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the first night you stayed
you told me about your dad dying
i told you it was ok to cry
and touched you,
just fingers at first
on your cheek
i saw grief
trying to drown itself
over the image of your dads piss bag
and drug addiction
you hid your face
in my sheets
and from the side
i saw it break
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we got drunk
and brought out your strap-on
i picked a hair off the dildo
and then you fucked me with it
i wanted burning heat inside of me
i pulled away and said:
its not you, its the purple dildo
then i lip-synced with it
to early 2000s pop
in my Hello Kitty dressing gown
3
youve told me about
Sirens
how they lure them in
i could have died
when you flew
i could have ripped
my organs out
i would have laid them
on the rocks
and spilled their blood
for you
4
strangulation sex
on gravel
in an abandoned lot
kissing well past the new year
in a love heat
rocks in our skin
rashes forming
stars
as you thrust my head back
burning
we escaped the summer
and took endone
recorded ourselves being naked fools
to Nothing Compares 2 U
laughing
as i inserted a fake flower stalk
into my post-sex pussy
after,
you brought ice cubes
shaped like puzzle pieces
from the freezer,
moved them up and down my back
with the lights off
the window open
and troi gymnopedies: no.3
playing
you were flowers pink
& waves in me
spells cast over
cold pizza
bedroom dancing
we take turns
being close
viewing the other
through a kaleidoscope
i like you a lot
and nearly cried whispering it to you
i was all eyes
on your soft sleeping face
5
we swam
my legs were wrapped around you,
just floating
i touched your breast
and tasted the salt on you
your eyes widened
you gasped
and then we kissed
when we stopped the people staring said
its ok, keep going, we like it
so we did
while you are dreaming of
trying to connect with me
as cloud form
im dreaming of
you formally telling me there are others
you are red sand
anxiety
you are a watch on my
terrified heart
we are
1 mood disorder
&
1 personality disorder
will we ever live harmoniously
next time
you are twisted,
know:
im here holding my own hand
listening to songs
with your name in them
Googing things like:
subtle signs someones in love with you
BPD relationship patterns
what it means to be in love
searches ive been making since i was 14
i wish i knew the answers to things like:
how to love you without scaring you away
how to take away your depression
how to think less selfishly about loving you
how to love myself
love is a cauldron
we are sick
but i will not be sorry
i found you