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Ego-Defense Mechanisms
Victoria Schlie
Ego-Defense Mechanisms
Unfortunately, with a new fall semester comes cold and flu season. No one enjoys
sickness, but I have always hated it with so much passion that sickness not only affects me
physically, but also mentally. I have allergies, sinus infections, and colds often enough that I
should be able to recognize their onset; however, when those symptoms arise, I convince myself
that it is nothing and that I will not get sick. I respond to sickness with denial (Corey, 2017, p.
62). This may seem like something everyone tries to do; no one wants to think they are getting
sick, but my denial continues throughout the sickness and affects my behavior. In observing my
behavior, I see that when I get sick I refuse to believe I am and will push myself to do more tasks
and to work harder (compensation). I tell myself that I will not allow sickness to affect my
routine and tasks because it is not that bad. When I feel it deteriorating me, I refuse to rest
because that would mean admitting that I am sick. I also experience incredible shame and guilt
when I feel sickness wearing me down, as if it is my fault and I should have done better at
preventing it. Thoughts like “you are worthless and weak” and “you are a disappointment”
surface when I am sick. I feel uncomfortable telling anyone I am sick, even if it is visibly
noticeable. I avoid the clinic and medicine at all costs and consistently tell people that I am fine
or that it is just allergies. I see being with people as another task for me to accomplish and prove
I am not sick through, but I avoid anything more than surface conversation because I do not feel
well. This leads to me making plans with people, but then not fully being present or engaged
with them. In analyzing why I revert to denial, my feelings and thoughts seem to match well with
moral anxiety: I subconsciously (and sometimes consciously) feel that I am only of value if I am
living up to the performance perfection I think society demands of me. If I am not performing
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well, I feel I am doing something wrong and experience guilt. I think the coping mechanism of
denial best describes how I react to sickness because I am conscious of my reaction and know
I think from the same root of subconsciously holding myself to unrealistic standards, I
tend to take on too many tasks at once because I feel I am a better person if I can handle more;
the more you achieve, the more society prizes you. Juggling all of my commitments leads to a
buildup of stress and anxiety that usually culminates in a short period of sublimation (Corey,
2017, p. 63). Even if I am completing all of my tasks on time, I will reach a point where I feel
angry, impulsive, energetic and agitated. To cope with these feelings, I usually channel that
energy into dance. I dance more strenuously and for a longer period of time when I am dealing
with anxiety than any other time, sometimes for hours on end. My dancing in these moments is
driven by my need to see perfection when I feel like I am not seeing it elsewhere in my life.
When I am in the dance studio, I can watch my every move in wall-to-wall mirrors, pick apart
every wrong angle or movement, and rehearse again until it is perfect. Until then, and sometimes
not even then, I still feel angry at myself and in general, which drives me to keep dancing.
Seeing myself achieve the correct routine of a dance gives me that sense of accomplishment that
I am not feeling in other areas. I channel my anxiety into dance to both sublimate the energy onto
something else, and also to gain the desired effect that I am not receiving originally. When I am
in this state, which has lasted for up to a week in the past, I am very easily annoyed at people and
seek to be as far away from them as possible. If I am necessarily around others, even friends, I
have a short temper, can be offensive, and think judgmentally. This obviously strains
such as projective tests, simplifying all behavior to underlying, unconscious entities, and
connecting all behavior to early childhood development. However, I think the defense
Reference
Corey, Gerald. (2017). Chapter 4: Psychoanalytic therapy. Theory and practice of counseling