“Ahh yes?
A Sudden Glimpse of Circumstance
*Church bell rings*
“The mass has ended, go forth and spread peace”
“Thanks be to God”
“I love the Lord... He is filled with compassion”
As the music plays, as the choir sings, I feel my
passion, serving my Lord through all my life.
I am Jaime Macapili, A fifth-year seminarian. Ever
since I was in my childhood I am in love with
Christ,that I never, ever had a girlfriend since before I
entered the seminary.
“Hail Mary, Full of grace. The Lord is with you,
blessed are you among women and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb Jesus.”
As the novena is going on inside the chapel, the
prayer reminds me of how I am to fulfil my vocation.
The prayers reminds me of who am I, and what I am
now, a seminarian. Before I entered this holy life, I
could also never forget the teachings of my mom,
who was my first catechist. She has taught me to
recite prayers, and every Sunday we go to church to
attend masses. I could never forget what Fr. Rico told
me before: “Jaime, I want you to be a priest
someday” and here I am, few steps to go to fulfil
your word, Father. Reminiscing those things from the
past had realized me that I was out of nowhere.
Suddenly, I didn’t noticed myself that I am walking
away from the church. And then, I saw a tree, a
mango tree. I was so tired walking to spend a minute
to stop there and rest for a moment. As I am enjoying
the bountiful views where I sit, I noticed that
someone is walking from I was sitting.
“Hi.”
The girl smiled. I only thought that I was the only
person who is here. I am having a second thought If I
should response to her. “Hello.” Out of second
thoughts, those words just came out from my mouth.
“I am Corazon, and you are?” the girl asked.
As I see her smile, I feel that there is a light feeling
from the inside. No, this can’t be.
“Jaime.” I just responded. From that day forth Cory
and I became friends. We spend time together at the
mango tree every afternoon talking to each other .
And I saw myself being comfortable with her. And
I’ve realized I am already falling in love with her.
No, this can’t be. I should stop this feeling, I can’t
and I shouldn’t fall in love. “Jaime?” Cory tapped my
back “Hey Jaime?”
“I’m sorry, I
wasn’t listening.
What you have
been telling me.
Hmm?”
“I was just asking
if why are always
wearing that
thing?” she’s asking about the crucifix I wear.
“Oh, It’s just, a symbol of our religion. Catholic.”
“So you’re a Catholic?”
“Yes, How about you?” She just nodded her head. I
was about to talk when she cut it out. “Ahh maybe
you should go then, it’s getting dark.”
“Okay”
Months had passed and this feeling about Cory seems
to grow more, day by day. I never been in love to any
girl before. Maybe, I should confess to her what I
truly feel. Maybe it’s time for me to think of myself
also. What could be the feeling of being loved by a
girl? How does it feel of being in love to the
opposite? Maybe I should give it a try, Maybe I
should follow my heart. I mean, no one is perfect. We
all have flaws. Being in love is not a flaw for me.
But, I am a seminarian. I already committed with
God. I have a responsibility. I lived in my faith to
Him, and I die through Him. But, I could never stop
thinking about her, and I seen myself running to the
mango tree. And there she is, standing, smiling. Her
smile in her angelic face has an impact on me. I feel
that there are butterflies in my stomach but, yah I
know it sounds gay, this is a feeling of being in love.
“Cory, there’s somethin’ you should know”
This is it. I am making my first move towards her.
“Yes Jaime?” she asked. This time I saw her face in a
serious aura. Her eyes and my eyes met. We looked
into each other’s eye. “Why looking so serious
Jaime? HAHA!” she cut off the moment.
“Cory?” I paused. And I held her hand, her soft white
hands.
“Your smile had captivated my heart” gosh, this is so
gay. “What? HAHA!” she replied as she chuckles. “I
am not supposed used to it, love words. But what I
truly felt for you is real. “Cory? Will you be my
girlfriend?”
After that, she agreed and it makes my world bright.
Months had passed our relationship works. But when
the days goes by, I’m struggling between her and my
vocation. I’ve been very busy attending church
duties. Attending worships, doing jail visits, giving
children a missionary catechesis, going hospitals
preaching gospels. I feel a little bit guilty on my
girlfriend and to God at the same time. It’s like I’ve
been boating over two lakes. After our missionary
catechesis with the children, I quickly ran to the say you want to be with me. To have a future with
mango tree, as we planned to meet at three o’clock. me?”

Panting, I quickly approached to her. And there she
is, the woman I love.
“Cory” I spoke up to her. “Jaime, there’s something
you should need to know.” She said it with a sad
tone.
“How did you?...”
“I can read minds, but Jaime I won’t force you, If you
don’t want to stay in my world. I love you very
much. I’ve been watching from afar before. I am with
you, always.

“What is it? “ I asked her. She didn’t response at first. “Cory... Look I love you. But there’s someone that I
But, instead she just hugged me and she cried on my love the most. God, my very first love. I love Him
arms. with all my life, and I can’t live without Him.

“Hey, hey. What is wrong?” I comforted her this “If that’s what you say so. I love you very much
time. “Jaime, (sobs) Do you really love me?” Jaime...” she hugged me for the last time.

That question suddens me for a while. Do I really

love her? Or am I just bragged because of my
curiosity? I was awakened by the fallen leaf that hits my face. I
woke up, and I see myself lying down under the
I looked into her eyes. And she also looked unto mango tree.
mine. Her eyes, just like floating diamonds as a stars
shimmering from above. I don’t know why, I am very “CLANG! CLANG! CLANG!” I heard the church
in love to this girl. I want to make my future with her, bell ringing. It’s already five o’clock and I hurriedly
A future with our kids together, To build a family got up, and headed back to church
with her, that’s all I ever wanted. But what about my
vocation? What about the people who wanted me to
become a priest someday? What about mom? She
would be disappointed to me for sure. But, she
wouldn’t be that mad for sure. I am his son, and I am
just in love, anyway. I can serve God though I am
married. There are many ways to serve Him.

“Uhm, Jaime?” Cory asked, that make me back to

my senses again

“You were sayin?” Cory asked again. “Nothing. I ...

just... I missed you so much hon.” Those were the
words that just came out from my mouth again. I
stare at her with love. There’s something in me that I
urged. I look on to her pretty soft lips, and my lips
and hers met. I kissed her, with full of love.

“Jaime? There’s something I wanted to tell you.” She

said, but this time she looks sad and she is nervous at
the same time. “What is it?” “Would you still love
me the same if I told you this?” she silently sobs

“What is hon? Shh.. I still love you..” I said to her

while comforting her. She hugs me again for a
moment and suddenly the place where we stand
began to glow and she...

I saw a lady, with flowers on her head. She wore a

beautiful white dress... and has wings ? And I see an
opening from the mango tree also. She is Cory. But
why she has wings? Cory was no ordinary. So this
means am I in love with a fairy?

“Jaime, please don’t be scared, and yes. I am no

ordinary. Yes I am a fairy and that’s why I don’t have
a religion and I don’t believe at your god. But as
what have you said and promised to love me even
though you know my real being?” she asked me

“I... I... I...” I don’t know what to say at that time.

Words are in my mind but my mouth can’t speak out.
“Would you come and stay into my world? I can
supply you anything from your needs and wants. You