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whosoever's response
dear vanesa,
here is your letter... with whosoevers response.
your two page letter carrying so many questions requires
300 to 400 pages of response which will be equal to a big book.
anyway, it does not matter; let us see how it goes.
you write : satnm dear gurudev !
thanks to manish, i am contacting you a second time.
the first time i wrote two lines and now two pages.
i thank him for suggesting to contact you
...and you, for reading these lines.
oh god ! please save me!
i have a very big desire to be able to soon visit and spend some days
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thats why those followers remained on the periphery and are still
moving in circles... round and round... but having nothing in hands.
here i would like to mention that what you take as his message,
or what others take as his teaching... which i see as his assertions,
helped me immensely but i was not his follower; i am his disciple.
though he was not my master from his side,
but i am still his disciple from my side.
a follower is one, who remains on the periphery, who remains in
the mind not ready to lose anything only interested in collecting
knowledge, information only interested in believing or rejecting.
a disciple is one, who is ready to learn or unlearn,
ready to go to the very bottom of the insights of the master
does not want to believe or disbelieve... rather longs to realize the same.
he carries the master in his heart he swallows him, he assimilates him,
he drinks him... so that the master can breathe through him.
a disciple is one, who ultimately is ready to lose himself totally and
completely... and dissolves himself in the master once and for all.
now let us go through the sayings of UG,
which you consider them as his messages.
i have no particular message for mankind... except to say that all holy
systems for obtaining enlightenment are nonsense... and that all talk
of arriving at a psychological mutation through awareness is rubbish.
the natural state can happen only through biological mutation.
but how biological mutation will happen, nobody asked UG...
nor you are asking but somehow believing in it.
whatever has happened to me has happened despite everything i did.
whatever i did or did not do and whatever events people believed,
led me into this are totally irrelevant.
it is something like to use my favorite phrase lightning hitting you.
you are quoting this saying of his,
but it is very obvious that somewhere you also doubt it.
if he would not have done whatever he did, whatever has happened
to him, would not have happened... lightning would not have hit him.
growth and ripening of a fruit is always gradual,
but falling of the ripened fruit is always sudden.
the wise ones say: it does not happen by ones doing
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after failing in his deeds, he started asserting that the grapes are sour.
his assertions have negative, reactive connotations.
to my understanding : unknowingly he was heading towards
...what he calls calamity... because of his adamant nature,
which somehow got developed from the very childhood.
his calamity was the result of overdoing and in the wrong direction.
without a proper guide, he over-cooked himself.
there are people who love eating over-cooked food,
so they became attracted towards him and became his followers.
but his followers are uncooked and now gratifying themselves...
carrying the false idea... that they have the courage to stand alone !
as UG continued to make fun of j. krishnamurtis followers
and oshos disciples, by calling them : widows of j. krishnamurti,
widows of osho... and now others are making fun of his followers
by calling them : widows of UG.
intellect is not the right tool to understand one's natural state of being
...as natural state is not a thing.
intellect is needed to understand things,
but what is beyond things, beyond appearance, beyond senses, beyond
names and forms to know, to realize that no intellect is required.
actually, no tool is required to arrive at the natural state.
the only way to know, to realize that... is to be that.
there, intellect is not the right tool.
one cannot have the right result by using a wrong tool.
food can be cooked only on fire, not on ice.
things means which have an appearance, which have a name and
form... but ones natural state is transcendental to name and form.
so there is nothing to understand, there is only a need just to be.
hence to use the intellect to understand ones natural state
is a wrong expectation, in the very first place.
during the 40 years UG lived in an awakened state.
he just insisted again and again that theres nothing one can do
to jump to a more elevated state...
that awareness cannot be achieved by practice...
and to seek nothing from him.
though he is true, but he is not right.
his insistence that there is nothing one can do to jump to a more
elevated state by ones doing that awareness cannot be achieved
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a master only helps to realize ones true state of being, ones true
nature or ones natural state, as UG says.
a master is one who has arrived, as he knows all the know-how of it,
so he is capable of guiding how to arrive.
UG found this an arduous job, so he refused to help
and started boosting the ego of people around him,
and started asserting to have the courage to stand alone.
actually much more courage is needed to surrender than to stand alone.
is the master just compassionate enough to let us
at least be around him to see
is the master just compassionate enough to let us
at least be around him to see if his presence can communicate...
do you think a master is an animal in a circus ring... to be watched ?
...or some kind of a joker for entertainment ?
what do you mean by compassion ?
a master even can cut the head of a disciple... that too is his compassion.
if his presence can communicate...
what words cannot... or, he can guide us to the technique
that can better fit each ones path?
let it happen and you will know by yourself.
be lucky to be around a master, allow him to do the needful
...as he knows his job.
and finally since enlightened ones or masters
should be all equally vibrating at the same elevated level,
how do you know ?
shouldnt their message be similar to us?
you mean every flower should have the same colour and the fragrance!
shouldnt they all say theres nothing we can do like UG,
or meditation is the way like osho ?
what a talented question! ...you mean to say :
should not the whole humanity eat the same food... pizza only?
should not everyone speak the same language?
shall i convey your message to all the awakened ones
to follow your suggestion?
my dear wisely fool vanesa, peaks never meet.
in other words : how can a close disciple of UG like mahesh,
be so identified and close to UG have such bad feelings for osho
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