Miraculous Journey Towards Divine

Mother Srividya Sadhana

by S.R.Balaji(Chennai)
Praying Mother of all Mothers Sree Varahi, to bless the content to convey, that which she bestowed on
this being, out of her unconditional love and grace, be reached to fellow spiritual seekers with relevance
and sense.
Blessed are those, getting right belief, understanding and guidance, to reach out and receive from the
divine. Our karma acts in many ways, with our own ego as base, hinders our way to reach the right path,
that suits us. It is actually the divine that unfolds the path, to those who seek with sincerity.
Divine mother feeds her child in many ways, so does she for the being in me. As each ones journey and
experiences are different. Sharing with one another, imparts flavor, adds interest, encourages, gives new
perspectives & insights ,reinforces and enhances, our Self, on this path, I believe.
With that intent, would humbly share few learning that happened in my ongoing spiritual journey here,
for following questions mentioned. Conveyed as I received or understood it.
Q 1. Does the Darshan, vision, dreams of divine appearance are true or it is illusion, imagination or
hallucination out of our continuous feeling towards the divine form ?
Q 2. No student reaches anywhere in spiritual plane unless a Guru lifts him. Why so?
Q 3. Do we attract those people and events, that knocks us away from spiritual path? Why ?
Why do I suffer and struggle to hold on to my Self and progress on my path?
Q 4. Am not able to be in state of awareness continuously. I fall often. The anger, bitterness, other low
emotions in me erupts at times, hurts myself and others, that in no time, I undo all the good progress I
made. Why so? . I feel guilty and hurt, to go back and stand infront of mother, aspiring spiritual progress ?
What is the way out?
Q 5. Why self realization is the foremost, one should intend? Why is it, the one, most needed on spiritual
plane, to begin ?
Ans 1 :
Almost an year back, I started praying to Ma Varahi, for her grace and to get me a Guru to reach to her.
I was excited to see a verse in a book, where it is mentioned, reciting it sincerely, will bring experience
of Mother, like hearing boars sound or hearing horse sound of Ashwaruda Varahi in the night, to assure
that the sadhak is under her protective ring. There were versus to seek her grace, get her darshan etc. It
was mentioned the experience one gets is based on his karma and sincereity.
I started praying mother with those versus with sincererity. Though my innerself started elevating during
such pujas and prayers, I couldnt hear anything as mentioned neither I got any darshan. I continued.
One night, I was little depressed. Is my prayer is not sincere enough to get her darshan or feel her
presence and went to sleep.
That night during sleep, I saw a tall, well built person, in king like attire with golden body with divine
beauty. Though graceful, His appearance was immensely powerful that I got afraid and woke up. I cannot
relate it to any divine form I knew. He resembled Sri Iyannar ( Grama Devatha), but I knew he was not
Iyannar, because his face radiated a divine silence and bliss, which I couldnt relate with fierceness I
associate with Iyannar.

Next night, saw same person with a pujari infront him appeared in dream. The pujari himself was well
built and about 6 or 7 feet tall and the gracious golden body person behind him was twice thrice taller
and was a absolute beauty to stare at. Still I was afraid, though a part of myself felt, what if the divine I am
worshipping was the one I am seeing, that I am able to connect to him.
I was afraid, it was such an energy field, not able to with stand the experience, I woke up.
Time passed with me continuing prayer to mother. The link with which I got to Ma varahi worship also
got disconnected for some reason. One day, I was crying, feeling that neither have I felt mother nor have
I got Guru to guide me.
Desperate to reach out to a Varahi Upasagar, I googled for some source on Varahi worship. There, It was
like lightning coming down on my body that I saw the image of the same king like person in google
image, I was spell bound that what I saw as alive person was inform of statue in same attrire.
When I got to the website, there comes the background song of guru ve saranam and I got to know
that he is Varahi Siddhar Sri Muthu Vaduganathar, originally a decendant of King family and he is
reincarnation of mother Varahi herself.
What one can say about mothers grace. Though she responded to my prayers for a Guru and her grace, I
could nt understand it.
Leaving rest apart, the divine form I saw in dream, was something that I cannot imagine, visualize out of
my previous experience or knowledge. I cannot imagine a siddha in attire of a king.
When I prayed to Ma to give her experience, even if she had come with her form, I could have mistook it
for my imagination those days. she had shown me the form, which is her re incarnation.
It is interesting to know from the readings on Jeeva Samadhi of Sri Varahi siddhar, in an incident, during
reconstruction of siddha peetam, on a rainy day, a child gave the note of the siddha in meditation whom
the child saw through a hole in the Samadhi enclosure, formed during demolition work, that his body was
radiating in golden colour.
It just not possible to visualize the siddha, with such attribute, which I can came to know after several
months.
Doesnt this convey, that divine do respond and give experience, when prayed sincerely.
When what is offered is pure and true, what the divine will reciprocate in return? wont that also be pure
and true.

Ans 2 :
People attract guidance, Guru based on their karma. When the karmic baggage is such, that,at times a
student is either not able to connect to guru/path suitable for him or he is associated with Gurus who
have not fully evolved or have materialistic interest that, their guidance imparts, incorrect understanding
about divine and about ones own self.
This makes the path more of ritual than experience. This makes the guidance more of knowledge than
experience. One lacks experience, that his self is not moved. The shift doesnt happen.
Till the time one is stuck at this level, the ego does the rest, that it keeps unveiling karmic plays, that one
cannot progress much.
At this stage, even the knowledge can only be knowledge, not experience and belief.
When one seeks with sincerity, the divine blesses to reach a Guru, who is already evolved that, he is able
to show the path in his tutelage and get the experience, which will make the transformation possible.

Ans 3 :
An incident happened recently. I was not able to do Srividya sadhana regularly, as I try scheduling it for
early morning, but I cant wake up after all the works done till late night. It was indeed a blessing that one
morning, when I was sluggish to wake up, I was woken up by a Light body from Astral world, whom
revealed his presence to be seen with physical eyes, so that I wake up in astonishment.I did woke up.
Thanked that being. Then started preparing for sadhana. Thats when I heared some one banging the
gates of my house loudly that, I thought is my servant who comes early morning.
I keep getting angry with a servant, for making noises and disturbance while mediating.But when checked,
no one was there . No even in vicinity. For a moment I thought, did the light the Light body I saw few
moments back made the sound.
May be, but why would he do that, I thought. I realized if it were servant, I would have got angry, but if it
was the light body I wont, though it was a disturbance.
What does this convey.
The people, events that disturb, distract or discourage you are only tools of karma, that is duely acting to
pay back. Not to get angry on them, as they are only tools. And if one react, to any such provocation with
anger, ego etc, you will loose the attention on sadana and energy will spent on that. Our spiritual energy
will be wasted.
One who realize this and has true inclination for sadhana, will let go of the person and event. Will rise on
spiritual path, staying liberated from effects of karma.

Ans 4 :
All guilt, influence of karma etc exists and able to exert only till we associate ourself only to level of body,
which is influenced by mind. We are pure at soul level as Guruji Siva premananda conveys.
Sadhanas such as Srividya sadhana and Atma bija mantra, has given me the taste of what is mentioned in
the Soul mantra, started to experience the awareness that I am soul not body in every walk of life, even
when not in meditation. At this state the inner turmoil is less, that I dont attract much of conflict outside.
If a conflict arises, able to avoid or solve without much hurt to myself and others.
The Self stays focused on the path and comes back to track, much easily.

Ans 5 :
I had few glimpses of paranormal vision, couple of times. I shared the same to concerned person, to
suggest, possible solution for the situation, in context then, with good intent.
I realized that it takes my attention, energy and time away from path to divine, that it easily pulls my level
down, because of a feeling of ego gratification and contentment that I am able to accomplish something.
I pulled myself away from that orientation. Thanks to Mother and Gurujis blessings.
This happens when one is not self realized that he is not liberated from the worldly acts.
When one realizes he is not the doer, does the same good act, at soul consciousness, only as a medium
of divine, he will not attract karmas and his being wont vibrate with lower emotion.
To sail on path to divine, self realized person, even if acquires siddhis which makes him above normal
human being, he will not incur karmas that bind, in exercising the siddhis , that allow him to evolve.
With this understanding, I pursue Sri vidya Sadhana.
It is a privilege to share these, in this sacred space of Guruji Sri Siva premanandaji.

He who is Mothers helping hand extended on to us

My being, ever thankful to him and the Guru Lineage.

Dus Mahavidya The Ten Great Sources

of Wisdom
by Kavitha.C (USA)
The central theme of traditional tantra is the knowledge of the Self through adoration of Shakti; Sri Vidya
Sadhana is one such path to the Self. Along this path of diving deeper into ones own self, Shakti
manifests in several forms of knowledge/intuitive wisdom. These forms are known as Dasha Mahavidya,
where ten primary forms/sources of knowledge are known deeply personally and experientially.
These Mahavidyas are: Kali, Tara, Tripurasundari, Bhuvaneshwari, Tripura Bhairavi, Chinnamasta,
Dhumavati, Baglamukhi, Matangi and Kamalatmika.
They are called maha (great) because each is a complete path and destination. Each one opens to
knowledge of the remaining nine, as well as the Bindu of the Sri Yantra. It is said that devotion to and
practice of any one of these will reveal our true nature and the reality of all of creation.
There are volumes written about the Dasha Mahavidyas, encompassing points of view of the yogas,
tantras and the Upanishads. Scholars spend their entire lifetimes dedicated to understanding and
grokking the significance of each of these Mahavidyas. My somewhat hesitant writings here thus pale in
comparison. Everything expressed here is what has risen from my own practice of tantra, usually in times
of intense clarity and insight that happen spontaneously. As with all of the paths of self-unfoldment, these
insights will also evolve and refine.
The basis of these writings are the tantric practices of Tattwa Shuddhi and Sri Vidya Sadhana. Tattwa
Shuddhi (literally, cleansing of elements) comprises of dissolution of elements corresponding to the
various chakras into progressively subtler elements and then into the mahatattva (great element), Prakrithi
(Shakti) and Purusha (Shiva). After internal cleansing rituals, the elements are returned to rest in the
opposite direction.
In the dissolution part of this practice, it gradually becomes intuitively known that Shakti/Prakrithi is the
witness, the first separation from the Absolute. Even when we become aware of witnessing, there is a
sense that it is not all, or the final it. With deepening inquiry, one is eventually propelled to ask, Who is
aware of the witness? and in time, we open up to the direct knowing of this awareness, that is,
Purusha/Shiva. While it feels that Shakti is the individual witnessing principle, with a retained I in it, the
individuality of the witness collapses as Shiva, and there is only knowing awareness that is not fixed to this
and that, I and not I.
In witnessing, there remains an experience, and a knower of the experience. However, with further
openings and deeper delving into this knowing awareness (Shiva, in this analogy) to be ones true
self/identity, we gradually come to see that every experience that arises is awareness itself,
only seemingly separated from the knower. In every experience, when we look deeply, the knower is
added ad hoc, in a swift play of illusion by the mind, the master magician. If we can stay with the
experience, free from the minds interference, the knower is not seen to be separate, but known directly to
have risen as the experience itself. Thus, Shakti is never separated from Shiva. If Shiva is the void, Shakti is

what makes up the contents of the void, giving it form; yet, the void and the form are known via each
other. Shakti is indeed Shiva, like the waves of the ocean being the ocean itself.
As in Tattwa Shuddhi, we then return to daily life, elements aligned once again as before. However, there
is a distinct difference in how these elements are held in experience; they are transparent and not as
solid/real as they did on the way up. The borders between in here and out there become blurred and
disappear.
Along this path of openings and awakenings arise the Mahavidyas, setting the inner void ablaze with
intuitive arisings and wisdom. They reveal themselves as the inner essence of time, vibration, space,
silence, wisdom, compassion, oneness, dissolution, eternity, and beauty. Each of these powerful forms of
Shakti is a complete path, leading to Shiva and back into Herself; each will bring the sadhaka to his/her
knees in awe and surrender.

Srividya Sadhana -Confluence of

Tantra, Yoga and Vedanta
by Kavitha.C (USA)
The path of sadhana is always mysterious, twisting and turning in proportion to our surrender and the alwayspresent element of Divine Grace. How I was led to Sri Vidya Sadhana is one such mysterious tale. Even though japa
and mantra sadhana have long been among my daily practices, tantra had never held much appeal for me,
perhaps because it has been so distorted from its original teachings, particularly in the West. However, since
beginning Sri Vidya Sadhana, the pristine teachings of Tantra have drawn me into their fold to such an extent that
what I thought were my paths (yoga and Vedanta) have exploded into much greater understanding. Sharing a bit
here from my experience..
Earlier this year in deep meditation, I noticed a subtle but definite resistance to dissolving the I-sense. In
meditative practices, often my focus remains on this I-sense, that which when traced back to the Source
dissolves into samadhi or transcendence. But for several days in a row, I noticed a definite barrier that
stopped short right at that I-sense, rigid and unyielding. One particular day, this inability to move past the
I-sense brought up such frustration and longing that I lay down sobbing. By then, I had had many peak
experiences of energy movements, visions, deep insights and ecstatic bliss, but still, there were times
when old and nonserving patterns came up in daily life in the form of attachment to I and mine. As I
lay broken and wondering what the use was of such mystical experiences if there wasnt a meaningful
change from within, it was as if a thought was planted in my brain to take up Sri Vidya Sadhana. I had no
doubt that this thought was planted by my beloved guru Kriya Babaji, for this is how he has worked to
lead me along the path. As I searched for more information that day, I was astonished to see that this
great practice could be obtained through deeksha in the lineage of Kriya Babaji, further strengthening the
knowledge that surely it was His wish. Shortly thereafter, I was initiated into Sri Vidya by Sri Premanandaji,
and in the short time since then, it has been transforming my life and everything I thought I knew.
Shiva represents consciousness. By himself, Shiva is inert. Shakti is creation; She provides movement and
dynamism to Shiva. Neither can create without the other; thus, Shiva is often depicted as Ardhanariswara
half Shiva and half Shakti. Shiva is the nothing while Shakti is the everything yet, the nothing and
the everything exist simultaneously, inexorably entwined. Yoga is the path of Shiva, starting with the
viewpoint that Shiva and Shakti become as thoughseparated in the process of creation. The purpose of

yoga is to bring them back together (yoga = to join). Tantra is the path of Shakti, starting with the
viewpoint that Shiva and Shakti exist together, and that the most effective way to experience Shiva is
through Shakti in her infinite manifestations (tantra; tanoti = expansion, trayoti = liberation). While the
yogi renunciates in order to know Shiva, the tantric embraces the totality of life experiences knowing
them to be Shakti, the Divine Mother Herself. Not one aspect of life is shunned away from everything
from the subtlest to the grossest experience that arises is seen to be the Divine Mother. The traditional
practice of tantra lies in the effective use of mantra (name) and yantra (form) to know the nameless and
formless Brahman. While Advaita Vedanta sees all of creation to be an illusion, the tantrik (from the point
of view of the embodied jiva) sees creation to be very much real, a play of the Divine Mother on the fabric
of immutable consciousness that is the Divine Father. Shakti is simultaneously seen as being benign and
beautiful as well as ferocious and terrible there is no aspect of creation that it is not Her. Tantra teaches
one to see Her beauty and to love Her in Her infinite forms no matter how depraved or heinous. By
expanding the limited mind beyond the dualities of good/bad, beautiful/ugly, right/wrong, like/dislike, the
tantric arrives at the same place as the adept yogi or the Vedantin Oneness; seeing that Brahman is the
nondual reality, in and through the mirage of duality.
While the energy and peak experiences that come with a practice like Sri Vidya Sadhana are numerous,
the real fruit of an effective sadhana is what happens in day-to-day life. Gradually, the distinction between
mundane and spiritual falls away there is no aspect of life that is not spiritual be it working, playing,
sleeping, praying or meditating. The effects continue to grow and expand daily, beginning with surrender.
While bhakti has been a strong element in my sadhana, the type of surrender that Shakti demands and
gets is in a league of its own. The more I become drawn in to Her, the more childlike I feel myself
becoming, relying on Her for everything. As a young child feels, there is a constant longing for
communion with Her, to sit in Her cosmic lap and be schooled by Her. There is the strong impulse
to give up everything to Her as an offering my body in fasting, my breath in pranayama, my
limitations, pain and selfish desires as incense, my deep-rooted vasanas (samskaras) as flowers.
Nothing can remain as mine, not even the sadhana itself. There is an intense growing need to
burn in the inner ritual fire of bhakti and austerity, to let it hone and chisel my being as it will and
leave behind nothing but the Divine spanda of love, the essence of all creation. What happens with
such longing and surrender is that there is increasing acceptance of everything to be Her Grace, be
it external such as a routine situation (like a traffic jam when already running late) or internal,
within the mind/emotion (like an old unforgiven hurt that surfaces to cause anger or pain). The
Divine Mother is so compassionate that all I need to do is ask, and She gives more than I ask for. I
ask for clarity to look at my limitations, and She grants it along with compassion for myself and
others so I may understand that such limitations are universal and so I may behave with tolerance
toward everyone. I ask for Her love and She shows me in a thousand different ways every day that
love shines bright all around me. I ask for courage, strength, wisdom.. and it is done, showing up in
unexpected ways. Most of all, I beg Her for knowledge of Brahman, and She points me to myself,
again and again.
As someone that adores the clean logic of Vedanta, the austerities of Yoga and the esoteric inner rituals
of Tantra, Sri Vidya Sadhana is the practice that beckons to me, probably picked up from a distant lifetime
and guided by the benevolent guru in the growing understanding of the dynamism of the Sri Yantra,
there is an intuitive seeing of the Bindu that remains still in and through all of creation that is in constant
motion. This experiential seeing, a gift of Divine Grace, chips away the veil of separateness and expands
one into fulfilling the destiny of evolution to realize first-hand the divinity within[/expand]

My Journey to Sri Vidya Sadhana The

Experience
-by Sushil
K. (Canada)
12 years ago, my Gurudev Paramhamsha Shri Akhandananda Saraswati told me, At times when I cannot
teach you directly, I have to do it through other Gurus, or even your spouse. So, just listen to your heart
clearly and observe every situation. I will always be there educating you. But you have to be clear in your
heart and mind otherwise you will be deceiving yourself.
What is a Sadhana?
I would say that it is learning. Learning about yourself (Atma-sadhana), and Sri Vidya is all about climbing
those nine ladders (Avaranas) to reach to the top of the Meru to get the Ultimate Vidya; the ultimate
truth and that is all what we need to know and that is why we are all here in this universe taking re-birth
after re-birth to know the ultimate truth. Close all your gaps and merge within the Universe.
On Guru
First of all, I would like to stress the importance of Guru in any Sadhana. Without gurus grace there is no
darshan of Sri devi and no use of mantra and meditation. Therefore, to know the truth of Guru and
respecting that truth is of utmost importance before beginning any sadhana, and that is what leads to
success.
Guru is not a physical stature, but is a consciousness. He is the Brahman. As stated in Guru Gita, Lord
Shiva initiates Devi Parvati on the principle knowledge of Guru. The syllable gu is darkness, and the
syllable ru is said to be light. The first syllable Gu represents the principles such as maya, and the second
syllable Ru the supreme knowledge that destroys the illusion of maya.
Let us realize the mantra, Ham Sah..Ham Sah.
Here, ha represents Shiva or intelligence (consciousness) & sah represents Shakti or energy
and m between ha and the sah represents jeeva or the individual, who is the contact point of energy
and intelligence. The purpose of chanting this mantra is to win the Supreme Gurus grace.
There is no doubt that the Guru is indeed the supreme knowledge that swallows (the darkness of)
ignorance. Guru Paduka states:
Ananta-samsara-samudra-tara
Naukayitabhyam sthirabhaktidabhyam,
Jadyabdhi-samosana-vadavabhyam
Namo namah rgurupadukabhyah
Salutations again and again to Gurus sandals, which are a boat to cross the endless ocean of the world,
which bestow steadfast devotion, and which are a raging fire to dry the ocean of (spiritual) insensitivity.
So, the ultimate truth is that, The Guru is nothing else but consciousness, eternal, peaceful, beyond space
and stainless. He is beyond naada-bindu-kalaa. Let us all now bow to that Guru.
On Sri Vidya

The Universe is made of two principles, Shiva and Shakti. Shiva is existence and Shakti is the awareness.
When these two unite, the union forms a state of Ananda. Sat Chit Ananda the Bliss is what we call. If
we look at the Sri Chakra, the 3 triangles at the top center are Sat, Chit and Ananda.
Anandam, anandam, anandam,
Sat Chit Anandam
We used to sing the above mantra along with our Gurudev for so many hours; and with ignorance, I used
to get bored sometimes just singing these words not knowing the real depth of what Gurudev was trying
to say.
Sat Chit Ananda, is the true point of happiness that we are really looking for and this is why we came to
this earth. But, we die without know these three simple words and come back again in the next life to
know the same thing and it has been 84 lakh births but, we still have not understood, where to find this
state of happiness. This is what, I call a Sri Vidya Sadhana.
Here, I just want to highlight another simple thought behind the Shakti principle. But, as seen this simple
principle is actually the Das Mahavidya. Kali, Laxmi & Saraswati our 3 mothers & the 3 mantras of
divine mothers i.e. Aim Hreem Shreem.
There are three Shakti that we know of:
Kriya Shakti (Kali), Jnana Shakti (Laxmi) and Iccha Shakti (Saraswati)
The source of all of these shakti is the divine mother Lalita, who is Sri Vidya. So, to know her we need to
know the above 3 principles of Shakti, Ma Kali, Ma Laxmi & Ma Saraswati.
I remember doing 3 days sadhana only chanting Aim Hreem Shreem. It was during Navartri 2002,
Saptami, Astami & Navami. With our Gurus grace; we were very fortunate to have a divya darshan of 3
devis on Navami day, chanting these mantras.
The first mother, we know when we were still in our mothers womb is Kali, in the mooladhar chakra,
the Kundalini Shakti which is the source of Energy (Kriya). So, mother Kali protects us till nine months in
the womb, and then when we come out of the womb, mother Laxmi takes the responsibility of protecting
us and we get her protection in the form of our mothers breast milk. When, we reach 2 and quarter year
(27 months), we now dont want to get the nourishment in the form of breast milk, and even mother is
not able to provide it, then mother Saraswati takes the charge of protecting us and that is the time when
we start to speak and she is the mother of knowledge, as we start to speak and learn. This continues till
we are 7 years.

I will elaborate more on this in my next journey, but I just wanted to make everyone reading this article
aware of the very simple Shakti principle. My thought and experience is, if we are conscious of this
principle, we can easily awaken our Kundalini Shakti.
Mantra & Meditation My Experience on Connecting to the Divinity
Let me start my journey from here then!
I will share my personal experience till now. I have been chanting the mantras & doing sadhanas after
initiation from the past 12 years. I actually have a set process & a set discipline of doing puja, mantra
chanting, meditation and sadhanas. My understanding on Mantra is that each syllable creates a sonic
energy patterns and chanting of specific combination of mantras creates a Kinetic Energy (KE =
mv^2), and it connects to the mantra deity & when it resonates with this divine energy, effects are seen
as per the karma of an individual.

Mantra Chanting is actually the process of cleansing & refining our inner self. It allows us to awaken the
hidden divinity within ourselves and inculcate divine virtues by simultaneously meditating over them. But
remember to surrender before the divinity. This is what I call, bali or the sacrifice. Until and unless we
sacrifice our egos, we will not be able to gain any benefits as stated in the vedas & puranas.
This is also what I call a Sankalpa, as my thinking is sankalpa means to give & not to take, as we offer
everything that we have to Divine Mother Lalita; which is all our negativity by the way. Only then, I would
be able to receive her blessings. Otherwise, our body is already full of ego, jealousy, negative karma etc.,
and there is no space for any positive vibration, then mother cannot give us anything as there is no space
left. It is just like a bucket full of water and once it is full, there is no space. In order to fill it up again, we
need to empty the bucket first.
I always start with Ganesha Prarthana, & Guru Prarthana; then I have a set of process and sadhanas that I
do every day. I have set 2 hours minimum a day to do the sadhanas. I feel different energy patterns with
different mantras that I chant. I have many experiences to share, which I would slowly in my further
editions. Today, I will share the experience during my Bala Tripura Sundari Sadhana. I would like also to
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pick a date, 30 July 2013.
First of all, I offered a small prayer to devi Lalita,
I bow to the goddess made of mantra, who consists of the 51 Ganeshas, the nine planets, the 27
constellations, the six Yoginis, the 12 signs of the Zodiac and the 51 letters of the alphabet and sacred sites.
I then completed chanting Lalita Sahashranaam.
As per Gurudev Premanandas permission, I started chanting the Maha Pratyangira Devi Kavach. As soon
as I started reading line no. 1, a huge heavy bulk of energy came to me, and as I went on to read the
second line, my voice suddenly became rough and became very loud. I could not control it. I immediately
realized that Shri Maha Pratyangira devi is here. So, I paused reciting and, I offered my Namaskar to all my
Gurus, my paramgurus, Ganesha, Shiva and then Lalita devi right at the top of the Maha Meru Chakra.
I then thanked Pratyangira devi, for coming to bless me and I continued to recite her kavacha. My head
was extremely heavy; my voice was extremely Manly, rough and loud till I finished the kavacha. I have felt
lot of divine energies of Kali, Durga, Bagalamukhi a number of times during these many years, but this
energy was completely different, a very strong, very lively and actually frightening, if it was completely
new to me. I was like dehydrated, could not even speak by the time I finished reciting. But, I didnt want to
stop here though, as I knew she would not have liked that.

Again, when I started reading her mantras, it was just full of energy; my voice and hands were completely
out of my control. I was virtually pointing to all of them who had previously done injustice to us. I was just
happy that Mother Pratyangira immediately came to let me know that she is there always whenever I need
her. It is just a matter of true & pure devotion.
Then, I started my Baglamukhi sadhana which I do always, and as soon as I started chanting the beej
mantra Hlreem, it was not actually me who was chanting. I just kept chanting the mantra so-so
fast Hlreem, hlreem, hlreem, hlreem.; my whole body started vibrating like anything and suddenly I
realized I was dancing.
The dancing kept on as I started chanting Kshum Duum, kshum duum, kshum duum.. and she
was Devi Shoolini Durgawhich is my third sadhana that I do every day.
I cannot explain the pleasure of the next sadhana that night of Shri Bala Tripura sundari.So; here I
just wanted to share something great that I got to experience that night and beyond.

Shri Bala is a pure, divine, childish energy, and she loves to play. The main principle behind Devi Lalitas
manifestation as a child in the form of Shri Bala is only to bless us the sadhakas & give us everything we
desire.
One thing, we have to keep in mind while doing her sadhana is to invoke Lord Ganapati. The Bala
Ganapati, ganesha in the form of a child and Shri Bala Tripura Sundari mantras that I invoked, when
chanted with pure dedication will create magic. The real philosophy here for all of us to actually
understand, is to come with a pure heart and pray Shri Bala as she would grant all our wishes, which a
mature form of Devi, Shri Lalita Tripura Sundari would probably think before granting us the boon;
because she is the mother of entire beings and she would only grant after probably getting assured of
every calculations she as a mother would do.
I would like to urge everyone to continue doing there sadhana without any expectations of any preferable
outcomes as normally she would test us putting in a difficult situation to check our reaction. Just meditate
on her, pray to her and surrender to her. It is definitely worth your life.
I would like to thank Gurudev and also request for the continued blessings with Sri devi Vidya.
At the end, I would just like to pray mother Lalita to forgive me for everything with the lines below of Adi
Sankaracharya..
na mantram no yantram tadapi cha na jaane stuti-maho
na chaa-hvaanam dhyaanam tadapi cha na jaane stuti-kathaah |
na jaane mudraaste tadapi cha na jaane vilapanam
param jaane maatas-tvada-nusaraam klesha-haraam
na mokha-syaa-kaankhaa bhava-vibhava-vaan-chhaapi cha na me
na vigyaanaa-pekhaa shashi-mukhi sukhech-chhaapi na punaha |
atastvaam sanyaache janani jananam yaatu mama vai
mriaanee rudraaee shiva-shiva bhavaaneeti japataha ||

Shri Matre Namaha!

Revelation of Inner Meaning of Shree Mathre

Mantra : AUM AIM HREEM SREEM SHRI MATHRE
NAMAHA
by Naresh (India)
Note: The below is my personal understanding of the above mantra. The seekers of truth are requested
to be open and go further deep to realize the absolute truth and share the new insights with all for the
welfare of the universe.
Revelation:
Beyond the beginning and the end states, there existed only Infinite Ocean of existence which is eternal
(Sat) with full of awareness and intelligence (sentient chit) and its nature of completely blissful
(Ananda).

To understand this better, Ocean is eternal existence (Sat), Ananda is the water in the ocean and Chit is
the states of water in the ocean as waves (manifestation) on the surface and still state in deep under
ocean (beyond manifestation).
From this Chit aroused infinite dimensions of manifestations including void. Many of these manifestations
came from the absolute state and merged back into this state just like the waves in the ocean. This
existence is so subtle that any manifested wave or particle cannot comprehend its depth. This is very
much similar like describing the state of deep sleep in the wakeful state.
To understand better of Chits Manifestation states, the below grid has been provided.

Dimensions
(existence)/
(Time)

Manifested

Un manifested

Unknown
Existence

Permanent
Temporary
The Vedas declare that the first word that emerged from Brahman is AUM. I tried to dive deep into this
truth and taking clue from Sanskrit alphabet pattern the following realization emerged.
From this infinite Chit of existence represented as Shiva (the static) and its Shakti (the dynamic), came out
the first basic sound particle as A (externalize manifestation as Shiva) and AA which is its shakti Aspect.
For better understanding purpose I am not considering the shakti aspect in further explanation. Note
Shiva and shakti are inseparable like fire and heat.
When A arose there was a force to pull back this A to its original State, this force made the basic
sound E/I. If E was able to pull back the A sound then the particle would have returned back to its
original state of existence. However this did not take place because the Origin refused the A particle
creating a great centrifugal force with basic sound U. This U is described in Upanishads as Udgitha.
Thus three basic vowels A, E, U emerged from the ocean of existence.
Due to state of instability of sound Particle A in between E, U sounds there emerged two forces the
pull/resistance of centripetal and the push/conductivity of Centrifugal forces represented as basic sounds
Rr (dwesha) and Lr (Ragha).
Due to refusal of A by Origin, A merged with U to form the first compound sound AUM. M represents the
resonance/vibration and thus creation of first element space/Nada. To counter and balance the Aum
word, the next compound that came out was the Aim beeja.
Due to mergence of A and U came O. From the Inward force of O came Am and its outward force
/resistance came Aha (visarga). The combination of O and Am formed SO beeja and from the visarga
came Ham beeja.
Due to interaction of centripetal Aim and centrifugal forces Aum (push raga and pull -dwesha forces)
around A came the rotation motion leading to creation of the trigunas namely Satwa, Rajas and Tamas
impacting So, Ham and creating a sinusoidal wave with +, Neutral, charge.
We can say that due to resistance (Dwesha) and conductivity (Raagha) influence on the electricity AUM,
created a wave of three states (trigunas) upward state of wave , neutral state and bottomward state of
wave. Upward wave represented as Ham and downward wave as So. And Neutral state as Au or O or
Sauh. From this So Ham emerged the Air element. The prana Shakti of Aum Prana.

This So Ham reflects at two levels in AUM consciousness 1) Universal consciousness: United oriented
divine consciousness represented by So and 2) Divergent individual consciousness as Hum. Therefore the
life breath So Ham (also represents vayu /air element) forms the bridge between the universal and
individual consciousness.
When the AUM with So Ham oscillation moved in Aim (prana cable/conductor), the resistance (Ram) in
the conductor Aim generated the heat, thus aroused the fire element. And the forward movement of So
Ham in the conductor Aim created the water element. The resistance Rr merged with outward flowing
Ham to form Hreem , the protective sheath over Aim (cable sheath over conductor) representing the
Earth element. By the way Hreem is Bhuvaneshari Beeja representing the Earth.
The resistance Rr merged with inward flowing So to form Sreem the inward conductivity of Aim
Conductor (determine the inner property of Aim). The Rr when merged with neutral state of SoHam i.e.
(Sauh) came the beeja Shreem. This shreem became nucleus, sreem the protons and hreem the
electrons. Thus Shreem became the nucleus of creation of elements hence it is also known as Mathre or
Mother of matter elements.
This Shree formed by Aum Aim Hreem Sreem is the mother of all manifesting elements, compounds of
divergent universe in Micro/Atomic (Na Ma-Ha:= Not great/Micro) level. This is atomic knowledge of
Shree is known as Sri vidhya.
I feel that this might be the insight of the great Maharishis to reveal this great Srividhya mantra Aum Aim
Hreem Sreem Shri Mathre Namaha.
As Scriptures say that what is there in micro is there in macro. Taking clue from this statement we can
conclude that This shri vidhya when looked at macrocosmic form (Ma-Ha) it is called as Brahma vidhya.

Sri Vidya and Dhumavati Sadhana

Unravel the Mystery!
-by Sushil K. (Canada)
Om Paramtatvaya Narayanaya Gurubhyo Namaha
Once my Gurudev shared with us a mysterious story of Dhoomavati and Baglamukhi sadhana, that how he
could not get his Baglamukhi sadhana as accomplished until my paramguru Kailash revealed him of a
Dhoomavati mystery. That mantra is extremely powerful for a normal sadhaka and should be only
practiced under a qualified Gurus supervision. Dhoomavati manta is, as stated, 100 times more powerful
than Baglamukhi mantra. So if we can combine those two mahashaktis together anyone can guess the
outcome! Request your guru for the mantra, do not start reading from text or from other source as it can be
lethal.
Guru is always necessary to open the gate, to channel the energy via the sound and the frequencies
created by the sound which is sometimes uncontrolled, very powerful & dangerous because of our
thought process. The vibration created by the mantras will combine with your thoughts actually to bring
the manifestation. So controlled and positive thinking being relaxed is necessary during mantra sadhana.
So who is Dhoomavati?
I can only share my knowledge and experience which is very much limited but practical. Dhoom means
smoke and so is goddess dhoomavati described normally as a smoky shakti. She also breathes smoke. She

th

is 7 of the 10 Mahavidyas. She is very uncommon and is portrayed as an ugly faced eternal widow, old,
and also called Alakshmi; it is because she does not have the radiance of Lakshmi. But this is just an outer
perspective of what we actually see from outside which is not 100% truth. There is also a Black crow along
with her which symbolizes the black magic & the dark evil forces.
I will ask everyone to be with me for some time as we all take a little dive and look at this perspective try
to analyze this supreme vidya.
Dhoomavati is depicted as old & terrifying elderly because she represents the first and the foremost state
even before the entire creation and hence called Jyestha and Laxmi being younger is called Kanistha. So
until and unless, you perform a Dhoomavati sadhana, there is no way we get a blessing from Laxmi as this
is not possible. During the devshayani ekadashi, Vishnu as the chief administrator of this universe goes to
rest then; Maa dhoomavati takes control over everything for those 4 months. If we can please her within
these 4 months with rigorous sadhana, then what else do we need to achieve!
If we just look back to mythology, Maharishi Durvasa as he was part of Shiva, used to test the
characteristics and reaction of those in front of him at that particular moment and immediately curse as
per the influence of Dhoomavati as she controls this department of anger.
Dhoomavati also rules the Jyestha Nakshatra in astrology. If we see here from vedic astrology also, people
born on Jyestha naksthara, command respect from people around and are generally rash & impulsive with
hot temper & are obstinate to some extent. Dhoomavati since she represents our core values and
principles being elderly; and is completely not childish in nature. She is mature and loves those who are
motivated, supports those who work really hard to achieve the goal of life a complete siddhi, whether it
is spiritual or material.
If we just look back to mythology, Maharishi Durvasa who use to test the characteristics and reaction at
that particular moment and immediately curse as per the influence of Dhoomavati as she controls this
department of anger.
Dhoomavati is situated at our Mooladhara chakra. Mooladhar chakra: its main aspect is the innocence,
and that is where the source of energy comes from in our body. She will bless us with the power to fight
against all diseases, all stresses, and all our unfulfilled desires, as Dhoomavati is also called a goddess of
unfulfilled desires, so with her energy and blessing we can fulfill all our wishes as she is also a source of
our desires. In an uncontrolled aspect, she is our ego, our anger, frustration and the power or the thought
of cursing, as she holds the department of curses.
To appease Dhoomavati or other mahavidyas is really a challenging part. Who knows how many birth it
takes for us to at least know or even get a glimpse of these 10 mahavidyas, but my main point here is
towards the learning. We should always learn from past mistakes as she will reveal us all our
imperfectness, humiliation, losses, loneliness, disappointment and sorrows and that is the only ugly part
tantra is revealing us. Let us all learn from our mistakes and take positive steps not to repeat them, this is
the real wisdom and way we can please mahavidyas specially dhoomavati.
I will also just touch on her depiction as a widow here, once we reach the ultimate state there is nothing
left for us to desire. Desire is a lust and lust is actually charming, so when we reach at the top of the Meru,
we will have no desire other than to merge with Shiva and Shakti and there is no worldly lust who is
Mohini and when there is no mohini there is no outer charm as well. Inner beauty is what we have to seek
out as physical and outer glory is just transient and an illusion only. This is the principle knowledge or the
Srividya, I know of.
Experience:

As I have described in my previous writing that to reach the Meru, there are steps to perform and we
cannot reach unless we start from the bottom. So, start from Ganesha & Dhoomavati as they reside in the
mooladhar. Get their blessings as ganesha is the obstacle breaker and Dhoomavati is the ultimate giver,
nothing can stop us.
Many of us are in a belief that Dhoomavati should not be worshipped at home and specially ladies should
not worship her as she is the depiction of widowhood. I can be wrong as my knowledge is very limited,
but my guru never restricted me to do the dhoomavati or any other ugra vidya sadhana at home. I
believe, we should never be afraid to approach ugra devis if our intention is good and not to harm others
as I stated earlier, our mind is very powerful, so always ask your Guru before starting anything.
My experience is, as soon as I chant Dhoom there is a force that I feel like someone is walking; Dhoom,
dhoom, dhoom..
As she teaches us to become a warrior, a sound will appear and when I go on chanting Panchadashi
mantra along with the 51 lettered Shiva mantra, I would have gone past the Stargate and time travelling
to some holy place, where my guru is resting quietly and smiling at me. I cannot explain the feeling now,
but I will disclose that you will not be yourself when you experience these energies. Once it comes, it stays
with you so, channel these energies properly for the welfare of your family and for the humanity if you
will.
Please request your guru for the mantra, do not start reading from text or from other source as it can be
lethal.

The Revelation of Panchadasi Mantra

by Divine Mother Shri Lalitha Tripura
Sundari
By Naresh(India)
With the blessings of divinity, I got initiated into Sri Vidhya Sadhana by Shri Prem anandji. During my
deeksha, I had vision of Shiva Lingam and experienced a very deep sense of peace which cannot be
expressed by words. The change of personality was clearly noticed by my friends. I felt I was more
grounded and many of my internal obstacles were gradually easing out. In fact, I would like to express my
gratitude to Shri Premanandaji for his great help of connecting me to Divine Mother.
I am one who believes that any system which does not transform a person to be a better person then it is
not worthwhile having it. This Srividhya deeksha has proven its worth to me.
Encouraged by these changes, few days back, I browsing the srividhya sadhana website to know more
about the sadhana and had come across the description of Panchadasi mantra. To be very frank and with
due respect, I was not able to understand the inner meaning of this mantra, so I sought the help of Divine
Mother with love (just like the small innocent child asks his mother) to reveal the secret of this mantra in a
manner that I could easily understand it. Few days after this event, sometime in the afternoon of Oct1,
2013, I had vision of Divine Mother Lalitha Tripurasundari (Mother appeared in Rose pink aura in a misty
cloud) for few seconds and then she disappeared.
On Thursday morning of Oct32013, I suddenly felt an inflow of divine knowledge from deep inside, which
started revealing me the secrets of Panchadasi Mantra. Considering this intuitive knowledge as divine

prasadam from Divine Mother which I would like to share with all of you and hope that you would enjoy it
and be benefitted by this explanation.
First Line of Panchadasi mantra: Ka E I La Hreem
Ka represents Kundalini shakti
E Pingala Shakti
I Ida Shakti
La Desire to enjoy (the mooladhara of all beings)
Hreem : It is Beeja mantra of Bhuvaneshwari Bhuvana means palace or House or Earth. Spiritually it
means the energy that keeps the structure of the body

So the first line states that kundalini takes residence at the mooladhara chakra of the body. It activates
and maintains the ida and pingala nadis.(simile : 9 months in mothers womb)

Second Line: Ha Sa Ka Ha La Hreem

Ha Outgoing breath
Sa Incoming breath
Ka Kundalini
Ha Individual consciousness
La Desire to enjoy (Mooladhara of all beings)
Hreem: Energy that sustains the Body

The second line reveals the state of child birth, here Kundalini starts the breathing process with Ha and
Sa beeja mantras and awakens the individual consciousness (second Ha) and then it goes to sleep to start
the hide aspect of hide and seek game. It creates the illusionary worlds for experiencing the desire to
enjoy.

In this game of hide and seek of Shri Lalitha, Soul hides from its original state (OM) and forgets its reality
due to the constant flux of Ha and Sa vibration and experiences himself as an separate individual.

Third line: Sa Ka La Hreem

Sa Seeking the real I

Ka Kundalini
La Desire to enjoy (Mooladhara of all beings)
Hreem: Energy that sustains the Body

The third line reveals the life of the soul in this world, who would like to return back to its original state,
this is just like the child who wishes to return back to his Mother after tired of playing distracting games.
This return journey of Self that I am not this, not this but I am that I am starts when the grace of divine
mother kundalini activates at mooladhara under the guidance of Sat Guru.
Another interpretation of the panchadasi mantra could be first internally activate and remove blocks in ida
and pingala nadis by purifying and balancing them with the help of breath (Ha, Sa). By doing this both the
manifested goals of the individual consciousness (Ha La) and Spiritual goals of divine consciousness (Sa
Ka La) can be achieved.

Srividhya sadhana a gateway to the

soul
by Kalyani.C (India)
With the blessings of my Parents, Guru, Lord Shiva and Shakthi, I would like to share my experiences with
Srividhya Sadhana.
I came into this path when I happened to know about Siva Yogas website through my friends. Then,
under the continuous guidance and blessings of Sri Premananda, I was able to learn Siva Yoga and
continue the practice from then on.
Suddenly, one day I felt strong emotions at the solar plexus area (due to stress). It is just like on the
surfaceI want to cry out I couldnt control my tears. It is just flowing when I think something this
happened when I was reaching home from office, that is, while travellingI could not tolerate people who
do injustice..I am almost tired of living this life. Then, I sought the help of Sri Premananda to get out of
this situation. He then gave me Navakkari Mantra initiation to help me on my journey in this earth. It is a
very special gift from Thirumoolarji.
After I got initiated, I was practicing this Navakkari mantra (balancing the nine planets). My entire life has
changed since then and more importantly I was able to get out of the situation I mentioned above.
People and things seemed to favour me, which helped me to sustain and continue with my life on this
earth, without which I am nothing now. It helped me a lot for which I do not have words to explain.
The nature of this world is like a wave. Always ups and downs will be there. We need to learn to lift
ourselves during these tough times. We need to learn to focus on the positive side of us, people and
world. Remember, your karma, beliefs and feeling attracts the people around you. Be compassionate to
the normal people as they are doing it ignorantly.
Later, I faced a different kind of experience during night. While sleeping, air suddenly rushed into me
forcefully. Then the following morning, I was not able to get from the bed. I felt someone sleeping over
me holding me tightly. So I tried to overcome that force to relieve myself. That time I saw a white face
sleeping over me. Then I chanted Om Namasivaya to get out of the trap. I was able to chant only once.
Then that face with no hairs on its head left me. Then I was able to get up and do things normally. But I
felt the heaviness and burning sensation in my chest for some time. Sri Premananda advised me to use
the protection shield and infuse with Divine mothers mantra Om Hreem Om, Navakkari Mantra and the
51 letter mantra of Sivayoga. I thank Divine mother for giving me such a protection from all forms of

dangers and attacks. With this protection shield, I dont face any of these problems now and my life is
going peacefully.
I would like to share some points that I learnt and experienced, which would help in our spiritual
evolution.
1. All negative incidents were pre-decided to learn. Learn that even in that negative incident I can
give love. Incidents can be changed but it will change when you say I have learnt a lesson.
2. Never pass judgment nor hold resentment on anyone you come across.
3. Do not curse anyone for anything. Giving more blessings will create more blessings for the self.
4. To live in harmony, do not command, do not comment and do not demand.
5. Let your daily agenda for everyday be to give as love to as many beings as possible; not only family
members but other people, animals, plants, etc.
6. Purify the mind (anger, revenge, resentment, ego, etc) first and all unresolved issues. Until this is
not purified the soul is not clean.
7. Srividhya is the highest sadhana for eliminating sanchit karmas.
8. You were not born to suffer but you were born to work out (release) your karmas.
9. Take a deep breath, light a lamp and invoke the guru and you will notice it burning differently.
10. When shaktipath is done, it is upon the individual how he takes it. Do not suppress your emotions,
let go, but at the same time dont lose control over the emotions. Dont encourage those emotions
to overtake.
11. If you are persistent in your sadhana and in burning your negative karmas then a day will come
when everything suddenly opens up and your path will be clear and quicker. Sometimes people
quit when there are just very close to the goal.
Overall, we need to do more and more sadhana to know the answers for all our questions, including who
we are and why we are here.

Srividhya Sadhana Experience of the

Divinity
by Puneet.M (India)
I have interest in exploring spirituality and so I started searching for a true Guru who would give the path
for both spiritualization and materialization. I had been to many places and read a lot of books, the one
that appealed to me the most was A Search in Secret India by Paul Brunton. I have read this book many
times since I was 16 years and each time I finished reading it gave me a different kind of enlightenment.
One thing that was very clear was that it was only by fate that you get a true Guru as Paul had got his
Guru Ramanarishi.
I started searching for online Deeksha as this was the most convenient form of sadhana that I could do if a
Guru who would be willing to do so. I found only one reference that was srividhyasadhana.com. This is
how I found Acharya Premanandaji and my life has completely changed after he gracefully accepted to
give Deeksha. Srividhya sadhana requires a discipline by following this discipline the bad karmas do not

come into the aura of our bodies. This I have practically seen happening as I know astrology and found
some of the events that were to happen were almost nullified and dissolved due to regular sadhana.
This sadhana is the best way to communicate with the Divine mother Maa Lalithaambika Rajarajeshwari
MahaTripurasundari.
Each Sadhak has unique experience based on what progress they have made in the past lives but the
journey is wonderful. I felt this very truly when Guruji gave Deeksha at the designated time saw various
spiritual energy light forms and the Golden pink energy envelope my body and soul and was feeling
blessed. This was a unique experience and the bliss experienced was so great that I could not open my
eyes for at least 1-1/2 hours after the Deeksha and was completely drenched in the wonderful energy.
Immediately after Deeksha as I started Level 1 meditation Kundalini cleansing started taking its affect. To
understand this one must remember the Ksheer Samudra Manthana process that Lord Vishnu had done.
First what came out was Poison and Lord Siva had to drink it and was called Neelkhantha. This was Tamsic
aspect, then came out 14 Gems including Goddess Lakshmi which is the Rajsik aspect and then the Amrit
the Satvik aspect. So also with Kundalini Jagaran when a Siddha Guru does this to a disciple then the first
thing that would come out is the pent up emotions and such aspects which have been giving negative
emotions inside you and to people around you. The affect you can see is with your life partner and people
around you as they reflect what you have given to them over the years. You may have serious fights. But
a true Sadhak should take this as part of the process of Kundalini cleansing. Once you go past this
difficult phase of Tamsik rising you would get to the next blissful phase of Rajsik rising where you may
experience sudden wealth or wishes being fulfilled very soon. One must not stop here and should
continue Sadhana as this is the stage where you may gain Siddhis and you may get distracted by them. As
rd
Guruji says we must enjoy them but not get entangled in them only then the 3 Satvik stage can be
reached.
Some of my experiences are given below:
Appearance of Divine Mother in dream. Initially I was worried if Lalitha Ambika Maa would come to me in
Havan which I used to do daily during Level 1 Sadhana. She came in my dream, and said if you call me
with joy I will surely come. I did not know her Avahan or invocation mantra so I called her name and asked
her three times to come in the Havan and bless us. After this I started chanting her name 108 times on a
rudraksha mala. In between me and my wife got to smell such sweet fragrance from the havan that we
went around the windows and doors to see where it was coming from but it was surely coming from the
Havan kund and we felt blessed. Divine Mother is so kind and so great Lalitha Ambika Maa takes care of
her devotees always and does not leave them in any circumstances whatsoever. She is the true Divine
Mother Devi Maa.
Maa appeared during meditation once with her big graceful beautiful eyes. Now I know why they call her
Meena Lochani.
This Sadhana is so potent and powerful that the experiences which we used to have during Havan have
started happening every day during Sadhana. Srividhya Sadhana is really the best method in Kaliyug to
get both Materialization along with Spiritualization.
Balatripurasundari Maa arrives and protects. During Sadhana Balatripurasundari Maa is so kind and divine
and so graceful that she is indescribable. She is playful sometimes she is very caring of her devotees. Devi
Maa Balatripurasundari appeared on the Shahsrara chakra and sat there on the Lotus and smiled one day.
I requested her to come into my life and be with me. Every day I go to office in my vehicle but this has
never happened to me, on the same day a young girl of about 10 years asked for stopping my vehicle for
a lift. I immediately obliged and she came in. A sweet smell filled the vehicle immediately. I understood

this is a divine being. After about a kilometer she asked me to stop and came out of the vehicle. I have a
photo of Maa in the altar and in the night there was a thud sound and we immediately could smell the
very sweet fragrance which we had smelled in the havan inside the meditation room. She is so kind and
caring she fulfills the desires of her devotees.
Gurujis workshop is an experience which our family cannot forget. The presence of Siddha Guru Acharya
Premanadaji ensured Divine Mothers presence. The methods given in the workshop are so effective that
we are able to utilize them in our everyday life and reap the benefits of Siddha Healing.
I have healed some of the roads in Bangalore using Siddha Shakti. Somebody living in Bangalore will be
familiar with the big potholes around the Whitefield road which used to be there and now suddenly after
sending healing to the road and the politicians, the repair work started. This is a very unique application
that I found which can be used for Public service. At home siddha healing power we are using to heal sick
plants and they are showing signs of revival. Efficacy of Siddha methods lies in their practical application
which Guruji stresses during the workshop.

How Divine Mother Teaches Her

Children: My Experiences With My
Mother
by SIMHA.R (India)
On one occasion while accompanying my friend to a bookstore, though I dont like reading books, I accidentally
took a book Raja Yoga by swami Vivekananda. This book inspired me and I felt an urge to seek the divine. I
immediately understood that, the way that suits my attitude and circumstances is yogic way of worship. After
that I read lot of spiritual books by divine gurus. One of the most inspiring was Auto biography of a yogi. But I
did not know how to start, or where to start.
I would like to share little bit about myself. I am an introvert, shy and sceptical guy & I believe only after
experimenting. I spend about 8 to 9 hours in office and 2+ hours in travelling from home & office. So it
was very difficult for me to find a guru to start my spiritual journey. But I dint lose hope. I was praying to
the divine to bless me with a guru or to show me a path which suits my current busy lifestyle. And one
day while trying to solve a technical problem at my office, I accidentally came across Sri Vidya Sadhana
(http://srividyasadhana.com) and I immediately realized that it was no accident & its pure grace of the
divine mother. I could not believe it! it exactly suited to my requirement. I felt as if this was specially
designed for me.
From my experience and the experiences that I read here, I understood that divine mother teaches the
same thing in different ways depending on the attitude and the understanding capacity of the sadhak. I
would like to share many such incidents here,
1. Before starting this sadhana (before initiation) I do not know anything about this, and as usual I had lot
of faith and also little hesitation somewhere. Because most people say that you need to be physically

present near to the guru. On the day of initiation I felt amazingly great experience and I was 99% satisfied,
and remaining 1% I felt something missing, but I was hesitant to convey the same to Guruji. So I replied
saying everything was good. But I was really surprised to see Gurujis mail saying that we need to do it
again as there is a little block. We completed it again and am fully satisfied. I understood that this was just
how mother wants to teach me on the greatness of the guru. And I found the love of a mother and
patience of a teacher in my Guru Premanandji.
2. I had a very good experiencing while doing the sadhana. Divine mother started appearing and I could
feel the love and warmth of Divine mother. All my past desires and wishes started realising.
3. Then when the second level started, Lord shiva started appearing and I could clearly feel the difference,
when mother appears its like standing near a ocean with big tides and lot of fun & energy. But when Adhi
yogi appears it like the sky full of calmness and static. During my free time I go through different mantras
and deities and was inspired to worship one of those and during my sadhana, I felt as if Adhi yogi shiva
asked me to approach my Guru for clarity. I conveyed the same to my Guru. And Sri Premanandji was so
patient and loving, he asked me what I wanted and understood what is best for me. And blessed me with
a mantram on Sri Mahaavathar Babaji .
4. I do my regular sadhana in home daily, and also do meditation while travelling between home & office
and to my surprise even while I am travelling I am able to concentrate and meditate irrespective of the
crowd and road condition. One day while meditating in the bus suddenly Jesus appeared in my aagya
chakra. I was surprised and understood that this sadhana is beyond the geographic boundaries and is
really a global level sadhana for all mankind irrespective of their religion or other distinctions.
5. Most interesting part of my sadhana is during my Bala mother sadhana. During the first week of Bala
mother sadhana, I was expecting something and was confirmed to happen in my office. But suddenly it
was cancelled. All my colleagues thought I would be very disappointed but I was surprised (actually forgot
the meaning of this word, because of so many surprises), to see I am normal not at all disturbed by this
news. I continued my sadhana ignoring the things that are happening to me. And at the end of the 6
weeks sadhana, what I thought was cancelled in my office was not cancelled and they are going to have it
again. Now I understand when someone says Bala mother is playful.
6. On one occasion, I had to take an exam in my office as part of Organizational initiative. And because of
some miss-communication I was informed about it just 8 hours before the exam. I dint have the time to
prepare and also do not know what to prepare. I had other commitments so had to go to the exam
without even knowing what it is all about. In the exam hall I understood that 60% is the pass mark, so
even if I guess, I had to guess 60 out of 100. Everyone in the hall is pretty tensed and are cursing the
management and are preparing with lot of material. I was very cool and thought for a moment things like
this will happen in life, where we have to take up the challenge unprepared and how to overcome this?
Then I started my experiment, I prayed to Bala mother asking her to show me how to handle this situation
and this is not about passing but these kind of things often happen in life. So I started taking the exam on
faith and not on knowledge / logic. To be very frank I probably know the answers to 2 to 3 questions. And
heard of at least 10 questions but dont know the answer. And the rest, I have never heard about the
questions. I answered all of them by mere faith. And again to my (no)surprise I was the only one who
passed the exam on that day in my entire organization. This brings us to the point can we have blind
faith? Faith is always blind. Has faith an `eye? Why say `blind faith? Either simply say `faith or say `Jnana
Sri RamaKrishna Paramahamsa.
7. My job is to find technical solutions, so I will be dealing with problems all my professional life. Most of
the time its very difficult to solve them because if its easy it will not come to me. Many a times I had to

stretch/struggle in the office. And I found a best way to resolve them, rather than solving it on my own
intelligence. If I say this is going to be solved by mother and I am just an instrument in her hand, they will
be solved pretty fast. But if I say I (with ego) am going to solve it even the simple thing will take a lot of
time.
I believe all these experiences are just the tip of the iceberg and the ultimate goal of this sadhana is selfrealisation and god-realisation. So am eagerly waiting for the grace of my Guru and my Mother to
dissolve into the divine consciousness and leave no traces of I.

Upang Lalitha Vrat

BY PUNEET.M
Note from Sri Premanandaji:This Upang Lalitha Vrat is given by Divine mother Lalithamba to
Puneet during his communication with her in meditation and not copied from any where. I am
Thankful to Puneet for sharing it with us.

Purpose of the Vrat: This vrat is done on the Panchami Tithi of Navaratri or any Shukla paksha Panchami
day
Material required for Upang Lalitha Vrat: The vrat is done to get any spiritual or material desires
fulfilled.
1. Sandalwood powder, Incense sticks, Earthen lamp or Brass lamp, Clean Red or Yellow cloth, Some Pink,
Red or Yellow flowers. In my experience Devi Maa likes the Red or Pink flowers the most, but with
devotion any flower is fine. Akashata (Unboiled and unbroken rice mixed with Ghee and Haldi) and
Copper/Earthen pot to hold Gangajal, Sriyantra/Photo/Idol or Mahatripurasundari or Balatripurasundari
Maa
2. Clean the Puja Room and the altar where you are going to do the pooja. Decorate the
Idol/Sriyantra/Photo one day before the start of vrat.
3. Note down the sunrise and sunset time of the day you wish to do the vrat for your respective city
fromwww.drikpanchang.com
4. Exactly at sunrise time on the vrat day do the Pooja as follows :

OM GANESHAY NAMAH Do Aarti of Lord Ganesh if you have his idol or photo otherwise imagine on
your 3rd eye.
OM SHREE GURUBHYO NAMAH Prayer to your Guru and ask for permission and blessings to carry out
this vrat.
OM RISHIBHYO NAMAH Prayer to all 7 Ascended Masters and SiddharThirumoolarji to bless and guide.
Now take water from the copper pot IN RIGHT PALM and WHILE reciting the Marjan or purification
mantra pour water on the idol, photo or yantra and then on the pooja items and then on yourself OM
APAVITRO PAVITRO VAH SARVAVASTHAM GATOAPI VAH YAH SMARET PUNDARIKASHAM SAH BAHYA
ABHYANTARAH SHUCHIH

Now light a lamp and say the following Mantra onCe it is lighted:
OM LAKSHMI KAROTU KALYANAM AROGYAM SUKH SAMPADAM MAMA BUDDHI PRAKASHAM CHA
DEEP JOYOTIR NAMOSTUTE
Take in your left palm some Akshata (Yellow rice previously prepared) and put the left palm on the right
knee and cover it with right palm and say the following.
OM ADYA SHUBHA DINE SHUBH MUHURATEY SHRI MAHATRIPURASUNDARI SHRI RAJARAJESHWARI
PRASAD SIDDHYARTHAM SHREE UPANG LAITHA VRAT KARISHAYE
Now do Aarti of Photo/Sriynatra/Idol and you can quietly say your hearts desire after this to Goddess
Mother.
Offer Flowers, Akshata, Sandalwood Power, Sweets, Lighted lamp, Incense sticks to Mother.
You can chant any Mantra or Lalitha Trishati or Lalitha Sahasranama of Goddess Maa now if you are
initiated by a Guru. Otherwise Prayers are fine.
To end you need to ask for forgiveness by this mantra:
OM MANTRA HEENAM KRIYA HEENAM BHAKTI HEENAM PARAMESHWARI YAT POOJITAM MAYA DEVI
PARIPURNAM TADASTUME Please forgive any sins committed during this pooja.
Now submit to Divine mother using the following Mantra:
OM SARVAM SHREE LALALITHAMBIKAYEI ARPANAM ASTU
OM SHANTI SHANTI SHANTI
On Sunset the same procedure is to be followed except you need not take the Sankalpa and after you are
done with the Pooja you need to distribute sweets to 5 unmarried Girls as they
represent Balatripurasundari Maa. This is a mandatory requirement for the Vrat the and one doing the
Vrat should not consume food unless 5 unmarried girls eat sweets. So a day before you should invite at
least 5 Unmarried girls and tell them about the vrat you are undertaking. There is no harm if more than 5
Girls turn up but