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Sookshichuvacha Mayilpeeli kqnph abnoen (collection of short stories in Malayalam) Author: E. Harikumar
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n\v hcWwny. tIih\mbv s]sv cpgepIpn XWp shw Ipn HgpIpXp t]mse tXmn. A]am\w Abmsf hnhkv{X\mnsbn, Cmhphnt\bpw aIt\bpw th]ncn bWsa Nn Abmsf \ntX\mn. Abm Cmhphns\ hfscb[nIw kvt\lnncpp. kzw cn ]ndXsnepw aI\pw Abmp henb Imcyambncpp. cm{Xn ]p aWntbmsS InSdbnsemdp Abm Hcp aWnqtdmfw aI\pambn IfnpIbmWv ]Xnhv. ]etmgpw Asbpw aIsbpw Ifn Ignbptmtgpw Cmhp Ddambnpmhpw. Fp sNtp FdnbmsX tIih\mb app \np. AtmgmWv ]pds apdnbn\nv HtctmsS `{Z\qXncnmSv hXv. ]pfnbnecappw Hcp taapp aSn tXmfnXpw thjw. Fm icIpymtc sXmSzs Fp tNmZnXpw; t\mnbXv tIih\mbcpsS apJmbncpp. \qXncnmSv hmXmbn. tIih\mbcpsS apJw hnfdn. Abm Ip\nv, Nhnp]Snbn sh dm FSpv Xncn\on, ]pdwXncnp \Sp. In DcppIbdnb shw Npaenen tXmpsImv XpSpIfXv]Snpc IStijamWv. Cmhp Hpw kwibnncpn. DuWn\v hn`h Itm tNmZnp, hncppImcmscnepaptm? `{Z\qXncnmSpmIpsa adp]Sn Inn. AXn Akm[mcWamsbmpw tXmnbXpan. Ah Fpw kybvv Ipfnv appw ukpw ammdpv. Cv Ipfn Ipfnm t]mIptm AhtfmSv Ikhp apsSpm NncptXbn Bhiysp. AXnYnI DXp ImcWambncnpasXv Ah IcpXn. cm{Xn FpaWntbmsS Xfn Dm\ncp BWpv hnfnsmSpm Ahfpw IqSnbncpp. Dm\ncp \qXncnmSns IpI kpcnbmb Cmhphnepw ssII Cebnepw hncppp. Xs Hcm {inppsv Cmhp kwibnn. \mp hbpImc\mb \qXncnmSns\ Cmhp appw InpXmWv. khntijXsbmpw tXmnbnn. `mhv hXpw HXpp]SnI Ibdm IqSn kXnmsX XncnbXpw Ah Adnn. DuWp Igntijw Ah tamt\bpw sImv apIfntev Ibdntmbn. kabw ]cbmbncnpp. FmWv `mhv hcmsXv BtemNnp sImncnsbmWv NncptXbn hv \mqs\ hnfnXv. Xmsg Cdn t\mnbtm Xfn \ndsb BfpI. AhnsS \nehnfp Inp shncnpp. \nehnfn\p apn ]pp]mb \nhnbnncpp. Hcp Xn shnebpw ASbpw Npmpw. thsdmcp Xmen Hcp Ikhpappw. hm Cmhp, icIpn\mb ]dp. ChnsS hncnv. AtmgmWv ]pev]mbn N{aw ]Snncnp \qXncnmSns\ Ah IXv. Ah BsI ]Ip. ChnsS Ccnv. icIpn \mb ]nsbpw ]dp. CsXsmsbmWv Hms? Ah tNmZnp. tamsf \psS `mKym. `{Z \qXncnmSv s\\v s]mSh Xcm kXnncnymWv. {`mptm \nsms? s]smbncpp B Almkw. AXv Cmhphn \nmsWv Bpw hnizknm ]nbn. AhfpsS i_vZw CXphsc Xdhmn Dbp tInn. Fm \n hnNmcnXv? Rm hnebnm s]msWtm? Ah HmSn tImWnIbdn. acns tImWn {]I\w sImp. Xfnse kIe kmam\fpw {]I\w sImp. Ah Xs apdnbn t]mbn tams\bpw hmcnsbSpv tImWnbndn hp. Fmhcpw ]Ip \ns Ah Xpd hmXneneqsS ]pdtp \Sp. HmSnsbpXs ]dbmw. tPyjvT hnepXpw tIWt]npXpw Ah Insp \Snp. tPyjvTnb hv ssI ]nSntm Ah Xnamn. CShgnbneqsS, hcneqsS Ah \Sp. Ccpn Ahp hgn sXnbn, ImenSdnbpan. `mcyhon\np Xncnph tIih \mb Xs Xdhmntep ISmsX ]Snpcbn Ccpp. Xs Bcpw ImWcpsXpmbncpp Abmv. dm hgnpshpXs sISpnbncpp. Xncnv hon hv Xs s]mcpw AhcpsS `mmscbpw A`napJoIcnm B A`nam\np Ignn. ]Snpcbn Ccpv Abm B Cmhphns\pdntmp. Io [mcbmbn HgpIn. Cmhphns kXtmsSbmWv CsXmw \SpsXv Abmv hnizknm\mbn. Cmhphns N\Kap icocw Hm htm tIih\mb hmhnp Icp. Cmhphn\v thsd ]pSh sImSppIbmsWv ImcWh ]dtm Abmv `mcybpambn kwkmcnWsav BhiysSmambncpp. Ans\ sNmXn Abmv Acniw tXmn. Abm 127 ae-bm-f -a-t\m-ca hmjn-I--Xnv

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Ahkcw InmXncphtcm. Asn BIkvanIambn CS\mgnbn B kabv Fshtcm tNe iw tIm ISv \nev Iangvp InSWw, hopw Hcp Imncn ASnasv Ccte iw tInpw hsc. Cu kwhn[m\w s]spXs AwKoIcnsp. sImmcw aqimcnv eXmZnIfn BteJ\w sNbvX aqv shtmSv tNebpmm Icm \Isp. shtmSn tNm sNv Inm\nmXpsImv kpm Xs ]gb \mWbfpsS Aaqey tiJcn\nv aqp sNp \mWb FSpp sImSpp. B sNp \mW b kqvaambpw shtmSv Dmm D]tbmKnpnt Fv t\mm ]mdmhpImct\bpw GsSpn. aXnbmhm `mKw kzw tem`sat\y Iqntp. AXpsImv tNebpsS iw hfsc kv s s{XWambn. Hmtcm {]mhiyw tNebpsS ]Xn kv s s{XWiw tIptmgpw kpm Xs cmPys sNpZmcn{Zys Hmv s\SphonSpw. s]cpdbpw sImn ]mfm sXcphoYnIfn kpms ktihpambn Idn. tNebpsS iw tIm ISv Iangvv InSWsapw, Ans\ InSnsn ]nosSmcn InSm Ahkcw Inm hn[n Xe tZlp\nv sXdnpsapw AknKvambn hnfw_cw sNsp. shnbmgvN cmPIpamcnbpsS \ocmp Znhkambncpp. Zqscbp acpIfnse Bgap InWdpIfn \nv XWp Pew HIpdv sImphv \o s]mbvI \ndp. B kv^SnIPen kpK {Zhy hnNn{Xamb IpnIfn \nv Hgnv an{iWw sNsp. BtLmjpw BmZnap Ipw CSbn \ocmp Ignp. cmPIpamcnbpsS ]qt]msebp tZlv kpK{Zhy te]\w sNsp. kv\m\Krlw hnSm kabambtm Hcp Imncn ASnasv Hmw tNe apnsmv CS\mgnbnse ]chXm\nbneqsS \Sp. sImmcw AthmknIpw kiIpw AsXmcp apdnbnmbn. Ah CS\mgn Hgnhmn Ahch cpsS apdnIfntem, sImmcn\p ]pdp Xstbm Imp \np. cmas tNe apnsmv CuPn]vv ASnakpcn \bmbn apnepw ]nn \Ifmb Av ASnakpcnIfpsS cp \ncbpsS \Sphnembn cmPIpamcnbpw \bmbn \Sp. CS\mgn hnSm kabw Innbnnmh ISv Iangvp InSp. tLmjbm{X CS\mgnbnse Nphpw abpw ]qfp ]chXm\nbneqsS ]ptcmKanp. AtmgmWv B AXymlnXapmbXv. sImmcn hncppImc\mb sNdpmc\mb t]jy Ihn A_vZp _n kZv Xmaknp apdnbpsS hmXn XpdpInSncpp. B hmXneneqsS Ihn CS\mgnbntep hXpw \kpcnIfpsS tLmjbm{X AhnsS FnbXpw Hnmbncpp. ImgvN izmkw ]nSnp \npXmbncpp. Hcp \nanjw tLmjbm{X IhnbpsS [myn\p apn A\msX \np. cmPIpamcnbmhs Hpw kw`hnm an Ihnsb t\mn ]pncnpIbpw bm{X XpScpIbpw sNbvXp. IhnbpsS {]XnIcWw \nanjIhnXbmbn ]pdtbvsmgpIn. "Rm FmWv ImWpXv Bbncw BqnSbn Hcp Xmactbm Am bm{Xbn Hcp Xncnhn I Imp]qtfm Fs apn AtXm ]dpZokbn \nv `qanbntendnh lqdnItfm' ]ns cmPIpamcnsb t\mn Abm XpSp. "Rm C{Xbpw Imew Fns\ tXSntbm AXns kmmXvImcamWp \o \ns at\mamb angnbnWI Fs tXmev]nSnabmpp \ns amdnse apIpf Fs hncnbm shp kmbqPyamWv \ns AgIm \nXw_w BcpsS XgpIen\mbn Imp\npp?' cmP`Sm Ihnsb _np sImp t]mIptmgpw Ihn ]mSpIbmbncpp. kJnamcm hkv{X`qjmZn I AWnbnsncp cmPIpamcn IhnbpsS IhnXI tIp tImabn sImp. Ah tNmZnp. BcmWbm? Hcp IhnbmWbm. Hcp ASnakpcn ]dp. ASppXs Atlw Hcp Ihnbmbncpp Fp ]dtbn hcpw. thsdmcp ASnakpcn ]dp. AsXmWv ImcWw? cmPIpamcn Xs kzXnamb kmcfytmsS tNmZnp. Iem-Iu-apZn 24

ImcWw AbmfpsS Xet]mIpw. AXpXs. ]mhw. cmPIpamcn ]dp. Ahp hyk\ambn. ]t \njvIfbmb cmPIpamcnv hyk\hpw ktmjw t]mses W`wKpcamWv. Ah hopw Xs ASna kpcnIfmb tXmgnamcpsS {iIfn apgpIn. shnbmgvN kpm Hcp hn[ inm\S]SnIfpw FSpmdn. AXpsImv ]ntv cmhnsehsc Ihnsb Ipdpn ASp. cm{Xn \nkvImcw Ignv ]npdpn\v Fgpnb kpm\v Ddapmbn. Btcm at\mlc fmb IhnXI Dds sNmpp. Xs {]mWt{]bknbpsS hntbmKn\ptijw kpm sImmc n IhnXhmb\ \ntcm[nncpp. BcmWv Ctm cm{XnbpsS imX XIm ]mSpXv. ]mdmhpImc hnfnsp. BcmWv cm{Xn Ddt kabv Dds ]mSpXv? ASnb, AXv Cv XShdbnemnb IhnbmWv. cmPIpamcnbpsS \ocmp tLmjbm{XbpsS kabv ISp Iangvp InSmsX t\mn\npI hgn cmPIev]\ ewLn Iivae\mWv AXv. Cv shn bmgvN Xncpa\p sImv Bscbpw innpItbm, \oXn]me\n CSs]SpItbm sNmXpImcWw Abmsf XShdbn kqnncnpIbmWv. \msf cmhnse kqcy DZnp Ignm Hcp aplqn Abmsf hnNmcWmbn AhnSps kan sImphcpw. icn. ]mdmhpImc t]mbtm kpm hnimeamb hmXmb\w ISv an\mcn\p Xmsgbp apmhn tep \Sp. kpms\ ]\n\o Xfn hnidnsImv hoinbncp cv ASnakpcnI Atls ]nXpSp. \nemhn sImmcn\p apnep ]qtmw Xnfnbncpp. Ghpw Xmsg Xpdpns hmXmb\w am{Xta `qanbpsS \ncn\p apIfnepq. AXneqsSbmWv IhnbpsS ]mns AeI ]pdtspXv. kpm \v Cns\ Hcp kwhn[m\apmnbXn cmPinev]ntbmSv \ockw tXm n. aIfpsS ib\mKmcw Xs ]nbdbpsS XmsgbmsWpw Cu t{]aIhnXI \njv I fbmb Ahfpw tIppmIpsapw At-lt - amp. AXt ls sNmSnnp. cmPinev]nv Hcp XeIqSnbpsn hopw shnfbmambncpp. Asn Cu hI A]IS Bcpw apIqn KWnpmmdntm. Ihn ]mSnsmncpp. s]smWv kpm\v cl kyw ]nSnInnbXv. Abm ]mSpXv Xs Hma\aIsf nbmWv. AhfpsS kucysnbmWv. Hcp IhnbpsS `mh\ Cfn hnSm am{Xw hepXmbn, kpcnbmbn Xs aI F Nn Atln\v Htc kabw ktmjhpw km]hpw Dfhmn. ]ntv Iphmfn kpm\p apn lmPcmsp. cmPIpamcn \ocmpIgnv t\]Yy Krlntep t]mIptm \o t\mnbncpp. Fp ]dbpXp kXy amtWm? AsX. tNebpsS iw tIm ISv Iangvp InSW sa cmPimk\ \o tInt? tNesbn Ftm Adnbnv Rm tIp, {inn. Rm IhnX FgpXp Xncnembncpp. B Adnbnv {inncpsn \o Cu IpIrXyw sNpambncppthm? Ihn BtemNnp. ]ns kmh[m\n ]dp. CsXmcp IpIrXyamsWv Rm IcpXpn. A\mm ZnX kucyw \nv Hcp IhnbpsS In \np adbv m IgnbpIbn. Ah DpsImsnepw AXp ImWpw. \o sNbvX Imcyn \n\v ]mm]aptm? Iem-Iu-apZn 25

C. adnv ISncpsn Rm F\nbvv Hcnepw amp sImSpnmbncpp. AXpw ]dv Ihn hopw Hcp Cfw icocsn IhnX ]mSm XpSn. Chs Xe sImq. kpm Dchnp. ]mfm Ihnsb _np sImpt]mIm Hcpn. \nq. kpm ]dp. Ihn Atm`y\mbn Xncnp\np. AbmfpsS apJw kpcambncpp. hf XmSnbpw XeapSnbpw HXpanmsX InSncpp. acnpXn\papv \n\v Fsnepw B{Klapsn ]dbq. \nhrnpXcpsav Ddp Xm ]dbmw. kpm jmlp AdjoZv kzw hmpI ]mgmmdn. Fn, Ihn ]dp. F\nbvv acnpXn\p apv HcnqSn cmPIpamcnsb \bmbn ImWWw. kpm sRn. ]mfm sRn. k`mhmknI sRn. Cbmsf Rm ]dbpXphsc Ipdn CSbvq. kpm Aedn. ]ns AbmfpsS hmXmb\ Ipshp aqSpIbpw sNq. iw ]pdp IScpXv. kpm BsI Dencpp. HpIn Xm hmpIv hne I]npnsv kXntn hcpw Asn? kpm a{n Aew ^odpot\bpw CtXmg\mb knnnt\bpw hnfnnp. FmsWmcp amw? aqp XetmdpI aWnqdpIfpw Znhkfpw ITn\ambn {]hnp. FhnsSbpw Fnbn. IhnbpsS incv Igpns \npI am{Xa AhnsS \nv IhnX A\fw {]hlnpIbpw sNbvXp. hmXmb\w aqSnb Ipacns kqvakpjncfneqsS B iw ]pdtsmgpIpI Xs sNbvXp. cm{Xn sshIpwhsc apmhnencpv \kvdo cmPIpamcn B IhnXI {inp. "Fs PohnXamIp Imchm XIp Fs HI NsmSpn \inmh HmSntmbn Rm am{Xw Cu aWemcWyn GI\mbn \ntmSp t{]aw am{Xw apdpsInSnv \nsmWphm\mbv \]mZ\mbv........' kpm Zn\w{]Xn oWnp hp. Atln\v DuWpw DdhpanmXmbn. \kvdo ]nXmhns B[nsbn At\zjnXn\v Xr]vXnIcamb adp]Snbpmbn. CtXmgnbmb dkntbmSt\zjntmgmWv Imcyw a\nembXv. C{Xtb Dq? Ah kpms ]nbdbntep t]mbn. AhnsS kpm at\mlcamb ]chXm\np \Sphn hncnn sata Nppap Dcpf XebnWIp \Sphn oWnp InSmbncpp. sXmSpp sImp ]WnIfp Ipdnb taita sh shnn \nd apncnmdn CuI hoWncpp. Ah ssI sImnbtm Hcp ]mdmhpImc {]Xysv XmWp hWn \np. apncnmdp Iv Nqnmn Ah ]dp. CXp amn \ apncnmdpw `Whpw sImphcm ]dbq. icn. ]mdmhpImc Xe Ip\np sImv ]nhmn. \nanjIw \mep kpcnI Xmen apncnmdpw `Whpambn Fn. kpm Hcp ]cnX]vX \nanjn Fm kpcnItfbpw Xs Adbn \nv ]pdmnbXmbncpp. km[\ am_v taita \ncnbtijw AhtcmSv s]mbvsmm \kvdo Bhiysp. Ah Xs apncnmdv shnnemn ]nXmhn\v sImSpp. Atlw AXp hmn IpSnp. kmhImi n Atlssmv Ipdv `Ww Ignnm\pw Ahp ]n. s]sv IhnbpsS IhnXmiIe hfsc Zqscsbhw tIm XpSn. "Ah ]dbpp Fs acWaSpsv ]t AXnsencnpp Fs t{]aw A\izcamWv Fs Bmhv GsXnepw acpbpsS ioXfOmbbn Iem-Iu-apZn 26

\ns Bmhnt\bpw Imv Ibmav \mhscbncnpw EXpfpw hjfpw sImgnp hogp Imens cmPhoYnbn Cu Zqcw F{X sNdpXmWv.' \kvdo ]nXmhns\ t\mn alknp. Atlw NnmIpe\mbn. ]nXmhv Rm ]dm tIptam? Fs s]mtma\ ]dXmsX Rm FmWv tIpI? Ihnv acnpXn\p apv Fs ]nd]Sn ImWWsan Itms. GXmbmepw Abm acnm hn[ns BfmWv. ]ns FmWv Ipgw? kpm sRn. Xs {]nb]p{Xnv Cmcyw Adnbmambncpp FXv Hcp PmfyXtbmsS Atlw a\nemn. \o kwhmZptijw kpms\ t_mysSpm \kvdo\p Ignp. Cns\bmWv XobmnbXv. ASp shnbmgvN (ImcWw XnfmgvNpfn Cse Ignp, AXymlnXsfmpanmsX Xs.) Ipfn Ignp tLmjbm{XnSbn Ihnv Xs Hcpt\mp ImWm Ahkcw sImSpmw. shnbmgvNs \ocmp Ignv kpK {Zhyfm Bte]\w sNbv X cmPIpamcn Xs ASna kpcnIfmb kJnIfm hebw sNsv Nphpw abpw ]qfp ]Xp ]chXm\nbn CS\mgnbneqsS t\]YyKrln tep tLmjbm{X Bcw`np. tNe apn apn \S \bmb s] Ipnpw ]nn Hcp hcnbn Ap \kp cnIpw AXn\p ]nnse hcnbnse Ap \kpcnIpw CSbn kpcnbmb \kvdo cmPIpamcn \bmbn, \]mZbmbn \Sp. Ah Hcp {`m IhnbpsS IpI At\z jnv Nppw t\mn. CS\mgnbpsS ]IpXn Zqcw ]nntmgmWv Ah Ihnsb IXv. Ihnbp sS Hap aqv ]mfm Iangvp InSpI bmbncpp. s]sv \kv d o Dds s]mnncnp. ImcWw Ihnbpw \\mbncpp. \bmb cmPIpamcnsb ImWm t]mIptm Xm\pw kzbw \\mhpXmWv HuNnXysav Ihn IcpXn. AXpsImv ]mfm Iangvp InS tm Atlw kzbw hkv{X Agnpamn. Cu HuNnXyt_m[amWv Atls anI IhnbmnbXv Fv ]noSv ]ecpw ]dbpI bpmbnpv. cmPIpamcn \npsImv AbmfpsS \X t\mn Dds Nncnp. aqn\p t\sc aptmp \Sncp tXmgnam Hcp hiv A]ISw ]XnbncpXv In. cmPIpamcnbpsS Nncnbp sS ImcWw Ip]nSnm {ian B \ kpcnI t_m[w sIphoWp. t_m[wsISm am{Xw `mKyw sNbvXnnmh Ip s]mn Ipnncnbpw ki\mb ssZhns t] hnfnpIbpw sNbvXp. cmPIpamcn CXphsc Hcp ]pcpjs \X Inpmbncpn. sImmcnse Ii Iem-Iu-apZn 27

amb kZmNmcapdI cmPIpamcnsb t`mKmkamb NnIfn \npw AdnhpIfn\npw cnncpp. IhnbpsS ]ucpjw IIpfns I \kvdo hfsc DmkhXnbmbn. Atmtgpw t_m[w ]IpXn sbnepw XncnpInnb tXmgnamtcmsSmw \Sp\on. Ahp hkv{Xw [cnm [rXnbpmbncpp. AXn\p appXs Ah AhfpsS CtXmgnbmb dknb F ASna kpcnsb ]nXmhns ASptbvp hnp, HcSnbnc Imcyw ]dbm Xm hcpp sp ]dbp. hfsc DmkhXnbmb aIsf Iv kpm ApXsp. \kvdo A]am\nXbmbn hnhbmbn ImWsSpsamWv kpm IcpXnbXv. Fs s]mptamv Fp thWw? \kvdo kpms ASpp sNv, Atlns IgpneqsS Inp sImp ]dp. ]nXmth, Rm Hcp Imcyw tNmZnm AXp sNbvXpXcmsa hmKvZm\w sNq. Fs Infnpn\msX thsd BmWv Rm hmKvZm\w sNpI? Atlw \kvdos\ sImnpsImv ]dp. AhfpsS karamb tIi`mcw Atlw hmey tmsS XShn. Hcp IncntbmsS \kvdo cmPIpamcn ]dp. Fn F\nv B {`mIhnsb sImphp Xcq. F\nbmsf Cmbn. !

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Ah Xs ]nn \nsmgnbmsX \StmgmWv. ASpfbn \nv Xfntepw, Xfn \nv Ddtv, Ddp\nv hopw Xfntev FhnsS t]mhptmgpw B\ Xs ]nnepv. Fm tams\ \n\v thXv? IymWnpn tNmZnp. Du Dw. Ahs adp]Sn Hcp aqf am{Xw. \osbs Imens FtS InSv IfnmsX amdn\nv. Rm XSphogpw. kmmdns ]m{Xw ASpp \nndnshpsImv Ah ]dp. Cst \o Ifnms\mpw t]mbnt? Du Dw. ASp hon hoUntbmbn kn\na Iph tijw Ah\v Nmbbpw ]elmchpw sImSpXmWv. km[mcW Ah Nmb IpSnp Ignv Ifnm t]mIpw. Bdp aWntbmsS Xncnphm Ipfnpw. Ipdp t\cw ]Tnsp hcppw. Cv AsXmpapmbn. \osbm Cv Fs aqnev IpSocnWXv? Hpw sNm\nsnev Ipfnv hXpw ]Tnm t\mnqtS? Ipfnp Imcyw ]dtm Ah AtbmSv IqSpX tNp \np. Fm s\\v thXv? IymWnpn Aabmbn tNmZnp. F\nv..... F\nv, Ah hnnsmv ]dp. F\nv t]Snbmhpp. s]hcpsS kzcw B{Zambn. Fn\m tams\ \o t]SnsW?

Rm\nv cmPntnShnsS Hcp kn\na Ip. AXnev t]SnnW km[s\msv. kn\na Insms Bscnepw t]SnncntIym? IymWnpnv kam[m\ambn. Hcp kn\na Inp t]Snbt. kmcan. AZriycmbn \app Nppw Ftmgpw kcnp Acq]nI ]etmgpw cq]w [cnv \s t]Sn sSpmdpv. {]tXyInv IpnIsf. Ans\bp t]Sn `bstSXmWv. AXv IqSpX B]pI hcpnshpXv IymWnpn InpXmWv. Fn\m Cu IpnIfv Cs\ t]SnnW Nns{Xms FSpp sImp hcWXv? Ah Abhonse IpnIsf a\n No]dp. HpIn IpnIfpw afpambn ImWm ]m hrnsI Nn{X, Asn t]Snnp Nn{X. CXmsX Hpwy. A Hm^okn\np htmgpw A\s t]Sn amdnbncpn. As\ Itm Ah\v Bizmk ambn Fpam{Xw. Imcyw tItm tIih Dds Nncnp C{Xsp. CXns\ms t]Snmtem! Bs kn\ntaev Fp Inm \o t]SnXv? Ahs apJv `bw \ndp. Ah Nppw t\mn At\mSv tNncpp. kn\ntaev t]SomW ]eXpwv. ss]v Xpdptm Smn \nv shn\p ]Icw tNmc hczm. Smn \ntm, tNmctbm? AsX. ]ns Bmv Hcp kqsSv hczmWv. Ins shcsemssy; AsXms sagpIpXncn amXncn DcpIzm. DcpIp DcpIn hncenmXmhpw. ]ns ssI. AXpt]mse aqv, sNhn CsXms DcpIn Ipdp Ignm B DcpIn CymXmhpw. icnpw As\ Hcp kqtSps{X...... cmPntn ]dXm. Abm Hpw ]dn. Abm BtemNnpIbmbncpp. Xm sImph {_o^vtIknse ]Ww IymWnpn `{Zambn shnpmhnt? h DSs\ {_o^vtIkv sImSpptm IpsImv BwKyw ImWnXmWv. AXn\Ipsv. s]bm hnbm XpSn. Ftmgpw Ans\bmWv. Hm^okn \nv I hu Hnv ap Ippaw HmW--Xnv 37

ISempIsfmw icnbmnb tijamWv ]Xn\mbncw FSppXv. Fm ISemkpw icnbmWv. HmUn ampIqSn AXp Ip]nSnm\mhn. Hcp Znhks Ie t\mptm ]Xn\mbncw A{X henb XpIsbmpa. IymWnpn sImphp sImSp Nmb samnpSnpsImbm Hmp, C\nbpw Hcp sImw IqSn. ]ns `mcybpw aI\pambn ChnSw hnSWw. tImbqtcm a{Zmtkm t]mbn hosSSpWw. Bcpw Adnbn. Dtm Am, An\s tcmKwmtm? B\ tNmZnp. Abm ssIen. Rm tInn. AsXms kn\namcv Bmsc t]Snnm thn Hmtcmv ImnqWXmWv. Cu IpnIsf t]Snnm thn Hmtcm kn\naIfv. IymWnpn ]dp. F{X \ kn\naIfvv. m AtXsXnepw FSpm aXn. Cu IpnIfv AXv sNny. Bcm Cu ssSv kn\nasbms FSppXv? tIih tNmZnp. B cmPow kpt[w. AmXmcm? thdmfpsS hont]mbn kn\na ImWptm Ahcv FSvW kn\na ImWm\t ]q. \apnsm Sn.how hoUntbmw Hpw hmm ]n. ]pw. tIih a\n IcpXn. ]t AXp sNmXncnbmWv \Xv. Bbncqdv DdpnI ifap Hcmv hmm IgnbpsXmpa Snhnbpw hoUntbmbpw. ]ns Am Smov Fn\ym tNmc hczm? \osbmp anmXncnv Smov tNmc hczm? AsXbm, Hcp honev Cu kqtSvv a\nemhm Smnev tNmc hp XpSptmgmWv. Asm a\nemmw hon Bsnepw Cu kqtSv ]nSns]npv. hnUvVnw ]dbs. tIih ]dp. \o t]mbn Ipfnv hXpw ]Tnm t\mv. F\nv t]Snbmhpp. DdpXn\papv Fpw Abm AcnsnbpsS ASnbn Xn t\mn. AcnbneqsS ssIIfnv Abm ASnbn Anbmnsh ISemkps]mXnI Xnt\mn. Cs s]mXnbSw ]{v. Abm Acnsnbn\np IsSpp. B\ Ddambncpp. Ahs\ ]pXnpsImv Abm ASpp InSp. IymWnpn ASpf bn ]m{Xw IgpIpIbmWv . Smn shw hogp iw, ]m{XfpsS iw. ]ns Cun NqepsImv sIm fw ASnphmcp iw. Abm IymWnpn hcp Xpw Imp InSp. C\n ASp fbpsS hmXn ASv Ah hcpw. FpsImtm Abm Sm n \nv tNmc hcpXns\ ntbmp. B\ icn pw t]SnnpmIpw. aq{X samgnm Ipfnapdnbn IS m IqSn Xm Hw t]mtI nhp. DuWp Ignv ssI IgpInbXv sNn ]nSnpsh shw apnsbSpnmWv . Smv Ah\v t]Snbmbncnpp. s]sv tIih sRn. hmXn Btcm s_Sn p. s_ns ]cpjamb iw tIXpw ASpfbn Nqens iw \np. IymWnpnbpw Ctm ]In cnpIbmbn cnpw. Bcmbncnpw AXv ? cm{Xn ]paWnv . Abm Fgptv hmXn Xpdm t]mbn. Ippaw HmW--Xnv 39

IymWnpnbpw ASpf hmXn hp\np. BcmWv Cu t\cv? Ah \\ ssII km cnpn XpSp. Abm hmXn XpdtWm Fv kwibnp \ntm hopw Hcp _v. Abm hmXn Xpdp. Abmc. Hcp appw tXm pw thjw. \n sISnnsm. Dd v shfnw Ism Hdov m hnymv tXmn. AtXmv hnfnXm. Fm hntijw? tIihs in Ipdv AklyX bpmbncpp. Cpv Hcp aqpaWn kabv Hcmfv \nsS ]Snev Npnn \nWXv Iqs{X ameXn. Hp cp {]mhiyw tKbvn s Dn ISv \n sS hmXnhsc hq s{X. ]s s_SnmsX Xncnp t]mbn. HccaWnqdns\ \nnv Xncnp t]mbs{X. Bcmbncnpw AXv? tIih BtemNnp. Rm Csm hntbpp ItSv. Asm \ntfmSv ]dbmnv hXm. Cmev Bcow hnizkn m hsm. \mbn ]dXv. tIih ]dp. Bcmv a\nembn. Rm t]ms. icn. t\cs apJw IdpnXn\v {]mbnambn tIih kzcw Bhp{X absSpn. tIih\v Ddw hn. km[mcW InSm IymWnpn ASpf hmXneSv Ipfnapdnbn t]mbn ASpphv InSptmtgv abambnpmhpw. Ipfnapdnbn \nh \bmbnmWv hcpI. Xs AcnIn hp InSptm Abm DWcpw. P\eneqsS hcp t\cnb shfnn Abm Ieym WnpnbpsS tZlw t\mnnSpw. sNehp Npcp ]cn]mSnbn XpSnbXmWv \bmbn InSpI FXv. cm{Xn ta IgpInbm apjn kmcnbpw ukpw CSm tXmn Atm Ku CSWw. Hcp KuWn\v apXv \mev]Xv DdpnIbmhpw. ]ns AXp Xncpm\p sNehpw. AXnepw AXym-h-iy-Im-cyp ]W-an-m-Xn-cp Hcp Ime-am-bn-cpp AXv. Cv ss\vKu-Wns hnetbm Xncp-m-\p sNethm {]iv\an. ]t Ap XpSnb ioew Cpw XpScpp. Ah Hpw ]dbmsX InSpIbmWv. Ipdpt\cs \nXbvp tijw Ah tNmZnp. \n Ddtym? Du Dw. Bcmbncnpw aqv aWnv hXv? Hcp \nanjw Ignv Abm ]dp. Adnbn. Abmfpw A{Xbpw kabw AXp Xsbmbncpp BtemNnp sImncpXv. Abmv ASp Imev hfsc s]sv t]Sn]nSnncpp. hmXn Hcp apv, ]cnNbanm HcmfpsS t\mw, I\nbpSabpsS hnfn. Fmw Abmsf sRnp. htmcpw Fs ImWm hXmhpw. Ddzmhpw hnfnmvv t]mbXmhpw. `mcybv v ss[cyw ]ItcXv Xm\msWpw AXpsImv ss[cyw \SnpIbmWv \sXpw Abmdnbmw. F\nbvp t]SymhpWp. IymWnpn ]dp. \fv Cu sNWsXms Fsnepw Ip]nSnm. AsXmpw Bcpw Ip]nSnm t]mWn. C\n Hcp sImw IqSn aXn. AXp Ignm \fv t]mhmbn. Atmtgv F{Xymhpw? GItZiw aqpew. aqsnepw Bbmte Fsnepw sNm ]q. Ipdp t\cw Ah Hpw ]dn. ]ns ]Xps ]dp. Ippaw HmW--Xnv 41

icnpw ]dm \fv Izs sNWXv. Abm Hpw ]dn. AsXmpw Abm Hmm CsSm ImcyfmWv. Ans\bp k`fn Abm In ImminmsX Is Znhk Hmpw. tam Ipnbmbncnptm ]m sImSpm\nmsX IsXv Hmtm \n\v? Abm tNmZnp. Av FgpqdpdpnIbmWv Imjnb F \nebn AbmfpsS ifw. In InnbncpXv Adp\qdpdpnIbpw. AXpsImv Fns\ Pohnpw. ]m \nnbtm ]mmc hgp ]dp. thsd BcpsSsbnepw ASpp\nv ]m hmm\mWv Ahs ]m \nnbsXmbncpp ]mm c [cnXv. kXyw, ]dbm sImmhn[w hncq]ambncpp. \fv IssXmpw ]dbmXncnym \Xv. IymWnpn ]dp. Fsnepw {]tNmZ\w Csn Cs Ddw \inXpXs. Abm tNmZnp. Ipoev hXpw _mosm. mhpw. Ah ]dp. Fn\m IpSnWXv? C\n AsXmcp ioemhpw. BZys Znhkw ]Xn\mbncns sIv hontev sImph AmWv BZyambn IpSnXv. Ddw Inm. ]ns AXv CSbvnSbvmbn. IpSnp Ignm ss[cyw Inpp. IymWnpnbpambn CW tNcm DtP\w Inpp. AXp Ignm s]sv Ddhpw Inpp. \o Hcp mkv FSpv. IymWnpn Fgptp. ASpfbn t]mbn Hcp mkpw shhpw sImphp. Nphceamcn Xpdv IpnsbSpptm AhfpsS \amb ]n`mKw P\eneqsS h shfnw {]ImiabampXv tIih t\mn. hnkvIn mkn FSpv shw tNv Abm Inens Xebv Nmcnbncpp. Zpc Gphmm Xmdmbn IymWnpn ASpphncpp. A]cnNnX ]nsbpw hp. aqpaWn t\cpXs. IymWnpn P\ens hnShneqsS t\mn \np. XteZnhks kw`h Ahsf hmsX `bsSpnbncpp. Cpw Dbvv tPmensbmw Ignv Ah InSXmbncpp. \mect B\ hcnIbpq. \mepaWnhsc InSpw. InSnpw Ddw hcpn. IpdpIgnv shdpsX P\ens ]mfInSbneqsS ]pdtp t\mnbXmWv. AtmgmWv Abm ]Sn \npXv IXv. shfp jpw appw. Ipntcma Hcp _oUnbpw henv Abm AhnsS \npp. CSbvnSbvv XfpsS hmXntev t\mppapmbncpp. Ac aWnqtdmfw Abm AhnsS Npnn \np, ]ns \Sv A{]Xy\mbn. AhfpsS s\v inbmbn anSn p. BcmWbm? FmWbmfpsS Dtiw? sshIptcw tIih htmtgpw Ah hmsX ]cn{`anncpp. \apv thKw Xs t]mImw Ftmsnepw. Ah ]dp. C\n ]Wsampw th. DXpaXn. \osbn\mWns\ t]SnpXv ? tIih tNmZnp. Abmv Fsnepw Imcyapmhpw. Hm^oknse Imcyhpw Abmfpambn Hcp _pwmhm hgoy. Hcp sImn\p apsmpw t]mIm ]ny \apv. `mcysb kam[m\nnpshnepw `bw Abmfn kqcyshfnn ]mb t]mse hfcppmbncpp. AdnbsSm Hcp a\pjy\pw Xm\pw hn[nbpsS GtXm GSmIqSn s]v Hcp Gpapen\mbn Xmsd SppIbmsWbmp tXmn. cm{Xn mv sImphcm ]dtm IymWnpn kXnn. Ah ]dp. Cn\n IpSn. aZy]m\hpw AXn\ptijap kwt`mKhpw Abmfnse {]pmh Abbvppspw Abm v kpJambn Ddw Inppspw Ahdnbmw. Xm\mhs a\nemhm `bfpsS ASnabmbn Ipw Xpdv InSpIbpw ]Isenepw Ddmambncpp. Ctm B Ddhpw \sncnpp. B\ kvIqfn\np hcpXv ]pXnb AdnhpIfpambmWv. B AdnhpIfmhs Ahs\ IqSpX `b sSppIbpw sNbvXp. ssIhncpv sXmv DcpInsbmenp t]mIp AkpJw icnpapXmsW h Ip]nSnp. mknse ]e IpnIpw kzw hon An\s A\p`hapXmbn kmysSp n. Smn \nv tNmc hcpXv. Smv t]ms InWnse shw apgph Nph tNmcbmbXv t\cnp I Hcp mknepv. Atm CsXmpw sIpIYIfsw. F\nbvv FtXmbnp `bfpv. tIih ]dp. AXns IqsSbmWv C\n ChtXpw. Hm^okn tIih hfsc kqnv s]cpamdn. apXemfnbpsS Hmtcm Ne\hpw Abm kwibtmsS honp. apXemfnv Xs t]cn kwibapmbnpspw, AXv Xs AdnbnmsX hfsc hnZKvZambn aqSnshpIbmsWpw Abmp tXmn. Dbvv hon hcp B apXemfnbpsS Bfmbncnpsap hsc tIih hnizknp. AbmfpsS Ddw \sp. aZytam IymWnpnbpsS tZltam Abmfn Xmev]cyapWnbn. Ddanm cm{XnIfn Abm Fgptv P\eneqsS ]pdp \mpshfn n Ahycq]pthn ]cXpw. cm{Xn apdnIfn Ccpv \Sptm Bscnepw Xs s]sv ]nSnIqSpsabm `bsp. apnepmtbmhp {]XntbmKnsb CSnm Abm Itmn. Ippaw HmW--Xnv 43

AXn\nSbvv B\ cm{Xnbn DWv IcbpI Hcp ioeamnbncnpp. s]spWv Ah `btmsS Icbpw. Smn tNmc. Ah ]dbpw. Fs ssIv t\mp DcpIntmWp. hnfp Inv Ahs ssIIsmpw ]nbnnsv Ahs\ t_mysSppw. _p[\mgvN apXemfn Sqdn\p t]mIpw. ]ns shnbmgvNtb hcq. aqp Znhkw thsdmcp ]Xn\mbncw ISt AhkcamWv. thtWm tht? Abmv Xocpam\nm ]nbn. kabw Xs ]nnemn HmSpIbmsWpw \s Hmtcm Ahkchpw \sXp Xssbpw Abmdnbmw. Hcp sImw C\n ]nSnp \nm ]psap tXmpn. Atm Cu Ahkcw Fmbmepw Ifbm h. sshIptcw {_o^vtIkpsaSpv Hm^okn \nv ]pdndnbtm tIih\v Akm[mcWamsbm pw tXmnbn. ]t _v tmntep \Sn\nSbnemWv Xm ]npSsSpps tXmepmbXv. tIih Xncnp t\mn. ssZhta, Abm kzbw ]dp. Hcm Xs ]nXpScpI XsbmWv Abm _v tmntev \Sp hgn amdn \Sp. Abmfpw ]nn Xsbpv . Csmbmepw Bcpambpw Hcp Gpap ]n. {_o^vtIkn\pnse sIv hne]nSnXmWv. tIih Hgnp hcp Hmtmdn ssIImn \nn. Hmtm ]pdstm Abm Xncnp t\mn. shfp jpw appw [cn B shdpsX t\mn \npsImv Ioibn \nv Hcp _oUnsbSv Nppshv Xosn Dckn InpIbmWv. ]Sn Hmtm\nn hmSI sImSptijw Abm Hcphn[w tKbvv ISv HmSn hcnIbmWv sNbvXXv. s_SnpXn\papv Abm \np. cp Imcyn\mbn. Hv Abm Xs ]nXpScpptm Fv t\mWw. ]ns IymWnpn ImWptmtgv Xs InXv amWw. hmXn Xpd `mcybpsS In Abm {_o^vtIbvkv shpsImSpp. Dnepv, FSppshp. Abm ]dp. ]ns Ipdp XWp shw IpSnm Xcq. aIqPbn\nsSp XWp shw IpSnpsImncnptmgmWv Abm IXv. B\ Hcp Itkcbn Iq\nbncnpp. BsI t]Snp himbncnpp. Fm tams\ \o ]nWnbncnWXv? Am F\np t]Symhpp. Fn\v? F\npw B kqtSv hcm ]qhm tXmWp. t\mp Fs hncsems \\tmncnpp. \o hnUvVnw ]dbs. Abm imknp. An\s Hcp kqtsSmpwy temInev. kn\namcv Hmtcmvmnshpw. Abm hmXn {inpIbmbncpp. Imscpamw tIpptm? Am F\nv tXmWXv Smnev tNmcmhpwm. Cu kqtSv hcpsms Smnv tNmc hcmdps{X. Smn \nv tNmctbm? Abm Fgptp. CSv hcq. Rm ImWnpXcmw. Atm Am Smv sXmds. B\ sIn. F\nv t]Snbmhpp. IymWnpn ASpfbn \np hp. Abm IpsImv BwKyw ImWnv tNmZnp. shpshv Ah adp]Sn \In. Abm B\t\bpw Iqn Smn\Sptv \Sp. s]smWv tUm s_SnXv. Abm sRn sdnp. taemsI s]sv ssiXyw _m[np. AbmfpsS ssII hnbp. AbmfpsS ssI Smnt embncpp. IymWnpn t]mbn XmtmgpXneqsS t\mpXpw Xncnphv XtmSv ]dbpXpw Abm attXm temIn \nst]mse Ip. AXbmfmWv. aqpaWnv hcmdnt? Abm Smp Xncnp. shn\p ]Icw Nphp sImgp {ZmhIw HgpIm XpSn. Abm ISp. Xs hncepIfnse \\hv Abm\p`hsp. Xs hncepI F t]mep Hcp {ZmhIw hv At\ym\yw HpXv Abm Adnp. Ip Xpdv t\mm ss[cyanmsX A\m\mhmsX Abm \np. !

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Ahv hnizknm\mbn. ]t Ah \pW]dbpIbmsWv tXmnbn. asmw ]dbp t]msebmWh ]dXv. F\nbvsn\m tamsf Akqb? Fs honepwv Hcp hmjnwKv sajo. cm[ XpWnI Hmtcmtmtcmmbn hmjnwKv sajo\n CSpIbmbncp

p. B ]{p hbpImcnv hmjnwKv sajos Dbcw Xstb Dq. AXpsImv Ah sajos apn Hcp ]eIjvWw shv AXn\p apIfn \nmWv XpWnI CncpXv. SyqjSodpsS ASp \nv csp hXmWv imen\n. Ccp]p apX AXphsc FgpXm Gev]nv Nmb IpSnm\ncp XmWv So. Nmb IpSnp Ignm Sov t]mhm [rXnbmhpw. C\n A Ipfnm hnfnpXp hsc Ah kzX{bmWv. B kzmX{yw BtLmjnpI cm[tbmSv kwkmcnpsImmWv . Xncpptmtgm, ASnphmcn XpSptmtgm Hs Ah cm[bpsS ]n kwkmcnpsImpmhpw. A[nIhpw mknse hntij fmbncnpw. Asn \gvkdn ssdapI ]mSn \rw shpw. XpS am_v \nev imen\nbpsS sImp ImepI ]Xnbpw. Ah t\mn cm[ ]dbpw. Rm XpSnSsms tamfv Nhnn \Stmfp. A Im Inntmfpw. imen\n {inn. A Ahsf ]Tnns Imcyn am{Xsa innpIbpp. aI ]Tnv Hcp tUmdmIWsamWv imcZbpsS tamlw. tUmamscpdnv imcZbvv kev]fpv. Hcp _nkn\ pImc\mb Xs `mhns {]mc Hpw CmsX shdpsX Hcp tNdn Igpn spw Xqn ]Ww hmcp tUmamsc imcZ Fpw AkqbtbmsSbmWv t\mnbncpXv. Xs `mhv Hcp \ tUmsdm kmZnppsnepw Hcp tUmp m\w Inpnsv Ah Ip. Ah aIsf Hcp kvt\m_mbn hfm {ianp. Xtm XmsgnSbnephsc ]ptmsS t\mm, tasenSbnephsc ImWptm Ahsc A\pIcn m Fmw Ah {ianp. aIsf t{]cnnpIbpw sNbvXp. ]mh shscmw ]pgpv kaamsWh hnizknp. AXpsImv

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cm[ imen\nsb AhfpsS hontev sImpt]ms Fp tNmZnm imcZ kXnmdn. Zmcn{Zyw Hcp ]Ihym[nbmsWpw, Xs aIsf AXn \npw amn \nWsapw Ah IcpXn. cm[ hnjnwKv sajo\n XpWnIfnSpXv ItmgmWv imen\n HmXv. Ah ]dp. Rnv ]pXnb hmjnwKv sajo Inqtem. ]pXnb hmjnwKv sajot\m? AsX. Asm CXns\m Ipgw? CXv hmov Hcp sIms Bbnpp. CXv Hmtmamn. ]pXnbXv HmtmamnmWv. Hm. IposS an GsXnepw hon t]mbtm InpmIpw. Asm AXv hmWwv ]dv UmUn sb _pnapnnpmIpw As? imen\n Hpw ]dn. cm[ sImsb A\pIcnp. "t\mps Ahcv s S Inev BtmamnIv hmjnwKv sajo\pv. Asm \pw ths Hv' Fn v AXp hmn ht-cnbbn {]Xn jvTnpw. Fnv ]dbpw. "cmt[,\o CXv sXmSpIsbmpw th tItm. ]gbXns Xncpnbm aXn.' ]pXnb sajo Hcp ImgvNhkvXp hmbn shpw. hncpp hcph sms ImWnpsImSppw. hm Izwo\ F\nnXphsc sXmSm Xnnsm. imen\n tIm{In Imn. AbpsS Fm {]hnIfpw Ahnan snepw Bcpw Asbn ]dp Xv Ahna. Ah ]dp. cm[bvv AkqbbmWv. AtXm mWv Cs\ ]tdWXv. Akqbtbm? cm[bvtm? cm[ tNmZnp. F\nsn\m tamsf Akqb? Fs honepwv Hcp hmjnwKv sajo. \pW. A icnv ]dmWv. s hon epwv Hcp hmjnwKv sajo. nmtWm cm[ ]nv Smns AhnsS t]mbn XncppXv? Rm Imdnev t]mhptm cp {]mhiyw Inpv. RsS hmjnwKv sajo tISm bn sISvmWv. \pW. thWn hnizknm aXn. cm[ hmjnwKv sajo {]hn np. imen\o. A hnfnp. Ipfnm hcp. CXm hcpp. Ahv cnsemv AdnbWw. cm[sb Ahv \t]mse Adnbmw. \pW ]dbmdn. Cm km[\w Dssmpw ]dbmdn. ]ns Cu hmjnwKv sajo am{Xw? Iem-Iu-apZn 29

imen\o....... AbpsS hnfn hopw. tamfv thKw s]mbvtm. A hnfnvv. cm[ ]dp. cmt[sS honev hm hmjnwKv sajo ImWnpXtczm? imen\n tNmZnp. AmsXm. cm[ ]dp. ]t tamfvsS A tamsf Fs IqsS hntSzmpy. Ah _n shw \ndv hmk\bp sh ^nss\ Hgnv Cfn. imen\n BtemNnp. Nnetm Xm AhfpsS hon sNns ss[cynembncnpw cm[ \pW ]dXv. Xm Cv Asbsmv kXnnm t]mIpp. IpfnpsImncns Ah cm[bpsS AhImihmZsn ]dp. s\Wv {]mptm? hmjnwKv sajo . Ahv acymZv `Ww Ignm\n. vm hmjnwKv sajo. cm[ \ Hdv ]dbvWvv. imen\n ]dp. AhsS honev t]mbm ImWnp Xcmwv ]dp. At Rm\nv cmt[sS honev t]ms? th th. AhcvsS honev hrnsbmpwmhny. Rm AhnsSympw CcnnWny At. hmjnwKv sajo Iv Xncnp hcmw. s\\v {]mv Xym. cmt[sS A acnnv ApsImambn. AXn\v tijm AhfvsS A ]Wnp t]mhm sXmSnbXv. s\\v Hmbns evansb? Xosc BtcymKyanm Hcp km[\w. Ahfpw sISnembtmgm cm[ hcm sXmSoXv. AhshnSym tamsf hmjnwKv sajos\ms hmm ]Ww? Rm t]mbn t\ms. th. imen\n \nw ]nSnp. Ahv t]mtb Xocp. cm[bpsS Alw`mhw Hp \nWw. hon sImpt]mbn hmjnwKv sajo ImWnm ]mXncnptm cm[bpsS apJpmhp PmfyX Hmv imen\n Nncnp. kvqfn t]mIpXn\papp Hcp aWnq kabw \nccw ieysSppIhgn Ah Asb smv kXnnp. A Sqdnembncpsn C{X hnjaapmhnmbncpp. A ]dbpw. tamfv s]mbvtmfp. thKw Xncnp hcWwtm. Atm Ans\ Xobmn. cm[ Fm hontebpw ]WnIgnv t]mIptm \mepaWnbmhpw. Atmtgv imen\n kvIq bqWnt^mw amdn ]pdsp \nWw. \osbn\m cmt[ IpnItfmSv Cns\ Hmtcmv ]dbWXv? Ins Csm XethZ\? imcZ Ibp. cm[ NncnpI am{Xw sNbvXp. \obn\n s\s honv Ahv Xnms\mpw sImSpcpXv tItm. Ahv Ans\ AXpw CXpw Hpw Xnv ioeey. hbdv tISvhcpw. ]ns cv Znhks mkv t]mIpw. t]Snt tNn. AhnsS Xnm Hpwmhny. Ah kXyw ]dbpIbmbncpp. \mep honse ]WnsbSppXp sImmWv B s]Ipnv ]nWnbnmsX Ignbm ]pXv. A, Xm, A\pP. A acntm kvIqfn t]mp \nn. ]ns A hmXambn InSnembtm Ah tPmenp t]mpw XpSn. A t]mbncp hoSpIfns. AhfpsS `Ww Hmtcm hoSpIfnembn Ignbpw. sshIptcw Xncnpt]mIptm GsXnepw hon \np Innb tNmdpw Iqm\pw ImWpw. AXmbncnpw B IpSpw_ns cm{Xn `Ww. Ahv ]cmXnIsfmpapmbncpn. Cns\sbnepw IgnpIqSpptm Fh kam[m\np. C{Xbpw Cmh F{Xbpv. Ah tPmensbSpncp honephscmw Hcp amXncn kcmbncpp. AhcpsS PohnXns ]Inp Iv Ah BZysamw Amfnp. Hcp FphbpImcnbmbn AbpsS Hw Cu hoSpIfntev t]mbtm Ah XnIpw ApXsSmdpv. AXphsc AhfpsS temIw XohnmXbvncphipw ]pdwt]mp ev Xgphf IpSnepInSbnembncpp. \mdp, sImXpIv Bp Idp shw sIn\np Npphw. tXfnsbpw ]gpXmcbpsSbpw ISn, sshIptcfn IpSnphv hgnSp ]pcpjm. Cu A\mtcmKyIcamb Npp]mSn Pohnph Ahv A tPmensbSpm t]mIp hoSpI thsdmcp temImsWp tXmn. {ItaW inipklPamb ss\aeytmsS, Ah a\nemn. Ahcpw Xfpw Xn hyXymkw Dhcpw Cmhcpw Fpam{Xta Dq. Ah _pn aXnbmbncpp. ImcyfpsS InSv Ah thKw ]Tnp. Dh Hcp RmbdmgvN sshIptcw ]pdnd nbm `WimeIfn sNehmp XpIbpsS ]IpXnt]mepw Abvp amkifambn sImSp pnsh Ip. Dh, Cmhp sImSppIbnspw Ah a\nemn. sXmgnemfn, apXemfnbpsS NqjWns\Xnsc ap{ZmhmIyw hnfnv {]IS\w \Sptm XfpsS hoptPmenmsc Iem-Iu-apZn 30

NqjWw sNpIbmWv. Hcp cm{ob]mn `cnnpw XfpsS kmnI \nev, X Pohnp Npp]mSpIv amw hnnsv Ah Ip. cm{Xn ]{p aWn Ignt s]mXpSmn shw hcq. FpaWnv cm{Xn `Ww Ignm Ah cp IpShpambn Smn\Spp hv Iyqhn ew ]nSnpw. Atmtgv ]p ]{p Ie hcnbn Dmhpw. ew ]nSn tijw Ah IpSnen hv Ddm InSpw. ]Ies Azm\w ImcWw sImXpISnsbmpw AhfpsS Ddn\v `wKw hcpnbn. ]{p aWnv Fgptv Smn\Sptv \Spw. AhnsS kv{XoI _lfw IqnpSnbnpmIpw. sh n\p thn Ielapmhm Znhkan. cp cctbmsS, Nnetm aqpaqcbmhpw, cp IpSw shw Inpw. ]ns Xncp, Ipfn, cmhnes `Wapm. Fmw Ignbptm Bdv BdcaWn bmhpw. Ahv tPmenv t]mtI kabamhpw. Hmtcm XncnsSpv hcptmgpw m\mnI NncnpsImv hcpw. Xsf Pbnnm AhnsS IqSpX SmpI CpXcpsapw, IqSpX IqkpIfpw IpfnapdnIfpw Dmncpsapw apw hmKvZm\w sNpw. Pbnp Ignm ]ns Xncnp t\mpIbpw C. IqSpX em`Icamb ap tPmenI fptm Cu IpSnepIfnepw AXn HSpp a\pjycnepw Ahsp Xm]cyw? Smn\p apn shn\pthn Imp\nptm Xm tPmenp t]mIp hoSpIfnse IpfnapdnI Hm hcpw. Smp Xpdm shw, F{X thWsanepw Ftm thWsanepw. apIfn Ipfnm jh. cp hoSpIfn NqSpshapmm\p sKbvkdpapv. XovWamb Cu sshcpy fnepw Ahv Ahsc shdpm Ignn. sshcpy {]IrXn\nbaamsWh hnizknp. imen\nsb AhnamWv. AhfpsS Kv cm[ hIshn. ]t Ahfn Dmbncp Ipnw Ahsf BIjnp. sshIptcw cm[bpsS ssI]nSnv \ncns HmcpIqsS \Sptm imen\n tNmZnp. cmt[sS hoSv hepXmtWm? Hcp amXncn. cm[ ]dp. henb hosSms Bbm AXv sImp \Sm hnjaas. R aqp t]ct Dq. vpw RfpsS F{X henb hoSm. \nv tPmensms Bfpv. ASnphmcn \new XpSm\pw, ]m{Xw tamdm\pw, Xncpm\pw Hcp ]Wnmcn. ASpfbn shp ]Wnv thsdmcp ]Wnmcn. Rv AXns\mpw ]Wwy. Asm sNdnb hoSt \Xv? imen\n Xebmn. \nsS hmjnwKv sajo hv GcnbbnemtWm shncnpXv? hv Gcnbbn? cm[ Hcp \nanjw kwibnp. RfpsS hon.......... Asn Ipnv hoSp Im a\nemhpw. Ah Smdn tdmUn\nv Hcp CShgnbntev Xncnp. Ign HcmgvN ASp s]bvX agbn hgn apgph sNfnpmbncpp. Nfnbn NhnmsX hgnbpsS HmcpIqsS Ah \Sp. CShgn sNhkm\n Xv Hcp ]dns \SphneqsS t]mIp hoXn Ipd \SmXbnemWv. B hgnbpw NfnsIn hrntISmbn cpp. imen\n apJw Npfnp. cm[sS honten\nbpw Zqcaptm? C. ASppXsbmWv. Ah \Sp. hgnbpsS CSXp himbn XohnmfcnIn Hcp henb tImf\n ]cp InSncpp. sXmp sXmSpp sImp IpSnepI. {Intjkv bpKnse Hcp `oamImc ]n \op\nsmcp Gpapen\ptijw NndIpI HSnv Np InSpXpt]mse B tImf\n Iodndnp InSp. anhbpw Hme taXmWv. NneXv HmtSm Kmhss\kvUvjotm tah. ]eXnsbpw NpacpI Hmetbm jotm Bbncpp. Nne hoSpIfn Npacn\p ]Icw NmpXpWntbm mnIv jotm BWv D]tbmKnncpXv. HmesImpmnb IpfnapdnIv Xosc adhpmbncpn. Hmtcm hoSpInSbn epw Idpp \mdp shw sInnSp. IpSnepInSbneqsS \Sptm imen\n AsXmw t\mn apJw Npfnp. cm[bpsS hontev t]mIm thsd hgnsbmpwsy? C. CXm \ Fngnp. cm[ ]dp. Ah Hcp IpSnens apn \np. CXmWv Fs hoSv. imen\n ]Ip. CtXm, cm[bpsS hotSm? m, CXmWv Rm Xmaknp ew. Fs hoSv. hcq. imen\n Hpw ]dbmsX cm[bpsS IqsS AItp \Sp. Ahsf FXntcXv Ccppw HmSbpsS Iem-Iu-apZn 31

Khpambncpp. Ipdp t\ctv Ahv Hpw ImWm ]nbn. apdnbnsehnsS\ntm Hcp oWn iw hp. CXmcm tamsf s\s Hw? CXv imcZtnbpsS tamfm At. imen\npv. imen\npmtWm CXv? tamfv hepXmbtm. tamsf CSpp hcq. IpI Ccppambn s]mcpsp Igntm apdnbpsS aqebn ]mbn InSp oWn cq]w sXfnp hp. Ah ASpp t]mbn. Npp ap Ccpv, aqntev Ipnbdp \mw, ]ns apn Npcpp InSp hnNn{X Pohn. AsXmcp a\pjykv{XobmsWv hnizknm imen\np {]bmkambn. Ah hnsS\nv Fns\sbnepw csSWsap tXmn. Ah tNmZnp. cm[sS apdn GXmWv? Fs apdntbm? cm[ s]mnncnp. \nmsXbp Nncn. B NncnbpsS kvt^mS\n B IpSnens AImchpw B PohnXns \nlmbXbpw ]msS Xqsdnbs p. BmZns sImp kv^penwK B sImp hoSns\ Zo]vXamn. Fs apdntbm? cm[ hopw tNmZnp. Ah imen\nbpsS ASpphv app Ipn\np. AhfpsS IpIfnse kmcfyw AhfpsS lrZbnsehnsSsbmstbm sImp. Xm\pw Hcp IpnbmsWpw, kvt\lns emf\pw NqSn\pw Xm\pw AhIminbmsWpw D Imcyw Ah hnkvacnp. kzoIcnpXn\p]Icw \Im Ah Xmdmbn. Hcbmbn amdnb Ah imen\nsb FSpps]mnp. AhfpsS XpSp Ihnfn Dshp. imen\npw Ans\ Hcpdv Bhiyambncpp. imen\ntamv Xnm sImSpm Fsnepw Dtm tamsf? cm[bpsS A tNmZnp. Dmlns XncI ]ndtImp henp. thenbndn a\ns aWnpI \am sp. AhnsS bmYmyns p{ZPohnI Cgp \Sp. cm[ imen\nsb Xmsg shp. ChnsS Hpwys. Ah ]dp. C\nsns tamv Hpw sImSpcpsXv ]dnpapv. Xs ZuXyw FmsWv imen\n AtmgmWv HmXv. Ah tNmZnp. FhnsSbmWv cmt[sS......... Ah apgpann. tNmZyns \ncYIX Ahv t_mysncnpp. Ahv Fns\sbnepw AhnsS \nv t]mbm aXn. Fm tamsf? cm[ tNmZnp. hmjnwKv sajo? hmjnwKv sajot\m? Dw. AsXhnsSbmWv? AXm AhnsS InSpp. cm[ Nqnmn. AhfpsS kzcw \nnImcambncpp. apdnpnse Ccpv \onbncpp. imen\nntm Fmw hyambn ImWmw. B Imgv N Ahsf thZ\nnp. Ah hnnsmv ]dp. AtXm, AXv cm[sS Abs? AsX. cm[ ]dp. Rm ]dns AXv tISphv InSzmv. \nnImcamb B ins Ayn Hcp tX Iepthm? imen\n Xcnp \np. cm[ ]dbpIbmbncpp. Hcp Imev \mbn AenbncpXmWv. Fm sNzm, tISphnt? imen\n HmSn ]pdtp ISp. F\nv AsS ASpv t]mWw. Ah IcpsImv HmSpIbmWv. tamsf \np F cm[bpsS hnfn Ah tIn. AhhnsS\nv Fns\sbnepw csSWw. Ah HmSn, Zmcn{Zynsbpw ImSpIfpsSbpw Ccp CShgnIfn kzbw \sSpwhsc. !

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ens XWp tem_nbn Imp\npI hnjaapXmbncpn. hntZinI hncpXv an hmdpw DXncn t\cmbncpp. Fbt]mn \np _n Ah Iqambn hndn. Nnetm SmIvknbn. Inbp Nnp`nnbneqsS \mcmbW \mb Ah _n \nndpXv t\mnbncpp. tXmfpw ]pdpw kn Xqnsmv Ah Cdn. hmXn \np Nph bq\nt^man tUmam hmXn XpdpsImhsc kzmKXw sNbvXp. s_ t_mbvkv _n \nv kiIcpsS s]nIfpw knIfpw FSpv en^nncnIn \ncn. C\n AXnYnI Iudnsv sNn sNbvXm Ah hv apdnbpsS \ t\mnshpw. Ahv t]mtI en^vv ImWnpsImSppw. km[\ s_ t_mbvkv thsdmcp en^vnemWv sImp t]mIpI. hntZinI AhchcpsS apdnIfn septmtgv Ah km[\fpambn AhnsS FnbnpmIpw. B kabmWv \mcmbW \mb kzbw ]cnNbsSppXv. Inep t^mU Ahsc Gnpp. AXn IYIfnbpsSbpw, HmwXpensbpw ap tIcfob \mS IeIfpsSbpw Nn{X fpv. Nphn sNdpIpdnpIfpw. Ahkm\s t]Pn Xs hons hnemkhpw AhnsS FtsXns\bmWv Fv tav klnXw sImSpnp \nt ifpw. Abm Fpw sshIptcw hons Nmbv]n IYIfn ImWnncpp. ImWnIfmbn hntZinI am{Xta DmIq. Ahsc Imhmkv sNbvXp sImp t]mIpXv Cu tlmen shmbncpp. BZysamw HcpamXncn \ _nkn\v Innbncpp. Hcp kiI\v AXp cq]bmWv \ncv. \mepw Apw, Nnetm Fpw ]pw hsc hntZinIsf Inmdpv. ]noSv ]s thsdbpw cp ]mnI cwKsnbtXmsS \mcmbW\mbcpsS _nkn\v tamiambnpSn. ap h IqSpX kwLSnXambmWv _nkn\v \Snsmn cpXv . Xn amcyw DmIpIaqew cpt]pw _nkn\v IpdbpIbmsWp a\nembtm Ah Hcp HpXonsen. Hmtcm Znhkw HmtcmcpcpsS hIbmbn IYIfn \Smsav . Ah sNdnsbmcp lm hmSIbv sSpv ncw thZnbmn amn. Hmtcmcp CShnp Znhkw AhnsS IYIfn \Sn. \mcmbW\mbv ]t AXn tNcm ]nbn. Xm Hcp `ojWnbmbn Ahp tXmnbn. am{Xa Bhiys apX apSv AbmfpsS InenmbncppXm\pw. AXpsIm bm Ctmgpw tlmen hv kzw Iymhmkv sNbvXp hp. AXp ]t A[nIw ^ehmbn. ImcWw ap cpt]cpw tlmenepw Sqdnv Hm^oknepw kzm[o\nncpp. AXpsImv hntZinIv tlm en \nv sImSpp hnhc bm fnepw, Sqdnv Hm^okn \nv t^mUdnepw ap \ncmi\mbn e`np h IYIfn \Sp hnemk tem_nbnse Hcp amWv sImSpmdv. AXp sImv tkm^bn Ah \Kcw ImWpXns Hcp Hbmmtcbpw `mKambn lmfn t]mbn IYIfn {]XonpsImv Ip aSn. Htm ctm HXncn Iq\nqSnbncpp.

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mnev hmoXv? s]sv tZhInbpsS a \inp. Ah Xncnp\np sImv ]dp. Adnbmw. Fs NpSm. Asm s\\v Adnbmw AtSn. AXv XymWv Rm sNm t]mWXv. Zo]tam s]sv Fgptv Icbm XpSn. Atm A At Intym? C tamsf. tZhIn ]dp. AXn\p `mKysampw A sNbvXnn. tamfpdntm. A{X DdmsSn. Abm XovWkzcn ]dp. sNbvXqtS, F\nbvv Pohnm\p tamlw Hpw CymXm bncnpp. Intmfp. ]ns Cns\ Hcp \ Iw sNp tm AXv shdpw hbn th. DuWp Igntmfp. Fnp aXn. F\nbvv s\s tNmsdmpw thSo. Abm ImepsImv at tbvpw tNmdn ]m{Xhpw Xnsdnnp. AbmfpsS ImepI CSdppmbncpp. CSbvnSbvv hogm t]mbn. ssIIfpw hndbvppv. Abm Ip\nv asSnsSpv BnsImv AhfpsS t\sc hp. ]ns A\msX \np tZhnIbpsS ta B Snnse as Hgnp. ]IpXn as Hgntm Abm \nn. tZhIn A\nbn. Ah AXp {]Xonn. Inpsav ]dbpsamsX AXp sNpsah Xosc {]Xonn. s]spbph Hcp tX Ah ISnan. B \nanjn Ah acnm Xmdmbn. Bkn t]mbnv Fns\sbnepw Pohnm\p tamlw t]mepw CmXmbncn pp. tiJc Snp Xmsghp. Ioibn \np XosnsbSpp. AbmfpsS ssI hndbv ppv . s]n Xpdv Hcp tIm ]pdsSpm\p {ian cpaqp tIm \nep hoWp. Abm sImnbpcp. s]sv Zo]bvv Imcyw ]nSnInn. Ah IcpsImv Fgptv Asb sInnSnp. Am, Asb Ins Am. tZhIn BZyw tamsf Xnamn. Hcp s]mb aIfpsS `mhnbntev tZhIn Hcp \nanjw t\mn. ]pdp Ccpnt\m Idp Ccpmbncpp Ah IXv . Ah tamsf Xncnp hnfnp Btjnp. \apsmw Nmhmw tamsf. apdnbpsS aqebnen ]mbn Ddp aIs\n Ahv Bibpmbncpn. tiJc Xosnsmn DcpIbmWv. s]mnbXpw ImXpamb sImnI Abmp Nppw \nev NnXdnnSp. Rm InpXctWm? Ah tNmZnp. hndbvp ssIItfmsS Xosn Dcp Inm {ianpXn am{Xw {i sNeppIbmbncp tiJc apJapbn t\mn. ]ns Xosn Xmsgbnv Abm Ipnncpv Onm XpSn. akmednbpw Ipw IqSntp a\w s]cp ]pfn aWw B apdnbn \ndp. Onbn CdnbpsSbpw s]mdmbpsSbpw IjvWfmbncpp. cp aqp {]mhiyw On tijw Abm \nev B Onbn Xs sNcnpInSv Ddambn. tamsf amn, tZhIn kmcn Agnp shp. as ASnmhmShscsbnbncpp. Ah tiJcs\ \onnSn. _pw shhpw sImphv Onsbmw XpSpamn. \\ tXmpsImv AbmfpsS apJw XpSp. Abm Ddambncpp. Fmw hrnbmnbtijw Hcp mv ]shhpw IpSnv, ap\nv Ip Ccp]p hmns hnfpw sISpn Ah InSp. Zo]tam AhfpsS sImp ssI sImhsf sInhcnp. Ah ]Xps tNmZnp.

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At, A icnpw At Inty? tZhnIv Ddpmbncpn. apdnbn Atmgpw asbpsS Kapmbncpp. tiJcs Xebv shnp Snn as _mn bpv. Ah Zo]bpsS kam[m\nmbn ]dp. C tamsf A IpSnp hnv Hmtcmv ]dbzmWv. Ipdp t\cs au\n\ptijw Ah hopw tNmZnp. Fn\mt A IpSnWXv? tZhInbvdnbnmbncpp. IpSnt Bhiysampw Ah In. Hcp Npap sXmgnemfnsb \nebvv Abm \ ]Wapmnbncpp. Nne Znhkw \qdv \qnbncp] v cq] hsc. Ccp\qdpw AXne[nIhpw Dmnbnp Znhkfpv. amkw icmicn cmbncn ]cw hcp am\apmbncpp. C{Xbpw ]WwsImv F{X \ PohnX \nehmcapmmambncpsv tZhIn a\nemnbXv ASp ImemWv. IpnIsf ]nWnbn\nv cnm\m bn Hcp hon tPmenp \ntm. Ah tPmenp \n hon Hcp sNdnb IpSpw_ ambncpp. A, A, \mephbp aI. cpapdn hmSIhon Xmaknpp. AqdpdpnI hmSI. Ah Xtm Htm ctm hbn\p XmsgbmsWn IqSn tZhIn Ahsc tNnsbp hnfnp. `mhv Hm^okn t]mbm Ah ASpfbn ISp Htm ctm aWn qdn\pn `Wapmpp. D`Wn\pmn bXp XsbmWv cm{Xnbpw. Hgnhp Inp kabsmw Fsnepw Xpnsmncnpw. icnpw Hcp kp IpSpw_w. AhnsS tPmen XpSnb tijamWv kzw hoSns A]mIXIsfn tZhIn BtemNnm XpSn bXv. BZyw Ahsf tamlnnXv ]e Xcw Kfmbncpp. tPmensNp hon BZyw ImepIpnbtm Ahsf BIjnXv hmk\bmbncpp. ]qfpsS hmk\. GsX dnbm ]q. Ah Ipnbmbncnptm Ftmtgm B hmk\ AhtfmsSmapmbncpp. BZyapmb tXm X\np \ssXtm XncnpInnsbXmbn cpp. AtXmsS Ahv B hoSpw hopImcpw Cambn. Dbvv tPmenIgnv honsenbtmgmWv Ah kzw hoSns InSv {inXv. Hcp apdnbpw ASpfbpw am{XamWv DXv. Ipfnapdnbpw Iqkpw ]pdmWv. tNnbpsS hoSnt\m Hcp apdn Ipdhv. ]t AXns InStm? C{Xbpw hrnsI emWsm Xm XmaknpsXv Ahv BtemNnmXncnm Ignn. IymWw Ign Imev Ah B hoSv IpsdqSn `wKnbmn shncpp. Hcp ]gb kmcn shn P\en\v ]IpXn sXmv I CSpIhsc Ah sNbvXncpp. ]ns AXymhiyap ]WwIqSn Xs Insepnsv Itm AhfpsS Dmlsamw sISn. `mhn\v hchnmn. ApInp ]Ww honsepnsp am{Xw. `mhns\ IpSn ]Tnn Bsf Ah i]np. Ahkm\w Fmw Xs hn[nbmsW an HXppIbpw sNbvXp. tPmen Innb Av sshIptcw Ah hoSphrnbmm Hcp {iaw \Sn. Fmw s]mSnXn. apdnbmsI IgpIn. Xncpm\p XpWnI NnXdnnSXv amnshp. aqpaWnq Azm\n tijhpw Ahv Xr]vXn hn. HmesmSn InXns \mw apdnbn Xn\np. XpWnIv Hcp \mapsv AtmgmWv Ah {inXv. hne Ipd tkmp]tbmKnv XncppI ImcWw XpWnIfpsS hnbp\mw apgph hnpt]mbncpn. B \mw Ffpw Ifbm ]n sv Ahp a\nembn. AXv Xstmse PohnphcpsS KamWv. apdnpns `WapmpIbpw AXn\v Inm HmesmSntbm hndtIm D]tbmKnpIbpw sNpIbmsWn ]pIaWw Hgnhmm ]nsh Ip. F{X \ N\ncnbpsSbpw aWs \nhocyamnbncpp B Kw. NpcpnbXv Hcp as uv
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hmpIsbnepw sNbv X m aXn. Hcp u hmm F{X\m ]dpt\mn. adp]Sn Xosc abanmXmbncpp. \obntm tPmensms t]mbnv ]Wmcymbn Ccnysy? ifw Inptm hmntm. ifw! X\nbvv Inp \qdpdpnIsImv Acn hmpIbmtWm thXv? AtXm utm? un\h hne tNmZnncpp. Fgp]p dpnI. Hmtcm amkhpw ifw Innbm Ah ISbpsS apn t]mbn Nnn tjmtIkn\pn sh u Ipdp t\cw t\mn \npw. Dn Ibdm ss[cyanmsX _kv tmntep \SpIbpw sNpw. Ah tPmenp t]mIm XpSnbXv tiJc\v Cambn. AXbm t\cnv ]dnsnepw {]hnbn ImWnp. AXphsc htmgpw sImSpncp ]Whpw Abm \nemn. cm{XnIfn IqSpX sshIn honsem\pw Fsnepw ImcWw ]dv Ielnm\pw t`Zyw sNm\pw XpSn. Ah sshIptcfn Ab honse IymWn XncnphcpXpw Imncpp. Xs {]mcm BcpsSsbnepw ASpv Cdn shWw. IymWnbmWv Ahv tPmenbmn sImSpXv. tPmensbSpp honse tNntbmSv BhemXnI ]dbm tZhIn {ianp. cptiapmbncpp. Hv a\n klXm]ns Ne\apmm ]nbm \qdpnI apIq hmmasm. u hmm. ISw ]noSv KUpfmbn ifn \nv ]nSnm aXnbsm cpw \Sn. Xs {]mcm tIm Ahv kabanmbncpp, Xm]cyhpw. Ah ]dp. \nsSsbms Hcp tbmKamWv. ChnsS tN\v A{Xb[nIw ifw Hpwy. Bbncn Adp\qdpdpnIbmWv ifw. s{]mhnU v ^pw Cjqdkpw Hs ]nSnpIgnm In InpXv Bbncn apqdpdpnIymWv. AtXmmWv Rfv Inv Acnnv IgoWXv. s\s `mhv sNmav sXmgnemfys. Abmfv tNt\m ]Ww kmZnvWmhpw. Hs IpSnv Ifm Fm sNym? AUzmkns\mpw ]Ww Fs Inevmhny. s\\v XcW ifw Xs Rm ukpw ]mhmSbpw Hs XpnsmSvvmmwv tNmt\mSv ]dncnymWv. B HdvemWv s\s shtmfm kXnXv. IymWn am{Xta Hcp cbpp. Ah ]dbpw, \apsms Cu `mhvv ]dbW B Hcp `mcm. Cns\ Hcp `mcw Cymncnym \Xv. Rm\Xs Abmsf ASnp ]pdmoXv. Rm Azm\np sImphcp ImsiSpv Abmfv Ip IpSnpw. Hcp Znhkw Ip IpSnp ]qkmbn cm{Xn Hcp aWnv hv hgpmns Xm hp. Rm NqseSpv \msbmv s]cpamdn. ]ns Abmsf Inny. sm Fm F\nsmcp Ipdhv? Fs cp afow Rm \mbn s]men Wnsy. cnnev tPmeov. t\cs cp etbpw tPmen Ign Znhkfn tZhIn IymWnsb hgnpshv ImWmdpv. \Sn\nSbn uns ISbvp apn tZhIn \npw. s\\n{X tamlmWn tNntbmSv ISw hmnqsS? tNosS nXn A{X \sXmz. IpIpSn Hpwymtmv Ans\ Ignpt]mWp. tNosS `mhv kvt\lwmfm. ]ns Ipdpt\cw \nbmb tijw Ah ]dp. As\ thWw Hcp IpSpw_mm. IeymWn ap NneXv BtemNnpIbmbncpp. tZhInsb Ahnambncpp. Ahsf Fns\sbnepw IcIbWsaphv. Hcp tPmen IqSn GsSpn sImSpmw. amkw Hcp \qdpdpnIIqSn XSbpw. AXp sImsmw Fmhm\mWv. Ah `mhnsbn BtemNnp. tZhnIbpsS `mhns t]mpIm XmaknbmsX Ahv Xm sNbvXt]mse Abmsf ASnndtn hcpsadnbmw. Atm Ccp\qdp cq]sImv cpasf t]mpI hnjaamWv. \n\v B u hmWwv A{X tamlwtm? tZhIn AhfpsS hoSpw tPmensbSpp hoSpw HcnqSn a\n XmcXaysSpn. Xs hoSns\ timN\obmhbn \npbn at hoSns \nehmcntepbm\p BZys ]SnbmWv u. AXpwIqSn Innbnsn ]ns B tamlw Dt]npIbmWv \Xv. Ahv s]sv kSw hp. In Dcpph PeIW Ah Ah kmcnpp sImp XpSp. IymWn tNmZyamhnp. tZhIn Xebmn. m, Rm ]dbW Imcyw sNbvXm aXn. \obv BtcmSpw ]doymv kXyw sNv. Ah kXyw sNbvXp. Xs _pnappI ]msS amdnnm\p Hcp a{amWv IymWn ]dp Xcm t]mIpXv . hrnbp hoSns\nbp kz]v \ w Ah hopw Hmp. AsXmcp bmYmyammsap hnizmkw Ahv Bizmkw \In. Rm Hcmsf ]cnNbsSpncmw. IymWn ]dp. ChnsS ASpzymWv \ skm`mh

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a\pjy\m. Cmbm \appthn Fpw sNpw. hm. IymWn ssI]nSnp henp. Ah {][m\ \ncn \nv ssIhgnbntev Xncnp. hopw sNdnb hgnI. Hcp sNdnb HmSn hoSns apnsenbtm IymWn \np. Nppw t\mn Bcpanspdmbtm Xpdn sKbvneqsS AIp ISp. CXn\pn ISm ]ns Bcpw ImWny. kwibnp \np tZhInsb ssI]nSnp henv Ah Xpdn hmXneneqsS AItp ISp. tkm^bpw sNdnb htaibpw C Hcp apdn. AXn\Sp apdnbn taita sh `W km[\p apn Hcm Ccnpp. AXp hbp{]mbw. hcbp jmWnncnpXv. sNnbnepw aoitaepw \c XpSnbncnpp. Abm Xncnp t\mnsmv tNmZnp. Fm IymWn hntijw? \msfbt hcmsap ]dncpXv? km. hiyambn NncnpsImv IymWn ]dp. HcmsfqSn sImcm kmdv ]dnsy. Bsf sImnpv. FhnsS? tZhIn apdnbntev hnsv AtmgmWv IymWnv a\nembXv. Ah apdnp ]pdpISv knnwKv dqan Adp\np tZhInbpsS ssI]nSnv AItp sImphp. Zm, ZmWv Bfv. Abm tZhInsb Dgnpt\mn, kzoImcysa an Xebmn. \n DuWp Igntzm? kmdv DuWp Igntmfp. R ]ns Dmw. Zm, Fs DuWp Ignbmdmbn. Rm\ntm hcmw. AhnsSbncnv. IymWn tZhInsbqn ASpfbntep \Sp. ASpfbn \nencnptm tZhIn tNmZnp. kmdns hon thsd Bcpwsy? Cym. kmdv HmWv. Atm ASpf tPmenmtWm? Am. AXns\mcp Xv. Ahcv cmhnse hv tNmsdmsmnshv t]mIpw. ]ns t\cnb NncntbmsS IymWn ]dp. CXv thsd Imcyn\m. tZhInbvv Imcyw apgph ]nSnInn. AhfpsS apJw hmSn. AhfpsS Dmlw \inp. FmWv sNtsXv Xocpam\nm Ahmbn. Cs\ Hcp k`sn Ah BtemNnXp t]mepan. Ctmgpw sshInbnnspw X\nbvv Xm]cyansp ]dv t]mIpsapw Ah dnbmambncpp. Fm s\s apJw hmXncnWXv? tZhIn adp]Snsbmpw ]dn. Ah asfn BtemNnp. kabw cpaWnbmbnpmIpw. Xm sshIn sbp Znhkfn aqh Cfbh\p tNmsdSpp sImSpmdpv. Ah `Ww IgnnpmIpsah Binp. Xtes ao Iqm Nnbn ASp shXv tam ImWnt? \psSsbms PohnXw Cns\bmWv tZhp. IymWn ]dp. `mmcv IpSnphv \sf sXmgnpw. thsd h B{]tmcpw \sf kvt\lnpw. \apv thsXms Xcpw. CXnev sXsmpy. Cu kmdns\ Rm cpsImmbnv AdnbWXm. s F{X klmbnXvXnv Ipw IWpwy. BZys {]mhiyw \apv hmbva tXmpw. ]nsms km[mcWymhpw. AtXyp. Hcp ]pcpj Xs sXmSpI FXn henb Ipgsampw tZhInv tXmnbncpn. AXn\p ImcWw Ipnmepmb Hcp kw`hambncpp. Ftm HtXm hbptm hon Ipdp hbmb Hcm hcmdpv. Ah ama Fp hnfnp Hcm. hon Abpw apw Cm Ahkcfn Abm Ahsf aSnbnencpn Xmtemenmdpv . A tPmenp t]mb Ahkcfn Abm Ahsf hon\pn sImpt]mbn \nep InSmdpv. Abm Hw InSpw. AXnse \nKqVX Ahnsp. AXv Ahfpw Abmfpw IqSnbp clkyamb GmSmsW t_m[w Ahsf DtPnXbmnbncpp. Abm t]mIptm Ahv \mWy sImSpncpp. ImepInSbnse hgphgpv Ahnsnsnepw Abm Xcp \mWyfpw AXns BImsSbp clkymIXbpw Ah Csncpp. Ah B \mWb Nncbnemn Hcp ev Hfnnpshpw. Xmesmen kabv AsXmw s]dpnsbSpv hfbpw Iepw appamebpw hmpw. s\\v shjaw tXmptm? tZhIn Xebmn. AbmfpsS DuWp Ignncpp. ssI IgpIp iw tItm IymWn Fgptp. taipdp
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\nv ]m{Xsfmw FSpv ASpfbn sImphp shp. Fn ]m{XsfSpv, tai hrnbmn. Rm Hv Xe Nmbvs, Abm ]dp. Agv \nfv DuWp Igntmfp. tZhInv hnippmbncpp. AXpsImv tNmdp hnfnbtm Ah aSnsbmpw IqSmsX DuWp XpSn. ASpfbn \nencpp sImv Ah DuWp Ignp. DuWpIgnv ]m{X IgpIn shtijw IymWn ]dp. Rms\mv t]mbn t\ms kmdv HdzmtWmv. IymWn t]mbtm Ahv HcnqSn BtemNnm CSInn. ISbn mv `nnp ]nn sh Xnfp u Ahv Hm hp. ]pIbpsS aWap Xs hoSpw. Ah Xobmngnncpp. Ctm Ahsf AenbncpXv thsdmcp {]iv\ambncpp. kmdv FmWv XcnI. IymWn Ahsf hnfnp. tZ, kmdv hnfnpp. Abm Inen XebnWbn Nmcnbncnbmbncpp. jgnp shnpv. AbmfpsS s\s tcma Aev]mev]w \cp XpSnbncpp. ]s \ Dd tZlambncpp AbmfptSXv. km Rm t]ms. IymWn ]dp. s]sv tZhIn IymWntbmSv ]dp. tNn Fs asf Hv {inWwtm. AXns\m Ahcvs asS t]meyys? \obv ]Xps hm aXn. ]ns Xncnv AbmtfmSv ]dp. kmsd Rm t]ms. kmdv s adcpXvtm. Abm Nncnp. IymtWy adm Rm Fss adqv Iqntmfp. \o t]mbn B hmXneSv Ipnbnp hm. Abm tZhIntbmSv ]dp. Ah A\pkcnp. ]noSv FmWv sNtsXdnbmsX Ah ]Ip \npIbmWv. AhnsS Ipfnapdnbpv. Abm Nqnmn. Ipfnp hcq. AXm B Aeamdoev appw taappw ImWpw. Ipfnnv AXp am{Xw DSpm aXn. Ipfn kpJambncpp. Dcp \ hmk\bp tkmvtXv Ah [mcmfw shn Ipfnp. hon sXcphnse Smn hcnbmbn\nv ]nSnp shn Ipfnm Fv kwXr]vXnbpmhm \mWv. shw apn ta Hgnp sImncns s]sv km ImncnppmIpw Fhtm hp. Ah tXmn, Happw DSpv taappsImv amdpadv ]pdpISp. Abm Inen \onnSp sImv ]dp. hcq. Ah HXpnnSp. Abm AhfpsS Npaen ]Xps ssI shp. kmh[m\n, hfsc kmh[m\n Abm Ahsf hcnSpnp. ]Xps AhfpsS taapv amn, Xnnb amdn apJapbn. Ah thsdmcp temImbncpp. kmdv Fp Xcpsadnbn. Fv BhiysSWsav IymWntbmSv tNmZnpshm\pw adp. Ahv u F{Xbpw thKn hmWsapv. Ah s]sv tNmZnp. kmsd\nv Fv Iqen Xcpw? Iqen? AsX Csm sNW tPmenv? AbmfpsS Xm]cyw s]sv \inp. Abm `mh\bn at\mlcamb Hcp Nn{Xw hcpmpI bmbncpp. apmw hbn `mcy acntijw Abm Ans\ Hcp temImbncpp. Xm Hw InSp kv{XoI XtmSv t{]anemsWbm knp. IymWn B hnizmkn\v Cfw Xnncpn. Ah Hcnepw ]Ww tNmZnncpn. Abm tXmptm am{Xw sImSpp. AhfpsS Bhiy \nlnpsImSppIbpw sNbvXp. tZhInbpsS ]mew IymWn ]dpsImSpncpp. Ah `mhns\bmsX thsd Bscbpw kzoIcnnnspw `mhns IpSn ImcWw IpnIsf t]mm\mWv CXn\p apXnsXpw Abmdnbmw. s]sbmv A\pI tXmn. AhfpsS \ne\n]ns {]iv \ amWXv . AXnm Ahv kam[m\amhpsan Ans\bmhs Abm tNmZnp. \n\sv thWw? ]Xn\pdpnI Xtczm?
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]v Fp ]dbm\mWv Ah HmnbXv. Abm hne t]inbmtem FtmmWv ]Xn\v Fp ]dXv. Xcmasm. Abm NncnpsImv ]dp. hopw Ahsf Xmtemenm XpSn. ]Xn\pdpnI {]Imcw Ap {]mhiyw ChnsS hm u hmm ]pw. Ah IWp IqpIbmWv. BgvNbnsemcnsenepw kmdn\nXp thn hcpambncnpw. Atm Hcp amkw sImv u hmm ]pw. Abm XgpI \nn, Inens Xe \nhncpp. Hcp knKcv FSpv Inv ]pIhnp. tZhIn Abmsf ApXtmsS t\mn. Fm sNnWnsy? Ah Fgptncpp. AhfpsS Debm amdnSw ap `mKsf At]nv \ \ndambncpp. Abm t\mpXp Itm Ah ta apsSpv amdpadp. tZhIo....... Abm ]dp. CXv kvt\lap cpt] IqSn sNt ImcyamWv. \obntm sNpXv IWp IqpIbmWv. kvt\lw FXv IWpIsms apIfnemWv. Ahv ]dbm hmpIfnmXmbn. kvt\lsn Bcpw AhtfmSv CXphsc ]dncpn. HXmw hbn Ahsf aSnbn shv taemsI XtemSpIbpw, Bcpanmtm ImepInSbn NqSp]IcpIbpw sNbvX a\pjy\pw Ahsf kvt\lnppshv ]dnn. Hcn Abm Ahsf thZ\nnp. Npp\odp thZ\bn Ah hmhnp Ictm Abm Fgptv hmXn Xpdv HmSntmhpIbmWpmbXv. ImepInSbn tNmcIqSn Itm Ah IqSpX ]cn{`mbmbn Ddscbm XpSn. Abmv AhfpsS `baIm Fsnepw kvt\lap hmpI ]dbmambncpp. AXn\p]Icw Abm HmSntmhpIbmWv sNbvXXv. ]noSbm Ahsf ImWm hXpan. IymW cm{Xnbn `mhpw Ahsf _emwKw sNpIbmWv sNbvXXv. AhfpsS \mWw hIshmsX Abm AhfpsS tZlnendn. AhfpsS tX {inmsX DdamhpIbpw sNbvXp. Ctmgpw IpSnp hmepw Abm AXpXsbmWv sNbvXncpXv. ]etmgpw tam DWncpv AXp ImWppshdnbmambncpp. `oXn]q IpItfmsS Ah, Asb A _emwKw sNpXv t\mnnSpw. a\pjy IpSnp t_m[w adnm sNp Hcp IamWsXv B Ipv hnizknp. Hcn Fmw Ignv tZhIn AhfpsS ASpv hv InStm Ah tNmZnp. Abvv thZ\ntzm? ChnsS CXm Hcm Xs NppIfn kvt\l]qw Npw_nv Xs kvt\ltmsS amtdmSWv kvt\lsn kwkmcnpp. X\nbv]cnNnXamb `mj Ah Icbm XpSn. Abmv A\pItXmn. B Iocns Aw Abm a\nemn. knKcv hensdnv Abm Ahsf XntebvSpnp. Ah kmcnamdn htm Abm tNmZnp. uns\mWv hne? Fgp]pdpnI. sNetm ]niInbm ApdpnI sImdpXcpw. Abm Ioibn \nv \qdns Hcp t\mSpv AhfpsS In shp. Ah B t\mn Ipdpt\cw t\mn \np. apJapbn Abmsf t\mm Ahp etXmn. Ah B t\mv \onsmv ]dp. s Inev Nnd Cy kmsd. Hcp Imcyw sNp. Abm ]dp. tZhIn ]Xn\n\s ]dXv. Ccp]v shtmfp. _mn Fgp]ns? AXpsImv u hmntmfp. CpXs hmp. Ah AXp {]Xonncpn. AhfpsS IWpIqepI Fmw ]ngncpp. kmdns\tmSv tZjyw ]nSnp As? Rm hnhcwymtmtfm kmsd. AtXmv AhnthIw Hs ]dqv hcpw. kmdv anWw. Hcp Imcyw ]dbs. \fv Csm sNbvXXv Iqenv sNW ]Wnb. AtXmv {]Xn^eambnv Rm Fsnepw Xcpwv IcpX. s\s Bhiyw Hs a\nemn Rm AXn\\pkcnv ]Ww Xcpw. ]ns s\\v Fsnepw {]tXyI Bhiywsn ]dm aXn. tdj ISbn asbpmbncpn. Ahv u Inm [rXnbmbncpp. AXpsImv Ah cp en as Icnbn hmn. amn t]mbtm \ Nmf Ip. AXpw Fsw hmn. hon hv Ah BZyw apdn hrnbmn. hndIp IjvWfpw HmesmSnbpw ]pdtnp. NmWIw sImphv AhnsSsbmw \mbn sagpIn. u Inv tNmdpw Iqm\pw Dmn. Nmf hdppIbpw sNbvXp. tiJc hcm HXcaWnbmbncpp. Abm hmXn ISphv Nppw t\mn aWw ]nSnp.
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amXncn InSbn Ccpp sImv `Ww sImSpmsap IcpXnbXmWv. A ]dp. F\nbvsmw t`Zmbn. Rm\tmp hcmw. \ Imcyw. cmLh ]dp. Abm As ssI ]nSnv Du apdnbntebvp \bnp. hr \ cpNntbmsS `np. FmhcpsSbpw `Ww Ignp. AtmgmWv cmLh {inXv. As tbvn Ipdv aoIdnbpw tNmdpw _mn. CsXmWv _mnbnncnpXv? cmLh tNmZnp. cpNnbnt? AXv Ipphn\mWv. \fn\n HgnsI Fmhcpw Hnp ]dp. FhnsS\ntm A`bmnbmbn h sXn\mbbmbncpp Ipp. B t]cnXv A XsbmWv. Fpw DuWp Ignm Hcp Dcpf In sImpt]mIpw. Ah ]nmse apv Xmdmbn \np pmIpw. C\n AhnsS Csns A IWvTipn hcpp iw tIm AXv FhnsS bmbmepw HmSnhcpw. Ign Bdpamkambp ]XnhmWXv. cm{Xn Ah apv NpcppIqSnsmpw. A ]dp. Bcpw A{X s]sv Im hcn. As\ Itm Ipp Ipcp, hmemn. Ipsd Znhkambn ImWmXncpXnep Bn Ah {]Zinnp. ]t Fm app\np sImp Xs. FmSm Ipp? A tNmZnp. Ah hopw Ipcp, hmemn. ]ns A XmtgnpsImSp Dcpf Innphm XpSn. cmLh\v Ftm hnjaw tXmn. km[mcW Hcp \mbbpw bPam\\pw Xnep _ambncpn CXv. Hcp sXnnbpw k\mb bPam\\pw Xnep _w. bPam\ `Ww sImSppp, AXn\p Iqdv Ah Impsav {]Xonpp. Ah A[:IrX\msWv Ah\pXs Adnbmw. AXpsImv Ah tImembntep IbdpItbm bPam\s ta ]mp IbdpItbm Im \n kvt\lw ImWnp Itbm sNpn. Ah\dnbmw, FhnsSbmWv \ntsXv. B Zriyw lrZb kv]inbmbncpp. hopw Znhk ]gb anembn. cmLh Xncnp t]mIm\p Snv _pv sNbvXp. i\nbmgvNv. XnfmgvN cmhnse t_mw_bnsepw. Ap Xs Hm^okn tNcmatm. shnbmgvN cm{XnbmWXpmbXv. FcaWntbmsS DuWp Ignm\p {ia \Sn. A\v cm{Xn In aXnsbv sshIptcta ]dncpp. \ kpJw tXmpn. A ]dp. cm{Xn In Bbvtms. cm{Xn taibv p Nppancpv `Ww IgnpsImncns Ahsc hebw sNbvX aqIX cmLh {inp. Bscnepw Fsnepw ]dms B iw AXns Dh m\p Xs {]XnIcWanmsX sISn. Fmhcpw hnjanp Ip. A CSbvnsS tNmZnp. Csm shjsampwytm. Csv A Xebmn. Aev]kabw Ignm hopw A tNmZnpw. s\pthZ\sbmpw Ctm. C, oWw am{Xw. `Ww Ignp ssI IgpIm hmjvt_mkns ASpv \np tm cmLh Hmp. Ipphns\ ImWm\ntm. Cv bPam\ s DuWp Innsv GtXm ApXIcamb AXo{nbm\ neqsS Ah a\nem nbnpmIWw. cm{Xn AbpsS hnfntImWv cmLh DWXv. Ah tIm WnbpsS Xmsg\nv hnfnpIbmWv. hmsX ]cn{`annp hnfn. cmLh \fn\nsb hnfnpWn. ASp apdnbn InSpd Afnbt\bpw hnfnpWn. Xmsg As nXn hfsc tamiambncpp. Atlw izmkw Inm hnjaapXpt]mse I\p izknp. s\pthZ\bpm bncpp. ImsWImsW nXn hjfmhpIbmbncpp. Afnb hmXn Xpdv tUmsd hnfnm t]mbn. cmLh Inenencpv As s\n XtemSn. kmcan. Abm ]dp. Fmw icnbmhpw. tUm hv CIvj sImSpp. henb hyXymksamp apXmbn tXmnbn. B a\pjy acnm t]mIpIbmsWv cmLh\v tXmn. izmkw Ignm Atmgpw _pnapppmbncpp. 36 Nn ]nd-m ]Xnv '92

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Ccpns adhneqsSsbms Ah Xsf {inpIbmWv . Abm tXmn Cdnbm Ab hon s Xpdn P\ {inm Hcp \nanjn Hcp sNdnb hnShp am{Xw _mn \nn ASbvsSp p, hfsc \nambn. BZysamw apJn\p t\sc ASbvp P\ep Ifpw hmXnepIfpw Abmfn tcmj apbnbncpp. ]noSv AS hm XnepIfpsS hnShpIfpsS Aw a\nembtm tcmjw A\pI bvp hgnamdn. \m]Xp hbp kv{XobmWv. Hcp ]pcpjs kv]iw Gnnm kv{Xo. tNmcbpw \ocpw BtcmKyhpapff kv{Xo. \m]Xv hbv Hcp kv{XobpsS PohnXn hfsc hnjaw ]nSn Hcp ImeamWv . kucyw tNmp t]mIpIbmsWdnbmw. AXns\ Xnsc ]nSnp \nm\p {ia ]cmPbsSpXp ImWpXv, Xm ]pcpjs apn BIjIbm Xmbn amdpXv \nlmbXtbmsS t\mn \npXv, Fmw hnjaw ]nSnXp Xs. hnae ]dbpXv Ahv ap p hbt Bbnpq Fm Wv . ctai\pw cP\nbpw AhnsS Xmakamnbnv ApsImw Ign p. Cu ApsImhpw hnaebp sS hbn amapmbnn. ap n AhfpsS hbv Ddp t]mbncnpp. Ddpt]mImXv AhfpsS Igpnse NpgnhpIfpw, abw \s Nhpw, mnmsX ImgvN A\phZnm IpIfpw, Idpnnpw CSbvnSbvv ]nfnp Imp hw Ipdp XpSnb XeapSnbpambncpp. Hcp Znhkw ctai Hm^okn \nv htm cP\n BImsS \ aqUnembn cpp. hfsc \ ham\w InptmgmWv Ahsf C{X DtjhXnbmbn ImWmdv. NmbbpmpXn\nSbn Ah ]dp. Hcp \ \yqkpv. \psS hnaebnt? Ahv Hcp At^b XpSnbncnpp. A^btdm? AsX. cpaqmgvNbmbos{X XpSov. FtmSv ]dbmsX shncnymbncpp. IYI XpSpXv ag Xnap s]bvXpsImncp Hcp cm{Xnbn AhfpsS InSdbpsS P\en\v A`napJamb sInSn Hcp sNdpmc XmakamnbXp sXmmbncpp. ag tXm tm, Atm GItZiw ]paWnbmbnpmIpw, AhfpsS InSdbpsS FXncnep P\ Xpdnphs{X. Hcp epn am{XapSpv Abm P\enSpv hv ]pdtp t\mn. \ \ndhpw XSnbpap a\pjy. apXp app hbmbnpmIpw. amdn \ndsb tcmaw. t{ImpsNbvX apSn. Inbp aoi. InSm\p hw Iqp hnaesb Itm Abm hiyambn Nncns{X.
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