TRANSCRIPT; DR.

DAVIES
WHAT IS TRUE OCCULT MEDITATION
The topic for my talk this morning is What is true Occult
Meditation.
Now, the word meditation has become quite popular and
unfortunately though the word itself has become very popular we
feel that it has not come to be understood properly. Because it
seems to us as we listen to many people sincere spiritual aspirants,
as well as those that are just the quick enthusiasts, it seems to us
that most metaphysical and occult minded people have the idea
that meditation is some kind of special secret extraordinary
mysterious something which we use in order to escape from the
pains the agonies, the pressures, the problems of life. Thats how
it would seem and when we listen at times to those who are
supposed to be disciples of supposedly great teachers we keep
hearing the idea that doing this or that type of meditation, I will not
use terminology because we never tear down any specific group in
any way, we just try to give you a new way of thinking, doing
feeling and working for you spiritual attainment, so I will not give
any names but the idea that seems to be promulgated a great deal
from the disciples who supposedly have special training is that
since theyre have had this or that or the other, special kind of
personal whatever it is that they can now walk in peace, that they
never get upset, that they are never troubled and that life has
become just one glorious twenty four hour level of peace.
However these very people who seem to feel they have
accomplished such something so great like peace, one notices, if
we wait long enough that they get into even more trouble than they
had before. And if you observe it you will see, they start handling
their life in a much more foolish manner than before, if that were
possible. And off course all of us have handled our lives foolishly,
or we wouldnt have become occult aspirants. I think we should all

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recognise this, so finally our very immaturities drive us to search

for answers that will help us to get away from the misery the
conflict, the sorrows the guilt. Because here is where we run into
the problem then, In a effort to get away from these conflicts, these
sorrows, these unhappinesses, these resentments etc., there is a
tendency in to many schools of thought as well as amongst the
disciples to merely give some type of exercise which is similar to
taking mood lifting pills, you know, or drugs. In other words, no
matter whats going on around you if you can march around with a
nice peaceful or apparently peaceful smile you can say to yourself,
gosh look at how spiritual Im getting, Im not even getting upset.
I mean, we can say to ourselves, but are we giving ourselves a
correct statement their. Because much insensitivity goes under the
guise of peace, much lack of ability to truly be attuned to ones
fellow man goes under the guise of serenity. And so we have to
come to understand a little more, what meditation is at least in
terms of the Western occult school is teaching and what the aim of
meditation is. Because I think that we run up against the most
important part of our problem, when we dont recognise what the
aim or what the aims are. Because although there are certainly,
usually a final goal or aim, you have to have intermediate goals or
aims, in other words you have to take a step at a time as youre
travelling anywhere and so the paths of return on the Qabalistic
Tree of Life are indicating these various steps. The lowest portion
of that Qabalistic Tree of Life representing the physical plane, the
physical vehicle and therefore all the physical conditions both
joyous and non-joyous both that which appears as good and that
which appears as bad. The actual manifestation is represented by
that bottom emanation of the sphere of the activity of the most
high. Now all the other paths though are similar to what you might
call, the nervous system, this is a symbolic representation, this
method, utilising this tree for meditation, which we will talk about
in a moment in other ways. This Qabalistic Tree of Life, has been
utilised for meditation due to the fact that it helps to get the mind
working in such a way as to help it establish relationships with

itself and the outside, and it is in the establishing of proper

relationships both with our selves and others that we get to the
point where we are able to participate in those realms of
consciousness which most of us, especially when we first start
travelling the path of return in this incarnation, think should be
some marvellous glorious vision or some marvellous beautiful
never, never land which would of course then keep us from having
a need to concentrate on the here and now or doing anything about
the here and now. That is if we were immediately able to get into
certain realms which we aspire towards.
Now in the Western Occult School of Training the very first thing
that is done, the very first thing, is to acquaint the aspirant with the
powers of consciousness. Now those who however have power
drives will usually misunderstand the reason for this first step.
And those who have power drives, that is, those that have great
defects in their character, at this point which means they are
immature, indeed, will start using these methods or attempt to
start using these methods in order to try to force there thinking or
feeling or way of being amd doing on another, And so we see
those who first start on the path, or at least first become truly
interested in occultism, who become so excited at the idea that
consciousness creates and that consciousness influences, that they
like to tell about walking along the street for example, and
deliberately concentrating on the back of somebodys head in order
to force somebodys head to turn . You know its similar to the
power drive one gets when you get behind the wheel of a car, you
know some people certainly do experience this power drive and
they become a menace to themselves and others. Well we have the
same type of thing that occurs to very many people at the
beginning of the path, usually those that are true aspirants learn
very rapidly, that understanding the powers of consciousness and
starting to work with the powers of consciousness certainly does
not, and should not include attempting to use ones own mind to
force thought, action or feeling on another, because this is exactly

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the opposite of what you would call acceptance its an attempt you
might say to enforce ones own idea of personal will upon another
and everything that has been taught in occultism certainly
continuous to point to one basic idea, that the great, the most vital
goal is to become completely open to the Divine Will and to
become a channel for that will. Jesus spoke of this over and over
again, as he travelled the highways and byways of Judea and
Israel. And those who have had the deeper experiences, always
continue to reiterate this one point, that the goal of meditation
should be to develop the ability and capacity to become attuned to
the divine will and therefore to become a conscious channel for
that will, and of course when we get to that point then we are able
to truly utilise the meditative methods of the Western occult school
of thought more effectively. But let me explain a little bit more
about the first step. You know in the lessons you receive through
the mail, the first six weeks are taken up with helping you to
understand HOW consciousness creates and trying to help you
understand also the fact that not only does consciousness create in
this manner but that those of us who want to gain control of our
own consciousness have to start working with this principle
consciously. And of course lots of aspirants not recognizing what
is involved in these first six lessons they think that they are
studying elementary metaphysics, but nothing could be farther
from the truth, because everything that becomes developed to the
very extreme of spiritual work has to involve that first area of
understanding, that is, consciousness creates and though there are
some aspirants who think that they have evolved beyond the need
for these first six, seven lessons, we have found that those that
have evolved beyond the need for them, have not yet evolved up
to the beginning of our work. They need. They still need the
elementary metaphysics, they still need the escapist method until
they suffer enough repercussions to recognise deeper things, and
then they will be ready. From that and following that first group of
rules, that are shown, rules not made by us, but rules as they exists,
like universal laws, from that one is then guided again through the

lessons to an understanding of the Tarot Keys which are the

symbolic representations of the powers of consciousness and start
giving each aspirant a way of meditating. I repeat this, gives each
aspirant a way of meditating which will help that aspirant to
transfer the sense of identity from the changing personality level to
the higher self level and the whole secret of true meditation has to
do with the ability to change our identification from the little
changing personality self to that higher eternal immortal self of us,
and then the rest of the work, in all its various phases is based on
bringing this growth, bringing this development into full bloom.
Step by step by step. But then how can this take place? One of the
things every aspirant has to come to recognise, is that being given
a certain technique for experimenting with the creative aspects of
consciousness, doesnt mean that we have suddenly been given
something new, someway to have power, over others. Because
what we come to recognise is that every singular one of us has
been using these principles all of our lives and all of our past lives.
In other words, consciousness cannot help creating. It is the nature
of consciousness to hold images, it is the nature of consciousness
to charge these images with emotion, it is the nature of
consciousness then to follow almost automatically not almost, but
actually automatically, it is the nature of consciousness to
automatically follow the habitual kind of images and emotional
attitudes of its self toward life toward others. So that everything
that we experience, whether it appears like that on the surface or
not is the end result of the way consciousness has been imaging
and feeling without thought to what this implies. Well then when
we come to recognise that it isnt that we are given something so
fantastically new, it is certainly given in a way that is fantastically
easy to understand, to study and to put into practice, but when we
come to understand that this is universal principle that has been
known down through the millennia by those that have been
travelling the path of return we then come to realise WHY it is so
vital to learn how to meditate properly in order to bring about
changes in the way we image and in the way we react emotionally

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to all things. This is why because unless we are aware of what we

have been doing with images, and with feeling levels, unless we
become aware of this, we are not going to be in a position to do
anything about changing it. Furthermore, starting to change these
things actually has to do with dedicating oneself consciously to the
path of return because you see it takes courage, at first, later one
wonders why it took courage at all. And as long as we have to
hide ourselves from ourselves we cannot at all truly meditate, even
though we would like to think we do, because then all meditation
becomes really a sought of reverie. Now you know reverie is
escape, unless you deliberately consciously having reverie for a
few minutes to relax, and then it should not be more than a few
minutes, because a habit of empty day dreaming which is reverie is
a weakening of the soul, it is not a strengthening of it. And it is
the strengthening of the soul that really brings us the ability and the
capacity to recognise the wonder of the meditative life, the truly
meditative life, as against the false idea of the meditative life.
Now then meditation basically is the kind of attitude that can
beheld which opens us to the realisations, which opens us to
illuminations, which opens us to the insights, to the
meaningfulness of things, which before we could not have or see.
In a way you might say meditation is to the soul what intellectual
analyses is to the mind, our minds may have become trained to
immediately start the very beginnings of awakening period of
meditation, and of course this is the essence of true Western Occult
Training. We dont expect anybody to learn how to do that
immediately either, but lets say this is one of the various goals, to
learn how to bring the very first attitude, because meditation really
is an attitude, a spiritual attitude, that can be held. But to learn
how to bring the very first waking attitude into ourselves, and of
course the easiest way to do it is with a Tarot key. Because then
you can grab it into your consciousness, and you can identify with
it, you can sought of become it very quickly, whereas if you have
to argue yourself into it with words its already just about too late,

most of the time. And so you see your shorthand, your images,
your tarot images, these are the shorthand of consciousness. So the
point is we do have these methods, but these are techniques and
too many people fall in love with the techniques. And as Master R
pointed out in a very vital communication once, he said, we
mistake the scaffolding for the goal. And we have a way of
mistaking the methods for the goal. So that some people, and
especially, this is especially true in the forms of mediation that are
escapist in nature incidentally, which BOTA does not permit
aspirants to get into, at least it sure works very hard not to permit.
At any rate the falling in love with a method actually is a way of
escaping from facing the issues, and what happens then, out world
remains small. Our capacity to love remains hampered. Our ability
to expand into joy and love is held down because of the fact that
we are trying to use an escapist kind of meditation. But when we
us the kind of meditation that says give me more consciousness.
Give me more awareness, give me more livingness THEN I tell
you we are really on the road because that means that we are
willing to face the un pleasantness every body has
unpleasantnesses in any case, and these are blessings because
except you have some thing to overcome there is nothing to drive
you, and in fact life becomes boring without problems to overcome
we make them as you well know, we make problems if we havent
got any, because life becomes much to boring, without them. So
meditating on changing identification, the tarot and the methods
here are given to us, and as we change this identification we
pointed out to the higher self, we become pretty much a continuous
tarot key 14. You know the holy guardian angel, continuously
tempering its personality and animal consciousness levels or we
become a continuous tarot key 6 that also where that holy guardian
angel Raphael we will be chanting after a while, is continuously
inflowing to the lovers to opposite polarities and this also has to do
with the ability then to develop beautiful relationships. Because to
the degree that we start getting an honest, and happy and
transmuting relationship to and with ourselves, to that degree do

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we start developing relationships with others that are rich deep and
beautiful. To the degree that we do not have to be hippocrates to
ourselves, that is deceive ourself to that degree do we stop having
other people act as hippocrates towards us and we towards them
even though we might not be conscious of it, can you see the point.
And this is actually the result of true meditation because in the true
Western Occult meditation, the meditation is on growing the
personality instrument, along with watching and directing it flow
and along with that understanding who and what is the true self,
the true grower, the true doer, and out of that then comes the
capacity finally, when we work this way to be an open vessel for
the divine love, for the divine knowledge, for the divine plan and
pattern, the divine will, And when we are become an open vessel
for this what happens then is that, we dont have to try any more to
hold certain kinds of attitudes. In other words, its pretty much like
as has been said, we get to a point, where we discover, we are not
the ones that have ever meditated after all, we have been
meditated, by God. In fact we ARE because God meditates us, this
is actually the thing that we discover by direct experience. And
you see the one thing we all come to realise when we have
managed to become more and more of a channel, and we all do,
stage by stage when we work with these methods, the one thing
that we come to recognise is that to help the one life by
consciously working with the meditative methods of self growth, is
the most exquisitely rapturous way of life that can be, because then
in the midst of anything we still can feel the goodness and yet we
are not cheated out of the pain the tender pain of compassion. We
can feel the ecstasies of the infinite unity of life, but we are not
cheated out of the awareness that there are others who have not yet
got these ecstasies and it is up to us to nurture them. We can
realise that we have eternal life and that all things in essence of
ligingness have eternal life, but we will not be cheated out of that
exquisite tenderness protectiveness toward all living creatures.
And you see livingness involves the ability, if you have lost the
ability to experience the pain of tenderness, you also cannot have

the ecstasy of true love. Can you see it, I hope you can see it,
because love and compassion, which is a tender pain go together
and we should not want to lose that. We should want to be at one,
with all beings as Jesus was. Thy pain is my pain it says in the
book of tokens. They tears course down my cheeks. Now this is a
true meditative state, because it has arrived at a place where it
knows there is no separation, where it knows that all evil is
immaturity, it must be fought, but we do not destroy our own souls
fighting it. We fight it for reasons of love not for reasons of hate
and therefore we fight in a different way. And we more and more
then learn how to walk in the raptures, in the ecstasy in the control
of the divine meditation on us and at the same time we give back to
the Divine all the exquisite details of livingness on the physical
plain in all its areas. Dont you think that that sounds much more
reasonable and logical as a goal of the divine, rather than the
discovery that the physical plane is just an illusion and lets get the
you know what out of it? You know, lets just escape. NO. We in
Western Occult Work do not want to escape anything, we want
more and more of reality beauty and good and thats what we are
going to get together.

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MEDITATION-THE GUIDING LIGH
Meditation the Guiding Light, I think that we can talk little about
this guiding light and its relation to meditation.
Tarot Key number 17 you see the lovely lady, very beautiful
indeed with all the stars in the heavens and the waters and you see
the rain? You know they might look like rings in the water, but
what is water, it always symbolises consciousness. In all of
occultism wherever you see water, you are being given a secret
beyond secret, you are being told that consciousness is fluidic and
indeed those of us who have experienced the deepest levels of this
substance of consciousness, the one thing all of us share, even if
there has been different levels of the experience amongst us, we all
share the realisation that it is fluidic that it is experienced in such a
way that one has no other way of describing this substance except
to say it is oceanic and I am sure those of us that have read books,
those of us who have at least have read about the mystical
experiences of others or levels of cosmic consciousness they may
have experienced or touched, I am sure that we will be
remembering that these varying mystics have, when they have had
the true experiences have always used terms that are similar to
oceanic. When certain individuals have meditated, and we will
talk about meditation in just a little bit more intensely, but when
certain individuals have meditated, for long and long according to
worldly points of view, in other words when they have made
meditation a way of life, so that they have almost forgotten what
its like not to be in a state of meditation, they may not look
differently on the outside, such people, but one of the things that is
noticed anyone who has a certain sensitivity to vibration will
experience an oceanic type of pervading lift from such a mystic,

experience it has been described from times as being pervaded by

love waves and waves notice. This is a term that has to do with
what? With a fluidic something, oceanic in other words. Now the
fact that certain mystics or individuals have been able to
experience this touch it, some actually become immersed in this
type of awareness doesnt mean that they are the only ones that
have it, that have this substance in them. According to all of the
Western Occult Training there isnt anything within all of the
universe that doesnt live move and have its being within this
universal cosmic mind stuff. Which, though it cannot be
described, can certainly be inferred, one can put ones own
consciousness in a questioning state, of what is really meditation.
And here something that goes beyond the mere word, which never
can give a description of a higher experience, because words
belong to the world of the senses. They belong to that which is
therefore being experienced within all limited range of vibration,
but the actual direct experience of consciousness that is less limited
cannot have words to describe it, since words do not belong in that
area. They arent from that level. I think that we ought to be able
to understand this quite well, if we will just remember, one of our
favourite analogies. NO one can describe to us the taste of a
peach, unless they have tasted it. And if we try to describe the
taste of a peach, from somebody elses description, we certainly
would be just giving them what somebody else said, we would not
sharing with them anything that is direct. It is known within the
deeper Qabalah, especially, that very often spiritual aspirants make
quite a mistake in thinking that those who have a great deal of
knowledge about occultism, and they can certainly impress us very
much, like on platforms or you know the parlour when we visit
each other, some individuals can have vast scholarly knowledge
about occultism still these types of people are similar to what has
been called an accountant. You know an accountant can take the
figures and he can keep very careful and detailed records and he
can knowable and what has the money, where it comes from and
how its been made but he cant use it. He cant use that money

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because it doesnt belong to him. In the same way there are those
in occultism who have gone in for reading about the wisdom
teaching. For reading about the various techniques and the
principles involved. And reading about these things others make
the mistake of thinking that because they show this knowledge,
which is intellectual that they HAVE the answer, or have the
secret. But you see they are like the accountant who has the
information, but he cannot use that money. He cannot use these
riches, the mystic, the occultist who works with these various
meditative techniques, methods, taught right here, who does it
assiduously, who does it consistently, step by step becomes the
type of individual, who is able to use these riches, in other words,
he becomes an owner of these riches. In other words you might
almost say a sought of spiritual capitalist. If there were such a
word because, as you know almost opposite meanings involved.
But certainly the administration aspect is there. Because it is his to
administrate, such a person.
Now then what we have to do in trying to understand how to utilise
meditation so that we will be unfailingly guided. To be unfailingly
guided, actually involves the necessity of understanding meditation
not like the accountant but understanding it because it becomes our
belonging, and when it is our belonging its because we have been
using it, meditation is the type of thing you can have only, by using
it. You can develop only by practise, it isnt the type of thing that
we can receive for nothing, or what we think might be for nothing.
Meditation now lets go back to what meditation is and is not
perhaps, at least in some other theory. Meditation is a particular
state of consciousness that mind holds itself in, far more readily
than most of us recognise. I know in the books, practically in all
the books that we read, especially those we get out of the library,
most of the books make meditation sound like something very
extraordinary, something different, something that most people
know nothing about, something thats very difficult to develop and
the result is that I have so many spiritual aspirants at times, that is

when they manage to get to me, look at me yearningly and say Oh

I wish I could learn to meditate, you know I tried but I dont
succeed. And I look at the poor darlings because there has never
been a time when they havent meditated. I realise, that again,
here that knowledge about a thing and especially when that
knowledge isnt so, because you see Ive been talking about
knowledge that might be correct, what about all the extra little
goodies that are thrown in when we are picking up knowledge that
some body else is giving us. If we dont know its true we can mix
more nonsense with wisdom and because it has a pearl here and
there of wisdom we think that we think the nonsense is also true.
And so we can be quite a mixture, a really adulterated mixture and
in Qabalah we make quite a point of the principle involved in
becoming purified, but most people immediately jump to the
wrong interpretation of the word. They think becoming purified
means that you become a virginal nun or a celibate monk and that
you stop thinking about love, union. That you stop thinking about
food or wanting it because to love food of course that is considered
not very spiritual. But whatever mistaken notion one has been
given as to what is or isnt spiritual, if we have the notion that its
not spiritual then we decide purification of us getting rid of it,
whereas it might be very spiritual indeed, and its just our notion
that might be wrong, you see. Well, we have the mistaken notion
then because mainly we have been told, by others, that it is
difficult. We have the mistaken notion that meditation is difficult
then to learn how to meditate is going to take not only a long time
but it is only for those who have the ability first to do this, first not
to do that, then there are all sorts of rules and regulations one is
given, and the subconsciousness is beautifully conditioned to think
that its going to have one fantastically horrible time, learning how
to meditate. And so grim determination will develop for those who
are very deep aspirants others sigh and try and drop it and say that
well its so difficult, well you know it depends on the
temperament. But again Im pointing out, when we understand
what meditation is, we realise that there isnt a time that we

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havent meditated, and let me explain why. Now here in Tarot Key
17, we see this lovely figure of Isis also symbolising the Natural
Intelligence, in other words, Isis has unveiled herself, and as its
been said, no one, no mortal mind can unveil Isis. Isis unveils
herself and mortal man, because you see its the higher level of
consciousness to which Isis, or wisdom, or the hidden unveils
itself. Now how does it unveiling its self? Its unveiling itself, via
the fluidic mind stuff, because the mind stuff is experienced as
fluidic. How, or what is the function here meditation, but what is
meditation? Alright, when we get up in the morning, even before
were really awake, if we stop to think what our consciousness
does we will see the second we are waking up, we are already
meditating, we can be meditating on how unhappy we are, on how
much we hate somebody or how much somebody, we think
somebody hates us. We can be meditating on misfortune on our
hopes, but still, what is it? In other words, the minute the
consciousness casts itself upward or outward like fishing, thats
why this Hebrew called the Aramaic character from the ancient of
ancient time has been called the fishhook, and deals with
meditation, revelation, thats why its important to recognise the
fact that we always meditate, we dont have to learn how to
meditate, it isnt some fantastic extraordinary, gift that comes only
after doing this, and not doing that. We do have to go in for many
disciplines indeed, on the occult path of return to god. But the
discipline has to do with learning how to use our meditations,
consciously. As a guiding light, as a connection between ourselves
and the divine, its learning how to use our meditation in such a
way that something in us is continuously on a deep, deep, level of
the self, saying in essence, without having to use words to say it,
saying in essence, thy will be expressed in and through me O Lord
of the Universe. Whatever decision I make, I want it to be in
accordance with thy will. When we get to the point where we see
that meditation is the guiding light, is something that we must learn
how to utilise, but it is having the consciousness hold itself with
that vast beyond, the vast beyond being, the totality the divine, in

us, thats why The Star, thats what this tarot key is called and
using, and the Star casts light remember, The Star is a sun
basically, it radiates Light. And remember our fraternity, our
spiritual work our order, always utilises this light, we sign
ourselves always your brother and or your sister, frater or soror, in
LVX which is the traditional way of utilising the idea of light since
LVX are the three letters used in the ancient Latin terminology for
light, that means Light and it is when we learn to guide ourselves
via the light which we then discover has been that which has really
been guiding us all along, its then that we start learning, how to
utilise mediation properly, now lets keep in mind one very
important factor here. In the Qabalah, which is the Western
method of spiritual development, it doesnt permit us to go off into
these escape mechanisms, if we stay with these teachings it helps
us to bring the spiritual powers into earth, which is what we must
do. We have this figure showing it very clearly, one leg is on the
earth solid earth, and the other is leaning on the waters. We have
to bring results onto the physical plane, we have to bring the spirit
into, matter, this is the way we, how shall we put it? From the fall
which is really the vibratory condensation for the purposes of
creation, from this fall we redeem the fallen of centres or sparks of
the divine, we redeem them. By redeeming every spark that is part
of us, here again we have the ideas of light. We have the idea of
the infinite, of space. In cosmic awareness, in cosmic
consciousness, which is the result of properly guided meditation,
always there is this awareness, not only of this fluidic substance,
that interrelates, inter pervades it inter pours, everywhere, it is
nowhere absent, it isnt an outside thing that hits against it goes
through, every, all of us, with some more intensely than others, as I
shall point out in a moment. But in this experience of this inter
pervading fluidic substance, this vastness, there is also the
awareness of a beginingless, endless space thats involved except
that it is a substance rather than anything else, and yet, remember
words will send us of in the wrong direction if we take them
exactly and literally, because higher consciousness cannot be

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explained in terms of words. But I always try to do with you, and

this is the role of one who has my, the privilege, of my
responsibilities, it is the role of the spiritual teacher who has
achieved a certain amount of cosmic knowing, to project via the
cosmic light, the cosmic substance this rate or level of
knowingness, this vibratory rate, this fluidic mind stuff, to help
build in the disciples, in the beloved more and more ability and
capacity to receive and then finally to consciously experience
these more profound enlarged levels of consciousness and the
ability and capacity to control more and more of the environment
because of this higher, deeper, ray of consciousness, this is why in
the work we always speak about the hierarchy, cause there is
always layers upon layers, levels upon levels of these
consciousness, that have attained different rates. And so whatever
we permit ourselves to be hunting for with our consciousness, if
we are hunting, for evidence of not being loved, liked or treated
well we are naturally are going to get it. Because we are going to
catch the fish that we are angling for, dont you see? If we are
hunting around to see, who we ought to avoid, why we are going to
find out that there are more and more of them, because we become
better and better, at getting the exact fish that our consciousness
holds. And so we become better and better at catching misery fish
you know instead of joy fish. And only when we come to the point
where that guiding light, as I pointed out, has to do with wanting
the divine will and only when that divine will becomes something
to us, that has to do with the fullness of loving, of wanting to do
the benevolent, the right, the loving thing, and wanting to do it
with joy, wanting to do it with flowing out pouring, without
expectation of return, because lots of people want to give, so that
they will get something back. I think Khalil Gibran mentioned in
the book of Prophet, they get there reward, he doesnt go on to say
exactly, sometimes these rewards are not very good, but this
implied, because anyone who give to get they will finally they will
attract people who are only giving them, so that they will get

something back, you dont discover or experience true giving and

flowing.
Now the desire to just have the capacity to love, to give to serve
comes only with the ability to perfect our selves, comes when our
meditation becomes such that every single moment of our lives are
looked upon as an opportunity to perfect our out flowing
givingness and not wanting to get back, we remind you, I want to
remind you. In other words when we want love, we are telling
subconsciousness all the time that we havent got it, and so we are
not going to have it with abundance and more and more
abundance, we will be rejected all over the place, so we have to
stop abusing our meditative powers, bringing ourselves more
darkness and tears. What we want is that guiding light, that
beauty. The only fulfilment there is in the universe is what we will
all discover sooner or later, so lets do it sooner, the only fulfilment
there is, is developing the capacity to want to love, and not only
want to, but top just go head and love. I know there are some
people I have sought of expressed my love towards at times who
seem to want to kick I back, and at first when I was a lot younger
my feelings would get hurt and Id feel rejected and I thought Oh
Oh then one day in my meditations hunting for an answer, I
thought Oh Oh, thats one hundred percent the wrong way to feel
for a spiritual aspirant. If they dont want to let me to express my
love outwardly, ok, Ill find something that does. This guy isnt
going to fight with me about it or the breeze or the tree certainly
not the song of the bird, I can send my love out, it will just go out
into infinitude and my mind can be saying gee I love you, of
course after a while you become so adept at having the exquisite
joy of just loving, and in a final analyses what we discover is that
since everyone and this means, everyone, deep down in the bottom
of their souls they want to be loved, they want to be appreciated,
no matter how they maybe working it in reverse. But for this
morning at least, lets take home this basic idea that meditation is
not something we have to learn to do. What we have to learn to do
is keep our meditation with the patterns that are in harmony with

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our highest spiritual desires, in order to do that of course we do

have to learn how to keep ourselves remembering, in the tarot,
working with the tarot helps us to do this. What we want to take
home with us today is the determination, the real determination
that we want to learn how to be so grateful for somebody to love
that we are going to do everything in our power when we have it
not to start destroying it by being forgetful or selfish, learn how to
say from our hearts, thank you god, that I have this love or
beloved, whether its a husband wife or friend or pet our garden,
thank you that I have this to love, give me the capacity to keep
remembering to love it and to be grateful for this love and to
tenderly care for it and nurture it, your meditation then will be
bringing more and more light not only to yourself, but to all living
creatures everywhere in the universe and sorrow will become a
thing of the past.