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“Fuck Me Harder” and other things I wish I didn’t feel the urge to say:
Linaya Bertschi
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Dr. Shumka
class, I can stare at my body in a dressing room mirror and accept and love what I see
there, and I refuse to let slut-shaming affect my self-worth. I have worked hard to
unlearn a lot of the patriarchal qualifies of worth that I grew up absorbing, and up until
recently I assumed that carried over effortlessly into my sex life. Don’t get me wrong, I
have absorbed as much anti-porn and pro-porn rhetoric as any other Gender Studies
major out there, but until certain aspects of this class it hadn’t quite clicked in my mind
I personally wasn’t sure where I stood on the porn industry before this class. It is
no secret that many of the female workers are being coerced, assaulted, and injured and
that very few regulations are in place to ensure safe working conditions. There are porn
sites out there that host videos of underage pornography, filmed assaults, and revenge
porn, all of which are illegal and many of which are never able to be fully purged from
the internet. The book Anticlimax by Sheila Jeffreys discusses how seeing these violent
images of women as “available holes” (Jeffreys 2011) hasn’t been truly accounted for
when discussing the common discourse of sex and sexuality. She draws the connections
between violent pornography and abuse in stark, unequivocal terms that I hadn’t
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fantasies shows itself in the types of sexually based crimes that are committed.
And if men are being taught to take pleasure in enacting these violent scenarios it
also makes sense that women would internalize the images of receiving pleasure
through violence and feel obligated to find their own pleasure in experiencing the
violence. In the same way that the androcentric model remained the penultimate
theorized by Freud (Maines, 1999) the sexual revolution has conflated the idea of sex-
positivity with a constantly ready, sexually submissive woman who is ‘cool’ with any
experience another debacle like the Barnard conference, and this is the line between
abuse and safe, sane, and consensual BDSM sex, and assault. Any type of sexual
fantasy, even the most vanilla, can become a basis for abuse and it is too easy to other
the kink community and call them ‘anti-feminist’ for experimenting with and
expressing power roles so explicitly (Rubin, 2011). There are many projects, such as
Erika Lust’s XConfessions, that are working to use pornography as “a tool to continue
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the sexual liberation of women” (B. 2014), by centring the fantasies and desires of
women in the films and ensuring all members involved in the production are treated
like humans, not holes. I believe that this sort of pornographic utopia is possible, but it
constitutes ‘healthy’ or ‘good’ sex. Including BDSM or other kinks and removing
It is because of this focus on feeling not showing that I found Dodson’s work so
from this type of sexual attitude and places the focus on eroticism and self love. She
very clearly denounces the idea of faking orgasms to please a partner and places
pleasure at a position of power. Women should seek to get to know their bodies,
develop a connection with themselves, and advocate for their own pleasure. Although
Dodson emphasizes the importance of sensuality, she obviously understands how using
vibrators can enhance a sexual experience and I don’t see how that differs in concept
from other methods of sexual experimentation, such as certain BDSM scenarios or tools.
As I mentioned at the top of this paper, my confidence has always been an asset to me,
but it is time for me to relax the death grip I have maintained on my image as a sexually
confident woman and take time to listen to my self and focus on owning my own
pleasure.
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References
B. S. (2014). On Making Independent Porn For Women: And Interview With Erika Lust.
Retrieved October 01, 2017, from
http://feministing.com/2014/12/05/on-making-independent-porn-for-women-
an-interview-with-director-erika-lust/
Dodson, B., Williams, D., & Dodson, B. (1983). Selflove & Orgasm. New York: Betty
Dodson
Maines, R., 1950, ACLS Humanities Ebook Collection, & American Council of Learned
Societies. (1999). The Technology of Orgasm: "Hysteria," the vibrator, and women's
sexual satisfaction. (Johns Hopkins Paperbacks ed.). Baltimore, Md: Johns Hopkins
University Press.
Rubin, G. (2011). Blood under the bridge: Reflections on. GLQ: A Journal of Lesbian and
Gay Studies, 17(1), 15-48.