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hello dear x
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are you too busy to speak?
 


hey dear
I was speaking with vvolunteers
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Wolunteers! Hey!
new breed
 


hahahahha
fo sure
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a bit like the wombles?
how are you?
 


whats that?
Im fine
packing my stuff
Im traveling to Italy tomorrow

:)
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Ah yes
 


so Im all hectic now
what to bring what not to bring
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Ok but i would like to speak with you at some point when you are more free so maybe you can let me
know when a time is good for you
how is your health?
 


well
the diet didnt help
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after all that
 


si
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onion soup too
 


no...
it is smaller than it was
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well htats better
thats
 


but it didnt help
Ill probably go to operation in october
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Ok but will they remove everything?
 


well I dont know yet
Doctor says that there are chances to keep ovarium
I need to put this topic out from the carpet and start to work on it
as soon as I come back from Italy
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Well that must be a bit confusing going back and forther
 


Ill start
you cant imagine...
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Of course just checking for how you are
so Italy
how long for?
 


three weeks
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wow thats some time
are you keeping the volunteers at the deak
deack
deck
 


there are few people
some of my friends and people from org

we are like proper org now :)

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good to hear
Ok well have a good holiday and enjoy seeing the boyfriend
 


I will
and what about you?
how was slovenia croatia?
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Well I came back last tuesday and now I wished that i stayed out much longer
The trip was nice but it rained in Pula and Lubliana
 


shit...
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It was nice to see everyone, i went to see some butterflys
 


you saw gipsies?
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I got to see a little sun the youth hostel was right on the beach
but there was no where to prepare food so i was eating buscuits and chips! Can you believe!
No I dint see the Roma....I would love to but it seemed like I had no time in lublaiana as I was staying
between different places and didnt feel very rested
 


bummer
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I tried to contact Milos and he is completely ignoring me
but maybe we can speak about that when you are more free?
 


I didnt see him for a long time
I think that he is seeing someone
as far as I know he dissapears when he meets someone
but Im not sure
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Thats a shame as I only wanted to say hello as i promised in July as a friend and he just completely
wipes me away
I can understand if he me someone else...if thats what he needed
or wanted
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I just couldnt cope with the pressure of my course and not being able to arrange to visit.
 


donno
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I'm completely lost and thought you might be able to provide some insight
Yo know I'm not the kind of person to be flipent about my feelings
I just thought you'd be a bit more understanding
 


...
hey dear i dont understand
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dont understand what?
 


about the last thing
you write
you wrote
 


last thing you wrote
it considered milos situation???
I didnt understand
...
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I was saying that my contact with Milos wasn't just some silly fling and I have no word or expliantion
from him since i said in Decmber that we should speak in July when I had finished my course and he
would have a better idea of my plans and him his. I just thought as a friend that you might be able to
help explain what happened...but believe me i have been very wary to ask you this as I didnt want to
get you in the middle
 


I know
Its the thing that he is very stiffed man
and I never ask him stuff from private life
everything I know I know because he says them to me
and generaly... i tried to ask couple of times
and he said to me that he was dissapointed when you block him over msn
and facebook or some other stuff im not sure
and thats all I know honey
he was really serious when he was talking about that
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ok i understand but I could cope with seeing him talking to other people and not me
I think I should have explain
I feel so stupid
It was just my way to control...the mess i WAS IN
You know I nearly took a trian to Belgrade Lublinana before leaving so i could speak to him in person
 


:(
but he never ever replies your mails?
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Nothing sent him two email...one on facebook and one to his personal mail and then i text him once on
his mobile when i was in pula to say that It was a shame he wouldnt talk as it would be nice to speak
with him
I feel like such an idiot
 


but dear
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Only when i spoke to Maya and Tina in Slovenia did they explain that it was a really stupid thing and
could have been taken in a bad way
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So there is nothing I can do now?
 


well maybe you can try to send an e mail to explain your attention
of blocking him
maybe he will understand
....
you should be honest
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I dont think he wants to listen
I cant get through to him
I thought to send him a letter and even to meet him in person but I didnt think he would want to see me
and I just didnt want to be a burden to you
 


its not a problem for me
its just Im in the office so people stop each sec oned to ask somethi ng
1:13pmAna is offline.
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Ok well I would really appraciate if I could talk some more just before you go so I can sort this out
once and for all (send as a message)