The age of envy: how to be happy when everyone else's life looks perfect

One night about five years ago, just before bed, I saw a tweet from a friend announcing how delighted he
was to have been shortlisted for a journalism award. I felt my stomach lurch and my head spin, my teeth
clench and my chest tighten. I did not sleep until the morning.
Another five years or so before that, when I was at university, I was scrolling through the Facebook photos
of someone on my course whom I vaguely knew. As I clicked on the pictures of her out clubbing with
friends, drunkenly laughing, I felt my mood sink so fast I had to sit back in my chair. I seemed to stop
breathing.
I have thought about why these memories still haunt me from time to time – why they have not been
forgotten along with most other day-to-day interactions I have had on social media – and I think it is
because, in my 32 years, those are the most powerful and painful moments of envy I have experienced. I had
not even entered that journalism competition, and I have never once been clubbing and enjoyed it, but as I
read that tweet and as I scrolled through those photographs, I so desperately wanted what those people had
that it left me as winded as if I had been punched in the stomach.
We live in the age of envy. Career envy, kitchen envy, children envy, food envy, upper arm envy, holiday
envy. You name it, there’s an envy for it. Human beings have always felt what Aristotle defined in the fourth
century BC as pain at the sight of another’s good fortune, stirred by “those who have what we ought to
have” – though it would be another thousand years before it would make it on to Pope Gregory’s list of
the seven deadly sins.
But with the advent of social media, says Ethan Kross, professor of psychology at the University of
Michigan who studies the impact of Facebook on our wellbeing, “envy is being taken to an extreme”. We are
constantly bombarded by “Photoshopped lives”, he says, “and that exerts a toll on us the likes of which we
have never experienced in the history of our species. And it is not particularly pleasant.”
Clinical psychologist Rachel Andrew says she is seeing more and more envy in her consulting room, from
people who “can’t achieve the lifestyle they want but which they see others have”. Our use of platforms
including Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and Snapchat, she says, amplifies this deeply disturbing
psychological discord. “I think what social media has done is make everyone accessible for comparison,”
she explains. “In the past, people might have just envied their neighbours, but now we can compare
ourselves with everyone across the world.” Windy Dryden, one of the UK’s leading practitioners of
cognitive behavioural therapy, calls this “comparisonitis”.
And those comparisons are now much less realistic, Andrew continues: “We all know that images can be
filtered, that people are presenting the very best take on their lives.” We carry our envy amplification device
around in our pockets, we sleep with it next to our pillows, and it tempts us 24 hours a day, the moment we
wake up, even if it is the middle of the night. Andrew has observed among her patients that knowing they are
looking at an edited version of reality, the awareness that #nofilter is a deceitful hashtag, is no defence
against the emotional force of envy. “What I notice is that most of us can intellectualise what we see on
social media platforms – we know that these images and narratives that are presented aren’t real, we can talk
about it and rationalise it – but on an emotional level, it’s still pushing buttons. If those images or narratives
tap into what we aspire to, but what we don’t have, then it becomes very powerful.”
To explore the role that envy plays in our use of social media, Kross and his team designed a study to
consider the relationship between passive Facebook use – “just voyeuristically scrolling,” as he puts it – and
envy and mood from moment to moment. Participants received texts five times a day for two weeks, asking
about their passive Facebook use since the previous message, and how they were feeling in that moment.
The results were striking, he says: “The more you’re on there scrolling away, the more that elicits feelings of
envy, which in turn predicts drops in how good you feel”.
No age group or social class is immune from envy, according to Andrew. In her consulting room she sees
young women, self-conscious about how they look, who begin to follow certain accounts on Instagram to
find hair inspiration or makeup techniques, and end up envying the women they follow and feeling even
worse about themselves. But she also sees the same pattern among older businessmen and women who start
out looking for strategies and tips on Twitter, and then struggle to accept what they find, which is that some
people seem to be more successful than they are. “Equally, it can be friends and family who bring out those
feelings of envy, around looks, lifestyle, careers and parenting – because somebody is always doing it better
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on social media,” she says. How much worse would it have been for Shakespeare’s Iago, who says of
Cassio: “He hath a daily beauty in his life / That makes me ugly,” if he had been following his lieutenant on
Instagram?
While envying other people is damaging enough, “We have something even more pernicious, I think,” the
renowned social psychologist Sherry Turkle tells me. “We look at the lives we have constructed online in
which we only show the best of ourselves, and we feel a fear of missing out in relation to our own lives. We
don’t measure up to the lives we tell others we are living, and we look at the self as though it were an other,
and feel envious of it.” This creates an alienating sense of “self-envy” inside us, she says. “We feel
inauthentic, curiously envious of our own avatars.”
We gaze at our slimming, filtered #OutfitOfTheDay, and we want that body – not the one that feels tired and
achy on the morning commute. We spit out the flavourless “edible” flowers that adorn our bircher muesli –
not much of a #foodgasm in reality. We don’t know what to do with the useless inflatable unicorn when the
Instagram Story has come to an end. While we are busy finding the perfect camera angle, our lives become a
dazzling, flawless carapace, empty inside but for the envy of others and ourselves, in a world where black
cats languish in animal shelters because they are not “selfie-friendly”.
There is a different, even darker definition of the concept of envy. For Patricia Polledri, psychoanalytic
psychotherapist and author of Envy in Everyday Life, the word refers to something quite dangerous, which
can take the form of emotional abuse and violent acts of criminality. “Envy is wanting to destroy what
someone else has. Not just wanting it for yourself, but wanting other people not to have it. It’s a deep-rooted
issue, where you are very, very resentful of another person’s wellbeing – whether that be their looks, their
position or the car they have. It is silent, destructive, underhand – it is pure malice, pure hatred,” she says.
This can make it very difficult for envious people to seek and receive help, because it can feel impossible for
them to take in something valuable from someone else, so strong is the urge to annihilate anything good in
others and in themselves. She believes envy is not innate; that it starts with an experience of early
deprivation, when a mother cannot bond with her baby, and that child’s self-esteem is not nourished through
his or her life.
As a cognitive behavioural therapist, Dryden is less interested in the root causes of envy, focusing instead on
what can be done about it. When it comes to the kind of envy inspired by social media, he says, there are
two factors that make a person more vulnerable: low self-esteem and deprivation intolerance, which
describes the experience of being unable to bear not getting what you want. To overcome this, he says, think
about what you would teach a child. The aim is to develop a philosophy, a way of being in the world, that
allows you to recognise when someone else has something that you want but don’t have, and also to
recognise that you can survive without it, and that not having it does not make you less worthy or less of a
person.
We could also try to change the way we habitually use social media. Kross explains that most of the time,
people use Facebook passively and not actively, idly and lazily reading instead of posting, messaging or
commenting. “That is interesting when you realise it is the passive usage that is presumed to be more
harmful than the active. The links between passive usage and feeling worse are very robust – we have huge
data sets involving tens of thousands of people,” he says. While it is less clear how active usage affects
wellbeing, there does seem to be a small positive link, he explains, between using Facebook to connect with
others and feeling better.
Perhaps, though, each of us also needs to think more carefully when we do use social media actively, about
what we are trying to say and why – and how the curation of our online personas can contribute to this age
of envy in which we live. When I was about to post on Facebook about some good career-related news
recently, my husband asked me why I wanted to do that. I did not feel comfortable answering him, because
the truth is it was out of vanity. Because I wanted the likes, the messages of congratulations, and perhaps, if I
am brutally honest, I wanted others to know that I was doing well. I felt ashamed. There is nothing like an
overly perceptive spouse to prick one’s ego.
It is easy to justify publicising a promotion on Twitter as necessary for work, as a quick way of spreading the
news to colleagues and peers. But as we type the words “Some personal news”, we could pause to ask
ourselves, why are we doing this, really? Friends, family, colleagues – anyone who needs to know will find
out soon enough; with news that is quite personal, do we need to make it so public? Honing your personal
brand on social media may seem good for business, but it does have a price. It all creates an atmosphere

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where showing off – whether unapologetically or deceptively – is not just normalised but expected, and that
is a space where envy can flourish.
I do not think the answer necessarily always lies in being more honest about our lives – it might sometimes
lie in simply shutting up. Of course, raising awareness about previously hushed-up, devastating experiences
of miscarriage or abuse or harassment can have the power to challenge stigma and change society. But
ostensibly authentic posts about mindfulness, or sadness, or no makeup selfies are always designed to
portray their poster in the best light.
For Polledri’s concept of envy at its most noxious, there can be no upside. But as a less extreme emotional
experience, it can serve a function in our lives. Dryden differentiates between unhealthy envy and its healthy
form, which, he says, “can be creative”. Just as hunger tells us we need to eat, the feeling of envy, if we can
listen to it in the right way, could show us what is missing from our lives that really matters to us, Kross
explains. Andrew says: “It is about naming it as an emotion, knowing how it feels, and then not interpreting
it as a positive or a negative, but trying to understand what it is telling you that you want. If that is
achievable, you could take proper steps towards achieving it. But at the same time, ask yourself, what would
be good enough?”
When I reflect on those two moments of piercing envy that I cannot forget, I can see – once I have waded
through the shame and embarrassment (so much for keeping the personal personal) – that they coincided
with acute periods of unhappiness and insecurity. I was struggling to establish myself as a freelance writer
and, before that, struggling to establish a social life after leaving home for university in a new city. Both of
these things have improved as time has passed, but I do still feel unpleasant pangs of envy every now and
then, whether I’m on social media or off it, and I see it among my friends and family. Perhaps in part it is
because we do not know how to answer the question: “What would be good enough?” That is something I
am still working on.