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My 4th line personality, when I was not operating correctly, when it was not observing
the life experiences that the body was actually having, provided a difficult, illusory life.
As a 4/6, I’m a personal destiny being, but when the 4th line personality was running
the life, it was all about the other.
Will they be friends with me? Will they bring me opportunities to get what I think I
want? Will they support me? Can I confide in them? Can I trust them? I had constant
mental stories about wanting friendship, wanting a benefactor, wanting support,
wanting life to be the way I think it should be, wanting to get beyond mental judgment
of myself (and projecting it on others), wanting people to treat me a particular way,
taking life personally... And, none of it was actually taking place in my experience. The
mind’s story was simply a mental formula that wanted life to be a particular way: If
(this) then I'll have, be or do (that).
Part of my dilemma at the start of my experiment was that I held a deep distrust of my
physical experiences of life. My first phase as a 6th line being was physically chaotic,
especially after I left home at 17. By the time I reached my Saturn return, I had been
married and divorced twice (once with a drug addict and the other with a physical
abuser), and had a 7 year old son.
My Saturn return was a major shift in my life – my mother died, I went to live in an
ashram for 6 months, moved to Hawaii, and met my partner Dharmen – all in one
year.
I met Human Design during my 6th Line body’s second phase – the roof phase. I’ve
never been as healthy before or after – as in my roof phase. My body was strong,
capable, and resilient. I could burn the candle at both ends, and never skip a beat. I
worked full time, had a relationship, home, and family with 3 children. I was also still
driven by my 4th line personality to be deeply involved in my social networks. I was
superwoman – trying to be all things to all people.
And of course, it all came crashing down when I came down from the roof at my Kiron
return; I literally came off the roof head first. At my Kiron I had a physical accident
and the discovery of skeletal damage that will be with me the rest of my life. After my
Kiron I could no longer live the way I had been living, my body would not support the
level of physical work, stress, and being on the go all the time. This mutative body
continues to be my teacher: it’s the body that lives the life; it’s the personality through
the mind that observes the body’s experience, and wisdom grows out of those
observations.