1. Sombre it ends 2. For I am your man 3. But.. 4. Ist sight 5. My love II 6. Fickle loves slough 7. Patience 8. Zeal 9.

Will 10. Broken hearts 11. Providence 12. Elegy 13. Save the metal 14. Lifes manna 15. Intense 16. Love oh love 17. Meant to be 18. The break 19. Fallen to rise no more 20. Stung 21. Alone 22. Anger 23. The vanity of loves verve 24. For KP 25. Today saw tomorrow 26. My darling loneliness 27. Loves bereaved 28. Cut 29. Forever you 30. Times tale 31. Being 32. Sorrow we borrow 33. Vale 34. If only 35. The delay will I pay? 36. For KP II 37. My love I 38. Turmoil, Demur, Despair 39. Just friends 40. Entirely 41. Love nomads

42. Few knew 43. Pity loveF 44. Not so 45. For so long 46. Immensely immerse 47. Emotions lam 48. Impossible 49. My solo 50. Verse 51. Til I get hurt 52. Dedication 53. Why? 54. Empty without 55. For you 56. The fake I am 57. Lee 58. Free 59. Mile towards hell 60. Grace to the sinner 61. My Lord, My God 62. To God, not man 63. What you are

SOMBER IT ENDS Now, today I stand alone For you've left and you're gone All we hoped for was never done Because you couldn't love, but one Your heart has been totally turned And none has ever like this been spurned Much we surely should have learned Had you had not, all like that, burned Seeds when rotten grow into trees But as for us we couldnt sail the seas Maybe we couldnt afford loves fees For stung weve been by loves bees All along I thought it wouldnt end I just had forgot that wire could be bend I had thought our love would set a trend But I guess we couldnt wisely blend Now we have set ourselves apart For love has done nothing but depart From this union weve both played a part Somber it ends but it stays in my heart FOR I AM YOUR MAN A lee Ill provide When thee has nowhere else to hide I do hope you decide That forever with me you reside For I am your man Over this odd side Loneliness Ill forever deride For only with you Ill abide From this day on Ill be your aide For I am your man The two of us none will divide For love for you Ive plied With all my pride To you I now take stride For I am you man

Old memories have died As only you Ill now guide Through this dangerous ride Of loves vicious tide For I am you man BUT My whole heart I had given My whole love Id poured Sacrifices Id laid far ahead To be with you in all we trod I had wished to be with you Instead I all wanted to belong to you I was very ready for life ahead with you I even couldnt make my own plans For I was so in love with you, but Feelings for myself had vanished long back Into thin air as does the steam Like dew at the rising of the sun And all my emotions were directed to you As the suns rays to the universe I had wished to spend life with you To be with you everyday like weather I had set my eyes on no one else but you I was ready to see only you but 1 ST SIGHT Love at first sight Surely the greatest light Beams with vast might Seems its always right Indeed it daubs white Almost north-star bright Soars in mobelous height Its parachute belt tight Juicy as the first bite Eye-catching tourists site Never regressing in fight Steady [plod] starved of plight

Lacks all dark spite Only there to excite And loving memories ignite Love at first sight MY LOVE II My lips quiver To, what I feel, spill, fill your open ear So that right here you hear What kind of tunes my heart has composed See what terrine my love has moulded The field my mind has planted The portrait my emotions brush has endorsed All my fear my courage has molested in this moment As my incalculable, immense love I verge To without delay Speak out right now My emotions intensify To with aplomb, in a larghetto explode So that without la-di-da I spill The juices of my most pure feelings Which only thirsty lips need take in The sap that my tree of love sheds The passions I reveal from the most deep That Ive baked since the day that I met you That I truly, on you, wish to sprinkle And without delay Speak out right now FICKLE LOVES SLOUGH Love is but ephemeral Mine envisage doeth stands Love speeds us inveigh into it An inveigle tongue it doeth uses Love has proved no ligature It spends away like the night at dawn Love a bosom under radiance Fades away like daylight at dusk Love art giveth me no refuge Piteous to me you might be But love with all my might I know

Plentitude of heart I speak with Love cant surely befriend men An alien to men it does stand Love deserves no mans pity For in tears it has left many a man Love then stands inconstant An incomplete trip love poses Love: from your regale I refrain Fickle loves slough PATIENCE Womens love comes slow Forgive me I aint their foe Once love boiled in mine heart Confused ,I fell from its steam The victim I loved I informed Actions spoke louder as conformed Starved of love I then stood As pace she took at own accord Love me as much as I thee with plentitude of heart as does me This she dared not attempt But rather ooze she chose to Womens love trickles slowly To fill the glass man holds boldly Ere he can lay back And drink to the fullness of her devotion ZEAL Maybe I love too much For the disappointment also is too much The hurt I feel stands too much Yes I love ,but more than Im loved And so from the chains of hurt Im not saved Maybe I expect too much If love on its own is surely too much Indeed I also feel Im too much To the one that I care for so greatly

I feel I shouldnt be into it so zesty Maybe emotions in love mustnt be too much For the onus as a result is too much My hopes for love are maybe too much Too much that no one can truly cope up I dont know, maybe love is no close up I wish I knew love I wish I knew how to love I wish someone taught me what love is WILL Even the actual discovery of the moon Cant match mine of you I aint going to look any further For, you ,my angel ,will always ,be here Like your shadow ,Ill be yours forever Every time I tell you I love you I feel like Ill almost break down and cry For this is different from anything I ever felt I pray and hope itll never end I fantasize and dream that it wont destroy us For I can and will do anything for you But sometimes I miss you so much So much that I almost think its over But this strengthens me and I keep holding on To the words that you told me when we first kissed I wish its not a dream that well awake from But if its indeed a dream I hope only that it comes true For you are the only one , Im looking nowhere else I love you always BROKEN HEARTS Broken hearts bleed They exist, trees bearing no seed Murder me if, but now , I lie For love I dare to defy A broken heart ,be not my prize For love I gave with no size Grief comes nearer to lodge Tears never run dry

Memories never seize to fly Depression, seems loves blood Passion, lives as the bud Love, you arent fair I dare thee over there Your promise was not true Not many love drops but a few With nothing on which to feed Broken hearts bleed PROVIDENCE Providence ejaculated On many ,a soul Dumpens the human walls That stand on lifes poverty Providence vomited Upon loves floor Casts all upsets Into vanitys sarcophagus Providence teardropped On un-expecting cheeks Calls for nothing more Than a shunny handkerchiefs wipe ELERGY Thee was mine lollipop, a daisy Cherish do I to be with thee With thee amiss life isnt easy For thee was the cream in my coffee My sunshine where art thou be? Thee shone all day and took care till death snatched thee away from me and hid thee over there Oh greedy death has mauled thee with dare Desperate grave has drank thee down Death has made thee pay thine last fare For thine final tour to the last town Everlasting tears ,my eyes do vomit

Seek to pace ,do I ,on deaths street SAVE THE METAL Our love has eroded Indeed I can see the rust Eating away at the strongest metals That we alloy into our lovethe ferrous love galvanize we should have, long back but now time runs far ahead Misunderstandings erosion Gullies on this loves field The more the days ,we open arms to Tantamounts the storms on this field We watch as they wash away This love which is like sand Who has power over fate? LIFES MANNA Down lifes throat Is the journey Of which Minds never thought Indeed we stand ,lifes favorite food Maybe its dessert Maybe its wine We sometimes, indeed make Life drunk Belly-scratching-itchy full But life never gets full As it picks each of us From this scullery stained plate And squeezes us through its lips Into tomorrow Masticating us Into the future Of its stomach Before relieving itself of us In the chamber Of death

INTENSE Day in day out, tensely Anxiously ,with itching heart I wait As the horizon waits patiently to swallow The sun ,daily with its open jaws Will I ever get the chance Will I unleash my heart thence? Love indeed is painful if kept inside For it ticks fast like a time bomb Waiting to escape fast ,but in me trapped As I never get the chance with you Will I ever get the chance Will I unleash my heart thence ? My love for thee has rapidly built This enormous tower in the town of my heart Which mushrooms within my being A planet that draws close to yours gradually Will I ever get the chance Will I unleash my heart thence? My last chance this might be Ere I never see you again Like a hero ,an impression, is what Im bound to set But thin air Im grasping ,the pain revolves Will I ever get the chance Will I unleash my heart thence? LOVE, OH LOVE Love needs no introduction Love feeds on affection Love cooks up inspiration Love looks for consummation Love lacks no possession Love takes any invitation Love presents an attraction Love resents all desolution Love steams with passion Love seems a speculation Love seeks a foundation Love peaks on sensation

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Love abides in devotion Love hides in passion Love holds a decoration Love folds in contribution Love can make penetration Loves den dedication Love cools in determination Love fools all indignation Love surely isnt humiliation Love purely lacks determination Love holds its portion Love fails no nation MEANT TO BE Like a nimbus rushing to rendezvous Like the river chasing after the terrain Mountains elephant-ing down on low-land-forms Birds innate sky-souring Lovers are meant to be Like the suns daily embrace of this earth Animals ability to scent Fishs survival in earths seas Trees hairing the earths surface Grasses moustaching insular valleys Love is always meant to be It wont be if it isnt Meant to be Like day and nights antagonism Like floods underlining of the antediluvian Collateral life and deaths infinity Mornings exordium to the day Lovers are meant to be Like bloods inevitable trips to the heart Days and weeks marathon into centuries Gravitys fetters on Mother Nature Stars flowering the skys gardens The higgledy-piggledy at suns eclipse Love is always meant to be It wont be if it wasnt Meant to be

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THE BREAK To believe in love again I wont True love to deserve I think I dont For indeed Im not so special As in what someone must be loved for What do I have to deserve love? Sometimes I feel down low For the reason I truly cant find Not that Im a murderer or what But that I just find it hard to carry Maybe its that Ive been hurt too much Maybe its that Im always let down By those that I give my all to By those that I execute sacrifice for I think I was meant to be alone For now in love I no longer trust For when people always let you down In you they see nothing that suits love They see nothing thats really worth it And so now I believe what they see My belief in love now fades away Like steam as the hot water cools To believe in love again, I wont FALLEN TO RISE NO MORE Fallen is the leaf from the tree Something never wished to be A lollipop swept from its stick By the ravenous tongues lick Forever together we surely cant stay For with dripping love I leave today This day the ground I stand on sways But your hand my heart holds always Higher than mountains, plans I had For a citadel to be erected ahead For our hearts to be clamped together So that between us wouldnt come another All matrimonial thoughts hued up vanity For nature cant allow us this unity Natures evil spirits have separated us Whats the use giving love a fuss?

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Goodbye now my darling my love In me you stand always my she dove To miss you I cant surely prevent For this separation truly leaves a dent Even though away I now take stride My heart with you will forever abide The wound heals the scar remains Your soft heart my soul always maintains Erase you from my heart, no one will Forever in my heart, you shall remain still STUNG Squeal was the least I could do When long back stung by loves scorpion I was It was a swollen wound as loves poison reacted In my own blood driving in juvenility Itchy it became as the days mumbled by To scratch I thought was the only remedy But the venom was surely an internal toiler So feeble had loves labour made me That to faint was now a predictable destiny Love had got its grips on me plugged in As it crawled over my helpless conscience With its tail raised up high aping ego It then scanned around weary masked Heaving silently I slept my eyes half closed As I experienced this virulent liquid Circulate my own anatomic veins That I was so vulnerable seemed so far But this second sting proved inevitable With a shrill, sweat trickled down my forehead As I felt the sting sink deeper into my flesh And deposit yet another quantity Subdued by this unexpected invasion of unconsciousness I shut my eyes Who shall open them for me? Who shall be my savior?

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ALONE Today when I really needed someone to touch You were not there Today when I truly wanted to be held You were not present Today when I really itched for your kiss You were never found Today when I truly wanted to say how I felt You were nowhere near Today when I really wanted to see your face You were never at hand Today when I truly wanted to smell your scent You were somewhere else Today when I really wanted to hear your voice You were never audible Today when I truly wished to see your eyes You were never visible Today when I really needed to lie by your side You were so unavailable Today when I truly wanted to pour my soul You were surely not here Today when I really wanted to feel your love You were never here to love Today for the first time when I was really sure You were not here for me ANGER Irate With hate That has never been late To decide the fate Right here at disputes gate I now held the plate From which rage and fury I picked up and ate THE VANITY OF LOVES VERVE Constant stood my love for thee Flowing as an ever-flowing stream But repel you rather chose to As the river flees from the mountains Thee fled from mine love

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A tender loving touch I offered thee My hand I leased when thee stumbled But thee flew away from me As a dry leaf escapes the twig Thee denied my love hospice To impress thee with love I tried But thee was too shy to show yours And glitter with me in your eyes That I couldnt be yours Was all that thine heart thrived to forward Showing them that I loved thee was mine goal As the stem feeds the bud Until it has fully blossomed my love fought thee But thee chose to whither to the sun My flower bowed to obey the suns radiance As the stunned sun watches The clouds overshadow the earth I now stand To whom shall I give my love When thee was the only one I ever opened loves doors to FOR KP Today now I sit and ponder On what not so long ago occurred yonder Which my memories recurrently re-bake I wonder That I vividly picture in my mind Disregarding much agony Indeed my love for you once stood stern Rock of Gibraltar, seems nearly strong Slumber I never had real mind for then For my love for you had been Compactly packed into the shelves of my heart That today I under siege unveil Siege of affection My eyes had once for long been closed shut My senses my feelings were fettered in a hut My own prosecution I accept no but For indeed the flower had blossomed but it For you I didnt pick, To you I never gave And it withered in my hand But slowly clandestinely you learned to like me

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But the arid flower I still held Today that I know that your love aint low I know also that my love into your field Ill sow if its indeed no ones field For it now boils in my soul The memories of loss Surely I cant handle for the only other The withered flower is what I regret But once handled TODAY SAW TOMORROW Today I saw her with him They say she was shouting at him For its no one else but him I stay calm with my heart in hand For time indeed is ticking away on me The countdown continues daily I try but cant stop thinking of it That its happening to me I cant stand I just trust the lordll help me Worse off my friends talk of it to me They ask if it might happen to me Much fear ignites within me Why do they speak such omens? I really wouldnt stand such an event I dont want it to devour me I know it could destroy my life I wish I could do something to help it Something more than pray and wait For I think of it everyday And even tomorrow and the day after for Today I saw her with him MY DARLING LONELINESS It wasnt love at first sight But another of my languid bites That began with our eyes They were deeply sunk Evaporated, locked Lost in confidential conversation At this first meeting Your lips, tyre tubes Mine itched to kiss As I was apprehended and locked

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In the dungeon of my approval of Your stature - appealing stature Right then your lips tore Into the most scintillating Scathful smile which rained The much needed confidence Courage On my dry field of withered feeling Then I knew I had fallen in love with you Your thighs I shall forever fondle My darling loneliness LOVES BEREAVED Be it by accident or indeed by suicide Yet another heart today goes down As love has left nothing but noble remembrance Today loves undertaker has set to inter Yet another loves corpse into this but shallow grave Indeed between them love had died a vein death For sorrow could be speculated in their eyes As they held the spade and tossed the gravel As they paid their last respects to a love That had always been gentle and warm But then suddenly had turned pale and ill Then after intensity bowed to death Yes true tears indeed have been at times shed But not as much as on the death of such Such a great soldier of all times That had won many and suffered only a few That had brought them together when so apart That had known them when so alienated Today indeed they have paid their final honors As this death does nothing but put them asunder again CUT Utter doeth they the first cut is the deepest but to tour love again I dread the second cut Amuse such a thought I would dare not For once I Victim to heartbreaks sojourn fell

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What mind befriended me Than that suicides oh a sorrow God save my soul god save my soul Eccentric it is Heartbreak is no friend to joy Rather a faithful to distress Like two cousins they do stand Then better love-in joy than love-enjoy Then when heartbreak wrecks again The cut wont be as deep FOREVER YOU A glance at thee Makes me forever happy Had I known youd come Wait was all I really should have That day we met My heart will never forget Surely what urged me on Was the way you spoke to me then That it would be Something more than love Never occurred to me then But day by day after I fell for you My heart tells me That Ive found the answer To smear on me good dreams Pursue all my previous dubious nightmares Cling to you I will And never let go thee Not that its in the beauty But the something that ticks in you Amazing grace how sweet Forever when thee is not Here to cuddle with me Ill be missing you Forever you

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TIMES TALE Yesterday once wore todays jacket And in todays shoes modeled modestly Shoes that were nice fitting to last week But had become too small for last month This shirt we have nicely ironed And made ready for tomorrow to wear Was actually left by last year Whom last decade offered it to When the color he didnt like But the question is will tomorrow like it ,will he indeed like the food that today left over? BEING Alive Striving to live And leaving no leaf unturned In this lovely lively life Is now the air I breath The language I speak The music I hear and The footstep I imprint As I cycle this bicycle of being SORROW WE BORROW To the one that I loved so much But whom my love denied I indeed sorry am that I ever wooed you I truly regret the words I ever told you I truly regret the words I ever told you I thought had I had you life would have me I surely let my feelings stray too far I let my loves seeds carelessly geminate Indeed my emotions did me great harm The pain surely is my own should be mine For the feelings are mine the heart is mine But all I could do was fail to tame Indeed the heart burns furiously inside Because of the flame no one else set but me I set myself ablaze Now the fire chars me indeed chars me down Fire of rejection fire unquenchable

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But its been my entire fault For fetter my emotions I could but not My heart no one else has to mend but me My tongue ravenously licks my wounds That my hungry love has but fetched In your forbidden field where I wish I had never trod Where Ill never again Step VALE If it cant be then surely understand If it wasnt meant then I cant put a hand But hearing it from your lips is a relief It has saved me from almost utmost grief Remember my love is here always That I loved you must always cast a ray On your own memory that has today decided To end this love in which we have resided The gap you leave today, in me, is large 'coz I don't think I'll ,my love, to anyone, ever discharge For today, you take my everything with you And, in me, pain has done nothing, but hue If this stands today as my fate Then forlorn, I stand and it's never been late Nothing, I do now, but accept the facts of life With mine reluctant heart, I take it, another rife Adieu my darling my love, my myth Today you have cast my love nowhere, but beneath And this day stands the peg to our love's era For today, your lips said farewell, without any terror. IF ONLY If only I had known of my fate I wouldnt have even tempered with you If only I hadnt discovered so late I wouldnt have dug in this dip If only I hadnt been so down for you I wouldnt today be so confused If only I had never met you

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I wouldnt be hurting so much today If only I could have the future foreseen I would have quit right at the start If only you genuinely cared for me within You wouldnt have pained me this much THE DELAY ~ WILL I PAY My clandestine love I knit into This romance which one day I Wish to wear with you Incertitude I dont kindle ,for my love; For you is like cancer that grows Inside of me All the incendiary of my heart I blame indeed on you Im sure our eyes have spoken a lot And sagaciously resolved What my lips and yours Have yet to My love leaven ferments Languidly daily In my heart Until the day Ill pour It on you to shandy Imbibe and vomit Upon my soul FOR KP II From the first layer of my pair of eyes Cast upon you to the last memory My mono-mind shovels for you My love has never for you decreased Young and tender once I was and so were you Then when two young nestlings top fly we hadnt yet learnt but by then I saw my future In the twinkle of your eyes Even ere we neared the touch line To sport in the races of love The franchise to your heart I had purchased But only to announce is what I profilically shied to Now hundreds of miles away I realize The gap between us So I wish to halt and Spoon-feed my heart into your souls open mouth That I loved only you, love you

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And will wait eternity In love with you MY LOVE I Not even a flower holds such fragrance Even a perfume couldnt stand a chance The scent of your body really licks me To hold you forever Id pay any fee Your eyes pierce my melting own Warmth in them has been carefully grown And tilled in faith just as your own name Really love to you isnt a game Those lips nothing has ever been softer Kiss them Ill always remember long after May those kisses pour forever On my own lips which do endeavor Where actually were you all my life? Maybe one day you shall be my wife As I see love and care you do possess Being faithful is part of the process Love for you I have in store always I hope that none of us sways For, you are the, North Star, in my life Your love has pierced me like a knife Thoughts of you roam my mind daily I hope one day I wont feel aily I have really fallen in love with you There is no one but me to sue See through my heart, I hope you could For love you always I really should Your value is more than a sterling I love you so much my darling I wish we throw away the past Sweetheart lets make this one last

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TURMOIL, DEMUR, DESPAIR Turmoil the early sign of the rising sun In the oriental squares of a perfect love That has for so long been paddled by the legs Of devotees and enhanced by the appealing Conditions of lifes atmosphere Turmoils clouds overshadow as the sky sets For an emotional tempest that nature cant tame A tempest that possesses an inconceivable demur Demur the antipathy of an almost sacred love Composes undiverged attention to the turmoil That has had this love to be like water Slipping through ones fingers Lack of execution of proper judgement has Called for this dismal contact which today Completes the circuit of irregular love handling Despair the last resolution the apogee of The human mind drives and parks confidently Into ones mind at ease so much that The human mind has lost all control Despair pegs up its land cultivates and Gets ready to blow out the last candle that gleams In the human emotion and Close their door to love life JUST FRIENDS Just to be your friend Is what I wish for without pretence Just to know you and like you Is what I strive for in every chance Indeed I come in love and not hate I truly like you and want to show Just to talk to you would sooth my loneness Just to hear you voice would quench This fire that has my soul charred The fear you resemble of me Definitely digs me the grave For just friend ship is what I seek And I reverie to hold One day with you

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ENTIRELY Well if this is what they call head over heels I myself am totally off my wheels As there cant pass a day without noon Thinking of you is what I cant miss The pain of not seeing you at all Is surely thirsty lips amid the dry land The misery of not even hearing from you Has troubled me day and night Everyday I live through imagination I dont even know how you do how youre surviving Over this side Ill forever always toil On the fact that youre still alive You might never know the pain Im going through Because my heart fell for you Well if this is what they call head over heels I myself am totally off my wheels LOVE NOMADS Love nomads they heel they hurt With you they are for as long as What they want they get Love nomads they feel they forget For what they really seek for They truly cant even forecast Love nomads they care they bare With them youve no shelter To guaranteee safety for life Love nomads theyre here theyre there Lack of proper-direction-digestion, Is the food of their thought.

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FEW KNEW Many things men has done but love Never done on earth as it is above The lady she was this era cant describe Eyes saw only the flesh her heart knew more Betrayal was her food cool and never rush A reflection in water surely a bias That she belonged to all knew except her For action spoke louder as pronounced He was down to earth loves disciple But surely Eros is an earthly love Cupid had struck his genuine heart But the truth only the chosen few knew For him and her matrimony was at hand Wed- the final guarantee that they belonged But only her heart knew and it knew What sets free A month only was that in the way Between separation or holy union A chameleon on a green leaf is never red She was indeed climbing other branches too Only the chosen few knew the chameleon she was All wished he only knew that eros Is but an earthly love and that eros Was what she was NOT SO If you think I cant deny you Then youre wrong For indeed Im just fighting For this to last long If you think Im in your fetters To err you prolong For Im safe in libertys hands My heart stands strong If you think I cant do without you Youre straying along For the world doesnt stop it goes on Its like a song If you think I truly cant find another To you I dont belong

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For further forward I can still urge on My life says ding-dong PITY LOVE That you met him ailing mustnt be the advent That she is poor surely cant be you reason That she is so lonely shouldnt be the genesis Why should you love out of pity That death is around his corner stands no ground That she was dumped cant be your base That depression is scorning him isnt a stem Why should you love out of pity That you sympathize with her cant be a slab That you wish him happiness mustnt be the trap That you wish he had someone is no backbone Why should you love out of pity Love rooted on pity is but a little pretty For in it many have loved many have paid Fresh flowers we love but to die they cant aid Why should you love out of pity FOR SO LONG Lifes most painful wait loves queue Has got me tortured intensely as my mind Adorned in the coat of suspense waits Not impatiently for the truth you keep To yourself for so long The truth that I gentlemanly must stand Be it in the shoes of my favor or not Calmly this fibless response I must take but Minutes can turn into years and hours into decades As the truth you keep to yourself for so long Be it you love me or not let the sun shine For even if its covered by the clouds it finally shows Hearts have to stand even these emotional gales That are attributed offsprings of the truth You keep to yourself for so long Even though the truth shall pierce my heart

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I shall pretend as though it never rained on me But deep inside my heart will merit the miss The denial by your heart-the truth That you keep to yourself for so long Even though the truth shall nurse my hearts wounds I truly cant this long wait stand For only you is what I want and what I cant Forcefully squeeze from the truth You keep to yourself for so long IMMENSELY IMMERSE Gleaming perhaps seeming Yet another glow demensed Loves fireplace where We shiveringly and lonely Hubble-bubblingly crept To The warmth brushes us impasto As day after day nictates by Love has imbrued us imbued us And forever we really miss To stroll with Too EMOTIONS LAM A virgin I was Until I raped was by love Dressed in his romantic coat My screams were vain inaudible As love pinned me to the ground Pulled out And thrust deeper its penis of feeling into me So crock I became as love subdued In its ecstatic rhythm My jostles sank deeper into the soil Became careless whispers and died Into growled grouch echoes My hands love had nailed to the ground With the grip of his coarse fingers A small tribule of a labourers sweat Trickled down the land of loves forehead Flew and splashed on my cheek

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Then I knew I was pregnant With loves child IMPOSSIBLE My apologetic misery Urinated on top of your Undyingly faithful soul Bore no fruits at all For so blackened was your heart Impossible you said it is Like mowing down quartz Chewing down a baobab tree I try to plough the words Im sorry into your ears But they rather stand stony fields My heart- a book wide open to read But your eyes have lost all focus You have erased and cast aside the pen Torn out and creased This leaf out of your encompassed mind My epitaph I now read For we all know what grave entering means Another chance is impossible MY SOLO Indeed Im alone But I wish to be very alone To be in a world of my own If anything at all I own Privacy the meal of an ennuy Is the food I seek more than food The drink I wish to imbibe me The poison I wish to intoxicate me For life is nothing to me To trust anyone I surely cant anymore For everyone always brings you down So indeed I wish to be alone

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VERSE Delicate sforzando Deliberately spherical When we explain What requires to be plain ********************* Verse With much yes Is nothing but a guess Until we truly face ********************* Alone with nothing I own As on the day I was born I am the bone Waiting for the earths jaws To chew me down ********************* Drunken drunks drunk They drink down All the beer That Drinks down All the soberness Out of their sane minds TIL I GET HURT I really dont want you anymore I surely want you out of my life But something in me keeps holding on Something keeps fighting for you in my heart I really know you shall hurt me one day I know this wind shall blow my heart away But something keeps telling me to hold on Something in me zeals to keep with you Im sure enough that I shall be destroyed Indeed destroyed by this so shaky love But you small candle still burns in me Like the last glows of a dying fire I really want to stop loving you and go on I really want to forget and see tomorrow But something tells me you are the one Something in me still wants you so much I really know youll cause me a heartbreak I truly want to bid you farewell

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But a small piece of my heart cant let go And so Ill keep holding on til the day I get hurt DEDICATION Charming as much as you are Changing my life day by day you Challengingly have set me on fire Charred have I been by my desire for you Championed have I been by my love for you that Cheerfully I accept how feeble I am Dearer youve become to me as Daringly I wait for the next challenge Daily I have learned to adore you and Driven by emotion I continue to prosper Due to the fuel you pump into me Dampened I am and like this I wish to stay WHY? Today I start yet another year Alone I am and lonely the same Flowers have petals for a sake Yet I the stigma in the open stands Daily I irk for your love But the rain clouds never in the sky gather The stream never at all flows A barren tree now I stand My flowers have fallen down The pain cuts through my heart As my magnet cant pick you up If just waiting serves this much pain Then a heartbreak costs a life My loves boiling kettle Ive laid And knit no intention to retain But in silence still you remain Silence is surely an assassin For today you have my heart tortured

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EMPTY WITHOUT Life without love life empty it is For reason within it one cant find Darker than the starless moonless night it is As it excels vastly in this vacuumness Its indeed a road leading to nowhere A road with no sign of a signpost Arid it is and starved of natural joys Messy a life it might be but its truly no life at all Life without love life empty it is Direction and satisfaction it cant provide A desert it is where thirst cant be quenched Truly a cell a dungeon from the outside world Everyday you pen down memories on a sheet Of your mind memories whose flowers are fruitless And everyday you ponder the insanity of being alone Yet alone is what you alone can change Life without love life empty it is For aim in its arrow there is none For no one cares for you and you for none Its indeed a poverty stricken hungry stomach Which succeeds only in sending groans and sighs A smoke which only conquers by bringing tears to eyes Miles and miles from the destination it is As the transport to this point you cant find FOR YOU Love has never been in such a way been done For mine for you is just of its own kind Love has never in such a way a soul kissed For what I feel for you I truly on my own cant understand This feeling has been dug in deeper And daily the boil enlarges in my soul Love has never in such a way enjoyed being an emotion For the way I execute it for you Even Romeo missed by inches Daily the bacteria eats away and all my other feelings Destroys as only my love for you it wishes to see In its intestines Even from the bone marrow oozed love is and Indeed its cells feel only for you Love has never in such a way been done

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THE FAKE I AM Indeed the fake I am For even though the knife touches my heart I wont the word stammer For burning inside the burden Ill have to carry Even though my throat your emotions squeeze And to suffocate attempt Even though the bad breathe of my deeds to me Spoil the oxygen to my nostrils Though the tears are knocking at their doors I in your presence wont the keys hand to them Though inside I hide the jar of ire I wont show for a band of smile Ill always wear Indeed the fake I amInside I feel pains sword shamelessly torchering me My heart stays amidst always saying its my fault That the onus I must eternally hoist For reasons only my soul has furthered to study So like a dictator my anger I suppress My pain under this shield I hide and so My tears that relieve me in all in the end fall Indeed the fake I am_ LEE Lee With you Im meant to be For like you no one will I ever see On earth even in the sea Your love I wouldnt exchange for a cup of tea For only for it Id give a plea That it forever rains on me Until the future raises its tee On yours me FREE The lord had locked my heart From love, put fetters around my feet Roped me to a tree a distance away from emotion But never in my life had I dreamt That you would be the one to Request the keys from his hands Never did I think that someone like you could free me

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All the power you held in your hands And up to now to me its like a dream The lord had locked my heart for a reason And you unlocked me for one too You freed me from the chains of loneliness and The ropes of depression Now your path Ill follow Your love I drink and with you Eternity Ill search... WHAT YOU ARE When in loneliness youre always there for me When in blind-folded-ness you always make me see When in need you always give love for no fee For you are the lord thatll always be My lord risen is thee up above To me you give nothing else but love With you here always I surely wont starve For with your grace I now live the dove Your love surpasses all these mountains And my sinful nature it always sustains Your love dear lord carries not even the stains For pure it always is and thus always remains Oh your love Ill forever suckle And when sleepy Ill in your lap always nestle Today in you nothing Ive done but settle For the love you give is true and forever ample Many souls my lord you have always saved When the devil had almost all their hopes shaved Your love we surely never ever deserved For our flesh always has sins in it reserved But you are the savior who is never far And to lifes cruising ship you provide the spar Your love for men not even a hand can bar For my lord you are what you are

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TO GOD, NOT MEN Maybe I deserve this My prize for loving men more than God The Lord seeks my worship for him More than my love for men Gods love does stand Not any man can in Gods way love God gives men no heartbreak at all For he art love and gives love To men I gave love But as the broom eagerly licks away the litter They brushed away mine love for them Stranded I then stood agap Now in safe hands In the eternal love of God I thankfully abide Love men more than God I never will For when they broke my heart God offered me another MY LORD, MY GOD My Lord my grace To me thou art pose no menace Men cant thine love give In thou only I believe Upon thy heavenly abode My soul seeks to be on-board Thou didst wash off my sin New life in thee I begin Virgilant do I stand Prayers through Jesus I now send The Holy Ghost does the job With thee I have no sob As a fish in the sea I now reside in thee

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GRACE TO THE SINNER O devil Again thou artest got me vulnerable Sin I do indulge in again Repent I doest again Lord save me with thine grace With forgiveness polish me my lord Strength I think I possess To Satan Im still exposed Righteous living I now seek Your love holy ghost protect me My heart laments sorrow Much the sinner I always live Mine flesh is pure sin Mine spirit cries for the lord My God thou art the greatest Risen up high is thee save my soul But continue to sin doest I Surely I reside in shame The hell flesh is made of I now sternly refuse to give ear Thine sanctification holy lord saved me O devil now to thee alone hells gates open For today my Lord hath given Grace to the sinner MILE TOWARDS HELL My life goes down the gorge To do nothing there but lodge As daily Im gnawed by sins jaws I indeed break the Lords laws Im the greatest sinner ever to live For sin everyday I give a heave My day has turned dark, so gloomy As the devils approach seems loomy Pride in sin I surely dont hold But the devil always finds me easy to fold.

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