her and ask her, spirit to spirit, if she wants you to hold
the space that she stays the way she is.
C: She definitely does; she definitely does.
S: And are you willing to give up thirty percent of your second chakra to
hold the space?
C: No. I have been, but I guess, no. [Laughing]
Giving up part of our spiritual space and energy is the price we pay for
having an agenda for someone else. We can support others by
acknowledging them as spirit in their highest wellness.
S: So, tell her spirit to spirit about your choice and that you see some
wisdom in it. Because if she made a different choice, she would have to go
slowly or be guided in it.
C: And she’s not willing right now. She’s not willing to use any of the tools
that I have. She’s not willing and that’s OK. So she doesn’t need me to use any
of my energy to hold her where she is. She’s quite capable of holding herself
where she is.
S: So, tell her she’s made a decision and she’s capable of carrying it out for
the time being.
C: For the time being, yeah.
S: If at any point she wants a different decision, she’ll create that. How
much do you see her?
C: Not much. I would like to make more of an effort just to take her out to
dinner and meet her where she is. I would like to move her in closer.
S: Tell her you are releasing the hold in the second chakra and that you
would like to see her more often. Let her know you are letting go of any agenda
for her. Anything else that you notice?
C: It feels like an unwinding.
Unwinding is a release of energy in reverse order of how it was
absorbed.
S: I see that. It’s a slow process. Do you notice any emotions that come up
for you?
 We will keep going deeper here.
C: Sadness.
S: It’s an incredible thing to just want simple happiness for our kids, but
they don’t always go there.
C: I think I can just see her in her perfection, in the light. That helps me
and I know it helps her. Not to change anything she’s doing, not to change
anything at all, but just to see her in her perfection as she is right now. Also, to
know that she has her own guides. I don’t have to be her guide. [Sigh]
This is a profound realization.
S: Breathing.
C: I feel more energy in my legs.
S: Something is moving out again, almost like a chakra that was sitting on
your chakra. It’s still dissipating.
C: It’s slow; this one is slow. The release feels good and just meeting her
where she is. My other daughter gets worried about “L,” and I need to disengage
from that.
S: Your grounding is looking very strong, Your earth energy is looking
strong. It’s coming into both legs.
C: [Sigh] My second chakra feels raw. [Sigh] It feels like it has jagged
edges.
S: Speak to the jagged edges and see what you may be holding on to in the
next layer that is now revealing itself?
Here the session starts to go deeper. Many layers of energy need to be
addressed to get to our core wounds. These wounds are the ones that have
been in our memory gaps. Uncovering them, bringing them into
consciousness, and releasing the emotional charge on them is the process of
true lasting healing.
C: I’m feeling nauseous right now.
S: You’re working both your second and third chakras. There is some
energy that wants to release that is deeper in your second chakra.
C: I’m jumping ahead, so I want to see if I can consciously go back to the
second chakra. I seem to want to skip over something.
This is frequently what happens when someone gets close to a core
wound. It is Carolyn’s deep level of self-awareness as spirit that enables her
to “catch” this moment.
S: Yes, there is more there that wants to speak. Put up a rose for the energy
that makes you want to skip over this gap.
C: When I put up the symbol of a rose for it, it is all yuck—black, droopy,
and burnt. The petals are pointy rather than round.
 S: Go on.
C: The petals are black, pointy black.
S: So, two things: let the pointy part speak and the burnt, black part speak.
C: The pointy part is like getting stabbed. Someone is doing pointy things
at me. It feels like, maybe, finger pointing, pointing, pointing—somehow
pointing a knife or some sharp pointing thing.
S: Take a look. Imagine that you click a button and it takes you to the other
end of the pointy thing. See whoever is there.
Images may come up immediately when we put the thinking mind
aside and allow our answers to just appear.
C: Ah! [Exclamation] I see my mother.
S: Let’s talk to her and see what she is doing there.
C: That’s not typical of her.
S: Yes.
C: You should, you should, you should.
S: Stop “shoulding” all over me.
C: Stop “shoulding.” [Laughs]
S: What is she wanting? This may well be very past-time.
C: Very past-time.
S: What is she wanting?
C: Like I’m a child, past-time. I want to say, “Be quiet. You can’t draw
attention to yourself; you can’t.” It’s almost like first chakra survival. You have
to be quiet. [More emphatically] You cannot d draw attention to yourself. Yuck!
[Sounds of gagging] That just makes my third chakra nauseated.
S: What happens? What would happen if you draw attention to yourself?
C: It’s dangerous to draw attention to yourself. It’s so dangerous. It makes
me want to cry. [Tears starting] It feels almost past-life.
S: Stay with that—what’s the danger?
C: I’m going to be killed. I’m going to be found. I’m hiding. I’m going to
be found.
S: Where are you that you might be found?
C: I’m in an attic or something. Oh gosh, I want to say a Jewish-Nazi type
thing.
S: Yes, it was sounding like Anne Frank.
Past-life memories that are still charged can carry through the
lifetimes with us. They affect us, even if they remain unconscious.
C: You have to be quiet, you can’t be found.
S: Keep breathing, grounding, running earth energy.
When energy is in motion, we continue to release the emotional charge
in our cells and allow the memory to become a pure, neutral memory,
rather than one that emotionally ties us to it. This way it can release its hold
on our cells and our health.
C: Oh, my God, this is really strong. [On the ground, crying] Part of me
wants to just give up.
S: Look around this attic room.
C: It’s so claustrophobic. [Sighing] Part of me just wants it to be over.
S: How old are you?
C: Four to six.
S: Look around the room and see who is in there with you. Anyone you
recognize?
C: A whole bunch of kids. [Sighing] My mother’s telling us to be quiet. I
just want to lie down and die. I want this to be over. I just want to move on.
S: Can you fast-forward that life, that scene a little bit to see what
happened? Did you get caught and die? Did the war end? What happened?
C: We got locked in there. We never got out. [Crying]
S: Using your grounding, release, breathe.
C: Oh, my goodness. [Sighing]
S: Feel how this was sitting in you right next to, juxtaposed to your
daughter “L” inside you. As you let go of holding “L” in your second chakra,
this was immediately underneath that energy.
C: [Crying] Yeah.
S: Use your grounding. Notice that you’re reconnecting the strength of
your grounding.
C: It’s like she was my little sister. I felt responsible for her. [Sighing] Oh,
wow, I feel all these angels coming to take us away. [Crying, laughing] Oh, my
God, it’s so beautiful! All these angels are coming to take our souls.
S: So, you got your wish—let this be over. Let this be over.
C: It’s just like we lay down and died. Oh, goodness, it’s so nice.
S: There’s a beautiful lightness around your aura as you are experiencing
the angels.
C: It’s like I can breathe again.
S: Yes, that is the end of that pain. That is the end of that lifetime. You are
now completely free from all of those events.
C: It’s a beautiful ending! Wow, wow! [Laughing] I had no idea that was
going to happen. Oh, even my third chakra is relaxing.
S: Yes, it’s resuming its spin. Do you know in that lifetime what gave you
away? Did someone make a sound? You were not allowed to make a sound. Did
anyone make a sound?
 C: I don’t think so. I think we somehow got locked in. I read a book a long
time ago. This little boy gets locked in, the family thinks they are going to go
back and get him, and they don’t. But this feels real to me—whoever was
supposed to come back didn’t or couldn’t, and we were just left in there. All of
us little kids. We just kind of got lethargic and lay down and died.
Many times we encounter something external—a book, or a song that
stimulates a distant memory or that opens a portal to uncover an
unconscious memory that helps us release some level of pain that we are
holding. The universe conspires on our behalf.
S: I’m saying “hello” to your fifth chakra.
C: There is some congestion in my throat.
S: Let’s look at your fifth chakra because that was so relevant in this
memory of your past-life.
C: Yeah.
S: So, continue the grounding, and running earth and cosmic energy. Let
the cosmic energy spin that fifth chakra and see whatever you notice there.
C: [Sighs]
S: How much command does “Don’t make a sound” have over your
present life? Over you in present-time?
C: When I was young, it was a big command.
S: Right.
C: Less so now, but it’s still there. It’s like the ghost of it is there. The
residual is there.
S: Find anywhere in your present-life that supports the command to be
quiet. In your past-life there was a danger. A real danger, and the threat was
death, a very clear relationship. What’s the perceived danger, conscious or
unconscious, real or illusory in your present life?
C: It’s not life threatening, but it’s—I’ll be laughed at.
S: Who is going to laugh at you?
C: People.
S: Why are they going to laugh at you? What’s the judgment in their
laughter?
C: It makes me want to cry, so it’s something. Umm [sigh], when I express
who I am. I’m getting stuck here, because when I express who I am as spirit,
who cares if somebody laughs at me. But there’s a personality child part of me
that—I don’t want to get laughed at.
S: What would that do to you?
C: [Emphatically] It would devastate me. It would make me cry. I cried
very easily as a child.
 S: How old are you as you talk about someone laughing at you as you
speak?
C: That same age of three or four. Actually, in Germany, I was six. Here,
I’m a little younger.
S: Who laughs at you in this incarnation when you’re three or four?
C: My dad, and not in a nice way.
S: What does his laughter say to you?
C: [Laughs] A derisive laugh.
S: Feel that in your body.
C: Oh, my God, I feel that so much in my body.
S: Where do you feel that?
C: I feel that in my legs.
Carolyn has health issues involving her legs.
S: Feel that, because your legs are a primary place you have psoriasis, and
on an energy level your legs got very tense. Your muscles contracted and got
tight.
C: I feel the energy very tense in my legs. Wow.
S: Let your legs speak to that derisive laughter.
C: Oh my God! It’s like, “How could you? You’re supposed to support
your daughter and not make fun of her.” Anger, such anger. I want to kick and
scream. I want to kick these legs! [She laughs]
Anger is not a comfortable emotion for her to express. Instead it comes
out as lighthearted laughter, nervous laughter. Carolyn has given herself a
great clue as to how to release this pain. She needs to do some physical
kicking and screaming. Sometimes we need a biological release that is
proportionate to the charge we are holding.
C: [Sighs] Part of my father’s mother is in there.
S: And what’s her message?
C: You have to close everything up, and don’t be loud, don’t make noise.
She is German, of German descent, a schoolteacher, very strict. She dominated
the family, dominated my father. My father’s picking at me was like he was
channeling his mother. My legs feel better already.
S: Imagine a timeline back to three or four years of age. Would you
imagine a particular event where he laughs at you derisively?
C: It’s like I made up a song, or I was dancing around and singing. And
instead of saying, “Oh, how cute,” like I would, you know, supporting your
creativity, it was like shutting you down, “You look stupid,” or something. [She
makes a sharp sound, like a whip in air.]
S: It’s interesting you just made the same sound you use when your dog is
doing something “wrong.” Would you be there, dancing and singing, go to that
age with your present-time wisdom, knowledge, and information, and watch him
laugh derisively? Would you see whatever it is you want to say?
C: What I want to say is, “I am such a creative, joyous being of light, so
there” [said very emphatically]. [She laughs.]
S: What does he do?
C: He says, “I know.”
S: So the overlay: his mother’s control left him when you talked right to
him, and you spoke, your truth. Now from that same place, that same age, but
with all of your present-time wisdom, just look at each other. You said you are a
joyous being of light, and he said, “I know”—just look at each other, separate
from all this stuff. Spirit to spirit.
C: He feels very joyous to me when he acknowledges that. And I feel true
love and understanding just by exchanging looks and energy through our eyes.
S: Just breathe.
C: [Sighs] That’s the reality; that scene is spirit to spirit, seeing one
another.
S: Yeah, allow the grounding to continue to work—the earth energy, the
cosmic energy coming down through your crown, down the sides of your spine,
and grounding. Then, would you look underneath this event, looking at your
fifth chakra, put up a rose for your fifth chakra and see what speaks next.
C: It’s blood-red orange. Opening it up, it feels so red and rich inside. It
feels juicy rich. It does something to my first chakra. It feels so rich.
S: Bring that blood-red orange into your fifth chakra and see how it feels.
C: When I bring it into my throat, it makes me feel suffocated.
S: OK, move it back out.
C: I need it in little pieces. [Laughs] That whole thing was too much.
S: Take a look at what is in it that is suffocating.
C: It’s too much; that’s what comes up. It’s too much. It’s too big in my
throat chakra, too much. And there is a sexual connotation.
S: There is. It lights up your first chakra. Say “hello” to you as a sexual
being and see what comes up. Still looking at this blood-red orange rose for the
fifth chakra.
Our chakras will not usually appear as the pure colors described in
books. They have absorbed the imprints of foreign energy.
C: Oh, boy, I just flashed on an experience I had when I was in college and
walking back to my car, and this guy was exposing himself to me. He did it two
times in a row on two different days. And his penis was so large and so red and
so big. He didn’t come near me or anything. It was just a shock!
 S: Feel anywhere that made an imprint on you.
C: [Points to her abdomen] Second chakra, right here.
S: Using the grounding, did you feel in danger?
C: [Sighs] I did not feel in danger at all. I felt taken aback. I remember the
second time he did it. You know, I thought about this the other day. I never
thought to go to the school and say there is a man out there in a trench coat
exposing himself to people. I never thought to go. The second time, I said
something, and I went to my car and locked the doors. Because I said something,
I felt like I might be in danger. I was engaged at that time. I remember trying to
tell my fiancé about it, but I felt unsure, unsure of what to say. I wrote him—the
man I was engaged to—a letter, but I don’t remember his reaction.
S: Look at the rose for your fifth chakra. Put a grounding cord on it to take
the charge off this incident and just let it be a neutral memory. And what do you
notice as you take the charge off this event?
C: What do I notice? I notice my first chakra has a lot of sexual energy. It’s
had it for like the last fifteen minutes. That’s what I’m noticing.
S: Does that feel OK?
I’m looking to see if it is this old sexual energy of the man who exposed
himself to her, or her own sexual energy revealed.
C: Yes, the throat [talking about her throat in third person] feels empty in
a way—like something left.
S: I’m noticing a subtle vibration of your own sensuality, sexuality. I’m not
noticing it in one particular chakra; it is up and down your spine—just a
vibration of sensual life. Let that flow. We are sensual beings. Breathing,
breathing.
C: My attention is being drawn to my third chakra. From the fourth chakra
up, it feels nice, cleaner. It feels good.
S: Say “hello” to this third chakra—just put up a rose for it, a symbol.
C: Yellow rose of Texas.
S: See what about this rose was pulling your attention. Your attention was
drawn to your third chakra.
C: It was, yeah. I keep getting the word “big.” Something big, like the
yellow rose is big like the state of Texas.
S: You just used the word “big” to describe that man’s penis.
C: It’s like it’s too big for my chakra, and I see spiders; I see yellow. Bright
yellow, but I see spiders like coming out of my third chakra, hundreds like
running away.
S: What were they attached to?
C: The fifth chakra image of that man.
 S: The exposer’s energy is a slimy-type energy that attracts and sends out a
vibration just like itself. Sometimes slimy energy attracts what looks like spiders.
As a child, we can’t make sense of this energy. It acts like a lie in that it doesn’t
make ordinary sense in a day, so the energy tends to persist. It is harder to
discharge and be neutral to a lie.
Say “hello” to the Supreme Being. Would you create a connection to the
Supreme Being and ask for this energy to be taken out of your space. If there is a
nest for those spiders, wherever they landed ask for help releasing all of this. Say
“hello” to a white vibration. White is a high vibration that can freeze energy and
is useful for moving energy out of the body.
Make a connection between the nest and the Supreme Being—a white-
energy connection. It’s not a vibration of movement, so you will stop them from
escaping, and then ask the Supreme Being to take them.
C: Yes.
S: Many times a slimy energy can attract spider energy. It’s not something
you want in the chakra. Spider energy tends to create fear and doubt. And just let
the Supreme Being take all of that, clear out the entire nest.
C: Actually, the energy is being cleared up and down from my feet to my
head, pulling out different threads, spider webs. Threads, yeah, wow.
S: I’m watching some of them come from that time in Germany. The
clearing is going deeper. I’m watching much more clearing through time and all
over you as if you were in a web.
C: Yeah, I was in a web. All the children were like pieces of this web. Oh, I
feel that through my whole body. It feels like a heaviness in my legs. I don’t
know if they are numb.
S: Just keep letting this energy come off.
C: Is it still coming off?
S: There are different images of you. There are layers that are being peeled
off. A lot of male energy coming off. These may be you in past-time or past-life.
C: Um hmm.
S: Just imprints that you’ve had.
C: Yes, that I’ve been holding and I don’t need to hold them anymore.
Different threads in the spider web. [Sighing, breathing deeply, releasing]
S: Ground. Let energy run as you are moving through all of this. Earth and
cosmic.
[Long pause]
S: And say “hello” to yourself by name. Silently, over and over say “hello”
to your own personal power, to your ability to release, to your ability to speak
your truth, to your safety in the world, to the angels that guide you. And bring in
some beautiful golden suns. And when you are ready, just replenish your energy
field with your light—lots of light, until you feel full.
Take a deep breath; come all the way out of trance. Stand up and gently
shake your body, stretch your body.
What a journey!
C: Oh, my God! I feel so present! [Laughing]
S: It’s interesting to see how much we hold and what the effect of that is on
our aliveness, vitality, our ability to be here.
C: Yeah, breathing!
 All things change when we do.

— KuKei, ninth-century Zen master

from Singing Images of Fire

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing

There is a field.
I’ll meet you there.

— Rumi
 Glossary

Aborigine Indigenous person. Usually refers to Australian Aborigines.

Ajna The sixth chakra, located in the forehead between the eyes. In the Hindu
tradition, this is the third eye. It is the center for clairvoyance, spiritual sight,
intuition, spiritual intelligence.

Akashic A Sanskrit word meaning ether—the basis of all things. All thoughts,
deeds, and actions are recorded in the Akashic Records to help guide us.

Anahata The Sanskrit name for the fourth chakra, the heart center. It relates to
love, compassion, and forgiveness.

Angel A supernatural spirit, a celestial attendant of God, sending love and

blessings.

Being In this context, used synonymously with spirit. Cayce, Edgar Edgar Cayce
was known as the “Sleeping Prophet.” He went into a sleeping trance to do
health and life readings.
Chakra A Sanskrit word for energy center that translates as “wheel.” These
energy centers are the intersections between the body and consciousness. They
are spinning vortexes of light that are within the spiritual and physical body.

Channel Pathway for the earth and cosmic energy to move through the body.
Channeling is the ability to be receptive to thought and communication from the
Spirit world.

Clairsentience A psychic ability meaning clear feeling, the ability to feel or sense
the emotions of another. A gut feeling, empathy, the feeling intelligence of the
body.

Clairvoyance Literally means clear seeing, clear vision. It is the psychic ability
of the sixth chakra to see energy, to see beyond ordinary or literal reality.

Consciousness The state of being aware. Being aware within oneself and of the
external world. Used here as an internal awareness that is expansive, it can
include the entire cosmos.

Cord Cords are energy lines of communication. The grounding cord helps us to
release energy. We have communication cords with people in our lives. Negative
cords are past-time or control cords placed in a person for the purpose of
manipulation.

Cosmic Cosmic energy, cosmos. Used in this context as bringing in energy from
the vast universe, the stars, moon, sun, heavens. This energy fuels and validates
our spiritual nature.

Crown The crown chakra sits at the top of the head. It is oriented as a plate
would be if balanced on your head. It is the source of knowing who you truly
are, your spiritual nature.

Divine Knowing your spiritual nature. Drawing inspiration from God, from
guides, and from heaven.
Empathy To recognize the emotions of another with compassion. This does not
entail matching these emotions, as in sympathy, where one does match the
emotions. In sympathy one frequently absorbs the pain of another.

Ganesh An elephant-headed deity in the Hindu pantheon. He is revered as the

remover of obstacles, the first one to approach in seeking a change.

Guide A guide offers direction, counsel, and healing from the spirit world.

Hasidic A branch of Orthodox Judaism that promotes Jewish mysticism.

Hierarchy A classification and organization of beings, usually a division of

angels.

Ho’oponopono A Hawaiian rite of forgiveness. As we forgive ourselves and

others, we release the toxicity of anger and blame from ourselves and the world.

Keeper Our Akashic Record Keeper exists outside of time and keeps records of
all of our thoughts, deeds, and emotions. The purpose is to enable us to be
guided by a higher perspective.

Kinesiology The study of body mechanics. The ability to test the strength of a
particular muscle to gather information about health, emotions and thoughts that
strengthen or weaken the energy field.

Manipura The third chakra, located at the solar plexus. This chakra governs our
will, personal power, and self-esteem.

Mani Om Mani Padme Om. Mani means jewel or bead. Padme is Sanskrit for
lotus flower. This mantra is used to invoke the blessing of Chenrezig in Tibetan
Buddhism, and Avalokiteshvara in the Hindu religion. Both are compassionate
deities.

Mantra A sound or syllable that has the power to create spiritual transformation,
to heal and raise our vibration.
Muladhara The Sanskrit name for the first chakra, located at the base of the
spine. The root chakra, it relates to our basic survival needs.

Myss Carolyn Myss is the author of Anatomy of the Spirit and other books
concerning spirituality.

Om A mystical Sanskrit sound. Connects you to other dimensions. Part of the

Om Mani Padme Om mantra.

Psychic One who utilizes abilities lying outside the spheres of science and
material perception. One who is sensitive to energetic sources of information:
clairvoyance—spiritual sight, clairaudience—hearing spirit, clairsentience—
feeling the emotions of others.

Sahasrara The seventh or crown chakra. This chakra connects us to our higher
consciousness and guidance. It is positioned on the top of the head, oriented like
a plate sitting on top of the head.

Shamanic A practice involving a Shaman, who is the mediator between the

visible and invisible worlds. The purpose is for healing and divination.

Soul The spiritual, immaterial essence. The principle that animates life and lives
on after the body dies.

Spirit The nonphysical part of a person. You who incarnate into the physical
body.

Supreme Being The supernatural being who is omnipresent, omnipotent, and

omniscient.

Svadhisthana The second chakra, located two finger-widths below the navel.
This chakra relates to our emotions, sexuality, and creativity.
Synchronicity A meaningful coincidence in time. People or events meeting
spontaneously that make “psychic sense.” It may open a new doorway or
unexpected direction for someone.

Telepathy The transmission of information, words, sounds, thoughts from one

person to another without using any of the usual senses. Without using words.

Toning Making sounds that balance, tone, and heal the human energy field, or
sounds that open psychic channels.

Transmediumship The ability to bring energy and information from other

entities, spirits, or people with bodies through the crown chakra.

Unconsciousness Information, energy, memories that are not accessible to the

conscious mind.

Universe All that is, including planets, stars, galaxies.

Vishudda The fifth chakra, located at the throat. This chakra relates to self-
expression, communication, inner voice, and truth.

Watcher The ability to stand outside yourself and view yourself, your actions,
emotions, and thoughts from a neutral and higher perspective.
 Relevant Reading

Journey of Souls, by Michael Newton

Destiny of Souls, by Michael Newton
I have been trained by Michael Newton and the Newton Institute to be
a Life Between Life Hypnotherapist. Both the books and the training
have had profound influence on my work because they open up direct
pathways into the client’s soul space. A big picture of the client’s
incarnation is seen, and a deep experience of the guidance and love
available to each of us is experienced.

Wheels of Life: A User’s Guide to the Chakra System, by Anodea

Judith This book is a beautiful description of the chakras, their
physical counterparts, and their psychological characteristics.

Hands of Light: A Guide to Healing Through the Human Energy Field, by

Barbara Ann Brennan
This book describes the chakras and offers exercises to access abilities contained
within them.
Anatomy of the Spirit: The Seven Stages of Power and Healing, by Caroline
Myss, PhD
This is a powerful description of the chakras and the kind of behavior manifest
in and related to each chakra.

A Course in Miracles, by Helen Schucman

A guide to the teachings of Jesus Christ on the fourth chakra—love and
forgiveness. This book has some very powerful teachings and exercises around
forgiveness and the world as a mirror. What you put forth is what you receive.
These are deep teachings that are foundational to clairvoyant psychotherapy.
 About the Author

I am a mystic
With eyes turned inward
To infinity and cosmic consciousness
Integrating my spiritual nature
Into this body
Infusing it into my work
Sprinkling it back
Into the universe

“My work is the nurturance of the soul. To discover and support our innate
creativity, individuality and certainty by encouraging awareness and expression
of our uniqueness. You are a miracle!”
Susan is a unique and gifted psychotherapist with a strong focus on
spiritual and psychic abilities. For the last thirty years she has been weaving
meditation and clairvoyance into her practice, looking beneath content, beyond
stories to underlying truths revealed through the spiritual anatomy. Her
background includes hands-on-healing, spiritual midwifery, cranial/sacral
therapy, shamanic techniques of healing and homeopathic consultations. She is
the author of Unwinding The Soul, a book of poetry and has also produced two
CD’s, Heaven & Earth Meditations, and Meditations on the Chakras.
Susan teaches classes in clairvoyance, meditation, the chakras, shamanic
techniques of healing and conducts trainings for psychotherapists in her
methods. Her classes are currently held in New York and Healdsburg, California.
 About the Author: Background

Susan Feinbloom

“My work is the nurturance of the soul - To discover and support our
innate creativity, individuality and certainty by encouraging awareness
and expression of our uniqueness. You are a miracle!” - Susan
Feinbloom

Susan has spent a lifetime developing her unique healing approach. Her
passion is for helping people recognize who they are and help get them on a
healing path toward integrated wholeness. With 40 years experience as a
psychotherapist – 30 of those years as a psychic psychotherapist – she brings a
multitude of healing modalities to her practice.

She graduated from Hunter Graduate School in New York City with a
Master’s Degree in Social Work; and earned status as a Licensed Clinical Social
Worker in California and New York. Susan’s education continued throughout the
years as she became trained in Transformational Breath Work and Gestalt
Therapy and achieved certification as a Professional Hypnotherapist from the
Alchemy Institute of Santa Rosa, California. She attended the Pacific Academy
of Homeopathy Medicine, where she became a certified Homeopathic
Consultant. This led her to Santa Barbara, California, where she studied Plant
Spirit Medicine with Eliot Cowan.

Adding to Susan’s other academic achievements, she attended the

Colorado Cranial Institute and the Milne Visionary Cranial Institute where she
learned a specialized bodywork method. Susan trained with Arthur Pauls, D.O.
in structural alignment techniques.

During the past 30 years, Susan’s spiritual and metaphysical trainings have
added deep significance to her work as a Clairvoyant Psychotherapist. She
studied at Shared Visions and at the Berkeley Psychic Institute and Church of
Aesclepion Healing; and attended the Newton Institute, where she studied with
the Newton teaching team and Michael Newton, author of “Journey of Souls,”
and “ Destiny of Souls,” and became certified as a Life Between Lives Spiritual
Regression Hypnotherapist. Her diversified, extensive, and specialized
background bring further dimensions to her practice and her clients as she assists
them to recognize their true nature as Spirit.

In addition to Susan’s private consulting and healing practice, she offers

classes in Clairvoyance and the Chakras, Shamanic Journey Techniques,
Crainial/Sacral Bodywork, and Homeopathy of the Spine Bodywork. She is the
author of “Unwinding the Soul,” a collection of psychological, mystical, and
revelatory poems.
 Trainings with the Author

Exploring Your Spiritual Nature, Spiritual Anatomy,

Chakras, Clairvoyance, Healing Energy and Beyond

Psychic abilities encompass much more than learning spiritual

anatomy. It’s about you! Who are you? What is your energetic make-
up Learn to know yourself as pure spirit, and learn to recognize
spiritual freedom and creative energy. We will be gathering
information clairvoyantly, learning how to see and read energy in
ourselves and others.

The first year is a deep inward journey to explore the energy within your
own chakras as well as the wounding and brilliance. You will learn to use your
clairvoyance to access this information.
The second year is a deepening of the first. Exploring different energies
from the 8th chakra.
The third year is geared to therapists of any modality. You will learn how
to integrate and weave your clairvoyant abilities into the therapy session; how to
view and relate to clients as whole spiritual beings, to see the energetic patterns
and blocks as they relate to the particular challenges that are being explored; and
to see beyond content and aim your communication to the spirit in the body.
Working with the Chakras progressively, the following sessions will be
incorporated into the 3-year program:
Sessions One & Two – Learning to Access and Use Energy
Sessions Three & Four – Accessing a Healing Guide
Sessions Five & Six – Working with Telepathy and Clairvoyance
Sessions Seven & Eight – Higher Inspiration and Guidance

Contact Susan Feinbloom (707) 433-7135 for more detailed information or visit
the websites: www.susanfeinbloom.com
www.twilightpublications.com or email: twylight@sonic.net
 Other Books and Media by Susan Feinbloom

These CDs
offer a valuable supplement to the
book or they can
easily be used as
stand-alone
learning guides.

Meditations on the Chakras Audio CD & MP3 / Disk 1 / Chakras 1-4

In-depth teaching of the first four chakras from root to heart, revealing the
abilities, wisdoms and brilliance of each one. Each track is an inward journey.
Available from Amazon.com $15.00
 Heaven & Earth Meditations Audio CD & MP3
This is an instructional meditation CD that guides you through grounding,
releasing past time energy, and connecting to a renewal source – nature and the
cosmos. The cosmos provides spiritual inspiration, guidance and wisdom, and
Nature fuels the body.
Available from Amazon.com $15.00

Meditations on the Chakras

Audio CD & MP3 / Disk 2 / Chakras 5-7
Guided meditations on the upper chakras: inner voice, third eye and crown.
Belief systems are revealed and how they block access to the wisdom of the
chakras.
Available from Amazon.com $15.00

Contact Susan Feinbloom (707) 433-7135 for more detailed information or visit
the websites: www.susanfeinbloom.com
www.twilightpublications.com or email: twylight@sonic.net