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F.NN/ 01%% 232'1(& 'F . W'2.N 'F P%3.&4(3 c !*,) by 5ohn 6leland %etter The First 2ada-7 1 sit down to give you an undeniable proo8 o8 -y con+ sidering your desires as indispensable orders$ 4ngracious then as the tas9 -ay be7 1 shall recall to view those scan+ dalous stages o8 -y li8e7 out o8 which 1 e-erg:d7 at length7 to the en;oy-ent o8 every blessing in the power o8 love7 health7 and 8ortune to bestow< whilst yet in the 8lower o8 youth7 and not too late to e-ploy the leisure a88orded -e by great ease and a88luence7 to cultivate an understanding7 naturally not a despicable one7 and which had7 even a-idst the whirl o8 loose pleasures 1 had been tost in7 exerted -ore observation on the characters and -anners o8 the world than what is co--on to those o8 -y unhappy pro8ession7 who loo9ing on all thought or re8lection as their capital ene-y7 9eep it at as great a distance as they can7 or destroy it without -ercy$ 0ating7 as 1 -ortally do7 all long unnecessary pre8ace7 1 shall give you good =uarter in this7 and use no 8arther apology7 than to prepare you 8or seeing the loose part o8 -y li8e7 wrote with the sa-e liberty that 1 led it$ Truth> star97 na9ed truth7 is the word< and 1 will not so -uch as ta9e the pains to bestow the strip o8 a gauze wrapper on it7 but paint situations such as they actually rose to -e in nature7 careless o8 violating those laws o8 decency that were never -ade 8or such unreserved inti-acies as ours< and you have too -uch sense7 too -uch 9nowledge o8 the '(1?1N.%& the-selves7 to sni88 prudishly and out o8 character at the P16T4(3& o8 the-$ The greatest -en7 those o8 the 8irst and -ost leading taste7 will not scruple adorning their private closets with nudities7 though7 in co-pliance with vulgar pre;udices7 they -ay not thin9 the- decent deco+ rations o8 the staircase7 or salon$

This7 and enough7 pre-ised7 1 go souse into -y personal history$ 2y -aiden na-e was Frances 0ill$ 1 was born at a s-all village near %iverpool7 in %ancashire7 o8 parents ex+ tre-ely poor7 and7 1 piously believe7 extre-ely honest$ 2y 8ather7 who had received a -ai- on his li-bs that disabled hi- 8ro- 8ollowing the -ore laborious branches o8 country+drudgery7 got7 by -a9ing o8 nets7 a scanty subsis+ tence7 which was not -uch enlarg:d by -y -other:s 9eeping a little day+school 8or the girls in her neighbourhood$ They had had several children< but none lived to any age except -ysel87 who had received 8ro- nature a constitution per8ectly healthy$ 2y education7 till past 8ourteen7 was no better than very vulgar< reading7 or rather spelling7 an illegible scrawl7 and a little ordinary plain wor9 co-posed the whole syste- o8 it< and then all -y 8oundation in virtue was no other than a total ignorance o8 vice7 and the shy ti-idity general to our sex7 in the tender stage o8 li8e when ob;ects alar- or 8righten -ore by their novelty than anything else$ @ut then7 this is a 8ear too o8ten cured at the expence o8 innocence7 when 2iss7 by degrees7 begins no longer to loo9 on a -an as a creature o8 prey that will eat her$ 2y poor -other had divided her ti-e so entirely be+ tween her scholars and her little do-estic cares7 that she had spared very little o8 it to -y instruction7 having7 8ro- her own innocence 8ro- all ill7 no hint or thought o8 guarding -e against any$ 1 was now entering on -y 8i8teenth year7 when the worst o8 ills be8ell -e in the loss o8 -y tender 8ond par+ ents7 who were both carried o88 by the s-all+pox7 within a 8ew days o8 each other< -y 8ather dying 8irst7 and thereby hastening the death o8 -y -other< so that 1 was now le8t an unhappy 8riendless orphan (8or -y 8ather:s co-ing to settle there was accidental7 he being originally a Aentish-an)$ That cruel diste-per which had proved so 8atal to the-7 had indeed seized -e7 but with such -ild and 8avourable sy-pto-s7 that 1 was presently out o8 danger7 and7 what 1 then did not 9now the value o87 was entirely un-ar9:d$ 1 s9ip over here an account o8 the natural grie8 and a88liction which 1 8elt on this -elancholy occasion$ . little ti-e7 and the giddi+ ness o8 that age dissipated7 too soon7 -y re8lections on that irreparable loss< but nothing contributed -ore to recon+ cile -e to it7 than the notions that were i--ediately put into -y head7 o8 going to %ondon7 and loo9ing out 8or a service7 in which 1 was pro-ised all assistance and advice 8ro- one 3sther Davis7 a young wo-an that had been down to see her 8riends7 and who7 a8ter the stay o8 a 8ew days7 was to return to her place$ .s 1 had now nobody le8t alive in the village who had concern enough about what should beco-e o8 -e to start any ob;ections to this sche-e7 and the wo-an who too9 care o8 -e a8ter -y parents< death rather encouraged -e to pursue it7 1 soon ca-e to a resolution o8 -a9ing this launch into

the wide world7 by repairing to %ondon7 in order to &33A 2/ F'(T4N37 a phrase which7 by the bye7 has ruined -ore adventurers o8 both sexes7 8ro- the country7 than ever it -ade or advanced$ Nor did 3sther Davis a little co-8ort and inspirit -e to venture with her7 by pi=uing -y childish curiosity with the 8ine sights that were to be seen in %ondonB the To-bs7 the %ions7 the Aing7 the (oyal Fa-ily7 the 8ine Plays and 'peras7 and7 in short7 all the diversions which 8ell within her sphere o8 li8e to co-e at< the detail o8 all which per+ 8ectly turn:d the little head o8 -e$ Nor can 1 re-e-ber7 without laughing7 the innocent ad+ -iration7 not without a spice o8 envy7 with which we poor girls7 whose church+going clothes did not rise above dowlass shi8ts and stu88 gowns7 beheld 3sther:s scowered satin gowns7 caps border:d with an inch o8 lace7 taudry ribbons7 and shoes belaced with silverB all which we i-agined grew in %ondon7 and entered 8or a great deal into -y deter-ination o8 trying to co-e in 8or -y share o8 the-$ The idea however o8 having the co-pany o8 a townswo-an with her7 was the trivial7 and all the -otives that engaged 3sther to ta9e charge o8 -e during -y ;ourney to town7 where she told -e7 a8ter her -anner and style7 Cas how several -aids out o8 the country had -ade the-selves and all their 9in 8or everB that by preserving their D1(T437 so-e had ta9en so with their -asters7 that they had -arried the-7 and 9ept the- coaches7 and lived vastly grand and happy< and so-e7 -ay+hap7 ca-e to be Duchesses< luc9 was all7 and why not 17 as well as anotherEC< with other al-anacs to this purpose7 which set -e a tip+toe to begin this pro-ising ;ourney7 and to leave a place which7 though -y native one7 contained no relations that 1 had reason to regret7 and was grown insup+ portable to -e7 8ro- the change o8 the tenderest usage into a cold air o8 charity7 with which 1 was entertain:d even at the only 8riend:s house that 1 had the least expectation o8 care and protection 8ro-$ &he was7 however7 so ;ust to -e7 as to -anage the turning into -oney o8 the little -atters that re-ained to -e a8ter the debts and burial charges were accounted 8or7 and7 at -y departure7 put -y whole 8ortune into -y hands< which consisted o8 a very slender wardrobe7 pac9:d up in a very portable box7 and eight guineas7 with seventeen shillings in silver< stowed up in a spring+pouch7 which was a greater treasure than ever 1 had yet seen to+ gether7 and which 1 could not conceive there was a possi+ bility o8 running out< and indeed7 1 was so entirely ta9en up with the ;oy o8 seeing -ysel8 -istress o8 such an i-+ -ense su-7 that 1 gave very little attention to a world o8 good advice which was given -e with it$ Places7 then7 being ta9en 8or 3sther and -e in the %ondon waggon7 1 pass over a very i--aterial scene o8 leaveta9ing7 at which 1 dropt a 8ew tears betwixt grie8 and ;oy< and7 8or the sa-e reasons o8 insigni8icance7 s9ip over all that happened to -e on the road7 such as the waggoner:s loo9ing li=uorish on -e7 the sche-es laid 8or -e by so-e o8

the passengers7 which were de8eated by the vigilance o8 -y guardian 3sther< who7 to do her ;ustice7 too9 a -otherly care o8 -e7 at the sa-e ti-e that she taxed -e 8or her pro+ tection by -a9ing -e bear all travelling charges7 which 1 de8rayed with the ut-ost cheer8ulness7 and thought -ysel8 -uch obliged to her into the bargain$ &he too9 indeed great care that we were not over+rated7 or i-posed on7 as well as o8 -anaging as 8rugally as possible< expensiveness was not her vice$ 1t was pretty late in a su--er evening when we reached %ondon+town7 in our slow conveyance7 though drawn by six at length$ .s we passed through the greatest streets that led to our inn7 the noise o8 the coaches7 the hurry7 the crowds o8 8oot passengers7 in short7 the new scenery o8 the shops and houses7 at once pleased and a-azed -e$ @ut guess at -y -orti8ication and surprize when we ca-e to the inn7 and our things were landed and deliver:d to us7 when -y 8ellow traveller and protectress7 3sther Davis7 who had used -e with the ut-ost tenderness during the ;ourney7 and prepared -e by no preceding signs 8or the stunning blow 1 was to receive7 when 1 say7 -y only depend+ ence and 8riend7 in this strange place7 all o8 a sudden assu-ed a strange and cool air towards -e7 as i8 she dreaded -y beco-ing a burden to her$ 1nstead7 then7 o8 pro88ering -e the continuance o8 her assistance and good o88ices7 which 1 relied upon7 and never -ore wanted7 she thought hersel87 it see-s7 abundantly ac+ =uitted o8 her engage-ents to -e7 by having brought -e sa8e to -y ;ourney:s end< and seeing nothing in her procedure towards -e but what was natural and in order7 began to e-+ brace -e by way o8 ta9ing leave7 whilst 1 was so con8ounded7 so struc97 that 1 had not spirit or sense enough so -uch as to -ention -y hopes or expectations 8ro- her experience7 and 9nowledge o8 the place she had brought -e to$ Whilst 1 stood thus stupid and -ute7 which she doubt+ less attributed to nothing -ore than a concern at parting7 this idea procured -e perhaps a slight alleviation o8 it7 in the 8ollowing harangueB That now we were got sa8e to %ondon7 and that she was obliged to go to her place7 she advised -e by all -eans to get into one as soon as possible< that 1 need not 8ear getting one< there were -ore places than parish+churches< that she advised -e to go to an intelligence o88ice< that i8 she heard o8 any thing stirring7 she would 8ind -e out and let -e 9now< that in the -eanti-e7 1 should ta9e a private lodging7 and ac=uaint her where to send to -e< that she wish:d -e good luc97 and hoped 1 should always have the grace to 9eep -ysel8 honest7 and not bring a disgrace on -y parentage$ With this7 she too9 her leave o8 -e7 and le8t -e7 as it were7 on -y own hands7 8ull as lightly as 1 had been put into hers$ %e8t thus alone7 absolutely destitute and 8riendless7 1 began then to 8eel -ost bitterly the severity o8 this

separation7 the scene o8 which had passed in a little rooin the inn< and no sooner was her bac9 turned7 but the a8+ 8liction 1 8elt at -y helpless strange circu-stances burst out into a 8lood o8 tears7 which in8initely relieved the oppression o8 -y heart< though 1 still re-ained stupe8ied7 and -ost per8ectly perplex:d how to dispose o8 -ysel8$ 'ne o8 the waiters co-ing in7 added yet -ore to -y uncertainty by as9ing -e7 in a short way7 i8 1 called 8or anythingE to which 1 replied innocentlyB CNo$C @ut 1 wished hi- to tell -e where 1 -ight get a lodging 8or that night$ 0e said he would go and spea9 to his -istress7 who accordingly ca-e7 and told -e drily7 without entering in the least into the distress she saw -e in7 that 1 -ight have a bed 8or a shilling7 and that7 as she supposed 1 had so-e 8riends in town (here 1 8etched a deep sigh in vain>) 1 -ight provide 8or -ysel8 in the -orning$ :Tis incredible what tri8ling consolations the hu-an -ind will seize in its greatest a88lictions$ The assurance o8 nothing -ore than a bed to lie on that night7 cal-ed -y agonies< and being asha-:d to ac=uaint the -istress o8 the inn that 1 had no 8riends to apply to in town7 1 proposed to -ysel8 to proceed7 the very next -orning7 to an intelli+ gence o88ice7 to which 1 was 8urnish:d with written direc+ tions on the bac9 o8 a ballad 3sther had given -e$ There 1 counted on getting in8or-ation o8 any place that such a country girl as 1 -ight be 8it 8or7 and where 1 could get into any sort o8 being7 be8ore -y little stoc9 should be consu-ed< and as to a character7 3sther had o8ten repeated to -e that 1 -ight depend on her -anaging -e one< nor7 how+ ever a88ected 1 was at her leaving -e thus7 did 1 entirely cease to rely on her7 as 1 began to thin97 good+naturedly7 that her procedure was all in course7 and that it was only -y ignorance o8 li8e that had -ade -e ta9e it in the light 1 at 8irst did$ .ccordingly7 the next -orning 1 dress:d -ysel8 as clean and as neat as -y rustic wardrobe would per-it -e< and having le8t -y box7 with special reco--endation7 with the landlady7 1 ventured out by -ysel87 and without any -ore di88iculty than can be supposed o8 a young country girl7 barely 8i8teen7 and to who- every sign or shop was a gazing trap7 1 got to the wish:d+8or intelligence o88ice$

1t was 9ept by an elderly wo-an7 who sat at the receipt o8 custo-7 with a boo9 be8ore her in great 8or- and order7 and several scrolls7 ready -ade out7 o8 directions 8or places$ 1 -ade up then to this i-portant personage7 without li8ting up -y eyes or observing any o8 the people round -e7 who were attending there on the sa-e errand as -ysel87 and dropping her curtsies nine+deep7 ;ust -ade a shi8t to sta--er out -y business to her$ 2ada- having heard -e out7 with all the gravity and brow o8 a petty -inister o8 &tate7 and seeing at one glance over -y 8igure what 1 was7 -ade -e no answer7 but to as9 -e the preli-inary shilling7 on receipt o8 which she told -e places 8or wo-en were exceedingly scarce7 especially as 1 see-ed too slight built 8or hard wor9< but that she would loo9 over her boo97 and see what was to be done 8or -e7 desiring -e to stay a little till she had dispatched so-e other custo-ers$ 'n this 1 drew bac9 a little7 -ost heartily -orti8ied at a declaration which carried with it a 9illing uncertainty that -y circu-stances could not well endure$ Presently7 assu-ing -ore courage7 and see9ing so-e di+ version 8ro- -y uneasy thoughts7 1 ventured to li8t up -y head a little7 and sent -y eyes on a course round the roo-7 wherein they -et 8ull tilt with those o8 a lady (8or such -y extre-e innocence pronounc:d her) sitting in a corner o8 the roo-7 dress:d in a velvet -antle (nota bene7 in the -idst o8 su--er)7 with her bonnet o88< s=uab+8at7 red+8aced7 and at least 8i8ty$ &he loo9:d as i8 she would devour -e with her eyes7 staring at -e 8ro- head to 8oot7 without the least regard to the con8usion and blushes her eyeing -e so 8ixedly put -e to7 and which were to her7 no doubt7 the strongest re+ co--endation and -ar9s o8 -y being 8it 8or her purpose$ .8ter a little ti-e7 in which -y air7 person and whole 8igure had undergone a strict exa-ination7 which 1 had7 on -y part7 tried to render 8avourable to -e7 by pri--ing7 drawing up -y nec97 and setting -y best loo9s7 she advanced and spo9e to -e with the greatest de-urenessB C&weet+heart7 do you want a placeEC C/es7 and please youC (with a curtsy down to the ground)$ 4pon this she ac=uainted -e that she was actually co-e to the o88ice hersel8 to loo9 out 8or a servant< that she believed 1 -ight do7 with a little o8 her instructions< that she could ta9e -y very loo9s 8or a su88icient character< that %ondon was a very wic9ed7 vile place< that she hoped 1 would be tractable7 and 9eep out o8 bad co-pany< in short7 she said all to -e that an old experienced practitioner in

town could thin9 o87 and which was -uch -ore than was neces+ sary to ta9e in an artless inexperienced country+-aid7 who was even a8raid o8 beco-ing a wanderer about the streets7 and there8ore gladly ;u-p:d at the 8irst o88er o8 a shelter7 especially 8ro- so grave and -atron+li9e a lady7 8or such -y 8lattering 8ancy assured -e this new -istress o8 -ine was< 1 being actually hired under the nose o8 the good wo-an that 9ept the o88ice7 whose shrewd s-iles and shrugs 1 could not help observing7 and innocently interpreted the- as -ar9s o8 her being pleased at -y getting into place so soon< but7 as 1 a8terwards ca-e to 9now7 these @3%D.2& understood one an+ other very well7 and this was a -ar9et where 2rs$ @rown7 -y -istress7 8re=uently attended7 on the watch 8or any 8resh goods that -ight o88er there7 8or the use o8 her custo-ers7 and her own pro8it$ 2ada- was7 however7 so well pleased with her bargain7 that 8earing7 1 presu-e7 lest better advice or so-e accident -ight occasion -y slipping through her 8ingers7 she would o88iciously ta9e -e in a coach to -y inn7 where7 calling hersel8 8or -y box7 it was7 1 being present7 delivered with+ out the least scruple or explanation as to where 1 was going$ This being over7 she bid the coach-an drive to a shop in &t$ Paul:s 6hurchyard7 where she bought a pair o8 gloves7 which she gave -e7 and thence renewed her directions to the coach-an to drive to her house in FFF street7 who accord+ ingly landed us at her door7 a8ter 1 had been cheer:d up and entertain:d by the way with the -ost plausible 8la-s7 without one syllable 8ro- which 1 could conclude anything but that 1 was7 by the greatest good luc97 8allen into the hands o8 the 9indest -istress7 not to say 8riend7 that the varsal world could a88ord< and accordingly 1 enter:d her doors with -ost co-pleat con8idence and exultation7 pro-ising -ysel8 that7 as soon as 1 should be a little settled7 1 would ac=uaint 3sther Davis with -y rare good 8ortune$ /ou -ay be sure the good opinion o8 -y place was not lessen:d by the appearance o8 a very handso-e bac9 parlour7 into which 1 was led and which see-ed to -e -agni8icently 8urnished7 who had never seen better roo-s than the ordi+ nary ones in inns upon the road$ There were two gilt pier+ glasses7 and a bu88et7 on which a 8ew pieces o8 plates7 set out to the -ost shew7 dazzled7 and altogether persuaded -e that 1 -ust be got into a very reputable 8a-ily$ 0ere -y -istress 8irst began her part7 with telling -e that 1 -ust have good spirits7 and learn to be 8ree with her< that she had not ta9en -e to be a co--on servant7 to do do-estic drudgery7 but to be a 9ind o8 co-panion to her< and that i8 1 would be a good girl7 she would do -ore than twenty -others 8or -e< to all which 1 answered only by the pro8oundest and the aw9wardest curtsies7 and a 8ew -ono+ syllables7 such as Cyes> no> to be sure>C Presently -y -istress touch:d the bell7 and in ca-e a strapping -aid+servant7 who had let us in$ C0ere7 2artha7C said 2rs$ @rown++C1 have ;ust hir:d this young wo-an to

loo9 a8ter -y linen< so step up and shew her her cha-ber< and 1 charge you to use her with as -uch respect as you would -ysel87 8or 1 have ta9en a prodigious li9ing to her7 and 1 do not 9now what 1 shall do 8or her$C 2artha7 who was an arch+;ade7 and7 being used to this decoy7 had her cue per8ect7 -ade -e a 9ind o8 hal8 curtsy7 and as9ed -e to wal9 up with her< and accordingly shew:d -e a neat roo-7 two pair o8 stairs bac9wards7 in which there was a handso-e bed7 where 2artha told -e 1 was to lie with a young gentlewo-an7 a cousin o8 -y -istress:s7 who she was sure would be vastly good to -e$ Then she ran out into such a88ected enco-iu-s on her good -istress> her sweet -istress> and how happy 1 was to light upon her> that 1 could not have bespo9e a better< with other the li9e gross stu887 such as would itsel8 have started sus+ picions in any but such an unpractised si-pleton7 who was per8ectly new to li8e7 and who too9 every word she said in the very sense she laid out 8or -e to ta9e it< but she readily saw what a penetration she had to deal with7 and -easured -e very rightly in her -anner o8 whistling to -e7 so as to -a9e -e pleased with -y cage7 and blind to the wires$ 1n the -idst o8 these 8alse explanations o8 the nature o8 -y 8uture service7 we were rung 8or down again7 and 1 was reintroduced into the sa-e parlour7 where there was a table laid with three covers< and -y -istress had now got with her one o8 her 8avourite girls7 a notable -anager o8 her house7 and whose business it was to prepare and brea9 such young 8illies as 1 was to the -ounting+bloc9< and she was accord+ ingly7 in that view7 allotted -e 8or a bed+8ellow< and7 to give her the -ore authority7 she had the title o8 cousin con+ 8err:d on her by the venerable president o8 this college$ 0ere 1 underwent a second survey7 which ended in the 8ull approbation o8 2rs$ Phoebe .yres7 the na-e o8 -y tutoress elect7 to whose care and instructions 1 was a88ectionately reco--ended$ Dinner was now set on table7 and in pursuance o8 treating -e as a co-panion7 2rs$ @rown7 with a tone to cut o88 all dispute7 soon over+rul:d -y -ost hu-ble and -ost con8used protestations against sitting down with her %.D/&01P7 which -y very short breeding ;ust suggested to -e could not be right7 or in the order o8 things$ .t table7 the conversation was chie8ly 9ept up by the two -ada-s7 and carried on in double+-eaning expressions7 interrupted every now and then by 9ind assurance to -e7 all tending to con8ir- and 8ix -y satis8action with -y present conditionB aug-ent it they could not7 so very a novice was 1 then$ 1t was here agreed that 1 should 9eep -ysel8 up and out o8 sight 8or a 8ew days7 till such cloaths could be procured 8or -e as were 8it 8or the character 1 was to appear in7 o8 -y -istress:s co-panion7 observing withal7

that on the 8irst i-pressions o8 -y 8igure -uch -ight depend< and7 as they well ;udged7 the prospect o8 ex+ changing -y country cloaths 8or %ondon 8inery7 -ade the clause o8 con8ine-ent digest per8ectly well with -e$ @ut the truth was7 2rs$ @rown did not care that 1 should be seen or tal9ed to by any7 either o8 her custo-ers7 or her D'3& (as they call:d the girls provided 8or the-)7 till she had secured a good -ar9et 8or -y -aidenhead7 which 1 had at least all the appearances o8 having brought into her %.D/&01P:& service$ To slip over -inutes o8 no i-portance to the -ain o8 -y story7 1 pass the interval to bed+ti-e7 in which 1 was -ore and -ore pleas:d with the views that opened to -e7 o8 an easy service under these good people< and a8ter supper being shew:d up to bed7 2iss Phoebe7 who observed a 9ind o8 reluc+ tance in -e to strip and go to bed7 in -y shi8t7 be8ore her7 now the -aid was withdrawn7 ca-e up to -e7 and beginning with unpinning -y hand9erchie8 and gown7 soon encouraged -e to go on with undressing -ysel8< and7 still blushing at now seeing -ysel8 na9ed to -y shi8t7 1 hurried to get under the bed+ cloaths out o8 sight$ Phoebe laugh:d and was not long be8ore she placed hersel8 by -y side$ &he was about 8ive and twenty7 by her -ost suspicious account7 in which7 according to all appearances7 she -ust have sun9 at least ten good years< allowance7 too7 being -ade 8or the havoc which a long course o8 hac9neyship and hot waters -ust have -ade o8 her consti+ tution7 and which had already brought on7 upon the spur7 that stale stage in which those o8 her pro8ession are re+ duced to thin9 o8 &0'W1N? co-pany7 instead o8 &331N? it$ No sooner then was this precious substitute o8 -y -istress:s laid down7 but she7 who was never out o8 her way when any occasion o8 lewdness presented itsel87 turned to -e7 e-braced and 9iss:d -e with great eagerness$ This was new7 this was odd< but i-puting it to nothing but pure 9ind+ ness7 which7 8or aught 1 9new7 it -ight be the %ondon way to express in that -anner7 1 was deter-in:d not to be behind hand with her7 and returned her the 9iss and e-brace7 with all the 8ervour that per8ect innocence 9new$ 3ncouraged by this7 her hands beca-e extre-ely 8ree7 and wander:d over -y whole body7 with touches7 s=ueezes7 pressures7 that rather war-:d and surpriz:d -e with their novelty7 than they either shoc9:d or alar-:d -e$ The 8lattering praises she inter-ingled with these in+ vasions7 contributed also not a little to bribe -y passive+ ness< and7 9nowing no ill7 1 8eared none7 especially 8roone who had prevented all doubt o8 her wo-anhood by conduct+ ing -y hands to a pair o8 breasts that hung loosely down7 in a size and volu-e that 8ull su88iciently distinguished her sex7 to -e at least7 who had never -ade any other co-+ parison$$$ 1 lay then all ta-e and passive as she could wish7 whilst her 8reedo- raised no other e-otions but those o8 a strange7 and7 till then7 un8elt pleasure$ 3very part o8 -e was open

and exposed to the licentious courses o8 her hands7 which7 li9e a la-bent 8ire7 ran over -y whole body7 and thaw:d all coldness as they went$ 2y breasts7 i8 it is not too bold a 8igure to call so two hard7 8ir-7 rising hilloc9s7 that ;ust began to shew the-+ selves7 or signi8y anything to the touch7 e-ploy:d and a-us:d her hands a+while7 till7 slipping down lower7 over a s-ooth trac97 she could ;ust 8eel the so8t sil9y down that had but a 8ew -onths be8ore put 8orth and garnish:d the -ount+pleasant o8 those parts7 and pro-ised to spread a grate8ul shelter over the seat o8 the -ost ex=uisite sensation7 and which had been7 till that instant7 the seat o8 the -ost insensible innocence$ 0er 8ingers play:d and strove to twine in the young tendrils o8 that -oss7 which nature has contrived at once 8or use and orna-ent$ @ut7 not contented with these outer posts7 she now atte-pts the -ain spot7 and began to twitch7 to insinuate7 and at length to 8orce an introduction o8 a 8inger into the =uic9 itsel87 in such a -anner7 that had she not proceeded by insensible gradations that in8la-ed -e beyond the power o8 -odesty to oppose its resistance to their progress7 1 should have ;u-p:d out o8 bed and cried 8or help against such strange assaults$ 1nstead o8 which7 her lascivious touches had lighted up a new 8ire that wanton:d through all -y veins7 but 8ix:d with violence in that center appointed the- by nature7 where the 8irst strange hands were now busied in 8eeling7 s=ueezing7 co-pressing the lips7 then opening the- again7 with a 8inger between7 till an C'h>C express:d her hurting -e7 where the narrowness o8 the unbro9en passage re8used it entrance to any depth$ 1n the -eanti-e7 the extension o8 -y li-bs7 languid stretchings7 sighs7 short heavings7 all conspired to assure that experienced wanton that 1 was -ore pleased than o88ended at her proceedings7 which she seasoned with repeated 9isses and excla-ations7 such as C'h> what a char-ing creature thou art> $ $ $ What a happy -an will he be that 8irst -a9es a wo-an o8 you> $ $ $ 'h> that 1 were a -an 8or your sa9e> $$$ with the li9e bro9en expressions7 interrupted by 9isses as 8ierce and 8ervent as ever 1 received 8ro- the other sex$ For -y part7 1 was transported7 con8used7 and out o8 -ysel8< 8eelings so new were too -uch 8or -e$ 2y heated and alar-:d senses were in a tu-ult that robbed -e o8 all liberty o8 thought< tears o8 pleasure gush:d 8ro- -y eyes7 and so-ewhat assuaged the 8ire that rag:d all over -e$ Phoebe7 hersel87 the hac9ney:d7 thorough+bred Phoebe7 to who- all -odes and devices o8 pleasure were 9nown and 8a-iliar7 8ound7 it see-s7 in this exercise o8 her art to brea9 young girls7 the grati8ication o8 one o8 those arbi+ trary tastes7 8or which there is no accounting$ Not that she hated -en7 or did not even pre8er the- to her own sex< but when she -et with such occasions as this was7 a satiety

o8 en;oy-ents in the co--on road7 perhaps too7 a secret bias7 inclined her to -a9e the -ost o8 pleasure7 wherever she could 8ind it7 without distinction o8 sexes$ 1n this view7 now well assured that she had7 by her touches7 su8+ 8iciently in8la-ed -e 8or her purpose7 she roll:d down the bed+cloaths gently7 and 1 saw -ysel8 stretched na9:d7 -y shi8t being turned up to -y nec97 whilst 1 had no power or sense to oppose it$ 3ven -y glowing blushes expressed -ore desire than -odesty7 whilst the candle7 le8t (to be sure not undesignedly) burning7 threw a 8ull light on -y whole body$ CNo>C says Phoebe7 Cyou -ust not7 -y sweet girl7 thin9 to hide all these treasures 8ro- -e$ 2y sight -ust be 8easted as well as -y touch $ $ $ 1 -ust devour with -y eyes this springing @'&'2 $ $ $ &u88er -e to 9iss it $ $ $ 1 have not seen it enough $ $ $ %et -e 9iss it once -ore $ $ $ What 8ir-7 s-ooth7 white 8lesh is here> $ $ $ 0ow delicately shaped> $ $ $ Then this delicious down> 'h> let -e view the s-all7 dear7 tender cle8t> $ $ $ This is too -uch7 1 cannot bear it> $ $ $ 1 -ust $ $ $ 1 -ust $ $ $C 0ere she too9 -y hand7 and in a transport carried it where you will easily guess$ @ut what a di88erence in the state o8 the sa-e thing> $ $ $ . spreading thic9et o8 bushy curls -ar9ed the 8ull+grown7 co-plete wo-an$ Then the cavity to which she guided -y hand easily received it< and as soon as she 8elt it within her7 she -oved hersel8 to and 8ro7 with so rapid a 8riction that 1 presently withdrew it7 wet and cla--y7 when instantly Phoebe grew -ore co-posed7 a8ter two or three sighs7 and heart+8etched 'h:s> and giving -e a 9iss that see-ed to exhale her soul through her lips7 she replaced the bed+cloaths over us$ What pleasure she had 8ound 1 will not say< but this 1 9now7 that the 8irst spar9s o8 9indling nature7 the 8irst ideas o8 pollution7 were caught by -e that night< and that the ac=uaintance and co--unication with the bad o8 our own sex7 is o8ten as 8atal to innocence as all the seductions o8 the other$ @ut to go on$ When Phoebe was restor:d to that cal-7 which 1 was 8ar 8ro- the en;oy-ent o8 -ysel87 she art8ully sounded -e on all the points necessary to govern the designs o8 -y virtuous -istress on -e7 and by -y answers7 drawn 8ro- pure undis+ se-bled nature7 she had no reason but to pro-ise hersel8 all i-aginable success7 so 8ar as it depended on -y ignorance7 easiness7 and war-th o8 constitution$ .8ter a su88icient length o8 dialogue7 -y bed8ellow le8t -e to -y rest7 and 1 8ell asleep7 through pure weariness 8rothe violent e-otions 1 had been led into7 when nature (which had been too war-ly stir:d and 8er-ented to subside without allaying by so-e -eans or other) relieved -e by one o8 those luscious drea-s7 the transports o8 which are scarce in8erior to those o8 wa9ing real action$ We brea98asted7 and the tea things were scarce re-oved7 when in were brought two bundles o8 linen and wearing apparelB in short7 all the necessaries 8or rigging -e out7 as they ter-ed it7 co-pletely$

1n the -orning 1 awo9e about ten7 per8ectly gay and re8reshed$ Phoebe was up be8ore -e7 and as9ed -e in the 9indest -anner how 1 did7 how 1 had rested7 and i8 1 was ready 8or brea98ast7 care8ully7 at the sa-e ti-e7 avoiding to increase the con8usion she saw 1 was in7 at loo9ing her in the 8ace7 by any hint o8 the night:s bed scene$ 1 told her i8 she pleased 1 would get up7 and begin any wor9 she would be pleased to set -e about$ &he s-il:d< presently the -aid brought in the tea+e=uipage7 and 1 had ;ust hud+ dled -y cloaths on7 when in waddled -y -istress$ 1 expected no less than to be told o87 i8 not chid 8or7 -y late rising7 when 1 was agreeably disappointed by her co-pli-ents on -y pure and 8resh loo9s$ 1 was Ca bud o8 beautyC (this was her style)7 Cand how vastly all the 8ine -en would ad-ire -e>C to all which -y answer did not7 1 can assure you7 wrong -y breeding< they were as si-ple and silly as they could wish7 and7 no doubt7 8lattered the- in8initely -ore than had they proved -e enlightened by education and a 9nowledge o8 the world$ 1-agine to yoursel87 2ada-7 how -y little co=uette heart 8lutter:d with ;oy at the sight o8 a white lute+string7 8lower:d with silver7 scoured indeed7 but passed on -e 8or spic9+and+span new7 a @russels lace cap7 braided shoes7 and the rest in proportion7 all second+hand 8inery7 and procured instantly 8or the occasion7 by the diligence and industry o8 the good 2rs$ @rown7 who had already a chap-an 8or -e in the house7 be8ore who- -y char-s were to pass in review< 8or he had not only7 in course7 insisted on a previous sight o8 the pre-ises7 but also on i--ediate surrender to hi-7 in case o8 his agreeing 8or -e< concluding very wisely that such a place as 1 was in was o8 the hottest to trust the 9eeping o8 such a perishable co--odity in as a -aidenhead$ The care o8 dressing7 and tric9ing -e out 8or the -ar9et7 was then le8t to Phoebe7 who ac=uitted hersel87 i8 not well7 at least per8ectly to the satis8action o8 every thing but -y i-patience o8 seeing -ysel8 dress:d$ When it was over7 and 1 view:d -ysel8 in the glass7 1 was7 no doubt7 too natural7 too artless7 to hide -y childish ;oy at the change< a change7 in the real truth7 8or -uch the worse7 since 1 -ust have -uch better beco-e the neat easy si-plicity o8 -y rustic dress than the aw9ward7 untoward7 taudry 8inery that 1 could not conceal -y strangeness to$ Phoebe:s co-pli-ents7 however7 in which her own share in dressing -e was not 8orgot7 did not a little con8ir- -e in the 8irst notions 1 had ever entertained concerning -y person< which7 be it said without vanity7 was then tolerable to ;usti8y a taste 8or -e7 and o8 which it -ay not be out o8 place here to s9etch you an un8latter:d picture$ 1 was tall7 yet not too tall 8or -y age7 which7 as 1 be8ore re-ar9:d7 was barely turned o8 8i8teen< -y shape per8ectly straight7 thin waisted7 and light and 8ree7 without owing any thing to stays< -y hair was a glossy auburn7 and as so8t as sil97 8lowing down -y nec9 in natural buc9les7 and did not a little set o88 the whiteness o8 a s-ooth s9in< -y

8ace was rather too ruddy7 though its 8eatures were delicate7 and the shape a roundish oval7 except where a pit on -y chin had 8ar 8ro- a disagreeable e88ect< -y eyes were as blac9 as can be i-agin:d7 and rather languishing than spar9ling7 ex+ cept on certain occasions7 when 1 have been told they struc9 8ire 8ast enough< -y teeth7 which 1 ever care8ully perserv:d7 were s-all7 even and white< -y boso- was 8inely rais:d7 and one -ight then discern rather the pro-ise7 than the actual growth7 o8 the round7 8ir- breasts7 that in a little ti-e -ade that pro-ise good$ 1n short7 all the points o8 beauty that are -ost universally in re=uest7 1 had7 or at least -y vanity 8orbade -e to appeal 8ro- the decision o8 our sove+ reign ;udges the -en7 who all7 that 1 ever 9new at least7 gave it thus highly in -y 8avour< and 1 -et with7 even in -y own sex7 so-e that were above denying -e that ;ustice7 whilst others praised -e yet -ore unsuspectedly7 by endea+ vouring to detract 8ro- -e7 in points o8 person and 8igure that 1 obviously excelled in$ This is7 1 own7 too strong o8 sel8 praise< but should 1 not be ungrate8ul to nature7 and to a 8or- to which 1 owe such singular blessings o8 pleasure and 8ortune7 were 1 to suppress7 through and a88ectation o8 -odesty7 the -ention o8 such valuable gi8tsE Well then7 dress:d 1 was7 and little did it then enter into -y head that all this gay attire was no -ore than dec9+ ing the victi- out 8or sacri8ice7 whilst 1 innocently attri+ buted all to -ere 8riendship and 9indness in the sweet good 2rs$ @rown< who7 1 was 8orgetting to -ention7 had7 under pretence o8 9eeping -y -oney sa8e7 got 8ro- -e7 without the least hesitation7 the driblet (so 1 now call it) which re+ -ained to -e a8ter the expences o8 -y ;ourney$ .8ter so-e little ti-e -ost agreeably spent be8ore the glass7 in scarce sel8+ad-iration7 since -y new dress had by -uch the greatest share in it7 1 was sent 8or down to the parlour7 where the old lady saluted -e7 and wished -e ;oy o8 -y new cloaths7 which she was not asha-:d to say7 8itted -e as i8 1 had worn nothing but the 8inest all -y li8e+ti-e< but what was it she could not see -e silly enough to swallowE .t the sa-e ti-e7 she presented -e to another cousin o8 her own creation7 an elderly gentle-an7 who got up7 at -y entry into the roo-7 and on -y dropping a curtsy to hi-7 saluted -e7 and see-ed a little a88ronted that 1 had only presented -y chee9 to hi-< a -ista9e7 which7 i8 one7 he i--ediately corrected7 by glewing his lips to -ine7 with an ardour which his 8igure had not at all disposed -e to than9 hi- 8or< his 8igure7 1 say7 than which nothing could be -ore shoc9ing or detestableB 8or ugly7 and disagreeable7 were ter-s too gentle to convey a ;ust idea o8 it$ 1-agine to yoursel8 a -an rather past threescore7 short and ill+-ade7 with a yellow cadaverous hue7 great goggling eyes that stared as i8 he was strangled< and out+-outh 8rotwo -ore properly tus9s than teeth7 livid+lips7 and breath li9e a ;a9e:sB then he had a peculiar ghastliness in his grin that -ade hi- per8ectly 8right8ul7 i8 not dangerous to wo-en with child< yet7 -ade as he was thus in -oc9 o8 -an7 he was so blind to his own staring de8or-ities as to thin9 hi-sel8

born 8or pleasing7 and that no wo-an could see hi- with i-+ punityB in conse=uence o8 which idea7 he had lavish:d great su-s on such wretches as could gain upon the-selves to pre+ tend love to his person7 whilst to those who had not art or patience to disse-ble the horror it inspir:d7 he behaved even brutally$ 1-potence7 -ore than necessity7 -ade hisee9 in variety the provocative that was wanting to raise hi- to the pitch o8 en;oy-ent7 which too he o8ten saw hi-+ sel8 baul9ed o87 by the 8ailure o8 his powersB and this always threw hi- into a 8it o8 rage7 which he wrea9:d7 as 8ar as he durst7 on the innocent ob;ects o8 his 8it o8 -o-entary desire$ This then was the -onster to which -y conscientious bene8actress7 who had long been his purveyor in this way7 had doo-:d -e7 and sent 8or -e down purposely 8or his ex+ a-ination$ .ccordingly she -ade -e stand up be8ore hi-7 turn:d -e round7 unpinn:d -y hand9erchie87 re-ar9:d to hithe rise and 8all7 the turn and whiteness o8 a boso- ;ust beginning to 8ill< then -ade -e wal97 and too9 even a han+ dle 8ro- the rusticity o8 -y gait7 to in8la-e the inventory o8 -y char-sB in short7 she o-itted no point o8 ;oc9eyship< to which he only answer:d by gracious nods o8 approbation7 whilst he loo9:d goats and -on9ies at -eB 8or 1 so-eti-es stole a corner glance at hi-7 and encountering his 8iery7 eager stare7 loo9ed another way 8ro- pure horror and a8+ 8right7 which he7 doubtless in character7 attributed to nothing -ore than -aiden -odesty7 or at least the a88ec+ tation o8 it$ 0owever7 1 was soon dis-iss:d7 and reconducted to -y roo- by Phoebe7 who stuc9 close to -e7 not leaving -e alone and at leisure to -a9e such re8lections as -ight naturally rise to any one7 not an idiot7 on such a scene as 1 had ;ust gone through< but to -y sha-e be it con8ess:d7 such was -y invincible stupidity7 or rather portentous innocence7 that 1 did not yet open -y eyes to 2rs$ @rown:s designs7 and saw nothing in this titular cousin o8 hers but a shoc9ing hide+ ous person which did not at all concern -e7 unless that -y respect to all her cousinhood$ Phoebe7 however7 began to si8t the state and pulses o8 -y heart towards this -onster7 as9ing -e how 1 should approve o8 such a 8ine gentle-an 8or a husbandE (8ine gentle-an7 1 suppose she called hi-7 8ro- his being daubed with lace)$ 1 answered her very naturally7 that 1 had no thoughts o8 a hus+ band7 but that i8 1 was to choose one7 it should be a-ong -y own degree7 sure> &o -uch had -y aversion to that wretch:s hideous 8igure indisposed -e to all C8ine gentle-en7C and con8ounded -y ideas7 as i8 those o8 that ran9 had been neces+ sarily cast in the sa-e -ould that he was> @ut Phoebe was not to be beat o88 so7 but went on with her endeavours to -elt and so8ten -e 8or the purposes o8 -y reception into that hospitable houseB and whilst she tal9ed o8 the sex in general7 she had no reason to despair o8 a co-pliance7 which -ore than one reason shewed her would be easily enough obtained o8 -e< but then she had too -uch experience not to discover that -y particular 8ix:d aversion to that 8right8ul cousin would be a

bloc9 not so readily to be re-oved7 as suited the consu-+ -ation o8 their bargain7 and sale o8 -e$ 2other @rown had in the -ean ti-e agreed the ter-s with this li=uorish old goat7 which 1 a8terwards understood were to be 8i8ty guineas pere-ptory 8or the liberty o8 atte-pting -e7 and a hundred -ore at the co-pleat grati8ication o8 his desires7 in the triu-ph over -y virginityB and as 8or -e7 1 was to be le8t entirely at the discretion o8 his li9ing and generosity$ This unrighteous contract being thus settled7 he was so eager to be put in possession7 that he insisted on being introduc:d to drin9 tea with -e that a8ternoon7 when we were to be le8t alone< nor would he hear9en to the procuress:s re-onstrances7 that 1 was not su88iciently pre+ pared and ripened 8or such an attac9< that 1 was too green and unta-:d7 having been scarce twenty+8our hours in the houseB it is the character o8 lust to be i-patient7 and his vanity ar-ing hi- against any supposition o8 other than the co--on resistance o8 a -aid on those occasions7 -ade hire;ect all proposals o8 a delay7 and -y dread8ul trial was thus 8ix:d7 un9nown to -e7 8or that very evening$ .t dinner7 2rs$ @rown and Phoebe did nothing but run riot in praises o8 this wonder8ul cousin7 and how happy that wo-an would be that he would 8avour with his addresses< in short -y two gossips exhausted all their rhetoric to persuade -e to accept the-B Cthat the gentle-an was violently s-itten with -e at 8irst sight $ $ $ that he would -a9e -y 8ortune i8 1 would be a good girl and not stand in -y own light $ $ $ that 1 should trust his honour $ $ $ that 1 should be -ade 8or ever7 and have a chariot to go abroad in $ $ $ 7C with all such stu88 as was 8it to turn the head o8 such a silly ignorant girl as 1 then wasB but luc9ily here -y aversion had ta9en already such deep root in -e7 -y heart was so strongly de8ended 8ro- hi- by -y senses7 that wanting the art to -as9 -y senti-ents7 1 gave the- no hopes o8 their e-ployer:s succeeding7 at least very easily7 with -e$ The glass too -arch:d pretty =uic97 with a view7 1 suppose7 to -a9e a 8riend o8 the war-th o8 -y constitution7 in the -inutes o8 the i--inent attac9$ Thus they 9ept -e pretty long at table7 and about six in the evening7 a8ter 1 was retired to -y own apart-ent7 and the tea board was set7 enters -y venerable -istress7 8ollow:d close by that satyr7 who ca-e in grinning in a way peculiar to hi-7 and by his odious presence con8ir-:d -e in all the senti-ents o8 detestation which his 8irst appearance had given birth to$ 0e sat down 8ronting -e7 and all tea ti-e 9ept ogling -e in a -anner that gave -e the ut-ost pain and con8usion7 all the -ar9s o8 which he still explained to be -y bash+ 8ulness7 and not being used to see co-pany$ Tea over7 the co--oding old lady pleaded urgent busi+ ness (which indeed was true) to go out7 and earnestly desir:d -e to entertain her cousin 9indly till she ca-e bac97 both 8or -y own sa9e and her:s< and then with a CPray7 sir7 be

very good7 be very tender o8 the sweet child7C she went out o8 the roo-7 leaving -e staring7 with -y -outh open7 and un+ prepar:d7 by the suddenness o8 her departure7 to oppose it$ We were now alone< and on that idea a sudden 8it o8 tre-bling seiz:d -e$ 1 was so a8raid7 without a precise notion o8 why7 and what 1 had to 8ear7 that 1 sat on the settee7 by the 8ire+side7 -otionless7 and petri8ied7 with+ out li8e or spirit7 not 9nowing how to loo9 or how to stir$ @ut long 1 was not su88ered to re-ain in this state o8 stupe8actionB the -onster s=uatted down by -e on the settee7 and without 8arther cere-ony or prea-ble7 8lings his ar-s about -y nec97 and drawing -e pretty 8orcibly towards hi-7 oblig:d -e to receive7 in spite o8 -y struggles to disengage 8ro- hi-7 his pestilential 9isses7 which =uite overca-e -e$ Finding -e then next to senseless7 and unresisting7 he tears o88 -y nec9 hand9erchie87 and laid all open there to his eyes and handsB still 1 endur:d all without 8linching7 till e-bolden:d by -y su88erance and silence7 8or 1 had not the power to spea9 or cry out7 he atte-pted to lay -e down on the settee7 and 1 8elt his hand on the lower part o8 -y na9ed thighs7 which were cross:d7 and which he endeavoured to unloc9 $ $ $ 'h then> 1 was roused out o8 -y passive endurance7 and springing 8ro- hi- with an activity he was not prepar:d 8or7 threw -ysel8 at his 8eet7 and begg:d hi-7 in the -ost -oving tone7 not to be rude7 and that he would not hurt -eB++C0urt you7 -y dearEC says the brute< C1 intend you no har- $ $ $ has not the old lady told you that 1 love youE $ $ $ that 1 shall do handso-ely by youEC C&he has indeed7 sir7C said 1< Cbut 1 cannot love you7 indeed 1 can not> $ $ $ pray let -e alone $ $ $ yes> 1 will love you dearly i8 you will let -e alone7 and go away $ $ $ C @ut 1 was tal9ing to the wind< 8or whether -y tears7 -y attitude7 or the disorder o8 -y dress prov:d 8resh incentives7 or whether he was not under the do-inion o8 desires he could not bridle7 but snorting and 8oa-ing with lust and rage7 he renews his attac97 seizes -e7 and again atte-pts to extend and 8ix -e on the setteeB in which he succeeded so 8ar as to lay -e along7 and even to toss -y petticoats over -y head7 and lay -y thighs bare7 which 1 obstinately 9ept close7 nor could he7 though he atte-pted with his 9nee to 8orce theopen7 e88ect it so as to stand 8air 8or being -aster o8 the -ain avenue< he was unbuttoned7 both waistcoat and breeches7 yet 1 only 8elt the weight o8 his body upon -e7 whilst 1 lay struggling with indignation7 and dying with terror< but he stopped all o8 a sudden7 and got o887 panting7 blowing7 curs+ ing7 and repeating Cold and ugly>C 8or so 1 had very natur+ ally called hi- in the heat o8 -y de8ence$ The brute had7 it see-s7 as 1 a8terwards understood7 brought on7 by his eagerness and struggle7 the ulti-ate period o8 his hot 8it o8 lust7 which his power was too short liv:d to carry hi- through the 8ull execution o8< o8 which -y thighs and linen received the e88usion$ When it was over he bid -e7 with a tone o8 displeasure7 get up7 saying that he would not do -e the honour to thin9

o8 -e any -ore $ $ $ that the old bitch -ight loo9 out 8or another cully $ $ $ that he would not be 8ool:d so by e:er a country -oc9 -odesty in 3ngland $ $ $ that he supposed 1 had le8t -y -aidenhead with so-e hobnail in the country7 and was co-e to dispose o8 -y s9in+-il9 in town7 with a volley o8 the li9e abuse< which 1 listened to with -ore pleasure than ever 8ond wo-an did to protestations o8 love 8ro- her darling -inionB 8or7 incapable as 1 was o8 re+ ceiving any addition to -y per8ect hatred and aversion to hi-7 1 loo9:d on this railing as -y security against his renewing his -ost odious caresses$ /et7 plain as 2rs$ @rown:s views were now co-e out7 1 had not the heart or spirit to open -y eyes to the-B still 1 could not part with -y dependence on that belda-7 so -uch did 1 thin9 -ysel8 her:s7 soul and bodyB or rather7 1 sought to deceive -ysel8 with the continuation o8 -y good opinion o8 her7 and chose to wait the worst at her hands sooner than be turn:d out to starve in the streets7 with+ out a penny o8 -oney or a 8riend to apply toB these 8ears were -y 8olly$ Whilst this con8usion o8 ideas was passing in -y head7 and 1 sat pensive by the 8ire7 with -y eyes bri--ing with tears7 -y nec9 still bare7 and -y cap 8all:n o88 in the struggle7 so that -y hair was in the disorder you -ay guess7 the villain:s lust began7 1 suppose7 to be again in 8low7 at the sight o8 all that bloo- o8 youth which presented itsel8 to his view7 a bloo- yet unen;oy:d7 and o8 course not yet indi88erent to hi-$ .8ter so-e pause7 he as9:d -e7 with a tone o8 voice -ightily so8tened7 whether 1 would -a9e it up with hibe8ore the old lady returned and all should be well< he would restore -e his a88ections7 at the sa-e ti-e o88ering to 9iss -e and 8eel -y breasts$ @ut now -y extre-e aver+ sion7 -y 8ears7 -y indignation7 all acting upon -e7 gave -e a spirit not natural to -e7 so that brea9ing loose 8ro- hi-7 1 ran to the bell and rang it7 be8ore he was aware7 with such violence and e88ect as brought up the -aid to 9now what was the -atter7 or whether the gentle-an wanted any thing< and be8ore he could proceed to greater extre-ities7 she bounc:d into the roo-7 and seeing -e stretch:d on the 8loor7 -y hair all dishevell:d7 -y nose gushing out blood7 which did not a little tragedize the scene7 and -y odious per+ secutor still intent o8 pushing his brutal point7 un-oved by all -y cries and distress7 she was hersel8 con8ounded and did not 9now what to say$ .s -uch7 however7 as 2artha -ight be prepared and hardened to transactions o8 this sort7 all wo-anhood -ust have been out o8 her heart7 could she have seen this un+ -ov:d$ @esides that7 on the 8ace o8 things7 she i-agined that -atters had gone greater lengths than they really had7 and that the courtesy o8 the house had been actually consu--ated on -e7 and 8lung -e into the condition 1 was inB in this notion she instantly too9 -y part7 and advis:d the gentle-an to go down and leave -e to recover -ysel87

and Cthat all would be soon over with -e $ $ $ that when 2rs$ @rown and Phoebe7 who were gone out7 were return:d7 they would ta9e order 8or every thing to his satis8action $ $ $ that nothing would be lost by a little patience with the poor tender thing $ $ $ that 8or her part she was $ $ $ 8righten:d $ $ $ she could not tell what to say to such doings $ $ $ but that she would stay by -e till -y -istress ca-e ho-e$C .s the wench said all this in a resolute tone7 and the -onster hi-sel8 began to perceive that things would not -end by his staying7 he too9 his hat and went out o8 the roo-7 -ur-uring7 and pleating his brows li9e an old ape7 so that 1 was delivered 8ro- the horrors o8 his detestable presence$ .s soon as he was gone7 2artha very tenderly o88ered -e her assistance in any thing7 and would have got -e so-e hartshorn drops7 and put -e to bed< which last7 1 at 8irst positively re8used7 in the 8ear that the -onster -ight re+ turn and ta9e -e at that advantage$ 0owever7 with -uch persuasion7 and assurances that 1 should not be -olested that night7 she prevailed on -e to lie down< and indeed 1 was so wea9ened by -y struggles7 so de;ected by -y 8ear8ul apprehensions7 so terror+struc97 that 1 had not power to sit up7 or hardly to give answers to the =uestions with which the curious 2artha ply:d and perplex:d -e$ &uch too7 and so cruel was -y 8ate7 that 1 dreaded the sight o8 2rs$ @rown7 as i8 1 had been the cri-inal and she the person in;ur:d< a -ista9e which you will not thin9 so strange7 on distinguishing that neither virtue nor principles had the least share in the de8ence 1 had -ade7 but only the particular aversion 1 had conceiv:d against the 8irst brutal and 8right8ul invader o8 -y tender innocence$ 1 pass:d then the ti-e till 2rs$ @rown:s return ho-e7 under all the agitations o8 8ear and despair that -ay easily be guessed$ P.(T .bout eleven at night -y two ladies ca-e ho-e7 and hav+ ing receiv:d rather a 8avourable account 8ro- 2artha7 who had run down to let the- in7 8or 2r$ 6ro8ts (that was the na-e o8 -y brute) was gone out o8 the house7 a8ter waiting till he had tired his patience 8or 2rs$ @rown:s return7 they ca-e thundering up+stairs7 and seeing -e pale7 -y 8ace bloody7 and all the -ar9s o8 the -ost thorough de;ection7 they e-ployed the-selves -ore to co-8ort and re+inspirit -e7 than in -a9ing -e the reproaches 1 was wea9 enough to 8ear7 1 who had so -any ;uster and stronger to retort upon the-$ 2rs$ @rown withdrawn7 Phoebe ca-e presently to bed to -e7 and what with the answers she drew 8ro- -e7 what with her own -ethod o8 palpably satis8ying hersel87 she soon dis+ covered that 1 had been -ore 8righted than hurt< upon which 1 suppose7 being hersel8 seiz:d with sleep7 and reserving

her lectures and instructions till the next -orning7 she le8t -e7 properly spea9ing7 to -y unrest< 8or7 a8ter tossing and turning the greatest part o8 the night7 and tor-enting -ysel8 with the 8alsest notions and apprehensions o8 things7 1 8ell7 through -ere 8atigue7 into a 9ind o8 delirious doze7 out o8 which 1 waded late in the -orning7 in a violent 8everB a circu-stance which was extre-ely critical to reprieve -e7 at least 8or a ti-e7 8ro- the attac9s o8 a wretch in8initely -ore terrible to -e than death itsel8$ The interested care that was ta9en o8 -e during -y ill+ ness7 in order to restore -e to a condition o8 -a9ing good the bawd:s engage-ents7 or o8 enduring 8urther trials7 and however such an e88ect on -y grate8ul disposition7 that 1 even thought -ysel8 oblig:d to -y undoers 8or their atten+ tion to pro-ote -y recovery< and7 above all7 8or the 9eeping out o8 -y sight o8 that brutal ravisher7 the author o8 -y disorder7 on their 8inding 1 was too strongly -ov:d at the bare -ention o8 his na-e$ /outh is soon raised7 and a 8ew days were su88icient to con=uer the 8ury o8 -y 8everB but7 what contributed -ost to -y per8ect recovery and to -y reconciliation with li8e7 was the ti-ely news that 2r$ 6ro8ts7 who was a -erchant o8 con+ siderable dealings7 was arrested at the Aing:s suit7 8or nearly 8orty thousand pounds7 on account o8 his driving a certain contraband trade7 and that his a88airs were so des+ perate that even were it in his inclination7 it would not be in his power to renew his designs upon -eB 8or he was instantly thrown into a prison7 which it was not li9ely he would get out o8 in haste$ 2rs$ @rown7 who had touched his 8i8ty guineas7 advanc:d to so little purpose7 and lost all hopes o8 the re-aining hundred7 began to loo9 upon -y treat-ent o8 hi- with a -ore 8avourable eye< and as they had observ:d -y te-per to be per8ectly tractable and con8or-able to their views7 all the girls that co-pos:d her 8loc9 were su88ered to visit -e7 and had their cue to dispose -e7 by their conversation7 to a per8ect resignation o8 -ysel8 to 2rs$ @rown:s direction$ .ccordingly they were let in upon -e7 and all that 8rolic and thoughtless gaiety in which those giddy creatures consu-e their leisure -ade -e envy a condition o8 which 1 only saw the 8air side< inso-uch7 that the being one o8 thebeca-e even -y a-bitionP a disposition which they all care+ 8ully cultivated< and 1 wanted now nothing but to restore -y health7 that 1 -ight be able to undergo the cere-ony o8 the initiation$ 6onversation7 exa-ple7 all7 in short7 contributed7 in that house7 to corrupt -y native purity7 which had ta9en no root in education< whilst not the in8la--able principal o8 pleasure7 so easily 8ired at -y age7 -ade strange wor9 within -e7 and all the -odesty 1 was brought up in the habit7 not the instruction o87 began to -elt away li9e dew be8ore the sun:s heat< not to -ention that 1 -ade a vice o8 necessity7 8ro- the constant 8ears 1 had o8 being turn:d

out to starve$ 1 was soon pretty well recover:d7 and at certain hours allow:d to range all over the house7 but cautiously 9ept 8ro- seeing any co-pany till the arrival o8 %ord @ $ $ $7 8ro- @ath7 to who- 2rs$ @rown7 in respect to his experi+ enced generosity on such occasions7 proposed to o88er the perusal ot that trin9et o8 -ine7 which bears so great an i-aginary value< and his lordship being expected in town in less than a 8ortnight7 2rs$ @rown ;udged 1 would be entirely renewed in beauty and 8reshness by that ti-e7 and a88ord her the chance o8 a better bargain than she had driven with 2r$ 6ro8ts$ 1n the -eanti-e7 1 was so thoroughly7 as they call it7 brought over7 so ta-e to their whistle7 that7 had -y cage door been set open7 1 had no idea that 1 ought to 8ly any+ where7 sooner than stay where 1 was< nor had 1 the least sense o8 regretting -y condition7 but waited very =uietly 8or whatever 2rs$ @rown should order concerning -e< who on her side7 by hersel8 and her agents7 too9 -ore than the necessary precautions to lull and lay asleep all ;ust re+ 8lections on -y destination$ Preach-ents o8 -orality over the le8t shoulder< a li8e o8 ;oy painted in the gayest colours< caresses7 pro-ises7 indulgent treat-entB nothing7 in short7 was wanting to do+ -esticate -e entirely and to prevent -y going out anywhere to get better advice$ .las> 1 drea-:d o8 no such thing$ 0itherto 1 had been indebted only to the girls o8 the house 8or the corruption o8 -y innocenceB their luscious tal97 in which -odesty was 8ar 8ro- respected7 their des+ cription o8 their engage-ents with -en7 had given -e a tolerable insight into the nature and -ysteries o8 their pro8ession7 at the sa-e ti-e that they highly provo9:d an itch o8 8lorid war-+spirited blood through every veinB but above all7 -y bed+8ellow Phoebe7 whose pupil 1 -ore i--edi+ ately was7 exerted her talents in giving -e the 8irst tinctures o8 pleasureB whilst nature7 now war-:d and wan+ toned with discoveries so interesting7 pi=u:d a curiosity which Phoebe art8ully whetted7 and leading -e 8ro- =uestion to =uestion o8 her own suggestion7 explain:d to -e all the -ysteries o8 Denus$ @ut 1 could not long re-ain in such a house as that7 without being an eye+witness o8 -ore than 1 could conceive 8ro- her descriptions$ 'ne day7 about twelve at noon7 being thoroughly re+ cover:d o8 -y 8ever7 1 happen:d to be in 2rs$ @rown:s dar9 closet7 where 1 had not been hal8 an hour7 resting upon the -aid:s settle+bed7 be8ore 1 heard a rustling in the bed+ cha-ber7 separated 8ro- the closet only by two sash+doors7 be8ore the glasses o8 which were drawn two yellow da-as9 curtains7 but not so close as to exclude the 8ull view o8 the roo- 8or- any person in the closet$ 1 instantly crept so8tly7 and posted -ysel8 so7 that seeing every thing -inutely7 1 could not -ysel8 be seen<

and who should co-e in but the venerable -other .bbess hersel8> handed in by a tall7 brawny young 0orse+grenadier7 -oulded in the 0ercules styleB in 8ine7 the choice o8 the -ost experienced da-e7 in those a88airs7 in all %ondon$ 'h> how still and hush did 1 9eep at -y stand7 lest any noise should baul9 -y curiosity7 o8 bring 2ada- into the closet> @ut 1 had not -uch reason to 8ear either7 8or she was so entirely ta9en up with her present great concern7 that she had no sense o8 attention to spare to any thing else$ Droll was it to see that clu-sy 8at 8igure o8 hers 8lop down on the 8oot o8 the bed7 opposite to the closet+door7 so that 1 had a 8ull 8ront+view o8 all her char-s$ 0er para-our sat down by herB he see-ed to be a -an o8 very 8ew words7 and a great sto-ach< 8or proceeding instant+ ly to essentials7 he gave her so-e hearty s-ac9s7 and thrust+ ing his hands into her breasts7 disengag:d the- 8ro- her stays7 in scorn o8 whose con8ine-ent they bro9e loose7 and swagged down7 navel+low at least$ . -ore enor-ous pair did -y eyes never behold7 nor o8 a worse colour7 8lagging+so8t7 and -ost lovingly contiguousB yet such as they were7 this nec9+bee8 eater see-:d to paw the- with a -ost uninvitable gust7 see9ing in vain to con8ine or cover one o8 the- with a hand scarce less than a shoulder o8 -utton$ .8ter toying with the- thus so-e ti-e7 as i8 they had been worth it7 he laid her down pretty bris9ly7 and canting up her petticoats7 -ade barely a -as9 o8 the- to her broad red 8ace7 that blush:d with nothing but brandy$ .s he stood on one side7 8or a -inute or so7 unbutton+ ing his waist+coat and breeches7 her 8at7 brawny thighs hung down7 and the whole greasy landscape lay 8airly open to -y view< a wide open+-outh:d gap7 overshaded with a grizzly bush7 see-ed held out li9e a beggar:s wallet 8or its pro+ vision$ @ut 1 soon had -y eyes called o88 by a -ore stri9ing ob;ect7 that entirely engross:d the-$ 0er sturdy stallion had now unbutton:d7 and produced na9ed7 sti887 and erect7 that wonder8ul -achine7 which 1 had never seen be8ore7 and which7 8or the interest -y own seat o8 pleasure began to ta9e 8uriously in it7 1 star:d at with all the eyes 1 hadB however7 -y senses were too -uch 8lurried7 too -uch concenter:d in that now burning spot o8 -ine7 to observe any thing -ore than in general the -a9e and turn o8 that instru-ent7 8ro- which the instinct o8 nature7 yet -ore than all 1 had heard o8 it7 now strongly in8or-ed -e 1 was to expect that supre-e pleasure which she had placed in the -eeting o8 those parts so ad-irably 8itted 8or each other$ %ong7 however7 the young spar9 did not re-ain be8ore giving it two or three sha9es7 by way o8 brandishing it< he

threw hi-sel8 upon her7 and his bac9 being now towards -e7 1 could only ta9e his being ingulph:d 8or granted7 by the di+ rections he -ov:d in7 and the i-possibility o8 -issing so staring a -ar9< and now the bed shoo97 the curtains rattled so7 that 1 could scarce hear the sighs and -ur-urs7 the heaves and pantings that acco-panied the action7 8ro- the beginning to the end< the sound and sight o8 which thrill:d to the very soul o8 -e7 and -ade every vein o8 -y body cir+ culate li=uid 8iresB the e-otion grew so violent that it al-ost intercepted -y respiration$ Prepared then7 and disposed as 1 was by the discourse o8 -y co-panions7 and Phoebe:s -inute detail o8 everything7 no wonder that such a sight gave the last dying blow to -y native innocence$ Whilst they were in the heat o8 the action7 guided by nature only7 1 stole -y hand up -y petticoats7 and with 8ingers all on 8ire7 seized7 and yet -ore in8la-ed that center o8 all -y sensesB -y heart palpitated7 as i8 it would 8orce its way through -y boso-< 1 breath:d with pain< 1 twisted -y thighs7 s=ueezed7 and co-pressed the lips o8 that virgin slit7 and 8ollowing -echanically the exa-ple o8 Phoebe:s -anual operation on it7 as 8ar as 1 could 8ind ad-ission7 brought on at last the critical extasy7 the -elting 8low7 into which nature7 spent with excess o8 pleasure7 dissolves and dies away$ .8ter which7 -y senses recover:d coolness enough to observe the rest o8 the transaction between this happy pair$ The young 8ellow had ;ust dis-ounted7 when the old lady i--ediately sprung up7 with all the vigour o8 youth7 derived7 no doubt7 8ro- her late re8resh-ent< and -a9ing hi- sit down7 began in her turn to 9iss hi-7 to pat and pinch his chee9s7 and play with his hairB all which he receiv:d with an air o8 indi88erence and coolness7 that shew:d hi- to -e -uch altered 8ro- what he was when he 8irst went on to the breach$ 2y pious governess7 however7 not being above calling in auxiliaries7 unloc9s a little case o8 cordials that stood near the bed7 and -ade hi- pledge her in a very plenti8ul dra-B a8ter which7 and a little a-orous parley7 2ada- sat hersel8 down upon the sa-e place7 at the bed:s 8oot< and the young 8ellow standing sideway by her7 she7 with the greatest e88rontery i-aginable7 unbuttons his breeches7 and re-oving his shirt7 draws out his a88air7 so shrun9 and di-inish:d7 that 1 could not but re-e-ber the di88erence7 now crest8allen7 or ;ust 8aintly li8ting its headB but our experienc:d -atron very soon7 by cha8ing it with her hands7 brought it to swell to that size and erec+ tion 1 had be8ore seen it up to$ 1 ad-ired then7 upon a 8resh account7 and with a nicer survey7 the texture o8 that capital part o8 -anB the 8la-+ ing red head as it stood uncapt7 the whiteness o8 the

sha8t7 and the shrub growth o8 curling hair that e-browned the roots o8 it7 the roundish bag that dangled down 8roit7 all exacted -y eager attention7 and renewed -y 8la-e$ @ut7 as the -ain a88air was now at the point the industrious da-e had laboured to bring it to7 she was not in the hu-our to put o88 the pay-ent o8 her pains7 but laying hersel8 down7 drew hi- gently upon her7 and thus they 8inish:d in the sa-e -anner as be8ore7 the old last act$ This over7 they both went out lovingly together7 the old lady having 8irst -ade hi- a present7 as near as 1 could observe7 o8 three or 8our pieces< he being not only her particular 8avourite on account o8 his per8or-ances7 but a retainer to the house< 8ro- whose sight she had ta9en great care hitherto to secrete -e7 lest he -ight not have had patience to wait 8or -y lord:s arrival7 but have in+ sisted on being his taster7 which the old lady was under too -uch sub;ection to hi- to dare dispute with hi-< 8or every girl o8 the house 8ell to hi- in course7 and the old lady only now and then got her turn7 in consideration o8 the -aintenance he had7 and which he could scarce be accused o8 not earning 8ro- her$ .s soon as 1 heard the- go down+stairs7 1 stole up so8tly to -y own roo-7 out o8 which 1 had luc9ily not been -iss:d< there 1 began to breathe 8reer7 and to give a loose to those war- e-otions which the sight o8 such an encounter had raised in -e$ 1 laid -e down on the bed7 stretched -ysel8 out7 ;oining and ardently wishing7 and re=uiring any -eans to divert or allay the re9indled rage and tu-ult o8 -y desires7 which all pointed strongly to their poleB -an$ 1 8elt about the bed as i8 1 sought 8or so-ething that 1 grasp:d in -y wa9ing drea-7 and not 8inding it7 could have cry:d 8or vexation< every part o8 -e glowing with sti-ul+ ating 8ires$ .t length7 1 resorted to the only present re-edy7 that o8 vain atte-pts at digitation7 where the s-allness o8 the theatre did not yet a88ord roo- enough 8or action7 and where the pain -y 8ingers gave -e7 in striving 8or ad-ission7 tho: they procured -e a slight satis8action 8or the present7 started an apprehension7 which 1 could not be easy till 1 had co--unicated to Phoebe7 and received her explanations upon it$ The opportunity7 however7 did not o88er till next -orning7 8or Phoebe did not co-e to bed till long a8ter 1 was gone to sleep$ .s soon then as we were both awa9e7 it was but in course to bring our ly+a+bed chat to land on the sub;ect o8 -y uneasinessB to which a recital o8 the love scene 1 had thus7 by chance7 been spectatress o87 serv:d 8or a pre8ace$ Phoebe could not hear it to the end without -ore than one interruption by peals o8 laughter7 and -y ingenuous way o8 relating -atters did not a little heighten the ;o9e to her$ @ut7 on her sounding -e how the sight had a88ected -e7 without -incing or hiding the pleasurable e-otions it had

inspir:d -e with7 1 told her at the sa-e ti-e that one re+ -ar9 had perplex:d -e7 and that very considerably$ +++C.ye>C say she7 Cwhat was thatEC +++ CWhy7C replied 17 Chaving very curiously and attentively co-pared the size o8 that enor-ous -achine7 which did not appear7 at least to -y 8ear8ul i-agination7 less than -y wrist7 and at least three o8 -y hand8uls long7 to that o8 the tender s-all part o8 -e which was 8ra-ed to receive it7 1 can not conceive its being possible to a88ord it entrance without dying7 perhaps in the greatest pain7 since you well 9now that even a 8inger thrust in there hurts -e beyond bearing $ $ $ .s to -y -istress:s and yours7 1 can plainly distinguish the di88erent di-en+ sions o8 the- 8ro- -ine7 palpable to the touch7 and visible to the eye< so that7 in short7 great as the pro-is:d plea+ sure -ay be7 1 a- a8raid o8 the pain o8 the experi-ent$C Phoebe at this redoubled her laugh7 and whilst 1 ex+ pected a very serious solution o8 -y doubts and apprehen+ sions in this -atter7 only told -e that she never heard o8 a -ortal wound being given in those parts by that terrible weapon7 and that so-e she 9new younger7 and as delicately -ade as -ysel87 had outlived the operation< that she be+ lieved7 at the worst7 1 should ta9e a great deal o8 9ill+ ing< that true it was7 there was a great diversity o8 sizes in those parts7 owing to nature7 child+bearing7 8re=uent over+stretching with un-erci8ul -achines7 but that at a certain age and habit o8 body7 even the -ost experienc:d in those a88airs could not well distinguish between the -aid and the wo-an7 supposing too an absence o8 all arti8ice7 and things in their natural situationB but that since chance had thrown in -y way one sight o8 that sort7 she would procure -e another7 that should 8east -y eyes -ore delicately7 and go a great way in the cure o8 -y 8ears 8rothat i-aginary disproportion$ 'n this she as9ed -e i8 1 9new Polly Philips$ C4n+ doubtedly7C says 17 Cthe 8air girl which was so tender o8 -e when 1 was sic97 and has been7 as you told -e7 but two -onths in the house$CB CThe sa-e7C says Phoebe$ C/ou -ust 9now then7 she is 9ept by a young ?enoese -erchant7 whohis uncle7 who is i--ensely rich7 and whose darling he is7 sent over here with an 3nglish -erchant7 his 8riend7 on a pretext o8 settling so-e accounts7 but in reality to hu-our his inclinations 8or travelling7 and seeing the world$ 0e -et casually with this Polly once in co-pany7 and ta9ing a li9ing to her7 -a9es it worth her while to 9eep entirely to hi-$ 0e co-es to her here twice or thrice a wee97 and she receives hi- in her light closet up one pair o8 stairs7 where he en;oys her in a taste7 1 suppose7 peculiar to the heat7 or perhaps the caprices o8 his own country$ 1 say no -ore7 but to+-orrow being his day7 you shall see what passes between the-7 8ro- a place only 9nown to your -istress and -ysel8$C /ou -ay be sure7 in the ply 1 was now ta9ing7 1 had no ob;ection to the proposal7 and was rather a tip+toe 8or its acco-plish-ent$

.t 8ive in the evening7 next day7 Phoebe7 punctual to her pro-ise7 ca-e to -e as 1 sat alone in -y own roo-7 and bec9on:d -e to 8ollow her$ We went down the bac9+stairs very so8tly7 and opening the door o8 a dar9 closet7 where there was so-e old 8urni+ ture 9ept7 and so-e cases o8 li=uor7 she drew -e in a8ter her7 and 8astening the door upon us7 we had no light but what ca-e through a long crevice in the partition between ours and the light closet7 where the scene o8 action lay< so that sitting on those low cases7 we could7 with the greatest ease7 as well as clearness7 see all ob;ects (our+ selves unseen)7 only by applying our eyes close to the cre+ vice7 where the -oulding o8 a panel had warped7 or started a little on the other side$ The young gentle-an was the 8irst person 1 saw7 with his bac9 directly towards -e7 loo9ing at a print$ Polly was not yet co-eB in less than a -inute tho:7 the door opened7 and she ca-e in< and at the noise the door -ade he turned about7 and ca-e to -eet her7 with an air o8 the greatest tenderness and satis8action$ .8ter saluting her7 he led her to a couch that 8ronted us7 where they both sat down7 and the young ?enoese help:d her to a glass o8 wine7 with so-e Naples bis9et on a salver$ Presently7 when they had exchanged a 8ew 9isses7 and =uestions in bro9en 3nglish on one side7 he began to un+ button7 and7 in 8ine7 stript to his shirt$

.s i8 this had been the signal agreed on 8or pulling o88 all their cloaths7 a sche-e which the heat o8 the season per8ectly 8avoured7 Polly began to draw her pins7 and as she had no stays to unlace7 she was in a trice7 with her gallant:s o88icious assistance7 undress:d to all but her shi8t$ When he saw this7 his breeches were i--ediately loos+ en:d7 waist and 9nee bands7 and slipped over his an9les7 clean o88< his shirt collar was unbuttoned tooB then7 8irst giving Polly an encouraging 9iss7 he stole7 as it were7 the shi8t o88 the girl7 who being7 1 suppose7 bro9e and 8a-i+ liariz:d to this hu-our7 blush:d indeed7 but less than 1 did at the apparition o8 her7 now standing star9+na9ed7 ;ust as she ca-e out o8 the hands o8 pure nature7 with her blac9 hair loose and a+8loat down her dazzling white nec9 and shoulders7 whilst the deepen:d carnation o8 her chee9s went o88 gradually into the hue o8 glaz:d snowB 8or such were the blended tints and polish o8 her s9in$ This girl could not be above eighteenB her 8ace re+ gular and sweet+8eatur:d7 her shape ex=uisite< nor could 1 help envying her two ripe enchanting breasts7 8inely plu-p:d out in 8lesh7 but withal so round7 so 8ir-7 that they sus+ tain:d the-selves7 in scorn o8 any stayB then their nipples7 pointing di88erent ways7 -ar9:d their pleasing separation< beneath the- lay the delicious tract o8 the belly7 which ter-inated in a parting or ri8t scarce discernible7 that -odesty see-:d to retire downwards7 and see9 shelter be+ tween two plu-p 8leshy thighsB the curling hair that over+ spread its delight8ul 8ront7 cloathed it with the richest sable 8ur in the universeB in short7 she was evidently a sub;ect 8or the painters to court her sitting to the- 8or a pattern o8 8e-ale beauty7 in all the true price and po-p o8 na9edness$ The young 1talian (still in his shirt) stood gazing and transported at the sight o8 beauties that -ight have 8ir:d a dying her-it< his eager eyes devour:d her7 as she shi8ted attitudes at his discretionB neither were his hands excluded their share o8 the high 8east7 but wander:d7 on the hunt o8 pleasure7 over every part and inch o8 her body7 so =uali8ied to a88ord the -ost ex=uisite sense o8 it$ 1n the -ean ti-e7 one could not help observing the swell o8 his shirt be8ore7 that bolster:d out7 and shewed the condition o8 things behind the curtainB but he soon re-ov:d it7 by slipping his shirt over his head< and now7 as to na9edness7 they had nothing to reproach one another$ The young gentle-an7 by Phoebe:s guess7 was about two and twenty< tall and well li-b:d$ 0is body was 8inely 8or-:d and o8 a -ost vigorous -a9e7 s=uare+shoulder:d7 and broad+chestedB his 8ace was not re-ar9able in any way7 but 8or a nose inclining to the (o-an7 eyes large7 blac97 and spar9ling7 and a ruddiness in his chee9s that was the -ore a grace7 8or his co-plexion was o8 the brownest7 not o8 that dus9y dun colour which excludes the idea o8 8reshness7 but

o8 that clear7 olive gloss which7 glowing with li8e7 dazzles perhaps less than 8airness7 and yet pleases -ore7 when it pleases at all$ 0is hair7 being too short to tie7 8ell no lower than his nec97 in short easy curls< and he had a 8ew sprigs about his paps7 that garnish:d his chest in a style o8 strength and -anliness$ Then his grand -ove-ent7 which see-:d to rise out o8 a thic9et o8 curling hair that spread 8ro- the root all round thighs and belly up to the navel7 stood sti88 and upright7 but o8 a size to 8righten -e7 by sy-pathy7 8or the s-all tender part which was the ob;ect o8 its 8ury7 and which now lay expos:d to -y 8airest view< 8or he had7 i--ediately on stripping o88 his shirt7 gently push:d her down on the couch7 which stood conveniently to brea9 her willing 8all$ 0er thighs were spread out to their ut-ost extension7 and discovered between the- the -ar9 o8 the sex7 the red+center:d cle8t o8 8lesh7 whose lips7 ver+ -ilioning inwards7 exprest a s-all rubid line in sweet -iniature7 such as ?uido:s touch o8 colouring could never attain to the li8e or delicacy o8$ Phoebe7 at this gave -e a gentle ;og7 to prepare -e 8or a whispered =uestionB whether 1 thought -y little -aidenhead was -uch lessE @ut -y attention was too -uch engross:d7 too -uch enwrapp:d with all 1 saw7 to be able to give her any answer$ @y this ti-e the young gentle-an had changed her pos+ ture 8ro- lying breadth to length+wise on the couchB but her thighs were still spread7 and the -ar9 lay 8air 8or hi-7 who now 9neeling between the-7 display:d to us a side+view o8 that 8ierce erect -achine o8 his7 which threaten:d no less than splitting the tender victi-7 who lay s-iling at the up+ li8ted stro9e7 nor see-:d to decline it$ 0e loo9ed upon his weapon hi-sel8 with so-e pleasure7 and guiding it with his hand to the inviting slit7 drew aside the lips7 and lodg:d it (a8ter so-e thrusts7 which Polly see-:d even to assist) about hal8 way< but there it stuc97 1 suppose 8ro- its grow+ ing thic9nessB he draws it again7 and ;ust wetting it with spittle7 re+enters7 and with ease sheath:d it now up to the hilt7 at which Polly gave a deep sigh7 which was =uite another tone than one o8 pain< he thrusts7 she heaves7 at 8irst gently7 and in a regular cadence< but presently the transport began to be too violent ot observe any order or -easure< their -otions were too rapid7 their 9isses too 8ierce and 8ervent 8or nature to support such 8ury longB both see-:d to -e out o8 the-selvesB their eyes darted 8iresB C'h> $ $ $ oh> $ $ $ 1 can:t bear it $ $ $ 1t is too -uch $ $ $ 1 die $ $ $ 1 a- going $ $ $C were Polly:s expressions o8 extasyB his ;oys were -ore silent< but soon bro9en -ur-urs7 sighs heart+8etch:d7 and at length a dis+ patching thrust7 as i8 he would have 8orced hi-sel8 up her body7 and then -otionless languor o8 all his li-bs7 all shewed that the die+away -o-ent was co-e upon hi-< which she gave signs o8 ;oining with7 by the wild throwing o8 her hands about7 closing her eyes7 and giving a deep sob7 in which she see-ed to expire in an agony o8 bliss$ When he had 8inish:d his stro9e7 and got 8ro- o88 her7

she lay still without the least -otion7 breathless7 as it should see-7 with pleasure$ 0e replaced her again breadth+ wise on the couch7 unable to sit up7 with her thighs open7 between which 1 could observe a 9ind o8 white li=uid7 li9e 8roth7 hanging about the outward lips o8 that recently opened wound7 which now glowed with a deeper red$ Pre+ sently she gets up7 and throwing her ar-s round hi-7 see-ed 8ar 8ro- undelighted with the trial he had put her to7 to ;udge at least by the 8ondness with which she ey:d and hung upon hi-$ For -y part7 1 will not pretend to describe what 1 8elt all over -e during this scene< but 8ro- that instant7 adieu all 8ears o8 what -an could do unto -e< they were now changed into such ardent desires7 such ungovernable longings7 that 1 could have pull:d the 8irst o8 that sex that should present hi-sel87 by the sleeve7 and o88ered hi- the bauble7 which 1 now i-agined the loss o8 would be a gain 1 could not too soon procure -ysel8$ Phoebe7 who had -ore experience7 and to who- such sights were not so new7 could not however be un-oved at so war- a scene< and drawing -e away so8tly 8ro- the peep+hole7 8or 8ear o8 being over+heard7 guided -e as near the door as possible7 all passive and obedient to her least signals$ 0ere was no roo- either to sit or lie7 but -a9ing -e stand with -y bac9 towards the door7 she li8ted up -y petticoats7 and with her busy 8ingers 8ell to visit and explore that part o8 -e where now the heat and irritations were so violent that 1 was per8ectly sic9 and ready to die with desire< that the bare touch o8 her 8inger7 in that critical place7 had the e88ect o8 a 8ire to a train7 and her hand instantly -ade her sensible to what a pitch 1 was wound up7 and -elted by the sight she had thus procured -e$ &atis8ied then with her success in allaying a heat that would have -ade -e i-patient o8 seeing the continuation o8 the transactions between our a-ourous couple7 she brought -e again to the crevice so 8avourable to our curiosity$ We had certainly been but a 8ew instants away 8ro- it7 and yet on our return we saw every thing in good 8orwardness 8or reco--encing the tender hostilities$ The young 8oreigner was sitting down7 8ronting us7 on the couch7 with Polly upon one 9nee7 who had her ar-s round his nec97 whilst the extre-e whiteness o8 her s9in was not undelight8ully contrasted by the s-ooth glossy brown o8 her lover:s$ @ut who could count the 8ierce7 unnu-ber:s 9isses given and ta9enE in which 1 could o8 ten discover their exchanging the velvet thrust7 when both their -ouths were double ton+ gued7 and see-ed to 8avour the -utual insertion with the greatest gust and delight$ 1n the -ean ti-e7 his red+headed cha-pion7 that has so lately 8led the pit7 =uell:d and abash:d7 was now recover:d

to the top o8 his condition7 per9:d and crested up between Polly:s thighs7 who was not wanting7 on her part7 to coax and deep it in good hu-our7 stro9ing it7 with her head down7 and received even its velvet tip between the lips o8 not its proper -outhB whether she did this out o8 any particular pleasure7 or whether it was to render it -ore glib and easy o8 entrance7 1 could not tell< but it had such an e88ect7 that the young gentle-an see-:d by his eyes7 that spar9led with -ore excited lustre7 and his in8la-ed countenance7 to receive increase o8 pleasure$ 0e got up7 and ta9ing Polly in his ar-s7 e-braced her7 and said so-ething too so8tly 8or -e to hear7 leading her withal to the 8oot o8 the couch7 and ta9ing delight to slap her thighs and posteriors with that sti88 sinew o8 his7 which hit the- with a spring that he gave it with his hand7 and -ade the- resound again7 but hurt her about as -uch as he -eant to hurt her7 8or she see-ed to have as 8rolic a taste as hi-sel8$ @ut guess -y surprise7 when 1 saw the lazy young rogue lie down on his bac97 and gently pull down Polly upon hi-7 who giving way to his hu-our7 straddled7 and with her hands conducted her blind 8avourite to the right place< and 8ol+ lowing her i-pulse7 ran directly upon the 8la-ing point o8 this weapon o8 pleasure7 which she sta9:d hersel8 upon7 up pierc:d and in8ix:d to the extre-est hair+breadth o8 itB thus she sat on hi- a 8ew instants7 en;oying and relishing her situation7 whilst he toyed with her provo9ing breasts$ &o-eti-es she would stoop to -eet his 9issB but presently the sting o8 pleasure spurr:d the- up to 8iercer action< then began the stor- o8 heaves7 which7 8or- the under-ost co-batant7 were thrusts at the sa-e ti-e7 he crossing his hands over her7 and drawing her ho-e to hi- with a sweet violenceB the inverted stro9es o8 anvil over ha--er soon brought on the critical period7 in which all the signs o8 a close conspiring extasy in8or-ed us o8 the point they were at$ For -e7 1 could bear to see no -ore< 1 was so overco-e7 so in8la-ed at the second part o8 the sa-e play7 that7 -ad to an intolerable degree7 1 hugg:d7 1 clasped Phoebe7 as i8 she had wherewithal to relieve -e$ Pleased however with7 and pitying the ta9ing she could 8eel -e in7 she drew -e towards the door7 and opening it as so8tly as she could7 we both got o88 undiscover:d7 and she reconducted -e to -y own roo-7 where7 unable to 9eep -y legs7 in the agitation 1 was in7 1 instantly threw -ysel8 down on the bed7 where 1 lay trans+ ported7 though asha-:d at what 1 8elt$ Phoebe lay down by -e7 and as9:d -e archly i87 now that 1 had seen the ene-y7 and 8ully considered hi-7 1 was still a8raid o8 hi-E or did 1 thin9 1 could venture to co-e to a close engage-ent with hi-E To all which7 not a word on -y side< 1 sigh:d7 and could scarce breathe$ &he ta9es hold o8 -y hand7 and having roll:d up her own petticoats7 8orced it hal8 strivingly towards those parts7 where7 now grown -ore 9nowing7 1 -iss:d the -ain ob;ect o8 -y wishes< and 8inding not even the shadow o8 what 1 wanted7 where every thing was so 8lat7 or so hollow7 in the vexation 1 was in at it7 1

should have withdrawn -y hand but 8or 8ear o8 disobliging her$ .bandoning it then entirely to her -anage-ent7 she -ade use o8 it as she thought proper7 to procure hersel8 rather the shadow than the substance o8 any pleasure$ For -y part7 1 now pin:d 8or -ore solid 8ood7 and pro-is:d tacitly to -ysel8 that 1 would not be put o88 -uch longer with this 8oolery 8ro- wo-an to wo-an7 i8 2rs$ @rown did not soon provide -e with the essential speci8ic$ 1n short7 1 had all the air o8 not being able to wait the arrival o8 -y lord @ $ $ $ tho: he was now expected in a very 8ew daysB nor did 1 wait 8or hi-7 8or love itsel8 too9 charge o8 the disposal o8 -e7 in spite o8 interest7 or gross lust$ 1t was now two days a8ter the closet+scene7 that 1 got up about six in the -orning7 and leaving -y bed+8ellow 8ast asleep7 stole down7 with no other thought than o8 ta9ing a little 8resh air in a s-all garden7 which our bac9+parlour open:d into7 and 8ro- which -y con8ine-ent debarr:d -e at the ti-es co-pany ca-e to the house< but now sleep and silence reign:d all over it$ 1 open:d the parlour door7 and well surpriz:d was 1 at seeing7 by the side o8 a 8ire hal8+our7 a young gentle-an in the old lady:s elbow chair7 with his legs laid upon another7 8ast asleep7 and le8t there by his thoughtless co-panions7 who had dran9 hi- down7 and then went o88 with every one his -istress7 whilst he stay:d behind by the courtesy o8 the old -atron7 who would not disturb o8 turn hi- out in that con+ dition7 at one in the -orning< and beds7 it is -ore than probable7 there were none to spare$ 'n the table still re+ -ain:d the punch bowl and glasses7 strew:s about in their usual disorder a8ter a drun9en revel$ @ut when 1 drew nearer7 to view the sleeping one7 heavens> what a sight> No> no ter- o8 years7 no turn o8 8ortune could ever erase the lightning+li9e i-pression his 8or- -ade on -e $ $ $ /es> dearest ob;ect o8 -y ear+ liest passion7 1 co--and 8or ever the re-e-brance o8 thy 8irst appearance to -y ravish:d eyes $ $ $ it calls thee up7 present< and 1 see thee now> Figure to yoursel87 2ada-7 a 8air stripling7 between eighteen and nineteen7 with his head reclin:d on one o8 the sides o8 the chair7 his hair in disorder:d curls7 irregular+ ly shading a 8ace on which all the roseate bloo- o8 youth and all the -anly graces conspired to 8ix -y eyes and heart$ 3ven the languor and paleness o8 his 8ace7 in which the -o-entary triu-ph o8 the lily over the rose was owing to the excesses o8 the night7 gave an inexpressible sweetness to the 8inest 8eatures i-aginableB his eyes7 closed in sleep7 displayed the -eeting edges o8 their lids beauti8ully bor+ dered with long eyelashes< over which no pencil could have described two -ore regular arches than those that grac:d his 8orehead7 which was high7 pre8ectly white and s-ooth$ Then a pair o8 ver-ilion lips7 pouting and swelling to the touch7 as i8 a bee had 8reshly stung the-7 see-:d to challenge -e to get the gloves o88 this lovely sleeper7 had not the -od+ esty and respect7 which in both sexes are inseparable 8ro-

a true passion7 chec9:d -y i-pulses$ @ut on seeing his shirt+collar unbutton:d7 and a bosowhiter than a dri8t o8 snow7 the pleasure o8 considering it could not bribe -e to lengthen it7 at the hazard o8 a health that began to be -y li8e:s concern$ %ove7 that -ade -e ti-id7 taught -e to be tender too$ With a tre-bling hand 1 too9 hold o8 one o8 his7 and wa9ing his as gently as possi+ ble7 he started7 and loo9ing7 at 8irst a little wildly7 said with a voice that sent its har-onious sound to -y heartB CPray7 child7 what o:cloc9 is itEC 1 told hi-7 and added that he -ight catch cold i8 he slept longer with his breast open in the cool o8 the -orning air$ 'n this he than9ed -e with a sweetness per8ectly agreeing with that o8 his 8ea+ tures and eyes< the last now broad open7 and eagerly sur+ veying -e7 carried the sprightly 8ires they spar9led with directly to -y heart$ 1t see-s that having dran9 too 8reely be8ore he ca-e upon the ra9e with so-e o8 his young co-panions7 he had put hi-sel8 out o8 a condition to go through all the weapons with the-7 and crown the night with getting a -istress< so that seeing -e in a loose undress7 he did not doubt but 1 was one o8 the -isses o8 the house7 sent in to repair his loss o8 ti-e< but though he seiz:d that notion7 and a very obvious one it was7 without hesitation7 yet7 whether -y 8igure -ade a -ore than ordinary i-pression on hi-7 or whether it was natural politeness7 he address:d -e in a -anner 8ar 8ro- rude7 tho: still on the 8oot o8 one o8 the house pliers7 co-e to a-use hi-< and giving -e the 8irst 9iss that 1 ever relish:d 8ro- -an in -y li8e7 as9:d -e it 1 could 8avour hi- with -y co-pany7 assuring -e that he would -a9e it worth -y whileB but had not even new+born love7 that true re8iner o8 lust7 oppos:d so sudden a sur+ render7 the 8ear o8 being surpriz:d by the house was a su88icient bar to -y co-pliance$ 1 told hi- then7 in a tone set -e by love itsel87 that 8or reasons 1 had not ti-e to explain to hi-7 1 could not stay with hi-7 and -ight not even ever see hi- againB with a sigh at these last words7 which bro9e 8ro- the botto- o8 -y heart$ 2y con=ueror7 who7 as he a8terwards told -e7 had been struc9 with -y appearance7 and li9:d -e as -uch as he could thin9 o8 li9ing any one in -y suppos:d way o8 li8e7 as9:d -e bris9ly at once i8 1 would be 9ept by hi-7 and that he would ta9e a lodging 8or -e directly7 and relieve -e 8roany engage-ents he presu-:d 1 -ight be under to the house$ (ash7 sudden7 undigested7 and even dangerous as this o88er -ight be 8ro- a per8ect stranger7 and that stranger a giddy boy7 the prodigious love 1 was struc9 with 8or hi- had put a char- into his voice there was no resisting7 and blinded -e to every ob;ection< 1 could7 at that instant7 have died 8or hi-B thin9 i8 1 could resist an invitation to live with hi-> Thus -y heart7 beating strong to the proposal7 dictated -y answer7 a8ter scarce a -inute:s pause7 that 1 would accept o8 his o88er7 and -a9e -y escape to hi- in what way he pleased7 and that 1 would be entirely at his disposal7 let it be good or bad$ 1 have o8ten since wondered that so great an easiness did not disgust hi-7 or -a9e -e too cheap

in his eyes7 but -y 8ate had so appointed it7 that in his 8ears o8 the hazard o8 the town7 he had been so-e ti-e loo9ing out 8or a girl to ta9e into 9eeping7 and -y person happening to hit his 8ancy7 it was by one o8 those -iracles reserved to love that we struc9 the bargain in the instant7 which we sealed by an exchange o8 9isses7 that the hopes o8 a -ore uninterrupted en;oy-ent engaged hi- to content hi-+ sel8 with$ Never7 however7 did dear youth carry in his person7 -ore wherewith to ;usti8y the turning o8 a girl:s head7 and -a9ing her set all conse=uences at de8iance 8or the sa9e o8 8ollowing a gallant$ For7 besides all the per8ections o8 -anly beauty which were asse-bled in his 8or-7 he had an air o8 neatness and gentility7 a certain s-artness in the carriage and port o8 his head7 that yet -ore distinguish:d hi-< his eyes were sprightly and 8ull o8 -eaning< his loo9s had in the- so-e+ thing at once sweet and co--anding$ 0is co-plexion out+ bloo-:d the lovely+colour:d rose7 whilst its ini-itable tender vivid glow clearly sav:d 8ro- the reproach o8 want+ ing li8e7 o8 raw and dough+li9e7 which is co--only -ade to those so extre-ely 8air as he was$ 'ur little plan was that 1 should get out about seven the next -orning (which 1 could readily pro-ise7 as 1 9new where to get the 9ey o8 the street+door)7 and he would wait at the end o8 the street with a coach to convey -e sa8e o88< a8ter which7 he would send7 and clear any debt incurr:d by -y stay at 2rs$ @rown:s7 who7 he only ;udged7 in gross7 -ight not care to part with one he thought so 8it to draw custo- to the house$ 1 then ;ust hinted to hi- not to -ention in the house his having seen such a person as -e7 8or reasons 1 would explain to hi- -ore at leisure$ .nd then7 8or 8ear o8 -iscarrying7 by being seen together7 1 tore -ysel8 8rohi- with a bleeding heart7 and stole up so8tly to -y roo-7 where 1 8ound Phoebe still 8ast asleep7 and hurrying o88 -y 8ew cloaths7 lay down by her7 with a -ixture o8 ;oy and anxiety that -ay be easier conceived than express:d$ The ris9s o8 2rs$ @rown:s discovering -y purpose7 o8 disappoint-ents7 -isery7 ruin7 all vanish:d be8ore this new+ 9indl:d 8la-e$ The seeing7 the touching7 the being7 i8 but 8or a night7 with this idol o8 -y 8ond virgin+heart7 appeared to -e a happiness above the purchase o8 -y liberty or li8e$ 0e -ight use -e ill7 let hi-> he was the -aster< happy7 too happy7 even to receive death at so dear a hand$ To this purpose were the re8lections o8 the whole day7 o8 which every -inute see-:d to -e a little eternity$ 0ow o8ten did 1 visit the cloc9> nay7 was te-pted to advance the tedious hand7 as i8 that would have advanc:d the ti-e with it> 0ad those o8 the house -ade the least observations on -e7 they -ust have re-ar9:d so-ething extraordinary 8rothe disco-posure 1 could not help betraying< especially when

at dinner -ention was -ade o8 the char-ingest youth having been there7 and stay:d brea98ast$ C'h> he was such a beauty> $ $ $ 1 should have died 8or hi-> $ $ $ they would pull caps 8or hi-> $ $ $C and the li9e 8ooleries7 which7 however7 was throwing oil on a 8ire 1 was sorely put to it to s-other the blaze o8$ The 8luctuations o8 -y -ind7 the whole day7 produc:d one good e88ectB which was7 that7 through -ere 8atigue7 1 slept tolerably well till 8ive in the -orning7 when 1 got up7 and having dress:d -ysel87 waited7 under the double tortures o8 8ear and i-patience7 8or the appointed hour$ 1t ca-e at last7 the dear7 critical7 dangerous hour ca-e< and now7 sup+ ported only by the courage love lent -e7 1 ventured7 a tip+ toe7 down+stairs7 leaving -y box behind7 8or 8ear o8 being surpriz:d with it in going out$ 1 got to the street+door7 the 9ey whereo8 was always laid on the chair by our bed+side7 in trust with Phoebe7 who having not the least suspicion o8 -y entertaining any design to go 8ro- the- (nor indeed had 1 but the day be8ore)7 -ade no reserve or conceal-ent o8 it 8ro- -e$ 1 open:d the door with great ease< love7 that e-bolden:d7 protected -e tooB and now7 got sa8e into the street7 1 saw -y new guardian+ angel waiting at a coach+door7 ready open$ 0ow 1 got to hi1 9now notB 1 suppose 1 8lew< but 1 was in the coach in a trice7 and he by the side o8 -e7 with his ar-s clasp:d round -e7 and giving -e the 9iss o8 welco-e$ The coach-an had his orders7 and drove to the-$ 2y eyes were instantly 8ill:d with tears7 but tears o8 the -ost delicious delight< to 8ind -ysel8 in the ar-s o8 that beauteous youth was a rapture that -y little heart swain$ Past or 8uture were e=ually out o8 the =uestion with -e$ The present was as -uch as all -y powers o8 li8e were su88icient to bear the transport o87 without 8ainting$ Nor were the -ost tender e-braces7 the -ost soothing expressions wanting on his side7 to assure -e o8 his love7 and o8 never giving -e cause to repent the bold step 1 had ta9en7 in throwing -ysel8 thus entirely upon his honour and generosity$ @ut7 alas> this was no -erit in -e7 8or 1 was drove to it by a passion too i-petuous 8or -e to resist7 and 1 did what 1 did because 1 could not help it$ 1n an instant7 8or ti-e was now annihilated with -e7 we landed at a public house in 6helsea7 hosipitably co--odious 8or the reception o8 duet+parties o8 pleasure7 where a brea9+ 8ast o8 chocolate was prepared 8or us$ .n old ;olly stager7 who 9ept it7 and understood li8e per8ectly well7 brea98asted with us7 and leering archly at -e7 gave us both ;oy7 and said we were well paired7 i: 8aith> that a great -any gentle-en and ladies used his house7 but he had never seen a handso-er couple $ $ $ he was sure 1 was a 8resh piece $ $ $ 1 loo9:d so country7 so innocent> well -y spouse was a luc9y -an> $ $ $ all which co--on landlord:s cant not only pleas:d and sooth:d -e7 but help:d to divert -y con8usion at being with -y new sovereign7 who-7 now the

-inute approach:d7 1 began to 8ear to be alone withB a ti-idity which true love had a greater share in than even -aiden bash8ulness$ 1 wish:d7 1 doted7 1 could have died 8or hi-< and yet7 1 9now not how7 or why7 1 dreaded the point which had been the ob;ect o8 -y 8iercest wishes< -y pulses beat 8ears7 a-idst a 8lush o8 the war-est desires$ This struggle o8 the passions7 however7 this con8lict betwixt -odesty and love+ sic9 longings7 -ade -e burst again into tears< which he too97 as he had done be8ore7 only 8or the re-ains o8 concern and e-otion at the suddenness o8 -y change o8 condition7 in co-+ -itting -ysel8 to his care< and7 in conse=uence o8 that idea7 did and said all that he thought would -ost co-8ort and re+ inspirit -e$ .8ter brea98ast7 6harles (the dear 8a-iliar na-e 1 -ust ta9e the liberty hence8orward to distinguish -y .donis by)7 with a s-ile 8ull o8 -eaning7 too9 -e gently by the hand7 and saidB C6o-e7 -y dear7 1 will show you a roo- that co--ands a 8ine prospect over so-e gardensC< and without waiting 8or an answer7 in which he relieved -e extre-ely7 he led -e up into a cha-ber7 airy and light+so-e7 where all seeing o8 prospects was out o8 the =uestion7 except that o8 a bed7 which had all the air o8 having reco--ended the roo- to hi-$ 6harles had ;ust slipp:d the bolt o8 the door7 and run+ ning7 caught -e in his ar-s7 and li8ting -e 8ro- the ground7 with his lips glew:d to -ine7 bore -e7 tre-bling7 panting7 dying7 with so8t 8ears and tender wishes7 to the bed< where his i-patience would not su88er hi- to undress -e7 -ore than ;ust unpinning -y hand9erchie8 and gown7 and unlacing -y stays$ 2y boso- was now bare7 and rising in the war-est throbs7 presented to his sight and 8eeling the 8ir- hard swell o8 a pair o8 young breasts7 such as -ay be i-agin:d o8 a girl not sixteen7 8resh out o8 the country7 and never be8ore handled< but even their pride7 whiteness7 8ashion7 pleasing resistance to the touch7 could not bribe his restless hands 8ro- roving< but giving the- the loose7 -y petticoats and shi8t were soon ta9en up7 and their stronger center o8 attraction laid open to their tender invasion$ 2y 8ears7 however7 -ade -e -echan+ ically close -y thighs< but the very touch o8 his hand insin+ uated between the-7 disclosed the- and opened a way 8or the -ain attac9$ 1n the -ean ti-e7 1 lay 8airly exposed to the exa-ina+ tion o8 his eyes and hands7 =uiet and unresisting< which con8ir-:d hi- the opinion he proceeded so cavalierly upon7 that 1 was no novice in these -atters7 since he had ta9en -e out o8 a co--on bawdy+house7 nor had 1 said one thing to prepossess hi- o8 -y virginity< and i8 1 had7 he would sooner have believ:d that 1 too9 hi- 8or a cully that would swallow such an i-probability7 than that 1 was still -is+ tress o8 that darling treasure7 that hidden -ine7 so eagerly sought a8ter by the -en7 and which they never dig 8or7 but to destroy$

@eing now too high wound up to bear a delay7 he un+ button:d7 and drawing out the engine o8 love+assaults7 drove it currently7 as at a ready+-ade breach $ $ $ Then> then> 8or the 8irst ti-e7 did 1 8eel that sti88 horn+hard gristle7 battering against the tender part< but i-agine to yoursel8 his surprize when he 8ound7 a8ter several vigorous pushes which hurt -e extre-ely7 that he -ade not the least i-+ pression$ 1 co-plain:d but tenderly co-plain:d that 1 could not bear it $ $ $ indeed he hurt -e> $ $ $ &till he thought no -ore than that being so young7 the largeness o8 his -achine (8or 8ew -en could dispute size with hi-) -ade all the di8+ iculty< and that possible 1 had not been en;oy:d by any so advantageously -ade in that part as hi-sel8B 8or still7 that -y virgin 8lower was yet uncrop:d7 never enter:d into his head7 and he would have thought it idling with ti-e and words to have =uestion:d -e upon it$ 0e tries again7 still no ad-ittance7 still no penetra+ tion< but he had hurt -e yet -ore7 whilst -y extre-e love -ade -e bear extre-e pain7 al-ost without a groan$ .t length7 a8ter repeated 8ruitless trials7 he lay down panting by -e7 9iss:d -y 8alling tears7 and as9ed -e tenderly what was the -eaning o8 so -uch co-plainingE and i8 1 had not borne it better 8ro- others than 1 did 8ro- hi-E 1 answered7 with a si-plicity 8ra-:d to persuade7 that he was the 8irst -an that ever serv:d -e so$ Truth is power8ul7 and it is not always that we do not believe what we eagerly wish$ Part # 6harles7 already dispos:d by the evidence o8 his senses to thin9 -y pretences to virginity not entirely apocryphal7 s-others -e with 9isses7 begs -e7 in the na-e o8 love7 to have a little patience7 and that he will be as tender o8 hurting -e as he would be o8 hi-sel8$ .las> it was enough 1 9new his pleasure to sub-it ;oy+ 8ully to hi-7 whatever pain 1 8oresaw it would cost -e$ 0e now resu-es his atte-pts in -ore 8or-B 8irst7 he put one o8 the pillows under -e7 to give the blan9 o8 his ai- a -ore 8avourable elevation7 and another under -y head7 in ease o8 it< then spreading -y thighs7 and placing hi-sel8 standing between the-7 -ade the- rest upon his hips< apply+ ing then the point o8 his -achine to the slit7 into which he sought entranceB it was so s-all7 he could scarce assure hi-sel8 o8 its being rightly pointed$ 0e loo9s7 he 8eels7 and satis8ies hi-sel8B the driving 8orward with 8ury7 its prodigious sti88ness7 thus i-pacted7 wedgeli9e7 brea9s the union o8 those parts7 and gain:d hi- ;ust the insertion o8 the tip o8 it7 lip+deep< which being sensible o87 he i-prov+ ed his advantage7 and 8ollowing well his stro9e7 in a straight line7 8orcibly deepens his penetration< but put -e to such intolerable pain7 8ro- the separation o8 the sides

o8 that so8t passage by a hard thic9 body7 1 could have screa-:d out< but7 as 1 was unwilling to alar- the house7 1 held in -y breath7 and cra--:d -y petticoat7 which was turn:d up over -y 8ace7 into -y -outh7 and bit it through in the agony$ .t length7 the tender texture o8 that tract giving way to such 8ierce tearing and rending7 he pierc:d so-ething 8urther into -eB and now7 outrageous and no longer his own -aster7 but borne headlong away by the 8ury and over+-ettle o8 that -e-ber7 now exerting itsel8 with a 9ind o8 native rage7 he brea9s in7 carries all be8ore hi-7 and one violent -erciless lunge sent it7 i-brew:d7 and ree9ing with virgin blood7 up to the very hilt in -e $ $ $ Then> then all -y resolution deserted -eB 1 screa-:d out7 and 8ainted away with the sharpness o8 the pain< and7 as he told -e a8terwards7 on his drawing out7 when e-ission was over with hi-7 -y thighs were instantly all in a strea- o8 blood that 8low:d 8ro- the wounded torn passage$ When 1 recover:d -y senses7 1 8ound -ysel8 undress:d7 and a+bed7 in the ar-s o8 the sweet relenting -urderer o8 -y virginity7 who hung -ourning tenderly over -e7 and holding in his hand a cordial7 which7 co-ing 8ro- the still dear author o8 so -uch pain7 1 could not re8use< -y eyes7 however7 -oisten:d with tears7 and languishingly turn:d upon hi-7 see-ed to reproach hi- with his cruelty7 and as9 hi- i8 such were the rewards o8 love$ @ut 6harles7 to who- 1 was now in8initely endear:d by this co-plete triu-ph over a -aiden+ head7 where he so little expected to 8ind one7 in tenderness to that pain which he had put -e to7 in procuring hi-sel8 the height o8 pleasure7 s-other:d his exultation7 and e-+ ploy:d hi-sel8 with so -uch sweetness7 so -uch war-th7 to sooth7 to caress7 and co-8ort -e in -y so8t co-plainings7 which breath:d7 indeed7 -ore love than resent-ent7 that 1 presently drown:d all sense o8 pain in the pleasure o8 seeing hi-7 o8 thin9ing that 1 belong:d to hi-B he who was now the absolute disposer o8 -y happiness7 and7 in one word7 -y 8ate$ The sore was7 however7 too tender7 the wound too bleed+ ing 8resh7 8or 6harles:s good+nature to put -y patience pre+ sently to another trial< but as 1 could not stir7 or wal9 across the roo-7 he order:d the dinner to be brought to the bed+side7 where it could not be otherwise than -y getting down the wing o8 a 8owl7 and two or three glasses o8 wine7 since it was -y ador:d youth who both serv:d7 and urged theon -e7 with that sweet irresistible authority with which love had invested hi- over -e$ .8ter dinner7 and as everything but the wine was ta9en away7 6harles very i-pudently as9s a leave7 he -ight read the grant o8 in -y eyes7 to co-e to bed to -e7 and accordingly 8alls to undressing< which 1 could not see the progress o8 without strange e-otions o8 8ear and pleasure$ 0e is now in bed with -e the 8irst ti-e7 and in broad day< but when thrusting up his own shirt and -y shi8t7 he laid his na9ed glowing body to -ine $ $ $ oh> insupportable delight> oh> superhu-an rapture> what pain could stand be+ 8ore a pleasure so transportingE 1 8elt no -ore the s-art

o8 -y wounds below< but7 curling round hi- li9e the tendril o8 a vine7 as i8 1 8ear:d any part o8 hi- should be un+ touch:d or unpress:d by -e7 1 return:d his strenuous e-+ braces and 9isses with a 8ervour and gust only 9nown to true love7 and which -ere lust could never rise to$ /es7 even at this ti-e7 when all the tyranny o8 the passions is 8ully over and -y veins roll no longer but a cold tran=uil strea-7 the re-e-brance o8 those passages that -ost a88ected -e in -y youth7 still cheers and re+ 8reshes -e$ %et -e proceed then$ 2y beauteous youth was now glew:d to -e in all the 8olds and twists that we could -a9e our bodies -eet in< when7 no longer able to rein in the 8ierceness o8 re8resh:d desires7 he gives his steed the head and gently insinuating his thighs between -ine7 stopping -y -outh with 9isses o8 hu-id 8ire7 -a9es a 8resh irruption7 and renewing his thrusts7 pierces7 tears7 and 8orces his way up the torn tender 8olds that yielded hi- ad-ission with a s-art little less severe that when the breach was 8irst -ade$ 1 sti8led7 however7 -y cries7 and bore hi- with the passive 8ortitude o8 a heroine< soon his thrusts7 -ore and -ore 8ur+ ious7 chee9s 8lush:d with a deeper scarlet7 his eyes turn:d up in the 8ervent 8it7 so-e dying sighs7 and an agonizing shudder7 announced the approaches o8 that extatic pleasure7 1 was yet in too -uch pain to co-e in 8or -y share o8 it$ Nor was it till a8ter a 8ew en;oy-ents had nu-b:d and blunted the sense o8 the s-art7 and given -e to 8eel the titillating inspersion o8 balsa-ic sweets7 drew 8ro- -e the delicious return7 and brought down all -y passion7 that 1 arrived at excess o8 pleasure through excess o8 pain$ @ut7 when successive engage-ents had bro9e and inur:d -e7 1 began to enter into the true unallay:d relish o8 that pleasure o8 pleasures7 when the war- gush darts through all the ravish:d inwards< what 8loods o8 bliss> what -elting transports> what agonies o8 delight> too 8ierce7 too -ighty 8or nature to sustain< well has she there8ore7 no doubt7 provided the re+ lie8 o8 a delicious -o-entary dissolution7 the approaches o8 which are inti-ated by a dear deliriu-7 a sweet thrill on the point o8 e-itting those li=uid sweets7 in which en;oy-ent itsel8 is drown:d7 when one gives the languishing stretch+out7 and dies at the discharge$ 0ow o8ten7 when the rage and tu-ult o8 -y senses had subsided a8ter the -elting 8low7 have 17 in a tender -edi+ tation as9:d -ysel8 coolly the =uestion7 i8 it was in nature 8or any o8 its creatures to be so happy as 1 wasE 'r7 what were all 8ears o8 the conse=uence7 put in the scale o8 one night:s en;oy-ent o8 any thing so transcendently the taste o8 -y eyes and heart7 as that delicious7 8ond7 -atchless youthE Thus we spent the whole a8ternoon till supper ti-e in a continued circle o8 love delights7 9issing7 turtle+billing7 toying7 and all the rest o8 the 8east$ .t length7 supper was serv:d in7 be8ore which 6harles had7 8or 1 do not 9now what reason7 slipt his cloaths on< and sitting down by the bed+side7 we -ade table and table+cloth o8 the bed and sheets7

whilst he su88er:d nobody to attend or serve but hi-sel8$ 0e ate with a very good appetite7 and see-:d char-:d to see -e eat$ For -y part7 1 was so enchanted with -y 8ortune7 so transported with the co-parison o8 the delights 1 now swain7 with the insipidity o8 all -y past scenes o8 li8e7 that 1 thought the- su88iciently cheap at even the price o8 -y ruin7 or the ris9 o8 their not lasting$ The present pos+ session was all -y little head could 8ind roo- 8or$ We lay together that night7 when7 a8ter playing re+ peated prizes o8 pleasure7 nature7 overspent and satis8y:d7 gave us up to the ar-s o8 sleepB those o8 -y dear youth en+ circled -e7 the consciousness o8 which -ade even that sleep -ore delicious$ %ate in the -orning 1 wa9:d 8irst< and observing -y lover slept pro8oundly7 so8tly disengag:d -ysel8 8ro- his ar-s7 scarcely daring to breathe 8or 8ear o8 shortening his repose< -y cap7 -y hair7 -y shi8t7 were all in disorder 8rothe ru88lings 1 had undergone< and 1 too9 this opportunity to ad;ust and set the- as well as 1 couldB whilst7 every now and then7 loo9ing at the sleeping youth with inconceivable 8ondness and delight7 and re8lecting on all the pain he had put -e to7 tacitly own:d that the pleasure had overpaid -e 8or -y su88erings$ 1t was then broad day$ 1 was sitting up in the bed7 the cloaths o8 which were all tossed7 or rolled o887 by the un=uietness o8 our -otions7 8ro- the sultry heat o8 the weather< nor could 1 re8use -ysel8 a pleasure that solicited -e so irresistibly7 as this 8air occasion o8 8easting -y sight with all those treasures o8 youth8ul beauty 1 had en+ ;oy:d7 and which lay now al-ost entirely na9ed7 his shirt being truss:d up in a per8ect wisp7 which the war-th o8 the roo- and season -ade -e easy about the conse=uence o8$ 1 hung over hi- ena-our:d indeed> and devoured all his na9ed char-s with only two eyes7 when 1 could have wish:d the- at least a hundred7 8or the 8uller en;oy-ent o8 the gaze$ 'h> could 1 paint his 8igure as 1 see it now7 still present to -y transported i-agination> a whole length o8 an allper8ect7 -anly beauty in 8ull view$ Thin9 o8 a 8ace without a 8ault7 glowing with all the opening bloo- and vernal 8reshness o8 an age in which beauty is o8 either sex7 and which the 8irst down over his upper lip scarce began to distinguish$ The parting o8 the double ruby pout o8 his lips see-:d to exhale an air sweeter and purer than what it drew inB ah> what violence did it not cost -e to re8rain the so te-pted 9iss> Then a nec9 ex=uisitely turn:d7 grac:d behind and on the sides with his hair7 playing 8reely in natural ringlets7 connected his head to a body o8 the -ost per8ect 8or-7 and o8 the -ost vigorous contexture7 in which all the strength o8 -anhood was conceal:d and so8ten:d to appearance by the delicacy o8 his co-plexion7 the s-oothness o8 his s9in7 and

the plu-pness o8 his 8lesh$ The plat8or- o8 his snow+white boso-7 that was laid out in a -anly proportion7 presented7 on the ver-ilion su--it o8 each pap7 the idea o8 a rose about to blow$ Nor did his shirt hinder -e 8ro- observing that sy--etry o8 his li-bs7 that exactness o8 shape7 in the 8all o8 it to+ wards the loins7 where the waist ends and the rounding swell o8 the hips co--ences< where the s9in7 slee97 s-ooth7 and dazzling white7 burnishes on the stretch over 8ir-7 plu-p7 ripe 8lesh7 that cri-p:d and ran into di-ples at the least pressure7 or that the touch could not rest upon7 but slid over as on the sur8ace o8 the -ost polished ivory$ 0is thighs7 8inely 8ashioned7 and with a 8lorid glossy roundness7 gradually tapering away to the 9nees7 see-:d pillars worthy to support that beauteous 8ra-e< at the botto- o8 which 1 could not7 without so-e re-ains o8 terror7 so-e tender e-otions too7 8ix -y eyes on that terrible -ac+ hine7 which had7 not long be8ore7 with such 8ury bro9e into7 torn7 and al-ost ruin:d those so8t7 tender parts o8 -ine that had not yet done s-arting with the e88ects o8 its rage< but behold it now> crest 8all:n7 reclining its hal8+capt ver-ilion head over one o8 his thighs7 =uiet7 pliant7 and to all appearance incapable o8 the -ischie8s and cruelty it had co--itted$ Then the beauti8ul growth o8 the hair7 in short and so8t curls round its root7 its whiteness7 branch:d veins7 the supple so8tness o8 the sha8t7 as it lay 8oreshort:d7 roll:d and shrun9 up into a s=uab thic9ness7 languid7 and borne up 8ro- between his thighs by its globular appendage7 that wondrous treasure+bag o8 nature:s sweets7 which7 rivell:d round7 and purs:d up in the only wrin9les that are 9nown to please7 per8ected the prospect7 and all together 8or-ed the -ost interesting -oving picture in nature7 and surely in8initely superior to those nudities 8urnish:d by Gthe painters7 statuaries7 or any art7 which are purchas:d at i--ense prices< whilst the sight o8 the- in actual li8e is scarce sovereignly tasted by any but the 8ew who- nature has endowed with a 8ire o8 i-agination7 war-ly pointed by a truth o8 ;udg-ent to the spring+head7 the originals o8 beauty7 o8 nature:s une=uall:d co-position7 above all the i-itation o8 art7 or the reach o8 wealth to pay their price$ @ut every thing -ust have an end$ . -otion -ade by this angelic youth7 in the listlessness o8 going o88 sleep7 replac:d his shirt and the bed+cloaths in a posture that shut up that treasure 8ro- longer view$ 1 lay down then7 and carrying -y hands to that part o8 -e in which the ob;ects ;ust seen had begun to raise a -utiny that prevail:d over the s-art o8 the-7 -y 8ingers now open:d the-selves an easy passage< but long 1 had not ti-e to consider the wide di88erence there7 between the -aid and the now 8inish:d wo-an7 be8ore 6harles wa9:d7 and turning towards -e7 9indly en=uir:d how 1 had restedE and7 scarce giving -e ti-e to answer7 i-printed on -y lips one o8 his burning rapture+9isses7 which darted a 8la-e to -y heart7

that 8ro- thence radiated to every part o8 -e< and present+ ly7 as i8 he had proudly -eant revenge 8or the survey 1 had s-uggled o8 all his na9ed beauties7 he spurns o88 the bed+ cloaths7 and trussing up -y shi8t as high as it would go7 too9 his turn to 8east his eyes on all the gi8ts nature had bestow:d on -y person< his busy hands7 too7 rang:d inte-per+ ately over every part o8 -e$ The delicious austerity and hardness o8 -y yet unripe budding breasts7 the whiteness and 8ir-ness o8 -y 8lesh7 the 8reshness and regularity o8 -y 8eatures7 the har-ony o8 -y li-bs7 all see-:d to con8ir- hiin his satis8action with his bargain< but when curious to explore the havoc he had -ade in the centre o8 his over+ 8ierce attac97 he not only directed his hands there7 but with a pillow put under7 placed -e 8avourably 8or his wanton purpose o8 inspection$ Then7 who can express the 8ire his eyes glisten:d7 his hands glow:d with> whilst sighs o8 plea+ sure7 and tender bro9en excla-ations7 were all the praises he could utter$ @y this ti-e his -achine7 sti88ly risen at -e7 gave -e to see it in its highest state and bravery$ 0e 8eels it hi-sel87 see-s pleas:d at its condition7 and7 s-il+ ing loves and graces7 seizes one o8 -y hands7 and carries it7 with a gentle co-pulsion7 to his pride o8 nature7 and its richest -asterpiece$ 17 struggling 8aintly7 could not help 8eeling what 1 could not grasp7 a colu-n o8 the whitest ivory7 beauti8ully strea9:d with blue veins7 and carrying7 8ully uncapt7 a head o8 the liveliest ver-ilionB no horn could be harder or sti88er< yet no velvet -ore s-ooth or delicious to the touch$ Presently he guided -y hand lower7 to that part in which nature and pleasure 9eep their stores in concert7 so aptly 8asten:d and hung on to the root o8 their 8irst instru-ent and -inister7 that not i-properly he -ight be styl:d their purse+bearer tooB there he -ade -e 8eel distinctly7 through their so8t cover7 the contents7 a pair o8 roundish balls7 that see-:d to play within7 and elude all pressure but the tenderest7 8ro- without$ @ut now this visit o8 -y so8t war- hand in those so sensible parts had put every thing into such ungovernable 8ury that7 disdaining all 8urther preluding7 and ta9ing ad+ vantage o8 -y co--odious posture7 he -ade the stor- 8all where 1 scarce patiently expected7 and where he was sure to lay itB presently7 then7 1 8elt the sti88 insertion between the yielding7 divided lips o8 the wound7 now open 8or li8e< where the narrowness no longer put -e to intolerable pain7 and a88orded -y lover no -ore di88iculty than what height+ en:d his pleasure7 in the strict e-brace o8 that tender7 war- sheath7 round the instru-ent it was so delicately ad+ ;usted to7 and which7 now cased ho-e7 so gorged -e with pleasure that it per8ectly su88ocated -e and too9 away -y breath< then the 9illing thrusts> the unnu-ber:d 9isses> every one o8 which was a ;oy inexpressible< and that ;oy lost in a crowd o8 yet greater blisses> @ut this was a disorder too violent in nature to last longB the vessels7 so stirr:d and intensely heated7 soon boil:d over7 and 8or that ti-e put out the 8ire< -eanwhile all this dalliance and disport had so 8ar consu-:d the -orning7 that it beca-e

a 9ind o8 necessity to lay brea98ast and dinner into one$ 1n our cal-er intervals 6harles gave the 8ollowing account o8 hi-sel87 every word o8 which was true$ 0e was the only son o8 a 8ather who7 having a s-all post in the revenue7 rather over+liv:d his inco-e7 and had given this young gentle-an a very slender educationB no pro8ession had he bred hi- up to7 but design:d to provide 8or hi- in the ar-y7 by purchasing hi- an ensign:s co--ission7 that is to say7 provided he could raise the -oney7 or procure it by interest7 either o8 which clauses was rather to be wish:d than hoped 8or by hi-$ 'n no better a plan7 however7 had this i-provident 8ather su88er:d this youth7 a youth o8 great pro-ise7 to run up to the age o8 -anhood7 or near it at least7 in next to idleness< and had7 besides7 ta9en no sort o8 pains to give hi- even the co--on pre-onitions against the vices o8 the town7 and the dangers o8 all sorts7 which wait the unexperienc:d and unwary in it$ 0e liv:d at ho-e7 and at discretion7 with his 8ather7 who hi-sel8 9ept a -istress< and 8or the rest7 provided 6harles did not as9 hi8or -oney7 he was indolently 9ind to hi-B he -ight lie out when he pleas:d< any excuse would serve7 and even his repri+ -ands were so slight that they carried with the- rather an air o8 connivance at the 8ault than any serious control or constraint$ @ut7 to supply his calls 8or -oney7 6harles7 whose -other was dead7 had7 by her side7 a grand-other who doted upon hi-$ &he had a considerable annuity to live on7 and very regularly parted with every shilling she could spare to this darling o8 hers7 to the no little heart+burn o8 his 8ather< who was vex:d7 not that she by this -eans 8ed his son:s extravagance7 but that she pre8err:d 6harles to hi-+ sel8< and we shall too soon see what a 8atal turn such a -ercenary ;ealousy could operate in the breast o8 a 8ather$ 6harles was7 however7 by the -eans o8 his grand+ -other:s lavish 8ondness7 very su88iciently enabled to 9eep a -istress so easily contented as -y love -ade -e< and -y good 8ortune7 8or such 1 -ust ever call it7 threw -e in his way7 in the -anner above related7 ;ust as he was on the loo9+out 8or one$ .s to te-per7 the even sweetness o8 it -ade hi- seeborn 8or do-estic happinessB tender7 naturally polite7 and gentle+-anner:d< it could never be his 8ault i8 ever ;ars or ani-osities ru88led a cal- he was so =uali8ied in every way to -aintain or restore$ Without those great or shining =ualities that constitute a genius7 or are 8it to -a9e a noise in the world7 he had all those hu-ble ones that co-+ pose the so8ter social -eritB plain co--on sense7 set o88 with every grace o8 -odesty and good nature7 -ade hi-7 i8 not ad-ir:d7 what is -uch happier7 universally belov:d and estee-:d$ @ut7 as nothing but the beauties o8 his person had at 8irst attracted -y regard and 8ix:d -y passion7 neither was 1 then a ;udge o8 that internal -erit7 which 1 had a8terward 8ull occasion to discover7 and which perhaps7 in that season o8 giddiness and levity7 would have touch:d -y heart very little7 had it been lodg:d in a person less the delight o8 -y eyes and idol o8 -y senses$ @ut to re+

turn to our situation$ .8ter dinner7 which we ate a+bed in a -ost voluptuous disorder7 6harles got up7 and ta9ing a passionate leave o8 -e 8or a 8ew hours7 he went to town where7 concerting -at+ ters with a young sharp lawyer7 they went together to -y late venerable -istress:s7 8ro- whence 1 had7 but the day be8ore7 -ade -y elope-ent7 and with who- he was deter-in:d to settle accounts in a -anner that should cut o88 all a8ter rec9onings 8ro- that =uarter$ .ccordingly they went< but on the way7 the Te-plar7 his 8riend7 on thin9ing over 6harles:s in8or-ation7 saw reason to give their visit another turn7 and7 instead o8 o88ering satis8action7 to de-and it$ 'n being let in7 the girls o8 the house 8loc9:d round 6harles7 who- they 9new7 and 8ro- the earliness o8 -y escape7 and their per8ect ignorance o8 his ever having so -uch as seen -e7 not having the least suspicion o8 his being accessory to -y 8light7 they were7 in their way7 -a9ing up to hi-< and as to his co-panion7 they too9 hiprobably 8or a 8resh cully$ @ut the Te-plar soon chec9:d their 8orwardness7 by en=uiring 8or the old lady7 with who-7 he said7 with a grave ;udge+li9e countenance7 that he had so-e business to settle$ 2ada- was i--ediately sent down 8or7 and the ladies being desir:d to clear the roo-7 the lawyer as9:d her7 severely7 i8 she did 9now7 or had not decoy:d7 under pre+ tence o8 hiring as a servant7 a young girl7 ;ust co-e out o8 the country7 called F(.N63& or F.NN/ 01%%7 describing -e withal as particularly as he could 8ro- 6harles:s des+ cription$ 1t is peculiar to vice to tre-ble at the en=uiries o8 ;ustice< and 2rs$ @rown7 whose conscience was not entirely clear upon -y account7 as 9nowing as she was o8 the town7 as hac9ney:s as she was in blu88ing through all the dangers o8 her vocation7 could not help being alar-:d at the =ues+ tion7 especially when he went on to tal9 o8 a 5ustice o8 peace7 Newgate7 the 'ld @ailey7 indict-ents 8or 9eeping a disorderly house7 pillory7 carting7 and the whole process o8 that nature$ &he7 who7 it is li9ely7 i-agin:d 1 had lodg:d an in8or-ation against her house7 loo9:d extre-ely blan97 and began to -a9e a thousand protestations and excuses$ 0owever7 to abridge7 they brought away triu-+ phantly -y box o8 things7 which7 had she not been under an awe7 she -ight have disputed with the-< and not only that< but a clearance and discharge o8 any de-ands on the house7 at the expense o8 no -ore than a bowl o8 arrac9+punch7 the treat o8 which7 together with the choice o8 the house con+ veniences7 was o88er:d and not accepted$ 6harles all the ti-e acted the chance+co-panion o8 the lawyer7 who had brought hi- there7 as he 9new the house7 and appear:d in no wise interested in the issue< but he had the collateral pleasure o8 hearing all that 1 had told hi- veri8ied7 so 8ar as the bawd:s 8ears would give her leave to enter into

-y history7 which7 i8 one -ay guess by the co-position she so readily ca-e into7 were not s-all$ Phoebe7 -y 9ind tutoress Phoebe7 was at that ti-e gone out7 perhaps in search o8 -e7 or their coo9:d+up story had not7 it is probable7 pass:d so s-oothly$ This negotiation had7 however7 ta9en up so-e ti-e7 which would have appear:d -uch longer to -e7 le8t as 1 was7 in a strange house7 i8 the landlady7 a -otherly sort o8 a wo-an7 to who- 6harles had liberally reco--ended -e7 had not co-e up and borne -e co-pany$ We dran9 tea7 and her chat help:d to pass away the ti-e very agreeably7 since he was our the-e< but as the evening deepened7 and the hour set 8or his return was elaps:d7 1 could not dispel the gloo- o8 i-patience and tender 8ears which gathered upon -e7 and which our ti-id sex are apt to 8eel in proportion to their love$ %ong7 however7 1 did not su88erB the sight o8 hiover+paid -e< and the so8t reproach 1 had prepar:d 8or hiexpired be8ore it reach:d -y lips$ 1 was still a+bed7 yet unable to use -y legs otherwise than aw9wardly7 and 6harles 8lew to -e7 catched -e in his ar-s7 rais:d and extending -ine to -eet his dear e-brace7 and gives -e an account7 interrupted by -any a sweet paren+ thesis o8 9isses7 o8 the success o8 his -easures$ 1 could not help laughing at the 8right the old wo-an had been put into7 which -y ignorance7 and indeed -y want o8 innocence7 had 8ar 8ro- prepar:d -e 8or bespea9ing$ &he had7 it see-s7 apprehended that 1 8led 8or shelter to so-e relation 1 had recollected in town7 on -y disli9e o8 their ways and proceeding towards -e7 and that this application ca-e 8ro- thence< 8or7 as 6harles had rightly ;udg:d not one neighbour had7 at that still hour7 seen the circu-+ stance o8 -y escape into the coach7 or7 at least7 notic:d hi-< neither had any in the house the least hint or clue o8 suspicion o8 -y having spo9e to hi-7 -uch less o8 -y having clapt up such a sudden bargain with a per8ect strangerB thus the greatest i-probability is not always what we should -ost -istrust$ We supped with all the gaiety o8 two young giddy crea+ tures at the top o8 their desires< and as 1 had -ost ;oy+ 8ully given up to 6harles the whole charge o8 -y 8uture happiness7 1 thought o8 nothing beyond the ex=uisite plea+ sure o8 possessing hi-$ 0e ca-e to bed in due ti-e< and this second night7 the pain being pretty well over7 1 tasted7 in 8ull draughts7 all the transports o8 per8ect en;oy-entB 1 swa-7 1 bathed in bliss7 till both 8ell 8ast asleep7 through the natural con+ se=uences o8 satis8ied desires7 and appeas:d 8la-es< nor did we wa9e but to renew:d raptures$ Thus7 -a9ing the -ost o8 love and li8e7 did we stay in

this lodging in 6helsea about ten days< in which ti-e 6harles too9 care to give his excursions 8ro- ho-e a 8avourable gloss7 and to 9eep his 8ooting with his 8ond indulgent grand-other7 8ro- who- he drew constant and su88icient supplies 8or the charge 1 was to hi-7 and which was very tri8ling7 in co-pari+ sion with his 8or-er less regular course o8 pleasures$ 6harles re-ov:d -e then to a private ready 8urnish:d lodging in D $ $ $ street7 &t$ 5a-es:s7 where he paid hal8 a guinea a wee9 8or two roo-s and a closet on the second 8loor7 which he had been so-e ti-e loo9ing out 8or7 and was -ore convenient 8or the 8re=uency o8 his visits than where he had at 8irst plac:d -e7 in a house which 1 cannot say but 1 le8t with regret7 as it was in8initely endear:d to -e by the 8irst possession o8 -y 6harles7 and the circu-stance o8 losing7 there7 that ;ewel which can never be twice lost$ The landlord7 however7 had no reason to co-plain o8 any thing7 but o8 a procedure in 6harles too liberal not to -a9e hi- regret the loss o8 us$ .rrived at our new lodgings7 1 re-e-ber 1 thought theextre-ely 8ine7 though ordinary enough7 even at that price< but7 had it been a dungeon that 6harles had brought -e to7 his presence would have -ade it a little Dersailles$ The landlady7 2rs$ 5ones7 waited on us to our apart+ -ent7 and with great volubility o8 tongue explain:d to us all its conveniences++that her own -aid should wait on us $ $ $ that the best o8 =uality had lodg:d at her house $ $ $ that her 8irst 8loor was let to a 8oreign secretary o8 an e-bassy7 and his lady $ $ $ that 1 loo9ed li9e a very good+ natur:d lady$ $ $ $ .t the word lady7 1 blush:d out o8 8latter:d vanityB this was too strong 8or a girl o8 -y con+ dition< 8or though 6harles had had the precaution o8 dressing -e in a less tawdry 8launting style than were the cloaths 1 escap:d to hi- in7 and o8 passing -e 8or his wi8e7 that he had secretly -arried7 and 9ept private (the old story) on account o8 his 8riends7 1 dare swear this appear:d extre-ely apocryphal to a wo-an who 9new the town so well as she did< but that was the least o8 her concern$ 1t was i-possible to be less scruple+ridden than she was< and the advantage o8 letting her roo-s being her sole ob;ect7 the truth itsel8 would have 8ar 8ro- scandaliz:d her7 or bro9e her bargain$ . s9etch o8 her picture7 and personal history7 will dis+ pose you to account 8or the part she is to act in -y concerns$ &he was about 8orty+six years old7 tall7 -eagre7 red+ hair:d7 with one o8 those trivial ordinary 8aces you -eet with everywhere7 and go about unheeded and un-entioned$ 1n her youth she had been 9ept by a gentle-an who7 dying7 le8t her 8orty pounds a year during her li8e7 in consideration o8 a daughter he had by her< which daughter7 at the age o8 seven+teen7 she sold7 8or not a very considerable su- nei+ ther7 to a gentle-an who was going on 3nvoy abroad7 and too9 his purchase with hi-7 where he us:d her with the ut-ost tenderness7 and it is thought7 was secretly -arried to herB but had constantly -ade a point o8 her not 9eeping up the

least correspondence with a -other base enough to -a9e a -ar9et o8 her own 8lesh and blood$ 0owever7 as she had no nature7 nor7 indeed7 any passion but that o8 -oney7 this gave her no 8urther uneasiness7 than7 as she thereby lost a handle o8 s=ueezing presents7 or other a8ter+advantages7 out o8 the bargain$ 1ndi88erent then7 by nature o8 constitution7 to every other pleasure but that o8 increasing the lu-p by any -eans whatever7 she co--enc:d a 9ind o8 private procur+ ess7 8or which she was not a-iss 8itted7 by her grave decent appearance7 and so-eti-es did a ;ob in the -atch+-a9ing way< in short7 there was nothing that appear:d to her under the shape o8 gain that she would not have underta9en$ &he 9new -ost o8 the ways o8 the town7 having not only hersel8 been upon7 but 9ept up constant intelligences in it7 dealing7 be+ sides her practice in pro-oting a har-ony between the two sexes7 in private pawn+bro9ing and other pro8itable secrets$ &he rented the house she liv:d in7 and -ade the -ost o8 it by letting it out in lodgings< though she was worth7 at least7 near three or 8our thousand pounds7 she would not allow hersel8 even the necessaries o8 li8e7 and pinn:d her subsistence entirely on what she could s=ueeze out o8 her lodgers$ When she saw such a young pair co-e under her roo87 her i--ediate notions7 doubtless7 were how she should -a9e the -ost -oney o8 us7 by every -eans that -oney -ight be -ade7 and which7 she rightly ;udged7 our situation and inexperience would soon beget her occasions o8$ 1n this hope8ul sanctuary7 and under the clutches o8 this harpy7 did we pitch our residence$ 1t will not be -ighty -aterial to you7 or very pleasant to -e7 to enter into a detail o8 all the petty cut+throat ways and -eans with which she used to 8leece us< all which 6harles indol+ ently chose to bear with7 rather than ta9e the trouble o8 re-oving7 the di88erence o8 expense being scarce attended to by a young gentle-an who had no idea o8 stint7 or even o8 econo-y7 and a raw country girl who 9new nothing o8 the -atter$ 0ere7 however7 under the wings o8 -y sovereignly belov:d7 did 1 8low the -ost delicious hours o8 -y li8e< -y 6harles 1 had7 and7 in hi-7 everything -y 8ond heart could wish or desire$ 0e carried -e to plays7 operas7 -as=uerades7 and every diversion o8 the town< all o8 which pleas:d -e indeed7 but pleas:d -e in8initely the -ore 8or his being with -e7 and explaining everything to -e7 and en;oying7 perhaps7 the natural i-pressions o8 surprize and ad-iration7 which such sights7 at the 8irst7 never 8ail to excite in a country girl7 new to the delights o8 the-< but to -e7 they sensibly prov:d the power and 8ull do-inion o8 the sole passion o8 -y heart over -e7 a passion in which soul and body were concentre:d7 and le8t -e no roo- 8or any other relish o8 li8e but love$ .s to the -en 1 saw at those places7 or at any other7 they su88er:d so -uch in the co-parison -y eyes -ade o8 the- with -y all+per8ect .donis7 that 1 had not the in8idel+

ity even o8 one wandering thought to reproach -ysel8 with upon his account$ 0e was the universe to -e7 and all that was not hi- was nothing to -e$ 2y love7 in 8ine7 was so excessive7 that it arriv:d at annihilating every suggestion or 9indling spar9 o8 ;ealousy< 8or7 one idea only tending that way7 gave -e such ex=uisite tor-ent that -y sel8+love7 and dread o8 worse than death7 -ade -e 8or ever renounce and de8y itB nor had 17 indeed7 occasion< 8or7 were 1 to enter here on the recital o8 sev+ eral instances wherein 6harles sacri8ic:d to -e wo-en o8 greater i-portance than 1 dare hint (which7 considering his 8or-7 was no such wonder)7 1 -ight7 indeed7 give you 8ull proo8 o8 his unsha9en constancy to -e< but would not you accuse -e o8 war-ing up again a 8east that -y vanity ought long ago to have been satis8y:d withE 1n our cessations 8ro- active pleasure7 6harles 8ra-:d hi-sel8 one7 in instructing -e7 as 8ar as his own lights reach:d7 in a great -any points o8 li8e that 1 was7 in con+ se=uence o8 -y no+education7 per8ectly ignorant o8B nor did 1 su88er one word to 8all in vain 8ro- the -outh o8 -y love+ ly teacherB 1 hung on every syllable he utter:d7 and re+ ceiv:d as oracles7 all he said< whilst 9isses were all the interruption 1 could not re8use -ysel8 the pleasure o8 ad+ -itting7 8ro- lips that breath:d -ore than .rabian sweetness$ 1 was in a little ti-e enabled7 by the progress 1 had -ade7 to prove the deep regard 1 had paid to all that he had said to -eB repeating it to hi- al-ost word 8or word< and to shew that 1 was not entirely the parrot7 but that 1 re8lected upon7 that 1 enter:d into it7 1 ;oin:d -y own co--ents7 and as9:d hi- =uestions o8 explanation$ 2y country accent7 and the rusticity o8 -y gait7 -an+ ners7 and deport-ent7 began now sensibly to wear o887 so =uic9 was -y observation7 and so e88icacious -y desire o8 growing every day worthier o8 his heart$ .s to -oney7 though he brought -e constantly all he receiv:d7 it was with di88iculty he even got -e to give it roo- in -y bureau< and what clothes 1 had7 he could prevail on -e to accept o8 on no other 8oot than that o8 pleasing hi- by the greater neatness in -y dress7 beyond which 1 had no a-bition$ 1 could have -ade a pleasure o8 the greatest toil7 and wor9ed -y 8ingers to the bone7 with ;oy7 to have supported hi-B guess7 then7 i8 1 could harbour any idea o8 being burdenso-e to hi-7 and this disinterested turn in -e was so una88ected7 so -uch the dictate o8 -y heart7 that 6harles could not but 8eel itB and i8 he did not love -e as 1 did hi- (which was the constant and only -atter o8 sweet contention between us)7 he -anag:d so7 at least7 as to give -e the satis8action o8 believing it i-possible 8or -an to be -ore tender7 -ore true7 -ore 8aith8ul than he was$

'ur landlady7 2rs$ 5ones7 ca-e 8re=uently up to -y apart-ent7 8ro- whence 1 never stirr:d on any pretext with+ out 6harles< nor was it long be8ore she wor-:d out7 without -uch art7 the secret o8 our having cheated the church o8 a cere-ony7 and7 in course7 o8 the ter-s we liv:d together upon< a circu-stance which 8ar 8ro- displeas:d her7 con+ sidering the designs she had upon -e7 and which7 alas> she will7 too soon7 have roo- to carry into execution$ @ut in the -ean ti-e7 her own experience o8 li8e let her see that any atte-pt7 however indirect or disguis:d to divert or brea97 at least presently7 so strong a ce-ent o8 hearts as ours was7 could only end in losing two lodgers7 o8 whoshe -ade very co-petent advantages7 i8 either o8 us ca-e to s-o9e her co--ission< 8or a co--ission she had 8ro- one o8 her custo-ers7 either to debauch7 or get -e away 8ro-y 9eeper at any rate$ @ut the barbarity o8 -y 8ate soon sav:d her the tas9 o8 disuniting us$ 1 had now been eleven -onths with this li8e o8 -y li8e7 which had passed in one continu:d rapid strea- o8 delightB but nothing so violent was ever -ade to last$ 1 was about three -onths gone with child by hi-7 a circu-stance which would have added to his tenderness had he ever le8t -e roo- to believe it could receive an addi+ tion7 when the -ortal7 the unexpected blow o8 separation 8ell upon us$ 1 shall gallop post over the particulars7 which 1 shudder yet to thin9 o87 and cannot to this instant reconcile -ysel8 how7 or by what -eans7 1 could out+live it$ Two li8e+long days had 1 linger:d through without hearing 8ro- hi-7 1 who breath:d7 who existed but in hi-7 and had never yet seen twenty+8our hours pass without seeing or hearing 8ro- hi-$ The third day -y i-patience was so strong7 -y alar-s had been so severe7 that 1 per8ectly sic9en:d with the-< and being unable to support the shoc9 longer7 1 sun9 upon the bed and ringing 8or 2rs$ 5ones7 who had 8ar 8ro- co-8orted -e under -y anxieties7 she ca-e up$ 1 had scarce breath and spirit enough to 8ind words to beg o8 her7 i8 she would save -y li8e7 to 8all upon so-e -eans o8 8inding out7 instantly7 what was beco-e o8 its only prop and co-8ort$ &he pity:d -e in a way that rather sharpen:d -y a88liction than suspended it7 and went out upon this co--ission$ Far she had not to goB 6harles:s 8ather lived but at an easy distance7 in one o8 the streets that run into 6ovent ?arden$ There she went into a public9 house7 and 8rothence sent 8or a -aid+servant7 whose na-e 1 had given her7 as the properest to in8or- her$ The -aid readily ca-e7 and as readily7 when 2rs$ 5ones en=uir:d o8 her what was beco-e o8 2r$ 6harles7 or whether he was gone out o8 town7 ac=uainted her with the disposal o8 her -aster:s son7 which7 the very day a8ter7 was no secret to the servants$ &uch sure -easures had he ta9en7 8or the -ost cruel punish-ent o8 his child 8or having -ore interest with his grand-other than he had7 though he -ade use o8 a

pretense7 plausible enough7 to get rid o8 hi- in this secret and abrupt -anner7 8or 8ear her 8ondness should have inter+ pos:d a bar to his leaving 3ngland7 and proceeding on a voyage he had concerted 8or hi-< which pretext was7 that it was indispensably necessary to secure a considerable inheri+ tance that devolv:d to hi- by the death o8 a rich -erchant (his own brother) at one o8 the 8actories in the &outh+&eas7 o8 which he had lately receiv:d advice7 together with a copy o8 the will$ 1n conse=uence o8 which resolution to send away his son7 he had7 un9nown to hi-7 -ade the necessary preparations 8or 8itting hi- out7 struc9 a bargain with the captain o8 a ship7 whose punctual execution o8 his orders he had secured7 by his interest with his principal owner and patron< and7 in short7 concerted his -easures so secretly and e88ectually that whilst his son thought he was going down the river 8or a 8ew hours7 he was stopt on board o8 a ship7 debar:d 8ro- writing7 and -ore strictly watch:d than a &tate cri-inal$ Thus was the idol o8 -y soul torn 8ro- -e7 and 8orc:d on a long voyage7 without ta9ing o8 one 8riend7 or receiving one line o8 co-8ort7 except a dry explanation and instructions7 8ro- his 8ather7 how to proceed when he should arrive at his destin:d port7 enclosing7 withal7 so-e letters o8 reco--enda+ tion to a 8actor thereB all these particulars 1 did not learn -inutely till so-e ti-e a8ter$ The -aid7 at the sa-e ti-e7 added that she was sure this usage o8 her sweet young -aster would be the death o8 his grand+-a-a7 as indeed it prov:d true< 8or the old lady7 on hearing it7 did not survive the news a whole -onth< and as her 8ortune consisted in an annuity7 out o8 which she had laid up no reserves7 she le8t nothing worth -entioning to her so 8atally envied darling7 but absolutely re8us:d to see his 8ather be8ore she died$ When 2rs$ 5ones return:d and 1 observ:d her loo9s7 they see-:d so unconcern:d7 and even near to pleas:d7 that 1 hal8 8latter:d -ysel8 she was going to set -y tortur:d heart at ease by bringing -e good news< but this7 indeed7 was a cruel delusion o8 hopeB the barbarian7 with all the coolness i-ag+ inable7 stab:d -e to the heart7 in telling -e7 succinctly7 that he was sent away at least on a 8our years: voyage (here she stretch:d -aliciously)7 and that 1 could not expect7 in reason7 ever to see hi- againB and all this with such pre+ nant circu-stances that 1 could not help giving the- credit7 as in general they were7 indeed7 too true> &he had hardly 8inish:d her report be8ore 1 8ainted away and a8ter several successive 8its7 all the while wild and senseless7 1 -iscarried o8 the dear pledge o8 -y 6harles:s loveB but the wretched never die when it is 8ittest they should die7 and wo-en are hard+liv:d to a proverb$ The cruel and interested care ta9en to recover -e sav:d an odious li8eB which7 instead o8 the happiness and ;oys it

had over8low:d in7 all o8 a sudden presented no view be8ore -e o8 any thing but the depth o8 -isery7 horror7 and the sharpest a88liction$ Thus 1 lay six wee9s7 in the struggles o8 youth and constitution7 against the 8riendly e88orts o8 death7 which 1 constantly invo9ed to -y relie8 and deliverance7 but which proving too wea9 8or -y wish7 1 recovered at length7 tho: into a state o8 stupe8action and despair that threatened -e with the loss o8 -y senses7 and a -ad+house$ Ti-e7 however7 that great co-8orter in ordinary7 began to assuage the violence o8 -y su88erings7 and to nu-b -y 8eeling o8 the-$ 2y health return:d to -e7 though 1 still retain:d an air o8 grie87 de;ection7 and languor7 which ta9ing o88 the ruddiness o8 -y country co-plexion7 render:d it rather -ore delicate and a88ecting$ The landlady had all this while o88iciously provided7 and ta9en care that 1 wanted 8or nothingB and as soon as she saw -e retriev:d into a condition o8 answering her purpose7 one day7 a8ter we had dined together7 she congratulated -e on -y recovery7 the -erit o8 which she too9 entirely to her+ sel87 and all this by way o8 introduction to a -ost terrible and scurvy epilogueB C/ou are now7C says she7 C2iss Fanny7 tolerably well7 and you are very welco-e to stay in the lodg+ ings as long as you please< you see 1 have as9:d you 8or nothing this long ti-e7 but truly 1 have a call to -a9e up a su- o8 -oney7 which -ust be answer:d$C .nd7 with that7 pre+ sents -e with a bill o8 arrears 8or rent7 diet7 apothecary:s charges7 nurse7 etc$7 su- total twenty+three pounds7 seven+ teen and six+penceB towards discharging o8 which7 1 had not in the world (which she well 9new) -ore than seven guineas7 le8t by chance7 o8 -y dear 6harles:s co--on stoc9 with -e$ .t the sa-e ti-e7 she desir:d -e to tell her what course 1 would ta9e 8or pay-ent$ 1 burst out into a 8lood o8 tears and told her -y condition< adding that 1 would sell what 8ew cloaths 1 had7 and that7 8or the rest7 1 would pay her as soon as possible$ @ut -y distress7 being 8avourable to her views7 only sti88en:d her the -ore$ &he told -e7 very coolly7 that Cshe was indeed sorry 8or -y -is8ortunes7 but that she -ust do hersel8 ;ustice7 though it would go to the very heart o8 her to send such a tender young creature to prison $ $ $C .t the word Cprison>C every drop o8 -y blood chill:d7 and -y 8right acted so strongly upon -e7 that7 turning as pale and 8aint as a cri-inal at the 8irst sight o8 his place o8 execution7 1 was on the point o8 swooning$ 2y landlady7 who wanted only to terri8y -e to a certain point7 and not to throw -e into a state o8 body inconsistent with her designs upon it7 began to soothe -e again7 and told -e7 in a tone co-pos:d to -ore pity and gentleness7 that it would be -y own 8ault7 i8 she was 8orc:d to proceed to such extre-ities< but she believ:d there was a 8riend to be 8ound in the world who would -a9e up -atters to both our satis8actions7 and that she would bring hi- to drin9 tea with us that very a8ternoon7 when she hoped we would co-e to a right understanding in our a88airs$ To all

this7 not a word o8 answer< 1 sat -ute7 con8ounded7 terri8y:d$ 2rs$ 5ones however7 ;udging rightly that it was ti-e to stri9e while the i-pressions were so strong upon -e7 le8t -e to -y sel8 and to all the terrors o8 an i-agination7 wounded to death by the idea o8 going to a prison7 and7 8ro- a prin+ ciple o8 sel8+preservation7 snatching at every gli-pse o8 rede-ption 8ro- it$ 1n this situation 1 sat near hal8 an hour7 swallow:d up in grie8 and despair7 when -y landlady ca-e in7 and obser+ ving a death+li9e de;ection in -y countenance and still in pursuance o8 her plan7 put on a 8alse pity7 and bidding -e be o8 a good heartB Things7 she said7 would not be so bad as 1 i-agined i8 1 would be but -y own 8riend< and closed with telling -e she had brought a very honourable gentle-an to drin9 tea with -e7 who would give -e the best advice how to get rid o8 all -y troubles$ 4pon which7 without waiting 8or a reply7 she goes out7 and returns with this very hon+ ourable gentle-an7 whose very honourable procuress she had been7 on this as well as other occasions$ The gentle-an7 on his entering the roo-7 -ade -e a very civil bow7 which 1 had scarce strength7 or presence o8 -ind enough to return a curtsy to< when the landlady7 ta9ing upon her to do all the honours o8 the 8irst interview (8or 1 had never7 that 1 re-e-ber:d7 seen the gentle-an be8ore)7 sets a chair 8or hi-7 and another 8or hersel8$ .ll this while not a word on either side< a stupid stare was all the 8ace 1 could put on this strange visit$ The tea was -ade7 and the landlady7 unwilling7 1 sup+ pose7 to lose any ti-e7 observing -y silence and shyness be8ore this entire strangerB C6o-e7 2iss Fanny7C says she7 in a coarse 8a-iliar style7 and tone o8 authority7 Chold up your head7 child7 and do not let sorrow spoil that pretty 8ace o8 yours$ What> sorrows are only 8or a ti-e< co-e7 be 8ree7 here is a worthy gentle-an who has heard o8 your -is+ 8ortunes and is willing to serve you< you -ust be better ac=uainted with hi-< do not you now stand upon your punc+ tilio:s7 and this and that7 but -a9e your -ar9et while you -ay$C .t this so delicate and elo=uent harangue7 the gentle+ -an7 who saw 1 loo9:d 8righted and a-az:d7 and indeed7 in+ capable o8 answering7 too9 her up 8or brea9ing things in so abrupt a -anner7 as rather to shoc9 than incline -e to an acceptance o8 the good he intended -e< then7 addressing hi-sel8 to -e7 told -e he was per8ectly ac=uainted with -y whole story and every circu-stance o8 -y distress7 which he own:d was a cruel plunge 8or one o8 -y youth and beauty to 8all into< that he had long ta9en a li9ing to -y person7 8or which he appeal:d to 2rs$ 5ones7 there present7 but 8inding -e so absolutely engag:d to another7 he had lost all hopes o8 succeeding till he had heard the sudden reverse o8 8ortune that had happen:d to -e7 on which he had given par+ ticular orders to -y landlady to see that 1 should want 8or nothing< and that7 had he not been 8orc:d abroad to The

0ague7 on a88airs he could not re8use hi-sel8 to7 he would hi-sel8 have attended -e during -y sic9ness< that on his return7 which was but the day be8ore7 he had7 on learning -y recovery7 desir:d -y landlady:s good o88ices to introduce hi- to -e7 and was as angry7 at least7 as 1 was shoc9:d7 at the -anner in which she had conducted hersel8 towards ob+ taining hi- that happiness< but7 that to shew -e how -uch he disown:d her procedure7 and how 8ar he was 8ro- ta9ing any ungenerous advantage o8 -y situation7 and 8ro- exacting any security 8or -y gratitude7 he would be8ore -y 8ace7 that instant7 discharge -y debt entirely to -y landlady and give -e her receipt in 8ull< a8ter which 1 should be at liberty either to re;ect or grant his suit7 as he was -uch above putting any 8orce upon -y inclinations$ Whilst he was exposing his senti-ents to -e7 1 ventur:d ;ust to loo9 up to hi-7 and observed his 8igure7 which was that o8 a very sightly gentle-an7 well -ade7 about 8orty7 drest in a suit o8 plain cloaths7 with a large dia-ond ring on one o8 his 8ingers7 the lustre o8 which play:d in -y eyes as he wav:d his hand in tal9ing7 and rais:d -y notions o8 his i-portance$ 1n short7 he -ight pass 8or what is co--only call:d a co-ely blac9 -an7 with an air o8 distinction natural to his birth and condition$ To all his speeches7 however7 1 answer:d only in tears that 8low:d plenti8ully to -y relie87 and cho9ing up -y voice7 excus:d -e 8ro- spea9ing7 very luc9ily7 8or 1 should not have 9nown what to say$ The sight7 however7 -ov:d hi-7 as he a8terwards told -e7 irresistibly7 and by way o8 giving -e so-e reason to be less power8ully a88licted7 he drew out his purse7 and calling 8or pen and in97 which the landlady was prepar:d 8or7 paid her every 8arthing o8 her de-and7 independent o8 a liberal gra+ ti8ication which was to 8ollow un9nown to -e< and ta9ing a receipt in 8ull7 very tenderly 8orc:d -e to secure it7 by guiding -y hand7 which he had thrust it into7 so as to -a9e -e passively put it into -y poc9et$ &till 1 continued in a state o8 stupidity7 or -elan+ choly despair7 as -y spirits could not yet recover 8ro- the violent shoc9s they had receiv:d< and the acco--odating landlady had actually le8t the roo-7 and -e alone with this strange gentle-an7 be8ore 1 observ:d it7 and then 1 observ:d it without alar-7 8or 1 was now li8eless and indi88erent to everything$ The gentle-an7 however7 no novice in a88airs o8 this sort7 drew near -e< and under the pretence o8 co-8orting -e7 8irst with his hand9erchie8 dried -y tears as they ran down -y chee9sB presently he ventur:d to 9iss -eB on -y part7 neither resistance nor co-pliance$ 1 sat stoc9+still< and now loo9ing on -ysel8 as bought by the pay-ent that had been transacted be8ore -e7 1 did not care what beca-e o8 -y wretched bodyB and7 wanting li8e7 spirits7 or courage to oppose the least struggle7 even that o8 the -odesty o8 -y sex7 1 su88er:d7 ta-ely7 whatever the gentle-an pleased< who

proceeding insensibly 8ro- 8reedo- to 8reedo-7 insinuated his hand between -y hand9erchie8 and boso-7 which he handled at discretionB 8inding thus no repulse7 and that every thing 8avour:d7 beyond expectation7 the co-pletion o8 his desires7 he too9 -e in his ar-s7 and bore -e7 without li8e or -otion7 to the bed7 on which laying -e gently down7 and having -e at what advantage he pleas:d7 1 did not so -uch as 9now what he was about7 till recovering 8ro- a trance o8 li8eless insen+ sibility7 1 8ound hi- buried in -e7 whilst 1 lay passive and innocent o8 the least sensation o8 pleasureB a death+cold corpse could scarce have less li8e or sense in it$ .s soon as he had thus paci8ied a passion which had too little re+ spected the condition 1 was in7 he got o887 and a8ter re+ co-posing the disorder o8 -y cloaths7 e-ploy:d hi-sel8 with the ut-ost tenderness to cal- the transports o8 re-orse and -adness at -ysel8 with which 1 was seized7 too late7 1 con+ 8ess7 8or having su88er:d on that bed the e-braces o8 an utter stranger$ 1 tore -y hair7 wrung -y hands7 and beat -y breast li9e a -ad+wo-an$ @ut when -y new -aster7 8or in that light 1 then view:d hi-7 applied hi-sel8 to appease -e7 as -y whole rage was levell:d at -ysel87 no part o8 which 1 thought -ysel8 per-itted to ai- at hi-7 1 begged o8 hi-7 with -ore sub-ission than anger7 to leave -e alone that 1 -ight7 at least7 en;oy -y a88liction in =uiet$ This he positively re8used7 8or 8ear7 as he pretended7 1 should do -ysel8 a -ischie8$ Diolent passions seldo- last long7 and those o8 wo-en least o8 any$ . dead still cal- succeeded this stor-7 which ended in a pro8use shower o8 tears$ 0ad any one7 but a 8ew instants be8ore7 told -e that 1 should have ever 9nown any -an but 6harles7 1 would have spit in his 8ace< or had 1 been o88er:d in8initely a greater su- o8 -oney than that 1 saw paid 8or -e7 1 had spurn:d the proposal in cold blood$ @ut our virtues and our vices depend too -uch on our circu-stances< unexpectedly beset as 1 was7 betray:d by a -ind wea9ened by a long severe a88lic+ tion7 and stunn:d with the terrors o8 a ;ail7 -y de8eat will appear the -ore excusable7 since 1 certainly was not present at7 or a party in any sense7 to it$ 0owever7 as the 8irst en;oy-ent is decisive7 and he was now over the bar7 1 thought 1 had no longer a right to re8use the caresses o8 one that had got that advantage over -e7 no -atter how ob+ tain:d< con8or-ing -ysel8 then to this -axi-7 1 consider:d -ysel8 as so -uch in his power that 1 endur:d his 9isses and e-braces without a88ecting struggles or anger< not that they7 as yet7 gave -e any pleasure7 or prevail:d over the aversion o8 -y soul to give -ysel8 up to any sensation o8 that sort< what 1 su88er:d7 1 su88er:d out o8 a 9ind o8 gratitude7 and as a -atter o8 course a8ter what had pass:d$ 0e was7 however7 so regard8ul as not to atte-pt the re+ newal o8 those extre-ities which had thrown -e7 ;ust be8ore7 into such violent agitations< but7 now secure o8 possession7 contented hi-sel8 with bringing -e to te-per by degrees7 and waiting at the hand o8 ti-e 8or those 8ruits o8 generosity and courtship which he since o8ten reproach:d hi-sel8 with

having gather:d -uch too green7 when7 yielding to the invi+ tations o8 -y inability to resist hi-7 and overborne by desires7 he had wrea9:d his passion on a -ere li8eless7 spiritless body dead to all purposes o8 ;oy7 since7 ta9ing none7 it ought to be suppos:d incapable o8 giving any$ This is7 however7 certain< -y heart never thoroughly 8orgave hithe -anner in which 1 had 8allen to hi-7 although7 in point o8 interest7 1 had reason to be pleas:d that he 8ound7 in -y person7 wherewithal to 9eep hi- 8ro- leaving -e as easily as he had gained -e$ The evening was7 in the -ean ti-e7 so 8ar advanc:d7 that the -aid ca-e in to lay the cloth 8or supper7 when 1 under+ stood7 with ;oy7 that -y landlady7 whose sight was present poison to -e7 was not to be with us$ Presently a neat and elegant supper was introduc:d7 and a bottle o8 @urgundy7 with the other necessaries7 were set on a du-b+waiter$ The -aid =uitting the roo-7 the gentle-an insisted7 with a tender war-th7 that 1 should sit up in the elbow chair by the 8ire7 and see hi- eat i8 1 could not be prevailed on to eat -ysel8$ 1 obey:d with a heart 8ull o8 a88liction7 at the co-parison it -ade between those delicious tete+a+tetes with -y ever dear youth7 and this 8orc:d situation7 this new aw9ward scene7 i-pos:d and obtruded on -e by cruel necessity$ .t supper7 a8ter a great -any argu-ents used to co-8ort and reconcile -e to -y 8ate7 he told -e that his na-e was 0 $ $ $ 7 brother to the 3arl o8 % $ $ $ and that having7 by the suggestions o8 -y landlady7 been led to see -e7 he had 8ound -e per8ectly to his taste and given her a co--ission to procure -e at any rate7 and that he had at length suc+ ceeded7 as -uch to his satis8action as he passionately wished it -ight be to -ine< adding7 withal7 so-e 8lattering assurances that 1 should have no cause to repent -y 9now+ ledge o8 hi-$ 1 had now got down at -ost hal8 a partridge7 and three or 8our glasses o8 wine7 which he co-pelled -e to drin9 by way o8 restoring nature< but whether there was anything ex+ traordinary put into the wine7 or whether there wanted no -ore to revive the natural war-th o8 -y constitution and give 8ire to the old train7 1 began no longer to loo9 with that constraint7 not to say disgust7 on 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 which 1 had hitherto done< but7 withal7 there was not the least grain o8 love -ix:d with this so8tening o8 -y senti-entsB any other -an would have been ;ust the sa-e to -e as 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 that stood in the sa-e circu-stances and had done 8or -e7 and with -e7 what he had done$ There are not7 on earth at least7 eternal grie8s< -ine were7 i8 not at an end7 at least suspendedB -y heart7 which had been so long overloaded with anguish and vexation7 began to dilate and open to the least glea- o8 diversion or a-use+ -ent$ 1 wept a little7 and -y tears reliev:d -e< 1 sigh:d7 and -y sighs see-:d to lighten -e o8 a load that oppress:d

-e< -y countenance grew7 i8 not cheer8ul7 at least -ore co-pos:d and 8ree$ 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 who had watched7 perhaps brought on this change7 9new too well not to seize it< he thrust the table i-perceptibly 8ro- between us7 and bringing his chair to 8ace -e7 he soon began7 a8ter preparing -e by all the en+ dear-ents o8 assurances and protestations7 to lay hold o8 -y hands7 to 9iss -e7 and once -ore to -a9e 8ree with -y boso-7 which7 being at 8ull liberty 8ro- the disorder o8 a loose dishabille7 now panted and throbb:d7 less with in+ dignation than with 8ear and bash8ulness at being used so 8a-iliarly by still a stranger$ @ut he soon gave -e greater occasion to exclai-7 by stooping down and slipping his hand above -y gartersB thence he strove to regain the pass7 which he had be8ore 8ound so open7 and unguardedB but not he could not unloc9 the twist o8 -y thighs< 1 gently co-plained7 and begg:d hi- to let -e alone< told hi- 1 was now well$ 0owever7 as he saw there was -ore 8or- and cere+ -ony in -y resistance than good earnest7 he -ade his condi+ tions 8or desisting 8ro- pursuing his point that 1 should be put instantly to bed7 whilst he gave certain orders to the landlady7 and that he would return in an hour7 when he hoped to 8ind -e -ore recondil:d to his passion 8or -e than 1 see-:d at present$ 1 neither assented nor deny:d7 but -y air and -anner o8 receiving this proposal gave hito see that 1 did not thin9 -ysel8 enough -y own -istress to re8use it$ .ccordingly he went out and le8t -e7 when7 a -inute or two a8ter7 be8ore 1 could recover -ysel8 into any co-posure 8or thin9ing7 the -aid ca-e in with her -istress:s service7 and a s-all silver porringer o8 what she called a bridal posset7 and desir:d -e to eat it as 1 went to bed7 which conse=uently 1 did7 and 8elt i--ediately a heat7 a 8ire run li9e a hue+and+cry thro: every part o8 -y body< 1 burnt7 1 glow:d7 and wanted even little o8 wishing 8or any -an$ The -aid7 as soon as 1 was lain down7 too9 the candle away7 and wishing -e a good night7 went out o8 the rooand shut the door a8ter her$ &he had hardly ti-e to get down+stairs be8ore 2r$ 0 $ $ $ open:d -y roo-+door so8tly7 and ca-e in7 now undress:d in his night+gown and cap7 with two lighted wax candles7 and bolting the door7 gave -e7 tho: 1 expected hi-7 so-e sort o8 alar-$ 0e ca-e a tip+toe to the bed+side7 and said with a gentle whisperB CPray7 -y dear7 do not be startled $ $ $ 1 will be very tender and 9ind to you$C 0e then hurry:d o88 his cloaths7 and leap:d into bed7 having given -e openings enough7 whilst he was stripping7 to ob+ serve his brawny structure7 strong+-ade li-bs7 and rough shaggy breast$ The bed shoo9 again when it receiv:d this new load$ 0e lay on the outside7 where he 9ept the candles burning7 no doubt 8or the satis8action o8 ev:ry sense< 8or as soon as he had 9iss:d -e7 he rolled down the bed+cloaths7 and

see-ed transported with the view o8 all -y person at 8ull length7 which he cover:d with a pro8usion o8 9isses7 spar+ ing no part o8 -e$ Then7 being on his 9nees between -y legs7 he drew up his shirt and bared all his hairy thighs7 and sti88 staring truncheon7 red+topt and rooted into a thic9et o8 curls7 which covered his belly to the navel and gave it the air o8 a 8lesh brush< and soon 1 8elt it ;oin+ ing close to -ine7 when he had drove the nail up to the head7 and le8t no partition but the inter-ediate hair on both sides$ Part , 1 had it now7 1 8elt it now7 and7 beginning to drive7 he soon gave nature such a power8ul su--ons down to her 8avourite =uarters7 that she could no longer re8use repair+ ing thither< all -y ani-al spirits then rush:d -echanically to that center o8 attraction7 and presently7 inly war-ed7 and stirr:d as 1 was beyond bearing7 1 lost all restraint7 and yielding to the 8orce o8 the e-otion7 gave down7 as -ere wo-an7 those e88usions o8 pleasure7 which7 in the strictness o8 still 8aith8ul love7 1 could have wished to have held up$ /et oh> what an i--ense di88erence did 1 8eel between this i-pression o8 a pleasure -erely ani-al7 and struc9 out o8 the collision o8 the sexes by a passive bodily e88ect7 8ro- that sweet 8ury7 that rage o8 active delight which crowns the en;oy-ents o8 a -utual love+passion7 where two hearts7 tenderly and truly united7 club to exalt the ;oy7 and give it a spirit and soul that bids de8iance to that end which -ere -o-entary desires generally ter-inate in7 when they die o8 a sur8eit o8 satis8action> 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 who- no distinctions o8 that sort see-ed to disturb7 scarce gave hi-sel8 or -e breathing ti-e 8rothe last encounter7 but7 as i8 he had tas9:d hi-sel8 to prove that the appearances o8 his vigour were not signs hung out in vain7 in a 8ew -inutes he was in a condition 8or renewing the onset< to which7 preluding with a storo8 9isses7 he drove the sa-e course as be8ore7 with unabated 8ervour< and thus7 in repeated engage-ents7 9ept -e constantly in exercise till dawn o8 -orning< in all which ti-e he -ade -e 8ully sensible o8 the virtues o8 his 8ir- texture o8 li-bs7 his s=uare shoulders7 broad chest7 co-pact hard -uscles7 in short a syste- o8 na-liness that -ight pass 8or no bad i-age o8 our ancient sturdy barons7 when they wielded the battle+axB whose race is now so thoroughly re8in:d and 8rittered away into the -ore deli+ cate and -odern+built 8ra-e o8 our pap+nerv:d so8tlings7 who are as pale7 as pretty7 and al-ost as -asculine as their sisters$ 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 content7 however7 with having the day brea9 upon his triu-phs7 delivered -e up to the re8resh+ -ent o8 a rest we both wanted7 and we soon dropped into a pro8ound sleep$

Tho: he was so-e ti-e awa9e be8ore -e7 yet did he not o88er to disturb a repose he had given -e so -uch occasion 8or< but on -y 8irst stirring7 which was not till past ten o:cloc97 1 was oblig:d to endure one -ore trial o8 his -anhood$ .bout eleven7 in ca-e 2rs$ 5ones7 with two basins o8 the richest soup7 which her experience in these -atters had -ov:d her to prepare$ 1 pass over the 8ulso-e co-pli-ents7 the cant o8 the decent procuress7 with which she saluted us both< but tho: -y blood rose at the sight o8 her7 1 supprest -y e-otions7 and gave all -y concern to re8lections on what would be the conse=uence o8 this new engage-ent$ @ut 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 who penetrated -y uneasiness7 did not long su88er -e to languish under it$ 0e ac=uainted -e that7 having ta9en a solid sincere a88ection to -e7 he would begin by giving -e one leading -ar9 o8 it by re-oving -e out o8 a house which -ust7 8or -any reasons7 be ir9so-e and disagree+ able to -e7 into convenient lodgings7 where he would ta9e all i-aginable care o8 -e< and desiring -e not to have any explanations with -y landlady7 or be i-patient till he re+ turned7 he dress:d and went out7 having le8t -e a purse with two and twenty guineas in it7 being all he had about hi-7 as he expresst it7 to 9eep -y poc9et till 8urther sup+ plies$ .s soon as he was gone7 1 8elt the usual conse=uence o8 the 8irst launch into vice (8or -y love+attach-ent to 6harles never appear:d to -e in that light)$ 1 was instant+ ly borne away down the strea-7 without -a9ing bac9 to the shore$ 2y dread8ul necessities7 -y gratitude7 and above all7 to say the plain truth7 the dissipation and diversion 1 began to 8ind7 in this new ac=uaintance7 8ro- the blac9 corroding thoughts -y heart had been a prey to ever since the absence o8 -y dear 6harles7 concurr:d to stun all con+ trary re8lections$ 18 1 now thought o8 -y 8irst7 -y only char-er7 it was still with the tenderness and regret o8 the 8ondest love7 e-bitter:d with the consciousness that 1 was no longer worthy o8 hi-$ 1 could have begg:d -y bread with hi- all over the world7 but wretch that 1 was7 1 had neither the virtue nor courage re=uisite not to outlive -y separation 8ro- hi-> /et7 had not -y heart been thus pre+ingaged7 2r$ 0 $ $ $ -ight probably have been the sole -aster o8 it< but the place was 8ull7 and the 8orce o8 con;unctures alone had -ade hi- the possessor o8 -y person< the char-s o8 which had7 by the bye7 been his sole ob;ect and passion7 and were7 o8 course7 no 8oundation 8or a love either very deli+ cate or very durable$ 0e did not return till six in the evening to ta9e -e away to -y new lodgings< and -y -oveables being soon pac9:d7 and convey:d into a hac9ney+coach7 it cost -e but little regret to ta9e -y leave o8 a landlady who- 1 thought 1 had so -uch reason not to be overpleas:d with< and as 8or her

part7 she -ade no other di88erence to -y staying or going7 but what that o8 the pro8it created$ We soon got to the house appointed 8or -e7 which was that o8 a plain trades-an who7 on the score o8 interest7 was entirely at 2r$ 0 $ $ $:s devotion7 and who let hi- the 8irst 8loor7 very genteelly 8urnish:d7 8or two guineas a wee97 o8 which 1 was instated -istress7 with a -aid to attend -e$ 0e stayed with -e that evening7 and we had a supper 8ro- a neighbouring tavern7 a8ter which7 and a gay glass or two7 the -aid put -e to bed$ 2r$ 0 $ $ $ soon 8ollow:d7 and notwithstanding the 8atigues o8 the preceding night7 1 8ound no =uarter nor re-ission 8ro- hi-B he pi=ued hi-sel87 as he told -e7 on doing the honours o8 -y new apart-ent$ The -orning being pretty well advanc:d7 we got to brea98ast< and the ice now bro9e7 -y heart7 no longer en+ gross:d by love7 began to ta9e ease7 and to please itsel8 with such tri8les as 2r$ 0 $ $ $:s liberal li9ing led hito -a9e his court to the usual vanity o8 our sex$ &il9s7 laces7 ear+rings7 pearl+nec9lace7 gold watch7 in short7 all the trin9ets and articles o8 dress were lavishly heap:d upon -e< the sense o8 which7 i8 it did not create returns o8 love7 8orc:d a 9ind o8 grate8ul 8ondness so-ething li9e love< a distinction it would be spoiling the pleasure o8 nine tenths o8 the 9eepers in the town to -a9e7 and is7 1 suppose7 the very good reason why so 8ew o8 the- ever do -a9e it$ 1 was now establish:d the 9ept -istress in 8or-7 well lodg:d7 with a very su88icient allowance7 and lighted up with all the lustre o8 dress$ 2r$ 0 $ $ $ continu:d 9ind and tender to -e< yet7 with all this7 1 was 8ar 8ro- happy< 8or7 besides -y regret 8or -y dear youth7 which7 though o8ten suspended or diverted7 still return:d upon -e in certain -elancholic7 -o-ents with redoubled violences7 1 wanted -ore society7 -ore dissipation$ .s to 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 he was so -uch -y superior in every sense7 that 1 8elt it too -uch to the disadvantage o8 the gratitude 1 ow:d hi-$ Thus he gain:d -y estee-7 though he could not raise -y taste< 1 was =uali8y:d 8or no sort o8 conversation with hi- except one sort7 and that is a satis+ 8action which leaves tireso-e intervals7 i8 not 8ill:d up by love7 or other a-use-ents$ 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 so experienc:d7 so learned in the ways o8 wo-en7 nu-bers o8 who- had passed through his hands7 doubt+ less soon perceiv:d this uneasiness7 and without approving or li9ing -e the better 8or it7 had the co-plaisance to in+ dulge -e$ 0e -ade suppers at -y lodgings7 where he brought sev+ eral co-panions o8 his pleasures7 with their -istresses< and by this -eans 1 got into a circle o8 ac=uaintance that

soo strip:d -e o8 all the re-ains o8 bash8ulness and -odesty which -ight be yet le8t o8 -y country education7 and were7 to a ;ust taste7 perhaps the greatest o8 -y char-s$ We visited one another in 8or-7 and -i-ic:d7 as near as we could7 all the -iseries7 the 8ollies7 and i-perti+ nences o8 the wo-en o8 =uality7 in the round o8 which they tri8le away their ti-e7 without its ever entering into their little heads that on earth there cannot subsist any thing -ore silly7 -ore 8lat7 -ore insipid and worthless7 than7 generally consider:d7 their syste- o8 li8e isB they ought to treat the -en as their tyrants7 indeed> were they to conde-n the- to it$ @ut tho:7 a-ongst the 9ept -istresses (and 1 was now ac=uainted with a good -any7 besides so-e use8ul -atrons7 who live by their connexions with the-)7 1 hardly 9new one that did not per8ectly detest her 9eeper7 and7 o8 course7 -ade little or no scruple o8 any in8idelity she could sa8ely acco-plish7 1 had still no notion o8 wronging -ine< 8or7 besides that no -ar9 o8 ;ealousy on his side induced in -e the desire or gave -e the provocation to play hi- a tric9 o8 that sort7 and that his constant generosity7 politeness7 and tender attentions to please -e 8orc:d a regard to hi-7 that without a88ecting -y heart7 insur:d hi- -y 8idelity7 no ob;ect had yet presented that could overco-e the habitual li9ing 1 had contracted 8or hi-< and 1 was on the eve o8 obtaining7 8ro- the -ove-ents o8 his own voluntary generosity7 a -odest provision 8or li8e7 when an accident happen:d which bro9e all the -easures he had resolv:d upon in -y 8avor$ 1 had now liv:d near seven -onths with 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 when one day returning to -y lodgings 8ro- a visit in the neighbourhood7 where 1 us:d to stay longer7 1 8ound the street door open7 and the -aid o8 the house standing at it7 tal9ing with so-e o8 her ac=uaintances7 so that 1 ca-e in without 9noc9ing< and7 as 1 passed by7 she told -e 2r$ 0 $ $ $ was above$ 1 stept up+stairs into -y own bed+cha-ber7 with no other thought than o8 pulling o88 -y hat7 etc$7 and then to wait upon hi- in the dining roo-7 into which -y bed+cha-ber had a door7 as is co--on enough$ Whilst 1 was untying -y hat+strings7 1 8ancied 1 heard -y -aid 0annah:s voice and a sort o8 tussle7 which raising -y curiosity7 1 stole so8tly to the door7 where a 9not in the wood had been slipt out and a88orded a very co--anding peep+hole to the scene then in agitation7 the actors o8 which had been too earnestly e-ploy:d to hear -y opening -y own door7 8ro- the landing+place o8 the stairs7 into -y bed+cha-ber$ The 8irst sight that struc9 -e was 2r$ 0 $ $ $ pulling and hauling this coarse country stra--el towards a couch that stood in a corner o8 the dining roo-< to which the girl -ade only a sort o8 aw9ward boidening resistance7 crying out so loud7 that 17 who listened at the door7 could scarce hear herB CPray sir7 don:t $ $ $ 7 let -e alone $ $ $ 1 a- not 8or your turn $ $ $ /ou cannot7 sure7 de-ean yoursel8 with such a poor body as 1 $ $ $ %ord> &ir7 -y -istress -ay co-e ho-e $ $ $ 1 -ust not indeed $ $ $ 1 will cry out $ $ $C

.ll o8 which did not hinder her 8ro- insensibly su88ering hersel8 to be brought to the 8oot o8 the couch7 upon which a push o8 no -ighty violence serv:d to give her a very easy 8all7 and -y gentle-an having got up his hands to the strong+hold o8 her D1(T437 she7 no doubt7 thought it was ti-e to give up the argu-ent7 and that all 8urther de+ 8ense would be in vainB and he7 throwing her petticoats over her 8ace7 which was now as red as scarlet7 discover:d a pair o8 stout7 plu-p7 substantial thighs7 and tolerably white< he -ounted the- round his hips7 and co-ing out with his drawn weapon7 stuc9 it in the cloven spot7 where he see-:d to 8ind a less di88icult entrance than perhaps he had 8latter:d hi-+ sel8 with (8or7 by the way7 this blouze had le8t her place in the country7 8or a bastard)7 and7 indeed7 all his -otions shew:d he was lodg:d pretty -uch at large$ .8ter he had done7 his D3.(33 gets up7 drops her petticoats down7 and s-ooths her apron and hand9erchie8$ 2r$ 0 $ $ $ loo9:d a little silly7 and ta9ing out so-e -oney7 gave it her7 with an air indi88erent enough7 bidding her be a good girl7 and say nothing$ 0ad 1 lov:d this -an7 it was not in nature 8or -e to have had patience to see the whole scene throughB 1 should have bro9e in and play:d the ;ealous princess with a ven+ geance$ @ut that was not the case7 -y pride alone was hurt7 -y heart not7 and 1 could easier win upon -ysel8 to see how 8ar he would go7 till 1 had no uncertainty upon -y conscience$ The least delicate o8 all a88airs o8 this sort being now over7 1 retir:d so8tly into -y closet7 where 1 began to consider what 1 should do$ 2y 8irst sche-e7 naturally7 was to rush in and upbraid the-< this7 indeed7 8latter:d -y present e-otions and vexations7 as it would have given i-+ -ediate vent to the-< but7 on second thoughts7 not being so clear as to the conse=uences to be apprehended 8ro- such a step7 1 began to doubt whether it was not better to disse-ble -y discovery till a sa8er season7 when 2r$ 0 $ $ $ should have per8ected the settle-ent he had -ade overtures to -e o87 and which 1 was not to thin9 such a violent explanation7 as 1 was indeed not e=ual to the -anage-ent o87 could possibly 8orward7 and -ight destroy$ 'n the other hand7 the provo+ cation see-:d too gross7 too 8lagrant7 not to give -e so-e thoughts o8 revenge< the very start o8 which idea restor:d -e to per8ect co-posure< and delighted as 1 was with the con8us:d plan o8 it in -y head7 1 was easily -istress enough o8 -ysel8 to support the part o8 ignorance 1 had prescrib:d to -ysel8< and as all this circle o8 re8lections was in+ stantly over7 1 stole a tip+toe to the passage door7 and opening it with a noise7 pass:d 8or having that -o-ent co-e ho-e< and a8ter a short pause7 as i8 to pull o88 -y things7 1 opened the door into the dining roo-7 where 1 8ound the dowdy blowing the 8ire7 and -y 8aith8ul shepherd wal9ing about the roo- and whistling7 as cool and unconcern:d as i8 nothing had happened$ 1 thin97 however7 he had not -uch to brag o8 having out+disse-bled -eB 8or 1 9ept up7 nobly7 the character o8 our sex 8or art7 and went up to hi- with the sa-e air o8 8ran9ness as 1 had ever receiv:d hi-$ 0e stayed but a little while7 -ade so-e excuse 8or not being able to

stay the evening with -e7 and went out$ .s 8or the wench7 she was now spoil:d7 at least 8or -y servant< and scarce eight and 8orty hours were gone round7 be8ore her insolence7 on what had pass:d between 2r$ 0 $ $ $ and her7 gave -e so 8air an occasion to turn her away7 at a -inute:s warning7 that not to have done it would have been the wonderB so that he could neither disapprove it nor 8ind in it the least reason to suspect -y original -otive$ What beca-e o8 her a8terwards7 1 9now not< but generous as 2r$ 0 $ $ $ was7 he undoubtedly -ade her a-endsB though7 1 dare answer7 that he 9ept up no 8arther co--erce with her o8 that sort< as his stooping to such a coarse -orsel was only a sudden sally o8 lust7 on seeing a wholeso-e+loo9ing7 buxocountry+wench7 and no -ore strange than hunger7 or even a whi-sical appetite:s -a9ing a 8ling -eal o8 nec9+bee87 8or change o8 diet$ 0ad 1 consider:d this escapade o8 2r$ 0 $ $ $ in no -ore than that light and contented -ysel8 with turning away the wench7 1 had thought and acted right< but7 8lush:d as 1 was with i-aginary wrongs7 1 should have held 2r$ 0 $ $ $ to have been cheaply o887 i8 1 had not push:d -y revenge 8arther7 and repaid hi-7 as exactly as 1 could 8or the soul o8 -e7 in the sa-e coin$ Nor was this worthy act o8 ;ustice long delay:dB 1 had it too -uch at heart$ 2r$ 0 $ $ $ had7 about a 8ortnight be8ore7 ta9en into his service a tenant:s son7 ;ust co-e out o8 the country7 a very handso-e young lad scarce turn:d o8 nineteen7 8resh as a rose7 well shap:d and clever li-b:dB in short7 a very good excuse 8or any wo-an:s li9ing7 even tho: revenge had been out o8 the =uestion< any wo-an7 1 say7 who was dispre;udic:d7 and had wit and spirit enough to pre8er a point o8 pleasure to a point o8 pride$ 2r$ 0 $ $ $ had clap:d a livery upon hi-< and his chie8 e-ploy was7 a8ter being shewn -y lodgings7 to bring and carry letters or -essages between his -aster and -e< and as the situation o8 all 9ept ladies is not the 8ittest to inspire respect7 even to the -eanest o8 -an9ind7 and7 perhaps7 less o8 it 8ro- the -ost ignorant7 1 could not help observing that this lad7 who was7 1 suppose7 ac=uainted with -y relation to his -aster by his 8ellow+servants7 used to eye -e in that bash8ul con8us:d way7 -ore expressive7 -ore -oving and readier catch:d at by our sex7 than any other declarations whateverB -y 8igure had7 it see-s7 struc9 hi-7 and -odest and innocent as he was7 he did not hi-sel8 9now that the pleasure he too9 in loo9ing at -e was love7 or desire< but his eyes7 naturally wanton7 and now en8la-:d with passion7 spo9e a great deal -ore than he durst have i-agin:d they did$ 0itherto7 indeed7 1 had only ta9en notice o8 the co-eliness o8 the youth7 but without the least designB -y pride alone would have guarded -e 8ro- a thought that way7 had not 2r$ 0 $ $ $:s condescen+ sion with -y -aid7 where there was not hal8 the te-ptation in point o8 person7 set -e a dangerous exa-ple< but now 1 began to loo9 on this stripling as every way a delicious instru-ent o8 -y design:d retaliation upon 2r$ 0 $ $ $ o8 an obligation

8or which 1 should have -ade a conscience to die in his debt$ 1n order then to pave the way 8or the acco-plish-ent o8 -y sche-e7 8or two or three ti-es that the young 8ellow ca-e to -e with -essages7 1 -anag:d so7 as without a88ectation to have hi- ad-itted to -y bed+side7 or brought to -e at -y toilet7 where 1 was dressing< and by carelessly shewing or letting hi- see7 as i8 without -eaning or design7 so-eti-es -y boso- rather -ore bare than it should be< so-eti-es -y hair7 o8 which 1 had a very 8ine head7 in the natural 8low o8 it while co-bing< so-eti-es a neat leg7 that had un8or+ tunately slipt its garter7 which 1 -ade no scruple o8 tying be8ore hi-7 easily gave hi- the i-pressions 8avourable to -y purpose7 which 1 could perceive to spar9le in his eyes7 and glow in his chee9sB then certain slight s=ueezes by the hand7 as 1 too9 letters 8ro- hi-7 did his business co-pleatly$ When 1 saw hi- thus -ov:d7 and 8ired 8or -y purpose7 1 in8la-:d hi- yet -ore7 by as9ing hi- several leading =ues+ tions7 such as had he a -istressE $ $ $ was she prettier than -eE $ $ $ could he love such a one as 1 wasE $ $ $ and the li9e< to all which the blushing si-pleton answer:d to -y wish7 in a strain o8 per8ect nature7 per8ect undebauch:d innocence7 but with all the aw9wardness and si-plicity o8 country+ breeding$ When 1 thought 1 had su88iciently ripen:d hi- 8or the laudable point 1 had in view7 one day that 1 expected hiat a particular hour7 1 too9 care to have the coast clear 8or the reception 1 design:d hi-< and7 as 1 laid it7 he ca-e to the dining+roo- door7 tapped at it7 and7 on -y bid+ ding hi- co-e in7 he did so7 and shut the door a8ter hi-$ 1 desir:d hi-7 then7 to bolt it on the inside7 pretending it would not otherwise 9eep shut$ 1 was then lying at length upon that very couch7 the scene o8 2r$ 0 $ $ $:s polite ;oys7 in an undress which was with all the art o8 negligence 8lowing loose7 and in a -ost te-pting disorderB no stay7 no hoop $ $ $ no incu-+ brance whatever$ 'n the other hand7 he stood at a little distance7 that gave -e a 8ull view o8 a 8ine 8eatur:d7 shapely7 healthy country lad7 breathing the sweets o8 8resh bloo-ing youth< his hair7 which was o8 a per8ect shining blac97 play:d to his 8ace in natural side+curls7 and was set out with a s-art tuc9+up behind< new buc9s9in breeches7 that7 clipping close7 shew:d the shape o8 a plu-p7 well -ade thigh< white stoc9ings7 garter+lac:d livery7 shoulder 9not7 alto+ gether co-pos:d a 8igure in which the beauties o8 pure 8lesh and blood appeared under no disgrace 8or- the lowness o8 a dress7 to which a certain spruce neatness see-s peculiarly 8itted$ 1 bid hi- co-e towards -e and give -e his letter7 at the sa-e ti-e throwing down7 carelessly7 a boo9 1 had in -y hands$ 0e colour:d7 and ca-e within reach o8 delivering -e the letter7 which he held out7 aw9wardly enough7 8or -e to ta9e7 with his eyes riveted on -y boso-7 which was7 through the design:d disorder o8 -y hand9erchie87 su88iciently bare7

and rather shaded than hid$

17 s-iling in his 8ace7 too9 the letter7 and i--edi+ ately catching gently hold o8 his shirt sleeve7 drew hitowards -e7 blushing7 and al-ost tre-bling< 8or surely his extre-e bash8ulness7 and utter inexperience7 call:d 8or7 at least7 all the advances to encourage hi-B his body was now conveniently inclin:d towards -e7 and ;ust so8tly chuc9ing his s-ooth beardless chin7 1 as9ed hi- i8 he was a8raid o8 a ladyE $ $ $7 and7 with that too97 and carrying his hand to -y breasts7 1 prest it tenderly to the-$ They were now 8inely 8urnish:d7 and rais:d in 8lesh7 so that7 panting with desire7 they rose and 8ell7 in =uic9 heaves7 under his touchB at this7 the boy:s eyes began to lighten with all the 8ires o8 in8la-:d nature7 and his chee9s 8lush:d with a deep scarletB tongue+tied with ;oy7 rapture7 and bash8ul+ ness7 he could not spea97 but then his loo9s7 his e-otion7 su88iciently satis8y:d -e that -y train had ta9en7 and that 1 had no disappoint-ent to 8ear$ 2y lips7 which 1 threw in his way7 so as that he could not escape 9issing the-7 8ix:d7 8ired7 and e-bolden:d hi-B and now7 glancing -y eyes towards that part o8 his dress which cover:d the essential ob;ect o8 en;oy-ent7 1 plainly discover:d the swell and co--otion there< and as 1 was now too 8ar advanc:d to stop in so 8air a way7 and was indeed no longer able to contain -ysel87 or wait the slower progress o8 his -aiden bash8ulness (8or such it see-:d7 and really was)7 1 stole -y hand upon his thighs7 down one o8 which 1 could both see and 8eel a sti88 hard body7 con8in:d by his breeches7 that -y 8ingers could discover no end to$ 6urious then7 and eager to un8old so alar-ing a -ystery7 playing7 as it were7 with his buttons7 which were bursting ripe 8ro- the active 8orce within7 those o8 his waistband and 8ore+8lap 8lew open at a touch7 when out 1T started< and now7 dis+ engag:d 8ro- the shirt7 1 saw7 with wonder and surprise7 whatE not the play+thing o8 a boy7 not the weapon o8 a -an7 but a -aypole o8 so enor-ous a standard7 that had propor+ tions been observ:d7 it -ust have belong:d to a young giant$ 1ts prodigious size -ade -e shrin9 again< yet 1 could not7 without pleasure7 behold7 and even ventur:d to 8eel7 such a length7 such a breadth o8 ani-ated ivory> per8ectly well turn:d and 8ashion:d7 the proud sti88ness o8 which distended its s9in7 whose s-ooth polish and velvet so8tness -ight vie with that o8 the -ost delicate o8 our sex7 and whose ex=ui+ site whiteness was not a little set o88 by a sprout o8 blac9 curling hair round the root7 through the ;etty sprigs o8 which the 8air s9in shew:d as in a 8ine evening you -ay have re-ar9:d the clear light ether throught the branchwor9 o8 distant trees over+topping the su--it o8 a hillB then the broad and blueish+casted incarnate o8 the head7 and blue serpentines o8 its veins7 altogether co-pos:d the -ost stri9ing asse-blage o8 8igure and colours in nature$ 1n short7 it stood an ob;ect o8 terror and delight$ @ut what was yet -ore surprising7 the owner o8 this natural curiosity7 through the want o8 occasions in the strictness o8 his ho-e+breeding7 and the little ti-e he had been in town not having a88orded hi- one7 was hitherto an

absolute stranger7 in practice at least7 to the use o8 all that -anhood he was so nobly stoc9:d with< and it now 8ell to -y lot ot stand his 8irst trial o8 it7 i8 1 could resolve to run the ris9s o8 its disproportion to that tender part o8 -e7 which such an oversiz:d -achine was very 8it to lay in ruins$ @ut it was now o8 the latest to deliberate< 8or7 by this ti-e7 the young 8ellow7 overheated with the present ob;ects7 and too high -ettled to be longer curb:d in by that -odesty and awe which had hitherto restrain:d hi-7 ventur:d7 under the stronger i-pulse and instructive pro-p+ tership o8 nature alone7 to slip his hands7 tre-bling with eager i-petuous desires7 under -y petticoats< and seeing7 1 suppose7 nothing extre-ely severe in -y loo9s to stop or dash hi-7 he 8eels out7 and seizes7 gently7 the center+spot o8 his ardours$ 'h then> the 8iery touch o8 his 8ingers deter-ines -e7 and -y 8ears -elting away be8ore the glowing intolerable heat7 -y thighs disclose o8 the-selves7 and yield all liberty to his handB and now7 a 8avourable -ove+ -ent giving -y petticoats a toss7 the avenue lay too 8air7 too open to be -iss:d$ 0e is now upon -eB 1 had placed -ysel8 with a ;et under hi-7 as co--odious and open as possible to his atte-pts7 which were untoward enough7 8or his -achine7 -eeting with no inlet7 bore and batter:d sti88ly against -e in rando- pushes7 now above7 now below7 now beside his point< till7 burning with i-patience 8roits irritating touches7 1 guided gently7 with -y hand7 this 8urious engine to where -y young novice was now to be taught his 8irst lesson o8 pleasure$ Thus he nic9:d7 at length7 the war- and insu88icient ori8ice< but he was -ade to 8ind no breach i-practicable7 and -ine7 tho: so o8ten enter:d7 was still 8ar 8ro- wide enough to ta9e hi- easily in$ @y -y direction7 however7 the head o8 his unwieldy -achine was so critically pointed that7 8eeling hi- 8ore+ right against the tender opening7 a 8avourable -otion 8ro-e -et his ti-ely thrust7 by which the lips o8 it7 strenu+ ously dilated7 gave way to his thus assisted i-petuosity7 so that we -ight both 8eel that he had gain:d a lodge-ent$ Pursuing then his point7 he soon7 by violent7 and7 to -e7 -ost pain8ul piercing thrusts7 wedges hi-sel8 at length so 8ar in7 as to be now tolerably secure o8 his entranceB here he stuc97 and 1 now 8elt such a -ixture o8 pleasure and pain7 as there is no giving a de8inition o8$ 1 dreaded ali9e his splitting -e 8arther up7 or his withdrawing< 1 could not bear either to 9eep or part with hi-$ The sense o8 pain however prevailing7 8ro- his prodigious size and sti88ness7 acting upon -e in those continued rapid thrusts7 with which he 8uriously pursu:d his penetration7 -ade -e cry out gentlyB C'h> -y dear7 you hurt -e>C This was enough to chec9 the tender respect8ul boy even in his -id+ career< and he i--ediately drew out the sweet cause o8 -y co-plaint7 whilst his eyes elo=uently express:d7 at once7 his grie8 8or hurting -e7 and his reluctance at dislodging 8ro- =uarters o8 which the war-th and closeness had given hi- a gust o8 pleasure that he was now desire+-ad to satis8y7

and yet too -uch a novice not to be a8raid o8 -y withholding his relie87 on account ot the pain he had put -e to$ @ut 1 was7 -ysel87 8ar 8ro- being pleas:d with his having too -uch regarded -y tender exclai-s< 8or now7 -ore and -ore 8ired with the ob;ect be8ore -e7 as it still stood with the 8iercest erection7 unbonnetted7 and displaying its broad ber-ilion head7 1 8irst gave the youth a re+encourag+ ing 9iss7 which he repaid -e with a 8ervour that see-:d at once to than9 -e7 and bribe -y 8arther co-pliance< and soon replac:d -ysel8 in a posture to receive7 at all ris9s7 the renew:d invasion7 which he did not delay an instantB 8or7 being presently re-ounted7 1 once -ore 8elt the s-ooth hard gristle 8orcing an entrance7 which he achiev:d rather easier than be8ore$ Pain:d7 however7 as 1 was7 with his e88orts o8 gaining a co-plete ad-ission7 which he was so regard8ul as to -anage by gentle degrees7 1 too9 care not to co-plain$ 1n the -eanti-e7 the so8t strait passage gradually loosens7 yields7 and7 stretch:d to its ut-ost bearing7 by the sti887 thic97 indriven engine7 sensible7 at once7 to the ravishing pleasure o8 the 8eel and the pain o8 the distension7 let hiin about hal8 way7 when all the -ost nervous activity he now exerted7 to 8urther his penetration7 gain:d hi- not an inch o8 his purposeB 8or7 whilst he hesitated there7 the crisis o8 pleasure overtoo9 hi-7 and the close co-pressure o8 the war- surrounding 8old drew 8ro- hi- the extatic gush7 even be8ore -ine was ready to -eet it7 9ept up by the pain 1 had endur:d in the course ot the engage-ent7 8ro- the insu88er+ able size o8 his weapon7 tho: it was not as yet in above hal8 its length$ 1 expected then7 but without wishing it7 that he would draw7 but was pleasantly disappointedB 8or he was not to be let o88 so$ The well breath:d youth7 hot+-ettled7 and 8lush with genial ;uices7 was now 8airly in 8or -a9ing -e 9now -y driver$ .s soon7 then7 as he had -ade a short pause7 wa9ing7 as it were7 out o8 the trance o8 pleasure (in which every sense see-:d lost 8or a while7 whilst7 with his eyes shut7 and short =uic9 breathing7 he had yielded down his -aiden tribute)7 he still 9ept his post7 yet unsated with en;oy-ent7 and solacing in these so new delights< till his sti88ness7 which had scarce perceptibly re-itted7 being thoroughly recovered to hi-7 who had not once unsheath:d7 he proceeded a8resh to cleave and open to hi-sel8 an entire entry into -e7 which was not a little -ade easy to hi- by the balsa-ic in;ection with which he had ;ust plenti8ully -oisten:d the whole internals o8 the passage$ (edoubling7 then7 the active energy o8 his thrusts7 8avoured by the 8ervid appetite o8 -y -otions7 the so8t oiled wards can no longer stand so e88ectual a pic9loc97 but yield7 and open hi- an entrance$ .nd now7 with conspiring nature7 and -y industry7 strong to aid hi-7 he pierces7 penetrates7 and at length7 winning his way inch by inch7 gets entirely in7 and 8inally -ighty thrust sheaths it up to the guard< on the in+ 8or-ation o8 which7 8ro- the close ;ointure o8 our bodies (inso-uch that the hair on both sides per8ectly interweav:d and incircl:d together)7 the eyes o8 the transported youth spar9l:d with -ore ;oyous 8ires7 and all his loo9s and -o+

tions ac9nowledged excess o8 pleasure7 which 1 now began to share7 8or 1 8elt hi- in -y very vitals> 1 was =uite sic9 with delight> stir:d beyond bearing with its 8urious agita+ tions within -e7 and gorged and cra--:d7 even to sur8eit$ Thus 1 lay gasping7 panting under hi-7 till his bro9en breathings7 8altering accents7 eyes twin9ling with hu-id 8ires7 lunges -ore 8urious7 and an increased sti88ness7 gave -e to hail the approaches o8 the second periodB it ca-e $ $ $ and the sweet youth7 overpower:d with the extasy7 died away in -y ar-s7 -elting in a 8lood that shot in genial war-th into the inner-ost recesses o8 -y body< every conduit o8 which7 dedicated to that pleasure7 was on 8low to -ix with it$ Thus we continued 8or so-e instants7 lost7 breathless7 senseless o8 every thing7 and in every part but those 8av+ ourite ones o8 nature7 in which all that we en;oyed o8 li8e and sensation was now totally concentre:d$ When our -utual trance was a little over7 and the young 8ellow had withdrawn that delicious stretcher7 with which he had -ost plenti8ully drowned all thoughts o8 revenge in the sense o8 actual pleasure7 the widen:d wounded passage re8unded a strea- o8 pearly li=uids7 which 8lowed down -y thighs7 -ixed with strea9s o8 blood7 the -ar9s o8 the ravage o8 that -ontrous -achine o8 his7 which had now triu-ph:d over a 9ind o8 second -aidenhead$ 1 stole7 however7 -y hand9erchie8 to those parts7 and wip:d the- as dry as 1 could7 whilst he was re+ad;usting and buttoning up$ 1 -ade hi- now sit down by -e7 and as he had gather:d courage 8ro- such extre-e inti-acy7 he gave -e an a8ter+ course o8 pleasure7 in a natural burst o8 tender gratitude and ;oy7 at the new scenes o8 bliss 1 had opened to hi-B scenes positively new7 as he had never be8ore had the least ac=uaintance with that -ysterious -ar97 the cloven sta-p o8 8e-ale distinction7 tho: nobody better =uali8y:d than he to penetrate into its deepest recesses7 or do it nobler ;ustice$ @ut when7 by certain -otions7 certain un=uietnesses o8 his hands7 that wandered not without design7 1 8ound he lan+ guish:d 8or satis8ying a curiosity7 natural enough7 to view and handle those parts which attract and concentre the war-est 8orce o8 i-agination7 char-ed as 1 was to have any occasion o8 obliging and hu-ouring his young desires7 1 su88er:d hi- to proceed as he pleased7 without chec9 or control7 to the satis8action o8 the-$ 3asily7 then7 reading in -y eyes the 8ull per-ission o8 -ysel8 to all his wishes7 he scarce pleased hi-sel8 -ore than -e when7 having insinuated his hand under -y petticoat and shi8t7 he presently re-oved those bars to the sight by slyly li8ting the- upwards7 under 8avour o8 a thousand 9isses7 which he thought7 perhaps7 necessary to divert -y attention 8ro- what he was about$ .ll -y drapery being now roll:d up to -y waist7 1 threw -ysel8 into such a posture upon the couch7 as gave up to hi-7 in 8ull view7 the whole region o8 delight7 and all the luxurious landscape round it$ The transported youth devour:d every thing with his eyes7 and try:d7 with his 8ingers7 to lay -ore open to his sight the secrets o8 that dar9 and delicious deepB he opens the

8olding lips7 the so8tness o8 which7 yielding entry to any thing o8 a hard body7 close round it7 and oppose the sightB and 8eeling 8urther7 -eets with7 and wonders at7 a so8t 8leshy excrescence7 which7 li-ber and relaxed a8ter the late en;oy-ent7 now grew7 under the touch and exa-ination o8 his 8iery 8ingers7 -ore and -ore sti88 and considerable7 till the titillating ardours o8 that so sensible part -ade -e sigh7 as i8 he had hurt -e< on which he withdrew his curious probing 8ingers7 as9ing -e pardon7 as it were7 in a 9iss that rather increased the 8la-e there$ Novelty ever -a9es the strongest i-pressions7 and in pleasures7 especially< no wonder7 then7 that he was swallowed up in raptures o8 ad-iration o8 things so interesting by their nature7 and now seen and handled 8or the 8irst ti-e$ 'n -y part7 1 was richly overpaid 8or the pleasure 1 gave hi-7 in that o8 exa-ining the power o8 those ob;ects thus abandon:d to hi-7 na9ed and 8ree to his loosest wish7 over the artless7 natural striplingB his eyes strea-ing 8ire7 his chee9s glowing with a 8lorid red7 his 8ervid 8re=uent sighs7 whilst his hands convulsively s=ueez:d7 opened7 pressed to+ gether again the lips and sides o8 that deep 8lesh wound7 or gently twitched the overgrowing -oss< and all proclai-ed the excess7 the riot o8 ;oys7 in having his wantonness thus hu-our:d$ @ut he did not long abuse -y patience7 8or the ob;ects be8ore hi- had now put hi- by all his7 and7 co-ing out with that 8or-idable -achine o8 his7 he lets the 8ury loose7 and pointing it directly to the pouting+lipt -outh7 that bid hi- sweet de8iance in du-b+shew7 s=ueezes in the head7 and7 driving with re8reshed rage7 brea9s in7 and plugs up the whole passage o8 that so8t pleasure+conduit7 where he -a9es all sha9e again7 and put7 once -ore7 all within -e into such an uproar7 as nothing could still but a 8resh in+ undation 8ro- the very engine o8 those 8la-es7 as well as 8ro- all the springs with which nature 8loats that reservoir o8 ;oy7 when risen to its 8lood+-ar9$ 1 was now so bruised7 so batter:d7 so spent with this over+-atch7 that 1 could hardly stir7 or raise -ysel87 but lay palpitating7 till the 8er-ent o8 -y sense subsiding by degrees7 and the hour stri9ing at which 1 was oblig:d to dispatch -y young -an7 1 tenderly advised hi- o8 the neces+ sity there was 8or parting< which 1 8elt as -uch displeasure at as he could do7 who see-ed eagerly disposed to 9eep the 8ield7 and to enter on a 8resh action$ @ut the danger was too great7 and a8ter so-e hearty 9isses o8 leave7 and reco-+ -endations o8 secrecy and discretion7 1 8orc:d -ysel8 to send hi- away7 not without assurances o8 seeing hi- again7 to the sa-e purpose7 as soon as possible7 and thrust a guinea into his handsB not -ore7 lest7 being too 8lush o8 -oney7 a suspicion or discovery -ight arise 8ro- thence7 having every thing to 8ear 8ro- the dangerous indiscretion o8 that age in which young 8ellows would be too irresistible7 too char-ing7 i8 we had not that terrible 8ault to guard against$ ?iddy and intoxicated as 1 was with such satiating draughts o8 pleasure7 1 still lay on the couch7 supinely stretched out7 in a delicious languor di88us:d over all -y

li-bs7 hugging -ysel8 8or being thus revenged to -y heart:s content7 and that in a -anner so precisely ali9e7 and on the identical spot in which 1 had received the supposed in;ury$ No re8lections on the conse=uences ever once perplex:d -e7 nor did 1 -a9e -ysel8 one single reproach 8or having7 by this step7 co-pletely entered -ysel8 o8 a pro8ession -ore decry:d than disused$ 1 should have held it ingratitude to the pleasure 1 had received to have repented o8 it< and since 1 was now over the bar7 1 thought7 by plunging over head and ears into the strea- 1 was hurried away by7 to drown all sense o8 sha-e or re8lection$ Whilst 1 was thus -a9ing these laudable dispositions7 and whispering to -ysel8 a 9ind o8 tacit vow o8 inconti+ nency7 enters 2r$ 0 $ $ $ The consciousness o8 what 1 had been doing deepen:d yet the glowing o8 -y chee9s7 8lushed with the war-th o8 the late action7 which7 ;oined to the pi=uant air o8 -y dishabille7 drew 8ro- 2r$ 0 $ $ $ a co-+ pli-ent on -y loo9s7 which he was proceeding to bac9 the sincerity o8 with proo8s7 and that with so bris9 an action as -ade -e tre-ble 8or 8ear o8 a discovery 8ro- the condi+ tion o8 those parts were le8t in 8ro- their late severe handlingB the ori8ice dilated and in8la-ed7 the lips swollen with their unco--on distension7 the ringlets press down7 crushed and uncurl:d with the over+8lowing -oisture that had wet every thing round it< in short7 the di88erent 8eel and state o8 things would hardly have passed upon one o8 2r$ 0 $ $ $:s nicety and experience unaccounted 8or but by the real cause$ @ut here the wo-an saved -eB 1 pretended a violent disorder o8 -y head7 and a 8everish heat7 that in+ disposed -e too -uch to receive his e-braces$ 0e gave in to this7 and good+naturedly desisted$ &oon a8ter7 an old lady co-ing in -ade a third7 very a+propos 8or the con8usion 1 was in7 and 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 a8ter bidding -e ta9e care o8 -y+ sel87 and reco--ending -e to -y repose7 le8t -e -uch at ease and reliev:d by his absence$ 1n the close o8 the evening7 1 too9 care to have pre+ par:d 8or -e a war- bath o8 aro-atic9 and sweet herbs< in which having 8ully laved and solaced -ysel87 1 ca-e out voluptuously re8resh:d in body and spirit$ The next -orning7 wa9ing pretty early7 a8ter a night:s per8ect rest and co-posure7 it was not without so-e dread and uneasiness that 1 thought o8 what innovation that ten+ der7 so8t syste- o8 -ine -ight have sustained 8ro- the shoc9 o8 a -achine so sized 8or its destruction$ &truc9 with this apprehension7 1 scarce dared to carry -y hand thither7 to in8or- -ysel8 o8 the state and posture o8 things$ @ut 1 was soon agreeably cur:d o8 -y 8ears$ The sil9y hair that covered round the borders7 now s-ooth:d and re+pruned7 had resu-ed its wonted curl and tri-ness< the 8leshy pouting lips that had stood the brunt o8 the engage-ent7 were no longer swollen or -oisture+

drenched< and neither they7 nor the passage into which they opened7 that su88ered so great a dilatation7 betray:d any the least alteration7 outward or inwardly7 to the -ost curious research7 notwithstanding also the laxity that naturally 8ollows the war- bath$ This continuation o8 that grate8ul stricture which is in us7 to the -en7 the very ;et o8 their pleasure7 1 ow:d7 it see-s7 to a happy habit o8 body7 ;uicy7 plu-p and 8ur+ nished towards the texture o8 those parts7 with a 8ullness o8 so8t springy 8lesh7 that yielding su88iciently7 as it does7 to al-ost any distension soon recovers itsel8 so as to retighten that strict co-pression o8 its -antlings and 8olds7 which 8or- the sides o8 the passage7 wherewith it so tenderly e-braces and closely clips any 8oreign body intro+ duc:d into it7 such as -y exploring 8inger then was$ Finding then every thing in due tone and order7 1 re-e-ber:d -y 8ears7 only to -a9e a ;est o8 the- to -ysel8$ and now7 palpably -istress o8 nay size o8 -an7 and tri+ u-phing in -y double achieve-ent o8 pleasure and revenge7 1 abandon:d -ysel8 entirely to the ideas o8 all the delight 1 had swa- in$ 1 lay stretching out7 glowingly alive all over7 and tossing with burning i-patience 8or the renewal o8 ;oys that had sinned but in a sweet excess< now did 1 loose -y longing7 8or about ten in the -orning7 according to expect+ ation7 Will7 -y new hu-ble sweetheart7 ca-e with a -essage 8ro- his -aster7 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 to 9now how 1 did$ 1 had ta9en care to send -y -aid on an errand into the city7 that 1 was sure would ta9e up ti-e enough< and7 8ro- the people o8 the house7 1 had nothing to 8ear7 as they were plain good sorts o8 8ol9s7 and wise enough to -ind no -ore other people:s business than they could well help$ .ll dispositions then -ade7 not 8orgetting that o8 lying in bed to receive hi-7 when he was entered the door o8 -y bed+cha-ber7 a latch7 that 1 governed by a wire7 des+ cended and secur:d it$ 1 could not but observe that -y young -inion was as -uch spruced out as could be expected 8ro- one in his con+ ditionB a desire o8 pleasing that could not be indi88erent to -e7 since it prov:d that 1 pleased hi-< which7 1 assure you7 was now a point 1 was not above having in view$ 0is hair tri-ly dressed7 clean linen7 and7 above all7 a hale7 ruddy7 wholeso-e country loo97 -ade hi- out as pretty a piece o8 wo-an:s -eat as you could see7 and 1 should have thought nay one -uch out o8 taste that could not have -ade a hearty -eal o8 such a -orsel as nature see-ed to have design:d 8or the highest diet o8 pleasure$ Part H .nd why should 1 here suppress the delight 1 received 8ro- this a-iable creature7 in re-ar9ing each artless loo97 each -otion o8 pure undisse-bled nature7 betrayed by his

wanton eyes< or shewing7 transparently7 the glow and su8+ 8usion o8 blood through his 8resh7 clear s9in7 whilst even his sturdy rustic pressures wanted not their peculiar char-E 'h> but7 say you7 this was a young 8ellow o8 too low a ran9 o8 li8e to deserve so great a display$ 2ay be soB but was -y condition7 strictly consider:d one ;ot -ore exaltedE or7 had 1 really been -uch above hi-7 did not his capacity o8 giving such ex=uisite pleasure su88iciently raise and ennoble hi-7 to -e7 at leastE %et who would7 8or -e7 cherish7 respect7 and reward the painter:s7 the statuary:s7 the -usician:s arts7 in proportion to delight ta9en in the-B but at -y age7 and with -y taste 8or plea+ sure7 a taste strongly constitutional to -e7 the talent o8 pleasing7 with which nature has endowed a handso-e person7 8or-:d to -e the greatest o8 all -erits< co-pared to which7 the vulgar pre;udices in 8avour o8 titles7 dignities7 honours7 and the li9e7 held a very low ran9 indeed$ Nor perhaps would the beauties o8 the body be so -uch a88ected to be held cheap7 were they7 in their nature7 to be bought and delivered$ @ut 8or -e7 whose natural philosophy all resided in the 8avourite center o8 sense7 and who was rul:d by its power8ul instinct in ta9ing pleasure by its right handle7 1 could scarce have -ade a choice -ore to -y purpose$ 2r$ 0 $ $ $:s lo8tier =uali8ications o8 birth7 8ortune and sense laid -e under a sort o8 sub;ection and constraint that were 8ar 8ro- -a9ing har-ony in the concert o8 love7 nor had he7 perhaps7 thought -e worth so8tening that superi+ ority to< but7 with this lad7 1 was -ore on that level which love delights in$ We -ay say what we please7 but those we can be the easi+ est and 8reest with are ever those we li9e7 not to say love7 the best$ With this stripling7 all whose art o8 love was the action o8 it7 1 could7 without chec9 o8 awe or restraint7 give a loose to ;oy7 and execute every sche-e o8 dalliance -y 8ond 8ancy -ight put -e on7 in which he was7 in every sense7 a -ost ex=uisite co-panion$ .nd now -y great plea+ sure lay in hu-ouring all the petulances7 all the wanton 8rolic o8 a raw novice ;ust 8leshed7 and 9een on the burning scent o8 his ga-e7 but unbro9en to the sportB and7 to carry on the 8igure7 who could better T(3.D T03 W''D than he7 or stand 8airer 8or the 03.(T 'F T03 04NTE 0e advanc:d then to -y bed+side7 and whilst he 8al+ tered out his -essage7 1 could observe his colour rise7 and his eyes lighten with ;oy7 in seeing -e in a situation as 8avourable to his loosest wishes as i8 he had bespo9e the play$ 1 s-iled7 and put out -y hand towards hi-7 which he 9neeled down to (a politeness taught hi- by love alone7 that great -aster o8 it) and greedily 9iss:d$ .8ter exchanging a 8ew con8used =uestions and answers7 1 as9:d hi- i8 he would co-e to bed to -e7 8or the little ti-e 1 could venture to detain hi-$ This was ;ust as9ing a person7

dying with hunger7 to 8east upon the dish on earth the -ost to his palate$ .ccordingly7 without 8urther re8lection7 his cloaths were o88 in an instant< when7 blushing still -ore at his new liberty7 he got under the bed+cloaths 1 held up to receive hi-7 and was now in bed with a wo-an 8or the 8irst ti-e in his li8e$ 0ere began the usual tender preli-inaries7 as delicious7 perhaps7 as the crowning act o8 en;oy-ent itsel8< which they o8ten beget an i-patience o87 that -a9es pleasure destruc+ tive o8 itsel87 by hurrying on the 8inal period7 and closing that scene o8 bliss7 in which the actors are generally too well pleas:d with their parts not to wish the- an eternity o8 duration$ When we had su88iciently graduated our advances towards the -ain point7 by toying7 9issing7 clipping7 8eeling -y breasts7 now round and plu-p7 8eeling that part o8 -e 1 -ight call a 8urnace+-outh7 8ro- the prodigious intense heat his 8iery touches had re9indled there7 -y young sports-an7 e-+ bolden:d by every 8reedo- he could wish7 wantonly ta9es -y hand7 and carries it to that enor-ous -achine o8 his7 that stood with a sti88ness> a hardness> an upward bent o8 erec+ tion> and which7 together with its botto- dependence7 the inesti-able bulge o8 lady:s ;ewels7 8or-ed a grand show out o8 goods indeed> Then its di-ensions7 -oc9ing either grasp or span7 al-ost renew:d -y terrors$ 1 could not conceive how7 or by what -eans 1 could ta9e7 or put such a bul9 out o8 sight$ 1 stro9ed it gently7 on which the -utinous rogue see-ed to swell7 and gather a new degree o8 8ierceness and insolence< so that 8inding it grew not to be tri8led with any longer7 1 prepar:d 8or rub+ bers in good earnest$ &lipping then a pillow under -e7 that 1 -ight give hithe 8airest play7 1 guided o88iciously with -y hand this 8urious battering ra-7 whose ruby head7 presenting nearest the rese-blance o8 a heart7 1 applied to its proper -ar97 which lay as 8inely elevated as we could wish< -y hips being borne up7 and -y thighs at their ut-ost extension7 the glea-y war-th that shot 8ro- it -ade hi- 8eel that he was at the -outh o8 the indraught7 and driving 8oreright7 the power8ully divided lips o8 that pleasure+thirsty channel receiv:d hi-$ 0e hesitated a little< then7 set+ tled well in the passage7 he -a9es his way up the straits o8 it7 with a di88iculty nothing -ore than pleasing7 widen+ ing as he went7 so as to distend and s-ooth each so8t 8ur+ rowB our pleasure increasing deliciously7 in proportion as our points o8 -utual touch increas:d in that so vital part o8 -e in which 1 had now ta9en hi-7 all indriven7 and co-+ pletely sheathed< and which7 cra--ed as it was7 stretched7 splitting ripe7 gave it so grate8ully strait an acco--oda+ tion> so strict a 8old> a suction so 8ierce> that gave and too9 unutterable delight$ We had now reach:d the closest point o8 union< but when he bac9ened to co-e on the 8iercer7 as i8 1 had been actuated by a 8ear o8 losing hi-7 in the height o8 -y 8ury 1 twisted -y legs round his na9ed loins7

the 8lesh o8 which7 so 8ir-7 so springy to the touch7 =uiver:d again under the pressure< and now 1 had hi- every way encircled and begirt< and having drawn hi- ho-e to -e7 1 9ept hi- 8ast there7 as i8 1 had sought to unite bodies with hi- at that point$ This bred a pause o8 action7 a pleasure stop7 whilst that delicate glutton7 -y nether+ -outh7 as 8ull as it could hold7 9ept palating7 with ex+ =uisite relish7 the -orsel that so deliciously ingorged it$ @ut nature could not long endure a pleasure that so highly provo9ed without satis8ying itB pursuing then its darling end7 the battery reco--enc:d with redoubled exertion< nor lay 1 inactive on -y side7 but encountering hi- with all the i-petuosity o8 -otion but encountering hi- with all the i-petuosity o8 -otion 1 was -istress o8$ The downy cloth o8 our -eeting -ounts was now o8 real use to brea9 the violence o8 the tilt< and soon7 too soon indeed> the highwrought agitation7 the sweet urgency o8 this to+and+8ro 8riction7 raised the titillation on -e to its height< so that 8inding -ysel8 on the point o8 going7 and loath to leave the tender partner o8 -y ;oys behind -e7 1 e-ployed all the 8orwarding -otions and arts -y experience suggested to -e7 to pro-ote his 9eeping -e co-pany to our ;ourney:s end$ 1 not only then tighten:d the pleasure+girth round -y restless in-ate by a secret spring o8 8riction and co-pres+ sion that obeys the will in those parts7 but stole -y hand so8tly to that store bag o8 nature:s pri-e sweets7 which is so pleasingly attach:d to its conduit pipe7 8ro- which we receive the-< there 8eeling7 and -ost gently indeed7 s=ueez+ ing those tender globular reservoirs< the -agic touch too9 instant e88ect7 =uic9en:d7 and brought on upon the spur the sy-pto-s o8 that sweet agony7 the -elting -o-ent o8 dissolu+ tion7 when pleasure dies by pleasure7 and the -ysterious engine o8 it overco-es the titillation it has rais:d in those parts7 by plying the- with the strea- o8 a war- li+ =uid that is itsel8 the highest o8 all titillations7 and which they thirstily express and draw in li9e the hot+ natured leach7 which to cool itsel87 tenaciously attracts all the -oisture within its sphere o8 exsuction$ 6hi-ing then to -e7 with ex=uisite consent7 as 1 -elted away7 his oily balsa-ic in;ection7 -ixing deliciously with the sluices in 8low 8ro- -e7 sheath:d and blunted all the stings o8 pleasure7 it 8lung us into an extasy that extended us 8aint+ ing7 breathless7 entranced$ Thus we lay7 whilst a voluptuous languor possest7 and still -aintain:d us -otionless and 8ast loc9ed in one another:s ar-s$ .las> that these delights should be no longer+lived> 8or now the point o8 pleasure7 unedged by en;oy-ent7 and all the bris9 sensations 8lat+ ten:d upon us7 resigned us up to the cool cares o8 insipid li8e$ Disengaging -ysel8 then 8ro- his e-brace7 1 -ade hisensible o8 the reasons there were 8or his present leaving -e< on which7 though reluctantly7 he put on his cloaths with as little expedition7 however7 as he could help7 wantonly interrupting hi-sel87 between whiles7 with 9isses7 touches and e-braces 1 could not re8use -ysel8 to$ /et he happily return:d to his -aster be8ore he was -issed< but7 at ta9ing leave7 1 8orc:d hi- (8or he had senti-ents enough to re8use it) to receive -oney enough to buy a silver watch7 that great article o8 subaltern 8inery7 which he at length ac+

cepted o87 as a re-e-brance he was care8ully to preserve o8 -y a88ections$ .nd here7 2ada-7 1 ought7 perhaps7 to -a9e you an apol+ ogy 8or this -inute detail o8 things7 that dwelt so strongly upon -y -e-ory7 a8ter so deep an i-pressionB but7 besides that this intrigue bred one great revolution in -y li8e7 which historical truth re=uires 1 should not sin9 8ro- you7 -ay 1 not presu-e that so exalted a pleasure ought not to be ungrate8ully 8orgotten7 or suppress:d by -e7 because 1 8ound it in a character in low li8e< where7 by the bye7 it is o8+ tener -et with7 purer7 and -ore unsophisticate7 that a-ong the 8alse7 ridiculous re8ine-ents with which the great su8+ 8er the-selves to be so grossly cheated by their prideB the great> than who- there exist 8ew a-ongst those they call the vulgar7 who are -ore ignorant o87 or who cultivate less7 the art o8 living than they do< they7 1 say7 who 8or ever -ista9e things the -ost 8oreign o8 the nature o8 pleasure itsel8< whose capital 8avourite ob;ect is en;oy-ent o8 beauty7 wherever that rare invaluable gi8t is 8ound7 without distinction o8 birth7 or station$ .s love never had7 so now revenge had no longer any share in -y co--erce with this handso-e youth$ The sole pleasures o8 en;oy-ent were now the lin9 1 held to hi- byB 8or though nature had done such great -atters 8or hi- in his outward 8or-7 and especially in that superb piece o8 8urniture she had so liberally enrich:d hi- with< though he was thus =uali8y:d to give the senses their richest 8east7 still there was so-ething -ore wanting to create in -e7 and constitute the passion o8 love$ /et Will had very good =ualities too< gentle7 tractable7 and7 above all7 grate8ul< close7 and secret7 even to a 8aultB he spo9e7 at any ti-e7 very little7 but -ade it up e-phatically with action< and7 to do hi- ;ustice7 he never gave -e the least reason to co-plain7 either o8 any tendency to encroach upon -e 8or the liberties 1 allow:d hi-7 or o8 his indiscretion in blabbing the-$ There is7 then7 a 8atality in love7 or have loved hi- 1 -ust< 8or he was really a treasure7 a bit 8or the @'NN3 @'4603 o8 a duchess< and7 to say the truth7 -y li9ing 8or hi- was so extre-e7 that it was distinguishing very nicely to deny that 1 loved hi-$ 2y happiness7 however7 with hi- did not last long7 but 8ound an end 8ro- -y own i-prudent neglect$ .8ter having ta9en even super8luous precautions against a discovery7 our success in repeated -eetings e-bolden:d -e to o-it the barely necessary ones$ .bout a -onth a8ter our 8irst intercourse7 one 8atal -orning (the season 2r$ 0 $ $ $ rarely or never visited -e in) 1 was in -y closet7 where -y toilet stood7 in nothing but -y shi8t7 a bed gown and under+petticoat$ Will was with -e7 and both ever too well disposed to baul9 an opportunity$ For -y part7 a war- whi-7 a wanton toy had ;ust ta9en -e7 and 1 had challeng:d -y -an to execute it on the spot7 who hesitated not to co-ply with -y hu-ourB 1 was set in the ar-+chair7 -y shi8t and petticoat up7 -y thighs wide spread and -ounted over the ar-s o8 the chair7 present+ ing the 8airest -ar9 to Will:s drawn weapon7 which he stood

in act to plunge into -e< when7 having neglected to secure the cha-ber door7 and that o8 the closet standing a+;ar7 2r$ 0 $ $ $ stole in upon us be8ore either o8 us was aware7 and saw us precisely in these convicting attitudes$ 1 gave a great screa-7 and drop:d -y petticoatB the thunder+struc9 lad stood tre-bling and pale7 waiting his sentence o8 death$ 2r$ 0 $ $ $ loo9ed so-eti-es at one7 so-eti-es at the other7 with a -ixture o8 indignation and scorn< and7 without saying a word7 turn:d upon his heel and went out$ .s con8used as 1 was7 1 heard hi- very distinctly turn the 9ey7 and loc9 the cha-ber+door upon us7 so that there was no escape but through the dining+roo-7 where he hi-sel8 was wal9ing about with diste-pered strides7 sta-ping in a great cha8e7 and doubtless debating what he would do with us$ 1n the -ean ti-e7 poor Willia- was 8rightened out o8 his senses7 and7 as -uch need as 1 had o8 spirits to sup+ port -ysel87 1 was obliged to e-ploy the- all to 9eep his a little up$ The -is8ortune 1 had now brought upon hi-7 endear:d hi- the -ore to -e7 and 1 could have ;oy8ully su8+ 8ered any punish-ent he had not shared in$ 1 water:d7 plenti8ully7 with -y tears7 the 8ace o8 the 8rightened youth7 who sat7 not having strength to stand7 as cold and as li8e+ less as a statue$ Presently 2r$ 0 $ $ $ co-es in to us again7 and -ade us go be8ore hi- into the dining+roo-7 tre-bling and dread+ ing the issue$ 2r$ 0 $ $ $ sat down on a chair whilst we stood li9e cri-inals under exa-ination< and beginning with -e7 as9:d -e7 with an even 8ir- tone o8 voice7 neither so8t nor severe7 but cruelly indi88erent7 what 1 could say 8or -ysel87 8or having abused hi- in so unworthy a -anner7 with his own servant too7 and how he had deserv:d this o8 -eE Without adding to the guilt o8 -y in8idelity that o8 an audacious de8ence o8 it7 in the old style o8 a co--on 9ept 2iss7 -y answer was -odest7 and o8ten interrupted by -y tears7 in substance as 8ollowsB that 1 never had a single thought o8 wronging hi- (which was true)7 till 1 had seen hi- ta9ing the last liberties with -y servant+wench (here he colour:d prodigiously)7 and that -y resent-ent at that7 which 1 was over+awed 8ro- giving vent to by co-plaints7 or explanations with hi-7 had driven -e to a course that 1 did not pretend to ;usti8y< but that as to the young -an7 he was entirely 8aultless< 8or that7 in the view o8 -a9ing hi- the instru-ent o8 -y revenge7 1 had down+right seduced hi- to what he had done< and there8ore hoped7 whatever he deter+ -ined about -e7 he would distinguish between the guilty and the innocent< and that7 8or the rest7 1 was entirely at his -ercy$ 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 on hearing what 1 said7 hung his head a little< but instantly recovering hi-sel87 he said to -e7 as near as 1 can retain7 to the 8ollowing purposeB

C2ada-7 1 owe sha-e to -ysel87 and con8ess you have 8airly turn:d the tables upon -e$ 1t is not with one o8 your cast o8 breeding and senti-ents that 1 should enter into a discussion o8 the very great di88erence o8 the pro+ vocationsB be it su88icient that 1 allow you so -uch reason on your side7 as to have changed -y resolutions7 in consideration o8 what you reproach -e with< and 1 own7 too7 that your clearing that rascal there7 is 8air and honest in you$ (enew with you 1 cannotB the a88ront is too gross$ 1 give you a wee9:s warning to go out o8 these lodgings< whatever 1 have given you7 re-ains to you< and as 1 never intend to see you -ore7 the landlord will pay you 8i8ty pieces on -y account7 with which7 and every debt paid7 1 hope you will own 1 do not leave you in a worse condition than what 1 too9 you up in7 or than you deserve o8 -e$ @la-e yoursel8 only that it is no better$C Then7 without giving -e ti-e to reply7 he address:d hi-sel8 to the young 8ellowB CFor you7 spar97 1 shall7 8or your 8ather:s sa9e7 ta9e care o8 youB the town is no place 8or such an easy 8ool as thou art< and to+-orrow you shall set out7 under the charge o8 one o8 -y -en7 well reco--ended7 in -y na-e7 to your 8ather7 not to let you return and be spoil:d here$C .t these words he went out7 a8ter -y vainly atte-pting to stop hi- by throwing -ysel8 at his 8eet$ 0e shoo9 -e o887 though he see-ed greatly -ov:d too7 and too9 Will away with hi-7 who7 1 dare swear7 thought hi-sel8 very cheaply o88$ 1 was now once -ore a+dri8t7 and le8t upon -y own hands7 by a gentle-an who- 1 certainly did not deserve$ .nd all the letters7 arts7 8riends: entreaties that 1 e-ployed within the wee9 o8 grace in -y lodging7 could never win on hi- so -uch as to see -e again$ 0e had irrevocably pornounc:d -y doo-7 and sub-ission to it was -y only part$ &oon a8ter he -arried a lady o8 birth and 8ortune7 to who-7 1 have heard7 he prov:d an irreproachable husband$ .s 8or poor Will7 he was i--ediately sent down to the country to his 8ather7 who was an easy 8ar-er7 where he was not 8our -onths be8ore and inn+9eeper:s buxo- young widow7 with a very good stoc97 both in -oney and trade7 8ancy:d7 and perhaps pre+ac=uainted with his secret excellencies7 -arry:d hi-B and 1 a- sure there was7 at least7 one good 8oundation 8or their living happily together$ Though 1 should have been char-:d to see hi- be8ore he went7 such -easures were ta9en7 by 2r$ 0 $ $ $:s orders7 that it was i-possible< otherwise 1 should certainly have endeavour:d to detain hi- in town7 and would have spared neither o88ers nor expence to have procured -ysel8 the satis8action o8 9eeping hi- with -e$ 0e had such power8ul holds upon -y inclinations as were not easily to be sha9en o887 or replaced< as to -y heart7 it was =uite out o8 the =uestionB glad7 however7 1 was 8ro- -y soul7 that nothing

worse7 and as things turn:d out7 probably nothing better could have happened to hi-$ .s to 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 though views o8 conveniency -ade -e7 at 8irst7 exert -ysel8 to regain his a88ection7 1 was giddy and thoughtless enough to be -uch easier reconcil:d to -y 8ailure than 1 ought to have been< but as 1 never had lov:d hi-7 and his leaving -e gave -e a sort o8 liberty that 1 had o8ten long:d 8or7 1 was soon co-8orted< and 8lattering -ysel8 that the stoc9 o8 youth and beauty 1 was going into trade with could hardly 8ail o8 procuring -e a -aintenance7 1 saw -ysel8 under a necessity o8 trying -y 8ortune with the-7 rather7 with pleasure and gaiety7 than with the least idea o8 despondency$ 1n the -ean ti-e7 several o8 -y ac=uaintances a-ong the sisterhood7 who had soon got wind o8 -y -is8ortune7 8loc9ed to insult -e with their -alicious consolations$ 2ost o8 the- had long envied -e the a88luence and splendour 1 had been -aintain:d in< and though there was scarce one o8 the- that did not at least deserve to be in -y case7 and would probably7 sooner or later7 co-e to it7 it was e=ually easy to re-ar97 even in their a88ected pity7 their secret pleasure at seeing -e thus disgrac:d and discarded7 and their secret grie8 that it was no worse with -e$ 4naccount+ able -alice o8 the hu-an heart> and which is not con8in:d to the class o8 li8e they were o8$ @ut as the ti-e approached 8or -e to co-e to so-e resolution how to dispose o8 -ysel87 and 1 was considering round where to shi8t -y =uarters to7 2rs$ 6ole7 a -iddle+ aged discreet sort o8 wo-an7 who had been brought into -y ac=uaintance by one ot the 2isses that visited -e7 upon learning -y situation7 ca-e to o88er her cordial advice and service to -e< and as 1 had always ta9en to her -ore than to any o8 -y 8e-ale ac=uaintances7 1 listened the easier to her proposals$ .nd7 as it happened7 1 could not have put -ysel8 into worse7 or into better hands in all %ondonB into worse7 because 9eeping a house o8 conveniency7 there were no lengths in lewdness she would not advise -e to go7 in co-pliance with her custo-ers< no sche-es o8 pleasure7 or even unbounded debauchery7 she did not ta9e even a delight in pro-otingB into a better7 because nobody having had -ore experience o8 the wic9ed part o8 the town than she had7 was 8itter to advise and guard one against the worst dangers o8 our pro8ession< and what was rare to be -et with in those o8 her:s7 she contented hersel8 with a -oderate living pro+ 8it upon her industry and good o88ices7 and had nothing o8 their greedy rapacious turn$ &he was really too a gentle+ wo-an born and bred7 but through a train o8 accidents reduc:d to this course7 which she pursued7 partly through necessity7 partly through choice7 as never wo-an delighted -ore in encouraging a bris9 circulation o8 trade 8or the sa9e o8 the trade itsel87 or better understood all the -y+ steries and re8ine-ents o8 it7 than she did< so that she was consu--ately at the top o8 her pro8ession7 and dealt only with custo-ers o8 distinctionB to answer the de-ands o8 who- she 9ept a co-petent nu-ber o8 her daughters in

constant recruit (so she call:d those who- by her -eans7 and through her tuition and instructions7 succeeded very well in the world)$ This use8ul gentlewo-an upon whose protection 1 now threw -ysel87 having her reasons o8 state7 respecting 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 8or not appearing too -uch in the thing hersel87 sent a 8riend o8 her:s7 on the day appointed 8or -y re-oval7 to conduct -e to -y new lodgings at a brush-a9er:s in (FFF street7 6ovent ?arden7 the very next door to her own house7 where she had no conveniences to lodge -e hersel8B lodgings that7 by having been 8or several successions tenanted by ladies o8 pleasure7 the landlord o8 the- was 8a-iliarized to their ways< and provided the rent was duly paid7 every thing else was as easy and co--odious as one could desire$ The 8i8ty guineas pro-is:d -e by 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 at his parting with -e7 having been duly paid -e7 all -y cloaths and -oveables chested up7 which were at least o8 two hundred pound:s value7 1 had the- convey:d into a coach7 where 1 soon 8ollowed the-7 a8ter ta9ing a civil leave o8 the landlord and his 8a-ily7 with who- 1 had never liv:d in a degree o8 8a-iliarity enough to regret the re-oval< but still7 the very circu-stance o8 its being a re-oval drew tears 8ro- -e$ 1 le8t7 too7 a letter o8 than9s 8or 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 8ro- who- 1 concluded -ysel87 as 1 really was7 irretrievably separated$ 2y -aid 1 had discharged the day be8ore7 not only because 1 had her o8 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 but that 1 suspected her o8 having so-e how or other been the occasion o8 his dis+ covering -e7 in revenge7 perhaps7 8or -y not having trusted her with hi-$ We soon got to -y lodgings7 which7 though not so hand+ so-ely 8urnish:d nor so showy as those 1 le8t7 were to the 8ull as convenient7 and at hal8 price7 though on the 8irst 8loor$ 2y trun9s were sa8ely landed7 and stow:d in -y apart-ents7 where -y neighbour7 and now gouvernante7 2rs$ 6ole7 was ready with -y landlord to receive -e7 to who- she too9 care to set -e out in the -ost 8avourable light7 that o8 one 8ro- who- there was the clearest reason to expect the regular pay-ent o8 his rentB all the cardinal virtues attributed to -e would not have had hal8 the weight o8 that reco--endation alone$ 1 was now settled in lodgings o8 -y own7 abandon:d to -y own conduct7 and turned loose upon the town7 to sin9 or swi-7 as 1 could -anage with the current o8 it< and what were the conse=uences7 together with the nu-ber o8 adven+ tures which be8ell -e in the exercise o8 -y new pro8ession7 will co-pose the -atter o8 another letterB 8or surely it is high ti-e to put a period to this$ 1 a-7 2.D.2 /ours7 etc$7 etc$7 etc$

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Part I %3TT3( T03 &36'ND 2ada-7 18 1 have delay:d the se=uel o8 -y history7 it has been purely to allow -ysel8 a little breathing ti-e not without so-e hopes that7 instead o8 pressing -e to a continuation7 you would have ac=uitted -e o8 the tas9 o8 pursuing a con+ 8ession7 in the course o8 which -y sel8+estee- has so -any wounds to sustain$ 1 i-agined7 indeed7 that you would have been cloy:d and tired with uni8or-ity o8 adventures and expressions7 insep+ arable 8ro- a sub;ect o8 this sort7 whose botto-7 or ground+ wor9 being7 in the nature o8 things7 eternally one and the sa-e7 whatever variety o8 8or-s and -odes the situations are susceptible o87 there is no escaping a repetition o8 near the sa-e i-ages7 the sa-e 8igures7 the sa-e expressions7 with this 8urther inconvenience added to the disgust it cre+ ates7 that the words 5'/&7 .(D'4(&7 T(.N&P'(T&7 3JT.&13&7 and the rest o8 those pathetic ter-s so congenial to7 so received in the P(.6T163 'F P%3.&4(37 8latten and lose -uch o8 their due spirit and energy by the 8re=uency they indis+ pensably recur with7 in a narrative o8 which that P(.6T163 pro8essedly co-poses the whole basis$ 1 -ust there8ore trust to the candour o8 your ;udge-ent7 8or your allowing 8or the disadvantage 1 a- necessarily under in that respect7 and to your i-agination and sensibility7 the pleasing tas9 o8 repairing it by their supple-ents7 where -y descriptions 8lag or 8ailB the one will readily place the pictures 1 present be8ore your eyes< the other give li8e to the colours where they are dull7 or worn with too 8re=uent handling$ What you say besides7 by way o8 encourage-ent7 con+ cerning the extre-e di88iculty o8 continuing so long in one strain7 in a -ean te-per:d with taste7 between the revolt+ ingness o8 gross7 ran9 and vulgar expressions7 and the ridi+ cule o8 -incing -etaphors and a88ected circu-locutions7 is so sensible7 as well as good+natur:d7 that you greatly ;usti8y -e to -ysel8 8or -y co-pliance with a curiosity that is to be satis8ied so extre-ely at -y expense$ (esu-ing now where 1 bro9e o88 in -y last7 1 a- in -y way to re-ar9 to you that it was late in the evening be8ore 1 arriv:d at -y new lodgings7 and 2rs$ 6ole7 a8ter helping -e to range and secure -y things7 spent the whole evening with -e in -y apart-ent7 where we supped together7 in giving -e the best advice and instruction with regard to this new stage o8 -y pro8ession 1 was now to enter upon< and passing thus 8ro- a private devotee to pleasure into a public one7 to beco-e a -ore general good7 with all the advantages re+ =uisite to put -y person out to use7 either 8or interest or

pleasure7 or both$ @ut then7 she observ:d7 as 1 was a 9ind o8 new 8ace upon the town7 that it was an established rule7 and part o8 trade7 8or -e to pass 8or a -aid7 and dispose o8 -ysel8 as such on the 8irst good occasion7 without pre;udice7 however7 to such diversions as 1 -ight have a -ind to in the interi-< 8or that nobody could be a greater ene-y than she was to the losing o8 ti-e$ That she would7 in the -ean ti-e7 do her best to 8ind out a proper person7 and would underta9e to -anage this nice point 8or -e7 i8 1 would accept o8 her aid and advice to such good purpose that7 in the loss o8 a 8ictitious -aidenhead7 1 should reap all the advantages o8 a native one$ Though such a delicacy o8 senti-ents did not extre-ely belong to -y character at that ti-e7 1 con8ess7 against -y+ sel87 that 1 perhaps too readily closed with a proposal which -y candor and ingenuity gave -e so-e repugnance toB but not enough to contradict the intention o8 one to who- 1 had now thoroughly abandoned the direction o8 all -y steps$ For 2rs$ 6ole had7 1 do not 9now how unless by one o8 those unaccount+ able invincible sy-pathies that7 nevertheless7 8or- the strongest lin9s7 especially o8 8e-ale 8riendship7 won and got entire possession o8 -e$ 'n her side7 she pretended that a strict rese-blance she 8ancied she saw in -e to an only daughter who- she had lost at -y age7 was the 8irst -otive o8 her ta9ing to -e so a88ectionately as she did$ 1t -ight be soB there exist as slender -otives o8 attach-ent that7 gathering 8orce 8ro- habit and li9ing7 have proved o8ten -ore solid and durable than those 8ounded on -uch stronger reasons< but this 1 9now7 that tho: 1 had no other ac=uaintance with her than seeing her at -y lodgings when 1 lived with 2r$ 0 $ $ $7 where she had -ade errands to sell -e so-e -illinery ware7 she had by degrees insinuated her+ sel8 so 8ar into -y con8idence that 1 threw -ysel8 blindly into her hands7 and ca-e7 at length7 to regard7 love7 and obey her i-plicitly< and7 to do her ;ustice7 1 never experi+ enc:d at her hands other than a sincerity o8 tenderness7 and care 8or -y interest7 hardly heard o8 in those o8 her pro+ 8ession$ We parted that night7 a8ter having settled a per+ 8ect unreserv:d agree-ent< and the next -orning 2rs$ 6ole ca-e7 and too9 -e with her to her house 8or the 8irst ti-e$ 0ere7 at the 8irst sight o8 things7 1 8ound everything breath:d an air o8 decency7 -odesty and order$ 1n the outer parlour7 or rather shop7 sat three young wo-en7 very de-urely e-ploy:d on -illinery wor97 which was the cover o8 a tra88ic in -ore precious co--odities< but three beauti8uller creatures could hardly be seen$ Two o8 the- were extre-ely 8air7 the eldest not above nineteen< and the third7 -uch about that age7 was a pi=uant brunette7 whose blac9 spar9ling eyes7 and per8ect har-ony o8 8eatures and shape7 le8t her nothing to envy in her 8airer co-panions$ Their dress too had the -ore design in it7 the less it ap+ peared to have7 being in a taste o8 uni8or- correct neatness7 and elegant si-plicity$ These were the girls that co-pos:d the s-all do-estic9 8loc97 which -y governess train:d up with surprising order and -anage-ent7 considering the giddy wild+

ness o8 young girls once got upon the loose$ @ut then she never continued any in her house7 who-7 a8ter a due novitiate7 she 8ound untractable7 or unwilling to co-ply with the rules o8 it$ Thus had she insensibly 8or-ed a little 8a-ily o8 love7 in which the -e-bers 8ound so sensibly their account7 in a rare alliance o8 pleasure with interest7 and o8 a necessary outward decency with unbounded secret liberty7 that 2rs$ 6ole7 who had pic9:d the- as -uch 8or their te-per as their beauty7 govern:d the- with ease to hersel8 and thetoo$ To these pupils then o8 hers7 who- she had prepar:d7 she presented -e as a new boarder7 and one that was to be i--ediately ad-itted to all the inti-acies o8 the house< upon which these char-ing girls gave -e all the -ar9s o8 a welco-e reception7 and indeed o8 being per8ectly pleased with -y 8igure7 that 1 could possibly expect 8ro- any o8 -y own sexB but they had been e88ectually brought to sacri8ice all ;eal+ ousy7 or co-petition o8 char-s7 to a co--on interest7 and consider:d -e a partner that was bringing no despicable stoc9 o8 goods into the trade o8 the house$ They gathered round -e7 view:d -e on all sides< and as -y ad-ission into this ;oyous troop -ade a little holiday7 the shew o8 wor9 was laid aside< and 2rs$ 6ole giving -e up7 with special reco-+ -endation7 to their caresses and entertain-ent7 went about her ordinary business o8 the house$ The sa-eness o8 our sex7 age7 pro8ession7 and views soon created as unreserv:d a 8reedo- and inti-acy as i8 we had been 8or years ac=uainted$ They too9 and shew:d -e the house7 their respective apart-ents7 which were 8urnished with every article o8 conveniency and luxury< and above all7 a spacious drawing+roo-7 where a select revelling band usu+ ally -et7 in general parties o8 pleasure< the girls supping with their spar9s7 and acting their wanton pran9s with un+ bounded licentiousness< whilst a de8iance o8 awe7 -odesty or ;ealousy were their standing rules7 by which7 according to the principles o8 their society7 whatever pleasure was lost on the side o8 senti-ent was abundantly -ade up to the senses in the poignancy o8 variety7 and the char-s o8 ease and luxury$ The authors and supporters o8 this secret in+ stitution would7 in the height o8 their hu-ours style the-+ selves the restorers o8 the golden age and its si-plicity o8 pleasures7 be8ore their innocence beca-e so in;ustly branded with the na-es o8 guilt and sha-e$ .s soon then as the evening began7 and the shew o8 a shop was shut7 the acade-y open:d< the -as9 o8 -oc9+-odesty was co-pletely ta9en o887 and all the girls deliver:d over to their respective calls o8 pleasure or interest with their -en< and none o8 that sex was pro-iscuously ad-itted7 but only such as 2rs$ 6ole was previously satis8ied with their character and discretion$ 1n short7 this was the sa8est7 politest7 and7 at the sa-e ti-e7 the -ost thorough house o8 acco--odation in townB every thing being conducted so that decency -ade no intrench-ent upon the -ost libertine pleasures7 in the practice o8 which too7 the choice 8a-iliars o8 the house had 8ound the secret so rare and di88icult7 o8

reconciling even all the re8ine-ents o8 taste and delicacy with the -ost gross and deter-inate grati8ications o8 senu+ ality$ .8ter having consu-:d the -orning in the endear-ents and instructions o8 -y new ac=uaintance7 we went to dinner7 when 2rs$ 6ole7 presiding at the head o8 her club7 gave -e the 8irst idea o8 her -anage-ent and address7 in inspiring these girls with so sensible a love and respect 8or her$ There was no sti88ness7 no reserve7 no airs o8 pi=ue7 or little ;ealousies7 but all was una88ectedly gay7 cheer8ul and easy$ .8ter dinner7 2rs$ 6ole7 seconded by the young ladies7 ac=uainted -e that there was a chapter to be held that night in 8or-7 8or the cere-ony o8 -y reception into the sister+ hood< and in which7 with all due reserve to -y -aidenhead7 that was to be occasionally coo9:d up 8or the 8irst proper chap-an7 1 was to undergo a cere-onial o8 initiation they were sure 1 should not be displeased with$ 3-bar9:d as 1 was7 and -oreover captivated with the char-s o8 -y new co-panions7 1 was too -uch pre;udic:d in 8avour o8 any proposal they could -a9e7 to -uch as hesitate an assent< which7 there8ore7 readily giving in the style o8 a carte blanche7 1 receiv:d 8resh 9isses o8 co-pli-ent 8rothe- all7 in approval o8 -y docility and good nature$ Now 1 was Ca sweet girl $ $ $C 1 ca-e into things with a Cgood grace $ $ $C 1 was not Ca88ectedly coy $ $ $C 1 should be Cthe pride o8 the house $ $ $C and the li9e$ This point thus ad;usted7 the young wo-en le8t 2rs$ 6ole to tal9 and concert -atters with -eB she explained to -e that 1 should be introduc:d7 that very evening7 to 8our o8 her best 8riends7 one o8 who- she had7 according to the custo- o8 the house7 8avoured with the pre8erence o8 engag+ ing -e in the 8irst party o8 pleasure< assuring -e7 at the sa-e ti-e7 that they were all young gentle-en agreeable in their persons7 and unexceptionable in every respect< that united7 and holding together by the band o8 co--on pleasures7 they co-posed the chie8 support o8 her house7 and -ade very liberal presents to the girls that pleas:d and hu-our:d the-7 so that they were7 properly spea9ing7 the 8ounders and patrons o8 this little seraglio$ Not but that she had7 at proper seasons7 other custo-ers to deal with7 who- she stood less upon punctilio with than with these< 8or instance7 it was not on one o8 the- she could atte-pt to pass -e 8or a -aid< they were not only too 9nowing7 too -uch town+bred to bite at such a bait7 but they were such generous bene+ 8actors to her that it would be unpardonable to thin9 o8 it$ .-idst all the 8lutter and e-otion which this pro-ise o8 pleasure7 8or such 1 conceiv:d it7 stirr:d up in -e7 1 preserved so -uch o8 the wo-an as to 8eign ;ust reluctance enough to -a9e so-e -erit o8 sacri8icing it to the in8luence o8 -y patroness7 who- 1 li9ewise7 still in character7 re+ -inded o8 it perhaps being right 8or -e to go ho-e and dress7 in 8avour o8 -y 8irst i-pressions$

@ut 2rs$ 6ole7 in opposition to this7 assured -e that the gentle-en 1 should be presented to were7 by their ran9 and taste o8 things7 in8initely superior to the being touched with any glare o8 dress or orna-ents7 such as silly wo-en rather con8ound and overlay than set o88 their beauty with< that these veteran voluptuaries 9new better than not to hold the- in the highest conte-ptB they with who- the pure native char-s alone could pass current7 and who would at any ti-e leave a sallow7 washy7 painted duchess on her own hands7 8or a ruddy7 healthy7 8ir-+8lesh:d country -aid< and as 8or -y part7 that nature had done enough 8or -e7 to set -e above owing the least 8avour to art< concluding withal7 that 8or the instant occasion7 there was no dress li9e an undress$ 1 thought -y governess too good a ;udge o8 these -atters not to be easily over+ruled by herB a8ter which she went on preaching very pathetically the doctrine o8 passive obedience and not+resistance to all those arbitrary tastes o8 pleasure7 which are by so-e styl:d the re8ine-ents7 and by others the depravations o8 it< between who- it was not the business o8 a si-ple girl7 who was to pro8it by pleasing7 to decide7 but to con8or- to$ Whilst 1 was edi8ying by these wholeso-e lessons7 tea was brought in7 and the young ladies7 returning7 ;oined co-pany with us$ .8ter a great deal o8 -ix:d chat7 8rolic and hu-our7 one o8 the-7 observing that there would be a good deal o8 ti-e on hand be8ore the asse-bly+hour7 proposed that each girl should entertain the co-pany with that critical period o8 her personal history in which she 8irst exchanged the -aiden state 8or wo-anhood$ The proposal was approv:d7 with only one restriction o8 2rs$ 6ole7 that she7 on account o8 her age7 and 17 on account o8 -y titular -aidenhead7 should be excused7 at least till 1 had undergone the 8or-s o8 the house$ This obtain:d -e a dispensation7 and the pro-otress o8 this a-use-ent was desired to begin$ 0er na-e was 3-ily< a girl 8air to excess7 and whose li-bs were7 i8 possible7 too well -ade7 since their plu-p 8ullness was rather to the pre;udice o8 that delicate sli-ness re=uir:d by the nicer ;udges o8 beauty< her eyes were blue7 and strea-ed inexpressible sweetness7 and nothing could be prettier than her -outh and lips7 which clos:d over a range o8 the evenest and whitest teeth$ Thus she beganB CNeither -y extraction7 nor the -ost critical adventure o8 -y li8e7 is subli-e enough to i-peach -e o8 any vanity in the advance-ent o8 the proposal you have approv:d o8$ 2y 8ather and -other were7 and 8or aught 1 9now7 are still7 8ar-ers in the country7 not above 8orty -iles 8ro- townB their barbarity to -e7 in 8avour o8 a son7 on who- only they vouchsa8ed to bestow their tenderness7 had a thousand ti-es deter-ined -e to 8ly their house7 and throw -ysel8 on the wide world< but7 at length7 an accident 8orc:d -e on this desperate atte-pt at the age o8 8i8teen$ 1 had bro9en a china bowl7 the pride and idol o8 both their hearts< and as an un-erci8ul beating was the least 1 had to depend on at

their hands7 in the silliness o8 those tender years 1 le8t the house7 and7 at all adventures7 too9 the road to %ondon$ 0ow -y loss was resented 1 do not 9now7 8or till this instant 1 have not heard a syllable about the-$ 2y whole stoc9 was too broad pieces o8 -y grand-other:s7 a 8ew shillings7 silver shoe+buc9les and a silver thi-ble$ Thus e=uipp:d7 with no -ore cloaths than the ordinary ones 1 had on -y bac97 and 8righten:d at every 8oot or noise 1 heard behind -e7 1 hurried on< and 1 dare swear7 wal9ed a dozen -iles be8ore 1 stopped7 through -ere weariness and 8atigue$ .t length 1 sat down on a stile7 wept bitterly7 and yet was still rather under increased i-pressions o8 8ear on the account o8 -y escape< which -ade dread7 worse than death7 the going bac9 to 8ace -y unnatural parents$ (e8resh:d by this little repose7 and relieved by -y tears7 1 was proceeding onward7 when 1 was overta9en by a sturdy country lad who was going to %ondon to see what he could do 8or hi-sel8 there7 and7 li9e -e7 had given his 8riends the slip$ 0e could not be above seventeen7 was ruddy7 well 8eatur:d enough7 with unco-bed 8laxen hair7 a little 8lapp:d hat7 9ersey 8roc97 yarn stoc9+ ings7 in short7 a per8ect plough+boy$ 1 saw hi- co-e whist+ ling behind -e7 with a bundle tied to the end o8 a stic97 his travelling e=uipage$ We wal9:d by one another 8or so-e ti-e without spea9ing< at length we ;oin:d co-pany7 and agreed to 9eep together till we got to our ;ourney:s end$ What his designs or ideas were7 1 9now notB the innocence o8 -ine 1 can sole-nly protest$ C.s night drew on7 it beca-e us to loo9 out 8or so-e inn or shelter< to which perplexity another was added7 and that was7 what we should say 8or ourselves7 i8 we were =uestion:d$ .8ter so-e puzzle7 the young 8ellow started a proposal7 which 1 thought the 8inest that could be< and what was thatE why7 that we should pass 8or husband and wi8eB 1 never once drea-:d o8 conse=uences$ We ca-e presently7 a8ter having agreed on this notable expedient7 to one o8 those hedge+acco--odations 8or 8oot passengers7 at the door do which stood an old crazy belda-7 who seeing us trudge by7 invited us to lodge there$ ?lad o8 any cover7 we went in7 and -y 8ellow traveller7 ta9ing all upon hi-7 call:d 8or what the house a88orded7 and we supped together as -an and wi8e< which7 considering our 8igures and ages7 could not have passed on any one but such as any thing could pass on$ @ut when bedti-e ca-e on7 we had neither o8 us the courage to contradict out 8irst account o8 ourselves< and what was ex+ tre-ely pleasant7 the young lad see-:d as perplex:d as 1 was7 how to evade lying together7 which was so natural 8or the state we had pretenced to$ Whilst we were in this =uandary7 the landlady ta9es the candle and lights us to our apart-ent7 through a long yard7 at the end o8 which it stood7 separate 8ro- the body o8 the house$ Thus we su88er:d ourselves to be conducted7 without saying a word in opposition to it< and there7 in a wretched roo-7 with a bed answerable7 we were le8t to pass the night together7 as a thing =uite o8 course$ For -y part7 1 was so incredibly innocent as not even then to thin9 -uch -ore har- o8 going to bed with the young -an than with one o8 our dairy+wenches< nor had he7 perhaps7 any other notions than those o8 innocence7 till such a 8air occasion

put the- into his head$ C@e8ore either o8 us undressed7 however7 he put out the candle< and the bitterness o8 the weather -ade it a 9ind o8 necessity 8or -e to go into bedB slipping then -y cloaths o887 1 crept under the bed+cloaths7 where 1 8ound the young stripling already nestled7 and the touch o8 his war- 8lesh rather pleas:d than alar-:d -e$ 1 was indeed too -uch dis+ turbed with the novelty o8 -y condition to be able to sleep< but then 1 had not the least thought o8 har-$ @ut7 oh> how power8ul are the instincts o8 nature> how little is there wanting to set the- in action> The young -an7 sliding his ar- under -y body7 drew -e gently towards hi-7 as i8 to 9eep hi-sel8 and -e war-er< and the heat 1 8elt 8ro- ;oining our breasts7 9indled another that 1 had hitherto never 8elt7 and was7 even then7 a stranger to the nature o8$ 3-boldened7 1 suppose7 by -y easiness7 he ventur:d to 9iss -e7 and 1 insen+ sibly returned it7 without 9nowing the conse=uence o8 return+ ing it< 8or7 on this encourage-ent7 he slipped his hand all down 8ro- -y breast to that part o8 -e where the sense o8 8eeling is so ex=uisitely critical7 as 1 then experienc:d by its instant ta9ing 8ire upon the touch7 and glowing with a strange tic9ling heatB there he pleas:d hi-sel8 and -e7 by 8eeling7 till7 growing a little too bold7 he hurt -e7 and -ade -e co-plain$ Then he too9 -y hand7 which he guided7 not unwillingly on -y side7 between the twist o8 his closed thighs7 which were extre-ely war-< there he lodged and pressed it7 till raising it by degrees7 he -ade -e 8eel the proud distinction o8 his sex 8ro- -ine$ 1 was 8righten:d at the novelty7 and drew bac9 -y hand< yet7 pressed and spurred on by sensations o8 a strange pleasure7 1 could not help as9ing hi- what that was 8orE 0e told -e he would show -e i8 1 would let hi-< and7 without waiting 8or -y answer7 which he prevented by stopping -y -outh with 9isses 1 was 8ar 8ro- disrelishing7 he got upon -e7 and inserting one o8 his thighs between -ine7 opened the- so as to -a9e way 8or hi-sel87 and 8ixed -e to his purpose< whilst 1 was so -uch out o8 -y usual sense7 so subdu:d by the present power o8 a new one7 that7 between 8ear and desire7 1 lay utterly passive7 till the piercing pain rous:d and -ade -e cry out$ @ut it was too lateB he was too 8ir- 8ix:d in the saddle 8or -e to co-pass 8linging hi-7 with all the strug+ gles 1 could use7 so-e o8 which only served to 8urther his point7 and at length an irresistible thrust -urdered at once -y -aidenhead7 and al-ost -e$ 1 now lay a bleeding witness o8 the necessity i-pos:d on our sex7 to gather the 8irst honey o88 the thorns$ C@ut the pleasure rising as the pain subsided7 1 was soon reconciled to 8resh trials7 and be8ore -orning7 nothing on earth could be dearer to -e than this ri8ler o8 -y virgin sweetsB he was every thing to -e now$ 0ow we agreed to ;oin 8ortunes< how we ca-e up to town together7 where we lived so-e ti-e7 till necessity parted us7 and drove -e into this course o8 li8e7 in which 1 had been long ago battered and torn to pieces be8ore 1 ca-e to this age7 as -uch through -y easiness7 as through -y inclination7 had it not been 8or -y 8inding re8uge in this houseB these are all circu-stances

which pass the -ar9 1 proposed7 so that here -y narrative ends$C 1n the order o8 our sitting7 it was 0arriet:s turn to go on$ .-ongst all the beauties o8 our sex that 1 had be+ 8ore or have since seen7 8ew indeed were the 8or-s that could dispute excellence with her:s< it was not delicate7 but delicacy itsel8 incarnate7 such was the sy--etry o8 her s-all but exactly 8ashion:d li-bs$ 0er co-plexion7 8air as it was7 appeared yet -ore 8air 8ro- the e88ect o8 two blac9 eyes7 the brilliancy o8 which gave her 8ace -ore vivacity than belonged to the colour o8 it7 which was only de8ended 8ro- paleness by a sweetly pleasing blush in her chee9s7 that grew 8ainter and 8ainter7 till at length it died away insensibly into the overbearing white$ Then her -iniature 8eatures ;oin:d to 8inish the extre-e sweetness o8 it7 which was not belied by that o8 te-per turned to indolence7 languor7 and the pleasures o8 love$ Press:d to subscribe her contingent7 she s-iled7 blushed a little7 and thus co-plied with our desiresB C2y 8ather was neither better nor worse than a -iller near the city o8 /or9< and both he and -y -other dying whilst 1 was an in8ant7 1 8ell under the care o8 a widow and childless aunt7 house9eeper to -y lord N $ $ $7 at his seat in the county o8 $ $ $7 where she brought -e up with all i-aginable tenderness$ 1 was not seventeen7 as 1 anot now eighteen7 be8ore 1 had7 on account o8 -y person purely (8or 8ortune 1 had notoriously none)7 several advan+ tageous proposals< but whether nature was slow in -a9ing -e sensible in her 8avourite passion7 or that 1 had not seen any o8 the other sex who had stirr:d up the least e-otion or curiosity to be better ac=uainted with it7 1 had7 till that age7 preserv:d a per8ect innocence7 even o8 thoughtB whilst -y 8ears o8 1 did not well 9now what7 -ade -e no -ore desirous o8 -arrying than o8 dying$ 2y aunt7 good wo-an7 8avoured -y ti-orousness7 which she loo9:d on as childish a88ection7 that her own experience -ight probably assure her would wear o88 in ti-e7 and gave -y suitors proper answers 8or -e$ CThe 8a-ily had not been down at that seat 8or years7 so that it was neglected7 and co--itted entirely to -y aunt7 and two old do-estics to ta9e care o8 it$ Thus 1 had the 8ull range o8 a spacious lonely house and gardens7 situate at about hal8 a -ile distance 8or- any other habitation7 except7 perhaps7 a straggling cottage or so$ C0ere7 in tran=uillity and innocence7 1 grew up with+ out any -e-orable accident7 till one 8atal day 1 had7 as 1 had o8ten done be8ore7 le8t -y aunt 8ast asleep7 and secure 8or so-e hours7 a8ter dinner< and resorting to a 9ind o8 ancient su--er+house7 at so-e distance 8ro- the house7 1 carried -y wor9 with -e7 and sat over a rivulet7 which its door and window 8ac:d upon$ 0ere 1 8ell into a gentle breathing slu-ber7 which stole upon -y senses7 as they 8ainted under the excessive heat o8 the season at that hour< a cane couch7 with -y wor9+bas9et 8or a pillow7 were all

the conveniencies o8 -y short repose< 8or 1 was soon awa9ed and alar-ed by a 8lounce7 and the noise o8 splashing in the water$ 1 got up to see what was the -atter< and what indeed should it be but the son o8 a neighbouring gentle-an7 as 1 a8terwards 8ound (8or 1 had never seen hi- be8ore)7 who had strayed that way with his gun7 and heated by his sport7 and the sultriness o8 the day7 had been te-pted by the 8reshness o8 the clear strea-< so that presently stripping7 he ;u-p:d into it on the other side7 which bordered on a wood7 so-e trees whereo87 inclined down to the water7 8or-:d a pleasing shady recess7 co--odious to undress and leave his clothes under$ C2y 8irst e-otions at the sight o8 this youth7 na9ed in the water7 were7 with all i-aginable respect to truth7 those o8 surprise and 8ear< and7 in course7 1 should i--ediately have run out7 had not -y -odesty7 8atally 8or itsel87 inter+ posed the ob;ection o8 the door and window being so situated that it was scarce possible to get out7 and -a9e -y way along the ban9 to the house7 without his seeing -eB which 1 could not bear the thought o87 so -uch asha-ed and con+ 8ounded was 1 at having seen hi-$ 6onde-n:d then to stay till his departure should release -e7 1 was greatly e-bar+ rassed how to dispose o8 -ysel8B 1 9ept so-e ti-e betwixt terror and -odesty7 even 8ro- loo9ing through the window7 which being an old+8ashinon:d case-ent7 without any light behind -e7 could hardly betray any one:s being there to hi- 8ro- within< then the door was so secure7 that without violence7 or -y own consent7 there was no opening it 8rowithout$ C@ut now7 by -y own experience7 1 8ound it too true that ob;ects which a88right us7 when we cannot get 8rothe-7 draw out eyes as 8orcibly as those that please us$ 1 could not long withstand that na-eless i-pulse7 which7 without any desire o8 this novel sight7 co-pelled -e to+ wards it< e-bolden:d too by -y certainty o8 being at once unseen and sa8e7 1 ventur:d by degrees to cast -y eyes on an ob;ect so terrible and alar-ing to -y virgin -odesty as a na9ed -an$ @ut as 1 snatched a loo97 the 8irst glea- that struc9 -e was in general the dewy lustre o8 the whitest s9in i-aginable7 which the sun playing upon -ade the re8lection o8 it per8ectly bea-y$ 0is 8ace7 in the con8usion 1 was in7 1 could not well distinguish the linea-ents o87 any 8arther than that there was a great deal o8 youth and 8reshness in it$ The 8rolic and various play o8 all his polish:d li-bs7 as they appeared above the sur8ace7 in the course o8 his swi--ing or wantoning with the water7 a-us:d and insensibly delighted -eB so-eti-es he lay -otionless7 on his bac97 waterborne7 and dragging a8ter hi- a 8ine head o8 hair7 that7 8loating7 swept the strea- in a bush o8 blac9 curls$ Then the over+8lowing water would -a9e a separation between his breast and glossy white belly< at the botto- o8 which 1 could not escape observing so re-ar9able a distinction as a blac9 -ossy tu8t7 out o8 which appeared to e-erge a round7 so8tish7 li-ber7 white so-ething7 that played every way7 with ever the least -otion or whirling eddy$ 1 cannot say but that part chie8ly7 by a 9ind o8 natural instinct7

attracted7 detain:d7 captivated -y attentionB it was out o8 the power o8 all -y -odesty to co--and -y eye away 8ro- it< and seeing nothing so very dread8ul in its appearance7 1 insensibly loc9:d away all -y 8earsB but as 8ast as they gave way7 new desires and strange wishes too9 place7 and 1 -elted as 1 gazed$ The 8ire o8 nature7 that had so long lain dor-ant or conceal:d7 began to brea9 out7 and -ade -e 8eel -y sex the 8irst ti-e$ 0e had now changed his pos+ ture7 and swa- prone on his belly7 stri9ing out with his legs and ar-s7 8iner -odell:d than which could not have been cast7 whilst his 8loating loc9s played over a nec9 and shoulders whose whiteness they delight8ully set o88$ Then the luxuriant swell o8 8lesh that rose 8or- the s-all o8 his bac97 and ter-inated its double cope at where the thighs are sent o887 per8ectly dazzled one with its watery glistening gloss$ C@y this ti-e 1 was so a88ected by this inward involu+ tion o8 senti-ents7 so so8ten:d by this sight7 that now7 betrayed into a sudden transition 8ro- extre-e 8ears to ex+ tre-e desires7 1 8ound these last so strong upon -e7 the heat o8 the weather too perhaps conspiring to exalt their rage7 that nature al-ost 8ainted under the-$ Not that 1 so -uch as 9new precisely what was wanting to -eB -y only thought was that so sweet a creature as this youth see-ed to -e could only -a9e -e happy< but then7 the little li9e+ lihood there was o8 co-passing an ac=uaintance with hi-7 or perhaps o8 ever seeing hi- again7 dash:d -y desires7 and turn:d the- into tor-ents$ 1 was still gazing7 with all the powers o8 -y sight7 on this bewitching ob;ect7 when7 in an instant7 down he went$ 1 had heard o8 such things as a cra-p seizing on even the best swi--ers7 and occasioning their being drowned< and i-agining this so sudden eclipse to be owing to it7 the inconceivable 8ondness this un9nown lad had given birth to distracted -e with the -ost 9illing terrors< inso-uch7 that -y concern giving the wings7 1 8lew to the door7 open:d it7 ran down to the canal7 guided thither by the -adness o8 -y 8ears 8or hi-7 and the intense desire o8 being an instru-ent to save hi-7 though 1 was ignorant how7 or by what -eans to e88ect itB but was it 8or 8ears7 and a passion so sudden as -ine7 to reasonE .ll this too9 up scarce the space o8 a 8ew -o-ents$ 1 had then ;ust li8e enough to reach the green borders o8 the waterpiece7 where wildly loo9ing round 8or the young -an7 and -issing hi- still7 -y 8right and concern sun9 -e down in a deep swoon7 which -ust have lasted -e so-e ti-e< 8or 1 did not co-e to -ysel8 till 1 was rous:d out o8 it by a sense o8 pain that pierced -e to the vitals7 and awa9ed -e to the -ost surprising circu-stance o8 8inding -ysel8 not only in the ar-s o8 this very sa-e young gentle-an 1 had been so solicitous to save7 but ta9en at such an advantage in -y unresisting condition that he had actually co-pleted his entrance into -e so 8ar7 that wea9ened as 1 was by all the preceding con8licts o8 -ind 1 had su88er:d7 and struc9 du-b by the violence o8 -y surprise7 1 had neither the power to cry out nor the strength to disengage -ysel8 8ro- his stren+ uous e-braces7 be8ore7 urging his point7 he had 8orced his way and co-pletely triu-phed over -y virginity7 as he -ight

now as well see by the strea-s o8 blood that 8ollow:d his drawing out7 as he had 8elt by the di88iculties he had -et with consu--ating his penetration$ @ut the sight o8 the blood7 and the sense o8 -y condition7 had (as he told -e a8terwards)7 since the ungovernable rage o8 his passion was so-ewhat appeas:d7 now wrought so 8ar on hi- that at all ris9s7 even o8 the worst conse=uences7 he could not 8ind in his heart to leave -e7 and -a9e o887 which he -ight easily have done$ 1 still lay all desco-pos:d in bleeding ruin7 palpitating7 speechless7 unable to get o887 and 8rightened7 and 8luttering li9e a poor wounded partridge7 and ready to 8aint away again at the sense o8 what had be8allen -e$ The young gentle-an was by -e7 9neeling7 9issing -y hand7 and with tears in his eyes beseeching -e to 8orgive hi-7 and o88ering all the reparation in his power$ 1t is certain that could 17 at the instant o8 regaining -y senses7 have called out7 or ta9en the bloodiest revenge7 1 would not have stuc9 at itB the violation was attended too with such aggra+ vating circu-stances7 though he was ignorant o8 the-7 since it was to -y concern 8or the preservation o8 his li8e that 1 owed -y ruin$ C@ut how =uic9 is the shi8t o8 passions 8ro- one extre-e to another> and how little are they ac=uainted with the hu-an heart who dispute it> 1 could not see this a-iable cri-inal7 so suddenly the 8irst ob;ect o8 -y love7 and as suddenly o8 -y ;ust hate7 on his 9nees7 bedewing -y hand with his tears7 without relenting$ 0e was still star9+na9ed7 but -y -odesty had been already too -uch wounded7 in essentials7 to be so -uch shoc9ed as 1 should have otherwise been with appearances only< in short7 -y anger ebbed so 8ast7 and the tide o8 love return:d so strong upon -e7 that 1 8elt it a point o8 -y own happiness to 8orgive hi-$ The reproaches 1 -ade hi- were -ur-ur:d in so so8t a tone7 -y eyes -et his with such glances7 expressing -ore languor than resent-ent7 that he could not but presu-e his 8orgiveness was at no desperate distance< but still he would not =uit his posture o8 sub-ission7 till 1 had pronounced his pardon in 8or-< which a8ter the -ost 8ervent entreaties7 protestations7 and pro-ises7 1 had not the power to withhold$ 'n which7 with the ut-ost -ar9s o8 a 8ear o8 again o88ending7 he ventured to 9iss -y lips7 which 1 neither declined nor resented< but on -y -ild expostula+ tions with hi- upon the barbarity o8 his treat-ent7 he explain:d the -ystery o8 -y ruin7 i8 not entirely to the clearance7 at least -uch to the alleviation o8 his guilt7 in the eyes o8 a ;udge so partial in his 8avour as 1 was grown$ C1ts see-s that the circu-stance o8 his going down7 or sin9ing7 which in -y extre-e ignorance 1 had -ista9en 8or so-ething very 8atal7 was no other than a tric9 o8 diving which 1 had not ever heard7 or at least attended to7 the -ention o8B and he was so long+breath:d at it7 that in the 8ew -o-ents in which 1 ran out to save hi-7 he had not yet e-erged7 be8ore 1 8ell into the swoon7 in which7 as he rose7 seeing -e extended on the ban97 his 8irst idea was that so-e young wo-an was upon so-e design o8 8rolic or diversion with hi-7 8or he 9new 1 could not have 8allen a+sleep there with+ out his having seen -e be8oreB agreeably to which notion he

had ventured to approach7 and 8inding -e without sign o8 li8e7 and still perplex:d as he was what to thin9 o8 the adventure7 he too9 -e in his ar-s at all hazards7 and carried -e into the su--er+house7 o8 which he observed the door openB there he laid -e down on the couch7 and tried7 as he protested in good 8aith7 by several -eans to bring -e to -ysel8 again7 till 8ired7 as he said7 beyond all bearing by the sight and touch o8 several parts o8 -e which were unguardedly exposed to hi-7 he could no longer govern his passion< and the less7 as he was not =uite sure that his 8irst idea o8 this swoon being a 8eint was not the very truth o8 the caseB seduced then by this 8lattering notion7 and overco-e by the present7 as he styled the-7 superhu-an te-ptations7 co-bined with the solitude and see-ing security o8 the atte-pt7 he was not enough his own -aster not to -a9e it$ %eaving -e then ;ust only whilst he 8astened the door7 he returned with redoubled eagerness to his preyB when7 8inding -e still entranced7 he ventured to place -e as he pleased7 whilst 1 8elt7 no -ore than the dead7 what he was about7 till the pain he put -e to roused -e ;ust in ti-e enough to be witness o8 a triu-ph 1 was not able to de8eat7 and now scarce regrettedB 8or as he tal9ed7 the tone o8 his voice sounded7 -ethought7 so sweetly in -y ears7 the sensible nearness o8 so new and interesting an ob;ect to -e wrought so power8ully upon -e7 that7 in the rising perception o8 things in a new and pleasing light7 1 lost all sense o8 the past in;ury$ The young gentle-an soon discern:d the sy-pto-s o8 a reconciliation in -y so8tened loo9s7 and hastening to receive the seal o8 it 8ro- -y lips7 press:d the- tenderly to pass his pardon in the return o8 a 9iss so -elting 8iery7 that the i-pression o8 it being car+ ried to -y heart7 and thence to -y new+discover:d sphere o8 Denus7 1 was -elted into a so8tness that could re8use hinothing$ When now he -anaged his caresses and endear-ents so art8ully as to insinuate the -ost soothing consolations 8or the past pain and the -ost pleasing expectations o8 8uture pleasure7 but whilst -ere -odesty 9ept -y eyes 8roseeing his and rather declined the-7 1 had a gli-pse o8 that instru-ent o8 the -ischie8 which was now7 obviously even to -e7 who had scarce had snatches o8 a co-parative observation o8 it7 resu-ing its capacity to renew it7 and grew greatly alar-ing with its increase o8 size7 as he bore it no doubt designedly7 hard and sti88 against one o8 -y hands carelessly dropt< but then he e-ploy:d such tender pre8acing7 such winning progressions7 that -y returning passion o8 desire being now so strongly pro-pted by the engaging circu-stances o8 the sight and incendiary touch o8 his na9ed glowing beauties7 1 yielded at length at the 8orce o8 the present i-pressions7 and he obtained o8 -y tacit blushing consent all the grati8ications o8 pleasure le8t in the power o8 -y poor person to bestow7 a8ter he had cropt its richest 8lower7 during -y suspension o8 li8e and abilities to guard it$ C0ere7 according to the rule laid down7 1 should stop< but 1 a- so -uch in -otion7 that 1 could not i8 1 would$ 1 shall only add7 however7 that 1 got ho-e without the least discovery7 or suspicion o8 what had happened$ 1 -et -y young ravisher several ti-es a8ter7 who- 1 now passionately

lov:d and who7 tho: not o8 age to clai- a s-all but indepen+ dent 8ortune7 would have -arried -e< but as the accidents that prevented it7 and their conse=uences which threw -e on the public97 contain -atters too -oving and serious to in+ troduce at present7 1 cut short here$C %ouisa7 the brunette who- 1 -entioned at 8irst7 now too9 her turn to treat the co-pany with her history$ 1 have already hinted to you the graces o8 her person7 than which nothing could be -ore ex=uisitely touching< 1 repeat touch+ ing7 as a ;ust distinction 8ro- stri9ing7 which is ever a less lasting e88ect7 and -ore generally belongs to the 8air co-plexionsB but leaving that decision to every one:s taste7 1 proceed to give you %ouisa:s narrative as 8ollowsB C.ccording to practical -axi-s o8 li8e7 1 ought to boast o8 -y birth7 since 1 owe it to pure love7 without -arriage< but this 1 9now7 it was scarce possible to inherit a stronger propensity to that cause o8 -y being than 1 did$ 1 was the rare production o8 the 8irst essay o8 a ;ourney-an cabinet+-a9er on his -aster:s -aidB the conse=uence o8 which was a big belly7 and the loss o8 a place$ 0e was not in circu-stances to do -uch 8or her< and yet7 a8ter all this ble-ish7 she 8ound -eans7 a8ter she had dropt her burthen and disposed o8 -e to a poor relation:s in the country7 to repair it by -arrying a pastry+coo9 here in %ondon7 in thriving business< on who- she soon7 under 8avour o8 the co-plete ascendant he had given her over hi-7 passed -e 8or a child she had by her 8irst husband$ 1 had7 on that 8oot+ ing7 been ta9en ho-e7 and was not six years old when this step+8ather died and le8t -y -other in tolerable circu-+ stances7 and without any children by hi-$ .s to -y natural 8ather7 he had beta9en hi-sel8 to the sea< where7 when the truth o8 things ca-e out7 1 was told that he died7 not i--ensely rich you -ay thin97 since he was no -ore than a co--on sailor$ .s 1 grew up7 under the eyes o8 -y -other7 who 9ept on the business7 1 could not but see7 in her severe watch8ulness7 the -ar9s o8 a slip which she did not care should be hereditary7 but we no -ore choose our pas+ sions than our 8eatures or co-plexion7 and the bent o8 -ine was so strong to the 8orbidden pleasure7 that it got the better7 at length7 o8 all her care and precaution$ 1 was scarce twelve years old be8ore that part which she wanted so -uch to 9eep out o8 har-:s way -ade -e 8eel its i-patience to be ta9en notice o87 and co-e into playB al+ ready had it put 8orth the signs o8 8orwardness in the sprout o8 a so8t down over it7 which had o8ten 8latter:d7 and 1 -ight also say7 grown under -y constant touch and visitation7 so pleas:d was 1 with what 1 too9 to be a 9ind o8 title to wo-anhood7 that state 1 pin:d to be entr:d o87 8or the pleasures 1 conceiv:d were annexed to it< and now the growing i-portance o8 that part to -e7 and the new sen+ sations in it7 de-olish:d at once all -y girlish playthings and a-use-ents$ Nature now pointed -e strongly to -ore solid diversions7 while all the stings o8 desire settled so 8iercely in that little centre o8 the-7 that 1 could not -ista9e the spot 1 wanted a play8ellow in$

C1 now shunn:d all co-pany in which there was no hopes o8 co-ing at the ob;ect o8 -y longings7 and used to shut -ysel8 up7 to indulge in solitude so-e tender -editation on the pleasures 1 strongly perceiv:d the overture o87 in 8eel+ ing and exa-ining what nature assur:d -e -ust be the chosen avenue7 the gates 8or un9nown bliss to enter at7 that 1 panted a8ter$ C@ut these -editations only increas:d -y disorder7 and blew the 8ire that consu-ed -e$ 1 was yet worse when7 yield+ ing at length to the insupportable irritations o8 the little 8airy char- that tor-ented -e7 1 seiz:d it with -y 8ingers7 teasing it to no end$ &o-eti-es7 in the 8urious excitations o8 desire7 1 threw -ysel8 on the bed7 spread -y thighs abroad7 and lay as it were expecting the longed+8or relie87 till 8inding -y illusion7 1 shut and s=ueez:d the- together again7 burning and 8retting$ 1n short7 this dev:lish thing7 with its i-petuous girds and itching 8ires7 led -e such a li8e that 1 could neither night nor day be at peace with it or -ysel8$ 1n ti-e7 however7 1 thought 1 had gained a pro+ digious prize7 when 8iguring to -ysel8 that -y 8ingers were so-ething o8 the shape o8 what 1 pined 8or7 1 wor9ed -y way in 8or one o8 the- with great agitation and delight< yet not without pain too did 1 de8lower -ysel8 as 8ar as it could reach< proceeding with such a 8ury o8 passion7 in this solitary and last shi8t o8 pleasure7 as extended -e at length breathless on the bed in an a-orous -elting trance$ C@ut 8re=uency o8 use dulling the sensation7 1 soon began to perceive that this wor9 was but a paltry shallow expedient that went but a little way to relieve -e7 and rather rais:d -ore 8la-e than its dry and insigni8icant titillation could rightly appease$ C2an alone7 1 al-ost instinctively 9new7 as well as by what 1 had industriously pic9ed up at weddings and christen+ ings7 was possess:d o8 the only re-edy that could reduce this rebellious disorder< but watch:d and overloo9:d as 1 was7 how to co-e at it was the point7 and that7 to all appearance7 an invincible one< not that 1 did not rac9 -y brains and inven+ tion how at once to elude -y -other:s vigilance7 and procure -ysel8 the satis8action o8 -y i-petuous curiosity and long+ ings 8or this -ighty and untasted pleasure$ .t length7 how+ ever7 a singular chance did at once the wor9 o8 a long course o8 alertness$ 'ne day that we had dined at an ac=uaintance:s over the way7 together with a gentlewo-an+lodger that occu+ pied the 8irst 8loor o8 our house7 there started an indis+ pensable necessity 8or -y -other:s going down to ?reenwich to acco-pany herB the party was settled7 when 1 do not 9now what genius whispered -e to plead a headache7 which 1 cer+ tainly had not7 against -y being included in a ;aunt that 1 had not the least relish 8or$ The pretext however passed7 and -y -other7 with -uch reluctance7 prevailed with hersel8 to go without -e< but too9 particular care to see -e sa8e ho-e7 where she consign:d -e into the hands o8 an old trusty -aid+servant7 who served in the shop7 8or we had not a -ale creature in the house$

C.s soon as she was gone7 1 told the -aid 1 would go up and lie down on our lodger:s bed7 -ine not being -ade7 with a charge to her at the sa-e ti-e not to disturb -e7 as it was only rest 1 wanted$ This in;unction probably prov:d o8 e-inent service to -e$ .s soon as 1 was got into the bed+ cha-ber7 1 unlaced -y stays7 and threw -ysel8 on the outside o8 the bed+cloaths7 in all the loosest undress$ 0ere 1 gave -ysel8 up to the old insipid privy shi8ts o8 -y sel8+viewing7 sel8+touching7 sel8+en;oying7 in 8ine7 to all the -eans o8 sel8+9nowledge 1 could devise7 in search o8 the pleasure that 8led be8ore -e7 and tantalized with that un9nown so-ething that was out o8 -y reach< thus all only serv:d to en8la-e -ysel87 and to provo9e violently -y desires7 whilst the one thing need8ul to their satis8action was not at hand7 and 1 could have bit -y 8ingers7 8or representing it so ill$ .8ter then wearying and 8atiguing -ysel8 with grasping shadows7 whilst that -ost sensible part o8 -e disdain:d to content itsel8 with less than realities7 the strong yearnings7 the urgent struggles o8 nature towards the -elting relie87 and the extre-e sel8+agitations 1 had used to co-e at it7 had wearied and thrown -e into a 9ind o8 un=uiet sleepB 8or7 i8 1 tossed and threw about -y li-bs in proportion to the dis+ traction o8 -y drea-s7 as 1 had reason to believe 1 did7 a bystander could not have help:d seeing all 8or love$ .nd one there was it see-s< 8or wa9ing out o8 -y very short slu-ber7 1 8ound -y hand loc9:d in that o8 a young -an7 who was 9neeling at -y bed+side7 and begging -y pardon 8or his boldnessB but that being a son to the lady to who- this bed+ cha-ber7 he 9new7 belonged7 he had slipp:d by the servant o8 the shop7 as he supposed7 unperceiv:d7 when 8inding -e asleep7 his 8irst ideas were to withdraw< but that he had been 8ix:d and detain:d there by a power he could better account 8or than resist$ CWhat shall 1 sayE -y e-otions o8 8ear and surprize were instantly subdued by those o8 the pleasure 1 bespo9e in great presence o8 -ind 8ro- the turn this adventure -ight ta9e$ 0e see-:d to -e no other than a pitying angel7 dropt out o8 the cloudsB 8or he was young and per8ectly handso-e7 which was -ore than even 1 had as9ed 8or< -an7 in general7 being all that -y ut-ost desires had pointed at$ 1 thought then 1 could not put too -uch encourage-ent into -y eyes and voice< 1 regretted no leading advances< no -atter 8or his a8ter+opinion o8 -y 8orwardness7 so it -ight bring hi- to the point o8 answering -y pressing de-ands o8 present case< it was not now with his thoughts7 but his actions7 that -y business i--ediately lay$ 1 rais:d then -y head7 and told hi-7 in a so8t tone that tended to prescribe the sa-e 9ey to hi-7 that his -a--a was gone out and would not return till late at nightB which 1 thought no bad hint< but as it prov:d7 1 had nothing o8 a novice to deal with$ The i-pressions 1 had -ade on hi- 8ro- the discoveries 1 had betrayed o8 -y person in the disordered -otions o8 it7 during his view o8 -e asleep7 had7 as he a8terwards told -e7 so 8ix:d and char-+ ingly prepar:d hi-7 that7 had 1 9nown his dispositions7 1 had -ore to hope 8ro- his violence than to 8ear 8ro- his respect< and even less than the extre-e tenderness which 1 threw into -y voice and eyes7 would have served to encourage

hi- to -a9e the -ost o8 the opportunity$ Finding then that his 9isses7 i-printed on -y hand7 were ta9en as ta-ely as he could wish7 he rose to -y lips< and glewing his to the-7 -ade -e so 8aint with over+co-ing ;oy and pleasure that 1 8ell bac97 and he with -e7 in course7 on the bed7 upon which 1 had7 by insensibly shi8ting 8ro- the side to near the -iddle7 invitingly -ade roo- 8or hi-$ 0e is now lain down by -e7 and the -inutes being too precious to consu-e in unti-ely cere-ony7 or dalliance7 -y youth proceeds i--ediately to those extre-ities7 which all -y loo9s7 8lushing and palpi+ tations had assured hi- he -ight atte-pt without the 8ear o8 repulseB those rogues7 the -en7 read us ad-irably on these occasions$ 1 lay then at length panting 8or the i--inent attac97 with wishes 8ar beyond -y 8ears7 and 8or which it was scarce possible 8or a girl7 barely thirteen7 but all and well grown7 to have better dispositions$ 0e threw up -y petticoat and shi8t7 whilst -y thighs were7 by an instinct o8 nature7 un8olded to their best< and -y desires had so thoroughly destroy:d all -odesty in -e7 that even their being now na9ed and all laid open to hi-7 was part o8 the prelude that pleasure deepen:d -y blushes at7 -ore than sha-e$ @ut when his hand7 and touches7 naturally attracted to their centre7 -ade -e 8eel all their wantonness and war-th in7 and round it7 oh> how i--ensely di88erent a sense o8 things did 1 perceive there7 than when under -y own insipid handling> .nd now his waistcoat was unbuttoned7 and the con8ine-ent o8 the breeches burst through7 when out started to view the a-azing7 pleasing ob;ect o8 all -y wishes7 all -y drea-s7 all -y love7 the 9ing -e-ber indeed> 1 gaz:d at7 1 devoured it7 at length and breadth7 with -y eyes intently directed to it7 till his getting upon -e7 and placing it between -y thighs7 too9 8ro- -e the en;oy-ent o8 its sight7 to give -e a 8ar -ore grate8ul one in its touch7 in that part where its touch is so ex=uisitely a88ecting$ .pplying it then to the -inute opening7 8or such at that age it certainly was7 1 -et with too -uch good will7 1 8elt with too great a rapture o8 pleasure the 8irst insertion o8 it7 to heed -uch the pain that 8ollowedB 1 thought nothing too dear to pay 8or this the richest treat o8 the senses< so that7 split up7 torn7 bleeding7 -angled7 1 was still supe+ riorly pleas:d7 and hugg:d the author o8 all this delicious ruin$ @ut when7 soon a8ter7 he -ade his second attac97 sore as every thing was7 the s-art was soon put away by the sove+ reign cordial< all -y so8t co-plainings were silenc:d7 and the pain -elting 8ast away into pleasure$ 1 abandon:d -ysel8 over to all its transports7 and gave it the 8ull possession o8 -y whole body and soul< 8or now all thought was at an end with -e< 1 lived but in what 1 8elt only$ .nd who could describe those 8eelings7 those agitations7 yet exalted by the char- o8 their novelty and surprizeE when that part o8 -e which had so long hunger:d 8or the dear -orsel that now so delight8ully cra--ed it7 8orc:d all -y vital sensations to 8ix their ho-e there7 during the stay o8 -y beloved guest< who too soon paid -e 8or his hearty welco-e in a dissolvent7 richer 8ar than that 1 have heard o8 so-e =ueen treating her para-our with7 in li=ui8y:d pearl7 and ravishingly pour:d into -e7 where7 now -ysel8 too -uch -elted to give it a dry reception7 1 hail:d it with the war-est con8luence on -y

side7 a-idst all those extatic raptures7 not un8a-iliar 1 presu-e to this good co-pany> Thus7 however7 1 arrived at the very top o8 all -y wishes7 by an accident unexpected indeed7 but not so wonder8ul< 8or this young gentle-an was ;ust arriv:d in town 8ro- college7 and ca-e 8a-iliarly to his -other at her apart-ent7 where he had once be8ore been7 though by -ere chance$ 1 had not seen hi-B so that we 9new one another by hear+say only< and 8inding -e stretched on his -other:s bed7 he readily concluded7 8ro- her descrip+ tion who it was$ The rest you 9now$ CThis a88air had however no ruinous conse=uences7 the young gentle-an escaping then7 and -any -ore ti-es undis+ cover:d$ @ut the war-th o8 -y constitution7 that -ade the pleasures o8 love a 9ind o8 necessary o8 li8e to -e7 having betray:d -e into indiscretions 8atal to -y private 8ortune7 1 8ell at length to the public9< 8ro- which7 it is probable7 1 -ight have -et with the worst o8 ruin i8 -y better 8ate had not thrown -e into this sa8e and agreeable re8uge$C 0ere %ouisa ended< and these little histories having brought the ti-e 8or the girls to retire7 and to prepare 8or the revels o8 the evening7 1 staid with 2rs$ 6ole till 3-ily ca-e and told us the co-pany was -et7 and waited 8or us$ Part * 'n the landing+place o8 the 8irst pair o8 stairs7 we were -et by a young gentle-an7 extre-ely well dress:d7 and a very pretty 8igure7 to who- 1 was to be indebted 8or the 8irst essay o8 the pleasures o8 the house$ 0e saluted -e with great gallantry7 and handed -e into the drawing roo-7 the 8loor o8 which was overspread with a Tur9ey carpet7 and all its 8urniture voluptuously adapted to every de-and o8 the -ost study:d luxury< now too it was7 by -eans o8 a pro+ 8use illu-ination7 enliven:d by a light scarce in8erior7 and perhaps -ore 8avourable to ;oy7 -ore tenderly pleasing7 than that o8 broad sun+shine$ 'n -y entrance into the roo-7 1 had the satis8action to hear a buzz o8 approbation run through the whole co-pany which now consisted o8 8our gentle-en7 including -y parti+ cular (this was the cant+ter- o8 the house 8or one:s gallant 8or the ti-e)7 the three young wo-en7 in a neat 8lowing dishabille7 the -istress o8 the acade-y7 and -ysel8$ 1 was welco-ed and saluted by a 9iss all round7 in which7 however7 it was easy to discover7 in the superior war-th o8 that o8 the -en7 the distinction o8 the sexes$ .w:d and con8ounded as 1 was at seeing -ysel8 sur+ rounded7 caress:d7 and -ade court to by so -any strangers7 1 could not i--ediately 8a-iliarize -ysel8 to all that air o8 gaiety and ;oy which dictated their co-pli-ents7 and ani-ated their caresses$ They assur:d -e that 1 was so per8ectly to their taste

as to have but one 8ault against -e7 which 1 -ight easily be cur:d o87 and that was -y -odestyB this7 they observ:d7 -ight pass 8or a beauty the -ore with those who wanted it 8or a heightener< but their -axi- was7 that it was an i-pertinent -ixture7 and dash:d the cup so as to spoil the sincere draught o8 pleasure< they consider:d it accordingly as their -ortal ene-y7 and gave it no =uarter wherever they -et with it$ This was a prologue not unworthy o8 the revels that ensu:d$ 1n the -idst o8 all the 8rolic and wantonnesses7 which this ;oyous band had presently7 and all naturally7 run into7 an elegant supper was serv:d in7 and we sat down to it7 -y spar9+elect placing hi-sel8 next to -e7 and the other couples without order or cere-ony$ The delicate cheer and good wine soon banish:d all reserve< the conversation grew as lively as could be wished7 without ta9ing too loose a turnB these pro8essors o8 pleasure 9new too well7 to stale i-pressions o8 it7 or evaporate the i-agination in words7 be8ore the ti-e o8 action$ Aisses however were snatch:d at ti-es7 or where a hand9erchie8 round the nec9 interpos:d its 8eeble barrier7 it was not extre-ely respectedB the hands o8 the -en went to wor9 with their usual petulance7 till the provocations on both sides rose to such a pitch that -y particular:s proposal 8or beginning the country+dances was received with instant assentB 8or7 as he laughingly added7 he 8ancied the instru+ -ents were in tune$ This was a signal 8or preparation7 that the co-plaisant 2rs$ 6ole7 who understood li8e7 too9 8or her cue o8 disappearing< no longer so 8it 8or personal service hersel87 and content with having settled the order o8 battle7 she le8t us the 8ield7 to 8ight it out at discretion$ .s soon as she was gone7 the table was re-ov:d 8or- the -iddle7 and beca-e a side+board< a couch was brought into its place7 o8 which when 1 whisperingly in=uired the reason7 o8 -y particular7 he told -e that as it was chie8ly on -y account that this convention was -et7 the parties intended at once to hu-our their taste o8 variety in pleasures7 and by an open public9 en;oy-ent7 to see -e bro9e o8 any taint o8 reserve or -odesty7 which they loo9:d on as the poison o8 ;oy< that though they occasionally preached pleasure7 and lived up to the text7 they did not enthusiastically set up 8or -issionaries7 and only indulg:d the-selves in the delights o8 a practical instruction o8 all the pretty wo-en they li9:d well enough to bestow it upon7 and who 8ell pro+ perly in the way o8 it< but that as such a proposal -ight be too violent7 too shoc9ing 8or a young beginner7 the old standers were to set an exa-ple7 which he hoped 1 would not be averse to 8ollow7 since it was to hi- 1 was devolv:d in 8avour o8 the 8irst experi-ent< but that still 1 was per+ 8ectly at -y liberty to re8use the party7 which being in its nature one o8 pleasure7 suppos:d an exclusion o8 all 8orce or constraint$ 2y countenance expressed7 no doubt7 -y surprise as -y silence did -y ac=uiescence$ 1 was now e-bar9ed7 and thoroughly deter-ined on any voyage the co-pany would ta9e -e on$

The 8irst that stood up7 to open the ball7 were a cor+ net o8 horse7 and that sweetest o8 olive+beauties7 the so8t and a-orous %ouisa$ 0e led her to the couch Cnothing loth7C on which he gave her the 8all7 and extended her at her length with an air o8 roughness and vigour7 relishing high o8 a-orous eagerness and i-patience$ The girl7 spreading hersel8 to the best advantage7 with her head upon the pillow7 was so concentred in what she was about7 that our presence see-ed the least o8 her care and concern$ 0er petticoats7 thrown up with her shi8t7 discovered to the co-pany the 8inest turn:d legs and thighs that could be i-agined7 and in broad display7 that gave us a 8ull view o8 that delicious cle8t o8 8lesh into which the pleasing hair+grown -ount over it7 parted and presented a -ost inviting entrance between two close+hedges7 delicately so8t and pouting$ 0er gallant was now ready7 having disencu-ber:d hi-sel8 8ro- his cloaths7 overloaded with lace7 and presently7 his shirt re-oved7 shew:d us his 8orces in high plight7 bandied and ready 8or action$ @ut giving us no ti-e to consider the di-ensions7 he threw hi-sel8 instantly over his char-ing antagonist7 who receiv:d hi- as he pushed at once dead at -ar9 li9e a heroine7 without 8linching< 8or surely never was girl constitutionally truer to the taste o8 ;oy7 or sincerer in the expressions o8 its sensations7 than she wasB we could observe pleasure lighten in her eyes7 as he introduc:d his plenipotentiary instru-ent into her< till7 at length7 having indulg:d her to its ut-ost reach7 its irritations grew so violent7 and gave her the spurs so 8uriously7 that collected within hersel87 and lost to everything but the en;oy-ent o8 her 8avourite 8eelings7 she retorted his thrusts with a ;ust concert o8 springy heaves7 9eeping ti-e so exactly with the -ost pathetic sighs7 that one -ight have nu-ber:d the stro9es in agitation by their distinct -ur-urs7 whilst her active li-bs 9ept wreath+ ing and intertwisting with his7 in convulsive 8oldsB then the turtle+billing 9isses7 and the poignant painless love+ bites7 which they both exchang:d in a rage o8 delight7 all conspiring towards the -elting period$ 1t soon ca-e on when %ouisa7 in the ravings o8 her pleasure+8renzy7 i-potent o8 all restraint7 cried outB C'h &ir> $ $ $ ?ood &ir> $ $ $ pray do not spare -e> ah> ah> $ $ $C .ll her accents now 8altering into heart+8etched sighs7 she clos:d her eyes in the sweet death7 in the instant o8 which she was e-bal-:d by an in;ection7 o8 which we could easily see the signs in the =uiet7 dying7 languid posture o8 her late so 8urious driver7 who was stopp:d o8 a sudden7 breathing short7 panting7 and7 8or the ti-e7 giving up the spirit o8 pleasure$ .s soon as he was dis-ounted7 %ouisa sprung up7 shoo9 her petticoats7 and running up to -e7 gave -e a 9iss and drew -e to the side+board7 to which she was hersel8 handed by her gallant7 where they -ade -e pledge the- in a glass o8 wine7 and toast a droll health o8 %ouisa:s proposal in high 8rolic$ @y this ti-e the second couple was ready to enter the listsB which were a young baronet7 and that delicatest o8 char-ers7 the winning7 tender 0arriet$ 2y gentle es=uire ca-e to ac=uaint -e with it7 and brought -e bac9 to the scene o8 action$

.nd7 surely7 never did one o8 her pro8ession acco-pany her dispositions 8or the bare+8aced part she was engaged to play with such a peculiar grace o8 sweetness7 -odesty and yielding coyness7 as she did$ .ll her air and -otions breath:d only unreserv:d7 unli-ited co-plaisance without the least -ixture o8 i-pudence7 or prostitution$ @ut what was yet -ore surprising7 her spar9+elect7 in the -idst o8 the dissolution o8 a public9 open en;oy-ent7 doted on her to dis+ traction7 and had7 by dint o8 love and senti-ents7 touched her heart7 tho: 8or a while the restraint o8 their engage-ent to the house laid hi- under a 9ind o8 necessity o8 co-plying with an institution which hi-sel8 had had the greatest share in establishing$ 0arriet was then led to the vacant couch by her gallant7 blushing as she loo9:d at -e7 and with eyes -ade to ;usti8y any thing7 tenderly bespea9ing o8 -e the -ost 8avourable construction o8 the step she was thus irresistibly drawn into$ 0er lover7 8or such he was7 sat her down at the 8oot o8 the couch7 and passing his ar- round her nec97 preluded with a 9iss 8ervently applied to her lips7 that visibly gave her li8e and spirit to go thro: with the scene< and as he 9iss:d7 he gently inclined her head7 till it 8ell bac9 on a pillow disposed to receive it7 and leaning hi-sel8 down all the way with her7 at once countenanc:d and endear:d her 8all to her$ There7 as i8 he had guess:d our wishes7 or -eant to grati8y at once his pleasure and his pride7 in being the -aster7 by the title o8 present possession7 o8 beauties delicate beyond i-agination7 he discovered her breasts to his own touch7 and our co--on view< but oh> what delicious -anuals o8 love devotion> how ini-itable 8ine -oulded> s-all7 round7 8ir-7 and excellently whiteB the grain o8 their s9in7 so soothing7 so 8lattering to the touch> and their nipples7 that crown:d the-7 the sweetest buds o8 beauty$ When he had 8easted his eyes with the touch and perusal7 8easted his lips with 9isses o8 the highest relish7 i-printed on those all+delicious twin orbs7 the proceeded downwards$ 0er legs still 9ept the ground< and now7 with the ten+ derest attention not to shoc9 or alar- her too suddenly7 he7 by degrees7 rather stole than rolled up her petticoats< at which7 as i8 a signal had been given7 %ouisa and 3-ily too9 hold o8 her legs7 in pure wantonness7 and7 in ease to her7 9ept the- stretched wide abroad$ Then lay exposed7 or7 to spea9 -ore properly7 display:d the greatest parade in nature o8 8e-ale char-s$ The whole co-pany7 who7 except -ysel87 had o8ten seen the-7 see-ed as -uch dazzled7 surpriz:d and delighted7 as any one could be who had now beheld the- 8or the 8irst ti-e$ @eauties so excessive could not but en;oy the privileges o8 eternal novelty$ 0er thighs were so ex+ =uisitely 8ashioned7 that either -ore in7 or -ore out o8 8lesh than they were7 they would have declined 8ro- that point o8 per8ection they presented$ @ut what in8initely enrich:d and adorn:d the-7 was the sweet intersection 8or-ed7 where they -et7 at the botto- o8 the s-oothest7 roundest7 whitest belly7 by that central 8urrow which nature had sun9

there7 between7 the so8t relieve o8 two pouting ridges7 and which in this was in per8ect sy--etry o8 delicacy and -inia+ ture with the rest o8 her 8ra-e$ No> nothing in nature could be o8 a beauti8uller cut< then7 the dar9 u-brage o8 the downy spring+-oss that over+arched it bestowed7 on the luxury o8 the landscape7 a touching war-th7 a tender 8inishing7 beyond the expression o8 words7 or even the paint o8 thought$ 0er truly ena-our:d gallant7 who had stood absorbed and engrossed by the pleasure o8 the sight long enough to a88ord us ti-e to 8east ours (no 8ear o8 glutting>) addressed hi-+ sel8 at length to the -aterials o8 en;oy-ent7 and li8ting the linen veil that hung between us and his -aster -e-ber o8 the revels7 exhibited one whose e-inent size proclai-ed the owner a true wo-an:s hero$ 0e was7 besides7 in every other respect an acco-plish:d gentle-an7 and in the bloo- and vigour o8 youth$ &tanding then between 0arriet:s legs7 which were supported by her two co-panions at their widest exten+ sion7 with one hand he gently disclosed the lips o8 that luscious -outh o8 nature7 whilst with the other7 he stooped his -ighty -achine to its lure7 8ro- the height o8 his sti88 stand+up towards his belly< the lips7 9ept open by his 8in+ gers7 received its broad shelving head o8 coral hueB and when he had nestled it in7 he hovered there a little7 and the girls then deliver:d over to his hips the agreeable o88ice o8 supporting her thighs< and now7 as i8 -eant to spin out his pleasure7 and give it the -ore play 8or its li8e7 he passed up his instru-ent so slow that we lost sight o8 it inch by inch7 till at length it was wholly ta9en into the so8t laboratory o8 love7 and the -ossy -ounts o8 each 8airly -et together$ 1n the -ean ti-e7 we could plainly -ar9 the prodigious e88ect the progressions o8 this delight8ul energy wrought in this delicious girl7 gradually heightening her beauty as they heightened her pleasure$ 0er countenance and whole 8ra-e grew -ore ani-ated< the 8aint blush o8 her chee9s7 gaining ground on the white7 deepened into a 8lorid vivid ver-ilion glow7 her naturally brilliant eyes now spar9led with ten+8old lustre< her languor was vanish:d7 and she appeared7 =uic9 spirited7 and alive all over$ 0e now 8ixed7 nailed7 this tender creature with his ho-e+driven wedge7 so that she lay passive by 8orce7 and unable to stir7 till beginning to play a strain o8 ar-s against this vein o8 delicacy7 as he urged the to+and+8ro con8riction7 he awa9en:d7 rous:d7 and touch:d her so to the heart7 that unable to contain hersel87 she could not but reply to his -otions as bris9ly as her nicety o8 8ra-e would ad-it o87 till the raging stings o8 the pleasure rising towards the point7 -ade her wild with the intolerable sensations o8 it7 and she now threw her legs and ar-s about at rando-7 as she lay lost in the sweet transport< which on his side declared itsel8 by =uic9er7 eager thrusts7 convulsive gasps7 burning sighs7 swi8t laborious breathings7 eyes darting hu-id 8iresB all 8aith8ul to9ens o8 the i--inent approaches o8 the last gasp o8 ;oy$ 1t ca-e on at lengthB the baronet led the extasy7 which she critically ;oined in7 as she 8elt the -elting sy-pto-s 8ro- hi-7 in the nic9 o8 which glewing -ore ardently than ever his lips to hers7 he shewed all the signs o8 that agony o8 bliss being strong upon hi-7 in which he gave her

the 8inishing titillation< inly thrill:d with which7 we saw plainly that she answered it down with all e88usion o8 spirit and -atter she was -istress o87 whilst a general so8t shudder ran through all her li-bs7 which she gave a stretch+out o87 and lay -otionless7 breathless7 dying with dear delight< and in the height o8 its expression7 shewing7 through the nearly closed lids o8 her eyes7 ;ust the edges o8 their blac97 the rest being rolled strongly upwards in their extasy< then her sweet -outh appear:d languishingly open7 with the tip o8 her tongue leaning negligently towards the lower range o8 her white teeth7 whilst the natural ruby colour o8 her lips glowed with heightened li8e$ Was not this a sub;ect to dwell uponE .nd accordingly her lover still 9ept on her7 with an abiding delectation7 till co-pressed7 s=ueezed and distilled to the last drop7 he too9 leave with one 8ervent 9iss7 expressing satis8y:d desires7 but unextinguish:d love$ .s soon as he was o887 1 ran to her7 and sitting down on the couch by her7 rais:d her head7 which she declin:d gently7 and hung on -y boso-7 to hide her blushes and con+ 8usion at what had pass:d7 till by degrees she reco-posed hersel8 and accepted o8 a restorative glass o8 wine 8ro- -y spar97 who had le8t -e to 8etch it her7 whilst her own was re+ad;usting his a88airs and buttoning up< a8ter which he led her7 leaning languishingly upon hi-7 to our stand o8 view round the couch$ .nd now 3-ily:s partner had ta9en her out 8or her share in the dance7 when this transcendently 8air and sweet te-pered creature readily stood up< and i8 a co-plexion to put the rose and lily out o8 countenance7 extre-e pretty 8eatures7 and that 8lorid health and bloo- 8or which the country+girls are so lovely7 -ight pass her 8or a beauty7 this she certainly was7 and one ot the -ost stri9ing o8 the 8air ones$ 0er gallant began 8irst7 as she stood7 to disengage her breasts7 and restore the- to the liberty o8 nature7 8ro- the easy con8ine-ent o8 no -ore than a pair o8 ;u-ps< but on their co-ing out to view7 we thought a new light was added to the roo-7 so superiourly shining was their whiteness< then they rose in so happy a swell as to co-pose her a well+ 8or-ed 8ulness o8 boso-7 that had such an e88ect on the eye as to see- 8lesh hardening into -arble7 o8 which it e-ulated the polished gloss7 and 8ar surpassed even the whitest7 in the li8e and lustre o8 its colours7 white veined with blue$ (e8rain who could 8ro- such provo9ing entice-ents to it in reachE 0e touched her breasts7 8irst lightly7 when the glossy s-oothness o8 the s9in eluded his hand7 and -ade it slip along the sur8ace< he press:d the-7 and the springy 8lesh that 8illed the- thus pitted by 8orce7 rose again reboundingly with his hand7 and on the instant e88ac:d the pressureB and ali9e indeed was the consistence o8 all those parts o8 her body throughout7 where the 8ulness o8 8lesh co-pacts and constitutes all that 8ine 8ir-ness which the touch is so highly attach:d to$ When he had thus largely pleased hi-sel8 with this branch o8 dalliance and delight7 he truss:d up her petticoat and shi8t in a wisp to her waist7

where being tuc9:d in7 she stood 8airly na9ed on every side< a blush at this overspread her lovely 8ace7 and her eyes down cast to the ground see-ed to be 8or =uarter7 when she had so great a right to triu-ph in all the treasures o8 youth and beauty that she now so victoriously display:d$ 0er legs were per8ectly well shaped and her thighs7 which she 9ept pretty close7 shewed so white7 so round7 so substantial and abound+ ing in 8ir- 8lesh7 that nothing could o88er a stronger reco-+ -endation to the luxury o8 the touch7 which he accordingly did not 8ail to indulge hi-sel8 in$ Then gently re-oving her hand7 which in the 8irst e-otion o8 natural -odesty she had carried thither7 he gave us rather a gli-pse than a view o8 that so8t narrow chin9 running its little length downwards and hiding the re-ains o8 it between her thighs< but plain was to be seen the 8ringe o8 light+brown curls7 in beauteous growth over it7 that with their sil9y gloss created a pleas+ ing variety 8ro- the surrounding white7 whose lustre too7 their gentle e-browning shade7 considerably raised$ 0er spar9 then endeavoured7 as she stood7 by disclosing her thighs7 to gain us a co-pleter sight o8 that central charo8 attraction7 but not obtaining it so conveniently in that attitude7 he led her to the 8oot o8 the couch7 and bringing to it one o8 the pillows7 gently inclin:d her head down7 so that as she leaned with it over her crossed hands7 strad+ dling with her thighs wide spread7 and ;utting her body out7 she presented a 8ull bac9 view o8 her person7 na9ed to the waist$ 0er posteriours7 plu-p7 s-ooth7 and pro-inent7 8or-:d luxuriant tracts o8 ani-ated snow7 that splendidly 8illed the eye7 till it was co--anded down the parting or separation o8 those ex=uisitely white cli88s7 by their narrow vale7 and was there stopt7 and attracted by the e-+ bowered botto-+cavity7 that ter-inated this delight8ul vista and stood -oderately gaping 8ro- the in8luence o8 her bended posture7 so that the agreeable7 interior red o8 the sides o8 the ori8ice ca-e into view7 and with respect to the white that dazzled round it7 gave so-ewhat the idea o8 a pin9 slash in the glossiest white satin$ 0er gallant7 who was a gentle-an about thirty7 so-ewhat inclin:d to a 8atness that was in no sort displeasing7 i-proving the hint thus tendered hi- o8 this -ode o8 en;oy-ent7 a8ter settling her well in this posture7 and encouraging her with 9isses and caresses to stand hi- through7 drew out his a88air ready erected7 and whose extre-e length7 rather disproportion:d to its breadth7 was the -ore surprizing7 as that excess is not o8ten the case with those o8 his corpulent habit< -a9ing then the right and direct application7 he drove it up to the guard7 whilst the round bulge o8 those Tur9ish beauties o8 her:s tallying with the hollow -ade with the bent o8 his belly and thighs7 as they curved inwards7 brought all those parts7 surely not undelight8ully7 into war- touch7 and close con;unction< his hands he 9ept passing round her body7 and e-ployed in toying with her enchanting breasts$ .s soon too as she 8elt hi- at ho-e as he could reach7 she li8ted her head a little 8ro- the pillow7 and turning her nec97 without -uch straining7 but her chee9s glowing with the deepest scar+ let7 and a s-ile o8 the tenderest satis8action7 -et the 9iss he press:d 8orward to give her as they were thus close ;oined togetherB when leaving hi- to pursue his delights7 she hid

again her 8ace and blushes with her hands and pillow7 and thus stood passively and as 8avourably too as she could7 whilst he 9ept laying at her with repeated thrusts and -a9ing the -eeting 8lesh on both sides resound again with the vio+ lence o8 the-< then ever as he bac9en:d 8ro- her7 we could see between the- part o8 his long whitesta88 8oa-ingly in -otion7 till7 as he went on again and closed with her7 the interposing hilloc9s too9 it out o8 sight$ &o-eti-es he too9 his hands 8ro- the se-i+globes o8 her boso-s7 and trans8erred the pressure o8 the- to those larger ones7 the present sub+ ;ects o8 his so8t bloc9ade7 which he s=ueez:d7 grasp:d and play:d with7 till at length a pursuit o8 driving7 so hotly urged7 brought on the height o8 the 8it7 with such overpower+ ing pleasure7 that his 8air partner beca-e7 now necessary to support hi-7 panting7 8ainting and dying as he discharged< which she no sooner 8elt the 9illing sweetness o87 than un+ able to 9eep her legs7 and yielding to the -ighty intoxica+ tion7 she reeled7 and 8alling 8orward on the couch7 -ade it a necessity 8or hi-7 i8 he would preserve the war- pleasure+ hold7 to 8all upon her7 where they per8ected7 in a continued con;unction o8 body and extatic 8low7 their sche-e o8 ;oys 8or that ti-e$ .s soon as he had disengag:d7 the char-ing 3-ily got up7 and we crowded round her with congratulations and other o88i+ cious little services< 8or it is to be noted7 that though all -odesty and reserve were banished 8ro- the transaction o8 these pleasures7 good -anners and politeness were inviolably observ:dB here was no gross ribaldry7 no o88ensive or rude behaviour7 or ungenerous reproaches to the girls 8or their co-pliance with the hu-ours and desires o8 the -en$ 'n the contrary7 nothing was wanting to soothe7 encourage7 and so8ten the sense o8 their condition to the-$ 2en 9now not in general how -uch they destroy o8 their own pleasure7 when they brea9 through the respect and tenderness due to our sex7 and even to those o8 it who live only by pleasing the-$ .nd this was a -axi- per8ectly well understood by these polite voluptuaries7 these pro8ound adepts in the great art and sci+ ence o8 pleasure7 who never shew:d these votaries o8 theirs a -ore tender respect than at the ti-e o8 those exercises o8 their co-plaisance7 when they unloc9:d their treasures o8 concealed beauty7 and shewed out in the pride o8 their native char-s7 ever+-ore touching surely than when they paraded it in the arti8icial ones o8 dress and orna-ent$ The 8rolic9 was now co-e round to -e7 and it being -y turn o8 subscription to the will and pleasure o8 -y particu+ lar elect7 as well as to that o8 the co-pany7 he ca-e to -e7 and saluting -e very tenderly7 with a 8lattering eagerness7 put -e in -ind o8 the co-pliances -y presence there author+ iz:d the hopes o87 and at the sa-e ti-e repeated to -e that i8 all this 8orce o8 exa-ple had not sur-ounted any repug+ nance 1 -ight have to concur with the hu-ours and desires o8 the co-pany7 that though the play was bespo9e 8or -y bene8it7 and great as his own private disappoint-ent -ight be7 he would su88er any thing7 sooner than be the instru-ent o8 i-+ posing a disagreeable tas9 on -e$

To this 1 answered7 without the least hesitation or -incing gri-ace7 that had 1 not even contracted a 9ind o8 engage-ent to be at his disposal without the least reserve7 the exa-ple o8 such agreeable co-panions would alone deter+ -ine -e and that 1 was in no pain about any thing but -y appearing to so great a disadvantage a8ter such superior beauties$ .nd ta9e notice that 1 thought as 1 spo9e$ The 8ran9ness o8 the answer pleas:d the- all< -y particular was co-pli-ented on his ac=uisition7 and7 by way o8 indirect 8lattery to -e7 openly envied$ 2rs$ 6ole7 by the way7 could not have given -e a greater -ar9 o8 her regard than in -anaging 8or -e the choice o8 this young gentle-an 8or -y -aster o8 the cere-oniesB 8or7 inde+ pendent o8 his noble birth and the great 8ortune he was heir to7 his person was even unco--only pleasing7 well shaped and tall< his 8ace -ar9:d with the s-all+pox7 but no -ore than what added a grace o8 -ore -anliness to 8eatures rather turn+ ed to so8tness and delicacy7 was -arvellously enliven:d by eyes which were o8 the clearest spar9ling blac9< in short7 he was one who- any wo-an would7 in the 8a-iliar style7 readily call a very pretty 8ellow$ 1 was now handed by hi- to the coc9+pit o8 our -atch7 where7 as 1 was dressed in nothing but a white -orning gown7 he vouchsa8ed to play the -ale+.bigail on this occasion7 and spared -e the con8usion that would have attended the 8orward+ ness o8 undressing -ysel8B -y gown then was loosen:d in a trice7 and 1 divested o8 it< -y stay next o88ered an obstacle which readily gave way7 %ouisa very readily 8urnishing a pair o8 scissors to cut the lace< o88 went that shell and dropping -y upper+coat7 1 was reduced to -y under one and -y shi8t7 the open boso- o8 which gave the hands and eyes all the lib+ erty they could wish$ 0ere 1 i-agin:d the stripping was to stop7 but 1 rec9oned shortB -y spar97 at the desire o8 the rest7 tenderly begged that 1 would not su88er the s-all re+ -ains o8 a covering to rob the- o8 a 8ull view o8 -y whole person< and 8or -e7 who was too 8lexibly obse=uious to dis+ pute any point with the-7 and who considered the little -ore that re-ain:d as very i--aterial7 1 readily assented to what+ ever he pleased$ 1n an instant7 then7 -y under+petticoat was untied and at -y 8eet7 and -y shi8t drawn over -y head7 so that -y cap7 slightly 8asten:d7 ca-e o88 with it7 and brought all -y hair down (o8 which7 be it again re-e-bered without vanity7 that 1 had a very 8ine head) in loose disorderly ring+ lets7 over -y nec9 and shoulders7 to the not un8avourable set+o88 o8 -y s9in$ 1 now stood be8ore -y ;udges in all the truth o8 nature7 to who- 1 could not appear a very disagreeable 8igure7 i8 you please to recollect what 1 have be8ore said o8 -y person7 which ti-e7 that at certain periods o8 li8e robs us every instant o8 our char-s7 had7 at that o8 -ine7 then greatly i-proved into 8ull and open bloo-7 8or 1 wanted so-e -onths o8 eighteen$ 2y breasts7 which in the state o8 nudity are ever capital points7 now in no -ore than in grace8ul pleni+ tude7 -aintained a 8ir-ness and steady independence o8 any stay or support that dared and invited the test o8 the touch$

Then 1 was as tall7 as sli-+shaped as could be consistent with all that ;uicy plu-pness o8 8lesh7 ever the -ost grate+ 8ul to the senses o8 sight and touch7 which 1 owed to the health and youth o8 -y constitution$ 1 had not7 however7 so thoroughly renounc:d all innate sha-e as not to su88er great con8usion at the state 1 saw -ysel8 in< but the whole troop round -e7 -en and wo-en7 relieved -e with every -ar9 o8 ap+ plause and satis8action7 every 8lattering attention to raise and inspire -e with even senti-ents o8 pride on the 8igure 1 -ade7 which7 -y 8riend gallantly protested7 in8initely out+ shone all other birthday 8inery whatever< so that had 1 leave to set down7 8or sincere7 all the co-pli-ents these connois+ seurs overwhel-ed -e with upon this occasion7 1 -ight 8latter -ysel8 with having pass:d -y exa-ination with the approbation o8 the learned$ 2y 8riend however7 who 8or this ti-e had alone the dis+ posal o8 -e7 hu-oured their curiosity7 and perhaps his own7 so 8ar that he placed -e in all the variety o8 postures and lights i-aginable7 pointing out every beauty under every as+ pect o8 it7 not without such parentheses o8 9isses7 such in+ 8la--atory liberties o8 his roving hands7 as -ade all sha-e 8ly be8ore the-7 and a blushing glow give place to a war-er one o8 desire7 which led -e even to 8ind so-e relish in the present scene$ @ut in this general survey7 you -ay be sure7 the -ost -aterial spot o8 -e was not excus:d the strictest visitation< nor was it but agreed7 that 1 had not the least reason to be di88ident o8 passing even 8or a -aid7 on occasionB so incon+ siderable a 8law had -y preceding adventures created there7 and so soon had the ble-ish o8 an over+stretch been repaired and worn out at -y age7 and in -y naturally s-all -a9e in that part$ Now7 whether -y partner had exhausted all the -odes o8 regaling the touch or sight7 or whether he was now ungovern+ ably wound up to stri9e7 1 9now not< but bris9ly throwing o88 his clothes7 the prodigious heat bred by a close roo-7 a great 8ire7 nu-erous candles7 and even the in8la--atory war-th o8 these scenes7 induced hi- to lay aside his shirt too7 when his breeches7 be8ore loosen:d7 now gave up their contents to view7 and shew:d in 8ront the ene-y 1 had to en+ gage with7 sti88ly bearing up the port o8 its head unhooded7 and glowing red$ Then 1 plainly saw what 1 had to trust toB it was one o8 those ;ust true+siz:d instru-ents7 o8 which the -asters have a better co--and than the -ore unwieldy7 inordinate siz:d ones are generally under$ &training -e then close to his boso-7 as he stood up 8ore+right against -e and applying to the obvious niche its peculiar idol7 he ai-ed at inserting it7 which7 as 1 8orwardly 8avoured7 he e88ected at once by canting up -y thighs over his na9ed hips7 and -ade -e receive every inch7 and close ho-e< so that stuc9 upon the pleasure+pivot7 and clinging round his nec97 in which and in his hair 1 hid -y 8ace7 burningly 8lushing with -y present 8eelings as -uch as with sha-e7 -y boso- glew:d to his< he carried -e once round the couch7 on which he then7 without =uitting the -iddle+8astness7 or dischannelling7 laid

-e down7 and began the pleasure+grist$ @ut so provo9ingly predisposed and pri-ed as we were7 by all the -oving sights o8 the night7 our i-agination was too -uch heated not to -elt us o8 the soonestB and accordingly7 1 no sooner 8elt the warspray darted up -y inwards 8ro- hi-7 but 1 was punctually on 8low7 to share the -o-entary extasy< but 1 had yet greater reason to boast o8 out har-onyB 8or 8inding that all the 8la-es o8 desire were not yet =uench:d within -e7 but that rather7 li9e wetted coals7 1 glowed the 8iercer 8or this sprin9ling7 -y hot+-ettled spar97 sy-pathizing with -e7 and loaded 8or a double 8ire7 recontinu:d the sweet battery with undying vigour< greatly pleas:d at which 1 grate8ully endea+ voured to acco--odate all -y -otions to his best advantage and delight< 9isses7 s=ueezes7 tender -ur-urs7 all ca-e into play7 till our ;oys7 growing -ore turbulent and riotous7 threw us into a 8ond disorder7 and as they raged to a point7 bore us 8ar 8ro- ourselves into an ocean o8 boundless plea+ sures7 into which we both plunged together in a transport o8 taste$ Now all the i-pressions o8 burning desire7 8ro- the lively scenes 1 had been spectatress o87 ripened by the heat o8 this exercise7 and collecting to a head7 throbb:d and agi+ tated -e with insupportable irritationsB 1 did not now en;oy a cal- o8 reason enough to perceive7 but 1 extatically7 in+ deed7 8elt the power o8 such rare and ex=uisite provocatives7 as the exa-ples o8 the night had proved towards thus exalting our pleasuresB which7 with great ;oy7 1 sensibly 8ound -y gallant shared in7 by his nervous and ho-e expressions o8 itB his eyes 8lashing elo=uent 8la-es7 his action in8uriated with the stings o8 it7 all conspiring to rise -y delight by assur+ ing -e o8 his$ %i8ted then to the ut-ost pitch o8 ;oy that hu-an li8e can bear7undestroyed by excess7 1 touch:d that sweetly critical point7 whence scarce prevented by the in;ec+ tion 8ro- -y partner7 1 dissolved7 and brea9ing out into a deep drawn sigh7 sent -y whole sensitive soul down to that passage where escape was denied it7 by its being so delici+ ously plugged and cho9:d up$ Thus we lay a 8ew bliss8ul in+ stants7 overpowered7 still7 and languid< till7 as the sense o8 pleasure stagnated7 we recover:d 8ro- out trance7 and he slipt out o8 -e7 not however be8ore he had protested his ex+ tre-e satis8action by the tenderest 9iss and e-brace7 as well as by the -ost cordial expressions$ The co-pany7 who had stood round us in a pro8ound silence7 when all was over7 help:d -e to hurry on -y cloaths in an instant7 and co-pli-ented -e on the sincere ho-age they could not escape observing had been done (as they ter-ed it) to the sovereignty o8 -y char-s7 in -y receiving a double pay-ent o8 tribute at one ;uncture$ @ut -y partner7 now dress:d again7 signaliz:d7 above all7 a 8ondness unbated by the circu-stance o8 recent en;oy-ent< the girls too 9iss:d and e-braced -e7 assuring -e that 8or that ti-e7 or indeed any other7 unless 1 pleased7 1 was to go thro: no 8arther public9 trials7 and that 1 was now consu--atedly initiated7 and one o8 the-$ .s it was an inviolable law 8or every gallant to 9eep to his partner7 8or the night especially7 and even till he relin=uish:d possession over to the co--unity7 in order to

preserve a pleasing property and to avoid the disgusts and indelicacy o8 another arrange-ent7 the co-pany7 a8ter a short re8ection o8 biscuits and wine7 tea and chocolate7 served in at now about one in the -orning7 bro9e up7 and went o88 in pairs$ 2rs$ 6ole had prepared -y spar9 and -e an occasional 8ield+bed7 to which we retir:d7 and there ended the night in one continued strain o8 pleasure7 sprightly and uncloy:d enough 8or us not to have 8or-ed one wish 8or its ever 9nowing an end$ 1n the -orning7 a8ter a restorative brea98ast in bed7 he got up7 and with very tender assurances o8 a particular regard 8or -e7 le8t -e to the co-posure and re8resh-ent o8 a sweet slu-ber< wa9ing out o8 which7 and getting up to dress be8ore 2rs$ 6ole should co-e in7 1 8ound in one o8 -y poc9ets a purse o8 guineas7 which he had slipt there< and ;ust as 1 was -using on a liberality 1 had certainly not expected7 2rs$ 6ole ca-e in7 to who- 1 i--ediately co--unicated the present7 and naturally o88ered her whatever share she pleas:dB but assuring -e that the gentle-an had very nobly rewarded her7 she would on no ter-s7 no entreaties7 no shape 1 could put it in7 receive any part o8 it$ 0er denial7 she observed7 was not a88ectation o8 gri-ace7 and proceeded to read -e such ad-irable lessons on the econo-y o8 -y person and -y purse as 1 beca-e a-ply paid 8or -y general attention and con8or-ity to in the course o8 -y ac=uaintance with the town$ .8ter which7 changing the discourse7 she 8ell on the pleasures o8 the preceding night7 where 1 learn:d7 without -uch surprize7 as 1 began to enter on her character7 that she had seen every thing that had passed7 8ro- a convenient place -anaged solely 8or that purpose7 and o8 which she readily -ade -e the con8idante$ &he had scarce 8inish:d this7 when the little troop o8 love7 the girls -y co-panions7 bro9e in and renewed their co-pli-ents and caresses$ 1 observed with pleasure that the 8atigues and exercises o8 the night had not usurped in the least on the li8e o8 their co-plexion7 or the 8reshness o8 their bloo-B this 1 8ound7 by their con8ession7 was owing to the -anage-ent and advice o8 our rare directress$ They went down then to 8igure it7 as usual7 in the shop7 whilst 1 repair:d to -y lodgings7 where 1 e-ployed -ysel8 till 1 returned to dinner at 2rs$ 6ole:s$ 0ere 1 staid in constant a-use-ent7 with one or other o8 these char-ing girls7 till about 8ive in the evening< when seiz:d with a sudden drowsy 8it7 1 was prevailed on to go up and doze it o88 on 0arriet:s bed7 who le8t -e on it to -y repose$ There then 1 lay down in -y cloaths and 8ell 8ast asleep7 and had now en;oyed7 by guess7 about an hour:s rest7 when 1 was pleasingly disturbed by -y new and 8avourite gal+ lant7 who7 en=uiring 8or -e7 was readily directed where to 8ind -e$ 6o-ing then into -y cha-ber7 and seeing -e lie alone7 with -y 8ace turn:d 8ro- the light towards the inside o8 the bed7 he7 without -ore ado7 ;ust slipped o88 his breeches7 8or the greater ease and en;oy-ent o8 the na9ed touch< and so8tly turning up -y petticoat and shi8t behind7 opened the prospect o8 the bac9 avenue to the genial seat o8 pleasure< where7 as 1 lay at -y side length7 inclining rather 8ace downward7 1 appeared 8ull 8air7 and liable to be entered$

K%aying hi-sel8 then gently down by -e7 he invested -e behind7 and giving -e to 8eel the war-th o8 his body as he applied his thighs and belly close to -e7 and the endeavours o8 that -achine7 whose touch has so-ething so ex=uisitely singular in it7 to -a9e its way good into -e$ 1 wa9:d pretty -uch star+ tled at 8irst7 but seeing who it was7 disposed -ysel8 to turn to hi-7 when he gave -e a 9iss7 and desiring -e to 9eep -y posture7 ;ust li8ted up -y upper thigh7 and ascertaining the right opening7 soon drove it up to the 8arthestB satis8ied with which7 and solacing hi-sel8 with lying so close in those parts7 he suspended -otion7 and thus steeped in pleasure7 9ept -e lying on -y side7 into hi-7 spoon+8ashion7 as he ter-:d it7 8ro- the snug indent o8 the bac9 part o8 -y thighs7 and all upwards7 into the space o8 the bending between his thighs and belly< till7 a8ter so-e ti-e7 that restless and turbulent in-ate7 i-patient by nature o8 longer =uiet7 urg:d hi- to action7 which now prosecuting with all the usual train o8 toying7 9issing7 and the li9e7 ended at length in the li=uid proo8 on both sides7 that we had not exhausted7 or at least were =uic9ly recruited o8 last night:s draughts o8 pleasure in us$ With this noble and agreeable youth liv:d 1 in per8ect ;oy and constancy$ 0e was 8ull bent on 9eeping -e to hi-sel87 8or the honey+-onth at least< but his stay in %ondon was not even so long7 his 8ather7 who had a post in 1reland7 ta9ing hi- abruptly with hi- on his repairing thither$ /et even then 1 was near 9eeping hold o8 his a88ection and person7 as he had propos:d7 and 1 had consented to 8ollow hi- in order to go to 1reland a8ter hi-7 as soon as he could be settled there< but -eeting with an agreeable and advantageous -atch in that 9ing+ do-7 he chose the wiser part7 and 8orebore sending 8or -e7 but at the sa-e ti-e too9 care that 1 should receive a very -agni+ 8icent present7 which did not however co-pensate 8or all -y deep regret on -y loss o8 hi-$ This event also created a chas- in our little society7 which 2rs$ 6ole7 on the 8oot o8 her usual caution7 was in no haste to 8ill up< but then it redoubled her attention to pro+ cure -e7 in the advantages o8 a tra88ic 8or a counter8eit -aidenhead7 so-e consolation 8or the sort o8 widowhood 1 had been le8t in< and this was a sche-e she had never lost pro+ spect o87 and only waited 8or a proper person to bring it to bear with$ @ut 1 was7 it see-s7 8ated to be -y own caterer in this7 as 1 had been in -y 8irst trial o8 the -ar9et$ 1 had now pass:d near a -onth in the en;oy-ent o8 all the pleasures o8 8a-iliarity and society with -y co-panions7 whose particular 8avourites (the baronet excepted7 who soon a8ter too9 0arriet ho-e) had all7 on the ter-s o8 co--unity establish:d in the house7 solicited the grati8ication o8 their taste 8or variety in -y e-braces< but 1 had with the ut-ost art and address7 on various pretexts7 eluded their pursuit7 without giving the- cause to co-plain< and this reserve 1 used neither out o8 disli9e o8 the-7 or disgust o8 the thing7 but -y true reason was -y attach-ent to -y own7

and -y tenderness o8 invading the choice o8 -y co-panions7 who outwardly exe-pt7 as they see-:d7 8ro- ;ealousy7 could not but in secret li9e -e the better 8or the regard 1 had 8or7 without -a9ing a -erit o8 it to the-$ Thus easy7 and beloved by the whole 8a-ily7 did 1 go on< when one day7 that7 about 8ive in the a8ternoon7 1 stepped over to a 8ruiterer:s shop in 6ovent ?arden7 to pic9 so-e table 8ruit 8or -ysel8 and the young wo-en7 1 -et with the 8ollowing adventure$ Whilst 1 was cha88ering 8or the 8ruit 1 wanted7 1 ob+ serv:d -ysel8 8ollow:d by a young gentle-an7 whose rich dress 8irst attracted -y notice< 8or the rest7 he had no+ thing re-ar9able in his person7 except that he was pale7 thin+-ade7 and ventur:d hi-sel8 upon legs rather o8 the slenderest$ 3asy was it to perceive7 without see-ing to perceive it7 that it was -e he wanted to be at< and 9eeping his eyes 8ixed on -e7 till he ca-e to the sa-e bas9et that 1 stood at7 and cheapening7 or rather giving the 8irst price as9:d 8or the 8ruit7 began his approaches$ Now -ost certainly 1 was not at all out o8 8igure to pass 8or a -odest girl$ 1 had neither the 8eathers nor 8u-et o8 a taudry town+ -issB a straw hat7 a white gown7 clean linen7 and above all7 a certain natural and easy air o8 -odesty (which the appear+ ances o8 never 8orsoo9 -e7 even on those occasions that 1 -ost bro9e in upon it7 in practice) were all signs that gave hi- no opening to con;ecture -y condition$ 0e spo9e to -e< and this address 8ro- a stranger throwing a blush into -y chee9s that still set hi- wider o88 the truth7 1 answered hi- with an au9wardness and con8usion the -ore apt to i-pose7 as there was really a -ixture o8 the genuine in the-$ @ut when proceeding7 on the 8oot o8 having bro9en the ice7 to ;oin discourse7 he went into other leading =uestions7 1 put so -uch innocence7 si-plicity7 and even childishness into -y answers that on no better 8oundation7 li9ing -y person as he did7 1 will answer 8or it7 he would have been sworn 8or -y -odesty$ There is7 in short7 in the -en7 when once they are caught7 by the eye especially7 a 8und o8 cullibility that their lordly wisdo- little drea-s o87 and in virtue o8 which the -ost sagacious o8 the- are seen so o8ten our dupes$ .-ongst other =ueries he put to -e7 one was whether 1 was -arried$ 1 replied that 1 was too young to thin9 o8 that this -any a year$ To that o8 -y age7 1 answered7 and sun9 a year upon hi-7 passing -ysel8 8or not seventeen$ .s to -y way o8 li8e7 1 told hi- 1 had serv:d an apprenticeship to a -illiner in Preston7 and was co-e to town a8ter a relation7 that 1 had 8ound7 on -y arrival7 was dead7 and now liv:d ;ourney+wo-an to a -illiner in town$ That last article7 indeed7 was not -uch o8 the side o8 what 1 pretended to pass 8or< but it did pass7 under 8avour o8 the growing passion 1 had inspir:d hi- with$ .8ter he had next got out o8 -e7 very dextrously as he thought7 what 1 had no sort o8 design to -a9e reserve o87 -y own7 -y -istress:s na-e7 and place o8 abode7 he loaded -e with 8ruit7 all the rarest and dearest he could pic9 out7 and sent -e ho-e7 pondering on what -ight be the conse=uence o8 this adventure$ .s soon then as 1 ca-e to 2rs$ 6ole:s7 1 related to her all that passed7 on which she very ;udiciously concluded

that i8 he did not co-e a8ter -e there was no har- done7 and that7 i8 he did7 as her presage suggested to her he would7 his character and his views should be well si8ted7 so as to 9now whether the ga-e was worth the springs< that in the -ean ti-e nothing was easier than -y part in it7 since no -ore rested on -e than to 8ollow her cue and pro-ptership through+ out7 to the last act$

The next -orning7 a8ter an evening spent on his side7 as we a8terwards learnt7 in per=uisitions into 2rs$ 6ole:s char+ acter in the neighbourhood (than which nothing could be -ore 8avourable to her design upon hi-)7 -y gentle-an ca-e in his chariot to the shop7 where 2rs$ 6ole alone had an in9ling o8 his errand$ .s9ing then 8or her7 he easily -ade a beginning o8 ac=uaintance by be+spea9ing so-e -illinery wareB when7 as 1 sat without li8ting up -y eyes7 and pursuing the he- o8 a ru88le with the ut-ost co-posure and si-plicity o8 industry7 2rs$ 6ole too9 notice that the 8irst i-pressions 1 -ade on hi- ran no ris9 o8 being destroyed by those o8 %ouisa and 3-ily7 who were then sitting at wor9 by -e$ .8ter vainly endeavouring to catch -y eyes in re+encounter with his (as 1 held -y head down7 a88ecting a 9ind o8 consciousness o8 guilt 8or having7 by spea9ing to hi-7 given hi- encourage-ent and -eans o8 8ollowing -e)7 and a8ter giving 2rs$ 6ole direction when to bring the things ho-e hersel87 and the ti-e he should expect the-7 he went out7 ta9ing with hi- so-e goods that he paid 8or liberally7 8or the better grace o8 his introduction$ Part L The girls all this ti-e did not in the least s-o9e the -ystery o8 this new custo-er< but 2rs$ 6ole7 as soon as we were conveniently alone7 insur:d -e7 in virtue o8 her long experience in these -atters7 that 8or this bout -y char-s had not -iss:d 8ire< 8or that by his eagerness7 his -anner and loo9s7 she was sure he had itB the only point now in doubt was his character and circu-stances7 which her 9nowledge o8 the town would soon gain her su88icient ac=uaintance with7 to ta9e her -easures upon$ .nd e88ectively7 in a 8ew hours7 her intelligence serv:d her so well that she learn:d that this con=uest o8 -ine was no other than 2r$ Norbert7 a gentle-an originally o8 great 8ortune7 which7 with a constitution naturally not the best7 he had vastly i-paired by his over+violent pursuit o8 the vices o8 the town< in the course o8 which7 having worn out and stal:d all the -ore co--on -odes o8 debauchery7 he had 8allen into a taste o8 -aiden+hunting< in which chase he had ruin:d a nu-ber o8 girls7 sparing no expence to co-pass his ends7 and generally using the- well till tired7 or cool:d by en;oy-ent7 or springing a new 8ace7 he could with -ore ease dise-barrass hi-sel8 o8 the old ones7 and resign the- to their 8ate7 as his sphere o8 achieve-ents o8 that sort lay only a-ongst such as he could proceed with by way o8 bargain and sale$ 6oncluding 8ro- these pre-ises7 2rs$ 6ole observ:d that a character o8 this sort was ever a law8ul prize< that the sin would be7 not to -a9e the best o8 our -ar9et o8 hi-< and that she thought such a girl as 1 only too good 8or hi- at any rate7 and on any ter-s$ &he went then7 at the hour appointed7 to his lodgings in one o8 our inns o8 court7 which were 8urnished in a taste o8

grandeur that had a special eye to all the conveniences o8 luxury and pleasure$ 0ere she 8ound hi- in ready waiting< and a8ter 8inishing her pretence o8 business7 and a long circuit o8 discussions concerning her trade7 which she said was very bad7 the =ualities o8 her servants7 :prentices7 ;ourney+wo-en7 the discourse naturally landed at length on -e7 when 2rs$ 6ole7 acting ad-irably the good old prating gossip7 who lets every thing escape her when her tongue is set in -otion7 coo9ed hi- up a story so plausible o8 -e7 throwing in every now and then such stro9es o8 art7 with all the si-plest air o8 nature7 in praise o8 -y person and te-+ per7 as 8inished hi- 8inely 8or her purpose7 whilst nothing could be better counter8eited than her innocence o8 his$ @ut when now 8ired and on edge7 he proceeded to drop hints o8 his design and views upon -e7 a8ter he had with -uch con8usion and pains brought her to the point (she 9ept as long aloo8 8ro- as she thought proper) o8 understanding hi-7 without now a88ecting to pass 8or a dragoness o8 virtue7 by 8lying out into those violent and ever suspicious passions7 she stuc9 with the better grace and e88ect to the character o8 a plain7 good sort o8 a wo-an7 that 9new no har-7 and that getting her bread in an honest way7 was -ade o8 stu88 easy and 8lexible enough to be wrought upon to his ends7 by his superior s9ill and address< but7 however7 she -anaged so art8ully that three or 8our -eetings too9 place be8ore he could obtain the least 8avourable hope o8 her assistance< without which7 he had7 by a nu-ber o8 8ruitless -essages7 letters7 and other direct trials o8 -y disposition7 convinced hi-sel8 there was no co-ing at -e7 all which too rais:d at once -y character and price with hi-$

(egard8ul7 however7 o8 not carrying these di88iculties to such a length as -ight a88ord ti-e 8or starting discov+ eries7 or incidents7 un8avourable to her plan7 she at last pretended to be won over by -ere dint o8 entreaties7 pro+ -ises7 and7 above all7 by the dazzling su- she too9 care to wind hi- up to the speci8ication o87 when it was now even a piece o8 art to 8eign7 at once7 a yielding to the allure-ents o8 a great interest7 as a pretext 8or her yielding at all7 and the -anner o8 it such as -ight persuade hi- she had never dipp:d her virtuous 8ingers in an a88air o8 that sort$ Thus she led hi- through all the gradations o8 di88i+ culty7 and obstacles7 necessary to enhance the balue o8 the prize he ai-:d at< and in conclusion7 he was so struc9 with the little beauty 1 was -istress o87 and so eagerly bent on gaining his ends o8 -e7 that he le8t her even no roo- to boast o8 her -anage-ent in bringing hi- up to her -ar97 he drove so plu- o8 hi-sel8 into every thing tending to -a9e hiswallow the bait$ Not but7 in other respects7 2r$ Norbert was not clear sighted enough7 or that he did not per8ectly 9now the town7 and even by experience7 the very branch o8 i-position now in practice upon hi-B but we had his passion our 8riend so -uch7 he was so blinded and hurried on by it7 that he would have thought any undeception a very ill o88ice done to his pleasure$ Thus concurring7 even precipitately7 to the point she wanted hi- at7 2rs$ 6ole brought hi- at last to hug hi-sel8 on the cheap bargain he consider:d the pur+ chase o8 -y i-aginary ;ewel was to hi-7 at no -ore than three hundred guineas to -ysel87 and a hundred to the bro9eressB being a slender reco-pense 8or all her pains7 and all the scruples o8 conscience she had now sacri8iced to hi- 8or this the 8irst ti-e o8 her li8e< which su-s were to be paid down on the nail7 upon livery o8 -y person7 exclusive o8 so-e no inconsiderable presents that had been -ade in the course o8 the negotiationB during which 1 had occasionally7 but spar+ ingly been introduc:d inbto his co-pany7 at proper ti-es and hours< in which it is incredible how little it see-:d neces+ sary to strain -y natural disposition to -odesty higher7 in order to pass it upon hi- 8or that o8 a very -aidB all -y loo9s and gestures ever breathing nothing but that innocence which the -en so ardently re=uire in us7 8or no other end than to 8east the-selves with the pleasures o8 destroying it7 and which they are so grievously7 with all their s9ill7 sub+ ;ect to -ista9es in$ When the articles o8 the treaty had been 8ully agreed on7 the stipulated pay-ents duly secur:d7 and nothing now re-ained but the execution o8 the -ain point7 which center:d in the surrender o8 -y person up to his 8ree disposal and use7 2rs$ 6ole -anaged her ob;ections7 especially to his lodgings7 and insinuations so nicely7 that it beca-e his own -ere notion and urgent re=uest that this copy o8 a wedding should be 8inish:d at her houseB .t 8irst7 indeed7 she did not care7 said she7 to have such doings in it $ $ $ she would not 8or a thousand pounds have any o8 the servants or :prentices 9now it $ $ $ her precious good na-e would be gone 8orever++with the li9e excuses$ 0owever7 on superior ob;ec+

tions to all other expedients7 whilst she too9 care to start none but those which were -ost liable to the-7 it ca-e round at last to the necessity o8 her obliging hi- in that conveni+ ency7 and o8 doing a little -ore where she had already done so -uch$ The night then was 8ix:d7 with all possible respect to the eagerness o8 his i-patience7 and in the -ean ti-e 2rs$ 6ole had o-itted no instructions7 nor even neglected any preparation7 that -ight enable -e to co-e o88 with honour7 in regard to the appearance o8 -y virginity7 except that7 8avour:d as 1 was by nature with all the narrowness o8 stricture in that part re=uisite to conduct -y designs7 1 had no occasion to borrow those auxiliaries o8 art that create a -o-entary one7 easily discover:d by the test o8 a war- bath< and as to the usual sanguinary sy-pto-s o8 de+ 8loration7 which7 i8 not always7 are generally attendants on it7 2rs$ 6ole had -ade -e the -istress o8 an invention o8 her own which could hardly -iss its e88ect7 and o8 which -ore in its place$ 3verything then being disposed and 8ix:d 8or 2r$ Nor+ bert:s reception7 he was7 at the hour o8 eleven at night7 with all the -ysteries o8 silence and secrecy7 let in by 2rs$ 6ole hersel87 and introduced into her bed+cha-ber7 where7 in an old+8ashioned bed o8 her:s7 1 lay7 8ully undressed7 and panting7 i8 not with the 8ears o8 a real -aid7 at least with those perhaps greater o8 a disse-bled one which gave -e an air o8 con8usion and bash8ulness that -aiden+-odesty had all the honour o87 and was indeed scarce distinguishable 8roit7 even by less partial eyes than those o8 -y loverB so let -e call hi-7 8or 1 ever thought the ter- CcullyC too cruel a reproach to the -en 8or their abused wea9ness 8or us$ .s soon as 2rs$ 6ole7 a8ter the old gossipery7 on these occasions7 us:d to young wo-en abandoned 8or the 8irst ti-e to the will o8 -an7 had le8t us alone in her roo-7 which7 by+ the+bye7 was well lighted up7 at his previous desire7 that see-ed to bode a stricter exa-ination that he a8terwards -ade7 2r$ Norbert7 still dressed7 sprung towards the bed7 where 1 got -y head under the cloaths7 and de8ended the- a good while be8ore he could even get at -y lips7 to 9iss the-B so true it is7 that a 8alse virtue7 on this occasion7 even -a9es a greater rout and resistance than a true one$ Frothence he descended to -y breasts7 the 8eel 1 disputed tooth and nail with hi- till7 tired with -y resistance7 and thin9+ ing probably to give a better account o8 -e7 when got into bed to -e7 the hurry:d his cloaths o88 in an instant7 and ca-e into bed$ 2ean while7 by the gli-pse 1 stole o8 hi-7 1 could easily discover a person 8ar 8ro- pro-ising any such doughty per8or-ances as the stor-ing o8 -aidenheads generally re+ =uires7 and whose 8li-sy consu-ptive texture gave hi- -ore the air o8 an invalid that was pressed7 than o8 a volunteer7 on such hot service$ .t scarce thirty7 he had already reduced his strength o8

appetite down to a wretched dependence on 8orc:d provocatives7 very little seconded by the natural power o8 a body ;aded and rac9ed o88 to the lees by constant repeated over+draughts o8 pleasure7 which had done the wor9 o8 sixty winters on his springs o8 li8eB leaving hi- at the sa-e ti-e all the 8ire and heat o8 youth in his i-agination7 which served at once to tor-ent and spur hi- down the precipice$ .s soon as he was in bed7 he threw o88 the bed+cloaths7 which 1 su88ered hi- to 8orce 8ro- -y hold7 and 1 now lay as expos:d as he could wish7 not only to his attac9s7 but his visitation o8 the sheets< where in the various agitations o8 the body7 through -y endeavours to de8end -ysel87 he could easily assure hi-sel8 there was no preparationB though7 to do hi- ;ustice7 he see-:d a less strict exa-inant than 1 had apprehended 8ro- so experienc:d a practitioner$ 2y shi8t then he 8airly tore open7 8inding 1 -ade too -uch use o8 it to barricade -y breasts7 as well as the -ore i-portant avenueB yet in every thing else he proceeded with all the -ar9s o8 tenderness and regard to -e7 whilst the art o8 -y play was to shew none 8or hi-$ 1 acted then all the nice+ ties7 apprehensions7 and terrors supposable 8or a girl per+ 8ectly innocent to 8eel at so great a novelty as a na9ed -an in bed with her 8or the 8irst ti-e$ 0e scarce even obtained a 9iss but what he ravished< 1 put his hand away twenty ti-es 8ro- -y breasts7 where he had satis8ied hi-sel8 o8 their hardness and consistence7 with passing 8or hitherto unhandled goods$ @ut when grown i-patient 8or the -ain point7 he now threw hi-sel8 upon -e7 and 8irst trying to exa-ine -e with his 8inger7 sought to -a9e hi-sel8 8urther way7 1 co-plained o8 his usage bitterlyB 1 thought he would not have serv:d a body so $ $ $ 1 was ruin:d $ $ $ 1 did not 9now what 1 had done $ $ $ 1 would get up7 so 1 would $ $ $< and at the sa-e ti-e 9ept -y thighs so 8ast loc9ed7 that it was not 8or strength li9e his to 8orce the- open7 or do any good$ Find+ ing thus -y advantages7 and that 1 had both -y own and his -otions at co--and7 the deceiving hi- ca-e so easy that it was per8ectly playing upon velvet$ 1n the -ean ti-e his -achine7 which was one o8 those sizes that slip in and out without being -inded7 9ept pretty sti88ly bearing against that part7 which the shutting -y thighs barr:d access to< but 8inding7 at length7 he could do no good by -ere dint o8 bodily strength7 he resorted to entreaties and argu-entsB to which 1 only answer:d with a tone o8 sha-e and ti-idity7 that 1 was a8raid he would 9ill -e $ $ $ %ord> $ $ $7 1 would not be served so $ $ $ 1 was never so used in all -y born days $ $ $ 1 wondered he was not asha-ed o8 hi-sel87 so 1 did $ $ $7 with such silly in8antile -oods o8 repulse and co-plaint as 1 ;udged best adapted to the express the character o8 innocence and a88right$ Pretending7 however7 to yield at length to the vehe-ence o8 his insistence7 in action and words7 1 sparingly disclosed -y thighs7 so that he could ;ust touch the cloven inlet with the tip o8 his instru-entB but as he 8atigued and toil:d to get it in7 a twist o8 -y body7 so as to receive it obli=uely7 not only thwarted his ad-ission7 but giving a screa-7 as i8 he had pierced -e to the heart7 1 shoo9 hi- o88 -e with such violence that he could not with all his -ight to it7 9eep the saddleB vex:d indeed at this he see-ed7 but not

in the style o8 any displeasure with -e 8or -y s9ittishness< on the contrary7 1 dare swear he held -e the dearer7 and hugged hi-sel8 8or the di88iculties that even hurt his instant pleasure$ Fired7 however7 now beyond all bearance o8 delay7 he re-ounts and begg:d o8 -e to have patience7 stro9+ ing and soothing -e to it by all the tenderest endear-ents and protestations o8 what he would -oreover do 8or -e< at which7 8eigning to be so-ething so8tened7 and abating o8 the anger that 1 had shewn at his hurting -e so prodigiously7 1 su88ered hi- to lay -y thighs aside7 and -a9e way 8or a new trial< but 1 watched the directions and -anage-ent o8 his point so well7 that no sooner was the ori8ice in the least open to it7 but 1 gave such a ti-ely ;er9 as see-ed to pro+ ceed not 8ro- the evasion o8 his entry7 but 8ro- the pain his e88orts at it put -e toB a circu-stance too that 1 did not 8ail to acco-pany with proper gestures7 sighs and cries o8 co-plaint7 o8 which that he had hurt -e $ $ $ he 9ill:d -e $ $ $ 1 should die $ $ $7 were the -ost 8re=uent inter;ections$ @ut now7 a8ter repeated atte-pts7 in which he had not -ade the least i-pression towards gaining his point7 at least 8or that ti-e7 the pleasure rose so 8ast upon hi- that he could not chec9 or delay it7 and in the vigour and 8ury which the approaches o8 the height o8 it inspir:d hi-7 he -ade one 8ierce thrust7 that had al-ost put -e by -y guard7 and lodged it so 8ar that 1 could 8eel the war- inspersion ;ust within the exterior ori8ice7 which 1 had the cruelty not to let hi- 8inish there7 but threw hi- out again7 not without a -ost piercing loud excla-ation7 as i8 the pain had put -e beyond all regard o8 being overheard$ 1t was easy then to observe that he was -ore satis8y:d7 -ore highly pleased with the supposed -otives o8 his baul9 o8 consu--ation7 than he would have been at the 8ull attain-ent o8 it$ 1t was on this 8oot that 1 solved to -ysel8 all the 8alsity 1 e-ployed to procure hi- that bliss8ul pleasure in it7 which -ost certainly he would not have tasted in the truth o8 things$ 3as:d however7 and relieved by one discharge7 he now apply:d hi-sel8 to sooth7 encourage and to put -e into hu-our and patience to bear his next atte-pt7 which he began to prepare and gather 8orce 8or7 8ro- all the incentives o8 the touch and sight which he could thin9 o87 by exa-ining every indi+ vidual part o8 -y whole body7 which he declared his satis+ 8action with in raptures o8 applauses7 9isses universally i-printed7 and sparing no part o8 -e7 in all the eagerest wantonness o8 8eeling7 seeing7 and toying$ 0is vigour how+ ever did not return so soon7 and 1 8elt hi- -ore than once pushing at the door7 but so little in a condition to brea9 in7 that 1 =uestion whether he had the power to enter7 had 1 held it ever so open< but this he then thought -e too little ac=uainted with the nature o8 things to have any regret or con8usion about7 and he 9ept 8atiguing hi-sel8 and -e 8or a long ti-e7 be8ore he was in any state to resu-e his attac9s with any prospect o8 success< and then 1 breath:d hi- so war-ly7 and 9ept hi- so at bay7 that be8ore he had -ade any sensible progress in point o8 penetration7 he was deliciously sweated7 and weary:d out indeedB so that it was deep in the -orning be8ore he achieved his second let+go7 about hal8 way o8 entrance7 1 all the while crying and co-plaining o8 his prodigious vigour7 and the i--ensity o8 what 1 appear:d to

su88er splitting up with$ Tired7 however7 at length7 with such athletic drudgery7 -y cha-pion began now to give out7 and to gladly e-brace the re8resh-ent o8 so-e rest$ Aissing -e then with -uch a88ection7 and reco--ending -e to -y repose7 he presently 8ell 8ast asleepB which7 as soon as 1 had well satis8y:d -ysel8 o87 1 with -uch co-posure o8 body7 so as not to wa9e hi- by any -otion7 with -uch ease and sa8ety too7 played o8 2rs$ 6ole:s advice 8or per8ecting the signs o8 -y virginity$ 1n each o8 the head bed+posts7 ;ust above where the bed+ steads are inserted into the-7 there was a s-all drawer7 so art8ully adapted to the -ouldings o8 the ti-ber+wor97 that it -ight have escap:d even the -ost curious searchB which drawers were easily open:d or shut by the touch o8 a spring7 and were 8itted each with a shallow glass tu-bler7 8ull o8 a prepared 8luid blood7 in which lay soa9:d7 8or ready use7 a sponge that re=uired no -ore than gently reaching the hand to it7 ta9ing it out and properly s=ueezing between the thighs7 when it yielded a great deal -ore o8 the red li=uid than would save a girl:s honour< a8ter which7 replacing it7 and touching the spring7 all possibility o8 discovery7 or even o8 suspicion7 was ta9en away< and all this was not the wor9 o8 the 8ourth part o8 a -inute7 and on which ever side one lay7 the thing was e=ually easy and practicable7 by the double care ta9en to have each bed+post provided ali9e$ True it is7 that had he wa9ed and caught -e in the act7 it would at least have covered -e with sha-e and con8usion< but then7 that he did not7 was7 with the precautions 1 too97 a ris9 o8 a thou+ sand to one in -y 8avour$ .t ease now7 and out o8 all 8ear o8 any doubt or sus+ picion on his side7 1 address:d -ysel8 in good earnest to -y repose7 but could obtain none< and in about hal8 an hour:s ti-e -y gentle-an wa9ed again7 and turning towards -e7 1 8eigned a sound sleep7 which he did not long respect< but girding hi-sel8 again to renew the onset7 he began to 9iss and caress -e7 when now -a9ing as i8 1 ;ust wa9:d7 1 co-+ plained o8 the disturbance7 and o8 the cruel pain that this little rest had stole -y senses 8ro-$ 3ager7 however7 8or the pleasure7 as well o8 consu--ating an entire triu-ph over -y virginity7 he said everything that could overco-e -y resistance7 and bribe -y patience to the end7 which not 1 was ready to listen to7 8ro- being secure o8 the bloody proo8s 1 had prepared o8 his victorious violence7 though 1 still thought it good policy not to let hi- in yet a while$ 1 answered then only to his i-portunities in sighs and -oans that 1 was so hurt7 1 could not bear it $ $ $ 1 was sure he had done -e a -ischie8< that he had $ $ $ he was such a sad -an> .t this7 turning down the cloaths and viewing the 8ield o8 battle by the gli--er o8 a dying taper7 he saw plainly -y thighs7 shi8t7 and sheets7 all stained with what he readily too9 8or a virgin e88usion7 proceeding 8ro- his last hal8+ penetrationB convinc:d7 and transported at which7 nothing could e=ual his ;oy and exultation$ The illusion was co-+ plete7 no other conception entered his head but that o8 his having been at wor9 upon an unopen:d -ine< which idea7 upon so strong an evidence7 redoubled at once his tenderness 8or

-e7 and his ardour 8or brea9ing it wholly up$ Aissing -e then with the ut-ost rapture7 he co-8orted -e7 and begg:d -y pardon 8or the pain he had put -e toB observing withal7 that it was only a thing in courseB but the worst was certainly past7 and that with a little courage and constancy7 1 should get it once well over7 and never a8ter experience any thing but the greatest pleasure$ @y little and little 1 su88er:d -ysel8 to be prevailed on7 and giving7 as it were7 up the point to hi-7 1 -ade -y thighs7 insensibly spreading the-7 yield hi- liberty o8 access7 which i-proving7 he got a little within -e7 when by a well -anaged reception 1 wor9:d the 8e-ale screw so nicely7 that 1 9ept hi- 8ro- the easy -id+channel direction7 and by dextrous wreathing and contor+ tions7 creating an arti8icial di88iculty o8 entrance7 -ade hi- win it inch by inch7 with the -ost laborious struggles7 1 all the while sorely co-plainingB till at length7 with -ight and -ain7 winding his way in7 he got it co-pletely ho-e7 and giving -y virginity7 as he thought7 the coup de grace7 8urnished -e with the cue o8 setting up a terrible outcry7 whilst he7 triu-phant and li9e a coc9 clapping his wings over his down+trod -istress7 pursu:d his pleasureB which presently rose7 in virtue o8 this idea o8 a co-plete victory7 to a pitch that -ade -e soon sensible o8 his -elt+ ing period< whilst 1 now lay acting the deep wounded7breath+ less7 8righten:d7 undone7 no longer -aid$ /ou would as9 -e7 perhaps7 whether all this ti-e 1 en;oy:d any perception o8 pleasureE 1 assure you7 little or none7 till ;ust towards the latter end7 a 8aintish sense o8 it ca-e on -echanically7 8ro- so long a struggle and 8re=uent 8ret in that ever sensible part< but7 in the 8irst place7 1 had no taste 8or the person 1 was su88ering the e-braces o87 on a pure -ercenary account< and then7 1 was not entirely delighted with -ysel8 8or the ;ade:s part 1 was playing7 whatever excuses 1 -ight have to plead 8or -y being brought into it< but then this insensibility 9ept -e so -uch the -istress o8 -y -ind and -otions7 that 1 could the better -anage so close a counter8eit7 through the whole scene o8 deception$ (ecover:d at length to a -ore shew o8 li8e7 by his ten+ der condolences7 9isses and e-braces7 1 upbraided hi-7 and reproach:d hi- with -y ruin7 in such natural ter-s as added to his satis8action with hi-sel8 8or having acco-plish:d it< and guessing7 by certain observations o8 -ine7 that it would be rather 8avourable to hi-7 to spare hi-7 when he so-e ti-e a8ter7 8eebly enough7 ca-e on again to the assault7 1 reso+ lutely withstood any 8urther endeavours7 on a pretext that 8lattered his prowess7 o8 -y being so violently hurt and sore that 1 could not possibly endure a 8resh trial$ 0e then gra+ ciously granted -e a respite7 and the next -orning soon a8ter advancing7 1 got rid o8 8urther i-portunity7 till 2rs$ 6ole7 being rang 8or by hi-7 ca-e in and was -ade ac=uainted7 in ter-s o8 the ut-ost ;oy and rapture7 with his triu-phant cer+ tainty o8 -y virtue7 and the 8inishing stro9e he had given it in the course o8 the nightB o8 which7 he added7 she would see proo8 enough in bloody characters on the sheets$

/ou -ay guess how a wo-an o8 her turn o8 address and experience hu-our:d the ;est7 and played hi- o88 with -ixed excla-ations o8 sha-e7 anger7 co-passion 8or -e7 and o8 her being pleased that all was so well overB in which last7 1 believe7 she was certainly sincere$ .nd now7 as the ob;ec+ tion which she had represented as an invincible one7 to -y lying the 8irst night at his lodgings (which were studiously calculated 8or 8reedo- o8 intrigues)7 on the account o8 -y -aiden 8ears and terrors at the thoughts o8 going to a gentle-an:s cha-bers7 and being alone with hi- in bed7 was sur-ounted7 she pretended to persuade -e7 in 8avour to hi-7 that 1 should go there to hi- whenever he pleas:d7 and still 9eep up all the necessary appearances o8 wor9ing with her7 that 1 -ight not lose7 with -y character7 the prospect o8 getting a good husband7 and at the sa-e ti-e her house would be 9ept the sa8er 8ro- scandal$ .ll this see-:d so reason+ able7 so considerate to 2r$ Norbert7 that he never once per+ ceived that she did not want hi- to resort to her house7 lest he -ight in ti-e discover certain inconsistencies with the character she had set out with to hi-B besides that7 this plan greatly 8lattered his own ease7 and views o8 liberty$ %eaving -e then to -y -uch wanted rest7 he got up7 and 2rs$ 6ole7 a8ter settling with hi- all points relating to -e7 got hi- undiscovered out o8 the house$ .8ter which7 as 1 was awa9e7 she ca-e in and gave -e due praises 8or -y success$ @ehaving too with her usual -oderation and disinterestedness7 she re8us:d any share o8 the su- 1 had thus earned7 and put -e into such a secure and easy way o8 disposing o8 -y a8+ 8airs7 which now a-ounted to a 9ind o8 little 8ortune7 that a child o8 ten years old -ight have 9ept the account and property o8 the- sa8e in its hands$ 1 was now restor:d again to -y 8or-er state o8 a 9ept -istress7 and used punctually to wait on 2r$ Norbert at his cha-bers whenever he sent a -essenger 8or -e7 which 1 con+ stantly too9 care to be in the way o87 and -anag:d with so -uch caution that he never once penetrated the nature o8 -y connections with 2rs$ 6ole< but indolently given up to ease and the town dissipations7 the perpetual hurry o8 the- hin+ der:d hi- 8ro- loo9ing into his own a88airs7 -uch less to -ine$ 1n the -ean ti-e7 i8 1 -ay ;udge 8ro- -y own experience7 none are better paid7 or better treated7 during their reign7 than the -istresses o8 those who7 enervate by nature7 debauc+ heries7 or age7 have the least e-ploy-ent 8or the sexB sen+ sible that a wo-an -ust be satis8y:d so-e way7 they ply her with a thousand little tender attentions7 presents7 caresses7 con8idences7 and exhaust their inventions in -eans and de+ vices to -a9e up 8or the capital de8iciency< and even towards lessening that7 what arts7 what -odes7 what re8ine-ents o8 pleasure have they not recourse to7 to raise their languid powers7 and press nature into the service o8 their sensu+ alityE @ut here is their -is8ortune7 that when by a course o8 teasing7 worrying7 handling7 wanton postures7 lascivious -otions7 they have at length acco-plish:d a 8lashy enervate en;oy-ent7 they at the sa-e ti-e lighted up a 8la-e in the

ob;ect o8 their passion7 that7 not having the -eans the-+ selves to =uench7 drives her 8or relie8 into the next per+ son:s ar-s7 who can 8inish their wor9< and thus they beco-e bawds to so-e 8avourite7 tried and approv:d o87 8or a -ore vigourous and satis8actory execution< 8or with wo-en7 o8 our turn especially7 however well our hearts -ay be dispos:d7 there is a controlling part7 or =ueen seat in us7 that governs itsel8 by its own -axi-s o8 state7 a-ongst which not one is stronger7 in practice with it7 than7 in the -atter o8 its dues7 never to accept the will 8or the deed$ 2r$ Norbert7 who was -uch in this ungracious case7 though he pro8ess:d to li9e -e extre-ely7 could but seldoconsu--ate the -ain+;oy itsel8 with -e7 without such a length and variety o8 preparations7 as were at once weariso-e and in8la--atory$ &o-eti-es he would strip -e star9 na9ed on a carpet7 by a good 8ire7 when he would conte-plate -e al-ost by the hour7 disposing -e in all the 8igures and attitudes o8 body that it was susceptible o8 being viewed in< 9issing -e in every part7 the -ost secret and critical one so 8ar 8ro- excepted that it received -ost o8 that branch o8 ho-age$ Then his touches were so ex=uisitely wanton7 so luxuriously di88us:d and pene+ trative at ti-es7 that he had -ade -e per8ectly rage with titillating 8ires7 when7 a8ter all7 and with -uch ado7 he had gained a short+lived erection7 he would perhaps -elt it away in a washy sweat7 or a pre-ature abortive e88usion that pro+ vo9ingly -oc9:d -y eager desiresB or7 i8 carried ho-e7 how 8alter:d and unnervous the execution> how insu88icient the sprin9le o8 a 8ew heat+drops to extinguish all the 8la-es he had 9indled> 'ne evening7 1 cannot help re-e-bering that returning ho-e 8ro- hi-7 with a spirit he had raised in a circle his wand had prov:d too wea9 to lay7 as 1 turn:d the corner o8 a street7 1 was overta9en by a young sailor$ 1 was then in that spruce7 neat7 plain dress which 1 ever a88ected7 and perhaps -ight have7 in -y trip7 a certain air o8 restless+ ness un9nown to the co-posure o8 cooler thoughts$ 0owever7 he seiz:d -e as a prize7 and without 8arther cere-ony threw his ar-s round -y nec9 and 9iss:d -e boisterously and sweetly$ 1 loo9ed at hi- with a beginning o8 anger and indignation at his rudeness7 that so8tened away into other senti-ents as 1 viewed hi-B 8or he was tall7 -anly carri+ aged7 handso-e o8 body and 8ace7 so that 1 ended -y stare with as9ing hi-7 in a tone turn:d to tenderness7 what he -eant< at which7 with the sa-e 8ran9ness and vivacity as he had begun with -e7 he proposed treating -e with a glass o8 wine$ Now7 certain it is7 that had 1 been in a cal-er state o8 blood than 1 was7 had 1 not been under the do-inion o8 unappeas:d irritations and desires7 1 should have re8used hi- without hesitation< but 1 do not 9now how it was7 -y pressing calls7 his 8igure7 the occasion7 and i8 you will7 the power8ul co-bination o8 all these7 with a start o8 curiosity to see the end o8 an adventure7 so novel too as being treated li9e a co--on street+plyer7 -ade -e give a silent consent< in short7 it was not -y head that 1 now

obeyed7 1 su88ered -ysel8 to be towed along as it were by this -an+o8+war7 who too9 -e under his ar- as 8a-iliarly as i8 he had 9nown -e all his li8e+ti-e7 and led -e into the next convenient tavern7 where we were shewn into a little roo- on one side o8 the passage$ 0ere7 scarce allowing hi-+ sel8 patience till the waiter brought in the wine call:d 8or7 he 8ell directly on board -eB when7 untuc9ing -y hand9er+ chie87 and giving -e a snatching buss7 he laid -y breasts bare at once7 which he handled with that 9eenness o8 lust that abridges a cere-onial ever -ore tireso-e than pleasing on such pressing occasions< and now7 hurrying towards the -ain point7 we 8ound no conveniency to our purpose7 two or three disabled chairs and a ric9ety table co-posing the whole 8urniture o8 the roo-$ Without -ore ado7 he plants -e with -y bac9 standing against the wall7 and -y petticoats up< and co-ing out with a splitter indeed7 -ade it shine7 as he brandished it in -y eyes< and going to wor9 with an i-petu+ osity and eagerness7 bred very li9ely by a long 8ast at sea7 went ot give -e a taste o8 it$ 1 straddled7 1 hu-oured -y posture7 and did -y best in short to buc9le to it< 1 too9 part o8 it in too7 but still things did not go to his thor+ ough li9ingB changing then in a trice his syste- o8 battery7 he leads -e to the table and with a -aster+hand lays -y head down on the edge o8 it7 and7 with the other canting up -y petticoats and shi8t7 bares -y na9ed posteriours to his blind and 8urious guide< it 8orces its way between the-7 and 1 8eeling pretty sensibly that it was not going by the right door7 and 9noc9ing desperately at the wrong one7 1 told hio8 itB +CPooh>C says he7 C-y dear7 any port in a stor-$C .ltering7 however7 directly his course7 and lowering his point7 he 8ixed it right7 and driving it up with a delicious sti88ness7 -ade all 8oa- again7 and gave -e the tout with such 8ire and spirit7 that in the 8ine disposition 1 was in when 1 sub-itted to hi-7 and stirr:d up so 8iercely as 1 was7 1 got the start o8 hi-7 and went away into the -elting swoon7 and s=ueezing hi-7 whilst in the convulsive grasp o8 it7 drew 8ro- hi- such a plenteous bedewal as7 ;oin:d to -y own e88usion7 per8ectly 8loated those parts7 and drown:d in a deluge all -y raging con8lagration o8 desire$ When this was over7 how to -a9e -y retreat was -y con+ cern< 8or7 though 1 had been so extre-ely pleas:d with the di88erence between this war- broadside7 pour:d so bris9ly into -e7 and the tireso-e pawing and toying to which 1 had owed the unappeas:d 8la-es that had driven -e into this step7 now 1 was grown cooler7 1 began to apprehend the danger o8 contracting an ac=uaintance with this7 however agreeable7 stranger< who7 on his side7 spo9e o8 passing the evening with -e and continuing our inti-acy7 with an air o8 deter-ination that -ade -e a8raid o8 its being not so easy to get away 8rohi- as 1 could wish$ 1n the -ean ti-e 1 care8ully conceal:d -y uneasiness7 and readily pretended to consent to stay with hi-7 telling hi- 1 should only step to -y lodgings to leave a necessary direction7 and then instantly return$ This he very glibly swallowed7 on the notion o8 -y being one o8 those unhappy street+errants who devote the-selves to the pleasure o8 the 8irst ru88ian that will stoop to pic9 the- up7 and o8 course7 that 1 would scarce bil9 -ysel8 o8 -y hire7 by -y not

returning to -a9e the -ost o8 the ;ob$ Thus he parted with -e7 not be8ore7 however7 he had order:d in -y hearing a supper7 which 1 had the barbarity to disappoint hi- o8 -y co-pany to$ @ut when 1 got ho-e and told 2rs$ 6ole -y adventure7 she represented so strongly to -e the nature and dangerous conse+ =uences o8 -y 8olly7 particularly the ris9s to -y health7 in being so open+legg:d and 8ree7 that 1 not only too9 resolu+ tions never to venture so rashly again7 which 1 inviolably preserv:d7 but pass:d a good -any days in continual uneasi+ ness lest 1 should have -et with other reasons7 besides the pleasure o8 that encounter7 to re-e-ber it< but these 8ears wronged -y pretty sailor7 8or which 1 gladly -a9e hi- this reparation$ 1 had now liv:d with 2r$ Norbert near a =uarter o8 a year7 in which space 1 circulated -y ti-e very pleasantly between -y a-use-ents at 2rs$ 6ole:s7 and a proper attendance on that gentle-an7 who paid -e pro8usely 8or the unli-ited co-plaisance with which 1 passively hu-oured every caprice o8 pleasure7 and which had won upon hi- so greatly7 that 8ind+ ing7 as he said7 all that variety in -e alone which he had sought 8or in a nu-ber o8 wo-en7 1 had -ade hi- lose his taste 8or inconstancy7 and new 8aces$ @ut what was yet at least agreeable7 as well as -ore 8lattering7 the love 1 had inspir:d hi- with bred a de8erence to -e that was o8 great service to his healthB 8or having by degrees7 and with -ost pathetic representations7 brought hi- to so-e husbandry o8 it7 and to insure the duration o8 his pleasures by -oderat+ ing their use7 and correcting those excesses in the- he was so addicted to7 and which had shatter:d his constitution and destroyed his powers o8 li8e in the very point 8or which he see-ed chie8ly desirous7 to live7 he was grown -ore delicate7 -ore te-perate7 and in course -ore healthy< his gratitude 8or which was ta9ing a turn very 8avourable 8or -y 8ortune7 when once -ore the caprice o8 it dash:d the cup 8ro- -y lips$ 0is sister7 %ady % $ $ $7 8or who- he had a great a88ec+ tion7 desiring hi- to acco-pany her down to @ath 8or her health7 he could not re8use her such a 8avour< and accord+ ingly7 though he counted on staying away 8ro- -e no -ore than a wee9 at 8arthest7 he too9 his leave o8 -e with an o-inous heaviness o8 heart7 and le8t -e a su- 8ar above the state o8 his 8ortune7 and very inconsistent with the intended short+ ness o8 his ;ourney< but it ended in the longest that can be7 and is never but once ta9enB 8or7 arriv:d at @ath7 he was not there two days be8ore he 8ell into a debauch o8 drin9ing with so-e gentle-en7 that threw hi- into a high 8ever and carry:d hi- o88 in 8our days ti-e7 never once out o8 a deliriu-$ 0ad he been in his senses to -a9e a will7 perhaps he -ight have -ade 8avourable -ention o8 -e in it$ Thus7 however7 1 lost hi-< and as no condition o8 li8e is -ore sub;ect to revolu+ tions than that o8 a wo-an o8 pleasure7 1 soon recover:d -y cheer8ulness7 and now beheld -ysel8 once -ore struc9 o88 the list o8 9ept+-istresses7 and returned into the boso- o8 the co--unity 8ro- which 1 had been in so-e -anner ta9en$

2rs$ 6ole still continuing her 8riendship7 o88ered -e her assistance and advice towards another choice< but 1 was now in ease and a88luence enough to loo9 about -e at lei+ sure< and as to any constitutional calls o8 pleasure7 their pressure7 or sensibility7 was greatly lessen:d by a consci+ ousness o8 the ease with which they were to be satis8y:d at 2rs$ 6ole:s house7 where %ouisa and 3-ily still continu:d in the old way< and by great 8avourite 0arriet used o8ten to co-e and see -e7 and entertain -e7 with her head and heart 8ull o8 the happiness she en;oy:d with her dear baronet7 who- she loved with tenderness7 and constancy7 even though he was her 9eeper7 and what is yet -ore7 had -ade her inde+ pendent7 by a handso-e provision 8or her and hers$ 1 was then in this vacancy 8ro- any regular e-ploy o8 -y person7 in -y way o8 business7 when one day7 2rs$ 6ole7 in the course o8 the constant con8idence we lived in7 ac=uainted -e that there was one 2r$ @arville7 who used her house7 ;ust co-e to town7 who- she was not a little perplex:d about providing a suit+ able co-panion 8or< which was indeed a point o8 di88iculty7 as he was under the tyranny o8 a cruel tasteB that o8 an ardent desire7 not only o8 being un-erci8ully whipp:d hi-+ sel87 but o8 whipping others7 in such sort7 that tho: he paid extravagantly those who had the courage and co-plaisance to sub-it to his hu-our7 there were 8ew7 delicate as he was in the choice o8 his sub;ects7 who would exchange turns with hiso terrible at the expense o8 their s9in$ @ut7 what yet in+ creased the oddity o8 this strange 8ancy was the gentle-an being young< whereas it generally attac9s7 it see-s7 such as are7 through age7 obliged to have recourse to this experi+ -ent7 8or =uic9ening the circulation o8 their sluggish ;uices7 and deter-ining a con8lux o8 the spirits o8 pleasure towards those 8lagging7 shrivelly parts7 that rise to li8e only by virtue o8 those titillating ardours created by the discipline o8 their opposites7 with which they have so sur+ prising a consent$ This 2rs$ 6ole could not well ac=uaint -e with7 in any expectation o8 -y o88ering -y serviceB 8or7 su88iciently easy as 1 was in -y circu-stances7 it -ust have been the te-pta+ tion o8 an i--ense interest indeed that could have induced -e to e-brace such a ;ob< neither had 1 ever express:d7 nor in+ deed 8elt7 the least i-pulse or curiosity to 9now -ore o8 a taste that pro-is:d so -uch -ore pain than pleasure to those that stood in no need o8 such violent goadsB what then should -ove -e to subscribe -ysel8 voluntarily to a party o8 pain7 8ore9nowing it suchE Why7 to tell the plain truth7 it was a sudden caprice7 a gust o8 8ancy 8or trying a new experi-ent7 -ix:d with the vanity o8 proving -y personal courage to 2rs$ 6ole7 that deter-ined -e7 at all ris9s7 to propose -ysel8 to her7 and relieve her 8ro- any 8arther loo9out$ .ccordingly7 1 at once pleas:d and surpris:d her with a 8ran9 and unre+ served tender o8 -y person to her7 and her 8riend:s absolute disposal on this occasion$ 2y good te-poral -other was7 however7 so 9ind as to use all the argu-ents she could i-agine to dissuade -eB but7 as 1 8ound they only turn:d on a -otive o8 tnederness to -e7 1 persisted in -y resolution7 and thereby ac=uitted -y o88er o8

any suspicion o8 its not having been sincerely -ade7 or out o8 co-pli-ent only$ .c=uiescing then than98ully in it7 2rs$ 6ole assur:d -e that bating the pain 1 should be put to7 she had no scruple to engage -e to this party7 which she assur:d -e 1 should be liberally paid 8or7 and which7 the secrecy o8 the transaction preserved sa8e 8ro- the ridicule that other+ wise vulgarly attended it< that 8or her part7 she considered pleasure7 o8 one sort or other7 as the universal port o8 destination7 and every wind that blew thither a good one7 provided it blew nobody any har-< that she rather co-pas+ sionated7 than bla-:d7 those unhappy persons who are under a sub;ection they cannot sha9e o887 to those arbitrary tastes that rule their appetites o8 pleasures with an unaccountable controlB tastes7 too7 as in8initely deversi8y:d7 as superior to7 and independent o87 all reasoning as the di88erent re+ lishes or palates o8 -an9ind in their viands7 so-e delicate sto-achs nauseating plain -eats7 and 8inding no savour but in high+seasoned7 luxurious dishes7 whilst others again pi=ue the-selves upon detesting the-$ 1 stood now in no need o8 this prea-ble o8 encourage+ -ent7 o8 ;usti8icationB -y word was given7 and 1 was deter+ -in:d to 8ul8il -y engage-ents$ .ccordingly the night was set7 and 1 had all the necessary previous instructions how to act and conduct -ysel8$ The dining+roo- was duly prepared and lighted up7 and the young gentle-an posted there in wait+ ing7 8or -y introduction to hi-$ 1 was then7 by 2rs$ 6ole7 brought in7 and presented to hi-7 in a loose dishabille 8itted7 by her direction7 to the exercise 1 was to go through7 all in the 8inest linen and a thorough white uni8or-B gown7 petticoat7 stoc9ings7 and satin slippers7 li9e a victi- led to sacri8ice< whilst -y dar9 auburn hair7 8alling in drop+curls over -y nec97 created a pleasing distinction o8 colour 8ro- the rest o8 -y dress$ .s soon as 2r$ @arville saw -e7 he got up7 with a visi+ ble air o8 pleasure and surprize7 and saluting -e7 as9ed 2rs$ 6ole i8 it was possible that so 8ine and delicate a creature would voluntarily sub-it to such su88erings and rigours as were the sub;ect o8 his assignation$ &he answer:d hi- pro+ perly7 and now7 reading in his eyes that she could not too soon leave us together7 she went out7 a8ter reco--ending to hi- to use -oderation with so tender a novice$ @ut whilst she was e-ploying his attention7 -ine had been ta9en up with exa-ining the 8igure and person o8 this unhappy young gentle-an7 who was thus unaccountably conde-n:d to have his pleasure lashed into hi-7 as boys have their learning$ 0e was exceedingly 8air7 and s-ooth co-plexion:d7 and appeared to -e no -ore than twenty at -ost7 tho: he was three years older than what -y con;ectures gave hi-< but then he ow:d this 8avourable -ista9e to a habit o8 8atness7 which spread through a short7 s=uab stature7 and a round7 plu-p7 8resh+coloured 8ace gave hi- greatly the loo9 o8 a @acchus7 had not an air o8 austerity7 not to say sternness7 very un+

suitable even to his shape o8 8ace7 dash:d that character o8 ;oy7 necessary to co-plete the rese-blance$ 0is dress was extre-ely neat7 but plain7 and 8ar in8erior to the a-ple 8or+ tune he was in 8ull possession o8< this too was a taste in hi-7 and not avarice$ .s soon as 2rs$ 6ole was gone7 he seated -e near hi-7 when now his 8ace changed upon -e into an expression o8 the -ost pleasing sweetness and good hu-our7 the -ore re-ar9able 8or its sudden shi8t 8ro- the other extre-e7 which7 1 8ound a8terwards7 when 1 9new -ore o8 his character7 was owing to a habitual state o8 con8lict with7 and disli9e o8 hi-sel87 8or being enslaved to so peculiar a gust7 by the 8atality o8 a constitutional ascendant7 that render:d hi- incapable o8 receiving any pleasure till he sub-itted to these extraordi+ nary -eans o8 procuring it at the hands o8 pain7 whilst the constancy o8 this repining consciousness sta-p:d at length that cast o8 sourness and severity on his 8eaturesB which was7 in 8act7 very 8oreign to the natural sweetness o8 his te-per$ .8ter a co-petent preparation by apologies7 and en+ courage-ent to go through -y part with spirit and constancy7 he stood up near the 8ire7 whilst 1 went to 8etch the in+ stru-ents o8 discipline out o8 a closet hard byB these were several rods7 -ade each o8 two or three strong twigs o8 birch tied together7 which he too97 handled7 and view:d with as -uch pleasure7 as 1 did with a 9ind o8 shuddering presage$ Next we too9 8ro- the side o8 the roo- a long broad bench7 -ade easy to lie at length on by a so8t cushion in a callico+cover< and every thing being now ready7 he too9 his coat and waistcoat o88< and at his -otion and desire7 1 un+ button:d his breeches7 and rolling up his shirt rather above his waist7 tuc9:d it in securely thereB when directing natur+ ally -y eyes to that hu-ourso-e -aster+-ove-ent7 in whose 8avour all these dispositions were -a9ing7 it see-ed al-ost shrun9 into his body7 scarce shewing its tip above the sprout o8 hairy curls that cloathed those parts7 as you -ay have seen a wren peep its head out o8 the grass$ &tooping then to untie his garters7 he gave the- -e 8or the use o8 tying hi- down to the legs o8 the benchB a cir+ cu-stance no 8arther necessary than7 as 1 suppose7 it -ade part o8 the hu-our o8 the thing7 since he prescribed it to hi-sel87 a-ongst the rest o8 the cere-onial$ 1 led hi- then to the bench7 and according to -y cue7 play:d at 8orcing hi- to lie downB which7 a8ter so-e little shew o8 reluctance7 8or 8or-+sa9e7 he sub-itted to< he was straightway extended 8lat upon his belly7 on the bench7 with a pillow under his 8ace< and as he thus ta-ely lay7 1 tied hi- slightly hand and 8oot7 to the legs o8 it< which done7 his shirt re-aining truss:d up over the s-all o8 his bac97 1 drew his breeches =uite down to his 9nees< and now he lay7 in all the 8airest7 broadest display o8 that part o8 the bac9+view< in which a pair o8 chubby7 s-ooth+chee9:d and passing white posteriours rose cushioning upwards 8ro- two

stout7 8lesh8ul thighs7 and ending their cle8t7 or separa+ tion by an union at the s-all o8 the bac97 presented a bold -ar97 that swell:d7 as it were7 to -eet the scourge$ &eizing now one o8 the rods7 1 stood over hi-7 and according to his direction7 gave hi- in one breath7 ten lashes with -uch good+will7 and the ut-ost nerve and vigour o8 ar- that 1 could put to the-7 so as to -a9e those 8leshy orbs =uiver again under the-< whilst he hi-sel8 see-:d no -ore concern:d7 or to -ind the-7 than a lobster would a 8lea+ bite$ 1n the -ean ti-e7 1 viewed intently the e88ects o8 the-7 which to -e at least appear:d surprisingly cruelB every lash had s9i--ed the sur8ace o8 those white cli88s7 which they deeply reddened7 and lapping round the side o8 the 8ur+ ther-ost 8ro- -e7 cut specially7 into the di-ple o8 it such livid weals7 as the blood either spun out 8ro-7 or stood in large drops on< and7 8ro- so-e o8 the cuts7 1 pic9ed out even the splinters o8 the rod that had stuc9 in the s9in$ Nor was this raw wor9 to be wonder:d at7 considering the greenness o8 the twigs and the severity o8 the in8liction7 whilst the whole sur8ace o8 his s9in was so s-ooth+stretched over the hard and 8ir- pulp o8 8lesh that 8ill:d it7 as to yield no play7 or elusive swagging under the stro9eB which thereby too9 place the -ore plu-7 and cut into the =uic9$ 1 was however already so -ov:d at the piteous sight7 that 1 8ro- -y heart repented the underta9ing7 and would willingly have given over7 thin9ing he had 8ull enough< but7 he encouraging and beseeching -e earnestly to proceed7 1 gave hi- ten -ore lashes< and then resting7 survey:d the increase o8 bloody appearances$ .nd at length7 steel:d to the sight by his stoutness in su88ering7 1 continued the discipline7 by intervals7 till 1 observ:d hi- wreathing and twisting his body7 in a way that 1 could plainly perceive was not the e88ect o8 pain7 but o8 so-e new and power8ul sensationB curi+ ous to dive into the -eaning o8 which7 in one o8 -y pauses o8 inter-ission7 1 approached7 as he still 9ept wor9ing7 and grinding his belly against the cushion under hi-< and7 8irst stro9ing the untouched and unhurt side o8 the 8lesh+-ount next -e7 then so8tly insinuating -y hand under his thigh7 8elt the posture things were in 8orwards7 which was indeed surprizingB 8or that -achine o8 his7 which 1 had7 by its ap+ pearance7 ta9en 8or an i-palpable7 or at best a very di-inu+ tive sub;ect7 was now7 in virtue o8 all that s-art and havoc o8 his s9in behind7 grown not only to a prodigious sti88ness o8 erection7 but to a size that 8righted even -eB a non+ pareil thic9ness indeed> the head o8 it alone 8ill:d the ut+ -ost capacity o8 -y grasp$ .nd when7 as he heav:d and wrig+ gled to and 8ro7 in the agitation o8 his strange pleasure7 it ca-e into view7 it had so-ething o8 the air o8 a round 8illet o8 the whitest veal7 and li9e its owner7 s=uab7 and short in proportion to its breadth< but when he 8elt -y hand there7 he begg:d 1 would go on bris9ly with -y ;er9ing7 or he should never arrive at the last stage o8 pleasure$ (esu-ing then the rod and the exercise o8 it7 1 had 8airly worn out three bundles7 when7 a8ter an increase o8 struggles and -otion7 and a deep sigh or two7 1 saw hi- lie

still and -otionless< and now he desir:d -e to desist7 which 1 instantly did< and proceeding to untie hi-7 1 could not but be a-azed at his passive 8ortitude7 on viewing the s9in o8 his butcher:d7 -angled posteriours7 late so white7 s-ooth and polish:d7 now all one side o8 the- a con8used cut+wor9 o8 weals7 livid 8lesh7 gashes and gore7 inso-uch that when he stood up7 he could scarce wal9< in short7 he was in sweet+ briars$ Then 1 plainly perceived7 on the cushion7 the -ar9s o8 a plenteous e88usion7 and already had his sluggard -e-ber run up to its old nestling+place7 and en8orced itsel8 again7 as i8 asha-ed to shew its head< which nothing7 it see-s7 could raise but stripes in8licted on its opposite neighbours7 who were thus constantly obliged to su88er 8or his caprice$ Part ) 2y gentle-an had now put on his clothes and reco-posed hi-sel87 when giving -e a 9iss7 and placing -e by hi-7 he sat hi-sel8 down as gingerly as possible7 with one side o88 the cushion7 which was too sore 8or hi- to bear resting any part o8 his weight on$ 0ere he than9:d -e 8or the extre-e pleasure 1 had pro+ cured hi-7 and seeing7 perhaps7 so-e -ar9s in -y countenance o8 terror and apprehension o8 retaliation on -y own s9in7 8or what 1 had been the instru-ent o8 his su88ering in his7 he assured -e7 that he was ready to give up to -e any engage-ent 1 -ight dee- -ysel8 under to stand hi-7 as he had done -e7 but i8 that proceeded in -y consent to it7 he would consider the di88erence o8 -y sex7 its greater delicacy and incapacity to undergo pain$ (ehearten:d at which7 and pi=u:d in honour7 as 1 thought7 not to 8linch so near the trial7 especially as 1 well 9new 2rs$ 6ole was an eye+witness7 8ro- her stand o8 espial7 to the whole o8 our transactions7 1 was now less a8raid o8 -y s9in than o8 his not 8urnishing -e with an oppor+ tunity o8 signalizing -y resolution$ 6onsonant to this disposition was -y answer7 but -y courage was still -ore in -y head7 than in -y heart< and as cowards rush into the danger they 8ear7 in order to be the sooner rid o8 the pain o8 that sensation7 1 was entirely pleas:d with his hastening -atters into execution$ 0e had then little to do7 but to unloose the strings o8 -y petticoats7 and li8t the-7 together with -y shi8t7 navel+ high7 where he ;ust tuc9:d the- up loosely girt7 and -ight be slipt up higher at pleasure$ Then viewing -e round with great see-ing delight7 he laid -e at length on -y 8ace upon the bench7 and when 1 expected he would tie -e7 as 1 had done hi-7 and held out -y hands7 not without 8ear and a little tre-bling7 he told -e he would by no -eans terri8y -e un+ necessarily with such a con8ine-ent< 8or that though he -eant to put -y constancy to so-e trial7 the standing it was to be co-pletely voluntary on -y side7 and there8ore 1 -ight be at 8ull liberty to get up whenever 1 8ound the pain too -uch 8or

-e$ /ou cannot i-agine how -uch 1 thought -ysel8 bound7 by being thus allow:d to re-ain loose7 and how -uch spirit this con8idence in -e gave -e7 so that 1 was even 8ro- -y heart careless how -uch -y 8lesh -ight su88er in honour o8 it$ .ll by bac9 parts7 na9ed hal8 way up7 were now 8ully at his -ercyB and 8irst7 he stood at a convenient distance7 de+ lighting hi-sel8 with a gloating survey o8 the attitude 1 lay in7 and o8 all the secret stores 1 thus expos:d to hi- in 8air display$ Then7 springing eagerly towards -e7 he cover:d all those na9ed parts with a 8ond pro8usion o8 9isses< and now7 ta9ing hold o8 the rod7 rather wanton:d with -e7 in gen+ tle in8lictions on those tender tre-bling -asses o8 -y 8lesh behind7 than in any way hurt the-7 till by degrees7 he began to tingle the- with s-arter lashes7 so as to provo9e a red colour into the-7 which 1 9new7 as well by the 8lagrant glow 1 8elt there7 as by his telling -e7 they now e-ulated the native roses o8 -y other chee9s$ When he had thus a-us:d hi-sel8 with ad-iring and toying with the-7 he went on to stri9e harder7 and -ore hard< so that 1 needed all -y patience not to cry out7 or co-plain at least$ .t last7 he twigg:d -e so s-artly as to 8etch blood in -ore than one lashB at sight o8 which he 8lung down the rod7 8lew to -e7 9issed away the starting drops7 and suc9ing the wounds eased a good deal o8 -y pain$ @ut now raising -e on -y 9nees7 and -a9ing -e 9neel with the- straddling wide7 that tender part o8 -e7 naturally the province o8 pleasure7 not o8 pain7 ca-e in 8or its share o8 su88eringB 8or now7 eyeing it wist8ully7 he directed the rod so that the sharp ends o8 the twigs lighted there7 so sensibly7 that 1 could not help wincing7 and writhing -y li-bs with s-art< so that -y contortions o8 body -ust neces+ sarily throw it into in8inite variety o8 postures and points o8 view7 8it to 8east the luxury o8 the eye$ @ut still 1 bore every thing without crying outB when presently giving -e another pause7 he rush:d7 as it were7 on that part whose lips7 and round+about7 had 8elt this cruelty7 and by way o8 repara+ tion7 glews his own to the-< then he opened7 shut7 s=ueez:d the-7 pluc9:d so8tly the overgrowing -oss7 and all this in a style o8 wild passionate rapture and enthusias-7 that ex+ press:d excess o8 pleasure< till beta9ing hi-sel8 to the rod again7 encourag:d by -y passiveness7 and in8uriated with this strange taste o8 delight7 he -ade -y poor posteriours pay 8or the ungovernableness o8 it< 8or now shewing the- no =uarter the traitor cut -e so7 that 1 wanted but little o8 8ainting away7 when he gave over$ .nd yet 1 did not utter one groan7 or angry expostulation< but in heart 1 resolv:d nothing so seriously7 as never to expose -ysel8 again to the li9e ser+ verities$ /ou -ay guess then in what a curious pic9le those so8t 8lesh+cushions o8 -ine were7 all sore7 raw7 and in 8ine7 ter+ ribly clawed o88< but so 8ar 8ro- 8eeling any pleasure in it7 that the recent s-art -ade -e pout a little7 and not with the greatest air o8 satis8action receive the co-pli-ents7 and a8ter+caresses o8 the author o8 -y pain$ .s soon as -y cloaths were huddled on in a little de+ cency7 a supper was brought in by the discreet 2rs$ 6ole her+

sel87 which -ight have pi=ued the sensuality o8 a cardinal7 acco-panied with a choice o8 the richest winesB all which she set be8ore us7 and went out again7 without having7 by a word or even by a s-ile7 given us the least interruption or con8u+ sion7 in those -o-ents o8 secrecy7 that we were not yet ripe to the ad-ission o8 a third to$ 1 sat down then7 still scarce in charity with -y butch+ er7 8or such 1 could not help considering hi-7 and was -ore+ over not a little pi=ued at the gay7 satis8ied air o8 his countenance7 which 1 thought -ysel8 insulted by$ @ut when the now necessary re8resh-ent to -e o8 a glass o8 wine7 a little eating (all the ti-e observing a pro8ound silence) had so-ewhat cheer:d and restor:d -e to spirits7 and as the s-art began to go o887 -y good hu-our return:d accordinglyB which alteration not escaping hi-7 he said and did everything that could con8ir- -e in7 and indeed exalt it$ @ut scarce was supper well over7 be8ore a change so in+ credible was wrought in -e7 such violent7 yet pleasingly ir9+ so-e sensations too9 possession o8 -e that 1 scarce 9new how to contain -ysel8< the s-art o8 the lashes was now converted into such a pric9ly heat7 such 8iery tinglings7 as -ade -e sigh7 s=ueeze -y thighs together7 shi8t and wriggle about -y seat7 with a 8urious restlessness< whilst these itching ar+ dours7 thus excited in those parts on which the stor- o8 dis+ cipline had principally 8allen7 detach:d legions o8 burning7 subtile7 sti-ulating spirits7 to their opposite spot and cen+ tre o8 asse-blage7 where their titillation rag:d so 8uriously7 that 1 was even stinging -ad with the-$ No wonder then7 that in such a ta9ing7 and devour:d by 8la-es that lic9ed up all -odesty and reserve7 -y eyes7 now charg:d bri-8ul o8 the -ost intense desire7 8ired on -y co-panion very intelligible sig+ nals o8 distressB -y co-panion7 1 say7 who grew in the- every instant -ore a-iable7 and -ore necessary to -y urgent wishes and hopes o8 i--ediate ease$ 2r$ @arville7 no stranger by experience to these situa+ tions7 soon 9new the pass 1 was brought to7 soon perceiv:d -y extre-e disorder< in 8avour o8 which7 re-oving the table out o8 the way7 he began a prelude that 8latter:d -e with instant relie87 to which 1 was not7 however7 so near as 1 i-agin:dB 8or as he was unbuttoned to -e7 and tried to provo9e and rouse to action his unactive torpid -achine7 he blushingly own:d that no good was to be expected 8ro- it unless 1 too9 it in hand to re+excite its languid loitering powers7 by ;ust re8reshing the s-art o8 the yet recent blood+raw cuts7 seeing it could7 no -ore than a boy:s top7 9eep up without lashing$ &ensible then that 1 should wor9 as -uch 8or -y own pro8it as his7 1 hurried -y co-pliance with his desire7 and abridging the cere-onial7 whilst he lean:d his head against the bac9 o8 a chair7 1 had scarce gently -ade hi- 8eel the lash7 be8ore 1 saw the ob;ect o8 -y wishes give signs o8 li8e7 and presently7 as it were with a -agic touch7 it started up into a noble size and distinction indeed> 0astening then to give -e the bene8it o8 it7 he threw -e down on the bench< but such was the re+ 8resh:d soreness o8 those parts behind7 on -y leaning so hard on the-7 as beca-e -e to co-pass the ad-ission o8 that stupen+

dous head o8 his -achine7 that 1 could not possibly bear it$ 1 got up then7 and tried7 by leaning 8orwards and turning the crupper on -y assailant7 to let hi- at the bac9 avenueB but here it was li9ewise i-possible to stand his bearing so 8iercely against -e7 in his agitations and endeavours to enter that way7 whilst his belly battered directly against the recent sore$ What should we do nowE both intolerably heated< both in a 8ury< but pleasure is ever inventive 8or its own endsB he strips -e in a trice7 star9 na9ed7 and placing a broad settee+cushion on the carpet be8ore the 8ire7 oversets -e gently7 topsy+turvy7 on it< and handling -e only at the waist7 whilst you -ay be sure 1 8avour:d all -y dispositions7 brought -y legs round his nec9< so that -y head was 9ept 8rothe 8loor only by -y hands and the velvet cushion7 which was now bespread with -y 8lowing hairB thus 1 stood on -y head and hands7 supported by hi- in such -anner7 that whilst -y thighs clung round hi-7 so as to expose to his sight all -y bac9 8igure7 including the theatre o8 his bloody pleasure7 the centre o8 -y 8ore part 8airly bearded the ob;ect o8 its rage7 that now stood in 8ine condition to give -e satis8action 8or the in;uries o8 its neighbours$ @ut as this posture was certainly not the easiest7 and our i-aginations7 wound up to the height7 could su88er no delay7 he 8irst7 with the ut-ost eagerness and e88ort7 ;ust lip+lodg:d that broad acorn+8as+ hion:d head o8 his instru-ent< and still 8renzied by the 8ury with which he had -ade that i-pression7 he soon stu88ed in the rest< when now7 with a pursuit o8 thrusts7 8iercely urg:d7 he absolutely overpower:d and absorb:d all sense o8 pain and uneasiness7 whether 8ro- -y wounds behind7 -y -ost untoward posture7 or the oversize o8 his stretcher7 in an in8initely predo-inant delight< when now all -y whole spirits o8 li8e and sensation7 rushing i-petuously to the coc9+pit7 where the prize o8 pleasure was hotly in dispute and clustering to a point there7 1 soon receiv:d the dear relie8 o8 nature 8rothese over+violent strains and provocations o8 it< har-oniz+ ing with which7 -y gallant spouted into -e such a potent over+ 8low o8 the balsa-ic in;ection7 as so8ten:d and unedg:d all those irritating stings o8 a new species o8 titillation7 which 1 had been so intolerably -adden:d with7 and restor:d the 8er+ -ent o8 -y senses to so-e degree o8 co-posure$ 1 had now achiev:d this rare adventure ulti-ately -uch -ore to -y satis8action than 1 had bespo9en the nature o8 it to turn out< nor was it -uch lessen:d7 you -ay thin97 by -y spar9:s lavish praises o8 -y constancy and co-plaisance7 which he gave weight to by a present that greatly surpassed -y ut+ -ost expectation7 besides his grati8ication to 2rs$ 6ole$ 1 was not7 however7 at any ti-e7 re+enticed to renew with hi-7 or resort again to the violent expedient o8 lashing nature into -ore haste than good speedB which7 by the way7 1 conceive acts so-ewhat in the -anner o8 a dose o8 &panish 8lies< with -ore pain perhaps7 but less danger< and -ight be necessary to hi-7 but was nothing less so than to -e7 whose appetite wanted the bridle -ore than the spur$ 2rs$ 6ole7 to who- this adventurous exploit had -ore and -ore endear:d -e7 loo9ed on -e now as a girl a8ter her own

heart7 a8raid on nothing7 and7 on a good account7 hardy enough to 8ight all the weapons o8 pleasure through$ .ttentive then7 in conse=uence o8 these 8avourable conceptions7 to pro-ote either -y pro8it or pleasure7 she had special regard 8or the 8irst7 in a new gallant o8 a very singular turn7 that she pro+ cur:d 8or and introduced to -e$ This was a grave7 staid7 sole-n7 elderly gentle-an whose peculiar hu-our was a delight in co-bing 8ine tresses o8 hair< and as 1 was per8ectly headed to his taste7 he us:d to co-e constantly at -y toilette hours7 when 1 let down -y hair as loose as nature7 and abandon:d it to hi- to do what he pleased with it< and accordingly he would 9eep -e an hour or -ore in play with it7 drawing the co-b through it7 winding the curls round his 8ingers7 even 9issing it as he s-ooth:d it< and all this led to no other use o8 -y person7 or any other liberties whatever7 any -ore than i8 a distinction o8 sexes had not existed$ .nother peculiarity o8 taste he had7 which was to present -e with a dozen pairs o8 the whitest 9id gloves at a ti-eB these he would divert hi-sel8 with drawing on -e7 and then biting o88 the 8ingers: ends< all which 8ooleries o8 a sic9ly appetite7 the old gentle-an paid -ore liberally 8or than -ost others did 8or -ore essential 8avours$ This lasted till a violent cough7 seizing and laying hi- up7 deliver:d -e 8rothis -ost innocent and insipid tri8ler7 8or 1 never heard -ore o8 hi- a8ter his 8irst retreat$ /ou -ay be sure a by+;ob o8 this sort inter8er:d with no other pursuit7 or plan o8 li8e< which 1 led7 in truth7 with a -odesty and reserve that was less the wor9 o8 virtue than o8 exhausted novelty7 a glut o8 pleasure7 and easy circu-stances7 that -ade -e indi88erent to any engage-ents in which pleasure and pro8it were not e-inently united< and such 1 could7 with the less i-patience7 wait 8or at the hands o8 ti-e and 8or+ tune7 as 1 was satis8y:d 1 could never -end -y pennyworths7 having evidently been serv:d at the top o8 -ar9et7 and even been pa-per:d with daintiesB besides that7 in the sacri8ice o8 a 8ew -o-entary i-pulses7 1 8ound a secret satis8action in respecting -ysel87 as well as preserving the li8e and 8resh+ ness o8 -y co-plexion$ %ouisa and 3-ily did not carry indeed their reserve so high as 1 did< but still they were 8ar 8rocheap or abandon:d tho: two o8 their adventures see-:d to con+ tradict this general character7 which7 8or their singularity7 1 shall give you in course7 beginning 8irst with 3-ily:sB %ouisa and she went one night to a ball7 the 8irst in the habit o8 a shepherdess7 3-ily in that o8 a shepherdB 1 saw the- in their dresses be8ore they went7 and nothing in nature could represent a prettier boy than this last did7 being so 8air and well li-bed$ They had 9ept together 8or so-e ti-e7 when %ouisa7 -eeting an old ac=uaintance o8 hers7 very cordially gives her co-panion the drop7 and leaves her under the protection o8 her boy:s habit7 which was not -uch7 and o8 her discretion7 which was7 it see-s7 still less$ 3-ily7 8inding hersel8 deserted7 sauntered thoughtless about a+while7 and7 as -uch 8or coolness and air as anything else7

at length pull:d o88 her -as9 and went to the sideboard< where7 eyed and -ar9:d out by a gentle-an in a very handso-e do-ino7 she was accosted by7 and 8ell into chat with hi-$ The do-ino7 a8ter a little discourse7 in which 3-ily doubt+ less distinguish:d her good nature and easiness -ore than her wit7 began to -a9e violent love to her7 and drawing her in+ sensibly to so-e benches at the lower end o8 the -as=uerade roo-7 8or her to sit by hi-7 where he s=ueez:d her hands7 pinch:d her chee9s7 prais:d and played with her 8ine hair7 ad-ired her co-plexion7 and all in a style o8 courtship dash:d with a certain oddity7 that not co-prehending the -ystery o87 poor 3-ily attributed to his 8alling in with the hu-our o8 her disguise< and being naturally not the cruellest o8 her pro8es+ sion7 began to incline to a parley on those essentials$ @ut here was the stress o8 the ;o9eB he too9 her really 8or what she appear:d to be7 a s-oc9+8ac:d boy< and she7 8orgetting her dress7 and o8 course ranging =uite wide o8 his ideas7 too9 all those addresses to be paid to hersel8 as a wo-an7 which she precisely owed to his not thin9ing her one$ 0owever7 this double error was push:d to such a height on both sides7 that 3-ily7 who saw nothing in hi- but a gentle-an o8 distinction by those points o8 dress to which his disguise did not extend7 war-ed too by the wine he had ply:d her with7 and the caresses he had lavished upon her7 su88ered hersel8 to be persuaded to go to a bagnio with hi-< and thus7 losing sight o8 2rs$ 6ole:s cautions7 with a blind con8idence7 put hersel8 into his hands7 to be carried wherever he pleased$ For his part7 e=ually blinded by his wishes7 whilst her egregious si-plicity 8avour+ ed his deception -ore than the -ost ex=uisite art could have done7 he supposed7 no doubt7 that he had lighted on so-e so8t si-pleton7 8it 8or his purpose7 or so-e 9ept -inion bro9en to his hand7 who understood hi- per8ectly well and enter:d into his designs$ @ut7 be that as it would7 he led her to a coach7 went into it with her7 and brought her to a very handso-e apart-ent7 with a bed in it< but whether it was a bagnio or not7 she could not tell7 having spo9en to nobody but hi-sel8$ @ut when they were alone together7 and her ena-orato began to proceed to those extre-ities which instantly discover the sex7 she re-ar9:d that no description could paint up to the li8e the -ixture o8 pi=ue7 con8usion and disappoint-ent that ap+ peared in his countenance7 ;oined to the -ourn8ul excla-ationB C@y heavens7 a wo-an>C This at once opened her eyes7 which had hitherto been shut in downright stupidity$ 0owever7 as i8 he had -eant to retrieve that escape7 he still continu:d to toy with and 8ondle her7 but with so staring an alteration 8ro- extre-e war-th into a chill and 8orced civility7 that even 3-ily hersel8 could not but ta9e notice o8 it7 and now began to wish she had paid -ore regard to 2rs$ 6ole:s pre-on+ itions against ever engaging with a stranger$ .nd now and excess o8 ti-idity succeeded to an excess o8 con8idence7 and she thought hersel8 so -uch at his -ercy and discretion7 that she stood passive throughout the whole progress o8 his pre+ ludeB 8or now7 whether the i-pressions o8 so great a beauty had even -ade hi- 8orgive her her sex7 or whether her appear+ ance o8 8igure in that dress still hu-our:d his 8irst illu+ sion7 he recover:d by degrees a good part o8 his 8irst war-th7 and 9eeping 3-ily with her breeches still unbuttoned7 stript the- down to her 9nees7 and gently i-pelling her to lean down7

with her 8ace against the bed+side7 placed her so7 that the double way7 between the double rising behind7 presented the choice 8air to hi-7 and he was so 8airly set on a -is+direc+ tion7 as to give the girl no s-all alar-s 8or 8ear o8 losing a -aidenhead she had not drea-t o8$ 0owever7 her co-plaints7 and a resistance7 gentle7 but 8ir-7 chec9:d and brought hito hi-sel8 again< so that turning his steed:s head7 he drove hi- at length in the right road7 in which his i-agination having probably -ade the -ost o8 those rese-blances that 8latter:d his taste7 he got7 with -uch ado7 to his ;ourney:s endB a8ter which7 he led her out hi-sel87 and wal9ing with her two or three streets: length7 got her a chair7 when -a9+ ing her a present not any thing in8erior to what she could have expected7 he le8t her7 well reco--ended to the chair-an7 who7 on her directions7 brought her ho-e$ This she related to 2rs$ 6ole and -e the sa-e -orning7 not without the visible re-ains o8 the 8ear and con8usion she had been in still sta-p:d on her countenance$ 2rs$ 6ole:s re-ar9 was that her indescretion proceeding 8ro- a constitu+ tional 8acility7 there were little hopes o8 any thing curing her o8 it7 but repeated severe experience$ 2ine was that 1 could not conceive how it was possible 8or -an9ind to run into a taste7 not only universally odious7 but absurd7 and i-possible to grati8y< since7 according to the notions and experience 1 had o8 things7 it was not in nature to 8orce such i--ense disproportions$ 2rs$ 6ole only s-il:d at -y ignorance7 and said nothing towards -y undeception7 which was not a88ected but by ocular de-onstration7 so-e -onths a8ter7 which a -ost singular accident 8urnish:d -e7 and which 1 will here set down7 that 1 -ay not return again to so disagreeable a sub;ect$ 1 had7 on a visit intended to 0arriet7 who had ta9en lodgings at 0a-pton+court7 hired a chariot to go out thither7 2rs$ 6ole having pro-is:d to acco-pany -e< but so-e indis+ pensable business intervening to detain her7 1 was obliged to set out alone< and scarce had 1 got a third o8 -y way7 be8ore the axle+tree bro9e down7 and 1 was well o88 to get out7 sa8e and unhurt7 into a public9+house o8 a tolerable handso-e ap+ pearance7 on the road$ 0ere the people told -e that the stage would co-e by in a couple o8 hours at 8arthest< upon which7 deter-ining to wait 8or it7 sooner than lose the ;aunt 1 had got so 8ar 8orward on7 1 was carried into a very clean decent roo-7 up one pair o8 stairs7 which 1 too9 possession o8 8or the ti-e 1 had to stay7 in right o8 calling 8or su88icient to do the house ;ustice$ 0ere7 whilst 1 was a-using -ysel8 with loo9ing out o8 the window7 a single horse+chaise stopt at the door7 out o8 which lightly leap:d two gentle-en7 8or so they see-:d7 who ca-e in only as it were to bait and re8resh a little7 8or they gave their horse to be held in readiness against they ca-e out$ .nd presently 1 heard the door o8 the next roo-7 where they were let in7 and call:d about the- bris9ly< and as soon as they were serv:d7 1 could ;ust hear that they shut and 8ast+ ened the door on the inside$

. spirit o8 curiosity7 8ar 8ro- sudden7 since 1 do not 9now when 1 was without it7 pro-pted -e7 without any parti+ cular suspicion7 or other dri8t or view7 to see what they were7 and exa-ine their persons and behaviour$ The partition o8 our roo-s was one o8 those -oveable ones that7 when ta9en down7 serv:d occasionally to lay the- into one7 8or the con+ veniency o8 a large co-pany< and now7 -y nicest search could not shew -e the shadow o8 a peep+hole7 a circu-stance which probably had not escap:d the review o8 the parties on the other side7 who- -uch it stood upon not to be deceived in it< but at length 1 observed a paper patch o8 the sa-e colour as the wainscot7 which 1 too9 to conceal so-e 8lawB but then it was so high7 that 1 was obliged to stand upon a chair to reach it7 which 1 did as so8tly as possibly7 and7 with a point o8 a bod9in7 soon pierc:d it$ .nd now7 applying -y eye close7 1 co--anded the roo- per8ectly7 and could see -y two young spar9s ro-ping and pulling one another about7 entirely7 to -y i-agination7 in 8rolic and innocent play$ The eldest -ight be7 on -y nearest guess7 towards nine+ teen7 a tall co-ely young -an7 in a white 8ustian 8roc97 with a green velvet cape7 and a cut bob+wig$ The youngest could not be above seventeen7 8air7 ruddy7 co-pleatly well -ade7 and to say the truth7 a sweet pretty striplingB he was++1 8ancy7 too7 a country+lad7 by his dress7 which was a green plush 8roc9 and breeches o8 the sa-e7 white waistcoat and stoc9ings7 a ;oc9ey cap7 with his yellowish hair7 long and loose7 in natural curls$ @ut a8ter a loo9 o8 circu-spection7 which 1 saw the eldest cast every way round the roo-7 probably in too -uch hurry and heat not to overloo9 the very s-all opening 1 was posted at7 especially at the height it was7 whilst -y eye close to it 9ept the light 8ro- shining through and betraying it7 he said so-ething to his co-panion and presently chang:d the 8ace o8 things$ For now the elder began to e-brace7 to press and 9iss the younger7 to put his hands into his boso-7 and give hi- such -ani8est signs o8 an a-orous intention7 as -ade -e conclude the other to be a girl in disguiseB a -ista9e that nature 9ept -e in countenance 8or7 8or she had certainly -ade one7 when she gave hi- the -ale sta-p$ 1n the rashness then o8 their age7 and bent as they were to acco-plish their pro;ect o8 preposterous pleasure7 at the ris9 o8 the very worst o8 conse=uences7 where a discovery was nothing less than i-probable7 they now proceeded to such lengths as soon satis8ied -e what they were$ The cri-inal scene they acted7 1 had the patience to see to an end7 purely that 1 -ight gather -ore 8acts and certainly against the- in -y design to do their deserts instance ;us+ tice< and accordingly7 when they had read;usted the-selves7 and were preparing to go out7 burning as 1 was with rage and indignation7 1 ;u-ped down 8ro- the chair7 in order to raise the house upon the-7 but with such an unluc9y i-petuosity7

that so-e nail or ruggedness in the 8loor caught -y 8oot7 and 8lung -e on -y 8ace with such violence that 1 8ell senseless on the ground7 and -ust have lain there so-e ti-e e:er any one ca-e to -y relie8B so that they7 alar-ed7 1 suppose7 by the noise o8 -y 8all7 had -ore than the necessary ti-e to -a9e a sa8e retreat$ This they e88ected7 as 1 learnt7 with a precipitation nobody could account 8or7 till7 when co-e to -ysel87 and co-pos:d enough to spea97 1 ac=uainted those o8 the house with the whole transaction 1 had been evidence to$ When 1 ca-e ho-e again7 and told 2rs$ 6ole this adven+ ture7 she very sensibly observ:d to -e that there was no doubt o8 due vengeance one ti-e o8 other overta9ing these -iscre+ ants7 however they -ight escape 8or the present< and that7 had 1 been the te-poral instru-ent o8 it7 1 should have been at least put to a great deal -ore trouble and con8usion that 1 i-agined< that7 as to the thing itsel87 the less said o8 it was the better< but that though she -ight be suspected o8 partiality7 8ro- its being the co--on cause o8 wo-an+9ind7 out o8 whose -ouths this practice tended to ta9e so-ething -ore than bread7 yet she protested against any -ixture o8 passion7 with a declaration extorted 8ro- her by pure regard to truth< which was that whatever e88ect this in8a-ous passion had in other ages and other countries7 it see-:d a peculiar blessing on our air and cli-ate7 that there was a plague+spot visibly i-printed on all that are tainted with it7 in this nation at least< 8or that a-ong nu-bers o8 that sta-p who- she had 9nown7 or at least were universally under the scandalous sus+ picion o8 it7 she would not na-e an exception hardly o8 one o8 the-7 whose character was not7 in all other respects7 the -ost worthless and despicable that could be7 stript o8 all the -anly virtues o8 their own sex7 and 8ill:d up with only the worst vices and 8ollies o8 oursB that7 in 8ine7 they were scarce less execrable than ridiculous in their -onstrous in+ consistence7 o8 loathing and conde-ning wo-en7 and all at the sa-e ti-e apeing all their -anners7 air7 lips7 s9uttle7 and7 in general7 all their little -odes o8 a88ectation7 which be+ co-e the- at least better than they do these unsex:d -ale+ -isses$ @ut here7 washing -y hands o8 the-7 1 re+plunge into the strea- o8 -y history7 into which 1 -ay very properly ingra8t a terrible sally o8 %ouisa:s7 since 1 had so-e share in it -ysel87 and have besides engag:d -ysel8 to relate it7 in point o8 countenance to poor 3-ily$ 1t will add7 too7 one -ore exa-ple to thousands7 in con8ir-ation o8 the -axi- that when wo-en get once out o8 co-pass7 there are no lengths o8 licen+ tiousness that they are not capable o8 running$ 'ne -orning then7 that both 2rs$ 6ole and 3-ily were gone out 8or the day7 and only %ouisa and 1 (not to -ention the house+-aid) were le8t in charge o8 the house7 whilst we were loitering away the ti-e in loo9ing through the shop windows7 the son o8 a poor wo-an7 who earned very hard bread indeed by -ending stoc9ings7 in a stall in the neighbourhood7 o88er:d us so-e nosegays7 ring:d round a s-all bas9et< by selling o8 which the poor boy e9ed out his -other:s -aintenance o8 thebothB nor was he 8it 8or any other way o8 livelihood7 since he

was not only a per8ect changeling7 or idiot7 but sta--er:d so that there was no understanding even those sounds his hal8+ dozen7 at -ost7 ani-al ideas pro-pted hi- to utter$ The boys and servants in the neighbourhood had given hithe nic9+na-e o8 ?ood+natured Dic97 8ro- the so8t si-pleton:s doing everything he was bid at the 8irst word7 and 8ro- his naturally having no turn to -ischie8< then7 by the way7 he was per8ectly well -ade7 stout7 clean+li-b:d7 tall o8 his age7 as strong as a horse and7 withal7 pretty 8eatur:d< so that he was not7 absolutely7 such a 8igure to be snu88led at neither7 i8 your nicety could7 in 8avour o8 such essentials7 have dis+ pens:d with a 8ace unwashed7 hair tangled 8or want o8 co-b+ ing7 and so ragged a plight7 that he -ight have disputed points o8 shew with e:er a heathen philosopher o8 the- all$ This boy we had o8ten seen7 and bought his 8lowers7 out o8 pure co-passion7 and nothing -ore< but ;ust at this ti-e as he stood presenting us his bas9et7 a sudden whi-7 a start o8 wayward 8ancy7 seiz:d %ouisa< and7 without consulting -e7 she calls hi- in7 and beginning to exa-ine his nosegays7 culls out two7 one 8or hersel87 another 8or -e7 and pulling out hal8 a crown7 very currently gives it hi- to change7 as i8 she had really expected he could have changed itB but the boy7 scratching his head7 -ade his signs explaining his in+ ability in place o8 words7 which he could not7 with all his struggling7 articulate$ %ouisa7 at this7 saysB CWell7 -y lad7 co-e up+stairs with -e7 and 1 will give you your due7C win9ing at the sa-e ti-e to -e7 and bec9oning -e to acco-pany her7 which 1 did7 securing 8irst the street+door7 that by this -eans7 together with the shop7 beca-e wholly the care o8 the 8aith8ul house+ -aid$ .s we went up7 %ouisa whispered to -e that she had con+ ceiv:d a strange longing to be satis8y:d7 whether the general rule held good with regard to this changeling7 and how 8ar nature had -ade hi- a-ends7 in her best bodily gi8ts7 8or her denial o8 the subli-er intellectual ones< begging7 at the sa-e ti-e7 -y assistance in procuring her this satis8action$ . want o8 co-plaisance was never -y vice7 and 1 was so 8ar 8ro- opposing this extravagant 8rolic7 that now7 bit with the sa-e -aggot7 and -y curiosity conspiring with hers7 1 enter:d plu- into it7 on -y own account$ 6onse=uently7 as soon as we ca-e into %ouisa:s bed+ cha-ber7 whilst she was a-using hi- with pic9ing out his nosegays7 1 undertoo9 the lead7 and began the attac9$ .s it was not then very -aterial to 9eep -uch -easures with a -ere natural7 1 -ade presently very 8ree with hi-7 though at -y 8irst -otion o8 -eddling7 his surprize and con8usion -ade hi- receive -y advances but au9wardlyB nay7 inso-uch that he bash8ully shy:d7 and shy:d bac9 a little< till encouraging hi- with -y eyes7 pluc9ing hi- play8ully by the hair7 slee9ing his chee9s7 and 8orwarding -y point by a nu-ber o8 little wantonness7 1 soon turn:d hi- 8a-iliar7 and gave nature her sweetest alar-B so that arous:d7 and beginning to 8eel hi-+

sel87 we could7 a-idst all the innocent laugh and grin 1 had provo9ed hi- into7 perceive the 8ire lighting in his eyes7 and7 di88using over his chee9s7 blend its glow with that o8 his blushes$ The e-otion in short o8 ani-al pleasure glar:d distinctly in the si-pleton:s countenance< yet7 struc9 with the novelty o8 the scene7 he did not 9now which way to loo9 or -ove< but ta-e7 passive7 si-pering7 with his -outh hal8 open in stupid rapture7 stood and tractably su88er:d -e to do what 1 pleased with hi-$ 0is bas9et was dropt out o8 his hands7 which %ouisa too9 care o8$ 1 had now7 through -ore than one rent7 discovered and 8elt his thighs7 the s9in o8 which see-ed the s-oother and 8airer 8or the coarseness7 and even dirt o8 his dress7 as the teeth o8 Negroes see- the whiter 8or the surrounding blac9< and poor indeed o8 habit7 poor o8 understanding7 he was7 however7 abundantly rich in personal treasures7 such as 8lesh7 8ir-7 plu-p7 and replete with the ;uices o8 youth7 and robust well+9nit li-bs$ 2y 8ingers too had now got with+ in reach o8 the true7 the genuine sensitive plant7 which7 instead o8 shrin9ing 8ro- the touch7 ;oys to -eet it7 and swells and vegetates under itB -ine pleasingly in8or-ed -e that -atters were so ripe 8or the discovery we -editated7 that they were too -ighty 8or the con8ine-ent they were ready to brea9$ . waistband that 1 uns9ewer:d7 and a rag o8 a shirt that 1 re-oved7 and which could not have cover:d a =uarter o8 it7 revealed the whole o8 the idiot:s standard o8 distinction7 erect7 in 8ull pride and displayB but such a one> it was posi+ tively o8 so tre-endous a size7 that prepared as we were to see so-ething extraordinary7 it still7 out o8 -easure7 sur+ pass:d our expectation7 and astonish:d even -e7 who had not been used to trade in tri8les$ 1n 8ine7 it -ight have answer+ ed very well the -a9ing a show o8< its enor-ous head see-ed7 in hue and size7 not unli9e a co--on sheep:s heart< then you -ight have troll:d dice securely along the broad bac9 o8 the body o8 it< the length o8 it too was prodigious< then the rich appendage o8 the treasure+bag beneath7 large in proportion7 gather:d adn crisp:d up round in shallow 8urrows7 helped to 8ill the eye7 and co-plete the proo8 o8 his being a natural7 not =uite in vain< since it was 8ull -ani8est that he inherit+ ed7 and largely too7 the prerogative o8 -a;esty which distin+ guishes that otherwise -ost un8ortunate condition7 and gives rise to the vulgar saying C. 8ool:s bauble is a lady:s play+ 8ellow$C Not wholly without reasonB 8or7 generally spea9ing7 it is in love as it is in war7 where longest weapon carries it$ Nature7 in short7 had done so -uch 8or hi- in those parts7 that she perhaps held hersel8 ac=uitted in doing so little 8or his head$ For -y part7 who had sincerely no intention to push the ;o9e 8urther than si-ply satis8ying -y curiosity with the sight o8 it alone7 1 was content7 in spite o8 the te-ptation that star:d -e in the 8ace7 with having rais:d a 2ay+pole 8or another to hang a garland onB 8or7 by this ti-e7 easily reading %ouisa:s desires in her wish8ul eyes7 1 acted the co--odious part and -ade her7 who sought no better sport7 signi8icant ter-s o8 encourage-ent to go through+stitch with her adventure< inti-ating too that 1 would stay and see 8air

playB in which7 indeed7 1 had in view to hu-our a new+born curiosity7 to observe what appearances active nature would put on in a natural7 in the course o8 this her darling operation$ %ouisa7 whose appetite was up7 and who7 li9e the indus+ trious bee7 was7 it see-s7 not above gathering the sweets o8 so rare a 8lower7 tho: she 8ound it planted on a dunghill7 was but too readily disposed to ta9e the bene8it o8 -y cession$ 4rg:d then strongly by her own desires7 and e-+ bolden:d by -e7 she presently deter-ined to ris9 a trial o8 parts with the idiot7 who was by this ti-e nobly in8la-:d 8or her purpose7 by all the irritations we had used to put the principles o8 pleasure e88ectually into -otion7 and to wind up the springs o8 its organ to their supre-e pitch< and it stood accordingly sti88 and straining7 ready to burst with the blood and spirits that swelled it $ $ $ to a bul9> No> 1 shall never 8orget it$ %ouisa then7 ta9ing and holding the 8ine handle that so invitingly o88er:d itsel87 led the ductile youth by that -aster+tool o8 his7 as she stept bac9ward towards the bed< which he ;oy8ully gave way to7 under the incitations o8 in+ stinct and palpably deliver:d up to the goad o8 desire$ &topped then by the bed7 she too9 the 8all she lov:d7 and lean:d to the -ost7 gently bac9ward upon it7 still hold+ ing 8ast what she held7 and ta9ing care to give her cloaths a convenient toss up7 so that her thighs duly disclos:d7 and elevated7 laid open all the outward prospect o8 the treasury o8 loveB the rose+lipt overture presenting the coc9+pit so 8air7 that it was not in nature even 8or a natural to -iss it$ Nor did he7 8or %ouisa7 8ully bent on grappling with it7 and i-patient o8 dalliance or delay7 directed 8aith8ully the point o8 the battering+piece7 and bounded up with a rage o8 so vora+ cious appetite7 to -eet and 8avour the thrust o8 insertion7 that the 8ierce activity on both sides e88ected it with such pain o8 distention7 that %ouisa cry:d out violently that she was hurt beyond bearing7 that she was 9illed$ @ut it was too lateB the stor- was up7 and 8orce was on her to give way to it< 8or now the -an+-achine7 strongly wor9:d upon by the sen+ sual passion7 8elt so -an8ully his advantages and superiority7 8elt withal the sting o8 pleasure so intolerable7 that -adden+ ing with it7 his ;oys began to assu-e a character o8 8urious+ ness which -ade -e tre-ble 8or the too tender %ouisa$ 0e see-ed7 at this ;uncture7 greater than hi-sel8< his counten+ ance7 be8ore so void o8 -eaning7 or expression7 now grew big with the i-portance o8 the act he was upon$ 1n short7 it was not now that he was to be play:d the 8ool with$ @ut7 what is pleasant enough7 1 -ysel8 was aw:d into a sort o8 respect 8or hi-7 by the co-ely terrors his -otions dressed hi- inB his eyes shooting spar9s o8 8ire< his 8ace glowing with ardours that gave another li8e to it< his teeth churning< his whole 8ra-e agitated with a raging ungovernable i-petuosityB all sensibly betraying the 8or-idable 8ierceness with which the genial instinct acted upon hi-$ @utting then and goring all be8ore hi-7 and -ad and wild li9e an over+driven steer7 he ploughs up the tender 8urrow7 all insensible to %ouisa:s co-+ plaints< nothing can stop7 nothing can 9eep out a 8ury li9e

hisB with which7 having once got its head in7 its blind rage soon -ade way 8or the rest7 piercing7 rending7 and brea9ing open all obstructions$ The torn7 split7 wounded girl cries7 struggles7 invo9es -e to her rescue7 and endeavours to get 8ro- under the young savage7 or sha9e hi- o887 but alas> in vainB her breath -ight as soon have still:d or ste--:d a storin winter7 as all her strength have =uell:d his rough assault7 or put hi- out o8 his course$ .nd indeed7 all her e88orts and struggles were -anag:d with such disorder7 that they serv:d rather to entangle7 and 8old her the 8aster in the twine o8 his boisterous ar-s< so that she was tied to the sta9e7 and oblig:d to 8ight the -atch out7 i8 she died 8or it$ For his part7 instinct+ridden as he was7 the expressions o8 his ani-al passion7 parta9ing so-ething o8 8erocity7 were rather worrying than 9isses7 inter-ix:d with eager ravenous love+bites on her chee9s and nec97 the prints o8 which did not wear out 8or so-e days a8ter$ Poor %ouisa7 however7 bore up at length better than could have been expected< and though she su88er:d7 and greatly too7 yet7 ever true to the good old cause7 she su88er:d with plea+ sure and en;oyed her pain$ .nd soon now7 by dint o8 an en+ rag:d en8orce-ent7 the brute+-achine7 driven li9e a whirl+ wind7 -ade all s-o9e again7 and wedging its way up7 to the ut-ost extre-ity7 le8t her7 in point o8 penetration7 nothing to 8ear or to desireB and now7 C?org:d with the dearest -orsel o8 the earth7C (&ha9espeare$) %ouisa lay7 pleas:d to the heart7 pleas:d to her ut-ost capa+ city o8 being so7 with every 8ibre in those parts7 stretched al-ost to brea9ing7 on a rac9 o8 ;oy7 whilst the instru-ent o8 all this over8ulness searched her senses with its sweet excess7 till the pleasure gained upon her so7 its point stung her so ho-e7 that catching at length the rage 8ro- her 8ur+ ious driver and sharing the riot o8 his wild rapture7 she went wholly out o8 her -ind into that 8avourite part o8 her body7 the whole intenseness o8 which was so 8ervously 8ill:d7 and e-ploy:dB there alone she existed7 all lost in those de+ lirious transports7 those extasies o8 the senses7 which her win9ing eyes7 the brighten:d ver-ilion o8 her lips and chee9s7 and sighs o8 pleasure deeply 8etched7 so pathetically ex+ press:d$ 1n short7 she was now as -ere a -achine as -uch wrought on7 and had her -otions as little at her own co--and as the natural hi-sel87 who thus bro9e in upon her7 -ade her 8eel with a vengeance his te-pestuous tenderness7 and the 8orce o8 the -ettle he battered with< their active loins =uivered again with the violence o8 their con8lict7 till the surge o8 pleasure7 8oa-ing and raging to a height7 drew down the pearly shower that was to allay this hurricane$ The purely sensitive idiot then 8irst shed those tears o8 ;oy that attend its last -o-ents7 not without an agony o8 delight and even al-ost a roar o8 rapture7 as the gush escaped hi-< so sensibly too 8or %ouisa7 that she 9ept hi- 8aith8ul co-pany7 going o887 in consent7 with the old sy-pto-sB a delicious deliriu-7 a tre-ulous convulsive shudder7 and the critical dying 'h> .nd now7 on his getting o887 she lay pleasure+

drench:d7 and re+gorging its essential sweets< but =uite spent7 and gasping 8or breath7 without other sensation o8 li8e than in those ex=uisite vibrations that tre-bled yet on the strings o8 delight7 which had been too intensively touched7 and which nature had been so intensly stirred with7 8or the senses to be =uic9ly at peace 8ro-$ .s 8or the changeling7 whose curious engine had been thus success8ully played o887 his shi8t o8 countenance and gesture had even so-ething droll7 or rather tragi+co-ic in itB there was now an air o8 sad repining 8oolishness7 super+ added to his natural one o8 no+-eaning and idiotis-7 as he stood with his label o8 -anhood7 now lan97 unsti88en:d7 be+ cal-:d7 and 8lapping against his thighs7 down which it reach:d hal8+way7 terrible even in its 8all7 whilst under the de;ec+ tion o8 spirit and 8lesh7 which naturally 8ollowed7 his eyes7 by turns7 cast down towards his struc9 standard7 or piteously li8ted to %ouisa7 see-ed to re=uire at her hands what he had so sensibly parted 8ro- to her7 and now rue8ully -iss:d$ @ut the vigour o8 nature7 soon returning7 dissipated the blast o8 8aintness which the co--on law o8 en;oy-ent had sub;ected hito< and now his bas9et re+beca-e his -ain concern7 which 1 loo9:d 8or7 and brought hi-7 whilst %ouisa restor:d his dress to its usual condition7 and a8terwards pleased hi- perhaps -ore by ta9ing all his 8lowers o88 his hands7 and paying hi-7 at his rate7 8or the-7 than i8 she had e-barrass:d hi- by a present that he would have been puzzled to account 8or7 and -ight have put others on tracing the -otives o8$ Whether she ever return:d to the attac9 1 9now not7 and7 to say the truth7 1 believe not$ &he had had her 8rea9 out7 and had pretty plenti8ully drown:d her curiosity in a glut o8 pleasure7 which7 as it happened7 had no other conse=uence than that the lad7 who retain:d only a con8used -e-ory o8 the transaction7 would7 when he saw her7 8or so-e ti-e a8ter7 express a grin o8 ;oy and 8a-iliarity7 a8ter his idiot -anner7 and soon 8orgot her in 8avour o8 the next wo-an7 te-pted7 on the report o8 his parts7 to ta9e hi- in$ Part !" %ouisa hersel8 did not long outstay this adventure at 2rs$ 6ole:s (to who-7 by+the+bye7 we too9 care not to boast o8 our exploit7 till all 8ear o8 conse=uences were clearly over)B 8or an occasion presenting itsel8 o8 proving her passion 8or a young 8ellow7 at the expense o8 her discretion7 proceeding all in character7 she pac9:d up her toilet at hal8 a day:s warning and went with hi- abroad7 since which 1 entirely lost sight o8 her7 and it never 8ell in -y way to hear what beca-e o8 her$ @ut a 8ew days a8ter she had le8t us7 two very pretty young gentle-en7 who were 2rs$ 6ole:s especial 8avourites7 and 8ree o8 her acade-y7 easily obtain:d her consent 8or 3-ily:s and -y acceptance o8 a party o8 pleasure at a little but agreeable house belonging to one o8 the-7 situated not 8ar up the river Tha-es7 on the &urry side$

3verything being settled7 and it being a 8ine su--er+ day7 but rather o8 the war-est7 we set out a8ter dinner7 and got to our rendez+vous about 8our in the a8ternoon< where7 landing at the 8oot o8 a neat7 ;oyous pavillion7 3-ily and 1 were handed into it by our s=uires7 and there dran9 tea with a cheer8ulness and gaiety that the beauty o8 the prospect7 the serenity o8 the weather7 and the tender politeness o8 our sprightly gallants naturally led us into$ .8ter tea7 and ta9ing a turn in the garden7 -y particu+ lar7 who was the -aster o8 the house7 and had in no sense sche-:d this party o8 pleasure 8or a dry one7 propos:d to us7 with that 8ran9ness which his 8a-iliarity at 2rs$ 6ole:s entitled hi- to7 as the weather was excessively hot7 to bathe together7 under a co--odious shelter that he had prepared expressly 8or that purpose7 in a cree9 o8 the river7 with which a side+door o8 the pavilion i--ediately co--unicated7 and where we -ight be sure o8 having our diversion out7 sa8e 8ro- interruption7 and with the ut-ost privacy$ 3-ily7 who never re8us:d anything7 and 17 who ever delighted in bathing7 and had no exception to the person who propos:d it7 or to those pleasures it was easy to guess it i-plied7 too9 care7 on this occasion7 not to wrong our training at 2rs$ 6ole:s7 and agreed to it with as good a grace as we could$ 4pon which7 without loss o8 ti-e7 we return:d instantly to the pavilion7 one door o8 which open:d into a tent7 pitch:d be8ore it7 that with its -ar=uise7 8or-ed a pleasing de8ense against the sun7 or the weather7 and was besides as private as we could wish$ The lining o8 it7 i-bossed cloth7 represented a wild 8orest+8oliage7 8rothe top down to the sides7 which7 in the sa-e stu887 were 8igur:d with 8luted pilasters7 with their spaces between 8ill:d with 8lower+vases7 the whole having a gay e88ect upon the eye7 wherever you turn:d it$ Then it reached su88iciently into the water7 yet con+ tain:d convenient benches round it7 on the dry ground7 either to 9eep our cloaths7 or $ $ $7 or $ $ $7 in short7 8or -ore uses than resting upon$ There was a side+table too7 loaded with sweet-eats7 ;ellies7 and other eatables7 and bottles o8 wine and cordials7 by way o8 occasional relie8 8ro- any raw+ ness7 or chill o8 the water7 or 8ro- any 8aintness 8ro- what+ ever cause< and in 8act7 -y gallant7 who understood chere entiere per8ectly7 and who7 8or taste (even i8 you would not approve this speci-en o8 it) -ight have been co-ptroller o8 pleasures to a (o-an e-peror7 had le8t no re=uisite towards convenience or luxury unprovided$ .s soon as we had loo9:d round this inviting spot7 and every preli-inary o8 privacy was duly settled7 strip was the wordB when the young gentle-en soon dispatch:d the undressing each his partner and reduced us to the na9ed con8ession o8 all those secrets o8 person which dress generally hides7 and which the discovery o8 was7 naturally spea9ing7 not to our disadvantage$ 'ur hands7 indeed7 -echanically carried towards the -ost interesting part o8 us7 screened7 at 8irst7 all 8ro-

the tu8ted cli88 downwards7 till we too9 the- away at their desire7 and e-ployed the- in doing the- the sa-e o88ice7 o8 helping o88 with their cloaths< in the process o8 which7 there pass:d all the little wantonnesses and 8rolic9s that you -ay easily i-agine$ .s 8or -y spar97 he was presently undressed7 all to his shirt7 the 8ore+lappet o8 which as he lean:d languishingly on -e7 he s-ilingly pointed to -e to observe7 as it bellied out7 or rose and 8ell7 according to the unruly starts o8 the -o+ tion behind it< but it was soon 8ix:d7 8or now ta9ing o88 his shirt7 and na9ed as a 6upid7 he shew:d it -e at so upright a stand7 as prepar:d -e indeed 8or his application to -e 8or instant ease< but7 tho: the sight o8 its 8ine size was 8it enough to 8ire -e7 the cooling air7 as 1 stood in this state o8 nature7 ;oined to the desire 1 had o8 bathing 8irst7 en+ abled -e to put hi- o887 and tran=uillize hi-7 with the re+ -ar9 that a little suspense would only set a 9eener edge on the pleasure$ %eading then the way7 and shewing our 8riends an exa-ple o8 continency7 which they were giving signs o8 losing respect to7 we went hand in hand into the strea-7 till it too9 us up to our nec97 where the no -ore than grate8ul coolness o8 the water gave -y senses a delicious re8resh-ent 8ro- the sultriness o8 the season7 and -ade -ore alive7 -ore happy in -ysel87 and7 in course7 -ore alert7 and open to voluptuous i-pressions$ 0ere 1 lav:d and wanton:d with the water7 or sportively play:d with -y co-panion7 leaving 3-ily to deal with hers at discretion$ 2ine7 at length7 not content with -a9ing -e ta9e the plunge over head and ears7 9ept splashing -e7 and provo9+ ing -e with all the little play8ul tric9s he could devise7 and which 1 strove not to re-ain in his debt 8or$ We gave7 in short7 a loose to -irth< and now7 nothing would serve hibut giving his hands the regale o8 going over every part o8 -e7 nec97 breast7 belly7 thighs7 and all the et cetera7 so dear to the i-agination7 under the pretext o8 washing and rubbing the-< as we both stood in the water7 no higher now than the pit o8 our sto-achs7 and which did not hinder hi8ro- 8eeling7 and toying with that lea9 that distinguishes our sex7 and it so wonder8ully water+tightB 8or his 8ingers7 in vain dilating and opening it7 only let -ore 8la-e than water into it7 be it said without a 8igure$ .t the sa-e ti-e he -ade -e 8eel his own engine7 which was so well wound up7 as to stand even the wor9ing in water7 and he accordingly threw one ar- round -y nec97 and was endeavouring to get the better o8 that harsher construction bred by the surrounding 8luid< and had in e88ect won his way so 8ar as to -a9e -e sensible o8 the pleasing stretch o8 those nether+lips7 8rothe in+driving -achine< when7 independent o8 -y not li9ing that au9ward -ode o8 en;oy-ent7 1 could not help interrupt+ ing hi-7 in order to beco-e ;oint spectators o8 a plan o8 ;oy7 in hot operation between 3-ily and her partner< who i-patient o8 the 8ooleries and dalliance o8 the bath7 had led his ny-ph to one o8 the benches on the green ban97 where he was very cordially proceeding to teach her the di88erence be+ twixt ;est and earnest$

There7 setting her on his 9nee7 and gliding one hand over the sur8ace o8 that s-ooth polish:d snow+white s9in o8 hers7 which now doubly shone with a dew+bright lustre7 and presented to the touch so-ething li9e what one would i-agine o8 ani-ated ivory7 especially in those ruby+nippled globes7 which the touch is so 8ond o8 and delights to -a9e love to7 with the other he was lusciously exploring the sweet secret o8 nature7 in order to -a9e roo- 8or a stately piece o8 -achinery7 that stood uprear:d7 between her thighs7 as she continued sitting on his lap7 and pressed hard 8or instant ad-ission7 which the tender 3-ily7 in a 8it o8 hu-our deliciously protracted7 a8+ 8ecting to decline7 and elude the very pleasure she sigh:d 8or7 but in a style o8 waywardness so prettily put on7 and -anaged7 as to render it ten ti-es -ore poignant< then her eyes7 all a-idst the so8test dying languish-ent7 express:d at once a -oc9 denial and extre-e desire7 whilst her sweetness was zested with a coyness so pleasingly provo9ing7 her -oods o8 9eeping hi- o88 were so attractive7 that they redoubled the i-petuous rage with which he cover:d her with 9issesB and the 9isses that7 whilst she see-ed to shy 8ro- or scu88le 8or7 the cunning wanton contrived such sly returns o87 as were doubtless the sweeter 8or the gust she gave the-7 o8 being stolen ravished$ Thus 3-ily7 who 9new no art but that which nature itsel87 in 8avour o8 her principal end7 pleasure7 had inspir:d her with7 the art o8 yielding7 coy:d it indeed7 but coy:d it to the purpose< 8or with all her straining7 her wrestling7 and striving to brea9 8ro- the clasp o8 his ar-s7 she was so 8ar wiser yet than to -ean it7 that in her struggles7 it was visible she ai-:d at nothing -ore than -ultiplying points o8 touch with hi-7 and drawing yet closer the 8olds that held the- every where entwined7 li9e two tendrils o8 a vine inter+ curling togetherB so that the sa-e e88ect7 as when %ouisa strove in good earnest to disengage 8ro- the idiot7 was now produced by di88erent -otives$ 2ean while7 their e-ersion out o8 the cold water had caused a general glow7 a tender su88usion o8 heighten:d carnation over their bodies< both e=ually white and s-ooth+ s9inned< so that as their li-bs were thus a-orously inter+ woven7 in sweet con8usion7 it was scarce possible to distin+ guish who they respectively belonged to7 but 8or the brawnier7 bolder -uscles o8 the stronger sex$ 1n a little ti-e7 however7 the cha-pion was 8airly in with her7 and had tied at all points the true lover:s 9not< when now7 adieu all the little re8ine-ents o8 a 8inessed re+ luctance< adieu the 8riendly 8eint> &he was presently driven 8orcibly out o8 the power o8 using any art< and indeed7 what art -ust not give way7 when nature7 corresponding with her assailant7 invaded in the heart o8 her capital and carried by stor-7 lay at the -ercy o8 the proud con=ueror who had -ade his entry triu-phantly and co-pletelyE &oon7 however7 to be+ co-e a tributaryB 8or the engage-ent growing hotter and hotter7 at close =uarters7 she presently brought hi- to the pass o8 paying down the dear debt to nature< which she had no sooner collected in7 but7 li9e a duellist who has laid his

antagonist at his 8eet7 when he has hi-sel8 received a -ortal wound7 3-ily had scarce ti-e to plu-e hersel8 upon her vic+ tory7 but7 shot with the sa-e discharge7 she7 in a loud ex+ piring sigh7 in the closure o8 her eyes7 the stretch+out o8 her li-bs7 and a re-ission o8 her whole 8ra-e7 gave -ani8est signs that all was as it should be$

For -y part7 who had not with the cal-est patience stood in the water all this ti-e7 to view this war- action7 1 lean:d tenderly on -y gallant7 and at the close o8 it7 see-ed:d to as9 hi- with -y eyes what he thought o8 it< but he7 -ore eager to satis8y -e by his actions than by words or loo9s7 as we shoal:d the water towards the shore7 shewed -e the sta88 o8 love so intensely set up7 that had not even charity beginning at ho-e in this case7 urged -e to our -utual relie87 it would have been cruel indeed to have su88ered the youth to burst with straining7 when the re-edy was so obvious and so near at hand$ .ccordingly we too9 to a bench7 whilst 3-ily and her spar97 who belonged it see-s to the sea7 stood at the side+ board7 drin9ing to our good voyageB 8or7 as the last observ:d7 we were well under weigh7 with a 8air wind up channel7 and 8ull+8reighted< nor indeed were we long be8ore we 8inished our trip to 6ythera7 and unloaded in the old haven< but7 as the circu-stances did not ad-it o8 -uch variation7 1 shall spare you the description$ .t the sa-e ti-e7 allow -e to place you here an excuse 1 a- conscious o8 owing you7 8or having7 perhaps7 too -uch a88ected the 8igurative style< though surely7 it can pass no+ where -ore allowably than in a sub;ect which is so properly the province o8 poetry7 nay7 is poetry itsel87 pregnant with every 8lower o8 i-agination and loving -etaphors7 even were not the natural expressions7 8or respects o8 8ashion and sound7 necessarily 8orbid it$ (esu-ing now -y history7 you -ay please to 9now that what with a co-petent nu-ber o8 repetitions7 all in the sa-e strain (and7 by+the+bye7 we have a certain natural sense that those repetitions are very -uch to the taste)7 what with a circle o8 pleasures delicately varied7 there was not a -o-ent lost to ;oy all the ti-e we staid there7 till late in the night we were re+escorted ho-e by our s=uires7 who delivered us sa8e to 2rs$ 6ole7 with generous than9s 8or our co-pany$ This too was 3-ily:s last adventure in our wayB 8or scarce a wee9 a8ter7 she was7 by an accident too trivial to detail to you the particulars7 8ound out by her parents7 who were in good circu-stances7 and who had been punish:d 8or their partiality to their son7 in the loss o8 hi-7 occasion:d by a circu-stance o8 their over+indulgence to his appetite< upon which the so long engross:d strea- o8 8ondness7 running violently in 8avour o8 this lost and inhu-anly abandon:d child who- i8 they had not neglected en=uiry about7 they -ight long be8ore have recovered$ They were now so over;oyed at the re+ trieval o8 her7 that7 1 presu-e7 it -ade the- -uch less strict in exa-ining the botto- o8 thingsB 8or they see-:d very glad to ta9e 8or granted7 in the lu-p7 everything that the grave and decent 2rs$ 6ole was pleased to pass upon the-< and soon a8terwards sent her7 8ro- the country7 a handso-e ac9nowledge+ -ent$ @ut it was not so easy to replace to our co--unity the

loss o8 so sweet a -e-ber o8 itB 8or7 not to -ention her beauty7 she was one o8 those -ild7 pliant characters that i8 one does not entirely estee-7 one can scarce help loving7 which is not such a bad co-pensation neither$ 'wing all her wea9ness to good+nature7 and an indolent 8acility that 9ept her too -uch at the -ercy o8 8irst i-pressions7 she had ;ust sense enough to 9now that she wanted leading+strings7 and thought hersel8 so -uch obliged to any who would ta9e the pains to thin9 8or her7 and guide her7 that with a very little -anage-ent7 she was capable o8 being -ade a -ost agreeable7 nay7 a -ost virtuous wi8eB 8or vice7 it is probable7 had never been her choice7 or her 8ate7 i8 it had not been 8or occasion7 or exa-ple7 or had she not depended less upon hersel8 than upon her circu-stances$ This presu-ption her conduct a8ter+ wards veri8iedB 8or presently -eeting with a -atch that was ready cut and dry 8or her7 with a neighbour:s son o8 her own ran97 and a young -an o8 sense and order7 who too9 her as the widow o8 one lost at sea (8or so it see-s one o8 her gallants7 whose na-e she had -ade 8ree with7 really was)7 she naturally struc9 into all the duties o8 their do-estic li8e with as -uch constancy and regularity7 as i8 she had never swerv:d 8ro- a state o8 undebauch:d innocence 8ro- her youth$ These desertions had7 however7 now so 8ar thinned 2rs$ 6ole:s brood that she was le8t with only -e li9e a hen with one chic9en< but tho: she was earnestly entreated and encou+ rag:d to recruit her corps7 her growing in8ir-ities7 and7 above all7 the tortures o8 a stubborn hip+gout7 which she 8ound would yield to no re-edy7 deter-in:d her to bread up her business and retire with a decent pittance into the country7 where 1 pro-is:d -ysel8 nothing so sure7 as -y going down to live with her as soon as 1 had seen a little -ore o8 li8e and i-prov:d -y s-all -atters into a co-petency that would create in -e an independence on the worldB 8or 1 was7 now7 than9s to 2rs$ 6ole7 wise enough to 9eep that essential in view$ Thus was 1 then to lose -y 8aith8ul preceptress7 as did the Philosophers o8 the town the White 6row o8 her pro8ession$ For besides that she never ransac9ed her custo-ers7 whose taste too she ever studiously consulted7 besides that she never rac9ed her pupils with unconscionable extortions7 nor ever put their hard earnings7 as she call:d the-7 under the contribution o8 poundage$ &he was a severe ene-y to the seduction 8or innocence7 and con8in:d her ac=uisitions solely to those un8ortunate young wo-en7 who7 having lost it7 were but the ;uster ob;ects o8 co-passionB a-ong these7 indeed7 she pic9:d but such as suited her views and ta9ing the- under her protection7 rescu:d the- 8ro- the danger o8 the public9 sin9s o8 ruin and -isery7 to place7 or do 8or the-7 well or ill7 in the -anner you have seen$ 0aving then settled her a88airs7 she set out on her ;ourney7 a8ter ta9ing the -ost tender leave o8 -e7 and at the end o8 so-e excellent instruc+ tions7 reco--ending -e to -ysel87 with an anxiety per8ectly -aternal$ 1n short7 she a88ected -e so -uch7 that 1 was not presently reconcil:d to -ysel8 8or su88ering her at any rate to go without -e< but 8ate had7 it see-s7 otherwise dispos:d o8 -e$

1 had7 on -y separation 8ro- 2rs$ 6ole7 ta9en a pleasant convenient house at 2arybone7 but easy to rent and -anage 8roits s-allness7 which 1 8urnish:d neatly and -odestly$ There7 with a reserve o8 eight hundred pounds7 the 8ruit o8 -y de8er+ ence to 2rs$ 6ole:s counsels7 exclusive o8 cloaths7 so-e ;ewels7 so-e plate7 1 saw -ysel8 in purse 8or a long ti-e7 to wait without i-patience 8or what the chapter o8 accidents -ight produce in -y 8avour$ 0ere7 under the new character o8 a young gentle+wo-an whose husband was gone to sea7 1 had -ar9:d -e out such lines o8 li8e and conduct7 as leaving -e at a co-petent liberty to pursue -y views either out o8 pleasure or 8ortune7 bounded -e nevertheless strictly within the rules od decency and discre+ tionB a disposition in which you cannot escape observing a true pupil o8 2rs$ 6ole$

1 was scarce7 however7 well war- in -y new abode7 when going out one -orning pretty early to en;oy the 8reshness o8 it7 in the pleasing outlet o8 the 8ields7 acco-panied only by a -aid7 who- 1 had newly hired7 as we were carelessly wal9ing a-ong the trees we were alar-ed with the noise o8 a violent coughingB turning our heads towards which7 we distinguish:d a plain well+dressed elderly gentle-an7 who7 attac9:d with a sudden 8it7 was so -uch overco-e as to be 8orc:d to give way to it and sit down at the 8oot o8 a tree7 where he see-ed su88ocating with the severity o8 it7 being per8ectly blac9 in the 8aceB not less -ov:d than 8righten:d with which7 1 8lew on the instant to his relie87 and using the rote o8 practice 1 had observ:d on the li9e occasion7 1 loosened his cravat and clapped hi- on the bac9< but whether to any purpose7 or whether the cough had had its course7 1 9now not7 but the 8it i--ediately went o88< and now recover:d to his speech and legs7 he returned -e than9s with as -uch e-phasis as i8 1 had sav:d his li8e$ This naturally engaging a conversation7 he ac=uainted -e where he lived7 which was at a considerable distance 8ro- where 1 -et with hi-7 and where he had stray:d insensibly on the sa-e intention o8 a -orning wal9$ 0e was7 as 1 a8terwards learn:d in the course o8 the inti-acy which this little accident gave birth to7 an old bachelor7 turn:d o8 sixty7 but o8 a 8resh vigorous co-plexion7 inso-uch that he scarce -ar9ed 8ive and 8orty7 having never rac9:d his constitution by per-itting his desires to overtax his ability$ .s to his birth and condition7 his parents7 honest and 8ail:d -echanic9s7 had7 by the best traces he could get o8 the-7 le8t hi- an in8ant orphan on the parish< so that it was 8ro- a charity+school7 that7 by honesty and industry7 he -ade his way into a -erchant:s counting+house< 8ro- whence7 being sent to a house in 6.D1M7 he there7 by his talents and acti+ vity7 ac=uired a 8ortune7 but an i--ense one7 with which he returned to his native country< where he could not7 however7 so -uch as 8ish out one single relation out o8 the obscurity he was born in$ Ta9ing then a taste 8or retire-ent7 and pleas:d to en;oy li8e7 li9e a -istress in the dar97 he 8lowed his days in all the ease o8 opulence7 without the least parade o8 it< and7 rather studying the conceal-ent than the shew o8 a 8ortune7 loo9ed down on a world he per8ectly 9new< hi-sel87 to his wish7 un9nown and un-ar9ed by$ @ut7 as 1 propose to devote a letter entirely to the pleasure o8 retracing to you all the particulars o8 -y ac+ =uaintance with this ever7 to -e7 -e-orable 8riend7 1 shall7 in this7 transiently touch on no -ore than -ay serve7 as -ortar to ce-ent7 to 8or- the connection o8 -y history7 and to obviate your surprize that one o8 -y high blood and relish o8 li8e should count a gallant o8 threescore such a catch$ (e8erring then to a -ore explicit narrative7 to explain by what progressions our ac=uaintance7 certainly innocent at 8irst7 insensibly changed nature7 and ran into unplatonic lengths7 as -ight well be expected 8ro- one o8 -y condition

o8 li8e7 and above all7 8ro- that principle o8 electricity that scarce ever 8ails o8 producing 8ire when the sexes -eet$ 1 shall only her ac=uaint you7 that as age had not subdued his tenderness 8or our sex7 neither had it robbed hi- o8 the power o8 pleasing7 since whatever he wanted in the bewitching char-s o8 youth7 he aton:d 8or7 or supple-ented with the ad+ vantages o8 experience7 the sweetness o8 his -anners7 and above all7 his 8lattering address in touching the heart7 by an application to the understanding$ Fro- hi- it was 1 8irst learn:d7 to any purpose7 and not without in8inite pleasure7 that 1 had such a portion o8 -e worth bestowing so-e regard on< 8ro- hi- 1 received -y 8irst essential encourage-ent7 and instructions how to put it in that train o8 cultivation7 which 1 have since pushed to the little degree o8 i-prove-ent you see it at< he it was7 who 8irst taught -e to be sensible that the pleasures o8 the -ind were superior to those o8 the body< at the sa-e ti-e7 that they were so 8ar 8ro- obnoxious to7 or inco-patible with each other7 that7 besides the sweetness in the variety and transition7 the one serv:d to exalt and per+ 8ect the taste o8 the other to a degree that the senses alone can never arrive at$ 0i-sel8 a rational pleasurist7 as being -uch too wise to be asha-:d o8 the pleasures o8 hu-anity7 loved -e indeed7 but loved -e with dignity< in a -ean e=ually re-ov:d 8ro- the sourness7 o8 8orwardness7 by which age is unpleasingly char+ acteriz:d7 and 8ro- that childish silly dotage that so o8ten disgraces it7 and which he hi-sel8 used to turn into ridicule7 and co-pare to an old goat a88ecting the 8ris9 o8 a young 9id$ 1n short7 everything that is generally una-iable in his season o8 li8e was7 in hi-7 repair:d by so -any advantages7 that he existed a proo87 -ani8est at least to -e7 that it is not out o8 the power o8 age to please7 i8 it lays out to please7 and i87 -a9ing ;ust allowances7 those in that class do not 8orget that it -ust cost the- -ore pains and attention than what youth7 the natural spring+ti-e o8 ;oy7 stands in need o8B as 8ruits out o8 season re=uire proportionably -ore s9ill and cultivation7 to 8orce the-$ With this gentle-an then7 who too9 -e ho-e soon a8ter our ac=uaintance co--enc:d7 1 lived near eight -onths< in which ti-e7 -y constant co-plaisance and docility7 -y atten+ tion to deserve his con8idence and love7 and a conduct7 in general7 devoid o8 the least art and 8ounded on -y sincere regard and estee- 8or hi-7 won and attach:d hi- so 8ir-ly to -e7 that7 a8ter having generously trusted -e with a genteel7 independent settle-ent7 proceeding to heap -ar9s o8 a88ection on -e7 he appointed -e7 by an authentic9 will7 his sole heiress and executrixB a disposition which he did not outlive two -onths7 being ta9en 8ro- -e by a violent cold that he contracted as he unadvisedly ran to the window on an alar- o8 8ire7 at so-e streets distance7 and stood there na9ed+breast+ ed7 and exposed to the 8atal i-pressions o8 a da-p night+air$ .8ter ac=uitting -ysel8 o8 -y duty towards -y deceas:d bene8actor7 and paying hi- a tribute o8 un8eign:d sorrow7 which a little ti-e chang:d into a -ost tender7 grate8ul

-e-ory o8 hi- that 1 shall ever retain7 1 grew so-ewhat co-+ 8orted by the prospect that now open:d to -e7 i8 not o8 hap+ piness at least o8 a88luence and independence$ 1 saw -ysel8 then in the 8ull bloo- and pride o8 youth (8or 1 was not yet nineteen) actually at the head o8 so large a 8ortune7 as it would have been even the height o8 i-pudence in -e to have raised -y wishes7 -uch -ore -y hopes7 to< and that this unexpected elevation did not turn -y head7 1 ow:d to the pains -y bene8actor had ta9en to 8or- and prepare -e 8or it7 as 1 ow:d his opinion o8 -y -anage-ent o8 the vast possessions he le8t -e7 to what he had observ:d o8 the pru+ dential econo-y 1 had learned under 2rs$ 6ole7 o8 which the reserve he saw 1 had -ade was a proo8 and encourage-ent to hi-$ @ut7 alas> how easily is the en;oy-ent o8 the greatest sweets in li8e7 in present possession7 poisoned by the regret o8 an absent one> but -y regret was a -ighty and ;ust one7 since it had -y only truly beloved 6harles 8or its ob;ect$ ?iven hi- up 1 had7 indeed7 co-pleatly7 having never once heard 8ro- hi- since our separation< which7 as 1 8ound a8ter+ wards7 had been -y -is8ortune7 and not his neglect7 8or he wrote -e several letters which had all -iscarried< but 8or+ gotten hi- 1 never had$ .-idst all -y personal in8idelities7 not one had -ade a pin:s point i-pression on a heart i-pene+ trable to the true love+passion7 but 8or hi-$ .s soon7 however7 as 1 was -istress o8 this unexpected 8ortune7 1 8elt -ore than ever how dear he was to -e7 8roits insu88iciency to -a9e -e happy7 whilst he was not to share it with -e$ 2y earliest care7 conse=uently7 was to endeavour at getting so-e account o8 hi-< but all -y re+ searches produc:d -e no -ore light than that his 8ather had been dead 8or so-e ti-e7 not so well as even with the world< and that 6harles had reached his port o8 destination in the &outh+&eas7 where7 8inding the estate he was sent to recover dwindled to a tri8le7 by the loss o8 two ships in which the bul9 o8 his uncle:s 8ortune lay7 he was co-e away with the s-all re-ainder7 and -ight7 perhaps7 according to the best advice7 in a 8ew -onths return to 3ngland7 8ro- whence he had7 at the ti-e o8 this -y in=uiry7 been absent two years and seven -onths$ . little eternity in love> /ou cannot conceive with what ;oy 1 e-braced the hopes thus given -e o8 seeing the delight o8 -y heart again$ @ut7 as the ter- o8 -onths was assigned it7 in order to divert and a-use -y i-patience 8or his return7 a8ter settling -y a88airs with -uch ease and security7 1 set out on a ;ourney 8or %ancashire7 with an e=uipage suitable to -y 8ortune7 and with a design purely to revisit -y place o8 nativity7 8or which 1 could not help retaining a great tenderness< and -ight naturally not be sorry to shew -ysel8 there7 to the advantage 1 was now in pass to do7 a8ter the report 3sther Davis had spread o8 -y being spirited away to the plantations< 8or on no other supposition could she account 8or the suppression o8 -ysel8 to her7 since her leaving -e so abruptly at the inn$

.nother 8avourite intention 1 had7 to loo9 out 8or -y rela+ tions7 though 1 had none besides distant ones7 and prove a bene8actress to the-$ Then 2rs$ 6ole:s place o8 retire-ent lying in -y way7 was not a-ongst the least o8 the pleasures 1 had proposed to -ysel8 in this expedition$ 1 had ta9en nobody with -e but a discreet decent wo-an7 to 8igure it as -y co-panion7 besides -y servants7 and was scarce got into an inn7 about twenty -iles 8ro- %ondon7 where 1 was to sup and pass the night7 when such a stor- o8 wind and rain sprang up as -ade -e congratulate -ysel8 on having got under shelter be8ore it began$ This had continu:d a good hal8 hour7 when bethin9ing -e o8 so-e directions to be given to the coach-an7 1 sent 8or hi-7 and not caring that his shoes should soil the very clean parlour7 in which the cloth was laid7 1 stept into the hall+ 9itchen7 where he was7 and where7 whilst 1 was tal9ing to hi-7 1 slantingly observ:d two horse-en driven in by the weather7 and both wringing wet< one o8 who- was as9ing i8 they could not be assisted with a change7 while their clothes were dried$ @ut7 heavens> who can express what 1 8elt at the sound o8 a voice7 ever present to -y heart7 and that is now rebounded at> or when pointing -y eyes towards the person it ca-e 8ro-7 they con8ir-:d its in8or-ation7 in spite o8 so long an absence7 and o8 a dress one would have i-agin:d studied 8or a disguiseB a horse-an:s great coat7 with a stand+up cape7 and his hat 8lapp:d $ $ $ but what could escape the piercing alertness o8 a sense surely guided by loveE . transport then li9e -ine was above all consideration7 or sche-es o8 surprize< and 17 that instant7 with the rapidity o8 the e-otions that 1 8elt the spur o87 shot into his ar-s7 crying out7 as 1 threw -ine round his nec9B C2y li8e> $ $ $ -y soul> $ $ $ -y 6harles> $ $ $C and without 8urther power o8 speech7 swoon:d away7 under the pressing agitations o8 ;oy and surprize$ (ecover:d out o8 -y entrance-ent7 1 8ound -ysel8 in -y char-er:s ar-s7 but in the parlour7 surrounded by a crowd which this event had gather:d round us7 and which i--ediately7 on a signal 8ro- the discreet landlady7 who currently too9 hi8or -y husband7 clear:d the roo-7 and desirably le8t us alone to the raptures o8 this reunion< -y ;oy at which had li9e to have prov:d7 at the expense o8 -y li8e7 power superior to that o8 grie8 at our 8atal separation$ The 8irst ob;ect then7 that -y eyes open:d on7 was their supre-e idol7 and -y supre-e wish 6harles7 on one 9nee7 hold+ ing -e 8ast by the hand and gazing on -e with a transport o8 8ondness$ 'bserving -y recovery7 he atte-pted to spea97 and give vent to his patience o8 hearing -y voice again7 to satis8y hi- once -ore that it was -e< but the -ightiness and suddenness o8 the surprize7 continuing to stun hi-7 cho9ed his utteranceB he could only sta--er out a 8ew bro9en7 hal8 8or-ed7 8altering accents7 which -y ears greedily drin9ing in7 spelt7 and put together7 so as to -a9e out their sense< C.8ter so long> $ $ $ so cruel $ $ $ an absence> $ $ $ -y dearest Fanny> $ $ $ can itE $ $ $ can it be youE $ $ $C sti8ling -e at the sa-e ti-e with 9isses7 that7 stopping -y

-outh7 at once prevented the answer that he panted 8or7 and increas:d the delicious disorder in which all -y senses were rapturously lost$ .-idst however7 this crowd o8 ideas7 and all bliss8ul ones7 there obtruded only one cruel doubt7 that poison:d nearly all the transcendent happinessB and what was it7 but -y dread o8 its being too excessive to be realE 1 tre-bled now with the 8ear o8 its being no -ore than a drea-7 and o8 -y wa9ing out o8 it into the horrors o8 8ind+ ing it one$ 4nder this 8ond apprehension7 i-agining 1 could not -a9e too -uch o8 the present prodigious ;oy7 be8ore it should vanish and leave -e in the desert again7 nor veri8y its reality too strongly7 1 clung to hi-7 1 clasp:d hi-7 as i8 to hinder hi- 8ro- escaping -e againB CWhere have you beenE $ $ $ how could you $ $ $ could you leave -eE $ $ $ &ay you are still -ine $ $ $ that you still love -e $ $ $ and thus> thus>C (9issing hi- as i8 1 would consolidate lips with hi->) C1 8orgive you $ $ $ 8orgive -y hard 8ortune in 8avour o8 this restoration$C .ll these inter;ections brea9ing 8ro- -e7 in that wild+ ness o8 expression that ;ustly passes 8or elo=uence in love7 drew 8ro- hi- all the returns -y 8ond heart could wish or re=uire$ 'ur caresses7 our =uestions7 our answers7 8or so-e ti-e observ:d no order< all crossing7 or interrupting one another in sweet con8usion7 whilst we exchang:d hearts at our eyes7 and renew:d the rati8ications o8 a love unbated by ti-e or absenceB not a breath7 not a -otion7 not a gesture on either side7 but what was strongly i-pressed with it$ 'ur hands7 loc9:d in each other7 repeated the -ost passionate s=ueezes7 so that their 8iery thrill went to the heart again$ Thus absorbed7 and concentre:d in this unutterable de+ light7 1 had not attended to the sweet author o8 it7 being thoroughly wet7 and in danger o8 catching cold< when7 in good ti-e7 the landlady7 who- the appearance o8 -y e=uipage (which7 by+the+bye7 6harles 9new nothing o8) had gain:d -e an interest in7 8or -e and -ine7 interrupted us by bringing in a decent shi8t o8 linen and cloaths7 which now7 so-ewhat recover:d into a cal-er co-posure by the co-ing in o8 a third person7 1 prest hi- to ta9e the bene8it o87 with a tender concern and anxiety that -ade -e tre-ble 8or his health$ The landlady leaving us again7 he proceeded to shi8t< in the act o8 which7 tho: he proceeded with all that -odesty which beca-e these 8irst sole-ner instants o8 our re+-eeting a8ter so long an absence7 1 could not contain certain snatches o8 -y eyes7 lured by the dazzling discoveries o8 his na9ed s9in7 that escaped hi- as he chang:d his linen7 and which 1 could not observe the un8aded li8e and co-plexion o8 without e-otions o8 tenderness and ;oy7 that had hi-sel8 too purely 8or their ob;ect to parta9e o8 a loose or -isti-:d desire$ 0e was soon drest in these te-porary cloaths7 which neither 8itted hi- now beca-e the light -y passion plac:d hi- in7 to -e at least< yet7 as they were on hi-7 they loo9:d extre-ely well7 in virtue o8 that -agic char- which love put into everything that he touch:d7 or had relation to hi-B and where7 indeed7 was that dress that a 8igure li9e this would

not give grace toE For now7 as 1 ey:d hi- -ore in detail7 1 could not but observe the even 8avourable alteration which the ti-e o8 his absence had produced in his person$ There were still the re=uisite linea-ents7 still the sa-e vivid ver-ilion and bloo- reigning in his 8aceB but now the roses were -ore 8ully blown< the tan o8 his travels7 and a beard so-ewhat -ore distinguishable7 had7 at the expense o8 no -ore delicacy than what he could well spare7 given it an air o8 beco-ing -anliness and -aturity7 that sy--etriz:d nobly with that air o8 distinction and e-pire with which nature had sta-p:d it7 in a rare -ixture with the sweetness o8 it< still nothing had he lost o8 that s-ooth plu-pness o8 8lesh7 which7 glowing with 8reshness7 bloo-s 8lorid to the eye7 and delicious to the touch< then his shoulders were grown -ore s=uare7 his shape -ore 8or-:d7 -ore portly7 but still 8ree and airy$ 1n short7 his 8igure show:d riper7 greater7 and per8ecter to the experienced eye than in his tender youth< and now he was not -uch -ore than two and twenty$ 1n this interval7 however7 1 pic9:d out o8 the bro9en7 o8ten pleasingly interrupted account o8 hi-sel87 that he was7 at that instant7 actually on his road to %ondon7 in not a very para-ount plight or condition7 having been wrec9:d on the 1rish coast 8or which he had pre-aturely e-bar9:d7 and lost the little all he had brought with hi- 8ro- the &outh &eas< so that he had not till a8ter great shi8ts and hard+ ships7 in the co-pany o8 his 8ellow+traveller7 the captain7 got so 8ar on his ;ourney< that so it was (having heard o8 his 8ather:s death and circu-stances) he had now the world to begin again7 on a new accountB a situation which he assur:d -e7 in a vein o8 sincerity that7 8lowing 8ro- his heart7 penetrated -ine7 gave hi- to 8arther pain7 than that he had it not in his power to -a9e -e as happy as he could wish$ 2y 8ortune7 you will please to observe7 1 had not enter:d upon any overture o87 reserving to 8east -ysel8 with the surprize o8 it to hi-7 in cal-er instants$ .nd7 as to -y dress7 it could give hi- no idea o8 the truth7 not only as it was -ourning7 but li9ewise in a style o8 plainness and si-plicity that 1 had ever 9ept to with studied art$ 0e press:d -e indeed tenderly to satis8y his ardent curiosity7 both with regard to -y past and present state o8 li8e since his being torn away 8ro- -eB but 1 had the address to elude his =uestions by answers that7 shewing his satis8action at no great distance7 won upon hi- to waive his i-patience7 in 8avour o8 the thorough con8idence he had in -y not delaying it7 but 8or respects 1 should in good ti-e ac=uaint hi- with$ 6harles7 however7 thus returned to -y longing ar-s7 tender7 8aith8ul7 and in health7 was already a blessing too -ighty 8or -y conceptionB but 6harles in distress> $ $ $ 6harles reduc:d7 and bro9en down to his na9ed personal -erit7 was such a circu-stance7 in 8avour o8 the senti-ents 1 had 8or hi-7 as exceeded -y ut-ost desires< and accordingly 1 see-ed so visibly char-:d7 so out o8 ti-e and -easure pleas:d at his -ention o8 his ruin:d 8ortune7 that he could account 8or it no way7 but that the ;oy o8 seeing hi- again had swal+

low:d up every other sense7 or concern$ 1n the -ean ti-e7 -y wo-an had ta9en all possible care o8 6harles:s travelling co-panion< and as supper was co-ing in7 he was introduc:d to -e7 when 1 receiv:d hi- as beca-e -y regard 8or all o8 6harles:s ac=uaintance or 8riends$ We 8our then supp:d together7 in the style o8 ;oy7 con+ gratulation7 and pleasing disorder that you -ay guess$ For -y part7 though all these agitations had le8t -e not the least sto-ach but 8or that uncloying 8east7 the sight o8 -y ador:d youth7 1 endeavour:d to 8orce it7 by way o8 exa-ple 8or hi-7 who 1 con;ectur:d -ust want such a recruit a8ter riding< and7 indeed7 he ate li9e a traveller7 but gaz:d at7 and addressed -e all the ti-e li9e a lover$ .8ter the cloth was ta9en away7 and the hour o8 repose ca-e on7 6harles and 1 were7 without 8urther cere-ony7 in =uality o8 -an and wi8e7 shewn up together to a very handso-e apart-ent7 and7 all in course7 the bed7 they said7 the best in the inn$ .nd here7 Decency7 8orgive -e> i8 once -ore 1 violate thy laws and 9eeping the curtains undrawn7 sacri8ice thee 8or the last ti-e to that con8idence7 without reserve7 with which 1 engaged to recount to you the -ost stri9ing circu-stances o8 -y youth8ul disorders$ .s soon7 then7 as we were in the roo- together7 le8t to ourselves7 the sight o8 the bed starting the re-e-brance o8 our 8irst ;oys7 and the thought o8 -y being instantly to share it with the dear possessor o8 -y virgin heart7 -ov:d -e so strongly7 that it was well 1 lean:d upon hi-7 or 1 -ust have 8ainted again under the overpowering sweet alar-$ 6harles saw into -y con8usion7 and 8orgot his own7 that was scarce less7 to apply hi-sel8 to the re-oval o8 -ine$ @ut now the true re8ining passion had regain:d thorough possession o8 -e7 with all its train o8 sy-pto-sB a sweet sensibility7 a tender ti-idity7 love+sic9 yearnings te-per:d with di88idence and -odesty7 all held -e in a sub;ection o8 soul7 inco-parably dearer to -e than the liberty o8 heart which 1 had been long7 too long> the -istress o87 in the course o8 those grosser gallantries7 the consciousness o8 which now -ade -e sigh with a virtuous con8usion and regret$ No real virgin7 in view o8 the nuptial bed7 could give -ore bash8ul blushes to unble-ish:d innocence than 1 did to a sense o8 guilt< and indeed 1 lov:d 6harles too truly not to 8eel severely that 1 did not deserve hi-$ .s 1 9ept hesitating and disconcerted under this so8t distraction7 6harles7 with a 8ond i-patience7 too9 the pains to undress -e< and all 1 can re-e-ber a-idst the 8lutter and disco-posure o8 -y senses was so-e 8lattering excla-ations o8 ;oy and ad-iration7 -ore specially at the 8eel o8 -y breasts7 now set at liberty 8or- -y stays7 and which panting and ris+ ing in tu-ultuous throbs7 swell:d upon his dear touch7 and gave it the welco-e pleasure o8 8inding the- well 8or-:d7 and

un8ail:d in 8ir-ness$ 1 was soon laid in bed7 and scarce languish:d an instant 8or the darling partner o8 it7 be8ore he was undress:d and got between the sheets7 with his ar-s clasp:d round -e7 giv+ ing and ta9ing7 with gust inexpressible7 a 9iss o8 welco-e7 that -y heart rising to -y lips sta-p:d with its war-est i-pression7 concurring to by bliss7 with that delicate and voluptuous e-otion which 6harles alone had the secret to excite7 and which constitutes the very li8e7 the essence o8 pleasure$ 2eanwhile7 two candles lighted on a side+table near us7 and a ;oyous wood+8ire7 threw a light into the bed that too9 8ro- one sense7 o8 great i-portance to our ;oys7 all pretext 8or co-plaining o8 its being shut out o8 its share o8 the-< and indeed7 the sight o8 -y idolized youth was alone7 8rothe ardour with which 1 had wished 8or it7 without other cir+ cu-stance7 a pleasure to die o8$ @ut as action was now a necessity to desires so -uch on edge as ours7 6harles7 a8ter a very short prelusive dalliance7 li8ting up -y linen and his own7 laid the broad treasures o8 his -anly chest close to -y boso-7 both beating with the tenderest alar-sB when now7 the sense o8 his glowing body7 in na9ed touch with -ine7 too9 all power over -y thoughts out o8 -y own disposal7 and deliver:d up every 8aculty o8 the soul to the sensiblest o8 ;oys7 that a88ecting -e in8initely -ore with -y distinction o8 the person than o8 the sex7 now brought -y conscious heart deliciously into playB -y heart7 which eternally constant to 6harles7 had never ta9en any part in -y occasional sacri8ices to the calls o8 constitution7 co-plaisance7 or interest$ @ut ah> what beca-e o8 -e7 when as the powers o8 solid pleasure thic9ened upon -e7 1 could not help 8eeling the sti88 sta9e that had been adorn:d with the trophies o8 -y despoil:d virginity7 bearing hard and in8lexible against one o8 -y thighs7 which 1 had not yet opened7 8ro- a true principle o8 -odesty7 reviv:d by a pas+ sion too sincere to su88er any ai-ing at the 8alse -erit o8 di88iculty7 or -y putting on an i-pertinent -oc9 coyness$ 1 have7 1 believe7 so-ewhere be8ore re-ar9:d7 that the 8eel o8 that 8avourite piece o8 -anhood has7 in the very na+ ture o8 it7 so-ething ini-itably pathetic$ Nothing can be dearer to the touch7 nor can a88ect it with a -ore delicious sensation$ Thin9 then> as a love thin9s7 what -ust be the consu--ate transport o8 that =uic9est o8 our senses7 in their central seat too> when7 a8ter so long a deprival7 it 8elt itsel8 re+in8la-:d under the pressure o8 that peculiar scep+ ter+-e-ber which co--ands us allB but especially -y darling7 elect 8ro- the 8ace o8 the whole earth$ .nd now7 at its -ightiest point o8 sti88ness7 it 8elt to -e so-ething so subduing7 so active7 so solid and agreeable7 that 1 9now not what na-e to give its singular i-pressionB but the senti-ent o8 consciousness o8 its belonging to -y supre-ely beloved youth7 gave -e so pleasing an agitation7 and wor9:d so strongly on -y soul7 that it sent all its sensitive spirits to that organ o8 bliss in -e7 dedicated to its reception$

There7 concentreing to a point7 li9e rays in a burning glass7 they glow:d7 they burnt with the intensest heat< the springs o8 pleasure were7 in short7 wound up to such a pitch7 1 panted now7 with so ex=uisitely 9een an appetite 8or the e-i+ nent en;oy-ent that 1 was even sic9 with desire7 and une=ual to support the co-bination o8 two distinct ideas7 that de+ light8ully distracted -eB 8or all the thought 1 was capable o87 was that 1 was now in touch7 at once7 with the instru-ent o8 pleasure7 and the great+seal o8 love$ 1deas that7 -ing+ ling strea-s7 pour:d such an ocean o8 intoxicating bliss on a wea9 vessel7 all too narrow to contain it7 that 1 lay over+ whel-:d7 absorbed7 lost in an abyss o8 ;oy7 and dying o8 nothing but i--oderate delight$ 6harles then rous:d -e so-ewhat out o8 this extatic dis+ traction with a co-plaint so8tly -ur-ured7 a-idst a crowd o8 9isses7 at the position7 not so 8avourable to his desires7 in which 1 receiv:d his urgent insistance 8or ad-ission7 where that insistance was alone so engrossing a pleasure that it -ade -e inconsistently su88er a -uch dearer one to be 9ept out< but how sweet to correct such a -ista9e> 2y thighs7 now obedient ot the inti-ations o8 love and nature7 gladly dis+ close7 and with a ready sub-ission7 resign up the so8t gate+ way to the entrance o8 pleasureB 1 see7 1 8eel the delicious velvet tip> $ $ $ he enters -e -ight and -ain7 with $ $ $ oh> -y pen drops 8ro- -e here in the extasy now present to -y 8aith8ul -e-ory> Description too deserts -e7 and delivers over a tas97 above its strength o8 wing7 to the i-aginationB but it -ust be an i-agination exalted by such a 8la-e as -ine that can do ;ustice to that sweetest7 noblest o8 all sensa+ tions7 that hailed and acco-pany:d the sti88 insinuation all the way up7 till it was at the end o8 its penetration7 send+ ing up7 through -y eyes7 the spar9s o8 the love+8ire that ran all over -e and blaz:d in every vein and every pore o8 -eB a syste- incarnate o8 ;oy all over$ 1 had now totally ta9en in love:s true arrow 8ro- the point up to the 8eather7 in that part7 where -a9ing now new wound7 the lips o8 the original one o8 nature7 which had owed its 8irst breathing to this dear instru-ent7 clung7 as i8 sensible o8 gratitude7 in eager suction round it7 whilst all its inwards e-brac:d it tenderly with a war-th o8 gust7 a co-pressive energy7 that gave it7 in its way7 the hearti+ est welco-e in nature< every 8ibre there gathering tight round it7 and straining a-bitiously to co-e in 8or its share o8 the bliss8ul touch$ .s we were giving the- a 8ew -o-ents o8 pause to the delectation o8 the senses7 in dwelling with the highest relish on this inti-atest point o8 re+union7 and chewing the cud o8 en;oy-ent7 the i-patience natural to the pleasure soon drove us into action$ Then began the driving tu-ult on his side7 and the responsive heaves on -ine7 which 9ept -e up to hi-< whilst7 as our ;oys grew too great 8or utterance7 the organs o8 our voices7 voluptuously inter-ixing7 beca-e organs o8 the touch $ $ $ and oh7 that touch> how delicious> $ $ $ how poignantly luscious> $ $ $ .nd now> now 1 8elt to the heart o8 -e> 1 8elt the prodigious 9een edge with which love7

presiding over this act7 points the pleasureB love> that -ay be styled the .ttic salt o8 en;oy-ent< and indeed7 without it7 the ;oy7 great as it is7 is still a vulgar one7 whether in a 9ing or a beggar< 8or it is7 undoubtedly7 love alone that re8ines7 ennobles and exalts it$ Thus happy7 then7 by the heart7 happy by the senses7 it was beyond all power7 even o8 thought7 to 8or- the conception o8 a greater delight than what 1 was now consu--ating the 8ruition o8$ 6harles7 whose whole 8ra-e was convulsed with the agita+ tion o8 his rapture7 whilst the tenderest 8ires tre-bled in his eyes7 all assured -e o8 a pre8ect concord o8 ;oy7 pene+ trated -e so pro8oundly7 touch:d -e so vitally7 too9 -e so -uch out o8 -y own possession7 whilst he see-:d hi-sel8 so -uch in -ine7 that in a delicious enthusias-7 1 i-agin:d such a trans8usion o8 heart and spirit7 as that coalescing7 and -a9ing one body and soul with hi-7 1 was he7 and he7 -e$ @ut all this pleasure tending7 li9e li8e 8ro- its 8irst instants7 towards its own dissolution7 liv:d too 8ast not to bring on upon the spur its delicious -o-ent o8 -ortality< 8or presently the approach o8 the tender agony discover:d itsel8 by its usual signals7 that were =uic9ly 8ollow:d by -y dear love:s e-anation o8 hi-sel8 that spun our7 and shot7 8eel+ ingly indeed> up the ravish:d in+draughtB where the sweetly soothing bal-y titillation opened all the ;uices o8 ;oy on -y side7 which extatically in 8low7 help:d to allay the prurient glow7 and drown:d our pleasure 8or a while$ &oon7 however7 to be on 8loat again> For 6harles7 true to nature:s laws7 in one breath expiring and e;aculating7 languish:d not long in the dissolving trance7 but recovering spirit again7 soon gave -e to 8eel that the true+-ettle springs o8 his instru-ent o8 pleasure were7 by love7 and perhaps by a long vacation7 wound up too high to be let down by a single explosionB his sti88+ ness still stood -y 8riend$ (esu-ing then the action a8resh7 without dislodging7 or giving -e the trouble o8 parting 8ro-y sweet tenant7 we play:d over again the sa-e opera7 with the sa-e delight8ul har-ony and concertB our ardours7 li9e our love7 9new no re-ission< and7 all as the tide serv:d -y lover7 lavish o8 his stores7 and pleasure -il9ed7 over+8lowed -e once -ore 8ro- the 8ulness o8 his oval reservoirs o8 the genial e-ulsionB whilst7 on -y side7 a convulsive grasp7 in the instant o8 -y giving down the li=uid contribution7 ren+ der:d -e sweetly subservient at once to the increase o8 his ;oy7 and o8 its e88usionsB -oving -e so7 as to -a9e -e exert all those springs o8 the co-pressive exsuction with which the sensitive -echanis- o8 that part thirstily draws and drains the nipple o8 %ove< with -uch such an instinctive eagerness and attach-ent as7 to co-pare great with less7 9ind nature engages in8ants at the breast by the pleasure they 8ind in the -otion o8 their little -ouths and chee9s7 to extract the -il9y strea- prepar:d 8or their nourish-ent$ @ut still there was no end o8 his vigourB this double discharge had so 8ar 8ro- extinguish:d his desires7 8or that ti-e7 that it had not even cal-:d the-< and at his age7 de+

sires are power$ 0e was proceeding then a-azingly to push it to a third triu-ph7 still without uncasing7 i8 a tenderness7 natural to true love7 had not inspir:d -e with sel8+denial enough to spare7 and not overstrain hi-B and accordingly7 entreating hi- to give hi-sel8 and -e =uarter7 1 obtain:d7 at length7 a short suspension o8 ar-s7 but not be8ore he had exultingly satis8y:d -e that he gave out standing$ The re-ainder o8 the night7 with what we borrow:d upon the day7 we e-ploy:d with unweary:d 8ervour in celebrating thus the 8estival o8 our re+-eeting< and got up pretty late in the -orning7 gay7 bris9 and alert7 though rest had been a stranger to usB but the pleasures o8 love had been to us7 what the ;oy o8 victory is to an ar-y< repose7 re8resh-ent7 everything$ The ;ourney into the country being now entirely out o8 the =uestion7 and orders having been given over+night 8or turning the horses: heads towards %ondon7 we le8t the inn as soon as we had brea98asted7 not without a liberal distribu+ tion o8 the to9ens o8 -y grate8ul sense o8 the happiness 1 had -et with in it$ 6harles and 1 were in -y coach< the captain and -y co-+ panion in a chaise hir:d purposely 8or the-7 to leave us the conveniency o8 a tete+a+tete$ 0ere7 on the road7 as the tu-ult o8 -y senses was toler+ ably co-pos:d7 1 had co--and enough to head to brea9 properly to hi- the course o8 li8e that the conse=uence o8 -y separa+ tion 8ro- hi- had driven -e intoB which7 at the sa-e ti-e that he tenderly deplor:d with -e7 he was the less shoc9ed at< as7 on re8lecting how he had le8t -e circu-stanc:d7 he could not be entirely unprepar:d 8or it$ @ut when 1 opened the state o8 -y 8ortune to hi-7 and with that sincerity which7 8ro- -e to hi-7 was so -uch a nature in -e7 1 begg:d o8 hi- his acceptance o8 it7 on his own ter-s$ 1 should appear to you perhaps too partial to -y passion7 were 1 to atte-pt the doing his delicacy ;ustice$ 1 shall content -ysel8 then with assuring you7 that a8ter his 8latly re8using the unreserv:d7 unconditional donation that 1 long persecuted hi- in vain to accept7 it was at length7 in obedience to his serious co--ands (8or 1 stood out una88ectedly7 till he exerted the sovereign authority which love had given hi- over -e)7 that 1 yielded -y consent to waive the re-onstrance 1 did not 8ail o8 -a9ing strongly to hi-7 against his degrading hi-sel87 and incurring the re8lection7 however un;ust7 o8 having7 8or respects o8 8or+ tune7 barter:d his honour 8or in8a-y and prostitution7 in -a9ing one his wi8e7 who thought hersel8 too -uch honour:d in being but his -istress$ The plea o8 love then over+ruling all ob;ections7 6harles7 entirely won with the -erit o8 -y senti-ents 8or hi-7 which he could not but read the sincerity o8 in a heart ever open to hi-7 oblig:d -e to receive his hand7 by which -eans 1 was in pass7 a-ong other innu-erable blessings7 to

bestow a legal parentage on those 8ine children you have seen by this happiest o8 -atches$ Thus at length7 1 got snug into port7 where7 in the boso- o8 virtue7 1 gather:d the only uncorrupt sweetsB where7 loo9ing bac9 on the course o8 vice 1 had run7 and co-paring its in8a-ous blandish-ents with the in8initely superior ;oys o8 innocence7 1 could not help pitying7 even in point o8 taste7 those who7 i--ers:d in gross sensuality7 are insen+ sible to the so delicate char-s o8 D1(T437 than which even P%3.&4(3 has not a greater 8riend7 nor than D163 a greater ene-y$ Thus te-perance -a9es -en lords over those pleasures that inte-perance enslaves the- toB the one7 parent o8 health7 vigour7 8ertility7 cheer8ulness7 and every other desirable good o8 li8e< the other7 o8 diseases7 debility7 barrenness7 sel8+loathing7 with only every evil incident to hu-an nature$ /ou laugh7 perhaps7 at this tail+piece o8 -orality7 ex+ tracted 8ro- -e by the 8orce o8 truth7 resulting 8ro- co-+ par:d experiencesB you thin9 it7 no doubt7 out o8 place7 out o8 character< possibly too you -ay loo9 on it as the paltry 8inesse o8 one who see9s to -as9 a devotee to Dice under a rag o8 a veil7 i-pudently s-uggled 8ro- the shrine o8 DirtueB ;ust as i8 one was to 8ancy one:s sel8 co-pleatly disguised at a -as=uerade7 with no other change o8 dress than turning one:s shoes into slippers< or7 as i8 a writer should thin9 to shield a treasonable libel7 by concluding it with a 8or-al prayer 8or the Aing$ @ut7 independent o8 -y 8lattering -y+ sel8 that you have a ;uster opinion o8 -y sense and sincerity7 give -e leave to represent to you7 that such a supposition is even -ore in;urious to Dirtue than to -eB since7 consistently with candour and good+nature7 it can have no 8oundation but in the 8alsest o8 8ears7 that its pleasures cannot stand in co-parison with those o8 Dice< but let truth dare to hold it up in its -ost alluring lightB then -ar97 how spurious7 how low o8 taste7 how co-paratively in8erior its ;oys are to those which Dirtue gives sanction to7 and whose senti-ents are not above -a9ing even a sauce 8or the senses7 but a sauce o8 the highest relish< whilst Dices are the harpies that in8ect and 8oul the 8east$ The paths o8 Dice are so-eti-es strew:d with roses7 but then they are 8or ever in8a-ous 8or -any a thorn7 8or -any a can9er+wor-B those o8 Dirtue are strew:d with roses purely7 and those eternally un8ading ones$ 18 you do -e then ;ustice7 you will estee- -e per8ectly consistent in the incense 1 burn to Dirtue$ 18 1 have painted Dice in all its gayest colours7 i8 1 have dec9:d it with 8low+ ers7 it has been solely in order to -a9e the worthier7 the sole-ner sacri8ice o8 it7 to Dirtue$ /ou 9now 2r$ 6FFF 'FFF7 you 9now his estate7 his worth7 and good senseB can you7 will you pronounce it ill -eant7 at least o8 hi-7 when anxious 8or his son:s -orals7 with a view to 8or- hi- to virtue7 and inspire hi- with a 8ix:d7 a rational conte-pt 8or vice7 he condescended to be his -aster o8 the cere-onies7 and led hi- by the hand thro: the -ost noted bawdy+houses in town7 where he too9 care he should be

8a-iliarized with all those scenes o8 debauchery7 so 8it to nauseate a good tasteE The experi-ent7 you will cry7 is dangerous$ True7 on a 8oolB but are 8ools worth so -uch attentionE 1 shall see you soon7 and in the -ean ti-e thin9 candidly o8 -e7 and believe -e ever7 2.D.27 /ours7 etc$7 etc$7 etc$7 T03 3ND