Since the time of a young boy I have had a strong inclination toward God.

I had my first spiritual dream at 7 Yrs old. I seen all of the stars fall to the earth. Raised in a Baptist church, I was always to shy to go forward to accept Christ, so I always just bowed my head and said Lord I am afraid to go before people but if you can hear me I believe and I ask you to accept me. I read my Bible and in some ways grew in grace and knowledge. At the age of 12 Jehovah Witnesses came to our house and left literature and that is when I began to realize their was more to God than just what the Baptist had told me. When I was 15 I began visiting other churches over the period of years. I went to about every denomination I knew of for either a few days, weeks months and two of them for a few years. They were Wesleyan and Nazarene. I also attended a Presbyterian some times as well. When I was 18 I joined the Marines and went to the Catholic Services and to the Church of Christ Services, though they had a Protestant Service, it was the same catholic priest conducting it, just without his priest garbs on. I had studied many books by the time I was 19 and had a small library of a hundred or more about anything concerning God and the Bible. Hal Lindsay and His Books, Kenneth Hagin, Oral Roberts and Jimmy Swaggart were among the popular ones I listened too. I heard about the baptism of the Holy Ghost, prayed for it a number of times, but nothing ever seemed to happen. All of this time now I consider myself saved, born again, I even put away my TV for 3 years and read nothing but the Holy Bible, no newspapers etc. I almost went to Africa and Romania as part of a Missionary Endeavor. I talked to people even as a teen ager about God, I got one of my friends converted when we was 12, Today he is a minister of the gospel, another friend I got to give up tobacco and another one to give up smoking. When I was 20 I came to Little Bethlehem, I met Bro George and The Brethren, however my eyes did not come open to it then. It was almost 6 months later when I returned that my eyes came open and through a phone call I had that Bro George was privy too he made the statement, you will hear something from that phone call, because that person you was talking too is one of us so sure enough I got my eyes open and immediately dropped everything and moved to Monroe. Now it was some time before I began seeing revelation but over time my eyes came open and I grew once more in grace and knowledge. I had many wonderful experiences while my eyes were coming open. I had a number of Angelic Experiences that were breath taking and one demonic experience I never want to relive. I had an Angel step into my Body and I felt its power and it was so mighty it could crack the Earth in two if it wanted too. Another time while I was trying to pray a demon came and entered my body and it was very powerful but so alone and dead and I had to pray hard and kept rebuking it before it finally left, it was horror like I never known. I will skip many other experiences I had to make this shorter. However I had some experiences which I thought was me receiving the Baptism of The Holy Ghost only to realize later I would return to the person I formerly was. Seeing my own life and knowing my thoughts and deeds, I just knew there was no way I had the Holy Ghost, because I would be living an overcoming life, yet some how I still hoped and believed I was a Christian. Fast Forward to 2008. it has been years now since my wonderful Shepherd and Pastor has gone to be with the Lord, We had just moved to Hilton Head Island. I was asleep one night and having a horrible nightmare and was being attacked spiritually through this dream and it

was so horrible it woke me up and I could still feel the evil presence in the room so I began to pray. All of a sudden the Lord came into the bedroom and put up his hand and said NO! He had commanded the demons to stop and they departed. He then began to speak to me and told me something so simple. He said, Do you know why your faith is up and down and you seem to be always in and out and one day you love me and are close to me and the next you feel so far away from me? I said Why Lord? He said because you have based your salvation and relationship with me all of your life on your works. He then said, I never asked for your works, that is why I came and died to do away with your works because they are all as filthy rags. let me show you where you should put your faith. He turned my heart inwardly and my faith and I seen Him walking the shores of Galilee and He said, There is your works, I am your works, let the Life I lived which I lived it for you because you could not do so. I tell you I immediately felt a Faith I have never felt before come into my heart and all the condemnation left and a peace came and it has not left my heart since that day. I cried and thanked the Lord. I knew for certain what the Bible meant when it says, There is therefore NOW no more Condemnation to those that are in Christ Jesus. In my heart it has been the difference of daylight and dark ever since. He revealed to me in the months following that what I had received was The Faith of The Lord Jesus. He showed me through Bro Georges Sermons how The Faith of Jesus Christ is The Kingdom of God and that I had made it. I remember Bro. Branham saying how one can receive the Baptism of The Holy Ghost without any sensation at all. Since that day the Holy Scriptures opened up and became a thousand times brighter, revelation came much stronger, incredibly deeper! I made the statement with conviction, I now understood and knew and had and become The Revelation of Jesus Christ. I was so happy! I was like, WOW! This is what Bro George and the Brethren have had and been walking in all this time. Though I had revelations from the Word of God I was never good at seeing revelation taking place as to events and people and places and things, till after that experience in 2008. Now I see them so clear. I have had powerful deep revelations come to me since then that exceeded all my previous revelation altogether. I would go back and check them with what Bro George taught and there it would be, just so perfect! Now have I received the Baptism of The Holy Ghost the way most would think you would? No. Have I lived a perfect life since then as to my deeds and works? No. I have never spoke in tongues, never prophesied, though I came very close once but got scared and quenched the Spirit. I have had dreams and visions, seen them come to pass. Bro George told me God had given me the gift of Dreams and Visions and that The Hand of The Lord was strong in my Life. I was talking to a catholic boy one day about the Lord and just like Peter, as I was speaking the Holy Ghost came down and that boy about jumped out of his skin and began praising God as we both felt God so strong! I have had Discernment work where I perceived peoples thoughts and a few I seen their whole life come before me. I have spoke things knowing I had the power to say what I will and it would come to pass and I seen them come to pass. I see that I have not lived a life of holiness that Bro George taught me to live and though I had bad habits in my life, after that experience in 2008 with the Lord it was as if their head was cut off and now I am still aggravated by these habits but their power over me has gone

way down, it is just like a tail wagging but the head is gone. So When I look around even since 2008 and see the lack of holy living in my life it seems all I could do was say, well I know I received something in 2008, yet I still do not see real holiness living and total coming out of the word in my life. So I began getting discouraged as of late and thought, well I would be showing forth much fruit by now if I had the Holy Ghost so because I do not see holiness in my life and other fruits, I must still be without God and never been born again. This is what has gotten me torn to pieces, for though the Lord really gave me something I have longed for, though I still have not a speck of condemnation in my heart since that day in 2008, yet how can I say I have eternal life and not do as others who claim to have it and that live a holy life? So it appears based on that, I must still need to be born again or I still lack something in my life. Is this right? Is it the Baptism of The Holy Ghost? Is that what brings the power? What was all the other I had received? I hate it, but it seems I start having trouble when I put my eyes back on my works and not his. yet I am told my works is the proof I have eternal life by being a tree I will produce the fruits of the Spirit. Am I just backslid? Am I born again just not consecrated? Can I be born again but just not be endowed with power to really manifest that thing? Thanks for listening! May God Bless You! Pat