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glimpses of

AVATARA LEELA
The Autobiography of The Avatar
Volume 1
 Compiler’s Note

Before you begin this incredible journey, please note that all the text that
appears in straight font is The Avatar’s own words. All text that appears in
italics is narration written by the blessed compilers of this purana.
 tava kathāmṛtaḿ tapta-jīvanaḿ
kavibhir īḍitaḿ kalmaṣāpaham
śravaṇa-mańgalaḿ śrīmad ātataḿ
bhuvi gṛṇanti ye bhūri-dā janāḥ

Srimad Bhagavatam (10.31.9)

That is which is sweet to hear,

That which when heard, immediately raises
one to the high conscious state,
That which takes us to another level, just by
remembering it
That which gives deep pleasure not only to
the listener, but also to the person who
narrates it,
O Lord, may I narrate Your story!

DWAJAROHANAM DAY
Gracing the Bengaluru Adheenam for Avatar Dinabrahmotsavam on January 1, 2018

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 I am
Mahasadashiva
the Ever-Auspicious,
Eternal, Immutable, Beginningless, Endless.
I create these infinite Manifest
and Unmanifest Universes again and again,
through the power of My third eye.
I am the Hub of the great wheel
on which millions upon millions of galaxies spin.
As Advaita, Oneness,
I am the spindle and the fulcrum
of All that Exists.
As Adishakti, the Primal Power,
I am ananta koti brahmahanda yoni,
the womb and the Lord of numberless worlds.
As Ishwara, the Infinite Lord and Doer,
I create, sustain, destroy,
delude and liberate through My grace.
As the ten incarnations of Vishnu,
I grace this loka again and again,
to preserve and to destroy.
As Arunagiri
Yogishwara,
pradeepa sarvesham,
the Illuminator of all,
I walk sun-clad and free
In the sacred land of Arunachala.
As Meenakshi, who graces with a glance,
I conquer and reign, heal and bless.
As Nithyananda, the Eternally Blissful,
I manifest yet again
to remind what has been forgotten.
And as You,
I remember and rejoice.
My story can never be told -
for there exists no observer
who is apart from Me.
My story can never be understood -
for the very dhi, the intelligence
which illumines Me, is also I.
My abode is mano-vacham-agocharam -
a realm hidden from mind and words.
Yet a million voices chant My name
and sing My glory
in the songs of their own Existence.
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 avatar
The grand descent
of Consciousness into form
The story of The Avatar is the story of the Cosmos itself - the grand
Descent of Consciousness into form.
Pure Consciousness pervades everything. The great rishis of Hindu
tradition reveal that both the manifested and the unmanifested universe
are pure Consciousness, and matter is simply projected Consciousness.
The subtlest field of Consciousness of the cosmos, which is in a constant
state of emergence (spanda) is called Sadashiva. The instantaneous
manifestation as matter, is Adishakti - the subtle creative pulse vibration
of the Universe as it manifests into the dynamism of living form.
Every moment - even as you are reading this - the cosmos is emerging
from pure Consciousness into the manifold manifestation of matter, and
dissolving back into its Source, in the enchanting, eternal and most
intimate dance of Sadashiva (Pure Consciousness) and Adishakti (Pure
Manifestation).
Among the countless manifestations of Consciousness, the most sacred
is The Avatar, for He embodies the purest Consciousness, uncorrupted
TIRUVANNAMALAI TEMPLE TOWN and incorruptible by its descent into the world of form.
South India 11
Aerial view of the land on which I descended
SADASHIVA DARSHAN
During the Mahasadashivoham program on 22 December 2017
 the mark of kali
Time (Kaala) is divided into four ages, or yugas, that make up a cycle. The
Avatar descends in the time of the most dire need - the Kali Yuga (Age of Kali).
Kali is the age of great delusion, where our experience of life is most distant
from reality. Sadashiva says reality is eternal bliss and complete fulfillment in
every moment. Meanwhile, what we feel inside is distinctly opposite. This
duality, between reality and experience, between what you believe and what
reality is, is what our rishis signify as the beginning of “Kali”, the mark of Kali.

The accumulation of this delusion has reached the point where if humanity
does not fix itself now, it will end up in its own collapse. This is the reason for
the descent of the Avatar.
MISTREATMENT OF ANIMALS
In farms all over the world that are focused on producing for the mass, the treatment of the
animals is horrific. In this picture, you see a overcrowded farm in the United States
where the cows don't have room to roam as they want.
The tremendous experience of pain that life in all forms is undergoing across all nations,
religions, castes, classes and genders has increased drastically over the past two
thousand years. Not only humans, but animals, plants and the very land that we walk on
has been affected by the misguided decisions of people in power, and the silence of
others. We have seen pain in the aggressive form of violence and vengeance, in the
manipulative form as greed and exploitation, and in a disguised form as immense
boredom and tiredness. In all dimensions of life, the reality of pain unites us all more
than anything else. Though we may disagree about whom we pray to, what we eat or how
we go about earning our livelihood, when it comes to the suffering we have seen, heard of
and been through, there is no denying that it is a universal experience.
When we face the facts, we are a trembling force of life, foolishly overwhelmed by the
grandeur of the universe, and at the same time wanting to conquer it. What we lack is a
valid, working solution. Having acknowledged that, the question now is, ‘Where do we
go from here?’
SUICIDE OF YOUTH WAR ON ALL FRONTS
The twenty-first has witnessed the most With two World Wars and numerous brazen attacks from the level of one
number of youth suicides than any other person to another to the level of countries against one another, the violence
century in the last two thousand years. of humanity has peaked and showing no signs of relief.
The growing number of suicides is also at an
alarming growing rate, showing the
desperate state of humanity for a permanent
solution.
Most often, where we look for the solution is itself the source of the problem! We seek
solutions in the institutions that we ourselves have created. The government, health
institutions, and research and development universities have all shown that what they
offer as a solution, if anything, is only a temporary bandage over what is a gaping
wound. Solutions nowadays even create other problems, like pain medication that
comes with its own set of possibly even fatal side effects. We have seen enough of these
so-called solutions. It is time for the real, permanent and pervasive solution that fixes
what we have created for ourselves, once and for all.
SADASHIVA DARSHAN
I arrived just in time to give the conscious breakthrough to humanity. 1979 would have been too late.

Purana is not history
There are two things: purana and history.
Both are different. In Western countries,
what they write is history. In Eastern
countries, the history that we write is called
purana! There is a big difference between
the two. History means, that which
happens in the two dimensions of length
and breadth. For example, ‘He was born at
this time this morning. He did this at this
particular time this evening. He did this at
this time at night.’ It is two-dimensional;
meaning, what you see in everyday life.
This is called history.
Purana is the recording of multiple-
dimensions. Every happening has an
impact on all eleven dimensions of the
universe. Whoever can see the impact of
every happening on all eleven dimensions
and records it is Vyasa, and what he records
is purana. Vyasa is not the name of some
individual. It is a title. The Vyasa who
compiled the eighteen puranas and four
vedas is called Badanarayana. Understand:
his name is Badanarayna; his title is Vyasa.
My happening cannot be recorded a person
with convoluted space. It can neither be
recorded by the media nor just by the facts.
It has to be recorded from all the eleven
dimensions. Because what is happening in
Intensity is the essence of My life life, whatever I do, there will be intensity and
If you read this deeply, the essence of this completeness in it. So If you listen to My life
life story will enter you. Whichever story, that intensity or completeness will catch
incarnation’s life story you read or listen to you.
deeply, that incarnation’s story’s essence
will flower in you. Essence of My life story is As long as you think you are the body, that
INTENSITY. Whatever is done will be intensity will not happen. As long as you
intense. That is the essence. The side effect think you are the mind, that intensity will not
of this essence is bliss etc. All incarnations happen. Only when you realise you the soul,
will have all attributes, but there will be a that intensity will happen. That intensity is
all the eleven dimensions needs to be main character in each one of them. In My the essence of My life.
compiled, I decided ‘Better let me do it
directly!’
Truth versus Fact
Truth is life. Fact is history. Whatever you
experience, if you convert to words, it is
history. If you experience it within you, it
will be life! Any extraordinary experience,
if you convert it to words, it will be flat, like
history. Without converting it to history, if
you keep it inside you, it will remain as
experience. If you convert it to words, it will
not be an experience anymore. If it is
history, it will not become purana. If it is a
purana, it will not be history.
All that was written in Western countries is
history. All that was written in Eastern
countries is purana! If it is told as purana,
all the facts will be hit. You cannot do that.
If you tell as history, the Truth will get hit.
Then, listening to it is of no use!
For the first time, Western countries’ facts,
and the Eastern countries’ purana (which
conveys the impact it has on people) are
being combined and told. Combining life
and history, I am going to narrate as living
history!
Understand this: My life is not an individual’s history. The science of
crores of Vedic Dharma’s incarnations and rishis has been realized one
again in Me. The Enlightenment science has been realized once again.
So, if you understand My biography, you will understand that
enlightenment science. You cannot understand a scientist’s biography
without understanding that science. You cannot understand an
enlightened being’s biography without having Enlightenment! The
reason why I am narrating My biography. long with this, enlightenment
will also flower in you. So understand these enlightening truths deeply.

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 1978

Leela of

BIRTH
Chapter 2

MAP OF TIRUVANNAMALAI, South India

 The universe has been planning for the happening of
The Avatar since the beginning of time.

ARUNACHALA HILL
Tiruvannamalai
 Timeless Revelations
on the Avatar
The universe has been planning for the happening of
The Avatar since the beginning of time. Nadi readings are an
astrological phenomenon where through many different means,
either through
a person or through palm leaf recordings, the past,
present and future is revealed to any individual at any time.
They are extremely profound sources that expose the depth
of Hinduism and the inner achievements of the giants in Hindu
history.
The nadi readings are originally written by the ancient rishis,
including the renowned sage and Siddha Agastya, about
the entire history of life in the universe. They were recorded
when the rishis had access to the Akashic Records, and
wrote down what they saw was happening in the grand
scheme of the universe.

SAGE AGASTYA
The Nadi Readings are about the entire history of life in the universe, written originally by the ancient rishis,
including the renowned Sage and Siddha Agastya.
 Jeeva nadi of the Avatar
ghjpkjp rilajdpy; jupj;jaPrh
ghu;tjpf;F gjpahf mku;e;jehjh
ePjpaij epiyahf nfhz;lNjth
epj;ahde;j Fykf;fSf;F mfj;jpad;ahd

To the Ishvara who wears the half-moon in His Jata (matted locks),
The Lord who sits as Parvati’s consort
The Lord whose state is justice
For the Nithyananda sangha
Me, Agastya

mfj;jpad;ahd; rg;juprpfSk; gjpndl;Lrpj;ju;fSk;

mUSfpd;Nwhk; gukfk;ru; mUs;gyid
nrfk;fhj;j epj;ahde;ju; ,JjUzk;
Rw;wpNa mku;;e;jpUf;Fk; rj;jpak;fhf;f
This particular nadi reading referring to The Avatar was
Me, Agastya, the seven Rishis and the eighteen Siddhas
spontaneously revealed (or revealed through divine intervention)
Will now reveal the divine prediction for Paramahamsa Nithyananda
to a disciple who had sought his own nadi reading. It must be Nithyananda, who protects the world, at this time, to protect the truth surrounding Him
mentioned here that this particular disciple was a resident of
New Zealand and was a complete stranger to the nadi readers.
The original nadi is in Tamil. rj;jpakhd jtuprp cyfkf;fs;
rd;khu;f;f topepd;W tho;tjw;F
,JTyfpy; cz;ikahd Nghjidfs;
,ikasTk; Fw;wkpy;yh gupRj;jtho;T

Truthful Supreme Rishi

To help people live the path of righteousness
He gives truthful lessons to the world
Not even an iota of wrong
A life of purity

Jeeva nadi - Nadi reading is an ancient palm leaf reading where the thumb impression of the person seeking his past, present or
future leads to picking of a palm leaf from an already available set of palm leaves written by the ancient sages like Agastya. The
picked palm leaf is read out to the person. Jeeva Nadi is a special palm leaf reading that does not require the thumb impression
of the person seeking the nadi and the text appears spontaneously in response to a person’s query. Bharadwaja Kashyapa Jamadagni
Goutama Vishwamitra Vasistha Atri
 njspTgl nra;JNk kf;fSf;F
njtpl;lhj Ngupd;gk; mspj;jhug;gh
ehnsy;yhk; fle;Jte;j epj;ahde;jH
Qhdj;jpd; mUs;Nrhjp MjprptNk

tho;Tfz;l gukfk;ru; jd;kf;fSf;F By giving the Knowledge of Self for the people
toptFj;J ju;ktop filgpbj;jhu; He bestowed the Unsaturating Bliss
jho;tpy;yh Kk;%u;j;jp Njtu;fSk; Nithyananda who has crossed eons and come
jtuprpia Rw;wpNa mtjhuj;Js; Is the blessing light of Enlightenment that is Adishiva (Sadashiva) Himself

Paramahamsa, who has realized Himself, laid down the way

For His people and followed the path of Dharma rptNk mtjhukha; gpwg;ngLj;J
No lesser than the Holy Trinity (Brahma, Vishnu, Shiva) and devas ru;tNyhf rQ;rhupaha; tpahgpj;Jepd;W
Gtpfhf;Fk; guNkRtuNd mfj;jpad;Kjyha;
Surrounded the Supreme Rishi and incarnated in Him gjQ;ryp ee;jpNjtu; rptthf;fpaUk;

Shiva, who incarnated and took body as Nithyananda

mtjhuj;Js; Mde;jjhz;lt <rdhf Whose omnipresence permeated all the worlds
mDjpdKk; rjhjUzk; khzplu;f;F The Parameshwara, who protects the universe,
ghtgpzp Nghf;fpNa Gz;zpafshu;f;fp Right from Agastya, Patanjali, Nandi Devar, Shiva Vakiyar
gukfk;r ,iwfhl;rp Md;khnjspT

As the blissfully dancing Isha (Shiva) in the Incarnation rptkhd kr;rKdp fkyKdptu;
Each day, every moment for humanity rl;ilehju; NghfUk; Gypg;ghdprpj;ju;
Removed the disease of sins and made them virtuous jtk;nfhz;l jd;te;jup; jpU%yUk;
By showing Divine Darshan and Knowledge of Self jtj;NjhL Nfhuf;fu; nfhq;fzUk;

Embodiment of Shiva – Matsya Muni, Kamala Muni,

Sattai Nathar, Bhogar, Pulippani Siddhar,
Embodiment of tapas Danvanthar, Thirumoolar,
With the penance Gorakkar, Konganavar,

Agathiyar Bhogar Gorakkar Kailasanathar Sattai Nathar Thirumoolar Nandi Devar Koonkanar Konganavar Matsyamuni Vasamuni Kurmamuni Kamalamuni Idaikadar Punakesar Sundaranandar Uromarishi Brahmamuni
 nfhq;fzUk; ghk;ghl;b gl;bdj;jhu;
$bNa ehujUk; NuhkuprpAk;
Nghjidahy; ghtpfSk; Gz;zpauhdhu;
kq;fskha; mj;jpupKdptu; kuprpNahL
gyNfhb kf;fSk; epj;ahde;jiu
khyhq;fd; khu;nfz;ilad; fhfGrd;lu;
epj;ahde;j epidtpy;nfhz;L Mde;jk;fz;lhu;
;
epj;ahde;jj;jpd; cz;ikia fz;lkf;fs;
Konganavar, Paampaati, Pattinathar,
Along with Narada, Roma Rishi,
By His teaching even many sinners became virtuous,
The auspicious Atri Munivar, along with Mareechi,
Many crores people became blissful
Malankan, Markandeyar, Kakabhusandar
Just by thinking about Him, they achieved bliss
The people who have experienced the truth of bliss followed Him
Grz;lUld; trp\;lu; thy;;kPfu;
G+Nyhfj;jpy; tpahf;ukthju; gj;jpufpupahu;
<rNdhL fapiythOk; etNfhbrpj;ju; kf;fnsy;yhk; gukfk;riu cyFvq;fpYk;
xd;wpize;J gukfk;r epj;ahde;ju; khrpy;yh jtuprpia gpd;njhlu;e;jhu;

Along with Bhusandar, Vasishtar, Valmiki, People from all over the world
The one in the earth – Vyakramavatar, Pattirakiriyar Followed unblemished Nithyananda,
9 crore Siddhas, who live with Shiva in Kailash,
Merged in Paramahamsa Nithyananda
Nfl;fNtz;Lk; epj;ahde;j kf;fspg;Ngh

Mde;jjtk; ,Jfhyk; Vw;wpepw;f You should listen carefully:

mfpyk;thOk; epj;ahde;j Fykf;fSf;F
kdf;ftiy kdr;rydk; Nghf;fplNt
khKdp mfj;jpad;ahd; mUs;ghypg;Ngd; Ftiyaj;jpy; epj;ahde;ju; gpwf;Fk;Kd;Nd
Kd;dNt VONfhb kf;fisNa
He is living Blissful tapas in this world for khepyj;jpy; gilj;JtplL gpwf;Fk;NghJ
The Nithyananda Sanga, who live all over this world jd;NdhL VONfhb kf;fisAk;
To remove the worries in their mind and jdf;Fg;gpd; VONfhb kf;fisAk;
Disturbances/movements in their minds kf;fisAk; G+Nyhfj;jpy; gpwf;fr;nra;jhu;;
Me, Agastya the great Rishi is blessing
In this world, before Nithyananda was born
He made 7 crore people
ru;NgRtud; mtjhukha; epj;ahde;ju; To be born in the world
cyfk;fhf;f topelj;jp kf;fisNa 7 crore people were born with Him
cz;ikahd rptj;ijNa Nghjpj;Jte;jhu;
After He was born he has invited 7 crore people to this world
He made them to be born on this earth
Nithyananda has incarnated as Sarvesvara
To save the planet earth and show the way to the people
He has come to teach the truths of Sadashivatva

Agathiyar Bhogar Gorakkar Kailasanathar Sattai Nathar Thirumoolar Nandi Devar Koonkanar Konganavar Matsyamuni Vasamuni Kurmamuni Kamalamuni Idaikadar Punakesar Sundaranandar Uromarishi Brahmamuni
 kf;fnsy;yhk; epj;ahde;ju; khiyazpe;J
khrpy;yh Nghw;wptzq;Fk; fhyk;jd;dpy;
mf;fhyk; epj;ahde;ju; kfpo;e;JNaw;gha;
mUs;ngw;w ,t;thf;F mfj;jpad;nrhy;iy

All people will all wear Nithyananda’s mala

kjnky;yhk; epj;ahde;ju; Fykyf;fs;Njhw;wk; With purity praising and praying in that time
,f;fhyk; ru;tkjj;jpYk; gpwe;jpUf;fhu; All will happily accept Nithyananda
vy;NyhUk; epj;ahde;jiu te;Jr;Nru;thu; These words are the words of blessed Agastya

All the religions will form Nithyananda Sanga

At present they are all born in all religions nrhy;iyePq;fs; Kw;wpYk; Nfl;fNtz;Lk;
They all will come to Nithyananda rptngUkhd; cyfk;fhf;f epj;ahde;ju;TUtpy;
gyNfhb rpj;ju;fspd; jtg;gadhy;
gukrptd; gukfk;ruha; te;jpUf;fhu;
te;JNk Nfhbkf;fs; gpd;gw;Wk;NghJ
tskhFk; ehLNk rpj;ju;fshl;rp Nithyananda Sanga – please carefully listen completely to the words
,e;jehs; epj;ahde;jiu Nghw;wptho;Nthk; Siva, has come in the form of Nithyananda to protect this world
<rd;jhd; gukfk;ru; ru;NtRtudtNu
As the result of the penance of many crores of Siddhas,
Paramashivan has incarnated as Paramahamsa
When this crores of people follow Him,
The country will flourish by the rule of
Siddhas
MfNt cyfcapu;fnsy;yhk; mtu;capNu
Let us live this day worshiping Nithyananda mfpykf;fnsy;yhk; jd; kf;fshf
As, Paramahamsa Sarveshwaran is none other than Eesan (SHIVA) nrfj;FUtha; Rj;jrptkha; rjhrptkhf
R+upa re;jpudha; thOfpd;whu;

ehnsy;yhk; kf;fSk; Nghw;wptzq;fp So all the life forms in the world are His life
epj;ahde;jiu flTnsd;W nrhy;thu;kf;fs; He considers all the people of the world as His people, His children
He lives as a Jagat guru, as pure Siva, Sadashiva,
Everyday people will praise worship Nithyananda
As the sun and the moon
And call Him as Goddel

thOfpd;w epj;ahde;ju; Fw;wkpy;yh

tuk;ngw;w Mjprptk; mwptPu;kf;fs;

People know that Nithyananda has come

With unblemished boon, from Adi Shiva.

Agathiyar Bhogar Goraknath Kailasanatha Sattai Nathar Thirumoolar Nandi Devar Koonkanar Konganavar Matsyamuni Vasamuni Kurmamuni Kamalamuni Idaikadar Punakesar Sundaranandar Uromarishi Brahmamuni
 Question: Did you plan for the
second child, Amma?
Swami Amma: We never planned
that way. Nowadays people say they
want a child, or they don’t want a
child. Nothing like that. Just like
that, in regular life, I conceived. We
never thought we want or we don’t
want; it just happened.
My parents were planning to go to
Tirupati, so my husband, my first
son Senthil (the Avatar’s elder
brother), my paatti (grandmother)
and some others, all went as a group.
We went to seven or eight temples.
We w e n t t o K a l a h a s t i a n d
Kanchipuram also. It was a one-
week trip. We went around the
Tirupati hill, and early in the
morning, we did angapradakshinam
(circumambulating the temple with
the entire body, by rolling on the
ground). My husband and I also did
that. I had bouts of vomiting after
that. Then I got a doubt - because I
had missed my periods that month.
It was confirmed that I had
conceived.
Everything was normal. I continued
my routine life. It was normal for
nine months, and after that I went to
the hospital for the delivery.
MY PARENTS
Arunachalam and Lokanayaki

MY MATERNAL GRANDFATHER’S HOUSE 43

Kanni Kovil Street (now called Raja Rajan Street), Tiruvannamalai
Question: Can you tell us about your
delivery pain and how it started?
Swami Amma: When the pain started, it
was a slight pain. The time was evening,
around 6.30 p.m. My mother had gone for a
condolence visit due to a death in my
neighborhood. I neglected my mild pain,
and I was cooking rice, making coffee, and
distributing to everybody.
When my mother came back, she looked at
my face she said, ‘Your face was looking fine
when I left, but now it looks different.’ I said,
‘I had mild pain, but I am doing some work.’
In those days, they would not take you to the
hospital when you have only a slight pain.
They would touch your head to check the
heat on the crown of the head, and if you
had sweat on your forehead, then they
would take you to the hospital! She said, ‘Do
not do any work’, and she went in for her
bath. Then we went to the hospital around
9.30 or 10.00 p.m.
Question: Who else went with you to
the hospital?
Swami Amma: In those days they would
say that the mother should not come to the
hospital with the pregnant daughter, so two
neighbors came with me. After that my
mother, my husband, everybody came
immediately. I was in my mother-in-law’s
house for eight months of my pregnancy,
and in the beginning of the ninth month, I
came to my mother’s house.
Question: Was the delivery smooth?
Swami Amma: Yes, the delivery was
smooth. The baby was really big! The nurses
and doctors asked me, ‘Didn’t you eat
anything other than Horlicks?’ The baby
was so big! They said that the baby was so
chubby, beautiful, fair, and looked like a
baby from a healthy family. I had a normal
delivery and I was discharged from the
hospital in five days. We came home.
I was in my parents’ home for three months.
I was doing all the routine work. I never
expected anybody else to do my work. I was
normal. I would do all the work. My mother
used to say that for nine days, I should not
do anything, so from the tenth day I started
doing work. I would fold clothes, help the
children comb their hair, help in cleaning
the vegetables, etc. I would help in the
cleaning work and my mother would do the
kitchen work. Then I went back to my
mother-in-law’s house on Tiruvoodal
street.
Question: How was the naming
ceremony?
Swami Amma: On the ninth day, the priest
came and did all the rituals. We both
decided on the name of the child. My
husband was fond of my father and he
wanted to name the child after him. I liked
the name Shekar. Since my father’s name is
Raja Mudaliar, we combined both the
names and gave the name ‘Rajashekar’.
Question: What did the astrologer say?
Swami Amma: My husband’s brother
showed him the baby’s horoscope, and the
astrologer told that he will become a Swami
(a monk).
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Vaavendrazhaikku malai Annamalai!
Annamalai Venba (Verse 1) by Guru Namasivayar
Mountain that is dancing the primal dance (Shiva tandava)
Mountain which the two were seeking (Brahma and Vishnu)
Mountain that the moon and serpent are adorning
Mountain where cosmic law flourishes
Mountain that pulls incarnations and enlightened beings
Annamalai!
ARUNACHALA
Tiruvannamalai
The Pull of Arunachala
Arunachala is a spiritual airport and incubator for incarnations.
Understand deeply: this mountain is not an ordinary mountain. If we keep a
receiving station, it will receive any type of wave or signal right? Like that, this
sacred place is the place that pulls incarnations. It not only pulls incarnations from
this place; wherever they might be, it will pull them! It has that power. This
mountain is the spiritual incubator created by our ancestors.
When a baby is born prematurely, they place the baby in an incubator. The
incubator has the same temperature as the mother’s womb. They give the baby
food in it. The incubator takes complete care of the baby. Only if that incubator is
there, the baby can become healthy. Like that, for an incarnation to descend and
settle in the human body, the spiritual incubator is what is Tiruvannamalai. Our
ancestors have done this for incarnations to descend and settle in the body. It is like
an airport.
In an airport, can the flight directly land and halt? You need a runway, right? In the
same way, when the formless Existence descends into a human form, it descends
like the Ganga; like a thunderbolt! It has to descend, apply the brakes and settle
with the body. Tiruvannamalai is the runway for that. It is the spiritual incubator,
spiritual runway, spiritual airport. It is the spiritual airport created for
incarnations to descend. Not only that, it is a strong attraction..!
 my birth as I see it

Swami Amma, profoundly innocent as she is, did not know that all the gods and
goddesses in Devaloka, including Vishnu and Brahma themselves, were looking upon
Earth from the heavenly skies. 1978 marked the end of negativity once and for all. All the
accumulated suffering and calamities that had happened since the end of the era of the When I talk about My birth and life, I do not know at
Krishna Avatara were destined to evaporate. The entire universe rejoiced as Sadashiva all how I am going to express Myself. I do not know
descended from Kailasha in all His grandeur, for yet another leela on planet Earth! All
how IT is going to express Itself..!
the gandharvas, munis, rishis, and even the asuras and dwellers of the netherworlds,
I too can only bow down to that energy, and along with
were all watching, waiting eagerly for the birth of The Avatar of Sadashiva, who would be
called Paramahamsa Nithyananda. you all, allow that Energy to work the way It wants to.
 It was neither dark nor light-filled; an indeterminate color
covered planet Earth.

Suddenly, a bright light appeared from a region, which I now see

as Southern India. At that time I did not know where it was.
Borders are what we draw. Where is there border in the Cosmos?
I entered into that light in the form of
I entered into that light in the form of a brilliant meteor.
a brilliant meteor
The very next sight that I perceived with my inner eye was
Arunachala, and I knew that I had assumed the body once more. I
had entered the womb of My mother. It was a conscious birth.

I took a muhurta, which is a period of about 45 minutes in the

Hindu system of time measurement, to settle into the body.
 I remember how I took this body, this form…
I always felt I took birth, or I took the body, because of the attraction, the pull, that
Arunachala hill has for enlightened beings. There is a very beautiful verse in Tamil
which refers to Arunachala as the hill which attracts enlightened beings around it. The
hill is especially revered for attracting enlightened beings, not only from this planet
Earth, but even from other planets. Even from other, different spaces, it can attract and
pull the enlightened beings to planet Earth.
I never took the hill for granted. It was an ‘ever-living presence’.
People ask me, “What is the difference between God in the Himalayas and God in
Arunachala (Tiruvannamalai)?”
In the Himalayas, He lives. In Tiruvannamalai, the mountain itself is God! There, it is
the house; here, it is the person himself, the very form. There is a difference between
the two. “Velli malai veruthathaale thanga malaikku vanthaaraam!” Because he got
tired of the silver hill, he came to the golden hill! Himalayas, Kailash, is Velli malai –
silver hill; Tiruvannamalai is thanga malai – golden hill!
The moment of assuming the body
I will describe exactly what happened.
TIRUVANNAMALAI TEMPLE TOWN
Understand: if I present one dimension, another dimension stands pending! If I
present another dimension, one more dimension becomes pending! I want to present
the birth in two or three dimensions, but the moment I present it from one dimension,
your understanding is able to receive only that much. Anyhow...!
Listen: usually, when we die, we take the next human body within three kshanas.
Kshana is the gap between one thought and the next thought. If you have lived a very
calm life, your kshana might be even a hundred years. If you lived a life of restlessness,
then one kshana can be just microseconds. In one second, even a thousands of
thoughts come and go! That is what happens.
Let me tell you exactly how it happened.
When you sleep and get up, as soon as you wake up, you will be able to tell what
happened during the night, and what was the first thought that came to you when you
woke up, right? Everyone will be able to tell that. Just like how you will be able to tell the
first thought that came to you when moving from sleep to waking state, I am able to tell
what happened when I moved from the previous death to the present birth. The reason
is, I have more awareness, that’s all! There is nothing mystical in this. You have enough
awareness to tell what happened while moving from sleep to waking state. My
awareness is such, I can tell what happened when moving from death to birth.
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 First, there was a vision. It was like I had slept and woken up. This birth is actually like
you slept and woke up! First, I could see a world where darkness covered darkness.
Then I saw in South India, Arunachala, and the light on top of it. The next thing, the
third thing… I took the body! The reflection on planet Earth happened!
Understand deeply: there was no pain or suffering or loss of memory. You all cannot
recall the scene of your taking birth. There is no memory there. The moment you enter
the mother’s womb, the past memories get disconnected. For Me, that does not
happen. When you wake up from sleep, are the dreams disconnected, or are the
previous day’s happenings disconnected? No! In the same way, without loss of
memory, and without going to the coma stage, it happens with full awareness.
With that awareness, first let me tell you what exactly happened. After that I will tell
you the interpretation, the significance.
Understand: I saw three slides. The first slide: a world where darkness covered
darkness; I saw the Cosmos. The second slide: Tiruvannamalai mountain and the light;
I saw it at 11.45 p.m. At that moment itself, I took the body, but for the delivery to
happen, and for My mother to see Me, it took till 12.32 p.m. It has taken one kshana –
around 45 minutes. It means that the mind was so peaceful, that one kshana was 45
minutes; it was peaceful without the next thought coming in.
I saw very clearly that in all the three states - waking state, dream or sleep, it was like as if
I was in the normal, awake state, and I entered the body just sitting in that state! This is
fundamentally My birth. What you need to understand deeply about birth is, if you are
without samskaras (engraved memories), if your nadi (energy channels) or kshana is
broad, you can be born in a very simple, easy way, with awareness. This is what they call
conscious birth.
ARUNACHALA HILL AND TIRUVANNAMALAI TEMPLE TOWER
Next, I saw very clearly, suddenly a light ball, whatever I feel as ‘Me’, landed into My
mother’s umbilical cord. When I landed, when that light ball landed, already My body
was out of My mother’s womb. Maybe I can put it in this way: the umbilical cord had
stretched to the extent that the necessity to be in the mother’s womb was no more. I do
not know whether I was physically out or not; the umbilical cord had become so stiff
that the necessity to be in My mother’s womb was not there anymore. So I remember
very clearly, I landed only on the umbilical cord; then I just saw that I had a body, and
immediately I had the vision of Arunachala! That is all that exactly happened.
I don’t know exactly when My physical eyes opened, or when I physically happened on
the planet Earth… meaning, the physical identification of the exact physical time,
chronological time, I am not able to scan... because, as per the medical understanding,
when there is no more necessity to be in the mother’s womb, the child comes out of the
body and the umbilical cord is disconnected. I am saying that I was already out of My
mother’s womb. But when I scan inside, from the spiritual experience I don’t have any
verification about whether My body was already out of My mother’s womb or not, when
I landed. I only felt that the necessity to be in My mother’s womb was not there. It was at
that moment, that light just hit My mother’s umbilical cord and assumed this body.
From that moment, I know this body is there, which happened out of that light, that
intense light. If I describe it, maybe I can say it was a light ball or something like that.
Whenever I fall asleep, I fall into that only. Whenever I fall into samadhi, I fall into that,
that’s all. All other superficial things that happen, like jagrat (waking state), swapna
(dream state), and sushupti (deep sleep state) are only superficial. That is why all those
three do not make any difference in this body.
 I give you all Abhaya

I give you all the abhaya - protection. I have brought enough powers - in
this very body which is talking to you - to be a net when you are flying!
Nothing wrong can happen. You have heard this word directly from the
Source. Nothing else needs to be done in your life. Remember, just live
this truth. Even if you have created enough of mess already, and you are
unclutching suddenly, I am taking responsibility for all the mess you
created. I will take care.

Remember me wherever you are; I will be there. I will be there. Just live
this truth. Just live this truth:. I take all the responsibility. I am taking all
the responsibility. Just live this truth. Everything else is taken care of.
Just live this dharma.

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 Q: Beloved Swamiji, how does it feel to be an Avatar?
How does it feel!
It’s like… morning… somewhere in Kailasa…
then zooming out a few trillion miles
away….you can’t even equate it with any trillion
miles... and then slowly opening the eyes and
seeing, “Oh, Planet Earth, yes okay... India...
alright, Bangalore... ah yes, yes, yes, this is
Bengaluru Aadheenam, the banyan tree is
there, ahh..!”
(laughs)
Okay, let Me put it in a precise few words; let
me map it down to the language which you
guys understand: the cognition of the whole
Cosmos, Mahasadāshiva, operating, using this
body and mind and this system. This system
knows only one thing - it is being used by the
Cosmos. The Cosmos is going to do whatever it
wants to do through this body and mind - and
it will protect, take care of this body and mind,
and manifest whatever is required whenever it
is required.
Because of this grounded cognition, this body
and mind does not have the anxiety to know
what is going to happen in the future. Only
when you have anxiety, you feel, “What will
happen in the future?” This body and mind
does not have the anxiety to know what is
going to happen in the future, so it does not
even bother to look at what is going to happen
in the future. It knows, “Sadāshiva is
operating, and He is going to do what He
needs to do, and He will protect.”
Ask the Avatar
GODDeL - The Avatar’s definition of God as per the Hindu scriptures, who performs the panchakrtya (five sacred Cosmic acts)
of Generation, Operation, Destruction, Delusion and Liberation.
Understand. I am anxious about your future,
so I look into what is going to happen to you in
future. I am not bothered or anxious about My
future, so I never look at what is going to
happen in My future! For you, I use My powers,
but never for Me. I know for sure that I have to
protect you. For Me, I know - I am protected. It
is a paradox of all-knowingness (sarvajnattva),
and not knowing even the next step, because
there is no anxiety!
This paradox - or I should say, ‘this union of
man and God,’ or in My own way, ‘GODDeL
and man’ - the paradox of this, mixture of all
this, is what precisely is - Nithyananda.
Understand: I am a paradox for the people who
can’t understand, a union of all the paradoxes
for the people who are able to grasp Me, the
completion of God and man for those who try
to receive something from Me, an Incarnation
for the people who are manifesting powers
through Me, and the Ultimate for the people
who are feeling completely empowered by Me.
Whatever the other’s image posed on Me,
imposed on Me or superimposed on Me, the
precise inner image I feel and the outer image I
wanted to project is all of these words - plus a huge
component which cannot be verbalized! The roar
or the hair or the big-big eyes or the huge teeth -
all these can be descriptions of the lion by others;
it can only be other’s image of the lion. What lion
feels as lion - how can it be described?! I can go on
and on and on! To be sincere and integrated, it is
the Universe, Para, the Ultimate, operating
through this body. That’s it.
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I am standing in front of My father I am sitting in front of My mother

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Where I used to live. If you come out of My house, you will see this exact view.
 He was so integrated
to his decision to live
My grandfather was a rice merchant. Rice loads
would come from the villages in bullock carts at
night. Using a fire torch or lantern, they would
unload the rice bags. In those days, lorries were
not that popular. On many days, he would come
home from his shop only at one o'clock in the
night. Even then, he would wash himself, do the
achamana (ritualistic cleansing), apply vibhooti
(sacred ash), perform the anushthana (rituals),
do the night puja for ten or fifteen minutes, keep
the shop key at the feet of Mahadeva, and only
then go to sleep.
No matter what time he went to bed, the next
morning he would be up before sunrise; it is
called brahma muhurta, the auspicious time
when a Shaivite is supposed to wake up. I have
never seen him missing this till the day he left
the body! He would take a bath, do his
anushthana, come back to the deity and offer
his morning worship. Even when he had to go
to any program at five o'clock, he would wake
up at three and finish everything before five.
I have not seen him doing yoga, but I have seen
him doing pranayama (a formal breath control
practice). He would do pranayama and start
his puja.
MY GRANDFATHER
With his peers
I learnt this from My grandfather: Decide
for what you believe as pleasure, life, joy, bliss,
and take continuous responsibility for it. That
is what is 'making the decision to live'! So first,
you need to have a clear understanding of what
you consider as life. It is not just deciding to
breathe, inhale and exhale; it is what you
consider as joy, the purpose of your life,
inspiration for your life, excitement for your life
- saying yes to that, deciding for that.
Nothing is right or wrong. For instance,
deciding for political power is not something
wrong. Deciding for money is not something
wrong. Deciding for enlightenment is not
something wrong. Nothing is right or wrong.
Your decision without conflict makes
everything right. Your decision with conflict
makes everything wrong. If you have self-doubt,
self-hatred, self-denial - what I call SDHD - even
if you decide for Advaita, it will be wrong! If you
don't have SDHD (Self Doubt, Self Hatred, Self
Denial), even if you decide for money or
political power, or any mundane or so-called
ordinary thing, it will not be wrong. Finally, it
boils down to the strength of your decision.
One should decide to live in this world for
hundreds of years, all the while doing one's deeds
dispassionately as sanctioned by the scriptures.
MY GRANDFATHER'S RICE SHOP
You can see the bags of rice arrived here after their long journey in
bullock carts from the fields in the outskirts of Tiruvannamalai.
 His puja altar, and
My role in it

It was My grandfather who taught Me the spiritual routine. He is the one solely responsible
for whatever revival I am doing through deity worship today.

I had the good fortune to sit with him during his daily puja. He had a beautiful family of
deities: Mahadeva, Devi, Ganesha, and two or three other deities, like a small deity of
Subramanya, Surya and Nandi - the Shiva Panchaayatana (the 'five supports' or five deities
worshiped as part of Shiva worship). He also had Vishnu, Ranganatha and Venkateshwara
(deities from the Vaishnava tradition). Venkateshwara was also our family deity. So, all of
them were there!

He would do his puja in very relaxed way, spending a lot of time, not in a hurry. He spent his
time washing and cleaning the deities, clothing them, putting jewels on them, applying
sandalwood paste, and offering flowers or a bael leaf, and then the naivedyam He did this
elaborately, in a very relaxed way. And he would do long rituals – eleven times super-brain
yoga for Ganesha and eleven times for Shiva. When he finished with each deity, I would move
that deity from this side to the other for accounting purposes - signifying that he is done with
that deity!

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These are a few of his deities - Ganesha and Shiva linga
 His sincerity and
integrity to puja
After puja, he would pick up the key, seeking the deity's permission, and then go to his shop.
Every time he took major decisions, or left the house for even a small action like going to the
local temple, he would take the permission of the deity first. Once he came back, he would
wash his feet, except when he was coming back from the temple. He would go to the shrine
again where the family deities were kept, do namaskar, respond to them, or report to them
what he had done; only then he would continue with his other activities.
For around eighty-two years, not a single day he missed his morning puja. I don't know
whether he had the idea of enlightenment or anything, but his sincerity - such an amazing
sincerity - has gone into My head. That has gone into My system. I tell you: just this one seed
back then! I remember, unless I sat with him for the morning puja, I would not feel that day is
going smoothly. And if anything happened - if I lost My pencil or pen - I would think, “Oh,
today I did not attend the puja!” So that was My life - and after some time, because the very
inner self was enjoying it, it became such a big joy. I tell you: it is from him that I learnt the
uninterrupted spiritual routine. I am so happy that he did it till the day he died.
He literally did not even cross the district border in his lifetime, except for a few pilgrimages.
When he was in his late eighties, he came to Bangalore to see our ashram. He himself used to
say that after Kashi and Rameshwaram, he stepped out of Tiruvannamalai only to come to
Bangalore.
MY GRAND FATHER
At a temple function
The Avatar remembers spending many of His most joyful childhood moments
with His grandfather. From the morning puja to the time He went to bed, He
would be around him. Even when His grandfather went to his shop, he would
take his beloved grandson with him, where He witnessed all the negotiations
that went on. His grandfather was an example of a highly integrated and
ethical businessman. Finally, when they wrapped up for the day, His
grandfather would take Him home, feed Him dinner and put Him to bed. In
their home, they even had a beautiful routine of chanting from the scriptures
before resting for the night.
With the sincerity and discipline instilled in Him by His grandfather, the little
Avatar began His own daily and immensely fulfilling personal worship. From
the tender age of three, He started to perform puja for every one of His deities.
They each had their own abhishekam (sacred bath), their own vastram
(clothes) and abharanam (jewelry). He reveals that He never once felt that the
deity was just a stone!
MY GRANDFATHER'S RICE SHOP
Very table where he sat
My grandfather's spiritual routine became Mine
From the time I can remember, from the moment I started thinking, I have enjoyed this
ritualistic worship so much. Understand: I never thought - not only logically, even
unconsciously - that deities are just representations of God. I always felt that they are alive! I
never ever thought that I am doing this as a technique for enlightenment, or that it is a great
thing. Sadashiva saved Me! Fortunately, at that time I did not know about enlightenment! So I
did not develop the logic that I am doing the rituals and puja everyday so that God will give Me
enlightenment one day. That foolish nonsense was not in My head. All I knew was: here is a
deity that I have to take care of. That's all. Here is God; I have to attend to Him - over!

He gifted Me deities!
These are the few deities My grandfather gifted Me:
There are two Shiva lingas - one green, another small one in metal; I think it is panchaloha (an
amalgam of five metals).
The green one was gifted to Me by My grandfather.
The deity of Annapurani, he brought from Kashi. When he went on a pilgrimage to Kashi, he
bought that deity and gifted it to Me.
All these deities are still with Me.

MY GRANDFATHER'S DEITIES,
The circled ones are what he gave me. The rest I collected.

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 How Ganesha came
alive in My life

My spiritual life started with Ganesha

My spiritual life started with Ganesha; Ganesha eating the food I offered is the first
spiritual experience that happened in My life. And I can say, My spiritual journey was
successful and unfolded with all its glory, beauty and depth after that. It was Ganesha
who inaugurated My spiritual life.
Ganesha was My first deity.
When all these truths get into your own system when you are a kid…when you are fresh
On My third birthday, My father and grandfather were
and about to start life… nothing like it! It gets into your very bio-memory! I tell you, it
both carrying Me to the temple. In villages, they will
gets into your very bio-memory!
carry the kid on the shoulder or on the chest. Usually My
grandfather would carry Me to the temple. On that day,
This whole revival of deity worship of Sanatana Hindu Dharma, which I am doing now,
because it was My birthday, My father also came along.
started just with one small Ganesha gifted to Me when I was the age of three. If that
(When I say 'grandfather', I mean My mother's father. My
same Ganesha or even a bigger Ganesha was gifted to Me when I was eighteen, I don't father's father passed away even before My father's
think this revival would have happened. Just that one Ganesha at the age of three got marriage. Of course, in India, you usually get kids after
into My very bio-memory, became an experience! That is why I could transmit that marriage! I wanted to clarify that it would usually be that
experience to tons and tons of people, and this whole Sanatana Hindu Dharma is way!)
revived! Even though My grandfather was a very devoted person,
he was a miser! He would not spend money. So, many
times, when My grandfather carried Me to the temple, I
would show the shops outside the temple where they sold
small Ganesha deities. I would point with My hand and
say, “I want Ganesha, I want Ganesha.” That day, My
father was also there. My father was not a great devotee,
but he was a spendthrift! The moment I asked, he said,
“Come on, I will buy and give you!” He would spend
money left and right, and a lot of spending for pride also,
just to show, “See how well I treat people!” So he bought
and gave Me the Ganesha!
I started giving satsangs even before the age of three!
When My grandfather took Me to the temple, I heard
some preachers and priests reciting a story. I came back
and repeated it verbatim! The Ganesha deity was given to
Me by My father because I narrated the whole story of
Shiva and Ganesha.

GANESHA – MY FIRST DEITY

This is the Ganesha that ate the food I served! SHOPS SELLING DEITIES OUTSIDE THE TEMPLE 105
This Ganesha is part of my personal puja altar even today
 My first encounter with wealth
I remember the first incident related to
wealth that happened in My life soon after I
received the Ganesha. In Indian villages,
during festivals, the uncles and aunts
would give money to the kids. My brothers
and I were given some coins by My uncles. I
asked My father, “What should I do with
this?” My father said, “You can buy
whatever you want.” I said, “I wanted a
Ganesha and I already got it; now what
should I do?” My father said, “You can give
it to anyone you like.” I thought, “Okay,
what is there in this? I can use it if I want; if
not, I can give it away.” So I called My cousin
and he just grabbed all the coins from Me!
This is the first memory I have of wealth,
and I still live by it. I have not created any
relationship with wealth; I have neither
created any joy nor created any suffering in
My relationship with wealth. I just know
that wealth is always living with Me.
Ganesha - the most loved God!
I can say, the most worshiped deity in India
is Ganesha. Almost every street has a
Ganesha temple! You don't need a big
ritualistic puja for him. A village lady, after
her bath in the river, comes and offers water
to the Ganesha deity on the banks of the
river, worships him and goes away. You
cannot worship any other god like this,
without much ritual.
Ganesha is the most beloved and friendly
God from the Hindu tradition. His very
form is so nice! You can relate to him in any
way you want. He is unassuming and non-
demanding. He is the most easily
ARUNACHALESWARA TEMPLE FESTIVAL
Ganesha in procession
accessible - bhole baba! He is so easily
pleased – ashutosha! He is a powerful,
divine being, pleased just by the offering of
a coconut. Ganesha is still the sweetheart
of Hindu children, especially school-going
children who are writing exams. From the
time I remember, all my examinations were
written only by Ganesha!
Ganesha outlives all philosophies. He feels
all philosophies are boredom. He is like a
modern day teenage kid who eats left and
right, sits with Facebook all the time and
does not bother about any serious
philosophy, but who has all the powers!
He doesn't come under any rule or
regulation, but he has all the powers and is
the embodiment of satchitananda -
auspiciousness, intelligence and energy.
Above all, he is a being close to our hearts.
There cannot be any philosophical
explanation about him. He is just a part of
us, that's all!
Whether it is Vyasa, the first master, or a
more recent master, Bhagavan Sri Ramana
Maharshi, all of them have to start their
work bowing to Ganesha! Whether they
are going to sing a stotra or give a
teaching…even if they have to teach the
enlightenment science which says 'God is
formless', they have to start with Ganesha!
Even if they have to express that 'God is
nirguna bramhan (beyond the three basic
human attributes)', they first have to say,
“Let me bow down to Ganesha to express
these great truths properly.”
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I didn't just worship Ganesha - I lived with him!
When I woke up in the morning, I would wake My Ganesha
up. Before I took a drink of water, I would offer water to him.
After I brushed My teeth, I would use a small brush to brush
his teeth. His original tusk was gone, because I used to brush
it so hard - grgrgrgr! I used to think that it is a big tusk, so I
have to clean it properly. Then, after I took a bath, I would give
him also a bath. Once I put on My clothes, I would put on
clothes and jewels for him. Once I applied the holy ash, I
would apply holy ash and sandalwood paste on him. When I
ate, I would feed him also - meaning, I would offer naivedyam
to him.
I had not yet started school, so there was no routine for Me -
other than playing with Ganesha! I would make a small
chariot for him, put him in that and drive him around. I would
be playing with him the whole day. I even used to go to bed
with him, under a small mosquito net. I was living with him;
he became part of Me.
I would do puja every day to Ganesha. I would pour water on
him, put a little food in front of him and offer arati: wave the
lamp before him, wave the camphor before him. It was not like
I was just doing a small puja or anything; I had such a strong
feeling-connection with him that I felt that Ganesha was
actually there…that the deity was not just a stone; it was
Ganesha Himself!
If you are just doing puja for some other reason, you will never
enter that place again that day. I have seen many people doing
puja. In the morning, they go into the puja room, roll around
with the deity and pour water or do whatever needs to be
done. But once they come out, they would never even go that
side again, because it would be such a heavy routine for them;
they would never make the mistake of entering into that room
again that day! But for Me, it was like living with him. The
whole day I would be sitting with Ganesha, fanning him, or
doing whatever I could. Anything given to Me, I would bring
and put it in front of him. I was a small boy living with God!
Leela Dhyana - meditation on the Divine play
Many of our devotees tell Me, “Swamiji, I was cooking,
washing and doing all my work, but as an undercurrent, your
memory was there inside me, Swamiji! It is so sweet; I am just
filled with You! I don't know why, but I am not able to forget
You.”
This is what we call in Sanskrit as leela dhyana, constantly
being in meditation on the Divine Play! When the leela
dhyana gets mature, you enter into samprajnata samadhi.
That was what was happening with Me and Ganesha. I would
be centered on Ganesha; whatever I did the whole day, I lived
with him. Leela dhyana - meditating on or strongly feeling
connected to a deity's form - starts building the right
reasoning, vitarka, in your life.
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 I hear the story of the child devotee,
Nambiyandar Nambi
One day, I went to the temple. In the
Arunachaleshwara temple in My
hometown, almost 300 out of 365 days of
the year, there would some festival: deities
would be going around in procession, or
there would be some spiritual lecture.
During My childhood, I used to attend
many satsangs (discourses). One day, the
speaker was narrating an incident from
the life of Nambiyandar Nambi (a
Shaivaite scholar) when he was a young
boy. He was born and brought up in Tanjore
district of Tamil Nadu, in South India. His
life-story is very beautiful!
These are typical stories. You will see that, in
every State of India, there will be at least ten
stories like this! See, when a whole
civilization is interested in football matches,
just because the entire country is interested,
huge football stadiums are built; amazing
football players are created. Because so
many people are dedicating their energy to
it, football literally becomes a religion!
In the same way, if there is a huge crowd
interested in God, and in the divine
sciences, then naturally, a large temple
infrastructure is created. Thousands of the
best saints who can relate with God are
created! That's all! If people ask Me, “How
can hundreds of saints happen in one
country? How do you have so many saints,
and so many stories about so many saints'
lives?” I also ask them, “How do you have so
many football players, or so many car
companies?” That's all! In the U.S., they
don't care much about Benzes or BMWs.
They are there for regular use. In the same
way, in India, saints are there for regular
use! Too much is available! In India, it
happens! Come on, we are a 'God-
producing' country - the country, the
civilization which produces gods, which
produces incarnations, saints!
I still remember that speaker's name - Selva
Ganapathy! He was a famous religious
speaker in Tamil Nadu. The first story that
impressed Me was about the scholar
Nambiyandar Nambi. When Nambiyandar
Nambi was a child, his father used to offer
worship at a Ganesha temple every day. He
was a temple priest. One day, the father was
sick, so he told his little son, “You please go
and offer worship at the temple today.”
So Nambiyandar Nambi went to the temple
with the food offering and all the worship
articles. He performed all the rituals, like
the sacred bath, dressing up the deity,
decorating it with flowers and finally,
offering the food. He placed the food in
front of Ganesha. He thought that Ganesha
actually eats the food every day. He was
offering food for the first time, and he
thought that Ganesha was supposed to eat
it! He did not know that his father brought
the food back home every day. So, with all
his innocence, authenticity and integrity,
he sat there, waiting for Ganesha to eat the
food.
Half an hour, one hour, two hours went
by…and the food was still there! The boy
started worrying and asked Ganesha,
“What happened? Did I do anything
wrong? You are not eating! Come and eat! I
have to go back soon…my father is sick.” Of
course, there was no response. Then he
said, “If you don't eat, my father may scold
me; he may shout at me - please do
something! If I have made any mistake,
forgive me, and please eat!” Of course,
Ganesha was very silent. Nambiyandar
Nambi became very serious. He told
Ganesha, “No, no, no! You have to eat!
Please eat.”
OPEN SPACE IN FRONT OF ARUNACHALESHWARA TEMPLE
Where the spiritual talks used to happen in temporarily erected stages
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Nambiyandar Nambi's extreme
devotion!
The Kathopanishad beautifully says
Shraddha vivechah (authenticity) happens
when you are possessed by a certain truth.
The Upanishad describes Nachiketa, the
hero of the Upanishad, who confronted
Death itself, possessed by shraddha -
authenticity, the Truth.
Sometimes, when you face a difficult time
in life, you suddenly decide, “I will be very
straight, honest and dharmic. I will not
bend.” You might know that if you adjust a
little bit, or tell one lie or alter one word,
you can escape from the situation, but you
suddenly feel, “No, I am going to be very
straight, come what may.” In those few
moments, you are possessed by shraddha -
authenticity, the Truth.
So, shraddha vivechah happened to
Nambiyandar Nambi. Suddenly, he felt,
“Ganesha has to eat!” He started weeping.
He said, “Till you eat, I am not going to
leave this place.” Five to six hours went by,
but the food was still there. Ganesha was
just sitting there. Then he went to the
extreme: a suicide threat! He said, “I will
bang my head on these temple steps and
die if you don't eat!” And he really started
banging his head on the steps!
At that time, he just knew that Ganesha
was going to eat; even a slight doubt did not
exist in him. He started banging his head
on the steps - and the story says, suddenly
Ganesha appeared and ate the food and
blessed him!
You will find hundreds of such stories
about saints. It is not a story; it is history,
truth!
When the boy went back to his father, his
father asked, “What happened? Where is
the food offering?”
Nambiyandar Nambi said, “Ganesha ate it.”
The father could not believe it. He asked,
“Did Ganesha eat it, or did you eat it?”
The son responded, “No, Ganesha ate it! If
SELVAGANAPATHY
you come with me, I will show you.” The famous Tamil orator from whom
I hear the Nambiyandar Nambi story
So he took his father to the temple who
stood outside and saw with his own eyes,
Ganesha emerging and eating the food
served by his son!
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 I decide to make
My Ganesha eat! I try My best to convince Ganesha
Because I never experienced the space of
lack of integrity in My life, I simply trusted
the speaker's integrity. I suddenly decided:
When I heard this story, I was shocked. The whole story became part of My inner space, I will also make My Ganesha eat!
part of My bio-energy. Something in My bio-energy got kindled. Whatever is inside
And it was not just for the fun of it; I felt
you will be kindled by even a spark from outside. It awakened something in Me so
that because he had not been eating, he
strongly! It is like when kids go to Disneyland, they literally feel that all the characters
must have been very hungry all these days,
they see on TV – like Tom and Jerry – actually live in Disneyland!
and he must be really lean. At a young age,
Something happened in My inner space because of that story. I thought, “Then why is we learn from our parents that if you don't
My Ganesha not eating? I am giving him food every day, but he is not eating! Then what eat, you will die! I had learnt three or four
am I doing?” I ran back home. In those days, there were not many four-wheelers on the things: if you don't eat, you will die; if you
road. Now it has become a big town. There were mostly only two-wheelers and cycles at don't eat, some ghost will come and take
that time. I still remember, I hit two cycles that day when I ran home to feed Ganesha! you away; if you don't eat, a crow will come
and make its droppings on your head! So I
Understand: when you are in integrity, you will respect every person's words, even if thought, “There may be a ghost possessing
they are non-integrated! You will trust that the word is out of integrity, because you My Ganesha. Maybe he is sick; that is why
don't know anything other than integrity! If you are established in integrity, not only he does not walk on his own and I have to
will you have the power to make your words into reality, you can make even others' pull him!”
words into reality, even if the other person is non-integrated.
Understand: when I heard the story, I
decided, “I will also make My Ganesha eat.”
This is tarka, simple logic: when he made
Ganesha eat, why not Me? It is simple
tarka.
So I ran and told Ganesha, “Don't worry,
from today I will give you food. You should
eat it properly.” Because he was more like a
friend to Me, I started talking to him, “You
should eat properly and you should be
healthy.” And I also thought, ”He is a child
Ganesha; he has to eat and become like the
big Ganesha in the temple!” I would tell
him, “Only because you are not eating, you
are not growing!” That was My argument
with him!
The temple Ganesha deity was five or six
feet tall! Especially in the
Arunachaleshwara temple, there is a very
big Ganesha. His name is Sambandha
Ganapathy! So I used to tell, “You should
become like that Ganesha. Only if you eat
properly, you will become like that
Ganesha.” I told this because My people
used to say to Me, “Only if you eat, you will
become big like us.” So I also thought,
“Only if Ganesha eats he will become big,
like that Ganesha in the temple.” I told him,
“Don't worry, you eat, and I will build a
temple like this for you.” I think My
commitment to Ganesha is why I am now
building big-big temples and installing
big-big Ganeshas! I am fulfilling My word
to Ganesha!
But Ganesha was not eating. Maybe he
heard Me, but he did not respond. For two
or three days, I was sitting and convincing
him about why he should eat. Maybe that
was the time that matter was melting into
Consciousness - meaning, the word was
moving the world. By again and again
saying, “Eat! You should eat!” to Ganesha, it
became a declaration. When I started
declaring again and again that he should
eat, I think Ganesha also started giving his
l i s te n i n g ! Un d e r s t a n d : wh e n yo u r
declarations are very strong, even if there is
a stone in front of you, it will listen!
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Shraddha Vivechah – Authenticity - possesses
Me
Anyway, the Shraddha Vivechah happened! I
became possessed by shraddha. When you are
possessed by shraddha , you will not have kutarka
(negative logic) at all. You may ask Me, “When you
heard the story of Nambiyandar Nandi, you tried it
out, but you are telling us not to try it!” See, in My
case, there was no kutarka at all. If there is no
kutarka, then you are also a professional; you can try
it! But inside, in one corner of you, there is kutarka.
That is why I am saying don't try till that kutarka
disappears, especially these risky techniques.
I decided to take the next jump, from integrity
towards authenticity. Understand: whenever you
move from integrity to authenticity, it will not
always be completely authentic. Your efforts may be
inauthentic to start with, but later you will move to
authenticity.
Anyway, I decided, “I have to make him eat!”
See, in My house, it was a joint family. One of My
grandmothers… she was a distant relative. If the kids
didn't eat, this old lady would threaten them. In the
center of the garden, there was a huge well, a village-
type well. She would shout, “If you don't eat, I will
put you inside the well!” She would take the kid by
the hand, take a little food in the other hand, show
him the well and say, “See? I will drop you inside!”
The kids would cry with their mouth wide open and
she would put the food inside! That is the way she
would feed kids.
So, I had heard only that logic. Naturally, what
would I do? I decided that I would also do the same
thing with Ganesha! I went and put a little food in
front of Ganesha and told him, “Eat now!” When I
saw that he had not eaten even after half an hour, I
started using the same technique. I told him, “I will
put you in the well!”
Please understand: the teacher taught Me tarka; the
old lady from My family taught Me kutarka. She was
My father's periamma (elder aunt). So I started
shouting in the same way! She would use all the old
Tamil words to threaten us kids. I started using all those
words: “Better eat now, or you are going to be in the
well!”
I lower Ganesha into the open well
I took Ganesha in one hand and kept some food in the
other hand. I showed him the well and told him, “See I try a different diet...
this well? I will throw you inside.” I tried this two or
three times. But he was not opening his mouth!
There used to be a bucket with which they would draw
water from the well. I put Ganesha in the bucket and
started lowering him into the well with a small rope,
and threatening him, “See? I will really drown you!” Then I thought, “Maybe he did not like the cooking; he did not like the food.”
Within ten feet the water was there. It was a village well, See how kutarka works! Kutarka will say, “Everything is wrong except you!”
and the groundwater level was very high. Especially in Understand: that is kutarka. So I started thinking that maybe the food was not right;
Arunachala, even with three hundred and sixty-seven maybe My mother was not cooking properly.
tanks all around the hill, the groundwater level was still
very high, just ten feet!
Then I dropped the plan of feeding him that day, took him out and left him in the small
When the bucket was about to touch the water, I temple which I had, and then I went to Arunachaleshwara temple. In the temple, they
suddenly realized that he might have changed his mind offer food to the deities every day. I thought that the food was actually eaten by the
and might want to eat, but I had not put any food in the deities every day, so I went straight to the temple cook. I used to do a lot of voluntary
bucket! If he changed his mind now, how would he eat? work, like washing vessels and cleaning the floor in the temple. That was My only
I had seen My uncles: they would carry the kid and entertainment!
show him the well and tell him, “I will throw you inside You all have a separate entertainment track, right? In My life, entertainment also was
right now!” Then the kid would cry, “No! No! I will related to the temple only. Spiritual things were entertainment for Me. No cinema, no
listen to whatever you say!” drama. I have never played goli (traditional Tamil game with marbles) or catapult with
the boys! All children play these games, right? But there was no such play in My life.
So suddenly it struck Me, “If Ganesha has changed From birth, the purpose of having come was My only focus! For what purpose I came,
his mind now, how will he eat?” only that I attended to. I did not attend to anything else. These things may seem like
So I brought him out, placed some food also in the
small things. But these are major components. If other boys are playing, there will be at
vessel, and started lowering him again. The bucket was
least a natural inclination to play, right? There was no question of that. From then till
almost touching the water surface, but nothing was
now, only one relationship existed for Me – disciple! No other relationship! At that time
happening. I did not have the heart to put Ganesha into
also, the boys around Me were disciples only!
the water either. It was too much. He really meant a lot
to Me! He was no more a stone deity for Me. He was life So I asked the cook, “Will you give Me a little food for My Ganesha?” He said, “Why only
for Me! If your child plays with a Barbie doll, you will a little food? Take a lot!”
understand what I am saying. For a child, that Barbie
doll is a member of the family. In the same way,
Ganesha was part of Me; he had become part of My very
cognition! It was a very strong relationship, so I could
only threaten him; I could not actually put him in the
well! So, what to do? Finally, I took him out.
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He gave Me a lot of it. I brought it home and said, “See! I have brought you the same diet
which you eat in the temple every day! Now there is no reason, no excuse… come on,
eat!” I was continuously thinking that deities ate the food in the temples! I never even
imagined that they would just show the food to the deity and then bring it away! So I
was sitting, sitting, sitting, for maybe three to four hours; he was not eating.

Then I said, “I have brought the right diet now; I am not going to let you go today.”
Again, I put him in that bucket and started the same drama. By then, I had memorized
all the abusive words My grandmother would utter to make a child eat! All those words I
memorized like a shloka (chant) and started repeating them! I really thought that
those words were very powerful and they would make him eat. All the techniques that I
tried with My old diet, I tried step by step with this new diet. The bucket was almost at
the water level. From above, I shouted, “Are you listening to what I am saying?” But of
course, he was not eating. And I could not drown him, because I had a very loving
relationship with him. So, what to do? Again, I took him out..!

SUNDARAMOORTHI
Now retired from the temple service, Sundaramoorthi
is the cook who served at that temple kitchen at the time,
from who, I got the temple food to feed my Ganesha.

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Arunchaleshwara temple kitchen
 The 'click' happens!
I can say that I was really depressed and very
worried. In a completely low mood, I was just
sitting. I had practically fixed all the problems.
Whatever I was supposed to do, I had done.
When My grandmother did all those things to
any child, the child ate. And I knew only those
te c h n i q u e s ; I d i d n ' t k n ow a ny o t h e r
technique. I had not read any book on how to
feed Ganesha or how to feed kids. Whatever
manual was there in front of Me, I had worked
out fully. But nothing was working. Ganesha
was lying there, and I was sitting.
One nice thing with shraddha is, even if you start
with kutarka, the power of trust is such, the power
of shraddha is such, that it will turn the whole
thing to vitarka - right logic, because 'trust' is not
just energy or logic, it is intelligence.
Tarka is logic, kutarka is negative logic,
constantly negating, and vitarka is trust with
positive energy and logic. The shraddha was so
powerful that suddenly, something clicked in
Me. Oh God! I can say this was one of the most
powerful clicks that happened in My life; a
very strong click! When I decided to make
Ganesha eat, My efforts were inauthentic. But,
only from there you can move to authenticity.
Even with inauthenticity, if you take
responsibility and enrich, I tell you: the
cosmos will appear as the Guru and give you
the shift towards authenticity.
The cosmos finally gave Me that click. At that
moment, the inner awakening happened in
Me, “Maybe something is wrong inside Me.”
I realized that Nambiyandar Nandi, the boy-
saint who made Ganesha eat, had tortured
himself, not Ganesha. He sacrificed himself!
Here, I was torturing Ganesha, not Myself!
That was the inauthenticity. I had to take the
responsibility. I could not be constantly
putting the blame on others! With this strong
click, the kutarka became vitarka. The wrong
reasoning became right reasoning. When that
click happened, I thought, “Yes! Nambiyandar
Nambi found fault only with himself when
Ganesha did not eat, not with Ganesha or with
the diet or with something else. He was not
complaining about the outside; he turned
inside.” In My case, I was complaining about
Ganesha. I was trying what My granny was
trying. I was talking about the diet. I was
thinking that My mother was not cooking
properly. I was thinking about everything in
the outer world. I was finding fault with
everything external. Suddenly, I realized,
“ Ye s ! ” A n d I t u r n e d a n d l o o ke d i n ,
understanding that the problem must be
within Me. Let Me work on it.
For every achievement, the inspiration is only
from inside. For every expression, experience
is from only inside. Look in! Turn in. Looking
in, turning in, you will find the solution for
everything. That is the only way to inner
awakening! You are so obsessed with looking
out, you never look in - because you were never
told; you never tried; you never believed.
Look in! That is the essence of life! As long as you
think others are the source of a problem, it will
never be solved. I realized: I am the Source; I am
responsible; I should sacrifice; I should take the
responsibility and I should enrich.
Understand: the biggest transformation that
can happen to any human being is realizing: 'I
am the Source'. Just you understanding, 'I am
the Source', and taking responsibility, will
transform your inauthenticity into authenticity.
Kutarka, shraddha and vitarka
That vitarka, that click, that right reasoning,
happened in Me! It is a contemplation, a blissful
flowering and the state of pure awareness.
Please understand: it was a very strong click.
“Yes, in Nambiyandar Nambi's case, he did
tapas (spiritual discipline), but in My case, I was
torturing Ganesha! No, let Me do tapas.”
Shraddha is like a loaded gun. When the right
vitarka happens with shraddha, it is like
triggering the gun. Without shraddha,
without the strong trust, kutarka can never
become vitarka; the wrong reasoning can
never become the right reasoning.
See, the way in which thoughts are created in
your system, if it leads you to the experience
for which you are hardwired, you are having
vitarka, right reasoning. When one thought
leads to another thought, which leads to
another thought, and suddenly you are in such
a deeply relaxed feeling or experience, it is
called vitarka. Any thought which creates
negativity or ill feeling about yourself, and
which radiates the same ill feeling about
others, is called kutarka. If you are going
against that for which you are hardwired, it is
kutarka. If you are going in the direction for
which you are hardwired, it is called vitarka.
So with shraddha, when the right reasoning
happened, the trigger was pulled! Suddenly
the click happened - “It is time I look inside; it
is time I turn inside and change something
inside Me.”
Then I decided, “I am not going to eat till
Ganesha eats.” It was a strong will, authenticity.
Even in those days, I used to be very strong-
willed. Once I decide, it has to happen, that's
all. It is Meenakshi's gift! With her
authenticity, Meenakshi was just able to go
straight to Kailash and finish off even Nandi!
Two days pass by… I don't give up!
So I brought the food again and arranged
everything. I actually used to have a small
shrine, a kind of a temple, in the rear of the
house. It was My own. I would be staying there
and spending My time only there. I can say that
is the first ashram I built for Myself and My
deities! I used to spend My time there, so that
nobody would disturb Me. Usually they would
send My food there, or I would go and bring My
food when it was time. Otherwise, I would be
spending the whole day there. So I sat there with
all the arrangements for Ganesha to eat.
One day passed - and the food was still there! I
was very strong about no question of Myself
eating. So I would go and bring food, keep it in
front of Ganesha, remove the old food, throw it
away, and sit and wait. One day and one night
passed. I was not even sleepy; I was sitting. I
had a strong will from My young age. If I
decide, I decide, that's all. Even now, no one
can influence My opinions! No one can
impress upon My decisions. At the most, they
can only request. The only way to dilute Me is
by a request! The only heat, which can melt
this steel, is a prayer or request, nothing else!
Again, the second day also passed. I was very
strong. See, usually, for a small boy, without
food, naturally the logic will become
imbalanced; the willpower will come down.
But I said, “Nothing doing. I am going to do it. I
am not going to eat till he eats.”
We both sat. I did not have the doubt or the
desire or the temptation of: “It's OK, I will eat.”
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 The third day.... one or two hours, I was in a different
frequency. When I came down from that
the food going missing - it can be
confirmed that the incident is the truth.

the explosion happens!
Maybe on the third day, I touched the zone
where trust and vitarka - right reasoning -
both became part of My very bio-memory,
My very system. That is when the explosion
happened! I could see very clearly that My
mind had risen to the level of bhava
samadhi - the zone where solid is not solid,
liquid is not liquid. It is like when ice and
water meet and melt…that zone, neither
fo r m l e s s, n o r t h e p hys i c a l fo r m …
Suddenly, I can say, I fell into some state,
surely not unconsciousness, and I saw very
clearly - Ganesha sitting in front of Me and
eating! I have to tell you the truth: when I
opened My eyes and saw, I promise, there
was no food. The food had disappeared!
In whatever way you want to understand it,
you can understand it, but the food was not
there. And I know Ganesha ate it. People
with kutarka might say, “Who knows,
when you were closing your eyes, some rat
could have come and eaten it!” Whether
Ganesha ate it, or his rat ate it, let the
kutarkis think about it! I know for sure:
Ganesha ate it!
I experience the prasada he gave Me!
When Ganesha eats what you offer, he gives
you some prasada (sacred gift); he gives you
some benefits, some boons. Strong trust
and extraordinary ecstasy are the prasada,
the gifts or boons that I received: “If I have
received the prasada, it means he has
eaten!” The whole being was in ecstasy! As a
three-year-old boy, this experience gave
Me such strong confidence and courage in
the inner world. When I looked in, I got it:
even God comes down to fulfill our request!
Samprajnata Samadhi
Please understand: when I heard that
saint's story and started thinking, “When
he can, why not Me?” That is tarka - right
logic. When I started trying the wrong
method, the wrong technique, it was
kutarka - negative logic. And because of
My trust, when the right thing clicked, it
was vitarka, and it led to samprajnata
samadhi - samadhi experienced through a
beloved form.
What I had was samprajnata samadhi
(being one with the Divine form) with
Ganesha. He came out and started eating -
that is called samprajnata samadhi, one
level of samadhi. It is like a spiritual
experience with the form of a deity, with a
form of Existence.
All the enlightened masters' forms are
expressions of Existence. If you have
samadhi experience with that form, it
means that all other thoughts have
disappeared, and only your Guru's form is
there in front of you; you are having
samprajnata samadhi.
When Ganesha was himself eating, I had
entered a different frequency. Those two-
and-a-half days when he was not eating
were normal, but when he was eating, for
experience, the food was not there. In this
frequency also, the food had disappeared!
When he was eating itself, I was not in the
frequency of seeing any other object; I was
not seeing the place where he was eating, I
was not seeing the plate, I was not seeing
the food; I was in a different frequency. In
that frequency I saw only Ganesha eating.
So except Ganesha, there was nothing in
Me at that time. When I came down to the
normal frequency, I saw the same Ganesha
and the same plate, but the food was not
there.
So, in both the frequencies, the incident
happened, but I experienced it in the
higher frequency. When I came down to
the lower frequency, I saw that the food was
not there.
We may think some rat ate the food. In that
case, the darshan (vision of the Divine)
would not have happened. We may think
the darshan might have happened in some
trance. But then there is no chance that the
food also would have disappeared. So, since
both have come together - the darshan and
I share about this miracle to
Yogananda Puri
This is the first miracle that happened in
My life. The food was not completely
missing. There were grains strewn here
and there. When the elephant eats it will
splatter it here and there right? It was like
that. And the whole place became so
fragrant and with a new kind of a feel!
See: when I narrate the story, what
happens inside you depends on the state
of your mind. But inside Me, it created a
deep and ardent faith. If something
creates faith in us then that is the truth
only. It cannot be anything else.
Later, I told this incident of feeding Ganesha
to Yogananda Puri. He could neither believe
it nor disbelieve it. He came and saw the place
where it happened. When he came and saw,
he not only prostrated several times in that
place, every time he came he would come to
that spot and only then leave; he had so
much respect for it!
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 The four tattvas: Integrity, Authenticity,
Responsibility, Enriching
The possibility or incident that Ganesha came
and ate in Nambiyandar Nambi's life was a
Lessons from
reality for Me. I never questioned the
factuality of that incident. I was very clear,
because of the trust, that if he did not eat,
the Ganesha story there was some problem with Me, that's all!
The kutarka, which happened with the
actualities of our Puranas, is the worst thing
that has happened to the Indian
consciousness. Whether it happened because
of themselves, or because of some foreign
invasion teaching them, it is the worst thing
that has happened to Indians.
Please understand: with the power of
Integrity, I decided to feed Ganesha. With the
p o w e r o f A u t h e n t i c i t y, I t o o k t h e
Responsibility of making him eat. After that
experience, the joy of Enriching - sharing with
the world - had started happening in My
system!
I work with thousands of patients, meaning
people with different kinds of diseases. I am
well known for healing different kinds of
patients and diseases. In My experience, I have
understood many important secrets about the
body and mind. I have read many of them in
the Upanishads or the Puranas, or the
traditional scriptures, but I have started
realizing them experientially now. Please
understand, literally what you believe as your
body and mind becomes reality in your life in
ten to twenty days. I have seen this happening.
The tremendous trust in the power of
Integrity
Many times, people ask Me, “If I just say I am
complete, how can I be complete?” You can,
because you are nothing but the bunch of words
you utter consciously or unconsciously to
yourself or to others. Unfortunately, 99.99% of
your words are unconsciously uttered. That is
where the problem starts. So, many times you
don't recognize the power of the words you utter,
especially towards yourself. You should have
tremendous trust over the power of your words,
over the power of your integrity. You always feel, “I
am integrated, but I still need to evolve”.
If you declare completion now, you are
complete. But if you say, “No! No! Now I am
saying I am complete, but I am not complete.”
Then you have already decided that you don't
want to be complete! Declare that you are
complete! Roar like a lion and stand on
completion! I tell you: you are nothing but the
words you utter.
So understand, the first lesson you need to
learn from this story is the ability to trust the
power of your integrity. If you say, “I am free,”
you are free! If you say you are bound, you are
bound! If you say you are a liar, you are a liar! If
you say you are enriching, you are enriching! It
is just you! If you utter the words, “I am
efficient. I am powerful,” you are that! If you
utter the words, “No! I am powerless. I am
inefficient,” you are that!
The words you utter to yourself and to others is
life! What a big relief! This can be good news
for you if you start believing it. It can be great
news for you if you start living it. It can be bad
news for you if you start worrying about it.
The second truth you need to know is about
the power of your authenticity. Even in the
initial level, what you do might look like
inauthenticity, but just stand by it; it will rise
to the next level of authenticity. In this story, in
the beginning, when I started feeding or
planning to feed Ganesha, it was inauthentic.
But, even if it was inauthentic, when you are
authentic towards your inauthenticity, it will
lead to authenticity!
The third important lesson you need to know:
when you take responsibility, when you decide
to become responsible, the whole cosmos
simply listens to you, follows you! With
responsibility, even if you sit in one corner, the
very space changes the way the world responds
towards you.
Vivekananda beautifully says, “In India, even
if we want wealth, we sit under a tree and create
the space. It happens around us!” He told these
words in the U.S., the country which teaches
you that you have to work so hard to
accumulate wealth, and that if you sit with
yourself, you may accumulate peace, but not
even a piece of bread!
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 What do you think I did in My life? I just sat under the
banyan tree at Bidadi and created the space. See the city
happening here! Do you know that when this land was
donated, it was infested with 1,800 snakes?! There was a
snake farm here. Before donating this land to us, the owner
moved the snake farm out. When he was welcoming Me to
this land, he told Me, “Swamiji, we have moved almost all
the snakes out. We had 30,000 snakes earlier. But during
the transition, 1,800 snakes escaped, Swamiji!”
Today, a city has happened! It took us two-and-a-half years
just to get a telephone connection! But now, anything I
speak sitting here, people are listening, sitting all over the
world! I just created the space! Now this place has become
the model, the source, for multiple spiritual cities to
happen all over the world! So, when you take responsibility,
when you sit and create the space, and you are ready to
sacrifice, the world will simply move based on your word!
The world moves as you want!
The fourth truth you need to learn from this is: when
Ganesha ate, I saw the tremendous joy, the inspiration to
raise Myself to the next level, to enrich Myself and enrich
others. It is not that after that, I kept quiet. I started
creating a group of people who would go around and
worship every Ganesha in the city and village.

BANYAN TREE, BENGALURU AADHEENAM

I am under the Banyan tree at the Bengaluru Aadheenam on 2 Aug 2016, on the day of
Guru Peyarchi, when, as per Vedic Astrology, the planet Guru moves from one house to the next
 Ganesha incarnated in Me
The experience of Ganesha eating gave birth to
Ganesha in Me. After that, I remember - wherever
Ganesha was seen, I would see that he was literally
happening in Me! In Tiruvannamalai, every street
will have ten Ganeshas! In that one year, that
habit, that pattern of worshipping Ganesha that
got developed, was there in My life till I left
Tiruvannamalai.
Even if I went to school, which was at 8:30 in the
morning, I would have to start from home at seven
o'clock itself. The school was only two kilometers
from My house. My elder brother would drive Me
on a cycle.
Only later on I discovered that because the 'right
side - left side' separation was not there in Me, I
could not ride a cycle. Especially on a bicycle, you
need to feel a separation between the right and left
sides of you, because you need to give separate
signals and balance it.
Only if your left side is suppressed, you will get the
balance between left side and right side. For all of
you, the left side will be suppressed because of
others constantly telling you, “Don't touch with
your left hand. Don't eat with your left hand. Don't
do with your left hand.” The left side becoming
suppressed is a very big reason for you becoming
normal human beings. When you are born, you
are God only. When the left side becomes
suppressed, you become normal humans. One
portion of your body becomes suppressed. For Me,
that suppression never happened. I never allowed
that conditioning. From then till now I will eat
with both hands. I can write with both hands even
now. If you see Me during programs, I will
autograph with both hands! I will give energy
darshan (energy transmission) with both hands.
But because the right and left are not separated,
there would not be balance in the body. I would
not be able to tell between right and left sides. The
whole body would be like a single organism. There
would be no split of right and left inside the
consciousness, so I will not be able to balance; I
would not be able to ride a cycle.
Till the end, My elder brother drove Me to school.
Even after he left school, he would still drop Me.
And he would curse Me, because at every spot,
even at corner houses, where for the sake of vaastu
parihara (remedy in Hindu system of
architecture); or for warding off evil eyes, they
would have placed a Ganesha deity, I would stop
and worship! I would not leave even those
Ganeshas! I would do all My shodashopachara
puja (ritual of sixteen offerings), vandana
(worship), namaskara (joining the palms in
humble obeisance), and what not! I had My own
protocol also - three times this, three times that – it
was almost like ten minutes of akhada (physical
exercise)!
For Me, it had become an experience. But this poor
fellow, My elder brother…it was such a big torture
for him! But he had to take Me to school every day!
If he did not take Me, I had no problem, because I
did not want to go to school anyway! But they
wanted Me to go to school. See, the time it took for
him to take Me to school, even that much time I
would not spend in school itself! And the funny
thing is, I would do the same thing on the way back
also! Sometimes, if I was late, the school
watchman would not even search for Me
anywhere else. He would straightaway know that I
would be doing this to every Ganesha!
From My house to the school, at least twenty-five
Ganeshas were there. Without missing even once,
try to do these three actions, three times each,
twenty-five times - then you will understand! It is
equivalent to doing akhada in twenty-five places!
The Ganesha would be hiding in a small
place, and I would stand in a corner so that I
could see him! People would laugh seeing
Me!
For almost a year, Ganesha was living
with Me
So in every one of you, the Divine has to
incarnate. Sometimes, even a powerful
click, a concept clicking within you, makes
this incarnation happen inside you.
Sometimes, even the darshan of the Guru
makes the incarnation happen in you.
Whether by the darshan of the Guru, or by
the words of the Guru, or by the nearness or
presence of the Guru, or on your own;
sometimes, with even just a book, or some
strong suffering, or some separation, or
feeling of insecurity, or
some accident, or some
disease… Even these strong
actions in life can make the
incarnation happen in you.
But in some form, in some
way, the incarnation has to
happen in you.
I can tell you from My own
e xp e r i e n ce h ow t h e s e
incarnations happen.
When devotees sit in front
of Me with tremendous SRI SHAKTI VINAYAGAR ALAYAM
devotion or love, I can see One of the Ganesha temples
enroute to school!
very clearly, part of Me,
without My instruction or
command, just expands and extends to
them so powerfully!
The vatavarana (ambience) matters!
Whatever is in you is awakened by the
external happenings or information.
I have seen one of My friends… he was so
interested in politics, that even at the age of
eight, wherever political meetings
happened, he would go and listen. Once
the speaker left and the crowd dispersed,
he would get onto the stage and give the
same speech! He would scream in exactly
the same way, “Soda! Soda!” (Usually, when
the politicians spoke, they would ask for
soda.)
We both had an agreement: he would help
Me in My puja, I would assist him by giving
him soda! I used to be his assistant when he
gave his political discourses. When I did
My puja, he would be My assistant, getting
My flowers, making the sandalwood paste
and all that. So, whatever is in you is
awakened by the external happenings or
information.
The western world kids are
taught to live with Barbie dolls
or cartoons that they see on
television. Fortunately, God
saved Me! I was born in a
village in South India. From a
young age, I was living and
practicing the presence of God.
What I understood about
Ganesha at the age of three,
and what I understand about
Ganesha now, is different. But
that understanding at the age
of three only has led Me to this
understanding. If I was too
busy with Mickey Mouse, Tom
and Jerry at the age of three, I would have
been disillusioned at the age of thirteen
that Tom and Jerry don't exist, but I would
not have reached any higher under-
standing.
Because I started living with Ganesha at the
age of three, even at the age of thirty-five I
had a higher understanding of Ganesha,
which has led Me to higher and higher
planes of existence - ishta nishtha and leela
dhyana - practicing the presence of God,
living with God!
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 Have your atma moorti,
but also relate to the temple deity!
In Hindu tradition, there is a concept called atma moorti, meaning 'my own version of
Shiva' (or any deity). It means, “He is just my own version; nobody else is allowed.” This
is called ishta nishtha or leela dhyana. Srimad Bhagavatam acknowledges this process
as a very powerful spiritual practice. So having your own version of the Guru or God,
and relating to it, is a very powerful process! It is called leela dhyana, literally 'living
with Me'!

I have seen so many ordinary villagers in India, living with their chosen ideal and living
the highest form of enlightened life, without even knowing the words Integrity,
Authenticity, Responsibility and Enriching! Without knowing any of these words, they
radiate enlightenment! I tell you, just this one truth, ishta nishtha and leela dhyana,
has made millions of Indian villagers enlightened! Millions of Indian villagers practice
the presence of God. So understand, unknowingly, you are practicing the presence of
God!

But understand one thing: My Ganesha ate, but I cannot go to the temple and make
that Ganesha eat, because the temple Ganesha belongs to the whole world. I cannot tell
the temple Ganesha, “I will put you in the well!” But, I can play with My own version of
Ganesha. I can tell him, “I will put you in the well!” I can do anything I want with him! I
tell you, with your atma moorti, spiritual life starts. But you should take care that when
you go to the temple, you don't lose that feeling-connection with the temple moorti
also! You should understand that the temple moorti has space for everyone!
The problem is, in your inner space, if you have
place for one person, you don't have place for
anybody else. That is why you go on believing that I
am also like that! You are a house connection; I am
a transformer! Understand: in your
house, the electricity connection that you
have, you can use only in your house; you cannot
light up the whole city. Yo u a r e a h o u s e
connection; I am a transformer! I have place
for everyone!

KARPAGA VINAYAGAR TEMPLE

I am talking on Ganesha at the every day morning satsang during Ganesh Brahmotsav
on 5 Sep 2016 - Ganesh Chaturthi day - the celebration of Ganesha's birth.
 Bringing the great
truths back to life

My revival of deity worship When an enlightened person happens in the body, he brings all the great truths to life.
He brings everything back to life. Sometimes people ask Me, “Why did you do so much

started with Ganesha tapas, so much of spiritual practices, Swamiji? Why do you need to do all these things,
like puja and feeding Ganesha? You are after all born enlightened; You could have
expressed Your enlightenment directly.” Understand: expressing enlightenment is one
thing; bringing all these truths back to life through every incident, through every
ritual, through every technique, is another thing. That is the purpose of an enlightened
being landing in the human body!
My spiritual life started with Ganesha. Ganesha eating the food I offered is the first
spiritual experience that happened in My life. My first satsang was on Ganesha, and My
first puja was done to Ganesha. I can say, My spiritual journey was successful and
unfolded with all its glory, beauty and depth because of that! It was such an auspicious
beginning… that is why My life is continuously extraordinary with auspicious
incidents. I am trying to trace the day Ganesha ate the food I offered. We will declare
that day as Annapurna Day in our mission!

Understand: this whole revival of deity worship, of Sanatana Hindu Dharma, which I
am doing now, started with just one small Ganesha gifted to Me when I was three years
old! If that same Ganesha or even a bigger Ganesha was gifted to Me when I was
eighteen, I don't think this revival would have happened. Just that one Ganesha at the
age of three got into My very bio-memory, became an experience. That is why I am able
to transmit that experience to tons and tons of people, and this whole Sanatana Hindu
Dharma is revived!

Just yesterday, one participant in the Inner Awakening program came and said,
“Swamiji, it is so sweet to talk to deities and relate with them! I saw them blessing me,
relating back to me, responding to me!”

I said, “Wow! I have done My job!”

 The Lifestyle of Manifesting
Extraordinary Shaktis

Paramahamsa Nithyananda is experienced by millions worldwide as The Avatar of this day

and age, bringing permanent, precious solutions from ancient Hindu sacred texts for the
global crisis being faced today. His Holiness is reviving sacred yogic sciences from Sanatana
Hindu Dharma - including awakening of the kundalini shakti - our own highest potential
energy, the third eye, and the expression of extraordinary powers. He works tirelessly to
awaken individuals and communities to their highest possibility - a stress-free life of high
achievement, power, bliss and advaita... Oneness.

The life of Paramahamsa Nithyananda is a living example of the shastras that were written so
long ago by Bhagavan Sadashiva Himself. Every teaching He elaborates on today is a result of
His intense practice on Himself and the resulting success. Out of His extraordinary
compassion, The Avatar landed on Earth to once again revive the sacred secrets from
Sanatana Hindu Dharma.

Ever since the beginning of civilization, Sanatana Hindu Dharma has been the cradle of
enlightened beings and highly advanced sciences. It is where the science of enlightenment
and powers (shaktis) were lived and taught as a lifestyle. Sadashiva speaks on 463 various
shaktis including:

seeing through the third eye

reading the past and the future through Akashic Readings
creating alchemy products for spiritual evolution
scanning bodies for disease and healing
remote scanning for retrieving lost items
levitation
materialization of objects

INITIATION
Manifesting shaktis happens from a space of Oneness.
 The initiated disciples of Paramahamsa Nithyananda express much more than just these
powers through His powerful deekshas (initiations). These powers manifest from the
‘feeling connection’ and ‘integrity’ to the Divine, from the space of Oneness with the Divine.
Through this, Paramahamsa Nithyananda re-establishes the ancient era of power
manifesting beings on the planet.

Bhagavan Sadashiva refers to this Oneness as shuddhadvaitam.

He reveals in Vijñāna Bhairava Tantra, sutra 113, dhāraṇa 87:

saṃpradāyamimaṃ devi śrṇu samyagvadāmyaham ।

kaivalyaṃ jāyate sadyo netrayoḥ stabdhamātrayoḥ ॥ 113 ॥

Translation
O Devi, listen to this sacred tradition, I shall reveal it you vividly, completely. Just keep your
eyes completely wide open, do not see or perceive anything, by simply keeping it fixed with a
steady gaze (on the reality within). By this, the state of aloneness [kaivalya], the Oneness that
expresses as extraordinary powers and experiences will occur immediately.

Summary:
In this sutra, Sadashiva reveals the technique of experiencing Oneness with Him and from
that Oneness awakening the powers of the third eye.

The shaktis cannot be unlocked by the reading or studying of the agamas. It can happen only
through initiation from a living incarnation.

One cannot taste the nectar by speaking about it. In the same way, the science of Oneness and
the powers revealed by Sadashiva in the agamas, can be tasted, experienced and celebrated
only from the Guru, who gives us the nectar of Oneness with the Divine that he embodies.

A Nithyananda Gurukul Student explains: “The moment I close

my eyes, I just get into the space of Oneness with Swamiji. When
I get into that space it’s a different realm, a different world
altogether. So in that space it’s that reasonless, causeless joy.
Then when I am asked, ‘where is the lost ring?’ I just see the
whole scene happening, like a playback video with audio. And
the moment you express these powers, your whole body, your
whole being, just gets into a space that cannot be described. So
much of sweetness and calmness; nothing can shake you!”
- Sri Nithya Sundareswarananda Maharaj.

SRI NITHYA SUNDARESHWARA

NANDA MAHARAJ
Balasanth of the Nithyananda Gurukul
NITHYANANDA GURUKUL
The center for creating a new species of power-manifesting humans.
Featuring students of the gurukul demonstrating their powers in December 2016.