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(Part I)
By
Keith J Jim
March 6 2010
History.
‘I’ developed schizophrenia in the fall of 2005. When he first heard it (voices,
other egos, or as R.D. Laing terms ‘false self’.), he thought it was his neighbors’ voices in
another apartment. He concluded them to be psychics during an accident when ‘I’ burned
his hand in hot water and another voice cried out. However his nervous breakdown
occurred during a high on marijuana when a flash like a lighting bolt took place in his
mind, accompanied by a voice loudly proclaiming ’Your schizophrenic!’. A voice
responded ’Bitch’ instantly after. From then on the voices claimed psychic hood. First
they played mind games on ’I’, when shortly later set out as killers preying on ’I’. A few
years have passed with recovery. However a new recession has occurred once more.
Session 1
Ego One: This guy is stupid. I’m going to smoke him someday.
Ego Two: I hate this guy. We’re going to kill you fuck! We’re going to murder your ass.
I: No, I don’t see it. Your part of my mind, an aborted consciousness.
Ego One: We aren’t you, fuck that.
I: That’s a lie. You know nothing, you can’t see.
Ego Two: I hate this bitch… going to kill your mother.
Ego One: I’ll kill his family.
I: You can’t, if you could it would have been done by now. No, you say so but yet
nothing happens, as always. I’ll put you back into Tartarus.
Ego Three: I ain’t him. I’m going to shot him. Your going to die.
I: I’m waiting.
Ego One: I’m going to off him now.
Ego Two: Lets get him tonight. We’re going to find you.
I: Imagine a psychic who can’t find anyone. How many months has it been? Years? No
murderer could be that terrible. Meaning you suck, your bullshit.
Ego Four: I’m going to blow this fuck.
I: That’s gay.
Ego Four: Fuck him! Fuck your mom.
I: How about you fuck each other? I’ll watch. You can have an orgy. No, I don’t want
you.
Ego Five: He’s scared.
I: No, if there is any fear it is you.
Ego Five: I ain’t.
A few perverted thoughts pass through his mind, not to his like. He has strange
movements between the legs, behind the groin area.
Comments
It has been noted over the course of time that schizophrenia is very compensative.
If one thinks the hallucinations or auditory voices as egos, the egos nearly constantly
compensate for their inability to manifest on a material plane and their lack of
psychological development. For example, take the comments of harming the individual
or his relatives. One can see that they are threatened by the dominate consciousness,
therefore try to frighten it. These egos have to live on the concept of possibility, shown
that they never manifest and have to live in the possibility that they are there, somewhere
hidden and waiting to strike,- for their own egos sake. For if they knew the truth, they
would destroy themselves at the despair that their world is an illusion. To put it straight
forward, they are in sever denial about their existence. They conceive ‘I’s’ truth
statements as lies because they leech on possibility or the unknown. Plus they parasite on
what may be mentally harmful to ’I’.
Taking the egos relationship to ‘I’, one can see how they are in some way like
him. Notice the violent and sexual terms passed around. These are in a sense ‘I’s’
monsters, fitted for his psyche. One may mythically say that ‘I’ is in a sort of purgatory. I
interpret this positively, in that ‘I’ is being cleansed for a better and saner world.
Everyone, I am told, has occasional stupid or weird thoughts. Yet, the psyche of ‘I’ is
fitted for focusing attention on those strange thoughts, making them punishable sins to be
grieved over. He is burdened by his load.
Forgive me reader if this seems odd, including ‘I’ himself. Unknown to most, the
psyche is vast as a sea and what we know is only sized as the cup of water we drink.
Most individuals cannot bear the unconscious (collective and personal) manifesting
constantly and significantly in our waking life. Horrors we never thought we would see
or imagine present themselves to us, causing fear, doubt, anxiety, and uncertainty. When
the mind begins to merge, reality and illusion, memory and imagination, horror and joy,
become one. They are the Wrathful Deities of mythology and any individual must pass
through this gate to find the wholeness that Carl Jung once wrote.