PART ONE of the King of the Jews i.
I heard You
THE EARLY DAYS
THE FIRST MEETING
(Very early in His public life,
Jesus is approached by Judas for the
first time. Jesus asks him:)
Why are you looking for Me?
To follow You, if You will allow us,
because You have words of truth.
Follow Me? But do you know
where I am going?
No, Master, but certainly to glory.
Yes. But not to a glory of this world
. I am going to a glory which is in
Heaven and is conquered by virtue and
sacrifice. Why do you want to follow
Me? He asks them again.
To take part in Your glory.
According to Heaven?
Yes, according to Heaven.
Not everybody is able to arrive
there. Because Mammon lays more
snares for those yearning for Heaven
than for the others. And only he who has
strong will power can resist. Why follow
Me, if to follow Me implies a continuous
struggle against the enemy, which is in
us, against the hostile world, and
against the Enemy who is Satan?
Because that is the desire of our
souls, which have been conquered by
You. You are holy and powerful. We
want to be Your friends.
Friends!!! Jesus is silent and
sighs. Then He stares at the one who
has spoken all the time and who has
now removed the mantle-hood from his
head, and is bareheaded. He is Judas
of Kerioth. Who are you? You speak
better than a man of the people.
I am Judas, the son of Simon. I
come from Kerioth. But I am of the
Temple. I am waiting for and dreaming
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speak like a king. I saw Your kingly
gestures. Take me with You.
Take you? Now? At once? No.
Why not, Master?
Because it is better to examine
ourselves carefully before venturing on
very steep roads.
Do You not believe I am sincere?
You have said it. I believe in your
impulsiveness. But I do not believe in
your perseverance. Think about it,
Judas. I am going away now and I will
be back for Pentecost. If you are in the
Temple, you will see Me. Examine
yourself
(Poem Vol. 1, pp. 291-2; Gospel Vol. 1, pp. 346-7)
A SECOND ENCOUNTER
(Some weeks later, Judas
approaches Jesus, and says:)
I greet You, Master. I am Judas of
Kerioth. Do You not recognise me? Do
You not remember?
I remember and recognise you.
You spoke to Me here with Thomas, last
Passover.
And You said to me: "Think about
it and make up your mind before I come
back". I have made up my mind. I will
come.
Why are you coming, Judas?
Jesus is really sad.
Because The last time I told You
why. Because I dream of the Kingdom
of Israel and I see You as a king.
Is that why you are coming?
Yes, it is. I will put myself and
everything I possess: capability,
acquaintances, friends, fatigue at Your
service and at the service of Your
mission to rebuild Israel.
 The two are now close, in front of
each other, standing, and they stare at
each other. Jesus is grave and
melancholy. Judas exalted by his
dream, is smiling, handsome and
young, sprightly and ambitious.
I did not look for you, Judas.
I know. But I looked for You. For
days and days I have been putting
people at the gates to warn me of Your
arrival. I thought You would be coming
with some followers and that it would
therefore be easy to notice You.
Instead I understood that You had
been here, because a group of pilgrims
was blessing You as You had cured a
sick man. But no one could tell me
where You were. Then I remembered
this place. And I have come
Why? Why did you look for Me?
But I have told You, Master! Did
You not understand?
I did understand you. Yes, I did.
But I want you also to understand Me
before you follow Me. Come. We will
talk while walking. And they start
walking, one beside the other, up and
down the paths that cross one another
in the olive-grove. You want to follow
Me for a human reason, Judas. But I
must dissuade you. I have not come for
that.
But are You not the designated
King of the Jewsii? The one of whom the
Prophets spoke? Others have come.
But they lacked too many things and
they fell like leaves no longer supported
by the wind. But You have God with
You, in fact You work miracles. Where
there is God, the success of the mission
is guaranteed.
You have spoken the truth. I have
God with Me. I am His Word. I was
prophesied by the Prophets, promised
to the Patriarchs, expected by the
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people [But] My Kingdom is not of this
world, Judas. Allow yourself to be
convinced of that. I have come to Israel
to bring Light and Glory. But not the light
and glory of the earth. I have come to
call the just of Israel to the Kingdom.
Because it is from Israel that the plant of
eternal life is to come
My first followers will be from Israel.
My first confessors will be from Israel.
But also My persecutors will be from
Israel. Also My executioners will be from
Israel. And also My traitor will be from
Israel
No, Master. That will never
happen. If everyone should betray You,
I will remain with You and defend You.
You, Judas? And on what do you
base your certainty?
On my honour as a man.
Which is more fragile than a
cobweb, Judas. It is God we have to ask
for the strength to be honest and faithful.
Man! Man accomplishes human
deeds. To accomplish spiritual deeds -
and to follow the Messiah with
truthfulness and justice is to accomplish
a spiritual deed - it is necessary to kill
man and make him be born again. Are
you capable of so much?
Yes, Master. And in any case
Not everybody in Israel will love You.
But Israel will not give the Messiah
executioners and traitors. Israel has
been waiting for You for centuries!
I will be given them. Remember
the Prophets Their words and their
end. I am destined to disappoint many.
And you are one of them. Judas, you
have here in front of you a mild, peaceful
poor man, who wishes to remain poor. I
have not come to impose Myself and
make war. I am not going to contend
with the strong and mighty ones for any
kingdom or any power. I contend only
with Satan for souls, and I have come to
break the chains of Satan with the fire of
My love. I have come to teach mercy,
sacrifice, humility, continence. I say to
you and to everybody: "Do not crave for
human wealth, but work for eternal
coins". You are deceiving yourself if you
think I am to triumph over Rome and the
ruling classes. Herods and Caesars can
sleep tranquilly, while I speak to the
crowds. I have not come to snatch
anybody's sceptre and My eternal
sceptre is already ready, but no one,
unless one was love as I am, would like
to hold it. Go, Judas, and ponder
Are You rejecting me, Master?
I reject nobody, because who
rejects does not love Consider this
carefully, Judas, little will be debited to
him who is a murderer, but believes he
is doing justice, and he believes it
because he does not know the Truth;
but a great deal will be debited to him,
who knowing the Truth, not only does
not follow it, but becomes its enemy.
I will not do that. Take me, Master.
You cannot refuse me. If You are the
Saviour and You see that I am a sinner,
a sheep astray, a blind man off the right
path, why do You refuse to save me?
Take me. I will follow You, even to
death
To death! That is true. Then
Then, Master?
The future is in God's bosom. Go.
We will meet tomorrow at the Fish
Gate.
Thank You, Master. The Lord be
with You.
And may His mercy save you.
And it all finishes.
(Poem Vol. 1, p. 343-6; Gospel Vol. 1, pp. 409-12)
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A LESSON ABOUT DESPAIR
(A short time later, and alone with
Judas, Jesus says:)
Whoever wishes to live for the
spirit, and lead others to live the same
life, must disregard the flesh, nay, I
would say: kill it, to devote all his
attention to the spirit
What must I leave, Master?
Everything you know that upsets
you. Because God is peace and if you
want to follow the path of God, you must
clear your mind, your heart and your
flesh of everything that is not peace
producing and causes perturbation. I
know it is difficult to amend one's way of
living. But I am here to help you
Both our own and other people's
lives are the gift of God and only God
Who gives life, has the authority to take
it. Who kills himself, confesses his own
pride, and pride is hated by God.
He confesses his pride? I would
say his despair.
And what is despair but pride? Just
think, Judas. Why does one despair?
Either because misfortunes persistently
perturb him and he wants to overcome
them by himself, but is unable to do so.
Or because he is guilty and he thinks
that he cannot be forgiven by God. In
both cases, is not pride the basic
reason? The man who wants to do all by
himself, is no longer humble enough to
stretch out his hand to the Father and
say to Him: "I am not able, but You are.
Help me, because I hope and wait for
everything from You". The other man
who says: "God cannot forgive me" says
so, because measuring God by his own
standards, he knows that another
person could not forgive him, if that
person had been offended, as he
offended God. So here again it is pride.
A humble man understands and
forgives, even if he suffers for the
offence received. A proud man does not
forgive. He is proud also because he is
not capable of lowering his head and
saying: "Father, I have sinned, forgive
Your poor guilty son". But do you not
know, Judas, that the Father will forgive
everything, if one asks to be forgiven
with a sincere, contrite, humble, heart
willing to rise again to new life?
But certain crimes are not to be
forgiven. They cannot be forgiven.
That is what you say. And it will be
true only because man wants it to be
true. Oh! I solemnly say even after the
crime of crimes, if the guilty man should
rush to the Father's feet - He is called
Father, Judas, just for that, and He is a
Father of infinite perfection - and crying,
implored Him to be forgiven, offering to
expiate, without despairing, the Father
would make it possible for him to
expiate and thus deserve forgiveness
and save his soul
Whoever dies in despair will no
longer be forgiven. Neither in the instant
of the personal judgement, nor after
centuries of Gehenna, on Doomsday,
never! Is that hardness on God's side?
No: it is justice. God will say: "You, a
creature gifted with reason and
supernatural knowledge, created free
by Me, you decided to follow the path
you chose and you said: 'God will not
forgive me. I am separated from Him for
ever. I think I must apply the law by
myself to my own crime. I am parting
from life to evade remorse' without
considering that you would no longer
have felt remorse if you had come on My
faithful bosom. Let it be done to you, as
you judged. I will not do violence to the
freedom I gave you".
That is what the Eternal Father will
say to the suicide. Meditate on it, Judas.
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Life is a gift, a gift to be loved. But what
gift is it? A holy gift. So love it holily. Life
lasts as long as the flesh holds out.
Then the great Life, the eternal Life
begins. A Life of blissful happiness for
the just, of malediction for the unjust. Is
life a purpose or a means? It is a means.
It serves for a purpose which is eternity.
Then let us give life what is required to
make it last and serve the spirit in its
conquest. Continence of the flesh in all
its lusts, in all of them. Continence of the
mind in all its desires, in all of them.
Continence of the heart in all human
passions. Infinite instead is to be the
ardour for heavenly passions: love of
God and the neighbour, obedience to
the divine word, heroism in good and
virtue.
I have given you the answer, Judas.
Are you convinced? Is the explanation
sufficient? Be always sincere, and ask
when you do not yet know enough: I am
here to be your Master.
I have understood and it is
sufficient. But it is very difficult to do
what I have understood. You can
because You are holy. But I am a
man, young and full of life
I have come for men, Judas. Not
for the angels
(Poem Vol. 1, p. 355-7; Gospel Vol. 1, pp. 423-6)
JUDAS IS THE CANVAS
(The other disciples are not very
happy with Judas attitude and his
lies, and ask Jesus to send him away.
But Jesus tells them:)
Peter is destined for a part, and
Judas is the canvas on which he must
weave his part, or, if you prefer so,
Judas is the school where Peter will
learn more than with anyone else. Also
idiots are capable of being good, with
John and understanding souls like
John's. But it is difficult to be good with
people like Judas, and to understand
souls like Judas' and to be a doctor and
priest for them. Judas is your living
teaching
(Poem Vol. 1, p. 447; Gospel Vol. 2, p. 45)
AN UNWITTING PROPHESY
(Judas is extolling Jesus
qualities to Him)
We know You as Man and
Master. We listen to You and see Your
works. Your contact, Your breath, Your
kiss: they are our continuous
consecration and our continuous
purification. Only a satan could deny
You after being Your close
companion.
It is true, Judas. But there will be
one.
Woe to him! I will be his
executioner.
No. Leave justice to the Father. Be
his redeemer. The redeemer of this soul
that is inclined towards Satan
(Poem Vol. 1, p. 466; Gospel Vol. 2, p. 68)
MARYS CONCERNS OF JUDAS
(Mary and Jesus are discussing
the qualities of the different apostles.
Mary says:)
I think that they love You and that
You will get much out of them But the
man from Kerioth I do not like him,
Son. His eye is not crystal-clear and his
heart even less so. He frightens Me.
He is full of respect for You.
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Too much respect. He is full of
respect also for You. But not for you, the
Master; for You the future Kingiii, from
Whom he hopes to receive wealth and
glory. He was a nobody, just a little more
than the others at Kerioth. He hopes to
play an important role at Your side
and Oh! Jesus! I do not want to be
uncharitable, but I think, even if I do not
want to believe it, that in case You
should disappoint him, he will not
hesitate to take Your place, or
endeavour to do so. He is ambitious,
greedy and vicious. He is more suitable
to be the courtier of a worldly king, than
Your apostle, My Son. He frightens
Me! And the Mother looks at Jesus
with two eyes full of dismay in Her pale
face.
Jesus sighs. He ponders. He looks
at His Mother. He smiles to encourage
Her. Also that is needed, Mother. If it
were not he, it would be someone else.
My College must represent the world,
and in the world they are not all angels,
neither are they all of the same
character as Peter and Andrew. If I
chose everything perfect, how could the
poor diseased souls dare hope to
become My disciples? I have come to
save what is lost, Mother. John is saved
as he is. But how many are not!
I am not afraid of Levi (Matthew).
He redeemed himself because he
wanted to. He forsook his sin and his
customs desk and acquired a new soul
to come with You. But Judas of Kerioth
did not. On the contrary, pride is
becoming more and more the master of
his ugly old soul. But You already know
that, Son. Why do You ask Me? I can
but pray and cry for You. You are the
Master. Also of Your poor Mother.
(Poem Vol. 1, pp. 540-1; Gospel Vol. 2, p. 158)

A TRAITOR WAS NECESSARY
(Jesus says to Maria Valtorta:)
My eyes had seen into the heart
of Judas Iscariot. No one must think that
the Wisdom of God has not been able to
understand that heart. But, as I told My
Mother, he was necessary. Woe to him
for being the traitor! But a traitor was
necessary. Deceitful, shrewd, greedy,
lustful, dishonest, more intelligent and
cultured than the masses, he had been
able to impose himself on everybody.
Daring as he was, he smoothed the way
for Me, also when the way was a difficult
one. He was above all fond of standing
out and showing his position of trust
near Me. He was not obliging out of
instinctive charity, but only because he
was one of those whom you would call
a "hustler". That enabled him also to
look after the purse and approach
women. Two things which he loved
without restraint, together with a third
one: position amongst men
(Poem Vol. 1, p. 567; Gospel Vol. 2, p. 191)
FIRST THE BAPTIST
THEN JESUS?
(John arrives to tell Jesus and the
other apostles that John the Baptist
has been captured and imprisoned
by King Herod)
Do not worry! Nothing will happen
to Me for the time being.
But later? What will happen later?
I look at myself, at these I am afraid of
everybody, also of myself. Will one of us
be Your traitor?
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Are you mad? And do you think
that we would not tear him to pieces?
shouts Peter.
And the Iscariot: Oh! You really are
mad! It will never be I! But if I should feel
so weak as to eventually become so, I
would kill myself. Better than be the
murderer of God.
Jesus frees Himself from John's grip,
shakes Judas violently saying: Do not
swear! Nothing can make you weak,
unless you want! And if that should
happen, make sure you weep for it, and
do not commit another crime in addition
to deicide. He becomes weak, who cuts
off his vital link with God.
(Poem Vol. 2, p. 207; Gospel Vol. 3, p. 175)
JUDAS CURIOSITY
FOR THE OCCULT
(Jesus and His apostles are
travelling near Endor, near where
Saul, the predecessor of King David,
had gone to consult a mediumiv.
Judas expresses great interest in
visiting this place, and Jesus asks
him:)
Why did you want to come? You
must admit it was not out of mere
curiosity of a scholar.
We always hear someone talk of
magicians, necromancers, evoked
spirits I wanted to see whether I could
discover anything I would like to know
how it is done I think that since we are
destined to amaze people in order to
attract them, we should be, somehow,
necromancers, too. You are You and
You do things by means of Your power.
But we must ask for power, for help in
order to perform exceptional deeds,
which are necessary
Are you mad? What are you
saying? shout many.
Be quiet. Let him speak. He is not
mad.
Yes, I thought that by coming here
a little of the magic of gone by days
would assume possession of me and
make me greater. In Your interest,
believe me.
I know that your present desire is a
sincere one. But I will reply to you with
eternal words, because they are words
of the Bible, and the Bible will exist as
long as man exists. Believed or mocked
at, employed to defend the truth or
scorned at, it will always exist. It is
written: "And Eve, seeing that the fruit of
the tree was good to eat and pleasing to
the eye, took it and ate it and gave some
to her husband Then their eyes were
opened and they realised that they were
naked and they made themselves loin-
cloths And God said: 'How did you
realise that you were naked? Only
because you ate of the forbidden fruit'.
And He expelled them from the garden
of delights"v. And in the book of Saul, it
is written: "Samuel appearing said: 'Why
have you disturbed me, conjuring me
up? Why do you consult me when the
Lord has abandoned you? The Lord will
deal with you as I told you because
you did not obey the voice of the Lord'
"vi. Son, do not stretch your hand
towards the forbidden fruit. It is
imprudent even to go near it. Do not be
curious to know ultramundane things,
lest its satanic poison should conquer
you. Avoid the occult and what cannot
be explained. One thing only is to be
accepted with holy faith: God. But avoid
what is not God and what cannot be
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explained by man's reason or cannot be
done by man's power, so that the
sources of wickedness may not be
opened for you and you may realise that
you are "naked". Naked: repellent in
your humanity mixed with satanism.
Why do you wish to amaze people by
means of obscure prodigies? Amaze
them through your holiness, which
should be as bright as things coming
from God. Do not be anxious to rend the
veils which separate the living from the
dead. Do not disturb the deceased.
Listen to them, if they are wise, while
they are on the earth, venerate them by
obeying them also after their death. But
do not upset their second life. Who does
not obey the voice of the Lord, loses the
Lord. And the Lord has forbidden
occultism, necromancy, satanism in all
its formsvii. What more do you wish to
know than the Word already tells you?
What more do you wish to perform than
your goodness and My power enable
you to perform? Do not crave for sin, but
for holiness, son. Do not feel mortified. I
am glad that you disclose your
humanity My dear Judas. Put wings
as bright as the sun, wings of an angel
on your spirit. By the simple breeze
caused by flapping them you will attract
hearts and will lead them in your wake
to God. Can we go?
Yes, Master! I was wrong
No. You have been an inquirer
The world will always be full of them
(Poem Vol. 2, pp. 247-9; Gospel Vol. 3, pp. 224-6)
A TOUCH OF THE UNDERWORLD
(A short time later, the apostle
Andrew remarks about a change that
has come about in Judas. He asks
Jesus:)
 What is the matter with Judas of
Simon, Master? We do not understand
him any more He seemed so
changed, but now, since we left the
lake
Peter retorts: Be quiet, brother. I
have the key to the mystery! A little bit
of Beelzebub has stuck to him. He went
to look for it in the cave at Endor to
astonish us and he was served as he
deserved!
There is another reason,
Simon says Jesus.
Tell us, Master. I will be happy to
change my mind about my
companion.
Judas is jealous. He is agitated
because he is jealous.
Jealous? Of whom? He is not
married, and even if he were, and went
with women, I think that none of us
would be rude to a fellow disciple
He is jealous of Me Pray that he
may be cured. Jealousy is a
disease
Of which one can be cured, beside
You, if one wants to. Ah! I will put up with
him, for Your sake But, how difficult it
is!
(Poem Vol. 2, pp. 325-6; Gospel Vol. 3, pp. 320-1)
MARY AND JESUS
DISCUSS JUDAS
(After a distressing encounter
with Judas, Mary goes to Jesus and
says:)
I feel sorry for him, just as I
would feel sorry if I saw a very infected
person Poor son! How ill his soul is!
And You feel sorry for him? Are
You no longer afraid of Him? You were
once
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Son, My pity is even greater than
My fear. And I would like to help You
and him to save his soul. You can do
everything, and You do not need Me.
But You say that everybody must
cooperate with Christ in redeeming
and that son needs to be redeemed so
badly!
What else can I do for him in
addition to what I already do?
You cannot do any more. But You
could let Me do. He asked Me to let him
stay in our house because he thinks that
he will be able to get rid of his monster
there You are shaking Your head?
You do not want? I will tell him
No, Mother. It is not that I do not
want. I am shaking My head because I
know that it is useless. Judas is like one
who is drowning and although he
realises that he is drowning, he rejects
out of pride the rope that has been
thrown to him to draw him to the shore.
He has no will to come to the shore.
Now and again, he is in terror of
drowning and he seeks and invokes
help. He clings to the rope and then,
seized once again by pride, he refuses
help, rejects it, he wants to be
independent and he becomes heavier
and heavier because of the muddy
water that swallows him down
Son! As I held the little baby in
My arms to bring her to You to be
blessed, let Me hold Judas in My arms,
that I may bring him to Your
blessing
Mother Mother He does not
deserve You [But] let it be done as
You wish! And may You be blessed for
Your loving intention towards Me and
Judas!
(Poem Vol. 2, pp. 675-6; Gospel Vol. 4, pp. 255-6)
 SIMON THE ZEALOT
(An old and wise Simon the Zealot
is very aware of some of Judas
failings, but keeps these concerns to
himself. Jesus notices Simons
unease, and presses him to explain.
Simon replies:)
My Lord, You already know! Why
do You want me to tell You? shouts
the Zealot sorrowfully, as if he were
tortured.
Are you certain?
He did not deny it. But he said: "I
do so because I am provident. I have
common sense. The Master never
thinks of the future"
Well: let us keep that to ourselves.
All right?
Yes, Master.
(Poem Vol. 3, p. 121; Gospel Vol. 5, p. 16)
AND MARY MAGDALENE
(Mary Magdalene tells Jesus of
her lack of trust in Judas, and wants
to stay away from him)
Anyone of them, except him. My
Lord, do not look at me so severely...
Who has fed on lust, perceives it when
it is near... I am not afraid of it. I can hold
at bay someone who is much more than
Judas. I am terrified at not being
forgiven, and it is my ego, and it is Satan
who wanders round me, and it is the
world... But if Mary of Theophilus is not
afraid of anybody, Mary of Jesus is
disgusted at the vice which had
subdued her, and she... Lord... The man
who craves for sensuality disgusts
me...
(Poem Vol. 3, p. 152; Gospel Vol. 5, p. 54)
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JUDAS REVEALS
A GROWING RESENTMENT
(Alone with Judas, Jesus tells him
of the continuing necessity to prune
oneself of evil habits. He says:)
Even if we lose God's favour by
infringing His Law, we always become
what we were, by renouncing sin...
Judas does not reply.
Jesus resumes: And if one
understands that it is not possible to
have the power of God, because God is
not there where Satan is, one can easily
remedy, by preferring what God grants
to what our pride desires.
Judas is silent.
They have by now reached the first
house of the village and Jesus, still
speaking to Himself, says: And to
think that I did severe penance that he
might mend his ways and go back to his
Father...
Judas starts, raises his head, looks
at Him... but does not say anything.
Jesus also looks at him... and then
He asks: Judas, to whom am I
speaking?
To me, Master. It is because of
You that I no longer have power. You
took it off me to increase it in John,
Simon and James - in everybody except
me. You do not love me, that's what it is!
And I will end up by not loving You and
by cursing the hour when I did love You
and I ruined myself in the eyes of the
world for a cowardly king, who is
overwhelmed even by the populace. I
was not expecting this from You!
Neither I from you. I have never
deceived you. And I have never forced
you. So why do you remain with Me?
 Because I love You. I cannot part
with You. You attract me and You
disgust me. I desire You as much as I
desire air to breathe and... You frighten
me. Ah! I am cursed! I am damned! Why
do You not drive the demon out of me,
since You can? Judas' face is livid
and upset, he looks like a madman full
of hatred and fear... He reminds me,
although faintly, of the satanic mask of
Judas on Good Friday.
And Jesus' face reminds me of the
scourged Nazarene, Who sitting on an
upturned tub in the courtyard of the
Praetorium, looks at His sneerers with
all His loving pity. He says, and a sob
already appears to be in His voice:
Because there is no repentance in
you, but only hatred against God, as if
He were guilty of your sin.
Judas utters a horrible curse
between his teeth...
[The disciples come to Jesus and
say]: Master, we have found lodgings.
There is room for five in one place, for
three in another, for two in a third place
and then two places can accommodate
one each. We could not find anything
better.
All right. I will go with Judas of
Kerioth says Jesus.
No says Judas, I prefer to be
alone. I am upset. You would not be
able to rest...
As you wish...
(Poem Vol. 3, pp. 344-5; Gospel Vol. 5, pp. 289-90)

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 SIGNS OF REPENTANCE
(Shortly afterwards, sharing a
lighter moment, Jesus speaks to
Judas of some of the dangers in
searching for experiences, whereas
there is wisdom in remaining
innocent)
Sin does not increase wisdom. It
is not light. It is not a guide. Never. It is
corruption, it is derangement of mind, it
is chaos. Thus, he who commits it,
tastes its flavour but at the same time
loses the ability to savour many other
spiritual things and no longer has an
angel of God, a spirit of order and love,
to guide him, instead, he has an angel
of Satan to lead him into greater and
greater disorder, because of the
unappeasable hatred that devours
those diabolical spirits.
Listen, Master. And if one wanted
to attain angelical guidance again? Is
repentance sufficient, or does the
poison of sin last even after one has
repented and has been forgiven?... You
know? For instance, one who has taken
to drinking, even if he swears that he will
not get drunk again, and is really
determined in swearing so, always feels
the stimulus to drink. And one
suffers...
One certainly suffers. That is why
one should never become the slave of
evil. But to suffer is not to sin. It is
expiation. And as a repentant drunkard
commits no sin but gains merits if he
resists the stimulus heroically and does
not drink any more, so he who has
sinned, and repents and resists all
stimuli, gains merit and will not lack
supernatural help to resist. It is not a sin
to be tempted. On the contrary it is a
battle that brings victory. And believe
Me, in God there is only the desire to
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forgive and help who has done wrong
but has later repented...
Judas is silent for a little while... Then
he takes Jesus' hand and kisses it,
remaining bent over it: Last night I
exceeded the limit. I insulted You,
Master. I told You that I would end up by
hating You... How much I blasphemed!
Can I ever be forgiven?
The greatest sin is to despair of
God's mercy... Judas, I said: "Every sin
against the Son of Manviii will be
forgiven". The Son of Man has come to
forgive, to save, to cure, to lead souls to
Heaven. Why do you want to lose
Heaven? Judas! Look at Me! Wash your
soul in the love emanating from My
eyes...
Do I not disgust You?
Yes, you do... But love is stronger
than disgust. Judas, poor leper, the
greatest leper in Israel, come and
invoke health from Him Who can give it
to you...
Give it to me, Master.
No. Not that way. There is no true
repentance or firm will in you. There is
only a faint effort of surviving love for Me
and for your past vocation. There is a
hint of repentance, but it is entirely
human. That is not entirely bad. Nay, it
is the first step towards Good. Cultivate
it, increase it, graft it into the
supernatural, change it into real love for
Me, make it a real return to what you
were when you came to Me, at least
that! Make it not a temporary, emotional
inactive throb of sentimentalism, but a
true active feeling attracting you to
Good. Judas, I will wait. I can wait. I will
pray. I will take the place of your
disgusted angel, while waiting. My pity,
patience and love are perfect and
therefore greater than the pity, patience
and love of angels, and I can remain
beside you, in the disgusting stench of
what is fermenting in your heart, in order
to help you...
Judas is moved, he is really moved,
he is not simulating. With trembling lips
and voice made shaky by his emotion,
looking pale, he asks: Do You really
know what I have done?
I know everything, Judas. Do you
want Me to tell you, or shall I spare you
this humiliation?
I... cannot believe it...
Well let us go over the past few
days and tell the incredulous apostle the
truth. This morning you lied several
times. With regard to the money and to
where you spent the night. Last night
you tried to suffocate in lust your
feelings, your hatred, your remorse.
You...
That's enough! That's enough! For
pity's sake, say no more! Or I will run
feels that he will be ashamed of Me
before the world accusing Me, should
go away. He who will be scandalised
seeing Me treated as an evil-doer,
should go away. I am telling you so that
you may do so before being
compromised in the eyes of the world.
Imitate those who are escaping in those
boats, if you feel that you cannot share
My lot in disgrace, to be able to share it
later in glory. Because this is what is
about to happen: the Son of Manix is
about to be accused and put into the
hands of men, who will kill Him as a
criminal and will believe that they
defeated Him. But they will have
accomplished their crime in vain.
Because after three days I will rise from
the dead,x and triumph. Blessed are
those who will be able to stay with Me till
the end!
(Poem Vol. 3, p. 453; Gospel Vol. 5, p. 423)

away from Your presence

On the contrary, you ought to cling
to My knees and ask to be forgiven.
Yes, forgive me, Master! Forgive
me! Help me! It's stronger than I am.
Everything is stronger than I am.
Except the love you ought to have
for Jesus... But come here, that I may
help you to resist temptation and relieve
you of it. And He takes Judas in His
arms shedding silent tears on his dark-
haired head
(Poem Vol. 3, pp. 350-2; Gospel Vol. 5, pp. 297-9)

A WRONG REASON
TO FOLLOW JESUS
(Jesus is pre-warning a new
disciple regarding motive in
following Him)
He who hopes that I am an
earthly king, should go away. He who
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 PART TWO
A DOWNWARD SPIRAL
JUDAS REVEALS
A PERSONAL PHILOSOPHY
(In Jesus presence, Judas
astounds his fellow apostles by
questioning the existence of Hell and
Paradise. He says:)
I say what I think I base myself
on the following philosophical concept.
If everything is controlled by God,
everything we do depends on His will,
and He must reward us all in the same
way, because we are only robots moved
by Him. We are beings devoid of will.
The Master Himself says so: "The Will
of the Most High. The Will of the Father".
That is the only Will. And it is so infinite
that it crushes and destroys the limited
will of creatures. Consequently both the
Good and the Evil, which we appear to
do, is done by God, Who imposes it on
us. Thus He will not punish us for evil
deeds and His justice will be
administered that way. Our sins are not
voluntary but they are imposed by Him
Who wants us to commit them, so that
both good and evil may be on the earth.
He who is bad is the means of expiation
for those who are not so bad. He suffers
within himself as he cannot be
considered good, and thus expiates his
part of sin. Jesus said so. Hell is on the
earth and in the hearts of men. I do not
perceive Satanxi. He does not exist.
Once I believed he existed. But for
some time I have convinced myself that
it is a lot of nonsense. And one attains
peace through such belief.
Judas expounds such... theory with
so much ostentation that the others
stand breathless with astonishment...
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Jesus is silent. And Judas teases Him:
Am I not right, Master?
No. His no is so sharp that it
sounds like an explosion.
And yet I... I do not perceive Satan,
neither do I admit free will or Evil. All the
Sadducees are of my opinion, as well as
many other people in Israel. No, Satan
does not exist.
Jesus looks at him. His glance is so
complex that it cannot be analysed. It is
the glance of a Judge, of a Doctor, of a
grieved astonished man... There is
everything in it...
Judas, who is already launched
out, concludes: Perhaps it is because
I am better and more perfect than the
others, that I have overcome the terror
of men for Satan.
And Jesus is silent. But Judas
teases Him: Speak! Why am I not
terrified?
Jesus keeps silent.
Are You not replying, Master?
Why? Are You afraid?
No. I am Charity. And Charity
withholds its opinion until it is compelled
to give it... Leave Me and go away He
says at last, because Judas tries to
embrace Him, and when He is held by
force in the arms of the blasphemer, He
whispers to him: You disgust Me! You
do not see or perceive Satan, because
he is all one with you. Go away, you
demon!
Judas kisses Him impudently and
laughs, as if the Master had praised him
secretly. He goes back to the others,
who are so aghast that they have
stopped. And he says to them: See? I
know how to open the Master's heart. I
make Him happy by showing Him my
confidence, and I learn. You, instead!...
You never dare speak to Him. Because
you are proud. Oh! I will know more
about Him than anybody else. And I will
be able to speak...
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 JOHNS DISCLOSURE TO JESUS
Jesus he has something on his
mind, but doesnt wish to sin against
charity. Jesus encourages him to
explain)
John heaves a long sigh, then
lowers his head further, letting it slide on
to Jesus' chest, and says: How
grievous it is to speak of putrid things!...
Lord... Judas is lewd... and he tempts
me to commit obscene things. I do not
mind if he derides me. But it grieves me
that he should come to You, filthy with
his love affairs. Since he came, he has
tempted me several times. When we
happen to be alone - and he takes
advantage of every opportunity - he
does nothing but speak of women... and
I am as disgusted with it as if I were
immersed in some fetid matter that
threatened to enter my mouth...
Are you deeply upset by that?
What? Upset? My soul shudders.
Reason cries against such
temptations... I do not want to be
corrupted...
How does your body react?
It shrivels with disgust.
Nothing else?
No, Master, and I weep because I
think that Judas could not cause a
graver offence to a man who has
consecrated his life to God. Tell me: will
that be detrimental to my offering?
No. Not more than a handful of
mud thrown against a diamond plaque.
It will not affect or penetrate the plaque.
A cup of clean water poured over it is
enough to clean it. And it becomes more
beautiful than before.
Cleanse me, then.
Your charity and your angel
cleanse you. There is nothing left on
you. You are a clean altar on which God
descends. What else does Judas do?
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Lord, he... Oh! Lord! John's head
slides lower.
What?
He... It is not true that the money
he gives You for the poor belongs to
him. It is the money of the poor that he
steals, to be praised for being generous,
which is not true. He was wild because
when You came back from mount
Tabor, You took all the money away
from him. And he said to me: "There are
spies among us". I replied: "Spies of
what? Have you stolen, perhaps?". "No"
he replied to me, "but I am far-sighted
and I have two purses. Someone told
the Master and He ordered me to hand
everything over, and He was so
authoritative that I was compelled to do
so". But it is not true, Lord, that he does
so because he is provident. He does
that to have money for himself. I could
bear witness to that, and I am almost
certain that I would be telling the truth.
Almost certain! That uncertainty is
indeed a slight fault. You cannot accuse
him of being a thief, if you are not
absolutely certain. At times, the actions
of men appear to be faulty, whereas
they are good.
That is true, Master. I will not
accuse him any more, not even in my
own mind. But it is true that he has two
purses, and that the one he says
belongs to him and he gives to You, is
instead Yours. And he does so to be
praised. I would not do that, because I
feel that it is not right.
You are right. What else have you
to tell Me?
John raises his frightened face,
opens his mouth to speak, then closes it
and falls on his knees hiding his face in
the tunic of Jesus, Who lays a hand on
his head.
 So, speak up! You may have
misjudged things. I will help you to
consider them properly. You must also
tell Me what you think of the probable
causes of Judas' sinning.
Lord, Judas feels that he does not
have the strength he would like to have
to work miracles... You are aware that it
has always been his ambition... Do You
remember Endor? Instead... he is the
one who works fewer miracles. Since he
came back, he has not been able to do
anything... and during the night he
moans in his dreams, as if they were
nightmares and... Master!
Come on. Tell Me, everything.
And he curses... and practises
witchcraft. This is not a lie and there is
no doubt about it. I saw him myself. He
chooses me as his companion, because
I sleep soundly. Nay, because I used to
sleep soundly. Now, I must admit it, I
watch him and my sleep is not so sound,
because I hear him as soon as he
moves... Perhaps I did the wrong thing.
But I pretended to be asleep to see what
he was doing. And twice I have heard
and seen him do horrible things. I am
not an expert in sorcery, but that is what
it is.
Does he do that by himself?
Sometimes he does, sometimes
he does not. I followed him at Tiberias.
He went into a house. I inquired later
who lives there. It is a man who
practises sorcery with other people. And
when Judas came out, almost at
daybreak, I gathered from the words
they spoke that they are familiar with
one another. They are many... and not
all strangers. He asks the demon to give
him the Power that You do not give him.
That is why I renounce my part so that
the Father may give it to him and he may
sin no more.
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You ought to give him your soul.
But neither the Father nor I would allow
that...
There is a long silence. Then Jesus
says with a tired voice: Let us go,
John. Let us go downstairs. We will rest
until dawn.
You look more depressed than
before, Lord! I should not have told
You!
No. I already knew. But you have
taken a load off your chest... and that is
what matters.
Lord, must I avoid him?
No. Do not be afraid. Satan can do
no harm to people like John. He
terrorises them, but he cannot take
away the grace that God continuously
grants them. Let us go.
(Poem Vol. 3, pp. 462-4; Gospel Vol. 5, pp. 434-6)
TWO FRUITS OF BLOOD AND FIRE
(Shortly afterwards, John tells
Jesus of his feelings of inadequacy,
and Jesus says:)
None of you is perfect. I knew
since I chose you. And I do not expect
any of you to become perfect rapidly.
You will all have to change from wild to
domestic beings by means of two
grafts...
Which ones, Master?
One is blood, the other is fire.
Afterwards you will be the heroes of
Heaven and will convert the whole
world, beginning from yourselves.
Blood? Fire?
Yes, John. Blood: Mine...
No, Jesus! John interrupts Him
with a deep groan.
Be calm, My friend. Do not
interrupt Me. Be the first to listen to this
truth, because you deserve it. The
Blood is Mine. You already know. That
is why I came. I am the Redeemer...
Think of the prophets. They did not
leave out one iota in describing My
mission. I will be the Man described by
Isaiahxii. And the Blood, which I will
shed, will make you prolific. But I will not
confine Myself to that. You are so
imperfect and weak, dull and timorous,
that I, sitting gloriously beside the
Father, will send you the Fire. It is the
Strength that proceeds from My being,
through generation by the Father. And it
binds the Father and the Son in an
indissoluble ring, making Three of One:
the Thought, the Blood, the Love.
When the Spirit of God - nay, the
Spirit of the Spirit of God, the Perfection
of Divine Perfections - will come to you,
you will no longer be as you are. But you
will be new, powerful, holy... But for one
of you, Blood and Fire will be of no avail.
Because Blood will have, for him, the
power of damnation. And he will for ever
know another fire, in which he will burn
belching blood and swallowing blood,
because he will see blood wherever he
lays his material or spiritual eyes,
having betrayed the Blood of a God.
Oh! Master! Who is it?
You will know one day. For the
time being, forget about it. And for the
sake of charity do not even endeavour
to inquire into it. Investigation
presupposes suspicion. You must not
suspect Your brothers, because
suspicion is already lack of charity.
(Poem Vol. 3, pp. 497-8; Gospel Vol. 5, pp. 478-9)
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THE MOTHER OF JUDAS
(Alone once more with Judas,
Jesus has some touching words to
say about the differing anxieties of
their respective mothers for their two
sons. He notices that Judas is upset,
and says:)
Judas, do not weep. Why weep?
If you feel no remorse in your heart with
regard to your mother or Mine, why
shed those tears? Come here, rest your
head on My shoulder and tell your
Friend your anxiety. Have you done
wrong? Do you feel you are about to do
wrong? Oh! do not remain alone! Defeat
Satan with the help of Him Who loves
you. I am Jesus, Judas. I am the Jesus
Who cures diseases and expels
demons. I am the Jesus Who saves...
and Who loves you so much, that He
worries at seeing you so enfeebled. I am
the Jesus Who teaches to forgive
seventy times seven. But I, personally,
forgive you not seventy, but seven
hundred, seven thousand times... There
is no fault, Judas, there is no fault,
Judas, there is no fault, Judas, that I do
not forgive, that I do not forgive, that I do
not forgive, if the repentant culprit says
to Me: "Jesus, I have sinned". Even
less: if he only says: "Jesus!". And even
less: if he only looks at Me imploringly.
And the first faults that I forgive, do you
know, My friend, whom I forgive them?
The most guilty and the most repentant.
And do you know which are the very first
ones that I forgive? Those committed
against Me.
Judas?... Can you not find one word
to reply to your Master?... Is your
anguish so severe that it makes words
die on your lips? Are you afraid that I
may denounce you? Be not afraid! I
have been longing for such a long time
to speak to you like this, holding you on
My heart, like twins in a cradle, born of
the same mother, almost one flesh only,
two babies who have sucked in turn the
same warm nipple, each savouring his
brother's saliva together with his
mother's sweet milk. I now have you,
and I will not let you go away until you
tell Me that I have cured you. Be not
afraid, Judas. I want your confession.
Your companions will think that this is a
friendly conversation, because after it
our faces will beam so much with
reciprocal peace and love. And I will get
them to believe so more and more, by
holding you against My chest at supper
this evening, dipping in the dish My own
bread for you, and offering it to you as
to a favouritexiii. And you will be the first
to whom I will give the cup, after giving
thanks to God. You will be the king of
the banquet, Judas. And you will really
be so. You will be the Bride of the
Groom, o soul that I love, if you become
clean and free, depositing your dust in
My purifying lap.
Are you not going to speak to tell Me
your grief?
You have spoken so kindly to me...
of my mother... of home... of Your love...
A moment of weakness... I am so
tired!... I thought that You had not loved
me thus for some time...
No. It is not so. Only one thing of
what you said is true, and that is that you
are tired. But you are not tired of the
road, of dust, of the sun, of mud, of
crowds. You are tired of yourself. Your
soul is tired of your body and of your
mind. So tired that it will end
extinguished by deadly tiredness. Poor
soul, which I called to eternal
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brightness! Poor soul, which is aware of
My love for you and reproaches you for
tearing it away from My love! Poor soul,
which reproaches you in vain - as in vain
I caress you - for acting underhandedly
with your Master. But it is not you who
acts. It is he who hates you and Me.
That is why I said to you: "Do not remain
alone". Now, listen. You know that I
spend most of My nights in prayer. If one
day you should feel the courage of
being a man and you wanted to be Mine,
come to Me when your companions are
sleeping. Stars, flowers, birds are good
wise witnesses. And they are discreet
and compassionate. They are struck
with horror at the crime committed in
their presence, but they do not utter any
word to say to men: "This man is the
Cain of his brother". Have you
understood, Judas?
Yes, Master, I have. But believe
Me: I am only tired and deeply moved. I
love You with all my heart and...
All right. That is enough.
Will You give me a kiss, Master?
Yes, Judas. I will give you a kiss
now, and many in future...
Jesus draws a heavy sigh, with grief.
But He kisses Judas on the cheek. He
then takes his head between the palms
of His hands, and holding it tight, in front
of Himself, only a few inches from His
face, gazes at him, scrutinises him,
pierces him with His magnetic eyes.
And Judas, a wretched miserable man,
does not turn a hair. He seemingly
remains impassive while being
examined. He only grows pale and
closes his eyes for a moment. Jesus
kisses his closed eyelids, his lips, and
then his heart, bending His head to look
for the heart of His disciple... and He
says: There you are: to dispel haze, to
make you feel Jesus' kindness and
fortify your heart. He then lets him go
and directs His steps towards the
house, followed by Judas
(Poem Vol. 3, pp. 764-5; Gospel Vol. 6, pp. 325-7)

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 ANOTHER
SATANIC POSSESSION!
(Jesus is dealing with a violently
possessed man who claims to be
Beelzebub, and who offers great
resistance. Finally)
Aaaaah! (it is a very long cry of
never-ending torture. Not even a man
slowly pierced by a sword would yell like
this). And the cry ends in words: I am
coming out. Yes, You have defeated
me. But I will avenge myself. You are
driving me away, but there is a demon
beside You and I will go into him and
possess himxiv, investing him with my
full power. And no order of Yours will be
able to take him away from me. In every
age, in every place, I, the author of Evil,
procreate sons for myself. And as God
procreated Himself by Himself, I
procreate myself by myself. I conceive
myself in the heart of man and he gives
birth to me. He gives birth to a new
Satan, who is he himself, and I rejoice,
having so many children! You and men
will always find those creatures of mine,
who are as many Satans. I am going, o
Christ, to take possession of my new
kingdom, as You wish, and I leave You
this poor wretch whom I maltreated. In
his place, as I am leaving him to You -
the alms of Satan to You, God - I will
take one thousand and ten thousand
now, and You will find them when Your
body in lurid tatters will be given as a
plaything to dogs. And I will take ten
thousand and one hundred thousand in
future centuries, to use them as an
instrument for me and a torture for You.
Do You think that You will win by raising
Your Sign? My followers will knock it
down and I will be the winner Ah! It is
not true that I will win! But I will torture
You, both in Yourself and in Your
followers!
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A loud crash, like thunder, is heard,
but there is neither flash of light nor
rumbling of thunder, only a sharp
lacerating crack. And as the demoniac
falls like a dead body to the ground and
remains there, a huge tree-trunk
collapses near the apostles, as if it had
been cut about one metre from the
ground by a saw, working as quickly as
lightening. The apostolic group moves
away just in time, while the local people
run away.
But Jesus, Who has bent over the
prostrated man and has taken him by
the hand, turns round, still stooping and
with the hand of the cured man in His
own. He says: Come. Be not afraid!
The people approach timorously. He
is cured
(Afterwards, Jesus tells His
apostles:)
It was through the flesh that
Satan entered man, and through the
flesh he goes back into man. And he is
happy if he can do so. He, one and
sevenfold, enters with the proliferation
of his legions of minor demonsxv.
You said that Mary of Magdala had
seven demonsxvi. You said so and they
were certainly demons of lust. And yet
You freed her very easily.
Yes, Judas. That is true.
So?
So, according to you, My theory is
wrong. No, My friend. That woman
wanted, by that time, to be freed from
her possession. She wanted. Will power
is everything.
(Poem Vol. 4, pp. 35, 37; Gospel Vol. 6, pp.
432-3, 435)
(In an earlier passage Jesus
reassures Martha, who is concerned for
her sister, Mary Magdalene. He says:)
You say that she is mad. She says
herself that she is ill and suffers from a
sinful fever. I say: she is ill because she
is possessed by a demon. It is still a
disease. And her incoherent behaviour,
her fury, her tears, her affliction, her
longing for Me, are stages of her illness,
which has come to a moment of crisis
and has its most violent fluctuations.
Poor soul of My Mary! Her soul also was
created by the Father, and it is in no way
different from all other souls... [The soul
of] My poor Mary who has been
poisoned with seven poisons besides
the first universal poison! Of My
imprisoned Mary! But let her come to
Me! Let her breathe the air I breathe, let
her hear My voice and meet My
glance! She calls herself: "Manure"
Oh! My poor dear soul in whom the
demon of pride is the weakest of the
seven possessing her!xvii Only because
of that she will be saved!
(Poem Vol. 2, p. 492; Gospel Vol. 4, pp. 30-1)
THE APOSTLES AND JUDAS
(In Judas and Jesus absence,
the remaining apostles are remarking
how familiar Judas is with the
Pharisees)
Judas knows too many
things! says James of Zebedee.
Be quiet! He may hear you!
advises Matthew.
No. He has gone away, saying that
he is sleepy and has a headache
replies James.
Moon! Moon in the sky and moon
in his head. It is so: he is more
changeable than the wind pronounces
Peter who has been silent so far.
Yes! A real misfortune among
us! says Bartholomew with a sigh.
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No, don't say that! Not a
misfortune! On the contrary: a way to
sanctify oneself says the Zealot.
Or to damn oneself, because he
makes one lose one's virtues says
Thaddeus resolutely.
He is a poor wretch! remarks
Andrew sadly
(Poem Vol. 4, p. 103; Gospel Vol. 6, p. 516)
JUDAS GIVES SOME JOY
TO JESUS
(A little later, Jesus is alone when
Judas comes to speak with Him.
Their conversation is heart-warming
for Judas, who says:)
How beautiful it is, Master, to hear
You speak like this! Everything
becomes clear to the eyes, to the mind,
to the heart and everything becomes
easy. Also to say: "I want to be good!".
Also to say to You also to say to You:
"Master, my soul is upset as well! Do not
be disgusted at me, Master, since You
love so much those who are pure!".
Oh, Judas! I disgusted? My dear
friend, My dear son, what is upsetting
you?
Keep me with You, Master. Hold
me tight I have sworn to be good after
You spoke to me so kindly. I have sworn
to become the Judas of the first days:
when I followed and loved You as a
groom loves his bride, and I yearned for
nothing but You as I found every
satisfaction in You. That is how I loved
You, Jesus
I know and that is why I loved
you But I still love you, My dear hurt
friend
How do You know that I am hurt?
And do You know by what?
 There is silence. Jesus looks at
Judas so kindly Tears seem to make
His eyes wider and kinder, tempering
their brightness: the eyes of an innocent
defenceless child who gives himself
completely in love.
Judas drops at His feet with his face
on Jesus' knees and clasping His sides
with his arms he moans: Keep me with
You, Master keep me My flesh is
howling like a demon and if I give in,
then all evil befalls me I know that you
are aware of it, but You wait for me to
tell You But it is hard, Master, to say:
"I have sinned."
I know, My friend. That is why one
ought to act correctly. So that later one
may not have to lower oneself saying: "I
have sinned". But, Judas, that is also a
very good medicine. The fact that one
has to make an effort to confess one's
sin restrains one from committing it; and
if it has been committed, the pain in
accusing oneself is already redeeming
repentance. And if one suffers not so
much out of pride or for fear of
punishment, but because one realises
that by sinning one has caused sorrow,
then I tell you that the sin is cancelled. It
is love that saves.
I love You, Master. But I am so
weak Oh! You cannot love me! You
are pure and You love the pure You
cannot love me because I am I am
Oh! Jesus, relieve me of the hunger of
sensuality! Do You know what a demon
it is?
I know. I did not listen to it, but I
know what its voices sound likexviii.
See? See? You are so much
disgusted by it that by simply
mentioning it You look very upset Oh!
You cannot forgive me!
Judas, do you not remember
Mary? Or Matthew? Or the publican
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who became a leper? Or that woman,
the Roman prostitute, for whom I
prophesied a place in Heaven, because
being forgiven by Me she will have the
strength to live in a holy way?
Master Master Oh! How sick at
heart I am! This evening I ran away
from Korazim because if I had
remained, I would have been lost. You
know it is like one who drinks and is
taken ill The doctor forbids him to
drink wine and any intoxicating drink,
and he recovers and is healthy as long
as he does not taste such liquors But
if he gives in, once only, and he tastes
them again. He is thirsty thirsty for
such liquids He no longer resists, and
he drinks and drinks and is taken ill
again for ever mad possessed by
his demon, by that demon of his. Oh!
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus! Don't tell the
others Don't tell them I blush with
shame before them all
But not before Me.
Judas misunderstands. That is
true! I ought to blush more before You
than anybody else, because You are
perfect
No, son. I did not mean that. Your
grief, your distress, your dejection must
not confound you. I said that you may
blush before everybody, but not before
Me. A son is not afraid or ashamed of a
good father, neither is an invalid of a
clever doctor. And confession is to be
made to both without any fear, as one
loves and forgives, and the other
understands and cures. I love and
understand you. So I forgive and cure
you. But tell Me, Judas. What is it that
puts you into the hands of your demon?
Is it I? Your brothers? Corrupt women?
No. It is your will. I now forgive you and
cure you With what joy you have filled
Me, My Judas! I was already rejoicing at
this clear, scented night, which sweet
songs made delightful, and I was
praising the Lord for it. But the joy which
you are now giving Me exceeds this
clear moonlight, these scents, this
peace, these songs. Can you hear it?
The nightingale seems to join Me in
telling you that it is glad of your good
will, as the little singing bird is so willing
to do that for which it was created. And
likewise, this early morning breeze,
which blows over flowers awaking them
and letting dewy diamonds drop into the
hollow calyces, so that butterflies and
sunbeams may find them very soon -
the former to refresh themselves, the
latter to have their great brightness
reflected by the tiny mirrors. Look: the
moon is setting. Dawn is being
announced by that cock crowing far
away. The darkness and phantasm of
the night are vanishing. See how quickly
and pleasantly time has passed,
whereas, if you had not come to Me, you
would have spent it in disgust and
remorse? You ought to come to Me
every time you are afraid of yourself.
One's own ego!!! A great friend, a great
tempter, a great enemy and a great
judge, Judas! And see? While it is a
sincere loyal friend if you have been
good, it can be an insincere friend if you
are not good, and after being your
accomplice, it rises to the office of
implacable judge and tortures you with
its reproaches It is cruel in
reproaching Not I! Well, let us go. The
night is over
Master, I did not let You rest and
today You have to speak so much
I have rested in the joy which you
gave Me.
Master what will You tell my
companions?
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Nothing, if they do not ask Me If
they ask Me, I will say that we spoke of
God's mercy It is such a true and
boundless subject, that a very long life
is not sufficient to consider it. Let us
go
(Poem Vol. 4, pp. 353-5; Gospel Vol. 7, pp. 310-3)
JUDAS GRADUAL AND
DELIBERATE DESCENT
(Immediately following the
preceding passage, Jesus says to
Maria Valtorta:)
It is an episode of mercy like those
of the Magdalene. But if you make a
book, it will be better if you put the
periods in orderly succession rather
than the categories, simply stating at the
beginning or end of each episode to
which category it belongs.
Why do I elucidate Judas' figure?
Many may wonder why.
I reply. Judas' figure has been
distorted too much in the course of time.
And lately it has been completely
perverted. Some schools have sung his
praises, as if he had been the second
and indispensable author of
Redemption. Many also think that he
succumbed to a sudden fierce assault of
the Tempter. No. Every fall has
premises in time. The graver the fall, the
more it is prepared. Antecedent factors
explain the fact. One does not collapse
or rise all of a sudden, either in Good or
in Evil. There are long insidious factors
in descents, and patient holy ones in
ascents. Judas' unfortunate drama can
teach you so well how to save
yourselves, and how to become
acquainted with the method of God and
His mercy in saving and forgiving those
who descend towards the Abyss.
One does not arrive at the satanic
delirium in which you saw Judas
struggle after the Crime, unless one is
completely corrupted by Hellish habits,
which one has taken up voluptuously for
years. When one commits a crime
driven by a sudden event, which
deranges one's mind, one suffers but is
capable of expiation, because some
parts of the heart are still free from
infernal poison. To the world denying
Satan - because it has him so much in
itself that it no longer notices him, it has
absorbed him and has become part of
his ego - I prove that Satan exists. He is
eternal and immutable in the method
employed to make you his victims.
(Poem Vol. 4, pp. 355-6; Gospel Vol. 7, p. 313) exclusively to evil, to harming, to
LOOSE WITH THE TRUTH
(Judas is becoming proud of his appears outwardly, and consequently
ability to mislead and to twist the such possessed people are not
truth. But Jesus tells him:)
To say one thing for another,
Man, of his own puts only the
good will to love his God wholly, to give
himself up to His will, to practise virtues
and control passions. He is absorbed in
God, and in the Light that is God. In the
Wisdom that is God he sees and
understands everything. Later, when
the absolute action comes to an end, a
state takes over in the creature,
whereby what has been received is
transformed into a rule of life and
sanctification
The demon, a perpetual mimic of
God, causes a similar effect, although
limited because God only is infinite. In
the mental obsession of those who are
possessed, because they gave
themselves spontaneously to him in
order to be triumphant, he grants them
a superior intelligence, devoted
offending God and man. [If] the satanic
action finds the soul consenting, it is
continuous, and thus leads it by degrees
to a complete knowledge of Evil. They
are the worst possessions. Nothing
avoided. But they exist
(Poem Vol. 4, pp. 540-1; Gospel Vol. 8, pp. 19-20)

even if for a good purpose, is always

blameworthy. Do you think that the Lord
needs such behaviour to protect His
Messiah? Do not lie any more, not even A COMPLETE AND ACCEPTING
for a good purpose. The mind becomes POSSESSION
accustomed to imagining lies, and lips (Shortly afterwards, Jesus is
to utter them. No, Judas. Avoid being asked by the apostle Thomas:)
insincere. The other day You said that the
(Poem Vol. 4, p. 432; Gospel Vol. 7, p. 408)
Redeemer, You, will have a traitor. How
can a man betray You, the Son of
God?
A man, in fact, would not be able to
POSSESSION, AND FREE WILL betray the Son of God, God like His
(Jesus tells His apostles that Father. But it will not be a man. It will be
there are two forms of possession) a demon in the body of a man. The most
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possessed, the most obsessed man.
Mary of Magdala had seven demons xix
and the demoniac of a few days ago
was dominated by Beelzebub. But in My
traitor there will be Beelzebub and all his
demoniac court Oh! Hell will really be
in that heart to give him the boldness to
sell the Son of God to His enemies, just
as a lamb is sold to the butcher!
Judas asks: Master, is that man
already possessed by Satan now?
No, Judas. But he is leaning
towards Satan and to lean towards
Satan means putting oneself in the
condition of falling into himxx.
And why does he not come to You
to be cured of his inclination? Does he
know he has such inclination, or does
he not know? asks Andrew.
And Jesus replies: If he did not
know he would not be guilty, whereas
he is, because he knows that he tends
to evil and that he does not persist in his
decision to emerge from it. If he
persisted, he would come to Me but
he does not come Poison penetrates
and My closeness does not cleanse him
because he does not want it, he avoids
it Your error, o men. You fly from Me
when you need Me most
(Poem Vol. 4, p. 543-4; Gospel Vol. 8, pp. 23-4)
PETERS CONCERNS
ABOUT JUDAS
(Almost immediately afterwards,
Peter approaches Jesus and says:)
Master I I hate I am
disgusted, yes, if I do not hate because
You do not want us to hate, I am
disgusted at one of us. I seem to be near (Judas expresses resent towards
a den from which the stench of snakes Jesus for reproaching him, but Jesus
in heat comes out and I would not like replies:)
any of them to come out to injure You.
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That man is a mass of snakes, and he
himself is in heat with the demon.
How do you infer that?
Well! I don't know. I am coarse
and ignorant, but I am not stupid. I am
accustomed to reading winds and
clouds and now I have eyes to read
also hearts. Jesus I am afraid.
Do not judge, Peter. And do not
suspect. Suspicion creates monsters.
And one sees what is not there.
May eternal God grant that there is
nothing. But I am not sure.
Who is it, Peter?
Judas of Kerioth. He boasts of
having important friends, and even a
short time ago that ugly face greeted
him as one greets a well known person.
He did not have such friends
previously.
Judas is the one who receives and
hands out money. He has the
opportunity to approach rich people. He
is clever.
Yes, he is clever Master, tell me
the truth, do You not suspect?
Peter, you are so dear to Me
because of your heart. But I want you to
be perfect. Who does not obey is not
perfect. I said to you: do not judge and
do not suspect.
Peter lowers his head and becomes
silent and embarrassed. Perhaps he is
not yet convinced and is still curious, but
he is silent
(Poem Vol. 4, p. 546; Gospel Vol. 8, pp. 26-7)
ANOTHER FLASH
OF REPENTANCE
 A man who caresses his guilty
son will have to bandage his wounds
later, says the proverbxxi. And another
proverb says that a horse badly broken-
in turns out stubborn, and an
uncontrolled son turns out
headstrongxxii.
Am I perhaps Your son? asks
Judas, changing countenance, as he no
longer frowns but looks contrite.
If I had begotten you, you could not
be more so. And I would have My
viscera torn out to give you My heart and
make you as I would like you to be
Judas has one of his fits of
repentance and looking really sincere
he throws himself into Jesus' arms
shouting: Ah! I do not deserve You! I
am a demonxxiii and I do not deserve
You! You are too good! Save me,
Jesus! And he weeps, he really
weeps, with the pain of a heart upset by
evil things, and by the remorse of
grieving the Master Who loves him.
(Poem Vol. 4, p. 646; Gospel Vol. 8, p. 149)
A VITAL LESSON
FOR THE APOSTLES
(During their travels, and in the
absence of Judas, Jesus and His
apostles pause on the way to
Bethany)
Jesus then turns round to look at
His apostles and He says: And now let
us wait here for Judas of Simon
Ah! You noticed that he has
gone? say the others who are
surprised. We thought that You were
not aware of it. There was such a large
crowd. And You were speaking all the
time, first with the young man and then
with the shepherds
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I noticed that he had gone from the
very first moment. Nothing escapes My
notice. That is why I went to some
friendly houses, telling them to send
Judas to Bethany, if he should look for
Me
God forbid! grumbles the other
Judas between his teeth.
Jesus looks at him but pretends that
He has not heard, and He goes on,
speaking to everybody, as He sees that
they are all of the same opinion as
Thaddeus (faces, at times, speak better
than words): This will be a good rest
while waiting for his return. It will be of
comfort to everybody. Then we will go
towards Tekoah. The weather is cold
but it is clearing up. I will evangelize that
town, then we will come back, passing
through Jericho, and we will go to the
other bank. The shepherds told Me that
many sick people are looking for Me. I
sent word that they need not set out on
the journey, and that they should wait
for Me there.-
Well, let us go says Peter with a
sigh.
Are you not glad to go to Lazarus'
house? Thomas asks him.
I am glad.
You don't seem to be, the way you
say it.
It is not because of Lazarus. It's
because of Judas
You are a sinner, Peter says
Jesus admonishing him.
I am. But he, Judas of Kerioth, is
he not a sinner since he goes away, is
insolent and a torture? bursts out
Peter angrily, as he cannot stand the
situation any longer.
He is. But if he is, you must not be.
None of us must be. Remember that
God will ask us - I say: will ask us,
because God Father entrusted that man
to Me before entrusting him to you - to
account for what we did to redeem
him.
And do You hope to succeed,
Brother? I cannot believe it. You - I
believe this - You know the past, the
present and the future. So You cannot
be mistaken about that man. And But
it is better if I don't tell You the rest.
It is in fact a great virtue to be able
to be silent. But you had better know
that to foresee - more or less exactly -
the future of a heart, does not exempt
anyone from persevering until the end to
save a heart from being ruined. Do not
fall into the fatalism of Pharisees who
maintain that what is destined must take
place, and nothing can prevent what is
destined from being accomplished. With
such reasoning they justify their sins,
and will justify their final act of hatred
against Me. Many a time God awaits the
sacrifice of a heart, that overcomes its
nausea and indignation, and its
antipathy - even if justified - to rescue a
spirit from the quagmire into which it is
sinking. Yes, I tell you. Many times God,
the Almighty, the Everything, waits for a
creature, a mere nothing, to make or not
to make a sacrifice, to say a prayer, in
order to condemn or not condemn a
spirit. It is never late, never too late, to
try and hope to save a soul. And I will
give you proof of that. Even on the
threshold of death, when both the sinner
and the just man who is anxious about
him are about to leave the Earth to
appear at the first judgement of God,
one can always save or be saved.
Between the cup and the lips, says the
proverb, there is always room for death.
I instead say: between the extremity of
agony and death there is always time to
obtain forgiveness, for oneself or for
those whom we want to be forgiven.
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Not one word is uttered by
anybody
(Poem Vol. 4, pp. 656-7; Gospel Vol. 8, pp. 161-3)
PATIENCE WITH
A SPIRITUAL BROTHER
(Still journeying without Judas,
Jesus calls the other eleven apostles
together and says:)
What I am about to say is useful
to everybody, as you all have the same
thoughts in your hearts Do you not
know that you learn more through Judas
of Kerioth than through any other
person? You will find many Judases and
very few Jesus in your apostolic
ministry. The Jesus will be kind, good,
pure, faithful, obedient, prudent, free
from greed. They will be very few But
how many Judases of Kerioth you, your
followers and your successors, will find
along the ways of the world! And in
order to be masters and to know, you
must attend this school With his faults
he shows you what man is; I show you
what man should be. Two examples
equally necessary. By knowing both
well, you must try to change the former
into the latter And let My patience be
your rule.
Lord, I was a big sinner, and I am
certainly an example as well. But I
would like Judas, who is not such a
sinner as I was, to become the convert
that I am. Is it pride to say this?
No, Matthew, it is not pride. You
honour two truths by saying so. The first
is that the sentence saying: "The good
will of man works divine miracles" is
truthful. The second is that God loved
you infinitely since the time you thought
nothing about it, and He did so because
He was aware of your capability for
heroism. You are the fruit of two powers:
your will and God's love. And I am
putting your will first, because without it
God's love would have been vain. Vain,
inert
But could God not convert us
Let the former remember that he was a
sinner and the latter that he is a
father
Yes, Master. We will bear that in
mind.
(Poem Vol. 4, pp. 664-5; Gospel Vol. 8, pp. 171-2)

without our will? asks James of

Alphaeus.
Certainly. But man's will would still
be required to persevere in the A GLIMPSE OF THE DEMONIC
conversion obtained miraculously.
(Filled with anguish and
So such will has not been and is
confusion at the conflicts within
not in Judas, either before knowing You,
himself, Judas is exchanging a volley
or now says Philip impulsively.
of words with Jesus. Finally, he asks
Some laugh, some sigh.
Jesus:)
Jesus is the only one who defends
What do You want of me?
the absent apostle: Do not say that!
What do I want!! I would like not to
He had it and has itxxiv. But the evil law
have become Incarnate in vain for you.
of the flesh overwhelms it at intervals xxv.
That is what I would like! But by now you
He is ill. A poor sick brother. In every
belong to another father, to another
family there is a week or a sick person,
country, you speak a different
someone who is the pain, the worry, the
language Oh! What shall I do, Father,
burden of the family. And yet is a frail
to cleanse the profaned temple of this
child not the one most loved by his
son of Yours and My brother? xxvi
mother? Is the unhappy brother not the
Jesus, Who is very pale, weeps,
one best served by his brothers? Is he
speaking to His Father.
not the one to whom his father gives the
Judas becomes pale too, and he
dainty morsel, taking it from his plate, to
moves aside a little, in silence. Jesus
make him happy, to make him feel that
overtakes him in a few steps,
he is not a burden and thus make his
descending the hill, His head lowered,
illness less boring?
closed in His grief. Judas then makes a
That is true. It is just like that. My
gesture of mockery, of threat, I would
twin sister was delicate in her childhood.
say like a cruel oath behind the back of
I had taken all the sturdiness. But the
the Innocent One. His face, so far
love of the whole family helped so
masked by a hypocritical gloss of
much, that now she is a buxom wife and
kindness and humility, becomes bony,
mother says Thomas.
hard, ugly, cruel: really demoniac. All
Exactly. Do with your spiritual
the hatred, but not a human hatred, is in
brother what you would do with a weak
the fire of his dark eyes, and that fiery
brother german. I will not utter one word
hatred is concentrated on Jesus' tall
of reproach. Do not be more severe
person. Then shrugging his shoulders
than I am. Your patient love is the
and striking his foot angrily, Judas ends
sharpest rebuke against which it is not
his internal reasoning. And he sets out,
possible to react. I will leave Matthew
and Philip at Tekoah to wait for Judas
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composedly, like one who has made a
decision past recall
(Poem Vol. 4, p. 766; Gospel Vol. 8, p. 296)
JUDAS GOES TO THE SANHEDRIN
(Soon afterwards, Judas visits the
house of the members of the
Sanhedrin, and asks the same
question:)
What do you want of me? I do
not yet know precisely what you want. I
have done what I could. I cannot do
more than that. He is by far greater than
I am. He reads my heart and He never
treats me as I deserve. I am a sinner
and He knows and He absolves me. If I
were not such a coward I should I
should kill myself to make it impossible
for me to hurt Him. Judas sits down,
crushed by the situation. With his face in
his hands, his eyes wide open gazing at
the void, he is clearly suffering in the
struggle between his opposed
instincts
(A turmoil erupts after Judas leaves,
and some want to chase after him. But
one of their number, Helkai, screams:)
Oh! No Leave it to me and you
will have to say that I am wise. Judas,
when he has no more money, will
become meek. Oh! as meek as a
lamb! and he laughs venomously.
He will not give in today, tomorrow,
perhaps for a month But then He is
too depraved to be able to live in the
poverty offered to him by the Rabbi
and he will come to us Ha! Ha! Let me
see to it! I know
(Poem Vol. 4, pp. 781, 784; Gospel Vol. 8, pp. 315,
318)
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AN ATTEMPTED DIVERSION
(As the time approaches towards
Jesus Passion and Death, Judas
accuses a new disciple of
treachery)
You trust that man too much,
Master. I told You who he is. He is
Jonathan's most hot-headed and
excitable disciple. Of course, it is late
now. You have put Yourself into his
hands. He is a spy close to You. You
more than once thought that I was a spy,
and the others thought so more than
You did! I am not a spy.
Jesus stops and turns round. Grief
and majesty mingle on His face and in
His eyes fixed on His apostle. He says:
No. You are not a spy. You are a
demon. You have stolen the Serpent's
prerogative to seduce and deceive in
order to take people away from God.
Your behaviour is neither a stone nor a
club, but it hurts Me more than a blow
with a stone or a club. Oh! in My
atrocious suffering there will be nothing
greater than your behaviour capable of
torturing the Martyr. Jesus covers His
face with His hands, as if He wished to
conceal so much horror, and then He
begins to run down the path.
Judas shouts after Him: Master!
Master! Why are You grieving me? That
liar has certainly made a slanderous
report to You Listen to me, Master!
Jesus does not listen. He runs, He
flies down the slopes. He does not stop
when He passes by the woodcutters
and shepherds who greet Him. He
passes, He waves to them but does not
stop. Judas resigns himself to being
silent
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 191-2; Gospel Vol. 9, pp. 101-2)
 JUDAS, THE THIEFxxvii
(Jesus and John have returned
unexpectedly to a house where they
are staying, and discover Judas
stealing some money which was
meant for others. Jesus sends John
out of the room. And holds back a
curse He was tempted to give to
Judas)
Judas, who uttered a stifled cry when
he saw Jesus on the point of cursing
him, does not react any further. But
another cry is heard from beyond the
closed door when Jesus throws the bag
on the floor. And John's cry irritates the
thief. It gives him back his demoniac
daring. It makes him furious. He almost
flings himself on Jesus, shouting: You
had me spied upon to bring dishonour
on me. Spied by a foolish boy who
cannot even keep quiet. Who will shame
me in front of everybody! That's what
You wanted. In any case Yes! That's
what I want, too. I want that! To force
You to drive me away! To force You to
curse me! To curse me! To curse me! I
have tried everything to make You reject
me. He is hoarse with rage and as
ugly as a demon. He is panting as if
something were choking him.
In a low but dreadful voice Jesus
repeats to him: Thief! Thief! Thief!
and He ends, saying: A thief today. A
murderer tomorrow. Like Barabbas.
Worse than him. Now close to him,
Jesus breathes that word on his face..
[Judas speaks angrily and at length
against Jesus, and then] the torrent of
words is suddenly replaced by a
mournful silence... Because, while I was
writing without being able to say what
was happening, Judas, bending just like
a wild dog that points a prey and
approaches it ready to dash on it, has
come closer and closer to Jesus, with a
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face that it was impossible to look at, his
fingers hooked like claws, his elbows
pressed against his sides. It is as if he
were on the point of assailing Jesus,
Who does not show the least sign of
fear, and Who moves, turning round to
open the door with His back to the other,
who could attack Him, seizing Him by
His neck. But he does not do that, and
Jesus opens the door and looks to see
whether John has really gone away.
The corridor is empty and almost dark,
as John has closed the door opening
onto the kitchen garden after going out.
Jesus then bolts the door and leans
against it, waiting, without a gesture or
word, for the fury to abate
Jesus remains still, with His arms
stretched out, with His eyes always
fixed on the apostle, with a look of
sorrow and prayer. And Judas, like one
coming out of delirium, rubs his
forehead and sweaty face with his
hand He thinks, he recollects, and
remembering everything he collapses
on the floor, whether weeping or not, I
do not know. He certainly falls on the
floor, as if his strength failed him.
Jesus lowers His eyes and arms,
and in a low but clear voice He says:
Well? Do I hate you? I could strike
you with My foot, I could tread on you,
calling you "worm". I could curse you, as
I freed you from the power that makes
you rave. You thought that My
impossibility to curse you was
weakness. Oh! it is not weakness! It is
because I am the Saviourxxviii. And the
Saviour cannot curse. He can save. He
wants to save You said: "I am the
strength. The strength that hates You
and will defeat You". I also am the
Strength, nay, I am the only Strength.
But My strength is not hatred. It is love.
And love does not hate and does not
curse, never.
The Strength could also win single
battles, like this one between You and
Me - between Satan who is in you xxix,
and Me - and remove your master from
you, for good, as I did now by
transforming Myself into the sign that
saves, the Tau that Lucifer abhors. It
could win also these single battles as it
will win the oncoming one against
incredulous murderous Israel, against
the world and against Satan defeated by
Redemptionxxx. It could win also these
single battles as it will win the last one,
remote for those who count by
centuries, close at hand for those who
measure time with the measure of
eternityxxxi. But of what avail would it be
to infringe the perfect rules of My
Father? Would it be justice? Would it be
merit? No. It would be neither justice nor
merit. It would not be justice with regard
to guilty men, who have not been
deprived of the freedom of being so, and
who on the last day could ask Me the
reason for their damnation and reproach
Me for My partiality for you alone. Ten
thousand and one hundred thousand
people, seventy times ten thousand and
one hundred thousand people will
commit the same sins as yours and will
become demons through their own wills.
And they will be the offenders of God,
the torturers of their fathers and
mothers, killers, thieves, liars,
adulterers, lewd and sacrilegious
people, and in the end deicides, killing
the Christ materially on a day close at
hand, killing Him spiritually in future
times And I will come to separate
lambs from billy-goats, to bless the
former and curse, then, yes, to curse the
latter, to curse them because there will
be no further redemption then, but glory
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or damnation, to curse them once again
after cursing them individually at their
death, first, and at their individual
judgement. Because man, and you
know this because you have heard Me
say so a hundred, a thousand times,
because man can save himself while he
is alive, up to his last breath. An instant,
a thousandth of a minute is sufficient for
a soul to say everything to God, to ask
to be forgiven and obtain absolution
Each of these damned souls could say
to Me: "Why did You not tie us to Good,
as You did with Judas?". And they
would be right
You have ruined and dissipated your
soul and the gifts God had given it. What
have you done with your free will? What
with your intellect? Have you kept for
your spirit the freedom that belonged to
it? Have you used the intelligence of
your mind intelligently? No, you have
not. You do not want to obey Me - I do
not say Me-Man, but not even Me-God -
you have obeyed Satan. You have used
the intelligence of your mind and the
freedom of your spirit to understand
Darkness. Voluntarily. Good and Evil
were placed before you. You chose Evil.
Nay, only Good was placed before you:
I. Your eternal Creator, Who followed
the evolution of your soul, Who was
aware of such evolution because the
Eternal Thought is aware of everything
that happens since Time began, placed
Good before you, Good only
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 223-7; Gospel Vol. 9, pp. 140-5)
(Finally, when Jesus has nothing
more to say to Judas)
Judas at long last has a gesture of
resipiscence. He covers his face with
his hands and bursts into tears saying:
I am cursed! I am the opprobrium of
the Earth!
 Jesus says: You are the eternal
wretch! And to think that, if you wanted,
you could still be happy!
Swear to me! Swear that no one
will be told and I swear to You that I
will redeem myself shouts Judas.
Do not say: "and I will redeem
myself". You cannot. I alone can
redeem you. He who was speaking
through your lips a short while ago, can
be defeated only by Me. Tell Me the
words of humility: "Lord, save me!", and
I will free you from your ruler. Do you not
understand that I am waiting more for
that word of yours, than for a kiss of My
Mother?
Judas is weeping, but he does not
say that word.
Go. Go out of here. Go up to the
terrace. Go wherever you wish, but
make no noisy scene. Go. Go. No one
will find you out, because I shall be
watching. As from tomorrow you will
keep the money. Everything is quite
useless now.
Judas goes out without replying.
Jesus, now all alone, drops on a seat
near the table. And with His head
resting on His arms, folded on the table,
He weeps distressingly
(After some minutes, John returns to
a sorrowful Jesus, and he says:)
Oh! do not suffer any more! Do not
suffer any more, Master! I cannot bear
to see You suffer!
And am I not to suffer because of
that? My deepest grief! Remember that,
John: this will be for ever My deepest
grief! You cannot understand everything
yet My deepest grief Jesus is
depressed. John is holding Him close to
himself, with his arms round His waist,
anguished at not being able to console
Him.
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Jesus raises His head, opens His
eyes that He had closed to refrain His
tears, and says: Remember that we
are three to know: the culprit, you and I.
And no one else must know.
No one will learn it from me
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 233-5; Gospel Vol. 9, pp. 153-5)
ONE MORE PLEA TO JUDAS
(Now at Bethany, knowing that
Judas is becoming more and more
entangled in his web of treachery,
Jesus pleads with him to go far away
from Jerusalem and Judas replies
that it is too late. Jesus makes one
more plea)
Come. There is no sin that I do
not excuse and forgive. Say: "I want".
And I shall have redeemed you
Jesus, standing up, has taken him in His
arms.
But if the tears of Jesus-God fall on
Judas' head, Judas' lips remain closed.
He does not say the requested word. He
does not even say forgive me when
Jesus whispers through his hair: You
can perceive whether I love you! I
should have reproached you! I kiss you.
I should be entitled to say to you: "Ask
your God to forgive you" and I only ask
you to have the will to be forgiven. You
are so ill! You cannot ask much of a
person who is very ill. Of all the sinners
who came to Me, I asked absolute
repentance in order to be able to forgive
them. I am asking you, My friend, only
the will to repent, and then I will act.
Judas is silent
(Poem Vol. 5, p. 327; Gospel Vol. 9, pp. 270-1)
JESUS PLEADS TO THE FATHER
 (After Judas walks away)
Jesus lifts up His arms towards the
clear sky, and raises His very sad face
and soul to His Father, moaning: Oh!
Father! Will You accuse Me of omitting
anything that may save him? You know
that I am struggling to prevent his crime
for the sake of his soul, not for My life
Father! Oh! Father! I beg You! Hasten
the hour of darkness, the hour of the
Sacrifice, because it is too cruel for Me
to live near the friend who does not want
to be redeemed The greatest grief!
and Jesus sits down on the thick, tall,
beautiful clover. He bends His head on
His raised knees clasped in His arms,
and He weeps
When Jesus stops weeping, He
says: Father, take My sufferings and
force Judas' soul with them. I am aware
that I am asking what Justice cannot
grant. But Mercy and Love have come
from You, and You love what comes
from You and is One Thing only with
You, God One and Trine, Holy and
Blessed. I will give Myself to My beloved
ones as food and drink xxxii. So, Father,
now Oh! it seems to Me - through
Your great pity, Most Holy Father! - it
seems to Me but a dreadful dream,
brought about by his behaviour, but not
something immoveable and that I
may still hope, always, because infinite
is My suffering and infinite will be the
Sacrifice, and may it be of some benefit
also for him Ah! I am raving! It is the
Man Who wants to hope so! The God
Who is in the Man, the God made Man,
cannot delude Himself! The mist that for
a moment was concealing the abyss
from Me is dissipating the abyss is
already open to swallow the man who
preferred Darkness to the Light It was
Your pity that concealed it! It is Your pity
that shows it to Me now that You have
re-comforted Me. Yes, Father, also that!
Everything! And I will be Mercy until the
end, because such is My Essence.
He is still praying, silently, His arms
stretched out crosswise, and His
distressed face calms down more and
more, assuming the appearance of
solemn peace
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 328-9; Gospel Vol. 9, pp. 271-3)

are My Blood and My Flesh to become

condemnation for one of them? Father,
help Me! A germ of repentance in that
heart! Father, why are You going
away? Are You already moving away
from Your Word Who is praying?
Father, the hour has come. I know. May
Your blessed will be done! But leave
Your Son, Your Christ, in Whom, by
Your inscrutable decree the certain
clairvoyance of the future, is diminishing
in this hour leave Me the hope that I
may still save him. Oh! Father! I know. I
have known since I am. I have known
since, not only as Word, but as Man, I
came here to the Earth. I have known
since I met the man in the Temple I
have always been aware of it But
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PART THREE
JUDAS DECIDES
JUDAS DEPARTS ON HIS MISSION
(Jesus and all the apostles are
still at Bethany, and Jesus sees that
Judas is about to leave the property.
He calls out:)
Where are you going, Judas?
Please, stay here!
Since You know everything, why
do You ask me? What need is there for
You to ask, since You can read the
hearts of men? You know that I am
going to my friends. You do not allow me
to go there. They press me to go. And I
am going.
Your friends! You should say your
ruin! That is where you are going. You
are going to your true murderers. Don't
go, Judas! Don't go! You are going to
commit a crime You you.
Ah! You are afraid?! Are You afraid
at last?! You realise at last that You are
a man! You are a man! Nothing more
than a man!... You are as bad as those
whom You reproach as being
hypocrites! You have enticed us and
betrayed us. And we had left everything
for Your sake! And because of You we
are hated! You have brought about our
ruin
That is enough. Go! Go away! Not
many hours have gone by since you
said to Me: "Help me to stay. Defend
me!". I have done that. To what avail?
Tell Me one thing more, and think about
it before telling Me. Is this your sincere
will? To go to your friends, to prefer
them to Me?
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Yes. It is. I do not have to think
about it, because for a long time I have
wanted nothing but that.
Then go. God does not do violence
to man's will and Jesus turns His back
on him and goes slowly back to the
house
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 367-8; Gospel Vol. 9, pp. 321-2)
JUDAS MEETS THE LEADERS
OF THE SANHEDRINxxxiii
(Judas returns to the Sanhedrin,
and agrees to arrange for his betrayal
of Jesus. He is told:)
You should take us to Him when
He is all alone. You are aware of His
habits. You wrote to us that He wants
you to be closer to Him than anybody
else. So you must know what He wants
to do. We shall always be ready. When
you think that it is the right place and the
right moment, come, and we will follow
Agreed. And what retribution shall
I receive? Judas is now speaking
coldly, as if he were dealing with
common business.
What is mentioned by the
prophets, so that we may be faithful to
the inspired word: thirty silver
piecesxxxiv
Thirty silver pieces to kill a man,
and that Man? The price of a common
lamb during these festivities?! You are
mad! It is not that I need money. I have
plenty. So do not think that you can
convince me for greed of money. But it
is too little to compensate for my grief in
betraying Him Who has always loved
me.
But we have told you what we will
do for you. Glory, honours! What you
were hoping to have from Him and you
did not get. We will cure your
disappointment. But the price has been
fixed by the prophets! Oh! it is a
formality! A symbol and nothing else.
The rest will follow later
And the money when?
The moment you say to us:
"Come"
They take him to the door with
embraces and protestations of love
they watch him go away along the half-
dark corridor they listen to the noise
of the locks of the door that is opened
and closed
They go back to the hall, exulting
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 384-5; Gospel Vol. 9, pp. 343-4)
NO GREATER LOVExxxv
(Back in Bethany with all the
apostles, Jesus tells them that it is
time to go to Jerusalem for the
Passover. Then Jesus tells of His
coming betrayal by a most cunning
demon)
There is no love greater than
Mine! Neither is there a greater power.
Also My Father agrees if I say: "I want",
and I can speak but compassionate
words for those who have fallen and
stretch their arms towards Me from their
abyss. O soul of the greatest sinner,
your Saviour on the threshold of death,
bends over your abyss and invites you
to take His hand. My death will not be
avoided But you but you would
be saved, you whom I still love
Jesus is silent exhausted
The apostles whisper to one another
and they ask: But who is He speaking
of? Who is it?
And Judas, lying shamelessly, says:
It is certainly one of the false
Pharisees I think it must be Joseph or
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Nicodemus, or Chuza, or Manaen
Every man is anxious to save his life and
his property He trusted them too
much! You know that even yesterday
they were not present?! They haven't
the courage to face Him
Jesus does not hear him. He has
gone ahead and joined His Mother
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 391-2; Gospel Vol. 9, pp. 351-2)
JESUS HOUR DRAWS NEAR
(It is the Tuesday before Holy
Thursday. Now in Jerusalem, Jesus
thanks the apostles for their love,
and tells them that His hour is near)
I know which hour! says John
weeping. I know the hour. And it will
be after Your death and
resurrection!xxxvi and John
embraces Jesus tightly in his arms.
And are you weeping, if He is going
to rise again? says Judas Iscariot
mockingly.
I am weeping because He must die
first. Don't mock at me, you demon. I
know. And I cannot think of that hour.
Master, he called me a demon. He
has sinned against his companion.
Judas, are you sure you do not
deserve it? Then do not take offence at
his fault. I also have been called a
"demon" and I shall be called so
again.
But You said that he who insults
his brother is guil
Silence. In the presence of death
let these hateful accusations,
discussions and lies finish at long last.
Do not upset [One] who is dying.
Forgive me, Jesus whispers
John. I felt something turn in me at the
sound of his laughter and I could not
refrain myself. Jesus and John are
embraced, chest to chest, and John do. So much so that he says: But
weeps on His heart. remember that I want the money
Dont weep. I understand you counted in the purse before going out
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 434-5; Gospel Vol. 9, p. 405) from here with the guards.
You will have it! You will have it!
We will also give you the purse, so that
you may keep those coins as a relic of
your love. Ha! Ha! Ha! Goodbye,
JUDAS FINAL ARRANGEMENTS snake!
(It is now Thursday, and Judas Judas is livid He runs away
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 486-7; Gospel Vol. 9, p. 470)
meets with some of his fellow
conspirators)
Judas speaks in a low but excited
voice: This evening! After supper. At
Gethsemane. Come there and get Him. THE EUCHARIST,
Give me the money. AND JUDAS DEPARTURExxxviii
No. We will give it to you when you (In the house of the Last Supper,
call for us this evening. We do not trust Jesus has changed the bread and the
you! We want you to stay with us. You wine into His Body and Blood)
never know! says Elkai with a sneer. He now has the empty chalice in
The others nod assent in chorus. His hands. Only at its bottom there is a
Judas flares up in a temper at the trace of wine, and in the light of the
insinuation. He swears: I swear by chandelier it looks just like blood.
Jehovah that I am telling the truth! Judas Iscariot, in front of whom is the
Sadoc replies to him: All right. But chalice, looks at it as if he were
it is better to do it this way. Come when enchanted, then he averts his eyes.
it is time, take those who are charged to Jesus watches him and shudders, and
capture Him and go with them, lest the John, leaning as he is on His chest,
stupid guards may arrest Lazarus by feels it. Why not say so! You are
chance and may bring about a lot of shivering he exclaims.
trouble. By means of a signal you will No. I am not shivering because I
point out the man to them. You must am feverish I have told you
understand! By night there will not be everything, and I have given you
much light the guards will be tired and everything. I could not have given you
sleepy But if you guide them! Well! anything else. I have given you
What do you say? The perfidious Myself.
Sadoc addresses his companions He makes His usual kind gesture
saying: As a signal I would suggest a with His hands, which, previously
kiss. A kiss!xxxvii The best signal to point joined, now separate and stretch out,
out the betrayed friend. Ha! Ha! They while He bows His head as if He wished
all laugh. A chorus of sneering demons. to say: Excuse Me if I cannot give you
Judas is furious. But he does not more. It is so.
withdraw. He will not withdraw any I have told you everything and I
more. He suffers because they sneer at have given you everything. And I repeat.
him, not because of what he is about to The new rite has been accomplished.
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Do this in remembrance of Me. I have
washed your feet to teach you to be
humble and pure like your Master.
Because I solemnly tell you that
disciples must be like their Master.
Remember that, bear it in mind. Also
when you are in high office, remember
that. There is no disciple greater than
his Master. As I washed you, do the
same to one another. That is, love one
another like brothers, helping and
respecting one another, setting an
example to one another. And be pure, to
be worthy of eating the living Bread that
descended from Heaven. And have the
strength, in yourselves and through It, to
be My disciples in the hostile world that
will hate you because of My Name. But
one of you is not pure. One of you will
betray Me. My Spirit is deeply perturbed
by that The hand of him who will
betray Me is here with Me on this table,
and neither My love, nor My Body and
Blood, nor My word, make him mend his
ways and repent. I would forgive him
going to My death, also on his behalf.
The disciples cast terrified glances at
one another. They scrutinise one
another suspiciously. Peter stares at the
Iscariot in a revival of all his doubts.
Judas Thaddeus in his turn jumps to his
feet to look at the Iscariot above
Matthew's body.
But the Iscariot is so sure of himself!
In his turn he looks at Matthew, as if he
suspected him. He then looks fixedly at
Jesus, and smiling, he asks: Is it I
perhaps? He seems to be the one
who is most certain of his honesty and
says so, not to let the conversation drop.
Jesus repeats His gesture, saying:
You are saying so, Judas of Simon,
not I. You are saying so. I have not
mentioned your name. Why are you
accusing yourself?-Ask your internal
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warner, your conscience of a man, the
conscience that God the Father gave
you that you might behave as a man,
and listen whether it accuses you. You
will be the first to know. But if it
reassures you, why do you utter a word
and speak of a deed that is anathema,
even to mention or to think of as a
joke?
Jesus is speaking calmly. He seems
to be supporting a proposed thesis as a
learned man may do with his pupils. The
confusion is great, but Jesus' calm
appeases it.
But Peter, who is the most
suspicious of Judas - perhaps
Thaddeus also is so, but he does not
look so, disarmed as he is by the
Iscariot's easy manners - plucks John's
sleeve, and when John, who has
pressed against Jesus upon hearing
Him speak of betrayal, turns round, he
whispers to him: Ask Him who it is.
John takes his previous position
again, he only raises his head slightly,
as if he wanted to kiss Jesus, and in the
meantime he whispers in His ear:
Master, who is it?
And Jesus in a very low voice,
kissing him, in His turn, on his head,
says: It is he to whom I shall give a
piece of bread dipped in the dish.
And taking another entire loaf, not
the remains of the one used for the
Eucharist, He detaches a large morsel,
He dips it into the lamb's sauce left in
the tray, and says: Take it, Judas. You
like this.
Thank You, Master. I do like it
and unaware of what that morsel is, he
eats it, while John, horrified, closes his
eyes, so as not to see the horrid smile
of the Iscariot, as he bites the accusing
bread with his strong teeth.
 Well. Now that I have made you
happy, go says Jesus to Judas.
Everything has been accomplished,
here (He lays much stress on the word).
What is still left to be done elsewhere,
do it quickly, Judas of Simon.
I will obey You at once, Master.
Then I will join You at Gethsemane. You
are going there, are You not? As
usual?xxxix
Yes I am going there as
usual.
What has he got to do? asks
Peter. Is he going by himself?
I am not a baby says Judas
scoffingly, as he puts on his mantle.
Let him go. He and I know what
must be done says Jesus.
Yes, Master. Peter is silent.
Perhaps he thinks he has committed a
sin, suspecting his companion. Resting
his forehead on the palm of his hand, he
becomes pensive.
Jesus presses John to His heart and
whispers again through his hair: Say
nothing to Peter for the time being. It
would be a useless scandal.
Goodbye, Master. Goodbye,
friends says Judas, greeting them.
Goodbye replies Jesus.
And Peter says: Goodbye, boy.
John, his head almost on Jesus' lap,
whispers: Satan! Jesus alone hears
him and sighs
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 505-7; Gospel Vol. 9, pp. 493-6)
THE APOSTLES IN TURMOIL
(Before leaving for Gethsemane,
Jesus reminds the remaining
apostles that they are His chosen
ones)
Do not say: "So, if You chose us,
why did You choose a betrayer. If You
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know everything, why did You do that?"
Do not even ask who he is. He is not a
man. He is Satanxl If Satan, the
eternal mimic of God, had not become
incarnate in human flesh, this
possessed man could not have escaped
My power of Jesus. I said: "possessed".
No. He is much more: he is annihilated
in Satan.
Since You have driven demons
away, why did you not free him? asks
James of Alphaeus.
Are you asking that for your own
sake, fearing that you are the one? Be
not afraid of that.
I, then?
I?
I?
Be quiet. I am not mentioning that
name. I am being merciful, do
likewise.
But why did You not defeat him?
Could You not do that?
I could. But in order to prevent
Satan from taking bodily form to kill Me,
I should have had to exterminate the
human race before Redemption. So
what would I have redeemed?
Tell me, Lord, tell me! Peter has
fallen on his knees and he shakes Jesus
phrenetically as if he were a prey to
frenzy. Is it I? Is it I? Shall I examine
my own conscience? I do not think so.
But You You said that I will disown
You And I am quivering Oh! how
horrible if it is I!
No, Simon of Jonah. It is not you.
Why are You depriving me of my
name "Peter"?xli So am I Simon again?
See? You are saying so! It is I! But
how could I? Tell me, tell me, all of you.
When was it that I became a traitor?
Simon? John? Tell me!
Peter, Peter, Peter! I am calling
you Simon because I am thinking of our
first meeting, when you were Simon.
And I am thinking how you have always
been loyal since the first moment. It is
not you. I, the Truth, am telling you.
Who, then?
It is Judas of Kerioth! Have you not
yet understood that? shouts
Thaddeus, who can no longer restrain
himself.
Why did you not tell me before?
Why? shouts Peter as well.
Silence. It is Satan. He has no
other name. Where are you going,
Peter?
To look for him.
Leave that mantle and that
weapon at once. Or shall I drive you
away and curse you?
No, no! Oh! my Lord! But I but
I Have I become delirious, have I?
Oh! Oh! Peter has thrown himself on
the ground and is weeping at Jesus'
feet.
I give you My commandment: love
and forgive one anotherxlii. Have you
understood? Even if in the world there is
hatred, let only love be in you. For
everybody. How many traitors you will
find on your way! But you must not hate
them and return evil for evil. Otherwise
the Father will hate you. I have been
hated and betrayed, long before you.
And yet, as you can see, I do not hate

(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 514-5; Gospel Vol. 9, pp. 505-6)

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 PART FOUR
JUDAS FINAL ACTIONS
THE BETRAYAL WITH A KISSxliii
(After agonising alone in the
Garden of Gethsemane, Jesus
returns to the apostles, just as a
horde of guards arrive, headed by
Judas)
Judas approaches Jesus,
enduring the glance of His eyes, which
have become the flashing eyes of His
best days. And he does not lower his
face either. On the contrary, he
approaches the Master with the smile of
a hyena and kisses His right cheek.
My friend, what have you come
for? Are you betraying Me with a kiss?
Judas bends his head for a moment,
then raises it insensible to reproach
as to every invitation to repent.
Jesus, after the first words uttered
with the majesty of a Master, speaks in
the sorrowful tone of one who resigns
oneself to a misfortune.
The guards, shouting, come forward
with ropes and clubs and try to get hold
not only of Christ, but also of the
apostles, with the exception of Judas
Iscariot, of course.
Who are you looking for? asks
Jesus calmly and solemnly.
Jesus the Nazarene.
I am He. His voice is thunderous.
Before the murderous world and the
innocent one, before nature and the
stars, Jesus bears this clear, loyal,
certain witness to Himself, I should say
that He is happy to be able to bear it.
But, if He had thrown a thunderbolt,
He could not have done more. They all
fall to the ground like mown sheaves of
corn. No one remains standing except
Judas, Jesus and the apostles, who
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take fresh heart again at the sight of the
overthrown soldiers. So much so that
they approach Jesus, threatening Judas
so explicitly, that the latter makes a leap
just in time to avoid a masterly stroke of
Simon's sword. In vain, pursued by the
stones and sticks thrown at him by the
apostles not armed with swords, he
escapes beyond the Kidron and
disappears in a dark lane
(Poem Vol. 5, p. 538; Gospel Vol. 10, p. 34)
JESUS TWO SORES
(Jesus comments to Maria
Valtorta:)
I was a spirit already in agony
because of the effort of having to
overcome the two greatest sorrows of a
man: to say goodbye to a beloved
mother, and to have an unfaithful friend
close by. They were two sores that
scorched My heart: the former with Her
tears, the latter with his hatred.
I had to share My bread with My
Cain. I had to speak to him in a friendly
manner in order not to denounce him to
the others, as I was afraid they might
react violently, and in order to avoid a
crime. In any case it would have been
useless, as everything was already
written in the great book of lifexliv: both
My holy Death and Judas' suicide. Any
other death was useless and
disapproved of by God. No other blood
but Mine was to be shed, or was shed.
The halter strangled that life, shutting up
his impure blood which had been sold to
Satan in the filthy sack of the traitor's
body. [It was] blood that was not to be
mixed, falling on the Earth, with the
most pure blood of the Innocent
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 541-2; Gospel Vol. 10, pp. 38-9)
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 JUDAS FINAL TORMENT
AND DEATHxlv
(Maria Valtorta writes:)
The Iscariot looks like a furious
wild beast hunted down by a pack of
mastiffs. Every breath of wind rustling
among leaves, any noise in the streets,
the gurgling of a fountain, make him
start and turn round suspiciously and
with terror, as if an executioner had
caught up with him. He looks round with
his head lowered, his neck twisted,
rolling his eyes like one who wants to
see but is afraid of seeing, and if a play
of moonlight forms a shadow with a
human appearance, he opens his eyes
wide, he jumps back, he becomes more
livid than he normally is, he stops for a
moment and then runs away headlong,
retracing his steps, slipping away along
other narrow streets
While running so blindly, he bumps
against a stray dog - the first dog I have
seen since I had visions - a big grey
hairy dog that moves to one side
snarling, ready to hurl itself upon the
disturber. Judas opens his eyes and
meets the two phosphorescent ones
staring at him, and he sees the white
uncovered fangs that seem to be
laughing in a diabolic manner. He gives
a shriek of terror. The dog, that perhaps
takes it for a cry of menace, rushes upon
him and they both roll in the dust: Judas
underneath, paralysed by fear, the dog
on top of him. When the animal leaves
the prey, perhaps considered unworthy
of a struggle, Judas is bleeding because
of two or three bites, and his mantle is
badly torn. One bite has injured Judas'
cheek, exactly where he kissed Jesus
[A little later] he finds himself at the
entrance to the Garden of the Mount of
Olives. He shouts: No! No! when he
recognises the place. Then, I do not
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know through which irresistible force or
through which satanic criminal sadism,
he goes forward. He looks for the place
where Jesus was arrested
He looks and looks and then he
utters a hoarse cry and jumps
backwards. He shouts: That blood,
that blood! with his hand stretched
out and his forefinger pointed to it. In the
increasing light his face is ashen and
ghastly. He looks like a madman
Judas sees Jesus' mantle left folded
on the rock. He recognises it. He wants
to touch it. He is afraid. He stretches out
his hand and withdraws it. He wants and
does not want. But that mantle
fascinates him. He moans: No. No.
He then says: Yes, by Satan! Yes. I
want to touch it. I am not afraid! I am not
afraid! He makes an effort and gets
hold of the mantle. And he laughs. The
laughter of a madman, of a demon. A
hysterical, broken, mournful, never-
ending laughter, because he has
overcome his fear. And he says so:
You do not frighten me, Christ. I am no
longer afraid. I was so much afraid of
You, because I thought that You were a
God and a strong man. Now You no
longer frighten me, because You are not
God. You are a poor madman, a
weakling. You did not know how to
defend Yourself Satan is the strong
one! Stronger than You. He defeated
You! Ha! Ha! Ha!... Take this! Take this!
Take this! I was wrong in not doing to
You what I am now doing to Your
mantle, to revenge myself for the time
You kept me the slave of fear. Fear of a
rabbit! Take this! Here! Take this!
At each take this! Judas bites the
cloth of the mantle and tries to tear it. He
rumples it with his hands. But in doing
so, he unfolds it and the stains wetting it
appear. Judas stops in his fury. He
stares at those stains. He touches them.
He smells them. It is blood He
spreads out the whole mantle. The
impression left by the two hands stained
with blood, when Jesus pressed the
cloth against His facexlvi, is clearly
visible.
Ah! Blood! Blood! His No!
Judas drops the mantle and looks
around. Also on the rock, where Jesus
leaned with His back when the angel
comforted Him, there is a dark mark of
blood that is clotting. There!
There! Blood! Blood! He lowers
his eyes in order not to see, and he sees
the grass all stained with the blood that
has dropped on it. As it has been diluted
by the dew, it looks as if it had just
dripped. It is red and shines in the early
sunshine. No! No! No! I don't want to
see it! I cannot look at that blood!
Help! and he holds his throat with his
hands and gropes about, as if he were
drowning in a sea of blood. Back!
Back! Leave me! Leave me! Cursed!
But this blood is a sea! It covers the
Earth! The Earth! The Earth! And on the
Earth there is no room for me, because
I cannot look at that blood that covers it.
I am the Cain of the Innocent!xlvii I think
that the idea of suicide entered his heart
at this moment. Judas' face is
frightening.
He jumps from the terrace and runs
away through the olive-grove without
going back the way he came. He looks
like one chased by wild beasts. He goes
back to town
At a crossroad he finds himself in
front of the rabble who are dragging
Jesus to Pilate. He cannot withdraw,
because other people press him from
behind, as they flock to see. And, tall as
he is, he dominates forcibly and sees.
And he meets Jesus' eyes They
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exchange glances for a moment. Then
Jesus, tied and beaten, passes by. And
Judas falls on his back, as if he had
fainted
When the street is empty, he stands
up again and runs to the Temple. He
bumps against and almost overthrows a
guard on duty at the gate of the
enclosure. Other guards run to prevent
the frantic man from entering. But like a
furious bull, he routs them all. One of
them, who clings to him to prevent him
from going into the hall of the Sanhedrin
- where they are all still gathered,
discussing - is seized by the throat,
strangled and thrown down the three
steps. If not dead, he is certainly at the
point of death.
I don't want your money, may you
be damned he shouts, standing in the
middle of the hall, just where Jesus was
previously. He looks like a demon who
has come out of hell. Bleeding,
unkempt, in a state of delirious fury,
slavering, his hands like claws, he
shouts and seems to be barking, so
shrill and hoarse is his howling voice. I
don't want your money, you cursed
ones. You have ruined me. You have
made me commit the gravest sin. I am
cursed like you! I have betrayed
innocent Blood. May that Blood and my
death fall upon you. Upon you No!
Ha! Judas sees the floor stained
with blood. Even here, is there blood
even here? Everywhere! His blood is
everywhere! But how much blood has
the Lamb of Godxlviii to cover the whole
Earth like this, without dying? And I
have shed it! Through your instigation.
Cursed! May you be cursed for ever!
Cursed be these walls! Cursed be this
profaned Temple! Cursed be the deicide
Pontiff! Cursed be the unworthy priests,
the false doctors, the hypocritical
Pharisees, the cruel Judaeans, the sly
scribes! May I be accursed! Curse me!
Keep your money and may it strangle
your souls in your throats, as the halter
strangles me and he throws the purse
in Caiaphas' teeth and goes away
howling, while the coinsxlix tinkle,
spreading out on the floor after striking
Caiaphas' mouth and making it bleed.
No one dare stop him.
He goes out. He runs along the
streets and he ends up again at the
house of the Supper. It is all closed as if
it were abandoned. He stops. He looks
at it. The Mother! he whispers.
The Mother! He is undecided knowledge with which Jesus looked at
I have a mother as well! And I have
killed a son of a mother! And yet I
want to go in To see that room again.
There is no blood in there He
knocks at the door.
He knocks again and again The
mistress of the house comes and half-
opens the door And seeing the man
so agitated and altered beyond
recognition, she utters a cry and tries to
close the door again. But Judas opens it
wide with a push of his shoulder and,
knocking down the terrified woman, he
goes in.
He runs towards the little door that
leads into the Supper Room. He opens
it and goes in He goes towards the
table he sees the chalice the
chalice enchants him. A little red wine is
still in the bottom of it, and the sun,
shining on the metal (it looks like silver )
inflames the liquid. Blood! Blood!
Blood also here! His Blood! His Blood!
"Do this in memory of Me! Take this
and drink it. This is My Blood The
Blood of the new testament that will be
shed for youl Ha! I am cursed! It can
no longer be shed for me to remit my
sin. I do not ask to be forgiven, because
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He cannot forgive me. Away, away!
There is no place where the Cain of God
may find peace. Death! Death to
me!
He goes out. He finds himself in front
of Mary, Who is standing at the door of
the room where Jesus left Her. Hearing
a noise, She has looked out, hoping
perhaps to see John, who has been
away such a long time. She looks as
pale as if She had lost all Her blood.
Grief has made Her eyes resemble,
even more, those of Her Son. Judas
meets those eyes that look at him with
the same sorrowful conscious
him in the street, and uttering a
frightened Oh! he leans against the
wall.
Judas! says Mary, Judas, why
have you come? The same words as
Jesus'. And they are spoken with sad
love. Judas remembers them and
shouts.
Judas repeats Mary what have
you done? To so much love have you
replied by betraying? Mary's voice is a
trembling caress.
Judas is about to run away. Mary
calls him with a voice that should have
converted a demon. Judas! Judas!
Stop! Stop! Listen! I am telling you in His
name: repent, Judas. He forgives
Judas has run away
He wanders about the country. Now
and again the wind carries an echo of
the clamour made by the crowds who
follow Jesus, cursing Him. Every time
such echo reaches Judas, he howls like
a jackal
Standing uptight under an olive-tree
on the edge of a terrace, he looks
towards Golgotha. He sees the crosses
being erected, and he realises that
Jesus has been crucified
 He looks, and looks like one
bewitched. He struggles: No! No!
Don't look at me. Don't speak to me. I
cannot bear it. Die, die, You cursed one!
Let death close those eyes that frighten
me, that mouth that curses me. But I
also curse You. Because You did not
save me.
His face is so troubled that one
cannot look at it. Two fine streams of
slaver run down from his howling mouth.
The cheek that was bitten is livid and
swollen, and so his face looks twisted.
His sticky hair, his very dark beard that
has grown on his cheeks during these
hours, make his face look dismal. And
his eyes! They roll, are squint and
phosphorescent. The eyes of a real
demon.
He tears away from his waist the
cord of thick red wool that encircles it
three times. He tests its solidity by
winding it round an olive-tree and pulling
it with all his strength. It resists. It is
solid.
He chooses a suitable olive-tree.
Here it is. This one, protruding beyond
the terrace with its ruffled foliage, is all
right. He climbs on the tree. He fastens
a noose solidly to the strongest branch
hanging out over the empty space. He
has already tied a slip-knot. He looks at
Golgotha for the last time. He then puts
his head into the slip-knot. He now
seems to have two red necklaces round
the bottom part of his neck. He sits on
the terrace. Then with a jerk he lets
himself slip into the empty space
The strong wind, that has risen with
the impending storm, makes the
macabre pendulum swing and whirl like
a horrible spider, hanging from the
thread of a cobweb.
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The vision ends. And I hope I shall
soon forget all this, because I can
assure you that it is a dreadful vision.
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 573-80; Gospel Vol. 10, pp. 78-86)
CROSS-ROADS OF REMORSE
(Jesus says:)
Dreadful, but not useless. Too
many people think that Judas did
something of little importance. Some
even go to the extent of saying that he
is well deserving, because Redemption
would not have taken place without him,
and that 'he is therefore justified in the
eyes of God'.
I solemnly tell you that, if Hell did not
already exist and was not perfect in its
torments, it would have been created
even more dreadful and eternal for
Judas. Because of all sinners and
damned souls, he is the most damned
and the biggest sinner, and throughout
eternity there will be no mitigation of his
sentence.
Remorse could have also saved him,
if he had turned remorse into
repentance. But he would not repent,
and, to the first crime of betrayal, still
compatible because of the great mercy
that is My loving weakness, he added
blasphemy, and resistance to the voices
of Grace. These still wanted to speak to
him through recollections, through
terrors, through My Blood and My
mantle, through My glances, through
the traces of the institution of the
Eucharist, and through the words of My
Mother. He resisted everything. He
wanted to resist. As he had wanted to
betray. As he wanted to curse. As he
wanted to commit suicide.
It is one's will that matters in things.
Both in good and in evil. When one falls
without the will to follow, I forgive.
Consider Peter. He denied Meli.
Why? Not even he knew why. Was
Peter a coward? No. My Peter was not
cowardly. Facing the cohort and the
guards of the Temple he had dared to
wound Malcus to defend Me, thereby
risking his own lifelii. He then ran away,
without the will to do so. Then he denied
Me, without the will to do it. Later he did
remain and proceeded on the bloody
way of the Cross, on My Way, until he
reached death on a cross. And then he
bore witness to Me very efficiently, to
the point of being killed because of his
fearless faith. I defend My Peter. His
bewilderment was the last one of his
human nature. But his spiritual will was
not present at that moment. Dulled by
the weight of his humanity, it was
asleep. When it awoke, it did not want to
remain in sin, but it wanted to be perfect.
I forgave him at once.
Judas did not want. You say that he
seemed mad and hydrophobic. He was
so, through satanic fury. His terror in
seeing the dog, a rare animal
particularly in Jerusalem, was a
consequence of the fact that, from time
immemorial, that form was attributed to
Satan to appear to men. In books of
magic it is stated that one of the forms
preferred by Satan to appear to men is
that of a mysterious dog or cat or billy-
goat. Judas, already a prey to terror
brought about by his crime, and being
convinced that he belonged to Satanliii
because of his crime, saw Satan in that
stray animalliv.
He who is guilty, sees shadows of
fear in everything. It is his conscience
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that creates them. Then Satan
instigates such shadows, which might
still bring a heart to repent, and turns
them into horrible ghosts that lead to
despair. And despair leads to the last
crime: suicide
My Mother was Grace that was
speaking, and My Treasurer that was
granting forgiveness in My name. She
said to him: "Repent, Judas. He
forgives " Oh! I would have forgiven
him! If he had only thrown himself at the
feet of My Mother saying: "Mercy", She,
the Merciful Mother, would have picked
him up as a wounded man, and on his
satanic wounds, through which the
Enemy had imbued him with the Crime,
She would have shed Her tears that
save. And She would have brought him
to Me, to the foot of the Cross, holding
him by the hand, so that Satan might not
snatch him, and the disciples might not
strike him. She would have brought him
so that My Blood might fall first of all on
him, the greatest of all sinners. And She
would have been the admirable
Priestess on Her altar, between Purity
and Guilt, because She is the Mother of
virgins and saints, but She is also the
Mother of sinners.
But he did not want. Meditate on the
power of free will, of which you are the
absolute arbiters. Through it you can
have Heaven or Hell. Meditate on what
persisting in sin means.
The Crucified is holding His arms
stretched out and nailed, to tell you that
He loves you, and that He does not want
and cannot strike you, because He
loves you, and prefers to deprive
Himself of the possibility of embracing
you, His only sorrow in His being nailed
to the cross. Rather than have the
freedom to punish you, Christ Crucified
is the object of divine hope for those
who repent and want to abandon sin.
But He becomes, for the unrepentant,
the object of such horror, that makes
them curse and be violent against
themselves. They become the
murderers of their spirits and bodies,
through their persistence in sin
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 580-82; Gospel Vol. 10, pp. 87-9)

(Jesus says:)
Who was loved by Me like
Judas? But he did not have Me-God in
his heart. And he is the damned deicide,
infinitely guilty as an Israelite and as a
disciple, as a suicide and a deicide, in
addition to his seven deadly sins and
PART FIVE
every other sin of his
(Poem Vol. 5, p. 776; Gospel Vol. 10, p. 330) SOME FINAL
UNDERSTANDINGS
JESUS CONSOLES
JUDAS MOTHER
(The scene shifts to a time after
Jesus Resurrection. Mary of Simon,
Judas mother, is lying on her bed,
being attended to by her friend Anne.
Mary says:)
I want to die! God is just and
He will not punish me in the next life. But
here, no. The world does not forgive it
does not distinguish I am becoming
mad, because the world howls : "You
are Judas' mother.
She is exhausted and collapses on
the pillows. Anne attends to her and
goes out to take away the dirty linen
cloths
Mary, her eyes closed, deadly pale
after the effort she made, moans: The
mother of Judas! of Judas! of Judas!
She pants. But what is Judas? What
did I give birth to? What is Judas? What
have I
Jesus is in the room, which is lit up
by a trembling light, because daylight is
still too faint to illuminate the large room,
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in which the bed is at the end, very far
from the only window. He calls her
gently: Mary! Mary of Simon!
The woman is almost delirious and
does not attach importance to the voice.
Her mind is far away, carried away by
the vortex of her grief, and she repeats
the ideas that haunt her brain,
monotonously, like the tick-tack of a
pendulum-clock: The mother of
Judas! What have I given birth to? The
world shouts: "The mother of
Judas"
Two tears well up in the corners of
Jesus' very mild eyes. I am surprised at
them. I did not think that Jesus could
weep, also after His resurrection
He bends. The bed is so low for Him
Who is so tall! He lays His hand on the
feverish forehead, pushing aside the
cloths damp with vinegar, and He says:
A poor wretch. That and nothing else.
If the world shouts, God covers the
shout of the world saying to you: "Have
peace, because I love you". Look at Me,
poor mother! Gather your lost spirit and
put it in My hands. I am Jesus!
Mary of Simon opens her eyes, as if
she were coming out of a nightmare and
she sees the Lord. She feels His Hand
on her forehead, she covers her face
with her trembling hands and moans:
Do not curse me! If I had known what
I was giving birth to, I would have torn
my womb to prevent him from being
born.
And you would have sinned. Mary!
oh! Mary! Do not depart from your
justice because of the sin of another
person. The mothers who have fulfilled
their duty must not consider themselves
responsible for the sins of their sons.
You have done your duty, Mary. Give
Me your poor hands. Be calm, poor
mother.
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I am Judas' mother. I am unclean
like all the things that demonlv touched.
The mother of a demon! Do not touch
me. She struggles to avoid the divine
Hands that want to hold her.
The two tears of Jesus fall on her
face, burning once again with fever. I
have purified you, Mary. My tears of
compassion are on you. I have not shed
My tears on anybody since I consumed
My sorrow. But I am weeping over you
with all My loving pity. He has
succeeded in getting hold of her hands
and He sits, yes, He really sits down on
the edge of the little bed, holding her
trembling hands in His.
The loving compassion of His bright
eyes caresses, envelops and cures the
poor wretch, who calms down, weeping
silently and whispering: Have You no
grudge against me?
I have love. That is why I have
come. Have peace.
You forgive! But the world! Your
Mother! She will hate me.
She thinks of you as of a sister.
The world is cruel. That is true. But My
Mother is the Mother of the Love, and
She is good. You cannot go about in the
world, but She will come to you when
everything is at peace. Time
pacifies
Make me die, if You love me
A little longer. Your son was not
able to give Me anything. Give Me a
period of time of your suffering. It will be
a short one.
My son has given You too much
Infinite horror he has given You.
And you your infinite sorrow. The
horror is over. It no longer serves. Your
sorrow serves. It joins these wounds of
Mine, and Your tears and My Blood
wash the world. All sorrows join together
to wash the world. Your tears are
between My Blood and the tears of My
Mother, and around them there is all the
sorrow of the saints who will suffer for
the Christ and for men, for My sake and
for the sake of men. Poor Mary! He
lays her down gently, He crosses her
hands and watches her, as she calms
down
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 794-6; Gospel Vol. 10, pp. 353-4)

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 A MESSAGE
FOR JESUS FUTURE PRIESTS
(Shortly before His Ascension
into Heaven, Jesus says to His
apostles:)
Do not be hard on those who
repent. Remember! Remember! Many
of you ran away twenty two days ago.
And was your running away perhaps not
a repudiation of your love for Me?
Therefore, as I received you as soon as
you, repentant, came to Me, do the
same yourselves. Do everything I did.
That is My commandlvi. You lived with
Me for three years. You know My deeds
and My thoughts. When, in future, you
will find yourselves in front of a case to
be decided, look back to the time when
you were with Me, and behave as I
behaved. You will never go wrong. I am
the living perfect example of what you
have to do.
And remember also that I did not
refuse Myself even to Judas of
Kerioth A priest must try to save, by
all possible means. And let love always
prevail, among the means used to save.
Consider that I was not unaware of
Judas' horror But, overcoming all
disgust, I treated the wretch as I treated
John. You you will often be spared the
bitterness of knowing that nothing is of
any use to save a beloved disciple
And you will therefore be able to work
without the tiredness that affects one,
when one knows that everything is
useless One must work even then
always until everything is
accomplished
But You are suffering, Lord!?! Oh!
I did not believe that You could suffer
any more! You still suffer because of
Judas! Forget him Lord! shouts John,
who does not turn his eyes away from
his Lord for one moment.
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Jesus opens His arms, in His usual
attitude of resigned confirmation of a
painful fact, and He says: It is so
Judas has been and is the deepest
sorrow in the sea of My sorrows. It is the
sorrow that remains The other
sorrows have come to an end with the
end of the Sacrifice. But this one
remains. I loved him. I consumed Myself
in the effort to save him I was able to
open the doors of Limbo and bring out
the justlvii, I was able to open the doors
of Purgatorylviii, and bring out those who
were being purified. But the place of
horror was closed upon him. In vain I
died for him.
Do not suffer! Do not suffer! You
are glorious, my Lord! Glory and joy to
You. You have consumed Your
sorrow! implores John again.
No one really thought that He
could still suffer! they all say, amazed
and moved, whispering to one another.
And do you not think of how much
sorrow My Heart will still have to suffer
throughout ages, for every unrepentant
sinner, for every heresy that denies Me,
for every believer who renounces Me,
for every - torture of all tortures - for
every guilty priest, the cause of scandal
and ruin? You do not know! You do not
know as yet. You will never know fully,
until you are with Me in the Light of
Heaven. Then you will understand In
contemplating Judas, I contemplated
the chosen ones whose election is
changed into ruin through their wicked
will Oh! you who are faithful, you who
will form the future priests, remember
My sorrow, grow holier and holier to
comfort My sorrow, make them holy so
that, as far as possible, there may be no
repetition of this sorrow. Exhort, watch,
teach, fight, be as heedful as mothers,
as untiring as teachers, as vigilant as
shepherds, as man-like as warriors, to
support the priests that will be formed by
you. Ensure, oh! do ensure that the sin
of the twelfth apostle may not have too
many repetitions in future Be as I was
with you, as I am with you
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 832-3; Gospel Vol. 10, pp. 399-
401)
A REASON FOR THE WORK
(Jesus gives seven reasons for
giving this extraordinary work, later
to be assembled into its English
translation: The Poem of the Man-
God. This is one of these reasons)
To show the power of My Word
and its different effects according to
whether the person receiving it
belonged to the group of men of good
will, or to that of those who had a
sensual will, which is never righteous.
The Apostles and Judas. Here are
the two opposed examples. The former,
very imperfect, rough, ignorant, violent,
but with good will. Judas, learned more
than most of them, refined by living in
the capital and in the Temple, but of evil
will. Watch the evolution of the former in
Good, their ascent. Watch the evolution
of the latter in Evil, and his descent
Merit is really consequent on the
victory over disorderly passions and
temptations, a victory achieved through
love for God and to attain the final aim:
to enjoy God for ever. It should be
watched by those who claim that a
conversion should come only from God.
God gives the means to be converted,
but He does not do violence to the will
of man. And if man does not want to be
converted, in vain he has what serves
other people to become converted
(Poem Vol. 5, pp. 948-9; Gospel Vol. 10, pp. 546-7)
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DOES HELL REALLY EXIST?
(Jesus says:)
"The men of this time no longer
believe in the existence of Hell. They
have invented an afterlife according to
their taste, such as to be less terrorizing
for their conscience, deserving of great
punishment. More or less faithful
disciples of the Spirit of Evil, they know
that their conscience would draw back
from certain misdeeds if it really
believed in Hell
"It pushes this opinion to the point of
believing, sacrilegiously, that the
greatest of all the sinners of mankind,
the favorite son of Satan, the one who
was a thief, as stated in the Gospel lix...
can be redeemed and arrive at Me by
passing through successive stages.
"No. If he was the sacrilegious one
par excellence, I am not. If he was the
unjust one par excellence, I am not. If he
was the one who shed my Blood with
disdain, I am not. And to forgive Judas
would be sacrilege for my Divinity,
betrayed by him; it would be injustice
towards all other men, who are always
less blameworthy than he, and are still
punished for their sins; it would be
disdain for my Blood; finally, it would be
to neglect my laws.
"I, the Triune God said, that what is
destined for Hell endures in it for
eternitylx, for people do not emerge from
that death to a new resurrection"
(Notebooks 1944, pp. 76-7)
MATERIAL FOR INSTRUCTION
(Jesus says to Maria Valtorta:)
 "You now know Judas, don't you?...
Can you say I ever flattered him? I
rejected him. I resisted. On several
occasions I said, 'Depart. It's better to be
a mediocre Jew than an infamous
apostle.' But God can go no farther, out
of respect for man's free will! And I went
no farther. I sought to change the soul
of the one who was obstinate in evil,
even though unable to delude Myself. It
was my duty as the Master. I never fail
to do my duty. I sought to provide help
for this unfortunate, to work to save him,
not because I was able to save him, but
because it was my duty to try to, and,
above all, to leave you an example of
how to act with certain souls that are a
mixture of good impulses, and impulses
which are not good For in his
darkness, there is more material for the
instruction of those charged with guiding
men"
(Notebooks 1945-50, p. 238)
"How often have I said that the figure
of Judas - enthusiastic and believing,
then unbelieving to the point of betrayal,
in a 'yes and no' lasting three years and
which ended in deicide - is the figure
that should be studied most among the
followers of Christ, because it is the one
most frequently found among them?"
(Notebooks 1945-50, p. 543)
WHOM DID JESUS LOVE
THE MOST?
(Jesus says:)
"Do you want to know who the
apostle was who loved more than any
other? John. It was truly John. Before
and after the Passion. Before and after
Pentecost. He and I: two oceans of love,
where the former is only slightly less
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than the latter, into which it pours and
fuses itself.
"And who is the apostle I loved
most? It is Judas Iscariot It's true. I
loved Judas Iscariot more than anyone
else. And now I'll explain to you and
you'll understand.
"John was the beloved one He
was good, pure, and faithful. It is
obvious that he attracted the love of
God and the love of the Man, that is, the
love of Jesus the God-Man.
"But tell me: is it more wearisome to
perform an action demanding
continuous effort, which we know
beforehand will be futile, or to perform
another which, instead of effort, involves
joy and repose in carrying it out? The
former, isn't it? And who will have more
merit? The one carrying out the former
or the latter? In the former case, where
the sole purpose is to do one's full duty
with no hope of receiving compensation,
or in the latter, where minute by minute
we are amply repaid for what we are
doing? Whoever carries out the former
act will have more merit
"And, do you know what kind of love
people have who, out of the heroism of
love alone and duty towards God and
their brothers and sisters, go on
showing interest and concern in
bringing their wicked brothers and
sisters benefit and trying to make them
good and glorify the Lordlxi? They have
perfect love. The love which carries out
everything and forgives everything,
overcoming all, moved by the perfect
end of doing the work which is pleasing
to God. Do they not succeed? Is it clear
that they do not succeed? Is it clear that
God knows they do not succeed? It
doesn't matter. They act, all the same. It
is the heroism of duty done to
perfection. And it also shows perfection
in sentiment. For if people did not love,
in God, those who they know are
delinquents, traitors, and incorrigible in
their perverse sentiments, they could
not love such delinquents. But they love
them with the sublime love which
swelled my Heart on the Cross, when I
was not praying for the just, but calling
for the Father's forgiveness of those
who were my killerslxii.
"This is the love I want in you for all
those who hate youlxiii.... If only you
knew how this love we give to our
unbending enemies - the
unconvertible - works miracles! Directly,
in terms of themselves, as was the love
of Stephen for Saullxiv, a love which
obtained for the latter an encounter with
Me on the road to Damascuslxv, or
indirectly.
"Love is not lost. Not even an
infinitesimal part of love, of this coin, of
this yeast, of this balm which is love,
remains without fruit. Gathered in by the
angels, noted by God, it rises into the
treasury of Heaven and there
serves - oh, mysterious operations by
God! - to acquire, bring growth to, and
treat souls [which are] slaves of Satan,
immobile souls in their newly-fashioned
justice, wounded and sick souls. The
love given for the conversion of our
crucifiers, and remaining without fruit for
them on account of their perverse will,
goes on to nourish other souls for grace
who are unknown on earth, but will be
known in Heaven
(Notebooks 1945-50, pp. 394-6)

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 Scripture References

i See Is. 9:6-7, 11:1; 1Sam. 16:1;
2Sam. 7:12-17; Ps. 2:7-9; Jer. 23:5-6,
33:14-16; Zech. 9:9-10; Lk. 2:4.
ii Ibid.
iii Ibid.
iv See 1Sam. 28:3-20.
v Gen. 3:6-24.
vi 1Sam. 28:3-30.
vii
See Ex. 22:18; Lev. 19:26,31, 20:6,17;
Dt. 18:10-12; 1Sam. 28:3-20; 2Kings
17:17-18, 21:6, 23:24; Is. 8:19-22,
19:3-4, 47:9-15; Jer. 27:9-10; Ezek.
13:8-10; Mic. 5:12; Mal. 3:5; Acts
8:9-13, 13:6-12, 16:16-18, 19:18-19;
Gal. 5:19-21; Rev. 21:8, 22:14-15.
viii
Ps. 8:; Ezek. 2:1 to 3:11; Dan. 7:13;
Mt. 8:20, 16:13,27-8; Acts 7:55-6.
ix Ibid.
x 13:8, 20:12-15, 21:27.
Hos. 6:2; Jonah 1: to 3:; Mt. 12:38-40,
16:21, 17:9,22-3, 20:17-19, 27:63;
Mk. 8:31, 9:31-2, 14:58; Lk. 9:22,
18:31-3; Jn. 2:19-21, 11:25;
Acts 2:29-32; 1Cor. 15:3-4.
xi
See Lk. 22:3; Jn. 6:70-1, 13:2,27.
xii Is. 52.13 to 53:12.
xiii See Jn. 13:21-30.
xiv See Note 11.
xv See Mt. 12:45.
xvi See Mk. 16:9; Lk. 8:2.
Lk. 22:19-20; Jn. 6:27-35,51-8;
1Cor. 10:16-17, 11:23-6.
xxxiii Mt. 26:14-16; Mk. 14:10-11; Lk. 22:2-6.
xxxiv
Ex. 21:32; Jer. 32:6-15;
Zech. 11:12-13; Mt. 26:15, 27:3-10.
xxxv See Jn. 15:13.
xxxvi See Note 10.
xxxvii Mt. 26:47-50; Mk. 14:43-5; Lk. 23:47-8.
xxxviii Mt. 26:21-8; Mk. 14:18-24;
Lk. 22:19-21; Jn. 13:21-30.
xxxix See Mt. 26:16; Jn. 18:2.
xl See Note 11.
xli See Mt. 16:18; Jn. 1:42.
xlii See Jn. 15:17-25.
xliii Mt. 26:46-50; Mk. 14:42-5;
Lk. 22:47-8; Jn. 18:2-5.
xliv
See Ex. 32:30-3; Ps. 69:28; Dan. 7:10,
12:1; Mal. 3:16; Lk. 10:20; Rev. 3:5,
xlv Mt. 27:3-5. (See also Acts 1:18-20.)
xlvi See Lk. 22:44.
xlvii See Gen. 4:8.
xlviii
See Is. 53:7; Jn. 1:29.
xlix See note 34.
l See Note 38.
li
Mt. 26:33-5 & 69-75; Mk. 14:29-31 &
66-72; Lk. 22:33-4,55-62; Jn. 13:37-8,
18:17,25-7.
lii Mt. 26:51-2; Mk. 14:47; Lk. 22:49-51;

xvii Ibid. Jn. 18:10-11.

xviii See Mt. 4:1-11; Mk. 1:12-13; Lk. 4:1-3. liii See Note 11.

xix See Note 16. liv See Rev. 22:15.

xx See Note 11. lv See Note 11.

xxi Sirach 30:7. lvi See Jn. 13:34-5.

xxii Sirach 30:8. lvii

See Ps. 118:19-20; Is. 26:1-2; Ezek.
xxiii See Note 11. 37:11-14; Mt. 27:51-3; Rev. 22:14.
xxiv See Rom. 7:14-25. lviii
See Mal. 3:1-3; 2Macc. 12:44-5
xxv See James 1:13-15.
(44-6 Douay-Rheims); Mt. 12:32;
xxvi See Note 11.
1Cor. 3:13,15; 1Pet. 1:3-7.
xxvii See Jn. 12:6. lix See Note 27.
xxviii lx Mt. 25:31-46.
Num. 24:17; Is. 2:4, 7:14, 9:6-7,
lxi Lev. 19:18; Dt. 6:5.
11:1-12, 61:1-3; Dan. 9:20-7;
lxii Lk. 23:34.
Mic. 5:2-4; Jn. 7:41-2; Rom. 1:3.
xxix lxiii
See Note 11. See Mt. 5:44; Lk. 6:27-8.
xxx See Ezek. 9:; Rev. 7:1-8. lxiv Acts 7:58.
xxxi See Ps. 90:4; 2Pet. 3:8. lxv Acts 9:1-9.
xxxii
Mt. 26:26-8; Mk. 14:22-4;
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