1991

MILTON
LOUW
BUBBLEGUM LOVE
Poems of Milton Louw (1991)

Dedication
I dedicate these songs and poems to all the girls have given me inspiration. These lyrics
have given me new meaning to my life and has contributed to the fact that I have
regained confidence in myself.

“My inspiration is starting to dry up

But I realize as long as I love you
It will never happen
As everything you do and say
Gives me brand new ideas
For songs announcing my love for you”

“Can’t I stay a little longer

Please?
I’ll be real good to you
So say yes
‘Cause with you far from me
I long more and more
‘Cause I really do love you!”

I especially thank Collette, “the Lady of my Dreams”. You taught me to live again.

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Contents
Contents...............................................................................................................................3
Lady of my Dreams.............................................................................................................5
Do you love me?..................................................................................................................5
My True Feelings.................................................................................................................6
Love Thoughts.....................................................................................................................7
Song on my Radio................................................................................................................7
Why do you like a guy like me?..........................................................................................8
Heart – thief.........................................................................................................................9
Head over Heels...................................................................................................................9
Prisoner of Love.................................................................................................................10
I want you!!........................................................................................................................11
Doing it for you, Collette...................................................................................................12
Proving our love.................................................................................................................13
Your Love..........................................................................................................................13
Thank you! (Collette).........................................................................................................14
Love Thoughts...................................................................................................................15
Birthday Poem (17 June 1987 – Collette turns 18)............................................................15
My Birthday girl................................................................................................................16
Love Triangle.....................................................................................................................17
Unopened Love bud...........................................................................................................17
Letter to Leticia..................................................................................................................18
My Philosoply on Life.......................................................................................................19
Heart – Breaker ; Love Taker!...........................................................................................20
Love Thoughts...................................................................................................................21
A girl called Bernadette.....................................................................................................21
Can I be sure?.....................................................................................................................22
You’re the one for me! (Dedicated to Yolanda)................................................................22
Incomprehensible Poem.....................................................................................................23
Being with you...................................................................................................................23
Missing you!......................................................................................................................24
Wanting you Again............................................................................................................24
Memories...........................................................................................................................26
Freedom Flight...................................................................................................................26
Captives of Freedom..........................................................................................................27
Secrets ...............................................................................................................................28
Wander Lust.......................................................................................................................29
The Blues...........................................................................................................................29
Reality ...............................................................................................................................30
No More.............................................................................................................................30
Friends................................................................................................................................30
Raining Tears ....................................................................................................................31
Valentine ‘89......................................................................................................................31
Unexpected Love...............................................................................................................32
A Fleeting moment of Happiness......................................................................................33
Something Read – Something Said!..................................................................................33
Why??................................................................................................................................33
Brotherhood among us.......................................................................................................34
Child of Africa...................................................................................................................34
The Leftist Capitalist..........................................................................................................35
Lady of my Dreams

Chorus
What is love but a tender feeling
A feeling I wish you felt for me.
I know I have that feeling
And, it’s a feeling for you;
The lady of my Dreams

At night I go out and romance

With women I don’t even know
And dream its you with who I dance
The Lady of my Dreams.

Now even my waking moments are bound in dreams

While where I want to be, is simply near you.
This feeling of love makes me want to scream
All because I know I cannot have you;
The Lady of my dreams.

Repeat chorus.

I’d really like to know your name

(I’m not kidding with this request,
even though you think it’s a game)
But to me you’ve become an obsession,
The lady of my Dreams.

Repeat “Dreaming of you, the Lady of my Dreams”

(softly fading away)

Do you love me?

Chorus
I thought I could go through life
And never think about getting a wife
But now I suddenly know
Down the aisle with you I want to go
But, I’m forced to wonder
Do you really love me too?

I’ve decided to write this song

Because I’ve really got to ask you
And try and right this wrong
Because I’ve really want to know
Do you really love me too?

I’ve decided to ask you one more time

And maybe if I’m really lucky
The wedding bells for us will chime;
I know this could be premature
I’m sure you’ll say yes.

So once again ask …

Do you really love me too?

Repeat chorus

Today you spoke about another guy

And I pretended not to notice
But inside I thought, O why?
So I’ll have to ask again,
Do you really love me too?

Now you may be wondering why

And this is my simple reply,
“Because I really do love you!”

My True Feelings

I’ve got this urge once more

To write a poem declaring my love
Because you’re the one who makes my heart real sore!
Why, I’ve even asked advice from the one above
But I realize that’s real unfair
As I have to ask you the one for whom I care,
And so to you I put this test,
Am I really the one you love best?

Now once again I’ve asked that question

Not because I doubt your word,
But because I find it hard to believe
You love me, even though I’m such a turd!

Now as I end this poem

To you a promise I want to make,
A promise that no matter what happens
My feeling for you, I’ll never forsake.
Love Thoughts

Love is a piece of heaven which fell

Down to earth to give me problems.

I gave you my heart as if it were a ½cent

Cash it in and its worthless, but keep it and
you’ll have priceless memories

Love is like a bag of fruit, wonderful to

chew on but hard to preserve.

Thinking of you is fun; being near you, …

better.

Love is like a rose, beautiful to hold, but

real prickly to hold.

Love is like bubblegum, too much chewing

and it goes stale

Love is … talking to the one you love!

Song on my Radio

Today a song played on my Radio

And as it began to play, I lost myself in loving
memories
As the words seemed to touch my soul
Because my heart they seemed to tease,
And the suddenly I realized
To me, You Are The Greatest Love of All!

Chorus
I know my song will never be as good as Whitney’s
But I’m sure my message you’ll understand
And maybe one day, when I begin my own band
You’ll hear my song on your radio!

My ears are once more tuned

To the song playing so sweet
And, then, I know that if I lose you
My heart will cease to beat,
So move closer now
And together we’ll produce a band new beat!
And now as it plays to an end
My heart seems to turn to lead
As I’m forced to think
About all those really mean things I said
And so with this melody I write
I really mean to say “I’m sorry!”
And that, I still love you!

Repeat Chorus

No matter what I seem to do

I’m continually reminded of you
Which definitely proves, I only love you!

Why do you like a guy like me?

A friend of yours told me that you like me

But I want to hear it from you personally!
I’m actually a very shy guy
And that’s why I keep asking myself, why?
Why do you like a guy like me?

Chorus
I’ve watched you many times with admiring eyes
So tell me now, without any lies,
Why, Please tell me, why, do you like a guy like me?

I’ve seen you with a couple of other boys

And I’m sure you did not think of them as toys
You see, I’m a kind of doubting Louw
And for this reason I’ve just got to know,
Why do you like a guy like me?

I now wish I had a car

So I could take you and ride out far
And there I’ll perform once more this task
Because I’m just wanting to ask,
Why do you like a guy like me?

Repeat chorus
Heart – thief

This verse may not rhyme

But maybe in time
You’ll understand what I’m trying to say
Because the truth is I don’t want Janey, Felicity
or Dianne
As I want you, the one who makes me feel
like such a man.
But you still believe what others say about me,
even though most of it is lies,
and if you really don’t believe me, watch me
close and look in my eyes
while I tell you,
You’re the one whose stolen my heart!

Chorus
Heart-thief, why did I meet you now, after I promised myself that for love I’d wait,
But now I’ve suddenly up and realized
I’m far too late,
As you’ve already stolen my heart!

I’ve known many girls, some named, Yvonne, Janice and Elaine
But they think I’m going quite insane,
Because I left them all for you.
I’ve written you a couple of letters, and
meant everything from within my heart
But now its seems you are willing with me
to part
But, no matter with how many girls I’ll go out
with my years
I’ll always prefer (and wish) it was you so
I could draw you near,
Because you’re the one whose stolen my heart!

Repeat chorus

Head over Heels

Today you kissed me once again

But then you did something real bad
And it makes me believe you’re playing with me
And this thought makes me quite sad
Because I’ve fallen head over heels in love with you.
Chorus
Why do you play with me,
And think of me as just another boy
With whose feelings you can play as if it were a toy
But, I’m different you see
Because I don’t like being treated like dirt
And this is what is really making my heart hurt
Because I’ve fallen head over heels in love with you.

I keep telling you about how I feel

But I don’t think you believe everything I say
And if you don’t stop playing with me
We’ll be forced to part one day
Even though I’ve fallen head over heels in love with you.
Next time we kiss as we did today
Just promise you won’t do it again
And I’ll promise to make sure you get home, early, as this is not just a simple game
Because I’ve fallen head over heels in love with you.

Repeat chorus

Prisoner of Love

I tried pretending about how I felt towards

you girl
But I realize now I can’t keep on lying
to myself
As I’ve got to swallow this pill
Which says to me
I’m still in your power.

Chorus
For a long time now I’ve been trying out this verse
Wondering how I can say I love you
And that I always will, even “for better or worse”
As I’m kind a glad I’m still in your power.

The other day I even tried out someone new

But this came to nothing as I soon knew
That I’d rather have this bout with you
As I’m fully aware
I’m still in your power.
My songs just seem to be getting worse and worse
Because I realize I don’t need them as I’ve got you
And without you I’d probably end up in a hearse
Because I know
I’m still in your power

Repeat chorus

What’s this power you hold over me

I’m kind of hoping its love
Because my hearts real precious see
And now I’m thanking the one above
That I’m still in your power

Repeat “In your power is where I want to stay”

(softly fading away)

I want you!!

I wish I were older

So I could know just what to do
Because lately we’ve got a bolder
And now I feel my heart pounding
Cause I want to make love to you.

Sometimes I think maybe I’m just scared

But I want you to realize
I’m waiting till the day we wed
But sometimes I don’t think I can wait that long
Cause I want to make love to you.

The other day we were nearly caught

But I don’t think they’ll believe
That of that day came nought
So now I’m trying to cool down real fast
Cause I still want to make love to you

Having sex sound so crude

I try to think of it a little different
Just thinking of it as kind of nice with both of
us being nude
And now you have to give me a break
Cause I want to make love to you.
Looking at you naked gives me a chill
But we both know what’s right
And if you go on the pill
It’ll certainly change things
Cause I want to make love to you.

Doing it for you, Collette

My life has been turned upside down

As I never realized how much you love me
And now I know; I’m wearing a crown
And even though it’s made of thorns
I’ll still do it for you

At school, life is turning out funny

As they putting pressure on me
Thinking I was out just to get money
But even if I had the same choice again
I’ll still choose you forever.

Chorus
I’d love to start our friendship again
And this time I’m willing to listen
And even try acting a little sane
So I can keep you,
Cause all this I’ll do for you
As I know I love you Collette
And that’s something on which you can bet!

Now once more I’m getting lots of flak

Cause people think we don’t fit
And how you stuck me in my back
And our relationship has come to an end
But with you, I’m willing to try again

People often say I’m a Casanova

Just because I’ve know a lot of girls
But they’re all blown over
As I know what I want
And I know what I want
And you the one I’m trying to keep.

Repeat chorus
Proving our love

Last night we watched video’s till late

And soon as the others were gone
Neither of us could really wait
To jump into each others arms
Which proves to me really do love each other.

Chorus
Its real pity about what your family said –
They seem to have a funny idea in their heads
Which makes them think I’ve had you laid
But I realize we’ve got it made
Because even with this charge against me
We’ve stayed together see
To prove we really do love each other.

I’ve been close to other girls at times

And I’ve never been tempted away
Because it all seemed like mimes
When I’m not with you
Which proves to me I really do love you
Once, not so long ago
I tried to break away from you
But my heart said no, don’t go
Stay with this girl force you die
Which proves to me I really do love you.

Repeat chorus

Now you’ve taken me back

And I’m really glad
Because with me you’ve got a knack
To keep me forever happy
Which proves to me, you really do love me.

Your Love

I’ve been listening to “Love Notes”

And I realize they know what they are singing about
Because love is definitely a wonderful thing
This I know beyond a doubt
As your love has shown this to me.
I know they are singing from experience
But there’s still one thing bothering me,
And that’s that they thing of love as a “physical thing”
While I don’t think that’s really necessary,
As we seem to be getting along just fine
Without having to hop into bed
Because I know you are totally mine
Without this “proof of love”
And even though we come close,
I’m kind of glad we didn’t,
Even though I could have done with a dose
Of having your body joining with mine,
I know it would have been wrong
And this is my way of showing you.
My real reason for writing this song –
To tell you I really do need you
But, that I’d rather wait,
Until we are truly wed
But of late
I’ve been wondering again
And in the process nearly going insane
But I know we have been right
(Even though I’d still like to sleep with you at night)
As your love has show me the way,
And that’s the best, no matter what others have to say!

Thank you! (Collette)

Thank you for your wonderful (love) – letter,

I know no guy could have got a better
And it makes me doubly happy
Because you say you really do love me,
And I can say the same too
As I do really love you
Cause this feeling is really good
And this feeling is really good
And that’s the way it should

I love you plenty

And this is my way to say
I’m glad you love me
As I really do know so
And maybe together –one day – we’ll stay,
And I hope that you won’t then say no!
Love Thoughts

Writers and singers tell about love

But never tell how it is in real – life
When one falls in love
But you can’t get the right one for your wife

Love is … sharing your true feelings with

The one whom you LOVE!

Remember always: my love for you will stay

And grow stronger till my dying day.

I’ve been thinking of my sister

Especially today on her birthday
And I know I really miss her
And this is my way to say
I love you Arlene!

Birthday Poem (17 June 1987 – Collette turns 18)

Well I’ve decided to write you a birthday poem

Something to make you think a little of me
right now
And of the day we plan to set up a
home
But don’t ask, as right now I don’t know
how

This poem has started to sound real silly to me

And I thought about starting another one
But, I’ve got to have something special for you,
So I’ll just have to go on till it’s done.

Maybe I should write about the way I

feel;
Or, about how I really want you again;
Or, about how your heart I want to steal;
Well, I better decide quick otherwise
I’ll probably go insane.

I know this poem isn’t much of a present

But until I’m qualified that’s all I can afford
But you got tot realize every world is meant
So please, when you read this, don’t get bored!
Why the heck can’t I be rich, rolling in money?
So I can buy everything your heart desires
Whether it be clothes, pots containing real honey,
Or even a hot set of tires.

But my lot I suppose I must accept

And the most I can do is to give you respect
And a promise that one – day soon
I’ll even be able to give you the moon!

Happy Birthday! Gesëende dae vorentoe is my wens vir jou!

My Birthday girl

I’ve finished writing you a poem

So I thought maybe I’ll write a song;
To you how much I care
And how our love just can’t be wrong;
So here’s looking at you, Birthday girl.

You’re entering the magic years of youth now

The time you should be free
So if at any time you want your freedom
Just come and tell me
Because I’ll do anything for my Birthday girl.

As you get older, you get more beautiful

And that can’t be proven as a lie
Cause I’ve seen the guys looking at you
All wishing I’d just peg off and die
So they can get a chance with my Birthday girl

This song is up to s(peep)t

It seems I just can’t think straight,
I keep getting side-tracked by memories of you
And the nights when we stayed up till late –
So here’s to memories of you Birthday girl.

I hope you like these couple of lines

And that you’ll realize I mean every word
And not laugh your head off
Because you think them real absurd
So think once more of me My Birthday Girl
Love Triangle

Love is never very straight – forward,

As once again my love for you proves this to me.
I realize now that I should have worked out something see
And then we could have worked out something see
And not to be stuck in this damn Love Triangle.

You have your boyfriend, I have my girl

Why then, do I think we will fit better?
But, I suppose in your way you’re right
When you say you don’t want to hurt her;
But that still leaves me in a Love Triangle

Chorus
Love Triangle
You’re busy running my life: -
A girl I have, but I want another for my wife.
So perhaps with a little help from above
I’ll be able to get the one I really love
And break up this Hosted Love Triangle

We talked quite a lot, or at least I did

And maybe you right, I should have lied
And not told you about her, but I can’t
Cause if you’d found out I’d have died
And I would still have been stuck in a Love Trianle

Now I cannot sleep with my thoughts

As they keep returning to think of you girl
And I realize I don’t know what to say
As without you, ill always be in a silly whirl
And in my heart I’d still stuck in a Love Triangle

Repeat chorus

Unopened Love bud

I spoke to you once more today

And I realize the following words I should not say
But I feel in love with you once
And that feeling is still with me today;
Even though you think we should just stay friends
How many times haven’t I wondered,
Wondered: - if things weren’t the same:
Would you and I have been a pair,
And maybe even shared a surname,
And been “happy forever after”?

I know its no use thinking that way

As things are the way they are
But this won’t stop me saying what I have to say
As I’m continually wishing on a falling star
That one-day I will know for sure.

I often make jokes with you

About the two of us becoming a pair
And you probably never took any notice
So I write these words to show I really care,
Care about you: More than what a friend should.

So please remember these few words

These words that comes out of my heart:
I really like you a lot see;
As to me you’re a beautiful piece of priceless art
And my feeling for you increase your value for me.

Letter to Leticia

I saw you while I was on holiday

And instantly I like what I saw.
I realize many guys wanted your attention
So I thought you would probably chink me a bore
So I chickened out of going up to you.
(Something that’s never happened to me before)
I even though I kinda liked your eyes.
I also thought I might want more
A lot more than just a name
From a lady without a flaw

Hell! These words I write

Just seem to have fallen into a rut
Which makes me think that when you read this
You’re going to think I’m just another silly-nut
Who say such things to every girl he meets.
Oh, what the heck! Let’s see;
Yeah, I was busy talking about my holiday!
I came away from there without even talking to you
So I wrote to you – which was forward you might say
But I think this was the only way left
As I could not have lived another day
With my mind reminding me
That I’m letting the chance of knowing you slip away

Just a word of warning at this time:

These words are by no means a proposal.
(Just a proposal of being friends?)
Its just that I admire beauty at will,
And you are one of those rare beautiful things
Which makes me real inspirable;
And that’s the reason for these words.

Lots of love: Milton

P.s. I’m also using these words to impress you

And butter you up before I say I’m sorry
That I haven’t written sooner
But rest assured, you need not worry
As my reply next time will be more prompt

My Philosoply on Life

What is the meaning of life?

If you know please tell me:-
Some say its finding a compatible wife
Others: knowing how to help those in strife.

To me it means; - (1) being able to love

And having some special to receive it;
(2) Being able to worship the one above;
And (3) being remembered by those you love.

I’ve seen people trying the first and last

But never caring much for the second
As they want to live in the lane marked fast
And in so doing never really achieve happiness that can last

My next question would then naturally be

What are we doing to find meaning in life?
Why I ask is quite simple see,
Cause everyone only cares for “I; Myself and Me”
So how do I achieve it you ask.
I’m not sure but I’m trying real hard
And I must admit it’s quite a hard task
But I’ll keep with it till I’m put in a cask.

So why don’t we all try

To achieve these three ideals
Cause then there’ll be much less reason to cry
And none of us with the Devil will have to fry!!

God knows what your problem is

So carry your burdens and problems to his feet,
Ask for His guidance in all matters
And I’m sure success and happiness you’ll meet.

Heart – Breaker ; Love Taker!

Why, oh why does love hurt so?

Deep inside I’m really hurting bad
And its all your fault you know
Cause you are the only one who makes me sad
After you broke my heart.

Now its slowly healing – becoming better

But, sometimes I wonder about us
And those things I wrote in letters,
Letters now covered in dust
Which make my heart cry out even now

Chorus
Heart-breaker; Love Taker
Why did you have to choose me
Choose to make my heart ache
As now I feel lost and drowned in a sea
A sea of pity as my hearts broken.

Why do you still stay friends

After you fell for another guy?
But now while my heart mends.
I keep thinking of some thing why?
Why did you break my heart?
Why is picking up the pieces hard
Especially now while I’m sitting here?
Maybe it would have been better if my heart was made
of card
And then it wouldn’t have made a difference when you’re
near
Even though you broke my heart.

Repeat chorus

Love Thoughts

The secret of love is knowing how to

give it and not knowing how, or trying
to, receive it.

Love is only a fleeting moment of happiness.

Pain is the heart key to success.

A ring around the heart is better than

one around the finger

The secret of love is………..

UNKNOWN!

Look at a baby’s toothless smile;

Listen to its laugh;
Then: tell me love does not exist?

Loneliness is a room full of people ignoring

you

A girl called Bernadette

I met a girl called Bernadette

And now I’m really glade we’ve met
‘Cause she really intrigues me
And what that is what I like in a girl, see!

I know she’ll probably think this poem’s dumb

But it is the fault of her…
‘Cause when I see them, my brain goes numb.
(-Because they don’t look like washing pegs!)
Why am I writing this poem?
I don’t know either: but just wait:-
Maybe she and I will set up Home
If she turns out to be the ideal mate.

This is the end of the lyric

And to be quit honest, it is quite sick.

Can I be sure?

A friend of yours has been whispering a lot in your

ear lately and I’m getting worried;
She seems to be carrying messages from other guys
with whom. I don’t what you did
So tell me, can I be sure of your love?

Sometimes I wonder how its possible that a

beauty like you can like a guy like me
and all I seem to get for an answer is – that
you like my personality;
but how do I know that will always keep you true?

I’ve always tried to pretend that I’m not the jealous

tip who watches you with other guys
But lately I just can’t control myself and
keep watching you to see if you tell any lies
‘Cause I’m quite in love with you, that’s for sure!

I was kinda wondering real heard about how much

you care for me when I wrote this song
And that’s why I ask you these questions so
I can look in your eyes and see I’m wrong
‘Cause now I’m real sure of your love for me!!

You’re the one for me! (Dedicated to Yolanda)

Sitting here looking at you

I don’t know what to say
‘Cause all I have on my mind
Is seeing you each and every day.

I know I have to study

And you also have many years ahead
But I’m a patient kind of guy
So I’ll just wait until we can get wed.

There’s a bunch of stories about me

Stories about me being a Dad
But I know you won’t believe them
Because you know I ain’t that bad!

Your mom mounted at me the other day

And the worst part was: I didn’t know what to say
But that has all been left behind
‘Cause now I have made up my mind

“That you are the girl for me!”

Incomprehensible Poem
By: A Broken Heart

Its been a long time sine I wrote something decent

Something out of my heart that is really meant
And this is because my heart was too sore
But now I’ve found out that to life there is more
More than just loving you

You did the same as the others

And I hate all girls for being mothers!

Now I feel heart healing

As Cupido to me a new hand is dealing
In the form of another Heart –breaker!

But all of those who broke my heart

You were the only one about who I didn’t get smart
So revel in the fact that you’ve won
And I’ll worry about what you done
As you girls are all the same!

Being with you

I remember the first time we met

And now I’m really happy we did
Even though I acted like a real wet;
Which you probably didn’t even notice
‘Cause you were laughing too much.
Chorus
Your laugh is something I enjoy hearing
As it makes me think you’re happy –
And that’s makes my heart want to sing
As it is me making you laugh.

Now I’m sleeping out a lot

And my Dad has spoken to me about it
But I don’t mind as it’s you I got
And that’s the most important thing
As I care about you!

Repeat chorus

Missing you!

You mean a lot to me

And I know its now too late to see
But I still wish these words I did utter
Instead of always “nothing” mutter
As to me you are lost
Even though I still want you back!
(No matter what the cost:
As in Love I’ll make up for the money I lack.)

Wanting you Again

(My love for you still lives)

I feel so sad these days

When I sit and think of what we had
And I wish things I could change
So they wouldn’t turn out so bad!
But this is a useless hope
As you found someone new
And without you I’ll just have to cope!

I’m trying real hard to forget you;

To think just about what lies ahead
But all I do is revert to memories
When I lay myself down on my bed.
“Memories of wonderful times we spent
When everything was happy
And every loving word we meant”.

You once wrote down the words of a song,

And I like to think you meant what you said
When you wrote “I just can’t stop loving you!”
‘Cause these are words that stuck in my head
As these words for me are true!
Now it seems you’ve forgotten me
And that kind of makes me feel blue.

So many things have happened in between

That I wonder what is still to come –
Whether things will work out for us
Or whether our feelings for each other
Will just go numb.
I’m hoping it won’t end that way:
So if you find someone else to love
Please forgive me for these things I say.

I’m wondering whether I should give you

These verse
Or just keep them for me alone to see –
But that wouldn’t be right
As it would just remind me of the hurt inside
Of me!
I don’t know what I write
But I have to do something
As I just can’t sleep tonight.

Please don’t think I’m forcing you to do

Anything
As I’m willing to be a patient guy
So take your time deciding whether you want me back
Or if you’d rather to me say good-buy.
I hope your choice is not the latter
‘Cause if you choose the first
I’ll definitely start to feel better!

So no matter what you decide

Just remember this Collette:
I’ll always be ready and waiting for you
And that’s something on which you can bet!
Now as I end this poem
I’d like to end this with a special wish:
“I hope that one – day we can set up home!”
Memories

Your beauty never ceases to amaze me

And I know now I never deserved your love
But I’m thankful for what we had
And everyday I thank the one above
For loving memories we share!

Chorus
Oh these wonderful memories we share
Of so many fun times we had
Times when we were totally bare
Even though we weren’t really “Bad”
Oh memories can’t you stop eating at me
And just please, please leave me be!

Do you member the times…

We promised each other we’d get wed?
That we fell asleep in each other arms?
And meant every word we said
When we said “I love you!”?

How many times didn’t I promise you the world?

Promise to forget your (and my) past?
Promise to love you forever and ever?
At least I’ve kept the last
And I promise I always will!

Repeat chorus

Are these memories a blessing or a curse?

I don’t know! But they are things I’ll
Always in my heart nurse!

Freedom Flight

An eagle soars the sky,

Floating high above the earth,
He looks down on tiny specks of life
He knows not what they think,
Cares not!
Cause he is free.
Yet in life all this is a lie
For even from our birth
We are living lives filled with strife
Caring only for ourselves
Never others
All wishing to be free.

But all of you I’ll defy

As I too am free
Soaring
Never captive
Yet, one – day I’ll be no more –
And who’ll remember?

Captives of Freedom

High above the earth he soars

Alighting here, then there
Never still
He is free,
Can come and go when he wishes
He is King of the sky,
He is an eagle.

I too, feel akin to him

Never stopping, never still
Moving forth
Always free
Coming and going as I wish
Living out a lie
Pretending to live

Yet both of us are wrong

We are captives of freedom
We are caught by it
Longing for it,
Thirsting,
Never getting enough.

Yes mighty bird,

You and I are kin
Captives of freedom
Captives of life
Always free
Yet never!
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There is only one success: -

To be able to spend your life in your own way.

Secrets

The words of songs run through my head

Scenes, flashes from the past
Remembering me of what I’ve lost
What I’ll never regain;
Lost forever.

I’m always this way when I’m lonely

Thinking back – about the two of us
What we used to dream of
What we will never achieve;
Not together.

True love was supposed to be forever

Yet it seems to be a force
As it only remains in me
You have already forgotten;
Our paradise.

Now I weep when I’m alone at night

Thinking on the past we used to share
Wishing I could have it back
Treasuring thoughts from the past,
Loving memories.

Maybe my secret dream will one-day be true

And you and I will be one
Sharing, regretting time lost
Going forth in life;
As one.

Love is like a see – saw

Every up preceded by a down,
Followed by a down.
Wander Lust

What makes me so restless

Causes me to search
Looking, never finding
Continuing on this lonely path
Without ever getting rest,
Peace of mind?

I always blame others for this

Yet I know it seems from inside
Deep in my soul,
This search for something
Never minding the pain,
The pain I cause others.

I want answers,
Answers to questions not yet asked;
I want truth,
So I know how to lie;
I want knowledge
Knowledge to impress others with;

I want fame,
Yet standing in a cocoon of privacy;
I want things
Yet I never give to anyone,
Yes all this I want, and more
Yet none are what I seek;
So I will always have to keep searching.

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The Blues

What Now?
Nothing
Where too?
Nowhere.
With whom?
No – one
Why?
Don’t know.
Will I accept this?
Why not!
Reality

Life used to be lonely and dreary

Then you came into it;
It was fun.
Then it
Ended.

Now it’s lonely and dreamy again

‘Cause I’m without you
living on my dreams
losing touch of
reality

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No More

What am I living for

I’ve no reason to live no more!

I use to manage
Now no more

I live on the edge

Now no more

I thought you really loved me

Now
No
More!
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Friends

For what we are to receive, dear Lord

Make us truly doubly Thankful.

Friends in times of need

Who prove they are friends in deed,
In times of heart-ache
Our days to make,
When tears may fall
Or laughter won’t come at all
They’ll stand you by
Never letting you lay down and die
That’s what being friends is all about,
This is stated without any doubt
‘Cause True Friends are Friends Forever!

Raining Tears

The rain pitter – patter’s on the roof

Falling softly, gently, cleansing
Cleaning the world,
Without any force
Leaving everything beautiful.

A child’s tears fall from her face

Falling softly, gently, cleansing
Cleaning out her heart
Soon she’ll feel better
Without any force
Leaving everything looking better

The rain and tears don’t seem to affect me

Yet inside I feel the pain
Wish I too could cry
Cleanse myself of you / me
Leaving me totally new!

Valentine ‘89

Last night I promised you a poem

So now read this and think of me
And you might not have believed my words
But can now these feelings on paper see

It all started at registration

When you came in all dressed in pink
I nearly felt of my chain right then
Cause at the sight of my heart started to sink.
(Just don’t ask why, O.K?)

Yesterday was lots of fun

I enjoy walking with you through town;
Even though I talked too much
And continuously acted like a clown.
But this is because you intrigue me
As its not often I meet a girl I admire
A girl who knows what she wants
And from responsibility never tire.
This poem is starting to sound real weird
And that’s like my feeling towards you too
And my heart is going wild
Because I know I like you!

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The words of love-songs go through my head

Playing a melody so sad
Yet so true
One that sounds similar to my heart
As everyone in the world seems to know
True love does not exist.

Unexpected Love

What hit me?

This night of the 22nd I won’t forget
‘Cause something really special happened
As our hearts (and bodies) eventually met.

I know I promised to forget

And tomorrow will be just another normal day
But inside me, my heart will be going wild
And I’ve never ever had it feel this way.

Why weren’t we willing to accept it?

Others saw it before we did
While we always joked about it
But only ourselves it seems we were trying to kid

Now, whatever happens between us

I hope we give it a chance to work
Otherwise we’ll both end up sad
While in our hearts this love will lurk.
Tonight I’m not going to be able to sleep
And if I do, I’ll dream of you
Because tonight you and I said those three magic words
‘I Love You’
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A Fleeting moment of Happiness

Tonight I got peace in my soul,

A song in my heart
And a smile on my lips
All because I know once more what it is to love.

I’ve always said this feeling is not for me

I believe that loving was not possible
Because I never found someone
But now I have,
And it’s you I know I love!

Something Read – Something Said!

I always wanted to be a writer

And this is something I’ll be I’m sure
But the problem is what to write about
So people will sit up and take head.

That is why I wish my skin was whiter

So people will stop thinking they are more pure
Because they are wrong have no doubt
As we were all created equal
And that’s why I wrote this poem:
So everyone the truth can read!

Why??

“Look at me my white brothers

Come closer to me
And show you care about the others
By letting us all live free”

This request may sound funny

But you all are enjoying your lives
While we struggle for money
So we can feed our children and wives

Now I know what the laws are

But they are really quite unfair
And so if you’ll lift the colour Bar
It will prove you really care.

So now that you’ve heard my cry

Go home and ask yourselves; Why?

Brotherhood among us

Can’t we all come and meet each other

And no matter what colour we may be
Be able to show we love one another
And then together we’ll stand, you and me
The leaders of Tomorrow,
Planning for what is to come
Otherwise there will be lots of needless sorrow
Over killing which are quite dumb.

So come closer now and grab my hand

And we’ll accept each other as brothers
And then together we’ll be able to stand
To show our Father and Mothers
We want to plan for a common future
No matter what our race, colour or culture.

Child of Africa

My brother and I once lived together as one

But life was bad for me back then
You see, he’s white while I’m not
But, these are all rules set but mortal men
And I’ve often wondered why they said such thing,
Things that really hurt me deep inside,
While they pretended they were kings.
Now I’ve come to realize that they lied
Because we are all equal
And even though our skins don’t match
Everybody should be entitled to follow his own will
But if I said this, the jail door behind me they’d latch!

Now, I know these words may not mean a lot

But the truth is, they all I’ve still got.
Martin Luther King, jr: I have a dream that one –day this nation will rise up and live
out the true meaning of its creed: (We hold these truths to be self evident, that all men are
created equal.)

The Leftist Capitalist

Start early life – short go through

Extreme hardship and good luck.
But still walk off the edge
Do something wrong

Get another chance – begin at the

Beginning – a place I knew
Still live large – larger than you
Can dream in a year – night after night

Have it bad – yet have it all

The most beautiful Girl in the world
I had not yet met
‘Material Girl’ was the way I judged

Didn’t go away – yet did study

Was against politics – what a fool
Became the best politician
Learning the dangers of the Gravy train
A goddess was given to me
To name as in the time of Adam
Thought I was god – Really messed up
That’s when I lost sight of reality

Cancer – was very lucky in the beginning

Understood that I had never been taught
Tried new things – became the boss
Resigned because of principles not Fortune

Ran away – luckily I had friends

People who at least made an effort
Got there made a home, without her
Missed them to much

Came back master of destiny

A phoenix arisen – to fly – Kalahari
Down to earth – working at night
Paper millionaires who cannot file
Was all I learnt a waste

No!

I grew up knowing nothing feeling hurt

Made to learn to appreciate
Thank you teachers one and all
From the first who loved me – till the last

Now I understand the burden

The one of the leftist capitalist

Get paid for what you do well

Neither under or over – charge
Earn fairly, pay slightly better
Enjoy the fruits of your labour
Yet bury the seeds.

By being happy that you are moneyed

You give back equally
Try to teach another, to be us lucky as You!