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Then, I was okay again, until I hit the age of 17. I became very depressed and lived in two worlds: one was
dark, black, shallow, empty and very sad. The other was beautiful, happy, ecstatic, and ethereal. I lost touch
with reality and thought that I was in love with everything and that everybody was so good and even
godlike. I started hearing voices and thought that I really did live on a different planet where I exuded love,
and everything around me was evil. The plants outside had withered, turned black, and died. In addition, a
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sickly stench emitted from them. Animals turned into ravenous beasts. Even a friendly cat down the road
terrified me. Then, gradually, I was okay again until I hit the age of 21 and was admitted into a psychiatric
hospital where I was diagnosed as having Schizophrenia and Major Depression. However, my psychoses, in
general, seemed less extreme. Three years later, my symptoms were lifting and I could be moved into a
small counsel flat. As many people in my situation realize, it is difficult to take medication regularly. I
sometimes felt that I was healed, but the fruitage of the situation often testified otherwise, resulting in a
number of varied suicide attempts and psychosis. Happily though, I met a very understanding man who also
suffered from Depression. In quite a short period of time we found ourselves to be mutually supportive.
Things appeared difficult for us, but we knew more underneath and we have now been happily married for
two years. I hope in some way that perhaps this will help someone in whatever way it can, even if it is just
knowing that someone is there. It is good to write about it!
And now just this year in April my second son was hospitalized for 5 days. He said he heard voices in his
head. I told the doctor that something was seriously wrong with him and he said I was over reacting. My
second son only had A.D.H.D., not to worry. A few months later my son set the house on fire. Everything
was destroyed. Then he shoplifted at a country fair store and said he wished he were dead. I called the doctor
and the doctor says still he sees no grounds for admitting my son nor would he see him! I took him to the
emergency room where they evaluated him and admitted him into the mental health ward. They are not for
sure what he has but they did say he had a high level of anxiety and depression, that he was having trouble
telling the difference between fantasy and reality. It's been six months and now I'm on depression medicine
and Valium. It seems like it never ends. I tell myself live one day at a time but it's hard especially with the
family like I got.
Hallucinations
Reba, mother of Eric:
Eric, who is now 30 years old, has been caught up in a web of hallucinations and delusions for at least ten
years. There were times when he would look at me with distant bewilderment and scream, "Leave me
alone--you're not my mother!" At different times, Eric was obsessed with religion and the occult. His
paranoia affects every aspect of his life. There was one incident where he demanded an ax to chop his head
off and stop "it" in his head. The voices were just too much for him to cope with. At this point, admittance to
a hospital was required against his will. When Eric continues to take his medicine, the voices subside and his
thought processes improve. However, his condition will always remain "guarded" as he refuses medication
periodically, then he loses all perspective and gets rescued from the streets for bizarre behavior. I am
thankful that he has not been arrested and placed in jail for he is not a criminal. He is a very kind, tender
hearted, extremely sensitive person.
Now that I am on medication, I don't see things, but sometimes when I am trying to fall asleep, I hear
whistling or sound effects. I also sometimes hear people's voices, but only once was it distinct enough for me
to tell what they were saying. I think it was a woman's voice and she said, "Speak up."
D: [Dec. 2, 2000]
I have just recently come out of hospital, recovering from a psychotic episode. I heard voices that I knew and
was thoroughly convinced were coming from Satan himself. Also, there was another voice berating me all
the time, calling me "stupid" and an "idiot", etc. I also saw things like vibrant colours and blood running
down the walls. All this was very terrifying and upsetting but was brought under control by the drugs. I also
thought I was evil and that Satan had possessed my body and my mind and made me act in strange and
unusual ways that I later regretted. I nearly tried to stab my husband. He has been wonderfully supportive
and understanding though, and realized I was a separate person than my illness.
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Delusions
Rachel: [Sept. 15, 1999]
My first delusion, that I developed early on, was that I had an alien inside of me. Something that had got into
every part of me including my bloodstream. I believed this for years. I used to cut myself to try and get rid of
part of it. No matter what my doctor said when I was finally diagnosed would convince me otherwise. I also
got very paranoid, thinking that people were following me and that I was part of a government program
because of the alien. That they were watching me all the time. I even thought that the staff in hospital were
part of the scheme at some points of my illness.
Thought Disorder
Altered Sense of Self
Andy: [Apr. 26, 2000]
My altered sense of self started very early in my illness. My hands looked smaller than they used to and this
worried me terribly. My left arm seemed to belong to something else and kept moving around when I didn't
want it to. It reached up my right sleeve and grabbed my right arm all the time.
Rachel:
I first started getting anxious at university. Large crowds of people, buses, shops and other such things all
got too much for me and used to send me into a panic attack. I'd also get anxious at home, for no real reason.
That was the hardest to deal with because I'd constantly be running from my own anxiety, needing people to
be with and not giving myself any space.
I use music now to deal with these symptoms. I've written lots of self- absorbed disturbing stuff that comes
straight from the heart.
Social Withdrawal
Reba, mother of Eric:
Symptoms of withdrawal and isolation have plagued Eric for years prior to the full-blown onset of
schizophrenia. In his pre-teen years, Eric "walked on eggshells" actually on his tip-toes. He excelled in Boy
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Scouts but he was unable to cultivate the friendships he so desired. At the time, I assumed he suffered
from depression. We, as parents, need to address issues that appear to be abnormal. There were several "red
flags" that I ignored thinking that the problem would correct itself and things would be fine. Eric has a
couple of close friends, but genuinely trusts no one.
Rachel:
While I was at university and things became more serious, I would spent most of my time alone in my room
thinking of what people were saying about me, afraid to go outside and too unmotivated to do anything else.
I found social situations really anxiety provoking. When I did go out, I spent days afterwards feeling
paranoid about what I'd said wrong and what others thought about my behaviour. I just didn't seem to fit in.
This was at odds with my previous behaviour and thinking, as I was a really social person through school.
Now I'm recovering from my illness, I'm once again going out and seeing people.
[Jan 4, 2000]
I find the toughest thing with dealing with school is that, because of my medication, I am heavier than I was
before. And kids don't accept that! I have Social Phobia which makes it ten times worse. I am afraid of being
criticized by people unless I know I am accepted.
Rachel:
I was apathetic about everything and everyone. At my worst nothing could get me going.
Lindsay:
I have memories of my mother and me at home and her begging and pleading for me to help her clean the
house and I just wouldn't answer so she thought I was playing around. Pretty soon after that, though, like ten
minutes later, she would start yelling at me that I was just lazy and fat for shock value (even though I
weighed 130 lbs at 5'9") and that I wouldn't help her if my life depended on it. I just shrugged off her yelling
and fell back asleep. I felt like doing nothing! I don't even like to get up to take baths, I'd rather sleep the
whole day!!! I have a busy schedule though because I am trying to "get with the program" as friends call it.
Another thing is I am so apathetic that I am always asked if I am stoned! They think I'm on drugs, like weed
or something!
Regression
Reba, mother of Eric:
When Eric was first diagnosed at age 27, he was actually rescued off the streets and taken to hospital. He
was treated for several weeks then flown home. When I arrived at the airport to pick him up, I had not seen
him in seven years. I did not recognize him. His personal appearance had deteriorated to a point beyond
recognition. This could not be my son, I thought. But his voice sounded the same and I knew it was him. His
behavior was so childish and bizarre that it broke my heart to see him in this condition. He would act like a
toddler begging for a cigarette. It took weeks before he would sit at the table and eat dinner with his family.
He would stand with his back to us and eat his meal with his fingers. Several times Eric has experienced
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regression and it is very difficult to watch. Patience is a virtue and consistent, repeated effort in a kind
but firm voice must be practiced when dealing with periods of regression. It is certainly not appropriate at
any time to laugh, degrade, or scold in anger for regression is a part of this disorder.
Guilt
Laura: [Oct. 19, 2000]
I have a lot of guilt about my son. I felt that there might have been something that I could have done to
prevent him from having this terrible disease. I wish that I could make it all go away. That's what mothers
are supposed to be able to do. But I couldn't. I had no control over any of this. I felt useless. I blamed myself
the most because mental illness runs in my family and I had a baby anyways. I never thought that he would
go through all of this. To this day, I still feel guilty, wondering if I could have done something different and
it wouldn't have turned out this way. It's hard enough to watch an adult go through this than to have to watch
a child and not being able to help him.
Diagnosing Schizophrenia
What was your psychological response to the first diagnosis of schizophrenia?
Confidentiality
What do you feel about your loved ones contacting the psychiatrist without your
permission?
What to Do in a Crisis
Reba, mother of Eric:
During a crisis, a calm, firm, reassuring voice is necessary so as not to upset the patient further. During a
psychotic episode, sometimes it is necessary to call an ambulance if the patient is trying to hurt himself or
starts destroying personal property. My son has intermittent rage attacks, which can be frightening to family
members and to himself. It is very important not to threaten or upset the patient by screaming or yelling.
Paramedics who are knowledgeable will be reassuring and most usually can handle the situation
professionally.
Chapter 7. Hospitalization
Hospitalization
Reba, mother of Eric:
The first time my son was hospitalized I was actually relieved. Now we could get a diagnosis and he could
begin a treatment plan and medication to help with his psychotic behavior. Since his hospital stay could not
last more than several weeks, he was flown back to his home with a hospital escort. His psychiatrist called
long distance every few days to advise Eric's condition and prognosis. I am very thankful to the excellent
hospital staff who gave us some answers to our questions which were accurate. A patient must feel
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comfortable with his doctor and medical team. Too often, the patient is not listened to honestly and
sincerely because of his illness.
Chapter 8. Treatment
Medication
Reba, mother of Eric:
Trying to find the most appropriate medication with few side effects has been a real problem to my son.
Sometimes he feels like the doctors do not take his side effects seriously.
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Lindsay:
I have been on Zyprexa for a year and a half. It took a while to find the right medication. It has helped a lot
with the paranoia, and my speech is coherent, at least online, but in real life you can tell that I was
hebephrenic. The symptoms still linger and Zyprexa is a very good medication although I don't like the
weight gain it brought on me.
ECT
What was your experience with Electroconvulsive Therapy?
Drug Holiday
Have you ever had a drug holiday, a period when you are off drugs, and if so, what
was the outcome?
Ron:
After I went off my anti-psychotic medications a couple of times and got sick, my psychiatrist took away my
driver's licence. Talk about motivation. I was furious at him but I had no choice and went back on my anti-
psychotics. When I was healthy again he reinstated my driver's licence. This method worked far better for
me than the fear of hospitalization. Today I'm still on my meds and am a happy motorist.
Family Support
Reba, mother of Eric:
Each time I looked for help in my state, I went down a dead-end street. I felt a great deal of frustration when
I realized that my son would receive the medical attention and housing needs from another state. The
distance makes it difficult for me to participate actively in his day program or in group counselling sessions
which would be helpful to him. Financial burdens are overwhelming because I am constantly sending him
things he personally needs. Our phone bills are astronomical but I feel it is important to keep in touch on a
weekly basis and offer my support by phone. The only support I receive is from my son's social workers and
medical team.
Public awareness needs to be raised for victims of mental illness as well as families of those who suffer. This
illness not only affects the patient, but also the family. In addition to the exhaustion one can experience
trying to help our loved one, we also have to find the strength to fight social stigmatism and uneducated,
narrow-minded attitudes. The most informative information I have reviewed has come from this website, for
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which I am very grateful. Reading each person's experience has helped me greatly and to each person,
I am thankful for their contribution.