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passes from one generati on to the next. Laguna di ssolves the barri ers
between author and reader, getti ng the voi ce of odd, funny, love-hungry
Ji mmy so ri ght that I sti ll don t quite beli eve he i snt out there somewhere,
spi nni ng and spi nni ng i n ever-faster ci rcles. EMI LY MAGUI RE
Meet Ji mmy Fl i ck. Hes not l i ke other ki ds hes both too fast and too slow.
He sees too much, and too l ittle. Ji mmys mother Paula i s the only one who can
manage hi m. She teaches hi m how to count sheep so that he can fal l asleep.
She hol ds hi m ti ght enough to stop hi s cel l s spi nni ng. It i s only Paula who can
keep Ji mmy out of hi s fathers way. But when Ji mmys worl d fal l s apar t , he
has to navi gate the unfathomable worl d on hi s own, and make thi ngs r i ght .
A stunni ng work of compassi on and empathy, i nsi ght and
vi r tuosity by the acclai med author of One Foot Wrong.
Laguna creates a world and a character
and a language that we become i mmersed withi n . . .
Thi s i s humane, passi onate, true.
CHRI STOS TSIOLKAS on One Foot Wrong
A sparkli ng,
heartfelt wonder
EMI LY MAGUI RE,
aut hor of Fi shi ng for Ti gers
F I C T I O N
Cover design: Lisa White
Cover photograph: Getty Images
CMYK
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Laguna creates a
world and a character
and a language that
we become immersed
within ... This is humane,
passionate, true.
CHRISTOS TSIOLKAS
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First published in 2014
Copyright Sofie Laguna 2014
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Soon Robbys digging slowed down and the talk of his hands
grew quiet. He stood up and kicked the car. Then he climbed
inside its bones and put his hands on the steering wheel. I got
in the passenger side. I tucked my feet up over the grass beneath
and Robby drove. The wind blew back our hair and every traffic
light was green and Robby put his foot to the floor and we sped
through the wetlands laughing and listening to loud songs on
the radio. Gonna get you baby, gonna make you mi-i-ine! Robby shook
his head in time to the music and I shook my fist then Robby
changed his gear and the car lifted higher. Robby said, Look,
Jimmy! Look! and we were in line with the twenty-six pelicans.
We had freed the car.
When we got home I could hear hammering as we crossed the
yard; Dad was working in the garage.
Mum lay on her blue kitchen couch reading an Agatha her
head against the Home Sweet Home pillow. The kitchen smelled of
bleach, like a swimming pool. She sat up when we came in, The
Mystery of the Blue Train falling to the floor. You boys were gone
for hours, she said.
Robby went straight through to the bedroom without stop-
ping. If Robby stayed quiet, the distance between him and
something he didnt like or want grew more quickly, but only
if he didnt say a word about it. If he said a word, even one,
the word made a space for the thing he didnt like or want to
come crashing in and detonate him. It was the words that made
the opening.
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Early on Monday morning Dad went back to work. He wore
long sleeves even though it was going to be a scorcher. It was
to hide the cut from Bill Philby, his boss. Dad was scared that
if Bill Philby saw it he would start asking questions Dad didnt
want to answer.
Before he walked out the door to meet his lift, I said to him:
You could roll one sleeve up, Dad, so the cool wont have so far
to travel. It will go under your shirt, and come out the other
side like a breeze through a short tunnel.
Dad laughed. Sometimes it happened. Why? Where was
the engine of laughter? There was no time to ask him; he was
through the door and gone, a full day of rust ahead of him.
That day Mum took me to Dr Erics. Dr Eric had been seeing
me since I was born. He was the one to give me my first injec-
tion I felt it enter my sub cuticle. He put a bandaid over the
two holes when he was finished and told Mum to press. Dr Eric
was as old as some of Mums Westlakers. Mum cooked for the
seniors at Westlake Nursing. I may not be a womens libber, Jimmy, but
I still like to have a bit of my own. Dr Eric had white hair on his head
and on his face that kept him insulated. There were always
mints on his desk. It didnt matter what time of the day it was
the bowl was full, as if there was a pipe that ran the length
of the table underground to a mint tank and whenever a patient
took a mint, the mint tank shot one up and replaced it.
I looked at the books in the childrens box while Mum talked
to Dr Eric.
Couldnt you come round to the house? Mum asked. Gavins
so stubborn hell never come in by himself. You might just
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say you were popping round to check on me, the way you have
before; my asthmas been playing up . . .
If Gavin makes an appointment Ill look at his arm, Paula.
That ones up to him, said Dr Eric. But its not Gavin Im
worried about. Something might have happened to Jimmy.
I think its time you took the boy to see a specialist.
Every time I came it was the same books in Dr Erics childrens
box. Little Black, a Pony, Hello, Mr Train and How Many Puppy Dogs?
There was a wooden crane in the box too, but Id already lifted
everything there was to lift.
Mum said, Why do I have to go and see a specialist? What do
they bloody know? Nothing. Im the specialist. Im his mother.
Dr Eric wrote a number down on a piece of paper. Just give
it a try, Paula. You might be surprised.
I would be surprised, she said. Very surprised.
There are some really good learning programs . . .
Mum looked disgusted. I wont be drugging Jimmy.
Nobody said anything about drugs. Just go and talk to him;
hes at the Royal, said Dr Eric, passing the paper to Mum. It
might make things easier.
Easier? Winning the lotto would make things easier. Not a
bloody visit to a bloody specialist. I just wanted you to look at
Gavs bloody arm.
Take it easy, Mrs F. Dr Eric smiled. Have a mint. He
passed us the bowl and Mrs F took three. If Gavin makes an
appointment Ill look at his arm. Tell me how it goes at the
Royal.
Mum stood, pushing past Dr Erics desk, her legs squeezing
against the edges. Ill be telling you how it goes, alright, she
said, the mints clacking against her teeth. But Id be better off
with that lottery ticket.
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Next time you visit Ill have one ready, said Dr Eric.
Mum shook her head, holding back a smile.
Why is it called The Royal? I asked Mum, as the bus rocked us
towards the Westgate Bridge.
Its the name of the hospital, Mum answered, her hands
gripping each other in her lap.
But is it royal?
Its the name of the hospital, Jimmy. She looked away from
me and out the window.
But is there a king in it, or a queen? Is there a castle?
My words set Mums laughing gear in motion. I reckon
there might be a few people who are paid like bloody kings!
She pulled softly on the end of my ear. My Jimmy, she said.
As we crossed the Westgate Bridge I saw the whole mechanics
of the city spread before us; a thousand refineries at work,
processing the oil and information, making the crude into
usable. Cranes lifted the parts that were falling into the sea,
raising them up and pushing sacks of sand underneath for
support. Trucks weaved in and out, dodging pipes and tanks,
carrying loads of dirt and jerry cans full of petrol to the empty
vats. Lights flashed as the engines operated the levers, building
walls and jetties and monuments and roofs and rooms and
erecting poles and pipes and scaffolding. The sea surrounded
it all. I saw sharks circling, looking for waste, biting at the
borders, missing nothing. Mum never took me to the city. She
said, Why leave Altona when we have everything we need right
there? Bloody specialist.
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The specialist sat opposite Mum and said, You cant expect
too much.
I drove a train up over Mums chair, crossing the hills of
her thighs onto her lap. I said, If youre a king, where the hell
is your crown?
Mum gasped. Jimmy! She turned back to the specialist,
Gosh, he can be silly sometimes. Just having a joke. She pushed
me away but I didnt stop, choo-choo-ing choo-choo-ing, right
up the slope of her side.
Choo-choooooo. I said, sending the sound deep into the
specialists ears.
Some things will change and some things wont, he said.
You cant expect him to be at the same stage as other children
his age . . . I watched as the redness moved up over Mum,
washing her chin and her cheeks pink. It was a mothers fury
coming up from her core. She had tried to cover it with chocolate
cake and tea from the hospital cafeteria, but it was linked to a
vat of mothers fury that could power the world and she couldnt
hold it down. She bit back her lips and held her own hands
tight and swallowed.
The more the specialist talked the louder I choo-chooed.
I tooted so loud I made the specialist put his hand to his ear.
Cant expect too much, Mum mumbled on the bus on the way
home. Ill show you too much. Too bloody much. Too right its
too much. Too much bloody money. Too bloody much. Mind
you, Jimmy, you did ham it up in there. What did you have to
do that for? She didnt wait for an answer. Still. Talk about
an arm and a leg. An arm and a bloody leg.
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Mum, I said, you sound like mad Mr Henry from the bench
at Myrtle Park.
Mum laughed. Jimmy, youre sharp as a tack, you are. Ha!
Mad Mr Henry, ha! The same stage as other children. Ha! Whod
settle for being the same, hey, Jimmy?
For weeks Dad wore shirts with long sleeves and then one
morning he said, Bugger this, and he wore a short-sleeved shirt.
The dark lightning of the cut on his arm rose up between the
ladies and severed their heads from their bosoms and one rode
it like a surfboard.
Even though it was a weekday and all the other six-year-olds
were in school, I was doing the morning shift at Westlake with
Mum. Nurse Gallantinis, who was in charge of the maternals,
said Id be best kept back another year and what was the hurry.
Mum agreed. She said, Oh, I love to have my little man at
home, Ill miss him when he has to go to school. Robby had
to go to school. But Justin and his other friends were there.
The oval was there. The other things he did and learned. He
wanted to go.
Come on, love, get a move on. Get your manuals together,
we cant be late. Mr Barker, the manager of Westlake, turned
a blind eye when I was there. Mum said Mr Barker was always
at the pokies spending his hard-earned, so who was he to say
I couldnt come? She puffed as she moved her bulk around
the kitchen; filling bags and moving dishes, picking up empty
teacups and looking for keys. There was already a shine on her
face even though it was only the very start of morning when it
was still cool. Come on, Jimmy. If you want to come to work
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with me we have to leave now. Underneath every word I heard
the pull of her breath, as if it was unwilling.
Okay, Mum, instruction manuals on the ready. Westlake
Nursing, here we come.
Thats my boy, she said.
I followed Mum out to the Holden parked over the crack
in the driveway. The wheel was an obstruction. Insects who used
the crack for a river to drink from, or to store food, had to go
around the tyre. I stopped to check the distance.
Come on, Jimmy. Hop in the car get a move on.
When I was slow I should have been fast, and when I was fast I
should have been slow.
PRAISE FOR ONE FOOT WRONG
An extraordinary achievement . . . original and compelling . . .
compels us to see our familiar world as new and intriguing no
small feat.
Jo Case, Big Issue
. . . a book that intrigues and affects every essence of your
humanity . . . a dark and terrible tale told in lyrical, poetic
language and stark imagery.
Australian Bookseller and Publisher
. . . intense, disturbing and hallucinatory.
Kerryn Goldsworthy, Sydney Morning Herald
The language is pitch-perfect it is the light in this dark tale
. . . a haunting story of horror, but also of friendship and love
. . . Despite the darkness of the subject matter, it is surprisingly
uplifting, cathartic and affecting.
Louise Swinn, The Age
. . . harrowing, beautifully written, insightful and absorbing
. . . unique, forceful and absolutely hypnotic . . . Fresh honest
writing . . . makes this dark journey well worth taking.
Emily Macguire, Canberra Times