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whod killed many men in the Slobbovian War, was angry the
day Ricky Blair came to live in the rock house up on the ridge.
He was mad because Id been suspended from kindergarten
for hitting a boy whod called me Feather Fingers. Dad said
my suspension would stand against him in court, where my
Gommi was claiming he was an unfit father and unable to deal
with my special needs.
Couldnt you have just decked him and been done with
it? Dad asked. Why did you keep hitting him when he was
down?
I dont know why I kept hitting the boy. I dont know
why I do any of the weird shit Im going to tell you about.
Maybe Im just made wrong, flawed and fucked up beyond
repair. Thats what the school psychologist thinks. She says I
have zero social skills and a complete lack of empathy for
others. While I dont think thats completely accurate, it is true
She was a tiny thing with a mop of dark hair and crazy green
eyes.
Horsies! she squealed as the dogs charged her.
Whoa, Devil! Dad shouted. Stay, Psycho!
But it was too late. Those dogs were on her like flies on
shit.
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Then Hank Goins and this beautiful woman came to the
door and the woman tried to grab the little girl but Psycho
snarled and Devil snapped and Hank pulled her back before
she lost an arm.
The dogs were using the little girl like a treat, sniffing
her butt and licking her belly where some purple juice had
dribbled from her mouth. And the little girl loved it, cackling
like a baby witch.
Hank picked the child up and she pounded his face with
her fists. Wide horsies! she screamed. I wanna wide
horsies!
You bastard, Dad said, showing his gun. Didnt I
swear to kill you if you bothered me again?
Can we have this conversation inside? Hank said,
looking up at the sky. Besides being a legendary country
singer, Hank was a member of the Resistance and thought the
government was watching him with drones.
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I couldnt take my eyes off the woman. She was dark
and exotic with straight black hair and almond shaped eyes.
And she had high cheek bones and great lips.
Theyre after her, Hank said. We need to relocate the
operation.
Hank Goins was a White, Goins being a very common
White name. Most Whites arent even named White see, but
everyone still knows theyre Whites. And Whites arent
exactly white either, if you want to know the truth.
Anthropolgists call us a tri-racial isolate. We dont call
ourselves that, but others do.
And you come to me? Dad said. After what you did,
the two of you come to me?
be waiting for us at the top of the hill with Psycho and Devil,
who had reverted back to living at the rock house now that Liz
and Ricky were there.
Dosh is here! Dosh is here! Mummy, mummy! Dosh is
here! Ricky would yell. And shed jump around fluttering her
hands and the dogs would catch the excitement and run around
her in circles barking.
Looks like you have a buddy, Dad said.
She just likes my cut, I said.
It was true. She was fascinated with the wound on my
side and when no one was around, she would lift my shirt and
press her dirty little fingers on the sutures and, though it kind
of hurt, I could hear that little trill in the back of her throat like
a tiny motor running and I could smell the shampoo Liz put on
her hair, which was different that anything we had down at the
Bluegrass.
The thing was, I was really proud of the cut. So that
wound was something Ricky and I had in common. We both
thought it was cool and we liked watching it heal.
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One day we were taking a break from working on the
house and were going to hike through the gorge and up to
Serpent Mound since Liz had never been to either of those
places.
Nake! Nake! Nake! Ricky said, rolling a blob of
clay into a string on the kitchen floor. Wook at my nake,
Dosh.
She wants you to look at her snake, Joshua, Liz said,
filling a backpack with stuff we were going to eat up on the
promontory. I told her about Serpent Mound so shes been
making snakes all morning.
Dad slipped on the backpack and we followed the dirt
road along the ridge to the prehistoric earthwork called Fort
Hill, where the White Family Cemetery was, and Ricky said,
wook! pointing to the grave of the great Kitty White,
country star extraordinaire, which was impossible to miss
because of the life-sized statue of Kitty that Hank Goins had
erected as her gravestone. The statue was really a piece of
work with Kitty singing into a microphone and her hair flying,
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The gorge was filled with shadows because of all the
caves and cliffs and rock overhangs. A lot of people were
afraid to go there but for me it was always a playground.
The place was crazy though. Scientists called it a cryptodisturbance area because 200 million years ago some
mysterious blast blew out big chunks of the earths crust that
are there to this day, all stratified with layers of compacted silt
and sea shells and coral from the time the place was a shallow
sea.
Then the ice age came and the glacier stopped right at
the edge of the disturbance. If the glacier had gone another
hundred yards, it would have scraped the place off the face of
the earth and it would just be part of the Till Plain that
stretches up to the Great Lakes and grows all that corn. But
the glacier stopped right there like it was afraid to go any
further and over thousands of years the melting ice carved the
gorge. Then somebody long before Columbus sailed built
the vast, walled enclosure of Fort Hill on the north rim of the
disturbance. Then someone built the serpent on the
promontory, perpetually offering the orb it held in its mouth to
the sun and the stars.
It was a great place to grow up. It was a great place for
the imagination.
So I trotted through the gorge, past the Cleft and David
Davis cave, until I came to the rock called the Altar Stone and
I sat there and waited until Dad and Liz came along with
Ricky up on Dads shoulders.
Hi, Dosh! she called and waved like we hadnt seen
each other in years. She was very pleased with herself for
being on Dads shoulders.
We climbed the promontory and came out of the trees
and the serpent was sprawled out so big and long that it was
impossible to see the whole thing. So we walked over to the
observation tower next to the museum and climbed to the top
and looked out over the earthwork, the fields, and the forest
falling off toward the Ohio River to the south. Under a cedar
tree, a couple of chubby guys in robes beat drums and chanted.
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arm, ending in a rattle that tapered out onto the middle finger
of his left hand.
The drummer swallowed hard. This is a U.N. Heritage
Site, he squeaked. Youre not allowed to smoke here.
This look came over Dads face. Cold and analytical.
Dispassionate in its acceptance that violence is often the price
of liberty. Id seen that look before when he was getting ready
to throw someone out of the Bluegrass. Dad had been a sniper
in the Slobbovian War and I always imagined that same look
was on his much younger face when he was pulling the trigger
on some Slobb.
Dad pinched off the lit end of his cigar and rose to his
feet. He was 63 and pumped iron every day.
Stay away, the drummer cautioned, stepping back.
Im warning you!
But you came to me, Dad said. You chase my
children then warn me to stay away?
Im reporting you to the ranger! the drummer said,
then fled.
Lets go, Liz said, packing up the food.
Im not going anywhere, Dad said. You cant let
twerpy little assholes bully you. That only encourages them to
do it again.
Liz shook her head. I cant have my ID checked. I cant
take that risk! She was close to panic.
Dad turned to me. Take them down to the gorge and
wait at the Cleft. Ill be along soon.
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The school said I could come back to kindergarten but
had to be in the Behavioral Disabilities Unit because they said
I had Aspergers syndrome, ADHD, ADD, and severe
Oppositional Defiance Disorder (ODD).
Josh doesnt have a learning disorder, Liz said through
the service window the morning I was going back to school.
She and Dad were working breakfast at the Bluegrass because
Brenda had quit. She had also quit being Dads girlfriend,
which was fine with me because shed always got on my
nerves.
Dad scooped some eggs from the grill with his spatula,
slipped them on a plate, and passed them through the window.
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feet. Then I brought myself back and felt like crying because I
was hurt and because of what Peepers said about my mother.
Then I thought about the things Ommi had taught me
from the Bible, and the things Liz taught me from her books.
Things like David going up against Goliath. Or Leonidas
standing his ground at Thermopylae. Or Columbus sailing into
the Great Unknown. And I realized all of those stories taught
the same lesson: you were remembered for courage or you
werent remembered at all.
I was surrounded by people who were Whites, or knew
about the Whites and wished they were Whites. And suddenly
I felt the heavy burden of a great responsibility. And it wasnt
just the responsibility of toughing it out for all those people
watching. It was the responsibility of keeping faith with all
those dead Whites up on the ridge who never gave up. Who
never quit. Who always kept fighting when everyone was
against them.
And it was at that point that I knew I was one of them
because I was still standing. I knew I was with them because I
could take a punch and I was suddenly filled with such joy,
such excitement, such exhilaration. I could take a punch!
No Dad! I yelled. He had Peepers by the collar and
was dragging him away. Leave him to me!
Dad looked over his shoulder, considered for a moment,
then let Peepers go.
Then Ricky screamed, high pitched like a bird of prey,
Git im, Dosh! Git im!
I banged at Peepers gut with my fists. And when he
covered his gut I jumped and swung at his head. He got me in
a bear hug and took me to the ground, but I caught his lip
between my teeth and bit down until I felt the warm gush of
blood in my mouth. Peeper tried to escape but I hung on,
thrashing like a pit bull until a chunk of meat the size of a
bumblebee came away in my mouth.
Peepers jumped up screaming, tears flowing down his
face, blooding dribbling from his chin. I was up with him,
spitting the meat in his face, pounding at his sides, swinging
into his head, kicking his shins. He tried to run but I grabbed
the waist band of his sweat pants and yanked them down
below his knees.
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made the incision under the breast and reached into the bird
and pulled out the innards, saving the heart, the gizzard and
the liver. We cleaned the chicken out with a garden hose, put
the edible organs back inside and took him into Ommi, who
already had a pot of cold saltwater for soaking.
Were gonna get a squirrel, Gommi said. So he got his
shotgun and gave me the .22 and we walked down to the
creek.
You like living with your dad? Gommi asked.
Yeah, I said, but I like coming here too.
We sat down under the same big beech tree we always
sat under, Gommi at the twelve oclock position facing a
shagbark hickory, me at three. Only when we were seated
could I insert the magazine into the .22 and chamber a round.
Then we stopped talking as that would scare the squirrels
away. And we sat. And we sat. Sitting like that wasnt a
problem for Gommi. He could sit all day in the woods. But it
was hell for me.
My mind was a million miles away when Gommi touch
my elbow with his. I turned my head slowly and followed his
gaze up the shagbark where a good sized red squirrel was
cutting a hickory nut. Gommi nodded and I raised the .22 to
my cheek and put the front site on the squirrels head. I
squeezed the trigger and the squirrel ran away unscathed.
Dad says I jerk in anticipation of the shot, I said. He
says to let the shot surprise me.
He would know, Gommi said. Help me up.
We walked out of the woods and saw the cows standing
at the barn waiting to be milked.
Im glad you missed that squirrel, Gommi said.
Theyre so hard to skin. Id rather skin a deer than a
squirrel.
I helped Gommi milk the girls, which is what he called
them. Then Brother Heckewelder came over to look at a calf,
but once he saw it he acted like he didnt want it. Then he
made an offer.
Ill keep her before I let her go for that, Gommi said.
Heckewelder shook his head. Thats all shes worth,
he said.
Thats your opinion, Gommi said.
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Widow Vonhund had her two cents to throw in. Then Brother
Heckewelder said, But foolish and unlearned questions
avoid, for they but gender strifes. And he looked right at
Widow Vonhund when he said it.
Ommi cleared her throat to let Brother Heckewelder
know such scripture recitation wasnt helpful, but Brother
Heckewelder didnt take the hint.
Paul said that, Heckewelder added, not breaking his
gaze with his sister-in-law.
Judge not lest ye be judged, Widow Vonhund replied,
returning his stare volt for volt. For what measure ye mete,
it shall be measured ye the same Jesus said that.
Brother Zeisberger pulled his bow sharply across the
fiddle strings and started croaking a song written in 1757.
Soon everyone was singing and clapping and stomping
on the floor so that the song shook my inner organs and rang
off the barn walls, bouncing back at me, raising the tempo and
the volume.
The feathers twirled in my fingers. They pulled me out
onto the floor. Then they just took over and moved any which
way they wanted while the story played out in my head like a
movie. And no one judged me or made me feel ashamed. The
Spirit moved different people in different ways, and who were
they to question the Spirit?
One song became another, and then another, until it was
a tune that had never been heard before, put to the lyrics of an
unknown tongue. Dark Sophie stretched out face down on the
floor, her palms against the boards, and prayed that God would
heal her, not for her sake, because she didnt deserve it, but for
the sake of the little girl that had been left with her and had
nowhere to go, or anyone to take care of her. And I danced
around Sophie, stomping and jumping and twirling my
feathers so that her old body bounced on the boards like it was
on trampoline.
Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani? the old lady cried while
her dark little grand-daughter sat there like she was scared to
death.
And it just went on and on and on like that. Everyone
was on the floor. Stomping. Clapping. Singing. It was like we
were in a whirlwind, transported to a place far away.
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walk home through the fields, but when they left they let him
ride in the back of the truck.
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When Dad came to pick me up, Gommi went into the
barn to avoid speaking to him.
Its been so nice having you here, Ommi said, handing
me bag of brownies. Share those with your little girlfriend,
she said. Gommi will come and pick you up next week at the
same time. She hugged me and kissed my cheek and turned
away without even looking at Dad.
We drove down the road a ways.
How was Gommi and Ommi? Dad asked. He looked
foggy and hung-over. On weekdays he tried to keep his
drinking under control but on weekends, when I was with my
grandparents, he cut loose.
I shook my head and said nothing. I wasnt just mad at
him. I was mad at Gommi and Ommi too. I was disgusted with
all of them because they couldnt find a way to get along.
Put your work clothes on, Dad said when we pulled in
to the parking lot of the Bluegrass. Were going to make a
round through the campgrounds.
I took the brownies upstairs and hid them in my sock
drawer. On my pillow was a drawing that said to Josh from
Ricky.
In the drawing, a smaller boy was fighting a much bigger
boy while a multitude of stick figures stood woodenly in the
background, their uniformed ranks broken by the single
fleshed out figure of a long haired girl who leaped in the air,
her fists raised and her mouth open in a cheer. It was what you
would expect from a drawing by little kid except for the angel
who hovered in the sky over the whole scene. The angel was
drawn in such a way that her flowing hair blended with the
clouds and the rays of the sun so you really couldnt tell where
the angel left off and the sky began. I would have thrown the
drawing away but for the rendering of the angel.
Dad and I prowled through the campground in the
pickup truck while Wayne and Dwayne walked alongside
collecting garbage. By the looks of things, theyd had quite a
party the night before.
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anyone asked her what she wanted to be when she grew up,
she told them she wanted to be a bird.
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Then Ricky wrote a Thanksgiving play.
She mostly drew pictures of a Thanksgiving play
because her written vocabulary was pretty limited. And the
pictures were almost all of her dressed up in feathers as
Pocahontas. Liz tried to get her to write her play about the
pilgrims in Massachusetts, but Ricky wouldnt hear it. The
Thanksgiving play was going to be performed at the Bluegrass
on Thanksgiving and it was going to be about Pocahontas and
anyone who wanted it to be about pilgrims could write their
own play.
Im not going to be in your dumb play anyway, I said.
I was supposed to be John Smith.
Ricky threw an awful fit. She worked herself up so she
could barely breathe. Liz tried to convince me to take the role.
Dad tried, too.
No, I said. She does this all the time. She makes up
plays and gives me ridiculous roles and Im tired of it.
Its not weedicuwuss! she screamed. Youre Don
Smith!
Later, Dad took me into his room and unlocked the
closet where he kept his guns. He had all kinds of guns in
there because he liked guns and because hed inherited my
grandfathers collection. It was to one of those ancestral
weapons he went.
This was David Davis rifle, Dad said, taking the
ancient flintlock from its lambskin shroud. He fed his family
with this gun. He defended them with it. The story goes that
he broke the stock using the gun as a club, then carved a new
stock for it. I wasnt there so I dont know, but this is
definitely an improvised stock of very great age.
We dont know who David Davis was, Dad continued.
We dont really know anything about him. So theres a lot of
ugly myth floating around. But this old gun is real.
There was cross like a plus sign carved on the stock, and
the letters D.D. and as Dad talked, he ran his fingers through
the letters.
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Ten years passed and things changed.
Mostly it was the Fairness Laws, which protected the
oppressed from the oppressors. Workers were protected from
employers, renters from landlords, patients from doctors,
children from parents, this race from that race, poor against
rich, women against men, until everybody considered
themselves someone elses victim and there were so many
rules and regulations that no matter what a person did, he was
probably breaking a Fairness Law. For instance, the laws
eventually got around to making private education illegal,
which meant Ricky and I would have to enter the public high
school come fall.
Then there was the Slobb migration.
When Nashville blew up, Slobbs danced in the streets of
Slobbovia at least the men did, Slobb women not being
allowed to dance. But somehow, a few years after the attack,
sympathy for the Slobbs grew, starting with actors and
politicians. Slobbs were the real victims, it turned out. They
were poor. They were hated by their bigoted neighbors, who
saw them as ignorant, lazy and thievish. And their land had
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Rivers. Then theyd jump back into it. They didnt care if it
was a silly song. They were just doing it for themselves. They
did that until Dad closed the bar because no one was coming
in what with the tornado warning.
Hank finally staggered off to his trailer with a bottle of
Highland Charge, having refused to stay with the rest of us.
Dad, me, Liz and Ricky went upstairs to bed, but we didnt
sleep much because just after midnight it sounded like a
squadron of jet fighters was taking off down the hollow.
I looked out the window and saw the rain blowing in
sheets so full of debris that I couldnt see the barn on the other
side of the parking lot let alone Hanks trailer on the other side
of the field. I pulled on my pants and ran out in the hall. Dad
was already there, talking on his cell phone.
Im coming down to get you, Dad was telling Hank.
Dad listened for a moment, then hung up.
What did he say? I asked.
He said hed shoot me if I interfered with the hand of
fate.
Then Liz and Ricky came out. Liz was dressed but Ricky
just had on this t-shirt and that was all.
Lets go to the basement, Dad said as the lights went
out.
He got his shotgun from his room, flipped on the LED
light mounted under the barrel and we all followed him
downstairs. In the kitchen, the power indicator light was lit on
the walk-in refrigerator so at least the generator was keeping
our food cold.
The basement door was steel, secured by three deadbolts
that locked into a steel door frame wielded to a steel plate
bolted to the floor joists. The basement itself was insulated
and lined with shelves of blankets, duct tape, tarps, propane
canisters and boxes of ammunition. Dad kept guns down
there, his safe, and his reloading and brewing operations. So
against all the walls were dozens of glass carboys filled with
Highland Charge in various stages of fermentation, their air
locks clicking and clanking as the brew bubbled and burped,
filling the air with the sweet scent of honey turning into
alcohol.
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about the tenth try the old motor coughed and we were in
business again.
It looks like cotton candy in the trees, Ricky yelled in
my ear.
Insulation, I yelled back.
I could feel my phone ringing in my pocket and I knew it
was Dad, but wed crossed the Rubicon so I felt no reason to
talk to him.
We crested a rise and rode down into the Paint Creek
Valley where two government housing projects had recently
gone up. Servants Quarters was a walled community of large
brick houses where essential government workers lived.
Though the streets throbbed with the lights of emergency
vehicles, the well-built houses were unscathed. Diversity
Estates was a different story. Setting lower on the flood plain,
the multi-family units had been reduced to piles of vinyl and
styrofoam.
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Id never met a Slobb before. But the Zeisbergers had
dealt with them when there was still a farmers market in
Bainbridge and Matt Zeisberger said Slobbs where inferior
because they lacked character. He said that they would steal
right in front of you and if you tried to stop them, they would
pull out their Egesta phones and call the Department of
Fairness. Matt said the government had trained the Slobbs to
do this when they gave them the phones and if you objected to
them stealing you were a racist.
Ricky and I rode down into Diversity Estates and there
were Slobb guys all over the place, sitting on piles of rubble
with their open palms outstretched, wailing a bunch of
gibberish. Then they started running at us, holding out their
empty hands like they wanted something.
To Ricky and me, it seemed like a weird reaction,
rushing us like that. Ricky reached inside my jacket and
yanked out Dads .45. The Slobbs, once Ricky showed the
gun, shoved it into reverse and scattered like roaches.
I pulled into this niche in a pile of twisted vinyl and
killed the motor. We crouched behind the bike and I called
Dad while Rick kept an eye on the natives.
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Where the hell are you? Dad asked. I could barely hear
him what with the screeching of chainsaws in the background.
Were at Diversity Estates, I said. Theres not a
building standing. Theres no police here. No ambulances.
Nothing. It looks like theyre all over at Servants Quarters.
Were coming, Dad said. Were dragging the tree off
the bridge now. Are you in a safe place?
Yeah.
Stay there. Dont move until you see me.
Understand?
Understand.
Are you going to obey me this time?
Yes, sir, I said, and signed off.
Listen, Ricky said. Hear that?
Somewhere beneath us was a girls voice, so weak and
faint it could hardly be heard. Help us, the voice said.
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I started moving debris and the voices coming from the
basement got louder. I dug until I came to a twisted tangle of
water pipes. The girls below were just a few feet away. I
reached through the opening and someone took my hand. The
touch was weak and cold. I tried to squeeze through but the
opening was too small.
I pushed myself out of the hole and caught a breath.
Listen, Ricky said. There are girls in all these
basements. You can hear them crying.
Several Slobb men had reappeared and were watching us
from a distance, holding boards with nails in the end. Ricky
brandished the gun and they ran.
I rolled my bike over to the hole Id dug and turned on
my headlight. Tell me what you see in there, I said, lifting
the back wheel.
Oh, my Gosh, Ricky said, handing me the pistol.
Before I could stop her, she was down the hole.
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A girl climbed out, naked and pregnant. I sat her on a
piece of foam insulation, then took off my shirt and covered
her. This really set the tongues a wagging among the Slobb
men lurking around the periphery.
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Well hello! Ommi called from the side yard. She was
at the picnic table under the sycamore tree holding a water
hose over a heap of green beans.
Matthew, Mark, Luke and Faith! Ommi said. How
are you?
Fine, said Matt. How are you, Sister Ruth?
Fine! Ommi said. Sit! Sit! And who is this beautiful
young lady? Dont tell me this is that smart little girl who
lives up on the ridge! Dont tell me this is little Ricky! Long
time no see, sweetie!
Hello Mrs. Zeisberger, Ricky said. (Yes, Ommi and
Gommi were also named Zeisberger.)
Sit! Sit! Help me break these beans! What brings you
all out this way?
We dont really know, I said. Dad told us to scram.
We had to vamoose, Ricky said. We had to get out of
Dodge.
The whole countrys going haywire, Ommi said.
Deputy Collins was here yesterday and he told Hiram
therere things going on that you just cant imagine.
Theres a guy in San Francisco who bites off wieners,
Ricky said.
Inappropriate, I said.
But its true, she said. I read it on The Drudge Report.
They call him the Snapper. He goes to places where homos
stick their wieners in holes and instead of giving them the
pleasure they desire he chomps their wieners off.
Whats he do with them? Mark asked. The wieners?
Does he swallow them or spit them back through the hole?
Maybe he takes them home and mounts them on his
wall, Luke said.
Romans 1:27, Ommi said. And the Zeisbergers nodded
their heads in understanding.
I wish I could be a Christian, Ricky said, staring off
into the distance. Ive asked Josh to take me to church but he
always says no.
What? Ommi said, looking at me.
Shes lying, I said. Shes never asked to go to church
in her life.
Im asking now, Ricky said.
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looked down into those green eyes and her mouth opened and
I breathed in her breath. I smelled that wayward fragrance of
her body, that sweet sinful scent.
I knew youd catch me, she whispered, moving her
finger over the scar on my chest. Just like you caught me
when we fell off the mantle the day we met. How you cut
yourself to save me. See, I know who you really are, Joshua
White. I know exactly who you are and I dont care what some
stupid school says about you.
My hand found its way up under that mop of damp hair.
My fingers closed around the nape of her neck. A shiver shook
her spine sending a volt through my arm and into my head. It
was like the grand finale on the Fourth of July was going off
inside my brain, like every synaptic connection in my head
was suddenly exploding with a billion little Roman candles.
Thats when Dad and Liz came huffing and puffing
down the trail.
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That night, things were strange at the Bluegrass Bar and
Brew Thru. Ricky rode her bike down to work dinner, but Dad
told her she was fired and threw her bike in his truck.
Oh, yeah? she said. You cant fire me cause I quit!
Dad had never really hired her but she waited on tables
for tips anyway, and if the bar was busy, Dad looked the other
way. But the bar wasnt busy, even though it was Saturday.
And the few guys who were there werent eating or drinking.
They were just flipping back and forth between NBC and the
Resistance News. According to the former, everything was
hunky-dory. According to the latter, all hell was breaking
loose. No one was coming through the brew-thru. No one was
even driving down the road.
Suit yourself, Dad said.
But Im not just gonna quit working at this stinking
bar, she said. Im going to quit working the bees too! No
more honey, Jackson! No more Highland Charge!
Ricky thought she owned all the bees because she made
the queens. And she was good at making queens. Shed just
cut out a strip of eggs with a pocket knife, stick the strip on the
down side of a crossbar with beeswax and pinch them every
inch or so. It was the way dad had taught us, but Rickys
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success rate was off the charts for some reason. And she could
make the graft right there at the hive with bees climbing all
over her. And it wasnt that she was immune to the stings like
Dad was. The bees just didnt sting her. It was the pheromones
her body put off or something. It was really quite amazing and
she actually thought the bees would stop making honey if she
told them to.
Get in the truck, Dad told her.
Go screw yourself, Jackson. Give me my bike back!
I bought that bike for you, Dad said. Now get in the
truck.
You think you own everything, dont you? Ricky
yelled. Well you dont own me!
And she ran up the lane toward the rock house.
A half hour later, my phone vibrated in my pocket and I
ducked back into the kitchen.
It was Ricky texting: Sent to my rm for kissing u phone
taken.
We didnt kiss! I hate you.
I no! I hate you too.
How u texting w out ur phone
Stole it back. Power off down there?
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Dad said the power grid used to go out only during bad
storms and would be back on in hours. Then the time it took
for the power to be restored got longer and longer, stretching
out to days, then weeks. Now the power went out all the time
for no reason and it was anyones guess when it would come
back on. Dad said we were headed for a new Dark Age where
everyone had a Facebook page and a college degree but no
one knew how to fix anything.
In the bar, guys talked politics in the dark. Then the
lights came back on but it was only because the old generator
finally fired up. So I walked around turning off lights because
we ran the generator only for refrigeration.
Dad opened the door and I could hear sirens blaring
down in Bainbridge. Close up the drive thru and get your
gear, he said to me. Come out when youre ready. We need
to talk. He already carried his rifle and had his Kevlar on.
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feet beyond the parking lot. The place always looked forlorn
on Sunday, like it was hungover and regretful for what was
said and done the night before. But today it looked lonelier
than usual and I had this crazy impulse to run in and check on
my dad to see that he was alright. But we bumped on up the
lane and as we made it to the rock house the sun broke through
the fog and the sky was blue and the air was crisp and I looked
at Gommi to see his reaction but he showed no appreciation at
all. There was no symbolism in Gommis world, and he
wouldnt know a metaphor if it smacked him on the ass.
We pulled up in front of the rock house and Dad came to
the door and I could tell hed spent the night there.
Rickys not going to church, he said.
Ricky was standing behind him in my mothers clothes
and she really had the water works going. Liz was there too,
trying to calm her down.
Who do you think you are, Jackson White? Ricky
yelled, tears pouring from her eyes. Youd best be real
careful. You got no idea who youre dealing with! You got no
idea at all!
Dad looked at Gommi. See? Is this what you want to
take to church?
FUCK YOU! Ricky screamed.
Im sorry you had to hear this, Hiram, Dad said. Im
sorry you had to see it.
Ricky exploded across the kitchen floor.
Maybe Dad heard her feet sprinting across the worn
linoleum, or maybe he saw the shock in our eyes, but in the
split second before Ricky made contact, he glanced over his
shoulder and saw what was about to hit him.
Ricky rammed her head into Dads back, sending him
flying off the kitchen step.
Come on! Come on! she yelled, hardly breaking her
stride as she jumped into Gommis truck. Lets go to
church!
We looked down Dad. He rolled over holding his
shoulder.
Take her, Liz said. Things wont get any better if she
stays.
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She went up on her tip toes to stick a star and when she
did her shirt came up and showed her belly with that little
golden ring.
Hand me another star, she said. Theyre on the bed.
The stars were all different sizes and shed written names
on them. I picked one up one and handed it to her.
Dad yelled for me to come down stairs as hed heard us
walking around no doubt.
Ricky reached up to attach the star and her navel was
right in front of me, and that gold ring caught the morning sun
coming through the window so that it sparkled and I could see
a faint line of fine blonde hairs, running down her flat belly in
a solid line of little vs until they disappeared under the elastic
waist band of her pajama bottoms.
And the smell of her! That smell. It was like a toothache
that you couldnt stop pressing with your tongue because it
felt so good in some strange way.
Josh! Dad shouted. We need you down here!
Up on the ceiling she already had stars for Liz and Dad.
Josh! The old man yelled from downstairs. Now!
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I went down to the bar and the place was full of Sons of
Satan and Barbarian Bastards, which were the two main bike
clubs that hung out at the Bluegrass. They were also big
Resisters. They were watching some Resistance News
broadcast of looters running through some broken storefront
somewhere. And everyone who worked for dad was in the bar
too, even though they werent scheduled to be there. They
were just standing around watching looters on the tube, which
kept cutting in and out.
What do you want? I asked.
Look, Dad said, were having a special Market Day
and the deliverys gonna come early and were gonna need all
hands on deck, so be available, okay?
I hung around watching the tube, but it was the same
thing over and over again. Looting in Cincinnati. Then
Pittsburg. Then St. Louis. And all those places looked exactly
the same. I went out to the barn to work on my 883.
Id installed a new battery and new points and plugs and
changed the cables and the wires and still the thing wouldnt
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Well tell him we need him out front pronto. Like now.
Ill tell him if I see him, Ricky said.
I stayed there with my face in Rickys lap, my nose filled
with her scent, my ears full of the standing ovation coming
from the television.
Dis be one dose times when yous always member
where yo wuz when it happen, Whoopsie said.
You can get up now, Josh.
Ricky grabbed me by the hair and pulled my head up.
Damn! she said. Youre such a pervert.
I was disoriented, dizzy and breathless.
I neber tot I see dis moment, Whoopsie said, wiping a
tear from her eye. I neber ben so proud t be un Amurican!
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Doyce Johnson was in the drive-thru trying to hand Dad
a big stack of bills.
Give me all the canned goods thisll buy, she said.
Were not taking paper money today, Dad said. You
know that Doyce. I dont even want it the property.
But its all Ive got, Doyce said.
How about gasoline? Dad asked. How much gas is in
your tank? Well barter gas.
So some of the guys got to work siphoning gas out of
Doyces tank, and some other guys loaded her up with jars of
beans.
Dad turned to me. Josh, go out and tell everyone in line
that we arent taking paper money. Tell them to leave if
theyre holding cash. And we arent taking labor either
because theres no market for it. Its all silver and gold and
barter.
Ricky had come out to the brew-thru. She was looking at
her reflection in the sliding glass of a beer cooler, not quite
dancing, but moving her hips a little and doing this thing with
her hands like an Egyptian.
Joshua! Dad said. Move!
So I went down the line of cars telling people we werent
accepting cash and that if they had any on them would they
please leave and everyone said they had gold or silver or
ammo or empty canning jars or something to trade but I
suspected they also had cash theyd like to dump. This girl
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was in line, way back, not in a car but just standing there with
a rusty wheelbarrow with a baby in it.
You got something to trade? I asked her. She looked
awful. Shed been smacked around recently, as had the baby.
You could tell someone had really pummeled it.
Can I talk to your father? she said. Please. Just let
me talk to him.
Flip-flop-flip-flop. Come on, Ricky said to the girl.
Youre going to the front of the line.
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The girl fell on her knees and tried to kiss Dads hand.
No, no, he said, pulling her up. Its not like that.
Her name was Aisha she said, and she had been one of
the pregnant girls wed pulled from the basement of Diversity
Estates after the tornado. She said shed run away so her baby
wouldnt be harvested for its bones. Then Feco and his
brothers came and took everything, Aisha said. He even
took the babys formula. I tried to stop them but they beat me.
Then they beat the baby. My milk has dried up and they took
our food and beat us.
Everyone looked at the baby. It was mostly dead, but
every once in a while it took a breath.
Old Zeisberger turned to Matthew. See if Maria
Stolzfus will come. Do it this way: Go to Alma Bontraeger
first. Tell Alma what we got here. Let Alma ask Maria.
So Matt left in the truck with a bunch of Resisters riding
shotgun behind on their motorcycles.
We took Aisha into the bar and laid the baby on the seat
of a booth and covered him with a blanket. Then we went
outside and continued filling orders.
And as the shelves emptied of one thing, they filled up
with ammunition and bottles of gasoline, and propane, and
rolls of duct tape, and toilet paper and tools. And people came
in and traded for that stuff too. Some had gold. Some had
silver. And some had canned goods. So everyone was trading
what they had for what they needed and with every trade, Dad
came out a little ahead on the deal. Like everyone else along
the line, he made a profit. Thats what kept the market moving
and providing the things people needed. Its not greed. Its
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Maria and Maria looked at the baby and swallowed hard. But
Maria handed her own baby to Alma, picked up Aishas baby
and followed Alma back to the kitchen. Aisha, Liz and Ricky
fell right in behind them and the men in the bar stood there
looking useless.
Resistance channels back up, Tom Gibson said finally,
and turned the volume up.
The feed was evidently coming from one of those little
cameras that people clip to their hats. And the person with the
camera seemed to be running as fast as he could so that all you
could hear was his breathing and other people shouting in the
distance. It was pretty much a blur except for every once in a
while when the frame would freeze and you could see
buildings on fire and people running with stacks of shoe boxes
and bottles of wine.
What city do you think that is, Tucker?
Tucker Gibson had been a long haul trucker when that
was still possible.
Detroit, he shrugged. Maybe Baltimore. Its all the
same.
Turn it off, Dad said. Lets concentrate on what
weve got going on here.
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Ricky held the kitchen door open and Aisha came out
with her baby in her arms, but you wouldnt know it was
Aishas baby because of the change that had taken place. The
baby was a couple of shades darker for one thing. And his eyes
were open and he was moving his little arms around.
Then Maria came through the door and Hannity jumped
up and started clapping and Maria looked down at the floor
and blushed. Then all the guys were on their feet cheering.
So Matt got up to drive Alma and Maria back to their
farms and Dad came around the bar and offered his hand to
both the women. Alma knew the drill but when Dad pressed
the coins into Marys hand she opened her palm and her mouth
fell open.
Oh, I cant take this, she said. But Dad closed her
fingers over the silver.
Out in the parking lot, a car screeched to a stop and
began blowing its horn. I looked out the window. The cars
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I leaned out over thirty feet of open air, pulling the line
of safety harness taut.
Then an underarm fart.
Luke Zeisberger loved the armpit fart as much now as
that awful day I taught it to him.
Halt! I called. Who goes there? Friend or foe?
Friend, one of the twins said.
Advance then and be recognized, I said.
Its what I always said when I met Mark and Luke in the
woods. Even if I can see them plain as day. Its like a script I
always go through because I get a kick out of it if you want to
know the truth.
The two stepped from the underbrush in homemade
ghillie suits that made them look like a couple of bushes. They
too carried bows.
Wherere all the deer? one of them asked.
I lowered my bow to the ground with a utility line. Its
too hot, I said, climbing down the tree.
Well where are they? They dont go inside to the air
conditioner, do they? They live out here in the woods, dont
they? Were in the woods. Why dont we see em?
Theyre not frisky yet, I said. They dont start
moving around till after a killing frost.
If they aint movin around then why dont we see
them standing still?
Yeah. Or layin down?
I dont know, I said. Why dont you think were
seeing them?
Because theyre not here.
Where are they then? I asked.
Thats what we asked you.
Theyre here, I said. If they arent here, whos
making those rubs on the trees and the scraps on the ground?
You dont know thats deer leavin those signs. Could
be possums.
Possums?
Can you prove it the other way?
We walked through the woods in the direction of the
Zeisberger farm.
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It smelled like her, except this was the real deal. The
true, unadulterated fragrance of the girl, maximum strength
and pure, with no soap or shampoo doing the double dealing.
She shouldnt be out in the woods at night. I could
guarantee that shed snuck out of the house without Liz or Dad
knowing.
Ricky! I shouted. Its Josh! Wait up!
But her laughter seemed to float in a different dimension,
lilting away in all directions at once.
I ran after her all the way to Grandpas house, but it was
like she vanished into air. From the backyard, I saw that her
bedroom light was on.
I laid my bow down behind a tree, snuck up to the house
and looked in a ground floor window. Hank and Liz were in
the library with my Dad and a few Resisters. I looked up at the
open window and heard Ricky singing and strumming her
guitar. My hand closed on the main trunk of the ancient
wisteria that grew up the side of the wall and I began
climbing.
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Ricky sat on a stool in front of her computer, an external
microphone reaching out on a homemade boom made of duct
tape and clothes hangers.
Personally, this next song isnt one of my favorites,
she said into the mic, but Ive had so many requests from my
fans that I cant ignore them any longer.
She launched into this Kitty White song that she always
sang with Hank and she was really banging it out when a
guitar string broke.
Shit, she said.
She replayed her aborted performance and watched
herself in the mirror, singing along with her own voice and
dancing the way Kitty did in those old videos.
Ricky kicked off her shoes as she danced. Her t-shirt
came off over her head and she shook out all of that long hair.
Then, finally, a single shove down from her hips put her shorts
down around her feet. And she did this all without missing a
beat.
Shed spent much of the summer in a pink bikini and
where the sun had gotten to her she was as dark as an Apache.
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You touch her again and Ill kill you, you dumb
sonofabitch! I swear to God, I will hunt you down like a
fucking rat and beat your flabby fat ass to death!
Then I gave him another good boot just to make my
point.
Ricky and I went to the back of the bus and sat in a seat
adjacent to the two Jessis.
Everyone was quiet, looking at me or at Peepers, all
humped up and blubbering. The bus driver was mumbling
something into his phone.
Good morning, Joshua, Jessi Gipson smirked. And
welcome back to public school!
You just made a grand first impression, said Jessi
White. And first impressions are so important in todays
society! She turned her gaze on Ricky and her eyes went
dead. Youre that kid everyone talks about, she said with
disdain.
Everyone talks about me? Ricky asked.
I dont talk about you, Jessi White said. Ive just
heard other people say youre just a regular bitch who sings
at the bar and thinks youre hot shit.
Fuck em, Ricky shrugged. If they dont have the
guts to say it to my face I couldnt care less what cowards say
behind my back.
The two Jessis exchanged careful glances, assessing
every aspect of the answer.
This scrawny kid bounced into the seat in front of us.
You guys are so badass, he said. Id seen him around,
limping down roads, but had never talked to him. He had a
deformed hip that made him rock from side to side when he
walked.
Thanks, Ricky said. Whats your name?
PeeWee Cohen, the kid said. Thats what everyone
calls me. PeeWee.
Do you like it? Ricky asked. Being called PeeWee?
No, he said.
Then what do you like to be called?
Well, my name is Levi.
Glad to meet you, Levi, Ricky said offering her hand.
My name is Ricky.
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The bus rolled down out of the hills and into the Paint
Creek Valley, past the walled enclosure of Servants Quarters
where the children of essential government workers had their
own school to where Diversity Estates sat like a boil on the
otherwise smooth skin of the flood plain. Since the tornado,
the government had trucked in prefabricated modules that
could be stacked by a crane, one on top the other, and side by
side like giant Lego pieces, three stories, four stories, five
stories, six until Diversity Estates had a population four
times the size of the housing project that had been destroyed.
And still the government stacked the modules one on top the
other and crammed in newly made Slobbovian-Americans just
ahead of the election.
The bus stopped. The door yarned. But no students were
waiting to get on. After a minute, some chubby guy came out
of a ground floor module and ambled toward the bus, his
greasy pompadour piled high on his head, his leisurely saunter
a cross between a peacocks strut and a hogs waddle.
Thats Feco, Jessi Gipson said. Hes a real asshole.
Ricky looked at me. Thats Feco, she said. Thats the
guy who raped Aisha.
Feco was decked out in mascara and bracelets and rings
and, of course, the fetal bone in the nose. And he wore a tiny-t
Fairness Union shirt that stopped just beneath his boobs so
that his gut was on display, hanging out over his skin-tight
capris.
He looks like hes about thirty, Ricky said.
Hes a Fairness Worker, Levi said. Going to school is
his job.
Other kids lumbered from the modules, slowly,
arrogantly, their faces plastered with make-up and carrying a
good thirty to forty pounds of excess paste around their
middles.
Holy cow, Ricky said. What are they feeding those
kids, fried lard? And whats up with the face paint?
Theyre dressed like their favorite Gaia Dancers, Jessi
Gipson said. See how they bob their heads? They think its
cool. Do it, Jessi. Jessi White waggled her head from side to
side, her eyes taking on an oblivious gaze. Thats it! Thats
the Slobb bob! Isnt that funny?
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The kids boarded the bus. Slobb kids. Wobb kids. And
they all talked AS LOUD AS THEY COULD! And they didnt
talk with each other; they talked at each other. Everyone was
pitching at the top of their lungs but no one was catching.
No Slobb girls, Jessi White said. When a Slobb girl
turns twelve they slice off her clitoris and make her wear a
blanket over her head. And they arent allowed to go to school
or learn to drive but youre not supposed to mention it because
its racist for Western Civilization to judge another culture, no
matter how nasty and vile that other culture might be.
Ricky looked at me and I knew she was thinking about
Aisha and her baby Tony, who were staying with Ommi and
Gommi and being taught by Liz.
The bus drove through Bainbridge and pulled into the
school and sure enough there was a welcoming party of thugs
in Fairness Union shirts waiting there.
Now youre gonna get it, Joshua Jessi White said, as
the thugs pushed through the flow of students trying to exit the
bus.
Heres a back door, Ricky said, jerking the handle
down. An alarm went off and we all jumped out and ran across
the parking lot toward the doors where the kids were piling
into the school. Me, Ricky, the two Jessis, and Levi Cohen
bringing up the rear with his limp.
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shouted. Find your homeroom and get a trophy and a drop!
So we did our best to blend in and go with the flow.
Ill probably get expelled today, I told Ricky You do
something to get expelled too.
Not gonna happen, Jessi White said. They arent
allowed to expel you. We wouldve been gone a long time ago
if they were allowed to expel kids.
In the gym, homeroom teachers held signs bearing their
last names. Ms. Brown-Buttafuoco was the teacher of the
Behavior Disorders Unit and it didnt take me long to find
her. She was big as a house.
Gramsci, Ricky said, checking her schedule and
finding the corresponding sign. Thats my teacher over
there. Remember what Mom told us. Dont eat anything they
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give you. They put zombie drugs in it, so dont eat it!
Right?
Right, I said.
Okay, she said. I guess this is it!
Dont take any wooden nickels, I said, and watched
her walk across the gym. Then I climbed the bleachers to
where Ms. Brown-Buttafuoco stood holding her sign.
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Name? Ms. Brown-Buttafuoco asked. She had two
chubby gals in red FU shirts helping her.
Joshua White, I said.
Heres your trophy! Ms. Brown-Buttafuoco said,
handing me this chintzy little plastic cup about the size of a
shot glass. Your the best! it said and inside was something
that looked like an M&M. I pretended to put the drop in my
mouth but I really palmed it.
I sat down next to this kid and he seemed pretty much
out of it. On the other side of the gym I saw Faith Zeisberger
sitting apart from her homeroom in the bleachers as all the
other kids seemed to be shunning her. Or maybe she was
shunning them. It was hard to tell. She was waving, having
already spotted me, so I gave her the thumbs up.
The gym was pure chaos what with everyone throwing
those little trophies around. They were all over the gym floor,
crushed to smithereens. After a while this old tranny got up on
stage and said his name was Ms. Johnson-Johnson. He wore a
dress and a blonde wig, but he was obviously a man. Lets
everybody find their homeroom teachers! he said in this
weird falsetto. Lets take our morning drops so we can start
dancing! Union workers, help the new students out! We have
lots of new students wholl need lots of help this year!
No one paid attention to him. Everyone just kept talking
and milling around as if he wasnt even speaking. It was quite
rude really, but Ms. Johnson-Johnson seemed used to it.
On behalf of the guidance office, Ms. JohnsonJohnson said, Id like to welcome you to and he went on
with the kind of bullshit youd expect to hear. ... and thanks
to President Egesta we now have spray booths so your skin
can be the exact shade of your identity race! No more makeup!
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Weve got lots of fun things planned for this year so lets find
our teachers and drop our drops!
Then the lights dimmed, a screen descended from the
ceiling, and a video began with a tribal beat throbbing over the
speakers. Shake, shake, shake! Shake, shake, shake! Shake
yo butty! Very Well!
On the screen, a jet fighter did loop-de-loops and barrel
rolls. Then it landed, the cockpit opened, and this guy with a
bone in his nose and mascara around his eyes, smiled and
saluted.
Scat! the students in the gym screamed. And all the
kids dressed like Scat waddled out on the gym floor and
started shaking their fat butts.
Then a convertible sped down the runway. The driver
slammed on the brakes and did three 360s before skidding to a
stop in front of the fighter.
Maliq!all the kids shouted as the camera focused on
the African-American kid driving the car. Scat jumped in to
the car, planted a kiss on Maliqs mouth and all the kids
dressed like Maliq ran out on the gym floor and started
gyrating with all the Scats.
The onscreen Maliq, with Scat in the passenger seat,
sped down the runway when all of a sudden this girl with a
green streak dyed in her hair ran up beside them. She smiled at
the two boys in the convertible, then left them in a cloud of
dust.
Shaneeka! everyone yelled, and all the Shaneekas in
the bleachers, identified by the green streak dyed in their hair,
took to the gym floor.
The scene shifted to the inside of the hanger, where all
we could see was a pair of hands flying over a collection of
computer keyboards. From the computer screens, we see that
the owner of these amazing hands is playing chess with
multiple remote opponents, all of whom are older, white men.
Every screen suddenly flashed with the word checkmate!
and the camera climbed to show the self-satisfied face of a
beautiful Asian girl, who whipped off her glasses and back
flipped out to the tarmac to dance with the others.
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you arent really a woman. You and Peepers may not like
what you are, see, but that doesnt change what you are. Hate
to break it to you. And if you watch the whole tape, youll
see what qualified him for an ass-kicking. But youve seen
the whole tape, havent you? Youve seen Peepers push
Ricky just like I saw him push her. So you know youre lying
about Peepers being innocent. You know I know youre lying.
But youre going to keep lying anyway because thats how
you operate.
Johnson-Johnson reached for that strange, mirthless
laugh again, but the wind was out of it. Then the fire alarm
went off.
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I followed the crowd through the hall and out the door to
the parking lot where the student body was in total disarray.
The drops had kicked in so everyone was just drifting around
aimlessly, waiting for someone to tell them what to do.
Hey, Joshua!
I turned and saw Ricky and the two Jessis running my
way. Some teacher in a triple-x smock tried to head them off
but they easily dodged her.
Jessi pulled the fire alarm! Ricky said, rendered
breathless by such boldness. What did they do to you?
Suspended for ten days and banned from the school bus
for life, I said. Dad is on his way to pick me up now.
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Since I wasnt going to school, Dad asked me to work
the kitchen because he was short-handed what with Liz taking
care of Hank, who wasnt doing so well. So I was at the grill
when Ricky came down from the ridge the next morning.
You want me to make you breakfast? I asked.
Ill do it, she said.
I liked watching Ricky crack eggs and pour them out on
the grill. I liked her fingers and the way she moved her wrists.
She knew I liked to watch so she did in a slow, deliberate way.
How was your first day at school? I asked. I hadnt
had the chance to talk to her alone before now because a
bunch of Resisters from Columbus were camping in the
campgrounds and we had to mess with them.
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I put the helmet on and sunk into the plasma bag. Right
away a gasket seal inflated around the rim of the helmet,
cutting off all light and sound from the outside. By the feel of
the seal, I could tell it was plasma also. Then the plasma in my
bag and the plasma encircling my head started throbbing to the
beat of a tune Id never listen to if given a choice.
Hi, Dick! said the voice in my ears. Weve been
waiting for you! Just stare straight ahead while we take some
measurements and make some adjustments. Thats good!
Now look at the red light to the left of your goggle screen.
Great! Now follow it as it moves. Excellent!
Then Im riding in the back seat of a car. Or rather Dick
is, but Im seeing things through Dicks eyes. Behind the
wheel in the front seat is, I assume, Dicks dad, a bland guy
with a double chin and a dented bald head. I turn and theres
Dicks sister, Jane. Jane turns her head and there is something
hanging from her nose. Dick and his family drive on and I
recognize the landscape floating by. Were driving down
Route 73 but its not quite right. The grass is dead and the
fields are barren and scorched. The creek is dry as a bone and
even the trees are wilted. I rode my motorcycle down this road
yesterday, I tell myself. The grass is green. The creek is full
of running water. Im pretty amazed by it all nevertheless,
especially how the plasma bag vibrates my body to give me
the impression that Im actually riding in a car.
Then the perspective shifts and the Gaia Dancers Scat,
Maliq, Shaneeka and Xiang Xua are standing in a courtyard
surrounded by the same kind of snap-on stackable housing
modules that they have down in Diversity Estates, except no
one is ever outside dancing at the Estates.
The Gaia Dancers are really shaking it down. I mean,
man, those computer generated characters can really cut the
rug. Then they start singing in perfect harmony, raising tinkle
fingers to the sun, when all of a sudden I hear this clinking and
clanking and the faces of the Gaia Dancers become so sad.
Its those morons Dick and Jane arriving in their gas
guzzling SUV.
Why dont the Smiths move into public housing and
take public transportation? Shaneeka asks. That would
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reduce their carbon footprint by 66% and save the earth from
climate fluctuation.
Some people are just stupid and greedy, Maliq says,
his lip quivering.
Racist and ignorant, agrees Scat, taking Maliqs hand.
Dick and Jane get out of the car and it rattles away in a
cloud of blue smoke.
Beep!
The goggle screen displays a multiple choice question
with a disembodied voice reading along, the answers lighting
up as the words are read.
Which greenhouse gas is most responsible for dangerous
Climate Change?
A) Oxygen
B) Carbon Monoxide
(Rest your eyes on the answer of your choice for three
seconds)
I stare at the answer they want and a bell bings.
Way to go, Dick! You just earned two points! Youll be
a Shaneeka before you know it!
Then the Gaia Dancers are back and Dick and Jane run
over to the other dancers and try to join in but its a pretty
much a disaster the way they lurch around. I feel Dicks
spastic movements through the plasma bag, out of step and out
of time. The other dancers look at Dick and Jane, a mix of
scorn and pity on their faces.
They dance and after a minute or so beep a multiple
choice question pops up on the screen and the voice goes
through the possible answers.
Which founding father owned slaves?
A) George Washington
B) Thomas Jefferson
C) Benjamin Franklin
D) James Madison
E) All of the Above
I choose the right answer by looking at it, the bell bings,
and I get another two points. Maliq appears on screen in a
pair of speedos, gyrating his hips and touching his crotch with
his finger. Youre on a roll, Dick! he purrs. Youll soon be
with me.
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unless you act now! What I want to know is, can I count on
you to collectively fight for social justice?
You can count on us, Milan! Maliq says. What
seems to be the problem?
Milan Polanski tells the Gaia Dancers about his attempts
to make a movie starring the marginalized Pookie Nookie
people of the Amazon Rain Forest, but every time he shouts
action, bullies from a big oil company show up to ruin the
shot by yelling racist hate speech.
That big oil company is doing everything they can to
keep me from getting the truth out, Polanski says. And what
I want to know is, are you with me?
Were with you! Shaneeka shouts. Everyone say
theyre with Milan Polanski!
Lets put our hands together and chant! says Scat.
Hey, hey! Yo,yo! Greedy racists have got to go!
My classmates were farting like crazy. Nasty-ass farts
that made me sick at my stomach.
Say, Milan Polanski says, I hope you dont mind if
we swing by Hollywood on our way to the rainforest. I have
some pals who want to come along.
Hollywood?! the Gaia Dancers exclaim in unison.
Beep!
How many guns are in your home?
A) Zero
B) More than zero
Milan Polanskis plane lands in Hollywood and the
Hollywood pals pile on.
Sean Stone! the Gaia Dancers shout. Oliver Penn!
Both actors are dressed in camo and festooned with
various guns and knives.
Are you Gaias in the market to kick some greedy
capitalist ass? Oliver Penn asks.
Wheres Scarlet? Sean Stone asks. I thought she was
coming on this mission.
Sc-Sc-Sc-Scarlet Madonna? Jane stuttered. Sc-ScScarlet Madonna is coming? No sooner had the words left
Janes mouth than a long, black limo speeds onto the runway.
Here she is now! Oliver Penn laughs.
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them. Dont try to tell them about truth. They think emotions
are the truth.
The inmates in the Behavioral Disabilities Unit slowly
removed their helmets.
Wha ca we doo? one of the students whined. Wha
ca we doo?
I didnt know what the he was talking about. Whatever
stupid shit happened in Pookie Nookie land, I guessed.
You can care, Ms Brown-Buttafuoco said, reaching for
a tissue and, mysteriously, finding none.
This seemed to satisfy the BDU students, several of
whom nodded in agreement as they lay in their plasma bags.
Someone opa dee winoos! another kid said. M valve
guano shut!
Right away kids coughed like fresh air was toxic.
Feco, Ms Brown-Buttafuoco said. Would you please
close the windows?
No-no-no, Feco said, shaking his finger from the
comfort of his plasma bag. Dat not my job. No mo wit de
winoos.
Okay, Ms. Brown-Buttafuoco said. Would someone
else like to close the windows? How about you, Barack?
Barack dis! Barack dat! Why yo always assin me?
Che? How about you?
No way, Ho-zay. Whe we gittin de drops?
Yeah! Whe we gittinde drops?
Yo-yo-yo!
Somebaa-ee pu de winoos dow fore dee allergies
come!
We wan drops now!
No-no-no-no! Do dee winoos firs!
Very well, Ms. Brown-Buttafuoco said. Ill shut the
windows myself.
Why can we hab de drops firs?
Because I cant do two things at once, Ms. BrownButtafuoco said, struggling to rise from her plasma bag, but
falling back.
Dont give up! Ricky shouted. Keep trying!
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chamber, knowing that the world knew their fate but was
letting it happen anyway.
Ms. Brown-Buttafuoco? Ricky said. Are those really
Michaels children?
Why of course they are, Brown-Buttafuoco said.
What a silly question.
I dont mean legally, Ricky said. I mean biologically.
Do you think Michael is the biological father of those boys?
I watched Brown-Buttafuoco. I watched the answer take
shape. I watched the words form on her lips.
Why of course those are Michael Rs children, the
teacher said. Why would you even think they arent?
I didnt realize how far reality was out of joint until I
looked into Ms. Brown-Buttafuocos rounded face and
watched her say that a Negro could father Scandinavians.
Somewhere behind her eyes was a dim awareness that what
she said was ridiculous. But up front was the conviction that
the untruth was told in the service of a greater end, some
confused idea about racial equality or social justice, perhaps.
Or maybe she was just standing in solidarity with the herd she
followed, reality be damned. Of course black men could sire
full-blooded white children. To think otherwise would be
racist.
I watched my classmates watch television. Something
was happening to them as they lay in their plasma bags. Their
torsos were growing bigger and softer while their limbs
shrank. Their necks were disappearing and their eyes were
growing piggish and migrating to the sides of their heads.
They were transforming, devolving, And there were so
many of them like this. I felt myself drowning in them, being
suffocated by their learned helplessness, their farts, and
their demand for undeserved equality.
You think most kids in America are like this, I asked
Ricky.
You mean physically weak and stupid as shit? Ricky
asked.
We interrupt this program for a message from your
principal, the canned voice on the television said. And the
television screen was filled with a close-up of Alinskys flabby
face.
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We drove up the hill and parked by the White family
cemetery.
Some of this will seem silly, Dad said, reaching under
his seat and bringing out a stained hangmans noose and a
blindfold.
Its okay, I said. I know about tradition and ritual. I
know why its necessary.
So I passed through the first ten gates that night.
Questions were put to me and I gave the correct answers. It
was all like a script in a play. Then, while holding the
Constitution and the Declaration of Independence between the
palms of my hands, I took an oath to defend the Bill of Rights
from all enemies, domestic or foreign, with my life, my
fortune, and my sacred word of honor.
It was all very dramatic the way it was done. But thats
all I should say about it.
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The next morning, Ricky came down to the bar early. I
was working the grill, frying eggs and bacon, flipping
pancakes and keeping the toast coming. She picked up a
spatula and started helping.
How was the initiation? she asked. I know youre not
allowed to tell anybody about it, but how was it?
It was good, I said.
Did you have all your stuff memorized?
Yeah.
The Bill of Rights, right?
Yeah, I said. But you have to explain what they mean
and keep saying how the Bill of Rights limits the power of
government. Thats the main idea.
Liz came in and took over the grill and Ricky and I
headed for the barn. We opened the door and on the seat of my
motorcycle was another homemade book, The Abolition of
Man, by C.S. Lewis. Ricky thumbed through the pages. Its
coded, she said, handing me the book. Its the key to the
next ten gates.
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Summer was ending and I felt a little nostalgic about it for
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they couldnt help it. They werent dressed like Separatist girls
for one thing. And they had all of this hair flying around. And
Ricky started really coming down on the guitar while Matt
beat his kettle. Then Luke picked up Tony and started dancing
around with him and he just loved it. And Aisha started
dancing with Luke and Tony. And Levi tried to dance with
Faith but with that game leg he just kind of lurched around. So
everyone was laughing and singing and dancing and the song
just went on and on until the barn door opened and there stood
Gommi and Ommi, the Bontraegers, the Widow Vonhund, and
old man Heckewelder.
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So it has come to this, Ike Heckewelder said.
Babylon on the floor of the Spirit.
Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, Sister Vonhund
said. Come into His presence with singing.
These girls arent Separatists, Heckewelder said.
And they sure arent coming before the Lord.
The Widow Vonhund spun on the balls of her feet.
God sent not His Son into the world to condemn the world
but that the world, through Him, might be saved, she said.
If were truly Christians, it is our duty to welcome these girls
and encourage them to walk in the way of righteousness.
I stand with First Thessalonians, Heckewelder said.
Abstain from the appearance of evil.
Evil? Widow Vonhund said. You look on the bloom
of Gods creation and see evil?
They come to us because theyve seen the film,
Heckewelder said. The come to us out of the same curiosity
that draws one to the carnival show.
Okay, Ommi said, lets all go back to the kitchen and
have another piece of pie and Ill talk to the girls. Im sure we
can make things right. So just go on back to the kitchen and
dont argue. You boys go too. This is just for the girls.
So we left Ommi and the girls to talk. Brother
Heckewelder and Sister Vonhund kept at it though, using the
scripture to fight each other. They both claimed to be
Christians but you could tell they racked the Bible solely to
find ammunition to use against each other. I heard Ommi
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going in and out of the front door and I guessed what she was
doing.
Sure enough, when we all went out to the barn for the
worship the two Jessi were dressed in prayer bonnets and long
dresses that came from Ommis closet. Then old Zeisberger
read Matthew 25 and said how in his opinion the best way to
feed people, and clothe them, and make sure that they have
what they need, is to give them the means to feed and clothe
themselves. The gift of a practical education is where charity
begins, Zeisberger said.
Then the girls sang Spirit Rain Down. But the Spirit
didnt rain down. The Spirit stayed away, and later, after
everyone was gone and we were stacking the boards up
against the barn wall, Gommi said it was because hearts had
become so hardened.
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When Ricky and I were on the way back to the bar, I
pulled onto this fire road that came close to the trail that
passed under the serpents promontory and went through the
gorge. I rode it all the time on my dirt bike but Id never had
the 883 on that particular stretch of rough trail but I thought
what the hell? Theres a first time for everything. So we
rode along and right away got an appreciation for the off-road
suspension of the dirt bike. But we rode up to the base of the
promontory where the earths crust juts up and there are all
those caves and I stopped right in front of the altar stone.
We were on state property, and there were tourists up on
the promontory looking down on us, but so what? The ranger
who worked there was too lazy to come after us. Ricky
jumped right up on the altar and sat on these Himalayan prayer
flags that were draped all over the stone for some reason. She
had taken off her Separatist clothes at Gommi and Ommis and
had on jeans and a t-shirt and sat cross-legged on the stone. So
I sat on the stone facing her.
You know what Ommi told us? she said. She said we
need to realize how much men are attracted to us and like to
look at us and Jessi Gipson said we already know and we like
it but Ommi said when men come to worship they dont want
to be distracted so we should cut them some slack and cover
up and Jessi White said if she was turning on Old
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deformed and had tiny heads, or real big heads, or kids who
were fed with tubes, and they all had Fairness Union t-shirts
on.
These are the kids you hurt when you bring your
lunch! Alinsky thundered. All of you kids with your silly
little baggies of sandwiches I want you to take a good hard
look at these poor children who arent as fortunate as you. And
all of you brave boys and girls whove joined the Fairness
Union I want you to look too. These are the kids you are
fighting for I love these children, Alinsky said, his voice
faltering, and if you kids who bring your lunch have one
compassionate bone in your bodies, youll throw those awful
peanut butter sandwiches in the garbage and pay for a food
service meal so these kids wont starve!
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Alinsky and Johnson-Johnson were at the cafeteria door
with a bunch of FU thugs harassing kids whod brought their
lunches from home. They were finding nuts or nut products
everywhere. And once they found the nutty product, or a
product that had been produced in a facility that also
processed nuts, the whole lunch had to be thrown away
because it was contaminated. They had garbage cans full of
lunches kids had packed at home. And it was mostly kids
whod been home-schooled or church-schooled because they
didnt want to eat the government cheese, because people
suspected it wasnt right, that it was doing something to those
who ate it.
Of course all the kids who ate the school lunches
marched right in to the lunch line and picked up their
prepackage meals in their self-contained little trays.
I watched the two lines, one having their food thrown
away and the other eating for free. It was like the kids in the
two lines were from different worlds. The clothing was
different, the hair was different, even the language. But it was
deeper than that. Much deeper than even in the different
things they thought. The difference was in the way they
thought, in the very constructs of their minds, how they saw
the world and their place in it. I looked at the two lines and it
was like they were moving ever farther apart, like the gulf was
so wide that there was no way anyone could bridge it, like the
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human race was evolving into two separate branches, one selfreliant and strong, the other dependent and helpless, yet
belligerent in their demand to be equal to those who excelled.
Those jerks arent throwing my lunch away, Ricky
said. Im eating it now.
That seemed like a pretty good idea so I tore into my
sandwich too. Then other kids waiting to have their lunches
thrown away decided to chow down.
Hey, no fair, this twerpy little Wobb whined. So right
away, old Ms. J-J comes down the line pulling that garbage
can behind him/her.
No-no-no, he/she said. Throw em away! Throw em
away. And then all the little lefties lined up for their free
lunch started clapping and cheering.
We walked into the cafeteria and sat with the
Zeisbergers, the Jessis and Sue and Beth, who hung out with
the Jessis because they were boy-crazy and willing to take the
Jessis castoffs.
Then a full milk carton sailed through the air and hit
Faith in the eye. It hit her hard and it hurt her. And all the kids
on the other side of the cafeteria laughed. There was little
Faith with a hole in her heart and hurting and all these kids
were laughing, laughing because she was hurt. So she started
to cry. She cried because of the low meanness of it all.
You should have heard the cheer that went up. Yaa!
Yaa! A sick little girl has been hit in the face and made to cry!
A great blow has been struck for social justice and the rights
of the oppressed! Power t da peepel! Yo! Yo! Yo!
Matt jumped up ready to fight and all the Gaias laughed
at him too. Really, what was he going to do? Its not like the
person who threw the milk carton was going to come forward.
But this big fat Shaneeka with her hair dyed green to show
that she loved the earth got in his face and started doing the
Slobb bob and yelling a bunch of lingo and spraying Matt with
her nasty spittle.
All the Gaias were just laughing their asses off. Oh man,
that was some funny stuff! Even the teachers on lunch duty
were smiling at the antics of this EBT-obese Shaneeka. But I
saw that Faith wasnt doing so well. She seemed not to be able
to catch her breath.
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greasy hair of the third, pulling his head back and hammering
his nose like a nail.
My shirt, which was soaked with milk from the cafeteria
attack, was now dripping with piss so I pulled it off and
surveyed the shirts of the three Maliqs on the restroom floor.
The guy with the busted nose was bloody as hell and the kid
gasping for air was a lice motel if I ever saw one.
Give me your shirt, I told the guy Id tripped.
He said something I couldnt understand so I pulled off
my belt and whacked him. He started crying so I gave him
another whack.
Why yo doin dis? Why yo doin dis? he cried,
mascara running down his face.
Talk right, I said, whacking him.
What do you want me to say?
I squatted and looked him in the eye. Do you really not
know why Im hitting you?
No, he said, tearing up again.
Stop crying, I said. Whyd you throw piss on me?
Cuz, he said.
Cuz what?
Cuz raciss
I looked at him, the fake diamonds dangling from his
ears, his skin dyed reddish brown, the drops showing in his
glassy eyes. There was no reasoning with him. He was past
that.
Give me your shirt, I said.
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After school we went over to the Vonhund barn with the
Jessis and the Zeisbergers. Beth and Sue came over too with
Levi Cohen and this older guy who I didnt recognize at first
because he had changed so much.
D.B. Wells had just gotten out of prison for attempting to
kill the director of the documentary that was supposed to be
about the uncanny musical abilities of the White family but
then became about the awful homophobia of rural America.
D.B. had tried to disembowel the famous documentarian but,
because the film maker was so obese, only managed to spill a
gooey apron of yellow fat before being disarmed.
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Well take it when the stuff gets here, Hank said. Just
dont spend it on leather pants for Ricky.
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Business at the bar was dead that afternoon.
Liz and Ricky worked the front. Aisha and I were in the
kitchen. But nobody was coming in, so Ricky and Aisha
started fooling around on the piano.
I sat on a bar stool next to Liz and watched President
Egesta give a speech on TV and it was really getting on my
nerves because he had this stupid refrain going (Let my
people vote!) and his audience was jumping on it.
And my opponent says you need to prove who you are
at the ballot box! To him I say LET MY PEOPLE VOTE!
It was such a joke. Everyone knew Egesta used voter
fraud as a campaign strategy. Now they were trying to make
fraud a civil right.
Liz shook her head. We waited too long, she said.
While the left bred an army of idiots we wasted time listening
to Glenn Beck on the radio. She looked out the window at a
panel truck pulling into the parking lot. Now its come to
this, she said.
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I went in the kitchen and gathered up some food and put
it in a bag.
Im locking the door, I said to Ricky and Aisha, but
they were thumping on the piano so I was dismissed with a
backhanded finger flourish.
Walking in the shadows with the bag of food, I could see
Liz and Dad and Hank in the brew-thru talking to the guys
who came in the panel truck. I went into the barn and put the
food in the saddlebags of the 883. I pushed the bike out
through the field to the road then coasted down the hill for a
good quarter of a mile before I started the engine because Dad
didnt need to know I was gone. Just before I got to Route 50,
I came upon a Fairness Union road block.
The FU stopped people on the road for a safety check,
then theyd siphon out half your gas for a Fairness Tax.
I slowed down. There were three of them with an old van
pulled across the middle of the road. So I just crept up on them
real slow like I was going to stop.
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useful with his life rather than sitting on his ass all day
bitching about what a victim he was.
Disable was the worlds first socialist, she said to a
couple of hundred kids one morning. He was the first thirdrater. A lousy leftist loafer. He put this shitty product in front
of God and expected to get the same reward as Able, who
brought his A game to the table. God told Disable he needed to
raise the bar. Instead Disable sought to bring his brother down,
and that, ladies and gentleman, is the essence of socialism. Its
equality through mandatory mediocrity. Its the meaningless
plastic trophy everyone gets for showing up.
Jesus wants us to make ourselves stronger, Ricky
said. He wants us to be healthy and he wants us to be brave
and defend people who are getting bullied so we can bring
them to Him, so He can make them stronger so they can go
out and get others and make them stronger. He doesnt want us
to be victims; He wants us to be victors. He doesnt want us to
be whiners; He wants us to be winners. He didnt give us a
spirit of timidity, but one of power. He doesnt want us to
conform to the ways of this world. He wants us to fight against
it.
But what about 1st Peter? Faith asked. What about
being submissive to authority, even if the authority is
unreasonable? What about turning the other cheek?
Good question, Faith, Ricky said, and right away I
knew the question was a plant. The early church Peter was
writing to was flying under the radar in order to avoid
persecution. Keeping a low profile was good advice in the
Roman Empire when no one had religious liberty. But our
forefathers gave us liberties the early church could only dream
about, and we have the responsibility to defend those liberties
from lying politicians who claim to take our freedom away for
our own safety. Think of Jesus going head to head with the
Pharisees. He sure wasnt being submissive. Or when he ran
the money changers out of the temple with a whip! Or Moses
standing up to Pharaoh. Or Shadrach, Meshach and
Abednego refusing to bow to the king of Babylon. Christianity
isnt a religion for pussies. Its a religion for rebels!
Now, if anyone wants to learn how to defend
themselves and others, weve got two of the best fighters in
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Adams County right over there. D.B. and Josh can show you
what you need to know! And if you need to learn how to read
the Great Books of Western Civilization because the public
schools have filled your head with PC BS, Faith is a great
teacher! So wherever youre weak, we want to make you
stronger! Jesus wants you to be stronger. He doesnt want us
to be fearful. He wants us to be powerful, loving of one
another, and smart.
Thad and Levi were our first students and I thought it
was a waste of time trying to teach them Krav Maga. But they
applied themselves and exercised like crazy and pretty soon
two muscular little guys stood before me where puny little
twerps stood before. They transformed themselves, and that
encouraged other little twerps to join our ranks and take up
Krav Maga.
Then Ricky said that we should build a fitness course in
Vonhunds field with stations along the way where runners
would have to do push-ups and situps and climb a rope and
things like that.
Therell be thirty-three stations in all, she said, and
each station will stand for a principle of Western Civilization
and Christianity and Krav Maga, which course runners will
have to know. And there will be a shooting range where well
practice with slingshots and bows that well make ourselves.
Well going to start a Resistance cell? D.B. said. I
love it!
Were going to start resistance cells, Ricky said.
Were going to spread them to every high school and college
campus across America.
Howre we gonna do that, Marks asked.
Ricky shrugged. Facebook. Youtube. Well plant the
seeds and God will make them grow if He wants them to.
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Soon we had a pretty good collection of free weights that
kids had dug out of basements and garages. Then we made
exercise benches with the old tools and scraps of lumber that
were in the barn.
So kids were studying martial arts, and pumping iron,
and reading books and building things. And these were kids
whod never done anything but play computer games before.
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And it changed them. And other kids saw the change and
wanted in on it. So our numbers grew.
Then one day, Matt and I were timing some girls who
were running the course when this car load of Catholics pulled
up.
What do those assholes want? Matt muttered.
I dont know but Im gonna find out, I said.
Inside the barn, OConnor, the DeMarco brothers and
Maria Sanjorge were watching the girls kick out a new song
on the stomp floor. As usual, the tune was derived from a
Hank Goins song, but the words were, They wouldnt bow!
They wouldnt bend! They wouldnt tremble!
What do you want? I said.
OConnor turned to face me and I squared my stance. I
had sworn to the rule of no first aggression at the 33rd gate but
considerable latitude is permitted when it comes to the
intentions of those clearly identified as enemies. I mean,
youre not expected to stand there and take a sucker punch.
Remember what we came here for, Danny, Maria said.
She was a dark-haired, dark-eyed beauty and she was
getting into the song, moving a little to the beat. Remember,
she said, one love, one heart. She ran up on the stomp floor
when Ricky motioned her to come.
I asked you what the hell you want, I said to
OConnor. He sized me up with his dead blue eyes. He was
the type of guy whod come at my face with his fists. I would
block the blow and smash his nose with my forehead. Then Id
go for the biggest DeMarco if D.B. or Matt wasnt already on
him.
Im not afraid of you, OConnor said. Dont think for
one minute Im afraid of you.
Knock it off, Danny, said DeMarco. We dont want to
fight.
Thats not exactly true, OConnor said. We want to
fight. We just dont want to fight you. But its not because
were afraid of you.
We want in, DeMarco said.
You want in what? Matt asked.
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The Leaf Festival started and the old Resisters came to
the campground to hear Hank sing one more time and they
were a depressed and downtrodden crew because it was
certain that Moloch Egesta was headed for a landslide victory
on a wave of a bunch of newly made Slobbovian voters.
But there was this other group of campers whod seen
the face on the barn and who not only acted like victory was
possible, but like theyd already won. The old Resisters had no
idea who these new campers were who were spending so
much time at Vonhunds barn, which was open 24/7 now,
manned by D.B. Wells and Slobbovian converts whod been
thrown out of Diversity Estates.
And those videos of Ricky singing on the stomp floor
that had been sitting on YouTube with 300 views? They
suddenly took off. One day there were nearly 60,000 views.
The next day there were over a million.
So Ricky was the star around the Bluegrass now. If she
walked across the campground she would get mobbed. So we
protected her as best we could. And there were other guys who
stepped up as well. We all stepped up. We became men and
women.
There were still plenty of people who wanted to pump
Hanks hand and buy him a drink, and Hank put up with it as
best he could, but his heart wasnt in it anymore and one night
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33rd degree but then I felt stupid about doing it out in the open
where anyone could see.
I drove the truck down to Hanks trailer and as soon as I
opened the door the smell of death hit me.
The place was a mess. Dishes piled up in the sink and
bloody clothes everywhere. The whole trailer smelled like
blood. Old, rotten blood. And there was Hank, naked but for a
diaper made with a bath towel.
Damn, Hank, I said. Whats this?
Its a miracle, he said. I think its called stigmata. Im
bleeding out my ass.
We have to go to the hospital, I said.
Sit down, Josh.
I looked around and there was no place I really wanted
to sit because it was all so stained and smelly.
Sit, Josh, Hank said. I have to sit so you sit too. I
dont want you looking down on me.
I pulled up a wooden kitchen chair away from the table
and sat.
Tomorrow is election day, Hank said. Moloch Peor
Egesta will win and sometime after the election, there will be
a false flag attack that will be blamed on the Resistance and be
used as an excuse to try to exterminate everyone even vaguely
connected to us.
I know what youre thinking, Hank continued. Just
some more of old Hanks crazy conspiracy theories. You think
it cant possibly happen because it hasnt happened yet. But it
has happened. Many times. You see, history didnt begin with
the birth of Joshua White.
Hank closed his eyes and his face twitched in a spasm.
The point is, he said. Very soon medication is going
to be at a premium and shouldnt be wasted on someone whos
dying anyway.
Youre not dying, Hank.
Oh, were all dying, Hank said. Im just dying faster
than most. I have that on good authority. But I need to live a
little longer and I dont need anyone feeling sorry for me. I
dont intend to go out with a pity party. And I need you to help
me. Strictly secret stuff, just between us. Can I count on you?
You know you can.
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Most of the trees along the river were bare but there was
beech that was hanging on to its leaves and beneath it were
Dad and Liz and these guys I hadnt seen before. Dad and Liz
were there talking real low and I didnt want to think about
what they were talking about or why they were hiding out by
the river bank. I didnt want to hear about what was happening
in the cities, or who was missing, or any of that stuff. I just
wanted to go sit in my tree. I didnt want to kill a deer. I just
wanted to get away for a few hours.
Bring a deer back, Josh, I heard Dad say, and it made
me feel like what he said was already a memory, like one of
those inconsequential things you remember someone saying
after theyre gone. I looked over at my dad and he looked so
old. So did Liz. So I gave them the thumbs up and walked on
up the hill.
I walked past the rock house and on up the trail to Fort
Hill and the White family cemetery, stopping in the far corner
to send a little prayer up to Mom, to ask her to help me figure
things out. I know theres no reason to pray to the dead, but I
always had prayed to Mom when I was little. I stopped at
some point, but on this particular night I took it up again.
I climbed up into my tree stand and it was breezy up
there so stepping onto the stand felt like stepping into a canoe.
I snapped the carabiner of my harness onto the safety belt
cinched to the tree trunk, then pulled my bow up the thirty feet
to my stand, nocked an arrow on the string, and sat there
collecting myself for a while, looking around in the autumn
sunset.
Hoots and hollers drifted over from Serpent Mound
across the gorge. The Wiccans were at it again. They flocked
to the Serpent on Halloween, and again on the solstices and
equinoxes. They were there tonight for the election of all
things. So I guess the vote had been called in favor of Egesta,
which was no surprise since the polls were run by the Fairness
Union.
I sat back against the tree, closed my eyes, and tried not
to think. Out on Bainbridge Road, a siren approached, coming
closer and closer until it turned into the parking lot of the
Bluegrass Bar and Brew-thru.
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Luke Zeisberger bought the story to us. Hed been
helping Gommi at the farm when the shooting occurred and
was in the hayloft when the police came.
There were a bunch of Fairness Workers, Luke said.
And Feco and Peepers were with them in a police uniforms.
They put Aisha in the cruiser and when Gommi and Ommi
tried to pull her out Peepers shot them. Then they shot all the
cattle and the chickens and started hauling stuff out of the
house.
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Dad called a Resistance meeting, but only about half
showed.
Fairness Workers have blocked the road from
Gnadenhutten, Wayne said. Theyre going house to house.
How do you know that? Hannity asked. I mean, how
do you know? Thats just hearsay.
Shut up Hannity, Hank said. We have to use the bomb
on Servants Quarters. We shouldve used it weeks ago when
the other cells started fighting.
Maybe things will settle down, Hannity said. Maybe
if we keep our heads down things will get back to normal. I
mean, maybe we should share our food with them that aint
got it. Maybe thats only right.
If we dont use the bomb well lose it, Hank said.
Theyll take it and execute us for having it. Theyre going to
execute us anyway. Theyve made first use of violence. Its
time for a squadron charge. Its past time. Ill drive the bomb.
Get me through the wall at Servants Quarters and Ill take it
the rest of the way.
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Tommy Gibson ran into the bar. Theyve ringed the
trees in orchard, he gasped. Theyve set the beehives on
fire. We caught one and made him talk. Tommy looked at
Ricky. Theyre coming for her, he said. They have a
warrant for her arrest.
I looked at Ricky. She was so close that I could reach out
and touch her. But the time for that already seemed a million
miles behind us.
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against him, I couldnt. I felt sorry for him because he was fat,
stupid and about to die.
Do it! Dad hissed.
I shot the Slobb on the left and Dad shot the other five.
You okay?
Im okay, I said.
Were gonna need you to pull the trigger today, Dad
said.
I know, I said. Im sorry.
We walked up to the bridge and the Slobb I shot was
dragging his intestines across the asphalt.
I got it, Dad said, and shot him in the back of the head.
This is where we are now, Dad said. Its an awful
thing, but this is what it has come to.
We no sooner pushed the car into the ditch than our
convoy of pickup trucks arrived, loaded down with guns,
ammo and gasoline.
The Separatists are coming up, Wayne said. Should
we wait?
Dad looked back at Hank driving the panel truck at the
end of the line. I could tell the tires were losing air fast under
the heavy weight. Hank pointed his finger to the sky. Theyre
gonna hit us any minute, he shouted. He gotta go now!
Right now!
Were going, Dad said.
We drove up Route 50 to Vonhunds barn and there were
a bunch of kids there and I could tell Dad was skeptical
because they were so young, and so many of them were
Slobbovians who had carved these bloody plus signs on their
necks to look like D.B., who was armed with a single shot
shotgun. Levi Cohen was there with Thad, and they had cut
six pointed stars into their necks.
Get it, Dad said, nodding to the beds of the trucks.
Give em guns, Dad told the Resisters. Show them how
they work.
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We smashed through the gate of Servants Quarters with
surprising ease. It was like they never thought wed come. It
was like they assumed that we would go quietly into that good
night of the residential rehabilitation center.
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Ricky and I moved through the underbrush, keeping an
eye on the sky. There were shots in the distance in every
direction but we kept moving with our guns at the ready,
straight to David Davis cave.
Its the same story over and over, and you think you
know the meaning of horror, but you dont know. Theres no
way to know until it happens to you. People go to work in the
World Trade Center and have to decide if they will jump to
their death or burn, when just a few minutes before they were
drinking coffee and making small talk. It happens in a
moment, and theres no way to prepare for it.
I dont want to kill anymore, I told Ricky as the gas
filled the cave. I just want the bees and the woods. And I
want you most of all.
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I dont know how long they interrogated me, drowning
me, then bringing me back to drown me again. It could have
been hours or it could have been months. I thought I heard
Alinskys voice but I couldnt say for sure because I had tape
around my eyes. Then they took the tape off and told me I was
on trial for terrorism. Ricky was there and she was on trial too.
And for all the horrible things theyd done to me, it was plain
to see theyd done much worse to her.
We need to do this fast, the judge said. She was a
nervous little woman who kept glancing around the burned out
basement like the walls could explode at any minute. In the
distance, I could hear gunfire. Will the prosecution present its
case?
A Fairness Officer stood, his arm in a bloody sling.
Case MT 6- 910: The People vs. the American Resistance
Movement, et al for terrorist treason. The prosecution rests.
The judged pounded the tack hammer that served as her
gavel. Guilty as charged, she said. You are hereby
sentenced to death.
She hurried from the room in the company of the
Fairness officer with the bloody sling.
Lets get this over with, someone said. We need to
bug out of here, but we can leave a pretty sight for the
Resisters.
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And all the other Whites in the cemetery are up and at it,
doing whatever it was in life that gave them pleasure, whether
it was making moonshine or hunting in the woods or whatever
it was. They are all living and doing what they love most and
theyre just going at it. Theyre raising crops and raising
livestock and raising hell because that was what they were all
about, that bold, reckless pursuit of individual happiness, for
better or worse.
Then I see her, a tiny figure slumped all alone in the
Separatist corner of the cemetery. She is small and when she
looks up I see that she is young and shy. But she lifts herself
and shows her full belly, and she is so proud. And she puts her
arms around herself and smiles, and I can feel her arms around
me. And Gommi and Ommi step out of the woods smiling and
Im glad my mother is not alone anymore, and I want to go to
her, but they point down the trail and so I ride on down
through the shadows of the gorge.
I ride up to the Serpents Promontory, where the
earthwork lay in pristine perfection, untouched by a thousand
years of erosion. I look out over the American plain and its
like time goes into overdrive. Forests rise and fall. Droughts
and floods sweep through in an instant. A glacier slides in
from the north and dwarfs me, its cold blue face inches from
mine, then melts and becomes a warm tropical sea, and closes
over my head, and I begin to drown.
Loaded down with all my guns and ammunition and
armor, I sink further and further into that liquid dark. It makes
no difference how hard I struggle. I keep sinking, pulled down
by all that weight.
Fear of the grave overtakes me. Death has me by the
throat. My lungs fill with water and theres no air left inside of
me to fight for. Its finished. Silt covers my body. I disappear
into the mud.
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The universe is without form, void and dark. But
somewhere a small, still heart beats. Tha-thump. And thats
all. Just a single beat standing between something and
nothing. And I remember everything Ive ever done. All the
good things, all the bad things, all the things Im ashamed of
that I wish I could change.
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