THE DEMON'S DREAM

ThisstoryisdedicatedtosomeoneIlovewhomonceaskedme,"whenareyougoingtowrite
aboutme?"i'mjustsorryforthepainIcausedIjusthopethatonedayyouwillforgiveme

Letmetelluastoryaboutamanwhohasgaveuponlove,hewas24yearsold,let's
namehimSam,Samwasarespectedwellraisedboy,at
leastinhishumblefamilyeye,onedayhewokeupinthemorningatehisbreakfastwhich
wasapancakesomeolivesandmilkherememberseverysmalldetailofthatdayand
howcouldheforget?Itwas28thofAprilaseverymorningritualsheopenedhistwitterto
seewhat'sgoingon,there'saninterestingaccounthefollowedaweekago,hechecked
onit,there'satweetabouthowthisgirllovestolistentohermusicathighvolume,he
directlytookapictureofhisBosespeaker,andtweetedhowhedoesthesamebutona
realspeakershiswords,aminutepassedthere'saDmfromher"whatkindofmusicdo
uusuallylistento?"thisquestionwasthebeginningofsomethingsobeautifulyetso
painful

Dayshavepassed,theyweretalkingeveryday,herememberedeverysmalldetailshe
toldaboutherselfbecausehewasamazedofthementalityofthisgirl,andthenoutofthe
blueshedisappearedfor6days,hewasshockedofthewayhismindandheart
responded,theyweretalkingforlikeaweekhowhecouldfeellonely,sad,andangryin
thesametime,shewastherebutshewon'ttalktohim,andthenquestioncameonhis
askaccountwhichhereactivateditaftettwoyearstogiveherachancetotalkifshe
couldn'tontwitter,shewassmartshegotitanddroppedamessagethatsays"Iwill
explainlater",hewassohappytoreadthat,andonlythattimehecouldsleepwithrest

Theyspendmanyhoursofthierdaystalkingandtalkingandtalkingabouteverything,
whattheyhatedwhattheyloved.Shewasamazingineverything,feelingstartedtogrow
Samcouldn'thandleithewasafraidofgettingintoanewrelationshiphewasso
confusedbetweenthefearofrejectionandthestrongfeelingshehasfirthatsmart,
funny,welleducated,andwiththerightamountofanegoonagirl

Heknewthatanythingbeautifulisworthgettinghurtforit,hedecidedtotellherhowhe
feels,inthebeginningshekepttellinghim"nobodywantstobewithme,uwillhateme"
butnowheknowsthatthisactuallyapplyonhim,hewillbetheonenobodywantstobe
with,thentheywentintoit,andwhatmadeitgrowsstrongeristhatherfinalexamshas
cameshehastocloseheraccountontwittershedecidedtotakehimwithherandgave
himherBBMpincode,thatdaywasoneofthehappiestdayspassedonSambecause
heknewhewouldn'thandlenottalkingtothatsweetanglewhokeptcallingherselfa
demonallthetime,dayshavepassedonthem,theyweresohappy,theysharedstories,
pictures,laughs,theysleptinthesametimemostofthedays,theywerethelastandfirst
persontheytalkto,whentheygotobedorwakeuptheylovedeachothersomuch
thoughtheynevermet,orevenheardeachothervoices,forhimitwasnichoicetofallfor
herhefeltsohardtothepointthathemadehismindthatthisisthegirlIwannaget
marriedto,thisisthegirlIwannahavekidswith,itwaslikemagicforhimsomethingnot
fromthisplanet,ohInevertolduhowhetoldherhelovedher,hewasdrunkatoneday
andhetextedherwithalotofstuffthathedon'tevenremembernow,butwhathe
rememberswasthathetoldherIloveu,hechosetosayitwhensheknewhewillget
drunkthatdaysoifshefreakedouthecanblameitonTequilla,hesaiditthoughhewas
drunkbuthismindwasnevermoresoberatthemomenthetoldherhelovesher,he
keptwaitingbutshedidn'tresponed,thenextdayastheyweretalkingsheaskedusaid
uloveme?Heneverknewwhatsayhehasneverbeenasdeepinloveasnowbuthe
wasafraidwhatifshefreakedoutwhynotandshewastheonewhodidn'trespond

Hetoldherasanescapeplanthatitwasthetequillatalking,hewassorudebuthe
doesn'twanttoloseheratanyprice,afteracoupleofdayshetoldherthathe'sinlove
withherandhewasafraidtoadmitit,sheneversaiditbackatthatbutvlateronshe
admitit,can'tblameherfornotsayingit,seewhathappenednow,ithurthimlikehell,he
gotmoreconfused,whatifshedoesn'tfeelthesamewayIdo,hekeptthinkingand
thinkingallishewaitingforisforhertosaytillthedayshesaiditcame,ohthatdays
wouldbethethirdhappiestdayinhislife,hewantedtohughersomuchthatday,from
thatdayanotherlineofthoughtscametohismindamindthatkeptworkingonandonanf
thecenterofthinkingwasHademon,yeahthisishernickname,thenewlinehadthe
future,afuturewithHademonhejustwantstomakeherthehappiestgirlonearthlike
thewayshemakeshimfeelthatheisthehappiestmaninearth,dayshavepassedand
nothingbuthappinesroamingaroundthem,thoughshestillhavesomeunsolvedissues
withherex,butSamwaswellingtofightforherunderherwordswhenshesaidthatit's
animpossiblethingtogetbacktohim,tillonedayshewassodepressedandsad,when
sheaskedhim"whythecatlovesherstrangler?"shesaidthedogtobe,moreaccurate,
thisquestioncameonhimlikeabigbagofrocksheknewwhatshewastalkingabout?
Heaskedherdoustilllovehim?Withoutanyhesitationshesaidyes,itfeltlikemultiple
knivesgoinginfromhischestandoutfrimhisback,hestoodtherewithoutsaying
anywordinshock,hisfriendwhichknowsaboutthenatureofthierrelationshipafterall
heishischildhoodfriendandheneededtotalkaboutHademontosomeonebecausehe
isinloveandthatwhatpplinloveusuallytalkabt,thierloversaskedhim"what'swrongu
looklikesomeoneuknowjustdied,Samtoldhimaboutwhathappened,hisfriendsaid
withanger"manudon'tdeservethisit'senoughthatuhavetohandlethefactthatthey
stilltalkingtoeachotherandthefactthatshedidn'tcutalltheroadsbetweenthemand
nowshe'stellinguthatshestillloves,him,Samnopersonhadtosufferfromthis,ifthe
situationwastheotherwayaroundshewillneverstaywithuoneminute"hiswords
madeSamwantstofightforherevenmorebecauseheknowit'simpossibleforthemto
getbacktogether,shetoldthat,hetoldher"whatamissedupsituationhuh?Ulovehim
andIloveu"shekindaknewthatherwordshurtSamshesaid"IthinkIdon'tlovehimI
justmissinghimbeingaroundwheni'mfeelingdown,cuzhewasalwaysthereforme"
shethoughtherwordswerecomfortingbutmanSamsleptthatdaywithhistearsinhis
eyes,dayshavepassedtheywerehappyallwhatwasonSam'smindisthierfuture
togetherandherex

OnenighttheyweretalkingasusualtillaquestioncameintoSam'smind,aquestionhe
willregretthatheaskedallhislife,hesaidhowmanyrelationshipshaveuhaf?Hademon
answerd,"Ihaveknownmanymorethanucanimaginebuttheyarenotconsidered
relationships,therelationshipswasthreemyex,andanotherexandIstillwithhimtill"
now,andu.Samasked"tillnow?"shesaidwearefriends,Samcouldn'thandleitcuzhe
knewthatnoonestillfriendswiththierexunlesstheylovesthem,hetrustedHademon
buthisproblemwasthewayhethinkstheexfriendthinksabtHademonthathe'sstillin
lovewithherevenifheneversaidit,hewasangryandjealous,Samtheonewhoalways
believedinafriendshipbetweenamanandawomen,butafriendshipwhichtheytalkon
thephoneandmeet,wassoheavyonhim,ifitwaschattingonlylikewhatSamand
HademondoingnowandtheyareinloveIthinkitwouldn'tbethathardtoswallow,
anywaySamknewthathisangerwillleadtohimsayingsomethinghurtshissweetheart
theonewhowasnothingbuthonestandclearwithhimfromtheverybeginningsohe
decidedtostoptheconversationthere,butsheaskedhimtosaywhathewantstosay,
Samknowthatheshouldhaven'tsaidanythingfarbeyondthis,butthesadthingthathe
talked,heisneveragoodtalkerwhenhe'sangry,thebadfeelingsandthepainhe
sufferedfromwhenshetoldhimthatsheisstillinlovewithherexcombinedwiththe
angerhadledhimtospeakhismindandtellherfranklythathewantssomethingserious
andhereallyfeelsaboutallthis,sherespondedwithanemojietomanylinesofhis
feelingsandthoughtsabouther,heshouldofjusttookitinthatdayandslept,afterallthis
isnotthefirstorsecondorthirdwhenhegenuinelyspeakshismindandsheresponse
withanemojieorawordortwo,liketherearethingmoreimportantthanhim,hecouldn't
sleephesawhisreactiontoherexfriendthingandhowitmadeanarrgumentbetween
thematthattimeIwishthatherecognizedthathisangerwasblowingbecauseofherex
notthefriendthing,plusthefactshealwayshavecomplaindfromthearrguments
bettwenherandherex,hethoughtthatmaybeonedayIwillbreakherhearthedidn't
seethatthatdaywasinfrontofhim,angerisasin,hethoughtit'sbetterforherandher
heartifhestoppedithereafterallshehavesufferedenough,butneverrealizethatshe
loveshimevenmorethanhethinks,hesteppedonhisheartwroteamassagewhilethe
tearsareinhiseyes,heneverwantedtosendthatmessagehehesitatedmanytimes,
heaskedifshestillAwakeincaseshethoughthesleptandwanttedtosaysomething,
butsheneversaidsomething,atthatpointhestartedcompletingthatmessage,triedto
makeitasniceaspossiblebutthereisnonicebreakup,howwouldheknowandhe
neverhadtobreakupwithanyone,inhisonlyonerelationshipbeforeHademonhegot
Hisheartbrokeafterfoundingoutthatshewascheatingonhimwithafriendofhiswhich
heintroducedthemtoeachotheronlinebeillevinginfriendshipbetweenmenand
womenjustbecausehe'srichandhavemoremoney,andSamatthattimewasjusta
collegestudentwhostillaskhisfathertowiresomemineytohimattheendofeach
monththeonlywordsheneededtotellherwasI,hopekarmagetsu,seeuinhell,
ironicallyhehadthesamewordsthrownathim

Samhavemadeadecisionthathewillregretsallofhislife,afterallhebrokeupwiththe
girlofhisdreams,hesentthatdommedmessage,andthinkinghewasdoingtheright
thing.notanhourpassedtillherealizedthathedidahugemistake,IwishIremembered
howdeletingacontactwillremovethemessagebutthisislifeuhavetofacethe
consequencesofuractions,twodayspassedliketwoyearshisfamilynoticedhis
sadness,hejustliedhiswaythathe'ssadbecausehewillgobacktoworksoon,hetried
tokeephimselfbusybyTVshowsandvideogames,itneverworked,hewentout
walkingrunningfor4hoursinadesperatetrytogethurttoforgetthepainasHademon
toldhimbeforeorjustgettiredandsleepwithoutthinkingofthecrazymistakehedid,he
relizedthere'snowaybuttalkingtoherbutheknowshehurtherandshewillnevertake
himevenifshedidshewillneverbeilleveawordoutofhimasshecalledhimalair

Thedayishereshesuggestedwhathewastooafraidtodobecausehehasno
reasonableexplanationofwhathedid,hedidoutofangerandfeelinglikeameaningless
thingwhenaskedifshewasawakeyet,butheneverknewthatshewaskeepingher
goodwordstillthemorning,butit'stoolate,inthenightbeforehetalkedwithherhe
dreamedabtthemholdInghandssettingwithhisfatherinthierlivingroom,hethought
thatwasamessagefromGodthattheycanbetogethreafterallandlivehappillyever
after,whenthetimecameandtheystarttakinghegotpanickedandneverknowhowto
explainhisfellings,afterrealizingthatthisisthelasttimeandthisistheonlychanceshe
willgivewhywouldn'the?Hekeptaskingforforgivnessbutsheneverlethisheartto
havesomepeaceherwordswasstrong"Iwillhateandrememberuintheugliestway
possible"shesaid,"Ihopeugeturheartbrokenlikewhatudidtome",hereallylostitat
thatpointit'ssohardtohearthosewordsfromapersonthatustillinlovewith,
comparingtothepainheissufferingheknewthathewondedhisHademonsobad,he
claimedthathehadatrustissueresultofhispastrelationandheneverknewabt
itwhichwasalieobviouslyjusttogivehersomethingtoexpressherangeronhim,it
mighthelpcuringherpaininsteadofstayingtherenotknowingwhythishappenedand
startthinkingthatsheistheproblemafterallsheneverknewwhysheandherexgot
brokeupandprobablyshethinkshejustgotboredofher,hecouldn'tstandthathewill
repeatthesamepartofherlife,hegavehersomethingtofeelbetterthatthisshort
relationisdone,bynowuknowthatSam'smindisatotalwreck,doesn'tfunctionwell
underemotionalpressure,insteadofdeletingthatmessagethatdayorexplaininghimself
thesecond,henowknowsthathehasanissuenotatrustonebutanissueofgetting
lostunderemotionalpressureandstartspeakingnonsense,andthatproofherwords
thatSamdoesn'tknowhowtoloveandmentallyill,hepromisedhimselfthathewon't
haveanyrelationshiporevengetmarried,afterallisnotfairtogetmarriedwhileurheart
andurmindbelongtosomeoneelse,andprobablyuwillalosojusthurtthem

Afterhetoldhertobesafe,shedirectlydeletedhim,somethingifhejustdidthatday,u
won'tbeevenreadingthis,hestartcursinghimselfandfeltasleep,laterthatdayhe
wokeupontheBBMnotificationSound,hecouldn'tbelievehiseyes,Hademonissaying
hi,shetoldhimthatshedon'tbuythetrustissuesthingshewanttoknowthetruth,he
firstexplainthatsheneedtorelaxandtakeiteasysohecanexplaineverything,hetold
herabouthowhegotpanickedafterhesentthatmessageoutofangerandhedidn't
meantodothat,andhowhereallyfelt,andhowitwasmoreaboutherexnotabther
friendandhowitwasjustanaccumulatednegativefeelingsthatjustblewupinonetime,
andthingsmassivelygotoutofhiscontrol,sheforgavehim.forsurethenexttwodays
hadthiershytalkingheldwithsomeanger,butafterthattheywenthappyagain,afterall
hesaiditbefore"aslongasthereisloveallProblemsCanbesolved",hewenttoMexico
andcamebackonthe14thofAug,hewrappedherhugzywithherblackperfumealong
withasmallskullsouvenirfromMexicoinabalckboxtheshelikeit,withalettersaying
happybirthday,everyyearweshallloveeachothermore,dayshavepassedSamlearned
howtocalmhimselfinsituationswherethereisemotionalpressure,hademonlearnd
howtogiveandtakeinconversations

Ayearnowhavepassed,SamboughttwoticketstoCostaRica,ashepromised
Hademontotakehertocelebratehernextbirthday,aftertheyfinishpartyinghegaveher
asmallcakethatitsaysforeverbuttheletterOisaring,shesawitandscreamedyes
yesyes,thisisthesecondhappiestdayinSam'slife,tobewithHademoninonehouse
underoneroofforeverisallwhathewaswishing,theycamebackandSamwenttohis
familytoldthemeverything,inthebeginninghismotherrefused,sheiskindaofracist
thatjustwanthersontogetmarriedfromthierarea,Samfoughthisfatherstoodbyhim
finallyhismotheraccepted,theywenttohademon'sfamilyhouse,hismothertheone
whowasagainstthislovedHademonwhenshemetherandwithdaysconsideredheras
oneofherdaughters,ImeanhowwouldtalkwiththatperfectHademonandnotfallin
lovewithher,Samremeberedhowwhentheyhadasmallfighthewentandboughther
hugzy,whentheyhadanothersmallfighthemadethewordHademondefinedinthe
Internetwithwhathetrulythoughtofher,thiswerehisthoughtswhilehe'sholdingher
handinthecaroutoftheweedinghall,thiswasSamandHademonfirsthappiestdayin
thierlife,theywentforthehoneymoon,dayshavepassedSamisworkingittheoffice
now,Hademonisagreatteacher,theyhaveacutegirlandafoxyboy,andforsurea
puppynamedmo3taz,Iknowweirdbutwhatareugonnadowhenuloveadifferentgirl

Yearshavepassedandtheyliveditentirelyhappilyeverafter,theyhadthierupsand
downsbutthesentencewhenthereisloveeverythingcanbesolvedhelpedalot,theygot
fatterofcoursebutwhocarestheyareoldnowandinlove,theysawthierdaughterasa
doctor,thiersonasanengineer,andtheyarenowalloverbythemselvesandthierlove
neverdied,tillthedaySamfoundthathehaslungscancer,hademonstayedwithhimin
thehospitalforthenext6months,hetoldherIknowmydaysarelessnowbutIwantto
gohometobewithutodienexttou,afterallurtheworldtome,IlovedubeforeIloveu
nowandIwillloveuwhenI'mdeadandhedied

Samwakesuptofindoutthathewasdreaming,hecheckedhismobile,nothinginthere
checkedherpageontwitter,shetweetedit'sjustamatteroftime,heknowsnowthathis
dreamisdead,heyelledsheisnotthedemon,i'mthedemon,ifurstillinlovewithmeas
i'mwithulet'sgiveitanotherchanceandIpromiseuIwon'tdisappointeu,butheknows
thathiswordsmeantnothingHademinhashadenough,shesaiditandshewasright,he
kickedagrace,hehadabeautifulthingthathewillneverfindagain,inconclusionhe
himselfdestroyedhisdreambyhimself,sheisbetteroffwithouthim,Ijusthopeshewill
forgivehimoneday,adreamheneverwanttedtowakeupfrom,hewouldratherdreamit
anddieafteritsoitwillbehislastmemoryoflifethanlivealifeHademonisnotin,thisis
thierstorysadbutSamgotwhathedeservesandHademondeservesmuchbetterand
happierlife

HadeelIloveuinawayIneverdidinmyentirelifeandIwillalwaysdo,Iknowuwon't
believeit,whatIdiddoesn'tseemlikeitatall,butthisisthetruthIwillneverforgetu,I
justhopethatuget,thepointofallthis,Iknowit'ssillyanddramaticasialwayshave
beenanditmightbethelongestwayofapologizinginthehistroy,butIwantutoseemy
sideofthestory,toseehowfarIdreamtwheremymindusuallygowhenIthinkIeven
thoughtabtthewayIdie,thisishowstupidismymindfoucsingonthefutureandforget
totakecareofthepresent,thoughit'sabadandapsychologicallydisturbedsideofour
storybutudeservetoseeit,writinghelpmereleasesomestressIhopereadinghelpu
evenalittlebit,utrulyareagreatandkindpersonudon'tdeserveanythingbadever
happenedtou,IwishjustthatIwillbethelastbadthinghappenstouandthatlifewill
startpayingubackwhatittookfromuinhappiness,Ideeplyhopethatonedayuwillbe
,abletoforgive,me