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EING a Spokane Indian, I only pick theyll still smell the salmon on you, the salmon might be stars. They were com-
taught me about hope. From an early Couleeand watched the ghosts of other, my father would point out a
age, I was told that our salmon would salmon rise from the water to the sky hitchhiker standing beside the road a
never come back, and though such les- and become constellations. Believe me, mile or two in the distance.
sons may seem cruel, I learned to cover for most Indians stars are nothing more Indian, he would say, and he was
my heart in a crowd of white people. than white tombstones scattered across never wrong, though I could never tell if
Theyll kill you if they get the a dark graveyard. the distant figure was male or female, let
chance, my father said. Love you or But the Indian hitchhikers my father alone Indian or not.
hate you, white people will shoot you in picked up refused to admit the existence If that distant figure happened to be
the heart. Even after all these years, of sky, let alone the possibility that white, my father would drive by without
98 THE NEW YORKER, JUNE 21 & 28, 1999
comment. That was how I learned to be Jesus, Patsy Cline was our Madonna,
silent in the presence of white people. and Freddy Fender, George Jones, Con-
The silence is not about hate or pain or way Twitty, Loretta Lynn, Tammy
fear. Indians just like to believe that white Wynette, Charley Pride, Ronnie Mil-
people will vanish, perhaps explode into sap, Tanya Tucker, Marty Robbins,
smoke, if they are ignored enough times. Johnny Horton, Donna Fargo, and
Perhaps a thousand white families are Charlie Rich were our disciples.
still waiting for their sons and daughters We all know that nostalgia is dan-
to return home, and cant recognize them gerous, but I remember those days with
when they float back as morning fog. a clear conscience. We live in different
Indian, my father would say again days now, and there arent as many In-
as we approached one of those dream- dian hitchhikers as there used to be.
filled hitchhikers. Hell, those hitchhik-
ers faces grew red and puffy with the , I drive my own car, a 1998
ODAY
weight of their dreams.
We better stop, my mother would
T Toyota Camry, the best-selling
automobile in the United States, and
say from the passenger seat. She was therefore the one most often stolen.
one of those Spokane women who al- Consumer Reports has named it the most
ways wore a purple bandanna tied tightly reliable family sedan for sixteen years
around their heads. These days, her running, and I believe them.
bandanna is usually red. There are rea- With my Camry I pick up three or
sons, motives, traditions behind the four Indian hitchhikers a week. Mostly
choice of color, but my mother keeps men. Theyre usually headed home, back
them secret. to their reservations or somewhere close
Make room, my father would say to their reservations. Indians hardly ever
to my siblings and me as we sat on the travel in a straight line, so a Crow Indian
floor in the cavernous passenger area of might hitchhike west when his reserva-
our blue van. We sat on carpet samples tion is back east in Montana. He has
because my father had torn out the seats some people to see in Seattle, he might
in a sober rage not long after he bought explain if I ever asked him. But I never
the van from a crazy white man. ask Indians their reasons for hitchhiking.
I have three brothers and three sis- They were Indian, walking, raising a
ters now. Back then, I had four of each. thumb, and I was there to pick them up.
I missed one of the funerals and cried At the newspaper where I work, my
myself sick during the other one. fellow-reporters think Im crazy to pick
Make room, my father would say up hitchhikers. Theyre all white and
againhe said everything twiceand never stop to pick up anybody, let alone
only then would we scramble to make an Indian. After all, were the ones who
space for the Indian hitchhiker. write the stories and headlines: HITCH-
Of course, it was easy enough to HIKER KILLS HUSBAND AND WIFE ,
make room for one hitchhiker, but Indi- MISSING GIRLS BODY FOUND, RAPIST
ans usually travel in packs. Once or STRIKES AGAIN. If I really tried, maybe I
twice, we picked up entire all-Indian could explain to them why I pick up any
basketball teams, along with their Indian, but who wants to try? Instead, if
coaches, girlfriends, and cousins. Fif- they ask I just give them a smile and turn
teen, twenty Indian strangers squeezed back to my computer. My co-workers
into the back of a blue van with nine smile back and laugh loudly. Theyre al-
wide-eyed Indian kids. ways laughing loudly at me, at one an-
Back in those days, I loved the smell other, at themselves, at goofy typos in
of Indians, and of Indian hitchhikers in the newspaper, at the idea of hitchhikers.
particular. They were usually in some I dated one of them for a few months.
stage of drunkenness, often in need of Cindy. She covered the local courts:
soap and towel, and always ready to sing. speeding tickets and divorces, drunk
Oh, the songs! Indian blues bellowed driving and embezzlement. Cindy firmly
at the highest volumes. We called them believed in the who-what-where-when-
49s, those cross-cultural songs that why-and-how of journalism. In daily
combined Indian lyrics and rhythms conversation, she talked like she was
with country-and-Western and blues writing the lead of her latest story. Hell,
melodies. It seemed that every Indian she talked like that in bed.
knew all the lyrics to every Hank Wil- How does that feel? I would ask,
liams song ever recorded. Hank was our quite possibly becoming the only Indian
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kid was, way over six feet tall and two Jeez, I said. What happened next?
hundred and some pounds. Big buck Not much. I sat there until everybody
Indian. Had hands as big as this and was gone. Then I stood up and headed
arms as big as that. Had a chin like a for home. Im tired of this shit. I just want
damn buffalo. The fighter told me that to go home for a while. I got enough
he hit the Flathead kid harder than he money to last me a long time. Im a rich
ever hit anybody before. Indian, you hear? Im a rich Indian.
I hit him like he was a white man, The fighter finished his Pepsi with
the fighter said. I hit him like he was one last swallow, rolled down his win-
two or three white men rolled into one. dow, and pitched the can out. I almost
But the Flathead kid would not go protested, but decided against it. I kept
down, even though his face swelled up my empty can wedged between my legs.
so bad that he looked like the Elephant Thats a hell of a story, I said.
Man. There were no referees, no judge, Aint no story, he said. Its what
no bells to signal the end of the round. happened.
The winner was the Indian still stand- Jeez, I said. You wouldve been
ing. Punch after punch, man, and the a warrior in the old days, enit? You
kid would not go down. wouldve been a killer. You wouldve
I was so tired after a while, said the stolen everybodys goddam horses. That
fighter, that I just took a step back and wouldve been you. You wouldve been it.
watched the kid. He stood there with I was excited. I wanted the fighter to
his arms down, swaying from side to know how much I thought of him. He
side like some toy, you know? Head didnt even look at me.
bobbing on his neck like there was no A killer, he said. Sure.
bone at all. You couldnt even see his
eyes no more. He was all messed up. E didnt talk much after that. I
Whatd you do? I asked.
Ah, hell, I couldnt fight him no
W pulled into Wenatchee just be-
fore sundown, and the fighter seemed
more. That kid was planning to die be- happy to be leaving me.
fore he ever went down. So I just sat Thanks for the ride, cousin, he said
on the ground while they counted me as he climbed out. Indians always call
out. Dumb Flathead kid didnt even each other cousin, especially if theyre
know what was happening. I just sat on strangers.
the ground while they raised his hand. Wait, I said.
While all the winners collected their He looked at me, waiting impatiently.
money and all the losers cussed me out. I wanted to know if he had a place
I just sat there, man. to sleep that night. It was supposed to