Abigail Joy Estanislao Asuncion 11/19/19

11 - HUMSS 5B

Realizing Reality
Journal Entry # 1

Overdramatic people as we are, we tend to think that we do not know the answer on
something that we obviously know just 00because we can't accept the truth. For crying out loud,
people keep on thinking that they can never be with someone they want to be. Of course they
can, you can, and everyone can be with someone they want to be except for those who are:
crossed the boundaries of life and death, thousands of kilometers away, prominent people,
blocked by the law, busy or under some certain circumstances which makes it impossible for you
both to see each other. We make simple things complicated by adding multiple meanings on
scenarios which makes it awkward or let us think that it is nothing but a dream. Simply because
expectation and reality are like the different side of a same coin.
Drowned by admirations and imagination, we picture being with someone as loving each
other for all eternity accompanied by sweet and happy memories which we've taken for granted.
We expected it to be like that but in reality it can be sharing the same classroom, having same
circle of friends, hanging out, etc. Isn't that considered as being with someone we want? Then, if
you're total strangers to each other why not try to take things slowly starting as friends building
a much better relationship and try not be a creep who tells someone that they love them without
having the basic means of communication. Those are the truth, it is easy to be with someone we
want to be with but at the same time it is hard to align the connection you wanted to have on
someone that you want to be with. Even though the love you give is pure and relentless if they
don't have the same interest as you are, it will be nothing but naught. It hurts so much accepting
the truth but even though how long you've accompanied each other if that person whom is
special to you only sees you as a friend or best friend at most, the love they can probably give if
possible is from pity. We should try to have a relationship (friendship) with our special person
and try to nurture it and let it grow until we realized our expectation and maybe the stars would
align and God answered your prayers then turn it into love.
Universe and destiny got nothing to do with our feelings that had been wasted, it is just
our self-defense to shift the blame on things because reality is cruel. Being with each other is
different from loving each other, if we did not even try then we should not expect much. Rather
than being dramatic for something, why not try to work hard for it and maybe it will be fruitful
until the so-called, "happily ever after".
Allan Michael Bautista 11/19/19
11 – HUMSS 5B

Faulty Quantum Mechanics

Journal Entry # 1

Several years of study, Science is not a stranger for me but you are. A thing has been
bugging me since then, we live in the same planet, we even belong to the same species yet it still
feels amiss. Wasted my time for too long, I've dived myself into the world of discovering the
miniscule entity of atomic up to subatomic particles which is under coverage of "quantum
mechanics". It allows me to wonder the various part of the cosmos, discovering the laws for
wacky behavior of photons, electrons and other particles that built up the universe but when I
try to visualize the picture of it; it is not wacky at all, it's as clear as day that it is you’re not just
my world but the divine embodiment of universe's beauty. Finding it is futile as things were no
better rather than worse as it all still end up in naught.
I knew that there are uncountable numbers of particles surrounding me whether they are
living or not, which I didn't even give an infinitesimal care as a single unit of life that belongs to
you will fill the void in my heart. One thing is with all these amassed knowledge accompanied by
inspirations with the likes of Tony Stark from a fictional movie, whom discovered and build a
machine that can breach the quantum realm and infiltrate the fluctuating reality of time and
space so I can peak on any timeline to see if there is one on which you are mine. Another one is,
scientists mostly synthesized and actualized formulas and theories about electrons, I am not one,
but when I discover you, I can only see protons. Can't I genetically engineered myself to fit the
given criteria set by my brain like: be buff, more handsome, intelligent, funnier or a super
boyfriend material that might deserve your consideration? I'm in a pinch and quite desperate
right now as I am willing to mow the red string of fate so that I can manually connect yours to
mine but a realization rushed into my mind after thinking of Newton's 3rd law of motion, "in
every action, there's always an equal and opposite reaction"; it only proves that the more love I
give, the more pain I will get. Therefore, I can technically and literally be with you but, there's
always a consequence and it is for our hearts to never collide because I'm clearly not your type.
There is no such alibi as parents' hindrance or those cliché stuffs as if, if one wants it; it will always
find a way. And if one never wishes it to happen even though how much effort you spare it
amounts similar to none.
I'm not a masochist to begin with, for me to stand all the pain if it won't be fruitful. This
love may be true, and you, once is the star that ever shines in my heart but now you dim and
explodes into a supernova to remain as a black hole in it. We may be good together but the reality
is we're like a puzzle with sides that never fit.