1.

Portents By Jessica Zafra

2. Biography of Jessica
 Jessica Zafra (born 1965) is a ction writer, col!nist, e"itor, pblisher,
pblisher, an" for!er tele#ision
an" ra"io show host. $he is %nown for her sharp an" witty writing styles.
&er !ost poplar boo%s are the 'wiste"
'wiste" series, a collection of her essays as a col!nist for the
newspaper 'o"ay (now anila $tan"ar" 'o"ay), as well as fro! her ti!e as e"itor an" pblisher of the
!againe *lip.
$he crrently writes a wee%ly col!n for +nter%syon.co!, the online news portal of '-5. $he
resi"es in etro anila, where she is wor%ing on her rst no#el.
$he also !anage" the raserhea"s "ring 199/s. &er wor% often are abot the crrent e#ents
(both 0hilippine an" international), tennis, !o#ies, !sic, cats, boo%s, technology, an" her personal
life. &er wor% has been the sbect of aca"e!ic st"y.
 'he !ain ingre"ient
ingre"ient to her wor%
wor% is often
often gn cynicis!
cynicis! an" irony
irony..
. $ettings
}t the 34ce }t the estarants }21st entry
}t the &ose }t the hrch } 'hey belie#e at signs
signs
7. haracters
8 Jessica  the pregnant la"y who "ies not %now what to "o
} a!on  can"i"ate for the baby:s father. &e is si!ple.
} ;awrence  another !an whose chances are high of being father. &e is rich an" #ery artistic.
} <il!a  she is the o4ce!ate of the narrator who ha" for abortions.
} 0ocholo  he is the o4ce!ate of the narrator who always tell stories abot war an" en"ing of 
the worl".
} *ilthy an  "irty !an whose been re#ealing i!portant secrets to Jessica.
} =r. analo  Jessica>s "octor.
5. 0lot $trctre
} lassic 0lot
} $tart with the ?pository
} 'he secon" one is li!a?
} 'hen at last is onclsion
6. 0lot
} ?position  the narrator learne" abot her baby.
} o!plication  she is thin%ing abot the abortion of baby
} li!a?  she "eci"e" not to abort the baby
} esoltion  she can>t "eci"e whether she say or not abot the baby to the possible father.
} onclsion  she "eci"e" to li#e with the baby.
@. onAict
}an #s. &i!self
}+n the story, she "oesn>t %now how she will face her proble! becase she "oesn>t ha#e any
e?perience abot what she>s facing right now.
. 'he!e
.  'he!e
} 'he !essage of the story is that %now when or what to "o or thin% rst before yo "o
so!ething so that when yo are alrea"y in the sitation yo will %now what to "o.
9. $y!bolis!
} 'he en" is near
near..
1/. 0lot 'ypes or =e#ices
};iterary =e#iceC &yperbole  D+ i!agine" a creatre ripping ot of !y sto!ach in a gory !ess,
li%e the !onster in alien.
}0lot 'ypesC lassic 0lot
}=e#icesC Eone.
11. 0oint of -iew
}1st person 03-F 1st person narration
03'E'$ by Jessica Zafra
0ositi#e, she sai" cheerily, as if + shol"n>t go ot an" hang !yself this instant. + hel" on to the phone
for a long ti!eG + was sre that if + let go + wol" fall "own. 'he coHee trne" to !" in !y !othI+
ran to the sin% an" hea#e". ongratlations, it>s a fets. o frigging i"iot.

fterwar"s + sat at the %itchen table an" trie" to !a%e sense of the stH swirling aron" in !y hea".
-isions of bloo" an" !bilical cor"s an" fee"ing bottles whirle" before !y eyes li%e !ale#olent
frisbees. 'he newspaper was lying ne?t to the platter of toastG + rea" the hea"line abot two hn"re"
ti!es. Day se poison gas, +raK warns.L Ee?t to it a pictre of a "ea" Mr"ish wo!an cltching the
bo"y of her "ea" chil". other. hil". + felt li%e throwing p all o#er again. + i!agine" a creatre
ripping ot of !y sto!ach in a gory !ess, li%e the !onster in lien.

 'here was a 0ostNit note on the !irrorC D;nch with ;awrence, 12C/,L ;awrence being a ftyNfty
can"i"ate for the father. + painte" a face on an" stare" at the !irror. + saw !y belly swelling p, !y
clothes rising li%e a circs tent, an" all + col" thin% abot was the ten pon"s +>" st lost, an" the
new "ress + boght to !ar% the occasion. *inally + got !y new "ress ot of the closet an" pt it on
while it still t.

+n the ele#ator !y ne?tN"oor neighbor s!ile" an" sai" Ooo" !orning. $he ha" this sort of %nowing
s!ile, an" + fon" !yself won"ering if she %new abot !e. + wasn>t st being paranoi"G this is anila,
the neighbors %now e#erything. 'hey are e?tre!ely sy!pathetic, an" if yo let the! they will ta%e
o#er yor life. +t trne" ot she was st trying to sell !e a watch. &er hsban" ha" !anage" to get
ot of Mwait by "ri#ing across the "esert, an" when he got ho!e the ban%s refse" to change his
Mwaiti "inars. 'hat>s why she was selling his watches. + felt %in" of sorry for rs. $antos, setting ot
with her i!itation Occi han"bag an" se#eral "oen gol" bracelets to sell her hsban">s watches. 3r
was it rs. $an Jan, + can ne#er re!e!ber.

 ner#os brea%"own wol">#e been in or"er, or a t of tears an" %eening, the %in" that co!es with a
rnny nose an" s!eare" !ascara. Bt +>#e ne#er been one for hysterics. 'han%s to !y parents, by the
ti!e + was eight, the sight of a chair being hrle" across the roo! was no longer case for alar!.
aybe there is so!ething to be sai" for a losy ho!e life. a!on says !y e!otional range is li!ite"
to rage, gilt, an" occasional hilarity. &e neglecte" to !ention blan%nesssIthere are ti!es when + st
"on>t feel anything.

a!on also clai!s he can rea" !y thoghts by loo%ing at !eIhe says +>! transparent. + hope soG it>s
e!barrassing to tell so!ebo"y there>s a fty per cent chance that he !ay be a father in se#eral
!onths.

By the ti!e it occrre" to !e to catch a ri"e + was halfway to !y o4ce an" "eci"e" to wal% the rest of 
the way. + was swallowe" p by the crow" of people hrrying to wor%G rising abo#e the "in of tra4c,
their footfalls son"e" li%e the !arching of a "istant ar!y.

+n front of the chrch where rosaries an" goo"Nlc% char!s were sol" n"er the balefl stare of the
rchangel ichael>s state, a strange gre appeare" on !y rightG a lthy !an with long, !atte" hair.
 tattere" bag was slng across his bare chest, pon which his ribs protr"e" li%e spi%es.  thic% layer
of soot co#ere" his e!aciate" bo"yIhe loo%e" li%e a wal%ing pile of ashes. &e starte" spea%ing to !e
in rgent tones, as if he were re#ealing i!portant secrets, an" there was a cray glint in his eyes. +
n"erstoo" nothing. &e was spea%ing either in "ialect of in gibberish, + col"n>t tell, + loo%e" on
stpi"ly. 0eople stare", e?pecting perhaps that he wol" pro"ce a clea#er an" hac% !e to "eath. 'he
!an went on with his weir" recitationG why he chose !e + ha" no i"ea, !aybe he col" see past the
"esigner clothes into !y "ar% an" gri!y sol. fter a while he frowne" li%e a teacher who ha" st
gi#en p on a particlarly !oronic st"ent. 'hen he wheele" an" "ashe" into the chrch, stopping a
!o!ent to rb with his lthy han" the scowling face of the rchangel ichael.

 'hrogh the glass + col" see the cashier, <il!a, on the telephone, spewing #ile wor"s li%e poisone"
toa"s into the recei#er. $he was screa!ing at so!e poor bastar" who owe" her !oney. cross fro!
!e, 0ocholo, in his pin% shirt an" re" paisley nec%tie, sat Aipping throgh the !orning papers.
D+t>s e?actly as Eostra"a!s sai",L 0ocholo sai". D&e pre"icte" earthKa%es signaling the en" of the
worl", an" we ha" that big one last !onth. 'hen he sai" a lea"er fro! the i""le ast wol" lanch a
worl" war. + thoght it wol" be Mha"a4 bt no, it>s $a""a! &ssein.

D$re,L + sai". + watche" <il!a sla! the phone so har" it fell to the Aoor. rsing !ightily, she
stoppe" to pic% it p. 3n this particlar "ay she was cla" in polyester cloth abloo! with pin% an"
prple Aowers, which !a"e her loo% li%e a "e!ente" sofa.

Dnyway,L 0ocholo contine", D!y ants say they saw this #ision in 'aal.L &is #oice "roppe" to a
whisper. D'hey saw a horse!an in the s%y.L

D whatPL

D !an on a horse. i"ing across the s%y.  hn"re" schoolchil"ren saw it. ccor"ing to !y ant it
loo%e" li%e the state of $t. artin that stan"s in their chrch.L

D$t. artin on a horsePL + sai". Daybe it was $t. Oeorge or Joan of rc. + "on>t thin% $t. artin ro"e a
horse.L

DEo, stpi",L he sai". Do>re thin%ing of $t. artin "e 0orres. <e>re elating abot $t. artin of 'ors.
n" yo %now whatP y ant says they saw the sa!e #ision st before <orl" <ar ++. 'hen the
 Japanese arri#e".L &e ran his ngers throgh his artflly !osse" an" tosle" hair. D3h !y Oo", what
if it>s really the en". + !ean, + "on>t e#en ha#e a %i" yet.L

+ loo%e" away so he wol"n>t see !e gri!ace, an" was st in ti!e to see <il!a spitting into her
wastebas%et.

ll !orning + won"ere" whether + shol" as% <il!a for her abortionist>s a""ress. $he wol" gi#e the
a""ress, + %new, e#en acco!pany !e to the place. 0robably so!e "ecrepit woo"en hose in the feti"
alleys of 'on"o, where the gangs hnte" each other "own with ho!e!a"e re#ol#ers. <il!a hi"
nothing, she wore her braen honesty li%e a soile" an" rsty halo. $he ha" ha" for abortions, she tol"
!e casally while + was brshing !y teeth in the bathroo!G the washerwo!an "own her street
perfor!e" the operation, she owe" <il!a !oney. + i!agine <il!a>s insi"es, as torn an" bloo"y as a
battleel". $he sai" she>" regrette" her last abortionC it was a girl, she>s always wante" a baby girl.
$he pt the fets in a ar of for!alin an" %ept it in the "rawer where her we""ing "ress, which ha"
otlaste" her !arriage, lay yellowing a!ong !othballs an" "ea" Aowers.

 'he others she>" Ashe" "own the toilet.

;awrence ate his lnch the way he li#e" his lifeC #ery careflly, as if he wol" cho%e on it. #erything
abot hi! was reson"ingly correct, fro! his hair to his +talian shoes, fro! the schools he>" atten"e"
to the fashionable gy! where he wrestle" with !achines three ti!es a wee%. + %new that as he rea"
the !en he was gring ot how !ch cholesterol, how !ch so"i! an" fat were in the entrees.

D+t>s going to be ba",L he was saying. DBy ne?t year the o4cial e?change rate col" be 2 pesos to
the "ollar. 'hat>s a conser#ati#e proection. <e ha#en>t consi"ere" oil prices an" the "a!age fro! the
earthKa%e.L =aintily, he chewe" on his #egetable. D+nAation will go throgh the roof,L he a""e",
al!ost with relish.

<hile he "eli#ere" his analysis of the econo!y, + twirle" the noo"les aron" !y for% bt + har"ly ate
anything. Eo appetite. +"ly, + won"ere" if ;awrence was sleeping with so!eone else. 3ne of the girls
fro! his o4ce, so!eone tall an" s#elte who wor%e" in 0, shoppe" in &ong Mong, an" wore linen sits
with tiny s%irts. + concl"e" that he wasn>tI+ ha" no illsions abot his n"ying lo#e an" "elity, bt +
trste" his fear of +=$.

D! + boring yoPL he sai" at last. r. $ensiti#e. &e pt his han" on !y %neeI!aybe he e?pecte" !e
to sali#ate li%e one of 0a#lo#>s "ogs. D+>! sorry,L he sai". D+ %now we ha#en>t seen each other !ch
lately, bt it>s been hell at the o4ce.L <ithot !issing a beat he sli" his han" p !y s%irt. Boy, he
was s!ooth, no one wol">#e sspecte" that the earnestNloo%ing yong !an in the pinstripe shirt
col" be "oing so!ething as ignoble as gi#ing a girl a feel in a restarant. D'hat gy fro! the hea"
o4ce is a !aor asshole. Ooes aron" trying to catch people loang. 'he o4ce feels li%e a...L

brptly he with"rew his han" an" stoo" p.  large, re"Nnose" white !an in an illNtting brown sit
was approaching or table.

Dr. *owler,L sai" ;awrence.

Dl#ara"o,L sai" the !an, sha%ing the han" ;awrence e?ten"e".

D&ow was the beachPL ;awrence sai". + ha" to restrain !yself fro! calling the waiter an" as%ing for a
receptacle + col" p%e into.

D*ine,L sai" *owler, D<ell. noy yor !eal.L

D+s that the asshole fro! the !ain o4cePL + sai".

D$ssh,L ;awrence hisse". D&e !ight hear yo.L

D;et hi!.L + reache" o#er with !y for% an" speare" foo" oH his plate. &e hate" it whene#er + "i" that.
;awrence ha" a #ery "enite concept of D!ine.L *or instance, all his boo%s were sta!pe" D0ri#ate
;ibrary of ;awrence . l#ara"o.L 'he strange thing was, he "i"n>t e#en rea" his boo%s. 'hey were
line" p accor"ing to height on his antiKe boo%shelf, neatly co#ere" in plastic. 3ne ti!e + too% a boo%
ot of the shelf, an" it ha" been there nopene" for so long the pages stc% together.

Dnyway,L ;awrence sai", Dwhere were wePL

Do !ean ntil yor sahib ca!e alongPL

D<hat>s the !atter with yoPL he sai". *nny he shol" se the e?act sa!e wor"s he sai" co!ing p
to !e at =i"ay>s birth"ay party while + stoo" in a corner hol"ing !y breath to get ri" of !y hiccps.
&e sai" he was ;awrence an" + shol" breathe into a paper bag, so we went into the %itchen an"
r!!age" in the closets. 'here weren>t any paper bags, an" when he fon" a plastic shopping bag +
"i"n>t nee" any!ore, !y hiccps were gone. &e got !y na!e an" !y telephone n!ber, it was as
easy as that.

Diggy,L he sai". iggy, for hrissa%es. + %new ;awrence wasn>t going to follow !e, he hate" scenes
Ian" + wal%e" ot of the restarant, it was as easy as that.

+ wan"ere" aron" the !all for a while. + went into stores an" loo%e" at things. 'here was this ott
that loo%e" li%e or nifor! at the ca"e!y of 3r ;a"y>s $e#en $orrowsIwhite blose, ble nec%tie,
an" a na#yNble s%irtIonly the s%irt was too short. t $e#en $orrows, s%irts ha" to co#er the entire
%nee area. +f yor %nees were e?pose" the nns wol" gi#e yo a lectre on !o"esty. 'here was no
span%ingIthe nns were an enlightene" bnchIbt after fteen !intes of ha#ing gilt lai" thic%ly
on yo, yo>" wish they>" gi#e yo ten lashes instea" an" get it o#er with.

orporal pnish!ent wol" si!plify e#erything. *or sleeping with a gy yo weren>t !arrie" to, yo>"
get, say, #e hn"re" lashes. *or sleeping with two gys, neither of who! yo were !arrie" to, one
thosan" lashes. *or e#en thin%ing abot abortion, ten thosan" lashes. n" +>" been sch a goo" girl
too, ntil recently, anyway, so +>" probably get #e hn"re" e?tra lashes for being sch a
"isappoint!ent.

+ !a"e a !ental list of the reasons for an" against ha#ing this baby. 0roC 'his chil" wol" be !ine,
really trly !ine, which col"n>t be sai" of a lot of things. 0roC aybe +>ll trn ot to be a genis who
will in#ent so!ething benecial to !an%in", li%e a "e#ice that wol" case worl" lea"ers to selfN
"estrct if they got the rge to wage war.

ntiC +>! not sre +>" be sch a hot parent. + ha#e serios "eciencies in the responsibility "epart!ent,
as the cre"it car" people will attest. ntiC 'he lac% of a hsban", the reslting social stig!a, an" if not
that, !y own paranoia. + wol" "ri#e !yself cray won"ering if so!eone was going to cast stones at
!e. ntiC !y !other wol" frea%. $he>s in alifornia, rnning a *ilipino restarant, an" she>s always
going on abot the "ecline of tra"itional *ilipino #ales. + "on>t thin% she wol" appreciate ha#ing !e
pro#e her theories. + can st see her tal%ing to !y father, bla!ing hi! for "ying yong an" lea#ing
her to raise his "aghter to a"lthoo" (+ was always Dhis "aghterL e#eryti!e + screwe" p).

<hen + got bac% to the o4ce people were scrrying abot li%e newlyNbehea"e" chic%ens.

D<hat>s going onPL + as%e" 0ocholo. &e was alternately sKirting his asth!a !e"ication into his
!oth with an inhaler an" st4ng fol"ers into his briefcase.

D'here>s going to be a big earthKa%e at 2C/,L he sai", only there were no pases between his wor"s.

D$ays whoPL + "e!an"e".

D+t was on the ra"io,L he sai". &e snappe" his briefcase sht. 0eople were rnning into ele#ators.
<il!a let loose a stea"y strea! of obscenities while she stHe" into shopping bags the fa%e Benetton
shirts she sol" on install!ent.

D'hat>s cray,L + sai". Do can>t pre"ict e?actly when an earthKa%e will happen.L

Q+t was on the ra"io,L 0ocholo repeate", as if !e"ia co#erage were an infallible conr!ation of trth.
D2C/. 0owerfl earthKa%e, intensity nine.L

D<ell, +>! not lea#ing,L + "eclare". D+>! not going to fall for an i"iotic pran%.L

D'his bil"ing col" collapseRL he screeche". D;i%e the &yatt 'erracesRL

Do can>t pre"ict an earthKa%e e?actly.L

D<hat if there is oneP Be reasonableRL

easonableR + nearly laghe" at that. 0ocholo ga#e p, gathere" his briefcase an" inhaler, an" ran to
the ele#ator.

Do!e on,L sai" <il!a, D+t>s al!ost ti!e.L

D+t>s a pran%,L + sai". D+>! not lea#ing.L

D'hey>re closing the bil"ing,L she sai". D#eryone>s getting ot. =o yo want to get loc%e" inPL

$he ha" a point. + got !y bagI+ col" se the afternoon oH, anyway.

+ gre" +>" go ho!e an" get so!e sleepG !aybe when + wo%e p this whole thing wol" trn ot to be
a ba" "rea! li%e the one that %ille" !y Sncle =an"ing. 3ne night he ate too !ch rice an" stewe"
por%, then went to be" an" starte" screa!ing horribly in his sleep. 'hey slappe" hi!, pore" col"
water on hi!, pon"e" an" bit hi!, bt he ne#er wo%e p. &e "ie" ttering strange garble" noises.
 'he o4cial case of "eath was car"iac arrest, bt e#eryone sai" it was bangngot, the sleeping
sic%ness.

+t "i" see! li%e a "rea!, the crow" of people gathere" at the par%ing lot an" loo%ing at the bil"ing,
waiting for the swaying to start. +"iots, + !ttere", as + Aagge" "own a ta?i.

D<here toPL the "ri#er snarle".

D$alce"o,L + sai".
D'oo near,L he snappe", oo!ing oH before + col" get in the cab. 'a?i "ri#ersR 'his was not a great
!o!ent for h!anityC e#eryone was being an i"iot or an asshole.

ll the ta?is were ta%en, an" the bses were so fll people were sproting ot the win"ows. + col" see
the passengers cra!!e" together li%e llings in an enor!os san"wich, b!ping an" rbbing against
each other with e#ery lrch of the bs. aybe if so!ething as%s who !y %i">s father is, + col" say +
too% a really crow"e" bs an" got %noc%e" p.

By the ti!e + got bac% to !y apart!ent !y feet were throbbing.  !en fro! a pia parlor that
"eli#ere" ha" been sho#e" n"er !y "oorG rea"ing it + ha" a s""en wil" cra#ing for ancho#y pia.
0regnant wo!en are sppose" to ha#e these wil" cra#ings, bt + was slightly worrie". +>#e hear" ol"
people say that what yo cra#e "ring pregnancy "eter!ines how yor chil" will trn ot. *or
instance, if yo cra#e ga#as, yor chil" will be stbborn. y frien" clai!s her cl!siness was case"
by her !other>s fon"ness for noo"les. n" sing%a!as is sppose" to pro"ce fairNco!ple?ione"
chil"ren, no !atter how "ar% their parents are. + thoght, if + ate a lot of ancho#ies, wol" !y chil"
ha#e scaly s%in, or loo% li%e a shP

+ phone" the pia place anyway, an" when + pt the phone "own it rang. D&i,L sai" a!on.

D&ow "i" yo %now + was ho!ePL + sai".

Do>re always ho!e on $n"ay.L

D+t>s on"ay.L

D3h. re yo going ot tonightPL he sai". Dan + co!e o#erPL

D3%ay.L

<hen + hng p + notice" how Kiet the bil"ing was. Eo ra"ios blaring, no '-, no brats sKalling "own
the hall. *or a secon" + won"ere" if there really was an earthKa%e. 'he last ti!e, when the tre!ors
starte" there was a stnne" silence. 'he phones stoppe" ringing, the printers stoppe" whirring,
con#ersations pase" in !i"NsentenceG e#eryone sat gripping their "es%s, their eyes wi"e open an"
their !oths shape" into 3>s. 'hen people "o#e n"er tables an" <il!a was saying
D3hOo"3hOo"3hOo"L an" there was a lo" wailing in the air. <hen the tre!ors stoppe" + hear"
0ocholo>s ra"io, an" the BN52s were singing, Dos!icR os!icRL

+ switche" the '- on. 'here was this soap opera abot a little girl who! e#eryone !altreate". 'he
actress was playe" by a little girl was so goo" at being a !artyr, it was as if she ha" a sign on her
forehea" that sai", DMic% !e.L 'he soap was interrpte" by a news broa"castC 262 !ore *ilipinos ha"
Ae" Mwait.  !i""leNage" wo!an tol" a reporter she ha" been rape" by +raKi sol"iers. <hy shol" +
be asha!e", she sai", + "i"n>t want it to happen. +t was a!aing how casal she was. &ow col" she
be so coolP <ar col" brea% ot any secon", an" that !a"!an col" se che!ical weapons. + thoght
of worl"wi"e recession, rioting for foo", an" pictres + ha" seen of &iroshi!a after that blast.

aybe 0ocholo an" his ant were right, the worl" was co!ing to an en". <hat a losy ti!e it was to
be born, with !a"!en waiting to gas yo or blow yo away, an" the earth opening p to swallow yo.
3n the other han", with e#erything going against yo, yo "i"n>t nee" yor own !other plotting to
get ri" of yo.

a!on ca!e in at si?. &is hair loo%e" li%e he>" ct it hi!self, which he often "i". &e broght a ta%eN
ot bo? of frien" noo"les an" a #i"eotape of oa" nner cartoons. + heate" the pia lefto#ers an" he
ate the! on the car" table on the terrace.

&e loo%e" e?haste". D+ staye" p late lling ot the for!s for !y grant,L he e?plaine", rbbing his
eyes.
D+ ha" a weir" "ay,L + sai". + tol" hi! abot the street cray in front of the chrch, an" his strange
!essage.

&e rbbe" a spot of sace oH !y chin with his th!b. Daybe it was an obscene proposal. 3r !aybe
he was spea%ing ra!aic. epent or else.L

Dy o4ce!ate says the worl" is en"ing,L + sai".

&e ate the last cr!b of pia. Daybe.L

D=oesn>t it worry yoPL

D+t>s not li%e + can "o anything abot it. +f it>s tre. <hat>s scary is being the last person on earth,L
a!on sai".

Q#eryone else is "ea", an" yo wan"er aron" the rbble an" slowly realie yo>re alone.L

DOo",L + sai". D<hat wol" yo "oPL

DMeep loo%ing for another sr#i#or. 'ry to go cray,L he reache" o#er an" pic%e" a noo"le fro! !y
plate. D<e>re being !orbi" tonight.L

D+ can>t help it,L + sai". Dll this tal% abot war.L

+t starte" to rain, so we got p an" went insi"e. s + close" the "oor to the terrace + thoght + saw
so!ething in the s%yIa !an on a blac% horse, ri"ing throgh the rain.

Do want so!e coHeePL a!on calle" fro! the %itchen.

Des, please,L + sai". y %nees were wobbly, + ha" to sit "own. o>re seeing things, + tol" !yself.
0regnant wo!en "o it all the ti!e, it>s hor!ones or so!ething.

D<hat>s wrongPL sai" a!on.

DEothing,L + sai", an" in the pit of !y sto!ach + felt a little %ic%.