Dr. Saunders made his way to Emily and checked her pulse and her blood pressure.

He turned around and looked at Jennifer.

“What happened?”

“I don’t know I woke up when I heard noises and when I came down she was lying on the
floor like this. But she talked to me just seconds before you arrived, she asked me not to
leave her, and then she closed her eyes. What is happening Dr.?”

He looked at Emily and then back at the blonde woman.

“She is in shock and probably has a panic attack, something must have caused that. Did
something drastic happen today or the day before, something that reminded her of the
events of her kidnapping?”

The man got up and made room for the paramedics that had arrived.

“No, not that I know, besides the time she left for the run we were together all the time. Can
you help her?”

“Yes we can, she just needs to calm down and get some rest, but that doesn’t fix things. She
needs to talk about what happened to her during her torture. If she doesn’t she will never
live a normal life anymore. It is the most important thing for victims to talk about what
happened to them and I am pretty sure seeing the job she chose she knows that.”

“I will try to talk to her. What if she doesn’t want to see a psychologist?”

“Oh it doesn’t have to be a professional, not necessarily though, I mean it would be better no
question if she would see a psychologist, but for now it would just be enough if she would
talk to someone she trusts.”

“Okay thank you.” Turning to the paramedics she saw that they put Emily on a stretcher.
“Where are you taking her?”

A young man walked up to her. “We don’t think she needs to be admitted, she needs to rest
and sleep and she can do that in her own house. So may I ask where the bedroom is?”

“Sure follow me.” JJ headed for the stairs.

“Dr. we would appreciate it if you would stay here tonight, just to make sure. If that would
be okay?”

“Umm.. Yes I.. Are you okay with that agent Jareau?”

JJ turned around. “Yes sure, but I am afraid we only have the couch to offer.”

“That’s okay, don’t worry about me, you go up to be with agent Prentiss.”

“Thank you.”

JJ made her way to Emily’s bedroom.

“So, we gave her something to calm her down, she should be sleeping for the next two
hours. If something changes, like if she is starting to shake or sweating you need to tell Dr.
Saunders and we have to bring her to the hospital.” The young blonde medic explained to
her.
JJ nodded and the men left the room.

JJ carefully sat down on the edge of Emily’s bed. Stroking her friend’s hair she cried silently.

“What happened to you in that room Emily Prentiss? Why can’t you tell me? I love you.” She
lay down next to her sleeping lover and cried herself to sleep.

----

JJ woke up, she saw that Emily was still sleeping calmly. Kissing her cheek she got up.

“Jayj?”

JJ spun around. “Emily! Did I wake you?” She sat down again and took the brunettes hand.

“Umm no, I mean yeah but that’s okay, what happened?”

“You don’t remember?”

Emily shook her head. “No I don’t.”

“You had a shock. When I woke up you were gone and then I heard something downstairs.
You were lying on the floor shaking and crying. You didn’t respond to anything, I was so
worried so I called Dr. Saunders and the paramedics were here.”

Emily got up and looked at the blonde woman. “I remembered that I got up and then made
some coffee, after that everything went black.”

JJ looked at her in concern. “Honey, we need to talk.”

Emily not knowing what she was talking about feared that JJ wouldn’t want to bring their
relationship to the next level. “JJ please, don’t leave me.”

“I will never leave you Em and it’s not about that at all. It’s about the things that happened
to you when you were abducted.”

Emily looked away not wanting to look into Jennifer’s beautiful eyes.

“Emily you need to talk about it, the things you said to the police and the doctors can’t be
everything he did to you. If you don’t get that off your heart something like this morning can
happen again.”

The older woman felt tears falling down she knew that the time would come, the time she
would have to talk about it.

She felt a hand on her shoulder and one on her cheek making her head turn to meet blue
eyes.

“Please Em, talk to me.”

Emily shook her head. “I can’t. I am so sorry Jennifer; here we are, back to where we
started yesterday. Me not being able to tell you everything, me still keeping things locked up
in my heart. But it just hurts too much and I don’t want to make you feel…”

“Stop it now! If you don’t talk about it, you will never have a normal life again and you know.
You see women like that every day and you tell them that even if it hurts they have to talk
about it, that it would help to deal with what happened to them. And now you are one of
those women, you can be a profiler and one of the strongest women on earth, but Emily
Prentiss needs to deal with it as well.”

Now Emily’s tears were falling and she was sobbing in JJ’s arms.

“He raped me JJ. He raped me every day, sometimes even more than once. He told me, how
he would kill me and every single one of you, while he did it. The doctors did a pregnancy
test and the result was negative, but I am overdue Jennifer, over a week already. He broke
me; I am nothing more than a little child. I don’t feel like the profiler I was anymore. He
broke me Jennifer, everything that was me, he took my pride…” Emily was crying
hysterically.

JJ, also crying, didn’t know what to say. She didn’t expect that. She felt helpless all she did
was holding her lover and cried with her.

They were like that for a long time until Emily started to calm down and regain control again.

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“I don’t know. I guess, once I say it out loud, it becomes real.”

“Don’t be scared Em. I will always be there for you, as a lover and a friend.”

Emily looked at her and felt her heart set out a beat when she heard the blonde woman say
that she was her lover. She had thought about that and called JJ lover herself. Never out
loud, but in her mind.

“Umm Dr. Saunders is downstairs, I should probably tell him that you are alright and that he
can go home.”

“He is here?”

“Yes the medics wanted him to stay, just in case you.. umm.. your condition changes.”

JJ came back after she told the doctor that everything was alright with Emily and that he
could just go home. She would call him if something would happen.

“What do you want to do now?” She sat down next to Emily again.

“I don’t know, I don’t thing I can take it if that bastard got me pregnant.”

“Maybe you’re not pregnant, it could be the stress or I don’t know.”

“I think we can only find it out one way.”

“Do you want me to come with?”

“No. Please don’t be sad or angry; this is something I need to do alone.”

JJ placed a hand on Emily’s thigh. “I am neither of these things Em. But you have to promise
to not do something stupid no matter what your doctor will say.”

Emily smiled. “I promise. But now I should take a shower and get ready, if I am lucky I will
get an appointment today yet.”

----
Emily was sitting in the waiting room of her gynecologist. She was scared; she couldn’t take
it if she would be pregnant with a baby that was caused by a rapist. She always wanted a
baby, but she never thought she would be in a situation like that.

“Emily Prentiss?”

She heard her doctor calling her name and got up.

“Hello there, I haven’t seen you in a long time Emily.”

“Hi Sheryl. I know, I was busy with work.”

“I understand. “ Sheryl smiled. “So what brings you here today?”

Emily sat down. “I think I might be pregnant.”

“Oh that is wonderful!” Sheryl squeaked. “Well, then I need you to sit down over here and I
will take a look.”

Emily went over where her friend and doctor told her. She didn’t want to tell her how she
became pregnant.

“Congratulations Emily, you are pregnant.”

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Emily felt her body tense. So the bastard did get her pregnant.

“Emily are you okay?” Sheryl asked concerned.

“What. Yes thank you Sheryl that is great. Umm can I go home now?”

A little bit confused Sheryl nodded. “Yes sure, just come back next week.”

“Yup I will.”

Feeling numb Emily got into her car and made her way home. She couldn’t believe she was
pregnant from the men she probably hated the most. The brunette tried to open her condo
door, but her hand was shaking too much. Giving up she rang the doorbell.

JJ opened the door and saw a pale Emily standing in front of her. She didn’t need any
answers, the blonde woman knew. Carefully she pulled the brunette into the condo and
hugged her tightly.

“I am so sorry hun. Let’s sit down okay?”

Emily nodded and let JJ walk her to the couch.

“Do you want to keep it?”

Emily looked her lover in the eyes. “Yes, I think I will keep it. It’s not his or her fault that her
daddy is a rapist and torturer.”

Emily said it with such coolness in her voice that JJ wasn’t sure it was the right thing to do.
But then she looked into her eyes and she could see that the other woman meant what she
said. They were going to keep that baby. Not we, she will keep it. It is her baby, you don’t
even know if she wants you to be a part of this. But JJ knew, no matter what, she would
 support Emily with everything she had. Jennifer hugged her again, holding her close and
stroking her back.

After a while they cuddled up against each other and fell asleep.

---

Emily was the first to wake up in the morning. She felt the warm body of a beautiful blonde
woman pressed against her. She didn’t know what she did to deserve JJ, but there must me
something that made her lovable even with the baby inside her now. The baby, her hands
wandered to her stomach, she didn’t know how long it would take her to love it, but she
knew that she would love it someday. And with Jennifer’s help she would be able to
overcome everything.

“Jennifer Jareau, you are my life.” She said softly, placing a kiss on her lovers exposed neck.

JJ chuckled. “What are you doing Miss Prentiss?”

Emily shrugged and smirked at the blonde. “What do you want me to do?”

JJ smiled and pulled the brunette into a passionate kiss. Feeling the other woman’s hands
wandering down her back and under her shirt she broke the contact and looked at Emily.

“Em, are you sure you want to do this?”

“To do what?”

JJ smiled.

“Jennifer, I can’t let what happened to me control my life.”

“I didn’t say you should stop living your life, but you just had a nervous breakdown
yesterday and I..”

JJ couldn’t finish her sentence. Emily pressed her lips against hers and pushed her gently on
the couch. Feeling her lovers tongue against her lips she opened her mouth and let the
brunette explore it. Pulling Emily impossible closer she reached her hands under her shirt
and up her back until she got to her bra. Unhooking it she parted their lips and nibbled the
older woman’s ear and coaxed a little moan from her. Smiling she made her way down her
lovers neck to her collarbone.

“This needs to get off of you sweetie.” JJ said in seductive voice and pulled gently on Emily’s
t-shirt hem.

Grinning Emily got rid of her shirt and exposed her well formed breasts.

“You are beautiful my love.” JJ whispered in her ear.

The younger agent trailed down her kisses, she reached the other woman’s breasts and
kissed them gently. Her lips tingled under the touch and she felt heat going through her
body. Switching positions so that JJ was on top now she placed kisses down Emily’s body.
She loved the sweet taste of her lover’s skin. Feeling Emily’s breathing increase under her
kisses she smiled against the agent’s skin. Jennifer looked up to find eyes that were filled
with desire and need. Carefully kissing every single scar the bastard left on the perfect body
she made her way up to find soft lips.

Undoing the blonde agent’s pants Emily slid them down and pulled Jennifer close, so that she
could feel her exposed skin on hers.
 “How about we take a bath?” JJ asked the brown eyes beauty under her.

Emily smiled. “Why not?”

JJ laughed. “Okay Lady, get your ass of the couch and in that hot tub you have in your
second bathroom.”

“Yes Ma’am.”

Both women made their way up to the bathroom with the hot tub in.

Standing in front of her lover Emily realized how much more cloth JJ was still wearing.

“You know, you really need to get rid of all of this.”

“Really, I don’t think I will be able to do that, I am stunned by the sight.” JJ joked.

“Well then I think I will have the whole tub for my own.”

“You wouldn’t dare.”

“Watch me.” Emily stepped out of her panties and into the hot tub.

Opening her mouth she looked at her lover sitting in the hot tub covered by foam. “I can’t
believe you!”

She jumped into the tub with her cloth on, which caused Emily to squeak.

“If you think you can get rid of me, you are mistaken my dear.”

Emily still laughed. “You are unbelievable Jennifer Jareau. I love you.”

Jennifer looked at the brunette woman. She never felt that happy in her life. They had said
that they loved each other before, but it was different then. It always was platonic. This time
though it had a much deeper meaning.

JJ kissed Emily gently on her lips. “I love you too. And now help me get rid of those.”

Both women laughed and Emily undressed her lover. Seeing a naked JJ in front of her she
couldn’t help but to smile. “What did I do to deserve you Jayj?”

“I am not quite sure yet, but give me some time to think about it and I am pretty sure I will
come up with something.”

Emily threw water at JJ and laughed again.

“I love it when you laugh.”

“Well, keep up that work and you won’t hear anything else tonight.”

JJ raised an eyebrow. “What if I want to hear something else yet tonight?”

“Then you have to work your magic.”

“Come over here.” The blonde chuckled.

 Emily made her way to her lover and leaned her back against JJ’s front.

“You know what, I don’t think I need any action tonight, I just want to sit here with you and
relax.”

JJ smiled and kissed Emily’s neck. Nibbling on her skin she made the woman in front of her
moan.

Emily turned her face to kiss the other woman.

Jennifer’s hands wandered down to rest on her lover’s stomach. She could feel Emily tense
under her touch.

“We can do that together Em; you’re not alone in this.”

Emily put her hands on JJ’s and stroke the back of her hand.

“Just hold me Jayj.”

“Gladly.”

Emily rested her head on JJ’s shoulder.

Lying like this both women enjoyed each other company; they didn’t need any words to
express their feelings.

It was enough for Emily to be held by the love of her life.

And it was enough for JJ to let Emily be close to her after everything that had happened to
her.

“Emily you are shaking, are you okay?”

“Yeah I’m fine; I’m just a little bit cold.”

“You wanna go out?”

Emily shook her head. “No, let’s just turn on hot water.”

They did as Emily said.

“When do we know, I mean when do you know if it is a girl or a boy?”

Emily chuckled. “We will know when I’m in the third months.”

Jennifer felt her heart beat a little faster when her lover said that they would know. She
wants you to be a part of this. Oh my god, you will be a mom in less than 8 months!

“I can’t wait for you to be here.” She gently stroke Emily’s stomach. “But to be honest, I
never pictured you to be the prego-person.” JJ teased.

Emily turned her face and looker at the blonde woman. “Oh really, well I think you can start
imagine an even more out of control, moodier and a bigger Emily Prentiss.”

JJ kissed her. “I can’t wait for all of this to happen. Well maybe not the moodier part, but the
rest. We should get out of here and get dressed Em.”
 “I don’t want to.” She laughed. “But I guess you’re right.”

Getting up Emily almost fell over the edge of the hot tub. JJ caught her.

“Careful Miss Prentiss.”

Emily put her hand on her forehead, she felt very dizzy all of a sudden.

“Emily are you okay?” Jennifer realized the little move.

“Yeah I was a little dizzy, but I guess I just got up too fast. I feel better now.”

The younger woman put her hand around Emily’s waist to comfort her.

They got their bathrobes and went to Emily’s bedroom to get dressed.

“You know I don’t have enough clothes here anymore.”

“I wouldn’t mind if you would walk around naked Jayj.”

“Well then..” She let her robe fall to the floor. And stood in front of her lover how god made
her.

The brunette smiled. “Don’t do that to me Jennifer Jareau.”

“Don’t do what to you?” She smirked and the other woman.

“Don’t try to seduce me.”

Slowly walking towards Emily she giggled a little. Opening the knot of the agent’s bathrobe
she let her hands wander down on Emily’s back.

The older agent whimpered pleased under JJ’s touch. “Tell me I am not dreaming this?”

JJ chuckled. “I am not sure, what happens if I do this?”

She pulled Emily closer and placed kisses on her neck, going down to her collarbone and
finally finding the curves she was longing for. Softly kissing Emily’s breasts the brunette
started to moan. Pushing softly they made their way to Emily’s bed; JJ pushed her lover onto
her bed. Looking into chocolate brown eyes she smiled.

“Em are you ready for this?”

Emily Prentiss pulled the beautiful blonde close and kissed her passionately, breaking the
kiss blue eyes were looking at her. “More than ever.”

They started kissing again, tongues fighting for control; JJ’s hands cupped her lover’s perfect
breasts squeezing them gently. Breaking the kiss she kissed every inch on Emily’s body,
paying the most attention to her breasts and stomach. She loved how she could feel Emily’s
muscles twitch under every kiss. Making her way up again their lips met.

Emily pulled JJ closer, so that she could feel her breasts pressed against hers. She loved the
younger woman’s smell stroking her back her hands wandered to JJ’s well formed ass.
Stroking over it, the blonde gasped.

They broke their kiss again and looked into each other eyes. Both women wanted this more
than ever and neither of them knew how long they could control themselves.
 “What was that?” JJ asked hardly audible.

“What was what?” Emily asked JJ confused.

The door rang again.

Emily groaned. “This can’t be happening.”

Kissing the older agent JJ pleaded. “Please..” kiss, “don’t…” kiss, “go… just ignore it.”

Emily smiled. “I can’t Jayj, what if it is Hotch?”

“What would he want from you?”

“Oh I don’t know, maybe check if I am okay after the paramedics were here and I had a
major break down?”

“Ugh.” JJ rolled to Emily’s left side. “I hate this.”

Kissing the young agent on her forehead she chuckled. “Well it seems that we have to wait a
little bit yet.”

Putting on her bathrobe she made her way down to the door.

Emily Prentiss wasn’t surprised when she saw her boss standing in her doorway.

Aaron Hotchner was worried after he got the call from Dr. Saunders that one of her agent’s
had a break down. He was surprised to see Emily Prentiss in her bathrobe with damp hair.

He cleared his throat. “Umm, I can come back later, I see you don’t really have..”

Emily laughed, realizing how she was standing in front of her boss. “No, no it’s fine, I will go
upstairs and get dressed, make yourself comfortable on the couch.”

She led her boss to the couch and made her way up to her room again.

“We need to get dressed, Hotch is here.”

“That man needs to work on his timing. “ JJ teased pulled her lover close and kissed her
softly.

“I know, but he just cares a lot about his team.”

After both women were dressed they made their way down.

Hotch, how was sitting on the couch as he was told, looked at his team mates. Both women
had damp hair and both apparently needed to get dressed. His thought wandered off. Don’t
be ridiculous Aaron, they probably both showered – in two separate showers – he added.
Realizing how close the two became he smiled. Aaron knew that Emily and JJ were close, but
it seemed after what had happened to Emily they were even closer. Jealousy came up, but
Hotch shook that off very quickly. They are just friends, and Emily trusts you too. You know
that there will never be more than trust and friendship.

“Hey Hotch.” JJ hugged him.

“Jennifer, how are you?”

 “Great.”

“Glad to hear, but I must say I am a little bit angry with you.”

Jennifer looked at him.

“You could have called after Emily had her break down.”

The blonde agent blushed. “I am sorry Hotch, I simply forgot.”

Hotch smiled. “I was joking, of course I would have appreciated it if you would have called,
but as Dr. Saunders told me, thing were very busy and he didn’t even have time to talk to
you himself. I am just glad that you are okay.”

Emily smiled. “Thank you Aaron. Can I bring you something? A coffee? Tea?”

Hotch shook his head. “No thank you, I am good, I just wanted to stop by and see how you
were doing. How are those cuts?”

Putting her hand on the big scar she sighed. “They are alright, you can barely see the small
ones, but the big scar on my chest is still umm.. very visible.”

“It will go away soon Prentiss. But there is another reason I am here today.” He cleared his
voice and continued. “The police needs another statement.”

“But Hotch, she already did that in the hospital.” JJ interrupted.

“I know JJ, but she was under shock and might have forgotten something important.”
Looking at Emily he added. “I can’t force you to do it Emily, but you know how important
that is.”

Emily nodded. “Yes I know. And I will do it again Hotch, don’t worry.”

Hotch smiled. “You can come by whenever you want; we will do that at the BAU.” He got up
and walked to the door.

Emily followed him. “Thanks for stopping by Aaron, say hi to the rest of the team, and tell
them I miss them.”

“I will. We miss you too Em. Take care and get well soon, the BAU needs you. And your
friends do too.”

They hugged each other and Hotch made his was to his car.

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Emily made her way back to the blonde. JJ was standing with her back to her, revealing her
neck when she put her silky blonde hair into a messy pony tail. The brunette put her arms
around her lover waist and kissed her neck.

Shuddering by Emily’s kiss JJ turned her head to find the beautiful brown eyes she fell in love
with during the last few weeks.

“Do you think he knows something?”

“Nah, I don’t think so, why should he. You’ve slept and showered at my place before and I
don’t think he would even consider that we would have a romantic relationship Jayj, he’s
Hotch.”
 JJ chuckled. She was right; Hotch would never expect his two female colleagues to be gay.
Jeez, even JJ wouldn’t believe that she would be in love with another woman, especially not
Emily Prentiss, her best friend.

“Em, what exactly is this thing we have?”

Being startled by JJ sudden questions Emily swallowed hard and sat down on her couch.
Jennifer joined her and their eyes locked.

“I don’t know..” pausing for a few seconds the older agent continued. “No that’s a lie, I know
what we have. I know that I love you and not only as a friend, the last few weeks had been
crazy and all I wanted was to be with you. Not Derek, not Pen, only you. You gave me the
comfort I needed you knew what to say to make me feel better. I love you with everything I
have Jennifer Jareau and even if you don’t feel the same way and think we should rather be
friends, my feelings for you will never change. You lighten up my day, you’ve saved my life
twice, and my love is the least thing that I owe you.”

Jennifer felt warmth and relief going through her body. She couldn’t fight back the tears that
were falling down on her cheeks now. For her it was so much more than just a confession
that the woman in front of her loved her. For JJ it was a sign of trust, she was pretty sure
that Emily Prentiss had never opened up to someone like that before and JJ did more than
just appreciate this gesture of trust. She knew how hard it must have been for the closed up
woman that always tried to hide her feelings.

The brown eyes changed, instead of love there was doubt and fear now. “Why don’t you say
something?”

JJ smiled at her. “I don’t know what to say Emily. This was beautiful. I don’t think there are
words to describe how much I loved it, how much I love you. I would never thought ‘I love
you’ between us would mean more than just the love between two friends. But now that I
have these feelings for you, and know that you feel the same way I do, I am more than
complete. You complete me Emily. I never want to lose you or our baby.”

Emily flinched when JJ mentioned the baby that was growing in her stomach. Putting one
hand on her stomach she felt JJ’s reaching for it at the same time.

“Don’t be scared Emily.”

“I’m not scared. Well not very, I just don’t know what to tell everybody once I start to
show.”

JJ looked at her; she didn’t think that Emily wasn’t going to tell the truth to their friends.

“You weren’t gonna tell them the truth?”

The brunette shook her head. “No. I can’t Jayj.”

“Why?” The younger agent asked in disbelief.

“Because I don’t want them to know that he raped me. It is bad enough that you know, I
don’t want the other to feel guilty that they didn’t come in time.”

“We’re not blaming..”

“Oh JJ please don’t start. I know they do, I know you do.”

“What makes you so sure about it?”

“Because I would do the same. I would feel horrible if I wouldn’t have found you in time gave
him more time to torture and rape you.”

JJ broke their eye contact. She hated the coldness in her lover’s voice when she talked about
it. But she also knew that Emily was right, they all felt guilty for not finding her in time and
now that she knows that her best friend and love of her life was raped and pregnant from
her rapist, she felt even worse.

“I hate this.”

Emily was confused now. “You hate what?”

“That you know me so well.”

Emily smiled. “Well I guess it comes with the job love.”

“Not fair.” JJ pouted.

“Sorry?”

“Nope, not working.”

“Is this?”

Emily reached forward and placed a soft kiss on JJ’s soft cheek.

“Almost.”

“You know what; you make this harder that I should be Jennifer Jareau.”

JJ chuckled. “Well you just need to learn how to apologize.”

Raising her eyebrows Emily looked at her. Pushing her lover down on the couch she started
caressing her neck with soft kisses. She loved the scent of the blonde, making her way to
JJ’s collarbone and then to her cleavage. Making the woman lying under her moan silently.

“Well I think this is apologizing enough.” Getting up she threw a challenging look to her
lover.

JJ smirked. “Oh don’t you dare.” Pulling her back on top of her both women laughed.

Capturing the soft lips her hands wandered to soft brown hair. Pulling the brunette
impossible closer their kiss deepened. What was a sweet and soft kiss at the beginning, was
getting a more and more passionate one. Reaching down to Emily’s hem she pulled the shirt
over the older woman’s head breaking the kiss for a few seconds. Suddenly JJ felt Emily’s
body collapse on hers, the brunette let out a painful sound.

“Em what’s wrong?” Gently slipping out under her she turned her over to look for the thing
that caused her lover’s pain.

Emily made a grimace of pain. “I don’t know. It just hurts.”

Looking at the blonde woman in shock she added. “Jayj I think I’m bleeding.”

The blonde intentionally reached for the big scar along the brunettes torso when Emily spoke
again.
 “Not there JJ.” Her voice broke.

“Oh my god!” She saw the dark red stain on Emily’s pants. “We need to get you to the
hospital!”

“I can’t move it hurts too much Jayj.”

“But you need to go see a doctor Em.” JJ hated herself for the way her voice was shaking.
She was supposed to calm the other woman down, but instead she made everything worse.

“I will call Morgan he can carry you down to my car.”

“NO! I’ll rather walk then.”

“Are you sure?” JJ was worried.

“No, but I am sure that I don’t want Derek to be here.”

Trying to get up another wave of pain ran through her body.

Somehow Emily managed to stand up and walk to her car.

JJ always at her side making sure that just in case Emily would fall, she was ready to catch
her.

On their way to the hospital the blonde had trouble keeping her lover awake.

“Em you need stay with me okay? I can’t have you pass out on me here. Talk to me okay?”

Emily nodded. She felt so tired; she knew that she had lost a great amount of blood.

“No Emily, no nodding, you have to actually talk to me.”

“I’m sorry.” The brunette said under something that almost sounded like a chuckle.

“We’re almost there.”

“Okay. Do you think I’ve lost the baby?”

JJ’s grip around the steering wheel tightened. She swallowed hard. “I don’t know Em, I hope
not.”

JJ wasn’t sure if that was what the other woman wanted to hear, but it was certainly the
truth. She didn’t want Emily to lose the baby. Even though Jennifer knew that the other
agent still struggled with the thought of having a baby from her rapist, JJ was excited to
become a mom. She knew it was selfish, and Emily had every right to be relieved if she
would miscarriage, but JJ always wanted kids.

“Shit!”

“What?” Emily’s voice was weak.

“Traffic.”

“Great, theirs is barely any traffic on this street, but now, it is kind of ironic.”
JJ looked over to Emily. “Em there is nothing ironic about it; if I don’t get you to the hospital
soon you will have lost too much blood.”

The brunette nodded, she was cold and tired and didn’t want to fight anymore. She closed
her eyes and darkness surrounded her.

“Emily?!”

No answer.

“Emily please talk to me, stay awake!”

Still no answer.

“Shit shit shit!”

She turned on the sirens and made her way through the city.

---

“You came here just in time. Mother and baby are alright. She is still very weak and needs to
rest, but they are out of danger.”

JJ sighed. “Thank you Doctor.”

She made her way back into the little white room. God, how much she hated hospitals, and
now more than ever.

Stroking her lover’s hair she said softly. “Emily Prentiss you need to stay out of hospital until
the baby is here. I really don’t like them. I actually never have, but the last two times I had
to come here my hatred for them just increased.”

“Well then you should choose a girlfriend with a different job.” A weak and hardly hearable
voice stated under a chuckle.

“You’re awake!” JJ smiled.

“Yes I am. Did I?”

The blonde shook her head. “No you didn’t.”

“Good.”

JJ’s smile grew bigger. Now she knew that Emily wanted to keep the baby just as much as
she wanted to. They were going to be a family.

“The others are on their way.”

“Good.” Emily paused. “No wait, not good!”

“Why?”

“Because they probably want to know why I’m here.”

“So?”

“Jennifer I don’t want them to know.”

JJ sighed. “But we have to tell them something. They want answers, they are worried about
you.”

“I know, and I appreciate it, I really do. I am still not ready for this.”

The blonde took her lover’s and into hers. “I know. What do you want me to tell them?”

“I don’t really know.”

“I will come up with something.” She squeezed the brunettes hand gently.

“Here we go.” Emily said, and the team entered the room.

“OH MY GOD! Don’t you ever scare me like that again my brown eyed goddess!” The quirky
blonde tech woman came running towards her and hugged her tightly. “I was so worried,
first you collapse in the middle of your living room and then I have to hear that you passed
out in JJ’s car because of blood loss. You know I love you, but if you keep doing this to me, I
might just delove you again.”

Emily had to laugh. She loved how the other blonde woman always made her feel so much
better.

“I promise, enough worrying for the next 10 months.”

“Good.”

Pen gave the brunette a light kiss on her forehead.

“Okay enough, my turn now.”

Emily smiled when she saw her best friend approaching her.

The good looking dark profiler also kissed her. “You scared me Em.”

The female agent felt guilt building up inside her. “I’m sorry Derek.”

“Nah that’s okay. I’ve missed you and I would have liked it to see you under different
circumstances.”

“I know me too.”

She smiled at Rossi and Hotch.

“So why exactly did you lose so much blood that it caused you to black out?” Rossi looked at
her.

Emily looked at JJ for help. The blonde woman nodded.

“Umm… Her scar opened up again and somehow there was still glass in there and it cut
something open.”

JJ didn’t know if it made any sense, but she couldn’t come up with something else. She knew
that if they would go and talk to the doctor Emily would have to tell them the truth. But she
hoped her friends would buy it.

“Can something like that happen?” Derek looked at Reid.

 Spence didn’t know what to say, he knew that what JJ just told them was bs, but he also
knew that she probably had a reason why she was lying.

He cleared his voice. “I assume it can happen yes.”

Jennifer’s eyes found Reid’s. She knew that Reid lied and she loved him for it, she also knew
that Spencer didn’t want any explanation, at least not in the near future.

“Okay. But they fixed it right?” Penelope looked at Emily.

“Yes they did, I am all fixed up now and ready to go home.”

“You’re not going anywhere that fast sweetie.” JJ said and took her lover’s hand. “You need
to stay here for at least two days.”

“You’ve got to be kidding me!”

“Unfortunately no, I’m not.”

“Ugh.”

Hotch stepped closer and looked at her. “I don’t want to see you in the office for the next 4
weeks Prentiss. Forget about the statement, it can wait and I want you to forget about work
too. You need to rest and recover.”

“But Hotch…”

“No buts Emily. I am not telling you this as your friend, but as your boss. If I see you at the
office within the next four weeks I will suspend you.”

Emily eyes widened. “You will suspend me?”

“Yes I will.”

“Okay. Then I guess you won’t see me the next four weeks.”

“You know, that doesn’t touch me at all Emily. For the first time since you joined the BAU I
am actually happy to not see you at work.”

Emily blushed. Was her boss flirting with her? No that couldn’t be, he was her boss and a
very good friend that was all.

“Thank you.” Emily said in a sarcastic tone.

“You’re welcome.” Hotch smiled. “I need to get going though, I won’t see you soon.”

“Bye Aaron.”

“I think we should all leave now, you need to rest.” Rossi said and looked around the room,
to meet everyone’s eyes.

Everybody left the room, except JJ, she kept staying at Emily’s side.

Rossi turned around. “JJ are you coming?”

 Looking up she made his gaze. Right, they didn’t know, for them they were just good
friends, the team didn’t know that the woman who was lying in the hospital bed was the love
of her life.

“Yeah sure.” She let go off Emily’s hand and walked out of the room, before the door fell
shut behind her she gave the brunette one last glance. Emily smiled at her.

After a couple of hours Emily felt something stroking her hand. When she opened her eyes
she smiled. She had missed to blonde’s company during the hours she was gone.

“You’re back.”

JJ smiled. “Yes I am.”

“Good. I’ve missed you.”

The blonde leaned down to kiss Emily’s cheek. She would have loved to kiss her like she
really wanted to, but there was the chance that someone would step into the room and then
they would be busted.

“I’ve missed you too. But I had to go.”

“I know JJ, but that doesn’t change the fact that I have missed you.”

Jennifer chuckled. “So how are you love?”

“Umm I think I am alright. I’m very tired and super annoyed by this one nurse. She keeps
checking on me even though I was trying to sleep. How I am supposed to rest if this chick
keeps asking me if I am okay?”

JJ gave the brunette ‘the look’.

“What?” Emily raised her eyebrows.

“Emily, it is her job. She has to make sure that you’re okay. I think I would kill her if she
would let something happen to you.”

“I need to get home Jennifer.”

“I know you hate it here and so do I, but you need to rest and recover and even if you don’t
care about you, think about the baby.”

The baby, Emily’s hands wandered down to her stomach. She was glad that there still was
something growing in her. She wanted to have this baby and she wanted Jennifer to be a big
part of it. Emily didn’t care if it was as her lover or wife or just as her best friend.

“You’re right. But JJ if something ever happens to me..”

JJ put her hand on top of the brunettes. “Nothing is going to happen to you.”

“You don’t know that, but is something does happen to me, I want you to take care of him or
her.”

“I will okay. But now I want you to think about something else now.”

Emily smiled. “How about our next date?”

 “Next date? Did we ever have an actual date?”

Emily thought for a moment, now that JJ mentioned it, they never went on a date, they just
stayed at her condo the whole time.

“So it is time for our first date then.”

“So we are officially dating?”

Emily looked at JJ. Were they dating, or was it just something convenient, some kisses and
some cuddling? She didn’t know. She knew that she loved the blonde, but were they ready
to take the next step? Emily Prentiss was sure she wasn’t ready to out herself to the world.
But on the other hand she wanted to show everybody how much she loved Jennifer Jareau
and how happy the blonde woman made her.

“I don’t know. Are we?”

JJ’s lips slightly brushed over Emily’s and she whispered. “I think we are Emily Prentiss.”

Emily felt her heart flutter and a smile appearing on her face.

--------

“God I am soo glad to be home.” Falling on her couch Emily let out a sigh.

The younger agent had to laugh. “You act like you have been away for weeks.”

“It felt like a life time Jennifer.”

Still laughing she made her way to the couch and sat down next to her lover.

“So you still up for a date?”

Turning her face to meet beautiful blue eyes the brunette nodded. “Of course I am.”

JJ smiled. “Okay be ready at 7, I will meet you downstairs.”

“Are you going somewhere?”

Jennifer took Emily’s hand into hers. “Hun, I have to go to work.”

Emily looked down on her lap. She felt stupid; of course JJ had to go to work again. “Right.
So I guess I will see you tonight.”

The blonde woman felt horrible. She hadn’t left her lover’s side since she was found. JJ
cupped Emily’s face and kissed her. Feeling the softness of the brunette’s lips against hers
she didn’t want to let go. She felt the other woman’s tongue brushed against her lips and she
let it enter. Eagerly kissing JJ pushed Emily down on the couch causing the woman under her
to moan.

“Didn’t you say something about going to work?” Emily was able to say under JJ’s hot kisses.

Jennifer groaned. “Way to ruin the mood Miss Prentiss.”

Emily giggled. “I don’t want to be the reason that you have lost your job.”
Slowly letting go of the beauty under her JJ sat up. “Okay, I will see you tonight.” Placing a
soft and loving kiss on the brunette’s lips Jennifer Jareau made her way to the door and her
car.

She didn’t really want to leave Emily by herself, she was afraid that something could happen
to her. But she also knew that Hotch only told Emily to stay home not her and seeing that
her boss didn’t know about their relationship there was no reason for her to stay at home as
well.

She straightened herself up and walked into the BAU. JJ went to her office and shut the door
behind her. She didn’t have a good feeling but nevertheless she needed to focus on her
work. Looking over the files on her desk she sighed. She opened the one that was lying on
top. It was a case about little girls who have been abducted and murdered. They caught the
UNSUB fairly quickly but she remembered how much this case had affected Emily. Every
time when a case involved children the team was very tensed and eager to find the UNSUB,
but Emily was always trying especially hard to find them and save them. JJ wondered if that
had something to do with her lover past, there was still so much that Jennifer didn’t know
about the brunette. She hoped that the older woman would open up to her a little more, but
she knew that it would probably take an amount of time for her to do so.

“Knock knock, can I come in?”

JJ looked up and saw her other best friend standing in the door.

“Sure. Come on in Pen.”

Penelope Garcia took the seat on the other side of the desk.

“How can I help you?”

“Oh my little angle I didn’t come to work, I came to talk.”

JJ raised an eyebrow. “Talk about what?”

“About our brown haired friend. I checked and there couldn’t have been something still stuck
in her scar that could have caused the bleeding. So what was it? I know you know something
spill it!”

JJ struggled, she didn’t want to lie to her friend, but she also promised Emily that she
wouldn’t tell anybody. “Garcia I promised Emily I wouldn’t tell anyone.”

“Is it that bad?”

JJ shook her head. “No, it’s.. Pen please don’t make me tell you. Em will tell you everything
once she is ready for it.”

“Okay I guess she will. I am just so worried. I have never seen her like that before, first she
gets kidnapped and tortured by that man, then she collapsed on the floor in the middle of
her apartment and right after that she passed out because she lost too much blood. She
never seemed soo…”

“Vulnerable, I know.” JJ interrupted her.

“Yeah. Take good care of her okay?”

“I will Pen.”

The blonde tech woman smiled and left JJ’s office.

 Not thirty minutes later she heard another knock on her door.

“Come in.”

“Hey beauty. How are you?”

Jennifer smiled, looked up and saw the handsome face of Derek Morgan.

“I am alright thanks. What do you need?”

“Just talk.”

“Okay, then talk.”

“How is my Emily?”

Jennifer flinched when she heard the male profiler call Emily his. Was she jealous? No, she
just wanted to show the world that she and Emily were happy together.

“She is hanging in there.”

“Does she still refuse to talk to a psychiatrist?”

The blonde saw the concern in the dark brown eyes she nodded slowly.

“Yes she does, but that’s okay, the doctor said it would be enough if she would talk to
someone about what had happened to her, for now.”

“So to whom is she talking?”

JJ looked at him. “Umm me?”

Morgan smiled and blushed slightly. “Yeah right, sorry.”

Jennifer just smiled; she didn’t know what to say. She knew that the brunette and Derek
were very close friends and it probably hurt him to hear that she didn’t want to talk to him.
JJ would have felt the same way.

Morgan had left a couple of hours ago and JJ had to finish off some paper work. She couldn’t
wait for her date with Emily tonight. She glanced at the clock on her office wall and realized
that it was five thirty already.

“Time to go home.” She said to herself and started to gather all her stuff together.

As she left her office she saw Reid approaching her.

“You are leaving already?”

“Umm yes.” The female agent felt uncomfortable being around her friend; she knew that she
still owned him an explanation.

“Okay I will see you on Monday then.”

“Yeah see you.” Relieved that he didn’t bring up what had happened in the hospital.

------
Emily Prentiss nervously looked into the mirror. She wore her dark blue jeans with a red t-
shirt that clung tight to her curves. Her hair was wavy, and she put on decent make up.
Maybe the wavy hair was too much, but after she thought that, she heard her doorbell ring.

Walking down her stairs she checked herself in the mirror before she opened the door. She
gasped by the sight in front of her. Jennifer looked stunning; she wore a tight blue dress
which revealed a lot of cleavage. She had her hair pinned back and wore almost no make-up.

“Wow JJ you look amazing.”

JJ blushed at the other woman’s compliment.

“You look pretty amazing yourself.”

Jennifer looked at her lover and thought that it was the most beautiful sight she ever laid
eyes on.

“Ready to go?”

JJ grabbed Emily’s hand and pulled her close.

Emily giggled. “Let’s go.”

Sitting in the car JJ never let go of the brunette’s hand.

“Jayj, where are we going?”

“I am not gonna tell you.”

Emily pouted. “I don’t like surprises.”

“Tough luck missy.”

“Hmpf.”

JJ drove to a nearby lake and stopped.

“We’re here.”

“We are?” Emily looked confused.

“Yes we are.” JJ chuckled.

She got out of the car and opened the trunk to get a little basket.

Emily stood by the car and looked at her lover and raised her eyebrows.

“A basket?”

“Are you telling me that you never went on a picnic before?”

“Of course I did.” Emily stuck her tongue out.

“Ok well then follow me.”

“Gladly.”
 JJ took Emily’s hand and they walked to a free meadow near the lake.

The older agent looked around and saw flambeaus and a blanket.

“This is beautiful Jayj. I don’t know what to say.”

“Then don’t say anything.”

The blonde softly pulled the other woman down next to her. It was a warm night and the
moon was almost full. JJ grinned; it seemed like one of those romances they both didn’t
really like. Two lovers, sitting at a lake in a warm night.

“A penny for your thoughts.”

“Oh I was just thinking about how perfect this night is, just like in one of those sappy love
movies.”

“No it’s so much more than that.”

Emily pulled her lover into a passionate kiss.

“So are you ready to eat?” JJ smiled.

“Yes I am. What do you have?”

JJ reached into her picnic basket. “I have strawberries, whipped cream, ice cream, chocolate,
and some whine.”

Emily took a strawberry and ate it. “Hmm, very good.”

“Well I’m glad you like it.”

The brunette smiled. “You are an amazing woman. I feel like I am in a fairy tale.”

Jennifer blushed. She grabbed the whipped cream and a strawberry. “You want some?”

“I sure do.”

“Well come and get it.” The younger woman pulled up her dress and put the, with whipped
cream covered strawberry into her belly button.

Emily laughed and reached forward. “Even better than the first one.”

“I’m glad you like it.”

“How could I not?” The brunette smirked at her partner.

“You want more?”

“More of what?”

“More strawberries.”

“Well I have something better in mind than strawberries.”

Emily leaned over the blonde and started kissing along her neck.
 “You don’t really think that I brought all that stuff here and we’re just gonna make out?”

Emily looked up. “I actually hoped so yes.”

“No…” Emily cut her off when she pressed her lips against the blondes.

Kissing her deeply the older agent let her hands wander down JJ’s dress and up to her hair.

JJ got up and pushed Emily and herself into a sitting position, ever breaking the kiss. She put
her hand behind the brunette’s neck pulling her closer and deepening the kiss. With the
other hand she reached under the other woman’s t-shirt and stroke her back softly, causing
her lover to moan into her mouth.

Emily reached at JJ’s zipper and pulled it down. She felt the blonde woman shiver under her
touch and smiled. Stripping her dress off her shoulders she revealed perfectly formed
breasts.

Pulling away from JJ’s mouth Emily made her way to the blonde’s beautiful curves. Kissing
and caressing them.

Jennifer let out a moan as the brunette kissed her breasts. She wanted this for so long and
today felt like the perfect day. Pulling Emily’s head up she found her lips again.

“Are you sure you want this?” JJ looked deep into pitch black eyes. She smiled, she knew
that Emily wanted this as much as she did, but she still wanted to make sure.

“I want you Jayj.”

“Good, then get rid of this sexy shirt of yours.”

Emily chuckled and pulled her shirt over her head. She wore a black laced bra which was
almost see through. JJ roughly pushed her lover down and kissed her eagerly. Making her
way down to Emily’s pants she kissed every inch of her body. Finally reaching her pants she
opened them and pulled them down. She smiled when she saw that Emily was wearing
matching underwear. Making her way up to the brunette’s breast she opened up her bra and
started to kiss her lover’s hardened nipples, causing her to moan. Feeling fingers trailing
down her back JJ felt a shiver going down her spine; she looked up and saw her lover smiling
at her. She loved her face, every inch of her body was kissable and loveably of course, but
Emily’s smile always made her heart flutter and gave her a warm feeling going through her
entire body.

“I love you.”

Emily didn’t answer she pressed her lips against the blonde’s; the best answer she could
have given JJ.

Kissing eagerly the brunette felt JJ’s hand wandering down her breasts, stomach and to her
panties. Her heart beat increased and she felt a jolt going through her body. She was more
than ready for this; this was the perfect time for both of them making love the first time.

JJ caressed the older agent’s neck, slowly entering the brunette’s most private parts. She felt
Emily’s hips arching against her touch and she could feel how wet the woman under her was.

Emily whimpered to the touch of her lover, moving her hand into the blonde’s panties she
was even more turned on at how aroused Jennifer was.

Kissing and rubbing their bodies against each other both women started to get more and
more turned on.
 Feeling electricity going through her body JJ knew she neared her climax. Her breathing got
faster and it was getting harder for her to think clearly. The only thing in her head was that
she made love to the most amazing person in the world. She let out a soft moan when she
felt Emily carefully biting her nipples. She wondered how the woman under her was still able
to perform such things; JJ wasn’t even able to control her voice anymore.

“Oh Em I am so close.”

Her words were barely audible but the brunette must have understood her, JJ could feel
Emily smile against her skin. Not minutes later Jennifer’s whole body started shaking and she
let out a scream when she came. Collapsing on top of her lover she had a hard time
controlling her breathing. She was soaking wet, but happy. Knowing that this done yet, she
forced herself to gain control again, so she could give her lover the same treatment.

Emily was pleased with her work when a shaking and gasping Jennifer was lying on top of
her trying to recover. She didn’t care that she didn’t reach her climax; it was enough for her
that she satisfied the blonde. But then she felt the younger agent move and continuing her
massage. Moving her hips with the other woman’s movement she could feel herself come.
The knot in her stomach exploded and she screamed the blonde’s name.

After several minutes of recovery they were laying on the blanked cuddled up. JJ stroke
Emily’s arm. Kissing her shoulder.

“This was amazing. You are amazing.”

Emily chuckled, turning around to face her lover. “You are the one who set all of this up.”

“I know, but without you it wouldn’t have been half as much fun.”

Both women laughed.

Emily kissed JJ softly on her lips. “Je t‘aime ma beauty. Du bist mein Leben. Tú eres mi
mundo. No voglio perderti.“

“Okay how many languages were that exactly?”

The brunette smiled. “Four.”

“Aaaand what did you say?”

“Nothing special, just the usual, how nice the weather is, how hungry I am.”

The blonde nudged Emily gently on her arm. “Very funny. But seriously I am starving, let’s
get dressed and eat okay?”

“But I like you to be naked, here lying with me.”

“Well were are in a public park, we had sex already, but can’t just stay naked, somebody
might see us.”

Both women laughed, gathered their close together and got dressed.

After they’ve finished their picnic the two lovers just sat there staring at the lake in front of
them. JJ had her hands around Emily’s body pulling her close. Resting her chin on the other
woman’s shoulder she enjoyed her closeness. She placed a kiss on her neck. Jennifer Jareau
was so thankful that she had this; Emily being in love with her, letting her enter her world of
denial and little brick walls and a baby on its way.
“What is it you’re thinking about Jayj?” Emily teased, when she realized the blonde was lost
in her thoughts again.

“Nothing important, just random stuff, like how nice the weather is, how beautiful the lake
looks you know?”

“Very funny Miss Jareau.”

“Payback.”

“No fair, I didn’t lie.”

“Who said I am lying?”

Emily turned her head and looked at her lover.

JJ laughed. “Okay okay I was lying, but this isn’t fair, you know millions of different
languages and I only know English and a little German.”

“First of all it’s not millions it’s a few and don’t work up you pretty head with this, I will tell
you what I said. Just not now, now I want to enjoy being here with you”

Translations: I love you my beauty. You are my live. You are my world. I never
want to lose you.

“We should go now.” Emily suddenly said, after they spent what felt like hours sitting at the
lake.

“Why?” JJ asked confused.

“Because you are freezing.” The brunette turned her head to face her lover.

“No I am not.” The blonde lied.

“Jennifer I can feel you shivering and your goose bumps.”

The younger woman rolled her eyes. “I don’t want to go.”

“Why?”

“Because this here, feels so perfect and surreal. I am afraid if we go now, I wake up and
figure out that it was just a dream.”

Emily turned around and faced the blonde woman. Cupping her face she placed a soft kiss on
her lips. “Does this feel like a dream?”

The blonde looked deep into the dark brown eyes. “Hmm I’m not convinced yet.”

The brunette smirked and placed another, this time more passionate kiss on the blonde’s soft
lips. JJ started to moan. Gently pushing the younger woman on the ground Emily was now
lying on top of her deepening the kiss. Her hands wandered down JJ’s body and back up to
her hair. Breaking the kiss she looked at her lover, the usual light blue eyes were dark now
and full of lust.

“You still think this is a dream?” she asked teasingly.

 “I umm… “JJ couldn’t think straight she was too turned on. “No, I don’t, now I have the
feeling that you love to torture the people you love.”

Emily stiffened when JJ finished her sentence.

The blonde gasped when she realized what she had said.

“Em I am sorry I didn’t mean…”

“It’s alright. I have to get over it.”

“I know but still, sometime I just don’t think before I speak.”

Emily rolled down and lay down beside the blonde taking the blonde’s hand in her own.

“He broke me JJ.” Emily felt tears streaming down her cheeks. “I will never be the same
again.”

“Emily looks at me.”

The brunette turned around and their eyes locked.

“Now listen to me. He didn’t break you, don’t think like that. He made you stronger than you
were before. You survived him, everything he did to you. Don’t let him control you life Em.”

“Thank you.”

“Always.”

The blonde smiled at her lover.

“I want to go home now. Please?”

“Yeah sure. I’m sorry I ruined this.”

“No, don’t be. You didn’t ruin anything, this night was perfect in every way.” Emily placed a
kiss on the blonde forehead and got up.

-------

“Hey, what are you doing here? Is everything alright?”

“I don’t know, you tell me.” Morgan asked the brunette profiler cold.

“What do you mean?” Emily didn’t know why he was so angry with her. She knew that they
hadn’t talk that much since she didn’t work anymore, but that was just because they didn’t
see each other every day anymore. They have talked on the phone a few times and it
seemed like everything was fine, but now the dark man was standing in her door way
looking at her like she has done something to really piss him off.

“Can I come in?” he asked without looking at her.

“Umm sure come in.”

She stepped aside to make him room to enter her condo. He went to the couch and sat
down. Waiting for her to join him.
 “So why are you here?” She asked and tried to look him into the eyes, but he looked away.

“You know, I always thought we are friends, hell best friends even.”

“We are Derek.”

“Then why do I have the feeling that you don’t trust me and talk to me anymore?”

Emily looked down on her lap.

“See that is exactly what I mean, I’ve been worried sick when JJ called us you had to me
admitted to the hospital because you’ve lost too much blood.”

“Derek I ..”

“No let my finish Em.” He interrupted her. “I know that the little story JJ told us wasn’t true.
But I thought you would tell me sooner or later, I guess I was wrong.”

He now looked at her. She could see the hurt in his eyes and it tore her apart. She felt
guilty, he trusted her with so much and she didn’t even have the guts to tell him the truth
about her torture, even though she knew how much he cared and worried about her.

“Can I now?” She asked softly.

The dark man nodded.

“You are one of my best friends Derek and you mean a lot to me, you know that. And yes
you are right I didn’t tell you everything.” Her voice started to shake and she could feel tears
coming up.

Derek Morgan didn’t expect for her to start crying and it wasn’t his intention to get her
started. He put a hand on her shoulder to encourage her.

She looked up and continued. “He umm.. he raped me and the doctors said I wasn’t
pregnant when they ran the tests. But when I got home I didn’t get my period and I felt sick
all of the time, I started to panic and that was the reason of my nervous breakdown. It came
to my mind that I could be pregnant. I went to the doctor shortly after I was feeling better
and she told me that I was pregnant. I was bleeding very badly that day I was admitted to
the hospital, it was because of the pregnancy and not ‘cause of the scar.”

The brunette was sobbing now and Derek held her tight. His teeth clenched, this bastard
raped her, and if that wasn’t bad enough she was pregnant now too. He stroke her hair
trying to calm her down. After a couple of minutes she stopped crying. He didn’t want to let
her go, he wanted to hold her, comfort her. Derek Morgan had no romantic feelings for his co
worker, but he still enjoyed her company more than he ever had with his girlfriends. He
trusted her with his life.

She pulled out of her friend’s embrace. “I’m sorry Derek, I didn’t want to break down in front
of you and I am sorry I didn’t tell you, I just wasn’t ready.”

“I am not mad at you Em; I was just worried that’s all. Are you gonna keep the baby?”

The brunette cleared her throat. “I will, yes.”

She could feel him tense.

“Emily if you need any help, I am always gonna be here for you.”
 “I know Derek, and I appreciate it, but I think I will be fine.”

And here you are again Prentiss, lying again. Great. She wasn’t ready to tell him about her
and Jennifer. JJ. Emily looked at her watch, it was 8:30 in the evening and JJ should be
home soon. How was she supposed to explain why the blonde agent comes to her condo
after a work day? She couldn’t.

“It’s late already Morgan, I don’t want to throw you out but..”

He smiled. “I understand.”

They got up and she walked him to the door. “Thanks for stopping by.”

“No problem Princess. I’ve missed you.”

“I miss you too Derek. But hey, next week you will have me back.”

“God, already? It was so nice and quiet without you being at work.”

“Hey!” She nudged him in the arm. “Don’t be mean okay?”

“I am sorry. I will see you next week then. Can’t wait, teasing Reid wasn’t as much fun
without you.”

Emily had to laugh. They hugged and she closed the door behind him.

----

JJ parked her car on the side walk and got out of it. She had a major headache, she had a
whole day of paperwork behind her and all she wanted was to cuddle up on the couch with
Emily. Everything had been great between them. When she walked up to the elevator she
froze.

“Derek hi, what are you doing here?”

“I was going to ask you the same question.”

JJ blushed. “I umm I wanted to see how Emily is doing.”

“Oh I just checked on her, she seems to be fine.”

JJ could feel the tension in the room.

“Yeah umm well have a nice evening Derek.”

Without anymore words she got in the elevator and made her way to Emily’s door.

Derek shook his head. “Not that this was weird.” He said to himself. Why is she really here?
You just told her that Emily was fine; she could have just left with you.

“Em I am home.” JJ took of her jacked and threw the keys in the little basked.

She didn’t get an answer.

“Emily?”
Still no answer, JJ started to worry. She ran up the stairs and stopped immediately when she
saw the brunette standing in front of the mirror her shirt slightly pulled up so that it revealed
her stomach. Emily had her hand on her stomach, which showed a tiny bump already, and
sighed.

“You look beautiful.”

The brunette jumped and turned towards the blonde woman.

“I didn’t hear you coming.” She blushed a little bit.

“I am glad you didn’t, that was priceless.”

Walking towards her lover JJ couldn’t hold back a grin. She wrapped her arms around her
and kissed her cheek.

“I feel stupid.”

Emily looked deep into the blue eyes she loved so much.

“You don’t have to.” JJ almost whispered.

“Derek was here.”

“I know, I met him on my way up here.”

Emily let go of JJ and looked at her in concern.

“You did?”

“Yes.”

“Great.”

“What?” The blonde looked at her confused.

“He is going to suspect something.”

“No he won’t I am just a friend checking on you. But it was kind of weird. Why did he came?”

Emily sat down on her bed. “He wanted to talk, he knew that something was wrong with
me.”

“And, did you tell him?”

The brunette nodded. “Yes I did. He offered help.”

JJ sat down next to the older agent and took her hand. “You have me.”

“I know, but I couldn’t tell him that right? So I had to lie to him again.”

“I am sorry Em.”

“You don’t have to be Jayj, I could have told him but I didn’t want to, not yet.”

“Alright. How about we call it a day and go to bed. I am super tired.”

 “I have absolutely no problem with that.” Emily smiled and kissed JJ.

---

They were lying in bed and JJ felt Emily shake next to her.

“Em are you okay?”

“Yes I am fine, go back to sleep Jayj.” Emily sounded colder than she intended to and felt
bad for her harsh tone.

“You sure?”

“Yes I am, I was just dreaming.” Emily lied.

“Okay. I love you.” The blonde wrapped her arms around her lover and pulled her close to
her. She rested her hands on Emily’s stomach taking the brunette’s hand into hers gently
stroking the back on her hand.

“I love you too Jennifer.”

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Emily woke up in the middle of the night, cold sweat on her forehead. She felt JJ’s arm
wrapped around her. As much as she loved the woman sleeping next to her, all she wanted
now was to be alone. She hated herself for feeling that way, but nevertheless she snuck out
of her bed. The brunette was shaking and freezing; she got her bathrobe and put it on.
Making her way down to her living room she got dizzy and had to hold on to the stair rail.
Great, now you are getting sick, just what you need Prentiss. She thought. Finally making
her way to the couch with a mug of coffee she sat down and rested her free hand on her
stomach.

“Hey you. You know you are giving me quite a hard time, that’s not very nice. But I guess
you have all the right to be angry with me, but I really love you and I can’t wait for you to be
here. And guess who is even more excited than me? The blonde beauty sleeping upstairs in
my bedroom. So please don’t give me anymore trouble okay?”

She knew that it didn’t make any sense to talk to the baby inside her, but she wanted to
make sure that the baby knows that it was loved and wanted. She felt another cramp and let
out a little scream. She needed to check with Sheryl, even though she has never been
pregnant and hadn’t been with a lot of pregnant women she knew that having cramps wasn’t
a very good sign.

After a little while on the couch she made her way back to her bedroom and lay down beside
the blonde.

----------

Emily got up very early, so that she didn’t have to explain to JJ why she wanted to see
Sheryl. There was no need to worry the younger woman; Emily would call her if it was
something serious.

When she stepped into Sheryl’s office there was nobody sitting in the waiting area.

“Hello?”

A blonde woman peeked around the corner. “Hi Emily, come on in.”
 “Why is nobody here Sheryl?”

“Oh because we don’t open before eight, but I figured you wanted to come in fast,
considering that you called at 5:30 in the morning.”

Emily blushed slightly. “I’m sorry I just..”

Sheryl put her hand on Emily’s arm. “No need to apologize Em. May I ask you to sit down on
the chair?”

Emily made her way into the examine room and lifted up her shirt.

Sheryl brought the ultrasound machine in and put some gel on the brunette’s stomach.

“Okay let’s see. Why exactly are you here Em?”

“I had cramps last night and I think a fever.”

“Anything else?”

Emily thought for a moment. “Well I was sweating and freezing at the same time and I got
dizzy quite often.”

The doctor took a close look to the ultrasound. “I can’t see something here, but I will draw
some blood and see what it will tell us. And you will get a prescription for prenatal care.”

“Okay. You can’t tell already what it will be?”

Sheryl shook her head. “Nope not yet, you are about 2 and half months along so when you
will come in the next time we might be able to see something.”

“Thank you Sheryl.”

“You don’t have to, it’s my job. But I want you to call me whenever you have cramps again.”

Emily got up and hugged her friend. “I will.”

“And Emily?”

The brunette turned around. “Yes?”

“Take it easy with the job.”

“I will try my best. Take care.”

“You too.”

Before she went back home, the brunette stopped at a pharmacy to pick up her medication.
She guessed that JJ would be awake already and probably worried sick.

Arriving home she found a freaked out JJ walking around the big living room with her phone
tucked to her ear.

“I don’t know Hotch I came to see how she is doing and nobody was home.”

After a small pause the blonde almost yelled. “Don’t tell me to relax Derek… I will.. and..
yes.. I know.. okay.. but only 30 more minutes… thank you.. bye.”
 Jennifer turned around and couldn’t believe her eyes. “Where the hell were you? You can’t
just leave without a word!”

Emily slowly walked towards the blonde and pulled her into a soft kiss. “I am sorry, I needed
to walk a little bit and I didn’t want to wake you.”

Jennifer looked up to meet the brunette’s eyes. “Don’t do that again okay? I had to come up
with an excuse why I was here that early and I am not very good with lying.”

“Okay next time I am planning to vanish just like that, I will let you know.” Emily joked.

“Pinky promise?”

The blonde held out her pinky waiting for the brunette’s reaction.

Emily had to laugh. “Okay. Happy?”

JJ smiled. “Very. Let’s have breakfast I am starving.”

------

“Hurry up we will be late JJ!”

Emily was standing at her door waiting for her lover to go to work. She couldn’t wait to work
again. Emily Prentiss wasn’t the time who enjoyed staying home from school when she was a
teenager, not because she liked school, but she hated it to sit at home not being able to see
her friends or go out. The brunette knew, the last two days weren’t easy for anyone around
her, she was restless and moody. But she assumed that the second habit was the fault of her
hormones, which were going crazy. Emily had to chuckle when she thought about the last
night; her and JJ were watching The Lord of the rings and she started sobbing because it
was so unfair how Sam was treated.

“No we won’t Em, even if I have to take five more minutes to get ready we would be the first
one’s in the office.”

Emily sighed. She knew that the blonde was right, but she didn’t want to be late and what
could be better to prevent that, than to be super early?

The younger agent came running down the stairs in Emily’s direction, but tripped over her
own two feet and fell right on her face.

“OW!”

Emily couldn’t help but to laugh so hard she started crying and her stomach started to hurt.
It was one of those moments when no one had a camera to take a picture or to record a
video.

“This is all because of you!”

JJ tried to pick herself up but winced after she was halfway done.

“I’m sorry Jayj, here let me help you.”

Emily reached out a hand, trying to help the fallen angel.

The blonde grabbed the helping and, looked up into those dark brown eyes, which were still
shiny from crying and grinned. Jennifer pulled hard on the brunette’s hand causing her to fall
on top of her.
 Both women were now lying on the floor laughing their souls out.

“What did you..” Emily didn’t finish her question. “Never mind, I know what that was for. But
now we really need to go to work.”

The blonde wrapped her arms around the slim waist of the woman lying on top of her.

“And what if I won’t let you go?”

“Are you threatening me agent Jareau?”

“What if I would be?”

“I don’t know, I would have to call my boss and tell him that a gorgeous blonde woman is
holding me hostage.”

Jennifer had to chuckle. “Well you would have more to explain to Hotch than this if you
would call me gorgeous blonde.”

“I know and do you want me to?”

Brown eyes met blue ones. JJ didn’t know what to answer. She knew that they would have to
tell their team sooner or later, but she wasn’t ready for it, not yet.

“Em I…” She started.

“Jayj honey I was joking, I would never tell Hotch yet and I would certainly didn’t make you
decide whether you want them to know now. Let’s go get to work.”

They got up and hurried to Emily’s car.

When both women entered the building all Emily could see were blonde curls.

The tech goddess Penelope Garcia came rushing towards her and hugged her tightly.

“I am so glad to have you back my beauty! Come and sit, I have a lot to tell you, you missed
out on some serious gossip.”

Emily laughed. “Hi Pen. It’s nice to see you too.”

The blonde woman let go and looked at her friend. “You don’t look ready to get back to
work.”

Emily raised an eyebrow.

“I am just saying, you look pale and like you’ve lost at least 5 pounds.”

“I am fine Garcia. And I promise you I am more than ready to work again.”

“No fieldwork Emily.”

The three women turned around and saw Hotch standing in his office door.

“But Hotch I..”

The older man shook his head. “No Prentiss I won’t let you go on fieldwork just yet. You can
stay with Garcia for the first two weeks.”
The brunette could see that there was no need to argue with the unit chief, so she nodded in
agreement.

“JJ I need you, I’ve got a call from Phoenix about 3 murderers.”

The blonde nodded. “Just let me get my bag into my office and I will be right there.”

“Alright.”

Jennifer squeezed her lover’s hand and made her way to her office. She still didn’t like the
fact that Emily would start to work again, so soon after her torture. But she was pleased that
Hotch would let her stay in Quantico for the first two weeks, she hoped by then the dark
woman will have told the other that she was pregnant and Hotch wouldn’t allow her at all to
go back into the field. But until then, she would have to control her emotions and act like she
is just worried about a friend and not the woman she was in love with.

“Look who is back! How are you, everything alright?” Morgan gave his best friend a wide
smile and then took a small glance at her stomach, knowing what was hidden in there.

“Hey Derek, I am more than alright and ready to get back in action. At least how much
action I can get being here with Garcia.”

“Oh I bet I’ll be a lot of action with my baby girl.”

The brunette smiled. “You are probably right. So let’s get going I think Jennifer and Hotch
are ready to present the case.”

Derek and Emily made their way to their conference room. Receiving a shy hug from Reid
and a hand shake from Rossi Emily sat down besides JJ.

“We have three murders. Two male and one female victim, all are working as doctors in the
Phoenix general hospital.”

Derek took a look at the pictures in his file. “How were they killed, I don’t see any stab
wounds or gunshot wounds.”

“Yeah, well that is the problem. The doctors think it might have been anthrax, or some other
nerve gas.”

Rossi looked up from the pictures. “Anthrax? Are they sure?”

Now Hotch answered. “No, but they are sure that it must be something similar to it, if it isn’t
anthrax.”

“That is crazy.” Emily said in a monotone voice. “Why are people doing this?”

“We don’t know, but we have to find the person who is killing those people. Wheels up in 30
minutes.”

When they all got up Emily felt a hand on her arm. “You stay here are we clear Prentiss?”

The brunette looked into her boss’ deep brown eyes. “Yes, but please keep me updated,
even if you don’t need Garcia, call me.”

“I promise. You should go get into Penelope’s office, I know she is waiting for you, filling you
in on gossip.” He smiled and left the female agent standing in the door frame.
Emily had to smile, she knew for a fact that those two weeks she was grounded wouldn’t get
boring, but she still wanted to go out and do her job, instead of sitting here waiting for her
team to come back and tell them that they got the Unsub. Before joining her blonde friend
she wanted to stop by JJ’s office. Knocking on her door she waited to hear the blonde agent’s
voice.

“Not now, I am busy.”

When Jennifer heard her door open she sighed annoyed. “I said I don’t have time now, how
about you just give me a call in a couple of hours.”

“Okay, well I guess I can call you later.”

Jerking up her head the blonde saw the dark woman on her way out.

“Don’t you dare!”

The brunette laughed. “But you said..”

“You know exactly if I would have known it was you I wouldn’t have been like that. So could
you please come here Miss Prentiss.”

Emily smirked and sat down on the chair. “So are you ready?”

“Ready for what?”

“I don’t know Jennifer, I mean they don’t know what caused their deaths and.. “

JJ looked at her lover and raised her eyebrows. “Wait, are you worried?”

“Yes of course I am, I mean I am worried about all of you, what’s so weird about that?”

“Nothing, it’s just, I have never seen that side of you Em, that’s all.”

“Well it is there, you better get used to it.”

The blonde stood up and walked into a corner of her office.

Emily following her with her eyes looked at her confused.

JJ smiled at her and gestured the brunette to come after her.

“Jayj what is this all about?”

When Jennifer was sure that they were practically invisible she grabbed the brunette by her
hips and pulled her close for a passionate kiss.

Emily didn’t know what her partner was doing and pulled back. “Are you crazy?” She hissed.
“Someone will see us.”

JJ put a finger on her lover’s lips. “Shhh.. No one will see us.” She pointed with her finger at
the little camera hanging over them.

“You didn’t really think I would leave you here just like that?”

“Jennifer Jareau you are trouble.”

 “What why? No one saw us.”

The brunette laughed and placed a soft kiss on the blonde lips. “I love you. And now you
should go.”

Sighing Jennifer let go of Emily, knowing that she was right. “I love you too. I will give you a
call once we get there.”

Both women left JJ office and went different direction.

Emily didn’t have a good feeling, but she knew that she couldn’t do anything about the love
of her life leaving.

“Knock, knock, I am allowed to come in?”

The big black door flew open and she received another embrace from her blonde quirky
friend.

“You are always allowed to come into my castle of fun and juicy gossip.”

The brunette laughed and took the seat next to her friend. “So, what is that gossip I missed
out you were talking about today?”

“Oh my deary friend, you wouldn’t believe it, but I think JJ has someone special in her life
again.”

Emily giggled. “Really, and who could that be?”

The blonde shook her head. “I have no Idea, but I know that her eyes are glowing more than
usual these days. I though you knew, seeing that you two have spent a lot of time together
lately.”

“Nope, I have absolutely no idea. Sorry.”

“Hmm okay, then I guess I will have to ask her once she gets back here.”

Garcia noticed the absent sight of her friend and gently squeezed her arm. “Are you alright
cutie?”

“What?” Emily jerked out of her thoughts. “Yes I am just a little worried. You know I am not
used to just sit here and let them go.”

“Yeah I know what you’re talking about. Welcome to my life.”

“Well no offence, but that side of your life sucks big times.”

“Tell me about it.”

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„So what do you do the whole time?“ Emily looked over at Pen and smiled.

“Well I do this and that.”

Feeling a slight pain in her stomach, Emily’s hands flew right to it. She winced a little to the
pain.

“Are you really okay hunny?”

Looking up the profiler looked into her friend’s worried eyes. Another wave of pain causing
her to wince again, the blonde woman rushed to her side.

“You know, I think we should get you something to lie down. And don’t tell me that you are
good Prentiss, I know that something is wrong with you.”

Garcia helped her dark friend to get up and they started to walk towards JJ’s office. Halfway
up there Garcia had troubles holding the brunette up and she could swear that Emily passed
out for a couple of seconds.

“Come on sweetie stay with me, we are almost there.” She didn’t care if the brunette would
kill her, but she would definitely call Hotch and tell him that she is going to bring Emily to a
hospital.

Once they made their way to the liaisons office Garcia lead Emily to the small couch and
placed her on it.

Looking down on her friend the blonde technical analyst started to worry. She didn’t know
what exactly happened to her while she was kidnapped, but it must have caused some
injuries that hadn’t healed properly yet.

Realizing that the brunette slowly drifted off, she rushed to her side and stroke her cheek.

“Emily honey, please stay with me. I need you to talk to me.”

Opening her eyes Emily smiled. “I’m here, don’t worry Pen, I am going to be alright in a
couple of minutes.”

“HA! Don’t worry? Em you passed out on our way here and now I can barely keep you
awake. I am going to call Hotch and tell him that we are going to a hospital.”

“No you are not!” Emily almost yelled. “I am fine, I just have some cramps, they will go
away in no time trust me. I have had them since I got kidnapped.”

The brunette got herself into a sitting position, to show her friend that she was getting
better.

“Okay I won’t call Hotch, but let my call a doctor to check you out.”

“Garcia really, I don’t need a doctor. I feel better already.”

The blonde looked at Emily. “Emily Prentiss I swear if anything like this happens again I will
kick your ass and then bring you to a hospital.”

“Thank you.”

“No don’t thank me and don’t think you can get away with that. Em I am your friend and I
love you to pieces, I wanna know what is going on with you.”

The brunette sighed, she knew that she couldn’t keep that secret from her blonde friend, and
neither was she comfortable lying to her. Her right hand and resting on her stomach she
started to explain. When she finished her story, the blonde sat down beside her and put her
arm around her.
“I don’t know what to say Sweet cakes I mean I am pumped that I am going to be an auntie,
but under that circumstances I don’t know.”

“It’s okay Pen, I got over it. I just want my baby to be healthy and loved, and I don’t want to
think about how it was received.”

“But the cramps, I mean they have to be bad for the baby right? Shouldn’t you go see a
doctor?”

The brunette gave her friend a sad nod.

“Well then get up, I will drive you.”

Thankful for the blonde’s support Emily took her hand and both women were on their way to
Emily’s SUV.

When Emily was looking for her keys she heard a noise. But when she turned around she
could only see her friend.

Penelope felt a shiver going down her spine. Something is wrong here Pen. She said to
herself.

His heart started pounding when he saw both women appearing on the parking lot. It was
time for revenge. He had been stalking the brunette profiler since the day his father was put
in jail. He knew all about her sick relationship with the sexy blonde agent, to him it was
wrong. God didn’t want women to fall in love with women. For him it was just another good
reason for his intention. He walked closer and flinched when he stepped on a little twig. He
saw both women turn around, but he was sure that none of them was able to see him. He
got even more excited once both of them realized that the car had flat tires. He knew by
their profession that they would be suspicious, but he didn’t care, he wanted her to panic. He
started walking towards them. It was time. Seeing both women turning towards him he
knocked out the chubby blonde one and gave his full attention to his actual target. He knew
he had to be fast, because within seconds the agent could get to her gun. He struck her face
and made her tumble to the floor.

“Because of you my father will never return to me.” He kicked her side before she was able
to get up.

Getting raged up and more and more angry by the thought of never seeing his father again
he kicked her over and over again. He then smiled at the sound of breaking ribs.

“Get up!” He yelled at her.

When she stood in front of him, her face covered with blood he couldn’t help but laugh. How
did such a weak woman survive his father’s torture.

He punched her hard in her stomach causing her to pass out on the floor. He kicked her
stomach and face several more time. When he was pleased with his work he made his way
out of the parking lot.

“Ow what the…?” Garcia woke up with a thudding pain in her head.

She looked around and gasped when she saw Emily lying next to her.

“OH MY GOD! Em wake up? Please wake up!”

She made her way to her friend. Her face and clothes were covered with blood. The blonde
woman wasn’t sure is she was still breathing and she started to panic. Not knowing of it
would be a good idea to move her she reached for her phone and called an ambulance.
She reached out to the brunette and realized that she was shaking all over. Seeing her friend
like that she felt tears streaming down her cheeks.

“Emily please wake up.” She sobbed. “I called an ambulance, please stay here with me.”

“Baby….” Emily tried to say when she woke up she was shocked how weak her voice was.

Garcia jerked her head at the brunette.

“Oh hey, there you are..No no hunny don’t move the doctors will be here any minute…”

“Garcia… the baby.. how.. are you.. what.. did he.. “ It hurt her to talk. This bastard must
have broken some of her ribs and she was sure something was wrong with her right wrist as
well. But that was the least thing Emily cared about, although she couldn’t remember
everything, she knew that he kicked her in her stomach. Her baby had already survived the
bleeding, but the brunette was sure that this time she wouldn’t have that much luck. Her
hands wandered down to her stomach. Oh god, please.

“Shh don’t worry about me okay? I am fine, just a little head ache. Emily, stay awake
please!” She started to panic again when she saw the brunette’s eyes close again.

“Hurts too much.. so tired..” She wasn’t able to say more. Everything went black again.

-----

The team arrived at the local police station. The sheriff came up to them and led them into
their office for the next couple of days.

“We still don’t know what exactly caused their deaths, you will find little cups with different
medication I have to ask you to take it as a precaution. The hazard team still doesn’t want
anyone entering the hospital so you have to work from here at the moment.”

The sheriff looked at all the different faces. “I know it is not ideal, but I can’t do more right
now.”

Hotch stepped forward. “No that’s all we need right now thank you. Agent Jareau will come
with you to discuss the press conference with you.”

Jennifer walked off with the sheriff leaving the rest of the team behind. Her mind was still
with Emily, she was worried that the brunette would do something stupid. She shook her
head to get her thoughts back to the case. No time for that JJ you need to focus on the case.

The sheriff closed his office door and offered JJ a chair. “So how does this press conference
work?”

“Well once we have a profile we will release it to your men. After that or in the meantime I
will release the same profile to the public. We won’t tell the people why the doctors died, it
would give a mass panic and that is the least we want right now. We will just tell them to
look out for a specific type.”

“But don’t the people have the right to know that there was an attack with nerve gas?”

“Yes they do. But it wouldn’t be the best idea. Trust me when I first heard about this case I
wanted to call my family and warn them, but with the whole country knowing we can’t really
do our job. So no matter how much you want your family to know what is going on, you
cannot tell them.”

The man in front of her nodded. “I understand.”

 “Thank you.”

Making her way back to her team JJ could hear that they were already talking about a
profile. Please let this be over soon.

Later that day the blonde was getting ready for her press conference. She didn’t have a good
feeling about all of this. Something was going to go wrong this time, she knew. This Unsub
was different from all the others, he knew what he was doing he didn’t leave any traces and
he got exactly the targets he wanted.

When she was on her way out she felt something poking her arm. Looking at that place she
saw a little red spot. Why? What did just happen?

Looking around she realized that her vision wasn’t very clear anymore. What was happening?
She had to hold on to the wall behind her to not fall to the floor.

“JJ what are you doing? You should be out there already, they are waiting for you.” Morgan
came walking towards her.

When he didn’t get any answer he gently put a hand on the blonde’s shoulder.

“JJ are you alright?”

“Umm.. no I don’t think so.” She couldn’t hold herself up anymore and fell into her co
workers arms.

“JJ? Jennifer? Hey talk to me.” He didn’t get an answer and saw that her eyes were closed. “I
need a doctor here!” He yelled across the room.

Hearing Morgan yell for a doctor Hotch made his way to him and the blonde agent in his
arms.

“Morgan what happened?”

The dark agent shook his head. “I don’t know. I asked her why she wasn’t out there already
and didn’t get an answer so I asked her if she was alright, she said no and passed out.”

Looking at the female agent Hotch saw the little red stain on the white blouse. “What’s that?”
He pointed his finger.

“I don’t know, I didn’t see that.”

“It looks like something stung her.”

Derek looked at his boss. “Like a needle or something?”

“Yes maybe. Where is that doctor?! We need a doctor!”

The unit chief’s voice sounded worried and Derek could swear that he could hear a little hint
of panic.

“Hotch what do you think happened to her?”

“I’m not sure. But I know she needs to go to a hospital now.”

The medics finally arrived and took the blonde agent to the hospital.
 “Someone should go with her Hotch.”

“Yes you’re right. Dave, will you go?”

David Rossi nodded and went into the ambulance.

“This is crazy Hotch. How could he get in here?”

“I don’t know Derek, but I want to find it out as fast as possible. Let’s get back to work.”

----

“Do you have any idea what was injected?” The nurse asked Rossi, when he entered the
emergency room.

“No, I wasn’t there. And I am sure that nobody saw anything.”

“I don’t want to sound do harsh, but if we don’t figured out what was in that syringe, things
don’t look so good.”

“Well isn’t it your job to find that out and save her?” The older man snapped at the nurse.

“Umm yes I mean sometimes we aren’t able to do that fast enough.”

David sat down on the chair and put his face in his hands. “I know I am sorry I am worried
that’s all.”

“And I understand that. The doctors will do their best to save her.”

They better do, otherwise you will have a couple of very pissed off agents in here.

----

“What happened here Miss?” The paramedic asked Garcia when they arrived and started to
treat Emily and her.

“I.. i.. um.. I don’t really know, I got knocked out. Oh god please don’t let her die. You have
to save her and the baby.”

“Baby?” The young man looked at her.

“Yes she is pregnant, we were just on our way to a doctor, she had cramps shortly before we
got attacked.”

“Jack did you hear that? The woman is pregnant!” He shouted to his co worker.

“She is what?!” The man with the grey hair looked at the woman he was treating. He sighed
and shook his head.

Penelope assumed that he didn’t give the baby a big chance to still be alive.

She looked at the man who took care about her. “He doesn’t think that the baby is still alive
does he?”

“I don’t know Miss. But to be honest I can hardly believe that the fetus survived this attack.
We are lucky if…” He paused looking at the blue eyes filling with tears.
 “You have to save her do you hear me? You just have to!” Garcia said in a harsh tone
through her tears.

“I promise we will try our best, but she was beaten pretty bad and..”

“I can see that too, so why are you still with me, instead of taking care of her!”

“Miss I can assure you that my college there will take good care of your friend. I need you to
relax and let me take a look and your injuries.”

The blonde woman sighed and let the medic do his work.

After a few minutes both were taken to the hospital.

“Ma’am you have to wait here while the doctors treat your friend.” The nurse led Penelope to
the waiting area.

“This can’t be happening. Not again. I hate this life, I hate all crazy people. And why always
us, why always her? Can’t they just give her a break? She just recovered from everything
that happened to her. I need to call Hotch. No I can’t they have to focus on the case. Ugh I
hate this.”

“Umm Ma’am can I get you something?”

Garcia looked up and saw the concerned look on the nurses face.

“No I am sorry for my little babbeling there I just..”

She felt a comforting hand on her shoulder. “No need to apologize Ma’am..”

“Please I am no Ma’am. My name is Penelope.”

The red haired woman smiled. “Okay then Penelope, there is no need to worry, our doctors
will take good care of her. Let me get you some tea to calm you down a little.”

“Thank you.” Garcia mind flew back to the sight of the brunette lying on the floor covered
with blood. This was horrible and so wrong. Who would want to hurt Emily? She closed her
eyes feeling a new wave of tears rolling down.

---

“Anything new about JJ?” Rossi had Hotch on his phone and could hear the sad undertone in
his voice.

“No not yet, they are still trying to find out what was injected.”

“Is she awake?”

“Yes she is, but she is very weak, she is drifting on and off.”

He could hear the other man swallow hard.

“I know I feel the same way.”

“No it’s not that.” Hotch paused for a moment. “I am thinking about calling Garcia and
Prentiss and tell them what happened.”
 Rossi raised his eyebrows. “I thought you did that already?”

“No I haven’t yet. I don’t know, but seeing how close Emily and JJ got within the last month
our pretty brunette could be having bad ideas as to follow us here.”

“But why would that be bad Hotch. She would only be staying with JJ. Prentiss would never
forgive us if JJ didn’t make it and we wouldn’t have called her.”

“You might be right, but I need all their attention on the case. So I would like you to not call
them until we know more.”

Rossi sighed. “If you say so. I still don’t think this is a good idea. And if she asked why we
didn’t call her, I will tell her that it was all your idea, so that she can bitch at you.”

Hotch laughed. “Fine you do that.”

Dave hung up his phone and made his way back to JJ. Every time he entered the room and
saw the pale blonde agent his stomach clenched. Her face was pale and she had big circles
under her eyes. Her lips were white, as if she was dead and her hair didn’t shine as it used
to, it was more of a gray now.

The blonde gave him a half-hearted smile. “Hey.”

He sat down on the chair besides her bed. “Hey, how are you feeling?”

The woman coughed. “I am tired and it hurts when I breath in.”

Rossi looked down on his lap.

JJ took his hand in hers and squeezed it gently. “Hey it’s okay, the doctors will find out what
that guy injected and everything will be fine.”

The older agent smiled. “I hope you’re right.”

“Yeah me too.” She said in a whisper. “How is the case going?”

Rossi looked up. “They still don’t know what killed the two doctors but we might have an
Unsub. A 43 year old man who studied chemistry. Morgan and Reid are on their way to his
apartment.”

“I didn’t see a man that old today. Do you think the guy who did this to me is a different
person?”

“I don’t know Jennifer. I hope not, if it is the same person he might know what to do to save
you.”

“It’s that bad huh?”

Rossi looked into sad blue eyes. “Yes I am afraid it is.”

He felt a tear escaping his eyes and wiped it away quickly.

“Did someone call my family?”

The older man just nodded.

“Good. Em and Pen?”

 “No, Hotch doesn’t want them to be distracted.”

Jennifer nodded. She knew that, if Emily would know that she could be dying she would
come here to be with her. Or even worse would break down, after all she’s been through or
do something stupid to find the man who did this to her. Still she wanted the brunette to be
with her, she wanted to feel her presents. I love you Emily Prentiss.

“You should get some rest.”

“Yeah. Will you be here when I wake up?” She grabbed the older agent’s hand.

“Yes I will. Close your eyes.” And please open them again in a couple of hours. He didn’t let
go of her hand once the young woman fell asleep.

They had to save her.

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I know the last few chapters were very dramatic, but I promise they won’t stay
that way.

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Morgan and Reid approached at Richard Meloni’s apartment.

Reid looked over at his partner. “Ready?”

The dark agent nodded and both made their way into the apartment building.

“I found his door.” Spencer whispered.

Derek Morgan kicked in the door. “Richard Meloni FBI! Put your hands over your head and lie
down on the floor!”

An elderly man looked around his living room and ran towards a window. Morgan set after
him and grabbed his hands.

While Derek was struggling with the Unsub, Reid made his way through the apartment. He
was looking for any sign of a lab or something like that. But couldn’t find anything.

After Morgan handed Meloni over to the police he went back inside.

“Find anything?”

Reid shook his head. “No nothing. It’s weird, considering to our profile he must have
something like a lab to test his stuff. But I couldn’t find anything.”

“Well maybe he has it somewhere else.”

“Yeah maybe.”

They made their way out of the building to interrogate the Unsub.

---
 “Penelope?”

When the blonde woman heard the familiar voice of the nurse she jerked out of her
thoughts.

“Yes?”

The young woman came to sit next to her. “The doctors could save your friend. It looked
worse than it was luckily. She only has a few broken ribs, her right wrist is sprained and she
has a concussion.”

Garcia hugged the nurse. “Thank you so much!”

“Don’t thank me too early.”

She let go of the other woman and was prepared to hear what she feared would come up
sooner or later.

“The doctors couldn’t save the baby. They assume that the attacker kicked her hard in her
stomach several times. There was nothing they could have done to save it.”

Her hand rose to her mouth. “Poor Emily. Can I see her?”

“Yes sure. She might be asleep though.”

Garcia nodded and headed to the hospital room.

When she entered she found a very awake Emily lying in the bed. The blonde woman rushed
to her side and hugged her carefully.

“Thank god you are alright.”

“Hey Pen. I can only say the same about you.”

“Nah, don’t you worry about me. I’m tough.”

Penelope realized a tear falling from the brunette beautiful eyes.

“Hunny I am so sorry about what happened.”

“It’s not your fault. He planned to do that since we’ve arrested his father.” Her hands
wandered to her stomach where her baby had been a couple of hours ago. “Maybe this
wasn’t supposed to be, maybe I wasn’t ready to become a mother.”

The blonde grabbed her hand. “No don’t think that way.”

“But what else am I supposed to think Pen. First I start bleeding, that we both survived-
barely and now I was only strong for one of us.”

“Sweetie I don’t know what to say or do to make you feel better.”

Emily shook her head. “You being here is everything you need to do to make me feel better.
Did you call any of the team?”

“No I didn’t I totally forgot. I will do that right away.”

“No don’t. I don’t want them to worry, they need to focus on the case.”
 “Bu Em they..”

“They didn’t know I was pregnant so to them I only got beaten up and ended up with a few
broken ribs. Plus I can go home in less than an hour.”

“Really, they let you go home?”

“I told them I wanted to go. I am not staying unless I really need to.”

“Okay, then I will stay with you here until you are cleared to leave. How about we watch
some TV?”

Emily smiled. “Sure why not.”

They turned on the TV. The news channel was on. A blonde short haired woman was talking.
“The FBI has confirmed that they’ve caught a suspect to the case they were working on.
They also hope that this catch will give them a clue on how to save one of their own. It
wasn’t confirmed but sources found out that Special Agent Jennifer Jareau was attacked by
Richard Meloni and is now fighting for her life at the general hospital in Phoenix.” A picture of
the blonde press liaison appeared on the screen. “More information about it later at 5. This
was Kirsten Shrader live from Phoenix.”

Both women were staring at the television screen. They couldn’t believe what they’ve just
seen. How come that JJ was injured and in the hospital and the world knew but them.

“We need to go to Phoenix.” Emily suddenly broke the silence. She got up ignoring the pain
that went through her and grabbed the bag with her belongings.

Garcia didn’t disagree, she was sure she wouldn’t stand a chance if she would argue with her
friend now. And there was nothing the blonde wanted more than to be at her best friend’s
side right now.

Both women made their way out of the room.

“Ma’am you can’t go just yet.”

“Watch me.” Was all Emily said and rushed past the adim desk.

They got a cap and drove to the airport. Entering the big hall the brunette realized she was
still in the hospital gown. She quickly went into the bathroom and changed. Checking herself
in the mirror she grinned. She should have kept the gown, now she wore the clothes she was
attacked in. But Emily didn’t care all she wanted was to be with JJ now.

“I need a flight do Phoenix asap!” The brunette agent almost shouted at the airport personal.

“Ma’am what happened? You have..”

“Yes I know, I have blood all over me, but trust me I am fine. All I need is a plane to
Phoenix.”

“I am afraid I can’t let you on a plane like that.”

Getting slightly annoyed with the brunette in front of her she grabbed for her badge and
showed it to her.

“FBI. Can you get me and my friend here on the plane now?”

“Agent’s I am really sorry there is no plane going to Phoenix today.”

“Then get me a pilot and a jet, I have money to pay for this don’t worry. I just need to get to
Phoenix today. Understood?”

Getting nervous the young woman called for help.

After an hour Emily and Garcia were sitting on a flight to Phoenix.

Why didn’t they call us? If JJ was going to die…Emily flinched by the thought of her lover
dying. Why didn’t they inform us. What the hell were they thinking? Tears of anger ran down
her cheeks.

Both women didn’t talk on the plane. Their thoughts were with JJ.

----

“What did you think you were doing?” Emily came walking down the hospital hallway up to
face her boss. “Did you really think it would have been a good idea not to tell Pen and me
that JJ was injured and could possibly be dying? It’s not fair Hotch!”

When she was finished she made her way past the rest of the team and to the admin desk to
ask where Jennifer’s room was.

“Penelope, how did you find out that..”

“You really have no idea?”

He shook his head.

“They showed it on the news. Emily was furious. And to be honest I was too. Why didn’t you
call us Hotch?”

“We wanted you to focus on the case.” Pausing for a couple of seconds he recalled Emily’s
face. “Why was Prentiss bruised and had fresh stitched up cuts in her face?”

“We were attacked.”

Garcia explained everything to the team.

Entering the little hospital room Emily gasped when she saw JJ lying in the bed. She looked
so weak, so not like her JJ.

When the blonde woman realized who was standing in her door she didn’t believe her eyes.

“Emily what are you doing here? And what happened to your face?”

“Pen and I saw what happened to you on the news.”

“The news?” JJ started to chough.

Emily rushed to her side and gave her a sip of the water standing on her table.

“Try to relax sweetie. Have they found out what he injected you?”

Jennifer shook her head. “No.”

Stroking her face, Emily leaned over and kissed the blonde’s cheek. “I won’t let you die.”
 “Please don’t do anything stupid.”

When the brunette sat down on the edge of JJ’s bed she winced to the pain the broken ribs
caused her.

“Emily what happened to you?”

“Nothing, it’s not important Jayj.”

“Stop that Em, your face is bruised and you have fresh stitched cuts and some more injuries
considering your wincing. Don’t tell me nothing happened.”

Emily sighed. “Garcia and I were attacked by Schuster’s son, he wanted revenge. He
knocked out Pen and then beat me.”

“WHAT?” JJ felt her heart rate starting to speeding up. “How hard did he hit you?”

“Hard enough. I’ve lost the baby Jennifer.” Emily looked down on her lap.

“Oh my god.” JJ’s voice was barely audible. She felt like her chest was exploding.

“JJ what’s wrong?” Emily heard the monitor beeping faster and looked at the blonde. JJ’s
eyes turned white.

Emily jumped off her seat and ran to the door. “I NEED SOME HELP IN HERE!”

A team of doctors and nurses came into the room. Emily didn’t leave JJ’s side. She held her
hand tight.

“JJ please don’t leave. Please don’t, I need you.” She started crying. “You remember the
time by the lake, when we had our picnic and you wanted to know what I said to you. I said:
I love you my beauty. You are my life. You are my world. I never want to lose you. So please
don’t leave me now.”

“Miss you have to leave and let the doctors do their job.” Emily let the nurse lead her out of
the room.

The team came running to her side. Morgan was the first one that got to her. “Emily what
happened in there?”

“I don’t know, the machines went crazy. She asked me what had happened to me and
then..”

She started sobbing her buried her face in Derek’s arms.

“Why don’t you sit down Em.”

She didn’t refuse when he walked to the seats nearby and sat her down.

“They can’t let her die Derek.”

“Shhh, they won’t.”

The brunette looked up and around. “What are you all doing here? Shouldn’t you be out
there looking for the cure?” She snapped at the team.

“We were, we just came here to check on JJ.” Hotch answered.

 “We need to find out how to help her.” Emily stood up and made her way out to the parking
lot heading towards the SVU that was parked there. She didn’t care what everybody else did,
all she wanted to do is to talk to the Unsub. He had to have a cure for whatever he injected
the blonde and Emily would get the answer. When her breathing increased she was reminded
that she had several broken ribs, she started to have difficulties to stand straight. Emily felt
tears falling from her eyes. Why did all that had to happen? They were happy, excited for the
baby, that she had lost she couldn’t lose Jennifer too. She had to do something. Emily kept
walking towards the car, then suddenly she felt her knees crashing down on hard asphalt.

Morgan ran after her. He knew from the beginning that it was a bad idea not to tell them
what had happened to JJ.

When he found his brunette friend he could make out that she had a hard time standing up.
He ran to her and got her before her whole body collapsed on the ground.

“Emily.”

“Morgan I … she can’t die Derek. We have to find something to help her.”

“We will Em I promise you we will be able to save her. Now can you please come back with
me? I want you to get checked out by a doctor.”

He helped her up and they made their way back to the hospital.

A doctor quickly examined her. She got some pain medication.

“Thank you doctor.”

“No problem it’s my job. Just keep it easy.”

Emily nodded.

There were still a group of people in JJ’s room. Emily had a bad feeling. A feeling like she
wasn’t going home with Jennifer from Phoenix. Please don’t let her die.

“Okay we will go back to the police station. You too Garcia, we might need your help.” The
blonde analyst nodded. “Prentiss you stay here. I don’t want to see you at the station.”

Emily stood up and wanted to say something but Hotch cut her off.

“No discussion, you’re not even allowed to be here. If Strauss finds out you and I are in big
trouble.”

The brunette swallowed down her words and just nodded.

When the team left she sat back down and waited for the doctors to tell her what was going
to happen next. She almost gave up the thought that she would walk into JJ’s room and say
something else than goodbye.

“Miss?”

She was jerked out of her thoughts when one of the doctors approached at her.

“Yes?”

“You can go back in now.”

 Emily swallowed hard, she was prepared for the worst. But when she entered the room JJ
was breathing and even awake.

Reaching out for the brunette’s hand JJ could feel how weak she was. This stuff was tough,
but she would fight. She didn’t want to give up what she had right now.

“Please never scare me like that again.”

Emily placed a soft kiss on the back of Jennifer’s hand.

“You were the one scaring me, that’s why all of this happened.”

She looked down. How could she have been so stupid? She knew that the slightest stress
could be enough to push her over the edge.

“I’m sorry Jayj I didn’t think. God I was so scared.”

JJ let go of her lovers hand and cupped the brunette’s face with it. She gently caressed the
cheek with her thumb. “Don’t be sorry. I am glad you told me.”

Emily leaned into to the soft touch. She prayed that her team would find something. She
couldn’t lose what she had with the blonde. She felt safe and comfortable with her, a feeling
she didn’t have for a long time.

The blonde woman started coughing.

Tears escaped the brunette’s eyes.

“Please don’t cry sweetie. I can’t stand to see you sad.”

Emily smiled a half hearted smile. “Well you are making it very hard for me not to be sad.
Geez Jennifer when the doctor came to tell me I could see you I thought I had to say
goodbye to you.”

“I guess you won’t get rid of me that easily.”

“Ugh, I thought so. Well then I have to wait till the next psychopathic man tries to kill you.”

“Yup.”

They both laughed, which caused JJ to have another waves of coughs.

When JJ drifted off to sleep Emily sat by her side and held her hand.

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“A wheelchair? You’ve got to be kidding.”

The brunette shook her head. “Nope. Get in there Jareau.”

Emily gestured the blonde to sit down. Jennifer sighed and sat down. After they have found
the anti toxin for whatever Meloni had injected her she was feeling better day by day. She
 couldn’t wait to go home, but the doctors told her it would still be another couple of days
until she was allowed to go home.

“Really Emily, I am fine I can walk.”

“Fine, then we won’t take a walk outside, I was going to have a coffee with a friend anyway.
I will see you tomorrow then.” Emily smirked at her lover.

“Okay okay, I will sit in that hideous thing.” She said with a chuckle. “As long as you don’t
leave.” JJ added silently.

They made their way out of the hospital into the park nearby. Emily looked down at her
lover, she looked much better. She smiled at how the blonde hair sparkled in the sun and at
how relaxed the younger woman was.

She bent down, and whispered so that only the blonde could hear it. “I would never leave
you.”

Jennifer shivered when she heard the brunette’s words. “What?” she asked barely audible.

“I said I would never leave you.”

The blonde hit the breaks of the wheelchair and turned around. “I heard you.”

Emily raised her eyebrows. “Did I do something wrong?”

JJ slowly shook her head. “No, you did everything right. I just… It’s just…”

The older woman walked around and kneeled in front of the young woman and took her
hands. “Talk to me.”

“Why?”

“Why what?” Emily asked confused.

“Why me? Why did you choose to be with me?”

“What?”

“You heard me, why me? Why of all people did you choose me?”

“Because I love you.”

The blonde looked away. “But why? I mean I am a country girl and…”

“No, you are an amazing person JJ, how often do I have to tell you that? How often till you
believe me?”

The blonde still didn’t want to look at the woman in front of her.

“Jayj, look at me. Every time I am not with you I feel like something is missing. And every
time I see you my heart sets out a beat. And that’s all because of you. Because I love you,
with all I have. I don’t care if you love me back the way I love you, but as long as I have you
with me I am fine. As long as I can be together with you, as a friend, as a lover, as a college,
I feel complete. I don’t care where you come from, or how you grew up, or how wealthy your
parents are or what not, the only thing I care about is, that you are happy and healthy.”
 Jennifer was finally able to look at her lover. She pulled the brunette up to put a lingering
kiss on her lips. She didn’t care if people could see her, the only thing she wanted to do is
feel Emily. When the kiss ended the other woman looked at her in shock.

“JJ I thought we agreed that…”

“I know. I just.. I haven’t seen you in three days and I couldn’t kiss you or hold you in over
three weeks and now you just said everything you said and I couldn’t resist I think.”

“It’s okay. But we’re not quite there where I wanted to take you.”

When Emily stopped pushing the wheelchair, they were at a little fountain. Nobody else was
around.

“This is beautiful Em.”

The brunette smiled and sat down on the bench next to Jennifer.

“I know, I took a walk in the park once and then I found this. I thought you would like it.”

“I do, but how come nobody is here?”

“Oh,” she smirked. “because it’s lunch time. I wanted to be alone with you.”

“You did?” She looked at her lover and grinned. “Anything special in mind Prentiss?”

“Not what you think.”

“Darn it, I thought I would get lucky today.”

Emily had to laugh. “You are just…”

“Horny!” JJ exclaimed.

Emily widened her eyes. “Well not what I wanted to say, but yes, that too.”

“Am I allowed to get outta that thing here and cuddle with you?”

The brunette smiled. “Yes you may. But only cuddle.”

“If you say so.” JJ got up from the wheelchair and snuggled into Emily’s side.

“Yes Jennifer, I say so.”

----

They just got back from a case in San Diego and Emily Prentiss was more than happy to be
back in Quantico. She just wanted to go home, change and go see JJ. The blonde came
home about 2 weeks ago, but wasn’t allowed to come to work after the physical
examination. They haven’t had much time together, since the last two cases were rather
long. The day the blonde agent came home Emily had to go to a little town in Colorado,
shortly after that another case in New York and right after the team entered the bullpen they
were called to San Diego. That left about two days for them to be together. She made her
way to her desk and let herself fall into her chair.

Hearing his co-worker sigh Morgan stepped behind the brunette and gently started to
massage her shoulders.
 “Hmm, Derek Morgan I have to admit you have some skills there.”

The dark profiler smiled. “I know, you are not the only woman who had told me that.”

Emily swirled around with a disgusted look on her face. “Ewww Morgan! I don’t want to hear
that okay?”

He held up his hands. “Sorry, just couldn’t resist. Anything planned for tonight?”

“Nope, just have to finish my paperwork and I am outta here. You?”

“Nothing really I thought you might wanna come over, talk maybe?”

“Talk, about what?” She knew exactly what her friend wanted to talk about, but she certainly
wasn’t up for that. Not today, not after the case they just had. She just wanted to go home,
go to JJ.

“You know about what Prentiss.”

“Derek I…”

“No excuses Missy, you are coming with me.”

She should have said no, but the look in his eyes told her that he was concerned, so she said
yes.

“Let me just finish this off and I am ready to go.”

The profiler smiled at her.

She sat back in her chair and got out her phone. JJ’s phone went to voicemail.

“JJ I am sorry I can’t come today I umm.. Morgan wants to talk to me and I have hurt him
enough already. I am really sorry, I just need to do this. I owe him that much. Love you.”

After an hour she was done with her report and both of them went to the parking lot.

-----

When the elevator opened she couldn’t help but to smiled. And was even more happy to
receive a smile back from the blonde woman facing her. She walked into the little box and
stood next to her lover.

A man came and joined them and the door closed.

Emily felt awkward. The man must know that there was something going on. Don’t be
ridicoulus Emily, why would he suspect something, you are just two women standing in an
elevator.

Jennifer had to smile, she could see how Emily had to control herself. It still surprised her,
how much the brunette’s eyes gave away of her emotions. She reached out and squeezed
Emily’s behind.

The brunette jumped when she felt JJ grabbing her ass. The man standing in front of them
didn’t seem to notice, but she gave the blonde the stare anyway.
 Jennifer just smirked at the other woman. She still was a little bit mad at her for going out
with Derek instead of coming home to spend time with her. She would make her pay for this,
pinching her ass was just the start.

When the man left the elevator Emily found her voice again. “Are you crazy?”

JJ put on an innocent smile. “I don’t know what you mean.”

“Oh you know damn well what I mean.”

Just before they’ve reached their level, the blonde pushed the STOP button and leaned
forward. “It wasn’t very nice of you to not show up at my apartment last night you know.”

She started to caress Emily’s neck, making the other woman shiver under her touch. Just
when Emily wanted to grab the blonde by her hips JJ pulled away, straightened herself up
and pushed the button. The doors opened and she left, leaving an aroused and slightly dazed
of Emily behind.

When Emily reached her desk, she felt her phone vibrate.

Parking lot at 1:30

Love J.

The brunette smiled. And started her work.

When it was 1:20 Emily made her way to the parking lot. She couldn’t find the blonde
anywhere. She went to one of the vehicles parked and leaned against it.

After a while she started to become nervous. It wasn’t like the blonde to be late, but then
she felt a hand grabbing her and lips crushing down on hers pushing her onto the car.
Breaking the kiss Emily looked into dark blue eyes full of need and passion. She smiled at
the blonde knowing what was on her mind.

“What are you smiling at?” JJ asked and leaned further into the brunette.

“What are you doing Jayj?” Emily said and chuckled.

“I don’t know, get my revenge.”

The blonde started to nibble the other woman’s earlobe, making Emily moan.

“What revenge?” She could ask before she felt the blonde’s lips on hers again.

“Well I couldn’t show you how much I love you yet since I am back home.”

JJ kissed Emily’s neck making her way down to her collarbone to her cleavage unbuttoning
the brunette’s blouse. She could feel the brunette shiver and smiled against her skin. The
blonde’s hands wandered to Emily’s hips and she gently stroke over the other woman’s taut
stomach.

Emily chuckled. “You are crazy Jennifer Jareau.”

“Hm-hm, and that’s why you love me so much.” The blonde said under the soft kisses she
now placed on Emily’s stomach.

Her hands wandered to the brunette’s belt trying to open it, when she felt Emily’s hands on
her arms pulling her up.
 “We can’t Jayj… It’s the FBI parking lot.”

The blonde nuzzled into her lover’s neck. “Why not hm? We both want it and no one’s here.”

“No no one is here at the moment.”

“So what?”

“JJ what if we get caught?”

“Well..” The blonde didn’t know what to answer. She knew that they would have a problem
when they would get caught, but she had missed the other woman so much, she wanted
nothing more than feel her.

“Exactly, we will be in big trouble.”

JJ looked her lover in her eyes and started to kiss her again. “I’ve always wanted to get
caught in public.”

Emily had to laugh. “But not in the FBI parking lot Jennifer.” The brunette gave JJ a slow kiss
and started to butten up her blouse again.

The younger pouted and made her way back to the building.

Emily scoffed. “JJ wait.” The blonde didn’t turn around.

This is stupid, why did she even think about having sex in a public place? Emily hurried down
and saw the elevator door starting to close.

“Hold the el!”

The blonde didn’t move. Emily began to run and was able to stop the door before closing.
She can be such a bitch sometimes. Hell, she wants public? She can get it.

The brunette, just like her partner did this morning, pushed the big red STOP button. Turning
around she slowly started walking towards the blonde. Emily couldn’t help but to grin, she
never did what she was going to do in this elevator.

“Emily what are you doing?” JJ asked under a chuckle. She looked at the woman, who was
now standing very close to her. She had to gasp when she looked into pitch black eyes, she
could see the desire and lust in them. The younger woman immediately felt butterflies in her
stomach.

“You want public, you will get it.”

“What….”

Before JJ could finish her sentence she felt Emily’s knee grinding against her and she let out
a moan.

Emily kissed her eagerly hands wandering down her lover’s sides. Reaching under JJ’s shirt
she felt the other woman shiver and was pleased, she knew how turned on JJ was and it
wouldn’t take long for her to have her where Emily wanted her lover to be.

JJ’s head was spinning, she shivered under every touch and every kiss. She could barely
stand on her feet, that’s how turned on she was. She wanted her lover right now, wanted to
make love to her in this very elevator.
 “Oh god Em.” JJ whispered when she felt soft kisses placed on her breasts. She knew if the
other woman would continue she couldn’t stand straight with her own strength anymore. JJ
started to whimper under every kiss the brunette placed on her body. Her heartbeat
increased and her breathing got heavier. She couldn’t hold back a loud moan when she felt
her lover’s hands entering her pants.

“Honey you have to keep your voice down.” Emily whispered.

JJ gasped when she heard how deep and seductively the brunette’s voice was, she couldn’t
answer her whole body was under tension, she was so close. She felt Emily’s fingers entering
her core and her legs gave in that second.

The brunette had to push JJ against the wall so that she wouldn’t fall to the floor. She knew
how close the younger woman was to her climax. She started to caress the blonde’s neck
again.

“Em please.” The blonde pleaded. She didn’t want to wait anymore, she was so turned on
and under every touch the woman in front of her gave her she thought she was going to
explode. JJ felt Emily’s thumbs gently stroking over her clit, she couldn’t hold it anymore, the
blonde repressed a scream and was able to only let out a whimper. But her whole body was
trembling.

Emily needed all her strength to hold the blonde woman up. Once JJ reached her climax her
legs gave in completely, Emily just got her before she hit the floor. She smiled looking at the
woman lying in her arms.

JJ had a hard time controlling her breathing. Her orgasm was intense, she has never felt
something like this before, it was like she completely blacked out the minute her lover put
her over the edge. She was thankful that Emily had caught her in time before she fell to the
floor.

Once her breathing was under control again she straightened herself up and looked into the
other woman’s dark eyes.

“This, Emily Prentiss was amazing and totally nuts. What the hell were you thinking? There
are cameras everywhere, I bet there are some in here too!”

The brunette chuckled. “You said you wanted it public.”

“But not where people we work with can see us.”

Emily stepped away.”So you didn’t like it.” She teased. “I get it. I promise you it will never
happen again.” She pushed the big red button and the elevator started moving again.

JJ quickly got dressed again. “Don’t be such a smartass Prentiss.”

The blonde leaned forward and put a light kiss on the soft lips belonging to the woman she
loved so much.

When the elevator door opened Hotch saw a slightly flushed Jennifer and a very pleased
looking Emily. Emily walked past him targeting her desk. JJ whatsoever still needed
sometime to realize that he was standing in front of her. The male agent took a closer look
at the blonde. She probably just came back from a little run, he knew that she was going for
runs on her lunch break. Aaron always thought that she didn’t need that extra bit of physical
exercise, she was in a perfect shape, but he never said anything.

JJ walked out of the elevator and gave her boss a shy smile. “Hey.”

“Hi JJ.”
 The blonde walked past him. “Don’t you think you get enough exercise already? You don’t
have to go for a run every lunch break.”

JJ turned around. “What?” She didn’t know what her boss was talking about. Why would he
think that she went for a run? And then it hit her, she must look like a complete mess, with
her breathing still a little higher than usual and her face probably red from the sex she just
enjoyed with her lover. “Oh yeah, well it helps to clear the head.” With that, she left for her
office, but not without looking over to the brunette who had a coquette smile on her lips.

XXX

Emily smiled at her lover and turned back to the files on her desk. She had to chuckle, she
Emily Prentiss just made love to her woman in an elevator at work. It was so not like her,
but the blonde woman had that effect on her. The profiler felt her phone vibrate and had to
smile the second she read the text that had just arrived.

I love you Emily Prentiss.

And I want to see you in my office asap.

Jx

She put her phone back into her pocket and made her way to JJ’s office, but before she got a
chance to enter it Morgan stopped her.

“Well well well, and I thought I was the only one getting lucky lately.”

Emily looked at him confused.

“What are you talking about Derek?”

He laughed and led her to a glass wall which reflected her image and pointed at a little red
spot on her neck.

Her eyes widened and her hand flew to her neck to cover up the hickey her lover gave her.

Morgan, who was standing behind her laughed out loud.

“No need to hide it Em.” With that he walked away.

Emily turned around and went to JJ’s office door, she gave it a firm knock and waited for the
blonde agent to let her in.

The brunette went inside and closed the door quickly. She walked over to her lover and let
herself fall onto the chair, standing across the blonde’s desk and scoffed.

JJ smiled. “What?”

“Look what you did to me?” Emily tilted her head so that her lover could see the red spot on
her neck.

The blonde laughed. “Oh oops, sorry hun, I didn’t mean to, but you know, you had it
coming.”

Emily raised an eyebrow. “I had it coming?! You were the one who attacked me in the FBI
parking lot.”
 “Now now, we will not get all fuzzy about that now.”

Emily threw her hands up in disbelief. “Jennifer Jareau you are, I don’t even have words for
that..”

“How about, you are the most amazing person in the world.”

“Oh don’t flatter yourself hun.”

The blonde stemmed her hands into her sides and put a fake pout face on.

“I think you need to go now, I have a lot of work to do.” Jennifer stood up and pointed her
finger at her door.

Emily rose from her chair and made her way to the door. She reached out for the door knob
when she felt JJ’s hand pulling her away.

“What the hell are you doing?”

Emily smiled and then looked up and put on a serious face. “Well you told me to go. I am
going now.”

JJ was shocked, she thought the brunette knew that she was joking. “Em I didn’t mean…
OUH you are the meanest person in the world.” The blonde exclaimed when Emily started to
laugh out loud and smacked her arm gently.

“I am sorry, it was just.. you are just.. “

“Not funny! I really thought you were mad at me.”

Emily took the other woman’s hand in hers and stroke the back of it with her thumb.

“I couldn’t be mad at you Jayj.”

Jennifer looked down on their hands. “I hate this. I hate it that I can’t touch you when I see
you. I miss this, just holding your hand.”

Emily sighed. She knew what the blonde meant, she wanted to show everyone that she was
happy with Jennifer, but she knew she couldn’t, at least not yet. They had to figure out what
would happen next, after Emily lost the baby and JJ almost got killed by a lunatic Unsub they
haven’t been as intimate as they were before. Of course they just had sex, but all the
comfortable moments the subtle touches, they weren’t as much anymore.

JJ couldn’t help but to pull the taller woman into a tight and gentle hug. She didn’t care if
other people would see them. They could just be friends hugging each other. The blonde
agent buried her face in Emily crock and felt tears escaping her eyes. She lover the brunette
with all her heart, but since she lost her baby things had changed and JJ didn’t know what to
do, to make her lover feel better. They both wanted the baby, no matter how it was
received.

“I love you.” She mumbled against the white as snow and soft skin.

The brunette didn’t say anything, she just held the other woman. That was another thing,
since Jennifer was home she wasn’t able to tell her that she loved her. It hurt her too see the
other woman react when she didn’t reply. She wanted to show her what she meant to her,
but it hurt too much. She stroke the soft blonde hair but put her hand down knowing that
this would probably be too much for just a hug between friends.
 JJ pulled herself out of the embrace and missed the closeness between them.

“I’m sorry I just needed to do that.”

Emily lifted the blonde’s head and forced her to look into her eyes. “No. I needed this as
much as you did. But now could you tell me why you wanted me to come here?”

JJ smiled. “Yes I can. Do you want to go watch a movie with me tonight?” She felt like a
teenager.

“I sure would love to Miss Jareau. Which movie?”

“Hmm how about ‘The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus’?”

“When?”

JJ smiled. “I will pick you up at nine. And now scoot, because I really have to work, and I
can’t really concentrate when hot sexy brown haired women are around me.”

“Well then,” Emily gave JJ a small peck on her cheek. “I should go.”

----

“I’M ON MY WAY!” Emily shouted at the door trying to get the zipper of her dressed closed.
She just bought a new dress, all though Emily knew that she would look slightly overdressed,
she wanted to wear it.

Panting she opened the door and kissed the blonde standing in front of her before she
hurried away again.

JJ entered the brunette’s condo and closed the door behind her, watching her lover running
around with amusement.

“Em honey you know that your dress is still…”

“Yes, yes I know, I will get to that as soon as I found my car keys. They have to here
somewhere.”

“Em..”

“I know I will make it quick I just have to find them, put some make up on and get that
freaking dress zipped up and we’re good to go.”

“No Emily just..”

“Jayj honey I know you hate it to be late but..” The blonde interrupted her again.

“Emily Prentiss would you just shut up for two seconds and listen to me?” Jennifer almost
yelled.

Emily turned around. “What?”

The younger agent held up a bundle of keys, which to Emily’s surprise looked just like hers.
“Where did you find them?”

“Where they belong, in the key holder next to your door.” JJ said with a smirk on her lips.
She loved it when her girlfriend was all nerdy and goofy.
 “You are a life saver Jen, seriously.”

Jennifer stepped close to the other woman and put her hands around the brunette’s waist.
“Do you want me to help you with that dress of yours?”

“Under different circumstances this would turn me on like nobody’s business, but I really
need to get ready, so zip up please?”

“Sure.” JJ said under a chuckle. “Wait, turn around?”

Emily did as her lover told her to and her cheeks turned red.

“Don’t tell me you went shopping? Because this,” she pointed at the dark red dress. “is
definitely new.”

“Yes okay, I was shopping. But it wasn’t planned I just wanted to get some underwear and
then I saw this dress and I remember you telling me that you love me in red so I figured I
could just buy it.”

JJ pressed her lips on Emily’s. “You are cute, you know that?”

“No and I really need to get ready now, otherwise we will be late.”

The blonde let go of her lover and smiled when she saw Emily running up the stairs to her
bathroom.

When she came down JJ’s heart skipped a beat. “Wow Em you look.. you know you should
wear make up more often.”

The brunette smiled and grabbed her jacket. “Ready?”

JJ nodded and they made their way to her car.

When they got in JJ took a glance at her dark lover. “You okay?”

“Hm? Yeah I am. I was just thinking.”

“About what?” JJ moved her hand and placed it on Emily’s thigh.

“Nothing special, just how lucky I am to have you. And when the last time was I went to
watch a movie.” The brunette chuckled.

“What do you mean? When was the last time you went to the movies?”

“Umm let me think, I guess it was.. yeah I think I was still living in Italy.”

“What?”

Emily laughed out loud. “Yeah I never liked crowded places, cinemas included.”

“Then why did you say yes when I asked you?” Jennifer looked at the woman sitting beside
her.

“Because I am going with you.”

“I dare you Emily Prentiss if you have a panic attack I will walk out like I don’t know you.”
 “Feel the love.” Emily scoffed jokingly.

They both laughed and JJ pulled up at the parking lot.

When they got to the entrance JJ wanted to let go of the brunette’s hand but Emily didn’t let
her pull her hand away. She didn’t care if someone would see them together, she loved this
woman and wanted everyone to see it. She was nervous but didn’t want to let go of her
lover’s hand.

JJ’s stomach tingled when she felt Emily grabbing her hand a little tighter. She looked
around nervously, they never showed their relationship in a public place like this. She looked
to her left and found dark brown eyes. She smiled immediately when she saw the warmth
and sincerity in them. Jennifer Jareau wanted to spend the rest of her live with the dark
haired woman. And she was sure that the blonde was ready to tell people that she loved her.

They got their tickets and walked to their seats, never letting go of each other’s hands.

Once both women were comfortable Emily put her arm around JJ and the blonde snuggled
into the older woman’s side.

“You are amazing.” JJ locked her eyes with the dark brown one’s looking down at her.

A soft smile appeared on the brunette’s face. “Why?”

The blonde took the other agents hand and locked their fingers together. “Because you are
you. Because of this, because you let me be a part of your life.”

Emily closed the small gap between them and placed a gentle kiss on the blonde’s lips.

They got comfortable again when the movie began.

Half way through Emily needed to use the bathroom. She got up and walked out of the dark
room.

When she entered the ladies room she looked at herself in the mirror. Her hand went her
chest, where you still could see the scarf. It was getting better, but it was still very visible, at
least to Emily. The brunette still hadn’t talked to a psychiatrist. Emily knew she had to
sooner or later, but she was just doing fine living in denial right now. This was the time she
wanted to spend with her girlfriend, there was no time left worrying, feeling lost and broken.

She washed her hands and walked back to watch the movie.

When JJ saw her lover approaching again she smiled. This time it was JJ who put her arm
around the brunette.

“Thanks for taking me to the movies Jayj, I really enjoyed it.”

The blonde slipped her hand around the slim waist of the woman walking next to her. “No
need to thank me. How about we go for a little walk, I don’t want to go home just yet.”

“Sure, but we can’t be too late, we both have to work tomorrow.”

Jennifer chuckled. “Yes ma’am.”

Both women kept walking and sat down on a bench they soon found. It was a nice night, not
too cold and not too warm.

“Em we need to talk.” JJ broke the silence between them.

 “I know.”

The younger woman took Emily face in her hands and looked her deep in the eyes. “Then
talk to me.”

A tear escaped her eyes and she broke the contact with her girlfriend. “I don’t know how to
start.”

“Don’t be scared honey, just talk.”

Emily cleared her voice. “Umm.. I am sorry I lost the baby Jayj and I am sorry I wasn’t there
when you needed me the most. And I am even more sorry that I couldn’t tell and show you
how much you mean to me lately.”

“Em it is not your fault that.. “

“Let me finish okay?”

The blonde nodded.

“I want to have a baby with you and I want to move in with you.”

JJ didn’t believe what she just heard, it made her heart melt. The woman she loved the
most, who had suffered so much and had lost their baby, still wanted to start a family with
her.

“Em baby you don’t have to do it, I mean I would understand if you..”

Emily pressed a long and soft kiss on the blonde’s lips. She wanted her to know how much
she wanted this. “I want this. I don’t know if I will still be able to have a baby, seeing how I
received the last one and how I’ve lost it, but I want to try JJ.”

JJ threw her arms around the brunette.

Startled by her lover’s attack Emily lost her balance and both fell from the bench.

“Woah hold your horses there Jareau.” The brunette laughed.

“Nope I won’t. My girlfriend just told me that she wants to start a family with me and besides
I would have thought you were strong enough to hold me.”

“Well I would have certainly been strong enough, I just wasn’t ready and didn’t expect you
to straddle me like this.”

Both women kept lying on the ground laughing out loud.

“Jayj are you falling asleep?”

“Hmm.. no…” the blonde mumbled against the brunette’s neck.

“Yes I think you are.” Emily chuckled. “Get up, we need to head back home.”

“No.”

“What no?” Emily gently tried to push the blonde off of her, but Jennifer didn’t move an inch.

“No, I don’t want to get up.”

 “Well I guess you have to lay here by yourself, because I am getting up now.” Again she
tried to push the blonde off, but didn’t stand a chance. “Jennifer I am serious, let my get
up.” Emily said in a playful voice.

“No.”

“Why?” Emily let her body fell on the grass again finally giving up on pushing her girlfriend
off.

“I don’t know, I am very comfortable and yeah no, there is no other explanation.”

Emily was getting slightly annoyed, JJ could be such a child sometimes. “You can be so
immature sometimes you know that?”

Jennifer lifted her body up a little bit to look at Emily. “I am what?”

“You are childish sometimes.”

“Hmm.. well children are not supposed to have sex so…”

“Ooooh no, don’t think that I won’t take advantage of you tonight.” Emily said with a playful
look on her face.

“Oh you wanna take advantage of me tonight?”

“You bet your sexy ass on it.” Emily squeezed JJ’s behind.

“I love you Emily Elizabeth Prentiss.”

The brunette smiled at the mentioning of her middle name, she never told anyone but JJ that
she had her mother’s name.

Jennifer looked into chocolate brown eyes, she knew she wasn’t going to hear what she
missed hearing over the last couple of weeks. It hurt her to see how much her lover
struggled with her emotions. JJ knew that Emily didn’t want anything more than to tell her
that she loved her, but she knew that for some reason only the brunette knew Emily wasn’t
able to tell her that she was in love with her.

Emily captured Jennifer’s lips with a lingering kiss. Running her hands up and down JJ’s back
she heard a moan coming from her lover.

They broke apart and the brunette lent her forehead against the blonde’s. “Let’s go home.”

They got up and made their way home.

Once they entered Emily’s condo it didn’t take them much time to undress one another and
to make love.

JJ was spooned behind Emily the brunette tightly pressed against her.

Emily took one of JJ’s hands in her own and placed a soft kiss on it.

“This here, is everything I’ve ever dreamed of.”

Jennifer chuckled. “You dreamed of having sex with me and then cuddle with me in your
bed?”
 Emily giggled. “Well not exactly, but it sure feels like the best thing to do.”

The brunette turned around to face her girlfriend. “You know, if we really want me to try to
get pregnant again, I need a man.”

The blonde raised both her eyebrows. She certainly didn’t like the words coming from her
lover mouth. She didn’t want to imagine her Emily having sex with a man. “Emily Prentiss I
don’t want to hear something like that from you ever again, no one is going to see you
naked unless I’m in the room or I am the one laying my eyes on your gorgeous body.”

The older woman laughed out loud. “Possessive much?”

“Yes.” The blonde stated.

“We still need to pick a donor then.”

JJ leaned forward and kissed the brunette’s nose. “Better. You really want to do this.”

“Yes I do, as soon as possible. I want to have a family with you Jayj and I don’t want to wait
any longer.”

“That means we have to tell the team.”

Emily broke the eye contact between them.

“You still don’t want to tell them right?” JJ’s voice sounded disappointed.

“No. Listen, I am sorry, and I understand if you don’t want to do this then, but can’t I just
tell them that I had a one night stand and he got me pregnant?”

JJ couldn’t believe what she just heard. “You want the baby we will raise together to be
known as the little one night stand?”

“I know it sounds horrible Jayj, but yeah…”

“Are you ashamed of me? Are you scared what people may think?” The blonde asked her
tone a little harsher now.

“No! And yes I am afraid what people may think, and besides that, you know that we’re not
allowed to date co-workers.”

“Since when does Emily Prentiss, the Ambassador’s daughter care what people think of her?”

“Don’t be like that JJ.”

Jennifer stood up and left the room, she wanted so much to have a little family with the dark
haired woman, but she didn’t want everybody to think that their child of love was some
accident. She wanted to show the world that she also was a proud mother, and not just the
friend that babysat a few times and helps her friend out when things get a little stressed.
She didn’t have a problem with keeping their relation a secret, because she wasn’t ready to
tell anyone either that they loved each other, but with a baby on the way she wanted people
to know, she wanted people to be happy for the both of them.

“JJ wait.” Emily gathered a shirt and panties and walked after the blonde. She knew that she
had hurt her lover with her words, she would have felt the same way. But Emily wasn’t ready
to tell the world, at the movies it was different, there were so many people that no one really
noticed them, but at work, everybody would know and look at them. Emily hated herself for
thinking that way, she could never be ashamed of the blonde, but she was scared.
“No Em, I can’t do it this way. I really wanna have a family with you, but not if I am going to
be the big secret, it is not fair.”

Xxx

don’t own any of the characters.

After JJ left Emily stood in front of her window looking over the capital. She could understand
the blonde woman, but she hoped that she would be okay with being the secret love affair
for a while. What were you thinking Prentiss, JJ deserves more than being your affair and
you know that. And Emily also knew that she couldn’t live without the blonde woman. She
loved her so much it hurt. The more time they spent together the more the brunette wanted
to spend the rest of her life with Jennifer. And now you screwed up.

“Way to go Prentiss, you finally found the soul mate you were looking for and you don’t even
have the balls to show the world that you love her.” She mumbled to herself.

----

“Good morning sunshine!” Garcia greeted Emily with a big grin on her face.

Emily couldn’t help but to smile back. It was a halfhearted smile but she didn’t want people
to think that something was up.

“Hey Garcia. Why are you here so early?”

“Well I wanted to talk to you.”

Emily raised her eyebrows. “To me, why?”

“Because we barely have time to talk anymore, I miss you my brown eyed beauty.”

Emily smiled relieved more than flattered; she thought that Pen knew what was going on in
her mind, and how she fought the battle of wanting to have a family with the love of her life
and of not wanting the public to know that Jennifer Jareau was this love of her life.

“I’ve missed that too Pen, but I don’t really have time, I have loads of paper work to do.
How about we go out tonight, to a bar or something, we haven’t done this in years.”

A smile appeared on the blonde’s face. “That is a very good idea. I will pick you up at 8
tonight?”

Emily nodded and went to her desk. It wasn’t a lie that she had a lot of paper work to do,
not as much as she claimed to, but still enough to last at least the next couple of hours.

“I can’t believe you had a date sunny boy!” Emily heard Morgan tease Reid.

“Well if you believe it or not Derek, I had a date and as far as I am concerned it went pretty
well.”

The female profiler looked up from her desk and saw Reid smiling.

“Who is the lucky girl Reid?” She asked.

“Oh her name is Rachel and she was in one of my lectures I gave at the local University.”
 “Well good for you, I am happy that you’ve finally found someone.”

“Yeah it was about time kiddo, for a moment I thought I had to be worried about you.”
Derek continued teasing the young man.

“Leave him Derek, not everyone can be such a womanizer like you.” Emily stated and
grinned at the dark man.

“Oh you think I am a womanizer?”

“Well yes I think so; with how many women did you sleep within the last three months?”

Morgan sat down behind his desk and began to think.

After a couple of seconds Emily laughed. “You can’t be serious Morgan. Really, that many
that you have to count them?”

“Oh shush, at least I have a sex live Miss Prentiss.”

“Oh.” Emily said under a chuckle and put her finger to her head and fell into her chair like
she was just shot.

“No I mean it, how come such a sexy woman like you doesn’t get any men?”

Emily chuckled again, but then the smile died on her lips, her thoughts wandered back to the
blonde woman. She didn’t want any men; all she wanted was to be with her Jennifer. With
that, she didn’t answer Derek’s question but went straight to the press liaison’s office.

“Did I say something wrong?” A flabbergasted Derek Morgan sat at his desk looking after his
best friend and then to Reid, who just shrugged his shoulders.

“I don’t know.”

JJ heard a faint knock on her office door. She didn’t answer; she wanted to be left alone. She
had to think, think about her relationship. You don’t even know if you have a relationship
with that woman Jennifer. A small voice in her head told her. And it was true, they never
really talked about that, and can you just call something a relationship when other people
didn’t know? Wouldn’t it be something else? Nothing more than an affair maybe? It knocked
again, this time a little harder. Jennifer still didn’t answer, if it would be Hotch and they
would have a new case he would just come in and tell her. And besides that, she didn’t want
anybody in her office today. She was still too confused and hurt, by the events that took
place last night. Emily hadn’t called her, and Jennifer was happy about it. She wouldn’t know
what to tell her. She wanted to be with the brunette woman, there was no doubt about that.
She would even want to have a family with her, but not as the secret mother she would be
then. No, that wasn’t Jennifer’s idea of having a family. Maybe it was better not to see each
other for a while, was what she had said to Emily, and Emily agreed. Today Jennifer
regretted her decision. She wanted nothing more than to come home and see Emily Prentiss
sitting in her living room waiting for her. But deep inside she knew that both of them needed
time to think. JJ about if she would be okay being the secret mom of their child for an
uncertain time and Emily about whether she would ever be able to tell their team and the
bureau the truth about their relationship. By the thought of her lover Jennifer felt tears
escaping her eyes; she quickly brushed them away with her hand and focused on the files in
front of her again. There wasn’t another knock on her door.

Emily gave up, either the blonde wasn’t there or she didn’t want to talk to her. She thought
that it was probably the last thing. You can’t really be mad at her Em; it was what you two
agreed to last night. She hated the thought of not being able to see the blonde or to hold her
hand, when they were together. But Emily knew that JJ needed the time and so did she.
They had things to figure out.
 “Hey Em!”

Emily jumped a little, when she heard Morgan’s voice.

“Sorry I didn’t wanna scare you.”

She shook her head. “No you didn’t scare me; I was just lost in my thoughts.”

“Yeah, well I wanted to apologize about my comment before, I didn’t want you to be mad at
me.”

“What? Oh that, no I wasn’t mad at you.”

He raised his eyebrows in disbelief. “It sure didn’t look like that when you stormed away like
that.”

“I’m sorry, but really I am not mad at you Derek.” She gently touched his arm and gave it a
reassuring squeeze.

“Okay.” He smiled relieved.

“So, does the great Derek Morgan have any plans for tonight?” She teased him.

“As a matter of fact he does.”

Emily raised an eyebrow. “And what would that be?” She asked.

“I am going to watch some TV with Willard.”

“Willard? Who the hell I Willard?” The brunette woman laughed out loud.

“Willard would be my German Sheppard.”

“A dog? You have a dog?”

“Yes I do, for six years now.”

“Wow, you surprise me every time Morgan.”

“That’s what I do.”

Both laughed and went back to work.

---

When Emily finally was home she didn’t have much time to relax, she had to get ready.
Shortly before eight she heard a knock on her door. When she opened it she saw Penelope
Garcia and smiled. Emily loved spending time with the quirky blonde, she had the ability to
make her feel better the second she was with her.

“Well hello, you look hot my friend.”

Emily blushed at the compliment. She wore tight black jeans and a red halter top.

“Give me five minutes and I am ready.”

 Garcia nodded and waited in the living room.

“Let’s get going.” Emily came walking down the stairs and they made their way out of the
door.

“Which bar are we going?” Emily asked when they got into Penelope’s car.

“The one on 4th?”

“Sure why not.”

Both women talked about daily things on their way to the bar. Emily pretended to be her
happy self, but her thoughts were with Jennifer all this time.

“So are you up for another beer?” Garcia had asked her after Emily put down her empty
glass.

“You can read my mind.” The brunette smiled.

Garcia made her way to the bar leaving her friend behind. She was happy to see how relaxed
the brunette was, she didn’t want to talk to Emily about it, because she thought it was none
of her business, but she had noticed that, after Emily had lost her baby, she was more than
tense. It didn’t take long for her to get two beers, she was a regular at the bar and the
barkeeper knew her.

“Here we go.” She placed both glasses on the table and sat next to her friend.

“Thank you Pen.”

Garcia noticed a man standing across from their table who was constantly looking at her
dark haired friend. She grinned at looked at Emily, who was definitely avoiding eye contact.

“Hun you know, if you want to, just go I can enjoy myself and if I get bored I will just go
home.”

Emily snapped out of her thoughts. “What? What are you talking about?”

“Your little friend over there is almost drooling and you seem to be avoiding looking at him.”

Emily lifted her head and saw a handsome man standing on the other side smiling at her.

“Oh don’t be ridiculous Garcia.”

“I am not my love bird, you should go for him.”

Emily slowly shook her head. “No I can’t Pen.”

“Why?”

Emily looked at her feet, which seemed very interesting that very moment.

“Emily honey, would you please talk to me? If not I will go over to that man and tell him that
he should just make a move.”

Emily’s jerked her head up and looked at her friend. “Don’t you dare.”

“Well then tell me.”

 “There is nothing to talk about Pen; really, he is just not my type.”

“Oh please, don’t lie to me; I know that he is totally your type. He is tall dark and
handsome.”

Emily blushed, yes it was her type, and it was her type before she met the blonde woman.
Now it would rather be small blonde and blue eyed.

“If I go and dance with him, will you leave me alone?”

The blonde woman nodded, pleased with her doing.

Emily walked over to the man. His grin grew wider, she would just dance with him and then
tell him that she was very sorry but she didn’t want to be with someone at the moment.

“Hey.” He said at smiled.

“Hi. My friend told me that you were looking at me since we’ve got here.”

He blushed slightly. “Umm yes I was. I was just thinking that maybe you would like to
dance?”

Emily smiled. She had to admit, he was kind of cute. “Sure.”

She took his hand and led him onto the dance floor.

After a couple of upbeat songs a slower one was played. It didn’t take him long to grab Emily
by her waist and pull her close.

The brunette enjoyed dancing with Andrew; he was a nice man and had a sense of humor.
Everything she liked in people. She was surprised at how bold he was, when she felt his
hands on her hips. But she didn’t resist the gentle pull. She felt his hands wandering up and
down her back and she shivered. Not because she liked it, but she thought about the woman
that used to make her feel this way. Emily decided that it was enough, she wasn’t one of
those girls who would play with men, but when she wanted to pull away Andrew’s right hand
wandered under her shirt and his left to her ass. That was definitely too much. She jumped
back and slapped him. Without giving him a minute to response she left.

Garcia who had witnessed the scene knew that their time at the bar was over. She grabbed
both of their bags and followed the brunette.

Once Emily felt the cool breeze on her skin she leaned against the wall.

“Hey.”

Garcia appeared next to her and handed her, her bag and jacket.

“Hi.” Emily said.

“Listen I am sorry I didn’t want to push you to do something you didn’t want to.”

“No it’s alright Pen. I overreacted a little bit.”

Garcia smiled. “Yes you did. But that’s not my point.”

Emily looked up; she didn’t know what her friend meant.
 “Oh don’t play innocent with me Prentiss; I know that there is someone.”

Emily squeezed her eyes. “You do?”

“Yes sugar, I do.” Garcia stroke the brunette’s arm.

“But how?”

“You’re hickey silly. Look I don’t know who it is, but I can tell you that you should go for it. I
have never seen you happier than the last couple of months. And considering what had
happened to you that is..”

“Thank you.” Emily pulled her friend in a tight hug. She was relieved that Garcia didn’t know
about JJ and her. If there still was a ‘JJ and her’.

“No, don’t thank me. Wanna go grab a cup of coffee?”

“Yes.”

Garcia looped her arm with Emily’s and they went to the little café around the corner.

After their coffee both women decided that it was time to head home. When they arrived at
Emily’s condo Garcia insisted to escort her to the door.

Emily hugged her friend. “Thank you so much, I had a great time. I definitely needed that.”

“It was my pleasure. Let’s do that again soon.”

“You bet. Bye.”

“Take care, I will see you tomorrow.”

The blonde went back into her car and drove away.

Emily opened her door and saw the little red button on her answering machine blinking. She
pressed it and was surprised to hear her boss’ voice.

“Prentiss its Hotch I need you at the airport as soon as you get this, we have a new case.”

“Great.” She said to herself.

The female agent grabbed her go bag and got into her car.

---

“I am sorry I had to call you in that late, but I am glad that all of you got here that fast.”

“What’s the new case?” Morgan was the first one to ask.

“Three men were found in three different areas of San Diego. Each had a different sign
carved in his chest. The local police think that it could be a satanic cult.”

“They only called us, after they’ve found three victims?” Rossi asked in disbelief.

“No, all three men, were found at the exact same day. Chief Menton got an anonymous call
telling him that he should send men to the named location because they would find sinners
there.”
 “Sinners?” Emily spoke. “That doesn’t fit the MO of a satanic cult.”

“But the signs do.” Reid stated.

Emily didn’t answer; she looked at the blonde woman sitting next to Morgan. They haven’t
talked a lot since they were on the plane. Other than the case and the regular things like,
how are you nothing has been said between them.

After the team had talked about the case and what they were going to do once they’ve
arrived in San Diego everybody took their seats.

“Are you okay Prentiss?”

Emily jerked out of her thoughts and saw Rossi sitting next to her. “Yes.”

He frowned. “Yes?”

“Yeah I am fine.”

“Okay, if you say so. I’ve just realized that you and JJ haven’t really been talking and well it
just seems a little bit weird, seeing that the first thing you girls do is take the seats next to
each other and ramble about girl stuff.”

“Dave, are you profiling me?”

“No Emily I am not, I was just wondering, did you and JJ have a fight?”

Emily shook her head. “No we didn’t, it’s just that we’ve seen each other so often lately there
is nothing really to talk about.”

David nodded, but he was not really satisfied with the brunette’s answer, he knew that
something was wrong with both women, but he didn’t want to push either of them.

JJ glanced over at Rossi and Emily. It was hard for her not just to go over and kiss the other
woman. She wanted nothing more than to be with the brunette, but she was still too hurt.

When JJ came back from the little bathroom she saw that Rossi had claimed her seat, and
the only one still free was either across from Emily or right next to her. JJ’s heart began to
pound a little faster when she sat across from Emily. The blonde’s foot softly brushed the
other woman’s leg and Emily’s head jerked up. JJ couldn’t help but to smile at her and was
more than surprised to see a smile in return.

----

After two days they have found three more bodies. This time they were female and how it
looked they were the men’s wives or girlfriends.

“So we know that the Unsub abducts three couples, male and female and kills them.” Morgan
said when they were standing in the police station.

“It doesn’t take a profiler to figure that out.” Snapped one of the detectives at him.

“But you only see that he kills couples. We see that he must have had a troubled childhood.
His parents probably fought a lot or even cheated on each other. He was a troubled child,
didn’t have any friends when he was a teenager and most likely never really had physical
contact with women. He is carving those symbols into the flesh to either relieve some stress
or they mean something to him. It is probably the second thought, our technical analyst
couldn’t find any sign similar to those carved it, so it’s the Unsub’s own design, they mean
something to him only he knows. They might even tell a story to him or are each remarkable
to the characters of his victims. Listen, we don’t want to come here and get all the glory,
we’re more a resource than anything else, but you need to trust us in doing our job.”

“Yeah I am sorry, it’s just we haven’t found out anything yet and he might have abducted his
next victims.” The detective said in a low voice now.

“I know.” Hotch was the one talking now. “And we are all trying to find him. We are as
depressed and tensed as you are.”

The detective nodded and headed back to do his work.

Hotch turned to Emily and detective Carlson. “Prentiss I need a word with you in private.”

“Sure.” The brunette nodded and went after their unite chief.

“I want you and Carlson undercover.” He had thought about that since they’ve discovered
the female victims. Hotch wasn’t sure whether this would be a good idea, but JJ clearly
wasn’t the Unsubs type.

“Sure, no problem.” Emily said in a emotionless voice. She didn’t care if she had to go
undercover, at least she didn’t have to see the press liaison all the time then. It had been
hard on her to regain control around the blonde.

“Okay. Carlson already knows and he agreed as well. You will act as a couple. Meaning, the
FBI has already gotten you an apartment near one of the dump sides. I hope it won’t take
that long but we don’t know. It can be the case that we will head back to Quantico and you
will stay here as long as the Unsub strikes again.”

“Okay.” She didn’t even thought about not being able to see the blonde for god knows how
long. She couldn’t let her affect her job like this. And if she was truly honest, she didn’t even
have anything against not being able to be around the blonde for a couple of days. You’re
such a liar Prentiss. You don’t want anything more than be with Jennifer. The little voice in
her head told her.

Hotch was surprised how bitter Emily’s voice sounded, but didn’t say anything. Aaron knew,
just as good as the dark haired profiler did, that they had to do it in order to catch this man.