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Rachel Newman
Professor Keyes
ENG 2950
We went out on a Friday night. It was our first date. Prior to this we had had coffee
casually at Starbucks. I was nervous because I had been daydreaming about this guy for the past
two weeks and was really interested in getting to know him. I wasnt sure if the feeling was
mutual, but he was the one who asked me out so I figured there had to be something there.
I felt uneasy. Like, this is the first time we were going out and he wanted ME to pick
HIM up? Granted, he was on the way, but still. What if I ended up not enjoying myself and
wanted to leave?
I consulted with my sister Shandra about it and she made a disapproving face followed by
an oh.
Well, maybe he wants a chance to make out with you at the end of the night she added.
Uhh Im not sure Im ready for all of that. What if it leads to more? Im wearing granny
panties! I exclaimed.
His neighborhood was nice. He lived on a quiet street off to the side. An awkward cul-de-
sac. I say awkward because it had a court at the end, but there were houses on one side of the
street and only woods on the opposite side. It wasnt traditional but I liked it. It felt very private
and intimate.
He walked out of the front glass screen door, casually dressed wearing jeans and a hoodie
with sneakers. I didnt know whether I should watch him as he walked up to the car or pretend to
be doing something else, so naturally I fiddled with Spotify my phone. When he got in the car we
exchanged heys and I put this new playlist on and began driving.
I was confused at first, blinded by the inevitable awkwardness of a first date, not realizing
Honestly I dont. My manager told me to listen to this playlist. Theyre pretty good. I
said.
It was Myth by Beach House that was playing I had already added it to my main
playlist.
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The bar we were going to was only a few short minutes from his house.
Once we were seated of course I was over analyzing everything. At first he slouched in
his seat with his elbow on the table and his head resting on his hand while he looked at the menu.
I was thinking oh dear God, I hope he isnt sloppy. I thought he seemed uninterested at first, but
We ended up having a great time. There were never any awkward moments, we were
both interested in talking to one another. It felt so natural and comfortable. He infatuated me to
my very core. He looked straight into my eyes as we talked, his were brown and full of mystery,
one that I was intrigued by and determined to solve. Everything just flowed, even when we
He got up to use the bathroom before the server brought the check back and an older man
who had been sitting at the same community table as us walked up to me.
Yes, were having a great time, thank you. Who are you? I asked.
We made small talk about the atmosphere and music selection. I told him my family and I
Well I can tell you guys are having a great time tonight, are you two dating or just
friends? He asked.
Well thats great. Thanks for coming in! Ill see you around. He said as he turned to
leave.
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At this time my incredibly handsome date was back at the table, watching me intently
The night was perfect. The air had that crisp, refreshing smell of spring. I like to think
that I thrive in this weather. Im happy and energetic, I feel awakened and alive along with all of
We made it back to his house, exchanged some words while sitting in my car. There was
tension between us, but a positive tension. I could feel that we both wanted so badly to kiss the
other, and in that moment of confidence--all thanks to my panties--I decided I would take my
chance. So after he said, okay Rachel, well, I had a good night, he leaned in, unsure of whether
People always talk about having that spark with someone. Its always the spark that
determines the fate of a relationship. When we kiss sparks fly, or the spark just isnt there
anymore. A common and rather accurate metaphorical description of the chemistry between
people.
Well when I say fucking fireworks blew my car up in flames, it was like the Fourth of
July.
I havent felt intensity like that in a while. He awoke this fire inside of me, and although
Ive never done ecstasy I would like to think that this is how it would feel. Never in my life did I
want so badly to just savor the moment. The feeling was phenomenal and unlike any other, the
purest of desire. We embraced each other with passion, his hands all over me, mine in his hair.
He kept repeating softly oh my God, and the more he said it the more I wanted him. He held
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my face with his hands, staring at me with those brown eyes again, sharp and steady, oh my
God Rachel he said lustfully. We continued in our embrace, all the while Myth by Beach House
Eventually our pace slowed and ended with him holding my hand between both of his,
rubbing it, and staring into my eyes. I wanted to melt into him right then and there. He had this
I have homework but other than that I dont have plans. Why? You wanna hang out?
He replied.
Well I was gonna say, Im going to a winery with some friends, you should come. I
said.
Are you sure? Youre not just inviting me to be nice and tomorrow gonna un-invite me?
He said, with that beautiful curve of a smile creeping across his face.
No! I really want you to come. I said genuinely, also smiling at this point.
Okay, well how about I drive since you drove tonight. He said.
Thats perfect, Ill just meet you at your house in the morning. I replied.
Great. Oh! And that means I can show you some music on the way. He exclaimed.
It was pretty cool to finally meet someone who had common interests as me, especially
music.
As I drove home I held a permanent smile on my face, I had so much to look forward to.
And if the next day was going to be anything like tonight then I couldnt wait. I got home and
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was too excited to sleep so I decided to clean my room, the next thing I knew it was 1:30AM. I
woke up the next morning at 7AM, wide-eyed with an insuppressible smile on my face. The sun
was shining through my curtains. They were calling for a perfect seventy-five degree, sunny
The winery was even better than I had expected. I was tipsy after just the tastings. My
friends really liked my date and we all seemed to have an enjoyable time. The weather was
perfect, as predicted. People were there with their dogs, there was a live jazz band that really set
the tone of the atmosphere, and we had a table full of various wines, cheeses, meats, and
crackers. And beside me I had the most perfect man I had ever met. He was just leaning back in
his chair nonchalantly holding his glass of red wine, all cool and collected with his eyes hiding
behind his jet black Ray Bans. I couldnt get enough. Our chemistry from the night before had
never dwindled, and after a few glasses of wine, good conversation, and a little PDA, we were
ready to leave.
As soon as we got in his car our hands were once again all over each other. We eventually
drove back to his house and ended up spending the rest of the day with one another. We made
Fast forward through eight days of sleepless nights, not being able to eat because of the
relentless butterflies in my stomach, and multiple FaceTime calls and text messages and were
back at the same bar that we had our first date. I arrived before him and to my surprise the
owner, Jim, was sitting right behind me. He recognized me immediately. We exchanged hellos
Once my date arrived we mingled with friends and had a few drinks, but we both had
Although it was mentioned a few times we hadnt had sex at this point. Even though it
was undeniable that we both wanted to, he never pushed for it. And despite the fact that my body
begged for it, my mind disagreed. Its known that if you give in too fast then [most] men will
lose respect for you and quickly become uninterested. I never understood the power struggle
when it comes to sex, and it really is a double standard in my opinion. But, that is beside the
point. The point here is that my body won this night and all of the tension leading up to this was
finally released. It ended with his arms wrapped around me, my head on his chest, and my leg
We woke up and readjusted a few times throughout the early morning. Around 5 or so I
woke up to him sitting beside me with his glasses on, drinking a glass of water.
But you were just so sleepy a few hours ago I replied, sleepy myself.
He expressed that he had a few unpleasant dreams, which lead into a more intimate
conversation of him telling me about his past, and how one of his dreams had taken him back to
this terrible experience he had. As he was expressing this to me and taking me back to that
memory with him, I could tell how much it affected him just through the tone of his voice and
Ive been broken. I mean, the only thing left would be to murder me because life has
I didnt know how to respond or what to say. But in that moment of vulnerability I
wanted to pick up all of his broken pieces and put them back together. I wanted to give him all of
the unconditional love that I possibly had to offer and show him that he didnt have to be broken,
and life didnt have to be this terrible thing that breaks you down and tears you apart.
It is both a blessing
And a curse
To feel everything
So very deeply.