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I led a double life when I worked on the second floor of J.C. Penney's. By day
I was a simple store clerk, a sensitive young woman far from home and going
people.
more in line with their experience. On the second floor of Penney's, women
did not leave their husbands for trivial reasons, and certainly never within the
first eighteen months of the marriage! I am sure they assumed I was covering
some shameful and traumatic episode when I gave my pitifully naive and
inadequate explanation that I had simply grown tired of being married. It would
have gone without saying on the second floor that I was protecting my shame
myself to name the horrors my brute of a spouse had inflicted during one of
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In fact, my husband had been a thoroughly nice man. It was I who had been
man.
of home and family. Far from wanting a house of my own, I was actively
engaged in eliminating every possession of mine that I could not fit into a
floor of J.C. Penneys and resting, even as I type this memoir, not ten feet from
the computer.
It was the summer of 1973. I was twenty-one, Nixon was still President, The
War was still going on in Southeast Asia. I was living in Boulder, Colorado,
where I had been living since the fall of 1971, when I had followed my
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It would be at J.C. Penney's that I became initiated into the mysteries of my
machines, clothing for infants and toddlers, fabric and notions—and women.
Irene Manther ran the piece-goods department. She had moved with her
some idea of her age, and our age, and the speed at which global
technological colonization was advancing. And yet, for all her pioneer crossing
in the shadow of the Great Divide, in nearly fifty years of service, Irene had
been unable to traverse that gulf that lay between management and staff,
between men and women in the corporate world. Her lack of promotion was
second floor.
I did not share her rage. I was unable then to understand women's desire to
have any part of a position defined by and necessitating congress with men. I
considered the second floor of J.C. Penney's to be some kind of heaven. If the
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price of being overlooked by men was low wages, so be it. Irene Manther was
like a goddess to me, presiding over a vast and colorful matriarchate. Through
her capable hands flowed miles and miles of fabric, rivers of textiles
containing the iridescent visions of women crossing into, and then crossing
and wove themselves into the world beyond the second floor.
We sold these women the soft cotton flannel for their babies' rompers, the
denim and broadcloth for their children's playclothes, the silks and satins for
their daughters' prom dresses, the lace and nylon net for these daughters'
bridal gowns, the linen for the tablecloths, the gingham check for the kitchen
curtains, the fake fur for the stuffed animals, the discounted cotton floral prints
pantsuits, the cotton batting and fiberfill for their quilts, the nylon tricot for their
lingerie.
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The women seldom sewed for their menfolk. It went without saying that men's
clothing required too much fuss, what with tailoring, french seams, button-
holing, fly-fronts, cuffs, padding, lining. Most of their husbands and sons wore
blue jeans, uniforms, or business suits anyway. Cheaper to buy, and, besides,
the men were always so self-conscious, worrying all the time about what other
men might think of them. No, it was better all around just to buy them the
The section "Men and Boys" in the pattern books was modest, statutory even,
and always toward the back. It was the elegant gowns, the riotously bright
pages that courted our attention when we stood before the long counters with
The women who sewed back then were good homemakers. They practiced
thrift and industry. It was never admitted, never even hinted at, that this might
have been a form of art, a creative act, a mode of self-expression. No, these
were women sewing for their families, saving money, making do. And as we
ran the rainbow fabrics through their hands, and held the bolts up next to
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them, suggesting braids, and rick-rack, buttons, appliqués, bead-work, we
And over it all presided Irene Manther. There was not a question about
clothing construction for which she did not know the answer. She had sewn it
all. There was no quilt pattern she couldn't sketch by heart, no fabric stain for
which she didn't know a recipe, no body deformity for which she couldn't make
adjustments. Irene was even practiced in the lost art of "turning a suit," that
Depression-era economy that involved taking apart the seams of a man's suit
and reassembling it again with the worn side of the fabric facing in.
Irene had seen the skirts ascend from the instep to the ankle, then shimmy up
the knee. She had seen them plummet to mid-calf, only to scramble up again,
this time boldly cresting the knee to establish various base camps along the
thigh, in anticipation of a final bid for the summit. Irene had seen shoulders go
bare, then shoulders go square; bustlines puffed out like powder pigeons, then
flattened down like pancakes, then nosed out like torpedoes, and now
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human breasts at long last out of harness. Irene had witnessed waistlines
cinched in with corsets, then dropped loose to the hips, then smoothed over
with girdles, then gathered in with waistbands, then raised up to the breasts,
and now riding back down on the hips with bell-bottom jeans.
Irene had lived through two wars to-end-all-wars, and the Bomb, and the
Depression, and Korea, and the Cold War, and the Civil Rights Movement,
and the Women's Liberation Movement, and Vietnam. Through it all she had
raised children and grandchildren and seen them married and buried. Irene
had milked cows and churned butter and split wood and broken horses and
barn-raised and she had come through all of these changes to sell piece
goods on the second floor of J.C. Penney's where there weren't any men, and
I felt safe in Irene's matriarchate, and safety had been rare in my experience.
Raised in terror, I have spent most of my life trying to prevent what had
staggering proposition for someone whose whole prior focus had been
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resistance. J.C. Penney's provided a refuge for me, an oasis of pure sensory
freighted with the moral weight of a life-or-death decision, and yet which was,
For eight precious hours a day, I could be present for these bolts of sensuous
fabric. It was safe to define myself in relation to them. The demands were not
hands to trail over the satiny bolt ends that hung like bright flags into the
the loose fabric, as if running my hand up the smooth thigh of a woman, then
in a deft and impersonal gesture, flip the fabric up over the bolt end and
wedge it back into the soft and yielding space between the other fabrics.
It had also been my job to restore order to the spool rack. The spools of
thread were displayed on a tall metal frame with sloping dividers, where they
beckoned to the children like a giant busy-box while their mothers selected
patterns and passed the time of day with the clerks. The threads were
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arranged by color in the dividers, and it was a great game to the children to
see how many they could put in the wrong dividers before their mothers
I had my own game that I played as a keeper of the spools. I would try to see
how many I could sort by color without checking the dye number stamped on
the end. As many of the hues were similar, especially the blues, this posed
was as fond of it as I. Her name was Bobbi, and she would try to beat me to it,
especially if there were other tasks, like marking remnants, less to her liking. I
enjoyed Bobbi. She was not quick like Irene, but soothing and rhythmic in her
On the nights when I closed the register with Bobbi, she would insist on
examining all the nickels and all the pennies. She was a coin collector, and in
those days buffalo nickels were still fairly common. She would always buy
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them from the till. I was never clear exactly what markings Bobbi was looking
for on the pennies, but in her methodical way, she would turn and look at them
was clearly panning for gold. Still expecting to stumble across the mother
lode, I could not appreciate the ritualistic value of Bobbi's actions, which lay
Women were making quilts in Boulder. Sometimes they would bring as many
as a dozen bolts of fabric to the counter, from which they would ask us to
measure only a quarter of a yard apiece. Of course, this must have seemed
have been meticulously pieced together from the scraps and rags carefully
Women who considered themselves not clever enough to work outside the
calculations in their head as they figured for selvedge, for nap, for shrinkage;
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from other patterns. And some of them, the old-timers like Irene, worked
Everything in the women's world is ritual, and the fabric department was no
different from the beauty parlor or the baby shower in this respect. We spoke
about sewing, but this was only the most superficial aspect of our
stroked each other gently with a thousand psychic feelers; taking readings,
flame, we women. We were the ones who were responsible for the well-being
of the children, for seeing that we and that they survived. Our
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