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all literary
CONTENTS
pages
Preface
II
I.
3.
Early Reading
Me
22
40
3.
Blaise Cendrars
58
4.
Rider Haggard
81
5.
Jean Giono
100
6.
Influences
121
7.
Living
8.
The Days of
9.
Books
127
My
140
Life
Krishnamurti
147
10.
160
II.
The Story of
12.
196
13.
264
14.
The Theatre
287
My
Heart
172
Appendix
Still Intend
Who
317
to Read
Supplied
Me
with Books
320
321
LIST OF
Henry Miller
in
ms
ILLUSTRATIONS
Frontispiea
Studio
facing
Blaise Cendrars
page
6i
126
288
All
have written
now
appears to
me
much
as so
(Thomas Aquinas on
"When
no longer
when
All
is
the faney
all is
to live.**
Waldo
(Ralph
straw."
deathbed.)
when
**
his
Emerson.)
all is
all is
(Amiel.)
knew
with or without
trial
artist
work
might find
powerfiilly
his
imagination
improved
if
he
by jury ..."
(Henry Adams.)
"
me
Apr^
avoir pris
un an de vacances
un peu voyager en
marier,
mes yeux,
d^m^nager,
me
h^las
r^installer
^ Parisje
comme
15
Suisse,
faire trois
me
suis
mois de radio,
remis au travail,
contient tous
les autres
microbes,
la
extraordinaire
croire
et je
sept. '50),
Luxembourg, HoUande,
arrive pas k
m*y
habituer ni
C*est
.
"
!
(Blaise
Cendrars
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
To
chapter
on
Blaise Cendrars
New York,
to Survival,
on Rider Haggard.
Grateful acknowledgment is herewith made to the following publishers
and
works:
Blackie
&
Son
History of Magic
Coward-McCann,
C.
The Absolute
Doubleday
Druid
&
and
Levi.
by Erich Gudcind.
Watts.
Press for
E. P. Dutton
Collective
W.
by EHphas
J.
by Helen
Keller.
C. Powys.
by Maurice Magre.
by
Blaise Cendrars.
& Co.,
Inc., for
by
P.
D.
Ouspensky.
Mifflin Co.,
Henry Holt
&
&
Constable
Sept., 1946.
by Henry Adams.
for
Studies
in
Classic
American
Literature,
and
Apocalypsehotk by D. H. Lawrence.
Le Cercle
Du
by Carlo Suar^.
Brown
&
Longmans, Green
by Emil Ludwig.
P.
Watt
The Days
The Macmillan
W. W.
&
J.
Norton
by Edith Hamilton.
C. Powys for his book
Random House
and for Anna
by Janko
Lavrin.
for
Deems
Christie
by Eugene
O'Neill.
Unpolitical
by
Herbert Read.
W.
T. Symonds for an
The Viking
article
by Erich Gutkind
in Purpose, 1947.
and Blue
Boyboth
Henry Miller
2. Blaise
in Studio,
Cendrars
France.
3.
Xerxes Society.
4.
Miller Family
1902-03).
Portrait
by Pach
Bros.,
New York
(circa
PREFACE
The purpose of
this
life.
One of the
Appendix
the
of
this
less
my own
not a
It is
and
less,
to
my
critical
for that
good.
But even
the
a glance at the
the scholar,
yet
As
much as
" man
of " books."
what
is
is
small
fiilly.
have
five in America,
this
are readers
of
bookworm, or even
much.
is
self-examination
book amounts
undoubtedly read
for
years,
as vital experience.
it
results
writing of this
should read
few
with books
it is said,
number read
far too
There have been and always will be books which are truly revolutionary
fiir
that
is
One
between, of course.
a Ufetime.
is
They
few and
are
general pubHc.
men of lesser
They, are
talent
thei
to appeal to the
man
in the
street.
One
thing
If it
the
certain today
is
among
illiterate
us.
seeking, then
one had
better
go
experience of
life.
dispense with
**
be
sure, another
mind
the sort
And
The same
the masters.**
is
the source
is
is
true for
When
art.
say
Here, too,
life I
we know
today.
we
can
have in mind, to
I
have in
Etruscan Places.*
II
PREFACE
Or
that
at Chartres.
In
tliis
which beHeves
age,
that there
All that
seems so terribly
which
it
vital
and
most
way
difficult
forth in books,
is,
that
all
is
is
it
is set
significant,
is
that the
is
to the pursuit
Men
are
arts as
still
of
hfe.
to
fit all
Students are
still
temperaments,
No
kinds of intelligence.
all
wonder we
figurate,
are as
for
much
being.
If
beheve
status
se.
They
category.
them per
Nor do
are
defend them
that, in
now
our society
have no reverence
exploit the
isolate.
as
better,
and then
at least,
as a class
^it
To
see
myself
fighting his
of the jungle
was never to
live in the
is
To be
it is
itself is
especially,
Hke watching a
^it
was to get
not necessary to
enough of a jungle
But,
you
man
of books. Life
once was
a jungle.
jungle
because
as scapegoats.
as the reader I
way through
is
They
no worse.
clear
first
my
aim
It is
my
a very
ask,
But
of it
may
real
and a very
not books be a
The
12
principal
aim underlying
this
work
is
to render
homage
PREFACE
where homage
which
due, a task
is
Were
of accompHshment.
to
do
know beforehand
I
it
properly,
is
impossible
would have
to get
down on my knees and thank each blade of grass for rearing its
head. What chiefly motivates me in this vain task is the fact that
in general we know all too little about the influences which shape
The
critic,
author,
however
The
rule.
facts
"
perhaps
am on
truth,
work
too,
am
facts
to a fault
altering, distorting
My conscious
opposite direction.
on
data, to
all
(for
me) of
To
this
can
know of no
recall
Perhaps
is
do intend
not
that.
to
go on writing
domain of reaUty.
my
cannot
Naturally
all
But
life.
In this
perfection.
write about
eflbrt,
in the
am
view
of
guilty
The
As author,
blur.
I,
if
conceit and
recognition.
all
may
he
truthful
pompous
in his
beyond
author
who
me
has been
Those
mad enough
to read a
satisfaction.
to attempt this.^
but
more confusion
books
its
purpose
to read
his
books.
quoting Goethe,
beUeve, says
At
book
nor
is it
"La
itself,
as
is
may sometimes
moments Uved
to the fullest.
soit meilleure."
a genuine nostalgia.
not a
a nostalgia for
it is
It is
appear to be the
with
whom
**
it is
had was
books.
(Yet
13
PREFACE
here
must confess
that,
my former
those boys
who went by the immortal names of Johnny Paul,
company of
in the
me
boys to
idols-in-the-flesh,
of
whom
these
as
did
book or
Whether
it
^still
associate
said
it
or de Gaul-
tier, I
my
persons or events,
and dead
as
task
may now
it
past,
would be
a vain and
seem, the
of
list
their living
given in the
be
to
souls
Cold
one.
fiitile
titles
key
the
plenitude
in the past.
^
One of the
reasons
may be
frustrated
finished, I
last
hope, the
have immediately to
of the things
while
therefore,
time,
is
by some unforeseen
last
set to
Crucifixion,
work
have rewritten
completion
its
This
event.
volume
first
always
is
many
ever set
a year.
would
volumes.
Naturally,
this
had some
sort
book
is
architect,
whatever
complicated
is
as
to a close that I
of erecting
To
his edifice.
left
of
my
a spider's web.
have come to
It is
realize
the writer
At any
only in bringing
how much
began
this
wish to
subjects,
volume
say,
and
some of which
how
often
PREP ACB
I
him I have never said, and probably never will say, all
mean to say about Elie Faure. Nor have I by any means
refer to
that I
And
among our
As
to approach.
for
whom
Rider Haggard,
then there
is
Celine,
I shall
have more
certainly
to say
it
contemporaries,
comes
to
G. A. Henty. I
know
The Grand
subject like
Husband my
demand
When
of
favorite
my
never say
Inquisitor, for
all
word about
last
example, or The
Dostoievsky's works
\/
them.
Eterttal
would seem to
"p
j
Perhaps
when
come
to
men with
the eschatological
flair,
shall
get
for
is
deliberately
figures
grips
with him
figures in all
said I
in all Htcrature.
figure
European
history.
me
sinister,
enigmatic
meantime
and
Time I came to
Back of him and overshadowing him stands the
wilfully misunderstood
one firom
I
'
Gilles
Paris,
de Rais.
and
In the
have read
it.
How
much
"
The
How
^y
15
PREFACE
It is
book
just the
was looking
for
it is
by George Meunier*
Here are a few more books and authors
son temps
the future
my mind
to
the
The Path
**
of This Book,"
Praise
to
each time
Marie CoreUi,
who
said
Stratford-on-Avon
think any
I
intend to dwell on in
have, or,
me
Rene
write about
modem
times.
Unueiling of Timbuctoo,
in
studied
is
And
to
my
mind
man
to enter
as
certainly
I shall
Timbuctoo
by Galbraith Welch
in
The
tlie
Mahatmas, Fechner's Life After Death, Claude Houghton's metaphysical novels, Cyril Connolly's Enemies of Promise (another
as
Eugene Jolas
calls it,
book
Donald
and,
among
who
(the
same
few pages on
theme, which
this
Meanwhile
am
very
have
much
in
pornographic books of
all
time.
(I
know
but a very
* In Paris, about 1931 or 1932, Richard Thoma gave me a copy of his book
on Gilles de Rais, called Tragedy in Blue. A few weeks ago I received a
reprint of this book, published as an anonymous work and entitled The
Authorized Version Book Three The Book of Sapphire.
Rereading it, I
was overcome with mortification that I could have forgotten the power
and the splendor of this work. It is a poetic justification, I might almost,
and true
16
PREFACE
who
few.)
How
who
arc
still
regarded as
*'
obscene "
In
what languages
works
are
certain
still
What of
Lawrence.
all.
mean
is still
(in
whom
French) a formidable
And what
about that
by now,
and
It is
stores,
two hundred
just
years since
it first
appeared,
it
Paris
drug
free to circulate in
innocent places
well knows.
Curious, but of
The Thirteen
O. V. Milosz,
by
and Les
Atiacalypsis,
author
VApocalypse, by
Clifs de
who
yet received a
Nor have
Crucified Saviours,
of the celebrated
bleau.
the books
all
this first
Crusades.
good magazines
bright
spirit,
And now
Wyndham Lewis),
word about
the
It
speaking of
to
whom
this
was on one of
book
is
dedicated
his visits to
him
books.
no one
if for
Some months
rest
Powell knew
it
enough to keep
r
else) a short
too,
of a
hbrarians as
write
experience with
I knew that
summary account of the subject.
to himself.
rrection
my
content with a
it
book about
the germ,
later
Big Sur
(for
when
man
forgot to mention
Jugend,
it is
a big thing to
me
because
discreet
a great deal.
it
means the
false attitude, I
human
beings,
PR EPA C
and capable of proving dynamic
no
vital part
of our
question have
scrupulously.
No
down.
which they
life,
me
have given
librarian
Should
Certainly
librarian could
put to
him which he
book prove
this
to be a failure
it
feult.
Here
who
way
or another.
and foremost,
First
for
all
my
behalf i
were.
you performed
and
voluntarily
you
In addition
insisted
It
several
on
tact,
humility and
me.
when
began
were,
make up
list
acquaintances
whose names
with
fail
helpfid suggestions
Words
I felt,
My
And what
subtle corrections
devotion.
of
titles
and,
I
and disseminate
have given
at the close
me
"
correspondence.
friends
afford to send
unexpected quarten.
he experiences
take
among
i8
it,
warm,
is
unknown
personal friend.
There
may
the
Every
his readers.
is
One of the
be,
and doubtless
unknown
arc,
friends
authors
who
PREFACE
have
My
need of
little
case
somewhat
is
different.
Department
which
there, a letter in
(A grand
case in point
Sacramento.
their books.
all
who
am
volunteer
Donald A. Schon.
services.
latest
In filing a letter of
help, this
make
The
tures.
of
my
gesture
is
letter
Sehr Schon
clerical
his
!)
of John Kidis of
by
a visit and a
a Greek,
is
shower of
whidi
gifts.
mudi.
explains
appreciate
the more, the armfiils of books (some of them very difficult to find)
which he dumped on
viz.,
my
articles
his
grandmother or
of Halva, jugs of
my name
his
of clothing picked up
by
gifts,
by
knitted
prepared
!)
rezina, toys
of
kinds,
all
is
a priest), dates
from
the mythical
firesh figs,
" farm
"),
{Tfie
and
setting himself
up
**
as
on and
so
readers
of
tliis
on ad
?
infinitum.
How
all
indications
Miller "),
me
.
(records,
.
ever repay
How
it ?
welcome from
of
the
error, omission,
falsification
it is
before,
hope
PREFACE
this
it
Our world
drawing to a
close
have to
will
become
rest
new one
on deeds
as
about to open. If it
is
well as
The word
faith.
rapidly
will have to
flesh.
and apprehension.
among
all
taining
those
quote a passage
**
page 194*
is
is
one book
it
is
Particularly the
exalted and
which
is
signal as con-
and sublimity,
Chartrfs.
If there
might
inspiration
me
is
to flourish
is
commanding. Let
in order
There are
who
us.
However
man,
impoverish
we who
write,
it
who
be, there
enrich us
is all
we
authors,
and others
the while a
we
we men of
protected,
truth
No
which
one
is
artist
in us.
we
the men
we reveal the
no man knows.
How
20
letters,
maintained, enriched
and
more
enrich or
Mifflin
Co.
is
edition,
Boston and
New York,
1933.
PREFACE
of humanity.
We
swim
in the
write,
of the
same stream,
deeply are
we
we
write books
is
aware,
we who
to restore
what
we have taken from the granary of Hfe, from sisters and brothers
"
unknown, then I say " Let us have more books
:
In the second
things,
volume of
this
work
I shall
Gilles
Grand
write,
among
C^Hne,
Dostoievsky's
Maeterlinck, Berdyaev,
index of
all
references to
all
other
de Rais, Haggard's
Inquisitor,
all
The
of my
HENRY
MILLER.
ai
SIT in a little
with books.
It is
the
time
first
with anything
like a collection
more than
hundred in
five
my own choice.
that
am
the
It is
now
completely lined
of books.
all,
first
is
time, since
my writing career,
began
The
my work
have
fact,
look upon
as
is
One of
the
first
things
associate
waged
to obtain them.
my
Hbrary in
years of
money
to
buy them.
neighborhood
ageto borrow
Confession of a Fool,
such a
To
And of
get permission
course
from the
one,
two or
stars
obtains.
whet
one's
hope
appetite
so, for I
than
according
three
I
know of nothing
this
stupid
sort
to the
of
classification
and
prohibition.
What makes
answer, in
sionate
my
How
a book live ?
opinion,
is
simple.
it is
human
my
being.
beHef that
The
the pas-
Nothing can
men
will always
Books
32
are
And
the
TttBY
man
better the
more
the
possessions.
book
he part with
easily will
on a
lying idle
shelf
is
his
most cherished
wasted ammunirion.
Lend
maximum
But
pass
all
those books
what
a tenth of
too,
I,
seizes
me
that
have read.
is
much
The most
who drowned
secretly
that I did
of
a piece
offer
would
know now
do only what
to
not important.
learn to
infinitely
impulse
It is this
themselves in books.
it is
on you
it
irrepressible
gratuitous advice.
as possible
books represent
my mind.
But
know
difficult
is
to
strictly
strictly vital.
There
an excellent
is
like to read,
way
When you
have
it
days.
as intensely as
it
store
what
it
Then,
would mean
if
you
find
extraordinary
acumen you
stimulating
may
If
you
it
are honest
has increased
Try
to imagine
tackle
it.
what
of the book
is
really
new
to you.
from
the
mere
effort
of
resisting
your impulses.
Few
Rare
books
^less
than
his
recent
autobiographical novels,
that
R^my
of
this repetitive
Blaise
select
and read
all
23
worth while
is
most authors in
?is
it
as
well as his
and
letters
last
book
that,
He
man
the
reads
when
but
has written,
all
him.
Cendrars
literature,
Not only
of
a prodigious reader.
is
almost unparalleled,
imagine.
For,
not only has he read widely and deeply, but he has himself written
a great
many
books.
thing, Cendrars,
man who
on
the side, as
it
were.
For, if he
is
any-
has
is
is,
All
he
of
Hterature.
influenced
me
A strange
most.
gruous
titles as
Island.
The
Bad Boy,
list,
Peck*s
first
thought
ever
" Humor.**
This
is
Dead
Souls,
of Uterature which
two or
am hard
in this category of
Hamsun,
in
few
it is
three
put to
Max
It
really
humorous
humor. There
which
true,
still
me
professional humorists,
to death.
would be an achievement,
I
humor which
die.
is
The
very
I feel, if I
and
their
book before
and
my eyes,
The
names
is
deficient.
trata.
How
I also
as
find deadly.
close,
Particularly their
absent.
ingredients.
But
it is
lust
and
cruelty,
mostI mean
of course, woefully
* See Appendix.
24
is,
boob
that the
is
As we grow
nourisheci.
on
a treadmill
is
carried along
The mind
becomes so dulled
that
one out of a
of indifference or apathy.
state
With childhood
it
reading there
is
a factor
book
of significance which
feel
illness,
How easily
There
the child
who
later reading,
What
avoid them.
such like
that
later in life
Baba and
I ask,
experience
my
parents
regard
this as
would give me
my
phenomenal,
his
He
favorite author.
got
reader.
of
my
is
perspective
of world
history.
fourteen.
boy.
as
He
seems,
Everyone knows,
first
was
of
which comes
recently, after
Only
Today, and
rather, to
the
on rereading
Every Christmas
I
is
books.
Lucky
one.
So powerful, however,
Who also,
What an
the absence of
is
upon
Grimm and
distinctly
and that
of
life.
is
Some books
reading.
first
we
How
of a favorite book,
are associated
to rout
and
older, fantasy
One
To
the lads
instance,
When,
In
it
just
25
my
The books in
the other day,
was
it
came upon
though
as
remarked in a
lif
the pages dealing with Wallenstein,
As
the book,
words
" destiny
*'
was in
it
at
any
rate.
was an age of
massacres.
of
had the
all
how
fortunate
room, right
It
was always
If,
at
my
young
mark
habit to
would
be, thought
it
my
life,
could
envied him.
this Uttle
How wonderful
liked.
man who
would be
books
excessively the
moment
For a
could have in
which
the books
Like
of Montaigne's withdrawal
sure,
I,
his
man,
lately
intolerance,
active Hfe,
elbow,
Only
ours, his
from
" hbrary."
my
began by speaking of
pleasure
opinions
book he read
and impressions
as
how
like,
one behaved,
earth
able, as
is
my
bound
to ask
is
in the universe
lesson liere
Montaigne,
bad memory.
still
on earth ?
"
all else
selves.
" Does
life
cease vwth
Will
Am
may be
" Did I
"
He
says that
he was unable to
I feel
former
26
know
how
bodily death
his notes
always curious to
is
on
One
he went along.
memory.
certain,
however, that he
Most everyone
The men who can quote copiously
respects.
of a novel in
of
dates
historical events,
who
detail,
and so on,
who
possess a
monstrous sort of
When
me.
may
I really
wish to
something
recall
But
is lost.
know
The
tery."
also that
of memory
How
often
wish to preserve
this
it
exact
total,
happens
that, in
on
memory
to turn to
my
of the West.
I
might
say,
of which
instances,
some of
that
me.
Crucifixion, I
years ago,
on
was obHged
Spengler's Declitt^^
passages, a considerable
The
sense
the importance
To know
number,
Hke music.
some
made many
notes,
well
Recently, in completing
as
sufficient for
is
glancing through a
passages
it
never forget.
is
infaUible,
though
can,
or non-value of a thing,
is
it is
as the value
there
know
Every time
lost, in
became more
more pregnant, more charged with that mysterious
which every great author embeds in his language and which
again, the language
redolent,
quality
is
the
mark of his
the vitality
that
decided to quote a
an experiment which
become
Were
my
my
own
very
so impressed was
by
readers.
I felt
as
in their entirety.
It
was
felt
and
The
lines I
that they
important in
which
had to be transmitted.
my Hfe
as the
had described
as
haphazard
my own
event in
I
rate,
number of them
Why
At any
uniqueness.
am
my
life
read.
17
my
my
me for years.
hved with
and which
is.
Sometimes
on one of those
notebooks to look
which have
passages
Intro-
It is
Fleurs
is
nothing
Paris
my
They
belongings.
else
style
of decadence,
point of extreme
at that
of shades and of
notes
from
all
keyboards ..."
Then
is
and driven to
my
" The
style
Some
almost always
sit
my
that, in leaving,
of decadence
friends
letters
would
On
My
secret.
beHeve
weakness
finishing a wonderfril
down and
is
write letters to
**
not.
my daily conversation,
consume.
is
E.
like
even
reading
sense
better.
may not
it is.
I called this
and multiply
Increase
it
"
book, for
my friends,
The
a weakness.
commanded
Dance, put
to
and
final expression
door so
palettes
all
hiding-place."
its last
from
example,
con-
stantly pushing
all
an
research,
it
Perhaps
the
Lord.
at first
Without
who is
into
other readers.
Whether he
is
He
sustains
is
doing
good
is
praising God's
author,
knows
that
that
he could not
And when
writing, or
creating," as
it is
called,
he
say author
is
ing the great message of creation which the Creator in his goodness
made
has
manifest to him.
important to
stress at
It is this
mind
The
in
all
which one
those books
feels
dies
the books one hears about, talks about, reads about, but
is
titles
think
because
it
rather neglected in
of authors and
list
mention
are
which one
break
down
In the
first
which one
is
one nibbles
at occasionally,
usually
tomes
still
The
unreadable.
list
varies
with the
Rousseau (excepting
ing, Santayana.
of Sodom,
mostly,
classics
Roman
as
Homer,
Entile),
Aristotle,
Robert Brown-
Casanova's Memoirs,
Napoleon's Memoirs,
Michelet's
read or abandoned
the
work of an
* That
is,
all
a passage, say,
those
I still
hope to
in
who
is
read.
29
sufficient to
it
the books one neglects, or deUberately spurns, seldom get read. Certain subjects, certain styles, or unfortunate associations
Nothing on
insuperable.
tackle
anew
earth, for
again will
look
at a line
I left
Comeille
me
to
Never
which
connected v^dth
certain
doubt
me
intrigues
if I shall ever
look
at again,
'
bulwark of our
more
culture, are
the
foreign in spirit to
directly to
No
the
most exciting
cultures
our development.
Western
example, have
/--v
exercised a
r^
which
from
particular
Some of
me
of Afiica
is
said that
sometimes
it is
my immediate
What! He
interest in a
it is
fall
ancestors.
puts one
away and
tastes
who
the
mind
Often
revives one's
ht
its
on
book?" you
positively aflame.
30
who
liked that
it
me
by
an esteemed author
**
leaves
me.f And,
this
Literary Expression
THEY WERE ALIVE AND THEY SPOKE TO ME
of being a
why
memory of
nitwit,
book.
book
mood,
In a vacant
recollection
Heights
praised so
Then comes
me
for
much and
friend,
whose
so often,
woman
^by a
Though
it.
this sort.
had concluded
!
that
it
be shallow,
let
read
it
in
few
as is
Varda put
everyone,
And
language.
reading
I,
in
nurday.
my
suspect,
hands.*
by its amazing
EngHsh
it.
is
else,
that
it
it
it, I
book one
Then one
drop a few
Finally, just a
it
was impossible
to be that good.
taste I suspected to
an example of
day a
at loose ends, as
trial.
is
in
St.
Paris,
two volumes.
Many
years ago
Augustine.
some one
found
it
And
thrust
not only
An English
had read
from
this
sell
And
the
that
was the
Throughout
should also
* He
painter,
this
stating that
he hoped
it at last.
same bookseller
^he
last I
my
alwa)^
from
my
Giorgio di Chirico.
31
"
Rousseau's, another
is
at
readwhen
fully intend to
The
I
of knowledge or
know
on such
own
which
select
aflfected the
form of our
which elements of
The
destiny.
may be
culture, each
A man
and
participating.
too
Uttle.
It is
He
devices,
surest
lists
way
man
by
it is
vitally
his
by
own
private
the professorial
of such
in the nature
He
we would
in time share
of books
first
is
to
own
times.
He
should
is
Uving
much
or
what is
his
He
own,
all
the scalp.
value, all
good books. He
will
inspiring or fecundating, or
in his
them by
at all
and shape
own
our
become acquainted
exercise.
their
man must
choice exclusively.
best
which base
an individual
is
**
of
list
that, if left to
their point
my
It is
lists.
works which
their
founda-
found in every
it
great
minds represent
intellects to
arc
foundations. If one
It
who
entire curricula
culture, or
books.
on
His Emile,
it.
tions
de Quincey's. Only
is
charm and
lost
But
or forgotten.
appeal, if
one
is
dragged to
disillusionments, that in
said the better
awaken
resistance in
your
listener.
how muchand
it
if
is
One
it is
has to
know when
to give
to be repeated or not.
The
The same
of books
sort
is
o( discouraging
their ardent
would-be
disciples.
man
concerned. Discourage a
way,
in the right
that
is,
with the right end in view, and you will put him on the path that
much more
The important
quickly.
experiences, a
man is
to have, but
thing
what he
is
puts into
call influences.
But
attraction.
direction, perhaps
at the
it
Some men
another.
behavior.
is
also because
without knowing
Most men,
which
we
pushed in that
obvious that
Nor
are
influence us
we
we
are not
always cogni-
of destiny
needed to
what we
to
With
in fact.
It is
influence.
know
never
it.
is
influences
should be borne in
it
ends.
fulfill their
use the
is
so
they
word
We
on
are
is
that,
desire to read a
incident.
To
book
discoveries,
all is
often provoked
by
Fifteen
if
he detested
this aunt.
one individual
If a
steers straight
his nose.
Of
He may
the thousands of
early in hfe,
how
is it
that
towards others
man is.
man is of a
He may
titles
inextricably mixed.
The books he
piece.
is
where books
and
The books
it
book bores him he will drop it, though he may go wellnigh mad for want of anything better to do. Some men, in reading,
do. If the
My
an abstruse element
The
obUged to
up every
book whose
Some men
title
will under-
33
Book of Abraham
pages in literature.
As
encounter, a footnote,
of memory,
and one things can set one off in pursuit of a book. There
a thousand
are times
an unexpected
friend,
strange quirks
illness, solitude,
intimations.
to any and
again
suggestions, hints,
all
when
dynamite to
takes
it
astir.
in the writing
do
itch to
of a
When
such
is
my
experience
not,
out
What
of writing.
fmd
that I can
is
one becomes
creative in
at
directions
all
at once.
It
was
undertook to write,
must
confess, that
reading was at once the most voluptuous and the most pernicious
it
me
seems to
as if the
From
it.
on putting
thought,
better
book down,
read the
the ones
more
authors, to be sure,
bloodedly, with
bcHeve
enough
it
all
**
me
to assert
apart.
spellbinders "
foolish
34
baffled
with
Vain and
as
often
much
became. Hardly
new
I
read cold-
possessed.
In order,
what makes
though
of expression
eyes.
it
began to despise
my own powers
by taking
but
began
have done
critical I
young man
Gradually
castigated mercilessly.
As
that I could
books
the time
into
reading of
at first
my
behavior was,
this
all
art
of narration, about
all, I
of good books.
To
way he
The way
nothing.
is
say, for
walks, the
how
and
effects
man
is
the man,
man we have
way he
writes, the
does everything,
the
speaks, the
to let his
what you
truly are.
of it. There
is
despair of
youth in discovering
his
there
own "
**
authors
reading
when
but greater
more permanent
who
art is the
child
is
mature being
not to
has to say,
of any
the
it, is
man
you,
first
what
to listen to
alter
way he
is
of a
reflections
Van Gogh's
amount of meditation,
analysis,
one
is
struck
by
the vast
case
it
to
is
next to
as a
not
It is
reaches
methods, techniques,
but
styles
at other
and approaches.
He
reflected
their
long and
earnestly
It is
He was
than a writer to
illustrate
His
life, as
point.
we
happens that
It
get
it
in the letters,
art, I
Van Gogh,
literary pretensions
a book.
my
would
is
that
more
he was writing
revelatory,
more
most of the
He
us
tells
He
acclaimed
more
knowledge of the
and
painter's craft,
his vision
though he
is
35
THE BOOKS
MY
IN
LIFE
in that
life,
meaning of dedication,
is
it
makes
a lesson for
all
Van Gogh
humble
critic,
He
dark.
criticize
his
to criticize, judge
The more
tell
me
own
writers, for
He
work.
fellow writers.
with them
are sincere,
one
the
men, the
fanatic
working
in the
proved, indeed, to be a
it
much
unfortunately
in their books.
my
all
and condemn.
write the
with regard to
who
he was not a
this
better critic
is
brother of
deeds.
at
is
possessed, for
and judge
good
and the
time.
refuse to
with those
who
"
not including " bad
am
(I
have any
traffic.)
themselves,
days
have been struck time and again by that freedom and boldness
it is almost impossible to recapture once one is " in harness,"
which
once one
it is
is
art
of writing.
Without
left eye.
One
reads then
a marvellous
mysterious never recedes, but the vessel in which their thoughts are
contained
ecstasy,
one returns to
One no
transparent.
Drunk with
his
is
con-
prayed
One
one
asserts his
different
One no
of his beloved author but for more of the same. Even the
ordinary reader
36
it is
commonness.
testifies
to this longing.
finishing
last
volume of
his favorite
When,
"
forgotten manuscript
is
author
after
an author
dug up, or
a bundle
up
posthumous fragment
tiniest
is
of
!
or an un-
letters,
What
Even
gratitude for
the perusal of an
thrill.
of
resuscitation (biography)
We
immortal in
Each age
works
their
we
want
to restore
them
in the flesh.
its
Sometimes
seems
it
as
own,
its
to
own.
potent than the influence of the living. If the Saviour had not been
man would
resurrected,
sity
They were
eloquent
alive
way
which
in
me over
that we are
remained with
considering
Just as
so
no
the years.
most
who
have
dealing, in books,
The
fable
is
Fiction
on
canvas,
alive
on deep
analysis,
Man continues
is
always closer to
to
me!
incommunicable
Is it
Man
wisdom but
is
of Hterature, unmasking
They were
Is this
is
fact.
it
is
has ever truly been able to give us his Hfe and thoughts.
Autobiography
reaHty than
truly.
artist
no author
who
me! That
to
Him through
spoke of the " neces-
have resurrected
certainly
myths of
science,
proves to be what
to hunger.
man through words, he is communing with his feUow man and with
his Maker. Over and over again one puts down a book and one is
speechless.
Sometimes
it is
am
everything.'*
But
thinking that
this business
not thinking of
this sort
of reaction.
am
thing
deeper.
It is
from
words
and
are drawn,
it is
you thoroughly
Was
this
He
altered.
did
man who
this
it
we do
not,
dead,
let
us say,
Though we know
is
perhaps
possess the
still
key to
possesses
Wc
paradise.
man but with the dead, with the imbom, with those
who
are
mighty
secrets to
be unlocked.
which
now know
we
invest ourselves
have ever given evidence not only of magical powers but of the
existence
them
own Httle
we had visited
which
universe and
are as famiUar to us as
These
in the flesh.
though
diem. They sprang from parents similar to our own, they were the
products of environments similar to our own.
stand apart then
Not
Not
difficult techniques.
No,
to
me
artists
practice equally
he
artists
Word
is
which informs
all
is
Using language
not language
since nothing
Lord
" Let
me
"
Is this
So
at all
is
it
as his
but prayer.
demanded of
runs,
exhaust myself,
O Lord,
work
Know
the
it
the Creator.
wonder what
commune with
no matter what
Let us cease to
38
his
Creator.
is
Of all
the one
and the
all.
**
Blessings
the subject,
what
on
thee,
the idiom.
"
in singing thy praises
" of which it has been spoken
!
still
singing
hymns of
Here on
eartli
they
practicing.
Once
again
supreme joy
to
who knew
that there
is
only one
on
earth.*
task,
one
y
,
X
* In 1880 Dostoievsky made a speech on " The Mission of Russia " in
" To become a true Russian is to become the brother of
which he said
all men, a universal man.
Our future Ues in Universality, not won by
violence, but by the strength derived from our great ideal the reuniting
of all mankind."
:
39
II
EARLY READING
It
only in the
is
books.
can
reread
The
last
recall
few years
that
Birth of Tragedy,
often said,
is
first
books
Mysteries.
who
me
as Mysteries.
as I
on were Hamsun
In that period
to take
first
have
as writer.
men
certain
Wonder-
in
Hamsun,
vitally affected
much
as
singlec^out to
land,
blood brother,
might even
as
say.
But
it
was Mann's
as
skill as
with a
a writer
me
Venice
was for
years,
however,
Death
worth recounting.
Paris
made
individual
name.
It
was
It is
like this
In the space of a
Mann, and
especially
a curious tale
During
my
few
of his
and perhaps
early days in
whom
He was
a painter. Like so
were discussing
He had
my opinion of Thomas
It
was a
many
his
whether he
in Venice.
40
flair
vitrioHc.
EARLY READING
tion
told
him I would
get the
to him.
never forget
Before
this experience.
to crumble. Nichols,
the
exposed
itself.
who
I,
thought
way through
flung the
a piece of
of papier-mach^. Half-
at a piece
book on
fabrication
this
my hands
was holding in
said
suddenly
critical ear,
on
Later
the floor.
glanced
had regarded
as
^and that
was
earth I
comprehension. Yet
until the tears
came
much
my
it
eyes.
up and
blush to mention
to
The
remember
How on
my
in a Boat.
is
beyond
that
laughed
started to read
it
Never have
again.
I tasted
Egg.
that
Men
came near
me on
But once
it
had made
me
books
others
like
Sue, James
Flags),
in rereading,
mentioned Henty,
As
matters Uttle if
I
bless his
Corelli,
it
find
read in childhood
name
There arc
Bulwer-Lytton, Eugene
Mark Twain
incredible.
^o
Tom Sawyer
since
particularly).
boyhood
It
seems
never look
men
at their
much
works
again, f
to reread those
books which
used
It should not be inferred from this that I have turned against Sherwood
Anderson, who has meant so much to me. I have still a great admiration for
WineshuTg, Ohio and Many Marriages.
f For some mysterious reason I do, howe er, intend to read Toilers of
the Sea, which I missed when I was devouring Hugo.
his
41
old
home
my grandfather
as
he
Ward
in the Fourteenth
sat
recall,
if there
book
now
I recall
But
it
Without
exploits.
this
book
who was
Hve hero,
first
was
of
a doubt,
I
portrait, floating
aware of
actively
had read
my
battle
My Dream of
that, in
of Farragut's heroic
acquainted with
these, I
Admiral Dewey.
bench in our
One of
his tailor's
(for a day)
Mobile Bay,
on
in Brooklyn.
my
that
Dewey
not
became
but our
rebel.
my bed.
whole
fifty years
Rimbaud
Little
my
in
colossus.
I still
I still
revere the
names of Robert E.
Hero Worship
make room
how
?
can
Or
man's
learned
life is
what
John Paul
is
Following the
And why
?
?
not
In Paris, thanks
Jones.
The
spectacular story of
will.
The
reason
is
simple.
of
Men
to Blaise Cendrars,
who
worsted them.
Emerson's Representative
biographies concerning
this
men and
swamped by
it.
In the course
by
traces,
Cendrars had
42
more than
tenfold the
made
He
con-
EARLY READING
very thin book, something which
the subject or a
understand
perfectly.
first
person to
Not
father.
book
that
he encouraged
who
in her hand,
me
told
was
toilet,
flabbergasted.
but that
that
Reading aloud
Tony,
my
my
to
boyhood
Not
that she
it
there.
friends, particularly to
earhest friends,
early in hfe
later,
Joey and
discovered
to their disgust
and chagrin, namely, that reading aloud to people can put them to
sleep.
Either
the books
my
sort.
Inevitably
to sleep
Nor
wrong
had of my
came
I still
on
make everyone
would counsel
my way, I would
first
is
see to
to
it
that a
all
And books
last
would
The
all
by
play games
itself
practical things
are luxuries.
is
a chapter
And
of life in a category
temptation to expand on
kind of book
first,
Of course I
wait.
Ah, there
different,
had
To
thing
to be a carpenter, a
from
learn to read. If I
boy learned
by
incidentally,
read poorly, or
No,
friends.
little
my audience went
subject lest
the
games
I pass
up the
whom I
streets,
sometimes
whom
hobnobbed and
my
cxper-
43
THE BOOKS
iences
MY
IN
my
shared with
LIFE
my
writings,
reading.
in
the
Hfe.
government,
ethics
on other
planets
these were
on
days, or
street
good
problems of
life
comers
empty
street, in
at night,
deity, Utopia,
My
us.
real
on cold November
lots
we were
was books,
forever discussing
we were then reading and which we were not even supposed to know about. It sounds extravagont to say so, I know, but it
docs seem to me that only the great interpreters of Uterature can rival
the books
the
boy
essence
in the street
of a book. In
when
my
it
humble opinion,
much
During
my
into
this
world of books
my
one of the
first
merchant
these
of
this
world.
in a beautiful
tailors
who
as
had the
distinction
of New York.
books were
and
nearer
father's predecessor,
now in my mind,
thick
and
flavor
much
is
political figures
glass
Walker,
boy
the
of being
review them
all
bold and
As
clear.
designs.
titles
it
What I am about
to relate
is
when
do with
my
beUeve
am
is
deeply
How
my disgust, on becoming acquainted with the contents
profound was
of these books,
forgotten the
one
blank.
am
may be judged by
titles.
Just
not positive
The
is
one
correct
nature of my reaction
have completely
my
this
is
first
time in
ity.
44
lingers in
seemed wrapped
in a veil
of thick fog.
EARLY READING
me
musty tomes.
and
irrational
It
though
on
slime,
to be honest,
life, until,
visited
(My
heath.*
impression of London,
first
corresponded closely to
sion
my boyhood
When I came
to Dickens, these
my
picture
native
of it
an impres-
it is
first
by
Ellis.
if I
as a
had readjust a
A Boys History of
remember
different notion
me by
of this book,
title
England,
ing, or
own
corrective to this
The
England and
their
these
Senseless
dissipated.)
from
issued
all levels.
it
middle
a land
cruelty and
sure, the
Httle earHer,
book gave
was
also read-
gained a wholly
I mean.
Sombre,
past.
Years
tragic, full
obhged
my
"
human "
to pass judgment
picture
of the world.
on Hardy.
when
later,
For
all
me
once again
In the end
was
which
permeated his books, I had to admit to myself that they were not
" true to life." I wanted my pessimism " straight."
On returning
to
met two
individuals
who
one
it is.
t This good aunt, my father's sister, also gave me The Autocrat at the Breakfast Table, a brace of books by Samuel Smiles, and Knickerbocker's History of
New
York.
45
called.
metaphysical novelist," he
W.
gentleman "
England.
have by
the performance
Many
me.
met
ever
is
now
my
favorites,
more's the
known
letter to the
of
Whether
his others.
His
pity.
here
letter will
one day be
this
Hudson Rejoins
It is called
author
touch upon
it
The
outer circumstances
and events in
in
all his
works
Do not
Those
who
Perhaps the
are imaginative.
my life.
" mysterious."
real.
Houghton had
In a
the Herd.
first
reading
would some of
as
Way, one of
is
a subject I
This
the
picture
there
lengthy
my
But
Symons
Travers
profoundly
alter
^to
Americans
Humanity
often
is
rate,
think they
And now,
for
no
reason, unless
it
mind
the
He
is
for
GaUimard.
few
titles
Yet when
At
best
can
recall
only
think of
them
do when
am
certain that
when
reread him, as
Lake,
46
expect to do shortly,
Argus Books,
Inc.,
shall
Mohegan
EARLY READING
my memory
fmd,
as I
alive
and fecund.
close to
interesting.
High
Street,
Deems Taylor
Oddly enough,
put into
my
man who
put
**
father,
is
work of Flaubert.
Du
of
later.
my
Fortunately, I
Du Maurier
which
did
this
volume and
the
payment of
a small debt
he
He had
father in
course,
past fifty.
It is
to return to
Nadja,
Maurier offered
et Pecuchet,
was
given
disgusted.
With
the Sentimental
says
But
the
as
by
the track of
me on
more than
subject.
the
Sentimental Education to
My
how,
relates
says,
owed.
is
also
unique
a novel,
"James," he
Trilby.'*
Ibbetson are a
an idea for
should say.
that
inscrutable,
Library,
his friend
and Peter
renowned
illustrator,
Trilby
so.
now
reasons
brace of books.
Modem
doing
difficult to
anywhere near
effect
came
Trilby
become amazingly
becomes increasingly
created
in
it
will
Rider Haggard
Strange that a
way be
in any
book such
works.
length
think
it is
or was
it
in
in Remember
cast
one,
is
?
I
for example,
upon
have dwelt
upon the
read
rather terrifyingly
of which he
Remember
to
it I
at
spell
some
which
go through the
deHdous sensation
thoroughly famiUar.
I recall
of
47
\)
this
statement
was an
my
in
not quite
is
on
essay
vividly of
was to submit to an
editor.* (As
my
true, because
Nietzsche's Anti-Christ,
father's shop.
Also, the
piece
first
write,
very
which
being a
critical article
which, to
my
which
ever submitted
by
few
years,
and
new
that
of prose
of writing
I realize
piece
first
time to
set
this
me on
it
remuneration being
trifling
to
fire,
make me throw
a brand
passing truck.)
in
would
of all authors,
is
something which
is still,
to
my way
text
of the original
it
not so
Surrealists
Nadja
is
spell.
all their
own.) At any
rate, it
This in
do
itself, I
believe,
is
sufficient to
mark
out.
is
treat
of
my
delightful, all-
Many
the time
or subjects.
whole days
spent
Here
at the
again, to be truthfiil, I
Joe O'Regan.
home, with
my
that tht
most
boon companion
scarce
and
all
One morning,
scarcely out
of bed,
like
monomaniacs.
Funk &
word which had come
turned to
my huge
* The man to whom I sent it was Frands K. Hackctt, and never shall
forget his discreet but encouraging reply, God bless him I
48
BARLY RBADING
to
my mind
what
on awakening. As
question
at
who had
me
stimulated
my
had beheved,
and
of,
or shall
of a word
was not
**
say the
truth," about a
word. But
slide.
language
Icelandic
!)
Surely
Hebrew or
as Sanskrit,
from the
moment
as
the
reversals
human
from derivation
it
suspicions
this
as
upon
so often to
first
day and
that I
all
With Joe
which
usual,
is
Icelandic (and
was nothing,
in
To
my opinion.
pushed back more than ten thousand years, and here were we,
stranded at the vestibule, so to speak, of
many words of
modem
To
was
be
brief, it
That so
freely
in itself some-
the
times.
entirely,
or became
how we
see
it
factually, historically,
one
who
me
get
It
seems
on
was only
or
least to
from
The
understand
ftiller,
paedia.
deeper treatment
The
the
we were
we must
To know what
tracking
given
The
But
let
to meaning, in
down,
that for
cross-reference.
know
dictionary to encyclopaedia
natural, in
is
statistically,
what we make
life is
all,
is
a specific
49
And
this
is
is
never known.
we would
be on
whence
is
it
which men
and
bled, tortured
killed
Now
one another.
there
edition)
if
one wishes to
at the Ubrary,
by
all
pass a pleasant,
means
start
with
word such as ** mysteries." It will lead you far and wide, it will
send you home reeling, indifferent to food, sleep and other claims
of the autonomic system. But you will never penetrate the mystery
And if, as the good scholar usually does, you should be impelled
*'
authorities " selected by the encyclopaedic knowto go from the
**
authorities " on the same subject, you will soon find
alls to other
your awe and reverence for the accumulated wisdom housed in
a
become m^fiant
all,
entombed
always be oneself.
field,"
of
in the face
this
in the encyclopaedias
Decidedly not
It is
Who,
buried learning.
The
after
Are they
final authority
must
But
it is
neither
the
When
you have done with them you know a Uttle about the subject of
your quest and a great deal more about things of no account.
More
If you gain at
that faculty
you end up
all, it is
which Spengler
extols
The more
contribution
think
and which he
made him by
of it the more
made me by
distinguishes as
Nietzsche.
I
of learning
the
most
was to
foolish
* Even Annie Besant, I noticed just the other day, makes mention of
her book Esoteric Christianity.
article, in
50
this
EARLY READING
To
of all pastimes.
one
is
non habit-forming.
of old,
from
to enjoy surcease
opium
then
would
no
evil effects,
preferable.
one wishes to
If
care,
has
it
moral and
to mental,
opium
is
relax,
and
spiritual
far better
recall
spent
my
*'
my
my
first visit to
curious
Hken them
that I
do
to the days
came
room of
the
New
York 42nd
many
peoples) and
times,
impeUed
and indeed
which
as if
by an ardent
mission,
it
me
might
set
word Hke
me
would
depths
stellar
Somenomen-
trance
to study
and one
varieties
ecliptic,"
Here
**
in
seemed imperative
it
my
of ophidians.
countries,
rat.
burrowed
clatures alone.
time,
Street Hbrary,
recaU,
last
first
this side
of Scorpio.
books
Httle
great
is
their
may
in size but
monumental
in effect,
**
immutable and
number and
They
are almost as
random which
later
will
Hmited in
mention two
at
speak
by Frederick
stances
I
doubt
Carter,
the other
is
if there are a
hundred people
in this
world
who would
51
THEBOOKSINMYLIFE
be interested in the
though the
of,
of
this
spelling
type,
reads
cold shivers,
have spoken
and
work
the error in
is
London) which
is
and
me
usage,
of defini-
unabridged dictionary
" I. Return to or toward
mask (from
word as
by Funk
freakish,
is
at
know
is
apocastasis.
Since
At
the printer.
tions
is
made by
it
It is
One of
and philosophy.
religion
with
book.
latter
subject, apocatastasis,
is
apocatastasis,
&
"Wagnall's
re-establishment
"2. Theology.
of
God of
"
3.
The
who
those
In a footnote
condition
on page 4 Santiago
(Paris,
" Apocatastasis
is
1930)
body
to the
from
Virgile
word which
the
the
or
place
orbit."
its
by J. Carcopino
previous
died impenitent.
The
Astronomy.
same point in
complete restoration.
celestial sphere,
It is also
the
word
to health."
As
it
writing of Apocalypse.
me, through
his
also given
hope one day to write Draco and the Ecliptic. This, the seal or capstone to my " autobiographical novels," as they are called, I trust
be a condensed, transparent, alchemical work, thin
will prove to
as a
The
I
greatest
suppose
52
it is
of
air-tight.
all Httle
books of course
is
EARLY READING
in
its
condensation of thought.
holds
own
its
by other
As
philosophy of Hfe
not only
it
my
in every respect.
a few centuries
we do not
we come to
later,
Rabelais.
humor
great emancipator.
it is
Sermon on
Mount
the
is
but
may
It
doubt that
it
and
the
The
and
apart
sets it
humor.
who comes
which wholly
It
be a more
spiritual
contains greater
wisdom.
of wisdom
of course, utterly
devoid of humor.
Two
Httle
own,
their
in
my
and
life
it
had
have
since, if
experiments.
a
to
man
or
make
never
few.
it
its
all
who,
to kiss the
begin
way
unaided.
read.
it
be
real
it
converts
Indeed,
its
of its career
it
by
a chosen
hand
it is
Either
Are we not
and
It is
is
their
more widely
it
at
student
out,
Seraphita
which make
indeed,
that
wrote Seraphita
book
THE BOOKS
MY
IN
LIFE
German
any
cost because, so
India.
for
It
me,
Germanafter
was
it,
in
had to read
of Hesse's
fruit
EngHsh* and
it
was
visit
at
to
difficult
was the
told, it
translated into
was a book
It
Suddenly
Paris.
German, one
found myself
me by my
sent
translator,
when
original version
my
me several
of the flavor or substance of the book because of my very rusty knowledge of German.
truth in
is
Often
since I
have remarked to
friends,
and there
it
though
know
not a
word of any of
It
epithet
my
Buddha.
tion never
The
my conception
twelve
disciples.
me
for
it
seemed to
of sorrow
bum
had
that appella-
guru to a Christian
saint
at
To
this
be, this
with Seraphita^
to read
54
before
About
with quoting
An
Long
Somehow,
A man
appetite.
know
Jesus.
as sin, guilt,
prefer the
aura, so precious to
to India.
fit
chord in
associated, rightly or
day
which
Prince of Enlightenment
seemed to
a responsive
conceived an overwhelming
English version
is
nov/ promised by
New
Directions.
EARLY READING
Another reproach they [his friends] levelled at me I also
found to be quite just
they accused me of lacking in a
sense of reahty.
Neither my writings nor my paintings
do in actual fact conform to reaHty, and when I compose
I often forget all the things that an educated reader demands
of a good book and above all I am lacking in a true
:
inadvertently
I see that
man with
hand,
with
it is
true, alas
all
anguish,
Each time
writing mania.
men
But
in fact, that
by
my
or for which
As
editors,
critics,
recommendation
lose interest in a
vmte
pubHshers
this
it,
act
on
to be
course
always put
it
too,
whom
They
if that other
to myself this
him
What
sustenance
was because of
my
"
their
"
am
way
them
!)
have
Of
"
book
(Some
situation,
I
me
identify
trying to aid.
me, not
Do
be nothing
are aiding
doomed.*
the ones
is,
are
The very
is
book.
good
letter-
it.
enthusiastic howls.
situation.
my
after closing a
my
new book
have spoken of
down,
I sit
Only too
it."
create
^I
all
it is
and publishers to
me
how
have told
seek to interest
least affected
be no end to
when
impelled to advocate a
I feel
more
Perhaps.
world
own may
a letter, in the
is
sold
as
well without
my
preface.
55
as
and
script),
others,
and mercurial
particularly, I
able.
many
of
who
and publishers
editors
dictate to the
shall
only in manu-
exists
still
others, that I
letters
imagin-
naive than
tears.
tribe
we
world what
Collective^
I.
Do you
edition.
suppose
unrestrained emotion
It
individual
this
was moved by
six
months
my man
was unsuitable
whom
Faulkner,
was
^find
how
for their
by Homer
it
list.
The impHcation
Fantastic as
which
employ, that " they " (always the dark hones) had
editors often
that
my
to answer,
come
shed
It
may
sound,
it is
we
and
will
jump
to the bait
It is
exaaly
editors think.
However,
this vice
of mine,
am
my
Blaise
it, is
types.
as I see
fanatics,
gratitude
my
I fail
to
may be guilty of indiscretion, I may be regarded as a naive dolt, I may be criticized justly
or unjustly for my taste, or lack of it
I may be guilty, in the
highest sense, of " tampering " with the destiny of others
I may
be writing myself down as one more ** propagandist," but^how
am I injuring anyone I am no longer a young man^ I am, to
be exact, fifty-eight years of age. (" Je me nomme Louis Salavin.")
see that I
Instead
contrary
taking place.
my
Perhaps
find the
extravagant statements do
and
sincere, in
any
case.
And
so,
i(l
am
guilty, I
beg pardon in
EARLY READING
me
should
back
my
my
words.
whole
The
But
me
to this declaration
of love and
adoration.
57
Ill
CENDRARS
BLAISE
Cendrars was
the
first
and the
stay in Paris,*
man
saw on leaving
was having a
d'Orleans
me
had just
my
my
him of
told
me
come from
always seemed to
his
In
a few words
sat
in sight.
my
up, during
Paris.
Rocamadour and
train for
last
me
last
Then
a sea organ.
In those
last
few
honeycombed with
him sitting there in
all
perhaps taking
I
my
manner of subterranean
shirt-sleeves,
from him
last
look
in his
own
That
by
my
again, never
translated
at a
who knows
was
time
from one
comer of
that
it
was in
read
it
slowly, with
cafe to another.
It
was
began
know
dreaming that
Httle French.
side, shifting
perhaps, to
left
passages.
is
language came
too proficient.
his
thoughts were
at Paris.
in France,
feet, his
lines
it.
he
remember well
may be
the day.
pleased, touched
I first
opened
his
book.
Moravagine was probably the second or third book which
58
lived in Paris
reread
Only
it.
had
of
to
BLAISE CENDRARS
discover
remember
as clearly as the
of page 77 (Editions
There was
also
this
Immediately
engraved in
my
it.
It
that
start.
my
two
think of
them not
I cite
later.
dear Cendrars
la
i)
more deeply
memory
read
I first
is
water-closet pipes.
(Does
day
Here
Grasset, 1926).
you of things
I tell
my memory
that
Foret* which
to brag of
my
read
powers of
the freest
I,
man
is
2.
contemplative
life.
reaHse that
am
Brahmin
a sort of
in reverse,
Or
his strength,
disciplines himself
punching
what
rates
at emptiness,
science,
what
watches
his
how
existence.
furiously, calmly,
What
form.
and scorns
who,
virtuosity^
which he
accele-
to
equal imperturbability,
as
me
to
make
pleasure,
others enjoy
not
my
(it's
own).
others*
Only
reflexes
that give
These
last
two
passages have
go by.
They
are
many
times
more
cited
which
are
Sutter s Gold,
about
^all
the
many
times
as the years
the author's
Panama and
American reader
On
the
gets to
1929.
59
uncles.'^
he
man of many
is
He
parts.
also a
is
Blaise Cendrars
man of many
is
books,
**
and
kinds of books, and by that I do not mean " good
" bad " but books so different one from another that he gives the
many
impression of evolving in
all
An evolved man,
directions at once.
truly.
His
life itself
individual
who
The most
solitudes
of life.
logic
of
gregarious
")
And this
A man
men and
yet
is
also a
soUtary.
bookworm.
(" O mcs
Life fu^t
The
logic.
capital L.
That's Cendrars.
To
home
follow his career from the time he sHps out of his parents*
in Neufchatel, a
Occupation when he
boy of fifteen or
secretes
of the
me
is
the resem-
memory with
have
all
which often
as
attributes to
He
restores to
contemporary
life,
he comes
common
life
closer than
source of
any
word and
him
to
69
Orient Express
Jonathan
Blaise Ccndrars
BLAISE CBNDRARS
(One must read
dangerous or inaccessible.
including
types,
murderers,
bandits,
all
and other
revolutionaries
of fanatic.
varieties
according to his
knowing every
making
He
of this statement.)
d^but there
his
same time
at the
that Chaplin
was
he had made
it.
But read
his Hfe
There
it
is
more
in
it
eye.
Yes, he
is
life,
by taking up
his lot
What
man who would scorn the
of Hfe." He has the faculty of
with
is,
this
Which
nothing deliberately.
is
he seems to seek
why, no doubt,
what he
To
his
be
own
sure,
he
story
vitally interested in
is
is
possesses
is
the
mutative enables
it
causes
him
him
to reveal
men to
He is
world.
faculties
the
human,
first
of poet,
seer
**
and prophet.
An innovator
pioneers,
the
dear to us "
adventurers,
real
contemporaries.
More
le bel
and
made known
I
initiator,
among our
made
aujourd'hui."
all levels
he knows them
on
ever
to us the real
Whilst performing on
jungle,
is
all,
(I
On
imagine
liners,
in the great
Africa,
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
has photographed rare documents, and, for
stolen invaluable books, scripts,
all I
documents of
kinds
all
^why not,
considering the enormity of his appetite for the rare, the curious, the
forbidden
He
how
Boches
destroyed or carried
!)
man like
Ubrary, precious to a
off,
Germans
the
(les
Cendrars
who
most
precise data
books.
An incredible memory,
machine.
more
his
recent books
Le
linguer,
Lotissement du Ciel,
who have
read
Foudroye, Bottr-
Banlieue de Paris.
On the sidewith
friend of
loi
which
It is
a sort
and our
own
O. Henry.* What
in English
is
wonderful translation
it,
Hors-la-
is
must say
in passing,
overlooked. There
is
(This
a fortune in
it,
unless
am all wet,
another
is
and
would
it
have
editors
its
way
Al Jennings' pocket.)
fascinating aspects
of Cendrars' temperament
him, shortly
La Sirene
What
of Le5 Chants
World War,
an opportunity
artist.
is
Picture
To him we owe
an edition
In everything an innovator,
collector's item.
Whether it be
promise, Cendrars
* Cendrars has
62
is
at
La Sirene
is
now
the
first
to look
also translated
him
man of genius,
up, the
first
a valuable
collaboration
first
over-
a tyro with
to herald him,
Al Caponc's autobiography.
BLAISE CENDRARS
the
to aid
first
him
warmth
justifiable
in the
way
here.
No
who,
(Or perhaps
it
was
desires.
me
speak with
more
signal
at
forget that
after.
most
Blaise Cendrars
the person
before
first
of
his signature in
he appeared
Seurat.)
which happens
wring
my hands
implacably
rarely
in order to
my
tracks again
as
am often
am alluding now
am
in
something
this is
down
despair,
me
and
as a
of a sensation in which
I
that
with joy or
tion.
me
to
talking
all
am
talking
and confused.
me
cold.
Not once, but a number of times. And I am not exactly a ham, when
it comes to taking it on the chin
Yes, mon cher Cendrars, you not
!
It
has taken
me
days,
Even
years later,
blow and
left
me
better
feel the
can put
scarred, dazed,
become.
my
old smart.
hand
You
to the spot
where
caught the
" to take
it."
me
is
you
that the
susceptible
come forward
/ am your meat,
as I
have so
often said.
I
put in
I
I
incautiously said
will never
No
matter
to the
"the
wherever,
can.
My dear Cendrars,
know you."
bottom of you.
better
You
will,
and
it is
not
inspire,
you
reveal,
No, encountering
you, whether in person or through the written word, you leave the
63
of the few
that
is
forbids scrutiny.
It is
It is
not your
as
less
You
us.
No
awaken
whom
these
sensitivity,
so
you
us
all
talk to
give
clutching, for
one
grasping,
are
the
you
to give. Indeed,
men
there
all
what
is
on your mind or
in
room
talk
and the room vibrate with the tumult of the dty whose Hfe is sustained
by
become your
you
talk
whose
history,
or write
life is
your
life
have
lost identity
web which
ceaselessly spins
is
history has
theirs,
and
as
all these
you
and yours
us,
your
life
the spider in
listeners, until
it,
everything,
.
by Louis
on
1948), finished
graphies, excerpts
Both contain
biblio-
number of photo-
French
alone.
(It is
amazing what
spice
and vitaHty
64
States
by
New
Directions.
BLAISE CENDRARS
Ycs one can glean a lot about Cendrars just
He
physiognomy.
from studying
take a
artists,
his
portraits
of him have
including ModigUani,
good look
Some
is
will
some
There
one photo of him taken in uniform during the days of the Foreign
burning
hand so
left
from beneath
powerful and
name
sensitive left
hand
unerringly.
it
to innumerable letters
it
and post
It is
is
the
with
most of his
cards,
shaved
his
it is
the cape
with
this left
hand
that
he has
hacked
his
women
called
the film
a tooth missing,
The
expression
opposite page
on
is
m^ot
his
ux
is
a photo taken
working on VOr
is
taken in 192 1
by Raymonc
{StUter*s Gold).
taken with
legs spread
to his
lips, as
of ftank, good-natured
is
a taunting gleam in
defiance.
Lev^que
at
*'
his look.
Another,
by
vitality.
In 1928
the thousands.
fit,
we
It is
its
soft
when he was
I'm fine
in 1924,
ear.
On die
brim upturned.
conk
He
has
65
-.
'Vx
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
a
the Antarctic.
(I
beUeve
it
Dan
was
Yackt the
first
But
publisher.*)
Legionnaire
in 1944 that
it is
we
catch a
gUmpse of
vieux
le
Informer.
This
the
is
he
the
is
fiilly
developed earth
roustabout, tramp,
sailor,
soldier,
who
bitter experiences
Un homme,
ripened.
man of
bruiser,
adventurer,
a thousand-and-one hard,
quoi
at
One,
which he
in
of hand
tricks.
The
other catches
he
is
teaching
It is
the Midi.
One
rein. I
Human
what.
is
mug
Hke Chinese
**
meditative, if not
mood, hushed by
unseizable thoughts
draw
his pensive
is
of the atmosphere of
physiognomic
forget.
the
force myself to
It's
**
aspects
human,
that's
faces, like
ones.
Many
that his
style, that
he lacks
all
sense
of form,
that
he
altogether there
let
us
critic,
is,
is
too
is
a grain
They
reflect the
at face value.
But supposing,
of the dnema
Antarctic
Fugue
we
not Uving
Title
for a
66
much
more "
remember(w?y
in the age
Pushkin
Press,
London, 1948.
"
BLAISE CENDRARS
on
Gilles
As
have we forgotten
what of Pindar
for hyperbole,
As
for prolixity
As
As
of form,
for lack
always kicking up
its
which
Tibetan
control
scrolls
i
arc studded
*'
with a
aspect
riot
is
not
of Hindu
of human,
which
No
taste,
De
C'est ca.
la
eh
No
sense
of proportion
No
These cultured
harmony,
grace,
form and
spirit
as
well as apotheoses of
which Brancusi or
The
of their being.
Oui, Cendrars
swell
is
full
detours,
asides,
text
which
also a
is
There are
are
is
his
books. Cendrars neither cribs and cabins, nor does he drain himself
completely.
it is
When
the
moment comes
expedient or efficacious to be
like a dagger.
To me
his
brief,
books
which some
We who
are
we
which
We who
When
of fixed
habits, or
!)
is
he
we
to be daunted
by
THE BOOKS
are
we
MY
IN
LIFE
away from
to ahy
man
when he
sea diver.
What
of the
whale.
remarkable
is
whale of a man,
is
stop.
man
rhythmlet
Here, in staccato
might
also
style.
(It
fast as
Chinese, with
be
deep-
^he
poems and
deploys a telegraphic
One
telesthetic/')
whose written
my way
curious affinity, to
"
called
takes a
given us some
also
prose poems.
It
about to unleash
is
precisely.
that this
*'
can read
it
as
of thinking.
from
syntax,
we
in speech.
It
is
one of
why we
to classify, though
know. Sometimes
is
definitely
much
not
But what
that.
Edmund Burke
to say
school, I
it
don't
is
don't
we were
remember,
Coleridge,
No
professor ever
made
difficult
him
classify
even de Maupassant.
I
indeed
is
mean
models
as
**
from Cendrars. In
to learn
Ruskin, or
should want to
think of him as
An
Cendrars
to be writers
Cendrars has
teachers.
is
Hfe itself
What a writer learns from Cendrars is to follow his nose, to obey Ufe's
commands, to worship no other god but life. Some interpreters will
have
it
that Cendrars
aspects, all
what
life.
it
thus.
He means
ramifications,
its
not. If he
What
is
all its
an adventurer, he
interests
him
is
is
life
life."
don't believe
all
an adventurer in
every phase
of life. The
all
realms of
subjects
he has
of" emancipation,"
manifestations.
68
It is
this all-inclusive
often
"
realistic,"
for
BLAISE CENDRARS
example, that he tends to pull
meagre
is
He
soul.
Cendrars* vision
blinders.
is
it is
may
be
step ahead
is
of him. Besides,
one with
no
secretary, that
years.
now
is
he writes with
An
hfe.
Lettres, Paris,
few
the
all
sure, will
realist
almost as if he
life
The
his organ.
perpetually open
life's
on
in front
is
his
rays.
the stops
all
what
sees
August
6,
more books
an astounding pro-
It is
his left
hand, that he
is
restless
labor.
**
all, I
souvenirs humains
consist
of
**
de
lettres,
Homtnes
obscurs.
ma
called Archives de
Hommes
which
tour d'ivoire,
d'affaires
and Vie
will
des homnies
He
any
tion
rate,
what
between
his fecundity
is
are able to
leaders,
his sleeplessness.
Exceptional individualsholy
men of affairs,
do with very
Httle sleep.
At
it.
the restorative.
and
is
True
rightly.
individual sleep
insane
remember
dynamic
v^
They
apparently have
potential.
Some men,
no
sleep.
from the
therefore
thrall
of sleep.
replenishes himself
at a loss to
more
fullest ?)
from
alive, virtually
(Why
With
Cendrars,
man
of Ufe
and vice
of long-Uved antecedents.
He
to
at
he
versa,
Otherwise
am
is
account for a
more and
emancipate them-
is
of
69
^s^\
THE BOOKS
MY
IN
LIFE
upon
He
confident that
embarking in the
But
to
which
(all
my
He is
Life.
is
**
What
obsession."
is it
All this
To
write
and
that possesses
et c*est tout.
his
recent past with the present and finds the latter lacking,
no
own
behavior of the
And
beautifiil.
it is
of contemporary
all
where,
life,
and
seized
upon him
of the
as
greater zest
life
but
no one can
alHes himself
backward
who
It is
casually
as a
and
material.
In
this
He knows how
70
soothsayer
discreetly
No,
And
it
his prophetic
it is
and
is
others are
hopefiilness,
because he
one with
Not
that
he
it,
sets
he often reminds
to
The
mere wraiths of
strike ore.
with
which he
himself up
as the
grandiose,
carry on.
life
who
that he
well
stars as
such men,
bonimenteurs.
of the
life.
it is
glorifies
as if firom a
past
profound and
is
me of
In
the
fact,
good
physician.
he knows
all
the
BLAISE CENDRARS
men
of certain
artists
he says of certain
fekes,
men
When
magister in
him which
is
It is
the
speaking.
by
Chatterleys Lover
name
because
the
remember
mention Lawrence's
memorable
occasion of his
" Tenderness."
title
him on
"
visit to
do,"
the
You must
I
repHed.
We exchanged a few words and then I recall him asking me fair and
square if
was "
To
gathered, that
was engrossed in
any
rate, that
my
(And
it
was just
at this
of Lawrence
!)
weak and
was the
It
to his liking,
period that
am sure,
at
unsustained.
be truthful,
view of the
Cendrars
this
word
my lips.
involuntarily, rouse
me from my
in endless speculation,
They
Lawrence's weakness
kinds.
longed to
them.
It is
is
reverie.
now
are, I
Futile
no
his narratives
he
is
as
be, I
distinct
Lawrence
common with
the
most moving
They
instinct.
create
of two
think,
some of
societal
it
comparing Lawrence's
he wanted to work in
would escape
It
though
passages
real
was not
Cendrars
In the ocean of
them
in thought. If he
He
is
a solitary, he
is
is
think that
nevertheless
of
all
men.
man. Lawrence
is
undeniable
man who
71
when we come
sense the
like, all
figures.
With
we
Rod and
self portraits,
such
rift
moved about
They
vortex.
from
life
and
too,
in
them
from
all right,
Cendrars*
moving
life's
philosophy of life,
The
tenderness
me
faults
you
of
find
he
is
^which crowd
He
does not
them. His
his
him
judgment upon
passing
is
human
pores.
his subjects
all
revile or castigate
whose work he
What you do
others.
he
books are
^human,
all
too
They may or may not have been heroic in the face of death
may or may not have been heroic before the tribunal ofjustice
but they are heroic in the common struggle to assert and uphold
their own primal being. I mentioned a while ago the book by Al
being.
they
book
is
indicative
of
my
point.
The very
choice of this
who is
by Theodore Roosevelt),
'*
this
up
outlaw
'*
for life
this terror
of
man
Cendrars would choose to tell the world about, just the sort of man he
would uphold as being filled vdth the dignity of life. Ah, how I
should like to have been there when Cendrars eventually caught up
the
vvdth tenderness,
is
of
Hps
when
there in
few
years ago
in a
bookshop
Hollywood.
72
much
to
BLAISB CENDRARS
was
it
less
might
exodus
incredible
of
was decided by
say,
He
it.
the
fall
Haunting
it.
of
Le
and the
Paris
reminiscent
pages,
Revelation.
Flight to Arras.
which
preceding
St.
Exup6ry*s
Lotissement du Ciel,
first
Un Nouveau
In
these recent
all
books
gUmpses he permits us
are these
So
recoils.
sure, swift
watching a safecracker
at
that
one
instinctively
work. In these
lurid searchHght
**
of a
Nothing
Uke
own.
his
" completion
it is
Here there
is
is
identical
part
of
with
Hfe.
life,
swim with
life's
currents,
grips
with
men Cendrars truly loves, the men he fought beside in the trenches
and whom he saw wiped out hke rats, the Gypsies of the Zone
whom
he consorted with in the good old days, the ranchers and other
and
it
is
is
the real
satirical
Jules
Human Comedy. No
puppet show, i
Romains. Here
la
sociological studies, k
Thackeray.
No
Zola.
No
pan-humanity, ^
la
purpose of the great Russian, but perhaps with another aim which
we
violence,
works
as
* Editions DenoSl,
Paris,
Brothers Karamaxov. \
1949.
73
\^
ripe
now
Everything
times.
the
multiform story of
wings,
From
June,
awesomely
writing again
is
rudimentary
time
at the exact
to be set off.
194.0, to
silent.
its
place,
into
This heavy,
refined,
this
^where
his life.
II
s'est
tu.
Chut
Motus
Edouard
oVHomme Foudroyi. En
memory of a certain night in 1915, at the front
in the opening pages
What
him
starts
Peisson, as he relates
**
la plus terrible
que
j'ai
world
events.
But
damp
drop these
let us
the fuse
burned
Let us
useless speculations.
R^my
where
a
few
de Gourmont's
women
lines
"
And
it
comes
this
that,
..."
cud
In
thus
74
BLAISE CBNDRARS
which
everything
reason
would not
wrong
went
gear-wheels
down
lock,
The next
No, on May
remain in
my mempry
Lord
to the event.
man of August
This
directions at once,
who
is
exploding in
all
of books, not
least
tea.
among them, we
shall
his
parts
VAnonymey* he
voudrais rester
In the books
begun
at
("Je
says.)
on Genoa), which
French
fiom
an everlasting
men of letters
crowd, night-
of the
the East
architect
'
already passed
str.
Ill,
v.
the
New
Spirit calls
9)
75
On
following
the
writer
thirty
are
begin to believe in
still
who
it,
my vocation of
Be
your
that
you
tale,
/*
still
fiiiits
glad that
garnering experience,
life, still
on many
to dwell
of
of
humorous
feasts,
drunken bouts,
individuals,
reminiscences
with extraordinary
fantasies,
at
would
more
singular
the reader has most likely never heard of, the variety, nature, style
Httle flavor
Gypsy
would
is
book
in peace
the page
line or
finish a
would like
to
Vendetta,
of Sawo the
like to
hoping to
at
it
of France where,
idleness, reverie
least
one
jump
called
Lausanne.
sincere,
ment
La
received
It is illustrated
from Cendrars,
by La Guilde du
the
Livre,
the text.
Dc nouveau unc
76
book
The
text
belle collaboration.
is
fairly short
(Vive
les
BLAISE CBNDR
But haunting pages, written sur
on
But
preserving.
le vif.
A R
at Saint-Denis
would be worth
of
prose,
trous jargon
document, which
example of
from
is
memory he moves
resuscitates the
frustration,
In
his virtuosity.
East, South,
wand,
mon-
an excellent
on the suburbs
armed with
as if
in
magic
which follow
terrain.
It is
a bird's-eye
wake of industry.
in the
view of the
masterful piece of reportage in which the cannon plays the role of ved-
But
ette.
where he
**
Mieux vaut
It is
etre
un vagabond,"
is
makes
it
clear
no stomach
for.
his
he volplanes over the eternal bloody war business and, with a cry of
shame
for the
figures
of the
last
They belong,
who
And
us
coming
carnival
of
they
by
finally, for
"
?
Who
are
Referring
No
to
let us
know what
may
us.
mere document,
this
book.
It is
something
should Hke to
77
THE BOOKS
own
LIFE
carry with
in a breast-pocket edition, to
wander
It
MY
IN
forth again.
has been
me
should
ever
In their
spirit
all alike.
cities
my past I can
scarcely see anything else, smell anything else but these festering
empty
lots,
jerries indiscriminately
lom,
and
creatures
of high
fettle I
my way
have threaded
by
my
Ofin
teeth,
recovered
by
I
What
poem
fiitile
who would
rages,
eventually
helpless
moments
In
of
whose domicile
Robert Doisneau gives us in one of the photos, to think that this man
**
also
made music " in that crazy building is something which makes
insensate material.
have
still
assimilate, to
has succeeded,
and that
Blaise Cendrars
You
is
why
with' a chemist's
take
is
But Cendrars
We
my spirit
as
Salut, cher
And glory be
We
sort.
as vitrioHc diatribes.
thirst
as yours,
and
heals at the
your historic touch, your velvety backward sweep of the plume. Yes,
78
It
History
has
left
us
BLAISE CENDRARS
a
few names,
bric-a-brac.
did
sort
**
For their
the wastelands.
of concentration camp.
But
camiot end on
of those
has
this
window is
the kind
the earth, as
is
tenaciously.
mean. Wherever
cluster
organized a pious
is
we have
secret
up. There
It
no armed guards.
torture,
protection "
wc
say, for
without them
is
**
in the
of
we would
thrown
Satie's
be
left
to starve,
and which
to the dogs
we
pounce on Uke wolves would have only the savor of death and re-
Through
venge.
hangs
can see
those oblong
the bedding
when we
sundown,
get to understand
window one
can look
down
Looking
from the
at Hfe
still
rear
mirror in
which the days of desperation merge with the days of joy, the days
of peace, and the days of deepest friendship.
this
way, think
There
all
this
" Sweet
is
me
clear as
H. Rider Haggard
for
Cendrars,
all
that
when
you must
at times
as
young man,
in the
of
beautiful,
digested,
and vomited
As
a child
you
a mere lad
the strains
it is
sec
tomb
to a chess
of evil."
played by Virgil's
I feel
a pattern.
it tells
do
French backyard.
My dear
in
It is all as
Especially
my
for as Sir
truth
look into
no waste motion.
fiend.
way, when
your
in
New
own
York, Boston,
you have
far,
as a
New
you were on
for alms
bum
in
You
have roamed
the candle at
Orleans, Frisco
the
both ends, you have made &iends and enemies, you have dared to
write the truth,
Hue
both in the
flesh
absurd of
putting in
to think that
my Htde word
for
am
bow in reverence.
disciple,
your
stiU
building
spiritual
How fooHsh,
You
life as
you do you
automatically aid
life is lived.
prefer to remain
that
gratitude,
80
to
live
to you.
are living
cause.
your prime,
me
in
stiU
is
how
air,
to be silent,
still
my
Hps.
grasp
with
IV
RIDER HAGGARD
Since mentioning Rider Haggard's name, his book, She, has fallen
my
into
hands.
glance at the
I feel
book
impeUed
now
have
this
To
second reading.
recollection
of reading
am now
begin with,
my
it,
first
remember.
experiencing as a result of
must confess
that
not until
creature called
and restrained
to relate, as quietly
came
Ayesha (She)
I anticipated.
overcame
{The
me upon coming
femme fatale
who
again,
occupies
to the
Sim
!)
position
at
least,
real to
la htt^rature.
and
incarnate.
race
we
Ayesha
is
say
of them cursed
it
with
real.
proportions that
is
Helen
is
it
She
is
superthe
almost deserves
legendary, mythical
Germanic
But before
Hterature.
this narrative,
which
dates firom
which
is
of
Troy
certitude,
web of such
She
comparable
mind
de
my
lovers, all
fatale."
ageless beauty,*
in
of immortal
in the galaxy
real,
name of this
face to face
my own
character
me
speak
and identity
it.
write this
have read,
as
book
down
keep jotting
memory.
they return to
of certain books.
mere
the
who
it) lost
of books
titles
it I
has taken
in the pages
this
the
game which
It is
That
acted as
And
myself
For,
is
my
intermediaries,
what happens
me
to
of a forgotten
recollection
had
also
this
every day
now
is
reality
of
to take
hold of me.
am coming
my
former
selves.
that
journey to Tibet
have
less
and
less
need to make
for naught,
beginning
almost as if
were embarked on
crab-wise, as seems to be
Not
It is
is
my
as times goes
on and
myself go on,
destiny.
perceive
attached
such importance to "the boys in the street," our Hfe together, our
gropings for truth, our struggle to understand the perverse order of
society in
we
wisdom, two
two everything, so
were two sources of
traditions,
boyhood we came
in
instruction
we
the one
to guard, and
but diaboUcally
fiitile,
false
and perverted.
The one kind of instruction nourished us, the other undermined us.
And I mean this " literally and in every sense," to use Rimbaud's
expression.
is
own
instincts,
his
If
he were allowed
own
inclinations,
radical transformation as to
cower and
cringe.
make
RIDER HAGGARD
it
would
more
"
reflect justice,
of
augment
abet and
life,
bas I'histoire
"
night
which we devoured
could be
begin to see
to
empty
lot,
light,
q.t.,
stealthily at all
discussed in the
dug
construction or a cave
gathering, for
bers
accelerate
would
Do you
(Rimbaud's words.)
of them
the pregnancy
we
It
And what
life.
we
own
always met
as a clan, as
blood brothers,
as
of
mem-
of a secret order
of Youth
these
of our Spartan
discipline
instruction, part
They were
spiritual training.
who from
our
elders,
We
some of them
looked back on
at least,
and to prolong,
possible, the
this
hallowed
we had no
suspicion
We
conflict."
did not
know
that
we were
as
htde primitives, or
We
we were
ment of our
adults.
affairs
authority as best
Our
respected,
revealed
we
For most of
of veneration, much
saying.
sufiicient.
we
it
idolatry.
and
it
Hfe.
we
understood
dubious
their
goes without
this
we
truly
law was
We
of understanding, our
We
opposed
at great odds,
inferences
judgment according
cipline.
We
the games
as
of
by
that
could
law, and
knew
if
that
We
had
faith,
as
well
of power and
fitness.
He
83
"
was a king
and he never
I
beyond
ruled a day
time
his
experience a
find ourselves
primitive
among
merit
who
exist side
me
amazes
We
all
we suddenly
**
I mean now the true
primitives."
The study of anthropology has one great
Uve again as youths. The true student of
the
man.
early
thrill
it
it permits us to
"
primitive peoples has respect, deep respect, for these " ancestors
grow up.** He
man in the early stages of his development is in no wise
to man in the later stages
some have even found early
by
side
who do
with us but
**
not
finds that
inferior
man
**
to be superior, in
late
We
terms.
know
most
respects, to late
young or
httle
much.
There
is
homo
decadent.
sapiens,**
such
as
the
hgence and
man
And we know
though we pretend
Cro-Magnon,
and
baffle us
aesthetic sensibiHty.
own species,
moment
or "
esoteric
**
childhood"
writers.
refer to
con-
**
sometimes termed " occult
"
accredited. They are for
second
writers, are
is
still less
one
of those imaginative
many
streams.
Perhaps only
upon
(sic).
Haggard
Rider
**
whom we
when our
We
let his
think of
name
scientific explorers
writers
him now
who
as a
we
recognize
" What
is
his narrative.
imagination ?
And he
84
was
**
asks
answers
it is
Hved
entirely.
It
was imagin-
RIDER HAGGARD
ation
Homer,
reading of
go
to
by
fired
his
What of
to enter
Caill^,
that intrepid
Frenchman,
I first
became acquainted
my
by
sonality, the
via such
Holy
Grail, resurrection
romancers "
**
am overwhelmed
first
as
and
many
others,
superstitious
beUefs
SchHemann,
Sir
Madame
myths and
fact.
pioneers had been busy unveiling the truth in one realm after
another,
defeat
all
and
interlocked,
paralysis
Century held
splendor
in
all
which the
doctrines
present.
had read
as a child
saw the
of the Nineteenth
us.
thought of the
illustrations
stories
of those books
had
my own
No.
we had
indulged
in.
recalled
all
themes connected with past and future. Looking out over the plain
the
of Tiryns
to
^it
and
how
vividly
wonder books
ing me.
of the Argonauts.
tale
my
make Hving
is
able to read.
With what
childhke faith does the hardy explorer pursue his grim task
We
85
men who
how
own
As
notions.
write
I recall
momentous
and myself.
was
It
in the kitchen
my
Suddenly
me
my
bellowed.
bien en retard.
And
consciousness.
on a
"
Why
monologue
what
What
disgust
it
it
fiill
began with
that Httle
wood
and experience.
smell or hear,
to
**
Everything
knowing
of
my
experiences
how it came
is
about,
own
traction
And so
The
Whatever we touch,
and momentum.
the lesson
are
It
There
on
see,
velvet.
works by
is
itself is a
no need
kind of
child longs to
wisdom,
instinct,
so divinely connected,
its
enchantment.
86
launched into
creates
thirsts.
thrall
!*'
how
like
moment
recollection
It is
just as her
very
Anywhere
there !
knot of wood,
so beautifully interrelated
itself,
door
hall
room.
paprika, so to speak,
in school.
what
gave
'*
:
that Hterally
feet.
up.
had gotten
in the Httle
at that
a brilliant, devastating
followed
Where
child
first
it
words penetrated
private
up from
given
this subject
if
frightening to parents
ftlDJiR
(
To what
rise,
may
go, to
a task to confront
of love and
all,
The
to turn to the
pupil deaf,
bom
were
But above
patience.
Whoever
patience.
ttAGGARD
When
when
Dante
.
came
to read
later in Paris I
roamed through
there
is
by
after
the very straw they slept on, these ardent students of the Middle
when
Ages),
when
part played in
it
by
in such places as
(who were
university students
thought of that
education
lifelike
forth,
when
the runners),
by such
figures
which
of the pubHc
one acquired
I
we had
felt
vital process,
in the midst
Hfe.
Dante and
all
When my
when
the world
is
disastrous.
in foul
that education as
birds, I
stunted, martyrized.
bas
^oles
les
I shall
read
all
which
What
him
we
Vive
that
Once
as I
the others.
knew
conducted today
proved a
it is
tame ducks,
If needs be,
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
Certainly it shall overtake us,
Behold the lot of man
and we shall sleep. Certainly, too, we shall awake and
Hve again, and again shall sleep, and so on and so on,
through periods, spaces, and times, from aeon unto aeon,
till the world is dead, and the worlds beyond the world
are dead, and naught Hveth save the Spirit that is life
!
tombs of Kor.
in the
Spirit that
becomes awake
twenty,
a phrase as the
If he
is Life.**
much
falls
It is
There
Nor
receives.
is
when
no
it
such
as the
become
.
Hfe,
is
Jesus
He
words
wholly
rest is
jumble and
" savage "
common
The world
apart.
do not conform to
sense
travail,
until
one has
and abandoned.
identity.
is
and utterly
That there
when one
the
distinct
until
only
that
He
It is
He
Spirit.
of his primitive
forbears,
he rcHves
orderto
teachers
a
in
member of
Neither
of youth.
and
initiation,
**
last
sent to church
The Church
confusion.
was
on deaf ears.
this all-important
as a
boy,
domain
exactly like
like
Alain-Foumier
this secret
order of youth.
Some,
I feel
own
parents,
made
to suffer.
88
Httle
book,
RIDBR HAGGARD
over
eyes, marvelling
More
than ever do
we
are
own
beUeve that
age
at a certain
knowing who we
Else
why we
are or
are
fate.
becomes
it
may go
we
its
we
Hved,
boy wonders
if it
of good Cometh
be truly thus.
He wonders
Such thoughts
evil
Of such
But
it
be,
troubles him.
mere echo.
surmises that he
him with
fill
when he
again
He
is
it is
He
"
then a
it is
boy
world."
Well he has
is
There
not.
is
it.
There
is
the hint
at least for a
all
them
to the
that
if
and
man
he would
oflfers
full.
some-
question of dominion
boy
of the
legislators
over
The imagination
"the undenominated
only
realize
if fleeting,
firustration are
but
limitations conceived
less
to say,
is
that
my
art foolish,
he
son
is
!
"
That
is
ridicule.
"
Thou
the refrain.
more
hand.
No,
as
impenetrable.
And
Some
will be even
him
more
reeling to
Some
will send
more one
stands alone.
this
judgeit
wage
to
takes
One
all
Our
or one
One joins up
cast irrevocably.
is
From boy
to the jungle.
Meanwhile
us by.
life passes
we have
murmur
only to
man
**
Place of Life,"
passes
Tomb
There
boy,
liuing death.
is
his stance as a
as there is
feith,
in his celebrated
only
work, The
History of Magic.
would not be
a statement but
rash
it
Rimbaud
that
enough
"wise"
sphinx of
much
is
adult.
modem
nearer to understanding
literature
this
domain.
I felt
that
him*
he had pre-
as
his
back
toil,
*'
have reason to
on
we
In a study devoted to
this idea.
empted
to say that a
committed
Hterally
What
ani
In the hell of
suicide.
In
Aden he
asks
Voyant
"It
Is it
It is
by boys
Serialized
Directions XI.
90
exists
adult finds
in
the
it
"
speech
itself it
The ordinary
*
a twilight
of eternal
their
but in
is
it
We
may
that
be uttered in vain,
difficult to
and
New
RIDER HAGGARD
Even
"cultured"
is
whom
writer, for
thought unpalatable.
him
neither
is
Our
to swallow.
children are at
trend
unknown
it.
home
to
in a
are ready, at
and beyond.
They beg
Vega
to furnish
intellects
new cosmology.
scientists,
our children
They
far
now become
boys, the
moon
whose impinge-
reality has
Our grown-up
cosmogony and
" in
is
intolerant
Rimbaud may be
said to
and
truly
modem
estabHsh a
^view
win
have broken
of man,
his heart
he surrendered
if
earth,
all
new
desire to
apparently.
all
with chagrin
contemporaries over to a
his
obstacles, hindrances
barriers.)
is
burned into
my
being.
It
was
and remembered.
came awake
at this
It
That
I
had
difficulty in
attribute to the
which Haggard
summoning
it
it
inspired.
One
me
all
these years.
It
is
is
privileged, as
it
were, to
assist
91
at the spectacle
stolen
which Ues
at the
we
me remind
let
are
tells
us,
at the Place
of
Life,
is
Life
What he
and that
is it
the miracle
enhanced.
is
to participate in a
only once
made
It is
secret
of death
what happens
between
in
is
life
and death,
as
and
at the
That which
of Nature.
her,
is
Spirit
No
as a
Ayesha,
sustains
less
And what
could the
fortitude.
of
love,
which
is
the highest he
may
it
the
key to the mystery. One law, one being, one faith, one race of
" To die means to be cut oflf, not to cease being."
man. Aye
!
man
life,
Ayesha,
which was
in her.
The beloved
the
first
this
incestuous
time,
is
killed
murder
by Ayesha's
is
arrestation.
is
Kallikrates, her
twin
soul,
for
for
doomed
HAGGARD
RIDER
assumes
The
once again.
flesh
which
generations of time
Ayesha's Devachan
another.
is
There she
is
as
limbo.
as the soul in
pass
from
His image
in
life,
Ayesha
is
which
An
no mortal man
The
veil
It is
tom from
being.
whom
to
Isis,
lesson
more
of despair,
will be tested
veil
which
Then
moment.
Then
this final
bom
which
coming of
a faith
is
yet
^her
move forward
faith
is
has penetrated
be removed,
Godlike, she
Her
in
time, seem-
all
endless time
She has
weigh her
her emotions.
the
bums
itself in
will
Possessive
is
With
she had
sworn
be no
now
is
nature of one*s
tme
identity
To summarize
eternally.
thus swallowed
is
to
do an
ofler interpretation
Haggard which
up in the manner
its tail.
intrigues
me
But there
enormously.
orthodox in
An
is
of
of
this
his
a duality in
this
one might
man who
is
reticent
through
say, reveals
at
his beHefs,
though
fiill
practical
his
which
fiill
Rider
earth-bound indivi-
wisdom,
great
theme,
is
amazing.
His method of
93
by
It is as if,
of previous
way
to
In spinning
incarnations.
his tales
His
true thoughts.
story-teller's gift,
however,
is
With
not
know
some of
on
spell
of the
recital.
let
by which
him
form and
me
who may
proceed to expose
knowing.
real to
me.
Everything
my
relating to the
childhood legacy.
tales
me.
also familiar to
deathless
mention
rites
of the dead,
all this
other
skill as
may
put
it
way.
that
But
struck just the right tone, the right level of understanding for a
its
first
time.
wound.
It
Just as
was
of Life that
at the Place
Ayesha had
of
some
visions
poet-seer,
may
exclaim
life,
my
Sacrifice,
"
Ayesha,
all
that
HAGGAltD
HlDEft
to me. Only once
of
is it given to
dawns slowly,
this
vciry slowly,
raw
life.
The import
experience, against
wisdom
itself,
"
Whoever
has not
become
so through death."*
love, participation,
Youth
is
He
Httle.
It is
spirit.
From
everything
all,
from
To
it
worship power.
itself is as disastrous as to
eternally renewable.
He
aliveness.
world of
of hfe
from what
off
life.
one kind of
is
not become
this to
die," as
Cut
not to cease."
cut off,
from
To
**
reUgious teachings.
beUeve
Only wisdom
is
has not only lost his youth, he has lost his innocence.
now
Saw," which
affects
me
as
as it
reflects thus
life,
**
:
Ayesha locked up
in her living
worked but
lover,
We
"What
deeply
wisdom of the
centuries,
which
nothingness
One
it
."
who
of man
Lucifer, Prometheus,
Mahomet, Napoleon
and history
Jesus,
And
Mankind."
firmly believe,
is
his
closer to
Collective,
Akhnaton, Ashoka,
" crime."
One
Yet
God
forces
by Erich
all
than the
all.
The rebel,
To him is given
arc revered.
saint.
95
of man.
is
This
come
is
word which, on
the
me.
to haunt
such books
This
stream, of becoming
life's
as
Siddhartha^ to exercise
a fatuous task
life
What
"
"
said Goethe,
we
We
of
had
received
my
writing
about myself
"What
fictive
Similarly
^we
might say
but
who had
which caused
Caheza de Vaca,
by reading [Winckelman],"
learn nothing
become something."
to
began
of ourselves by
reveal nothing
found that
It is
of one's
whole goal
Rilly alive,
has
the
is
It is
Identity
man,
for
we do some-
something.
Is it
myself ?
myself.
It
all
is
{Spirit
The
seeming.
certainly smothered,
is
seem
alternately to lose
conflict,
which
if
and to find
not hidden
is
is
the
title
for
reality
me
I expatiate
to the
reader's
amazement, no doubton
pit.
beauty,
Like " She," " Her " also strove desperately to give
others,
even
if
me
hfc,
magic of words. " Her's " too was an endless immolation, a waiting (in
how
awfiil a sense
me
!)
of
fear
and jealousy
terrible beauty.
Her
fearfiil
passion, out
Her
slavish minions, if
aime
when
96
?
I
And
What was
power over
others.
it
the secret of
Her contempt
me
it.
of my identity
In
Her
if
at the
very
Her
for
The
moment
image
RIDER HAGGARD
of the
In
slaiii
some
of immortalizing Her,
thought
I
make
could
strange, twisted
thought
live again
it
The wound
upon me.
wound
not
this,
the
The "
that.
was.
me
held
in their thrall.
made
And
comes
it
was not
I
which
found
at last that
CUmbing down
described in the
many
of Kor.
But what
is
more
still,
my
life
now am,
of being
why
reUved
experienced the
that I
many
awe-inspiring,
is
chamel house.
the
remembrance
and
What
fit
ask ourselves,
more
Fear,
me
of the female,
did as a
seems to
It
vivid
whenever in
that,
than did
a bottomless pit,
me more
book on Greece,
of God.
Why, do we
not sometimes
There
at the
is
Why do
a sentence in She
moment when
that physical
which
is
strikingly penetrative.
when
(I
I
read
them
as a
It
evil
comes
thee."
is
other
may
see
the Circes
all
which nourished
tragedies
than
All
inflicted
one.
the ancient
pit,
father,
I
past,
!
isness."
recognize
my
found
"
is
who
**
notness
had been
that
lives,
still
remembrance of what
the
Vanity, vanity
in truth.
boy
bum
to
are different,
**
As yet
!)
97
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No
matter
MT
IN
LIFB
how much
come
back inevitably to the one and only book, the book of myself
**
Can I be/' says Miguel de Unamuno, " as I believe myself or
me
as others believe
to be
Here
These
lines
came nearer
>y
**
the
monument
create the
And
Tropic of Capricorn
begun
then, having
monumental work.
The
book
to Her, the
any~^ook
which
in
have
was to
deliver
years ago.
this
where
believer~feii
book which
Ilie
five years.
of
is
secret," I did
chamber.
Here
myself
for
become a
these lines
and unknowable mc
where
is
my unknown
truth
is
It is
that
more
wrote
it,
put
was intended
this
it
to be the cornerstone
like a vestibule
or ante-
dread book* in
my
head
work.
made
and
utterly desolate.
laid
now
It is
Life
my
life
reached
it
to say
is
We
myth and
oneself in chaos.
know
who we
on sometimes Hke
To
legend.
We
**
are.
this
with Her.
composed
it.
To employ
had no thought
It
Of what stupen!
All
until
the
is
voyage,
we
word
have
reality
not whence
We set sail
we come
nor whither
we
opus during
all is
magnum
of the
of realization
or
we
else as
arrive at
our
unrecognizable
pulp from which the essence of life has been squashed. But let us
word ** failure " which attaches itself to
to brother
98
Tlie
Theo
Rosy
is
When the
Crucifixion.
art
"
RIOBR HAGGARD
in Vincent's case, that
we
to his art,
most glorious
the
Professor
Dandieu
we
dead,"
**
his
was rather
case
with
failures
realize
states that
**
Proust was
of " martyrdom
most
living
of the
this
our feverish
me
of
Montaigne from
activity.
the centuries.
failure.
and
It
The
erase
his
**
Failure,
from
my
retreat
" throws a
by Papini, incited
mind all thought
failure.
is
when
it is
ourselves.
tically to
revealed to us.
We
We
often
despite
fran-
from
us
till
the last
we
moment.
99
"
V
JEAN GIONO
was
It
which
sell
books, that
first
came
upon
Mans
Desiring).
nic the
book
called
who
making
In 1939, after
her soul
^blcss
me Jean
for
le
Both
Greece.
him
one of the
Manosque.
How
bought
my
On
wanderings.
of the Viking
that has
Press,
and through
who
with Giono,
all
lost in
Manosquc
latter
sadly confess.
Between times
on
editors
on
read
It
literally
(The Joy of
a pilgrimage to
stores
worb.
the occasion of
my
visit to his
home
he
him
his
books. But if
the flesh
so have
many
know him
wide world.
No
films,
No
find,
Harvest
same way
as
he
nor, after seeing The Baker's Wife, does one think of the
But
used to
And
spirit.
Some,
levity.
now
of
JBAN GIONO
Jean Giono.
ears,
do not say
do not doubt
that
New
Press in
my words
my audience
have
that
York, for
Giono
immodest,
own
in his
in his
own
books are
until his
tongue and,
Fortunately
at the risk
But, as ever,
idiom.
that
I feel
am
sway the
hearts
who must
is
who
spoken. But
hold, in a
think
whom
shall
manner of speaking,
^in
England,
publishers to
nor examples,
in this,
my native
Arabic,
could even
land.
Mans
Desiring
was looking
Orion "looking
can
wait
Austraha,
who
of those
able
continue to think of
translated.
of sounding
Viking
at the
upon deaf
fallen
like
curious.
*
Nothing could
I
add
way
I feel at
Otherwise
am
times. Hesitatingly
this sense
of
frustration.
incontrovertible logic
his publishers
always silence me, his works have not spread Uke wildfire on
this
continent.
am
to. I may be
am not convinced. On the other hand, I must confess
that I do not know the formula for " success," as publishers use
the term. I doubt if they do either. Nor do I think a man like
Giono would thank me for making him a commercial success.
I
silenced,
but
lOI
TM
BOOKS
He would
MY
IN
LIFB
be retd more,
like to
What
certainly.
who
what he means.
see
Giono
to be sure.)
If
Thoreau.
Giono
If
is
an
Giono
Herman
Melville, in the
of anarchism in
When
philosophic adumbrations.
book
he touches a
we come very
more important, close
His poetry
is
power
rank,
It
is
to captivate
This
by
is
vintages, lend
in
which he
to manifest
is
terrestrial
own
Faulkner,
it
Pan
**
still
happen
**
to
men
as
womb
him by
his
he has written
As
It is
created his
far closer
a region over
pulsations.
It is
never
fails
relate cause
own
private
to reaUty than
which the
a land in
stars
which
The
soil is saturated
Miracles occur.
even
a poet.
reveals his
Giono has
is
is
which
only a wizard,
whom
of
itself,
Giono
his father,
(which
translated for
everywhere, regardless of
his
own
or pursuit.
class, status
our
and, what
was
it
This Giono
through
like
Giono
in his prose.
man
them),
regarding
figiures in
in his narratives
But we do
was Tolstoy.
them from
anarchist, then so
a peasant, then so
is
do
!)
or anarchist, though
as peasant
And
whom
with cosmic
juices.
women have
their
;o2
JBAN lONO
troubadors, in the daily doings of humble,
an endless
unknown
peasants,
line
present.
In Giono's
settings, the
freedom
And with
this a
all
sensuality
human
consciousness
but in
of a
new and
enduring world.*
in
books.
In Refusal
James Cooney's
to
Uttle
Such
marked
interest
most
do not help
When
falsified.
of his
*
revolt.
Politics
It
begins
Boy.
know,
It
is
very ones to be
to
the next
exaggerated, distorted,
diatribes
all
is
their country's
vilified,
to be called
an impassioned utterance
103
THE BOOKS
I
IN
MY
LIFE
don't
began. At
darkness
you
If
you
killed
in the war.
helped,
do with
to
seems, to preserve, as
it
France that
this
I
What shall we do with it, we who have lost all our friends
Ah If it were a question of defending rivers, hills, moun?
That
tains, skies,
there.*
is
never say
Ah
river
when
see a tree,
France.'
How willingly
would
say
When
tree
'
exist.
away
give
that false
name
glory
in being alive.
When I read
\
a passage
Somewhere
statements.
hke
I
I said
make
to
that if
extravagant
had to choose
democracy
104
am inclined
thousand, times
great
this I
beHeve
is
itself
a hundred, a
It
was the
JEAN GIONO
We
be enacted.*
Obey,
"I
put
and
repeat
thus,
is
say there
it
Giono
its
is
not a
will
first
its
empty
it
Goethe
Society
principles.
said to
Eckermann
clever and
or
when God
at least
acute
only
up everything
will break
hour in the
more
is
a traitor to
is
constantly looking
spirit."
is
planned to
Men
time
renewed
creation.
am
this
aheady fixed
"
for a
it
liim as an arch-enemy.
become more
The
condemn
is
What was
the "
Society
traitor.
fine principles,
for victims
it
are
..."
my
how
presence
curious
We
had
their father,
of those
We
spoke of those
who were
his brethren,
for instances
was
Vinci.
Then
as
frantically searching
had never
a great role.
illustrious
names
I
his father
meant
* From Democratic
Fort
my memory
could think
Goethe and da
what
We
who
tells
to him.
Vistas.
105
TBS BOOKS
MY
IN
LIPI
begins, if
my
sensation, physically in
flesh
He
goodness, pride,
all
these as remedies,
all
these as provision,
in prevision
Towards the
close
make
will
**
was when
fiither
"
Where
made
a mistake,"
helpfiil.
You
Heart-rending words.
I
tree.
weep again
weep
this.
who
are
all
still
striving,
*'
There
is
Franchesc Odripano.
*
When
my
father said,
he
can put out wounds all about him like so many lamps.'
But I was not so sure. I said, * If you put out all the
lamps. Papa, you won t be able to sec anv more.'
At that moment the velvet eyes were still and diey were
looking beyond
io6
my
glorious youth.
JIAN lONO
*
the wounds illumine. That
Odripono a good deal. He has had
experience. If he can stay young amongst us it is because
he is a poet. Do you know what poetry is ? Do you
know that what he says is poetry ? Do you know mat,
son ? It is essential to real^ that. Now listen. I, too,
have had my experiences, and I teU you that you must put
out the wounds. If, when you get to be a man, you know
these two things, poetry and the science of extinguishing
wounds, then you will be a man.*
That
beg the
is
familiar
books
rate,
"
these citations.
that practically
his
made
to have
replied,
listen to
Giono*s worb. If
was
he
true,*
You
true.
is
**
At
least
that
from
most everyone
friend
moment
of mine
some of them,** he
day
You mean
**
" At any
said.
they certainly
story,"
repUed.
another story to
editors
about Giono.
tell
How
to ready that*s
his
the question."
the
who
Sponges,
1.
same
2.
absorb
only a
state,
of readers. Let
me
cite
it
them
nearly in
Httle dirtied.
who
Sand-glasses,
classes
all
retain nothing,
who
3.
Strain-bags,
4.
Mogul diamonds,
what they
read,
Most of us belong
first
retain
who
by
profit
it also.
one of the
And now
wish
never Losers,
which
I sec I
all
who expressed
means
number of
that I
visitors
a desire to
become acquain-
but that
Scrihnpr's,
New
as
yorlc,^i947.
107
"
THE BOOKS
To no
well.
such
MY
IN
author
as hailed the
LIFB
usual return.
a response
reading of Giono.
he could
make nothing of Giono, and that was a man dying of cancer. I had
lent him The Joy of Mans Desiring. He was one of those "success" business
ful
to sustain him.
The
of
others,
Ufe,
flicting
most con-
all
**
select
they had in
common was
These are
my
the pubhsher's.
private
It is
a thirst for
the
which
statistics,
hungry and
maintain are
who wiU
thirsty
as
vaHd
as
eventually
There
is
upon
friends
and acquaintances
some
strange
way
about writing.
It is
We
It is
the writing of a
communication so naked, so
with
learn.
Had he
is
It tells
man who is
it is
me
it
is
in
something
mad.
baptismal work,
often thrust
desperate, that
and
reality,
this
been merely
his
the dancer.
I
it
mention
this
book because
this
have scanned
to say so,
way, but
it is
it
book
must say
closely.
of a writer,
practiced writer.
One
can-
Boy he gives
telling
feels
us the genesis
Though
for writers.
it
that
is
wrappings in which
being.
It
the
embryonic
textbook dipped
JEAN GIONO
magic
in the
source of
all
creative activity.
blood stream.
he has
at least
It is
alas.
one story to
room.
Usually
it
It
renews the
palpitates, it
tell
Seldom does
come
it
straight
it is
name which is
expouncts.
breathes,
which authors
the story
disguises.
it
It
the kind of
It is
myriad
of the medium
fluid
from
the deHvery
Usually
first.
given
it is
name.
features
of his
narrative.
the
world
art.
..."
musician because,
he
listener,
is
We
we
says,
he thought
Giono or
it
is
If
that
we
more important
who
no longer know,
are Hstening to
result
In
The
just this.
as the player.
That
as
whole
tips,
ourselves.
good
is
It
as if
we had
written
them
whether
to ourselves.
to be a
we
The
effluvium
laved
by cosmic
lubricants.
Giono
troupes, herds,
magma
and
He
gives us
He
men,
has seen
deals in galaxies
flocks, in biological
it is
beasts
perpetually
and gods
no need
and
plasm
to descend
constellations, in
as
weU
as
well as the
as
primal
hills
and streams which surround them, have the tang, the aroma, the
vigor and the spice of string herbs.
redolent of the Midi.
memory of
other times
African shore.
When we
;
We suspect
They
pronounce them
unknowingly we
that Atlantis
we
revive the
inhale a whifl"
was not so
of the
distant either in
time or space.
* Et bien
niietix qtC
Osseudowski
109
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a
It is
little
IN
MY
known
at
LIFE
author
Colline, published
Brcntano's,
le
which was
his intro-
awarded
to Jean Giono.
For the French public, the Prix Brentano owes its imporTo begin with, it is the
first American Foundation to crown a French work and
to insure the pubHcation of that work in America. The
mere fact that it comes firom abroad Vitranger, cette
" arouses
contemporaine
a
lively
interest
postiriti
tance to various novel features.
Twenty
years since
new books
first
firom
two of
a series of twenty.
He was
them.
Giono
series
when
of " Chroniques" he
Colline
now,
in his
fifties,
he has projected a
won
calls
series
several
have already been written. Just before the war started he had
begun
years, in
with
his as translators
is
of the book.
as
he explains
in the
inevitable that
public.
inspired one.
Melville
is
this translation
not one of
my
it
known
and
it
to the Frcndi
seems to
favorites.
me
Mohy Dick
an
has
always been a sort of bete noir for me. But in reading the French
version,
that
Melville,
ue
which
will
Saluer
in ven-
JBAN GIONO
Giono himself says
tion," as
How
often
own
authors
Frenchman who
by-word throughout
standing of language.
Even
was
think, too,
tion.
who
**
(I
Walt Whitman by
the subject.
in a letter
it is
It is
in translation
Europe.)
all
of
language
always
is
communion
some of
versus
communica-
see
apprehension that
expressed
translator
certain
readers.
the
It is
curious
how
askance
always reminds
The Wild Ass' Skin. All he needed was to see the name Balzac.
That was enough to convince him that the book was " immoral."
(Fortunately he never caught
me
line
of Balzac.
The one
Ruskin
not
nearly
know how
covered that
him
to Christ
was
his
it
fell
c'est inoui,
mais
My father,
I)
c'est vrai
when he
it
be,
it
still
.
did
I dis-
responsible.
times
who was
a line
writer he
it is
book based on
literature.)
French
from
fdm
directors
to
eating
and drinking.
It
When we
is
a feature
have such a
111
JJ)^
THE BOOKS
scene
it is
IN
MY
LIFE
participants. In France,
these scenes.
moved,
sensual as well as
is
spiritual
for truly
it is
we know
Httle
The Frenchman
outdoors.
nourishment or because
Then
a repast al fresco.
**
we
are
at
we even more
We
Naturally,
it is
cocktails,
-Ki
variety
of them, the
And
me
let
good
only
How we
what
repels
to be derived
is
And when
We
men
in
neither are
There
There
is
men
How we
five senses.
is
the pleasure
We
are not a
to read
La Peau
mean
the garb
which
We
We are not individuals,
collectivity. We are neither
anarchists. We are an unruly
which
we members of
democrats, communists,
mob. And
do not need
beasts are
are
banquets for
ric
women
know how to
that
conversation.
Not
The
beautifiil
inspire
subtle,
women who,
!
ale.
the sign
a great
socialists
by which we
nor
are
known
is
vulgarity.
characters
JBAN GIONO
even be said to " fornicate/* but in these indulgences there
anything horripilating
as in Malaparte's descriptions
Never
soldiers abroad.
is
obhged to
a French writer
mannerisms of Lawrence in
book such
as
to the
resort to the
whom
much
he has
few,
in
plateau
how pitifiiUy
He
way.
the
never
common, by
is
of American
setting
on
handful of men,
hill,
like a bull."
enough breath
in him, as
Redeemer
Escaped Cock.
man
Still
man
content
met Giono
able to divert
railing
it
Hfe,
Lawrence in hymns of
himself in his
of art.
that first
**
region,*' so has
hate.
decadent,**
^his
Lawrence so
wanderlust.
of
soil,
**
what was
sick,
in the French.
nose was
filled
with
Giono in hymns
Just as
On the contrary,
nowhere.
of man, but
resurrection
debt to D. H. Lawrence.
not intended
indications
Saxon,
as
of
a rejection of the
his limitations.
of France.
have said
it
man, they
Just because I
We have
all
am
also
an Anglo-
us a terrible need
I shall
probably do so
luidl I die.
Vive
la
France
"3
THE BOOKS IN MY
was jmt
It
from
hbrary
came. Yesterday
whom I knew
a literary agent
of individual
that
moment
the sort
f B
months ago
five
visit
who on
And when he
you.
is
exploitable in you.
does look
at
you he
sees
is
He
first,
at
that his
to hold
had an unexpected
said flady.
thought,
for, if
Saluer Melville.
is
explained
that
books.
" And do
" he demanded.
"
And even
beheve
it,
if
a beautifiil book.
It is
" In
that
it
fact," I
love
**
my
doesn't matter a
to have done.
He
added,
looked
at
is
true," said
book which
" though
I,
want
don't
to see published.
it."
damn
to
me
know my Giono."
me quizzically and,
as if to
provoke me,
is
is
such
said
asserted
them
That seemed
that
he was not
he wanted to
period was
to stop
small talk
When
out.
tell
much
this
114
answered simply
in his tracks.
with Giono
as
course,
"I love
Colline appeared
it
his
circles in
was
was
that the
be.
What
Giono of a
certain
Giono. This
is
better
"
the sort of
a perpetual ferment.
as if the
happens, whenever a
moreover,
certain,
he pretended to
have been
man Giono.
It
him
as familiar
Giono would, of
this
but
all."
rate,
whenever
universal acclaim,
JBAN GIONO
somehow
it is
the author.
It is as
Or
it is
perhaps
not.
though
man would
In their
He
Hves the
"
first
it
which he
he dreams
work some
"
successfiil
that
life
he Hves
it in
first
Sometimes
upon
the one
That Giono
That, like
not deny
all
is
of
image
we
he has
his
He
good
it
one of the
and
side
is
is
is
the
able to
rank injustice
his
think of denying.
bad
side, I
would
The
fully.
revelation
is
it
us,
one
love.
In Giono's case
either.
other times
The
register
image
first
a blessing that
it is
image
how much
it.
full
is
later this
succeeding ones.
all
individual.
This
order to live
inflicted
of
exists
image of themselves
itself in
a true reflection
is
He dreams
book
until that
is
is
given in every
him from a host of lesser writers. Moreover, Hke Picasso, I can well
" Is it necessary that everything I do prove a
imagine him saying
:
masterpiece
"
Of him,
as
of Picasso,
act itself
would say
and not a
particular
work which
as
the very
body of Christ.
Supposing you have an image of a
by
accident,
man and
in a strange
so
many
aspects
Now
you
find
of himself,
as
him
quite other.
baffles
and
"5
And
the
more
baffled
the protean character of his being, the less qualified are they, in
by
my
man
which
is
author
set
would
receptive
But
at least.
at least
it is
the nature of
word had
last
little
minds to
is
Should an
As
He
holed,
resurrected and
who
enjoy
interpretation, vdll
in themselves.
The
a comparatively
young man.
will be dated
those
end.
is still
will
critics.
And
Giono
There
The
re-resurrected
game,
this
who
until
identify
with the
it
of
art
make
him
sport of
until the
very
if
and
The
again.
skeptics will
fence.
Whatever
is
written about a
around
tells
of the
perpetually pivots
critic
tells
which
way the wind is blowing but he is not of the v^nnd nor of the airs.
He is like an automobile without spark plugs.
A simple man who does not boast of his opinions but who is
capable of being moved, a simple man who is devoted, loving and
loyal
is
you about
a writer like
critics.
ways beyond
instructive.
Trust the
their understanding.
Becoming
is
know how
their silence
and
to hold themselves
in abeyance.
Unamuno, "
beUeve
less
and
less
in
JEAN GIONO
moral
and in
all
order that they shall not have to face resolutely the only real question
that exists
question,
we
all
we
that
not hear
shall
Giono
that
him
that
who
Those
he
is
He
and more.
these things
is
is
when he
sister,
He
only a dreamer.
is
man who
is
never detaches
dreaming.
brother,
of nature. If there
suffering
is
Particularly
mother,
as father,
human
which he
human
faces this
disrepute in
on
are active
Some wish us
who
much of the
In their view he
he has a marvellous
Some beHcve
He
accounts for
It
a renegade.
refuse to take
this
it."
not facing
as v^e are
is
question squarely.
him
So long
now doing is
are
human
and punishment,
family
because
it is
is
It
fictive characters
strictly
ordered. There
is
room
in
for
it
all
who compose
it
move
sometimes
in contradiction
of
this
This then
would say
to
we
more
understandable, far
is
everything that
you
more
that
we
last
would
are living in
work
like to say
obhged
new
life
scientific theories in
or art as a guide.
Above
of state
rule.
no
right,
THE BOOKS
f)ossibility,
ead his
IN
MT
LIPI
to organize the
own
life
of others
he should
that
this,
now
the present
among
reigns
voice
whom
with
who you
is
the being
own
you come
really are,
you
call
shape, and to
in contact
how
Understand, rather,
'
and vulnerable
truly insignificant
what
extent,
on
immeasurably your spiritual self and having understood this, begin to live each moment to accomplish your
you
is
you by
and your
own
a universal
wisdom,
spirit
good
say to
my
This then
brothers, before
is
what
woula
like to
die.*
"
Notice that Tolstoy speaks of " the greatest possible happiness
"
and
the greatest possible good." I feel certain that these are the
two
goals
Who,
*
Ii8
the
Law
attain.
any length on
of Y\olencc.
Happiness
this state
of
JBAN ION
being
Who
talks
of
talk
place in our
endless talk
is
To
looked upon
good "
greatest
There
much
is
agitation,
but
is
as a
animal.
As
pick up Giono's
made
to his
list
book
last
home
ceiling,
now,
And how
at the list as it
number
man of his
for a
is
How many
titles
alone
Often, at night,
look up
when
of Giono's world,
go
a look at the
stars,
renewed
him
aflinity
an
is
in
it
and
Les
Vraies
Paradis, Presentation
here there
my
in
work
editors,
me
is
have
moments of utter
" would be an injustice
walking about in
he
and pubHc.
critics
that
of his mother
bom
at the
the
when
is
far
In such
away, in a country
which he was
spirit
Le Poids
will read in
spirit
crowd them
also
with
conflicts
He
the
**
Sur there
in
last
to read
still
meditating on the
called France.
manger
look
wonder about
to Giono. I imagine
is
promise myself
it
have
d'Etoiles,
at
moments
was
age.
page of his
title
Solitude de la Pitii^
for
provender. In a bookcase,
spiritual
to scan once
reminded of the
am
dePan
instantly
again,
is
is
He
is
in that
his father
as a cobbler.
none. That
space.
reigns,
and where
bench
New. But
own. That
still
who
taught
one of the
diflerences
between
is
119
THE BOOKS
of
One
his spirit.
MY
IN
LIFE
feels it
moment one
the
One
Giono
and
gives us the
reality. It is
it. It is
world he Hvcs
kindred
were
you recognize
spirit
yes,
it
suffice to describe
It is
in,
would hardly
inmiediately,
other.
you
If
bom or raised, what language you speak, what customs you have
you
A man
follow.
and
Lao-tse
Li Po. In
Giono's
to be
is
new book
gives
Songs.**
It
ceaseless.
It
the thrush
inaudible
is
intimate,
contains
it
refrains
the
and
personal,
notes
variations,
the
lark,
of the blessed
it
well
as
as
In addition to this
taste,
smell
The most inanimate objects yield their mysterious vibraThe philosophy behind this symphonic production has no
feel.
tions.
name
soul, to
its
function
Be what thou
Is this
is
all
whispers.
I20
the sobs,
the laughter
**
nightingale,
contains
it
and
Song
and
ululations
the "
untrammeled
cosmic,
more
far
is
than
poetic,
of the
once
this
more
far
stirring,
spirits as
sensitive,
recognize at
able to
me
cries, shrieks
and
endless
more
precious, far
of
it.
are a
French ?
art,
only be
it
to the utmost
" That
is
what
it
VI
INFLUENCES
HAVE already mentioned
can
the books
why I am
doing
this.
One
is
titles
list
am
listing allf
favorite authors.
the
that
Appendix
the
that in
better reason
for example, to
this is
is
my
know
all^
BuTthere
is
still,
and
this
it is
people are
which ones
model
himself,
as possible.
shall
by
I shall
at all)
to the authors
of great books.
they
of them, countries
are,
all
and behavior
But
that
to
as
come back
am listing
much
must confess
which bad.
are dead.
**
the
**
countries
me
and have
affected
my
list
...
**
;
thought
were to
I
offer
my own
would say
fact
criterion
me
and
alive
and those
less
augment
all
me)
are attributed
to the
am
which
few
regard
that
If
as if
few
(for
which
most
intend
include a
whom
had
that they
chronological
as strictly
not writen
this
offered the
and so on.
who
little.
To
or, to
Some
Ufe.
put
it
authors
another way,
books belong in
this
121
On
opinion.
We
he
that
Despite what
to
which
authors,
is
man
of his vitaHty
inspired, that he
have just
it is
in his
own
my
scanning
pleasure to
am
repeat,
know who
draw
own
their
thousand, though
I
perceive,
may
look over
by
be endless speculation
entailed.
Like
on
is
salt.
all
a great reader.
me by
their repHes.
Twenty
to thirty
doubt
if I
list,
which never
grow,
ceases to
It is
sayings, this
all is grist
men he
is,
is
The
fact
given to
abundant material.
am
One
as
well be in error.
my
of these books
late.
my
be able to give
shall
grain of
to
When
know and
conclusions as to
thousand books,
appalled
to
list,
enough
thoroughly aHvc.
is
half
is
source of a man's
He
influences.
mystery.
my
in
futile,
best judge.
as to the
work
own
his
is
^recognize
each
this subject
less
to enjoy one's
books stimu-
own
thoughts
uncontrolled.
appetite, there
that
it
must be
there
is
excessive
it.
for books,
bfatantly obvious
our present
did
122
Where
substitutes,
This appHcs to
realms
of
INFLUENCES
sleepwalkers,
and
we
would be
no excuse
lessly,
as
they Hve
If they
aim-
are already
asleep,
sleep.
become worse
man who
fi:om
it
is
wide awake
what
is
And
lethargic.
Only
so on.
the
Such a
is vital.
become more
idlers.
am
man
no
distinction
what
enjoys
full.
seeks to profit,
from
who
this sort
through
because
It is
am
The advantages
to be derived
to
my way
of thinking, than the supposed advantages to be obtained from ordinary methods of education. Most of the books given on such Hsts
cannot begin to be understood and appreciated until one has hved
later the
whole
kit
and caboodle
has to be regurgitated.
came within
To
begin with,
the field of
my
my
let
writings,
me
too.
As
on me.
have
influence
testified to
which
would put
knew
I
that
include
who
them
it is
in
order.
First
legend,
of
all
myth,
come
tales
of imagination,
all
ox\
\n
my
\vritings,
J23
and
justice
injustice,
and
sorts
all
being
they formed
my
my way
character,
of looking
my whole
my
at Ufe,
books
me
only
some
partially.
That
is,
some
my
aflfected
affected the
writer,
reading cannot possibly affect the whole man, his whole being.
sure,
At any
rare.
rate, the
Appendix.
those
who
make special demands. I took what was given me and I swallowed it. The reader who has followed me thus far has by this time
gleaned the nature of my reading. The books read in boyhood I have
did
also
of them quite
that
familiar.
Where
commence
as the
writer, the
first
is
dreamed
From
at the
that
me
brink of
man-
may be regarded
man and as a
as a
early
thought of myself,
fact that F
first
as a writer.
my memory
my
Boccaccio,
MaeterUnck,
'^^'
and
most
on.
first
others,
hood, that
then
Henty
as
foremost,
serves
me
right,
here
is
potentially,
And
genealogical
so, if
line
Petronius,
Rabelais,
Romain
Rolland,
Plotinus,
HeracHtus,
Nietzsche,
Elie Faure,
Oswald
Spengler, Marcel
INFLUBNC ES
Van Gogh,
Proust,
Carroll, Nijinsky,
everything
the
King James
it
for
it
which
got
and which
first
What were
me
which permitted
character,
approach to
life
power of language,
the brotherhood
wisdom and
life's
humor,
my
of man,
of everything,
oddities
and black),
"
love,
my
style,
life
understanding, mystery,
version,
message
the love of
enjoyment of
**
Broadly these
love, the
me
which formed
to be influenced,
itself,
the
my
its
which made
the subjects
men who
wrote
especially the
Lewis
Balzac,
Surrealists,
read on
and
and
the Dadaists
Rimbaud,
and
eternality,
self-liberation,
relation
of sex to
eccentricities in
all
art,
the marvelous in
all
all aspects,
**
for
there
only
is
Have
still
I left
am,
Fill
them
Even
interested in everything.
in yourself
in politics
was, and
^when regarded
from " the perspective of the bird." But the struggle of the human
being to emancipate himself, that
prison of his
is
why
I fail,
is
why,
in
of
is
who
making, that
me
from
the
have experienced
figures,
critics
so often
fail
to perceive
it,
to the full
And perhapswhy
to Uberate himself
is,
for
why I am
religious
sorts.
is
Hfe.
that
own
not say
little
it
that
is
iconoclasts
why
of
have so
all
little
and
me
the only
Gautama the Buddha, Akhnaton, Ramakrishna, KrishnaThe yardstick I employ is life how men stand in relation to
Not whether they succeeded in overthrowing a government, a
Lao-tse,
murtihfe.
125
THE BOOKS
MY
IN
LIFE
how
what
men
distinguishes the
impose
on man
their authority
to destroy authority.
have in mind
on
life itself?
For,
is
life,
make man hungry for Hfe, to exalt life and to refer all questions
back to life. They exhorted man to realize that he had all freedom
to
in himself, that
the
world (which
problem, which
refer to
now. They
a question
at a
as
liberation,
"...
stay
in this fashion.
I shall
when
they did
met them
would
else.
Several times
have
have explained
When I glance
me as eloquently
The books they left me
a book.
in the flesh.
E.
Flynn,
Mills,
doubt
Emma
that I
have
Goldman,
Cendrars.
known
and
are, then,
Benjamin Fay
It
made each of
Here they
figures.
There are
others,
book of hfe
for
Jacobs,
Blaise
of course,
my
126
nothing
it
fate of
own individual
W.
his
them
of
Hving books
at various times,
I
is
And now
why
is
Hfe,
I
feel forever
indebted
to.
I shall
VII
LIVING BOOKS
Lou Jacobs,
that
by saying Asmodeus,
book
years
Next
to
it,
on
the
the back of
same
shelf,
merely
recall at will
Sticks,
Curious that a
The book
can
or
Several times
picked
it
forty
was Gil
Bias,
which
never read
cither.
a prisoner than a
man
my
three-storey house in
Because,
to laugh at misfortune.
life
was more
which we shared a
flat
by the
ogress
were
who was
who owned
fiiends
and
had no
our
who was my
parents, eating
my
of
utterly lost,
who
who
Lou
Jacobs,
my
wanted
lines
first
love
!),
remone
the slave
forthwith became
No
on
the floor
my
star
twelve
suspiciontrying
(my
man
the house,
talent
corroborate the
away from
sufficient to
that I
of the
with a young
with
was
to
It
was
me
Guide,
below
my
this
lost,
man
Comforter,
* " And a night comes when all is over, when so many jaws have closed
upon us that we no longer have the strength to stand, and our meat hangs
upon our bodies as though it had been masticated by every mouth. A
mght comes when man weeps and woman is emptied."
(From Btibti of
Montparnasse by Charles-Louis Philippe.)
127
"
occasion,
if
door,
at the
*'
For
Lou Jacobs
your
all
ills
laughter
I
if
my
his intimate, I
am
me
memory
serves
certain.
He knew
known
right.
who
all
brought joy
Whenever he
sorrow.
not
" he
What
("
breath.
man,
is
He
that
visitest
thou
me
who had
those
He
say.
remedy
could
in the next
mindful of him
art
him
would
the
and the
")
as
Why
"
well
as
at
The
all.
Conversation began a
instanter.
His
skin was like parchment, the face seamed with fine wrinkles, the
He might
eyes.
a
day over
oily,
and
tousled,
over
falling
doubt
if
his
he was
sixty.
His "job " was that of certified public accountant, for which he
was well
paid.
of chess,
if
He seemed
you wished
any other
to have
as
most
raillery,
sort.
A game
as
the
time
pursuit.
no ambition of any
was to him
it,
alive
game
He
imaginable.)
and awake,
jovial, full
slept
little,
of banter and
Books
Never
And he was
had read
title I
The
honest.
impression he
worth reading.
everything
who
Bible, or rather
this
man my
28
in the least
first real
it
it
was the
all,
that
he
came
me
of
Jesus.
aware of
schooling.
As with the
education.
of course
of Shakespeare and
Without being
me was
In this he reminded
with
left
In talking he always
It
it,
was the
method of
not
that.
he taught
mc
Whatever
**
it
never to approach
it
head
LIVING BOOKS
name or
on, never to
and
last things.
The
define.
But no
oblique
and no
first
motion
spiral
Hnt
method of art
last.
line,
never
Lou Jacobs
Yes,
He had
He had
begitming to acquire.
The
essence
of
life
he read for
all
entire being,
an open book.
as
sheer enjoyment.
**
wisdom I am only
possessed a
the faculty
all
own
too,
story to
himself better or
that
more
it
was unique.
Certainly
write.
man had
no one could
Though he knew
it.
way of never
Moreover, he had a
it
feelers, to
dangle
Whether
than to inform.
He was
closing a subject.
one wished
express
clearly.
is
how
he.
and that
tell,
Hfe.
Uterature,"
of
total experience
his
from
how
one knew
if
In Maeterlinck's works,
mouth
his
particularly
to take
a
him,
constituted advice
it
book such
Wisdom
as
who
and in Uterature)
equanimity.
We
I fear.
do
Nor
like
name
days.
is
Their
often linked.
Dommage
The
if
truth
we
to
spiritual
is,
we
really
are in search
Our
An
tuals."
to Ufe
fear
excellent sign
But
are they
if
from
his
nowa-
verities.
We have
Men
are turning
writers, fi:om
**
intellec-
suspect
to say,
is
is
of eternal
whom
Emerson, with
pabulum
fear
fear
to
same
the
thing.
than now. Never before in the history of man was the issue so clear
the
issue
cm
Butt
means
all
.it
this present
moment.
What
you doing
are
am
on
there
the floor
"
t
ants.**)
a strange thing,
It's
by
Yes,
annihilation.
work of
air.
no matter what
creation
cipally,
men who
them.
already have an
many
reading of
They
writer's or thinker*s.
way of
deal in forms
more
the
universe.
have a
dimmed by
books.
them
safeguarded
At any
directly.
I feel
whom
have in mind, these gay old dogs, have a youthful gaze. Whereas
chance to enjoy
even
chat
after, it
it
of
this planet,
their
own
become
sec
And
is
or
its
the
tell
them
own
we have had
dares to
tell
them
to enjoy
is
deeds.
The
with
society.
made up of
sum or
individual has
Few
individuals.
What is an individual
on
now
are able to
Who
is
an
130
filled
that society'
no longer
it
no one who
identified, involuntarily,
constitute
I
is
really
Nor
there
thoughts, their
any longer
they are
if the
would not
imperishable.
is
fright.
thirty years
on ray way
ago
to
it
LIVING BOOKS
was
It
moved me
enunciated
the page
that
I
^what
or destiny,
fate,
it
was
would be
imprisoned me.
awakening
from the
which
circle
of pride and
feeling
way
different
outejected
momentary
all
to the roots
my
read him.
surrounding me.
me
so profoundly that
this revelation,
exaltation,
but
soon
it
same time
at the
a stronger sense
of com-
"
is
Too much
whom
another writer of
fustian,"
who
are
much
on
Our pantheon
and reverenced.
use of the
for
a day.
may
word,
it is
Lindbergh,
We
have no
be placed, adored
is
we no
Besides,
nowadays.
said
is
fuHginous.
we do make
for example,
not
Too
no doubt.
which
is
erected
most of us
thought,
is
read.
we
leading to
Time and
If
it is
race through
;
we want
book which
We
it.
excites
and stimulates us to
cannot wait to
know what
it
we
we
scarcely understand
we
what we
of our own.
How
is
our
seldom do
luxury of our
own
thoughts
and wiser
if
associations
we
it
would
proceeded
instead of a
few
We
we
No, wc
stifle
will return to
How much
better
be,
at a
book
131
Precisely.
words
way
**
will be objected.
it
responsibilities."
are intended.
leisurely
own
his
thoughts, will
Perhaps
intended that you lose your job, your wife, your home.
book can
reading of a
your
had much
meaning
If you
had
make you
so deeply as to
was
If the
forget
responsibilities,
sibihties.
you
stir
it
for
you.
your
trusted
own
you would
inner promptings
Enter by
and abandoned.
door
this
You
'*
might whisper
afraid a voice
!
"
You were
Turn here
This
is
Extend
in reading a book.
which
it
reads a
life
book
is
moment
to a
the
new
may
it is
why men
easy to see
way one
even space
women.
is
itself,
But
as
let
me
get back to
my
no death
there
me
"...
got
was something in
tragic.
He was
is
man,
who
There
barriers.
which reminded
Jacobs' character
I
men and
Perhaps
whom I referred
he does about
years.
not
anywhere.
fail
and
life,
Lou
new
fields
off
Knock
of being deserted
afraid
would
lead
When
no one on God's
him
before he arrived
must
to have
he
say,
no
home
whom
intimates,
for dinner
where
Usually
by conversing with
133
LIVING BOOKS
He was
pimp.
more
certainly
down
he would wander
and
Sometimes
lose himself in
home an
whatever
Or he might wander
into a second-
book
as to talk to
of books
firesh
experiences he
after
dinner he was always free, ready to take any stance, and open to
any suggestion.
It
was
in the evening
when
upon
to be of equal
to be
ill,
now,
interest to
him
bad mood.
in a
him.
never
way he played
me more than he. To
player.
have
lost
it.
chess.
be
knew him
He might just
good
Usually,
spoke of the
intimidate
sitting at the
and absorbing
never saw
him
entered, I found
sure, I
was not
then, nor
good
as
as
am
Napoleon.
was wone.
What
Would you
utter nonchalance.
two rooks or
a knight
any old
it
was never
fashion, as
that
like
me
me
He
his
his
you a queen or
to give
**
manner.
He would open
my abiHty, though
at
defeated
his
No, he did
it
no
how
diflference to
far
It
seemed to make
or losing the
game
moves
possibly
as
well
mean
to a
games, or a hundred
to be saying.
**
Come
"
I'll
on,
be playing
let's
Besides,
to lose a
Make
it
chess, or ten
in paradise," he
it
have fun
what could
game of
seemed
a bold move, a
133
Of
grew.
move
rash
cautious
course the
suspected
me
The way he played chess was the way he played the game of
hfe. Only the " old dogs " can do it. Lao-tse was one of these gay
old dogs.
Sometimes, when the image of Lao-tse seated on the
back of a water buffalo crosses
my
when
mind,
think of that
wisdom so
Lou Jacobs sitting before me at
the chessboard. Ready to play the game anyway you liked. Ready
to rejoice over his ignorance or to beam with pleasure at his own
tomfoolery. Never mahdous, never petty, never envious, never
of
and benevolent,
fluid
jealous.
he was to you.
Always
star.
which he sprinkled
his talk,
tive
dog
that
think of
his,
make
a point
instruc-
a finger
everything
when he
parched face
spoke.
The sound of
It
morahty,
me
Let
all
splinters
and
pretense and
him
leave
by
as
his face
me
mustache moist
with whisky,
glass, his
fool,
the
that
artfiil
anonymous one.
He was
together.
134
the
And he was
And now
figure.
teacher,
This
Let
me
think of
of any time
hell.
own unimpeded
artifice.
there,
he stood bowing
its
him
great
not of
this
time nor
comforter,
the
mysteriously
What
book of
life
you were
man
is
still
only
high, as if
It
wisdom of hfe,
his laughter
came from on
alive,
all
!
knoum
rich,
LIVING BOOKS
peaceful
It
Ufc that
encountered
one of his
after
New
in
done
It
least.
was a
a long-deferred
letter I
Ufe.
met
him
between my legs.
whose books
attended frequently,
then possessed to go up to
few words of
word he
I
whereabouts through
devoured hungrily,
tail
my
met him
so.
his
of an event in one's
courage
lecturer.
lectures at the
of homage.
years ago at
I
disappeared out of
letter
Lou Jacobs
after
this
his Autobiography,*
York.
a fiiend, I acted
had
comer of Wales.
in a
life
he dubs himself in
or, as
It
took
the
all
and say
with
flee
uttered seemed to
go
straight to the
was then passionate about were the authors he was writing and
He was
lecturing about.
Now
that I
regularly,
like
an oracle to me.
now
my
had recovered
as if I
it is
that
youth.
hear from
He
is
still
him
*'
the
master " to me. His words, even today, have the power of bewitch-
At
ing me.
this
very
moment
am
deep in
his Autobiography, a
sincere,
illuminating
one's
all
!)
as
" If
life.
dare to put
their
all
down
the persons
with humor.
Powys
(most
it
much
would be
of public
actions," says
greater
them
boon than
the author.
derogatory terms,
a degenerate,
who
testy justifications
Like Celine,
trivia
these
call
even a
sub-human"
1934.
135
His book
his Stature.
much through
man
one
is
"
something in
thing
book
passages, out
Here
^no
substance
What
is it
Yes,
life itself
than
of life-wisdom, revealed
we
all lose as
in Ufe,
it is
written.
mean
what we think of
as
but
'
deeper
of a more precious
we grow
as
retained to
my
of
am tempted to hold
my
the
the wiser
if the
less
human
my
my
in
that the
stand
more
on
this
after
the time
was
During the
forty.
my
my
in
favorite
what
find out
books
first
what
feelings according to
admired
struggled to
no
one's
method
my ow^."
but
But
man
know^firom
his veins
who
me
his
first
and the
fire
enlightened
Atreus.
gown,
remember most
vividly the
way he wrapped
(He
is,
flights
of eloquence which
The
workS^ the
often
oftener
I listened
less critical I
felt as if he
of an over-dramatic temperament.
He
is
rather a kind
this
of Spenglerian
more
read his
136
left
stage, as
aaor.)
himself in
have
be."
It
older.
I
boyhood
early
view
It is
much
it is
it is
Hfe
get older
Now I am
me.
particularly precious to
is
we
is
that
that
is full
Emma Goldman
LIVING BOOKS
in San Diego,
was
it
spirit
raved about.
who
rare beings
Powys, needless to
I
say,
Emma
philosophers.
Goldman, equally
on
inspired
the platform,
from an
with the
soul.
fire
Warm
intellectual center.
Powys fulminated
fire
was
Literature
for
him
which
manna from
like
cradle the
He
above.
pierced
the veil time and again. For nourishment he gave us wounds, and
remember
rightly,
mention
now
Fatidical, if I
Why I should
it
don*t
know,
favorite adjectives.
unless
it
was charged
me. At any
rate, his
was
racial
and superhuman
feats
own Robinson
me the impression of confronting a being whose ancestry
gave
more
at
home
obscure,
historical forbears.
To me
he seemed pre-
is
the pre-
That
is
why, probably, he
What he had
democratic
in
have
my memory
Whitman's
in
conmion with
stands out in
known who
sense
us inferior beings
was
one
of the word.
was
a superlative
were of
as
vital
ques-
and pedant
interest to
lose sight
him.
of To
sit
It
at the feet
this
porary,
whose thoughts,
spirit to
could visualize
this
feelings
representative
137
THEBOOKSINMYLIFB
I
Russell.
of this mind,
intricacies
something
know no
word
better
He was
an
**
it
*'
in us.
interpreter
beHeve
human
of the word.
sense
more profound,
their aspirations
which Powys
"
which
is
Power
that
more
at,
there
all
of Hfe.
in
there
is.
We
it
up one
Communist, nor
are in
terrible because
is
glancing
resist
not
levels
nor
human world
all
brilliant
his being.
could not
I
is
Power,
thoroughly
this
and has
Powys
men of
conform with
the
which
truly
is
rounded individual.
that
all
at all,
wisdom of the
Fascist,
nor
but capable of
not
It is
years
as
weU
It is
me
at all surprising to
as a
balance
two such
difficult for
me
to think
Dostoievsky, both of
youth of the
moment, but
of the human
poles
human
spirit
whom
these
spirit.
I still
two
worship.
none
it is
No
writers could be
more eloquently
the
should think of it at
this
reveal
Curious that
and anomalous
features
of the
spirit.
who
is
in the Nineteenth
Century
LIVING BOOKS
particularly, this century so rich in
confirm
we
know of the
Rabelais, a
men of
man of the
one
Renaissance,
knew
all
The
his contemporaries.
imagined inconveniences,
communicated with one another and paid attendance upon one another.
The world of
learning then
electric.
Our
writers, the
men who
should
virtually nil.
are stranded
pound
on
artists
rate,
of today,
into annihilation.
He
extinguished.
cataclysms
to that breed
who
never
is
there are
of man which
Ark.
and guaranty of
have discovered
with
established
this secret
his
his survival.
!
The
in the
fellowmen
How
few
all spirit
is
the
book which
has
kindled
birth a
book
by a
is
spirit as
dead to
us.
Words
it
throughout the universe entire and which gives not warmth alone
vision,
courage.
139
VIII
THE DAYS OF MY LIFE
I
HAVE
my
from
just received
friend
have been
when
I sat
down with
on
King
Ten
my
" romance."
I
am
Now
that I
remember
that
Here
hterally astounded.
is
what he
own words
says
before
me
to the task
my ideas as
its
itself
my
faster
tnan
Moreover,
it
was never
rewritten,
The
that
fact
is
it
and the
was written
But perhaps
Well do
of this extraordinary
I recall
of my
tale
may
contain a
literary agent,
it
140
An
Ltd.,
London, 1926.
"the days op my lipb
not wish to have to return, I sat down at his table, asked
for some fookcap, and in the hour or two that I had to
wait wrote the scene of the destruction of She in the Fire
of Life. This, however, was of course a little while
it may have been a few days
^before I deUvered the
manuscript.
It
later,
that
As
was
of She,
for the
title,
written.
own words
**
:
She, if I
remember
aright,
is
was
Bradenham
sisters
who were
in her charge.**
these bald,
are concerned
run
down
'*
meagre
facts
classic.
thrilling, at
the
interest in
am
it is
by no
less
think
it
a person
12,
Gay ton
Crescent,
Hampstead
January
My
2, 1887.
dear Haggard,
and
pitiless
in
its
me
with astonishment.
I do not know what the critics will say about it. Probablv
they will not read more than they can help and then will
let you off with a few general expressions. If the critic is
a woman she will put down this book with the remark
inevitable details that strikes
* Meaning She.
141
it is impossible
almost
towards the marvellous.
that
all
women
have
this feeling
Whatever else you do, you will have She always behind
you for purposes of odious comparison. And whatever
critics say the book is bound to be a magnificent success.
Also it will produce a crop of imitators. And all the Httle
conventional storytellers will be jogged out of their grooves
imtil they find new ones
parts
known
all
was
it
pirated
of sales firom
which poured
on
in
America
letters
by
that
**
in
thirtieth year,
the
beginning of February, 1886, and the i8th of March, that same year.
He
began
it
about a month
It
was
a remarkable
estate.
As I have often
the thousands
bitterly
of letters
interest
**
to
all
added the
me by
I
may
for
to
all
143
answered,*
my first firiend,
with Stanley,
my
dwell at length on
relations
At
point in time
this
Pole
I
am
Then
do remember
Between
Corelli.
we
that
European
doubt
we
this
is
all
and
Loti,
To me
unreal.
the
word was
soon
other
after
To
earnest.
be honest,
meant by
Stanley
associated
*'
of books
and in
talk books,
discussion "
**
of
first
Pierre
as
began to
It
if I
"romances."
that
such
writers,
Conrad, that
I
another
spoke
Balzac
as
of romantic nonsense.
full
Haggard, though
Marie
and appreciate
all
There
most
is
Haggard
interesting
describes at
some
dream,
length.
a recurrent one,
ends thus
It
which Rider
a:^I scci.
some
sort
payment
doomed
to
At what do I work
who, shining steadily, stands
*
You
A world
is,
as
**
here
voices the
at
my side
God
am
ask, alarmed,
WiUiani James
Death, that
'
sins,
of the guide,
and shows me all.
write the history of a world* (or was it othe
I am not sure), is the answer
' e
world
my
for
and a day
hints in
liis
it
make
The
divine.
point
hope
has a history."
this
which
all
central
When Haggard
of his
love "),
143
THEBOOKSINMYLIFB
" in
all
(and
man
is
is
do)," he
is
saying,
feel,
is
bound up with
the history of
to record
The
history of
"I think
am
upon
first-class
human
Haggard,
right," says
life
**
no one has
in saying that
romance dwelling
solely, for
example,
True or
not,
it
is
its
as to
it is
make
not necessary to
essentia] truths
visit distant
of the universe, or to
to great hterature,
common
speak of this
way from
of
that
his
life.
of the
classical writers.
They
him
alone
it
glorify the
as I
have just
said.
They are
less
yearning
is
masked or concealed
Often, be
noted, this
it
is
not
the
drama of
identification
indescribable visions
144
the lure of
the redemption of
is
the final
woven
all
is
between them
stars
them
circles
hierarchies
which
constitute them.
As
to the
good and
evil.
it
It has to
is
have in mind
meant by
cal substance.
if
plane,
"
man
No
man had
known
ever
is
at last able to
look inward
ceases to
said
all
between
it.
conflict
do with freedom.
men
synonymous.
society,
he
you would
already
This statement
is
to read.
It
proves
to me,
number of times,
books.
As
any
rate
Ufe,
now."*
that that
is
It tells
life.
something
of corroboration, and
have reiterated
of books
It
one how
is
we make
about
mien of a
the
given by Ous-
as
a blade
when
statue
of
smitten v^th
form of
wonder or
ecstasy,
faculty
is
be
real
is
& Co.,
Inc.,
145
as
book.
This joyous reading of life or books does not imply the abatement
of the
On
critical faculty.
the contrary.
To make
full
surrender to
The handwriting on
wall to give
way is
the wall
who
and
fears
at
all.
from without,
and joy
is
the
it
sheds Ught.
Walls
last
The
It
it.
But the
in.
not in
neither
is
can interpret
reluctances.
self,
the wall
for
what
Through Hght
it is
inefifable
Visions
New
146
York, 191 5.
Cowpcr Powys
G. Arnold Shaw,
IX
KRISHNAMURTI
the world has never known her greatest
know their Hves and works we might indeed
of God on eardi."
Someone
men."
we
If
could
**
heroes
(who
pale.
is
come
First
is
an abundance, the
The poet
past.
senses almost
which he
explores and
lity
is
man
never
from which he
Is this
shell
human
existence in a nut-
by an
see
idiot, signifying
sad, learned
nothing but
dreck.
man.
The
men. Looking
To them
Ufe
is
thought to the end, the very substance of our mother, the Earth,
is
nothingness.
spirit,
M7
They speak
solid matter.
to us through a void
form of the
generalized
spirit, its
flourished as recent as
on
wrinkled and
its
written
is
they impose
All this
those
me
Nothing
being.
much
for
me
man
artists,
man as a whole.
is
him
a greater antiquity, a
it
Httle faith
books
attributed to the
is
too
to swallow.
opinion of
individual
that the
holds
it
pretentious learning.
in rapport
disgusted
by
by way of saying
which put
when
bolstered
is
greater inteUigence
whose vanity
years,
my
is
caste,
written
world
Though they
in truth
is
tale
of hypothesis
the
picture."*
weathered face,"
their
symboHc
**
is
is
becomes. If
The more
in whatever field, I
In
Even
if these
reaUty
is
in
no way impugned.
in the past,
it
were.)
We are being told every day, for example, that the prosaic, practical
minds which
ment
are seriously
moonand
working
fifty years.
**
thinking of abandoning
* Novalis.
148
this
KRISHNAMURTI
solution to our
Be
ills i
assured,
is
The
readers
they themselves
which he
plans
and
Woven
Abraham
know
at the root
the Jew.
the
At
though
theories,
Book of
made
of Nicolas Flamcl
it
the
was learning
acquired the
on
these subjects,
The
discovery of
contained
is
same time,"
how
to
is
this
book and
the effort
wisdom of despising
we were
on
projects.
many
is,
is
it
in his heart."
in this
one
As
in
material,
he
any chapter
wish to
quote just one paragraph, if for no other reason than to suggest the
reverse
of what
insinuated above.
The
passage concerns
two
if
* Magicians,
New
by Maurice Magre
E. P. Dutton
&
Co.
York, 1932.
149
The marvels
speak of are of
thoughts or ideas
practices
science.
of language
feats
sometimes
is
suspect
sometimes
human
feats
of heroism
unbehevable beauty
monstrous, evil
To
just
all sorts.
some-
all
that
is
and perverted.
have in mind
am stringing
Joachim of Floris,
Gilles
together
de Rais,
Richter,
Albigensians, Jean-Paul
the
Summa
Madame
St.
Holy
Grail,
Germain, the
St. Francis
Blavatsky,
the
of
Assisi, the
legend of Gilgamesh,
Bible,
Atlantis
Isolt,
Deserta,
Dumont,
gistus,
Holy
the
White Brotherhood,
the
Buddha.
There
to
all
is
that
a
is
name
Krishnamurti. Here
a master of reaUty.
any
man
suspect,
secrer,
can think
of,
reluctant to .iccept
150
one
which
what
it is
easy to
easy to grasp.
is
so
Out of a
Men
are
perversity deeper
KRISHNAMURTl
than
all
rights
Satan's wiles,
intermediary
He looks
for solutions
which
are in his
art
own breast. He
puts learning
out time and again, the world problem is bound up with the problem
And
salvation ?
petty ego
Your
Do
yourself.
What
soul
is
is it,
?
Your
man,
that
identity
God
Lose
is
you wish
Your
it
keep on desiring,
nor to remember,
Roughly,
Krishnamurti's
this is
all
way of
speaking.
It
No
one
else will,
wilderness
is,
of
must be
which
of a
he urges.
But Krishnamurti
leader.
It
eyes to this
phenomenon in our
have read so
Collective.
I
do
several times.
it
marked
intently,
I first
There
is
it
my
hardly another
so copiously, unless
it
book
be The Absolute
found gold.
read
do not beUeve
I
midst.
would consider
it
a greater privilege to
residence, curiously
enough,
is
is
no man Uving
meet than
he.
whom
His place of
my
own.
it
seems to
from him
replaced
by
151
invaluable.
It
is
enough to
and essence.
with
replete
phase of the
latter's
published)
set forth
is
is
is
Suarb
He
background.
wisdom
has the
to
let
book the
which
man
Krishnamurti
supermen,
What you
men
reader
Bombay,
order in themselves,
on
external
the
him
Krishnamurti answers
weak and
who
gentle ones,
men who
usurp and
bottom
at the
By
of the
in the case
are supported
by
it is
who
its
deep
crowned by
fragile branches.
on
human
In
of
.
it is
As long
as
the
you
aflfain.
look
at the
problem from
you amass
citations,
you
To
pit
that I
which
springs
by
is
others*
say.
But
if you
sufferings,
152
is
by
top
most
ities
tree the
are the
contrast
The
KRISBNAMURTI
I
**
say
belief
car la meditation
and
sonally,
hope you
and I belong
towards
life.
arc behefs
It
and
to
du coeur
no tradition.*
what
varies
from day
me, but,
traditions useless to
life
what
You may
attain Hberation,
meI
from
in yoUf
is,
means
kind of experience.
And
is
own
your
after
my
is
strength, the
is
enmeshed,
power which
is
just
It
It levels
pierces
restores
makes of daily
life
Instead of an
a joyous pursuit.
furniture or
way."
in his
no
One
feels
the
said
any other
same way
and preceptors.
moments of exaltation),
and,
He
initiated
cultivated
doubt
faith or
(especially
in
persever-
of those
all disciples,
no new
snares
is
willing to
epic.
say
point of view
it
you
You may
are or
that
the abiHty
all,
which one
myself
let
understanding
to
were to
if I
this attitude
me from
Per-
now, I have no
say
life
"...
rentendement
est
will understand
eternal vigilance.
Italics
it
**
mine.
153
"
THE BOOKS IN MY
There
something
is
LIFfi
about
Krishnamurti's
Suarh
as
striking, fact
connected with
"the
message
which
utterances
There
utterly superfluous.
is
his utterances,
words
clearer his
understood."
" I am going to be vague expressly
Krishnamurti once said
the
less his
is
defined,
is
it is
my intention to be so.
"... No, Krishnamurti
not
dead
it is
He
upon
him
himself, forces
throws
he
is
he
inflicts
upon
all
your
How many
Now
and then
life !
And
true,
is
and pain
asks,
'*
so on.
names, to
what
is
have you
labels,
a great
It's
you say
that
a veritable lashing
individuals have
is
fine words,
the
it
What, he
the self-righteous.
accomplished with
your books
Collaborate with
say."
constantly urging.
But, if
all
that
social,
moral, religious
weak
^which give
may
so that they
weak
firom profiting
by
direct experience
Instead
men
of
life.
make
become
seek to
These devices
own
One of the
(Suar^*
and
artists
roles.
interpretation.)
salient differences
man
between a
like
Krishnamurti
ego wishes to
moment of
it is
his
utilize ot its
inspiration
artist
ego which
own
wherein
it
profit
was
is
a constant opposition
The
artist
great or sublime.
This
and
is
his ego.
in touch
with the
eternal,
154
KRISHNA MURTI
moment,
precisely, in
the residue of
own
its
living experience.
by
absent, replaced
one's intuition, he
It is
As
maintains,
all artists,
become
But
just the
sole guide.
they
want
contrary
see
to
most
for
artists it is
signatures
their
creations.
attached
The
power permanent.
am
not a translator
have had
difficulty transcribing
but the
is
phase of deliverance.
first
their
his creative
of genius
quality or condition
to
to individualism,
artist clings
and
Nor am
reflections.
as
revealed
in reality,
complex,
and truthful
much more
is
mysterious.
That
much more
from
to extricate themselves
really adore
to
is
difficult,
in a distant fiiture.
himself, simple,
in
make everything
is
is
of
their
own making
moment
the last thing they will admit usually. Reality, if for one
always referred to
which
as
**
harsh
**
it exists
reaHty.
The hope
that
spoken of
we might
hidden paradise.
in everyday Ufe
It is
we may one
day awaken to a
lives
Man
from day
is
to
stultified
day
is
by hope and
the
myth
that
which binds us
we
experience
suppression.
he
as that
say, a soft,
^that it veils
fear.
he
for himself
the
This morning
escape
and which he
This
is
myth
of myth
book on Krish?55
me by
to
had forgotten
a fiiend
on
that
it.
This preamble
does not
Krishnamurti's
Man
(**
is
his
Suar^ book,
it
know
life
own
It
is
meand
who
possessed.
to thank
my friend
and work.
The book
Hberator
by Ludowic R^ault.*
**),
called Krishnamurti
is
Like the
am
Since
this
statement
"
wish to inform
am
my
readers
with him."
is
stood,
regard
as
In Paris,
we
They were
sect.
And
say.
they were
all
^I
must
day,
sense
of
confess,
ridicule.)
(To
this
excites
my
Rudolf
Steiner's
language
still
was
now
and then
would
teD
them never
to
come
near
me
156
again
unless
must say
KRISHNAMURTI
They were out
Here
what they
talked about,
and preposterous
this
them, something
**
me
know
they will
was
who
is
I recall
to us " his
ture
that they
"
own "
It is
am
indebted to
make
one's
it
own, depends
Make
your
it
that
own
"
He was
entirely
who was
on
the
forever
a vain, pretentious
truly
all
interested
real jackass, if
thing of
after they
become
significance
said, to
coxcomb, a
it
was only
significance
is
**
It
fiill
of what
little
think
fiill
said."
from
merciless with
is
shouting at us
was
of what
individual.
truly able to
namurti, "
**
to
Not by
them.)
'*
that
nonsense."
all this
lines
ceased bothering
in
so eager to impart.
known
once thought.
some good
as I
me from
that
striving
as silly
to save
must confess
humble, he would,
as teacher,
it,
litera-
which he
most
certainly
did not
But
to
are all
not,
immensely
and what
view.
come back
"...
Bulletin
To me
my
interested in the
view
it is
from
You
will tell
you
my
who
**
:
to
walk to
the
sit
to
important
man who
In his
Uttle
because
exist,
to the station
quoted thus
is
of very
camp or
is
have started
ahead of you
"
?
J57
THE BOOKS
MY
IN
LIFE
"
essentially.
and unseemly
He
familiarity."
**
of Krishnamurti's
them
We
outlook on those
his
all
goal of evolution
is
For
me
The tremendous
have
said, the
Masten
typical
is
His
life.
shift
of
tion
The
arc the
this belief
who
us
of humanity. As
at least
exist, that
but
make
to
real
who
in season
and indefatigable
fact
of the
a demonstra-
is
efforts
to icomc
Why
that
free
I
don't
Only
want
that
few months
after
making
this
definitive,
unequivocal
to me.
tial
am
must be a
there
tured.
man who
is
may be
few
to quibblers
158
it
to the
man who
call evolution.
Adepts, Masters,
it
In evolution
is
You
falsifiers,
care
more about
You
are willing
is
do not deny
you
it,
but
cannot
an individual."
" Do not desire
reported as saying
has to
and
not trying to
far
years later he
Do
am
what you
happiness.
is
someone
to worship
...
difference
experience which
There
do not deny
of a prison
the
it
there
as
Do
is
the eternal
KRISHN AMURTI
which he has marked
issue
"
as if it
"
out.
You
words do not
will.
Man
**
It
is
own
his
liberator !
"
Is this
again
by
it
great
espoused
life,
great teachers
do not
down
lay
laws, they
want to
set
man
free."
(ICrishnamurti.)
What
of the
distinguishes Krishnamurti,
The one
being.
the
is
r61e
spirit,
strip
which
is
men of their
frailty
of the
flesh.
flesh,
If
^himself,
human
he has a mission
it is
to
false
render back to
humanity.
If any
He
man
man Uving
merits the
nor even
as a
is
title,
that
he does. But to
World
me
Teacher."
the important
159
X
THE PLAINS OF ABRAHAM
" When you're
THINK
which
was
it
in the
spoke of
ended
think
it
(the
was
until I
go
that
Of course
command
this
" Wait
remains.
or could
Dewey's mouth
An
to the grave.
one
serves
me
curious
awoke
cflfort
remember,
but,
!"
of their eyes
a great deal
more remains
if
But
releases.
wc were
continuous
to stay with
sprang,
idiotic thing to
it
!)
have been
it
you
until
Manila Bay,
at
my memory
if
right out of
With Dewey
called
and which,
earlier
Admiral Sampson's
me
book
"*
!
right,
War
to recall
my
titles,
talking
mind
forgets.
of cadavers
in a whirl
still
authors,
remains eternally
names of
&om
the
places, events
insignificant data,
behcve
we
this battle
places
the Plains of
somewhere
call it.
on
Abraham, which
in the vidnity
war
of Quebec,
I
It
my
was probably
weak memory
did.
this
And what
bloody
remains
shell.
air,
I sec
or was
Montcalm dying
surrounded by
his
bodyguard and a
it
Wolfe
cluster
words were
l6o
*'
:
You may
fire
when
ready, Gridley."
^in
the open
of Indians with
the
Maine, Dewey's
making
is
"I
as
I
regret that
" The
tide
is
of those
words but
his
it
how
Whence
that
is it
that bird
my
ill
omen
me
Perhaps
country."
he was saying
anyway
And
history.
In a
Canada,
visualize a
of
words," such
last
matter,
of
But
**
seems to
What
few moments he
historic
no longer remember
Montcalm
it is
the
his shoulder
got caught in the netting over the cradle in which lay the infant
any
at
ground in
of
my
There
imaginary picture.
this
down on
Not much
it
with
The
tory
by rope
As
shot.
his
They
heads of the
The
for
birth,
Night
war.
and a general,
all
the honors of
falls
for themselves.
ladder.
at a time, the
site
me
impalpable weight.
all its
it is,
The
now
British,
having a clear
romp
field,
all
over Canada. With stakes and cord the border is marked out.
"
" have nothing to fear any more
our neighbors arc our
We
own
world
I
it
head of
Rough
his
battlefields.
bits
fleet in just
of the
morning
iron chain.
this
at the
there
was
a rusty old
a price
upon
his head.
Admiral Schley,
who
remains in
my memory
as a kindly, sensible
161
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
of man, not too bloodthirsty, not too great a
sort
The
"just right."
his
in.
Harper's Ferry,
the
war
all
on both
about him
nearest
a gracious prince,
How
of
last
compared to
we have
we had two men of the
war
Imagine, if
?)
Our
history.
[Saladin
What
thought of Saladin.
forgotten
but
the enemy.
stars
strategist,
is it
world
my own
saw with
But
eyes.
Persians.
the spot,
it,
it
was
From
dead center,
Platea.
forgot that
level
as in the
War Between
My
the States,
game
in history.
recall
barley,
In the
board.
of
now known
had
'/)attle I
I recalled
afield.
as the Civil
visited
'some
War.
our
own
Some of
knew by
heart,
As
be without slaughter
mind roamed
Run, Manassas,
over.
Places of slaughter
there
game was
d'hahitude.
last
was
it
This
it
a distance
Technically the
comme
time
oats.
at the
Pickett's charge
So one
is
always told.
And
and of course
waiting
The Yankees
(as
always) until
eyes.
162
THE PLAINS OF ABRAHAM
own
piled
man
as if
on
The General
parade.
we
a price
Another "
it.
books on mihtary
All history
wholesale death.
Never
tire
Just blunders.
Still,
we
say.
often
wonder what
battles.
Try
is
of these bloody
What
tactics.
generals
mitted to
out.
Only
it
strategic
now. Nothing
And
dead
celebrated con-
some
just revive
fitfiilly,
**
dirty
" coming out of their hiding places aflame from head to foot
Japs
try to recall the bayonet exercises, first
with the
brother in the
who
of the enemy,
flesh.
foul
it
you were
able to
summon
au fond your
is
words in
all,
all
the tongues
ask yourself if
word capable
One can read The
Men in War or J'ai Tue^
a single
somewhat
Cendrars
I
often healed.
artists as
the
httle
from youthful
of a gymnast
live
mad
feel
but
well
an
one of the
you can
as
artist.
murderers.
Somehow,
(An admiral
possibly,
of
Pierre Loti,
adjutant
was he not an
as I said, offers
humanity which
served
a bit
Navy,
that
enjoyment
is
or a commissary sergeant.
Navy
as
me
For
rhinoceros, otherwise he
But
word,
This
exhilarated,
in the French
aesthetic
of these books.
officer
my
head.
is left us.
Loti, in the
image which
is
pre-
also, if I
remember
rightly.
How
could he
163
THE BOOKS
MY
IN
To
be
LIFE
possibly kill
But he
left
day a
Anyway, with
much
mere romantic
as
it is
**
flesh the
**
heroine
of
this
tender romance
!)
now,
like the
book
It
I recall
an
illustra-
their
(or
long
hair.
and they
in
my
childish
On my
impression remains.
one poet,
Only
nesos.
artist
or
scientist
esteem
it
was dumbfounded
It is
book
nevertheless.
and
men
war
moment
why
admittedly a
is
finish,
but
It is
is,
to learn
obedient clods.
War
The
This,
plaited, I believe.
were
it
" Thucydides
in history.
comes
to pass,
must continue
what
it
is
does, and,
to do."*
New
York, 1942.
tTbid.
164
Literature,
by Edith Hamilton
W. W.
Norton,
become
to
avowed
the
new
first
probably
which was
doctrine
The
doctrine,
it is
As
how modem
for Sparta,
is
life.
community of
clinging
bees,
and
selfless
When you
re
Three thousand,
and
make war
diatribes
on
all
We
of our Uves.
a step, despite
Almost
as
soon
is
lust,
as
we
Mormons,
first
the
embodiment of
grace,
To
we
are taught
is
false," said
very
much
is
Wherever one
conjecture,
comes
how
Both fought
hypothesis,
of
is still
for the
a slave
Rimbaud. As always,
very Uttle
penetrates profoundly
triple-headed spectre
it
realizes
as
Robert E.
and wisdom.
the Southerner,
chivalry, valor
and a pariah.
" Everything
Our
To the Northerner,
Both men
right.
per-
As children
thrill
is
a story
It is
the
Lee
and
we
Lincoln
the supreme
still
the subject.
to read
is
is
known, how
surmise
one
is
very,
and speculation.
confronted
by
the
When
been written
165
THE BOOKS
MY
IN
As we grow
we
older
LIFE
learn
how
We
read biography
We care less and less for facts, more and more for pure flights
intuitive apprehension of the truth.
We
itself.
We
enemy
real
and
fear,
is
by
inspired
all
all
is
we
the heroes
at
imaginative acts
(all
heroism) are
whatever form
^in
that
medium,
merged
inventor.
it
manifests itself
The
hero-as-poet epitomizes
He
who
it is
we
the poet.
majority
The
for
is
slays the
is
not the
fault
of
all
beyond
That
paradise.
he seeks to establish
reaHty
this
and
because the
it is
always
said a
always
slain,
sacrificed.
moment ago
In a large
In
True, if
true.
is
this sense
of
The
as soldiers.
But
soldiers.
this
then
The
To
man
" in
be more exact,
that order
of heroes known
important,
we
soldier."
never think
as
mighty
his frailty
this is
When we
as saints
and
soldier, strictly
What
is the hero
" battling against
a residual impression
sages,
we
perceive very
i66
The
incarnation of
insuperable odds.
lefi;
good
great pacifists
the hero.
is
**
whom we
figures
which the
is
is
not
more
latter strive to
assert, establish
which
is
not
is
by man's
but one
wilful blindness.
we come to adore such a figure as Pichard the Lionwe have already been enthralled and subjugated by the
more subHme figure of King Arthur. Before we come to the great
Crusader we have had for company, in our rarest moments, the
very real, very vivid personages known as Jason, Theseus, Ulysses,
Before
Hearted
We
such
historical figures
Daniel
who
braved the
lions'
of purely Hterary
spell
Or we may have
such
creations,
their
provenance,
and
fortified
fallen
Robinson
as
Whatever
with
as the great
all
these
Even some of
early spellbinders
were
seem
to
space.
glass.
either wrested
from
cunning or
man
that
is
faith.
possesses
is
intellect.
Perhaps
it
it is
only one
more than
To jump
clear
of the clockwork
The meaning
we must employ
is
obvious.
whatever means
must
for
is
God-given
as basic quaHties
Uttle trick
his
of the
these stories
acts.
**
act.
An immense
difference.
we
are filled
more sublime
types,
this
of
dim
counter-
167
part
What
in spirit.
disillusionment awaits us as
we
with
men
King David,
like
the great
European
of our
institutional Hfe
known
history,
by
That
whom we
those
terrible episode in
Crusade,
as the Children's
is it
not being
Almost from
the start our children abandon us in favor of the true guides, the
true leaders, the true heroes.
They know
at the earhest
moment
them some
call
or
instinctively that
whom
from
"
Little primitives,"
"
times.
we
they must
are
flee
wc
Httle saints,"
little
martyrs."
all.
For
not beHeving " their " falsehoods we are relentlessly and mercilessly
punished ; for not accepting " their " vile surrogates we arc
not
is
O,
and they
tell
ourselves
on
truth, the
way and
follow
Him
of
the altar
the
Hterally
at.
know
not where
And
if,
and to the
we
why
is
is
the
are laughed
heaped upon
us.
to
and
Wc
ever evaded.
We begin in chains
why.
is
Him, demanding
we
bitter end,
why we
us that Christ
tell
accepting
fresh confusion
stand nor
and they
truth,
life.
At every turn
jeered
We beg to
We beg to offer
home
fly,
and
we end in chains.
we turn to
In despair
Do
aid,
I
miserable parents
suffer
and
why you
is
no
redress.
Even
paUiation.
One must
children."
168
to be creative
head in
not beseech
is
"
silence
my
are suffering.
It
we know
Do
know you
suffer.
man. There
anything about
To become as little
when this utterance
,'
is
But no one
repeated.
be the
last
truly believes
it.
to believe.
It is
It
fiction, this
more
It is
more
authentic,
is
would
predicted
great confessions.
which
facts
The being
That
Portrait
The
is
books
Man
we
appeared,
letters.
simultaneously.
and the
men Hke
which
more
than those
who
modem
who
was much
times,
men whose
who
word
every
is
What
come down
is
is
try to
words
theologian he
lover Ab^lard
is
is
dull,
latter,
tell
The
felt,
Great events
may
be
that to
conscience Augustine
and includes
classify
For the
the ineffable.
to us in
God
for the
name and
of indescribable happenings.
As
constitutes reaHty
imagination
Httle
blasphemed
closer to
at his blasphemies.
as a
is
imagination.
suflSce.
We
speak in
of
his knees
Lautr^amont,
reHable criterion.
in
Beauty
is
Though they
Men
first
men of
name of Beauty, we
Truth
significance.
new
these
know where
is
all levels
to the disgust
the
Death on
like
As
on
why
is
overwhelmingly duU.
magnificent, for in
soul-stirring,
say, as a
is
wretched
magnificent
As teacher and
his
169
element.
a
man. H^loise
The Church
it.
is
is
human
institution
we
have
lustre
imagination,
beauty,
magnificence,
Again there
and
dignity
Cortez
as the
supreme vandak of
Prescott's
a ruffian
They
touches nadir.
stand out
time.
usually
happen upon
is
seal
of
all
nobiHty.
What
in adolescence,
We
man
In their exploits
disgust.
splendor,
is
true
this continent,
we
adolescents
who had
aspirations.
only
after
by
the Conquistadores),
a pretty
lust for
World
We
symbol masking
gold
rests.
is
a hideous story
the foundation
on which
Columbus followed
we
"
The
empire of the
New
this
men, not
(The
calls
With every
Peru.
a very hard thing to escape the American horror ; and quite impossuppose, to explain to those who don't see what it is that the victims
of it see. The horror can be very big. But it can also be very small. Most
things of this sort can be detected by their smell ; and I think this particular
horror is usually found ^like the inside of an American coffin after the
embalming process has run its course to smell of a mixture of desolate
varnish and unspeakable decomposition. The curious thing about it is
It is more
that it is a horror that can only be felt by imaginative people.
than a mere negation of all that is mellow, lovely, harmonious, peaceful,
It is a terrifying positive.
organic, satisfying. It is not a negation at all
I think at its heart lies a sort of lemur-like violence of gruesome vulgarity.
"
danse macabre V of frantic self-assertion.
It certainly loves to dance a sort of
It has something that is antagonistic to the very essence of what the old
training
to
us
ten thousand years." (John Cowper
have
for
cultures
been
Powys in his Autobiography.)
It is
sible, I
170
who were
assassins
itself,
every
pillage,
rape and
upon
the earth
fell
protected
it,
destroyed
The
who
it,
last trace
Vandals and
assassins.
story of Cabeza de
by
own
their
Vaca
(in
their
frightening ghosts.
that
is
why
It is
decessors.
God he had
The
last ditch.
perfunctorily worshipped, he
them of
or die, he obeys.
a miracle indeed
It is
He who was
The power
to heal
and
as
restore, to create
his
their
ills
which he performs
dust
is
is
by
at
now
Texas
Reviewing
his
life
in Spain,
as
abandoned to a cruel
his
fate,
De
memory."
Hfe.
Only
in the wilderness,
face to face
Augustine found
with
Him
"in
its
that
was revealed
But no,
from
sight.
Ringed
in light, he
is
nevertheless absent
of him.
very few.
for us de Vaca's
the
first
order.
own
The
One of these,
historic
true
upon
from the
document.
and
almost buried
been exhumed
it
sheds
this
171
XI
THE STORY OF MY HEART
Some few
my
with
talking
books.
authors, such as
a
of deprecating
his
my
on
my
The
part.
me
friend caused
was an
it
desire to
to realize
how
a guide
munions was
that
remember
exercise in humility
very Httle
He may
floundered.
but not
on
Often,
I.
all
that
endeavored to explain
have thought
from him,
parting
and
knew,
how
began to doubt
The more
granted.
pre-
questions
Httle I
more
self-control
very
was
com-
my
would continue
the inner
debate interminably.
I
suspect that
that
have
had
all
all
was
rather arrogant
and conceited
the answers, as
we
say, I
in the
web.
me
read far
a result,
172
not
illusion
of
spirit,
punctured
my
vanity.
They made
knew a lot more than he pretended
he sometimes knew much more than I did myself. If he
less than I, he read with much greater attention and, as
he retained much more than I ever did. I used to think
but that
if I did
most humble
clear to
at this time,
Even
me
that
he not only
his
was the
it
which
gift
astounding, and
it
was indeed,
By
comparison
authors
was
might confess to
my
good
years,
friend
is
discovered
later,
namely, the
them out
as
being
later,
Emil
ruled
that
by
because, influenced
time
come
my
dogmatic
to suspect that
was always
this
later,-
had, moreover, a
intolerant.
stomach
Ten
and
ruthless
He
much
but, as
fruit
assertions,
surprise
There
decalage
where
whom
warmth
name
before, I
at the
impression that
was
Hearty
no
it
was
had nothing
It is
it
me
with great
called,
it
to
me,
got the
The Story of my
and the author was English. Richard JefFeries,
Meant nothing
less.
he recommended to
it
to
me.
would read
^when
some day
it
better to do.
strange
have touched on
title
this before, I
know
that even
if
one does not forget the aura which accompanied the recommendation.
word
Httle
warmth or
zeal,
We
ought always to be
alert to these
we
a fool
nor an
tender, sympathetic
he had imparted on
Here
been on
let
me
my
because there
type to a
is
a fool or an idiot,
Of course my friend
Emil
digress a
mind
idiot.
moment
to speak
frequently of late.
this
book be
was neither
No
smouldering vibrations.
It
has to
whose name
do with the
recollec-
tec.
(" Je
me nomme
Louis Salavin
")
Now Louis,
173
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
the other day,
I recalled just
was
a fat boy, as
categorize him,
lander.")
I said,
if I
would choose
mean
and
were to search
blazing.
is
raw
chippies,
grabbed
apart,
gift.
lot.
We
the
It is
have
who,
It
it is
can see
It
this
was
Louis
remember
that
much more
huge
off.
Paris*
all
Louis* feet,
bit
had neither
all
tribe,
to
" out-
to a
of ours
his
all
word
us say
let
He
comer.
for the
Detached and
habits.
(Or,
diclassi.
lot at the
at
we
kids, this
home
munching our
certain to ensue.
is
favorite authors.
We were
of the writers of
an
It
"
invisible
was
I
as if
wand.
What
remains
Now and
that
the tone
is
word
is
completely
of authority, the
or two.
veracity.
dicta.**
lost
to
me.
All that
which Louis
like grace,
Eventually you
cultivate them. If we
you
from
from
"f
it
it
world
who
has a right to
tLd
174
de Sade says
take pleasure
It
as
in.
on Eugene Sue.)
was
It
as
be
.?
So
it
problems
as regards the
was
it
all
we were
first
make us understand
very high game too. His
lives.
a game, so to speak.
for us
all
the
Whence comes
this question ?
Why
Who
is
it
that asks ?
by
reason
life
is
of science are
actually those
of
now
seems undeniable to
me
He
his
own
age.
He
was
without in the
preferred our
Did he know
these latter
rate,
his presence
of
even
life.
as a
mere youth,
to partake
of a fulbess
knowledge or wisdom.
boys
that Louis,
secret
least
lost,"
it
company
suspecting
it,
of the
to that
that
At any
of hierophant.
How much more we learned from Louis than from our appointed
I realize it now when I think of another boy my own
age, whom I liked exceedingly, and who used to go out of his
instructors
name.
character.
to
had tremendous
He and
me firom school.
whom
175
THE BOOKS IN MY LIPB
have spoken of elsewhere, were virtually models for
One day
this period.
made
saw written
all
to Louis,
occasion
saw
into a
friend
flaw.
monologue,
my
the incineration of
It
that
was made
young
dear
summon on
my
doubt. Then
throughout
me
Httle
crisp.
Louis had put the torch to that petty, vaunting intellect which had so
He had
impressed me.
there
was nothing
turned on
left (for
him
power of Mind
the full
me) of my comrade's
^and
intellect, character
or being.
with announcements
my
^huge
flaming
Bamum &
posters
Way Down
of
coming
events
East,
Bailey's Circus,
Gendeman Jim
Corbett, Pagliacci,
Maude Adams
Pan, and so on), seeing Louis perched there Hke a rotund wizard, a
lad
us, so distant
and yet
myselfu'/id/
to
become
Has
person, his
Did he
the
Such
as
as
aUve to
me
It
would not be
who were so
expect to hear
But Louis
to
at
at
all
as
I
did he take
ask
book
at
off",
an
disappear
when
am
certain
thought
it
he
it
never
very
lads I played
then seemed,
are a handful
is still
of Once
176
fate, I
own
strange, occult
Or
world "
disappear
he,
which
own
his
in that grotesque
Was
it
who
body
remain
Why
"the StOHY
and ignoramuses
fools
know your
My friend
How
this
in the
book
Emil,
it is
Louis, Louis,
real identity
for so long
what
MY HEART
to
Ql
my
debt to you.
more
insistent
Here
is
man who
speaks
my
inmost thoughts.
fully reveal.
he
we had
in
nature of
Prospect
my
propounded ...
The mind
->
is
infinite
is
brought before
it
we
over
me
if I call it
waiting for
It
ask
me
That
is
Why
that
are
You would
why we
Jcfferics, I
suddenly
my
^ycs,
we marking
I
a question
sublime
subUmc impatience.
time ?
Was
my
recall
would
What
not that me
tolerant
all
of me.
why, when
came
from the
lips
of
" Nothing is
* Curious that Lautrdamont said almost the same
incomprehensible."
fThis and other citations are taken from the Haldeman-Julius r|)rint
:
177
was
am
another Louis
and
to the degree
Time and
us he suffered.
me which
tyrant in
my skin.
many who
he had suffered.
again
suffer
is
itself a
own
up
again.
tremendous impact of
the
recalling
Emerson,
Nietzsche,
especially
their
^I
teachers into
He
Hke
masters
of those early
(still !)
What
men
Zen
the
entrusted.
and conceit
utterances
Whitman,
Rimbaud,
of vanity
a bundle
him
to let
take over,
minutes goes to the blackboard and draws the figure eight lying on
" he asks. An impressive silence.
its side. " What does that signify ?
No one knows,
**
Boys, that
it.
An
is
egg lying on
its
side
^nothing more.
Uttle later, in
High
commander of
One day
(It
the
tells
me
ask
you
that
i
Hving monument to
Obey "
!
good
Then, by
am
way of punishment
me memorize
mind.
for
wonder
Then
that
there
I still
was
Latin teacher.
Anyway,
178
the
**
and the
Is
my
For answer he
an answer,
that
whole
school.
discipline, this
Commander Murchisson,
why we studied geometry.
That's
it is
pudence, he makes
I
seemed an
which
Navy.
**
bird.
effectiveness
It is
about battle-
of armament they
of their broadsides.
carry,
Do you
we
as
down
Why
wreathed in
on God's
tant thing
rise,
clear
hoc
huius,
huic,
Every day
usually.
up he would bid
us
at the
huius
huius,
warm
Then, to
earth.
one
roll, as if it
huic,
huic
**
..."
through to the end. This and the conjugation of the verb "
are
all I
Later,
retain
of the
first
us
Hie, haec,
Instructive,
right
amo
what
"
!
way, one
the
To
this
day,
game
get
march
this
was to break in on us
wished to keep
no choice
his
hand
room on
in,
though puzzling
us)
it
him
pretending that he
knew by
heart, scans
it
intently as
Hm
He
riffles
on one of
him
as
we
all
seemed not
at all surprised
this
this utter
or displeased
blankness of
on
mind
He would do
text.
rendition to
it
his version
of
way
few minutes.
chair,
Naturally, terrified of
ability his
though
tiptoes, and,
translation.
at
fear,
Httle
where we were.
which he
as
with
on
filled
would ask
that.
179
soon
as possible.
He
and embahning
selves.
It
fluid.
meant a few
puflfs
on
like that.
modem
all
Anyway, he taught
one
history
"
names of
human than the rest I can't forgive him for the " omisWhat do I mean Just this. Never once, at the beginning
semester, did he give us a bird's-eye view of what we were
he was more
sions."
of a
in for.
it
occur to
him
designating by chicken
blue
the cavalry
some other
of the opposing
Very important
armies.
for us to
of these great
the causes
us,
and
if
He
conflicts.
we had
more important
any
ideas
own
We
pr^ds of
of our own,
we
smothered them.
It
of the
was
treaty
He might have
said,
I
on opening
the
book of
of adHbbing
Boys, young men, in the year 9,763 B.C. the world found
itself
were on the
extinct.
unknown
such.
No
definite
iSo
The
arts flourished
one knows
why
movements began
The
now known
everywhere,
principal reHgions
at this precise
to take place.
moment
as
were
they had
in history certain
"THE STORY OP MY HEART
and such an alignment offerees
figure appeared
about
You
what
He
mean.
West
in the
Suddenly a
another.
almost nothing
see
named Hochintuxityscy
known
is
"
. . .
on
vertical
He
our bearings.
branches
shown
and horizontal
dates, events
He
Umbs and
its
sciences, reHgions
arts,
lines,
to give us
and
He
could have
differ
us
than force us to
And so I say
did.
"
fiiture in
own
our
But he never
terms.
**
From the
and confusion.
but
From
remembrance
the
of the
High School
is all I
Our
no
Uttle episode
sense
Mr. MacDonald,
of humor and
easily
I
school
teacher,
of me,
^in
nothing
evoked by the
From grammar
I retain
pleasure
fleeting
a gaunt,
It
was
this
me
a direct
rather fond
which the
(It
turned on the
"
And
answered,
was
left
Suddenly, however,
class furiously
I
I
at him,**
is
**
No,
Upon
sir."
Mr. MacDonald
said,
"
to
quiet.
to take an
know. He has
Remember
this
And
i8i
you
do
That
wounded pride,
moments
Or,
it
httle lesson
if I
" No,
am
know
that
sank deep.
not,
All
my
my hfe, whether as a
It
me true humiUty.
taught
of this or not,
result
of pretending
likewise, instead
don't."
cannot answer
really
say, in critical
it
**
but
It is
in such
know
the answer."
moments
And what
we must
know, however,
The answer
certain questions.
is
the
whole body of
is
whom
not in them
is
worse, do they
know how
to
one
after
always there,
We
it.
Among
whom we
instructors to
is
should
from
are deUvered
know
Nor, what
to speak thus
is
The answer
but
a reUef it
can say
I'm sorry,
make
the answers.
in ourselves.
is
alert, ulti-
mately chance supphes the solution," says Jefferies. True. But what
is
Suddenly
something of our
is
recall the
name and
own
at the close
Brown
felt
seat
that they
on
were
still
to begin,
would not
him
on wings of love. In
fluttering, his
include
made ready
for a
in the
was about
Brown. Dr.
of every grammar
because
just as vacation
creation.
presence of Dr.
wings,
when he
to say a
rose
few words.
fact,
you
from
It
his
was
as
though Dr. Brown knew each and every one of us intimately and
all-enfolding mantle
warmth.
He had
just returned,
it
always
with
whom to
loved boys.
have no doubt
What
office
he
it
of the church.
No
matter.
filled I
He was
also a
first
we
call
deacon
heart,
such talks
as
and
Dr.
Brown
The
at will.
Dr.
effect
Men
of course
is
nil
we
all
them on or
off
Brown was a truly inspired individual. All that he had read, and
man of great culture, all he had seen on his trips round the
he was a
woven
sponge.
He was
directions at once.
all
full,
to begin.
good few
Once
mind sparked
launched, his
it
and months of class. If he had been a teacher instead of our " guest
speaker" he would, undoubtedly, have been dismissed in short
He was
order.
from the
heart,
spoke to us thus
even the
^not
No,
pastor.
that
He
spoke
no one ever
He
He was
kind of vague, prescribed love which was like milk and water.
really did
damn
not give a
was damned
He had
a sense
Brown
one
When he
of hberation.
infalHble signs
^it
little
was
got through
we had
as if
^his
of the
speech was
we
We
world because the good Dr. Brown had given us back our kingship.
We were boys
men "
whose
tasks,
still
graphy"
is,
had
We
a clear conscience.
" autobio-
httle
to
again, an inspirational
**
tasks.
that I
The
we were young
swam with visions,
^he
we had become
vahant
I feel
.
^but
styled inspirational
is
not
at all
it is
work.
Much that
specialize
"
183
BOOKS
THfi
would
in the subject
Never
is
MY
IN
LIFE
like us to believe
so.
is
One may
an inspiring writer.
He
exalted.
takes
you
who
purified, so to say,
as
and
you wings. He
others)
mentioned Emerson.
my life have I met anyone who did not agree that Emerson
in
is
am certain.
may
smile,
knowing
as
W.
R.
am,
Am
Trine.*
that
I
should
mocking
certain
who open our eyes. There are those who open our eyes and
there are those who lift us out of ourselves. The latter are not interested in foisting upon us new beUefe but in aiding us to penetrate
those
reality
more
deeply, " to
make
science
of thought.
structures
And
let
us say, in
Now,
Says
Jeflferies,
for
position as the
That
it
is
write, I stand in
a mighty utterance.
an utterance
had
Caveman.
Jeflferies tells
tried again
us towards the
possession
of him. Repeatedly he
though he
confesses
states that
* See
184
my
he
it
to be,
is
And no
failed.
finally, firagmentary
he
how
a long burlesque
last
begin
down
(in 1880),
a few notes.
on In Tune with
the Injinite.
STORY OF MY HEART
**THE
" Even then," he
"
says,
(I
had destroyed
all
Then he
have put
scarcely
into
it
of my
own
"
Had
any shape
I
have
at
me
not made
aU
is
this I
could
and which
and
adds,
personal
it
as it
makes an
dear to
my life."
which
assertion
very
is
critics.
and by
this
attempting
thought
terms
still,
as soul, prayer,
he concludes
own meaning
to
its
words."
Perhaps the key to this amazing Httle book is the sentence which
runs thus : " No thought which I have ever had has satisfied my
soul."
soul's
The
nought.
"Begin wholly
mense
forces
a god
is
and open a
wonder now
if
new
as
im-
go higher than
day."
Soimds
like
JefFeries.
D. H. Lawrence.
There
Go
afresh.
of his
became
whenever
this
we come upon
from
rhythm from
The
an original thinker.
It is
of the prophets,
who
any
he were
as if
that
at
iconoclast
an
It is
are filled
feet
the
commands or
not,
we
are stirred
chests
to
lift
And now
let us
epitome of his
soul's longing.
He
which
is
rcaUy the
begins thus
185
inner
the
consciousness
since
that
before
which
written
history began.
Three
before then.
ideas the
illustrations
known
There
is
Madame
new, deeper,
over them.
I refer
richer,
more encompassing
men
are
still
into
ideas,
which
If they
source,
Madame
Blavatsky amasses
wisdom. According to
by
side
with the
**
this
side
mean
superior in
whom we
today consider
when
as such.
Indeed,
it is
i86
_LJ
or those
we do
of which
not
even suspect.
don't imagine
it
know
unknown came
as
he
says. I
He would
them
rejected
we
all
have
still
by whom. What he strives magnificently to make us undermake us realize, make us accept, is that these ideas came from a
tion or
stand,
we
as
rest
up
that
we are
to death, so
swim back
effort to
make no
to the source.
Filled
able to get
lessness
not
at all
the span of
human
life
him
it is
declaring that
we
He
man.
ideal
is
He
few paragraphs
further
on he
says,
justification
Every revolutionary
figure,
knows
!"
It is
Italics
mine.
afresh
whether in the
this
field
But to
of religion
of the past
187
way of making
wonders whose way it is
an egg's
misfits, that
man
that causes
and
Imagine what
still is.
solitary
man
cruelty, to
from prison
is
lips
me
seems to
world which
so boring
men, and
seem
if I
is
One
by
is
the most
has
"...
taste for
foolishly
am now
that
All
my
feelings
anything,
I like
so vvdldly regretted
he
as
no more than he
(afier
only
arc extinguished.
is
been and
A hen
effect
on me ...
**
The
plaint
From
of this unfortunate
quarters
all
of the
globe there
rises
a wail
of
a single
fortunate incident
" Begin
afresh !
East are at
last
Who
fear.
possesses
There
We
is
the result
enHghtenmcnt
effort to
And what
past.
a sentence in
is
making an heroic
fetters
We
Where
which
of the West
is
progress
Jefferies* Httle
at least for
book which
literally
jumps
me. "
To which state-
ment
men who
and lead
On
us.
end.
188
Now
the other
moment
hand
striving to
They do not
might say
show
us
way
take us
by
how
They
open.
the
hand
men who
to accomplish this
when
the time
comes
may seem
But perhaps
so.
in a
way which is
unforgettable
the unseen.*
who
Of these we
day
are this
as
ignorant
as those
There is an infinity
of knowledge yet to be known, and beyond that an infinity
of thought. No mental instrument even has yet been
invented by which researches can be carried direct to the
Whatever has been found has been discovered
object.
by fortunate accident in looking for one thing another
has been chanced on. A reasoning process has yet to be
invented by which to go straight to the desired end. For
now the slightest particle is enough to throw the search
aside, and the most minute circumstance sufficient to
conceal obvious and briUiantly shining truths ... At
present the endeavor to make discoveries is Hke gazing
at the sky up through the boughs of an oak. Here a beautihere a constellation is hidden by
ful star shines clearly
a branch ; a universe by a leaf Some mental instrument
or organon is required to enable us to distinguish between
the leaf which may be removed and a real void ; when
to cease to look in one direction, and to work in another
... I feel that there are infinities to be known, but they
are hidden by a leaf ...
;
says
us to get out of the rut, to leave bag and baggage, to change cars,
change direction.
Now
itself
by
call
a conversion.
secret
But never
the blue.
me
* Very
Stars.
x89
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
supernatural, and difficult of understanding
Matter
is
thought,
itself
the
and
is
idea
natural in truth,
understood,
easily
is
The
conscious.
To me
the real.
is
understands
it
everything
is
super-
natural.
anything
accept
but
Without
the
the
earth,
sea,
the
tangible
the
No
how
matter
planet
comprehend
is
it is
this
it is
dead.
dead.
the
writers
of " romances " began to introduce into their works the so-called
and miscalled " supernatural " element. Theirs was a revolt against
the fateful tendency
this
of the
What
is
deeper,
more
who
scientists
significant
we of
of which
as ridiculous
and misguided)
It
is
common
use of
god than
at
never was he
gifts
of invention, the
any time in
less
godlike.
zest,
He
most
We
190
we
accepts and
;
he
vitahty or joy.
no peace or
is
utilizes the
being a
)
Yet
miraculous
He draws no
conclusions
in other ages
his history.
of science unquestioningly
awe, reverence,
what men
He is marking
time.
and
is
That
from
utterly
is
about
this
^his
conception
of time, and of
space, together
good work,
^r
him by the
is
left
it
will
bom
Yet
into.
accompany him
as
Not
of thinking.
Precious
all
it is
there,
he journeys backward
Not
or forward.
the
scientist,
the
as
purpose,
progress,
his
way
his
To
that happens
to
all
where
all is
as I said, to
some
high,
awesome
see
How
and wisdom.
doors
else
him
could
be
it
all
he himself has
thus dignify him) to be flung into " the cauldron
we may
of rebirth."
He
It is thus,
arcanum of truth
elected (if
place
all
ignominious
Sublime,
supports
Punishment and
spectacle.
salvation in one.
What, we
ask,
Would
it
Would
for
it
be a miracle
**
if,
just as
man
his just
in concrete reaHty,
or planets even
this species
of
man who
believes so soHdly
more
distant, as
talk
of the moon,
what
is
more
curious, think
somewhere
this planet
of
that
how
to defend
he can
visualize
new mode of
191
would be unrecognizable
to himself
him
short, that
not baffling,
Is it
^neither
he
that
I say,
And
far, far
and
yet, yes
him
yet, to get
his
his
respect a
for
and enjoy
his
own
welfare
to cease struggling
Hfe, to concentrate
on
the eHmination
many, many
things
all
him
to
ideas
oh,
He would
a single step.
would
rather
so
and not be
walk out on
his true
make
problems,
there be a worse
deep, he
is
coming
resent his
What,
after
all,
tells
order,
are one,
Perhaps nowhere
swarms of habitable
Et
again.
be
at all
elle
welcome
heaven within,
there
is
So
at least
a raison
No, such
as
we
it is
a certainty
the possibility
with
is of another
" they " have
in the vast
may
neighbors
His pride
new
we
are today,
If
we
z desperate,
we may
not
without.
But
that,
having caught a gHmpse " out there " of order, peace and harmony,
we who
afresh.
192
call ourselves
men will
on
THE STORY OP MY
All through great literature runs the idea
Whatever man
he
flings his
weary body,
in the
moon
will
soon become
distant reahns
his desires, in
may quite
possibly be
we would
selves there
instantaneously.
no
desire
it,
and
it
not
The
will be thus.
about in
Mind which
At
himself
He
Thought, however,
contains
this
very
and
all,
all,
is
it is
comet.
on
already
is
still
refuses
the wing.
" to
The
is
moment man
self.
At present
may come
this fashion.
of time.
may discover
If the
man
lapse
only to
Why
Time
factor.
how
fact I
slightest doubt.
sets
himself.
HfiAftT
is
as if
in the
tail
of
his
own
comet-like
it
passes
more
of him
already traversing
is
more
mysterious,
spectacular realms.
Is it
that
symboHc
Perhaps.
act
at last
coil
and
he succeeds in putting
twist,
tail
in
mouth.
The
of
true
symbol of infinity
fulfillment.
will
he find
Aye,
And
is
fiilfillment
man's goal
It is also
Only
the
symbol
in fulfillment
reality.
we must go
full
swing.
at the
New
same time
York, 1946.
man be
To
A
A
letter
from
death.
at last
Eugene
Sue
" Vous m'avez demand^ des 6claircissements sur Eugene Sue.
Je ne suis
pas un lecteur assidu de Sue
j'ai lu Les Mysteres de Paris, dans ma tendre
jeunesse et puis, jamais plus rien. Void la liste des livres d'Eugene Sue
:
Kernock
le Pirate,
Plick et Plock,
1830
83
Atar-Gull, 1831
La
La
Salamattdre, 1832
Vigie de Koat-Ven, 1833
Arthur, 1833
Historic de la Marine frangaise (5 vols.), 1835
Cicile,
1835
Deux
Histoires,
1840
Le Marquis de Litorikre
Le Morne au Diable (2 vols.), 1840
Mathilde (6 vols.), 1841
Le Commandeur de Malte, 1841
Les Mysteres de Paris (lo vols.), 1842-43
Pauli Monti, 1842
Thirise Dunoyer, 1842
Le Juif Errant (10 vols.), 1844-45
Martin ou V Enfant trouvi, 1847
Le Ripuhlicain des Campagnes, 1848
Le Berger de Kravan
Les Sept Pe'che's Capitaux (16 vols.)
Les Mysteres du Peuple, ou, Histoire d'unefamille a
Les Enfants de V Amour (6 vols.), 1852
Fernand Duplessis (6 vols.)
Le Marquis d'AmalJi (2 vols.), 1853
I'Eccl^siaste
194
Eugene Sue
a-t-il
;
les
detours."
n'est pas un romancier profond. II a une imagination debordante, c'est quelque chose, bien sur, mais pas assez pour venir frapper a la
L'imagination d'Eugene
porte de la posterite, confiant qu'eUe I'ouvrira.
Eugene Sue
Sue qui frappait si fort ses contemporains, nous fait sourire souvent et,
La fin du fin pour Eugene Sue etait
quelquefois, franchement eclater.
d'amener dans un roman, le plus frequemment qu'il se pouvait, un genre
de dissertation morale, ce qu'il appelait ses utopies. Par exemple : on nc
devrait plus executer les
condamnes
serait
les
mort
yeux.
Eugene Sue
est
ne en 1804
Sue sont maritimes.) Son pere lui laissa en mourrant une fortune d'un million
."
(francs de I'epoque). Je ne sais pas si Eugene Sue en fit un bon usage
.
195
XII
LETTER TO PIERRE LESDAIN
May
My
The
most welcome
my
of
You
are
**
often
for
**
you
is
no one
to
my
book
early days,
attack
you
in
head
am
nourishes, stimulates
volume
down
is
now
since I
of the books
in
now
my
it
know
more
your love,
when
think
am
now
certain
that
book by
am
may have
in a continual state
mosdy
me.
seems
my
As
Originally
as if it will
explained to
of bubble
because
be a
fat
tides
tome.
which
titles
Each day
I recollect.
exhuming from
is
you
Everything
old favorites.
rereading
an exciting feature of my
able reservoir
are
larval
same time.
is
you
my
we were
me
gives
it
reveal
Often,
into this
this letter
enthusiastic readers
back to
whom
When you
the author.
you
why
is
thoughts, particularly
In your reviews
That
writing.
There
lince reading
20th, to incorporate
am
thoughts.
me,
of April
letter
3rd, 1950
daily.
jot
This
the imfathom-
Sometimes
it
up.
196
this
was written
it
has folded
all sorts
my
of
dim
Thus
past.
Gil Bias
hangs a
is
for me,
and
tale,
had
at least
the
who
tale is
always
intrigue
me
is
against, excites
much
I
him
most important
even though
Incidentally,
i)
all I
lives interest
me,
have actually
read without
this Uttle I
one of the
am
of so-called
I
this
enormously.
those
me
bom.
I shall
it
important
as
because of
Everything
Nevertheless,
naturally,
has
is
all
pleasure or profit.
think
most
Stendhal
whether for or
are sending.
me you
tell
book.
as the
little I
copy you
**
know
(Who
had great
that I
This
one
is
Here
is
volume of
random thought
Elie Faure
en passant.
on him, but
I
doubt that
will,
I
I
All
life
my
can,
You
who
never Uberate
Impossible to
tell
inextricably interwoven.
is
own
up a
Time
where your
pick
conflict.
doubt that
Each time
seems,
You
in Nietzsche and in
this
interpreters,
my own
him
alone.
understand, though
never did
same fervor
Ah,
Whoso
power
has the
to aiFect us
a master,
one book
meaning of
the
were
to pick
would be "finished"
mean
it
you
regard
up an old
tion
am
this
am certain,
(I
the
am
Birth of Tragedy
beheve
What
this
Does
authors.
up The
my favorite
reread
as I
I
naive
Does
What
weakness
Whatever
the answer,
And
as a singular blessing.
from another of my
it
happen to find
in his
if,
assure
in picking
book
my joy is
a quota-
unbounded.
"
And on page
complete."
is
You
And
proud
it
that
as
all
One of
the reasons
authors at length
is
why
say that
who
my
that
am
!)
because
first
and
once in
say, for
divine
not they
it is
from Whitman
this, also
them
eighty-four
my very
their language.
It is
not so
my own
voice.
am
fearful
carry within us
so
many
entities,
is
his
inscrutable
source
whence everything
However,
*By
I?8
Elie Faure.
since
is
no
we
are
all
derives.
is
We
contribute
way of sayingour
we
who can
And now to
your
raised in
my
you from
mail
more than
say nothing
...
letter
cannot
you how
tell
issues
I
was
of Combat
Soon
also
hope
delighted
so speedily have
Om."
**
concentrate a
you should
that
beings
am
you one
to find for
sure
you
will enjoy.
would
him
addressed
been
alive
You
where
when
would
office, I
is
I finally
few authors
and
for
lasting ones,
must
**
At
this
usually discover.
first
reactions,
(To discover
affection or reverence,
our original
cannot
attitude.
It is
hke
author
and
that,
this
lasting
once
seems
my
allegiance
because loyalty
is
was given,
book
How
can
pecuHar
trait
(devotion
(hypothetically)
I
to
And why
how
grow
song of love
loyal.
me
remark
unworthy of
altogether
remained
tions
on
hand.
moment
true
this
his
in the realm
this
and kissed
emotions, the
we
confess,
in.
on
first
a loss of grace.
is
The
a transitory phase.
to recover.)
mon
we
"
think this
is
as
**
adoration
How
i)
which
can
I,
causing
who
swore that
is
astonishing proportions.
to
should I ?
note.
I,
is
the desire
moreover,
who
: :
SO far once as to
clodhopperthinking
veritable
thus
(fatuously)
to
that
overcome
the disease.
The
I
came
by her
My Life by
teacher,
Helen Keller,
Anne Mansfield
SulUvan
" Reading,
pure dehght of
his
of the regular
school exercises.
[Bravo
it.
!]
The
attitude
receptivity.
She adds
"
Too
often,
talk
great
and
The
his life, as
cannot help
In giving
it.'*
it
as
*'
sympathy
far
seau's Entile^
more than
instruction," she
came
made me
*'
guidance and
diink of
Rous-
pass^e on
language
At
my
life,
out of
its
needs and
mind was
all but
She had been living in a world she could not
realize.
Language* and knowledge are indissolubly connected
they are interdependent. Good work in language
presupposes and depends on a real knowledge of things.
As soon as Helen grasped the idea that everything hacTa
name, and that by means of the manual alphabet these
names could be transmitted fi-om one to another, I proceeded to awaken her further interest in the objects wnose
names she learned to spell with such evident joy. / never
taught her language for the purpose of teaching it ; but
invariably used language as a medium for the communication o( thought
thus the learning of language was coincident
with the acquisition of knowledge. In order to use language
intelligently, one must have something to talk about, and
having something to talk about is the result of having had
experiences
no amount of language training will enable
experiences.
first
Httle pupil's
vacant.
aoo
Italia
throughout
little
unless they
know what
minds which
their
we succeed in awakenminds of
in the
is
othen.
me
years ago.
I
am
But
to
of him which
first let
me
began in
it
too began
never
whether
Perhaps
Yes, indeed.
as a
The publisher
me if I would not
"small" volume.
D. H. Lawrence.
why
some seventeen
Paris
am
this
**
favorite,"
plaquette
"
before issuing the Cancer book, the publication of \^^ich had been
held up, for one reason and another, for three years or more.
idea
By
was
certainly not to
the time I
but
liking,
of Lawrence's work
trees.
my
that I could
There remain of
this
The
grudgingly consented.
no longer
finished pages.
and there
of course, voluminous
are,
things
worked
desire to get
arose in
Two
notes.
of this work
" Before a
are mountains
says Ch*ing-yuan,
after
him are not mountains and waters are not waters but
when he really attains to the abode of rest, mountains
to
are waters."*
after this,
are once
Something of the
sort
what he was
it, I
in the
no longer
feel the
interpretative studies
need to
air
my
of authors so
W. Watts
views.
vitally
California,
1948.
201
in
own
our
interest, I believe.
we
As
get to them.
it is
more important,
As
for Joyce,
certainly
My
obviously.
for
them
and more
or instruc-
to struggle
on
which
attracts
me
When
He
in this field.
It is
of
writer.
is
yet
It is
he
my
have done
The Rime of
letter
work
is
man
from
the
utmost to acknowledge
I realize
come
author of that
Certainly
no equal
has
the writers to
affinity
all's said,
imaginary influences.
all influences,
indebted to him.
my
to him, but, as
am
But
that
do beHeve,
am more
less assistance
own.
their
"
and
less
which
have
my work
have ignored
stressed.
You
The
read this
work in school, of course, together with The Lay of the Last Minstrel.
are among the few books I enjoyed reading in school, I will
teU you. But the book I remember best, from school days, the book
They
King Arthur
left
it, is
Only
Tennyson's
Idylls
The
of the King.
by
reason
the famous
an age of
faith,
SchHemann
an age of chivalry.
the
Homer.
up
in
me.
historians."
mention Gladstone's
said a
as
moment ago
New
faith,
that
Directions,
letter,
a noble
youth, chivalry,
my
New
true arboreal
York,
193 8.
descent
this species
of writer
But what
such.
The
is it
When
and deed.
hterature of imagination
King Arthur
from
think of
sight
because in
Today
it
girl
And
inflamed
is
it,
by
me
this leads
as if this
or
sustains
still
is
and
In a word, the
would seem
it
that nourishes
it
to say
how
boy
is
contact with
it.
who
and nourish
us.
him
made of these by
is
for the
We
acts
man who
do not
;
learns as
two
who
matters not
awaken
much from
from
Nor
the fabliaux.
book on
Gilles
list
we
should
be forever
the holy
of us
since each
do
so,
scholar,
Good Book.
grateful if
Which reminds me
literature.
would indeed be
tales
authorities
what evaluation
by pundits and
his credentials.
in turn to
often unwittingly.
Yes,
It
critics,
is
not demand
power
has the
titles
grateful
from
and
scholars
ask of one
we do
his soul,
you would
that,
although
There are
certain
good
whom
am
The
me
this
many
have received
tremendously interested.
one or
translate
great difference
lies
in the
them.
with constellations
is
clustered or spangled
of Le Goeland
or
more
we
never hear of
Even
in Volonte,
which
is
not a
strictly
which
Hterary
203
sec
Company
I recall
what
New
In those days
The
in this country
it
was,
made
as I
Brooklyn Bridge, to
we
had
of stairs the
at least
two
my way
to
up
at
see stacked
latest issue
Today
on without
the
word about
Transition in
whose pages
Gottfiied
But
can never
Benn.
come back
to
is
can
discovered
forget
there
Nor
of Sim-
excellent magazines
Little
never
worked
York
a pleasure
to Saladin
and
de Rais, than
Gilles
whom
These
authors.
books
titles,
however, do not
eminendy American.
am
most
that the
I
serious studies
do not want
had to choose,
of this strange
also
want
am
book about
I
Since childhood
Now,
still
searching for,
remember
Jidda
la
104
as I
If
my
ought to add
Do you know
unique
bewilderment
early past,
Bretonne
me
I feel
that
he has written
affinities
presume
again.
As for Restif de
this altogether
my extreme
it
now
so
for scholarly
the
prefer a
subject.
much
searching not so
is
soul.
of a good one
day
up
would
to look
But
me
incite
me several letters
telling
Tropics
am
expecting any
attache stationed in
me of the remarkable
and
this singular
French
writer.
this
how
can imagine
curious
am
strange creature.
In addition to books
do want
of the
titles
received
author
ville
in fact,
it
One
listed.
when
a boy.
it
odd
forty
the face of
my
not a
It is
large as
my
is,
life,
brilliant
work
in
must say
my
(the author
is
G. Man-
photo which
no wise disappointing or
deceptive.
Henty "
Though
that
favorite
of gazing upon
that the
that
It
beloved author.
is
many
pounced on immediately
that I
There he
for, I receive
Fenn) but
some
by now
to me),
la
Whit-
genial, kindly
and upright in
many pursuits
soHd bulwarks, as we say.
besides writing
interested in
variety
and scope of
From an
about them-
reticent
active
many
saw
the
rough
side
they wrote
fast
and
too,
the
**
more immersed
in
on reaching middle
Henty
but he was
probably regarded
is
secretaries,
a writer
known
as
(How
at all
to
a certain affluence,
the
good fortime
or amanuenses, to
envy them
who may
that
to
whom
!)
not be
known
to
you
their material.
Both enjoyed
life.
Hfe.
I realize that
of
analysis
realists,
Even
Though
tion
ways,
men, good,
this
man
let
me
quote you
Henty,
his
work, and
But
205
boy, he
become
states,
man and
great success of
strike a
read what
youth
^he
explains
books
Which
good
health
**
he was building up a
by
enlisting
buyers of presents
body
who
on their
body of
gifts.
who, in
would come upon some
is
instructors,
...
this
explains
only the
By
not to be
part,
a weakling prizes
the
manly,
essentially
to
is
Hence
boys to be bold,
also
His aim
milksops."
It
his
**
done.
young man's
early
sympathetic note.
that's safe
*
!
In this
*
:
Ha
himself
But enough on
this score.
discover
that they
characters "
find
my
it
strange,
must admit, to
game hunting,
**
:
"
the
**
far firom
to
Henty
was
as
206
Fenn saying
LETTER TO PIERRE LESDAIN
Hamsun used to flaunt the word " neurasthenic."
" psychotic " or else " schizophrenic." Today I
day.
it is
youths of today
Last night
me
Seriously, I
frequently since
simple
am
most
had great
me
reminds
me
for
it is difficult
my
reason
is
have such
to decide
what
Everything
As
intellectual being.
Conrad
says
somewhere
not
touch
the
to
my
former
of a creator
life
book
reread a
known
A partial truth.
Conrad, but
The
after
This happens to
book.
this
selves.
...
interesting question
engaged on
writes
am
What do
mean.
to write about.
Today
Who
know what he
meant,
is
which a man
There
leads.
a time for
is
play and a time for work, a time for creation and a time for lying
And
fallow.
scarcely exists,
there
is
its
^when boredom
mean
me
to recalling the
office at
wonderful fellows
the
New
30 Broad Street,
names of
with them.
my
saw them
all
Suddenly
distinctly
Eddie
Ray
Frank Selinger,
Wales,
connected
trifling episodes
and
clearly
was so charged
and the
these individuals
I
York.
grabbed
Rink,
Wetzler,
mouse of
or-other (a mere
whom we
whom my memory
record
mine
Harold
Jotting
" vacant
^by the
Street
down
his
days."
fastened
was
his
name,
That
is
was
a fellow
company
the
I left
name.
We
at the
remembrance of blank,
I associate his
idle,
never
age of
wrote alongside of
how
it
for the
name with
in
definitely that
would go
home,
as I
was.
sort
day would
to his
him
I
do remember.
guess
how we
him
envied
But
mebecause
And
that
to visit
me, that
As
life.
was
utterly
Harold was
to
strange to
remembrance of
the faintest
in those quiet,
far as I
Not
dream.
pass as in a
^which,
more deeply
Nexus
^in
as
you know,
even concerned to
in Ufe.
as
well as
my
my
me
break with
and soon
at
Done with
Chula Visu,
it is
California,
me
after
No more books
And
all
my
then,
"
on
European
old favorite
work
said to
Edgar
never heard of
books which
who
takes long
happen upon
So
fall asleep.
Saltus
an
turns, the
it
And
Emma
it,
first
all
am
of
the
wheel of destiny
night before
myself
dramatists.
could not
friends
Last night
208
the wanderlust
celebrated
The
who
"
office routine
Imperial Purple,
me
one of those
Yes,
know
which nude
incredible to think
what
this
Thomas
Edison,
But somehow
this
a great merchant,
morning
swim winter
or summer,
is
at his
Greek to
who
his
wife but
later
insists
who
on using
who
book down
doggedness, authoritativeness,
Order,
how
well
whom
man
how German
Greek
this
imaginable.
And
places,
and
Uncovering
and almost
is
he was
he
has ever
still
and
modem
Homer's day,
of the man
in season
the Greek of
addressing,
Homer
reads
Losing
had
inserted in
book
What
And
Ludwig examined.
then
decided on Ludwig*s
of the man.
Listen to his
Twenty thousand
words
papers Herr
First of all, there was the long series of diaries and notebooks which he kept and wrote up almost continuously
209
"
his Hfe.
books,
There were
family
letters,
and account
and
documents,
legal
passports
his
were newspaper
there
all this,
down
cuttings firom
all
to
Besides
script.
quarters
of the globe,
lists
writing.
of his days, discussing for the thousandth time, perhaps, the question
of whether
it
let's
him
call
go
to
Schulze
day to do
in a
my
all
digest the
book or books
(I
One
reading.)
night
Henty's
it is
at the
have
most
life,
the
next Rider
book on Zen,
little
Dorpfeld
assistant,
bed and
young
his
;
book on Dostoievsky,
either
of
by
Janko Lavrin (another old favorite and eye opener) or John Cowper
Powys
Aretimo,
and
go
in rapid succession
Ouspensky
his Siddhartha
^then
Hermann
Rabelais,
to another
Hesse
(Voyage
I
am
en
Orient)
obliged to read
and compare with the German and French), EUe Faure (The Dance
Over
with sideswipes
History of Art,
Let
me
stop a
The
at certain passages in
moment
comme
here.
my
Crommelynck
eyes.
dramatist
Flemish genius.
who
has contributed
And on my
I
prefer
way.
2IO
favorite
themejealousy.
Othello ?
You
can have
it
absolute.
don't sec
how
possible to
it is
tliis
(My
great theme.
respect
of
presentation
wonder,
Yes,
When
play in Brussels.
Each one
new
are
this
will
we
see
sufficient to set a
is
me, others
to
They
old.
one.
is
here,
marvelous books.
it
if ever ?)
" The
wanted
to
Some
They
disparate.
remember
it.
excerpt
aims
artist
at a final order."
world which
in
True.
which the
latter
speaks of
and then adds that this chaos is also in me. As if I did not know
" The artist aims at a final order." Bien dit et vrai, meme s'il essaie
!
mon
je
Aux
avis.
reste,
To
me
add
books
for the
same gratuitous
fantastic
medley of
certain pleasing
that, in
I
titles
last
c*est
complexe. La,
le
continuity.
what order
reveals itself
"
As
say
!
more
what
grand
from
all
the books
titles
order,
should have
Where
my
they
meaning.
and in
read,
my
past, as it
logic, the
uncover
my
life.
It
makes
it
am
My
discipline I discover in
even when
in selecting
The more
and meaning.
Who is to
How absurd
order, the
were recorded
all
more
a ledger in
from
if,
forty years,
one
v6rk6 ou
la
wanted,
My
ou
moi.
this let
of mine
Ca,
le
autres a denicher
Would
it
Hved
we
No,
(>ur
211
if,
solemnly believe,
as I
it
lives
it all
why
us, at least as
regards our
own
can
individual
bookworm
of
my
it is
reading
(Think of Napoleon
devours in a day.
am reading,
compared
infinitesimal
is
to
what a
at St.
Helena
worm, and
it is
more, more
calling for
memories
the
!)
No,
it is
associated
my many
as clearly as if
were looking
at
fiiends in turn.
in
if,
as a writer, I
am
aware
or
say to myself,
being.
It
must
be,
may
not either
I
in
And
it
is
intellectual stature,
my
and irrevocable.
final
made
essential
to one*s soul
we
is
grasp the
essence of another being, not with the mind, not even with the
heart.
One day
as
It
la
pourquoi vous
913
of a
Strind-
But
" Vous
dieu personnel
with me.
from
letters
my
make
me
pompous Englishman of
chastet^, i la puret^ et i un
finissez
letter to
reminded
better spirit,
tone of the
latter's
was a
It
" exclaimed
on climbing
cris
mes
into bed
confi-^res,
how beautiful
sec
they are
how
ugly or
artificial
But there
are
which
little
also
keep
and
this
when
Nothing,
my way
wisdom of
experience, their
inherit
by
rest
virtue
Hfe,
just a few.)
serves to
nothing do
mentioned.
interested in
through accident,
figures
names
am
vitally
whether
Sometimes
it is
.only
bom
one to be
in a manger,
the
(Jesus
Nor was
find.
own
predict the
must wait
their
end
to their
suicide or chagrin.
ilbiess,
even hear
Their
or another.
their teachings,
bemuse
protestingly,
way
it
womb,
out of the
But
actually.
death.)
lives
who were
reviled,
drawn and
quartered.
Those
I
beheaded,
hanged or
genius there
banished,
of similar geniuses
clusters a constellation
bom out
imprisoned,
of time. They
all
in the tradition, as
who
are
we
say,
tradition.
some reason
who
world, gentlemen
all places,
our
He, Gogol,
fearing to remain in
incidentally, in
places
**
!
what
Holy
strange, foreign,
completed in Rome.
days before his death
settles
Russia.
down
in
famous books
i)
Dead
Souls
place,
Rome, of
was
few
Thus, in spite
213
of a pilgrimage to Palestine
fused, despondent being,
who had
**
wretched, con-
Comedy
message," perishes
has
this
to write a Divine
and weep,
holy penitent,
is
And by
how
wonderful,
ends the
prophetic
volume
first
a former admirer
that passage
is
on the
whom
since
^asking in vain.**
Here
all
is
how
which
have drawn
Gogol
But
troika
**
addresses
matchless troika
miracle.
What
force
Was
unknown
Ah, you
of lightning
surge so
this
is
full
of
terror
he
And what
asks.
is
this
horses, horses
^what
horses
Your manes
are
whirlwind
And are your veins not tingling like a quick
ear ? Descending from above you have caught the note
and at once, in unison, you strain
of the famihar song
your chests of bronze and, with your hooves barely skim!
ming
the earth,
you
straight lines
Yes,
for
me
and
it is
it
memorable
especially
answer."
exiles, all
when
seem
comes
to,
**
1948.
t Translation
Answer me
to
"<jvhen
There
by George Reavey.
In these
words
is
no
of so many famous
314
it
But
Sylyan
|*rcss,
fath^r-s
London,
what they
love
and
it
not
now
know
upon
I spit
That
arc there."
is
am
it.
if it
not too
is
But
late.
citizen
greater
until
And
to reveal it."
on
so
as to burst
of
full
man
is
not the
despair, full
of such
it
of anguish,
You
here.
from here
time
am
know my
of my home town.
I shall
I shall
"
are saying.
asunder.
When I urged you to read with special attention the piece called
The Brooklyn Bridge " (in The Cosmologkal Eye), perhaps it
You
Black Spring.
You
had in mind.
this that I
illustrates
World i "
let us
from
of
I
this
gang
Who
or
said,
Edmund
are
Too
fiiU.
The cock
From
rest.
Valentin
to be.
Wilson, or any
changing
fiill.
Tony,
Often
At 6.20 sharp
my
am
as
Then comes
rush to
the
my
soil, like
the trot,
my
empty
my
letters to
am
my
books.
If
ideas.
the battery.
put back
peasant.
It is
do
sets
come home
only when I enter
go alone
Some
pulls up.
"
good Chinese
answer.
even read
on
litde son.
his diaper
is
of
WeVe
Many of
As
215
"
if that constituted a
tune
Between
times, as
hours a day
were,
it
my work
at
write.
tomorrow.
me good to write
in
It
does
demand, a gratuitous
me
You
on some
The
of mine.
to
what end
aspect
such
reservoir.
What
which
in a few brief
them
the trench
look
like those
could be more
wars
not a response
who
this letter
How
it.
thesis
useless,
(It is
more
am
me
we
to explain
Some,
!)
my
digging
is
^it
And
of time
a waste
get a
in utter
whole works
lines.
is
as
letter to
up from
This
without knowing
it
college students
a letter
so to speak,
have evoked
from
letter,
of a
'
to a
If I
by
beginning,
to
look
the way, to
sometimes,
I say,
looking up
at the
sky in which the vultures are careening, or looking out to sea where
perhaps not a ship
why
is
to be sighted,
wonder what
the use of
is
it
mad activity
It is not that I feel lonely.
I doubt if I have known that feeling more than two or three times
You write,
in my whole hfe. No, I wonder simply to what end
others write me likewise, that my work should be disseminated,
all,
carry
on
this
that
it
good
it
would
and ponder.
way
only
feel
not to do anything
my
Twiddle
book. Just he
on
flat
Sure, if I
at all for a
is
would
to
But
imaginary ones.
heart
since
Dostoievsky,
216
As
**
set
it is,
the
What
a luxury
my
vacation
rather be spending
^Timbuaoo,
let
Ramakrishna,
unknown
us say, or Mecca,
choose a few
EUe
Faure,
devil or saint
**
**
As companions
Just
How
wonder.
my
while
Nothing more.
thumbs.
after
make
Cendrars,
Blaise
whom
my own
rout out
his
all
Himalayan
sudden-
get well of a
and jumping
clothes
run
down
He
Sometimes
fastness.
doesn't
my
friend Schatz or
know what
into
my
aware of
my
friend
it
yet.
would have
to travel
Which reminds me
ing and revelatory
to
Theodore
most
interest-
letter
Dreiser.
my
during the
mind
you and
that
two
year or
last
my
it
mind by
the suicide of fellows like Hart Crane, Vachel Lindsay and others,
to say nothing of the bitterness
do not
other.
artists,
writers,
believe that
singers,
etc.
think
it is
we^and by
the
word we
by each
*
mean
other."
He
on
can
Man
another.
to
He
American Man."
says that
it
He
And
Ameri-
all
this
of others
who
possible to build
217
don*t
I
It
may
strike
you
By
American.
that
But
will work.
nearby and
who
young
to a
communicate with
older writer,
have noticed,
is
which
own
He
of any
pitfalls,
is
the
apt to be
work,
creative
included.
so firmly beheve that the blind should aid the blind, the deaf
we
He knows
a soUd nucleus,
ference, stupidity
An
who
of older writers
Uves
a projert
it is
writers
who
writer
of Anderson s.
this idea
shouldn't
we
that
we
it
was saying
as I
is
Why
But
mean
of
will think
as jejune.
young
from
us.
lucky
it
writers the
more
young
from
to learn
be
so.
Moreover,
writers.
the
scientist
Aye
And
day who, arguing with a young friend of mine about the coming
insisted that it
to think
nonsense
science
"Go
But
to
to
sit
until the
arrant
men of
Portable
to
when
to
rather think
" influences,"
* The
we were
come back
I
good fortune
218
if
Dreiser.
my
As
wrote on
meet Anderson
Sherwood Anderson
just a
few
The Viking
had the
Press,
New
York, 1949.
LETTER TO PIERRE LESDAIN
It
was shordy
staying at the
Dos
was
Passes
them, was
writers
though
this
my
recall
feeUng of
men.
mention
this because,
as
were so
"
men of
to.)
was immediately
critical aloofiiess
We got
knew my name.
especially
dis-
by Anderson's
my
books,
am
was intoxicated
was
also impressed
along splendidly.
storytelling gift.
I also
unknown
his
Dos
that they
liked America.
say
They had
The
tributions to a
I
Transfer
it
also
own
soon observed
The Seven
become
But before
of
either
of them had
I
called
Dreiser, I
one day.
Twelve Men.
need hardly
W|:iters
swum
con-
led
me
had of course
had the
*
into
my
ken
read everything of
he portrayed so tenderly in
young
that
Arts, I think
a writer
Yes,
bar.
his early
book of his
too.
it,
They
country.
Sherwood Anderson.
storyteller in
writer.
in their
very American,
I
days, that
home
as
is,
magazine
might
number of his
read a
at
fact
to beUeve
me
%o the
(In Paris,
writer.
birds."
my
bom
**
sipated
on greeting
at
mean, that
my
was
meet him
My first impression,
sitting
during
that,
can hardly
writers,
Of course
by
be
happened that
It
a date to
found to
with him.
sitting
made
in America,
tfiey
arrived
^how odd to
Before
letters."
close to
own
when
I felt as
of course,
after
this
tell
his,
even modelled
I
my
in those early
fint
book on
book
whom
219
The Finander^wt
Titan,
unwieldy" today
sombre,
realistic,
carried
call
tremendous impact.
at least to
can
life
So
sincere
warmed by
do they seem now
men
artificial
As
midstream.
self in
seamy
as
side, naturally.
There
at life honestly.
was
that
fullness.
know
that
in
**
the emptiness
tural heritage.
The
**
fullness
is
in the
peasant
stir
artist
week or more.
of
so
meagre
Our
by French
critical
to
references
more of what
is
apt to give
am not sure.
cite a
In general, however,
number of novels,
of which for content, raw
can
you hke.
part
called experience.
is
dangerous to generalize.
it is
we emerged from
?30
and
But when
if
me
indicate
It is
names and
Besides,
gave
meant to
ment,
so to speak, for a
spilling
so manifest
is
thrill it
his
spoke of the
The
of
unknown
When
I feel it, is
of the American
of the difference
racial, cultural
firmamentnot
the
works on
once
let us
is
pare
really
in
modem
novelist,
He had
be given Dostoievsky
a " democrat."
democrat "
(I
my eyes
at least, is that
But
Whitman,
as
We speak of him
as
^not
hope
mean
whose
individual
more than
infinitely
social
**
Whitman was
though not
lesser artist,
Dostoievsky.
**
just as
the difference
me
Dostoievsky was
Hterature.
of course,
though the
voice gets
levels, his
predigested.
is
all levels at
stop and he
But
as
It's
clavier.
it is
understood that
when
than
less
use the
word
allegiance
arisen
big
He
is
when he
impersonal by comparison
the great
swarms of humanity.
Dostoievsky
He
talks
stirs
causes us to shudder
Whitman
Not Whitman.
times.
man.
Dostoievsky
talks fellowship.
of Hfe. Whitman
brotherhood
us to the depths,
close
our eyes
at
poems.
We
There
know
is
had
Word
for
Whitman
ever.
He was
virtually to create
Dostoievsky
was
Dostoievsky rose from the depths and, reaching the summit, retained
still.
With Whitman
have
221
image of a
submerged
going
ako say
come back
strain
of
artist,
vision.
And
in Dostoievsky there
Dostoievsky, like so
the present.
is
is
eschatological
the future
many of the
He
world
too,
which
is
Nineteenth Century
the
superhuman.
Russians,
clearly
From Whitman
not forget.
godlike
as
to the question
the factors
all
far different
in.
flux,
strain.
is
Whitman,
almost indifferent
He knows
wrong with
knows
it,
expression,
is
more.
put himself to
first
rights.
His love and compassion for the whore, the beggar, the outcast,
him from
He
social problems.
recognizes
preaches
no mediator.
He
inspection
no dogma,
and examination of
celebrates
no Church,
with the
His worship
is
is
remains not so
cosmocrator.
I
have put
my
physicallythe
I
am
much
He
finger
on
it.
(Not
that I
mean
man of
language, which
222
to
There perhaps
the outdoors.
No.)
his
Stress
mean
this, I
freedom from
to indicate that
him
those inroads
is
almost
maintaining such a
beleaguered
participate. It
at the
on
is
wonder
It is really
if I
in
have made
fullness
the fullness
of
is
meant
It is
Dostoievsky
to bring out
is
many
It is
to Dostoievsky,
the quahty
It is
But
Yes.
of
this
of the name-
the emptiness
which
Humanity,
He had
it
in
Testament.
is
in literature.
New
Compared
another.
life
to give birth to
the ele-
with him,
is
either.
precedes creation.
Dostoievsky to the
in a sense empty.
It is
getting to be
it is
life as it is reflected
of Europe
him
him to be **
what
clear
Whitman is
less
it.
He
He must
attains
against.
of the world
The
when he
be for or
is
condition "
fullness.
'*
He must
all sides.
He was
difficult to
It
Whitman seems
his poetry.
culture
of the day.
ills
of
impervious to the
of culture, probably
for
all
world.
other
say, to create a
too.
God.
And
no matter how
could,
there
One
is
is
no
a sun, if you
like,
where of Dostoievsky
the other a
star.
no
superior or inferior.
moon of
his being,*
*"
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typical
Behind
Lawrencian image.
lay a thesis
it
which Lawrence
accept
and in utterance.
in essence
have put these two luminaries side by side merely to bring out
certain differences.
and he
light,
is
thought of
to
me
of all men,
that
is
as the
work one
hand
difference in voltage, if
human
demonic being
the
life.
is
you
Hght,
Whitman
passion,
all
In Dostoievsky's
like.
has the feeling that the angel and the devil walk hand
is
devoid of such
entities
is
of the great
the breath
is
is
Dostoievsky
there
of
in the midst
compassion.
in
man
glow with
to
as a fanatic, as a
there
eternal,
is
and
Spirit.
Dostoievsky which
window of
a bookshop
on Second Avenue
it
New
in
hung
York.
in the
That
people, the
moujik.
One
a saint, a criminal
As
for
Whitman,
or a prophet.
the photo
which
In the
Whitman
the expression
just a tinge
yet
had always
identified
with
his
this
become
It is
to say
He
**
that ruddy,
it.
found a photo of
sage."
of melancholy in
He is
is
But there
is
something about
Or
so
it
is
has not
He
seems to me.
is
deep quest
224
remote
also a
is
veiled
**
stellar
lips,
were "aHen,"
as
support.
mere
my
image
the
battlefield,
man
why
in his hand.
also a poet
is
Siberia
at the
the look
and
seer.
fiirther
from which
This
with the
is
of
by
this arresting
at the
a steel engraving
amaadng, to
my
it
mind,
is
that the
To me
Grass.
this
Whitman.
Maurice Bucke.*
unfortunately, a description
However
age of sixty-one.
brows
it is
one most
at fint sight.]
The
is
Whitman,
at the
young
thousands of
It is,
who
In this look
What
conflicts disturbingly
why
can see
there
the thought
destiny, in other
It is
must speak
type
But
without
his fellow
It
utterly
the world.
to
it
This
which
though
as
was captured
is
(?)
conception of the
way he looked
world
at the
The
by
eyes.
contradicted
no matter whether
is
and which
register,
Says Bucke
a long distance
of Whitman
:
from
the eye
large
* Cosmic
E. P. Dutton
&
Co.,
New
Yoric.
225
'f)
THE BOOKS
small
IN
MY
LIFB
of
or age
care, or weariness,
...
his look,
in
in
have never
of Whitman's body.
I
find
point out
"
who
in this
volume
of
have made him an " object of study." But before I
literature
"
well-marked rose color
" His face is the noblest
some of the
in
and
finest
me
professors
example of
fullest
this
type that
full
power of
his searchlight
on
new
the
We
expect and always find a difference between the early and mature
writings of the same
that
man
But
in the case
followed (and,
study)
at least in
Whitman's
across each
of which in
by pages
by such
And now
for
and
{as in
case,
without practice or
letters
of ethereal
fire are
..."
some of
significant
Walt Whitman,
of Whitman
vital sentences as
interesting
no
the observations
which
find singularly
...
in
my
talks
with him
at that time,
226
Italics
mine.
He
tion):
'I
average
me
man
in
spiritual.
one day
have imagined a
said to
(I
forget
life
heroic*
It is
this in
mind
devastatingly important.
He seldom
He
felt
at once.
For young and old his touch had a charm that caimot
be described, and if it could the description would not be
beUeved except by those who knew him either personally
or through Leaves of Grass.
This charm (physiological
more than psychological), if understood, would explain
the whole mystery of the man, and how he produced such
effects not only upon the well, but among the sick and
wounded.
criticisms, slanders
critics
2^7
feel
what we
all
have.
He
And now
come
to the passage
prophetical of the
say to you,
as the
my
coming
expressing
and
22S
Bucke
says
Howsoever
of it
that
I
prose, to be
that
it
" seems
wish to
may be,
regard
this egotistical
this passage
will even
it,
but
regard
it
go
fiirther
and
^I
this
as
view of
another way,
man." And
is
race."
from Whitman's
my own
sentatives but
life
signalled.
things strikes
as the
say
which is
if I
am
felt
reflected (even
view of
LETTER TO PtBRRE LBSOAIN
of American
Strata
man
new
to be
bom
earth.
But
society, there
on
me
let
is
this continent,
new
of
race
of outdoor
ditions
as
race,
much
as
You may
think
or what, but
note
it strikes,
same time),
presumptuous of me,
its
temporarily
it is
of
absolutely American.
is
would say
that
rock
this
For
it
I insist
of the
intellect.
It is
at the
was on
it
America was
forgotten
abstraction
that
founded.
representatives
their thoughts
of the
elect,
vaUd to me.
cursors
is
what makes
it
it is
way
seem more
That
not the
elect
**
trae
and
as the pre-
of view,
historical point
Viewed from
has
thrown up.
we
which
seeds
will
And
place constandy.
self-liberation
Whitman
*'
is
Is it
superfluous
of the
self,
name
The
^and
to come.
real revolution
What
is
is
We
taking
emancipa-
him who
is
himself
that abdication
^where there are incom-
of one's
plete beings.
the
in other words.
The world
complete."
tion
view
arc
they represent the
The
own
inaHenable rights
New
is,
made of and by
229
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MY
IN
LIFE
Are we
collective."
eye
"
we
see
Zen
to see it
community. That
is
If we see
ever ?
it
it
it
now
is
book on
find in every
**
because the
Attainment
the subject.
immediate present
from Whitman " Is it lucky to be
to be realized in the
is
this
is
How
bom
It is
something
is
very
Zen
like
just as lucky
to die."
In
lived
was the
sense
of eternal Ufe so
absolute.
show any
sickness did he
sign of
He had no
And what
If there
be
of
sense
Suddenly
of Evil ?
evil, there
of this
is
("
affirmation.
Not
is
Dostoievsky's voice
Was
I hear.
doubter
it
can be no God.
it.
sin.
conflict.
end, silenced
resignation," as
But the
by
rebel
and
a magnificent
out.)
say there
Twenty
is
in fact
Whitman
become
Bucke
him
"
And
life,
had taken
oj Columbus^ ostensibly, as
230
evil."
years after he
thus,
no
says, his
own
which
Beyond
He
worldly standards,
pitiable.
It
would seem
his condition
Whitman doubt
God had
as if
The
moment
the
thus
"
What
death
How
and
two
lines
writes
He
by
of
says that
willing to
is
of a
not the
is
God
he say to
shall
last
Bucke
is,
deserted
or can be
is
nor even
lost,
die,
nor soul
nor matter."
The
which abound
mouths of
Dostoievsky's works,
in
expressed
and revealing
through the
Whitman's
He
In
some
again
..."
to take
life as
and
it
Unable to accept
up
as a
reminds us of Job.
respects Dostoievsky
and Hfe
problem."
life
itself.
To
And
he adds immediately
irrational selves.
At a
its
with
his obsession
satisfy
meaning of
life itself.
One
" But
our rational
life
may
can rejea
life
our consciousness."
It
my
article
this
of
his
mention
It
my
it
Gutkind
Dostoievsky.
" In the
the world,
Book of Job," he
by
says,
**
God
is
no longer measured by
is
here God.
of Job
And
that
(just as it is light
which changes
leads us to a deeper
is
with Einstein)
The Book
the world.
He
then
is
its
explained
by
his
own
sins"
sharply
is
Book of Job.
rejected in the
is
less.
And
good or
the world
Is
so on.
evil ?"
^his
end every-
Greek heroes."
What
sphere
" But
is this,
"
He
in
which God
leaves everything
Job
cosmologically, he says.
the cosmos
else
...
All
is
balanced."
Nature
of Fate, he sutes. He says that Job, in seeking to understand God's ways, " takes God as a kind of cause, a natural force."
" But," says he, " God is not only a principle whereby the universe
is
the realm
In the cosmos,
The
is
the
God of
nature,
relative
is
of God
232
That
an abstract God."
the
Reality
Then
follows
which
this,
is
what
It is
Whitman
often said of
sure the
same might be
said
that
other
by
his ceaseless
was humanly
man s
am
of
life.
possible, to
of all
menand
Dostoievsky under-
answered
are to look at
we
took, as far as
if
of Dostoievsky,
we know
Whitman
different,
fimdamentally, than a
D. H. Lawrence
perception.
himself.
is,
To mc
He had
cannot pay
It is
to
it
is
come
the rock
to
flashes
of amazing acuity of
on which Lawrence
Whitman
eventually,
Whitman
did.
The
shattered
and he
is
He
truth
a pheno-
233
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mcnon
MY LIPE
IN
of phenomenon
the American
phenomenon.
But, despite
all
the
fuming and
much
is
in
who
over
Whitman which
Whitman he
because, to be honest
fails
interpreters to
'*
way he
Whitman's
lesser
But Whitman's
interprets
essential
it is
essential
a challenge to
is
There
come.
are imperishable.
much he
to grasp,
man
road.
himself"
Declaring that the
he
true
Whitman,
speaks out in
!),
in the veins
he says
of men.
is
the
American continent
the
first
first
also that
is
no Savior
rhythm of
that he
affection
essay
none.
Singing the song of the soul himself, Lawrence grows
He
speaks
of"
new
new
life
ecstatic.
moraUty of actual
Whitman's morality, he declares, " was
doctrine, a
life,
morality, a
The
says,
234
it
makes
itself
known,
but just
itself.
The
And
itself
recognized,
If
of the
essay
And on
this
Not by anything
on foot and
and passing by or
at all.
note
That
is
I shall
my
end
will
it
New
(Dated Lobos,
think
be a great soul,
it
Mexico.)
letter,
my
very dear
Pierre Lesdain.
May
1950
lothf
Postscriptum
I
can't bring
to say.
tingly
my
You
not embarked on
balk at anything
matter if
know
you
that
man
whom
say,
about yourself
reticent
I
in
You
idiot.
know
qualities are
Anyway,
"apparent"
First,
it is
to say.
appearance, did
definitely
how,
then, let
is
threw out,
me
dispose
a photograph of
might be taken,
It
some
of the
is
Whitman
uncertain,
it
says
below
you
contradictions,
dangling in mid-air.
may
the
which
still
have
But
faith, loyalty
more
you
photo, but
no
disillusion,
I left
wince or
will not
last-named, rapidly
which
unintended excursus.
who
reconcile certain
threads
this
Europe
cannot deceive or
more
There's
letter to
What matter if it assumes elephantine proportions ? UnwitI am being led to disclose certain views and opinions I might
an aquiline nose, he
never pictured
him
as
is
also
Some-
it
235
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an
is
IN
MY
LIFE
combination, in
irresistible
man
woman. The
or
have
Irish
it
occasionally.
As
a
own
number of
words,
times, there
Is it
are
life
sometimes
he took part in
of
at the risk
his
Both recognized
that
still
all
we might
adverse conditions,
still
the following
the tnan.
had and
wc
imaginable, if
diem.
men
for Lincoln,
to beheve his
alive,
Tom
if,
this letter
on what
War, assuming
dead or
Thomas
Paine,
have
could
alive
Robert E. Lee,
Jefferson,
of
Ingersoll,
rites, as
all
Jamati gives
words.
last
it,
with
Who
Bob
would
And not
only
that,
Whitman's
peen.
("
own work
after
first
another of
work.
What
a roster of names
fight to gain
we
recognidon for
find enlisted
on
his side
il
nous
est
ni un
artiste**
Carlyle, Burroughs,
Mark Twain,
wonderful Anne
the
236
Swinburne,
Edward
Gilchrist,
(California's
Carpenter
John Addington
Whitman), the
what
roster!
LETTER TO PIERRE LESDAIN
And
last
least,
was
it
this
homme
Get
driver.
home now!
to
close
omnibus
dome
puissant
ses
du temps."
of the monument to
memory of Edgar
the
ait
r^pondu h
(**
Allen Poe.
du
I'invitation
Le
draw
as
one
first
Europe
attention in
^in
England
work began
to
strange!
particularly,
happy coincidence.
And L^on Bazalgette, the most devoted of Whitman's biographers! What a labor of love his was! What a tribute from the
Old World!
remember
same period
The
Confessions
Diary
remember reading
was
of
The Absolute
was never
Collective,
God
by Erich Gutkind
At
I'Est
works
the Hfe
by Paul
Nijkisky's
The
Spirit
and Connaissance de
alone.
in Paris
be
St.
work
Bazalgette's
my memory may
though
too,
of
La
of the Tibetan
(No,
Glaudel.
was with
God!)
There
is
a side
and which to
of Whitman which
me
is
of the
goal.
How
stressed
extremely illuminating
opus are issued at his own expense! What a struggle to get those
few " obnoxious," supposedly " obscene," poems included in a
definitive edition!
He
marches on,
resolute,
unwavering, unflinch-
he follows
* His
real
**
As
Miller,
and he was
bom
in Indiana.
237
Up everywhere.
wake.
endeavors to remonstrate
latter
the
two
Had Whitman
win out
he did
so, I
it
from
am
the
stressed
too much.
affected
by
**
it
When
the author
of
of Ulysses,
than to grant
whole
knowing
comes to the
**
that
How much
Ulysses.
latter part
in
would
of the Nineteenth
our history
cannot be
lettcn
case
full
of James Joyce,
it is
by
easier
it
was
It
ovm
of
my own
was
Dreiser's
Whitman
picture
that ultimately he
in a
generous revenge
circulation
poems
(As
Sister Carrie.)
a sort of
**
the superior of
sure,
it.
is
made
Century
earlier!
(True, he
in the homeland.)
taking place as
on
capitulated
altered.
benefactors in omitting
items, but
Whitman
Is It
special providence
my
this
seemed
of
the language
other
human
beings,
at,
reviled or insulted
friends
and admirers. Jamati speaks of the astonishment which the recriminations against
EUe y
Gilchrist.
un respect, un amour de
demande avec ing^nuit^, en
la vie tout
reUgieux et
elle se
si
naturellement au diapason
qui
sait
d^couvrir
t^moin pour
Her 'Hnginuiti"
Her courage. Her
238
tout,*
quel
lui
says Jamati.
sublimity.
LBTTBR TO PIERRE LBSDAIN
No, even though Whitman may not have written them
for
It
women,
his
to
women
'*
especially"
as well as to
men.
is
woman
receives the
equals.
He
raised their
in
manhood and
as
their
where he made a
stitute
woman
"homosexual"
What
score!
Whoso
for a
all
radical
manin
order,
What
tendencies.
it
instances
was
on
filth
These same
under suspicion.
is
seems to repel
woman
The
Adam was
man
Whitman's
think of
"Brahmic
man was
yet,
originally
or hermaphroditic.
In
man
and
complete
pages back
eyes,
him
it
was
not,
is,
and in the
The
hospitals should
and
distant
look
of the
And
us.
both.
When some
in
first
being
this
absurdities
to sub-
to allay suspicion of
it is said,
when
the
on
the battle-
could any
demanded of
that
were so
of too
close
man.
cruel,
It
was not
though a great
Much
communion.
sympathy. Empathy
is
more
the
is
nearly the
related
word
inroads
tribulation,
repeat,
is
upon
of
for
his inexhaustible
it.
it
his health
In both
Saint ") to
239
THE BOOKS
MY
IN
LIFE
command of
crudble by
Whitman, were
No
Fate.
do not make
this
awesome
trial
or
remark
where
in man's history
test.
instances
prove
in order to
the test
great the
such an experience.
elected for
tested in the
how
idly.
individuals
ment"
matter
was
martyrdom.
upon them.
thrust
^how he meets
of a man
'*
But
move-
In both
there, after
It
was
all,
in
exile that
of Jesus.
It
that
was on the
Whitman
batdefield,
among
wounded,
Only
Only
heroic
men
illuminated
men
could
could have
Whitman had
period in his
this crucial
Both had
so with
Whitman underwent
Not
life.
it
some
Dos-
in the
a change, a deepening.
man who
is
a bit stunned
world
completely,
less
His expression
as well.
of one
who
of the divine
who
is
it,
had
revaluation of
not
as a
god.
probably)
this
no longer
in the thick
human
^and the
that
of it,
inanimate
of one coming
who
it,
humanization.
as I
If,
firmly believe,
all
the
rejoices in
in
is
by
values.
he were to go mad, a
Whitman had
to live as a
how
man,
(via
Solovyev
man-god "
persisted.
240
him.
in
sought
receiving
both
in
man
the
manthe man
god and
effects
divinize
to
illumination
his
god
in god, the
Today
instances.
it
in
is
from beyond,
fecundation of
This
him.
in
man4iad far-reaching
common to hear that
tyrannical,
autocratic,
its
But wait!
materialistic
The
course.
the positive.
Biographers and
of a
life
of
critics
give the
spirit,**
suffering
subjects.
But what
Whitman
of
utter lack
wounded
affected,
records.
lives
of each one of
of privacy
he lived
Whitman had
to
was no one
who combined
read
a beast, as
their
I
priest.
like
They were
witoess.
social
in
attributes
Dostoievsky, if
their characters
is
Whitman and
affected
become
else
about
But
pursuits.
same animal
that
magnetism
man,
after release
stress,
to
go beyond themselves.*
from such a
situation,
An
well conceive
it
Whitman and
a mission
it
made
it
artists first
he might
life.
But
If they
have
If I have not
acatcd the
**
ordinary
**
message "
me say
that
it
was
precisely
men
Not
all
great
men
^ As in the
case
arc capable
was the
case
To witoess
not once,
of Cabeza de Vaca.
241
THE BOOCS IN MY
1*
ahnost beyond
there
is
some ways
In
capable of.
Performing for
Whitman
all
are
^ow-
he was nevertheless
did,
human
course,
to act the
*'
He
angel
it
this
ministering angel."
very
fact
In another sense, of
made
easier for
it
him
thot^ht of being an
It nullified all
two
and man, or
''experts'*
if
Acting
whose
calling
they
It
was
was
passed between
their
them and
When it was
private tasks.
artists
that,
was
between
God
had assumed.
responsibility
their mission in
]ic.
Men saw
The Utde
Thus, aU that
as mediators
it
them turned
was burned
be otherwise
whedier
deliverers.
The
**
men of letters,"
^is
utter
**
experience.
away.
their
duty or
their
gamut of ordinary
saw
it I
intercessors,
common was
because
not lose
and unerringly.
instinctively
me
let
of the old
revolutionizing
of
vehicles.
art
How could
we
properly aware of^ was part and parcel of the greater task of tranvaluating
all
human
with
art
242
was of a
It
was
different
move-
mcnt from
from
(which
But
hear.
let
lost irruption
man
of the
we
veiled to us)
is still
us not for
have yet to
was a vain or
it
spirit.
Whitman
Still I
underwent.
personal way.
dear
this
it
You know
the Capricorn
book what
Even a
from
was bound
to happen.
this glut
it
But did
daily.
experience
that
life
seems to
which was
my
me now,
situations into
emphasize suflSciendy
men
which
everyday
was plunged
of
aspect
this
fare.
my
daily
knelt at
my
feet,
And
I,
destiny
either
the
As
above or
believed that I
because
as his
Accidental, yes
As
my
gaze.
because
because
was obliged,
could find
employment manager
and exasperated.
me
a brother, as an equal,
was thoroughly
In order
them one
earth
other job
And why
for giving
last
day
go
kiss
man on
last
of another, the
(Because
no
me
hand to
my
they snatched
was
I
!)
And
so every
in turn humiliated
that
human
beings could
*43
ofiBce.
was not
made
too had
a big thing
my rights.
on
I was
on
of
of it
unmen-
this lousy,
to be rejected
earth
Incredible
was.
knowing
Dostoievskian touch
^nothing
in
is
will
my palmnotice now
do but
God's
know
no longer a
it is
that
company,
ment manager of
I
instead
my
eye.
me
moment when
destinies
of over
had bargained
took over
as
for.
that
Had my
become
to
of the employpride
was then
But, though
me
listening to
so inflated that
is
me
listener told
dud who
the
to represent myself
never imderstood
that
till
a thousand individuals in
my
nevertheless
hands,
what
the
the
(That there
the
more
is
no such Being
horrible
and
ironic.)
as these
messengers
was
these idiots
God.
dej&nitely
God
utter fatuoumess,
to
them
would
fiiU
why
can
we
Why,
citizens
in the
shatter this
them-
knowledge of their
Nothing
quicker than such a sanction. But ifwe are not even willing to
ourselves to God's hands
commit
mean those who helkve in Him4ow can
This
on
in
this sickly
Earth
from
it
this tiny
abode
listens
called the
(For
!
exploded
which
as well as those
Far
long
My
am
human
trying to say
dignity
human
every
to endure
I
is
entided
that I
was torn
time
am
listen to
" what
my own
unmerited gratitude.
really
what
others want,
sells."
But
have a boss, he
than
life
slave.
there
is
is
as before.
Now
This
have to
don't
apart, that I
in this cruel
and to do
to.
know
only
being
condemn,
is
mouth by plying
And
invisible.
new
this
role
my
all,
am
not
trade.
If
^I
more
Then, when
he
had
edifice
who
appear
itself.
menaced.
is
The
from
those
his counselors,
who
the
who
crowd
rally
of support
a totally different
slightest
that
hilt.
It
the
245
your
a
faults
against
you
who
Those
total acceptance.
work
defend you
piece
But
broken.
When
wiU
by
enter
of
is
through
it.
The
in spite
thread
.)
is
when
loses,
He
One
as waters.
sight.
only
n<Jt
That extra
sees
takes time
by
may
put
it so.
parted.
It
incandescent.
gainsaying
come down
solitary
And
it.
one
to
to bedrock, to the
in
God.
And
impression
if,
" angels.
An
extraordinary utterance,
Whitman
did not
node which
is
in the presence
**
say
i
"
Sooner or
of such
we
we
get
Aye, eventually
as eternal in the
no
later
human
being as
we
have the
individuals,
...
But
it
One of
(Jules
apple.
these
is
**
:
Romains.)
Look
the thought
come
will doubtless
II
all
my
back.
was
It is
was about to
15th
express.
!)
for the
now May
worm
"
With
is
these
" The
came
the
worm
in the
command
to
346
This book
^I
preface
son's
his
many
few
Today
languages.
of Bellamy
lines
was
It
it is
translated into
sale,
one which
don't
know how
But here
virtually forgotten.
worth
find
an unprecedented
^had
citing
"
ended.
is
long
Whitman
words of Whitman
be exact, before
after these
are a
just five
so very
" The poems of life are great,
died.
but there must be the poems of the purport of life, not only in
itself,
The worm
worm
We
in the apple
makes
its
ought to
appearance
it
thing as literature,
is
the
call it
**
but
life,
as
manifesting
life
be
angel-wonn."
no such thing
live, to
alive, is to
encountered a
should be hailed
Au
as a sign
of new
fond there
There
humanity.
itself in
Au
fond there
nothing
is
To
The
Hfe.
no such
is
other night
line,
me
goes thus:
"To Hve
dering.
is
That
line set
we
are
by "
born
we
know,
meant
this
of being
other words.
From
means conscious
the
moment we
nature of commemoration,
We
do not
life.
^life is
the
allegiance,
are
is
the
the
supreme
bom we wage
Nearly everything
Ufe
Hfe
all,
alive
could
life
moment
only privilege,
fact
came
that the
words
tiese
existence.
realist,
to pon-
we
faith, in
a struggle
glorify
is
in the
struggle.
put the struggle above the flux, the past and future above the
* I have just found Paul Bellamy's preface. Here are his words "Looking
Backward, first published in the winter of 1887-8, won such universal acceptance that in the middle Nineties it was said that more copies of the volume
had been sold than of any book hitherto written by an American author,
with the two exceptions of Uucle Tom's Cabin and Ben Hut."
:
247
BOOKS
THF,
But
present.
is
cosmologically
that
it is
LIFE
swim
bids us
life
myth of
the
MY
IN
of
the mystery
to
it is
man
remind
When God
he
that
is
answers Job
his
Cosmology
creation.
it
When
or perish.
man puts his head out of the stream of life he becomes self-conscious.
And with self-consciousness comes arrest, fixation, symbolized so
by the myth of Narcissus.
The worm in the apple of human
vividly
steals
existence
is
consciousness.
The
man
smash
him back
They
in the stream
de mal de
la
found and
surrender.
lips
seers, the
this
my
In
It
like
..."
joie
speaks of
pro-
the joy of
is
could be no other.
It
study of Balzac
of Louis Lambert.
..." My
juncture
saisisse la
The joy he
beautifiil utterance.
exist
between
man
is
point
cited a
would
is
not
Is
everything,
again
is
from the
utterances
them again
at this
may
bound up with
number of
like to give
this
is
bound up
If
If he
is
of the universe
is
not absurd
is
me
that
we
on
are
body
The
it
constituted as ours
do not
human
is
...
struggle
It
;
activity
that
end
seems to
the forces
..."
The Balzac who wrote these lines, and others even more discernmore inspiring (in Seraphita), was not mistaken in his view
of things. No more than Edward Bellamy or Dostoievsky or Walt
Whitman.
ing,
the
I
mentioned
man whom
With
Cymric.
In
a master in
book
as
248
this
this letter
it is
my
as
have written of in
Powys.
looked upon
came
youth, and
whom
John Cowper
called Obstinate
is
Welsh
for
this
chapter,
particular
characterize the
change which
the
"new
of
Now
Speaking of the
is
all life,"
what
am
may
revelation" being
he sutes
endeavouring to suggest in
of
fe
all this is
great historic
and
the
God and
both
Let
me
--or our
way of
of the
refiisal
Law and
the Devil.
to take part
lines,
^in
this
our part
new
this
vision
of things,
new
hfe.
None of us
Our immediate
which we
We
are like
to
somnam-
bulists
in a
into another.
whether
dismay,
With angry
desperation
wc
249
tm
BOOKS
MT
Ilf
corns as they
ttPB
are
swept on,
Wc
we
more
imprecations against
we
surely are
we
desperately
we
more
the
cling,
fling
more
unwilling."
We
are
no longer " on
Balzac wrote,
saying that
we
the
it is
the eve
of a great human
human
which
soul
few thousand
last
There
is
is
The
in revolt
^^^lich
is
is
right in
soul
is
years.
coming over
us
more
know o Many of
who
has vmtten
his articles
appeared in
Such
the uneducated.
coming age
will fertilize
it
of
men.
all
The Age of
stitions,
of
The world
What
chains will
The
to the earth.
is
roots before
250
Plenitude."
that
The cup
earth, all
he
his
^and
of
sees the
humanity.
The
coming
to an
as so
many now
fetiches, super-
into a
by hacking
the shackles
free
before
fall
associated
make
ceremony of death.
away
is
social contract,
The
is
is
to
fear.
name
enough
seem to
is
**
as
is
His
we were
if
utterances suspect
sick
struggle," as
which
fetter
him.
it
like Russia,
is
decomposition.
on
about, unconscious
own
is
is
America
and a menace to
this
No
doubt
This delicate,
upheavals and
life
to break
up
it
terrifying order
what
if
is
fright.
over."
It
It
And
In working
that, I feel,
in
its
is
grip.
at the
He
is
which
is
have
it
" If
to himself, if only
rigidity.
its
terror
word "
ceaseless transmutations
bottom of the
is
ice
glass
a threat
is
many
shudder with
it
"the winter of
thaw.
ice,
Uving in a
like a valetudinarian
its
is
is
Fear and
faith.
cage.
that
Europe
not a sleepwalker.
If
Europe
represents.
All
for their
life
of the old
Europe
of
forces
GoUaths
these slumbering
before
by
is
new
destruction.
ends,
busy angel-worms,
like
it is
"
if
it is
hke what
would
rather not
seriously,
The
he thinks
idea that
new way of Hfe may be a godless one, the idea that the responsibility may be wrested from God and conferred upon humanity
as a whole, only adds to his terror. He sees no cause for rejoicing
in the thought that the new dispensation may be man's. He is too
human, yet not human enough, to beUeve that authority should
rest with man, especially with "the common man."
He has
the
And
how
if you say to
him,
as
man
Powys
always revealed
does, " Now it
251
the soul of
is
has
become
great
is
**
in revolt
detect
its
hbcrate
from every
itself
The
creation.
of the
is
Unless
fruit that
That
is
God
deeds of heroes,
autochthonous rebel
To him
creation
is
order,
devil.
it
itself.
its
me from
deep
"
thrall,
of art may be
soul
said
undefinable.
or the tasks
as the
you
stirrings in the
as if
it is
He
down
your throat
in
the language
this is the
language of the
own wisdom
soul's
so clear that
It is
it
the fire in
Is
And
that
beginning.
When
from
**
the
This
is
came
to
homeland
my
Europe
was so ove^oyed
where
is
that I
had escaped
that I longed to
belong."
And
then
fotmd myself in Greece, which has ever been a Htde out of Europe,
and
thought
would remain
there.
me down
was
"
can
life
seized
me by the scruf
Because of that
of what happened to
and
truthfiilly
me
still,
there,
think
feel at
the hardest
be
had attached
252
But
again in America.
at
took
It
state
me an infinite
of mind.
itself
to the
like
word
time to realize
was ever in
But when
revolt
discovered
fell
away.
It
became
my business,
or
"
better,
me
easier for
earth, I think,
And I am
Greece.
privilege^ to
have been
feel that I
am
from an earUer
of all
I feel least
good European, a
And
I feel like
else.
experiment, establishing
This
love."
must put
I salute, if I
is
the
a bom Welshman.
am probably more an
The American in me which I acknow-
of man,
race
an American, though
like
yearn for
am much
descent
it
I feel that I
potential Greek,
when
is
man who
on
man who
not the
fulfill
himself.
Not
new
dty of brotherly
ran
The man
to seek but to
which
"
What would you say to one who comes to you with nothing
" Throw it away "
"mondo" was
used to
spiritual
This
The
certainty.
and
it
It
might
the
Open Road
Walk on
say,
who was
of one
Let go
St.
all
human net
adrift in the
stream of life
salutary,
?
poisedin the
eternal flux
life.
Assisi.
there be a
of
Cease squirming!
But could
anchor
is
his sluices
that
altogether American,
Francis
Whitman,
in
is
It
means
is
impoverished.
bounty,
as a
It
"we
of Zen."
poverty of America
spiritual
world.
illustrate
creature
man
Hved with
of the deep.
this
h he not divinely
253
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
which eventually comes to an end
there a road
Is
Then
it is
We
**
Vasdy more.
Life
Dreams and
not a dream.
is
Ufe intermarry,
and de Nerval has made of this faa the most haunting music. Dream
But
that
is
That
not even
is
cardinal.
the
with eyes shut and the dreams he dreams with eyes open
life,
who
My
But
a close
it
*'
has that
prefer to reopen
is
nearer
dream to
thirsts,
letter to
&om
passes
ceases to sleep,
because he
who
is
an Awakener.
ultimate
*'
my
it
note.
You remember
and how I
Schatz,
day, going to
we had
that
visit
him down
town (Monterey), we
It
However,
things.
The
as
Ac
to discussing
fell
friend, Bezalel
time
first
he began to
other
books
tides
native tongue,
I felt
that I
ought to
tell
we
you something of
his
all this,
think the
Jerusalem^
ment
we
time
talks
it.
Sometimes
we
sometimes
it
Sometimes
it is
San'a.
is
was
it
dis-
Loti*s
and he was
we
course, that
especially the
was when he
Beside
and so on.
254
this subject
about
Yemen
opened
curious about
many
first
my
covered on
have had
Old
Testa-
of the world
in
which Mt.
Sinai
is
located
who
have in
Or
it
may
who
setded in
which to him
Nazareth,
Or
experiences.
he has
vifhidi
we
are
with
associated
always return to
suppose
it
Hebrew and
language was
very
What
literature.
his
Hebrew
until
home
Jerusalem
the
ridiest
*'
childhood.
He
that,
It
almost fainted
Another very
Everything he
Italian,
read.
that his
knew from
(Arabic he
started us of
Arabic
mundane
tongues.
wond-
read was in
their
talk
visited.
we
Eventually
may
it
and
Sometimes
first
the
still
swears in
he maintains.)
first
**
i
me, too."
for
" What about Gulliver's Traveb t You must have read that too."
" Of course " he said, " and Jack London's books Martin
!
Eden,
The Call of
Wild ...
the
(So do
Many men
home !)
talk
too.
about
of diem.
all
But
remember
I.
after his
read quite a
fiurt
through
I
it.
it
But
"
read
it
two or
three times,
"
Oh yes
successfully.*
He had
"
Pidtwick Papers
same age
'*
:
didn't like
it
that
book
myself.
Two
Cities,
"
THE BOOKS
**
And
He
MY
IN
LIFE
?
Alice in Wonderland
"
**
cried.
book
We
he was
it,
in
that too
Hebrew or
not
certain,
(Imagine trying to
couldn't say.
it
recall in
!)
list,
the
names
rolling off
our tongues
like
maple syrup.
'*Ivanhce"i
**
You
bet
And how
indeed must
salem.
strangest feeling
penetrate.
in Paris
if
how
wondered
book.
(I
as to
think
his
Walter
day,
"
You mean
By
It
Next
knew
that novel
We
Saladin.
Saladin
"
told him.
Saladin
think
Scott,
books might
**)
Sir
One
was.
it
Par-
strange
American
how
Mr. Tcheou,
by Jack London
for
where
of gladness
react to this
was thinking
this
had the
of Rebecca.**
Why
aren't
to
King Arthur,
he's the
was prepared
for
we
talking
Yes,
more about
can
of
this
time
me
any
title
he might mention.
to hear that he
the
for children
diat
ever read
("
!)
it
me
to hear
of
this
ful experience.")
for every
of youth. Whoever
256
loss.
who wrote that book called The Red Rose "* he demanded.
i
It's
de Maupassant, S(^ho
Tartarin
by Tolstoy
And
as
then
(I
we came
person
Meaning
say.
still
Yes,
")
this
to Sienkiewicz.
some Southerners
sible
know
to
"
pest
we
boys
What
he was
a volcano
Do
passage, that
am
we had
Intime
Let
me
comes in
So Polish
this
If as
we
astounding passage
remark, before
Man Who
quote the
Laughs, which,
first
as
if I
That impos-
Hugo
the tide.)
works of
which Tolstoy
I can't recall
That
the
(which he adored),
Tarascon
de
a deep impres-
overwhelming,
characteristic
is
the
words
He
monstrous.
incommensurable.
His
most
finds a
him
is
is
is
a kind of Titanic
to be natural.
is
excess
his distinguishing
power with
mark
strange dissonances of
pueriHty in
measure,
its
taste,
By
257
THE BOOKS IN MY
who sowed
firebrands
Attikwhose names,
LIP;
the whirlwind
I
discovered,
who
coincidence,
in
that
I say,
^Tamerlane,
were
tells
and
*'
He
had marked
Amid
terrifying
reads
who
Genghis Khan,
as thrilling
records
a Turk, Ou'igour,
It is
continues thus
known
empire
to history, stretching
from
the Blue Sea to the Baltic, and firom the vast plains of Siberia to
the banks of the sacred Ganges."
cussing, the fact that a
(This
is
this
stupendous
dis-
feat.)
" This tremendous hurricane, starting from the high Asiatic table-
The
is
descent of the
and broke,
known
world,
first
yellow, flat-nosed
a historical cyclone
at the
of i^orance and
Christendom.
the
Attila,
human
life
of
*'
face
the revilers of
of things
war [who]
it
It is
for
"Catastrophes
restoration
world oC
Uttle
fardier, speaking
which
rivers
that
round the
superstition
which made a
of equiUbrium
let
A few lines
..."
declares
and
whenever
this is a
encounter
sears
of
loose
"They put
rights.**
the world
brutally to rights^
It is
to
a long cry
from Amiel
to the
dog!).
Once
again
was bowled
in
over.
Baron Munchausen
So in
in
Hebrew
tales
and
it.
of humor
To
think
"
'*
just as
You
funny in Hebrew
remember
must
He
tried,
please try
Anyway, suddenly he
moment.
at the
smoke it
!)
of
translations
recall
he said
his head,
in Poland.
however
once,
recalled that
Hebrew
these
Then, scratching
but he couldn't.
most of
only
Hebrew."
Alice in Wonderland in
"
bookfunny
funny
was
child's
Like
book but
heft
of the
volume.
Then he informed me
had been
he
said.
that practically
Hebrew very
translated into
all
early.
**
that Celestial
And how,
kingdom.
along
a wonderful
by
moment
in the
(And
foreign authors.
Sinclair.
it is first
any country
world
in the
It
invaded
more
Of
life
!)
The
Count
warm
Hamsun,
read
(Pan, Hunger,
Pump
Victoria,
Some
.)
all
Wanderers, Segelfoss
titles
me
Suddenly he gave
thrill
he mentioned
it
another
Yes, he had
was
all
golden.
Town, Women
at the
for,
thought
way
to get these
read
them
"
read a
Do
still
translation.
Or
may
have to
better,
was Mendele
aUve, I
even
Mocher-Sfarim
**
am
Norwegian
in
better than
asked.
to myself, I
declared.
But
Israel
Zangwill
"
"
?
259
Israel
Zangwill
him
He shook
was so enamored.
"
can
Hebrew."
" What's
'
"
>
got
me
:
most wonderful
was
many
in
"
Neck
You
head in amazement.
" that I bet you never read in
"
diat
he countered
It
his
I said,
he grinned.
there,"
"I
least."
"We
whom
upon
the Shekina
we came
of several times before and always with the same passionate enthusiasm
Ingeborg, by a German named Kellermann. " He also wrote
:
"
that
^Ingeborg or Inge6r^.
story
"
I'll
down
make
for
Site
It
me
in
was a love
**
promised.
my notebook." He
wrote
it
" Krtiso " and " Baalzac " and " Zenkewitz."
bafHes him.
There's
no logic
in
it,
he
insists,
Jews
But
that
it
we
reason,
a love
It's
a thick
all
name
down
beside Robinson
(English spelling
book about
he
said,
still
right.)
**
don't
of
..."
was about
dwelt on
it is
called
Narcisse et
which profoundly
wisdom. "
Life
at great length.
Death and
the Lover.
wisdom,"
as
There
It is
is
It
magic in
is
curious
this
book
D. H. Lawrence would
art.
some
360
And what
story.
also
it
say.
and great
It is
like
" a heavenly
on
Whoever
naturally.
of the
great revival
Under
It celebrates
it
reads this
eternal truth
GoUmmd we
et
rambled
onabout
how
wonderful
intimately, about
banana
the
his father
the
in himself a
art.
the pain
through
art.
their
incomparable
son
his
all
the
into Palestine.
me of
even
arts,
anecdote about
how
as in
days of old.
reminded
beHeve)
wherein he describes
of his amazing
its details,
(in Bourlinguer, I
clavier the
on
of commerce
articles
the backs
of
gods and
beasts,
men, appeared one day over the ridge of the Andes (he was then
in
slowly, tantalizingly,
village)
from morning
this
To me
the great
Kriss Kringle
In
all
in
emptied
the midst
Schatz, Jericlio
is
finally
by some
of nowhere
super-gravitational
me
below
Jericho.
is
sea level, to
For
which
Turnpike,
for a
on Long
would
Island, whither,
hardly dare
the
in preparation
from Jamaica
tell
of names for
riders.
How
different individuals
name Bethlehem.
("
Always
alive
with whores
")
26l
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
One of the lasting impressions I shall retain of Palestine is his story
man who made Hebrew a Hving language once again.*
about the
Doubtless there
dead language
man
was
who
stops to think
of
that first
own
our
in
man
teaching
moment.
this celebrated
There
relates
much
it
revived
and
to his four-year-old
of reviving
talk
it
before
It
Hebrew was
generation that
first
But
concerned.
in connection
tongues
it
always a "
is
is
is
little
Such an event
...
is
with
a sequel to
this event,
relish, that I
cannot omit.
It is
member of
about a
the famous
Palestine,
stage (and in the synagogue), suddenly hears the urchins in the street
"
a living language
**
!
he exclaimed.
revitalized it
is
Now
mention
is
know
this to
that
remark
as
we were
Did he name
why
it after
did
you or
**
that
is
merely
in the
shadow of God,*
He
meaning.**
its literal
The
first artist,
you know
you might
Next morning
It's
* Elicer Ben-Yehuda,
who
also
it
sounded.
about Bezalel
He was more
Read your
He was
than
that,
Find the
elaborate,
Bible
..."
362
say.
that
paused and
And
compiled the
first
the
first
Hebrew
mention
dictionary,
"
LETTER TO PIERRB
1.
And
See, I
and in
And
brass.
of stones, to
in cutting
work
timber, to
in
all
set
manner of workmanship
the
which
reads
Lord
whosoever
of the Lord
scarlet,
and
of a willing
is
gold,
and
fine linen,
and badgers'
skins,
silver,
and
and
**
...
As
and
brass,
goat*s hair,
and
poetic, fiigitive
and
blue,
precise
read
on and on
got drunk
it is
" collaborators."
his
bethought
red,
Ught, and
me how
And
cunning
as I sat
Boris Schatz, the father of Bezalel, and with what loving patience,
even the
of Juval.
from the
name,
And
cradle.
Bezalel, for
And now,
my
it is
this
saw
that his
the crafts,
all
the
this
whispered to myself:
"Blessed be thy
Book of Books,
all
to the
Ark and
we
is
really the
have come
the Covenant.
end
In
at last to the
Here
let
us rest in
Your
May
2otht 1950.
friend.
Henry Miller.
263
XIII
READING
There
THE TOILET
IN
is
mean,
reading in the
As
toilet.
Should
book than
I
We
a "
was
my book
good
by a running stream.
catalogue,
fired,
always.
when
think of
my
important in
life
it
Everlasting Portland
remember
my way
Cement Co.,
on aU
worked
late into
I
many
night.
trips
of
on
of the
offices
sides
by
memorized long
If nothing
concentration.
to read during
a year to come,
I
At
more,
this
job
it
was
often
wanted
I left
Yet
lucky
to
when
not because
Was
now.
was
under
instead
my job. How
from
It
passages
my thirty-third year.
my reading. I read
to
did most of
264
take
difficult conditions,
my
have jobs,
safe place
of a
you
wide-
is
been written
know of no
which
sometimes repaired to
as
classics, I
toilet.
in the toilet.
httle has
a youngster, in search
involves a habit
it
my knowledge,
my
I rarely slept
did a vast
my
as
soon
pals.
as I
more than
amount of reading.
had gulped
down
And,
repeat, I read
READING
for
I
me,
the
at least
never read to
it
(Which
is
ill
easiest ones.
was indisposed,
As
way most
the
But what
Now
and then
look
oftener
The
"
played
is,
must
if I
it
to the
"Why
to myself:
life
**
Often,
on
leaving
you do
don't
thing.
pubUc Hbrary
One
between.
When
reason
painters paint,
point
would say
the library, I
The
would go of an evening
That was
to read.
read
possessed.
most
when
that
it,
the faculties
all
find.)
stress
difficult
kill
or pretending to be
back
most
THE TOILET
IN
life
this
came
pleasure or any
foolish distraction.
From what
all
magazines, the
of
Some,
toilet to read.
done
is
talks
am
Or
is it
which
Is it
teU
me
their share
robberies, war,
are the
same
and night,
get
more
individuals
who go
fresh
who
really
may
to the radio
Umited observations
war
again,
bank
Undoubtedly
these
suicides,
cold.
know
that
is
insist that
that
^where they
and
All to be informed
who buy
But what
these dreadfiilly
the
People
comb through
do they
^i.e.
again,
Their
war
disasters,
to the
toilet.
My own
The
is
to keep their
make up
to
as it
avidity people
as it is called,
friends,
idle reading.
told,
is
serials,
with intimate
in the toilet
!)
a sheer delusion.
The
truth
is
that the
265
in themselves.
It
doesn't matter
as
on
last
frankly,
on
To
meditate
the
is
Even
in the toilet,
one
least
one,
privacy of the
only the
own
And
who
you
tell
of dreams do they
only in the
that
Poor mothers
Life
toilet
do
indeed hard
is
these days.
more opportimity
a thousand times
for self-development.
Each
sort
dreams tinged
will
a minor sort of
^what
on you
it
printed matter.
One wonders
are their
you have
for
favorite kind
flimsiest crap.
With what
bliss,
toilet.
fluffiest,
dream
moment of
by concentration on
has to be broken
I
at
is
unnecessary to
it
to save, in acquiring
If it
all
was
time
really
you
nap
after
as
approved "
other excuses
foil,
alL
modem "
You
as early as
you possibly
Bref, you
They get eliminated,
in the name of science
methods.
as possible.
household chores.
All
efficiency.
un
we know
Whose is,
God
Who
finished.
except
and fmds
266
all
and
You
have
When
it
good
wonder
looks
Only
upon
...!")
Who
his
true that
rests
on
your job
there
is
is
never
work, when
it
is
terminated,
READING
wonder sometimes
work
form of self-praise),
as I say,
left
wonder,
toilet,
undone
Or, to put
precious
it
their lot
Do
to take
jobs which
little
sit
are
is
to them, I wonder, to
who
mothers
conscientious
if these
THE TOILET
IN
it
ever occur
during these
moments, ask the good Lord for strength and courage to continue
in the path
How
of martyrdom
mothers of old,
do a
as
all
they did,
we knowfirom
is
what
Some
often wonder.
managed
to
Some
Not only
of them,
it
own
for everything.
children, teach
them
all
clothes,
their
they knew,
make
but some at
least also
managed
to
give their husbands a hand, especially if they were plain country folk.
Countless are the big and Httle things our forbears did unaided
before ever there were labor-saving devices, time-saving devices,
before there were short cuts to knowledge, before there were
kindergartens, nurseries, recreation centres, welfare workers,
pictures
men were
toilet.
If so,
it is
not
also addicted to
R^my
cultivated
on
would
readers
It is true,
cannot
resist
active,
The very
rather
too intent
fact that
they
read
able
perhaps
same time.
reading whatever
Saintsbury and
this habit.
were too
moving
kinds.
all
There
falls
is
a breed of
men who
they will read Uterally anything, even the Lost and Found notices
in the newspaper.
piece
They
are obsessed,
of sound advice
at this
and
juncture
If
267
;!
What
upon
concentration, whether
you
you
If
will.
Something
bothering you.
is
it's
The same
mind and
free
responds
to, is
hand.
at
thorough
what
it
it
what
of the
true
is
stool.
hand.
at
because something is
" ^where it
shouldn't
a clear conscience.
tackle
sound.
the
This
said.
Easy does
take care
practice
If
is
**
it !
Take
care
of the
little
ineffectual.
Few
that as a child.
ever
it.
it is
of
vital
of equal
it is
W^t
the purpose.
is
you go
It
you
by
" crap."
Would
which
"
is
W.C."
your
for
**
do
and
no
it is
do just
alcoholics.
this is
It's
some
^then ask
"
this
Do
**
:
httle
of reading
Even
who
resist
a slight
improvement.
It
reads
so, I say
reading.
that
it
it is
Suppose
would mark
Supposing
one
Why
this ?
life
I need
when trying
!
insist
you
of one's
negligible portion
is
to yourself that
or
moment of life
on reasoning
in filling
are
moments
these precious
utilizing
day
which
would be
still
better,
it.
That
however,
268
EADINC
not to mediute on
literature at all
as
up
offer
bowels
function
and with
by
am
Think what a
takes
It
it
said
some harsh
know him
make
me recommend
occurs, to these
She
role
is
is.
poor
herself in
devils
who
" Then
know how
is
are at a loss to
when
on
the stool,
is
such a
crisis
their
when you
the
down
know what
is
is
not making
Careful
in there
or
toilet
spot.
wltat in hell
it is
the
locks
is
it
Sometimes he
sleep.
herself pretty.
now
vdfe
tme
lacklustre
much
as
undernourished,
Let
father,
we know
unappreciated
as a slave-driven,
feels
let
his
Should he have an
as possible.
his
mother, what
American
of Hfe, he does
sities,
modem
best.
It
this
modem father
because
in if they
certain that
Having
your
that
little
of the
of thanks
you would be
associating his
logical
plight
in the sunlight,
terms.
still
were paralyzed
sort,
If
THE TOILET
IN
woman you
that, sitting
life.
Don't be jealous
is
com-
She's
and you
know how you feel. But it's not the Bible she's reading,
know it. It's probably not The Possessed either, nor
Seraphita,
know.
"
"
"
the
Wind.
it's
answers.
"What
are
this,
The
to try a
example
for
you doing
isbcHcvc mc,
thing
Try
different tack.
brother,
questions and
**
in there, darling
" Reading."
" What, may I ask ? "
" About the Battle of the Mame."
by
**
'*
!)
**
What was
I
Continue
this.
said
'*
No,
**
Let
is it
it*s
me
dear
that,
good yam
"
i
borii^."
that stuff?"
"What
*
**
The
Oh,
stuflf?"
of the Mame."
Battle
if
No
It's
a pleasure.
I'll
fetch
"Darling,
you
It's
the unabridged."
easier to hold."
word, a date, or
" Dearest, what I'm
.
What
you're looking
it
is
for
I'll
is
if you
Hke
I'll
wash the
dishes,
read to you.
book on Nostradamus."
dear. But I'd rather just go on
I've
It's
called
Napoleon and
a detailed study
they
of military strategy
Does
270
that
reading."
name ! at West
?
Point.
READING
"
Perfectly.
(At
point
this
you make
no woodshed, invent
one.
Make
Minutten in
Here
a
THE TOILET
IN
is
^Uke
an alternative suggestion.
copy of
woodshed. If there
is
you
Mysteries.)
When
she
is
Put a marker
at
The advantage of
that
it
is
put her in
rest
of the evening.
She
may even be
by George
tempted to
from writing
him
and a
logician, not
and not
lose a shred
predigested
by
pure thought.
of
is
can read
at
the author.
Here
One
The
a sample,
text
from
is
of a rabbinical
random
in this
work
the section
271
in
is
that
is
requisite to
ciple*
The
reader
whole nutcracker
stein,
suite
of
Korzybski, Gurdjieff
Vaihinger's Philosophy of
Diringer
Why
is
intellectual hocus-pocus,
&
Co'.
Why
As If?
Ot
not, indeed
or Wittge
!
Why
not
Sir
Why
not
to the
Ah
me,
if
toilet to heart, if
he were to give
what
With
a Htde ingenuity he
would manage
272
this habit,
this
serious
Wdss
process.
New York,
1947-
RBADING
THE TOILBT
IN
If
He
of the
'*
this
it,
with paintings.
How pleasant
roam over
starterRomncy,
of
are
art, incidentally,
**
watterre
**
himself embroidering in
This, since
At
it
motto such
as
point
Home
knows,
it
might
this
Or he might, in his
many colored silks a
off-moments, busy
quaint motto to be
is
Who
unimaginable.
**
more
at the level
clutches
Or,
language of dianetics.
hat.
(Works
autonomic system.)
affront to the
hung
Wood,
the
no
For a
Gainsborough,
think
it
ways
free her
Sunday supplements
are full
of this
fact that
subject.
is is
Next
The
to Dianetics, die
inmates
arms.
Wardens
will be
The millennium
is
just
beings will
still
still
physical one.
To
their
their
throw away
to
will
men
closet daily.
how
This problem
is
They
virtually a
meta-
first
blush,
To
seem the
perform
this
easiest
The only
collaboration she
273
THE BOOKS IN MY
demands
is
Creator,
when
were
LiPfi
on our
the willingness
it is
would
us
were allowed
themselves
were
left
vital functions as
some of
There arc
toilet.
all
eat, sleep,
to the
it
of
to take care
to our disposition,
go
Evidendy the
human
designing the
who
see
They not
breathe or defecate.
only question the laws which govern the universe, they question
the intelHgence
of their
is
beyond
is
much
**
at the service
to
do
of mankind
so
as
*'
know what
moment we
life
of all
is
the
sorts
body
everything
poHtic.
if
of
would
suddenly
image of society
retain the
It
we were
For the
these people
>
wasting time."
time
because there
Is it
much
superior beings
as it
now
is
we
time.
can no longer
constituted.
We
spend
human body
to
moment
readingtryt
beg you, to
imagine what books, what sort of books, one would then consider
necessary or
away.
one, to get
real or
We
read
&om
this
now,
away from
as I see
it,
five, to
274
studies
ourselves
imaginary dangers
to.
four, to
know what is
me
Other
to be the prin-
READING
and
cipal ones
importance, if
know my
fellow man.
sway
at present,
last
reason, the
would be no reason
because there
their current
It
much
least
THE TOIIET
IN
others
all
would
fade away,
And even
the
no hold over
There
us.
are,
individuals
They
blessing.
seek not to
They
wisdom.
time detached.
ticipate direcdy.
holy
way
whole
fill
They
with
do
whole and
life
tliese
is
the reason
whoever
at the
why
there have
many
been
this
query, many.
answers
is
them moving
Some view
in prayer
life
these rare
and meditation
in the midst
upon
disagreement there
way of
may be
them
utterly
as to the
from the
rest
on
hands
These
to respond to a
for them.
call.
They Uvc
men
puts hmits
on
his
one
in
d*^e
all
tim
busy
moment and
how
some
men have
key to
all tasks,
Hfe,
distinguishes
their
because
is
looks
same
and
And
ambition, envy,
They enjoy everything they do because they parThey have no need to read sacred books or act in a
How
fear, anxiety,
they
is
have
simply nonexistent
wc know
men have nothing
These other
275
If I could give
closet, it
no
bear
would be
fruit,
Arm
strips,
your
have done
thriller-dillen.
yourselves,
of gold,
all
as
more contented
happier, nobler,
but that
is
^is
on
rail
one
quoi
!)
and
One
could manage to
one
One wants
feet
to get
wet
we
after
and-bath
is
with truly
Break ...
A
It
me
dream.
done with
was a
was an
light sleep
fitfiil starts,
old, old
mein
comes back to
linger there
It
recurrent
occasions.
associations
At
then
is
not
begin to rack
which
this present
dream
usually
to
of a
At times
my
it
comes
doubt
if
it
brain to recall
moment
as clear as
which
came
in
parts
And
^76
as
vital functions,
we
this
it
Americans,
remembrance of a dream, or to be
It
(Les
as absurd.
In one of my
the
no
a hand-
delicate susceptibiHties.
a heavy fog.
fly.
business.
To
to us just ducky.
and
is
squats.
We
There
tourist quail.
doesn't
as possible
according
closet
soon
of water
equilibrist
vraies chiottes,
American
the ordinary
no bowl, just
scat,
to the kind
I refer
which makes
know you
It is
to the medicos
read.
beings.
has been
it is still
accompany th?
on previous
recall,
READING
A moment
this
dream
ago
was
it
that
thought of
coming out of
that in
why
was wondering
THE TOILET
IN
my
or half out of
fitful sleep,
it,
brought
with me, so to speak, the frightfiil odor of the toilet which was
secreted in " the storm shed ** at home in that neighborhood which
I always telescope into " the street of early sorrows."
In winter
was a
it
cubicle
taper in sweet
But
was something
there
past.
last
my memory.
refresh
by a
else
which
precipitated the
morning
Just this
As always,
the
remembrance
collection
mind
house,
was
usually
in
when
literature as
wing of the
waded through such
ever
fowl,
and such
biography
like.
John
Froissart,
believe
upstairs
now
that
it
a Water-
to
The Wealth
Tell,
me
whom
with a
in a
spirits
for
making
of magic books
set
me
recall this
had no
If so,
must thank
inventing
titles,
Obviously
my
me
than anything
Now
flashes
go almost
have read
my
sleep,
as
contents, meaning,
Is
youth,
and then,
its
do
away
hid them
their
to
vault
little
moments
when I
made
relish, that
it
departed
wax
flickering
oil.
comes
is
At such
work, and
this particular
at times to the
series
book,
very threshold
of consciousness.
One of
more tormenting
aspects connected
377
was
with the
that
that
it
where
house
this
The
conviction
exactly,
is
whom
belonged
it
upon me
forced
is
still
by what
in the
to,
what
business
brought
me
recollect
there, I
which
the vicinity
consumed with
my
sweetheart.
Like a
^Dyker
^whenever
I left
in thoughts
of her
So engrossed was
thinking of her.
my
absolutely unconscious of
of a car
right fender
a somnambulist.
The
was
heaviness
my
roused from
whenever
herded like
entirely in
by
reverie
my
was
rear
Occasionally
hands.
would be
my
would bring me
men
to,
are
But
you
also pleasant
when swinging
if
afternoons, a
young man
into a
too
my
boy,
How
along like
trailing
hung heavy on
heart.
that
like.
the house
an hour or
at forty miles
cattle, I
were
there
as a
body
head.
for
first
book
much
mooncalf
threw myself
it
for me.
my
my
refuge.
The
might
just as well
Whatever
looked
Sometimes, in order
would encourage
mind me of
to
her.
fatuous fancies
which
us say, that in
making
there to greet
me and
^but she.
378
set.
assail
If she failed
at served
only
those
bend
in the road
who
when
ghost on wheels,
faintest notion.
should be standing
READING
myself to believe that
it
would be
THE TOILET
IN
some other
at
point, towards
would proceed
to rush full
my
this girl
my very
of
Yet
my
own,
am
this I
heart
certain
must
those
can
to
recall
on a throne
bunch of
as these
in ancient stone
heavy keys
large,
(like
(as
more
but
is
tell
me
like
Noah
or Methuselah.
something beyond
my
is
whole
series.
and,
for
it is
as I
have emphasized,
say,
is
series
^it
want of a
better
word, "forbidden"
As
sustained
moment of godlike
benefit
But
fancy.
volume but
ah, think
of
it
And of course
of irreparable
of
this
lost,
beyond
loss
for my
situation, in the
dream,
especial
is
that I
for no obvious,
of guilt.
if legend,
flights
description,
can always
have
secret, doubtless.)
so clear, to
trying,
(A cosmic
is
tive, if it
He
comprehension, something
apparent, or even
dropped
it.
sense
book
contents, loss
either.
In the
loss
of
loss
as one.
279
THB BOOKS
There
is
it.
home,
to the old
visits
LIFB
still
mother's part in
my
MY
IN
youthful belongings
made
visits
dream
this
my
have described
my
expressly to recover
some unaccountable
become on
reason, suddenly
my
I relate it,
for
these occasions
myself.
Or,
if she did
had long
remember, the
since
it
whom
brats to
and
on her
part
that
And
this time.
Good Will
no longer knew
this
Some
so on.
all
me
moments,
she
course she
would
books whose
titles
recklessly given
frantic.
Sometimes, in waking
books
flesh-and-blood
wonder
actually
my
which
mother
dream
were not
utterly
had
real
thoughdessly,
away.
Of course, all the time I was up there in the parlor wading through
the dreary five-foot shelf, my mother was just as baffled by this
behavior
as
by everything which
understand
how
That
why
she
would
it
me more
myself in
flies
my sorrows,
keeping
me
as to
Occasionally
faintest idea.
like so
deeply
since
wanted to drown
many
fat,
buzzing
awake, making
How I jumped the other day when I read in one of Marie CorelU's
now
is
forgotten books
the exclamation of
and by reason of
Give us something
The
that will
things
we
call
our
own
forever
'
weary humanity.
their
"
when we
*
!
This
is
endure
have
pass,
Give us
why we
try
by impostors
READING
THE TOILET
IN
bitter to
There
is
of in The Rosy
in
Crucifixion.
it
I tell
It is
book which
this girl I
I)
and another person (her unknown lover probably) are reading over
my shoulder.
I
mention
it
come about
what whole
series
If I
It is
series ?
a waking dream
Is
one
add
time
this
in
this
mystery
book which
dig this
by myself and no
^was written
from another
state so different
this
other.
in a
Since
is I
my
all latitudes
one
desire has
guts,
make
you might
say
^who
away
is
my belt,
To
vicissitudes.
warm, Hving,
it
and
travails
dream of a
from the
Yes,
been to unload
and longitudes, in aU
book out of my
has been
who
it
would
it
that
(What
all
palpable
that
in a tiny vault
he but myself,
my
most
he not
edifice.
Well, what is that missing book, then, if not " the story of my
names
That
we
one which
we
brain.
what
can
we
Is
there
we
abstruse,
is
most mystifying
a signal thing.
What
are
Occasionally
it.
reading,
ness, save
is
stir
the
and thought, between that which thinks and the mind which
is all
of our dual
self
Brain
is
to situate
it
transformer,
in the heart
we may
of mind, then
is
it
be certain of
would be
truer
merely a receptacle, or
Thought has
made
active
and meaningful.
is
book which
being, and
is
There
continue
reborn that
is
tale
whole
after death.
it
we
bring
series
Our
being,
it
say,
when we
only
It is
and not
What we
are
all
authors, but
we
Thus
is
there
are not
all
and
heralds
be
are about to
We
of identity.
prophets.
part
our becoming.
we
is
we
sign
But
it is
only a tiny, tiny fraction of the record which even the best of
us,
the strongest, the most courageous, the most gifted, ever bring to
Ught.
What cramps
our
of writing
of reading.
is
is
never
what
falsifies
lose,
but what
we do
sometimes
lose
is
art
the art
restored to us.
It is
always to interpret.
The
is
we
style,
universahty of thought
is
What
desire to
know,
The Holy
whatever form
we
Ghost.
manifests
it
Drugged by
itself,
it
and
its
But
let
the
assumes many,
many
forms,
is,
we
us return to Us cabinets,
some
it
Acedia
divine parentage.
is
book of life
us
Humanity
an orphannot because
the
fails
reftise
to understand
which
is
it
We terminate
one in which
Some of
Would
it
282
*'
from
my
book,
READING
home
to SO build one's
command
panorama
what
least
from the
that
a breath-taking
the
you have
your
THE TOILET
IN
thought
that
is
toilet
window
book
build a
may
view from
paintings,
of
seat
Let the
as
well
this lieu
make
it its
business to eUminate
" in everyday
deleterious
Ufe.
Do
But do
a heavenly place.
toilet to
that
all
is
rest
art
of eHmination,
that
of the
supreme function.
this
"
you may
as
build your
will
If,
you
d*aisance.
one
hang
shelf,
does
be.
a desideratum.
is
it
may
one could
My
making
not, while
raise the
use of this
sacred retreat, waste your time reading about the elimination of this
or
that,
who
the people
that the
Lord
if
latter are
old saying
"
difference
who go
between
whether to read,
there only to
do
their business,
The
The
itself.
There's
is
wisdom
your mind
free
and
in
free
clear,
it.
Broadly speaking,
means
it
you
will cease
such
contained in
this
tranquillity.
homely
that
to be
act.
trust in the
as
how
There
is
no
hint or suspicion
also struggle to
your
with the
latest fashions,
the very
going to the
if it
maxim is
toilet.
less
better. I say
it
are
**
"
it,"
meaning
disgustingbusiness of
open " and '* trust." Now,
sitting
on
the stool
is
an aid to
383
Read
possible.
vinced that
more
apt to have
is
" to
most
the
lenitive Hterature
and
Lord
faith
and
and
Indeed,
in the toilet
faith
Lord." Myself,
trust in the
have
possible to
Holy Writ
reading
is
it is
sayread
trust in the
I
am
Lord
tnist in the
am
con-
Lord without
if one reads
nothing
When you
when
make
should
He
should,
believe
most
it
enough
^in
make
the
toilet.
discussed.
It
are
an analyst
should even
It
do not read
read or
Such matters
To
difference to
It is
you know.
is
visit
what
earth,
of our
toilets
to meditate
is
our
secret doings.
of this
toilet is one's
to stop
them from
upon
^in
there. Let
when
it
must appear
What you
does not
tell
New
good
deal
everything.
The
fact,
read
tells
however, that you are reading when you should be doing has a
certain importance.
It is
a characteristic
planet
which men
alien to this
It
their
judgment of us.
And
if,
merely
terrestrial beings,
we
but beings
is
grotesque and ridiculous about poring over the printed page while
seated
on
element evinces
logical
combined with
Why
284
is
it
is
something
mad
itself clearly
about
it.
This patho-
is
when we
observe
it
connected
READING
with the
these
of defecation
act
two
things simultaneously
become an opera
intended to
you began
toilet
Is
singing was
all
in
you
to you,
that,
singer, every
Supposing
Supposing
THB TOILBT
IN
Or
supposing you
because
toilet
though
that,
better to do.
Would
the
But
toilet.
bowels, then,
is
not enough
Must one
of pocket-book authors
become
Once upon
Dear me,
how
stone.
It
to connect
it
it
and an
behavior
such
Through
said to
now
know
beings
in space
Nothing
become
shall
if
cows could
question which
fly
angels, are
now
are
Primitive emotions,
who
certainly predictable
closets
What
The
Formerly
we used to
ask
we
is
us, I notice.
"
a wonder any
it is
simple
is
we
that
scorning to
This
Lord.
analysis
And we
nor
one can be
killing time,
tnist in the
any more.
also a metaphysician
is
has
For
who
life
do.
trusting in the
would
hooting of an owl.
go.
complicated
is
no longer subjea
'*
:
How
to the
sway of gravity
"
when
Traveling at a
?85
THE BOOKS
IN
MY
LIPE
of thought
we may
be able to accomplish
model space
that the
laboratories,
as
and planets
stars
There
ing to
on
it
be able to read
new
the nature of
is
!
at all
literature
!will we
this
this interspatial
No
a deserted island.
a questionnaire as to
read if
i.e.,
we were
my
one, to
Homer, Dante,
Shakespeare, ct Cie,
the stool
this
coming
I shall
indeed
be cruelly disappointed.
That
I
first
Mcthinks
the
to
know
books
have
it
returnwhat
will contain
not
oflfer
The
great possibility, as
read at
on
all,
I sec it, is
toilet
that these
care to
they
time in
286
XIV
THE THEATRE
Dbama
is
that
My
other.
almost seems as if
it
seven
of
which
literature into
have delved
were
bom
From
backstage.
the age of
good
(It
ex-pugilist
The
who
first
play
whatever.
any of the
dominated
my
was taken
I recall it,
to
acts
could
or actors
remember
saw
there.
this
He was
troubled dreams.
was
Uttcle
the play
My
Toms
Cabin.
was
just
really
my
mother loved
know how many times I was dragged to see The Old Home"
(with Denman Thompson), Way Down East, and similar
don't
stead
favorites.
theatres in this
ten-twenty-thirty variety.
Years
later
my
father
and he became
The
first
play to
make an impression on me
bawdy performance,
ravishing Bonita.
^I
wasn't
As
see
it
now,
it
It
more than
was a jolly*
the
glorified
287
Nan
bleibt ein
connected with
The
selves.
("
this
event
theatre,
and stood
licbt nicht
is
which
me somehow
reminded
Folly,
Wer
Leben lang/')
sein
at the
that
doubt
if I ever entered
of an old French
fortress
againit
The
^was called
Brooklyn, of course.
By
this
to the
we had
time
shifted
Bushwick Section
from
distance
us, in the
("
from
The
of Early Sorrows
neighbourhood
called East
huge
circus tents.
no man's land
this
Not very
far
away were
is
The
school.
Cloak Model.
of the open
life
was
was
street
Once
Sells
York,
company
a year
spread their
seem to
But
recall
from
undoubtedly saw
New
a Chinese cemetery, a
reservoir
&
Forepaugh
A Uttle
").
somewhere
Ward
Street
still
vastly
going to granmiar
more
exciting to
me
was during
this period,
would
of the
theatre
nmning.)
strong
German
programs out
stock,
playbills printed
on newspaper
gallery entrances.
Fascinating as
R^ane,
Henry
Irving,
Tony
the days
Street
round
when
was
in
Such names
as
Booth,
Ada Rehan,
in my ears. They were
rage, when Fourteenth
Pastor, Wallack,
still
ring
the
its
so.
at the
plays, the
stage figures
were
go to
288
the theatre.
my
(A pattern
was soon
my
father used
to follow with
my
Henry Miller
and
Sister
THE THEATRE
buddy, Bob Haase.)
do with
this fact to
It
came
my
emphasize
my
he
me
asked
astonishment
whom
actor
just
coming
would
if I
like to
He had
he thought
mention
accompany him
his cronies
me
work-
suggested taking
day, while
to the
from the
The Gentleman
along because of an
would enjoy
into prominence,
role.)
when one
and
Fairbanks.
father
my
from
world
that world.
into the
thrilling to
me
fact that I
was about
to enter a
New York
Strange
company
to be in, too,
the time he
It
later that I
reahzed
High School,
made
which
some
stands out in
strange reason,
burlesque.
was
It
my
was
as a
still
burlesque
rose
doubt
show
if
Fortunately
my
I shall
initiation into
if I
undressed in pubhc.
to
From
the
had seen
moment
life
on
pictures
Sweet Caporal
boy
theatre in
pants,
That
first
the curtain
women
cigarettes, in
in
every
older
would not
one day
woman
tights
me
my
when an
our neighborhood.
though
That event,
mind
But
to see
one of these
Suddenly
289
THE BOOKS
MY
IN
LIFE
on Grand
The Unique,
Street, called
saw again
or as
long Saturday
that
Leon
de Leon), the
{life
flanked
billboards that
entrance
the
who
girl
Suddenly
the
to
At any
from
rate,
showing
theatre,
sinuous curves.
all their
billowy,
that
But speaking of
I
have of
Sapho.
on
remember
One of the
two
for
reasons
first,
where
and second,
openly revealing a
man in
the
eighteen or nineteen
Park.
that
was Adeline
it
it
was
best days
was a
lurid
woman,
clad
it
was posted
it
(The
woman
scandal
which
the dramatiza-
Tartarin books,
was
must
I retain is
Patti I
twenties before
Though it
Ulmer
time "
of stairs.
it
flight
my
the
because
aa of carrying
tion
because
knew my
strange recollections
is
it
there
billboards
period
this
Had
headed
Thank God,
highly improbable,
I still
like a trip to
Vienna. In
*'
At any
rate, for
the
would remember
fessed that
it
(Poor Balzac,
how
pity you,
three or four
happy days
in
all
290
^i
THE THEATRE
your
On this
life !)
The
we
my
sat,
mother,
by brimming
by brooches,
steins
sister
were to
tillating
that
eat
by
chains,
and drink
my own
age, or so
They
each wing.
The
adjuncts.
Pilsener,
What good
things
Hvely, so scin-
after
did
it
bowing and
Very important
smiling.
way
they
all
it
of
belt buckles,
it
with
glasses
programso
the
come out
which
And
table at
reflections cast
by gleaming
that generation.
boys
round
little
to the
I,
and
As soon
there
as I
started at seventeen
FrankHn
("
at the
Brighton
prominently
in
'*
was again
and
a hot day,
But what
is
the enclosure
a circular tier
itself,
To
can*t
of benches exposed to
enough
for a
H
G
Divil a
And
so on.
...
A
A
...
dooble
spells
Harrigan
Ending with
291
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
It's
name
shame
that a
Why
should
ditty
this
that's
me
have
infatuated
me
don't
know.
Undoubtedly
it
man, the
leer
torture he
was
A strange
fried
suflering.
to come to an end.
The Edison phonograph, Terry McGovem,
WiUiam Jennings Bryan, Alexander Dowie, Carrie Nation, Sandow
the Strong Man, Bostock's Animal Show, Mack Sennett comedies,
Caruso, Little Lord Fauntleroy, Houdini, Kid McCoy, the Hallroom
Windsor McKay,
Case,
the
Murray
Hill Hotel,
Nick
Trilby^
Dewey
Carter,
Old Apple
Tom
Bobby Walthour,
Henry
Way
know
ever saw.
to
only
this,
Not
that
make me laugh as
hit you below
succumb
years,
to
and
it.
It
yean to come.
No
was
is
a feat.
British.
What
movie
the belt.
it
will
doubt
To
my
**
RememPinkham,
no longer remember.
mind
as the funniest
Aunt
is
ofl*
and on
play
see anything
There's nothing
now
for another
fift)'
keep an audience in
amazes
Mary
go on being played
it is
me is that the
In Paris, years
sidesplitting farces.
Charley
hard.
Boulevard du Temple
Sloan,
Charleys Aunt
presimie
Ted
Sharkey,
Max
remains in
it
until the
which
Trie, the
Molineaux
The Haymarket,
Vadis,
later, I
bam
specialized in broad,
of a place
Broadway
292
fiill
Brandon Thomas,
Le D^'aarefwhich
In this old
author,
on
THE THEATRB
From
or so
the time
until I
was twenty
my
chum, Bob
Broadway
Haase, to the
We
usually stood
saw
at least
up
where the
Theatre, Brooklyn,
two hundred
among them
plays,
hits
from the
after
such
In this
way
The Witching
as
HouTy The Lion and the Mouse, The Easiest Way^ The Music Masteft
Madame X,
The Yellow
Camille,
Ticket,
Tite
Servant in the House, Disraeli, Bought and Paid For, The Passing of
The
Degree,
My
Tiger Rose.
Carter, Lilly
As soon
out in
all
the
stars,
Third
Mill, Sumurun,
Fiske,
went
to the
New York
going to the
as I started
directions.
frequented
such
all
Starr,
Anna
theatres
branched
as the
And of course
Neighborhood Playhouse.
the
in Haarlem.
Moscow
Art Players
my memory
number of
is
among
favorites then,
Maddem
The Provincetown,
Held.
The
Virginian,
that given
Henry
by an
Players.
unprofessional group,
Street Settlement.
by
telegraph company.
and the
was
youngsters, at the
a messenger then
He had
all
working
for
me
was
To
few stamps.
in
much
the
again
to the
once in a
lifetime.
him
in doublet
^he
stands out in
Henry
first
Not
as
office in
and hose
same way
nier*s
went back
see
declaiming with
my mind
at the
Street Settlement
Time and
hoping to rcHvc
so far away,
I
^I
on Grand
Street,
visited frequently
saw Joyce's
was the
and where
Exiles
performed.
293
"
it
many of
sionable,
gettable.
will
Mom
are unfor-
till
Him,
From
de BergeraCy
the plays
Gods of the
Mountain, The Boss, Magda, John Ferguson, Fata Morgana, The Better
Man
*Ole,
where we occupied
theatres,
was an
**
He had
inveterate theatre-goer.
enjoyed indulging
twelve
to a
Queen
"
also
healthy, jolly,
"good show."
that
saw
for us.
mana
training to
"
Ah
" Such a
!)
full
He had
made
was
it
that
symphonic
then
was
the acquain-
man
never handled
seemed, not
least
connections and
we
whenever
recital
called
or a
affiliations
Pach, as
"
everywhere,
result
Nothing
!
become an
Little
Reisenweber's, Bustanoby's
took to working
It
when
Brothers, photographers.
money.
theatre.
Ferguson
Not only
at
to
old
lusty youngsters
our great
Elsie
At
rowdy,
If he got
Elsie Janis,
or Rector's.
best
money and he
in the middle
time,
plenty of
**
friend's boss
his
gang of us
accompany him
My
choice seats."
places.
The
ballet,
him, and a
seat
was waiting
for
Now
me.
and
or an overcoat. In return
* See Plexus, Book Two of The Rosy Crucifixion, for a full picture jof these
which played such an important part in my early life.
clubs
294
THE THEATRE
in the Space
of music.
of a few years
As
virtually everything
It
beHeve
Classics,
all
The Harvard
more than
far
this
recommended by old
First ancient
The
real impetus,
me by
Goldman through her lectures on the European drama,
San Diego, back in 1913. Through her I launched heavily into
however,
as I
Emma
in
I feel
home
the
in.
same
and sense of
ease
Chinese philosophy.
In
familiarity as
would
imitate if
The
at
most
took to with
and
Irish
satiation.
There
I
is
humor
altogether unique.
There
also darkness
is
seem to
possess.
indebted to the
true language
Irish.
Through them we
of the bards,
as
now
lost
get
is
gHmmerings of the
comer
Irish writers,
comes through, in
is
and violence, to
still
translation,
is
Compared
dynamite.
Ibsen.
to Ibsen,
Shaw
is
just
still
Duck
" a talking
fool."
able production
la
going days.
Finished, the
visit
manner, a
Georg
Kaiser,
Today
whole
'39.
It
was rendered in
expressionistic
business. I
my theatre-
would
movie
295
It
must confess
may seem
no
Besides,
it.
which
lost
tried
it is
me
to Hue the
It
drama than
to give expression
I regret.
But even
all
that the
their
if I
no longer go
abandoned
ing Shakespeare
whom
cannot abide
Often in
For me.
Bible.
my
mind
have compared
this
these
fails
two
to impress
me
is
What
The Greek
periods of drama.
simple, straightforward
is
language
is
the Elizabethan
however,
the
period
me
exclud-
In Russian
the machinery,
of another order.
The drama
As "Hterature"
has yet to
come
into
it
its
And
own.
is
tract called
on
this subject,
Le Theatre
de la
actor, playwright,
had
in a
Cruauti*
What Artaud
Books tend
* " Mais, et
dang^reux de
come
fimdamentally
illuminating ideas
cannot
this
radically,
is
this
proposed
we
shall
transformed.
The
audience,
la
*'
296
Comoedia,'
September
THE THEATRE
hands of a capable playwright, never knows greater
Only during
a performance.
Used
To me
takes to give
is
that life
at a
is
low
com-
one of
it
When the
means
it
ebb.
common
To
stream.
is
it
there anything
is
of decay
theatre lags
two which
a revolution
company of
crowd
is
Not only
in
which
swims
In identifying them-
selves
own
all
minds.
An
invisible super-director
is
is
Moreover, in
parallel
witnessing.
work.
at
drama going on
another, unique
is
is
unbearable.
Even
to
The
one's
own
language
of the boards
talk
We
forget
most indeUble
what one
silent
is
drama we
how much
different
Just as the
street.
parable, so the
neces-
it is
of a
is
which goes on
recitative
The man of
action,
in
our
Hves out in deed but a fraction of the drama which consumes him.
In the theatre not only are
exalted, but the ear
are
made
on
the stage
is
senses
we
experience
stimulated, enhanced,
it
new
of human
ways.
actions.
We
beyond the
We
Every-
called destiny,
meeting
the
all
is
footlights
we
all
find
is
own way.
a common
place.
When I
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
many
in SO
homeward, often on
and mud, when
slush
that
through
foot, often
I
my
theatres
my
impinged on
when
tongues,
diflfercnt
journeys
through
bitter gales or
when
experienced vicariously,
which
which permitted
of the
my
upon
of this
me
which
effects
associates
tide
to grasp
them and
certain plays
when
them,
suffer
unknown
or even people
me, when
to
ecstasies,
how
so
human was
utterly, inexorably
my
so remarkably universal,
all this,
appreciation of
To
extravagance.
which seems so
is
bizarre,
now
it is,
that
dancing, joking,
so
^how
anxieties, frustrations
am thinking,
remarkably
weddings,
to
fiinerals,
of
of
and
close
make up
life
beggars,
idiots,
course,
need not
know
nonce.
thoroughly a
"
Am
not
One becomes
thing occun.
in doing so
universal
all
these
stew.)
One becomes
good
With
connected
to the point
it.
horseplay,
so salutary,
is
aHen
look back on
that
itself
think
feasts,
(I
form of
take one
human,
all
augmented
is
when
me
think
intimate
think
Jew
also a
drama
Through
individual identity.
We
the
drama we
realize that
for the
Jew
the
"
?
same
self.
One
One
find our
we
like the
earth-bound.
Sometimes, too,
unknown,
we
with
its
That the
298
world
who
is
as
utterly
perhaps
worthy of
note.
The
inveterate
THE THEATRE
who imagines
lives as
the play
much
In the theatre so
much
exteriorly,
tible. It is
from
gets
from
it
own
rapport between
good dramatist
life
other people's
what he
is
One's
has to be divined.
would never
way to live
of himself
so very
is
In
establishes.
drama inexhaus-
is
playwright draws
his material.
breast trickles
itself in
a vaporous ocean,
back to
is
am
is
line,
embedded
The
a deed, a thought.
life
drama
lies
in the
contain, or
me
concerned.
If
a failing,
it is
it is
This
intended.
where the
particularly
one that
theatre or
I
am
not
about me.
went
rising
me it was
For
water.
a duck takes to
at the
influenced
it
me
much of it was
moment it. was life,
everyday
life.
**
real.
Ufe at
its
the
my
eyes.
life
Looking backward,
Hterature,"
It
With
was prepared
as the life
was more
that
my
was immersed,^
must admit
But
as
it
which
an early age,
at
to accept imphcitly
were, a
as it
the cinema
The
ashamed of
I
constantly
things
is
life,
is
detectors flashing
sensitive
very substance of
cell
no more than
momentarily
us,
of drama
bark of a play
frail
as if to
there a
stuff
Its
much
fullest.
in
I
sheer claptrap.
It
colored and
irrevocably.
for
it
what the
which
At home,
wherever
in the street,
If it
went,
as this
may
life,
then
a tender age
On
I
I
shared, preposterous
I
sensed
of
in school, in church,
or seduced
play*
bom
theatre.
critical
is
The
everything.
great
stars,
whether
Perhaps more
characters in Uterature.
We
flesh.
how
obHged to imagine
are
Charlus spoke,
how
my memory
knew them
so, since I
in the
Not
so
who
There were
theatrical couples
own
working
who
could speak of
still,
if
to us than the
themselves to us,
Eddie Foy's
as
personahties
families endeared
of our fancy
as
no other type
actresses either,
of them immediately
cluster
members
for example.
were
at
my
family.
possibly could.
but close
of our
who
Elsie Janis,
Elsie
but their
think of a
Ferguson, EflSe
Anna
Held,
Fritzi
Scheff,
Trixie
Friganza,
Gertrude Hoflfman,
and
Allgood
am
sure
flesh
them
will recall,
moments
their hearts
300
of course
no one
even more.
sometimes
were
we
creations
Sometimes
of the
they were
screen, endeared
we saw them
watched them
really breaking.
whose name
fact that
breathlessly,
in their
weak
knowing
that
THE THEATRE
The same
been
of the stage
We
was imperative to
his own
may have
own books,
as well.
sec
("before
they die ") such as John Drew, William Faversham, Jack Barrymore,
Bernhardt,
great
Holbrook Blinn, O.
P. Heggie,
Edward
Maude,
Elissa Landi,
Olga Chekova,
of gold
in letters
and burlesque.
are those
me
Let
an
all-star
I
Raymond
program.
would
than
mention
was
mating
in
which
as a headliner.
way
book
funniest
in
in the
throughout.
was
moment
stitches.
one
was
felt
or two.
scarcely necessary to
the fingers
There
is
sufficient to
One
chuckling,
do or say anything.
make one
mere waggle of
explode.
the
title,
by the way
their
The man I liked best of all was Frank Fay. I adored him.
him of a mating and go back in the evening to see him
What
sec
The
it
fellow's act,
and pandemonium.
can
know of
would
give anything to
could
all
over
Frank
know
301
THE BOOKS
MY
IN
LIFE
me
Fay impressed
as a
slightest preparation, a
tible,
He was indeed
his sleeve.
In passing
one play,
in
and again
show
tricks
one-man show."
my memory.
went back
infectious
blatant,
**
landmark in
in
this play,
as
up
imagine.
Bartels.
to Bartels* acting of
to see
it,
like
remains a
Again
it.
it,
haw-haw-haw
of
who was
Bartels,
" the
off."
As
back
far
as I
can remember,
mean by
seem
to be
aware of voices
this that I
about
was
It
this.
form of
while
simultaneously
Dialogue
books
dialogue
Before
constant dialogue.
indulged
my
in
One more
speak of
thought about
his
it
Nor
is it,
smothered sort of
mean
myself that
I
never thought of it
it
as
unnatural
may
some one,
attain.
heard
would
words with
more eloquent
302
tell
this
to his words,
his
at all
it
or exceptional.
Thus
to
could go on
Not
If
It
in
head
would have
I.
in.
held
intercourse
interpolate
others of
;
my
THE THEATRE
through,
would
him
was
It
who became
mountebank or
whom
me much
attached to
and
a sleight-of-hand
artist.
It
unknowingly.
this,
or
>
it,
that
if
What was
never occurred to
It
enjoyed the
it all
interest
as
me
own words
his
these
him swallow
at their
complexity.
as if
marvel
words
doing
no doubt, and
And
utterly
without intention
Not
to mirror
my own
private world.
The moment
this is precisely
what
more
is
of my
better part
stage director
and
life I
script itself
never-ending drama,
It
walk alone
is
my own
in Paris,
that
dreaming that
Little
I
I
read Robinson
have struggled
To unburden
of Revelation.
though
may
it
others'
actor,
this
sitting in the
Jeflfers*
Women
Cafe Rotonde
at Point Sur,
dream,
Street Library in
theatre,
realize that
and
called
take a
myself, therefore,
The
this task
when
Dreams and
never
at a place
life
of the Montague
Romain
uolonte.)
303
my
would
it
Caf6 du D6me,
the
at
Crommelynck,
Le Cocu
I
on
I realize,
at the
one day be
when
did
Little
Dijon
Magtiijique, that
would read
of
the author
his play.
Paris I
would be
it
Little
did
friend, that
when
play,
or more before
man
responsible
my
and
and magnificent
fifteen years
I realize,
translator
that celebrated
me
to the
home of Jean Giono, his Hfelong friend. Little did I imagine either,
when seeing Yellow Jacket (written by the Hollywood actor, Charles
Cobum),
that I
would encounter
Co.),
of
who,
would end
How
Yellow Jacket.
shadow
Katsimbalis
a troupe
Athens
foresee that
it
would be
in a fiu:-off
would
my
see
play,
Or, enamored
from town
as I
to town),
was of burlesque
how was
(in Athens),
encounter a
I
How could
sec the
one
who came
to,
but
my
now,
by Dennis Johnston
by
^I
my
friend
translation
304
just a
in the
life,
remembered
New
And though
And
is
this
should
a
man
as
the
after a
not a strange
Yellow
in glancing
first
time that
it
was played
my
whom
leer
same evening
man
as
(often following
same type of comedian, hear the same jokes, catch the same
and banter
on
could
Machine
talking
there
t help
may
him widi
not be the
least
the French
connection
they hissing
me
as curious
hiss
and coincidental,
was
in a
**
cinema in
Why
my
are
friend
replied.
Ah
yes, strange
Walking down
memories.
my way to
on
Heraklion,
Knossos, what do
of
see but a
huge poster
Gold Rush
Tweedledee.
In Athens,
advertising the
bcheve
At
some weeks
coming of
several
later, I
American
Another incongruity.
it
One of them,
plays.
amphi-
theatre listening to
my
In a split second
delivered there.
am
precise, reading
one
after
It is
my
first
later,
But
the
and the
last
classics
but
least
at the foot
of the
of Clytemnestra and of
when
to the voices
Mme. Sdiumann-Heinkeven
Fool diere was ..."
As from some other
Dejazct),
to
of the performance,
my face.
my
now
on
all
on one
From
bill,
rich,
la Gaiete,
where
to
street in
which
it
du
end
down
listened
only
stood, almost
farces,
memories,
hair-raising
"A
the Boulevard
Sirota,
Guignol
reciting
Hilliard,
to
Agamemnon
of Caruso, Cantor
Robert
where
real
Temple (Le
The
Mycenae
of human kind,
I also listened
citadel at
is
But of
all
A world of
THE BOOKS
MY
IN
transmogrification.
say.
the
LIFE
world
old as civilization
as
one might
itself,
show and
shadow
play, there
swallowers,
its
equestrians
and clowns.
But
where
Emma Goldman
ago
whorehouse
on
lecture
ask myself.
company with
in
European drama
the
Montana.
How
purpose.
whole hfe
announcing the
Through
Emma
of
arrival
Hauptmann,
Ibsen,
town
for that
one
deflected, derouted,
my
to
d*Aimunzio,
Brieux,
Schnitzler,
Pinero,
was
heard
the
Emma, I came
her,
worthy,
by
my
was on
Can it
way to a
.
we went
altered,
cowboy named
Gorky,
Werfel,
Gals-
Strindberg,
von
Wedekind,
Hof!mansthaI,
was her
(It
consort,
book of Neitzsche*s
The Ego and His
was
that
Own by Max
me
The Anti-Christ
Stimer.)
Then and
the
as
my
there
fir^t
well as
world
altered.
When,
a Uttle later,
European dramatists
sold
was to read
St.
John Ervine,
as well as
such Americans
Out of this
originally
name of an
actor
indescribable.
For years
who came
Like Nazi-
his voice
and
me.
him
But which
figure
one of
his
exactly.
It
was
after
patrons had
pianist
Scriabin
306
left,
we
whose whole
are
and Ben-Ami
was
Scriabin.
till
dawn
to a
indissolubly connected in
my
mind.
THE THEATRE
the
Just as
title
German),
(in
is
named Nahoum
Yood.
Whenever, wherever I met Nahoum Yood, he would
begin talking about this mad book of Hamsun's.
Similarly, in
associated with another
whenever
Paris,
we would
Jew,
Yiddish writer
inevitably touch
on Ernst
Toller
Whenever
names
the
Schiller
woe-begonc
passages
to
from
hovels, whilst
works of
the
seem remarkable
to
me
my
Tlte
It is
as
much
the
as the
women
impression
windows of
memory
Nor
does
day of
Tintagiles,
et
The Blue
who seem
fact that in
everyday
with
social
has ever
drama they
women
measure of
Perhaps
have so
Modem
women.
are also
Monna
of which,
drama
to a
are
in real Hfe.
Httle
drama
woman
is
woman
as to terrify
this
chance
tends to
saturated
more human
superhuman
no
In the Elizabethan
life
In ancient Greek
modem
on
of the theatre
level.
Hfe,
Bird,
due to the
my
I strike
long
ever cease
it
Death of
almost
the subject),
into dirty
mind immediately
Maeterlinck's plays
down
committing to
these authors.
book on
hanging on to a strap
trains, either
encounter
word Renais-
sec the
and bewilder
us.
certainly,
To
get the
female as given in ancient drama with those which only the burlesque
theatre (in our time) has dared to reveal.
* Pauline Lord's
only a poor
actress,
Anna
am
alluding,
Christie
"
of course,
God,
am
bum "or
I
m Dommage
307
from
derive
commedia
the
life
comic
del' arte
of de Sade,
who
would be
it
like to
At
insane people.
all
manner of external
One
its
go mad and,
literally
closing
the aid of
some of his
spent
what
which
in burlesque
bits
on
work upon
would
drama
to real
and unthinkable
excesses.
power
to
racial barriers.
me
is
few plays
can do more,
the
first
But once
resentment,
anger,
what was
becomes
aUen,
are
reactions
and
accepted
approved,
endorsed.
after
nay,
enthusiastically
wave of such
of our
own
the shocks
Ah, but
About
which
let
me
its
own
are administered to
it
foreign
native drama.
American
Often
deception or disgust.
last.
The
from time
all
to time.
my
father
his
list
of
shop
tailor
backwards,
sensual,
who
this
who,
like a
David Belasco
name
that
Broadway
will ever
remember.
shop
There were
at that
fixtures, so to say
figures
Bunchek, the
cutter, this
man Erwin,
these did.
connected with
the tailor
eccentric,
THE THEATRE
each one, with the exception of Bimchek, had his very personal
aiid
Or
perhaps
it
would be more
by playing
his
on
the side
say"
partially alive."
Erwin,
evening.
by taking
sail.
The
greatest
boon
twelve sharp,
their
at
gift
They gave
could go elsewhere.
of
was
Which
**
take
one
it
or leave
fitting
it."
Erwin
made
As for
noon
swimming
tive, so
all
life
if possible
his solution
club,
common was
crazy about
his
who was
had in
either,
many
billiards in the
show up on
accurate to
not
sufficient, apparently, to
likewise.
they
of
their peculiar,
odd
associates
new
clients
never could
tell.
What
these
as I said,
Nothing, apparently.
Sometimes
in
was
common
my
father's
ment on
all.
Many of my
General astonish-
father's customers, as I
have
men of
parts (a
at the
number of them
street.
Some of
309
home
astute
in the
enough
Bunchek
to engage
tailor shop.
in conversa-
tion or argument,
Many
when
it
seemed
as if the
Bunchek's cutting
at
name of
but the
of Zionism,
we
a play
is
and cosmological.
me
Thus, Siberia,
is
an
estab-
when
George Washington.
One of
was
a customer
of
my
father's
named
who
who was
To
Julian I'Estrange,
discussing
Poindcxter
^Paul
for example,
Paul of Tarsus.
(who caught
their talk,
he
Or
listening to
Fats
tail oflf
and dream.
his perverse
it
was just
tailoring.
It
all tailors
the
But
listening to
monologues
discussion
own
after a session
it all,
God, in
Waller
will
Bunchek
their lingo
at a Christian Science
place
on
the merits of
me
say
was
it,
as if
against their
the necessary
of the
solitary male,
gave
me
strange, premature
and premonitory
Was
it
me
aside
my
arm one
and give
me
310
day, the
me
good Paul
a long lecture
I
on
Paul down.
THE THEATRE
And
Belasco ?
But
reverence.
this
him on and
helped
hermit.
silent as a
which
silence
do remember
I
oflf
with
him
vividly about
And
his trousers.
that
remember
the
was
tailor
shop
You
were sometimes
scarce,
sec, if clients
Not
plentiful.
an order, but to
fashion.
weary bones,
rest their
to
chew
day
of taking
fastened
the columnists.
truth
when
column
say that
that
it
what
cultivated
of
sense
play
fair
Edgren
have.
man his due after weighing all the pros and cons he
would give his man the benefit of the doubt. I saw in Bob Edgren
a sort of mental and moral referee. He was as much a part of my
gave every
Me
then
Cabell.
ringside,
as
It
was a
when
relative merits
idols
were
period,
of course, when
my
my first
my own,
prizefighters.
Tom
Jim
Terry
figures as
Ad
Jeffries,
McGovem,
was almost
as
to
me
as
bike riders
this
is
Stop
we waged,
Jim Londos
into
Litde
much of a god
all
activity.
the sports
fiestas
(our
own
On
the
way
of books,
to the
an event,
THE BOOKS
MY
IN
LIFE
my
companion, a concert
o{ Penguin
significance
later,
my
of
this
^but
La Guerre
Iliad,
on one
discussing
A few years
lieuy I
or trying to
anyhow, reading of
when
black day
favorite, Carpentier.
remember
suddenly recalled
pianist,
for
it
went
Achilles, the
all
the
of Georges Carpentier,
was just
occurred to
It
god.
And
grin,
with
this
me
Why
whom
Why
Jules Laforgue
But thus
had
are
books
when
From
the Xerxes
Society flourished,
music-making
And
all
a fine musician,
horseplay.
am
tall
(O
fiddledee,
the while
when
was headed
my
head
off.
we were
O fiddledee, O fiddledum-dum-
was reading
of those books
no matter where
There
dee
(** I
"),
Chez Bousquet,
it
can
still
my arm,
Stories,
Satyricon, Lecky's
Human
Marriage,
The
Scientific
Bases of Optimism,
The
Volpone,
of
Francesca da Rimini,
memorizing
famous
letter to
Gauguin,
as
bits
et
Strindberg's
Apres), struggling
(a gratuitous struggle,
because
had
THE THEATRE
wrestled with
exploits
for a
it
of Benvenuto
Herbert Spencer's
the
whole year in
Cellini,
logistica,"
by everything from
moved by
Max
at
Mailer's
**
philo-
prose, studying the great Finnish epic, trying to get through the
MoUere, Sardou,
my way
de Maupassant, fighting
series,
wading through
What
a hfe
that useless
Small wonder
book of
Voltaire's
Zadig
"vermouth duckbill"
Bill
more
talk
Scribe,
At
same time
the
bizarre
carrying
as
and
tailor.
title
is
of
this
on a kind of
George Wright,
we
naughty play
all
of it afterwards
at
on
fierce
What
a great
on Broadway
So risque
Bousquet's
went
all
ice
like
of a dark winter
an iceboat,
would
with the
feasts
reading, the
and
festivities,
argument and
the
one-man study
discussions, the
the fights and wrestling bouts, the hockey games, the six-day races
at the
halls,
of money,
the contempt for work, the goings-on in the tailor shop, the soHtary
promenades to the
pond where,
skates
this
reservoir, to the
if the ice
unilateral,
multilingual,
would
try out
my racing
313
drunk and
sober, or
trying,
feet
good
borrow somehow
on
concert
frineral parlors,
armories,
circuses,
arenas,
Gowanus
canal,
all
gathered
Manhattan
cheese-box of
halls,
and
from*
all
at heart
it
same
never had
to give to others, a
who
churches,
markets
Arabian
ice
Gansevoort
cream
saloons,
carnivals,
and Wallabout,
stinking
dry docks,
homes of
private
my
fiiends,
dives, the
Follies,
the Hippo-
of the girb
loved, of the
men
fat
streets,
the throbbing, colorfiil ghetto, the docks and wharves, the big ocean
the banana freighters, the
liners,
forts,
Place,
United
(hard
by
sodas
!),
Dutch
gun
streets.
open
trolley to
abandoned
the
^such
frothy,
milky
ice
cream
the smell of crabs, lobsters, clams, baked blue fish, fried scallops,
*"
Ah
better than
dty
314
"
blissful
it
(Washington Irving.)
THE THEATRE
of beer for
the schooner
stars.
Rome, nor
the murderous,
name of that
remember
is
Alley, but
it
all
little
won t come
hams such
as
as
now.
back, not
including the
me
just as famiHar to
But
was there
it
ottce,
all
They
Miller.
still
days long past, the plays long since digested, the books,
them,
unread, the
still
the universe
am
as I
some of
to be heard from.
critics still
")
comes
it
to
me,
back to you.
Ah, but
see
outside. Shure,
So daring!
So
again
it
They seemed
For then
more important
was with
Stand up,
see
how
often
So naughty!
me
must
tell
was going to
still,
with
my
members of
others,
ancient
>
Rector's
what matter
I
so important to
buddies.
it
risqu6!
cahbre.
just as
And with it
them.
now,
theatre.
since.
friends,
my
my
how much I
May we all be
all
pak,
loved you,
reunited in
the beyond!
dum-dum-dee!
315
THE BOOKS
And now
MY
IN
LIFE
of
take leave
that
young man
What
What
a dismal picture!
swallowing them
The
Slowly, slowly,
Classics!
am coming
Where
them
on
the field
classic,
And why
me
at this
moment.
who
out a petarade.
To what end
and adjudicate
that,
skates or without,
comes
first.
elle-meme
likewise gave
?
To
me
nothing.
could
nouveau
it
different
Oui, en terminant ce
that
let
fists
fatras,
d*^v^nements de
a Cendrars.
roller
or six-ounce gloves,
De
la
ma
life
pure
musique avant
January
to
Bug
316
neither
on
Because
jeunesse, je pense de
toute chose!
could
pick
?
is
Voltaire,
suits
to
join
December, 1950,
Stir,
California.
APPENDIX
The Hundred Books Which
Author
Ittfluenced
Me
Most*
Title
Elizabethan
Playwrights
cepting Shakespeare)
(ex-
Tite
Alain-Foumier
Andersen, Hans Christian
The Wanderer
Anonymous
Balzac, Honore de
Story of
My
Misfortunes
Fairy Tales
Louis Lambert
Bellamy, Edward
Looking Backward
The Path to Rome
Belloc, Hilaire
Blavatsky,
Mme. H.
P.
Boccaccio, Giovanni
Andre
Breton,
Bronte, Emily
Wuthering Heights
Bulwer-Lytton, Edward
Carroll, Lewis
Celine, Louis-Ferdinand
Cellini,
Benvenuto
Alice in Wonderland
Cendrars, Blaise
Chesterton, G. K.
St. Francis
Conrad, Joseph
Cooper, James Fenimore
Defoe, Daniel
De
Nerval, G<$rard
* This
list
The
works
of Assisi
Leatherstocking Tales
Robinson Crusoe
His works in general
Wale;
Editions Gallimard,
Paris, 195 1.
317
APPENDIX
Author
Title
Dostoievsky, Feodor
Dreiser,
Theodore
Diihamel, Georges
Du Maurier, George
Salavin Series
Dumas, Alexander
Eckermann, Johann Peter
Eltzbacher, Paul
Anarchism
Representative
EUe
Faurc,
Fenollosa, Ernest
Gidc,
Andi6
Trilby
Men
Giono, Jean
Refits d'Ob^issance
Que majoie
Jean
te
demeure
Bleu
Fairy Tales
Gutkind, Erich
Haggard, Rider
Hamsun, Knut
Henty, G. A.
Hesse,
Hermann
Hudson,
W.
H.
Hugo, Victor
Huysmans, Joris Karl
Joyce, James
Keyscrling,
Hermann
Siddhartha
Lao-tse
Mutual Aid
Tao Teh Ch*ing
Latzko, Andreas
Long, Haniel
Interlinear to
M.
Gospel of Ramakrishna
Kropotkin, Peter
Machen, Arthur
Maeterlinck, Maurice
Mann, Thomas
Men
in
War
Caheza de Vaca
Mencken, H. L.
Prejudices
Nietzsche, Friedrich
Nijinsky, Vaslav
NordhofF&
Pitcairn Island
Hall
Nostradamus
Peck, George Wilbur
Percival,
W.
O.
The Centuries
Pedes Bad Boy
William Blake's Circle of Destiny
Petronius
The Satyricon
Plutarch
Lives
318
APPENDIX
Author
Title
Rabelais, Francois
Rimbaud, Jean-Arthur
Romain
Rolland,
Rudhyar, Dane
Saltus, Edgar
Scott, Sir Walter
Sicnkicwicz,
Sikelianos,
Henry
Anghclos
Conquest of Mexico
Peru
New India
Astrology of Personality
The Imperial Purple
Ivanhoe
Quo
Vadis
Proanakrousma
(in
manuscript,
translated)
Sinnett,
A. P.
Spencer, Herbert
Spengler,
Oswald
Strindberg, August
Esoteric
Buddhism
^^
Autobiography
Suar^s, Carlo
Krishnamurti
Zen Buddhism
Swift, Jonathan
Tennyson, Alfred
Thoreau, Henry David
Idylls
Gulliver^s Travels
of the King
Civil Disobedience
and Other
Essays
Twain, Mark
Werfel, Franz
Theo
The Maurizius Case (Trilogy)
Akhnaton
The Unveiling of Timbuctoo
Star of the Unborn
Whitman, Walt
Leaves of Grass
Wassermann, Jacob
Weigall, Ardiur
Welch, Galbraith
Letters to
319
APPENDIX
Books I
Still
II
Intend
to
Read
Author
Title
Anonymous
Aquinas, Thomas
My
Aragon, Louis
Le Paysan
Bonaparte, Napoleon
Memoirs
Calas, Nicholas
Foyers d'Incendie
Memoirs
Dc Gourmont, R^my
De la Bretonne, Restif
Le Latin Mystique
De Laclos, Choderlos
De Lafayette, Madame
De Sade, Marquis
Dangerous Acquaintances
Dickens, Charles
Pickwick Papers
Doughty, Charles
Arabia Deserta
Secret Life
Summa
Athenes
Theologica
de Paris
et Jerusalem
Monsieur Nicholas
Fielding,
Tom Jones
Henry
Flaubert, Gustavc
Sentimental Education
Gibbon, Edward
Tlie
Decline
and
Fall
of the
Roman Empire
The Orphic Myths
Harrison, Jane
Prolegomena
Hugo, Victor
Huizinga, H.
James, Henry
of the Sea
The Waning of the Middle Ages
The Golden Bowl
Melmoth the Wanderer
Toilers
Maturin, Charles
Michelet, Jules
Multatuli
Max Havelaar
RadchfFe,
Ann Ward
Piviere, Jacques
& Alain-Fournier
Entile
Stendhal
La
SuUivan, Louis
Swift, Jonathan
Vach^, Jacques
And
Chartreuse de Parme
The Autobiography of an Idea
Letters to Stella
Lettres de Guerre
the Cross.
320
APPENDIX
Friends
Ben Abramson
Graham Ackroyd
Dr. Bruno Adrian!
Who
Supplied
Mohegan
Lake,
Sticklepath,
Me
With Books
New York
England
Hamburg, Germany
Oscar Baradinsky
Monterey, CaUfornia
Phoenix, Arizona
Yonkers, New York
Rene
Paris,
E.
Auk
Barjavel
Roland
France
Monterey, California
Hollywood, California
Lyons, France
SausaUto, CaUfornia
Bartell
Richard Beesley
Dr. Pierre BeUcard
Hilary Belloc
Raoul Bertrand
Earl Blankinship
Andre Breton
Robert A. Campbell
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Blaise Cendrars
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J.
Paris,
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France
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Paris, France
Jidda, Saudi Arabia
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London, England
Albert Cossery
Paris,
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Frau Elisabeth
Dibbem
Lawrence Durrell
Jean Dutourd
David F. Edgar
Frank Elgar
Pete Fenton
Robert Finkelstein
J.H.Flagg
Mme.
Genevieve Fondane
Wallace FowUe
John
Gildersleeve
Jean Giono
Maurice Girodias
Raymond Gu&in
Jac.
Carmel, California
Heinz Albers
Bruce Arliss
WiUiam
III
de Haan
E. Haldeman-JuHus
France
Ohrigen, Germany
Belgrade, Yugoslavia
London, England
Spring Valley,
Paris,
New York
France
Sweden
Solna,
Walter Holscher
Hollywood, California
Los Angeles, CaUfornia
Santa Fe, New Mexico
Andrew Horn
Willard Hougland
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APPENDIX
III
Claude Houghton
London, England
Louisa Jenkins
JohnKidis
Pierre Laleure
James Laughlin
Janko Lavrin
Mme. H. Lc Boterf
George Leite
Nottingham, England
Paris,
France
Berkeley, California
Pierre Lesdain
Brussek, Belgium
Paris,
France
Paris,
France
Albert MaiUet
Viennc, France
Rose K. Margoshes
H. Masui
Gregory Mason
Katnryn Mecham
H. L. Mermoud
J.
Albert
Mermoud
Sheldon Messingcr
H.W. Mediorstjr.
Maurice Nadeau
Gilbert
Neiman
Paris,
France
Illinois
Lausanne, Switzerland
Lausanne, Switzerland
Swami Nikhilananda
Stan Noyes
Berkeley, California
Maud Oakes
Hugh O'Neill
Gordon Onslow-Ford
SausaUto, California
Kenneth Patchen
Alfred Perl^
David Peery
Lawrence Clark Powell
John Cowper Powys
Raymond Queneau
Paris,
Paul Radin
Rajagopal
Berkeley, California
Man Ray
Hollywood, Cahfomia
France
Ojai, California
Georges Ribemont-Dessaignes
Saint-Jeannet, France
John Rodker
Harrydick and LiUian Bos Ross
Andr6 Rousseaux
London, England
Big Sur, California
James
Inverness, California
Mrs.
S.
Russell
Mark
Saunders
Paris,
France
Carmel, California
Bezalel Schatz
Lebanon
Big Sur, California
Berkeley, California
Tawfig Sayigh
322
Beirut,
APFBNDIX
W.
Schild
H. W. Schlamildi
Emil Schnellock
J.
Lausanne, Switzerland
Utrecht, Holland
Fredericksborg, Virginia
France
Pierre Seghers
Paris,
Henri S^guy
Sarlat,
Jack
W.
Stauffadicr
France
Frances Steloff
Ruth Stephan
Westport, Connecticut
Paris, France
Paris, France
Irving Stettner
Carlo Suar^
W. T.
Symons
Richard
Thoma
London, England
Limona, Florida
Gny Tosi
Paris,
Ckura Urquhart
Jean Varda
Boris Vieren
Alexander Victor
Mme. Jean Voiher
Robert Vospef
Kurt Wagenseil
Alan W. Watts
Herbert F. West
Emil White
Walker Winsk>w
Bemhard Wolfe
Kurt Wolff
Jacob Yerushalmy
Dante T. Ziaccagnini
France
Illinois
Port Chester.
New York
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