In my life, I have made irrational decisions.

Some of them were from not thinking

problems. Some were from greed and my desires. Some were from love and lust. Sometimes in
my situations, I prevailed and other times I fall hard on my face. Sigmund Freud’s theory on the
human psyche dissects the reasoning in decision making. The 3 psyches are Id, Ego, and
Super Ego ​all developing at different stages in our lives. The id is the primitive and instinctive
component of personality. It consists of all the inherited components of personality present at
birth, including the sex instinct, and the aggressive (death) instinct. The ego develops to
mediate between the unrealistic id and the external real world. It is the decision-making
component of personality. The ego works by reason, While the id is more chaotic and
instinctive. The super-ego incorporates the values and morals of society which are learned from
one's parents and others. This develops at an early age. Here were times I have negated this
way of thinking and gone against these theories and made bad decisions and the situations had
terrible outcomes.
In this story, this is when the Id ruined a situation for me. Last month I had a team dinner
at my teammate’s house before our big game the next day. After everyone was done eating our
food one of my teammates said that he had a wrestling mat in his basement so we could spar.
For whatever reason, we thought this was a good idea to do the day before an important game.
So after rounds of our teammate’s wrestling, I had gone up against a kid and I was ¾ his weight
so I got ready to lose in a heartbeat. But in an instant, my adrenaline started pumping through
my body it was at this moment the Id part of my psyche kicked in. I had instinctively used
aggression without thinking of it or trying it at all. But after we started I managed to grab him
immediately and about 10 seconds later I chose to lift him up and slam him down on his back.
Not realizing what I had done 5 seconds later I see he’s in pain. After replaying this memory in
my head I realize this is when the Id came into effect and my aggression levels rose without me
even knowing of my subconscious’s intentions to wear I would hurt one of my players so badly
his right arm is still injured today.
In this situation, this is when I disregarded the Ego way of thinking and it got me into
more trouble than I couldn’t handle. Last year on the night of January 29th I was in my room
staying up late for the snow day we had. But then I got a text from my neighbor asking me if I
wanted to sneak out that night. This is when I had 2 options to make. One option was to decline
and say no. The 2nd option was to go out with my friend. This is when the Ego way of thinking
would have helped me but I disregarded the logic and the went outside after knowing that is was
-6 degrees outside and we were going on a walk. So when I went outside I walked passed the
Ring doorbell that is a camera and I realized it right as I passed it and the chose to run instead
of going back inside. I thought that I still wouldn’t get caught. This is when I denied the Egos
way of thinking that would’ve stopped me from making a realistic and logical decision. After I
came back home I got grounded and I still regret leaving that night.
In this situation, this is when I denied the Super Ego. This summer I became friends with
a girl. Not a bad thing right? Well, it was my best friends sister. Now I knew that this would
already cause problems from my friend group because my best friend and I are in a friend group
of 8. So after a week of being more of mutual friends with her, neither of us could sleep one
night so we talked on the phone until 6:00 in the morning. This is when I knew I was going to
jump into boiling water soon because of how everyone would judge me for my actions. But at
4:00 we posted screenshots of from our Facetime call of each other our snapchat. 10 minutes
later I was getting spammed by all my friends saying how I was disgusting, I was gross, I am
disrespectful, and I’m a terrible friend. I still didn’t listen to what they were saying even though I
knew what I was doing was wrong. This is when the Super-Ego would tell me to stop because
society would think I’m wrong for this. But I didn’t listen. Then the next day our friend group went
over to my friend’s house and hung out and I got bored so I went up to his sister’s room. Then
the entire friend group raided her room. To see what we were doing and I knew what I was
doing was wrong and I still decided not to take the Super-Ego route and listen to everyone
else’s ideas. But since I didnt I developed feelings for his sister and now in our friend group, I
live with this stain from now on. Now that I know that I should have taken the Super-Ego route I
regret all of my actions in the past.