DEATH A CONSCIOUS DISSOLUTION INTO TOTALITY

‘DEATH’
CONSCIOUS DISSOLUTION
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TOTALITY
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DEATH
CONSCIOUS DISSOLUTION
INTO

TOTALITY
TAOSHOBUDDHA
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DEEP WITHIN YOU IS THE BUDDHA!

BUDDHAHOOD IS YOUR NATURE!

AND

TO LIVE IN YOUR NATURE IS

MEDITATION

‘MEDITATION IS CELEBRATION!
CELEBRATION OF
CONSCIOUSNESS! And
CELEBRATION OF BEING!’
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Meditation means removing all your prejudices,

putting all your conclusions aside, seeing without any
hindrance, seeing without any curtains, seeing clearly
without any mediation of any thought, seeing without
Buddha standing between you and reality, or Krishna,
or Christ.

Osho: the Dhammapada: The Way of the Buddha, Vol 12

MEDITATION means you have experienced ‘ONENESS’

within. A oneness that gives a vision the CREATOR and
the CREATION are one.

Meditation gives you the taste of your being.

Meditation leads first to dissolution into your being

and then dissolution into cosmic being. This is
beginning of Samadhi or Satori. You come to realize
that the entire creation is floating in Divine Placenta.

In that state the meditator finds, all Buddhas are one

as they have reached to the same source where life
has once evolved. This realization is Satori – a window
into Totality. It takes a while before this realization
settles. As this realization settles one attains to
SAMADHI.
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First, love gives you unity in your

innermost core. Then you are no
more a body. No more a mind, no
more a soul.

You are simply one. Unnamed,

undefined, unclassified! No more
determinate, definable, no more
comprehensible.

A mystery, a joy, a surprise,

jubilation, and a great celebration!
A BEING ALONE!

This is taste of your being. At this

point Healing happens.

This is MEDITATION!
Meditation the ultimate in healing by Taoshobuddha
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The teaching of the Buddhas is: Find

time and a place to remain unoccupied.
That's what meditation is all about.

Find at least one hour every day to sit

silently doing nothing, utterly
unoccupied, just watching whatsoever
passes by inside.

In the beginning you will be very sad,

looking at things inside you; you will
feel only darkness and nothing else,
and ugly things and all kinds of black
holes appearing. You will feel agony,
no ecstasy at all.

But if you persist, persevere, the day

comes when all these agonies
disappear, and behind the agonies is
the ecstasy.
Osho: The Book of Wisdom, Chapter 17
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DEATH IS CELEBRATION

HOW A SHEIKH SHOULD LEAVE

THE WORLD is the realization of
this awareness.
yh Kya raj hE saik@ mSt beoud

ik Ab tUne cZme #nayt hqa lI

vhI mykda hE mgr sUna sUna

vhI jamae mIna mgr oalI oalI

#nayt ka r<g Aaj bdla huAa hE

vh hE< ya< jama bdl kr bEQe hu@

jra Apne cZme hkIkI se deoae

n yh jam oalI n vaeh jam oalI.

What is this secret that physically you are no
more? Everything is same yet still something has
changed. Toda the form or the nature of grace is
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different. Look at things through your inner vision

and you will find no place devoid of that SUBTLE
PRESENCE!

Life is the beginning. And death is considered as the end.

Life and death are two sides of the same coin. Or these
are two ends of life’s tunnel. One end is life and the other
is death. I am not calling these as entrance and exit. The
entrance and exit are meaningful only in relation to the
realm you are in. For example you are in a room then
this is your realm. Going out of the room will be exit and
vice versa. On the other hand if the room door opens
into another area which is your realm. Then what meant
to be exit in relation to the room will mean entry in
relation to the other area.

So too is the case of life and death. Or journey from one

realm to another! You are entering form the known to
the unknown or the subtle one.

One unfolds into the other. Life/death is the door to

beyond. Life and death are like a door sign which has on
one side written ‘Life’ and ‘Death’ on the other side. As
an individual you have to go beyond both life and death
only then you can one day attain to fruition. If life is a
yagna as Hindus call their way of ritualistic worship
then death is the culmination or the final offering in that
holy sacrificial fire of life – the ultimate.

Death will determine how you have lived your life full of
awareness or unconsciousness. If you have wasted your
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life in useless pursuits of duality, conflict, and negation

of life force then life has been a waste. Then in the
moments of death there will be fear, pain and loss. On
the other hand if life has been full of awareness then you
will exit from the life joyfully, full of awareness, singing
and dancing. Life of such a man of awareness is a
blessing and death is even a bigger blessing –
benediction.

Remember when a master – a man of awareness leaves

the world tremendous energy is released. And if you are
aware you can be enlightened that very moment. The
life energy that was encaged within the narrowness of
the body-mind realm is now being released. Normally
your awareness is only that of the body-mind realm so
we continue to lament at such an occasion. And you
forget all your scriptures and sermons that soul never
dies.

This has not become part of your awareness and inner

growth. Anything that remains on the surface can never
transform you. And even you make efforts to remember
this you will forget. For any teaching to be part of your
awareness first has to grow within you as part of your
growth. Only then it will evolve from deep within. This
alone can transform you and give you moment to
moment awareness of that which is. In the absence your
efforts will prove futile.

Tasuwware sheikh - Taoshobuddha

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Desirelessness is the path that leads to the experience of

totality. It leads to the experience of the immortal
within.

However each one of us is inflicted by myriad desires.

Desires imply life. Desires continue to plague human
mind in a continuum. This is chain reaction. One leads to
the other. And the process continues unabated. And
Desirelessness is the state of life beyond. Or what we
generally call as death.

Before I take you through this composition and the

process of Tasawwuf something of the composer!

This is one of the compositions of Mirza Ghalib. In this

he has brought out the falsafa of life. Mirza Asadullah
Baig Khan, Ghalib a great classical Urdu and Persian
poet of the Indian subcontinent was born in Agra during
the terminal period of Mughal rule on 27 December
1796. He is considered to be the most popular and
influential poet of the Urdu language. Ghalib today
remains popular amongst Urdu speakers not only in
India and Pakistan but also amongst diaspora
communities around the world. Ghālib means dominant.
This is the pen name that he used.

He had seven children but none survived. This pain

echoes in some of Ghalib's ghazals. He died on 15
February 1869. The house where he lived in Gali Qasim
Jaan, Ballimaran, Chandni Chowk, in Delhi, has now been
turned into 'Ghalib Memorial' and houses a permanent
exhibition on him.
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hjarae< Ovaihze @esI ik hr Ovihz pe dm inkle

bhut inkle mere Arman leikn i)r -I km inkle.

Life and death are two poles of existence. Death is more

total and significant than life. Life is just trivial and
superfluous. Death is far deeper! Through death you
grow into real life. And through life you can only reach
death. Life is a continuous journey. All that you
understand by life is desire just a journey towards
death. The entire life is a journey of desire and nothing
else. Once you know that life is just a journey, and then
you will be less interested in life. Your interest in death
will increase. Once you are interested in death, you can
delve deeper in life. You will not want to remain on the
circumference.

Life implies desire. Desire to live! Desire to be in every

possible way! Desirelessness implies being closed to the
outer world of duality. This is conscious death. This is
death through Maraqba. It is only in death that you
resurrect.

By nature you cannot be interested in death. In every

possible way, you want to escape death. You are afraid
of death. What is the reason? You have made our life a
garden, while you have completely deserted the domain
of death. And everyone is afraid of moving from an oasis
to a desert. Death is not far. It is now and here. We are
dying every moment. It is true physiologically,
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psychologically, and emotionally. Every moment cells

die in our body and in their place new cells are born.
Human skin constantly changes. While we are dying, we
continue to be concerned about life. Such concern about
life is just a deep concern, a fear. Death is right there. It
is deep inside. And not only there but is growing
constantly.

What you need to do is take an 180-degree turn. When

you are concerned with death, then life will unfold a new
meaning to you. Once you are at ease with death,
without any fear you enter into a deathless life. A life of
tranquility and bliss! The moment you come to know
death you will encounter life – eternal. Death is the door
from the superfluous life on the circumference. When
you pass through this door you enter the domain of life
that you have never known. A dimensionless domain of
eternity! A dimensionless domain of deeper, eternal,
deathless life! From the life on the circumference, which
is nothing but death, you pass through the door of death.
Then you experience a life that is existential and eternal
but without death.

Both death and Desirelessness are synonymous. When

through Maraqba you attain to the state of
Desirelessness you have in fact tasted death. This is the
death of all that is finite. This is fana as well.
Desirelessness is immortality.

To reach the domain of immortality you have to pass

through the door consciously. We die many times but
only unconsciously. You consider death as something
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inauspicious and ugly. You die most of the time, in a

state of sleep or while unconscious. You are so afraid of
death that the moment death approaches you become
afraid and unconscious. When you die in this state, you
are re-born. The whole process repeats itself. And, thus,
continues the saga of the journey of the being. But you
are not concerned with death.

Once you are ready to experience death rather than life,

then you can pass through the door of death consciously.
This is what Maraqba is. Maraqba implies to pass
through the door of death consciously. To die
consciously is Maraqba. However, you cannot wait for
death, because death happens every moment. And the
door is not somewhere outside. Also, it is not a normal
door that you know. The door is inside you. It is right
there now.

What is necessary for this is to accept the very act of

death. Once you have accepted death, feel it every
moment, live it, and be aware of it. Then suddenly the
door opens. And through this door you begin to glimpse
the life eternal. It is only through death you can
experience eternity. It can be said that meditation is
conscious death, a voluntary death. This is just a process
of deepening within or drowning within. You are no
more on the surface, instead you are moving deeper into
your being. By Death is meant moving away from the
surface. Moving away from the life of desires!

Desirelessness is Maraqba. This is death. A conscious

death!
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From times immemorial this blossoming of flowers in

the garden of the existence has been happening and
shall continue erelong.

Jesus, Mohammed, Buddha, Pythagoras, Heraclitus,

Bodhidharma, Mahabir, Lau Tzu, Chung Tzu, Krishna,
Rama, Raman, Ram Krishna, Vivekanand, Nanak, Kabir,
Mira, Rabia, Mira, Osho, Shah Bahauddin, Al Hilaj
Mansoor, Bayzid Bistami, Sheikh Ahmad Al Farooqui,
Sheikh Baqui Billah, Sheikh Abdul Qadir Jillani, Sufi,
Ram Chandra, Sufi Raghuber Dayal, Sufi Brij Mohan Lal,
Milerapa, Rumi, Kabir, Guru Gobind Singh are just to
name a few.

LOOK AT THESE LILLIES. THEY ARE FAR MORE

BEAUTIFUL THAN SOLOMON IN HIS MOST PRECIOUS
ATTIRE.

THUS CAME THUS GONE THESE FLOWERS. IN THEIR

BLOSSOMING EXISTENCE CELEBRATED ITS FRUITION.
AND IN THEIR WITHERING NAY DISSOLUTION TOO
EXISTENCE CELEBRATED.

THE FLOWER THAT HAS BLOSSOMED ONE DAY

DISSOLVED INTO TOTALITY LEAVING ITS BEAUTY,
FRAGRANCE, SERENITY, LOVE AND AWARENESS INTO
COSMOS.

JUST AS A SEED BLOSSOMS ONE DAY INTO MYRIAD

FLOWERS! THUS CELEBRATES LIFE. AND THEN ONE DAY
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DISAPPEARS IN THE UNKNOWN OBLIVION! IN THAT

TOO IT GIVES BIRTH TO MYRIADS OF NEW SEEDS. THUS

CONTINUES THE PROCESS OF TRANSFORMATION AND

THE BIRTH OF THE NEW MAN!

SUCH HAS BEEN THE LIFE OF EACH ONE OF THESE

FLOWERS.

OSHO:

Many years ago when Dr Amrito asked Osho how would

you like to celebrate your death? An Elightened Osho
responded – ‘take me to Buddha hall for tem minutes!
And from there take me straight to the burning Ghat for
cremation!’

Introspect, these words. Can any ordinary person say

such words? No! Not at all! Only a Buddha! The
enlightened one can really say so. Such is Osho!

What really overwhelms me is the tremendous

awareness in this statement. One thing is certain! Noone
takes the living one for cremation.

If it be so then at what precise moment did osho leave

the finite existence? Of course he did not leave before he
came to the Buddha hall. Also he did

Not leave during the ten minutes when he was in the

Buddha hall. Then when did he leave. First Osho gave
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the living message of a Buddha. And coming to the end of

the ten minute period he allowed his being to dissolve
into the entire cosmos, it is at this precise moment Osho
leave the world. The purpose of life is fulfilled. The
flower has now dissolved into the vastness of the
existence.

Only an enlightened one can really live life like this. And
when life is lived like this then death becomes a
celebration.

RAM KRISHNA:

A being of tremendous awakening he had liking for a

particular dish. During the meditation sessions he will
run inside to the kitchen to enquire of the menu for the
day. This was quite embarrassing for everyone.

At this Sharda said, ‘Your this behaviour and the desire

for food is quite embarrassing for even your disciples.
You cannot resist that you have to come to the kitchen
even during the meditation or prayer sessions.’

Hearing this awakened or enlightened Ram Krishna

said, ‘There is nothing that can hold me to this life. I
have crossed all obstacles. My work on this earth is not
over as yet. As a result I had to create a conscious desire
so that I can stay on earth until my work is over. The day
I turn my face from the food remember three day after
that I will be no more alive.’
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Everyone thought this as another excuse of the master.

But no one could tune in to his awareness or his inner
state of awakening.

It happened. Ram Krishna was suffering from throat

cancer. He was resting on the bed. Sharda brought the
platter of food for him and said that she had prepared
his favourite dish. Awakened Ram Krishna looked at
Sharda as if to remind her of something and then turned
his face away from the food to the other side. Hearing
this Sharda remembered the words many years ago,
‘The day I turn my face away from food three days after
that I will not be alive.’ The platter slipped from the
hands of Sharda.

Exactly three day after that Ram Krishna entered

Samadhi.

Introspect on this. Life was celebration and death too a

celebration for Ram Krishna.

MILEREPA:

Milerepa is a Tibetan master. He lived in a temple. He

was on his death bed. His disciples were surrounding
him. Sound of Om continued to echo inside the room.
Everyone realized that no one was creating this sound
and yet still this sound was in the room. Anxiously each
looked for the source of this echo but could not find.
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Then someone put his easy of one part of Milerapa it was

confirmed that the sound was coming from each cell of
his body.

This is celebration of death that a master can give a

taste.

AL HILLAJ MANSOOR:

He used to go on the public places and declare ‘ANAAL

HAQ’ – I am the light, I am the truth. This is blasphemy
according to Islamic tradition. Only Holy Prophet Peace
be upon Him is Anaal haq.

Even his master Junnaid had the courage to say this.

Junnaid used to tell Hillaj not to say such things although
he knows this to be true. At this Hillaj would say what he
can do if Allah wants him to declare.

Hillaj was caught and killed. People would ask hil what
is ultimate. Hillaj invited him to come next day to the
place of execution. Hillaj’s limbs were being cut but he
kept on laughing and the sound ‘Anaal Haq’ continued to
echo.

BUDDHA:

Someone asked where you will go after you die. Buddha

took a candle lit it. As the candle was lit the light spread
and then suddenly Buddha put off the flame.
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Then addressing the commune Buddha asked one

moment ago the candle was lit and then suddenly the
flame was out. From where the light came and where it
did disappeared.

The light came from nowhere and disappeared in the

vastness of ‘NOWHERE’.

THUS CAME THUS GONE. ‘TATHAGATA’

Buddha is said to have told Anand that he is now going

to enter the existence MAHAPARI NIRVANA or simply
death.

As was about to enter a man named ‘SUBHADRA’ came

running. He wanted to meet Buddha. Many a times he
wanted to come but the world and its affairs kept him
away. He was stopped by Anand that Buddha has gone to
enter MahaPari Nirvana. This is the last moment of his
life.

Buddha heard this. So he asked Anand to allow the

person to come in. Also he said something very
significant. Buddha said, ‘I do not want the humanity to
know that Buddha was alive and he refused to meet
someone.’

Such was the awareness of Buddha.

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SUFI NAQSHBANDI RAMCHANDRA

On August 14, 1931 when he entered Mahasamadhi he

went on explaining that life force or rooh has now left a
particular part of the body. He continued to explain this
until the life force reached the vocal cord. After that no
more explanation as the voice ceased. And all those who
were present in the room experienced witness a bight
lighted ball came out of his mount and disappeared inn
the unknown filling the entire room with its
incandescence for a moment.

Ordinary human beings cannot witness the dissolution

of a master. The room had only a few enlightened ones.

SUFI NAQSHBANI RAGHUBER DAYAL:

June 7th 1947 it was afternoon enlightened sheikh had

his afternoon snack. Thereafter purposely he send
everyone away for one reason or the other. He was all
alone. Then he sat in meditation and consciously
allowed the life force to release the finite realm of the
body.

Thus the sheikh entered Samadhi. A conscious

dissolution!

SUFI NAQSHBANDI BRIJ MOHAN LAL

Sheikh Brij Mohan Lal exhibited this awareness

throughout life. When life is full of such awareness death
becomes a benediction, a celebration. Such a life living
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and even death becomes a song, a dance, and a

celebration.

After the marriage of his daughter Gyatri to Sufi

Lakshmi Sahai (the coauthor in this book) sheikh was
completely detached from life. It appeared as if he was
waiting for the final moment of dissolution. Journeying
along the ocean of life nourishing and nurturing all
those who came in his company the life of Sheikh Brij
Mohan Lal continued.

Then came the January 6th 1955 when the Sufi Master
set for the final journey full of awareness and
understanding that time has now come for the final
transcendence and dissolution into the vastness of the
existence. His program for journey to Mumbai (Bombay
then) began. Along the journey many came to seek his
blessings. To everyone he gave the hint for the final
journey. At the same time he veiled the cognition of all
those who visited him en-route. Such things are kept a
secret from ordinary human consciousness. Ordinary
human consciousness has not yet transcended beyond
his life and death. First the aspirant has to transcend
beyond individual life and death. And then he goes
beyond the cosmic dissolution and evolution. Or simply
cosmic life and death! Only an individual who has
experienced cosmic life and death in the moments of
solitude can really witness soul’s journey to the life
beyond. And such secrets can only be revealed to such a
person.
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I had experienced this when during my visit to India I

met my uncle Sufi Master Sufi Onkar Nath. During this
meeting a hint was given that this is our last meeting.
But I could not reveal this to anyone. When such secrets
are revealed you are plunged in the ocean of bliss and
serenity full of gratitude.

A master is not body. The body must undergo its

metamorphosis. But the Rooh is ever indestructible.
Rooh is the incarnation of the whole or Allah as Noor
within the finiteness of the body. Sheikh’s program for
the return journey was not published in the monthly
magazine. And no one could notice this. It was only after
the demise that it was noticed that the Sufi did not allow
his return program be published. When someone is no
more how could he plan anything then?

His return journey was to be planned by others. This is

the reason it was not published. On January 17th, 1955
he reached the city of Mumbai early in the morning. And
in the evening congregation amidst disciple his
discourse had the message of forgiveness. He spoke of
‘forgiveness’ in the light of a Hindu Scripture – Ram
Charit Manas.

The talk centered the understanding of the one who is

beyond narrowness. Generally it is not easy for anyone
to forget and forgive. We seem to forgive only on the
surface and deep down the seed of forgiveness never
grows in the barren soil.
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The story narrates the fierce battle between the demon

king Ravana and Ram was over as Ravana was slain.
Now, Ravana is no more. And with this all enmity also
vanished. But such is not the case. We continue to
nourish and nurture the seeds of acrimony even after
the person is no more. Thus you continue to live in the
graveyards of the putrefied emotions. Ravana’s dead
body lay in the battlefield. He is still counting for the
final journey of the Rooh or the soul. Rama went close
by. And in a flash the soul of Ravana dissolved in the
vastness of Rama. As this happened the soul or Rooh of
Sheikh Brij Mohan Lal left the finite existence to merge
in Totality! Fruition happened. Totality merged into
totality.

KABIR:

Kabir moved from Banaras a place where he lived all his

life to nearby place that was considered as profane.
People come from all quarters to die I Banaras and
Kabir moved from such a holy city to a profane place for
the last days of his life.

Kabir died in Maghar a place nearly 13 miles from

Banaras. After his death there was quarrel among his
Hindu and Muslim disciples over his funeral. Each
wanted the funeral his way. It was found the next day
when the crowd gathered still undecided about the
funeral. And when the sheet covering the body was
removed the body of Kabir had disappeared and instead
the remains of the body were remains of mortal body.
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I can go on and on about other masters as well.

Just as a master lived, celebrating, singing and dancing

each finite moment! So should he die singing, dancing
and celebrating as the river of life merges in the
vastness of the ocean of existence…Total Acceptance!
This is fana or dissolution.

Total acceptance… total welcome…with a spirit of deep

gratitude… a deep let go…. just total gratefulness for the
life…The Whole!

A master knows very well his journey on this earth in

this form is now complete...there is no returning …no
more lives…

Now he is no longer confined to this space …he is beyond

the body…he is beyond the mind…he is beyond time…
Now he will become available to many more. At this
moment, all those around should be in deep silence with
the master everything is for a period…everything has its
time….

Seasons come…seasons go… The sun rises in the

morning and sets in the evening…life keeps on moving…
Once I was a child…in my mother’s arm...helpless…then
my body grew older.., One day, it would be time for me
to be in the arms of existence… We are here but for a
time…nothing really is ours to keep…there should be no
“ this is mine…and that is mine ”
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Whatever is given…welcome it…use it…enjoy it… but

always with the remembrance that it is a gift…

We have been given the gift of life through this body...

welcome it…use it…enjoy it…give reverence and thanks
for this gift…

Enjoy this gift of life…celebrate this gift of life…Live life

in its totality…but always with the remembrance that
this life is a gift…

Therefore, we should not be possessive of this body…it

was a gift…a gift given to us by the existence and one
day this gift …the gift of this body will be no more…I

It will be a time to let it go… There is a commonly used

statement…” let go and let God”… Nothings last
forever….everything passes…the joys...the sorrow.. A
lover was once there…now he is gone…an accidental
meeting…now it is time for a separation…a time to let go
A child was born…now he has died…a time to let go…

Be a witness…be aware…the emotions and feelings in

this life do not last forever…in the morning you were
happy, now in the evening you have become sad…just be
a witness…knowing that all this shall pass…

When sadness comes your way…release the tears…no

need for fear…

Just with the remembrance that this too shall pass…

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BE AWARE. LIVE YOUR LIFE IN TOTAL CELEBRATION. A

LIFE OF CELEBRATION WILL UNFOLD PAGES FROM THE
SCRIPTURE OF THE BEING.

ONLY THIS MUCH FOR NOW!